tenderlyrenjun

[tenderlyrenjun]

blocking the people who come into my inbox with "schizo" "chink" "kill yourself" comments and finding out that their (inactive) blogs are filled with "if you see someone suicidal, follow these steps" is really ... like wow. You guys are so performative.

You're not going to make a change in the world because you all uphold the same supremacist ideals that keep you satiated with an undeserved superiority complex. You're actually so triggered by something so small because you're stupid, in the simplest form of the word. You literally are not ignorant; you choose to be stupid, which is honestly so sad.

Are you mad that I have something that you don't? Are you mad that I have expendable money to go see kpop artists 5 times in one week? Are you mad that I'm in grad school while you have a reading comprehension lower than a middle schooler? Are you mad that you don't have the same hierarchical power as a 16 year old because they said you're too old for that space now?

Likeeeeeee, aurkay lol.

I do hate you. I do wish bad things would happen to you. I'm saying a quick 10 second manifestation that your lives get worse because I hate you and I'm vindictive ♡

I'm not going to call you self centered. I'm just going to call you selfish and stupid. Because, while I'm out quite literally getting awards, not working, spending money, and traveling, you're waiting for me to turn on anon or open my inbox so you can purposefully say an ableist or racist slur to someone who you already told to stop writing.

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French ppl DNI is soooo funny I wish I had that irl I had an internship where there was mad French people :/

you should get it printed on a shirt lol

French culture is undeservingly pretentious and can be boiled down to ethnocentric and selfish. Any time I see a French thing like food, adopted French words into American English, or politics, I kinda just side eye it, like waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I sincerely hope that you don't have to deal with French people anymore lol, but if you do ... good luck. Most europeans are so insufferable, and they have a one sided beef with the rest of the world now that it's against the ICC (allegedly) to colonize places or to penalize impoverished people in order to cut off resources to the countries they colonize lol

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oh my godddddd

if you're French or English especially, I hate you on principleeeee. You're irritating as fuckkk and being racist in my inbox doesn't make me like you any more (because if you're being racist to me, an Asian person btw, a Korean person btw, then why are you here, on a kpop blog??). I hate you guys almost as much as I hate Spaiinnnnnn.

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irish people would hate ur ass too tho, u think they’re not racist up there bc they were oppressed by the englishmen?

are you french by chance? English even?

your anti-Irish sentiment will not phase me!! I recognize a government man when I see one

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https://www.tumblr.com/tenderlyrenjun/753693164525830144/the-ff-community-on-tumblr-is-so-weird-there?source=share

OMG LETS TALK ABOUT THIS that’s one thing in fics in general that sometimes annoys me, where a girl is made out to be the villain just to make the mc look better and she always has to be a bitch like why cant someone who crushes on the member just be civil 😓 it’s always “oh she is a home wrecker and trying to steal mc’s man” like okay i get wanting to add drama but idk it’s been so overdone, i just think we can change that narrative to “she is also interested in the member which makes mc feel threatened, BUT she is not a bitch and IN FACT a girl’s girl who wouldn’t mind giving up on the member because she can tell they’re not into her” idk i feel like that’s one of my fic icks if that’s a thing lol but that’s just my opinion

right!!

because why is the mmc even entertaining the bitchy antagonist in the first place? it’s not sunshine and rainbows after he breaks up with the antagonist. there’s some underlying trauma, like “will the fmc berate me for buying her silver jewellery instead of gold?” “will the fmc blow up on a waitress (also a girl!!) for looking at me ‘too long’?”

and then there’s the whole … well, technically, the mmc is having an emotional affair with the fmc thing, because he is Not Talking to his actual girlfriend about his feelings, and he is actively falling for the fmc.

and then, not to pin this all on the mmc, but the fmc starts to give “I will make fun of my ‘best friend’’s insecurities in front of a man to make myself look better”.

like, we can have a love line where the mmc is in a relationship (or talking stage or whatever) with another girl, but the fmc doesn’t have to be an equal bitch or bad guy!! what happened to the story focusing on the sad parts? like, instead of focusing on how much the f-antagonist is … well … a bitch, to everyone else and the mmc, wouldn’t it be more angsty to focus on how insecure the reader feels comparing themself to someone the mmc chose? it’s a fine line to walk - trying not to portray the reader as a deprecating pick me, but it is completely normal and worth exploring something like “of course, mmc chose someone who is beautiful and funny and met him first”, like getting caught up in the what-ifs and sitting in a kind-of depressive inaction. And that is more girl’s girl, like “ugh, she’s gorgeous. I get why he chose her, but god, I wish that were me. And now I have to take a step back from this relationship, barely even a friendship, for my sake” and then the mmc goes “huh, that’s weird fmc isn’t here.” Or the mmc breaks up with his girlfriend months later or falls out of love, or it was just a couple dates, and then bam, they meet up again.

idk, I don’t mind the reader being a bitch, like, in time out, the reader (I hope) comes across as a pretentious rich kid who has only struggled as an ice skater/forced ice dancer, but when the reader is a misogynist bitch; it’s just like … why?

and then when she’s not threatened by pretty girls who happen to be lesbians or in a wlw relationship, then that’s just homophobic and another explanation lol

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i’m so sorry people were being so mean!! you’re a great writer and they’re just haters, i’m glad you’re gonna come back!

thank you!!

I was just also having, like, a really really rough time a year ago, so for people to constantly tell me that what I’m writing (literally just my experiences feeling alone and trapped in my situation but rewritten for the purposes of romance stories) sucked, I was feeling really bad about myself and my life, and, like, everytime that I said that, people would call me crazy. I’m in a better place now like physically and stuff, so I think that I can handle it now ^^. If not, then I can always just remove myself from the situation completely.

As for fics, I just have to sit down and actually finish them in order to post them, but i have like three mostly done!

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like, my favorite thing about all the hate comments was that I deserved it for being a bad writer and for telling people that I don’t want criticism even though I want feedback. Like, I don’t necessarily want “real” feedback. I just wanted to talk about my fics, but people kept telling me all the damn time that no one owes me anything and that it was a “privilege” for people to even open my fics.

anyways. Thank you!!

hopefully, everyone has, like, matured or, like, shut the fuck up (the latter is my favorite), so I’m hopeful for the summer

tenderlyrenjun coming back

(super tentative)

The last time I was on here and actually posting, I kept getting a severe amount of unjustified criticism.

At the time, and I literally said this, I was completing my third bachelor’s degree in literally one year because my dad told me not to be lazy during my break from school. I had literally been in school from age 2 until age 22, when I graduated with my first and second bachelor’s degrees. Fast forward one year, I get accepted into medical school, which is the one thing I do not want most in this world. I am still in medical school to this day, because, at the time, when everyone was calling me bipolar and crazy and untalented and stupid, my dad kicked me out of the house for MENTIONING that I don’t want to go to medical school, despite being IN the MD/PhD programme between TWO universities. So, my dad kicked me out of his house; I had no money until my trust fund kicked in later; and I am being forced to undergo a medical degree just to not be ostracized by my

Everyone kept telling me “you’re a bad writer and should stop writing”, “you’re xenophobic to Europeans”, “this is my favourite tv show (me constantly having breakdowns from people telling me that I suck at this)”.

Someone literally rated my fic a 2/5 (BTW, DON’T FUCKING RATE FICS), which sparked several people to tell me that I am a bad writer, I don’t know how to take “valid” criticism, my English is bad, stop writing cause I’ll never get better, I’m being dramatic for all the “valid” criticism, and more.

I’m still writing because that’s literally the only thing that I can do in my very rare free time that keeps me sane, and I want to post again, but I will delete my account off the face of the internet again, if this keeps happening.

It happened while I was in undergrad - everyone gaslit me into thinking that I don’t deserve feedback, I don’t deserve writer mutuals, I don’t deserve to interact or post my fics because “no one owes me anything”.

It happened while I was having the worst mental breakdown of my life - everyone gaslit me into thinking that I was only receiving valid criticisms and that I was crazy for defending myself against the “bad writing” hate, because yes, it was hate.

I will just stop overall again, and delete everything, and literally never comeback.

You wonder why your favorite writers are leaving? You wonder why there are so few fics to even read?

I am going to start being even worse and so much more mean if people run up my inbox with hate comments again.

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tenderlyrenjun coming back

(super tentative)

The last time I was on here and actually posting, I kept getting a severe amount of unjustified criticism.

At the time, and I literally said this, I was completing my third bachelor’s degree in literally one year because my dad told me not to be lazy during my break from school. I had literally been in school from age 2 until age 22, when I graduated with my first and second bachelor’s degrees. Fast forward one year, I get accepted into medical school, which is the one thing I do not want most in this world. I am still in medical school to this day, because, at the time, when everyone was calling me bipolar and crazy and untalented and stupid, my dad kicked me out of the house for MENTIONING that I don’t want to go to medical school, despite being IN the MD/PhD programme between TWO universities. So, my dad kicked me out of his house; I had no money until my trust fund kicked in later; and I am being forced to undergo a medical degree just to not be ostracized by my

Everyone kept telling me “you’re a bad writer and should stop writing”, “you’re xenophobic to Europeans”, “this is my favourite tv show (me constantly having breakdowns from people telling me that I suck at this)”.

Someone literally rated my fic a 2/5 (BTW, DON’T FUCKING RATE FICS), which sparked several people to tell me that I am a bad writer, I don’t know how to take “valid” criticism, my English is bad, stop writing cause I’ll never get better, I’m being dramatic for all the “valid” criticism, and more.

I’m still writing because that’s literally the only thing that I can do in my very rare free time that keeps me sane, and I want to post again, but I will delete my account off the face of the internet again, if this keeps happening.

It happened while I was in undergrad - everyone gaslit me into thinking that I don’t deserve feedback, I don’t deserve writer mutuals, I don’t deserve to interact or post my fics because “no one owes me anything”.

It happened while I was having the worst mental breakdown of my life - everyone gaslit me into thinking that I was only receiving valid criticisms and that I was crazy for defending myself against the “bad writing” hate, because yes, it was hate.

I will just stop overall again, and delete everything, and literally never comeback.

You wonder why your favorite writers are leaving? You wonder why there are so few fics to even read?

I am going to start being even worse and so much more mean if people run up my inbox with hate comments again.

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I am extremely serious. I am not lax about this at all.

If you are an empty or inactive blog for more 10 months, if your age is not visible, you’re getting blocked and reported.

this is a PERSONAL blog. it is not a professional writing account. I am not asking for criticism. I literally just want to talk about my fics and kpop.

minors do not interact at all. age must be visible to interact with fics.

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the ff community on tumblr is so ……. weird. there can’t be any girls except y/n unless she’s (1) an extreme bitch meant to make y/n look comparatively better or (2) a lesbian, like 1980s level stereotypical femme lesbian

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“you’re so xenophobic”

and it’s just me, a WOC, hating non-Irish Europeans and White people.

My anons are fucking insane. The minute something isn’t catered to a neurotypical, heterosexual, white person, everything is suddenly bad. Individualism is rooted in eurocentricism, and it’s the reason why we’re leaving a sense of community. I do hate White people, and I guess that I don’t say it often enough!! I fucking hate White people.

“Oh, don’t generalize all Europeans as bad. Don’t generalize all White people as bad. Some of us are good.” Go fuck yourself. You know exactly what I mean, what people of color mean, when we say “fuck White people”. It literally means fuck the systemic racism that makes it okay for you to be praised for being a prosocial person. I can’t believe that I have to say this again and again. I hate White people!!

White people who know that systemic inequalities bleed into everything, and I mean everything, from basic social interactions to politics, do not get offended by “White peoples suck”; actually, their whiteness isn’t fragile enough to be shaken by that because they are advocates, which, again, is the bare fucking minimum.

God, you guys are exhausting. I have to deal with White people in my classes debating about whether Asian people should even have the right to be tested for illnesses that are common amongst their ethnicities. I have to deal with White men saying that feminism doesn’t belong in medicine. I have to deal with White people telling me to “go back to my country if you’re so unhappy here” anytime I’m at a protest or carrying out my very limited political power. And then I have to come on here to see “you’re so xenophobic to Europeans”, and for what? Because I hate Europeans? I hate that I have to read real-time studies from the last 10 year about how hostile European racism is? Go fuck yourselves!! Leave my inbox alone. I hate White people and all the systemic bullshit that I have to deal with on a daily basis, even more so when you all want to be praised for enjoying kpop because it makes you seem so “cultured” when, in fact, you’re perpetuating the East Asian stereotype and fetishizing East Asian people.

If you’re European and you don’t see the systemic bullshit that that continent has imposed on the rest of the world and normalized within itself to the point that it is unsafe to even talk about it, then fuck off!! Go fuck yourself!!

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ncttrinities drabble list

rules | fic m.list | fluff, smut/suggestive, angst

7dream

comforting

insecurities/jealousy

00 line sex toys

00 line picking up girls at the gym

jensung threesome

Mark Lee

golden hour

Renjun

Kinktober: anal

Jisung

arguing

personal trainer

playing video games

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Everything is always about you you you 😒 you don’t actually want to talk about your fics you just want to talk about yourself and THATS why no one likes you

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I wish you wrote fics the same way you rant about readers :/ I don’t feel anything in your writing

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okayyyyyy. the people who asked me to open anon asks so they could talk about my fics without exposing their blogs, you’re liars and I hate you. no more anon asks. if you ask again, (1) I’m kms, (2) it’ll be open for 30 minutes, and (3) I’m going to hope every anon is having a bad fucking day.

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boo! you’re a bad writer 🤣🤣🤣 and your fics suck ass 🤣🤣 did I scare you? annoying ass 🙄

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girl stop answering anon hate it’s asking for more 💀

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