#I still wasn’t prepared
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i am clutching at my life alert rn i am not even remotely okay at this time
#i’ve fallen and i can’t get up#i knew it would take me out but#i still wasn’t prepared#pedro pascal#paul mescal#gladiator 2
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#I don’t watch a lot of dark things anymore#i used to be into darker shows before having kids#tlou is the heaviest thing I’ve seen in a good long while and it’s absolutely amazing but it’s also destroying me emotionally#I’m kinda glad there’s only one episode left of the season#tonight’s episode was extremely jarring even though I had had a bit of a spoiler for the end#I still wasn’t prepared#tonight was the first time I looked at Ellie and saw my daughters faces
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Obi-Wan so politely asking Qui-Gon’s force ghost for help when he realizes Anakin is Darth Vader, meanwhile I’d be banging a damn gong like Mushu “Rise and shine, asshole! You told me to take this kid and now the galaxy’s imploding. COME FIX IT!”
#I know I’m behind shut up#I got emotional#I literally couldn’t finish it when it came out cause I wasn’t emotionally prepared to see Ewan and Hayden again#I’m still not ready but it’s been two years so#it’s time#qui gon jinn#obi wan kenobi#star wars#anakin skywalker#darth vader#ewan and hayden
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What if: Steve and Bucky’s story but theyre from Ancient Greece
Does this exist?
#bucky barnes#steve rogers#stucky#ancient greece#I just had a dream that Achilles woke up in the future while a history exhibit was being prepared of him#and idk he woke up and all these professionals were walking on eggshells around him when they realized that he was still alive#knowing that he would very likely go insane once he realized that Patroclus wasn’t there#he did in fact go crazy#but at the end of the dream somehow Patroclus was alive too#and they were crying#strong captain America vibes is all I’m saying#and what if it were kind of reversed#in which Steve and Bucky grew up in Ancient Greece#Trojan war or not#and still wake up in the 21st century with their legends already made and known#idk it could be fun if it doesn’t already exist#captain america#achilles#patroclus#achilles and patroclus#patrochilles
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It’s not that Jason came back to a changed family where he didn’t fit into the gap he left behind anymore. It’s the fact that his family never scooted over to make more space for him once he returned.
#jason todd#jason todd meta#<- mini and tagging because I can <3#going insane over Jason being fine with changing but never expected that the others around him wouldn’t acknowledge change#like Jason was alive before anyone else knew. he knew he was different. he was around for those years before he returned to Gotham#Bruce—and others—thought hw was still underground#Jason had years to adjust to himself (no matter how well he did or didn’t) while the others had to play catch up#Jason wasn’t trying to squeeze himself back into the dynamic that once was#but he didn’t expected to be shoved back into that space and then denied more by others#jason fully preparing for one obvious outcome unaware that theirs another hiding in plain sight is murdering me#I was going to add caveats but I’m going to try to trust others to acknowledge long term relationships and not just focus on pre-flashpoint#returned as in both to Gotham and as a ‘prodigal son’ <-you all know how I feel about that :/
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i am just being picky here but i feel like i keep seeing a reticence to create new things, not just in the fact that most npcs are cameos and the fact that a lot of the worldbuilding we know is just getting reframed, but also in the little things.
i think about it every time i look at the lighthouse monuments. “the warrior: a paragon who was the first woman in the warrior caste” and no one came up with a name?? same with the book bellara’s writing where the main character is just called “the hero.” idk man, i like getting details for shit that doesn’t matter
#i know the stuff from books and comics is technically New in that it wasnt in the last game but it also wasn’t invented here#the whole thing feels like it’s just trying to be referential because fans like when they see thing they like already#but this game mostly feels like it’s giving closure on inquisition and recycling the things we already had on the table#like they forgot they were the ones who have the ability to add new things#just odd for the fourth installment in the series to only be a direct sequel to the third#when the first three games had connective thread but were new stories#it feels like a fanfiction yknow? a little bit?#this may again also just be a result of. ive been keeping up with some of the things that have come out in preparation for the game#and that was them setting the table#im just also like. i haven’t read the newer comics. how much of that is also in here without me noticing#i dont even object to the idea of them reframing the worldbuilding. i think some of it is kinda cool#they just also havent followed through. we’ve met anaris and i still don’t understand what the forgotten ones’deal is#i still dont understand what the significance of an old god soul is. if it’s just a big dragon#(i guess MAYBE it could be the shard of the elf who enthralled it and thats how they exerted control??)#mine#datv liveblog#datv spoilers
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TOGETHER??!! Fuck Jonny Sims and Alex Newall specifically 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
#I’m simply unable to manage#my heart#how fucking dare you#I love you??!!#AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#tma#tma podcast#the magnus archives#jonathan sims#martin blackwood#I’m SOBBING#you don’t understand#I knew it was gonna happen yet I still wasn’t prepared#text post
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Was able to fulfill my nerdy kpop dreams of actually seeing NCT Dream on tour!!!!! The Chicago show was amazing despite being the last show of the US tour. I hope the guys are able to get some rest now that the tour is over!!!
#pirate speaks#i’m still not over it#like it was my first kpop show at a LARGE venue#I wasn’t prepared for all our light sticks to sync up to the performance#it was like kpop Disney land for a second ngl#nct dream#kpop#kpop concerts#Kpop tours#nct dream tour#nct#nct 127#nct u#nct wish#wayv
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I may throw up. I can’t believe I’m having this much of a physical reaction but 16 fucking years??? I may cry about it actually I can’t believe it
#I’m literally just sitting and smiling like I’m still in disbelief#I’ve been anticipating it and I still wasn’t prepared#I think cause I gaslit myself into thinking it would take all season#this is cringe I know but I WAITED SIXTEEN YEARS FOR THIS OKAY#icarly spoilers#icarly#creddie#carly x freddie
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starting to think maybe waking up with an anxiety stomachache every single morning and then needing to spend the entire day trying to get rid of said anxiety just to maybe have a few minutes in the evening of feeling relaxed before going to bed is perhaps not normal
#the first thing i do when i become conscious is check my phone to make sure nothing terrible happened to anyone i love while i slept#i never ever ever have plans and if anyone Else has plans i feel sick with anxiety until they’re back from them#if i have smth planned that week i feel completely tense and on edge until it happens#i didn’t used to be like this i hate hate hate it#i used to feel safe in my little house in the forest where i knew everyone in town and knew my way around with my eyes shut#it’s still the only place in the world i feel safe. that’s so unfair#my separation anxiety is ridiculous. if my mom goes to the store and doesn’t answer a text right away i start panicking#if my sister goes to a class or smth idk what to do with myself until she gets back#if i’m in the shower or have the fan on or headphones in suddenly i’ll think i hear someone shouting and i’ll have to quickly turn it off#ever since i moved here it’s been getting worse. i don’t feel safe here to begin with i feel so out of place it’s unreal#but then covid and trauma with my mother’s health and my uncle dying and multiple relatives getting sick and things happening to my friends#i know i have ptsd from very specific things that happened and i live on a hospital path so every day i hear sirens#and every time i do it fully triggers an anxiety attack in me for at least an hour. and my mom too#since being here my hometown burned and friends i thought would never grow apart did and my brother moved out#i know a lot of that is just Being In Your Low Twenties but also some of my worst trauma has happened in the last handful of years and now#now i’m just always scared. always uneasy. always worried. never fully relaxed. never feel fully safe. & idk how to be myself through that#i’m always paranoid and i never trust people irl anymore. ppl my mom or sister meet. i am so suspicious of them constantly.#if anything small changes at all i can’t handle it. my ability to deal with change has gone so downhill#in the last 5 years of being here i realised i was autistic which led to me unmasking a bit and that. comes with pros & cons doesn’t it#my own health has declined. my body changed a lot in ways i wasn’t prepared for and i had to get rid of most of my comfort clothes#sometimes i just wanna sit on the ground and cry about it and not have to also be the one that picks myself back up. y’know???#but at the very least i’d love to just wake up One Day w/o feeling sick with anxiety already. just one day i want to wake up feeling rested#i want to be myself again but can i start with not being scared? not being tired? i don’t know what to do anymore#i just watch my comfort videos and read my comfort fics and stay in my daydream world
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I did so bad on the quiz kinda wanna kms am just sat here with my hand covering my mouth cause wtf was that what am I even supposed to do now
#I’ve literally never gone this badly before wtf#I knew I wasn’t prepared but still wtf#I feel so stupid what the heck
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if all driving was just driving on the highway, then i would be a driver. but alas. there are intersections to be dealt with.
#danbles#i was so surprised to find out that the highway is the scariest part of driving for a lot of ppl#it’s the most relaxing part for me personally. it’s the only time i feel like i can actually drive#i still haven’t rly driven since my car crash last yr and the anniversary is coming up#it wasn’t my fault but it also felt inevitable somehow#maybe that’s the fear talking#i read somewhere that the best way to face your fears is to prepare for it#so i might take classes again. with a priority in defensive driving this time#car crash#<- if anyone needs the blacklist#i always forget to do that
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finished arcane. i’m not well. :(
#like damn. ok.#i wish it went on for a bit longer or had more episodes#it def felt a bit fast paced#still loved it tho. i cried too.#arcane spoilers#also i rly rly wasn’t prepared for the caitvi sex scene. i rly thought ppl were joking when they said that
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A (large, bruised) part of my heart is still in denial, & I can’t say I blame it bc my mind is still in denial too, like it’s just sustained a phantom whiplash injury & is stuck in a loop grieving and trying to forget, because what is there to say? what is there to prove? what is there to express? what is there to share except the tacit, aching understanding from those with in the same boat
#one direction#they used to be scrunched up together in too-small couches#they still had baby fat & the energy/chaos/drama that is only and ONLY found in youth#& now they’re men#they’re men sharply dressed in black suits & arriving/leaving separately from the funeral of their bandmate#nah nooo nope actually i need to drink lol ope#liam payne#rip lima bean :( wasn’t prepared for this day not one bit and wasn’t prepared to be light night struck by 1d &then their departure &now this#idk would it have been better if i had time to mentally prepare? kept looking for someone to tell me it was all a big mistake :(#the grief is astounding it’s immense it’s choking me silently & invisibly ugh#rest in peace liam darling
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how bad is it to say you hate your mother lmao
#x#she has turned into the most inconsiderate selfish person#and I think I mourned who she used to be but now everything she does she makes me angry#she just takes and takes and takes#I never wanted to say this here but she basically took my first car#and she uses shit without a backup plan - it was never for hers to keep#but she just thinks that solves her problem#I worked so hard for it too among many other things#and this move also has just shown how fucking selfish and ungrateful she is#my parents are divorced by my dad still helped move her shit and clean#she had her brother come down to help and she wasn’t even prepared bc nothing was packed even though I told her to start weeks ago#I’m so angry and upset and now they’re telling me they’re back tracking on taking one of the cats so now I’ll have both#and I can’t talk to anyone about it bc no one gets it!!!!!!#this is just one of a few problems tbh there is so much more but I’m done I’m at my wits end with her
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[blushes]
#i wasn’t prepared for this#this is all going so fast#I mean I’m not against it#but still#pokemon violet#pokemon violet dlc#pokemon spoilers#pokemon indigo disk#pokemon dlc#pokemon scarlet and violet#pokemon sv#carmine pokemon#trainer carmine#carmine#pokemon#Pokémon#scarlet and violet
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