#I still have plenty of bad habits and sometimes do still struggle to do those things

[idkhowtopickausername]

It’s wild realizing that day to day tasks actually are easier to do when you’re happier and you have a life that you want to feel clean and prepared and organized for and you’re not just fundamentally a slovenly, selfish person

[brokenpieces-72]

Could I request a Gotham Knights request where r is the youngest knight who struggles with self-confidence and takes a hit for the knights when out on patrol due to this and they go big sibling mode?

Nice to see a request from another fandom. If I misunderstood the wording let me know, but I’m assuming the reader takes a hit for the knight and the knight goes big sibling mode.

Squire

You’re the youngest, the smallest, and the easiest to be tossed around. You have good instincts where it counts but you’re not always sure of yourself. During the day, you struggle with standing up for yourself, because sometimes you think they’re right. It’s started to affect your night life a little, putting doubt in your mind which affects your performance. This behaviour doesn’t go unnoticed.

Barbara notices almost immediately, as you keep returning to the clocktower with more scrapes and bruises. She sees you training plenty, so she knows you can drop some of those goons like a bad habit. You spar with the others too. What was going on?

When the two of you are on patrol you run into some goons and at first Barbara has it taken care of. You get cornered by a couple but you have it mostly in hand. Then you see one trying to flank her. You knocked out the one you were dealing with, and was able to grab Barbara’s attacker. He had a baton of some kind but you don’t get a good look before he hits you, when you get between him and his intended target. The hit is pretty nasty, but not hospital warranted. Once the goons are dealt with, Babs gets you back to the clocktower.

By this point if you don’t tell her what’s going on she was baring you from patrol duty. You don’t say much, and you don’t often say much anyways. As she’s putting the wrappings on your arm and you’re holding an ice pack to your bruised eye you tell her you’re fine. Yeah right, she wasn’t born yesterday. You don’t know what else she wants you to say. What’s been going on lately, during the day. Well, you don’t always feel sure of yourself, because people keep saying you’re not good enough. That you’re not doing enough and still getting away with it. You aren’t meeting their expectations, and that you aren’t setting high enough goals for yourself.

Barbara lets you vent more about it, telling stories of things teachers have said, coworkers putting their tasks on you, and all the while you’re running on little sleep. There was some tears, not really sobs. Babs doesn’t need a super computer or even her glasses to see your lack of confidence.

You stepped in between her and a guy ready to take a hard swing at her, a swing that may have killed her, and you stopped it and took it. But that was just adrenaline surely. No it wasn’t. You have plenty to live for in your life, you know people care about you, and you knew deep down, that you could take the hit. That you could protect people, and the ones you love.

You’re still barred from patrol for a while to heal your injuries, but Babs goes extra sister mode and says that if you need help with any projects or homework, she will help where she can, if only to give you extra reassurance.

Tim doesn’t share the same classes with you, but he notices you in the hallways and… yeah he’s noticed you having teachers and even other students breathing down your neck for a variety of things. He’s stood up for you before, especially with that group project where you did everything, told the teacher you did, and the teacher told you it could’ve been done better. Yeah that ticked him off enough to go to the higher ups of the school. When he sees how you are at night, he can tell that stuff has been bothering you. Hell, he’s had that feeling before.

While you keeping watch, and he was hacking into a computer, a couple of guys were trying to break down the door. Tim was almost done, he just needed a couple more second-fuck! The door got blasted off, and would’ve hit Tim if you hadn’t blocked it with yourself. You have bracers on your arms, so they take most of the damage that door would have done, damn it hurts though. Focus. Take em down, then get out.

Back at the clocktower, Tim thanks you for taking the hit. The impact left some internal bruising, but it would heal in time. You tell him you should have just pulled him away from the computer. He points out, the files they got would have been destroyed instead of retrieved. Still you should have barred the door, or posted up outside the door to keep them from getting in, or- Tim cuts you off. How the hell would you have accounted for that stuff? The mission was a success, you got the files and you kicked butt in the process. If all you do is fixate on what could have been, you’ll have too many ideas running through your head to act when you need to. But what if your first idea totally sucks? Then you learn from it and try again next time.

Tim tells you that you can’t let self-confidence get in the way of a judgement call, especially in a situation like that. Did you take a hard hit? Yes. Did you get the files? Yes! It won’t be easy, but if he’ll help you with your self confidence, and if that means reminding you each time that you’re doing a good job, then so be it. Hell, he’ll text you every day before class.

Dick knows self confidence can be hard, he’s a performer. Grayson also knows what you can do. Big sibling mode is not a thing for him, it’s just default Grayson. During sparring, he notices you’ll try to flee from attacks rather than guard or dodge. It’s one thing to step back, it’s another to scurry away. There’s plenty of times where he’ll have you just plant your feet to remind you it’s only practice, the batons won’t hurt when you have guards on. Soft swing, normal swing, harder swi- you flee again.

Grayson is still concerned when you two go out, investigating a warehouse that had a few thugs. He was ready to drop down on them, but not before asking if you can handle yourself. The question leaves you with plenty of self doubt. He accounted for this ahead of time, knowing you may not be up for it. He reminds you it’s only a couple of thugs for each of you. Yeah, you can do this. No problem. There wasn’t much of a problem either, you plant your feet, and are able to avoid most hits.

Then you hear the sound of something sharp and metal. You look over and Grayson is dealing with a knife now. A skilled knife. You’re stealing glances in between blows, and knife user is giving Grayson a run for his money. Once you have your current thug knocked down you rush over, seeing Grayson get punched in the face hard. The knife comes down on a dazed Grayson but you grab it, shoving it away, so it just gives a cut to shoulder. You take the stumble from your quick intervention, to kick the guy to ground. Once Grayson recovers, he takes the guy down.

A quick call and the police are on their way, while you’re gritting your teeth. Grayson didn’t see it before, but your hands are bleeding from grabbing the knife, as is your shoulder. As soon as the cops can be heard, he has you on the bike, driving to the clock tower, being careful not to make any hard turns since you can’t have on to him very easily.

The alcohol stings and you feel pretty foolish for grabbing the knife by the blade. Thankfully it wasn’t too deep, so stitches weren’t necessary, but bandages were and that also meant no fighting for a while. Once you’re all bandaged up, Grayson asks what’s been going on lately. You kept fleeing and he noticed you flinching quite a bit during the fight. You try to act like nothing is going on, and that his issue was with you grabbing the blade, but he’s persistent. You shrug, cause you don’t know, it was all so unreal sometimes, that you’re a vigilante fighting to protect your home. Yet during the day you couldn’t fight back against the ones who kept trying to take your stuff or told you you weren’t good enough.

You’re plenty good enough. Grayson reminds you of everything you’ve been able to pull off, all the fights you’ve won, all the bad guys you’ve brought to justice, and all of the hard work you’re doing now. You’re kicking ass, so don’t stop just because not everyone knows it. You’re trying not to tear up but Grayson gives you a hug, and yep, now you’re crying. Don’t say sorry, you’re doing great. Want to watch a horrible show that you can both mock and laugh at? You pick, he’ll get snacks.

Jason had been preoccupied with a lead, so he wasn’t paying you much mind. Your shooting was his main concern, since you were his little sniper buddy, dropping bad guys from a safe place. You wanted to get into the full action though. Jason wasn’t sure, but as long as you kept yourself out of the way he would allow it. You feel useless sometimes, only watching from above. You miss criminals which means Jason has to go after them or they get away. There’s also been some criminals who decide to make rude remarks about you being some child.

Jason had his main lead cornered, giving the guy a proper beating as well. You had been down there with him among the shipping crates that covered you from view of any cameras. Jason wasn’t sure if coast was as clear as he wanted, so you went looking for any stragglers. The concerns were warranted as you found a guy perched on one of the crates, taking aim. You don’t know whether the target is the lead or Jason, you don’t care either. Without another thought you run at the guy, not bothering with your own weapon, and shout.

The wrestle for the gunman’s weapon goes poorly. Jason takes notice, but by the time he turns there’s a gunshot, and you fall back, landing hard against the concrete below. Immediately, Jason has his gun out and fires on the gunman who isn’t quick enough to retreat. Once he knocks out the lead he hurries over to your crumpled body. He’s panicked too, thinking you may have just gotten yourself killed. The wound is a graze on your hip, nasty but not fatal. You’re gasping, trying to get air back in your lungs. Jason doesn’t hesitate to get the lower part of your mask off, letting you breathe easier.

Once you’re breathing and he gets something around the wound to soak up the blood, he gets you back to the clocktower. It’s not a fun time. Jason’s bedside manner is lacking. You literally took a bullet for him, all because he let you stay on the ground. He was so stupid. You watch him patch you up, grumbling to himself. Without thinking you apologize. Jason finishes up and gives you a look of, “where did that come from”.

You shouldn’t have overstepped. This lead was important and you just made it more difficult. Not only that you put your at risk, if you had been up on the crates you would’ve been fine. Instead you caused unnecessary risk. Jason sits there listening to you feel ashamed, and then call yourself a “stupid kid” and “childish”. Fucks sake he shouldn’t have to tell you this.

You’re a Robin now, maybe not like the rest of them. Doesn’t change the fact they were all young once and took risks. Everyone starts somewhere, and when you’re the youngest you have plenty of doubts. Confidence isn’t your strongest feature, but honestly he didn’t know many others your age who had the guts to take up a rifle and fight back against all the shit on these streets. If anything he blamed himself for not noticing you were struggling to begin with. You try to deflect blame back on to yourself and he settles for it being neither of your faults.

You’re not going out for a while, not with your injuries. Honestly it’s a miracle you didn’t do more damage. For now, you need to take care of yourself, and remind yourself that you’re more badass than you give yourself credit for. First get some rest, and then tomorrow night you’ll walk around as a civillian, focusing on some self care and he’ll be close by on his patrol. You don’t need to take crazy risks, that’s his job. He’s proud of you though.

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[thus-wrote-mrs-zeppeli]

He’s posing like a dad who fell asleep on the couch so I Had to use it lol I already give up on using nice pics for these

-Various jjba characters x reader: Parenting headcanons-

Content, plz read: Can be interpreted as biological or adopted children, sometimes from a past relationship for reader because otherwise I can’t see some of these guys having kids lol, Not the best parenting techniques sometimes, but I don’t think there’s anything triggering in here (do lemme know if I’m wrong though)

Leone is more of a father figure than an actual father, Established relationships, dating/married depending on the character

I love parenting headcanons, they’re really fun to write

Characters: Rohan Kishibe, Bruno Bucciarati, Leone Abbacchio, Gyro Zeppeli

-Rohan Kishibe: You have to wonder if Rohan would Ever be mature enough to be a father-

Like you expected, it’s an ADJUSTMENT for the manga artist.

It’s not that he dislikes his own kid, in fact he has quite a bit of pride in his progeny, but he’s not the best at interacting with even teenagers and adults, so his kid is especially subject to his difficult social skills. But growing up around Rohan means his kid is used to it.

Rohan is super stubborn and struggles to express more sentimental emotions, but you wonder why he gets so shy about saying especially sweet things to even his own family sometimes. Just something about the vulnerability of it makes him uncomfortable. That’s your best guess, at least.

He is a well-intentioned father. He wants to teach his kid curiosity, that there is always more to learn; and he takes a great deal of pride (and is super smug about it with you) when your kid expresses interest in becoming a manga artist like him.

Rohan teaching his kid that little stretch he does, and they do it together-

It’s so cute-

Though you do have to step in on occasion and prevent Rohan from teaching your kid Every ‘artistic technique’ of his…please Rohan…do NOT teach your kid to lick dead bugs…you can’t believe you actually have to step in sometimes and prevent Rohan from instilling some bad or inconsiderate habits…but then again…you’re married to Rohan Kishibe, and you of all people are aware of what he’s like.

Rohan’s kid often has to deal with people trying to get close to them because of who their dad is. It’s a bit frustrating, and they might get a little unjustly irritated at Rohan for being famous, but they accept that it’s not really Rohan’s fault. They know their dad has no interest in the fame aspect of his art, it’s just a side effect of being a brilliant author.

Rohan and his kid are pretty similar, despite how little they care to admit it, and even their fashion sense is pretty reminiscent of each other. Often times you’ll even hear something like: “Dad…is that my scarf?” or Rohan’s incredulous little: “Hey, hey, hey, wait just a moment, those are MY earrings.”

You wonder if you should interfere in their little arguments, but 99% of the time nothing happens and they move on immediately. 1% of the time and they’re genuinely giving each other the cold shoulder or being passive aggressive and petty for the rest of the day.

Parenting technique wise, Rohan is not so interested in tradition. He’s not really strict or especially firm with any rules, because frankly, it is more convenient to enforce curfews and rules with Heaven’s Door, but you really don’t like when he uses it, so at Most it’s used Sparingly. He’s pretty lax when it comes to his kid’s mannerisms and behavior, but he Does expect a certain measure of respect from his kid, for both of you since you’re the parents.

As for how many kids he’d have, probably none, honestly-

But if he was going to have kids, just one is enough for him. He really doesn’t have the disposition for parenting, one is plenty, but the experience was very valuable to him, and he is proud of the person his kid becomes, even though he’s still not the best at expressing that affection. He does somewhat understand the importance of verbalizing his love for his child, and when he does try to, it comes across a bit awkward and forced but…hearing their dad try to tell them how much he actually cares about them is one of their fonder memories of him.

Rohan’s kid recognizes they had a bit of an unusual childhood due to their eccentric father, who was also often away on solo trips. But the stories their father would tell or put on paper, the ones dedicated just to his family…Those ones are very precious to his kid, and even though Rohan’s kid doesn’t visit that often once they moved out, it works out well enough for the two of them. Rohan usually doesn’t speak too much about your kid but sometimes he mentions how he wishes they’d visit or send a text; a comment of a concerned parent disguised as a complaint, very much like Rohan.

-Bruno Bucciarati: Firm believer in 2 kids for Bruno Bucciarati. A man who could see himself raising children of his own. But. Someday, in the distant future. He has the self-control and foresight to know he cannot take on such a heavy responsibility in his current position. If the two of you wish for children, it will have to be after he’s able to leave the mafia lifestyle far behind him. He cannot bring himself to put his family at risk by staying involved in that sort of thing.

As much as he wants to raise children with you, he knows it’s better to wait til the moment is absolutely right. I could see him having children when he’s well into his thirties, once he’s certain the two of you have the means to give your kids what they need to thrive and his past in the mafia has no chance of catching up to him.

He’s such a loving father, motivated so much by the love he feels for his children, and his desire to give them a happier childhood than he had. On the slightly stricter side, but he is very fair, and will always make an effort to understand where they’re coming from even if he still believes they need correction.

Hearing “we need to talk” from Bruno has some GRAVITY to it, especially with that intense tone he uses when he needs to command respect. He doesn’t usually get upset enough to really raise his voice at his children unless they get themselves in serious danger, and even then the raised voice comes from a place of concern and not genuine anger, but a “I am VERY disappointed in you,” from him with his strict tone has much more weight to it than any amount of superficial yelling he could do. Because usually it means he’s going to be vulnerable with them for a moment, tell them how their actions scared him or disappointed him or angered him…and Bruno is a compassionate but guarded man, even with his own family, so hearing him talk about how he feels immediately turn a conversation with his kid very serious.

He knows communication is something he struggles with, no matter how good his intentions are, so when he does decide to be completely honest and express his emotions, he always reminds them that he acts how he does because he loves them more than anything else in this world. And he’s not just talk either. Growing up with him as their dad, his kids had seen all the ways he protected them and taught them valuable life skills so they could protect and take care of themselves.

He always acts so strong, though you noticed he was trembling a bit the first day of school for his eldest child. He didn’t cry, but he was pretty close to it that day, and he really had to make an effort to distract himself so he didn’t worry too much over them while they were away. He picks them up after school (omg just got hit with a vision of hot dad Bruno turning other parents’ or teachers’ heads while he’s just getting his kid from school lol), and asks them about their day while walking them home.

His children have always appreciated and loved their dad. They know he would always protect them, and save them if they were in danger, and he did his best to put them on the path to become kind people, and have a good education.

His children visit often, probably try to live close to him, too. And he is always delighted when his children decide to visit him and you, they will always have a place in his home and heart, and he considers raising them one of the greatest honors he’s ever had.

-Leone Abbacchio: You had a kid from a past relationship, so you immediately assumed a man like Leone wouldn’t be interested in getting serious with you. The idea really cemented in your mind when he started a casual relationship with you, and established immediately he: “wasn’t gonna play Daddy,” to your brat, no matter WHAT. He was just your on again off again pseudo-boyfriend who would come and go as he pleased, and he preferred it that way.

Cue you begging him just ONE time to babysit for you…your sitter had canceled last minute and he was the only other person you could turn to that you actually trusted with your kid.

He literally looks at you like >:|

You simultaneously can and cannot believe he groans at you and rolls his eyes. But he can’t just watch you beg for help when he knows he (maybe) could handle watching your kid for a few hours. His innate sense of justice makes him feel obligated to agree. But he’ll complain about it afterwards when you’re not running yourself ragged from stress.

He’s not the best with children, because he has no patience. Literally as soon as your kid starts complaining about being hungry or bored he already gets frustrated. He makes an active effort not to speak too harshly but he’s so used to saying and doing whatever he wanted now that he might’ve lost his composure a few times.

When you get home, your kid gestures at you to be quiet, before pointing at the couch. You follow their gaze and see that your damn replacement babysitter had fallen asleep.

“Did you grab him that blanket?” you ask your kid with a slightly disappointed but not surprised look at Leone. Your kid nods, and reports he fell asleep just a few minutes before you got home so it’s fine.

According to your kid’s report, Mr. Abbacchio is a bit scary and loud sometimes but overall was an ok babysitter.

Well…that’s about the best you could’ve hoped for-

But the next day Leone receives an angry call from you asking who taught your kid such atrocious Italian curse words.

It takes a while but…the deeper your relationship with Leone gets, the more he warms up to your kid too.

Eventually it even gets to where he’ll ask: “how’re you holding up, kiddo?”and ruffling their hair when he visits, or bringing a small toy as a gift for them (though he’ll deny going out of his way to get it, always saying he just Happened to come across it or it was on sale or something).

He’ll try to keep his distance though. He doesn’t want your kid even getting the Idea of looking up to a bad man like him. You tell him he shouldn’t worry about things like that, but then he asks you if you really want your kid growing up thinking being a gangster was a great idea.

You don’t respond, because you both know the answer.

-Gyro Zeppeli: (the dad jokes are SO BAD please free his children) The way he was raised and his observance of his dad definitely influences his parenting style. There are a few differences, but his deep respect for his father reflects in his own parenting, even when he didn’t agree with him all the time.

For example, he does not raise his voice to scold his children; it’s not something he’s ever even considered because he doesn’t need to. His tone and his words are enough to get his message across. He’s an affectionate and playful father in his own way, but when he is being serious his kids absolutely know and will smarten up. No feeling worse than when Papà was upset at them, not because he was scary or anything like that when he had to correct them, but because seeing him disappointed in them makes them feel so bad. He seems genuinely sad when they do something seriously wrong, and when he’s really, Really upset he’ll get quieter and more reserved for the rest of the day and dinner is awkward and silent, but before everyone retires for the night he’ll probably try to have a casual, calmer conversation with whichever kid or kids got in trouble, and usually they’re able to talk it out and it ends with him playfully ruffling their hair and reassuring them he could never stay disappointed with them.

The Zeppeli family history is long, and their traditions are intricate and serious. He follows those deeply ingrained ones, since he has a lot of pride in his family name. His eldest’s real name will only be known by him and you, and they’ll be trained as a doctor and an executioner. And he’ll teach them the spin, of course. But he’ll also instill in them a different genre of justice from what his father taught him: If something feels wrong to you, then act on it.

When it comes to the amount of kids, he imagines himself having quite a few, but he’s not really given it much thought. He grew up in a big family, with four younger siblings. That’s five kids in total. His parents handled it fine, so that must be a reasonable amount, right?

He’s genuinely confused when you take him saying he wanted five kids as another of his bad jokes.

Give him a break, he didn’t know that was a lot! He’s happy to just start with one and see how it goes.

He’s known from a young age that as the eldest he’d be carrying on the real legacy of the Zeppelis, so he faces parenting with grace and an impressive amount of acceptance. However, having plans to eventually be a father doesn’t translate into being completely prepared. He’s calmer than you would’ve expected but…you can tell he feels out of his element, despite the brave face he puts on.

He is a stricter, more serious father than you’d initially thought he’d be. But he is fair, and makes sure his kids know they can always come to him, and he’s still fun and playful when he doesn’t have to be firm. His children respect and love him greatly, though inevitably he’ll have a slightly different relationship with his eldest child due to the traditions of the Zeppeli family.

He’s not as good at being as stoic as his father, and he knows that shows when he’s teaching his eldest, but you assure him that showing his emotions to his children has gotta be much healthier for everyone involved than trying to be a completely impassive Executioner.

At the end of the day, compassion wasn’t a weakness, even for the eldest child in each generation of the Zeppeli line.

[bluegekk0]

would the adults in the family smoke/drink/take drugs? if not now, what about when their trauma was really bad?

Putting it under a read more because it's long, and because of the subjects mentioned which some may not feel like reading. Warnings for use of alcohol, drugs and sexual topics (I'm adding that last one because it is very relevant to this topic for Grimm specifically)

Grimm and Vyrm drink together from time to time, and sometimes Hornet joins them as well, though she doesn't like the taste of most drinks. Holly and Zote don't drink, as do the kids, naturally (though I imagine there are some non-alcoholic drinks they could sip on). Alcohols like mead and wine are especially popular during town celebrations, and there is also a tavern in the town that Grimm occasionally visits with Vyrm or the Troupe whenever they celebrate a successful performance. I don't think anyone smokes, and when it comes to drugs, there is the substance found in the beasts named Squit, which has some drug-like effects. Vyrm is occasionally under its influence if he ends up hunting for them in Greenpath, and while it can help him relax, it often has an opposite effect and for that reason he rarely consumes it outside of those hunts. Aside from that, I wouldn't say anyone else does any kind of drugs.

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Now, in the past, things were a lot different for both Grimm and Vyrm. I'll start with Grimm, since he's the one who really experimented with this stuff. I don't think he ever smoked, but he attended many social events and parties where alcohol and other substances were plenty, and he definitely didn't spare himself any of it. He would get drunk and sometimes start fights in taverns for fun, and even during more sophisticated events he liked to drink and mess with everyone if he felt bored. During many of these events he also hooked up with strangers, so very often you'd see him leave the main event and disappear with whomever he wanted to have some fun with. He was definitely a party animal, so it's no surprise that he would drink a lot and do other things.

Things took a different turn after he met Vyrm. He didn't stop attending events and enjoying himself, but he tried to visit Vyrm as often as he could, and as his feelings for him grew stronger and stronger, he found himself thinking more about that than some of his more wild activities. Because of his new focus, he would also drink less. Getting to know Vyrm had an effect on his chaotic life, undoubtedly, he was already slowly in the process of settling down and leaving that life behind, even if he had no guarantee that he'd end up in a relationship with him.

Unfortunately, after Vyrm disappeared, Grimm didn't take it too well. He didn't attend as many parties as he had no energy for them, but he still drank a lot, more than ever, in hopes it would numb the pain of his heartbreak and all of his guilt. It was a period where he indulged in anything that would make him temporarily forget, which for him was primarily alcohol and sexual encounters. Divine and Brumm's intervention helped him from falling completely into the pit of despair, but he still drank a lot whenever he was by himself.

After Vyrm came back, Grimm was able to overcome that habit, certainly made it easier by the fact that he was replacing his physical body periodically (which meant that the effects of his drinking thankfully weren't nearly as destructive as they would be otherwise). Instead of reaching for wine whenever he felt down, he had a partner to find comfort in. He still struggled with the sexual part of his old habits, he would seek that frequently, often just to make himself feel better, which back then made him worry that he only saw Vyrm as another sexual partner. Which, of course, wasn't the case, he truly loved him, it wasn't just sexual attraction. These days, he doesn't deal with those fears nearly as often, he's a lot more confident in his feelings for Vyrm, and their private encounters are rooted in their genuine passion for one another instead of being framed as a form of escape. As for drinking, he was able to stop doing so to cope, and instead only drinks occasionally as a form of celebration, to mentally set the acceptable boundary and not fall back into his habits.

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When it comes to Vyrm, he didn't outright have a problem with alcohol, smoking, or anything else that could be seen as addictive (like sex in Grimm's case). Well, almost anything, though he wasn't aware of it for most of his life. It was soul, the magical substance found at the center of his powers. He consumed it in liquid form in place of eating actual food, and he would rely on it all the time to heal any ailment he had through focusing it. At the beginning of his rule, things were perfectly fine, but as time went on, the lack of proper nutrients and calories had a bad effect on his body. Instead of eating, he would constantly rely on soul to keep him going, which inevitably put him in a spot where he was basically addicted to it. Any attempts at eating food were unsuccessful for as long as there was a source of soul nearby, as he was too terrified of embracing his instincts, especially after the Xero incident.

The reliance on the substance was slowly killing him, and only when it was stripped from him and when the hibernation messed with his knowledge of soul magic, was he able to leave it behind. It wasn't smooth at all, granted. Right after waking up from hibernation, he experienced what can easily be compared to withdrawals. Nausea and vomiting (inevitably also connected to the fact that his stomach had to adjust to proper food intake), insomnia, heightened anxiety, tremors, he had an absolutely terrible time for the first few weeks of not relying on soul. All of the symptoms were made even worse by his guilt, as well as the wound on his head that slowly became infected, which would cause him all kinds of pain and side effects.

Eventually he reunited with Hornet, Holly and Grimm, and while he had the opportunity to heal, he did struggle with the symptoms for a while. He would still experience tremors and anxiety, nausea became less frequent but it still sometimes bothered him. Luckily for him, soul wasn't a commonly found substance outside of the White Palace (in the AU, it works a bit differently; only a soul-based higher being can extract it from living beings, which disqualified Vyrm, and I see the soul totems found all over the in-game world as a gameplay only thing; meanwhile, the hot springs are filled with water without any soul in it), so he had very little chance of getting back into the harmful habit. Besides, he could not use any of the spells anymore, the hibernation erased his memories related to them, so he would have to re-learn it all to utilize soul.

The first year or two after his return were a healing period for him. As he found comfort in his new partner, and focused on eating to gain weight and heal the damage his body suffered throughout the years of relying on soul, his withdrawal symptoms softened. These days, it's all behind him, and while he does sometimes worry that he might relapse if he ever comes into contact with soul, his acceptance of his instincts and the gained love for food guarantee that whatever would happen, it wouldn't be nearly as bad as it was back in the day. Soul nearly destroyed him because he was scared of eating, which isn't the case anymore. That said, he still avoids it, as he's comfortable not using any magic and being an equal to those around him.

[sentientgolfball]

Ghoul Files: Cirrus

Welcome to my little series of ghoul character sheets. The Files are basically little living documents of how I headcanon/characterize each ghoul. I've made one for every ghoul (yes every ghoul) and I'll be slowly uploading them alphabetically by era just for the hell of it.

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Name: Cirrus

Element: Air

Pronouns: she/her 

Powers: Can create gusts of wind, summon small storms, manipulate air pressure, create vacuums by pulling air out of places (yes this includes living creatures), use airflow to lift small objects, she can’t fly but if she jumps off a high place she can float down. 

Love language (giving): Gift giving. She has crow brain. She sees a cool rock or a neat piece of metal and she’s grabbing it and affectionately handing it to one of her packmates. 

Love language (receiving): Words of affirmation and acts of service. She’s so soft when someone says sweet little things to her and takes time out of their day to do something for her. 

Pairings: She’s the closest with Cumulus. If they’re not with the pack, it is rare to see one without the other. She also likes to hang out with Mountain. She likes the way he keeps her grounded. Aether is her other go to ghoul. Sometimes she doesn’t want to be the one in charge, the one responsible, and he’s always more than willing to hold her for a while. 

Influential Others: Zephyr means the world to her. They were her mentor when she was still new. Even in the present, she still goes to Zephyr when she’s really struggling. She still feels like she can’t fill their shoes, but they’re her number one fan. 

Kinds of People Liked: She likes honest people in all degrees. People who tell the truth, but also people who are upfront with what they want or need. She doesn’t want to play guessing games. Also sickeningly sweet people. She finds their natural affection so endearing. 

Kinds of People Disliked: People who seem to have a stick permanently up their ass. She gets very annoyed very quickly with people who can’t allow themselves to relax or take it easy. She sees red when people like that crank it up a notch and shame others for finding joy in small or strange ways. 

Time in the Pits: She was the leader of her flock in the Pits. Cumulus was her mate, they’ve been bound together for centuries. She kept them safe, kept them alive. It wasn’t a gigantic flock, but it wasn’t small either. She has plenty of scars from challenges to her position, but she never lost a fight. She truly believed she was the best thing for her flock, that no one could do it like her. She was fair with punishments, tried to keep hunting and scouting equal between all members. She wasn't horribly ambitious, not willing to throw her flock into senseless fights just for more territory. However, she was fierce when she needed to be. Her greatest accomplishment was killing a quintessence ghoul that tried to use her flock for food. 

Sense of Humor: Physical/slapstick. She has to stifle a laugh when she sees people fall down the stairs or accidentally run into something. She’ll ask if you’re okay and genuinely mean it, but the moment she knows everything is fine and no one’s actually hurt she’s gonna need a minute. 

Basic Nature: She cares and will be there for those she’s close with even if she’s not great with her words, but she’s also not afraid to snap and be blunt if she needs to be. She can be really physically affectionate and a little sentimental and it sometimes makes people forget she’s a natural leader. When she speaks you listen. 

Compulsions/Habits: She has to have a nest of blankets in order to fall asleep. She will meticulously create a nest if she’s not sleeping in her own room for the night before she turns in. She also tends to bite when she’s grooming one of her packmates, she’s used to preening feathers it’s not her fault. She self isolates whenever she has a migraine. She’ll only call on someone when it gets bad enough for her to begrudgingly take painkillers. 

Fears: Tight spaces. She’s very claustrophobic. She also has a fear of failure. Failure in the Pits meant someone getting hurt or worse. While obviously that’s not the case Topside it’s something she can’t shake. 

Attitude Towards Own Body: She’s content with no strong opinions. However, when she dresses up she likes to flaunt cause she knows she looks good. 

Sees Self As: Strong enough to shoulder everything thrown at her. 

Hobbies: Exercising! She likes to lift and do cardio. She also does yoga with Mountain. Falconry. She’s made great friends with the falcons that reside on the Ministry rooftops. She’s trained them to act as her eyes for the places she can’t always see. She loves them to death. 

Pastimes: She likes to do word puzzles. She also lets Cumulus and Aurora essentially play dress up with her. She likes it when they do her makeup and hair cause she is not the type to do it herself. 

Collections: Bones. She has so many bones and no one knows where she keeps getting more. 

Reading Materials Preferred: She enjoys reading books about mythology. The stories that have survived through all of human history fascinate her. 

Most Prized Possession: Her keytar. It was given to her by Zephyr. It was the thing that essentially brought her Topside. It’s what keeps her close to all the ghouls. Since Zephyr can’t play it anymore because of their condition she sees it as letting a part of them still make music. 

Favorite Colors: gold

Favorite Foods: She likes foods that aren’t super heavy but still have plenty of flavor. Her favorite thing to eat are those little tortilla pinwheel roll ups. She likes how she can swap out ingredients for variety while still having it be simple and easy to make. 

General Likes: making collages, picnics, fireflies, sitting outside during storms 

General Dislikes: Getting her feathers soaked, cold weather, having her quiet time disturbed, carpeted floors 

Is Seen By Others As: An affectionate person with a big heart but also a little intimidating. 

Typical First Impression: Lioness. She’s going to eat me whole and leave nothing behind. Those scars tell a story and it can’t be a good one. 

Morning Routine: She eats breakfast with the pack before going to relieve the ghoul who was on night watch. Her job allows her to go all over the Ministry, so she makes it a point to visit each packmate throughout the day. 

Evening Routine: She always walks back to the den with Mountain since he’s always working late in the greenhouse. She showers before cuddling up with the other ghoulettes in the common area while they wait for dinner to be finished. She works on whatever sudoku or word puzzle book she currently has as a way to wind down before bed. That or she decides to go see who’s willing to take a strap for a few hours. It’s important to relieve stress before going to sleep. 

Strongest Character Trait: Her patience. She may snap here or there to keep everyone on track, but it takes a lot for her to get there. She prefers a softer approach and usually, that works, so that’s why it’s terrifying when she has to remind whoever why she was a pack leader in the Pits for so long. 

Weakest Character Trait: She’s a perfectionist for herself. She holds herself to impossibly high standards and gets frustrated when she doesn’t meet them. It’s actually something she and Dew have in common, but unlike him, she doesn’t freeze and go cold when it happens. She explodes. She’s less affectionate and energetic. She has to take a moment to herself to settle, she won’t even let Cumulus see her like that. She cries until her throat is raw. Once she’s calmed down, though, she finds her and buries herself in her. 

Mental/Emotional Blocks: Ghouls by themselves are matriarchal. In the Pits it’s the ghoulettes who are in charge of packs/flocks/schools/hordes. However when the silly humans of the Ministry got involved they decided that fire ghouls are the ‘leaders’ since they hold the same element as the Morning Star. This is purely for bureaucracy and means nothing outside of ghoul/clergy meetings. Cirrus didn’t like this. When she was first summoned her and Dew would butt heads a lot. Sometimes she still gets pissy when he has to go to Clergy meetings and she can’t do anything except remind him of the things the ghouls need. She freaks out. It’s not that she doesn’t trust him to mention everything he needs to do, but it just stresses her out because she’s not directly involved. 

Chores/other job: When not on tour, she patrols the grounds of the Ministry. She perches on the bell towers and watches. She connects to the air to feel for any disturbances. She sends her falcons out. If she finds any trespassers she hunts them down and brings them before Papa so he can decide what to do with them. 

Long Term Goals: She and Ifrit actually share a plan to convince Papa to get permission from the Clergy to allow them to start up small self-defense classes. When she began getting to know the humans of the Ministry after she was summoned she learned many of them come from horrible situations. She showed a few of her favorites how to get someone on the floor. When Ifrit found out the two started to hatch the plan together. 

Present Problems: She is a bit stressed about the growth of the church. Not because she doesn’t enjoy the new people and ghouls, but because she may be asked to leave on an assistance trip like Sunshine. Would she come back when the new branch was established? Yes, but the idea of not being surrounded by other ghouls all the time freaks her out. That and she’d worry too much about what was happening back at home. 

One-Line Characterization: Cirrus is a natural leader who helps keep the pack organized. 

Room description: She has a queen-sized bed, but it’s only ever used when she has company. She has a nest of pillows, blankets, and soft things in the corner of her room where she sleeps. It’s pretty clean, but the floor is littered with her and Cumulus’ feathers. She has no light in her room beside the windows, she doesn’t feel the need since ghouls have good dark vision. She has a small TV in her room for nights when she’d rather stay in. She has a potted gladiolus on her desk. 

Summoning: She spilled a lot of blood when she was summoned. She came out of the circle swinging and screaming. Omega had to hold her down until she gave up trying to attack. She was convinced they were going to kill her. She calmed down significantly when Zephyr showed up. Seeing another air ghoul made her realize she wasn’t going to die, but she was now terrified for her pack back in the Pits. It took her a while to warm up to the other ghouls, so she stayed glued to Cumulus and Zephyr for months. She was scared. She had attacked and been attacked by ghouls of all elements in the Pits. Her curiosity about humans did, however, break her out of her shell and led to her getting to know her new packmates. 

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Favorite position: She likes her partners bent over for her. Also under her, but honestly she just kinda lets the situation unfold before deciding what she’s in the mood for. 

Dom/sub: Dom. She’s a bit of a pleasure dom, definitely going to wring multiple orgasms from her partner. She will get her partner to whimper. She is pretty damn close to being a stone top, but she has her moments where she’d rather receive. 

Risk: She kind of likes to push boundaries. Obviously she’ll stop if told, but she likes to see how far she can get. She’ll draw blood. She’ll corner someone behind some crates with crew members only 5 feet away. She’ll leave her door unlocked, maybe cracked open if she’s really feeling it. 

Kinks: Power play. She goes crazy for having her partner beg and having total control over them. Marking, she is going to cover her partner. Orgasm denial and edging, but this kinda pairs with the power play. Temperature play. Loves to see how her element can be used. 

Aftercare: Very intimate. She’s going to praise her partner while she gives them soft kisses. Going to dress them in her clothes if they’ll fit, if not she’s going to wrap them in her biggest, softest blanket and lay on top of them. If they wanna shower she’ll use her shampoo and body wash so they smell like her. 

Noise level: She’s decently loud, a good mix of talking and noises. However, she is going to make sure her partner can be heard down the hall. 

Surprise: She very much enjoys it when her partner challenges her. If you want her to be mean and manhandle you then all you have to do is challenge her control. She likes fighting (and winning) that control. She doesn’t mind when her partner gives in right away, but oh boy, if you want to really get her going challenge her.

[ciaossu-imagines]

Nanbaka Romantic and Smut Matches for Anon

In my opinion, my lovely anon, your ideal Nanbaka romantic match is MITSURU HITOKOE!

Okay, let me start by saying, first off, that Mitsuru was amused by you from the very beginning. The second he met you, he decided you amused him and interested him and he liked you. And every second, from meeting you to getting to you know you to dating you, all the way through to forever, the very playful and surprisingly laid back Mitsuru will never stop being amused by you.

Mitsuru is actually a champion at befriending people like you, who are introverts or who struggle with some social anxiety. He's that extreme extrovert going around adopting those who struggle socially or who are more introverted. He just sees something in them and he especially saw something in you. Your 'resting bitch face' both amused him and didn't fool him - he figured you had to be this really interesting, funny, wonderful person under the quiet, unapproachable facade and, gods be damned, he was going to do everything he could to drag it out of you, little by little or all at once. I will say, that hard work you've done to get better about the socializing - Mitsuru is going to celebrate every little step in that direction. He'll not only praise you for it but demand it be properly celebrated, either by doing something together or by him getting you some sort of gift or even just showering you with physical affection if he knows you'll enjoy it.

With that initial wall around you that you have, it's a really good thing that Mitsuru is not only decided he likes you from the beginning but that he's a really patient person actually. He's not only going to wait for you to get more comfortable with him, but he'll put in the work happily to make sure that you realize he's a safe person to trust, with no intentions of hurting you. Maybe teasing you or playing around with you sometimes, but he'd never hurt you. And besides, you proved him right when you did get comfortable with him. He loves that loud as hell part of you and he encourages it, though he always teases you that you'll never out-loud Nanba's noise problem…he might actually suggest a playful little bet to see if you can.

Once you've decided that Mitsuru really is first your friend and then your partner, your protective side really shows through and while he'll tease you about it, the fact is that he finds it really endearing and cute. He's plenty physically strong and doesn't need your protection - there is a reason that is one of Nanba's guards, after all. But the fact that you want to protect him, that you do everything you can to assure yourself he's safe and you can take care of him…it's sweet. So he definitely allows and encourages that part of you.

Mitsuru, himself, is a very confident man. But he doesn't really have a huge ego…he is, however, more than used to working around those who are egotistical and he has learned to deal with it with good humour. So when you do have those egotistical and stubborn moments, Mitsuru is pretty good about letting them just roll off his shoulders. They don't bother him much and honestly, if they do get really bad or if he thinks you're being needlessly stubborn and rude about something, he'll lightly call you out on it. He's pretty observant himself and he can normally figure out if you're simply being lazy or if you're feeling conflicted, upset, or afraid of something and that's what is driving your stubbornness or need to prove your ego and confidence. He'll try to get you to talk about it, but if you can't or won't, he also will make it clear that he doesn't agree with you on this point. He, one hundred percent, still adores you and has no plans on leaving you or not having your back, but he needs you to know he doesn't agree.

I will say that Mitsuru loves your personal style. He's definitely going to have a habit, when it comes to gifts, of buying you clothes and maybe dressing you up, kind of like a doll sometimes. Once he figures out that being called emo in terms of style bothers you though, just because he is who he is, he's definitely going to playfully tease you by calling you that every now and then, just to see your reactions. He might even buy matching onesies for the both of you and he's constantly teasing you about the mismatched socks. Overall though, he's always so very, very proud to show you off and he thinks you're beautiful whether you're wearing revealing clothes, fancy outfits, or dressing down in comfy clothes.

Mitsuru finds your urges to bite absolutely hilarious and the cutest thing. He encourages your habit and will sometimes even take off his coat, gesture at his bare skin or hold out his arm and tease you, saying he knew you were looking and wanting to bite or mark him. It doesn't make him uncomfortable in the least and he just laughs whenever anyone comments on your bite marks on him. It becomes a playful little intimate thing for the two of you and he'll actually pretty proudly display your marks, not going to lie. He buys you fidget toys for you to play with when you're nervous, since he notices that you go for your clothes, hair, jewelry whenever you do get stressed and he doesn't want to risk you breaking your jewelry or tearing your clothes. If they'll help you with any nervousness or stress, he definitely wants to try.

Mitsuru starts to mimic some of your habits. Your habit of standing up when you get excited to share something? He starts standing up with you too, because if you're so excited to talk about it that you need to stand, he's so excited to hear it that he has to stand up too. He loves hearing you ramble about anything that you enjoy or that you're passionate about…he knows that you really only open up like that with a few select people and it makes him feel special that you feel comfortable doing so with him.

As mentioned, Mitsuru does notice a lot about people and is very observant. He notices when you get to overthinking or zoning out. He does everything he can to distract you when he notices this though. He knows overthinking next to never helps anything and he does worry about your health, physical, mental, and emotional, and while it might be annoying at times, he's really doing it out of love.

Another thing that might be kind of annoying at times? As observant as he is, he will sometimes think you're talking to him when you talk to yourself out loud. When he finds out you weren't, you were just having a conversation with yourself in your head, he insists on being part of that conversation because he'll feel left out.

He finds the weird noises you make adorable and sometimes the entirety of your guy's conversations will just be the both of you making these weird, random sounds back and forth and yet it makes the two of you so happy and amused. Since Mitsuru is a huge physical affection plan, he also loves how you nuzzle up to him. He calls you his little cat, nicknaming you right back as you will nickname him, and he'll nuzzle you right back, though his physical affection will sometimes remind you more of a dog's way of showing physical love rather than a cat's.

As for your love of listening to people talk? Oh, you never have to worry about not getting that with Mitsuru. The man will talk your ear off and still not run out of things to say. A surprisingly intelligent man though, Mitsuru teaches you as many new things as you teach him. Your latest interest of learning to hack? Mitsuru himself is very technologically competent and he'll have no trouble teaching you hints and tips and really helping you up your game. He'll insist on teaching you how to effectively cover your tracks though and how to make sure your own system is uncrackable, because he wants to make sure you're fully protected.

I do strongly headcanon Mitsuru having several motorcycles and a love and deep knowledge of them. Going on on rides together will be something the two of you do together before you even start dating, and will be easy dates when the two of you do get together. He wants to explore the world with you on the rare breaks he gets from Nanba, or at least explore the world as far as you guys can travel on your bikes.

While Mitsuru definitely encourages your love of working out and going on walks, being physically active, he's an absolutely terrible workout buddy. He distracts you and the two of you end up just playing around instead of getting in a workout. So you do end up refusing to work out with him, though I do see the two of you taking long walks together, both as friends and then as partners. The funny thing is he was definitely holding your hand and swinging your arm while on your walks more when the two of you weren't dating…it definitely made a lot of people think the two of you were a couple even before you were and a lot of people have a hard time believing you two only got together when you did. While he encourages your love of sports, he doesn't actively follow a lot of them himself and he won't understand a lot of ranting or talking about them you do. If you participate in any sports though, you can bet your ass Mitsuru is showing up to every match, every game, every event he possibly can with his demanding job.

Mitsuru loves horror movies, shows, and games and he'll love the fact that he can share those things with you. He has a lot of fun introducing you to his favourites and he can't wait to discover your favourites. Any time the two of you have one in common is definitely a reason to celebrate with some kind of kiss…gotta try out all of them, from regular kisses to cheek kisses to forehead kisses to eskimo kisses to butterfly kisses to him at one point just straight up licking your face because it amused him.

Though Uno is the King of Games at Nanba, the fact is that Mitsuru really, really loves playing games as well. Board games, card games, video games, he loves them all and there's no better lazy date night to him than just sitting and playing games with you. He can get playfully competitive about it, placing silly bets.

He also really loves music. He's listening to it as often as he possibly can himself. He'll make mixes for you and he almost begs you to do the same for him. He wants to hear your favourites and he wants you to know his. He'll memorize the favourites of yours that he loves and blare them when the two of you are hanging out together, instigating so many sing-alongs. He plays a mean set of air drums so he hopes you bring in some amazing air instrument as well. Though speaking of instruments, though instrumentals aren't normally his go-to, just sitting and listening to you play the piano? It relaxes him in a way that nothing else does and is one of the few times he can remain still for so long.

Right from the beginning, Mitsuru (along with Kiji) was one of your main gossip buddies. The man loves some good hot gossip and he keeps your love of it satisfied too.

Now, to go into your actual romantic relationship with Mitsuru. As mentioned, the two of you became friends first and though the friendship took some time to grow, when you got comfortable with him, the two of you definitely had a very flirtatious friendship. Like I stated, there are still people who refuse to accept you guys didn't start dating until a while after the rumours that you were started.

Mitsuru and you really share the same love languages and it really helps cement not only how the two of you interact together, but how the two of you communicate, fight, make-up, and really live in a relationship together. It makes it easier since you can often see where each other is coming from.

Though he can be too teasing and playful at times, the fact is that Mitsuru is not afraid to communicate. He's actually really good at it, to the surprise of some people. He's not going to leave you guessing about his feelings on very much. That includes his feelings about you, yes, but he'll also tell you when he needs you to give him some time or space, when he needs to really focus on work and thus will be out of contact with you for this length of time, or when he's upset about something. He's a pretty open book overall, right from the start. Mitsuru doesn't hold a lot back, though what you see isn't always what you get…he holds some secrets, though he starts to share those little by little as the two of you grow closer.

A really great thing? Mitsuru is the least controlling partner you can imagine. He's always going to give you full freedom to be yourself, to do your own thing, to say whatever you want…he just asks for the same in return. He cannot stand a relationship where he feels controlled or smothered.

That's not to say he won't be affectionate and won't be clear about being head over heels for you. He's not going to leave anyone wondering about that and he adores the fact that you are not only okay with that but return it in kind. The two of you are very much that couple who are very physically affectionate with each other, even when out in public. You guys aren't going right at it in public, but there's definitely a lot of hugs and kisses and him just draping himself all over you. He's also not going to be stingy about the compliments or, when the two of you finally get to the point of being really serious with each other, of saying I love you at least once a day.

Another thing that happens when the two of you get really serious about each other? He definitely insists on adopting a 'child' together…since Mitsuru really doesn't want an actual baby or children, he definitely meant an animal. Maybe two animals…three…you have to convince him that the two of you don't have the room to take the whole rescue shelter home because Mitsuru definitely would want to take in a rescue animal, just to ensure these poor animals get the best lives they had always deserved.

Now, you might have noticed a lot that I mention how playful and teasing Mitsuru is with you. That definitely extends to your romantic relationship. It's just such a huge part of who he is and how he shows love and affection to people. He's more than willing to take as much as he gives though and he sees your teasing and joking with him as you showing him affection and love in return. To be honest, sometimes your jokes and teasing with each other might come off as the two of you being mean to each other to people outside of your relationship, but the both of you find it funny and it's just a way for the two of you to connect. You both learn and respect the limits to the teasing both of you can take and what not to tease or poke fun about. And needless to say, there are definitely prank wars between the two of you at times that others have definitely gotten pulled into, much to their displeasure and the amusement of the two of you. Pillow-fights, playful wrestling, and 'winner buys lunch' competitions are also par for the course in your relationship with Mitsuru. He'll also, during the times you wear your glasses, at least once or twice do the teasing thing of removing your glasses and trying them on before proclaiming that you look much cuter in them and settling them back on your face.

Because of the nature of his job and how much of his time it takes up, the two of you don't really get proper date nights out often. When you do, he definitely wants to make the most out of it, getting out and enjoying yourselves, but most of your relationship is spend together in a shared home once the two of you have gotten semi-serious, or a shared home if you work inside Nanba as well in some capacity.

Now, the fact you have only three tattoos might sometimes offend Mitsuru. He definitely makes getting matching couple tattoos a priority once the two of you get to the 'I love you' point, right behind animal adoption.

Runners Up: Hajime, Uno, Honey, Musashi

In my opinion, your ideal Nanbaka smutty match is HONEY!

Much like yourself, Honey is also overall a switch. While he prefers to be dominant most of the time, satsifying that bottom part of you, he's also more than happy to play submissive now and then. Truth be told, he finds it really hot when you decide to take the lead and play with him.

Honey really loves your habit of walking around in just your underwear really hot and he can't help but instigate sex whenever you do. He has delighted, right from the beginning, in how sensitive you are. He never gets tired of it. It definitely is an stroking the ego thing to him because getting you off is so easy with how sensitive you are, seeing how much pleasure you're in is so easy with how sensitive you are. It makes him feel like the best sex of your life, makes him even more confident in approaching you sexually, in taking control of you sexually. He memorizes every single one of your hot spots and he loves over-stimulating you. He's not happy until you've orgasmed so much and cum so hard that you're slightly drunk from the feeling and are whimpering and whining about how it's almost starting to hurt. In terms of his own orgasms though, Honey prefers you edging him. Overstimulation holds no pleasure for his own body and is plain out just painful.

Honey really adores how adventurous sexually you're willing to be as well. The fact is that both of you really enjoy pleasing each other, trying out the things the other wants and enjoys and your sexual life together will be an exciting one, where very few things will be out of bounds for either of you (though, as everyone does, both of you will have your hard no's).

Where you and Honey most connect sexually though is in the marking category. Honey will love leaving marks all over you, claiming you as his own, particularly in areas that people will see, like your neck, jaw, and upper chest. He's also not ashamed whenever you leave your marks on him, showing them off with confidence and pride in them and you.

[cagcd]

     He was always the active type of person,   never an idle moment in his life as he always seemed to find something to keep him occupied.   It was a habit born by necessity,   all this extra energy needing to be spent somewhere doing something useful,   never the kind to be easily bored but quick to feel as such if there was nothing to do.   Admittedly,   that abundance of energy had led to plenty of decisions he now regrets so deeply,   all those parties and drinking in an early career had done him more bad than there ever was any good.   It was a way to numb that deep emptiness at the core of his being,   even if momentarily.   Thankfully,   with time he had learned to forgo these needless habits and focused more and what mattered most,   he focused on family,   career and the better pursuit that came with his affiliation with the special forces,   which he loved,   despite the uptight atmosphere of soldiers,   his daughter and the latest addition to the team now known as the combat kids had lightened the atmosphere ten folds,   being the one in charge of their training and missions he certainly let them get away with things most wouldn't,   [   he had a soft spot for them,   there's no helping it.   ]

  It was honest work,   the kind he would pour his heart into unlike the earlier days of jumping from one project to another.   However,   it was difficult sometimes,   balancing out between shooting,   production,   training and missions had worn him out on some days,   today was one of them,   as he found himself nearly spilling his coffee,   and spending a good deal of his morning in the kitchen just staring at the mug,   still untouched with him struggling to keep his eyes open.   He hardly had a break from the last mission then flew right back in for a studio shoot,   none that he couldn't handle but the urge to drop everything and sleep for a full month was far too tempting.

     "You have bags, and I'm not talking about the Gucci kind." / xoxo ur beloved daughter cassie telling it like it is

     Damn,   he didn't even hear her come in,   now she was on the opposite end of the counter having a full breakfast,   he really needs to take a nap.   Johnny groaned,   appreciative of her sense of humor but didn't have the energy for praise.   He could really use something stronger at the moment but he doesn't even entertain the idea,   it was instances like these where feels glad for quitting drinking,   yet that weakness was a beast he seems to fight against when least expected.   But when weakness comes,   there's always his little Cassie there to keep him grounded,   ever so protective   &.   fierce as he was when it came to the other's well being.

        ❛❛   Of course they're not Gucci,   they're Cage,   get the brand right.   ❜❜        he shot back nonetheless,   assuring and lightening the mood with his response.   She had every right to worry,   he probably looked awful.        ❛❛   I'm fine,   princess,   I just need to get through today's shoot and it's a coma-induced nap for me,   you better not include me in anything this weekend                or for the next month for that matter,   I'm not budging.   ❜❜        an exaggeration at best,   though he felt it so deeply as he allowed himself to give in for a moment and bury his head between his arms,   a pause.        ❛❛   You think if I straight up chew on coffee beans it'll wake me up ?   ❜❜

@starspurn // princess i love you but don't slander the family name

[butfirstwine]

november 2, 2022 | november 2, 2023

i like taking before and after pictures, a year apart, because it makes me realize that change is sometimes good. and to realize that i’m not always gonna look the same, sometimes better and sometimes not so much. and to realize that i’m in the right path to better my health and future. and if i’m not in the right path, it’s okay, there’s plenty of time left to start right back up again.

a year ago, i wasn’t happy with myself. i was working a 9am to 6/7pm job. i was exhausted. i was tired. i was sad. i was eating too much, sometimes just out of boredom. i was drinking every day. i was living in a hell house. it was so bad.

today, i’m the happiest i’ve ever been. i’m working a part time job, and by choice because my husband makes enough for the both of us. and a job i actually enjoy, with people i actually like working with. i eat enough to keep me alive, and healthier food. i drink occasionally, mostly at get-togethers or parties, and never get drunk anymore (i did get drunk on a halloween party but i mixed and my alcohol tolerance isn’t as good as it used to be). i moved out of my house and moved in with my husband. and it feels so good to not be told what to do or how to do it. everything is just perfect.

sometimes, you have the power to better your life. yes, sometimes we struggle and it feels like there’s no end to it but it can and it will get better. baby steps. start by quitting that job. start by leaving those unhealthy habits, whether it’s food or a toxic friendship or relationship. start by exercising. start by moving out. start by moving somewhere else. start by blocking that person. start any way you want, but start. slow progress is still progress.

i hope everyone’s having a wonderful year. halloween is over but i’m actually excited for the upcoming jolly holidays. and, remember, i’m always here if you need anyone to talk to ✌🏻 idk i’m just giddy and bored.

[danpuff-ao3]

New Goals!

While writing my dear friend Bethy this morning, I sort of made the decision to scale back and rethink all of my grand plans.

Now, I am a lady who can do a lot. That ADHD + OCD combo can be good for some things, I suppose, especially when properly medicated! Accomplishing a lot makes me feel good and happy and gets me all riled up to do more! What I at times fail to remember is that this energy and focus isn't endless. And my sense of responsibility and perfectionism will mean my doom when I inevitably slow down.

My therapist and I have been working on me recognizing and celebrating what I do accomplish, even when they're not on my "list." I have a bad habit of feeling useless when I did 10 things in a day but none of them were on my "list" or in my "plans" and so I chalk the day up as a failure. It helps me to stop and look and say "Hey! I did that! That is a thing that I did and that's very cool and good of me." And that helps.

But it also helps to recognize when my Brain (also named Brian, per my friend Nina, based on a misreading of a Tweet some months ago, haha!) is getting overexcited and dancing around and adding more and more grand plans to our plate. It also helps to verbalize because, for me, and my dang Leo Moon, I need to share and to be seen and understood.

So while there is plenty I'd like to do, I've narrowed down my goals for the year to 3 pretty solid goals:

Snarry-a-Thon

Snarry Bang

Project: Three of Hearts

While the plan is to complete and submit fics for the above fests, my Project is just what I plan to work on in between times. My goal is progress there.

So regarding the above goals, this is where I'm at:

Snarry-a-Thon: Rough Draft & Edit 1 done. Off for beta reading now.

Snarry Bang: teammate chosen and as of yesterday a plan nailed down!

Project: Three of Hearts: Very loose outline. And chapter 1 done! I figured my struggle with the outline might be helped by starting it, to help give me more of a feel for characterization and dynamics. I think it helped because my "vague outline" is starting to feel a bit more solid!

WIPs I would like to make progress on this year, but am refusing to to stress about:

Dralbus fic

Scarry fic

Lavmione fic

Contempt-verse fic (Kinktober?)

Contempt-verse fic (Christmas?)

The Christmas Prince 2

Goals I've cut: mostly Year of the OTP. I wrote Again (and Again) and Lovestruck to fill YOTP prompts, but while it seems fun, it's just too much. I have been panicking in the back of my mind about what to do for a March prompt and it's just not worth it. I don't want to feel obligations to finish things out. So I'm going to remove the Year of the OTP tags from those fics and try to forget I ever heard about it. The part of me that must finish everything it starts is deeply unhappy, but I need to scrub away all sense of needing to finish it, so I don't beat myself up when I fail.

The downside is that, with the idea of doing Year of the OTP and posting a new fic every month, I would definitely have reached 100 HP fics this year! I'm ever closer to that goal, but...if not this year, then certainly next year. There's no rush, really. Also: even though the OCD part of my brain rails at this a bit, I should at least celebrate that I do have 100 works on AO3! If we could my astro meta and my old Marvel fics, I'm actually at 103!!!! (Still trying to talk Brian into accepting that win.)

The thing is, I still do a lot, even if I don't get everything I hoped or planned to do done. Other plans for the year include:

More rec lists! (And I've already done rec lists for this year so everything here on out is gravy!)

More general meta (have I done this yet? Who knows. I'm sure I'll feel inspired sometime.)

More HP Astro posts (already done! All else will be bonus!)

2 fests to run! HP Chan will wrap up next Monday, and that same day HP Fruit Fest starts!

Reading and commenting! I've already done that! And I hope to do more!

Learn bookbinding! I still have supplies to gather, but I started doing test prints of short fics to play with programs and typesetting and printing and such. That's a start!

Mostly I just want to be involved in fandom. I want to interact with my community and chat with my friends and meet new friends. I want to give as much to the fandom as I can, in whatever form I can, be it recs or meta or fics or what have you. Or even just fangirling hard on Discord servers! It would be fun to do more podcasts this year (hint hint @careofmagicalshippers and @fanficmaverickpodcast LOL.) Or...idk, what else can I do? Idk, but no stress to me! I'm here to have fun and spread love.

And I need to keep that in mind. And give myself the love of self-care. And focus more on what's fun and what inspires me over how productive I am, or being self-critical.

Do I take fandom too seriously? Mayhaps. But only because I love it so much!

Anyway, 10 points to your House if you made it this far. Leo Moon = need to share. So thank you for letting me share with you!

[invisible-goats]

Fr thank you for your post, it's something I genuinely struggle with. I grew up with bailiffs and repo guys at my door every week because my single mother couldn't afford to put food on the table every day let alone pay our bills. We lived in a council house and were homeless for a while.

I grew up and got incredibly lucky and have a comfortable salary now (not rich, but about average for an office worker). And it feels like my brain is still in survival mode. When I was little, making the wrong financial decision, even for something as small as buying dinner, could be life or death. And I don't think that fear ever left me.

I try to be generous where I can because I know people who aren't as well-off as me. I get gifts for my friends and surprise them by paying off bills they're worried about sometimes because I wish someone had been there to do that for me in the past. But there's always that thought in my head telling me I need to keep everything I earn because being poor is dangerous.

Unlearning that fear is part of the issue for me. It will never override my compassion but it's difficult to remember where I am now. Because my brain still thinks I'm in poverty. I still don't eat every day, purely out of habit, because I'm scared of spending money on food even though I now have plenty.

I'm totally not conservative, I'm just traumatized and trying to adjust to the "okay I have enough money to survive and also help others with" mindset

I never had it that bad, thankfully. Went from a middle class childhood with relatively left-leaning parents, to years on benefits but managing if we were very careful, to now starting to save for a house deposit, but those few years made me so scared, especially knowing how easy it would be to end up back there, or worse (especially given we're both disabled).

But now I sometimes have a tenner in my wallet I can give to a homeless person, and I do it, because that's a person too.

[my-daily-life95]

August 26, 2023

It's been a bit since I last made a journaling post on here. I kinda lost motivation to write anything on here and in my physical journal. It's a little sad since I miss it. A few times I pulled up this app or even my journal yet nothing happened. No words would come out. I'm in a journaling slump. Though right now I am writing. It's an improvement.

Anyways a small update on my life. Hurricane Hilary came and went. Where I live there are still road closers from it. I had to work on the Sunday it hit. I have never seen so much rain fall in such a short time. I was scared for that bit. I thought I would have to sleep at work. By 8 pm it calmed down and I decided to go home. I only worked six hours that day but I was anxious. I said fuck work and went home. There was so much water and a few fallen trees from the wind. There were also a lot of cops driving around since the line for 911 was down. I have lived in a desert my whole life and I honestly was scared of the Hurricane.

I wrote a letter to a friend of mine that I have "know" for a few years. We used to send letters pretty often when we were younger. We stopped talking for a few years but they reached out. Now we talk on a regular basis which is nice. I'm too much of a coward to reach out to people and I told them so in the letter. I never met this person face to face before. We met off Wattpad when we were in high school. They live on the other side of the country. We talked about meeting hopefully sometime next year. It will be nice to properly meet them. I hope I can meet them.

I have two job interviews this upcoming Thursday. I'm still looking for a second job. I'm really hoping one of them will hire me. I really do need that extra income. I can't keep relaying on loans. I'm going to do my best! I have to do my best. Show those people that I'm good at what I do! I got this!!

I builded a book shelf for my youngest sister. It was a struggle. Nothing was cooperating with me. I have builded plenty of furniture by myself and this one book shelf frustrated me to the ends of the Earth. Still the book shelf was built and it looks good. I don't know where my sister bought it from since the box was extremely beat up. No instructions but all the parts were there. Oh well.

Ah this is a bit TMI but I have a yeast infection at the moment. Man it's not fun at all. It's the second time I have had one. Luckily this one isn't as severe as the first one. The first one was bad bad. This one is ok just mostly itchy. I know it's due to my poor lifestyle of no exercise and bad eating habits. I just can't seem to motivate myself to do anything at the moment. I literally spend my days off laying in bed watching tiktok, reading the same fanfic over and over, or playing Tears of the Kingdom. How the hell was I able to do a whole workout routine before? I remember I had specific days I worked out and now I can't even get out of bed. Hell, I even used to do one dance a day since I'm always listening to music. I still listen to music but now I just move my head instead of dance. Oh well. I know my happy ass will just randomly start doing it again. It's a cycle I'm pretty sure of it. A terrible cycle for sure.

I think that's it for updates right now. I had today off and like stated before I spent it in bed. My bed really is comfy. I did just wash the sheets. Also the room has been cold recently so it makes me want to get off even less. God, I'm a mess. Anyways here's a picture from the day before Hurricane Hilary hit. It looked apocalyptic to me.

[bokubonk]

happy anniversary

warnings: angst

content: hurt/comfort, angst

characters: Ushijima x gn!reader

date: 2/14/21

word count: 2.1k+

notes: Happy Valentine’s Day, my loves! Let us celebrate with some angst :)) Also I know I said it would be a few more days until I update but I just couldn’t resist writing this one.

You approached your boyfriend once you saw the boys cleaning up after practice. You had been standing outside, waiting for your boyfriend for the past few hours. It was cold, but you didn’t mind, your excitement to celebrate your one year anniversary with Ushijima kept you warm. 

Your freezing hands were wrapped around his gift: a new volleyball. You saw that the one he had been practicing with was getting worn down from how powerful his spikes were and you wanted to get him a new one, knowing how much the sport meant to him. 

You crept into the gym as quietly as you could, not wanting to bother anyone but you saw some of the team members noticed you and they sent you small smiles after they saw the gift you were hiding behind your back. After all, they remembered that today was the date the two of you got together, their stoic captain and you, who somehow managed to put up with Ushijima’s busy schedule and look after the team like they were your own children.

Tendou and Ushijima were on the other side of the gym and you could see Ushijima being hard on himself as usual. Sweat lined his brow as he continued practicing his spikes, the force echoing throughout the gym.

You winced from how loud it was and as you came closer you locked eyes with Tendou, who waved at you and raised his eyebrows at Ushijima, exclaiming, “Oh? Look who it is, lover boy, your beloved y/n is here!”

Ushijima paused to look at you, his eyebrows furrowed and you were unsure of what to make of his expression. You knew your boyfriend wasn’t one to show emotion but the look he was giving you now wasn’t one that you were expecting, especially since today was your anniversary. 

“Go home, y/n,” he said, “I will be staying late today to practice. You should go home now. It isn’t safe to walk around alone at night.”

Your hopeful expression dropped but you tried your best to keep a smile on your face. He turned away from you and Tendou gave you a sympathetic look. It seemed Ushijima had forgotten what today was but you tried comforting yourself, reminding yourself that he was busy and that he had other priorities in his life just like you did. After all, you were both third years and there were plenty of things to worry about.

But, you couldn’t help the sinking feeling in your chest as you wished that just once, he would put more effort into your relationship. You were beginning to grow used to the ache in your chest from all the neglect you endured after Ushijima continued choosing volleyball over your dates. 

He would schedule last minute practices and leave you waiting for hours at the restaurants or the parks he promised to meet you at. You should be used to it by now, but you couldn’t help but hold onto the hope that he would change. 

You believed in his promises and even when he broke them, you told yourself it was okay, because you loved him and because he loved you, even if it didn’t seem that way sometimes.

Your cold hands clenched around his gift, the weight of the volleyball growing heavier as the seconds passed by and the lump in your throat grew. 

“Wakatoshi, I-,” you began, but he cut you off. “I do not have the time right now, y/n.”

“I need to perfect this.”

You moved your gaze away from him and stared at the ground, wishing the floor would open up and swallow you whole. You could feel the pitying gazes of the other team members as they looked at you and you hated how small you felt. 

Today was supposed to be a happy day so where did it all go wrong? What did you do to deserve being treated like this?

“But today is-,” you tried once again, your tears forcing your voice to a whisper.

“You are bothering me,” he interjected, harshly, “I am sure what you have to tell me can wait.”

You gave a small nod and began making your way out of the gym. Footsteps followed after you and for a second, you hoped it was Ushijima but when you heard a voice call your name, you felt the familiar taste of bitter disappointment. 

“Y/n, he’s just having a bad day,” Tendou consoled, his eyes widening when he saw your tear-stained cheeks. “You know he didn’t mean it.”

“Yeah, I know,” you smiled, one that clearly didn’t reach your eyes from how the frown on Tendou’s face deepened. You used the sleeves of your thin jacket to wipe away your tears before extending the gift in your hand. 

“Give it to him for me, will you?” you murmured weakly, “Make sure he doesn’t practice too late and don’t let him overexert himself.”

“No, y/n,” Tendou shook his head. “You should give it to him yourself. I’ll go grab him right now and tell him to walk you home.”

“It’s okay,” you assured him, “I’m not in the mood to celebrate anyway. I just came to drop off his gift.”

“Y/n, I’m sorry,” he frowned, his anger rising as more tears fell from your eyes. He knew how much you were looking forward to celebrating your anniversary and he felt terrible at how you were being treated by Ushijima. He wasn’t blind to all of the sacrifices you made for him and he knew it was time Ushijima stopped taking you for granted. 

“Good night, Tendou.”

The walk home was cold and lonely and you only felt worse when you woke up the next morning with a fever. But you were comforted by all the messages from Tendou and the other members asking how you were doing and interrogating you. They were seconds away from going over to your house because of your lack of response when you assured them you were doing fine and sent them a picture of yourself in bed, saying you had a fever.

Even with the group chat blowing up, there was still no response from Ushijima and you wondered if he just didn’t care. 

Your thoughts were swarmed with insecurities and before you knew it, you were sobbing into your pillow. 

Does he even love me?

You tried remembering a time where he actually said those three words, but you found you couldn’t. A year of dating and “I love you” never escaped his lips. A year of being treated like a second choice. A year of putting his feelings first and getting your heart stomped on.

You were tired and you didn’t know how much longer this cycle of disappointment could go on. 

You were torn out of your thoughts when you heard the front door open and the low murmur of voices before heavy footsteps began approaching your room. You pulled the covers over your head, hiding your messy hair and your swollen face. 

The door creaked as it opened and you peeked through the small opening of the blanket, your mouth dropping in surprise when you saw a large figure standing in your bedroom.

“Ushijima?” you questioned, sitting up abruptly before wincing at your nausea caused by the sudden movement.

He stopped examining all the photos in your room and turned around to face you, his eyes widening when he saw your red-rimmed eyes. He barely registered the fact that you called him by his last name and not his first, his main focus was what made you cry. 

“What’s wrong, y/n?” he asked, worry clearly written on his face. “Why are you crying?”

“Why are you here, Ushijima?” you asked instead, bringing your gaze to your fidgeting fingers, a habit you did when you were nervous.

“You are sick so I brought medicine and food to help you recover,” his eyebrows furrowed at your question and the lack of excitement in your tone when before, you always greeted him with a smile. It was one of his favorite things about you and he was beginning to miss it. 

“Well, as you can see, I’m fine. You can just leave the medicine and go. I wouldn’t want to interfere with your practice,” your tone was harsh and left no room for argument. 

You were angry, Ushijima finally realized. The hurt expression on your face wasn’t one he was used to and he didn’t know how to fix it. His heart shattered as your chin began to tremble and tears trailed down your cheeks. 

He remembered the harsh words he gave you and the fact that he made you walk home alone and he opened his mouth to apologize when he heard you whisper, “Do you even remember what day it was yesterday?”

His silence answered your question and you let out a bitter laugh, sliding back under the covers and turning away from him. “Just go away, Ushijima.”

“Please,” your voice cracked as you held back a sob. 

He stared at your shaking form, a frown tugging at his lips but he listened to you words and exited your room, the door letting a resounding click as it closed.

Despite your words, you hoped he would stay but you figured this was just another disappointment to add to the list. The thought only made you cry more and Ushijima listened just on the other side of the door, wondering what he could do to fix this.

You wondered if this was the end of your relationship and after an hour of crying, you finally fell asleep. By the time you woke up, daylight had faded and your room was now shrouded in darkness. 

You were creeped out by how silent the house was but you figured it was time to get out of bed and get something to eat. You walked downstairs and heard the shuffling of footsteps. 

“Mom?” you called out, now a little nervous that an intruder had somehow gotten in while you were sleeping. 

You tiptoed your way into the living room, only for a scream to lodge itself in your throat as the lights suddenly flickered on. Ushijima stood there in a suit with a cake in his hands. 

“Ushijima?” you gasped, “What are you doing here?”

He placed the cake on a table nearby and walked towards you, cupping your cheeks in between his large hands. You were too surprised to react, still shocked by the fact that he was still here and he hadn’t left. 

“I am sorry, y/n,” he said, his voice soft as he struggled to convey his feelings. “You mean so much to me and I never wanted to hurt you. I didn’t mean to forget our anniversary.”

You came to your senses once you heard his words and you stepped back, letting his hands fall from your face. 

“It’s not just that, Ushijima,” you whispered, “I’m just tired. I’m tired of always being a second choice to volleyball and always putting in all the effort only to receive none in return.”

He thought of all the times he rescheduled your dates or came late because he chose to spend more time practicing and guilt washed over him. Ushijima never realized just how much you did for him. He was blind to your suffering and now he was facing the consequences.

“I will be better,” he promised. There was no hint of hesitation in his voice. He truly meant it and you could feel your walls slowly crumbling once again. “I will be someone who is worthy of you. Just give me a second chance to prove my love to you.”

Your breath caught and time stumbled.

“You love me?”

You didn’t expect him to confess and now that he had, you were completely powerless to stopping yourself from falling for him once again. The ache in your chest was replaced with warmth and you found the smallest of smiles forming on your lips.

“I always have,” he replied, reaching up to rub a thumb across your cheekbone. He leaned down to kiss your forehead before touching his lips to your eyelids. His face was centimeters away from yours when he pulled back, “Can I kiss you?”

You nodded and he pulled you closer. The both of you missed each other and the kiss was soft but desperate. You could feel the familiar butterflies making themselves known as he pulled away and gave you one of his rare smiles, the one he only gave you. “Happy belated anniversary, my love.”

“Happy anniversary, Wakatoshi.”

[ojirominaj]

—THEIR HABITS WHILE DATING YOU

featuring: sugawara kōshi, aone takenobu, kita shinsuke, kenma kozume, ushijima wakatoshi, nishinoya yū, & akaashi keiji.

content warnings: not proofread.

SUGAWARA KŌSHI

memorizes every single one of your orders from each place you get things from. so it’s less of a hassle when you two go out, he orders for you as well. finds it a gentleman-like thing to do but he always asks first just in case you’d like to speak for yourself one time. whenever you thank him for memorizing something so minuscule, he’ll just brush it off and say it’s only because he loves you.

AONE TAKENOBU

always manages to pick you up flowers no matter the occasion. usually it’s from when he’s just walking and he sees them in his path. he’ll make sure not to crush it in his hands, since he’s done plenty of times before. both if the occasion is special, he goes to an actual flower shop to get you a bouquet. always manages to tuck a flower behind your ear and kisses your forehead with a small adorning his lips.

KITA SHINSUKE

gives coaching praise. kind of doesn’t leave his mindset as a team captain even if he’s with you. so if you’re struggling with something he likes to give you those small words of encouragement that gives you a boost in confidence and motivation. even if you aren’t doing anything. he’ll just randomly tell you that he’s proud of you. the words fall from his lips so sweetly that you have no choice but to keep going forward.

KENMA KOZUME

will share everything with you. you don’t even have to ask sometimes. if you two are in the middle of lunch and you forgot to bring yours that day, he’ll share some of whatever he’s having. he always lets you have the bigger portion of it as well and even though you continuously scold him for it, he knows you silently ask for it so he’s just being genuine.

USHIJIMA WAKATOSHI

let’s his hands rest on your neck or waist in crowded public settings to ‘guide you’. even if you don’t to be guided he still leaves it there so he can show he daily dose of physical affection without being too obvious. he also does it while you two are in private. if he’s trying to get by it’s always followed with a “excuse me sweetheart” and a brief smile.

NISHINOYA YŪ

brushes his hand against your cheeks before he’s about to kiss you. looks at you as if you have the stars in your eyes before he gives you a small peck or a longing, passionate kiss as if he’s going to lose you in the next minute. also likes to jump up to give you a kiss (or vice versa). finds it so cute and will do it in when he’s in need of you.

AKAASHI KEIJI

has extras of things you need or want in his car + his place. if you’re prone to losing things and being forgetful, then he’s perfect for this. always keeps extra chapsticks in the glove compartment of his car if you forget yours. has the same exact products of your skin care in his medicine cabinet, and has your favourite flavour of ice cream in his freezer ready to be eaten after a bad day.

author’s note: wrote this because i was bored lol. um i’m finishing up requests and i’ll probably be rlly busy tomorrow so i’ll have that queued. happy reading bbs <3.

[fangirl-imagines]

Being in a Relationship with Michael Corleone Would Include...

A/N: Michael Corleone is one of the sexiest men ever to grace the silver screen and I will not be taking criticism on this. If you have any Michael request please send them in because I have so many things I want to write for this man. 

When you met Michael it was long before he ended up becoming the Don. Either while he was in college or right after he got out of the marines. 

It was when he allowed himself to show more of his sweet side and that is partly what drew you to him was his kindness and those big dark eyes. 

Even after he becomes Don Corleone though he will always have a big soft spot for you. 

You get to see the sweet, kind natured side of this big scary mobster and you know his heart better than anyone else ever could (the good and the bad of it). 

In public he will never be very affectionate with you. 

He’s not ashamed of you by any means, quite the opposite actually, he’s proud to have you on his arm, but he thinks showing affection is a weakness so it’s something he likes to reserve for when the two of you are alone. 

Then he can barely keep his hands off of you. 

At home when he likes to have you sitting on his lap, his arms wrapped around you, and you running your fingers through his hair (or vice versa) while he sorts through the million and one things he has on his mind at any one time. 

He also has a habit of coming up behind you and wrapping his arms around you and kissing your neck when you’re the one focused on something around the house like when he gets home and you’re fixing dinner, he will silently come wrap his arms around you and kiss your neck in greeting and stay there talking to you while you finish what you’re doing. 

Loyalty is everything to him. He will stay loyal to you no matter what and he expects the same thing from you. 

He will never even think of looking at another woman as long as he has you waiting for him at home. He doesn’t see how any of them could compare to you anyway. 

Michael is a bit...old fashioned in his views on your relationship. 

When you get married he’s going to expect you to stay home and focus on being a housewife. 

Sorry but that’s just how Michael is. There really is very little changing his mind on this. 

Speaking of which, Michael is incredibly stubborn on pretty much everything. You will HAVE to put your foot down on somethings because otherwise Michael will never budge when he makes up his mind on something. 

Tom has had to play referee between the two of you more times than he would like to remember, trying to talk some sense into Michael for you and trying to explain things to you rather than just giving you a firm no like Michael does. 

But when it comes to involving you with the business Michael will never budge. He wants you to stay as far away from his business as possible. 

He may seem unreasonable to you sometimes on this, especially since his business can very easily impact your life together and your marriage but he will still almost always try to avoid talking to you about his work and keep you as far away from his business dealings as possible. 

His worst fear in the world is something bad happening to you and it eats at him how much danger his business could potentially put you in. 

If anyone from his world were to ever threaten you or your family with Michael, Michael would be losing it inside no matter how stoic he remained on the outside. 

That person would be dealt with very quickly and finally. Michael won’t tolerate any threats against his family and he is ruthless when it comes to your safety. 

You have to be willing to let a lot of things go unquestioned with Michael. There are many things he wishes he could tell you but never will because he knows it's in everyone’s best interest if you don’t know. 

Arguments with Michael can be frightening mostly because of just how calm and quiet he is during them even though you can see how tense he is. 

He will usually just shut down and walk away when you try to fight with him. He hates fighting with you and it upsets him enough that he has to walk away before he loses his temper with you. 

Most of the time though, Michael would be so sweet with you, even though he isn’t very publicly affectionate he is always very intended to your needs. 

He’s always ready to sweep you aside if he thinks you’re uncomfortable in a situation or are feeling anxious, if you’re having a bad day he can immediately pick up on it and will be trying to get you to relax, etc. 

It doesn’t matter what else is going on in the room, Michael always has one eye fixed on you at all times, making sure you’re okay. 

You try not to stress Michael out too much when you’re having a problem or are just feeling kind of down but Michael knows about this and hates it. 

He wants you to feel like you can tell him anything and feels guilty that you don’t want to tell him when you’re struggling because you don’t want him to worry about you. 

Michael always is going to worry about you. 

Michael will always have your back, he is never going to let anyone talk bad about you in his presence. Ever. And God help the poor bastard who would ever actually try to hurt you because they would be meeting God very soon.

You’re going to end up spending lots of time alone while he’s busy with work but he tries to make it home for dinner with you whenever he can. 

Michael usually doesn’t come to bed until late either and is an early riser so he is usually coming to bed after you and leaving before you but sometimes you’ll wake up to him climbing into bed next to you and pulling you against him, pressing his lips softly against your forehead and telling you to go back to sleep. 

You’re going to have to spend lots of time with his family and become very close to them. 

They accept you with open arms though after you marry Michael and become a Corleone. They all can see how happy you make Michael and they are happy to invite you into their family and have you as one of them. 

Connie especially would be so happy to have a sister finally. She is much closer to you than she was to Sonny’s wife and she loves having you around for gossiping and shopping. 

If you didn’t know Italian before you’re going to want to learn and there are certainly plenty of people around to help you learn. 

The first time you told Michael “ti amo” he just grins and kisses you, so proud of you for learning and touched that you made it a point to learn more about his culture. 

He wants to have a family with you right away after you get married. 

Family is important to him and he loves the idea of having children with you. 

He may or may not have a breeding kink but that is a topic for another day. 

Slow dancing. 

Slow dancing in the living room or in Michael’s office together at night after a long day. 

When he is really stressed out he likes when you sit in his lap and put your head on top of his and smooth his hair. His whole body relaxes then and it helps him feel a little better and safer to be sitting there with you, wrapped in your arms. 

He tries really hard to do something romantic with you when he gets an opportunity even though they are few and far between. 

As important as his business is to him, Michael will always try his best to make you understand that you and your family together is always his first priority in life.

[just-dreaming-marvel]

Writing Tips

Here’s some writing tips I’ve found helpful for anyone who is struggling and may need them! I can’t promise my tips are any good, but here we go:

Don’t post for notes, post to make yourself more confident and a better writer. It is hard to get passed the lack of interactions, trust me I still get bummed a lot. But posting my writing has actually made me a more confident person (on and off this site) and a better writer. I’ve read parts of my first fic, LEGACY, lately and I cringe so bad because it’s really not that good (I’m now doing a major edit to it) but then I read some of my other fics and realize that the only reason those are good is because of LEGACY. Posting my work has improved my work.

Write your ideas done before you forget them! This happens to me all the time and I hate myself for it. I’m trying to get more in the habit of jotting down ideas in my notes. You never know even when the smallest bit of inspiration will strike!

Before you start writing, even just your first draft, right an outline. An outline can be formatted in many ways. I’ve used many different outlines depending on how I’m feeling and how much of the story I already have planned in my head. Sometimes I create a table, other times it’s bullet points, or (because I’m an elementary teacher) I find a graphic organizer I want to use. Write down as much as you can about the story you’re starting. Characters (relationships, backstories, personalities, etc), certain scenes and lines you already know you want to happen, settings, important plot points, where you want the story to end. Refer back to it as you write and feel free to add and edit it.

(This one can work with the outline.) Write a summary of the chapters before you actually write them. This way you know what you want to happen in the chapter or what needs to happen in the chapter. You can do a few at a time and work on them as you go along or map all the chapters out before you actually write it.

Don’t be afraid to do research before writing a scene! Or if you are even interesting in writing a scene. Do research, take notes!

Edit! (I’m still working on this and sometimes I’m better than others.) Find a system for editing that works for you. Could be you rereading it over and over in your head and out loud to yourself. It could be a friend or a follow reading it before you post it. Or a site like Grammarly.

Find a system of writing that works for you. Don’t be afraid to try new things! But also don’t be afraid to stay in your comfort zone if it’s working for you.

Don’t be afraid to be vulnerable. Share personal stories, you’d be surprised how many people have gone through the experience or something similar. My most vulnerable fics are some of my best and most popular.

Write what you want and feel comfortable with. No need to open/take requests if you don’t want to. And if you do, you don’t have write every single request or do it exactly the way it was asked. You are the author, you decide how it’s written.

Give yourself some slack. No one is perfect. No one’s writing it perfect. Even the paid professionals make mistakes (trust me, I know famous authors and they make plenty of writing mistakes). Not all stories, fics, chapters, etc, are going to be a hit. Some will flop. But it’s not a reflection on you as a person or a writer. You are an amazing person and writer, no matter the amount of notes or what negative people have to say.

[blursed-ninjago-ideas]

Whumptober 6

Past midnight again. Don’t know what to say except I had stuff. And again, work in the morning, so...

No editing, only death.

Prompt: Screams from Across the Hall

Non-ninja: Brad Tudabone

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Deep breaths. Deep breaths. Just breath deeply and crush everything your feeling down into the garbage can that is your emotional state.

Brad focused on that. He ignored the screams from across the hall. There was no telling what it was about.

A student could be trying to annoy their teacher but screaming over them, or maybe in their ear. It was common, especially if there was a substitute. Plenty of students loved to be obnoxious in every way they could. Lying obviously and blatantly with a confidence so sickening it forced you into an argument with them. Brad had witnessed Liam gaslight someone without a scrap of dignity. His victim wasn’t fooled in the slightest, but that wasn’t the point. His victim was so offended at the attempt they turned every color of the rainbow, starting with red and ending with purple.

It could’ve been a kid getting punished. The teachers loved their discipline at Darkely’s. It wasn’t uncommon to hear a kid screaming, crying, and begging. It was best to ignore it when you did. The teachers loved to use sympathy as an excuse to extend punishment. Being too nice got you the bad kind of attention. Which Brad didn’t want.

Someone could just flat out be scared. Nightmares happened frequently. They were never commented on. No one comforted anyone over it, but there was an unspoken rule that shaming someone for it was also off limits. Those screams went unaddressed.

It could be a fight. Maybe it was fair, maybe it wasn’t. Brad had seen his fair share of both. Every boy in Darkley’s was angry and looking to take it out on someone. Sometimes strange friendships formed over ritualistically beating the crud out of one another, but those boys didn’t scream. Maybe it was two strong boys clashing to see who came out on top, but the most likely scenario was that it wasn’t an even match. The big kids loved to pick on the little ones, like Lloyd Garmadon.

Speaking of the little lordling, Brad wondered what happened to him. He had a habit of running, which the teachers didn’t like. No one still had count of how many times Lloyd had been brought back, kicking and screeching whatever new swears he had picked up before getting punished. Brad had heard Lloyd’s screams so much, he could tell you what was happening to him based on scream alone. He was pretty sure the rest of their class could too. Lloyd liked to make a target of himself.

There was a rumor that Lloyd had finally gotten himself expelled. Brad didn’t know if that was good or bad news for the blond. Either way, it was best not to dwell on it he supposed.

The struggles of Lloyd Garmadon were best ignored. Just as the screams across the hall at Darkley’s were.

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Have I mentioned I work at a school now? After the last two weeks I’ve had and that one student, I knew exactly what to do for this prompt.

-Ivy