#I still have asks waiting for answers-I don't want you to think that I'm ignoring them! im just still crawling on the ceiling on all fours
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saras-almanac Ā· 22 hours ago
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you asked for distraciton so let's say you have the run of the show what would your ideal robert return and reunion be? i really can't wait for an affair 2.0 because that would be so amazing to see that from the other side and how aaron deals with that and robert since he's insane about his jealousy over aaron
Thank you so much for this ask as it really helped me have something to think about and now I can't sleep and figured now's the perfect time to answer this because literally what else am I doing?
But as an answer, I'll be honest I'm so incredibly torn on how I want Robert's return to the village to be in so many ways. I really go back and forth on whether I want them to have a full-blown affair or if I want that to really truly start after the John stuff's out a bit and then they fall back together and sort of sneak around about it. Or it starts as an emotional affair while Robert's still in prison, talking about a lot of stuff but also not actually talking about anything yet, you know gotta make sure these storylines stretch a lot!
The reason I'm so torn is because I genuinely don't know how they're going to play this John stuff and I just don't think they're going to go far enough with it, if I'm honest. Like it'd not that I want John to stick around, but man do I wish his jealousy causes him to like lock Aaron up somewhere because if he can't have Aaron, then no one can sort of idea. And then of course Robert who has an insane Aaron's in danger radar will be the only one to actually look for him because he just knows Aaron so well and will know something's wrong.
Or have John actually try to kill Robert before everything else has come out about John so that's a huge thing of obviously no Dingles believe Robert because for some reason they're thinking Robert is still 2014-2015 Robert and not a man who willingly went to prison for killing his sister's rapist and not forcing her to testify about it and willingly let Aaron go (forcing his hand) rather than force Aaron to spend the rest of his life visiting him. But that's a whole other issue. If this happened, then it could prompt Aaron to actually start thinking because he knows Robert loves him still and would never try and force Aaron to be with him by lying about something like this.
So basically I don't really know how exactly I want Robert's return to the village to go and/or John's killer reveal to happen but I'm sure I'll probably dislike it whatever they do because John is so boring--his wedding color is beige. Like... not even a warm or dark beige or an accent color that actually pops--the light green almost blends in. Anyways, he's just so boring and I would love to see him really go off before the end.
And then the main thing I really want is that Robert deals with his prison trauma sort of after the John stuff--like Robert's able to ignore it because he's focused on hating John and being a little shit the entire time and Robert's good at having a mask, but once that's over I would love to really delve into Robert's time in prison. I sort of like the idea that he's actually been dealing with some sort of health issue that he's not told anyone about just because I feel like having something like that to work through--which obviously brings Aaron and him closer still--and Robert needing to learn to actually lean on Aaron since he never really did/could back in the old days. (Remember when Liv basically came right out and said they can't say things to Aaron because everyone's always worried about how Aaron's going to handle stuff... and then they basically did nothing really with that) But I would love Robert to be dealing with prison very differently than Aaron and from what we've seen, it seems to be the case. To me, Robert seemed really vulnerable when he was just with Aaron and just had his sarcastic mask ready to go for everyone else and I'm so interested in how he managed in prison. There's just something about the way Ryan was playing all that that felt incredibly intense. And I just don't want a repeat of too many of the same story beats they had when Aaron went to prison.
Now my biggest problem is I just don't know how any of those things will work together to actually be a reunion or whatever, so this isn't really an answer to your question! But those are things I'm thinking about and would love but we'll see what this show actually does. And I'll be here obsessing over wasted potential and what I would have done and giving them the conversations I want them to have but not necessarily on the soap...
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lisxdumbr Ā· 2 years ago
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I feel so abandoned lately.. it's like I'm a little girl and today is my first day of school and I know no one once again. sigh
#vent in tags?#so aheem. yeah it happens that my friends and i always play together#but when one of us can't make it none of us play because we want to be together yknow#but it happens that today I wasn't going to be able to join. and one of my friends just went-#ā€oh nevermind. the two of us can join to advance and you can come another day when you're ableā€#and i just ? idk it kinda freaked me a bit because it's the first time they say that?#but well i agreed because idk. my first thought was that they were very excited to play or something. but it did make me feel a bit. uneasy?#and yeah i tell them that i may be able to join around 11 but they just. ignored my messages#and i waited for them to reply but the reply never came#and i still opened our disc server to see if they're there and yeah. they're talking. they were projecting something a while ago too#and idk it's not that deep but i do feel a bit bad. if it had been any of the other two we would've agreed not to play till another day#but the very first time this happens it had to be with me as the subject#I've always had a rooted social anxiety that i thought i had overcome in the past but i don't think i have#my thoughts are spinning and i feel bad and the recent friendship paranoia i got is not helping#if i was normal i would probably join the vc and ask them directly why they aren't answering my messages but I'm not brave enough#so i guess I'll play alone tonight and tomorrow we'll see#but i feel very sad and lonely right now#:(#vent#rant
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brawberryz Ā· 4 months ago
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Little Demon
Batfam Yan! Ɨ Neglected Nezuko! Reader
Note:English is not my first language, sorry if there is any translation error / M.list
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You were normal
You weren't the monster you've become, before everything you were just an ordinary high school student
Everything had happened so fast that you didn't even have time to process it
A few hours ago everything was normal
You woke up as usual adding yourself to go to class, you greeted alfred while you were having breakfast
Breakfast felt as lonely as always your family was never present not even in things as common as having breakfast together as a family
No one ever had time for you, everyone was so busy with their responsibilities and you understood it, you always understood
They were vigilant and you knew they had a lot of responsibilities on their shoulders but sometimes you would like them to look at you or ask you how your day was
If someone in the family turned to look at you or talk to you it was a miracle, the only person you had by your side was alfred
He was a father figure more than your real father could be
Bruce, as you called him because father was too big a name for someone like him, maybe he wasn't even worthy of being called father
You saw his relationship with the rest of your siblings and how he treated them with so much respect and affection
At some point you felt jealous, why was he so good to them? Why couldn't you feel that affection
Why?
Why!?
Nobody took care of you or protected you, since you were little you understood that if you didn't protect yourself nobody would
Everyone had talents and they were amazing
You were just (name), the shadow of the family because the only thing that was important was having the last name Wayne, but then you were nobody
You were never anybody
You stopped thinking so much and picked up your bag and walked out the door of the mansion giving Alfred a last goodbye
_
Classes went by faster than you would like, school was a safe place for you, there you could be yourself with your friends
To your friends you weren't (name) Wayne, the daughter of a billionaire playboy, you were just a (name) L/N a girl full of energy and eager to help others
You lazily got up from your seat grabbing your bag heading to the classroom door
There was Aoi waiting for you as usual, you were grateful to have such a good friend like her
"You look more tired than usual, is something wrong (name)?"
The black-haired girl asks worriedly, walking with you to the exit. You just nodded, giving her a fake smile.
"Yeah, don't worry, I just didn't sleep well today."
That's a lie. You had slept more than well, but since this morning you had felt that something was wrong, as if something bad was about to happen.
You couldn't shake that feeling off after hours. You decided to ignore it, but that feeling still remained.
Aoi just nodded, unsure of your answer. She had been your friend for years and she knew you too well to know when something was bothering you.
"Hey, today me and shinobu are going to a new cafe that opened. Do you want to go?"
You stayed quiet for a few seconds thinking about the proposal, you liked going out with your friends but this time you felt like you shouldn't go
"I'm sorry aoi but... I'm really busy today I have homework to do"
You politely apologized to her
Aoi raised an eyebrow, there was something she didn't like, she knew something was happening to you but she wasn't going to force you to tell her, she didn't want it to seem like she was someone insistent
She simply gave you a nod and then looked ahead, this was where your paths separated as you lived on totally opposite streets
She gave you a big hug as a farewell and then separated from you with a smile on her face
"See you tomorrow (name), take care!"
She said as she shook her hand and her presence disappeared more and more as she walked away
You let out a tired sigh before turning on your heels and taking the path home
You walked with your head down, your thoughts consumed your head that you didn't even notice the imminent danger that was approaching you
You didn't understand why your family seemed to hate you, you were always obedient, good and polite
You were the best in your class and you had great intelligence but you were still invisible to all of them
Sometimes you just wanted to disappear, being someone else didn't matter you just wanted to leave
But you knew that until you turned 18 it would be impossible to get out of that house
You were so distracted in your thoughts that you didn't even have time to react before something too strong pushed you into a dirty alley
You tried to get up and defend yourself but that strange man grabbed you by the neck cutting off your breathing and not being able to get up
As your vision blurred you could see his red eyes and a cynical smile forming on his lips
The last thing you felt was something embedded in your neck causing you to lose consciousness
Everything was black, you couldn't move or feel anything
So you died?
Is this how it all ended? Dying in a dirty alley full of trash and rats?
Maybe this is what you deserved, you were never anything important just trash
And trash should stay with trash, right?
Alfred ran at full speed through the mansion towards Bruce's office, he couldn't believe that this had happened
He slammed open the door to Bruce's office causing Bruce to stop concentrating on the paperwork to look at his butler
It was too strange for Alfred to enter without knocking, and he was also struck by Alfred's worried and disheveled attitude
Only something too important or serious would have to happen to break Alfred's impeccable personality
"Master Bruce...Miss (name)..."
The old man struggled to find air in his lungs, having run all over the mansion had left him exhausted
"What's wrong with her? Don't tell me she got into trouble-"
Alfred interrupted Bruce in the middle of his sentence to speak again
"No...she...she's dead"
Those words hit Bruce hard
Dead?
Your death couldn't be true, it had to be some kind of joke
"What?"
It was the only thing he could say in shock, he knew that Alfred would never lie to him, much less about a subject as serious as death
But his brain simply couldn't process it
_
The entire batfam was at the police station, the news of your death shook the entire family in a bad way
Now they were here to identify your body, they found it in an alley according to the police record a woman who was passing by found your body covered in blood that was supposed to have been yours
According to the police it was a very crude and bloody crime scene
They couldn't believe that someone would be capable of doing that to a being as innocent as you
The simple fact that someone had done all those things to you made everyone's blood boil with rage
Richard felt terrible, remembering all the times you asked him to spend time together and he simply made the excuse that he was busy or that he didn't have time
He was the worst brother, he was supposed to be the oldest one who should have protected you but all he did was push you away and cause your premature death
Jason could barely handle all the emotions he felt at that moment, he felt rage, sadness and regret
He still remembered the times he had insulted you and told you not to interfere in his life
No matter what he had to do, he was going to avenge his little sister and he was going to make the person who had done that to you suffer
In Tim's head he tried to find some possible suspect for your death, maybe the joker had already killed Jason once, it was just a matter of time before he did it again
He could still remember the times he had ignored you, that moment when you made cupcakes was still in his mind and you had the brightest smile of all
You had prepared them especially for your family but all you received was their rejection telling you that they were busy
Remember the rude way in which I refused your food and asked you to leave, right now, anything to be able to be with you and try your desserts
Damian was burning with fury, who was the bastard who dared to kill his sister!?
He, unlike the rest, didn't want to accept his guilt. He firmly believed that the times he had hit you, humiliated you, and insulted you were for your own good.
You should know well that you were too weak for this world, that he was your protector.
Cass could barely process everything. She had lost another important person to her again, and this time it was her fault again.
She leaned against a corner and let her thoughts consume her. She felt the worst. Maybe if she had paid attention to you, you would be alive now.
Barbara felt the same way as Richard. She still remembered the times you begged for her attention, wanting to spend time with her, but she only pushed you away more and more each day.
Steph could only stare at the floor. It was her fault for ignoring you. She thought that at some point you would adapt to the mansion, but it never happened. All she did was make you feel more like a burden and a nuisance.
But the one who felt the worst was Bruce. He was supposed to be your father, he was supposed to be the first to protect you. But he didn't. All he did was ignore you
He was the worst father ever, now because of him you were dead
They took him to a room to identify your body and left him there alone for a few minutes
Right there he collapsed, his serious and unwavering facade broke
His daughter, his baby is now dead because of him, he would do anything to revive you, he would even use the Lazarus pit even knowing the consequences that caused
But suddenly he felt like something lunged at him
And there was you
Alive
You were alive in some way, but he saw that it wasn't you...
Your eyes had that wild look, your teeth were sharp and long nails that you had never had before
He grabbed a metal pipe he found on the floor and tried to fight you by putting it in your mouth so that you wouldn't bite him or disfigure his face with your claws or teeth
Your strength was superhuman, as if you were no longer the (name) that he knew
Now you had become something wilder
But he felt small tears falling on his face, he was crying
It seemed as if a part of you was trying to control your instincts, he noticed your distressed and scared look
Suddenly Richard entered the room with Jason
They had heard a loud noise coming from the room
The men's faces were surprised when they saw you alive
Or rather, you didn't look human and your skin looked paler
Also, your hair had changed, the tips that were completely black before were now orange
The two quickly came out of their trance and helped Bruce get you off of them, you were still struggling and trying to get out of their grip
Then Damian and Tim appeared through the door when they heard all the commotion
Before either of them could speak, Richard interrupted them
"There's no time for explanations, distract the police now!"
He said trying to keep you from getting out of the grip, Tim and Damian just nodded confused as they went with the others to distract the guards
Meanwhile Jason decided that the best idea was to knock you out so he did, but he earned a scolding from Bruce for hitting you so hard
"Stop complaining so much and be thankful we didn't let her kill you"
He said dryly, he saw how you fell surrendered to his arms, for now they should find a way to get you out of here without anyone noticing
_
The days passed quickly in the mansion, they had you with a kind of muzzle on your mouth to prevent any incident
Although after having "revived" you were only aggressive once, to tell the truth this version of you was much calmer and less energetic than the previous one
After Bruce asked Constantine for help he told him that most likely you had been turned into a demon and that if they wanted you to be human again the person that turned you into a demon was supposed to turn you back into a human
For days the batfam spent their time investigating and trying to find information about the person who did that to you but they found almost nothing
But almost nothing was that bad, it seemed you rejected human flesh and blood and you recovered energy by sleeping, you didn't need to eat or drink water just sleep
Most of the day (not to say all day) you spent somewhere in the mansion sleeping
Everyone fought over who would cuddle with you during your morning nap, they agreed on a deal that every day of the week it would be a family member's turn to sleep with you and take care of you
And after everything worked, most of your memories disappeared so they didn't have to worry about you remembering what horrible siblings they were
They also found out that you can't be in the sun unless you want to disintegrate and die
Tim thought it was a good idea to open the windows so you could see the sun after so long
Tim's expression The horror on his face was great when he saw how your skin began to burn and how you screamed in pain
He quickly closed the windows and approached you to see your condition
Luckily your regenerative abilities were very helpful, but Tim still didn't escape Bruce's scolding and you think Damian almost killed Tim that day
You could say that the days in the mansion were good, of course sometimes you would like to go out and see other places but you knew it would be impossible
The batfam preferred to die rather than let you wander alone through the streets of Gotham again, in their eyes you were still that weak little girl even knowing that you could easily kill them all
For now you should get used to this life until they find a cure
But you shouldn't worry, when you are cured they will never let you go again
Never
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I finished this quicker than I thought
I hope you like it because I probably won't upload anything for 3 or 4 days
byeee
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dark-night-hero Ā· 5 months ago
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Imagine, I kept thinking about a Kamisato Ayato in a modern day AU in which him and the reader were going through a divorce because things are not going the way it was supposed to be and the marriage is just not working out anymore. When suddenly, suddenly he had an amnesia.
Imagine instead of his mistress, it was you whom he kept looking for, demanding to see upon waking up after the accident. Leaving his mistress baffled and confused just as you are upon arriving at the hospital, hoping that little shitty of a husband dead only to find him demanding and desperately looking for you in the midst of this messy and chaotic moment.
"Anata." His voice soften in contrast to his shouts earlier before you enter the room, doctors, nurses and his mistress all inside. "Anata." He called out again but you just stood there as he desperately tried to call your attention. "Anata, who are these people inside the room? What's happening?" He called out and question you, you knew he was calling you because he was looking at you, not anyone but you. Which is pretty funny because he haven't called you that for years, ever since the marriage started falling apart.
"He must have hit his head pretty hard Doc." You spoke nonchalantly, not in the mood to deal with all this bullshit. "It's been years since he called me like that. Can someone explain to me what's happening with my husband?" "Husband? Then who-?" "His mistress." You replied. "As I'm saying- asking rather, can someone explain to me what happened to this guy over here?" "... Very well, Mr. Kamisato over here is involved in a car accident and had brain concussion. As we can see..."
Imagine walking into the room, not that you want to. But upon walking into the room, you are quite surprised to find him alone in there. You were quite expected him to have his mistress with him but turns out that was not the case. "Who's that?" "Who's who?" "That person who was here earlier calling me her lover." "Oh. Well she is exactly who she said she was, she's your lover." You answered, sitting on the sofa inside the private room. Looking away and pulling your phone to check out your notifications. Because goddammit, how dare he look so hurt by those words?
"She what-? Why? Tell me you're joking." You have never seen him look so confused before. Looking back and forth to the notifications on your phone and to the man right in front of you. You sigh, causing him to flinch. "The doctor told me you can be dismissed in two days because you're still under observation. And while you're current suffering from amnesia, they said there was still a possibility of you regaining your memories so don't treat her pretty harshly. I know it could be confusing at first but you'll het over it." You explain and then stood up, "Then, I'll get going now."
Imagine glancing at him only to see him look so broken, like he was waiting, begging for someone to wake him from his dream, from his nightmare. You look away, it's not like it hurts to see him like that. It stopped hurting years ago. Nevertheless, once again you sigh. "Anata-" "I can't have children." "It doesn't matter-" "Well it does now, Ayato." You smile softly at him. "And that explains everything." You added before turning your back at him and walking towards the door. "Oh right, please sign the divorce paper. You wouldn't want your future child to be labelled illegitimate, no?"
Imagine hearing him call out- scream after you but you just kept walking without looking back. You ignore his cries and call with all your might, and walking past the corridor, "Go on, comfort him." You said as you walked pass the woman. "I'm sorry." She said, sounding like she was about to cry and you couldn't help but to smile a little, "No, I'm sorry." You replied as you continue to walk your way out of the hospital.
Imagine going inside the car, your cachuffere already waiting for you inside. And in the middle of the ride, "Want to smoke?" "Nahh" You declined as you look at the city lights. "Are you sure you wouldn't regret this?" "What are you talking about." You chuckle. "He might remember everything one day." "He won't. And even if he did, he wouldn't be able to do anything by then." You answered. "He would hate you." "Then much better." You replied.
"Is it?" "Hmm?" "For the better?" Well in comparison to the amount of suffering he has to go through cause by his elders just because he has yet to produce a heir to the clan, questioning and criticising his title as the chairman and chief of the Kamisato clan, it would be much better to get rid of his one of only flaw. His spouse that couldn't give him a heir. Closing your eyes, this is nothing, "Yeah, for the better." I'm sorry, my love.
[ā“’dark-night-hero] 2025°
: I'm getting a hang of this crocheshit. Ily may pasok na ko bukas yawa ayoko na pumasok. Also, this imagine escalated real quick like no sht. I was writing this for fluff but???
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sourle Ā· 2 months ago
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Oneshot n Headcanons
WARNINGS: There might be smelling mistakes/mispronouns/ooc. I apologize in advance for those.
Enjoy the show.
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You wish you weren't brought into this hell, Looping for eternity for the joy of torturing. Was this really the karma for the things you did in your past?
Was this all just a sick joke as a payback from them?
You don't know.
You wish you could take it back and wouldn't end up here. Being chased around like some kind of toy all for entertainment for the.. killers. You're luckily not alone.. but… they're not all better.
After they know what you did, they turn their back on you. More often than not, they never help you whenever you're in a struggle.
Ignoring you completely.
You hate it, you don't like it. It's what makes the loop hell WORSE.
The way the other survivors treat you. Elliot never bothered to offer you a pizza. Shedletsky would just watch you getting chased alongside Guest. HECK, even 007n7 ignored you COMPLETELY.
It was exhausting, especially when all you wanted was a new beginning. Without the constant nagging of what you did.
You approached Taph, tapping him on his shoulder. ā€œHey— May I ask you something?ā€”ā€
ā€œšŸ§ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ā™‚ļøšŸ¤·ā€ā™‚ļøšŸ‘‰šŸ‘·ā€ā™‚ļøā“ā€ (I don't know as well, maybe you should ask Builderman) You nod at his answer, giving him a thumbs up and left. Glancing back to see he gave you a thumbs up as well.
You next walked up to Noob, ā€œSorry to bother you… but do we have a plan for the next match?ā€”ā€
Upon hearing your voice they flinched, they didn't seem to hear you but he just nodded quickly. ā€œY-you should ask Builderman about it, I'm s-sure he has m-more.. information.ā€
You watch as they speed walk away, slipping a bit.
You brushed his silly actions and went to find Builderman. He is outside the cabin with Shedletsky, seemingly in a conversation as Builderman checks over his new invention.
You approach the two and once you get closer, they turn their attention to the footsteps coming closer.
Shedletsky looks.. rather wary, whilst Builderman has that unreadable expression. You hope that's not hatred.
ā€œUhm— Hey, Builderman.. Can I ask about the next upcoming match’s plan?ā€
He didn't answer you outrightly other than letting out a sigh. A small silence overtook before Shedletsky finally spoke up, ā€œWe're still trying to figure out who's going to be picked next. Though I believe you won't be picked. Luckily.ā€
That smidge of disappointment in the last word already says you're not welcome in their presence. You hum with a nod, bidding farewell they didn't respond to and left.
You sat in the living room of the cabin, staring into the fireplace, waiting for the match to start to explore more of the camp, place, whatever people call the area around the cabin.
You don't know what else to do to spend the time, you've got no one to talk to as of now. You've already asked if there's a plan— like every other time before a match. And you can't think of doing anything else.
You might try and find Dusekkar for a small chat, but even so he will, like others, find an excuse to get away from you.
What are you, some kind of plague infected robloxian?
No matter, you'll just wait for the match whilst watching the endless fireplace.
Headcanons
Survivors
Noob
They don't hate you. More so terrified of your capabilities, judging from your past.
Would avoid you every chance they can.
They did try to push away their fear go try and bond with you, maybe. But Guest held him back for 'caution'
Elliot
He hates you. Deeply.
He's frustrated towards what you did to his workplace. Outright unforgivable.
Does not trust you one bit.
REFUSE to heal you even as you're low.
Shedletsky
He's wary. Does not trust you.
Would often watch you from afar though never try and make a conversation with you.
He does not hate you.. maybe a little bit.
Only helps you when it's only you two left alive.
Builderman
Hatred.
He's seething whenever he sees you.
Never tells you where the sentry or dispenser is at. Leaving you wounded most times.
Definitely is the one who told Dusekkar to never help you when you're chased.
Dussekkar
He doesn't hate you. Just a smidge of dislike. Though he does love to talk to you. Once in a while.
Is curious how you are able to do what you've done in the past
The closest to neutral.
Doesn't mind you, though he can't say anything for the others. Especially Builderman.
Chance (pink day Chance yass)
THE MOST NEUTRAL
Like Dusekkar, he doesn't hate you or dislike you.
The closest you think as a friend in the hell.
They do enjoy talking with you!
Though he can't ignore what you've done in the past.
They does help you, Often!
Maybe the only one who helps. Or is he? (Vsauce music started playing)
Two time
Thinks you're a demon coming for them.
Will watch you like a hawk.
They tried to sacrifice you once. Though Taph stops him by knocking him out.
Also tried to give you to the killer aka Jason. Jason ended up targeting Two time.
Guest 1337
He's neutral. Just distrustful of you in every aspect.
He has respect for your.. powerful doing in the past. Though he can't say he's not wary of your capabilities.
The second most to help you. Even though most of it is just him watching you getting chase.
Taph
He actually likes you.
You both would talk often and he loves teaching you sign language!
You both have the closest bond, aka best friend!
He does not care about your past, it's the past after all.
007n7
No emotions.
He sees himself in you.
He understands what you're going through.
Thought.
He respects you for your determination.
Often leaves medkit or bloxy cola near your spawn place.
He does give it to you directly. Once. Elliot glaring at him, whispering he needed it more than you as he can't heal himself.
Chance shut Elliot down by mentioning how he doesn't heal you at all.
Killers
1x1x1x1
She's intrigued by your past.
Though he doesn't care and would kill you whenever.
They would often leave you as the last man standing. Though you don't understand why.
John doe
Absolutely doesn't care.
L + Ratio. Die.
c00lkid
Thinks what you did was cool!
He's impressed how you have done it.
Would often target you first to see if you're as powerful as the story his father told you about.
Fond of you. Somehow.
Jason
He pity you. He does.
He knows how it feels to be an outcast.
Would leave you as last man standing everytime. Though sometimes he lets you win.
Hey at least another killer friend other than a child.
Masioso
He has heard stories of what you did.
Intrigued and impressed.
Though he doesn't understand how you ended up in the hit list. He doesn't remember you doing anything about debt. Meh, you're name in the list anyway.
Azure
He doesn't understand why almost all the survivors hate you.
Even as he feels sorry, he's still going to kill you.
Noli
Thinks what you did in the past are bullshit.
He does not care what so ever.
Though he did tease you about your past, despite not believing it happened, before chasing you.
Guest 666
He doesn't really care.
He tried to feel sorry for you from seeing how the survivors avoided you. But he's careless.
He's a monster. Not a villain.
Note: woah, What's this? I finally uploaded something other than reblogs? Mwehehhe
Anyway if you guys want more, please send it a request of what I should do next.. like a scenario for this Oneshot hcs story.. like maybe Reader trying to bond, how they react to this, that, etc.
Bye now ty for reading!
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psin314 Ā· 2 months ago
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Murat has me on a CHOKEHOLD (especially that companion/npc murat, i havent stop thinking about it) and it got me wondering some possible dialogues he would say to rook (romantic or just friendly,idc. whatever he saying,im listening/silly). Most specifically,whenever rook or lucanis get hurt in battle! you know how lucanis & spite comments whenever rook get hurt? (something among the lines of "Rook! Hold on!" or "Rook needs us!") I wonder how murat reacts in situation where lucanis/rook is hurt (you can answer this only for the lucanis part if you want! i ship them A LOT. when the wedding/silly) (Oh by the way, how do you feel about someone possibly draw murat and then show you? i've been wanting to draw him ever since i saw his cute moustache. But i don't want to break one of your possible boundaries,so im asking for permission first!)
(If you got the ask sended twice,my apologies. You can ignore the other one!)
so, first, of course you can draw murat i'd love to see it! second, here's a little meme for the post cus i can't answer on tumblr asks without pics. x) (i have an urge to add a sillie)
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some of murat's phrases during fights and banters when he's romanced under the cut!
during a fight, when rook kills an enemy:
- good job, rook! still worse than a crow, but at least something... - it looks likeĀ you remembered what i taught you. well done.
if murat is romanced:
- excellent as always, mi amor. - i'll think about this kill tonight… i mean, good!
if lucanis kills an enemy:
- i would kill them faster... - pffft! and this is tHe DeMoN of VyRanTiUm?
if lucanis and murat are together:
- ooh! you have to show me this move later. - damn! rook shouldn't know what this kill made me feel, lucanis.
if rook is hurt:
- aw, c'mon! it wasn't that hard to dodge! - rook, maker's balls, be careful!
if murat is romanced (same for lucanis/murat):
- rook/lucanis, please, hold on! - they will pay for hurting you.
banters
if murat is romanced:
d: murat, you looked like a sad beaten by life pathetic wet smelly old- m: davrin, closer to the point. d: - dog... but after rook, at least your eyes sparkled. m: your eyes sparkled..? that's it? d: yes. you still look like a sad beaten by life pathetic we- m: thank you, davrin, we get it. r: davrin, please, murat is a very good boy. m: hehehe- ahem. yes, i am.
if murat is romanced and there was a sex scene:
l: uhh, murat, can i ask you for something? m: what's it? l: i don't even know how to say it… um… can you be a little quieter with rook? m: aw, c'mon. what should you listen to at night then? r: murat... m: okay, sorry!šŸ™„ but no promises. l: gracias. (spite: but! you-) ACHOO! r & m: bless you.
flirting with lucanis:
(triggers in rivain) m: oof, is it hot in here or is it just lucanis' fault? l: or you should wear fewer clothes. m: wait. are you flirting back? l: wait. were you flirting? r: sorry, boys, that was me. l & m: ... r: it is hot in here, murat. we're in rivain.
if lucanis and murat are together:
m: about the knife, lucanis... l: yes? m: thank you. really. l: i'm glad you liked it. m: one day i will gift you one too, but it will definitely be bigger. l: well, then i'll gift you even bigger one next time. m: and what will we do in a couple of years with a bunch of two-handed swords? l: ha… we'll open a weapon shop and leave the antivan crows. m: nice plan.
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muniimyg Ā· 2 months ago
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series m.list // taglist unavailable
friends to ???
slight angst & implied flirting
drunk/tipsy convo, hair play, and tension
note: nope . don't wanna hear it >< don't give me shit abt bad habit ,, i will apologize tho for edging u and then dipping to literally pursue my side quests ,,, i needed a break :') huhuhuuuu
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by 2am, you’re officially the only sober person in the house.
it’s not yours—it belongs to jungkook and the rest of the boys—but somehow, you still find yourself in the middle of it, tugging open windows, waving off lingering stragglers, and listening to misa’s slurred complaints about how no one ever listens to her.
ā€œyou’re a lifesaver,ā€ she groans, dramatically clinging to your arm. ā€œi texted you like—like ten times.ā€
ā€œyou texted ā€˜hepl’ and then sent your location.ā€
ā€œand you understood.ā€ she gestures around like that explains everything. ā€œtake me home, please.ā€
ā€œnope," you cross your arms. "you’re sleeping here tonight.ā€
she nods, accepting her fate. ā€œare you sleeping here tonight too? it's too late for you to leave.ā€
ā€œi have no choice,ā€ you laugh. ā€œi don’t have enough energy to take care of my roommate any more than i have now.ā€
misa scoffs at you and waves you off.
she stumbles away, headed towards jin’s room. you shake your head, knowing how this will play in the morning. jin is gonna get annoyed that she’s in his space but she’ll ignore every word of his lecture. he’ll forgive her 5 minutes after he’s done yapping and go back to being obsessed with her.Ā 
suddenly, your thoughts are interrupted with the sound of the door from the other room shutting. you turn your head and see jungkook walking in.Ā 
he’s quiet, gathering empty cups and bottles, and moving with the kind of focus that suggests he’s not as drunk as the others. jungkook barely acknowledges you at first, just a glance when you walked in, but now, as he passes by, he pauses.
ā€œnice of you to show up,ā€ he muses, stacking a few cups. his rings glint under the dim kitchen light, a stark contrast to the bruised-up knuckles beneath them. ā€œmissed a fun night.ā€
you huff a quiet laugh, brushing past him to grab a half-full beer bottle from the counter.Ā 
ā€œare you drunk?ā€
ā€œi’m jungkook, actually,ā€ he offers you a lazy smile. ā€œjust in case you forgot, you know? you’ve been so mia.ā€Ā 
ā€œi’ve been busy.ā€
ā€œalways are,ā€ he tsks. ā€œwould a little time with your friends kill you?"
"maybe," you snort. "i'm too young to die."
he rolls his eyes at you before confessing; "i've sobered up.ā€
ā€œreally?ā€ you ask, partly believing him.Ā "didn't drink much tonight?"
"nah," jungkook answers. "waited for you and you took too long."
you blink at him.
jungkook looks at you then, and it’s the kind of look that stretches a second too long—like he’s waiting for you to call him out. when you just shake your head and laugh, he grins, full and boyish, before nudging past you toward the trash bag.
a few more minutes of quiet cleaning and you give up, collapsing onto the couch with a dramatic sigh. meanwhile, jungkook finishes tossing the last of the cups and then, without much thought, drops onto the couch next to you.
not next to you—into you.
his shoulder bumps yours, his head tipping back against the cushion, body slouching so low that his knee brushes against yours. you glance at him, unimpressed, but he just tilts his head lazily to meet your gaze.
ā€œcomfy?ā€
ā€œmm.ā€ he exhales, lids heavy. ā€œi think i earned it.ā€
ā€œyou did, like, 5 minutes of cleaning.ā€
ā€œexactly.ā€
you roll your eyes, but you don’t move away. the warmth of him seeps into your skin, grounding in a way that feels too easy.
ā€œdon’t you wanna go to your room?ā€ you ask softly. ā€œi’m fine on the couch.ā€Ā 
ā€œi’m good here,ā€ he murmurs. ā€œunless you want me toā€”ā€
ā€œit’s fine. it's okay.ā€
ā€œthis is okay?ā€
ā€œy-yeah,ā€ you clear your throat, unsure of what else to say.
then, jungkook shifts lower.
at first, it’s subtle—his arm brushing yours, the scent of his cologne clinging to the hoodie he’s been in all night. then, without hesitation, he slouches further until his head drops against your lap.
just like that.
your breath catches.
ā€œsince you’re already at it,ā€ he murmurs, half-asleep, like this is normal.
like this is allowed.
you freeze, eyes darting down to where his lashes have fluttered shut, his face soft in the low light. his hair falls into his eyes, messy from the night, and before you can stop yourself—before you can even think—your fingers twitch.
you brush them through his hair, gentle, testing.
jungkook sighs.
Ā a quiet, content sound.
and then he leans in.
his cheek presses further into your thigh, his hand curling loosely against your knee, and it’s so effortless—like he’s done this before. like he’s wanted to.
the weight of it lingers, heavy with something unspoken, something delicate and warm. you should stop, should pull away, should get him to his room and pretend like this isn’t happening… but then, his fingers twitch—just slightly, barely gripping the fabric of your sweatpants. and in a voice so quiet you almost miss it—
ā€œmore.ā€
the word sinks into you, settling in your chest.
because it’s not just about this. not just about the hair, or the warmth of your palm against his skin.
it’s about something else. something neither of you have been brave enough to name for the past few months.Ā 
so, for a moment, you keep going. you shut your eyes and pretend that this is it.Ā 
that this is more.
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hyunniesgirl Ā· 2 years ago
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I wanna be yours
Pairing: Bangchan x fem!reader
Summary: it was all a game to him, until all he could think about was you. He wanted to have all of you. Ruin all of you. Love all of you.
Or, the one where Chan is a cocky asshole who's going out with you just for fun and ends up falling in love.
Slightly inspired in the movie 10 things I hate about you.
Genres: angst, smut, fluff
Words count: 10,991
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This content is +18 ONLY, minors do NOT interact!
Warnings: Corruption kink(kinda), dry humping, fingering, blowjob, loss of virginity, unprotected sex, pet names(princess, baby), Chan is cocky as fuck(and I'm here for it, stan cocky Bangchan), reader gets kinda insecure close to the end(let me know if I missed something)
A/N: should I be answering my requests or updating my series? Yes, did I spend too much time in a super long self indulgent oneshot? I did. It was supposed to be just smut with corruption kink 😭 turns out I can't write the porn without the plot.
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It all started as a game for him. He just didn't guess how much you would mess with his head.
Bang Chan doesn't care much about college, with a promising career in music, he's just attending classes so his parents won't nag him too much.
That means he's bored all the time.
So when Jeongin, his youngest friend, begged him to win his girlfriend's sister over and date her for a bit, he almost accepted right away, yearning for some fun. But he didn't, not before knowing who you were.
That's how he ended up here, trying to find you in the middle of communication class. He didn't need to look too much, from Jeongin’s description, he could find you in the blink of an eye.
ā€œA pretty girl, probably wearing black or some neutral color and she'll probably be in a corner. She's very shy, when you speak to her don't be too straightforward, you may scare herā€
The way Jeongin described you didn't show any ill intent and he was always a good guy, that's why Chan considered accepting his offer in the first place. He must have his reasons for almost kneeling in front of his friend, asking for him to date you.
Chan sits behind you, observing every movement you make. You're indeed pretty and you really are shy. He notices how you want to raise your hand every time the professor asks a question, but you always hesitate and someone speaks over you. Every time you try to speak, some rude person cuts you and instead of getting mad, your face turns red and you shrink in your seat, trying to make yourself even more invisible.
There's something about you, Chan can't tell what it is, but it's something amusing about how you behave. Someone like you could have every guy in this university wrapped around your little finger and every girl wanting to be your friend.
As soon as the class ends, Chan sends a text to Jeongin, telling him he will do it. He doesn't waste time, waiting for everyone to get out of the classroom while you're still collecting your things.
ā€œHeyā€, he says out of nowhere, making you jump and look at him with huge doe eyes. ā€œI'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare youā€.
He kinda did want that, though, curious to see how you would react, he thought maybe you would raise your voice and curse him, but you reacted as calmly as possible.
ā€œIt's okayā€, you mumble.
You keep organizing your things, trying to ignore his presence.
ā€œSo, I wanted to ask if you can let me borrow your notesā€, he asks, making puppy eyes.
You turn back to him and Chan can almost see the gears turning inside your head.
ā€œWhy does he want my notes if he just attended the same class?ā€ It's written all over your face.
ā€œI pulled an all nighter studying for another class and kind of dozed off earlierā€, he lies, smiling sheepishly while scratching the back of his neck.
You stare at him for a bit, pondering if you should say yes, actually, let's be real: can you even say no?
This is Bang Chan, handsome and popular, everyone knows him and the other two guys from 3racha. The last you heard, he didn't care much about classes since he's already progressing in his music career so you still don't understand why he wants to borrow your notes.
ā€œYeah, okayā€, you nod, deciding to agree so this conversation can be over soon. You pull your notebook out of your bag and hand it to him. ā€œJust make sure to give it back by next classā€
ā€œSure, thanksā€, he gives you a big bright smile that makes you gulp while staring at him, just a few minutes in his presence and you already know something very important: this man is dangerous.
You look around awkwardly, not knowing what Chan wants more. He's just standing there, staring at you.
ā€œI'll get going thenā€, you sigh, feeling exhausted by this whole interaction.
You turn around, walking to the door, leaving Chan there, dumbstruck. Jeongin was right, you have no social skills, but you're much more entertaining than he made you out to be.
—
You're having lunch with Yuna, your sister, and Jeongin, her boyfriend, in the cafeteria. You like spending time with them, they are probably the only people you feel comfortable around in this university.
You met Jeongin three months ago. Your sister came home giggling like a child on Christmas, sat on your bed and told you she got a boyfriend.
You ran to your door, closing it after checking that your parents weren't around. There's only one rule in the house: your younger sister must not date before you do.
Your parents are not conservative or anything like that, they just had you two later than other parents, so they are very overprotective. You don't know exactly the reason why they set this rule, maybe it's because they are sure you're never going to date.
Yuna is your best friend, she was a sickly child so all those interactions and fights that normal sisters have, you didn't. You spent most of her childhood and a huge part of yours by her side in the hospital. Fortunately, she was able to go back to a normal life by the time she was becoming a teenager, she was always a social butterfly even in the hospital everyone loved her.
You always thought it was unfair that she had to wait to have a boyfriend simply because you are not interesting enough or can't even hold a conversation properly without stuttering, but there was nothing you could do about it. You even tried arguing with your parents about it but it always ended with them telling you to forget about it.
You see Jeongin waving to someone, something is off, they never invite anyone to eat with them. A tray is settled by your side and you look at the person who sits in the seat next to yours: Bang Chan.
ā€œHello againā€, he smiles at you, a handsome smile with dimples showing and everything. He greets the others after.
You look at Yuna and Jeongin, she is frowning just like you and her boyfriend is eating like this is an ordinary situation in your daily lunch.
ā€œHiā€, you sister answers, ā€œI don't think we met beforeā€
ā€œOh, yeah, I'm Bang Chan!ā€ He stretches his hand so she can shake it. ā€œJeongin is an old friend and I have communication class with y/nā€
ā€œAhā€, she nods, looking at her boyfriend. You stay in silence, playing with your food, waiting for Jeongin to send Bang Chan away.
ā€œBabe, I forgot I have a project due tonightā€, Jeongin says, slapping the palm of his hand on his forehead. He stands up, ā€œcan you help me? Chan will keep y/n company.ā€
No. You don't want him to keep you company. Your eyes widen and you stare at your sister, trying to send her a mental signal so she won't let you alone with him.
What you don't see, it's that she has already caught up on the way Bang Chan is looking at you and she might think she understands what's happening.
ā€œOkay, yeah. Take care of herā€, your sister says, smiling apologetically to you while she gets up and follows Jeongin out of your sight.
You should just throw your food away and go to the library, maybe you can eat a sandwich.
ā€œWould you like to go on a date with me?ā€ You hear Bang Chan's voice before you can put your plan into practice, turning around to look at him with the most terrified face he ever saw on someone. ā€œOuch, does the idea scare you so much?ā€ He jokes.
ā€œWhy would you want to go on a date with me? We just met yesterdayā€, you point out, holding yourself back so you won't just stand up and run away.
ā€œI find you interesting, it's just a date so we can get to know each other betterā€, he shrugs. He's so nonchalant about it, while you're freaking out inside.
ā€œI don't think that's a good idea, I'm not good at keeping conversations, you'll get boredā€, you say frantically. You just didn't expect him to laugh.
ā€œI can do all the talking, I love to talk"
Chan knows this move is risky and there's a high probability you won't accept, but he just felt like asking you at that moment.
ā€œAre you sure you won't get bored?ā€ You ask.
His eyes widen and he nods, are you really considering it?
You are, obviously. You bet no one could ever guess, but Bang Chan is your ideal type, actually he is probably everyone's ideal type.
He has the kindest smile you have ever seen and the way his eyes turn into crescents when he's smiling makes your legs weak. He met you yesterday, but you know him since 3racha performed in the university’s festival last year. Since the first time you two crossed paths, everything about him, appearance wise, seemed appealing: his dark eyes, his smile, his dark curls, his broad shoulders and his muscular body. That's why you freaked out so much when he spoke to you yesterday, you never thought he would give you the time of day. So you would be dumb to reject his offer.
ā€œOkayā€, you nod, handing your phone to him. ā€œYou can put your number there, I'll text you so you can save my contactā€, you say and he stares at the device for a few moments before picking it up and typing his number.
This was easier than he thought.
—
ā€œDo you have pepper spray with you?ā€ Your mother asks for the 30th time in the last hour.
ā€œYes, mom. I'm going on a date with another student, he's not a criminalā€, you tell her and your father tsks.
ā€œThere are alot of students that commit crimesā€, he says.
ā€œI knowā€, you sigh, ā€œdon't worry, I have pepper spray, emergency numbers and I'll turn on my localizationā€
Your sister is watching the scene unfolding in front of her, while she chuckles.
ā€œYou shouldn't laugh, if I start dating you will go through the same thing when it's your timeā€, you whisper at her and she sighs.
ā€œYou're not going to this date just so I can officially date Jeongin, right?ā€
You grin.
ā€œYou think too highly of me, I'm not that selflessā€, you hear the sound of a horn in front of your house, ā€œI'm going on this date because he's hotā€
Chan thought you were pretty in your everyday clothes but after seeing you ready for your date he just couldn't take his eyes off you. You're wearing a little sundress with thin straps holding your much too generous and low cleavage. Your hair is down and your lips are red with lipstick.
He's waiting for you outside of the car so he can open the door for you, but when you stop in front of him, he just doesn't move.
You frown, waving a hand in front of his face.
ā€œAre you okay?ā€ You ask and he snaps out of his daze.
ā€œYeah, you're just too prettyā€, he tells you honestly, ā€œI just couldn't believe I'm so luckyā€
You feel your skin hotter, you're sure your whole face must be red like a tomato.
The restaurant you are going to have dinner at is a bit further than you thought, it takes at least one hour by car to get there.
ā€œWere all the places close to the city closed?ā€ You try making a joke and he smiles.
ā€œConsidering your personality, I thought you would like this place betterā€, he tells you while you go in. A person greets you two, leading you inside. There's no open space, the building is full of rooms and you're guided to one of those. There's a glass wall in the back of the room with a view to a lake and a waterfall, there's colorful lights everywhere, making it even more beautiful.
ā€œSo, when I was searching for a nice place to go on a date, I came across this one.ā€ Chan starts speaking and you notice there's a small stove on top of the table. ā€œThere's no attendants, so we will cook our own food and only call them if we want more servingsā€, he explains, pulling the chair so you can sit.
ā€œOhā€, you feel a weird feeling on your stomach, are these the butterflies your sister told you about? You never knew something like this existed and the fact that he was attentive enough to take your shyness into consideration while choosing the place of your date makes you melt inside. ā€œThank youā€, you tell him after sitting.
You don't shut up the whole night. This is the first time you feel so comfortable with someone other than your family.
ā€œSo, you want to work with entertainment?ā€ He asks surprised.
ā€œYes, I really like the whole thing about managing an artist, it sound excitingā€, you smile happily, ā€œwho knows, maybe one day I can manage 3rachaā€
ā€œYou have heard 3racha?ā€ Chan asks, surprised.
ā€œI really like your musicā€, you tell him, ā€œbesides, everyone knows about you guysā€
ā€œYeah, but I didn't know you knew about usā€, he smiles charmingly, leaning on the table while clasping his hands. ā€œSo does that win me some points? Maybe a kiss?ā€
You already are red because of the wine, now you feel your whole face hot. You're already feeling a bit out of it, not drunk enough to make a bad decision but definitely drunk enough to lose a bit of your shyness.
ā€œI don't know how to kissā€, you say simply, no further explanation.
Chan almost chokes on the air he just breathed, he didn't think you would be so blunt about it. Curiously, he finds your innocent face while saying that too enticing.
ā€œI can help you with thatā€, he says, tilting his head and winking.
ā€œWould you really?ā€ You ask and he nods. ā€œLike now?ā€
Chan didn't expect that to happen so soon, especially with someone as shy as you. But he won't refuse your offer.
ā€œAre you done?ā€ He asks, eagerly, standing up and you nod. Chan stretches his hand to you, waiting for you to hold it.
He takes you to his car, helping you get in and fastening your seatbelt. He's not in his right mind, not at all, he didn't even drink so why is he so excited? He doesn't think he ever felt this way about a kiss. He drives for a while, looking for the drive in movie theater he had read about while looking for the restaurant.
After fifteen minutes he parks his car behind others, there are a lot of people there to watch the movie.
You have your hands on your lap, fidgeting with your fingers nervously. It's so endearing how innocent you are.
ā€œWould you like to take a seat?ā€ He asks and you frown, looking around and then looking at him. You are already seated.
He tilts his head, chuckling and patting his lap. You nod so fast, it's embarrassing. He smiles, seeing you climb on top of him, legs are over the cup holder, you're using him as a literal seat.
ā€œYou never kissed anyone?ā€ He asks, while you adjust yourself on top of him, his breath hitting your neck, making goosebumps rise all over your body. You shake your head, feeling a bit insecure, what if you are no good?
Chan bites on his lower lip, shifting a bit so you won't feel his hardening cock under you, you're just too cute, too sexy.
ā€œOkay, I'll go slowly, we can stop anytime you wantā€, he tells you, brushing his hand on your arm all the way to your neck, making you close your eyes to his touch. He pulls your face closer, touching your lips with his, it's warm and soft, it feels like heaven.
He brings his other hand to your cheek, caressing. He pulls back a bit, just enough so he can speak.
ā€œOpen your mouth for me, babyā€, he tells you and you obey instantly, feeling his lips back on yours. His tongue brushes against yours and you whine, lifting your hands to grab on his shoulders to steady yourself, causing your ass to rub on his cock. Chan groans, making you flinch, did you do something wrong?
He notices your hesitancy, so he slides his hand to your waist, squeezing you in reassurance.
ā€œAre you sure you have never done this?ā€ He asks playfully and you smile, shyly.
ā€œCan- Can we do it again?ā€ You whisper, making him chuckle. Dear god, would he be able to stop this with just kisses?
ā€œDid you like kissing me, princess?ā€ He teases, seeing you blush. Chan wraps his arm around your waist, pulling you even closer. He lands a kiss on your exposed collarbone, tracing kisses up to your neck.
ā€œYou smell so goodā€, he tells you before leaving a kiss on your jaw, then on your chin and finally a peck on your lips.
ā€œMust taste even betterā€, he thinks, smiling to himself.
Your phone starts ringing, taking you two out of that hazy atmosphere. You feel embarrassed now, not believing you actually acted that way. Going back to your seat, you pick up the call, it's Yuna.
ā€œMom and dad are freaking out because you stopped moving for too longā€, she whispers. Shit, you forgot your localization was turned.
ā€œTell them you called Chan and I'm alright, my phone just diedā€, you instruct her.
ā€œYeah, got it, just hurryā€
Chan probably heard the conversation, but you still feel upset that he started the car right away and drove fast back to your home.
When you arrive in front of your house, you're not sure if you should kiss him goodnight or just wave, both are awkward options for you, so you go with the one you want the most.
You grab his arm and pull him closer to you, kissing him on the lips. Chan is quite surprised with your bold action, but he won't complain, he can't get enough of your lips.
ā€œI will text you when I get homeā€, he says after pulling away and you nod.
You get out of the car and walk to your door, stealing glances at Chan. He's giggling at your antics, watching until you are safe inside your house.
He should be thankful to Jeongin, he's finally having a good time.
—
Chan is taking his mission seriously, he's texting you everyday and even stopped seeing all his fuck buddies. This is the closest he ever got to a relationship, but you're not official yet.
Especially not when you're avoiding him like the plague when it comes to meeting face to face. You answer his texts normally but he has to literally hunt you down so he can find you in this damn university and if you see him before he sees you, it's game over, you'll hide immediately and he has to begin his search all over again.
This time, though, he caught you off guard. You are at the library, seated alone, trying to focus on the book you have in your hands.
He smiles to himself, knowing you can't escape anymore. Chan leans over, caging your body with his two hands around you, gripping the table.
ā€œI missed you, babyā€, he whispers and you shiver, feeling butterflies on your stomach.
ā€œH-hiā€, you say, closing your book and taking a deep breath.
You will not try and pretend you didn't hide from him for almost a week. But that's not your fault, it's your brain's.
After Chan left you home, you ran to your room, still feeling all tingly and hot from kissing him. Since Yuna didn't come to your room you guessed she was already asleep, so you took your makeup off, took a long bath and snuggled in your nice sheets.
The thing is: you had the most lewd, filthy, awfully good dream that night. You could never even say the things Chan did to you in that dream out loud.
You woke up sweaty, heavy breathing and panties soaked, this never happened to you before.
You just couldn't look at his face after that, you felt dirty and guilty with having those thoughts about such a nice guy.
ā€œAm I wrong or were you avoiding me?ā€ He asks, not moving from behind you.
ā€œNo- I wasn'tā€, you turn around to look at him, bumping into his face too close from yours. He glances at your lips, biting his lower one and chuckles. ā€œI was just, hm, kinda embarrassedā€, you tell him, aware that he's going to know right away if you try lying.
ā€œEmbarrassed about what?ā€ He asks, tilting his head.
ā€œI don't knowā€, you look away, trying not to give in and tell him about your dream.
ā€œI think you should come to my place so we can talk about itā€, he says and you choke on your own spit, struggling to function correctly. Did he just ask you to go to his house? Just you? And him? Just the two of you?
The apartment is not far from the campus, it's a maximum twenty minutes walk. The building is nice and modern, it absolutely matches what you had imagined Chan’s place would look like.
His apartment is huge, it's not possible that he lives there alone.
ā€œI have three roommates, Jisung and Changbin you already know and Hyunjin, he's an arts majorā€
ā€œHwang Hyunjin? I know him, he's friends with my sisterā€, Chan nods, he forgot your sister dates Jeongin, she probably knows his entire group of friends.
ā€œDo you want to drink something?ā€ He asks, looking at you while you walk around the living room, looking at every corner but not at him.
ā€œWater is fineā€, you say, looking at some pictures he has with his friends. He always has that breathtaking smile that makes all your insides turn around.
ā€œWhat about watching a movie?ā€ He asks out of nowhere, sitting on the sofa. He looks at you, an arm resting on the back of the sofa.
ā€œSureā€, you walk to him, sitting on the far corner. Chan has to bite back a laugh so you won't feel embarrassed, do you really think it's so easy for you to get away from him?
He turns on the movie, adjusting himself on his seat. You're really trying to pay attention to what's going on on the screen, but you just can't. Not when Chan's scent is all over the place, making you remember about your dirty dream.
He knows you're restless, he can see you fidgeting by his peripheral vision.
ā€œAre you uncomfortable?ā€ He asks, turning his head towards you, with a smirk plastered on his lips. ā€œMaybe you can sit here again, I'm sure you are going to like it betterā€, he pats on his lap.
You feel your face red.
ā€œStop teasingā€, you mumble, pouting, ā€œthat's not niceā€
He chuckles. If you're not coming to him, he has no problem going to you, so Chan slides his body closer, making you stare at him with a frown.
He raises his hand to your face, cupping it and caressing your cheek.
ā€œTell me you don't want this, princess, I'll stopā€, he says. But you want this more than anything in the world, how could you not?
You lean a bit, trying to close the gap between your mouths. Oh, how much Chan missed your soft lips, he felt almost like going through a withdrawal staying so long without kissing you.
You learn fast, your mouth opens right away after your lips touch. In a bold move, your tongue is the one to look for his first, making him groan. He puts his right hand on your thigh, squeezing it harder than he predicted, but he didn't predict the bite you would give on his lip at that exact moment.
Chan grabs your hip, pulling you up to his lap, this time with a leg on each side of him. You're looking at him in that innocent way when all he has on his mind are the dirtiest thoughts. He caresses your thigh, sliding his hand to grab your ass and pulling you closer to him.
ā€œWill you tell me now, why you were embarrassed? You looked pretty fine when I left you home after our dateā€, he asks and you blush instantly, oh, you forgot about the reason you are here. You can't tell him about your dream, you'll die of embarrassment if you do.
ā€œIt was- nothingā€, you lie, avoiding his eyes. Chan noticed this already, you always look anywhere but him when you are lying to him.
Maybe he'll have to make you tell the truth.
ā€œReally?ā€ He says, skeptical. ā€œThen you were just being mean? Playing with my feelings after just one date?ā€ He's teasing, he knows you'll give in eventually, it's just a question of time.
ā€œNo, I wasn'tā€, you argue, with a frown on your face, your lips shut tight in a pout.
ā€œBabyā€, he calls, your legs would definitely give out if he called you like that while you were standing. ā€œI don't like liarsā€
Chan slides his hands up to your ass, grabbing a handful and pulling you closer. You can already feel something hard beneath you, making you shift and adjust on his lap, involuntarily seeking some friction. Your core is aching, just by staying so close to him.
ā€œI'm not lying, that's meanā€, you try changing the subject and he chuckles.
Chan comes closer, lips brushing against yours, his breathing hitting on your mouth, everything just making the wet spot on your panties grow bigger and bigger. He kisses you, a nice and soft kiss with his tongue caressing yours gently.
Chan notices that you're moving your hips slightly, trying to feel his cock. He smiles during the kiss, pulling away while putting his hands on your hips, guiding your movements to be harder.
ā€œHmā€, you whine, feeling his hard on giving you the friction you're looking for. His hand cups your cheek, pulling you closer into a kiss again.
You never felt this way, like ever. You did masturbate but it's different to do it with another person. It's just so good to feel Chan's touch on your skin, his breathing, his muscular arms holding you. You feel your orgasm coming, you can't believe you're going to cum by just rubbing yourself on this man.
Chan knows you're almost there, that's when he grabs your hips steadying you, not letting you move further. He earns a whine from you, an angry look on your face.
ā€œI will only let you keep going if you tell me why you were embarrassed and avoided meā€, he says cockyly and you shake your head, trying to move again but his grip on your hips is too strong.
ā€œI don't wannaā€, you tell him.
ā€œThen, I guess you won't be cumming todayā€, he shrugs. ā€œAt least, not with meā€, he smirks to your face becoming even redder.
ā€œYou're such a meanieā€, you whine, pouting, still trying to move again but he just won't let you.
ā€œAre you going to tell me what I want to know?ā€ He tilts his head.
You ponder for a moment, what should you do? It's not going to end here, if you don't tell him right now, you're sure he won't let it go.
ā€œI- I had a dreamā€, you start, trying to gather some courage.
ā€œUhmā€, he nods, ā€œwhat about it?ā€ He asks curiously, feeling strangely aroused by the way you're looking around, lips pulled into a line and the way you're speaking leads him to believe you're talking about a wet dream.
ā€œLi- like one of those dreamsā€, so he was right, did you have a wet dream about him? That's interesting.
ā€œHm, you'll have to be more specific, princessā€, he pushes, ā€œI don't think I know what you're talking aboutā€
ā€œI meanā€, you groan, dropping your head to his shoulder so you won't feel his eyes on you. ā€œA sex dream… with youā€, you whisper.
The grin on Chan's face after you finish saying that, is priceless. He can feel his cock twitching, he's eager to know more.
ā€œTell me more about itā€, he presses, ā€œI really wanna know what happened in that dream that left you so embarrassedā€
ā€œPlease, Chan. Don't make me say itā€, you beg, but he's not having it. He likes seeing you blushing and struggling to talk dirty, it's endearing.
ā€œNo can doā€, he grabs your shoulder to pull you away so he can look at your face. ā€œI promise I'll give a nice reward if you tell meā€
You nod. If he won't drop it, then you have to try and earn something over your embarrassing situation.
ā€œI- like- you ate me outā€, you start and he smiles, he would indeed love to do that. ā€œAnd I s-sucked you off, it was niceā€, you stumble over your words in each sentence. Chan can only feel even more turned on, your lips are so soft, he can't even picture what it would feel like to have them wrapped around him.
ā€œKeep going, princess. You're doing greatā€, he reassures you. Chan loosens the grip on your hips, guiding your movements back and forth once again.
ā€œAnd you said all these dirty things to me, I can't say it out loud, pleaseā€, he smirks, pulling you even closer and pressing your covered core against his cock.
ā€œDid I tell you how good it felt to have your pretty little mouth sucking on my cock?ā€ He asks playfully and you nod, feeling the warmth creeping in your face again while that tingly sensation grows bigger in your lower stomach.
ā€œDid we fuck?ā€ He asks, feeling himself getting closer to cum too.
ā€œYeahā€, you nod frantically with your eyes closed shut. ā€œYou fucked me on all fours and in this same position tooā€, you tell him.
ā€œOh? Did you ride me? Did you like it?ā€
ā€œI didā€, you struggle to make your voice come out, feeling too light headed to even speak properly.
ā€œThere's something more, right, baby?ā€ He feels his cock throbbing, he's almost at his limit.
ā€œYes, you- you choked me a bit, I liked thatā€, and that sentence was enough to make Chan reach his orgasm, being followed by you right after.
He can't believe he really did cum in his pants, like a fucking teenager. It's your fault actually, how can someone make him cum like this and still look angelic and innocent? Like you never told him he choked you and you liked it, even though it was a dream.
Chan kisses you eagerly this time, his chest is feeling hot and he feels a weird sensation on his stomach.
ā€œYou shouldn't feel embarrassed about this kind of thingā€, he tells you and you nod, because it's true, ā€œif it makes you feel better, I'm sure I had worse thoughts about youā€, he smiles, seeing you blush.
ā€œLike what?ā€ You ask, curiously.
ā€œOh, I won't tell youā€, he shakes his head, ā€œyou would never look at me again if you knew all the dirty things I wanna do to youā€
—
Another week went by and now you were not avoiding Chan anymore. He follows you around pretty much all day at school, stealing kisses and pulling you to empty classrooms to have make out sessions.
It's time for him to meet your parents, it's not something he ever did, he never dated anyone after all. It's a Wednesday night, he brought flowers and a bottle of wine. So five minutes before the set time, he's knocking at your door.
Your sister opens up, greeting him but you're nowhere to be found until he hears your voice from upstairs.
ā€œIs he already here?ā€ You sound panicked and your sister giggles.
ā€œYes! Hurry upā€, she says and Chan hears something falling and making a weird noise. It was not loud enough to be a person so he's not worried you fell, but he finds it funny to think about you nervously stumbling around.
When you show up at the top of the stairs, he has to blink a few times to actually believe you're real. You look so beautiful, showing your nice legs in a short skirt and your shoulders in a tank top.
ā€œHeyā€, you greet him, looking at the things he has in hands and he finally regains his composure.
ā€œHiā€, he gives you a peck on the lips, ā€œthis is for youā€ he hands you a bouquet of red camellias.
You stop for a second, you never received flowers. Before you can answer him, your father's head is popping out of the living room.
ā€œWhy is it taking so long for you to bring this guy inside?ā€, he asks grumpy, he's not too happy about you dating but there's nothing he can do about it.
Chan straightens himself, walking to your father to greet him.
ā€œGood night, sir. I'm Bang Chanā€, he clears his throat when your father doesn't say a thing, just staring at him. ā€œI brought this for youā€, he shows the wine bottle and your father takes it.
ā€œAt least you have good tasteā€, he nods to the wine bottle Chan stole from his father's collection.
He turns around, shrugging to you and you smile, listening to your sister's chuckles. You take his hand into yours, interlacing your fingers.
In the living room there's a woman that looks too much like you and your sister to not be your mother, she smiles kindly at you two.
She's less intimidating than your father so Chan's greetings to her are less awkward this time. As time goes by, your parents warm up to him, making jokes and even telling him about your childhood.
ā€œThe night went greatā€, you say while walking Chan to his car. ā€œThank you for comingā€
ā€œYour parents are greatā€, he says, leaning on the door of his car. He takes your hands in his and pulls you closer, wrapping his arms around your waist. ā€œThank you for inviting meā€
He looks so good tonight, his dark hair is carefully styled and he's wearing much more formal clothes than usual, making him look like a prince.
ā€œCan I have a good night’s kiss?ā€ He asks, slyly, seeing you eyeing him up. You nod, putting your hands on his chest and closing the gap between your mouths. Chan's hands slide from your waist to your ass, squeezing slightly, he can't get too into it since he won't be able to go further than a kiss tonight.
You pull away from him when you have to breathe, his lips are so inviting you could kiss him all night long.
ā€œI will see you tomorrowā€, he tells you.
There's something wrong with his heart, it's beating so fast he thinks he may be dying. After driving away from you, he calms himself a bit. It's not possible that you were the cause of that reaction, right? This is supposed to be fun, he only has to date you for a while and then break up, no strings attached. So why does he feel such hurt in his chest after thinking about leaving you?
After one more long and sleepless night Chan realized something: he is in love. This feeling snuck in so unexpectedly he didn't even notice he was falling in love. Chan never fell in love before, so he can only guess that this is how it feels to love someone.
He notices every little detail about you, he jokes around all the time waiting to hear you laugh about something he says. Chan likes the way you smell, the way you smile, the way you just look at him so focused while he is speaking. He is in love with your personality, your cleverness, your kindness, your beauty is just a bonus that makes him even more in love with you.
He wants to confess to you, ask you to be his girlfriend, to never leave him.
He even asked for your sister's help to make something for you, maybe a song, he can definitely make something beautiful and romantic for you. Maybe he can cook too, he wants to make you feel appreciated.
He's waiting for your class to finish, seated on the bench in front of the classroom while scrolling through his phone.
He feels someone sitting by his side and before he can look, a kiss lands onto his cheek. Chan puts his hand on his face, blushing and you laugh seeing his reaction. You two did much more than just a kiss on the cheek, why is he embarrassed about it?
ā€œDid you miss me?ā€ You ask him and he rolls his eyes.
ā€œOf course I didā€, he grabs your hand, interlacing your fingers. ā€œShould we go to my place?ā€ He asks and you nod, standing up, pulling him to get up too.
It's still a bit weird that you two are together, you never thought liking someone as much as you like Chan could actually happen to you, you could even say you're in love. The only thing that still makes you doubtful is the fact that he didn't ask you to be his girlfriend yet, you have been going out for a month and you do everything together, so why hasn't he made it official?
You still have many questions in your mind, sitting on Chan's bed while he makes popcorn and you choose the movie you're watching tonight.
He enters the room, closing the door and turning off the lights, two water bottles and a huge bowl in his hands.
ā€œWhat movie did you choose?ā€ He asks, but you can't hear it, your mind is too loud. ā€œY/N? Are you alright?ā€ He asks, snapping you out of your thoughts.
ā€œAre we exclusive?ā€ You ask out of nowhere, ripping the air out of his lungs.
ā€œYesā€, he says firmly, ā€œdo you want to be with other people?ā€
Chan asked that, but he's holding his breath until you answer him, hoping you're going to deny. For a moment, you don't say a thing and seeing you hesitate makes his heart ache.
ā€œNo, I-ā€ you try speaking, trying not to sound ridiculous, ā€œI want to be exclusive, I just don't know if you want thatā€
Chan takes a deep breath, putting the things he has in hands on the nightstand.
ā€œOf course, I want toā€, he takes your hand into his, bringing it to his mouth so he can kiss the palm. He's feeling guilty, he's taking his time preparing a nice confession but you're feeling insecure. ā€œI'm sorry I made you feel like I didn't want things to get more seriousā€, he climbs on the bed, getting closer to you, ā€œlet me show you that you're the only one I want, hum? Can I?ā€
You suck on your teeth, knowing exactly what is about to happen but you just can't say no to him, let's be real, you don't want to say no to him. So you nod, making him smile.
Chan is eager to have you, he has been for weeks, just waiting for you to be ready to give yourself to him. He cups your face, pulling you closer and kissing you.
He helps you lay down on the bed, towering over you while landing kisses down your neck. You feel him biting on your shoulder and he brings his hands to the hem of your shirt, pulling it up. His hands travel around your body, making you hotter.
ā€œYou're so pretty, princessā€, he says, kissing your chest. You whine, he's taking too much time to get to the place you want the most.
ā€œChannieā€, you whisper, ā€œplease, touch meā€, you ask him.
His smile grows bigger as he mumbles ā€œyour wish is my commandā€. Chan unbuttons your pants, pulling them down your legs, throwing it someplace in the room.
He slides his hand down to your core, your underwear is soaked. He pulls your panties down your legs and brushes a finger along your folds, collecting the wetness before inserting a finger inside, you arch your back to the feeling. It's delicious, but it hurts a bit. It's different from how it feels doing it alone.
ā€œIs this okay?ā€ He asks and you nod. ā€œYou're such a good girl, baby, all wet and ready for me.ā€ He whispers, getting closer to your face again. I'm going to put another oneā€, he tells you. The sensation it's too much already, his fingers are too much.
ā€œChanā€, you moan, ā€œI'm gonna cum if you keep doing thatā€
ā€œOh? But I didn't even get to the better partā€, he answers pressing his thumb on your clit, making circles.
ā€œFuckā€, you whine.
His smirk grows while he keeps the movement of back and forth inside of you. Before he can tease you more, your legs are shaking and your tight hole is clenching around his fingers. You put your hand on your mouth, covering it so you won't make a loud sound, but he doesn't like that. He wants to hear how well he's fucking you.
ā€œLet's not do that, okay? I want you to be loud, want to hear you scream my nameā€ He says, pulling his fingers out of you and sliding them on his mouth. He comes closer, kissing your neck and face, helping you calm down after your orgasm.
Goosebumps rise all over your body, his kisses feel like fire on your skin, you thought you'd feel less horny after cumming, but you're still so turned on.
Chan kisses your chest, opening your bra. You feel embarrassed when he sees you completely naked.
ā€œYou're still dressedā€, you point out, face red.
He gets out of the bed immediately, taking his shirt off and his pants too, crawling back to you in only his underwear. His cock is hard, outlined by the thin fabric of his boxers.
You feel the urge to touch him, maybe taste it. So you grab his length, making him groan.
ā€œWhat are you doing, princess?ā€ He asks, eyes closed from the pleasure of having your beautiful hands wrapped around him.
ā€œI want to make you feel goodā€, you tell him, pushing his chest and making him fall on his back on the bed. You kiss his neck the same as he was doing to you, suddenly feeling possessive and sucking on the skin, leaving a few hickeys there.
You go down, kissing his chest and stomach, getting closer and closer to his throbbing cock. You pull his underwear down and his cock spring on your face.
ā€œI just- you need to teach meā€, you tell him. How can you look at him with such innocence in your eyes when you're about to suck him off?
ā€œHold the baseā€, he instructs, ā€œnow you can go up and down with your hand.ā€
Ā He feels your movements, making him groan. You are bolder than he gives you credit for, since you lick the head of his cock without being told to. You wrap his dick with your mouth, waiting for the next command.
ā€œYou can go up and down, princess, yes, like thatā€ he moans, feeling his cock being embraced by your warm mouth.
Chan feels like exploding any time now, weeks of pent-up sexual tension being released. He sees you rubbing yourself on his bed while sucking on him, that just makes him crazier, he wants to make you feel good now, he can let you do the same for him another time.
ā€œBabyā€, you hear him say and you stop your movements. ā€œI won't be able to last long with your soft mouth doing that, I need to feel you around my cockā€
You nod, letting go of his cock and climbing up, stopping on top of Chan.
ā€œI wanna be on topā€, you say confidently.
ā€œLet's do it slowly okay? I don't want to hurt youā€, Chan tells you and you agree.
He grabs the base of his cock, brushing the head on your folds, trying to wet it enough to make it easier for you.
It feels like heaven when his cock finally slides inside of you, you're so tight he feels like he can cum at any moment.
Chan sees the pain in your eyes, he doesn't move, ā€œdo you want to stop?ā€ He asks worriedly, putting his hands on your hips to stop you from moving but you shake your head.
You keep pushing it in, trying to relax. Chan kisses you, massaging your breasts to help you relax a bit.
When the painful part is gone and you're feeling all the good sensations back, you don't think you can stop, it's too addictive. You start riding on him freely, hands taking support on his chest and head thrown back, the pleasure is just too much, you'll be coming soon.
ā€œFuck, you look so good riding me, princessā€, he says, feeling his own high almost catching him.
ā€œOh, Channie, I'm gonna cumā€, you whine, fastening the movements of your hips, ā€œplease, oh, your cock feels so goodā€
For someone who couldn't talk about a wet dream a few weeks ago you sure talk dirty in real life, Chan chuckles, feeling you clenching around him and when you squeeze his cock for the last time he cums too, filling you up.
You collapse on top of him, breathing heavily. Your eyes are heavy, you're not sure if you can stay awake. Chan caresses your back and plays with your hair, making you fall fast asleep.
You wake up feeling just a bit sore. You're on cloud nine, the night was amazing. When you open your eyes, there's no one in the bed with you. You wrap yourself in the blankets trying to find and collect all your clothes scattered around the room.
The delicious smell that embraces your nose the moment you step out of the room, is enough to make you drool.
Chan is in the kitchen, dressed in nothing but sweatpants and an apron. That's right, he's shirtless. You're feeling bold today, so you get closer to him wrapping your arms around his waist in a back hug.
He lets out a laugh, putting his hand over yours and turning off the stove. He turns around, hugging you.
ā€œDid you sleep well?ā€ He asks, kissing your forehead and you nod, snuggling in his embrace.
ā€œWhy didn't you wake me earlier? I woke up missing youā€
ā€œOw, my baby is so needyā€, he teases, making you pout. ā€œI was making you, breakfastā€
ā€œHmā€, you look at what he was cooking.
ā€œHow are you feeling?ā€ He asks, a bit worried, it was your first time after all.
ā€œI'm doing greatā€, you smile, ā€œjust a bit sore, but it's nothingā€
He nods, putting his hands on your shoulders and turning you around.
ā€œI'm happy to hear thatā€, he kisses the top of your head, guiding you to take a seat on the table. ā€œLet's eat so we can go for another round thenā€, he smirks.
—
ā€œJeongin is coming here today?ā€ You ask your sister and she nods frantically while fixing her hair.
ā€œHe's coming to ask dad's permission to date meā€, she giggles excitedly.
ā€œAlrightā€, you smile seeing your sister so happy.
You're the one opening the door for Jeongin while your sister is getting ready, he's clearly nervous but he's trying to keep his smile.
ā€œHey!ā€ You give space for him to enter, ā€œYuna is almost doneā€
He nods, looking around. Your sister comes down minutes later, leading Jeongin to the living room.
Your father is less hostile to him than he was to Chan, maybe it's because Jeongin is adorable.
After an hour of conversation, you go upstairs, you have a date tonight and need to get ready.
The memories from your night with Chan flood your mind making you giggle and kick your feet, they have been your most cherished thoughts lately. It's a struggle but you finally end your bath after probably an hour.
You walk back to your room, you're already late. However, you stop in front of your sister's room when you hear voices being a little bit too loud.
ā€œYou did what, Jeongin?ā€ your sister's voice is a pitch higher than usual.
ā€œI didn't think things would get out of handā€, Jeongin answers, are they fighting?
ā€œIn what world did you think that was a good idea?ā€
ā€œI was desperate, I'm not proud of thatā€, he answers back.
ā€œThere's no excuse for you to ask Bangchan to date my sisterā€, she tries speaking lower but you still can hear them. Your whole world crumbles with that one sentence, what does she mean by that?
ā€œI didn't do it to be mean, I know how hard it is for your sister to get to meet new people, I thought it would benefit the both of usā€, he tries explaining. Your heart is beating too fast, the throbbing in your ears grows stronger and your legs are giving out.
ā€œHow am I supposed to tell her now? She is so happyā€ Yuna cries out. ā€œDon't come any closer, get out of hereā€, you panic instantly, they can't see you there. But you're too slow, when you finally manage to move Jeongin is swinging the door open. He stops on his tracks, turning white on the spot.
ā€œY/N-ā€, he tries to speak, but you run to your room before he can say anything else.
You can't believe this is actually happening to you, you thought that someone finally liked you but everything was a lie? That's not possible, right?
You are going to go to Chan, you two have a date, and he is going to tell you that Jeongin is lying, that he was just joking.
The uber to Chan's apartment doesn't seem to show up fast enough and the ride there couldn't be slower. You're restless, fidgeting with your fingers and shaking your legs.
You pay the man, practically running out of the car and running upstairs. The person who opens the door is not Chan but Changbin, you met him a few times when you were visiting the apartment.
ā€œHey, y/nā€, Changbin greets you. ā€œChan is not home, but he will be here soon, I heard you have a dateā€, he says, letting you in.
ā€œI'm going to wait for him in his roomā€, you tell him, too disturbed to worry about proper manners.
You walk back and forth in the room, anxiously waiting for Chan's arrival. You hear his voice after twenty minutes, he's talking to his friend in the living room when Changbin tells him you're there.
You can hear the fast footsteps leading to where you are, you take a deep breath, trying not to cry.
ā€œHey, babyā€, Chan smiles at you, dropping his bag on the floor and walking towards you with open arms. ā€œDid something happen?ā€ He stops, noticing your face.
You stare at him for a minute, brows knit together and eyes trying to find the least bit of sincerity in the time you two spent together.
ā€œDid you ask me out as a favor to Jeongin?ā€ You ask and his standing falter, how did you find out?
ā€œL-let me explainā€, he says, taking a step closer to you.
ā€œSo you didā€, you feel the tears trying to escape from your eyes.
ā€œPlease, just… just hear what I have to sayā€, he asks, trying to hold your hand, but you pull away from him.
ā€œI don't want to hear a thing from youā€, you tell him, running your hands through your hair.
It really was all a lie. How could you be so dumb?
You walk past him, trying to get out of the room, go anywhere but there. But Chan grabs your arm, making you stop in your tracks.
ā€œPlease, don't leaveā€, he begs. You feel a pang in your chest, but it doesn't make a difference since you're already hurting too much.
ā€œYou have no right to ask me thatā€, you pull your arm out of his grasp and walk out of the apartment.
It would be too humiliating to enter the uber while bawling your eyes out, so you decide to walk. You walk for a long time before your feet start hurting and your eyes are burning from how much you cried. You can't believe you really let yourself fall pray to such a scheme, you thought you were smarter than that.
It's obvious you only fell for it because it's Chan, you were attracted to him since the first time you laid eyes on him. You try to believe that it wouldn't be that easy to trick you if it was anyone else.
After at least two hours, you finally reach your house and you're feeling utterly miserable. You greet your parents and walk upstairs, anxiously searching for your room so you can finally let yourself fall and cry as much as you can.
Your sister is seated on your bed, biting on her nails. She stands up as soon as she sees you.
ā€œI'm really sorryā€, she says, teary.
You sigh, feeling the weight on your chest even heavier.
ā€œIt's not your faultā€, you tell her. You start to undress, looking for your pajamas so you can snuggle on your bed until all of this passes.
ā€œI shouldn't have started dating before youā€, she whines.
ā€œI don't blame you, so stop doing that to yourselfā€, you say, even though you feel a bit of resentment because Jeongin likes her truly, he likes her because she's her. Of course no one's going to like you, you're… you.
ā€œButā€, she bites on her lower lip, not sure if she should say this, ā€œI think Chan really likes you-ā€, she stops talking when you give her the meanest glare you ever threw in someone's way.
ā€œI don't want to hear itā€, you say.
ā€œHe even asked help so he could confess to you in a way you would likeā€, she continues.
ā€œI'm not going to repeat myselfā€, you say and your sister knows that tone too well, it's better for her to stay silent for the time being. ā€œIf you're done, I would like to be aloneā€
Yuna nods, glancing at you all the way to the door.
You collapse on your bed, finally able to cry your eyes out without people looking at you in a weird way. This is the moment you realize how much you love Bang Chan, the pain you're feeling is greater than anything you ever felt in your whole life, you truly don't think you'll be able to survive this.
Chan is an idiot, he knows this and you are right to never look at his face again. But even though he knows you're right, he can't accept the thought of you leaving him.
He tried calling and texting you, you blocked him. He tried talking to your sister, she cursed him out and told him to leave you alone. She and Jeongin are on bad terms right now but they didn't break up yet.
He tried to find you in the university, but you didn't show up for the entire week, he just doesn't know what to do.
ā€œYou are an idiotā€, Hyunjin says after listening to the whole story, ā€œyou should have told her about it while you still had timeā€
ā€œI didn't know I was in loveā€, Chan runs his hands through his hair, ā€œnot until it was too lateā€
His friend sighs, he just can't see Chan like that anymore. He's just miserable, he looks like he's dying and Hyunjin doesn't doubt it could actually happen at this point.
So as a good friend, he takes this matter into his own hands and calls your sister, trying to convince her to listen to Chan and maybe forgive Jeongin too, Hyunjin is tired of him whining all day long.
ā€œDid you really call me here for this?ā€, Yuna asks, ready to grab her things and go home.
ā€œHear me out, okay?ā€ He says. ā€œI know what they did was wrong but they regret it, Jeongin even told you about itā€
She huffs, crossing her arms.
ā€œHe told me because I was talking about how Chan wanted to ask y/n to be his girlfriendā€, she says. ā€œHe felt guilty, he would have never told me about it otherwiseā€
ā€œChan really likes y/n, he really wants to be with herā€
Yuna sighs, she knows that. There was no way Chan could fake the way he looked at you.
ā€œShe's not going to believe thatā€, Yuna says, ā€œy/n is heartbroken, she's not even going to her classes. She just stays in her room all day, crying’
ā€œThere's nothing better to fix her broken heart thenā€, Hyunjin points out, ā€œlet's help them meet, they can talk things out that wayā€
ā€œShe doesn't want to see himā€, Yuna sighs, ā€œbut I do think this is the best solutionā€
ā€œOkay, I'll text you the day and time, just bring y/n, Chan will take care of the restā€
Yuna nods, collecting her things but before she can stand up, Hyunjin's voice sounds again.
ā€œAbout Jeongin-ā€, he starts, but she cuts him off right away.
ā€œThis whole mess started because of Jeonginā€, she takes a deep breath, ā€œafter y/n and Chan resolve this matter I'll see what I'm going to do about himā€
Yuna turns around, leaving Hyunjin there. At least he got Chan a chance, he can't save everyone.
Chan can't take it anymore, he has to see you. So he musters all the courage he has and goes to your house. It doesn't help that it's 2 a.m. so everyone is sleeping, except you it seems, since there's light coming from your room.
He begins throwing rocks at your window, trying to make you notice him and after a few tries he sees your face popping out.
Chan wishes he didn't come at all, your face is puffy so he knows you have been crying and the way you're looking at him, it's just awful, he feels despicable. More than he has felt all this time without you.
ā€œWhat do you want?ā€ You ask, at least you didn't ignore him.
ā€œCan you come down for a bit?ā€
You sigh, you don't actually want to, but you're afraid he'll make too much noise trying to convince you to go down and wake up the neighbors or even worse, your parents.
You close the window, he knew it would be hard, that you wouldn't want to see him. Before he can turn around and walk away, Chan hears the sound of the front door opening.
You are in your pajamas, holding yourself trying to protect your body from the cold air.
You stop in your tracks, looking at him with an intense gaze, like you can read all his thoughts and know about all his mistakes.
ā€œHow have you been?ā€ He asks and you scoff.
ā€œAre you here to survey my mood? I have been feeling like shit, what about you?ā€ He remembers the first time he talked to you, how he wished to see you mad, now he regrets that. He never wanted to see you mad at him.
ā€œI'm not well eitherā€, he says.
You sigh.
ā€œNow that we know how each other is feeling, you can goā€, you tell him.
ā€œCan you let me explain?ā€ He pleads.
ā€œDid you start dating me as a favor for Jeongin?ā€ You ask and he sighs, nodding. ā€œThat's all I need to know, I would appreciate it if you don't come looking for me anymoreā€, you say, turning around and going back inside. Tears start running down your face while you go back to your room, when will this pain subside?
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You are finally back at school, after moping around all day at home for an entire week, you decided it was time to get back to your life. Staying at home just made you feel worse, you didn't have a thing to distract yourself so you ended up thinking about Chan the whole time. That only weakened your resolve to forget about him, you avoided coming to school because you knew you would give in if he tried to approach you.
Your day goes by fast enough and you just want to go home to lay on your bed. You feel your phone buzzing, it's a message from Jeongin. You were so angry with Chan that you forgot to block him.
He should be begging to meet Yuna, so why is he asking to meet you? Maybe he wants your help to fix things between them.
You don't know why you decided to meet him, maybe it's curiosity to know why he did such a thing to you or maybe you want to look at his face and curse at him.
He arrives at the cafe at the set time, looking around for you and walking towards you when his eyes lock with yours.
ā€œHeyā€, he says, sitting in front of you. You don't say anything back, not in the mood to be polite.
Jeongin sighs, he expected this much.
ā€œI wanted to talk with you about this whole situation, believe me I didn't mean to hurt you even though it ended up happening in the end-ā€
ā€œI considered you my friendā€, you say making him stop talking.
ā€œI- I'mā€, he says, voice a pitch higher.
ā€œFriends don't do what you didā€, you say and he nods.
ā€œI know it was an ill executed plan, but my intentions weren't bad, I swearā€, he tells you.
ā€œAnd do your intentions matter if I was the one hurt in the end?ā€ You ask, angrier now.
ā€œNoā€, he answers. ā€œI'm truly sorry, I swear, I just caught you staring at Chan more than once. I thought this would be good for us both but I was clearly wrongā€
You huff, exhausted. You start collecting your things to go home but you hear Jeongin's voice once more.
ā€œChan really likes you, he fell in love with youā€, he says and your heart skips a beat, it shouldn't be behaving like this, not after the heartbreak you are going through.
ā€œI don't care, he lost his chanceā€, you answer firmly, even though you know it's not true.
ā€œAre you sure?ā€ Jeongin asks, ā€œare you sure you won't regret it? Not let him explain or not hearing him out?ā€
You glance at him once more, before standing up and walking out of the cafe.
Your mid terms are finally over, that means, you don't have anything to study so you're stuck with your thoughts. Your phone buzzes in your pocket, it's a message from Yuna, asking you to meet her in the arts department.
You reply, saying you'll be there in a moment. What is she even doing there? She's a business major.
The arts department is not far from yours, but it's emptier than you are used to. She asked you to meet in the first classroom of the second floor.
When you open the door, the first thing you see is Bang Chan. He looks awful, worse than you even.
You try going back, but he already saw you, so he stands up, coming closer.
ā€œDon't leave, I'll do anything just… don't leaveā€
He's pale, and the eyebags he normally has are darker than usual.
ā€œAre you sick?ā€ You ask, worried. It's not like you can stop loving him in such a short period of time, of course you're worried.
ā€œNoā€, he says, ā€œI mean, I'm not feeling well, but I don't think I have an illnessā€
You nod, feeling awkward. It's been a while since you felt this way about him.
ā€œOkay, then I'll get goingā€, you say trying to leave, but his voice stops you.
ā€œI love youā€, he is desperate, you can hear it in his voice. However, you're too petty.
ā€œThis was part of Jeongin’s plan too?ā€, you scoff, seeing his lips trembling.
He takes a deep breath, he deserves that, he knows he does.
ā€œI really started going out with you because Jeongin askedā€, he starts explaining, ā€œbut I fell in love with you, for realā€
You feel your heart ache once more, he's about to cry, you can see it. But you're not sure if you can forgive him, even if what he's telling you is true.
ā€œI don't believe youā€, you say, shrugging, trying to hold your own tears.
ā€œI will do anything to prove it to you, just say what I need to do for you to believe meā€, he says, taking a step closer to you.
ā€œI'm not sure if I'll be able to forget this or even forgive you, Chanā€, you sigh, letting your heart speak and not your anger.
ā€œI know I messed up, I don't deserve you I know that tooā€, he grabs your hand, ā€œbut please, I'll prove to you that I deserve a second chance, I'll earn back your trustā€, he pleads.
You sigh, even after all this, it seems you still can't say no to him.
ā€œI'm going to need some timeā€, you say slowly, ā€œbut I will give you a second chance, you better not ruin itā€, you say.
Chan can't believe you're really going to try and forgive him, he can't ask for anything more.
ā€œI won't disappoint you this time, I promiseā€, he says, kissing the palm of your hand, the same way he did before.
ā€œLet's see about thatā€, you sigh, feeling your heart beating fast once again.
You may be making a stupid choice, but you'll only learn by making mistakes. You just sure hope this is not one.
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A/N: If you like what I write please reblog or let me know in the comments, feedback gives me motivation to keep writing.
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harumasa-wifey Ā· 6 months ago
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i dont know if you still accept harumasa requests but, hear me out on swatching lipstick colors and then give harumasa bunch of kisses on his face while leaving bunch of colorful marks
Harumasa x Fem! Reader
Warning: slightly suggestive,fluff and lots of kissing. Not proofread
Note: i see what you did there and now you are responsible for what's about to happen anon/j. I'm not gonna ignore how the docs tried to correct my snacks to snakes like buddy you sure that is it? I post in the middle of the night like I got some rent due ( I don't even live in a rented house) but anyways i really wanna kiss this man XOXO
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He was lazing around on his desk when he heard footsteps enter the office. The footsteps didn't bother him but the sound of sweet laughter surely did. He knows that voice by heart it was you. He quickly looked up to see you walking in the office with yanagi while holding two bags.(Confused puppy mode activated)
He glanced at the brand name and understood it was some cosmetic after all yanagi promised to take you on a shopping spree today. How could he forget? She got to her desk which was in front of him happily greeting him.
ā€œOh well morning to you harumasa, were you sleeping?ā€ he yawned, stretching back and giving her a lazy smile genuinely feeling happy seeing her first thing after his nap, he peeked into the bag asking. ā€œWell hello there beautiful where ya been?ā€ she was about to answer but got interrupted by soukaku who ran around in circles around her.
ā€œOh oh oh?! What's in those bags! Is it snacks!ā€ they asked, feeling enthusiastic as ever. ā€œWell not quite but I do have snacks for you, oh and also give this calligraphy brush to miyabi for me please?ā€ She said while handing Soukaku one of the bags from the desk which the oni happily took and ran away then she turned towards a pouting harumasa. ā€œHow could you forget about your own boyfriend, I see this is it for me, you don't want me anymoreā€ he said while leaning back on his seat dramatically. She glared at him. ā€œ Of course I'll never forget about my lovely partner, it would be disastrous. Stop being dramatic, I am sure you can wait a little moreā€ she said while turning towards the bangboo who was offering her some papers. He looked at her confused. ā€œWhat do you mean wait? What are you trying to give? Hello?? Am I being ignored?ā€ She silently collected the papers and went to give them to yanagi. After a long day's work they were walking back home. He was thankful he escaped yanagi’s overtime today after skipping through paperwork.
He walked beside her holding her hand.
He turned to her and asked ā€œ sure you wanna stay over?ā€
ā€œYou don't want me to?ā€She asked while masking her face with sadness.
ā€œWait wait wait wait do not attack me like that i would never say no to you!ā€ He said rasing his hands up , she then smiled. ā€œ Well there is no problemā€ she said happily entering his room as he followed after her closing the room.
ā€œMy do you not live in here or somethingā€ she said looking around.
ā€œWell i warned youā€ everything was organised as if someone hasn't visited for two days because of the hospital appointments. She put her bag down and took out a box. ā€œGuess what i haveā€
He looked at the box ā€œa lipstick pack? Woha that's a whole setā€ he said while removing his bandana and falling in the bed while she opened the box while humming a tune besides him.ā€ Would you choose a colour for me?ā€ She looked up at him smiling and showing him the box. He thought for a while before picking on the lighter side. She picked the one he choose and tried it on. ā€œHmm does this look any good?ā€
Which he replied to ā€œ of course duh i don't think you need it thoā€ she glanced at him across the mirror. ā€œ I think i have another way to test itā€ he tilted his head then suddenly she pulled him into a kiss. His hands around her waist while she was on his lap. She broke the kiss and looked at the Mark around his lips.
ā€œWell this colour is too light lemme try anotherā€ she said picking out a darker shade then kissing him on his cheek leaving another mark. It's been about 5 mins and 10 different shades with more 10 to go and his face and neck covered in different lipstick marks with his shirt buttons undone. ā€œHmm I can't find the one I like, you must be bored by nowā€
He shaked his head sideways and whispering in a low husky voice. ā€œGo on.ā€ She leaned in again leave new marks over his lips and collarbones.
Don't blame him if he sleeps in your arms this will the most peaceful he has ever been. Well he won't blame you either if the marks don't wash off with just water in the morning. He might try to get a sick leave. More like love sick leave.
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gotaksboyfie Ā· 26 days ago
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Hi! I hope you’re doing good.
Could you do a Baku fic where gender neutral reader and him get into a argument because Baku joined the union, and in the end Baku apologizes and it’s an emotional moment, (sorry if it’s too much!)
soft apologies
gif creds: @slytherinshua
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pairing baku x gn reader
summary when baku went to the bathroom for a short while, you couldn't help but peek at his phone notifications. you stared in shock at what you found, and can't help but question baku why
word count 1.2k
warnings/tags hurt/comfort
all night, baku's phone was blowing up. you were curious why but you didn't want to be pushy about it, since baku was deadset on ignoring the notifications.
you both sat on your couch cuddled up, watching a random kdrama you found. baku gently nudged you off of him, standing up and stretching.
"gotta go babe, the bathroom calls for me," he walked away, probably needing to shit. you laughed at the thought. baku's phone buzzed again, and this time you were in the perfect position to view what it was.
a scam caller? a toxic ex? the options were endless. you flipped his phone over to see multiple notifications from.. na baekjin?
na baekjin: xxx street. [image attached]
na baekjin: get it back by 7:00pm tomorrow.
na baekjin: [image attached]
na baekjin: this one too. xxx street.
you dropped the phone back on the table in shock. you had heard about the union and na baekjin from juntae's ramblings, but you could've never imagined that baku took part in it too.
"reader? what are you–" baku cut himself off with a gasp. he looked at your shocked expression, and his phone face up on the table.
"you.. you joined the union?" you asked with disgust evident in your voice. you looked at baku, waiting for a response.
baku flinched, staying silent for a moment. you knew what that silence meant. you knew the answer to your question, so why were you still waiting for baku's response?
"you joined the fucking union and you never told me?" your voice was sharp, and your breathing was getting heavier. you couldn't believe it. this wasn't the baku you knew—he would never do this.
"it's not like that," baku forces out. his voice is stilted, as if he's barely gathering his words together.
"then tell me what it's like. because to me, it looks like you just joined forces with the same people that hurt everyone you promised to protect!" your voice gets louder and louder, until you're borderline yelling at him. you stand up from where you were sitting, turning your body to face him fully.
"you don't know anything reader," a familiar fire lights up in his eyes, and he clenches his fist. "you don't get to make all these assumptions when you have no clue what i'm going through."
"assumptions?" you let out an airy laugh, "these aren't assumptions, it's the fucking truth. you're well aware of everything they've done and will continue to do, and you go ahead and do this."
baku grits his teeth, clearly holding back from doing something. "you don't get it. i.. i did it to protect you, and everyone else, okay?" baku admits, swallowing hard.
"protect me? you think this is going to protect me? this paints the biggest target on my back, on juntae's and sieun's and even hyuntak's back! they'll do anything to get you to stay, even if it means crippling someone again," tears form in your eyes, you really couldn't understand baku's reasoning.
"they were going to hurt you regardless, i had no fucking choice!" baku shouts, "if it means i get to control when you're safe, of course i'd join the union!"
"but why would you keep it from me?" your voice is quiet, "this isn't keeping me safe in the slightest, baku."
"i didn't want you to worry, i only wanted to protect you." baku's gaze lands on the floor, suddenly too ashamed to meet your eyes.
"how am i supposed to trust you?" you confess. your voice breaks a little, and suddenly you feel too small for this conversation.
"i didn't.." baku pauses, letting your words sink in fully. "i didn't want to break your trust, not on purpose. i just couldn't find when to tell you,"
"so you were going to hide this from me forever? when were you ever going to tell me, be honest."
baku opens his mouth to speak, but lets out only a sigh in response. a long silence stretches out, and you let out a small sob.
"you were never going to tell me, weren't you?" you already knew the answer but you wanted to get confirmation from baku himself.
baku stays silent again, his face looked like he was holding back from crying. there was a slight tremor in his jaw and his expression isn't angry anymore. it was defeated, like baku had given up on fighting back with you.
you wait for his response. multiple minutes pass, and baku takes in a sharp breath.
"i didn't know how to tell you," his voice cracks, and you can sense the vulnerability in it. "i knew you'd be hurt, and i wanted to delay the inevitable."
"you knew joining the union would cause.. this," you motioned around with your hands, "and you still did it?"
"you don't understand. they were going after everyone i love, reader." baku breathes in a shuddery breath, "my dad, my friends, you."
you stay quiet to encourage baku to continue despite every part of you fighting to yell at him. but you hold back to hear his perspective.
"i was powerless against it. what am i supposed to do against an entire organized gang? i couldn't protect anyone," his voice was thick with frustration.
"so this is the best solution? throw everything you've fought for away, and join them?" you laugh sarcastically, "becoming exactly what you hate?"
baku slams his fist against the wall, "why do you think i wanted this? do you think i wanted to join? please, reader, understand where i'm coming from."
your face crumples, and you let go of your angry facade. you were just hurt and confused—you couldn't stay mad at him anymore.
"you should've just told me," you start to cry, "you don't have to shoulder everything alone. i just wish you wouldn't shut me out," your hands wipe at your eyes, embarrassed that you're crying over this.
"i.." baku looks at you crying softly, and hesitantly walks over, "i never meant to shut you out. i know i fucked up, and i'm sorry. i'm sorry for making it feel like i don't trust you, and i'm sorry for joining the union."
baku pulls you into a hug, and he rubs your back soothingly. your arms reach to hug him back, and you sniffle into his shirt.
"i wasn't planning on staying for long, reader. i wanted to join briefly, then betray baekjin," baku admits.
"you should've said that from the beginning, you dumbass," you cry into baku's chest while holding him closer, "i was seriously hurt."
"i know. park humin really is a dumbass, huh?" baku jokes softly, stroking your head.
"the biggest one to exist," you mutter. baku kisses your head, and you look up at him. "i'm still mad that you hid this from me, and that you joined the union participating in whatever illegal activites they do."
"i'm sorry, reader. i won't keep anything from you again, and i'll be more honest about what i do. i'll tell baekjin off soon, and i'll tell everyone else about this." baku apologizes again, tenderly cupping your cheek with his hand. his voice is stable and firm, and you can tell he's being honest.
you nod, silently accepting his apology. "never again, okay?"
"i promise, reader."
fin
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lovegoodlane Ā· 6 months ago
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Pursuing the Prefect - 5
4.5k words
18+ only
Warnings: smut, oral sex [female receiving], face sitting, vaginal sex, teasing
Summary: Fred and his prefect take their relationship to a new level (soft Fred, dom Fred, soft top Fred)
A/N: The moment you have all been waiting for....I'll probably write one last part to finish everything off. My requests are open, so let me know what to write next!
Link to part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4
—— Fred held your hand the entire way up to his dormitory. Neither of you spoke. A comfortable silence rested between you as you hustled up the final staircase that led to his room.
Fred opened the door for you, muttering "lumos" to light a lamp on a desk that was pushed in the corner. He turned to you, taking your other hand.Ā 
"You're absolutely cracking, you know that?" he said, a smile on his lips. You returned the smile, placing a kiss on his cheek.
"I am actually aware of that, thank you," you replied, teasing him.
"You put Pucey in his place," he said. "Remind me to not get on your bad side."
"You've been on my bad side before, and I think you actually quite enjoyed it," you joked, shoving at his chest.Ā 
"You are bloody hot when you're angry," Fred replied, raising his eyebrows and pursing his lips at you in mock consideration.
"Oh, shove off," you laughed, heading toward his bed and throwing yourself onto it. "After that big scene, I think I need a nap."
Fred walked over to where you were face down in his pillows. He spanked your butt lightly.
"Come on, birdie, you can't take up the whole bed," he complained, running a hand down your butt and onto the backs of your thighs.
"Fine," you grumbled in fake frustration, rolling over to make room for Fred in his own bed.
Fred joined you in the bed, rolling you onto your side so you could cuddle into his chest. He stroked your hair, giving you a kiss on the forehead.
"Can I tell you something?" he asked, still stroking your hair.
"Anything," you replied, nuzzling your head into his chest.
"I really like you," he said, suddenly sounding very serious.
Your hand played with the neckline of his t shirt as you considered your response. Now didn't feel like the best moment to crack a joke.
"I like you too, Fred," you answered.Ā 
"No, I mean..." Fred stumbled over his words. He rolled onto his side so he could look you in the eye. "I know what my reputation is like with girls. I don't date anyone very seriously and I just like hooking up. But that's not what this is, birdie. I feel serious about you."
"Oh," was all you could think to say as he continued to stare into your eyes. This was giving you flashbacks to conversations with Adrian where he was insistent on planning your future together.Ā 
"You told me that Pucey wanted to get serious too quickly, and that's not what I'm trying to do," he said, seeming to read your mind and sense your worries. "We have all the time in the world. But I need you to know that I feel that way."
"Fred...." you were still having a hard time finding the right thing to say. Nothing came to mind.Ā 
"I realized today that going even just a day without speaking to you feels like torture," he admitted. "I'm sorry for reacting that way, and I'm sorry for how it made you feel. You're my favorite person to talk to and spend time with. I won't ever ignore you like that again."
You reached your hand up to cup his cheek. Your mind went back to the conversation that you had with Beatrice at the Three Broomsticks, admitting to how deep your feelings went for Fred. He was spilling his feelings, but it still felt so difficult to admit to your own.
Fred's hand found your waist, rubbing his thumb against the fabric of your shirt. It's almost like he was trying to beckon the words out of you.
"I...Godric, Freddie, I'm not good at this," you said, letting out an awkward chuckle.Ā 
"Take your time, darling," he soothed, squeezing your waist in reassurance.
"I really like you too," you finally said. "I think....I think that you're really good for me. You tease me about being the perfect prefect, but that's what I have been ever since I got to Hogwarts. And being that way is actually quite boring."
Both you and Fred chuckled at that admission.
"But you make me try new things. And I feel spontaneous for the first time. Instead of being controlled by getting good marks and being the best student, you have helped me take initiative of my own life," you said. "I adore you and I am learning to adore the person that I am when I'm with you."
Fred's eyes were still locked on yours. The sentimental softness that you loved returned to his eyes, and he leaned forward to kiss you on the lips.
It was sweet and gentle. Only a few kisses before he pulled away.Ā 
"You inspire me to want to do my homework," Fred teased, tickling your side.
You laughed, grabbing at his hand. "You improve me, I improve you."
You pushed him over onto his back and nuzzled into his chest, his hand snaking around your back to pull you in closer. You laid like this for a while, listening to each other's quiet heartbeats and enjoying each other's touch.Ā 
"Freddie?" you said quietly.
"Yes, birdie?" he replied, rubbing your back with his hand.
"I'm ready," you said, sounding shy.
"Ready for what?" he asked, somewhat confused.
"I'm...I'm ready to have sex. Whenever you are, of course," you fumbled over your words a bit awkwardly, feeling heat rise to your cheeks.
You tried to bury your face into Fred's neck, but he refused to let you. He knew that you were flustered.
"Darling, you don't have to feel embarrassed," he said, grabbing your jaw to turn you to look at him. "Thank you for telling me."
He placed a light kiss on the tip of your nose before releasing your jaw.Ā 
"I'm going to put on pajamas, I can't lay in bed with jeans on. Feels like a crime," Fred said, getting up from the bed.
He crossed the room to his dresser, pulling open the bottom drawer and grabbing pajamas from it before closing it. You were still turned onto your side on the bed, giving you a perfect view of Fred across the room.
He pulled his t shirt over his head, throwing it onto the floor next to him. You had never seen him shirtless before.
In the dim light of the dormitory, you could make out his chiseled figure. Years of quidditch had made him strong and lean, and your cheeks flushed as you realized that you were checking him out.
"Enjoying the show, birdie?" he teased, picking up his abandoned shirt from the floor and tossing it at you.
This made you blush even harder. You sat up on the bed, pondering your next move.
You watched as he undid his belt and trousers, throwing his trousers into a laundry bin before reaching for the pair of pajama pants that he had retrieved from the drawer. He pulled them on, turning to where you were sat on the bed.Ā 
"Everything alright, darling?" he asked, confused by your silence and empty expression.
You had been chewing on your lower lip, trying to muster up the courage for what you were about to do. You scooted to the edge of the bed, putting your feet on the floor.Ā 
You crossed the room to where Fred was still standing. You kissed him on the lips only once, leaving him even more confused.
You pulled your own t shirt up and off, tossing it away. Fred's eyebrows raised as he took in the sight of you before him.
This time, you came prepared. You were wearing a deep blue bra with black lacing along the straps. It was the sexiest thing that you owned, and you had a feeling that Fred was going to see it tonight.
"House colors, how appropriate," Fred teased, ghosting his fingers along your sides and up your back.Ā 
Your heart was already racing and he had barely even touched you. You were nervous, but you were ready. You wanted this.Ā 
You dared to reach out to touch him, running your nails down his sides. You stopped at the waistband of his pajama pants, gripping them and tugging him closer to you.
He chuckled, enjoying your boldness. You kissed him again, your hands trailing back up his sides and to his muscular shoulders.Ā 
He let you take control, keeping his hands politely at the middle of your back as yours roamed around his bare shoulders. You pushed him back, pulling away once again.
You fumbled with the button of your jeans. "Want to borrow a pair of pajamas?" Fred teased, watching you struggle.
"No, Fred," you replied, rolling your eyes at him. You had finally gotten the button free, undoing the zipper and starting to pull your jeans down your legs. "I want you."
Fred waited patiently for you to step out of your jeans before he picked you up. You giggled, wrapping your legs around his middle while he carried you back to the bed.
He held you for a moment, planting wet kisses along your jawline before setting you onto the bed. He attacked your lips next, his teeth biting at your lower lip while his hands ran along your thighs.
You dug your nails into his back, trailing down toward his waistband once again. You pulled at it, signaling to him that he should take the pajamas off. Fred paused his mission for a moment to take off his pants, immediately returning to your mouth.Ā 
You pulled away, grabbing at Fred's shoulders. "Lay down," you commanded.
Fred listened, laying down on the bed. You positioned yourself over him, one thigh on either side of his middle.Ā 
He was loving this view. You had been intimate before, but not quite like this. You were in only your bra and knickers, a smirk on your mouth as you loomed over him. He couldn't think of anything in the whole world that could be sexier.
You left hot kisses along his jaw and down his neck, bringing up one hand to grip the other side of his neck. Your kisses continued down to his collarbones where you sucked a number of love bites into his skin. It was payback for what he usually did to you.
Fred's hands ran up and down your back, playing with the clasp of your bra as he decided whether or not to take it off. He didn't want to rush you, but he had been dying to get a bra off of you for a long time.
You finally gripped one of his hands that was on your back, stopping it. "You can take it off," you whispered, reassuring him.
You released his hand, allowing him to undo the clasp. He reached for the straps, pulling them down your arms as he removed your bra.
Fred bit his lip. He ran his thumbs underneath your breasts, gripping your ribcage with his hands. He sat up, giving you a kiss on the lips before kissing along the tops of your breasts.
It took only moments for him to suck one of your nipples into his mouth. Your nails dug into his shoulders in response, a whimper falling from your lips.Ā 
He bit and sucked at one nipple and used his fingers to play with the other. All you could do was run your nails up and down his back while you moaned out his name.
"Mmm...so beautiful," he spoke into your skin as he switched his mouth to your other nipple.
Your hands found their way into his hair, pulling at it to distract yourself from what Fred was doing to you. You began to grind your hips into his, becoming desperate for more friction.
"So needy, huh?" Fred commented, releasing your nipple from his mouth and kissing along your ribs.Ā 
Your hips ground down even harder, begging for contact. You could feel how hard he was through his underwear, and you knew he wanted this too. But Fred was playing the long game.
His fingers danced down to your knickers. "Can I make you feel good, darling?" he asked, looking up into your eyes.
You nodded at him, your words caught in your throat. Fred lifted you off of him for a moment so he could remove your knickers. He laid back down on the bed, a grin on his face.
"Why don't you come sit on my face?" he said, his thumbs rubbing circles into your hips.Ā 
Your cheeks flushed. This was something you had never done before. It seemed impractical and potentially even dangerous.
"I don't know, Fred," you said, feeling shy. "I don't want to hurt you."
Fred moved one hand up to your cheek. "Darling, I promise that it won't hurt me. Now that I think about it, suffocating between your thighs wouldn't be the worst way to go."
He smirked at you. You slapped at his chest. "Get off it, Fred," you chastised, a small smile playing at your own mouth.
"How about we give it a try and you can stop if you don't like it?" Fred proposed, squeezing your hip.Ā 
"Okay," you agreed hesitantly, feeling deeply self conscious.
You placed your hands on his chest, slowly moving yourself up his middle. You weren't exactly sure how to do this.
"How do I—" you began to ask before Fred gripped your hips, picking you up and settling you over his face.
"I guess that'll do it," you chuckled nervously, your hands finding the headboard of Fred's bed.
"Tell me if you want to stop," Fred said. You could feel him breathing on your core, making you shiver.
He pulled your hips down, your core meeting his mouth. You were holding your breath. His tongue darted out, immediately finding your clit. It seemed like he already had your body memorized, knowing exactly how to make you feel good.Ā 
Your hands gripped at the headboard as Fred's tongue increased its pace. Your entire body felt hot, and you tried to keep yourself from grinding your hips down into his mouth.Ā 
Fred angled your hips forward, allowing him to drag his tongue down to your entrance. His fingers dug into your hips as he fucked you with his tongue, making you feel like you were going to scream.
"Just like that, Freddie," you encouraged, finally finding your voice.
You allowed yourself to grind your hips down ever so slightly, and Fred responded with a groan. He squeezed your hips tighter, encouraging you to continue.
Fred's mouth found its way back up to your clit, sucking it into his mouth as you ground your hips into him. You were so close to your release.
"Fred—ahh, don't stop," you cried out, holding onto the headboard for dear life.Ā 
You only needed a few more moments before you reached your orgasm, whimpering out Fred's name as your hips trembled. He pulled you from his mouth, laying you onto the bed on your back as he hovered above you.Ā 
"That wasn't so bad, was it?" he said, kissing up your jaw and to your lips.
You stayed like this for a few minutes, kissing Fred as you were still feeling the glow of your orgasm. You wrapped your legs around him, pulling him in as close as you could.
You pulled out of the kiss, bringing a hand up to ruffle his hair. You smirked at him.
"I think it's your turn now," you said, using your other hand to ghost down his chest toward his boxers. You reached the waistband and pulled at it, letting it slap back against his skin.
"Birdie, tonight is about you," Fred said, placing kisses along your neck.
The hand you had at his waistband continued down, your thumb teasing him over his boxers. If you thought he was hard before, he was definitely hard now. You imagined that it almost had to be painful.Ā 
You suddenly felt bold, gripping Fred over the fabric of his boxers. His breath stuttered.
"I want you, Freddie," you whispered, trying to play up your innocence. He stopped kissing your neck, reeling back to look you in the eye.
"Are you absolutely certain?" Fred asked, his eyes soft. He was more than willing to wait. You were worth it.
"One hundred percent," you answered, pecking him on the lips. You felt a nervous pit in your stomach, but it wasn't the bad kind. It felt more like anticipation.Ā 
"If you ever want to stop—" Fred started, but you brought a finger up his lips to shush him.Ā 
"Freddie, I won't want you to stop," you said, your eyes intense.Ā 
That was all the permission he needed before he started kissing your lips again, this time seeming more desperate. He reached for one of the pillows behind your head, breaking the kiss as he pulled you up off of the bed and put the pillow under your hips.
You looked at him, a bit confused. He smirked. "Darling, I know a thing or two," he answered, placing a kiss on your knee.
He pulled his boxers off, tossing them to the side before he found his place between your legs again. Your hands were folded on your bare stomach as you waited for him to do something.
He reached for your hands, holding them in his. He noticed that you were shaking just slightly.
"We don't have to do this," he whispered, reassuring you.
"Fred, I want to," you insisted. "It's just nerves. It's been a while."
You chuckled, trying to dispel any anxiety you had.
"Okay," he said, placing a kiss on each of your wrists. "Stop me if it hurts."
You nodded. Fred released your hands, using his own to trace a path up your outer thighs. He gripped the backs of your knees, pulling your legs up just slightly.
You felt his tip as he aligned himself with your entrance. Your heart was pounding in your chest. Fred eased himself in slowly, releasing a breath that you didn't realize he was holding.Ā 
You felt a familiar burn as he got deeper, stretching you to accommodate his size. Fred grabbed your hands, placing them up next to your head.Ā 
He held your hands as he rocked into you slowly, kissing gently along your collarbone. He pulled back to look you in the eye.
"Alright, birdie?" he asked, his words sounding strained. You knew that he was holding himself back for your sake. Everything he did was for your benefit.Ā 
You nodded. "Keep going," you said.
He kissed you on the forehead. He met your eyes again as he pushed into you, this time all the way. Fred choked out a groan, feeling the pleasure of finally bottoming out into you.
Fred kissed you on the lips before releasing your hands. He traced a path down your sides and back to your thighs, pushing your knees closer to your chest.
He was still moving slowly, trying not to hurt you. But you didn't care if you were sore in the morning, you wanted more.
"Fred?" you said quietly.
He stopped moving. "Yes, darling?" he answered, concern laced in his voice.
"Harder," you said, bringing your hands to his back. You traced his muscles with your nails.
He smirked at you, not expecting this response. "Careful what you wish for," he muttered, gripping your thighs even harder.
Fred picked up his pace, pushing into you harder than he had before. Your nails dug into his back, begging him for more.
"More, Freddie, more," you whined.
Fred pulled almost all the way out of you before slamming back into you again. You cried out, arching your back off of the bed.
Fred was fucking you even faster now, hitting the deepest spot in you each time. You were basically clawing at his back now, and you knew that there would be marks left behind.
"You feel so good, birdie," he said, pounding into you. "So tight. Such a good girl."
You whimpered at his words, feeling another orgasm building. Fred brought his thumb to your clit, rubbing it as he continued to fuck you mercilessly.
"Are you going to finish again for me darling?" he asked. "Come on gorgeous, finish for me. Right on my cock. Be a good girl."
As if his actions weren't enough, Fred's words sent you over the edge. You orgasmed for the second time that night, crying out as Fred continued to hit the perfect spot inside of you.
He slowed down, grabbing your hand and kissing the back of it. He worked you down from your high, slowly pulling out of you.
"So perfect," he commented, kissing your hand again before putting it back down on the bed.
You laid there for a moment in a daze, feeling like you were unable to move after that second orgasm. Fred knew exactly what to do to make you finish, and it blew your mind every time.Ā 
You finally got your wits about you. "Fred, you didn't finish," you said, sounding a tad offended.
He chuckled. "Not your fault. I could go all night, darling."
You gripped his arms. "Then keep going," you said, looking at him.
"I don't want to hurt you," he said, stroking the outside of your thigh with his hand.
"Fred, it doesn't hurt. I want you to keep going," you insisted.
"It might not hurt now, but you're going to be sore tomorrow morning," he replied, meeting your gaze. "I can finish myself off. I already told you that tonight is about you."
You huffed. "If tonight was really about me, you would keep fucking me," you asserted, narrowing your eyes at him.
He smirked at you for what felt like the millionth time that night. "Okay, bossy. I guess I have to listen to the prefect when she orders me around," he teased.Ā 
"Less talking, more fucking," you shot back at him.Ā 
He chuckled. "My lips are sealed," he replied.
Fred turned you over onto your side, pulling your knees up so they were close to your chest. He slid into you again, this time finding less resistance.Ā 
He worked in and out of you slowly, driving you absolutely insane. He knew exactly what he was doing, and he was enjoying your impatience.
"Frederick Weasley, you can do better than that," you said, your voice snippy.
He shrugged in response. Apparently he was taking his vow of silence seriously.Ā 
He increased his pace ever so slightly, pushing your knees up even higher to hit a better angle. You cried out as he hit the perfect spot, desperate for him to do it again.
But that was part of his game. He pushed into you just barely deep enough, not hitting the spot again. He smirked at himself, proud of his work.
"Fred, I will curse you into next week if you don't knock it off," you said, becoming irritated.
"I don't know what you're talking about," Fred replied, feigning innocence.
"Do I really need to do everything myself?" you shot back.
"All you have to do is ask nicely," Fred said, still thrusting into you slowly.Ā 
"Fuck off," you said, determined not to give in to what he wanted.Ā 
"If you insist," he said, pulling out of you.Ā 
It was a battle of the wills. Both of you were stubborn. But he wanted to make you give in.
"Fine," you huffed, exasperated. "Please?"
Fred chuckled. "You can do better than that."
You bit your lip, trying to step past your pride. "Please, Freddie. I want you," you said, sounding much more sincere this time.
"See birdie, it's not that difficult," Fred said, turning you over onto your stomach. He pushed your chest down and your bottom up, forcing you to arch your back.
He lined himself up behind you, his tip at your entrance. His hands squeezed at your sides.
"Are you going to beg for it?" he muttered into your ear.
He had you right where he wanted you. Desperate. Frustrated. He loved making the prefect beg.
"Please," you said once again, sounding even more desperate this time.
"Mmmm....not convincing enough," Fred replied, his hands roving down your sides and to your bottom.Ā 
"Fred, please," you basically whined, trying to push your hips back onto him. If he wasn't going to take care of you, you were going to do it yourself.
"So desperate," Fred chided. "I'm not sure that you really are a good girl after all."
He finally pushed into you, taking you by surprise. He worked in and out of you, picking up speed quicker than he had before.Ā 
"You're a bad girl, huh?" Fred commented, reaching around to grip your throat lightly. "The prefect is a bad, bad girl."
He thrusted into you even harder, finally hitting that spot that drove you crazy. You felt like a mess. You knew that your hair was wild and that you were likely covered in love bites. But you were loving it.Ā 
You whined at Fred, pushing your hips back into him to meet his brutal pace. Fred was starting to lose control as he got closer to his own release, both hands now gripping your hips. There would definitely be bruises there in the morning.
"So close," you cried, gripping at the comforter on Fred's bed.
"Finish for me again, birdie. You can do it, love," Fred encouraged. "Merlin, you feel so good. Made just for me."
You were so sensitive after two orgasms that a third felt like it might kill you. Your vision began to get spotty, and you knew that you were going to finish any second now.
You finally reached your third high of the night, arching your back even harder and pushing back towards Fred. He continued fucking you, moments from his own release.
"Fuck, birdie, so perfect," Fred breathed out. "You're going to make me bust."
It seemed like he was almost asking for permission. How polite.Ā 
"Inside of me," you demanded, sounding exhausted from your third orgasm.
Fred groaned, keeping up his pace as he finally reached his release. He finished inside of you, his hips slowing down and stuttering.Ā 
He massaged your hips, pushing into you a few more times before pulling out. "Sorry, darling, didn't mean to hurt you," he said, referring to the bruises that were already starting to form where he had dug his hands into your hips.Ā 
He flopped onto his back, pulling you into his chest. You felt paralyzed once more, your body still coming down from the adrenaline rush of another orgasm.
Fred kissed your forehead, snuggling you in even closer to him. "Was that too much?" he asked, sounding concerned.
You laid there in silence, still speechless. You nuzzled your head into his neck, giving him a kiss. "It was perfect," you finally said.
He chuckled. "I'm glad," he answered, rubbing your back.
"Same time next week?" you teased, running your nails up and down his abs.
"Whenever you want," he replied, squeezing you in tight.Ā 
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Impurities II
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Synopsis: You’re the new girl at East Highland High, your only goal is to get through school. Until you come across Nate Jacobs
Genre: slightly suggestive, fluff, slight angst
Pairing: Nate x fem!reader
Warnings: manipulation, lying, dark themes, let me know if I missed something
Song rec: saint - dpr ian | in my feelings- ldr
WC: +7k
Other parts: previous part, next part,
A/N: Hope you guys enjoy this part as much as the last one :3 I’d love to make some other parts including smut because I kinda like where this story is going so tell me if you guys would be down to read that!! į„«į­”
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The next days weren’t that eventful. You went to school with Nate, you went to the mall with Nate, and you sometimes even waited for Nate until he was done with his football training.
The next week started out pretty smooth too. You got ready for school on Monday, before Nate picked you up, and you two drove to school and you went to your classes. Everything was going well.
Everything, except for lunch break.
The bell rang and you quickly stuffed your things into your bag, knowing that Nate was probably on his way to the cafeteria already.
You exited the room and walked towards the cafeteria, when someone suddenly stepped in front of you "We need to talk."
You looked up from the floor and found none other than Maddy. She had her arms crossed and looked at you with her usual confident stare.
You remembered what Nate told you about her, that you should stay away from her and that she's a liar, a cheater and simply a horrible person.
But you still couldn't be mean to her or ignore her. "About what?" You asked nervously. She rolled her eyes subtly "What do you think?" She answered.
Fair point.
"Listen, Nate and I aren't together if that's what you want to talk about. And even if we were, it’s not like we owe you any explanation." You didn't know where that surge of confidence came from. Maybe because she started getting on your nerves?
As if her constant stares weren't enough, she had to approach you now too? And she had the nerve to be annoyed when you simply asked what she wanted to talk about.
"Okay, I don't know what the fuck he told you, but it's probably not true." Maddy retorted "I just wanted to warn you, because you seem like a nice person."
You couldn't lie, you were curious about her point of view. You didn't want to betray your only friend, but it wouldn't hurt to listen to her explanation. It’s not like you'd believe her anyway.
"Warn me from what? I'm totally fine and Nate has been nothing but nice to me so far." Maddy scoffed, God, you’re so oblivious "So far, yeah that probably describes it perfectly. Did you ever do anything against his will?"
You thought for a moment Did I? "I take that as a no." Maddy answered for you "Nate only likes you because you do what he says. And," She looked you up and down "because you also wear what he wants you to wear. Seems like he didn't change at all."
You scoffed in disbelief "Nate has done so much for me, and he never forced me to wear this. He also never hurt me-." "Yet." She interrupted "It's only a matter of time until he does."
You stayed silent, not sure what to say to that "Nate loves control and he loves it even more when he has control over someone. He's fucking sick in the head, completely deranged!"
You didn't want to believe Maddy. There's no way Nate actually was like that, you knew him you spent so much time with him. Sure, he did have a short temper sometimes, but he never intentionally treated you badly.
And you knew that she treated him badly and not the other way around. How could she lie to you like that? Did she want you to drop him?
You weren't even his girlfriend and yet she went to such lengths to get back at him.
She's even worse than I thought.
"I know you probably don't want to believe me right now, because he seems like your only true friend and he did all these things for you. But all those things he does for you, are just another way for him to feel good about himself in some sick and twisted way."
What the fuck is wrong with her?
"Why would he buy all these things for you? Why would he make you change your style if he only wants to be your friend?"
She had a point, it might seem strange from the outside, but you knew that Nate only did that for you. He only gave you advice and compliments, and honestly? You felt way better about yourself compared to before.
"I appreciate your concern but it's really not like that, okay? I've known Nate for some time now, and if he would be as ā€˜deranged’ as you claim he is, I would've noticed by now, don't you think?" You responded as friendly as you could.
Maddy scoffed in return "Don't you think he's able to hide that? Of course he’s not violent towards you, you're like his new obsession. What would he do without you?" Maddy asked sarcastically.
"Maddy!" Nate's angry voice echoed through the hallway, making both of you flinch in surprise.
Maddy was scared, she knew what he was capable of, but she tried to keep her cool as he approached you two. "I told you to stay away from her, didn't I?" he said, his tone harsher than usual as he stared you down.
The hallway was almost empty, since most of the students were in the cafeteria already, but the ones that weren't, eyed the three of you. And it made you even more nervous.
You swallowed before nodding "I-I'm sorry-" "I talked to her first," Maddy interrupted. "someone had to warn her. Before you destroy her life as well."
That fucking bitch
She just couldn't keep her mouth shut, and it was pissing him off more and more. But Nate couldn't let his faƧade falter, especially not in front of you.
"You're insane... You always act like the victim, Maddy. You're so fucking desperate for attention that you involve innocent people."
You were so confused, first Maddy confronts you out of nowhere and then he appeared all of a sudden. And the other students were still staring as well.
"Are you fucking kidding me right now? You-" "Just like back then, when you fucked that guy in front of everyone. Did you enjoy the attention? Did you enjoy humiliating me like that?" Maddy's eyes widened as she scoffed, she couldn’t believe Nate was putting on this show in front of everyone "Don't even try to compare that to the stuff that you did, Nate."
Nate chuckled drily in response. "I love how you don't even deny it. Or how you lied about that guy taking advantage of you while you were drunk." He took a step closer to her "Don't ever talk to her again, do you hear me? If I see you fucking talking to her one more time, it's over for you."
Nate threatened as Maddy's eyes widened ever so slightly. Nate grabbed your hand and almost dragged you after him as he walked towards the cafeteria.
You stumbled along as he took big steps, you didn't dare to speak, you weren’t even sure what to say. Once you reached the table, Nate sat down pulling you along with him.
You looked straight ahead, too afraid to look into his eyes. Nate sighed "Y/n... Look at me." You slowly moved your gaze towards him. He looked worried, as if he had lost you, the anger from earlier seemingly gone.
But only on the outside.
On the inside he was fuming, wishing he had choked Maddy harder back at the carnival.
"I'm sorry for being angry back there... I just know how much shit Maddy talks, and I don't want you to worry about anything just because she needed attention again."
You nodded slowly "I'm sorry, yeah?" he repeated as he softly stroked your cheek with his large hand. You melted into his touch as you smiled and nodded once again. "I shouldn't have talked to her in the first place."
Nate smiled softly. He adored you so much, Maddy would always fight with him when he got angry, but you? You didn't, you simply accepted his apology and told him it's fine, accepting that he's the way he is.
"Yeah but it's not your fault. You're just nice to the wrong people sometimes." He reassured you once again.
Nate was still incredibly pissed at Maddy but seeing you smile and lean into his touch made him feel so much better. It was insane how good he felt when he was with you, how easily you trusted him.
Nate needed to keep you close to him, he couldn't afford to lose you and he 100% meant what he said to Maddy.
He'd destroy her if she ever tries something stupid again.
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"So, what's the special occasion?" You chuckled as you walked into the fancy restaurant Nate had picked out for the evening.
He told you to wear something pretty because you'd go out tonight. Needless to say, your mom was not impressed.
All she heard was 'Nate' and 'going out once it's dark outside' and she was immediately alarmed. Telling you to send her a text at least every hour.
She wasn't that displeased with your outfit this time though. You wore a midi dress with floral patterns and a v-neckline, combined with black flats and a necklace with a heart shaped pendant.
Nate definitely had plans for tonight.
It's been a month since you first met, and he decided that it would be the perfect day to finally ask you to be his.
This had to be the first time Nate was genuinely nervous to ask a girl out.
He was sure that you liked him too, but you never made any advances towards him. The only thing he did notice however, was your sour expression whenever some of the cheerleaders, or any girl for that matter, would talk to him.
He could tell that you got jealous, maybe even compared yourself to them, completely unaware of the fact that Nate only had eyes for you.
"Well, I'll tell you after we ate. Let's get inside first." He smiled as he took in your outfit once more while you walked inside the fancy restaurant. You didn't dare to move from Nate's side, too nervous once you saw how huge the restaurant was on the inside.
Nate greeted the receptionist and talked to him for a moment before he lead you to a beautifully decorated table for two.
Before you could even grab your chair, Nate was quick to pull it out for you to sit on. God, he's so attentive..
You smiled as you sat down "Thank you, sir." you said jokingly. Nate smiled as he responded "You're very welcome."
Once he sat down he passed you one of the two menu cards, before taking the other one himself. "By the way, I'm paying tonight so don't worry and order whatever you want alright?" he smiled warmly as he placed his hand on top of yours.
You looked up from the menu and locked eyes with Nate, ready to protest "Nate-" he shook his head immediately "Listen, it was my idea to take you here, and like I said, today is a special day and I wanna pay for it. So please let me, yeah?"
You sighed, knowing it's useless to protest anyways "Alright.." Nate chuckled, finding your pouty expression absolutely cute. You shyly looked down onto the table before you continued to speak "Can you... help me pick something out?"
He loved it so much when you gave him control, loved you so much.
"Of course, ba-" he cleared his throat, before taking the menu and looking for something nice, hoping you didn't notice that he almost called you 'baby'.
"Alright.. how about this?" He asked as he pointed onto something on the menu. You nodded, sure that you couldn't go wrong with pasta "I trust you. I bet you go here often."
Nate pretended to think for a moment. "Hmm not that often, I think I went here like twice. I really only go here on special occasions but so far I wasn't disappointed."
Another lie.
He visited the restaurant often, his parents sometimes ordered food there as well. He had plenty of chances to test out how good their quality was. And since today would be important, he had to make sure everything was perfect.
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Once the two of you finished your food, Nate was quick to call a waitress over. The waitress came over to your table, a smile on her face as she asked "Would you like to pay with cash or card?" Nate opened his wallet, before he pulled out his card "Card, please."
The waitress got her device out of her pocket and set it up before Nate quickly swiped his card over the display. It was such a simple task and yet he made it look so attractive.
Before the waitress could leave, Nate quickly pulled a fifty dollar bill out of his wallet and gave it to her. Your eyes widened as you realized that that was his tip "T-thank you, sir.." The waitress stuttered.
Nate usually doesn't tip that generously, he couldn't care less to be honest, but he wanted to impress you as much as he possibly could.
The two of you got up, and walked towards the exit of the restaurant, leaving the fancy place. "So, would you mind letting me in on your plan?" You asked as you walked towards his car.
Nate grinned sheepishly "Impatient, aren't we?" You jokingly rolled your eyes in response "Keep in mind that I have to be home in a bit." You reminded him as you walked ahead of him.
Nate suddenly grabbed your hand and spun you around, resulting in you stumbling into his chest. You looked up at him before taking a step back, your hand still in his "Don't worry your pretty little head, I already took care of that." Nate proudly announced.
You were beyond confused at this point. "Huh? What do you mean?" Nate chuckled at your confused expression. "I talked to your dad the other day when I was at yours. Told him that you'd 'be at a party' at my place today. He agreed and told me you could sleep at mine and that he'd talk to your mom about it."
You blinked up at Nate, surprised that he lied to your dad just so you could sleep at his. It had to be serious if he'd go that far "Wow... I... really?"
To be honest, it didn't go exactly like that, because he barely even listened to Nate, which obviously made him furious. He genuinely just wanted to club him with the nearest object.
He didn't understand how anyone could be so uninterested in his own family, especially you. Sure, he was happy that your dad agreed to let you sleep at his place, but he didn't even care about the reason, he just wanted to go back to doing whatever the fuck was more important, on his phone.
Your dad just came from work at that time, but Nate's pretty sure that he's always like this, simply from the stories he's heard from you.
"W-wait.. I didn't even pack things for that.. And you’re sure my dad just agreed like that?" Nate nodded "Yeah he did, and it's no problem I'll find something for you to sleep in, don't worry." Nate reasoned.
He couldn't wait for you to be in his clothes, in his bed, snuggled against him under his blanket. Fuck, he couldn't wait until he could finally wrap his arms around you and hold you close to him that you can't leave him.
Nate thought about sleeping next to you so often. He obviously also thought about sleeping with you and it felt like a dream each time.
He’d treat you like the goddess that you are.
Nate already made it his goal to make you cum as many times as possible before you pass out, and he'd do anything just to hear you moan his name. Just the thought alone had him throbbing in his pants.
"Nate?"
Shit, he had to control himself and prevent his problem from growing. "Yeah? Sorry, I got lost in thoughts." You chuckled at his flustered response and expression. You didn't know how people could be scared of him, not when he was this cute.
"You're so cute sometimes." Nate didn't expect you to say that. He's been called many things so far but that was new. And he definitely would’ve prefered any other compliment.
In his opinion, 'cute' was something you'd say to your girlfriend, or maybe a baby or your pet but not to a guy like him.
He swallowed his pride and put on a smile "You're definitely cuter." He said as he leaned down, his face almost directly in front of yours.
You gulped before laughing nervously, your eyes wandering around in an attempt to avoid his intense gaze. Nate smirked before walking past you "C'mon let's go." He said as he opened the car door for you.
The ride was pretty quiet, mostly because you still tried to figure out what Nate could've possibly planned.
You were sure that it wasn't his birthday today, since you've talked about birthdays before.
Nate parked his car and the two of you walked towards what appeared to be a park, with a white gazebo in the middle. Now you were genuinely starting to worry.
It was starting to get dark already, the sun almost gone as the two of you were in a seemingly empty park, heading towards a gazebo.
Nate could sense your hesitation in the way you walked a bit slower and looked around, observing your environment. "We're almost done I promise." Was all he said as he entered the fancy gazebo, sitting down on the bench inside.
You followed him inside, looking at him like a lost puppy. Nate smiled warmly as he patted the free spot next to him on the bench. You sighed nervously before finally sitting down, your gaze locked onto Nate.
He was really happy that you could finally look at him without hesitation, unlike the first time he met you. You got so much more comfortable around him in general.
He cleared his throat before he started talking "Alright, so.. I bet you're wondering what's going on." You nodded eagerly "Let me ask you something," He said as he fully turned towards you "Do you know what happened one month ago, exactly on this day?"
You looked into his eyes trying to search for hints, but found none. You tried to think back, repeating the date over and over again in your head but to no avail. You shook your head in response, a small pout on your lips.
Nate chuckled "One month ago was the first time we met each other, do you remember?" He asked carefully, and your eyes lit up afterwards, remembering how kind he was from the beginning. "Of course I remember, you really saved me, I thought I was just destined to stay alone forever until I met you." You smiled as you thought of all the great memories you and Nate had so far.
Nate felt relieved that you felt that way, and not like he was the reason barely anyone dared to talk to you. Which he obviously was, with the way he glared at anyone who even dared to look at you in the hallways.
"I'm glad you think so, y/n. And I've been think about this, and about you for a long time." You tilted your head to the side as you waited for him to continue "I really really like you, y/n. Not in a way.. a friend should like another friend."
Your smile dropped as you finally understood what was going on. The fancy dinner, the fancy gazebo, him mentioning the first time you met. No, there's no way, he wouldn't- "I love you, y/n. I know this might be sudden right now, but I just had to tell you today. The date was perfect and I... I'm tired of hiding this from you."
Nate despised how vulnerable he was in front of you right now, but he also knew that he might be more successful this way, that him showing some emotions would result in you saying yes.
"I know that you haven't been in a relationship yet and I promise I won't force you to do anything you don't want to do. We can take things slow."
You suddenly felt like your heart was about to jump out of your chest. Nate was asking you to be his girlfriend..
He planned all of this to ask you to be his girlfriend.
You did not expect that. You weren't sure what you were expecting but this wasn't on your list. "Nate I... I don't know what to say..." Was all you managed to whisper as you averted your gaze.
You'd be lying if you said you didn't feel something for him, and the fact that he put so much effort into asking you out also touched you, but you were so scared of losing him, you needed him whether you wanted to admit it or not. You couldn't even imagine living without him from now on so why did you hesitate?
Nate stayed quiet as well, before reaching for your hand, in an attempt to get you to look at him "Y/n, I get it, you probably didn't expect me to say all that, but I genuinely mean it." You slowly raised your head and looked into his eyes once again.
The look he gave you was filled with sincerity and love and you wanted to hug him and tell him that everything is gonna be fine, that you're his "You know that I might not be here for long... I couldn't live with the fact that I have to leave you behind. What if you'll feel like you're wasting your time with me?"
Nate quickly shook his head "I'll never think like that, and I already told you that I'll find a solution if that should happen." Nates grip on your hand tightened before he added "Just tell me what you want right now. Without thinking of things that might or might not happen."
You sighed "I want to be with you, I just... really didn't think you'd actually want someone like me to be your girlfriend, so I never considered it.." Nate frowned.
'Someone like you’? What did you mean by that? Nate was sure that there was no one better than you, that you were the perfect choice for him.
"There's nothing wrong with you, and I'll tell you that over and over again if I have to. You're everything I want, I don't need someone else I only need you, I already told you that before." He replied, searching for your eyes once again.
You suddenly remembered that day you went over to his place and his brother showed up. When you sat on the sofa with him and he told you that you were everything he needed. So he really meant it like that.
You looked at him, a sad smile on your face "I need you too, no one has ever been able to make me feel so loved and important... Not even my parents... I can’t imagine going back to that… I mean, I was miserable before I met you." Nate tried to hide his smirk when he heard that.
He absolutely loved how dependent you were on him, he knew you'd need him eventually.
He softly placed his hand on your cheek, hoping you'd melt into his touch like you did back when he first did it in the cafeteria.
And you didn't disappoint him.
You closed your eyes, enjoying the warmth of his touch in the chilly breeze. "Please.. Give me a chance to prove you I'll treat you good." Nate softly pleaded.
You opened your eyes, looking at him "I'd never doubt that, Nate.. I'm just really worried I-" Nate sighed before retrieving his hand, and you hated it, hated how cold you felt again.
"It's about what Maddy told you, isn't it?" Nate asked, his tone rougher than before. You quickly shook your head "No! Oh my god of course not. I know that she's lying." You scooted closer to Nate, your hands finding his this time.
"I trust you.. Only you."
Nate looked at you, a small frown still evident on his features. He kept quiet, hoping that it'll give you the final push to say yes.
You sighed as you thought for a moment. You liked him too, so why not give him a chance? You'll probably never be this lucky again. This is what you wanted, what you dreamed of.
You deserved some happiness for once. And you were sure he'd make you happy, just like he already did. And you'd do your best to make him happy as well.
"Nate, I'd love to be your girlfriend."
Nate almost jumped off the bench. You finally said yes, you were finally officially his. His eyes immediately lit up and he pulled you into probably the tightest hug you've ever had.
Nate sighed in relief, everything worked just like he wanted it to. No one would take you away from him now.
That was probably his biggest fear, that some guy would make a move on you and steal you from him. And it would've been so unfair too, because he was the one who turned you into his obedient pretty girl.
In his eyes, no one deserved you more than he did.
"I promise you won't regret it, yeah?" He mumbled into your neck before raising his head ever so slightly to press a kiss to your cheek.
You giggled as you tried to process the fact that Nate Jacobs was now your boyfriend. Once Nate let go of you, you noticed how cold it had gotten, and you shivered slightly.
Nate frowned "Are you cold? We can go home if you want to." He offered. "That might be a good idea. Only if you want to though."
Nate appreciated that you still let him decide, even though you were cold already.
He chuckled before standing up "C'mere." He said as he extended his arm. You stood up and walked towards him and he wrapped his arm around your shoulder, before the two of you walked to his car.
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Nate knew that he had to introduce you to his parents and he absolutely hated it. He knew that if he simply told you to go upstairs, you might think he doesn't want you to meet them.
You were quick to misinterpret things negatively sometimes and he didn't want you to worry about his parents not liking you or something.
You once asked him, when you came over for the fifth time why you haven’t seen his parents yet. And he told you he only invites you over when he's alone, because they’re weird. He quickly made sure to tell you that he just simply 'dislikes' his whole family to put it nicely.
Once he parked the car, he turned towards you and placed his hand on your thigh to grab your attention. You looked up at him with your beautiful eyes and he could've kissed you right then and there but he wasn't sure if that would've been too soon for you.
"Listen, my parents are probably home right now... Just a heads up, they might want to meet you. Are you okay with that?" He asked softly.
You felt like your heart was about to jump out of your chest.
You've never seen them before, except on the family picture on the wall at the staircase. You had no idea what you had to expect. "I'm kinda scared to be honest.." You replied nervously. "What if they don't like me?"
Nate scoffed before shaking his head "Don't worry, they only hated Maddy, because she was really rude and she called my mother a cunt." Your eyes widened in shock "She did what?" You asked in disbelief.
Nate nodded as he looked outside the window "I told you, she was intense..." You scoffed in response "Yeah definitely, did she even contribute anything good to the relationship?" You asked genuinely curious.
Nate thought for a moment, did she?
"Well not really, but I don't care anymore. I have you now. You could never disappoint me the way she did, so don’t worry." He responded with a smile before undoing his and your seatbelt.
Once the two of you got out of the car and Nate locked the doors, he took your hand in his and walked towards the entrance.
He was kind of nervous as well since his dad could be unpredictable. But Nate already told his mom that he might bring you home today and she was thrilled to meet you.
He sighed before unlocking the door and walking inside with you. He just hoped Aaron wasn't at home or at least not downstairs this time.
You started taking your shoes off as quietly as possible, hoping that they wouldn't hear or notice you. Nate also took his shoes off before you walked the living room together.
His mom sat on the sofa with a glass of wine. As soon as she noticed the two of you, she placed her glass down on the coffee table and walked over to the two of you with a friendly grin.
"Hello sweetie, you must be y/n." She exclaimed before hugging you subtly. She then took a small step back and looked at you.
"Yes.. It's so nice to meet you.." You said as you tried to smile at her and maintain eye contact. You knew it would've been rude to not look at her, but you were still pretty nervous.
Then she looked you up and down, which made you even more insecure "Wow... gorgeous and polite, seems like Nate finally found the right one." Nate rolled his eyes before taking your hand back in his "Alright mom, we'll be upstairs then." He announced.
"Oh already? But-" "Yeah it's been a pretty rough week, we'll talk tomorrow." He interrupted before almost dragging you along with him towards the stairs "Again, it was nice meeting you Mrs. Jacobs."
You quickly added before following him "Likewise, Honey!" You truly loved how sweet she was. Your mom barely called you Honey, or Sweetie. She only used your name when she called for you.
Just as Nate thought he finally had you to himself, he heard the front door unlock.
He debated on whether he should turn around or not, before deciding against it and simply walking upstairs in front of you. Until he heard the person speak
"Aren't you gonna introduce me to your new girlfriend Nate?" It was Cal.
Nate was surprised when he entered the living room earlier and saw that his Mom seemed to be alone. But he was glad and hoped it'd stay that way.
But sadly it didn’t.
Nate sighed as he looked at you not sure whether to tell you to go ahead to his room or actually allow his asshole dad to introduce himself.
He noticed how Cal moved towards the stairs before he looked at you "I'm Cal, pleasure to meet you." He said before extending his hand.
You shook it, trying to mimic his firm grip but failing miserably. "I'm Y/n.." You almost whispered as you avoided his piercing gaze. You then retreated your hand before adding "a-also pleased to meet you."
You couldn't tell why but you felt the atmosphere shift in a way. It was.. eerily quiet. And you knew that there was something going on between Nate and his Dad. Simply by the way they stared at each other, and the way Nate talked about him sometimes.
"Alright, we're gonna go upstairs then." Nate said drily before gesturing for you to walk ahead. You quickly walked up the stairs, happy that you'd be alone with him soon again.
You didn't mind talking to his mom, but his dad scared the shit out of you. There was just something so dark about him. You wouldn't want to be alone with him.
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Once Nate finally closed the door behind you two, you sighed out of relief. "Sorry about him, he really knows how to make people uncomfortable.." Nate grumbled when he saw the relief on your face.
"It wasn't that bad." You lied as you chuckled nervously. "You don't have to lie to me. I saw how nervous you got when you shook his hand." Nate responded before plopping down on his bed and sighing.
Why couldn’t he just move out and live with you? All alone somewhere secluded where he has you to himself, far away from his and your family.
"This is exactly why I didn't want you to meet my parents." He reasoned. You walked towards him, and lied down beside him before placing your head on his firm chest "Don't worry it.. really wasn't that bad. I think your mom is really nice."
Yeah totally
Nate closed his eyes as he enjoyed the weight of your head on his chest. He could’ve stayed like this forever.
Until your phone vibrated in your bag.
You groaned before getting up and rummaging through your bag until you found it.
It was your mom, great… You totally forgot to text her during the entire time.
6 new messages
mom: Hey, when are you gonna come home? 5:45 pm
mom: Just talked to your dad.. Are you really going to sleep at his place?? 5:58 pm
mom: Are you okay? 6:20 pm
mom: If you want me to pick you up you can call me 6:49 pm
mom: hellooo? 7:02 pm
mom: please text me back when you see this I’m worried 7:15 pm
ā€œHoly shitā€¦ā€ You scoffed. ā€œWhat? Is it your mom?ā€ You nodded before walking back to bed and showing him your chat.
Nates eyes widened in both amazement and terror. ā€œJesus, she’s so controlling.ā€ You nodded while you quickly texted her back.
You had to give her Nate’s address some time ago, when you went over to his place more frequently. You were sure she’d actually get in her car and come over if you wouldn’t reply to her.
you: I’m fine everything is okay! stop worrying so much 7:17 pm
Nate got up from his bed and headed towards his closet, grabbing a basic tee and some shorts before he handed them over to you ā€œHere you can wear this, I hope it’s fine.ā€
You nodded and smiled at him ā€œOf course, thank you.ā€ He smiled back at you for a moment ā€œI’ll go to the bathroom, yeah?ā€ He said before heading towards his bathroom.
You decided to get dressed while he’s gone, slipping out of your dress, folding it as best as you could and placing it neatly next to his bed. Then you put on his shirt, which was in fact long enough to cover your thighs, and his shorts.
You sat back on Nate’s bed until he came back from his bathroom. Despite being in his room so many times before, you never slept at his place. Because you’re mother was against it of course.
But you had to admit it was smart of Nate to lie to your dad about having a party, and saying that many people were gonna sleep at his, and you wouldn’t be alone with him.
You wondered if Nate had to lie to his parents like that too.
His mom was way more understanding than yours was, so probably not. And she seemed so kind too, you couldn’t wrap your head around the fact that Maddy insulted her like that.
You wished you would’ve moved here earlier, simply because you couldn’t shake the feeling that there was a lot going on that you didn’t know of.
Like the Cassie situation for example.
You knew almost nothing about her, and it kinda scared you, because Nate mentioned that she was insane and extremely obsessed with him.
You didn’t even know what she looked like, so how were you supposed to stay out of her way?
You were certain that it would just be a question of time until she’d approach you as well. And you were also pretty sure that she won’t be as nice or as rational as Maddy was.
Sure, Maddy said all these bad things out of spite and because she hated her ex boyfriend. But Cassie? What if she’s still in love with him and finds out that you two are dating?
Nate entered the room again, taking in the sight of you in his clothes as you sat leaned against his bed frame staring ahead with wide eyes.
You looked so adorable and so… distracted for some reason. Nate walked up to you, pulling you out of your thoughts. ā€œWhat’s on your mind?ā€ He asked as he stood in front of you.
The way you craned your head up to look at him, made him feel things he shouldn’t feel. Especially since your head was at eye level with his crotch.
He tried to focus on whatever you were going to tell him nonetheless ā€œI’m just… worried. You told me about Cassie being obsessed with you and… what if she finds out I’m your girlfriend?ā€
Nate sighed. Because you had a point, but he really didn’t want to think of her or talk about her anymore. He was already glad that she barely went to school after their break up, and that he could keep you far away from her.
ā€œYou don’t have to worry about her, I told you I’ll protect you. Cassie is crazy but she’s harmless, except for yelling she can’t do much.ā€ He tried to reassure you.
You looked down as you fiddled with the hem of Nate’s shirt.
You already were an anxious person, so the fact that your boyfriend only dated crazy people in the past, wasn’t exactly helpful.
ā€œI feel safe with you… but we’re not always together at school, and I… don’t have any friends.ā€ That’s when you realized just how alone you actually were without Nate.
You had no friends at all, now that Nate wasn’t your friend anymore but your boyfriend. It was sad, really. But what you didn’t seem to realize was that it wasn’t your fault at all.
It was Nate’s.
He was convinced you didn’t need anyone but him, even if that meant you’d have no friends. What would you need them for anyway when you had him?
Nate frowned ā€œBut you’re not alone either, you have me. Or… am I not enough?ā€ He frowned. You immediately shook your head ā€œNo, of course you’re enough. You’re more than enough, that’s not what I meant.ā€
Nate smiled in response before you added ā€œI just see all these girls walk through school with their friends and.. it makes me feel sad because I don’t have any friends I can talk to or walk through school with.. I sometimes feel like I’m getting on your nerves because I talk to you so much.ā€
Nate scoffed as he walked towards the TV "C'mon you could never annoy me." He assured you as he turned the TV on. Then he turned off the main light and plopped down next to you before turning on the bedside lamp.
When you didn't respond to him, he added "I understand that you want to have friends at school, but most of the girls at school are... awful. They're fake, and really mean and all they care about is boys and sex."
You really wanted to believe him but there’s just no way every single girl was like that. And Nate also couldn’t possibly know every single girl at school.
Nate looked at you and it was almost as if he could read your thoughts, because he knew you didn’t quite believe him.
And it irritated him.
You always believed him everything so why were you questioning him now?
He quickly changed the topic in an attempt to put a stop to your thoughts. ā€œI still can’t believe you’re mine by the way...ā€ He said as he softly intertwined his fingers with yours, smiling at you.
And it worked like a charm.
You smiled shyly as you avoided his somewhat intense gaze. You weren’t sure if you’d ever get used to him looking at you like that.
Nate decided to take it a step further, stroking your cheek with his other hand until you slowly looked back at him.
ā€œCan I kiss you?ā€ He asked quietly, almost as if he was scared you’d say no.
You’d be lying if you said you didn’t want him to kiss you, but you literally never kissed anyone before and you were scared that Nate would laugh at you.
ā€œUm… yeah just… please don’t laugh at me.ā€ you chuckled. Nate smirked ā€œDon’t worry, I won’t. We’ll take it slow, yeah?ā€ He said as he scooted closer.
He let go of your hand and moved it to your left cheek instead, cupping it gently as he pulled your face closer. He leaned in until his lips finally touched yours.
The feeling was foreign but you enjoyed it nonetheless. His lips were so soft as they moved against your own. You tried to mimic his movements as your brows furrowed in concentration.
Nate slowly broke the kiss as he searched your face for any sign of discomfort ā€œHow did it feel?ā€ He asked as his eyes were glued to your lips. ā€œIt felt.. really good.ā€ You responded quietly.
ā€œCan we try again?ā€ You asked as you fiddled with you shirt again.
Fuck, why were you so cute?
ā€œSure, of course.ā€ Nate responded ā€œYou can touch me too, you know?ā€ He added as he took your right hand and placed it on his shoulder. ā€œOh, okay..ā€ You smiled before leaning in again.
Nate pressed his lips against yours once again. He could tell you were more eager this time when you leaned in first. You tilted your head slightly, like you had seen on TV several times, and it already felt more natural and deeper than the first kiss.
You felt incredibly excited with how close Nate was to you right now, and you also had this warm, fuzzy feeling in your stomach.
It was almost like your body worked on its own. Your hand slid from his shoulder to his neck as you closed your eyes, and your lips finally seemed to move more in sync.
Nates hand moved to your waist in an attempt to pull you even closer, while your unoccupied hand moved to his cheek.
He pressed kiss after kiss onto your lips making sure to take his time with you, some kisses lasting longer than others.
You were the first one to break the kiss this time, since you were running out of breath. ā€œWow.. that was amazing.ā€ You chuckled as you slowly removed your hands from Nate.
He smirked at you, clearly happy that you enjoyed kissing him, because he felt the same way. He was definitely glad that you didn’t straddle his lap though, because then you probably would’ve felt just how happy he truly was.
ā€œWanna do it again?ā€
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āœŽ Thank you so much for reading, I hope you enjoyed this part as well. If you have any questions/feedback please let me know ā™”
- Cassandra
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pomefioredove Ā· 7 months ago
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If you're still taking requests, I think something funny would be Idia w a reader/yuu that, in the middle of listening to him ramble (with lovey dovey eyes bc they like listening to him <3) just says. Would. Or like I want you. Like they didn't notice they were saying that out loud and now Idia and them are both dying but Ortho is just like OMG ITS HAPPENING FINALLY EXITING STAGE LEFT! hahdhahshsh I hope you get what I'm saying, completely fine if not!
I got u anon
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*ą©ˆāœ©ā€§ā‚ŠĖš slip of the tongue
type of post: fic characters: idia additional info: romantic, reader is gender neutral, reader is yuu author's note: I know very little about video games so I stole a lot of idia's dialogue from my boyfriend. if he sees this. um. hi baby
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"The designs are pretty good. I mean, they fit the same three molds, but they're unique, you know?"
Idia shows you his screen again, rolling his gaming chair to the side so you can get a better look at the game he's been explaining to you for half an hour.
"The fighting is kinda button-mashy, but the graphics are cool enough, so I don't really care,"
You haven't gotten so much as a word in for almost ten minutes now, but that doesn't bother you. You like listening to him talk.
He goes back to the game menu to show you the special features, and then to the menu again. His long, nimble fingers dance across his keyboard, as if he were made for this, and he pulls up another screen with a lot of numbers in colored text.
"The game is free, but it's got an insane file size for it. 180gb. Nothing should be that big,"
Your thoughts become a little louder as you zone out, letting his words, heavy with tech jargon and fast with excitement, become music. You can't always keep up with Idia when he starts going on tangents like this. Usually you have questions, but now, you can't think of any. You're looking more at him than the screen. He's being distractingly cute today.
You sigh, letting your thoughts rest on the tip of your tongue, and without meaning to:
"Would,"
Idia's hands jump off the keyboard, and he goes still. Oh. Shit.
He wasn't supposed to hear that.
He slowly turns to look at you, his eyes widened, his face beet-red. In your defense, you really thought he wasn't listening.
You don't say anything. Either of you. You wait. He waits. His computer eventually powers down, making the room a little darker. Finally, Idia looks away.
"...I forgot what I was saying," he mumbles.
Weird. Okay, he's just going to ignore that? Is that good or bad?
You look away, too. "Something about the file size. I think you were-"
"Did you mean that," he asks, but it's not exactly a question. More like a demand for an answer.
"Um..." you say, looking at the floor. "...Yeah, I did."
Idia narrows his eyes at you. He's quiet, studying you, your expression, your body language. For what, you don't know. Maybe he thinks you're lying. Whatever it is, though, he doesn't say.
"...Okay," he finally says, turning back to his monitor. "Well... um... at least give me some warning next time, or something. I would've dressed nicer."
You blink. Next time. "...Yeah. Okay. Next time, then,"
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myth1cs Ā· 8 months ago
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Troublemaker (Shin Ryujin x M!Reader)
Woah even more smut (I'm sorry) Y/N gets degraded in this. Part two Word Count: 1,908
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I was in psychology class learning about consumer psychology when suddenly the principal's voice came over the speakers.
"Y/N make your way to room 304"
Suddenly everyone in the room looked at me and then turned to each other and started not so quietly whispering to each other. "Oh what do you think Y/N is getting in trouble for this time?" "I bet he's getting expelled."
I ignored what they were saying and made my way to room 304. Room 304 was Ryujin's office where she managed student relations. Ryujin was a student who helped dealing with students as her role in the student council so seeing her pretty much became a regular occurrence.
I finally got to the room which was at the end of a long hallway which was pretty much empty which is probably why they gave Ryujin this room as it's not like anyone was using it.
I opened the door to see Ryujin sitting at her desk.
"Y/N just get in here." Ryujin said with an annoyed tone
I walked in the room and closed the door behind me. As I was walking to the seat in front of Ryujin I couldn't help but admire her figure. She was really good looking, honestly I would be lying if I said I didn't look forward to seeing her every time I got in trouble.
As I sat down Ryujin looked at me with a look of disappointment. "Y/N why can't you get your grades together?"
"Ryujin it's not that easy for me."
"Y/N there is after school tutoring or just ask more questions in class, teachers even give you opportunities for extra credit and yet your still struggling to get a low C in your classes."
"Look Ryujin maybe if the teachers could actually do their job-"
Before I could finish my sentence Ryujin interrupted me. "Y/N the teachers are doing their jobs your just failing to listen." We have this same conversation every time I come here. I was honestly tired of it and I'm guessing Ryujin was too as she wasn't even letting me finish my sentences now.
"Fine if we can't come to an agreement about your grades then let's move on and talk about your behavior." Ryujin said.
"What is there to talk about? I like to think my actions were reasonable."
"Really Y/N? Was stabbing Hwi with scissors really necessary just because he kicked your seat once?"
"Well I like to think so."
"Or how about that time when you cut Tzuyu just because she flung a rubber band at you?"
"Well she's in High School she should act like it instead of acting like a first grader."
"Y/N High School students are stupid assholes but that doesn't mean you have to resort to violence as your answer."
"Yeah whatever Ryujin what are you gonna do punish me? Oh wait your just a student, you don't have the authority to do so."
Ryujin went silent when I said that. She looked like she was pondering something, did I make her upset?
I could have left but I wasn't in any rush to get back to class so I just sat in silence with Ryujin.
Suddenly Ryujin got up and went behind me.
"Ryujin what are you-"
"Shh Y/N just stay silent for me" Ryujin said as she started to massage my shoulders.
I don't know why but I did stay silent while she massaged my back. If it was any other student or if it was a teacher I would have spoken up about it. But something was different about Ryujin.
"Ah Ryujin your so good at this keep going." I was surprised at how good Ryujin was at giving massages. It honestly felt like something I would have to pay for at a spa.
Ryujin suddenly whispered into my ear in a low voice "You know Y/N the school always wants to punish you for your bad behavior, but what if I rewarded you for good behavior?"
Something felt different. It felt as if the Ryujin I was talking to a few minutes earlier and the Ryujin who was talking to me just now were two completely different people. I can't explain it but it feels like something is different about Ryujin.
"Well what types of rewards would I be getting?" I questioned Ryujin. She pondered for a moment before she whispered in the same low voice.
"What sexual kinks do you have?"
I was surprised by the sudden question. No I must have misheard her. "May you repeat that?"
"You heard me well the first time Y/N, What sexual kinks do you have?"
My face turned red I wasn't expecting such words to come from Ryujin's mouth. I was struggling to get words out of my mouth.
"I-uhm-well-I-uh I like it w-when people degrade me." I really felt embarrassed when I admitted that in front of Ryujin.
Ryujin stopped massaging me and then turned my chair around so I was facing her. Ryujin smiled at me with darkness in her eyes.
Ryujin put her hand on my clothed crotch and started massaging my cock. "Y/N for such a bad student you are very submissive right now. Not just that but I also notice you have been eyeing up my body every time you walk this room. Why is that, could it be that your sexually attracted to me?" Ryujin said as my cock was getting hard from her touch.
"Well I, yes Ryujin I really do love you that way. I really want you Ryujin" I confessed to her, in my moment of bliss I wasn't thinking about what I was saying.
"I bet you do Y/N, you fucking pervert. I bet you only get yourself in trouble so you can come and see me." Ryujin said with a smile on her face. She really was getting a kick out of seeing me in such a state.
I was going to grab her boobs but she smacked my hand out of the way. "Keep your hand to yourself you fucking bitch." I was surprised to hear Ryujin say that, but I enjoyed the feeling I felt when Ryujin degraded me so I wasn't complaining.
Ryujin dropped to her knees and pulled my pants down. My cock sprung out and smacked her face.
"What nice cock you have here Y/N." Ryujin said as she put her hands at the base of my cock and slowly made her way to the tip.
"Ryujin please, you're moving too slow" I was desperate. I really wanted Ryujin to make me cum. The only thing Ryujin did was laugh at how pathetic I was.
"Wow is this really the same Y/N? I can't believe the schools biggest troublemaker is the one who's begging me to touch him."
Every movement of her hands felt like a shockwave was being sent up my body. I couldn't bare her slow pace.
"Ryujin please I'll do anything" I pleaded
"Well if you get your grades up I'll let you touch me in my private areas." Ryujin said while smiling at the pain I was in. "And if you become a straight A student then I guess I could let cum inside of me."
Ryujin started to rub the tip of my cock. "Yes Ryujin I promise I'll fix my grades just let me cum." I pleaded
"You're a bit too needy Y/N." Ryujin said as she started to put my cock in her mouth and started to lick my cock.
"Ryujin please I can't wait that long even if I get only A's in my next few assignments it will still take a while before my grade goes back up to an A."
Ryujin ignored me and started to suck my cock bobbing her head up and down making me lose all control.
I started moaning loudly and I couldn't even form words. I was thankful the room was at the end of an empty hallway or else everyone would hear me.
"Y/N you slut. Do you want the whole school to hear us? Hear how much of a fucking slut you are for me?"
"I'm yours Ryujin, only for you"
"Say it then Y/N say your my slut."
"Ryujin I'm your slut please use me!"
Ryujin felt satisfied and started to deep throat my cock. I was closer than ever I was about to cum. "Ryujin I ... I think I'm about to cum"
Ryujin quickly pulled out and went back to pumping my cock.
"Well we can't have you cumming all over me now can we?"
"But Ryujin I want to cum in you."
Ryujin laughed "Do you think someone as worthless as you has the right to cum in me? Please, get your grades together and then we can talk."
After Ryujin said that I could no longer hold it in and cummed all over Ryujin's face.
"Ugh gross you came all over me, clean it up for me Y/N."
"But Ryujin I-"
"Did I tell you you could cum yet?"
"N-no"
"And what did you just do?"
"I came all over you."
"Exactly you spilled your filthy fluids on me without my permsission so clean it up or I won't even touch your worthless cock next time."
"Yes Ryujin"
I grabbed the tissues on Ryujin's desk and started to wipe my cum off of her.
"Next time cum ONLY when I tell you to cum."
"Y-yes Ryujin."
As I was cleaning up Ryujin she suddenly spoke up. "Y/N when is your next exam?"
"Next Wednesday, why?"
"I'll make you a deal if you get a perfect 100 on your next exam then I'll let you cum in my pussy."
"Really?"
"BUT if you get anything below an 80 I won't touch you for 2 weeks."
I had to ponder this. The exam was in a week I wasn't sure if I could study enough in that time frame to guarantee myself a 100 but it was either risk it all now or I'll have to wait months until my grade average goes up to an A.
"Deal"
Ryujin smiled "Well I wish you the best of luck Y/N, trust me you'll need it."
Thursday finally came and the teacher was handing out our exams back. When I got mine I was scared that I didn't get an A. I finally mustered up the courage to turn my paper over to see my grade and saw that I got a perfect 100.
I was overjoyed and not long after the principal's voice came over the speakers "Y/N make your way to room 304"
I quickly jumped out of my seat and practically ran down to room 304.
When I entered I saw Ryujin at her desk. "So Y/N what did you get?"
I went up to her and showed her my paper.
"Well color me surprise Y/N you actually did it."
Ryujin stood up and pulled her pants down. I was a little shocked as she wasn't wearing any panties underneath.
"I won't lie Y/N I was hoping you got that perfect 100." Ryujin admitted.
I was too focused on Ryujin's pussy and I guess she noticed as she started laughing.
"Well then let's get started on your reward Y/N." Ryujin said as she walked over to me.
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This is my first time including a kink in a story so I'm not sure if this is something I'll continue doing unless you guys just really want it.
Also this was originally going to be a different idol but midway through I changed it to Ryujin. I left references to what group the original idol was in though.
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darkficsyouneveraskedfor Ā· 22 days ago
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Warnings:Ā this fic will include dark content such as dubcon/noncon, power imbalance, sickness, medical bills, and other possible triggers.Ā My warnings are not exhaustive, enter at your own risk.
This is a dark!fic and explicit. 18+ only. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.
Summary:Ā You love butterflies and your mother, but life isn’t that simple. As life gets complicated, and expensive, you find yourself in need and an unexpected miracle presents itself.
Characters:Ā Steve Rogers (CEO/Sugar Daddy)
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"It was a nice day," S says as he checks the rear view mirror.
You twitch out of your trance. Your eyes are itchy, the way they get after a double shift. You suppress a yawn and nod.
"Very nice, thank you," you agree and twiddle your fingers in your palm.
"But you're anxious to get home..." he says.
"Well....my mom..." you begin. "I'm not trying to ditch you--"
"Ha, I know. I'm selfish. I've had you all day." He keeps his eyes on the road. "Should we stop and get her something?"
"Um, that's. Mm. I'd love to but..."
"Might be suspicious. Got it." He clucks. "Well, what about tomorrow? You got plans?"
"She has an appointment," you say. "Check-up."
"Ah, makes sense," he says. "When is it? Maybe after..."
"Yeah, er maybe. But... how long are you here? What about New York?" You wonder. The big city, his company, all that is still a mystery to you.
"It can wait. Besides, the hotel has wifi. I got all night to catch up emails."
"Oh, right." You stare at the street ahead.
"Tomorrow?" He prompts before the silence drags.
"Tomorrow. After noon? Should be done by then," you assure him, twisting your fist around your finger.
"Can I ask you a favour?" He slows as he gets to your street.
"A favour?"
"Yeah. Nothing big. Promise." He turns the corner and keeps a snail's pace.
"Alright," you utter.
"Will you bring a few bills tomorrow? We can go through them. Sort that out--"
"S. No. I can't--"Ā 
"But that's the deal," he insists. "How can I help if I don't know the situation?"
"I... I don't know. It's a lot."
"A lot you shouldn't be worried about. You should be focused on your mom. Not money." He stops in front of your building. He angles in his seat and puts his hand on the back of yours. "This is what I'm here for. To take all that off your shoulders."
You exhale and swallow dryly. "It feels like too much."
"Not to me." His thumb rubs the seat, close to your shoulder. "Look, I'm just me. I got more than enough for that. I want to do this. I want someone to share this with. To spoil, if I can."
You look at him. He's too good to be true. After all the bad days, all the set backs, all the red numbers, you just can't believe it's what he says it it.
"I'll bring one," you offer.
"One?" He echoes.
"Mhmm," you nod.
"The highest one then," he says. His tone is even but demanding.Ā 
"Okay."
"Okay," he repeats and clears his throat. "Look, sweetheart, let's not ruin the day. Go inside, spend some time with mom. I'll text you."
You chew your lip. You should tell him. It won't help if he thinks you're ignoring him.
"Maybe not." You fidget. "I'm... I'm almost out of... I uh, the internet is down and I pay per message."
"Hm, why didn't you mention it before?" He challenges.
You sink down, pushing your shoulders high. "It's embarrassing."
He sighs.Ā 
"No problem. Tomorrow. After noon," he pats the seat and rescinds his hand. "Hope the appointment goes well."
"Me too," you murmur in dread.
You undo your seat belt and grab your purse. You sit up and glance at him. He watches you expectantly but you're not sure what he's waiting for.
"Good night," you say.
His jaw ticks, "good night, sweetheart."
You smile weakly and get out. You shut the door gently and turn to step over the curb. You march up to the front doors and peek back. You wave then go inside.
You feel bad now. Like you're abandoning him. After such a nice day, you're just strutting off without giving him anything...
Your chest knots up as you climb the stairs. It isn't just him, it's the lies. You're not sure you can keep this up but if you don't, what are you going to do? You can't pay him back and the missed hours at work won't do much to help that. And if you keep calling in, well, you might not have time to make up for what you missed.
You're confused. This was supposed to make it all easier but it all feels so much more complicated. Why can't life be as simple as the chrysalis in the hamper?Ā 
šŸ¦‹
"Will you come in with me?" Your mom asks as they call her name.
You nod and stand with her. It's not like the early days. When she went on her own. She didn't tell you the diagnoses right away. Not until the first treatment. That was a horrible day and there's been many of those since.
You follow the nurse to the sterile room. You sit in the chair in the corner and your mother sits in the chair by the small counter top. You're silent. Both anxious.
Dr. Vincent enters. You almost feel like youĀ should stand. You cross your legs and return his greeting. It's not a very good morning but you won't say so.
"So, Noreen," he says to your mother. "I have some news."
Your mother looks at him from her chair. She looks small like a child. You've never seen her afraid but in that moment, you see her eyes gleam.
"You're a candidate for stem cell transplant." He says.
Your mom looks at you and back to him. You don't know what that means either. You remember they mentioned it early on but it never came back up.
"No more chemo. At least for now. We think this is the opportune time and it could help with recovery in the long run," he explains.
"Oh, right," she breathes.Ā 
"We'll send you for a few scans to see how things are looking but your last images were positive."
"Uh huh, okay," she blinks. "Is it very expensive?"
He hums. "It can be. Depending on insurance. Of course, it would be my recommendation for you to go with it. Chemo is showing results but in my experience, this is the best course of action. If you wish to continue as you are, it's entirely within your discretion."
You're both quiet.
"I'll provide you some information on it before you go. How about that? Give you some time to think." He says.
"That's good," you say as your mom stays silent.
"Alright, then, we'll do the usual," Vincent diverts. "Let's get you on the bed."
You sit patiently as he checks your mother over. He's quick and efficient. He has a full waiting room, even this early in the morning. You thank him after your mother does and he leaves the room.
She steps onto the stool and down to the floor. As you approach her, she sighs. She doesn't say anything as she leads you out of the room.
As she stops at theĀ admin desk to get the folder of pamphlets, she bids them a good day. As you come out into the gloomy of the rainy day, you take her hand. She stops and stands at the curb, looking out into the distance.
"I'm tired, pie."
"I know, mom," you say.
"What do you think?" She asks.
"I don't know. Maybe... we should read the stuff."
"It'll be expensive."
"It's all expensive," you mutter.
She drops her head. "My last days and I have to watch my daughter work herself half to death just to suffer more and more."
"Mom, please, he said things are looking good--"
"Maybe but I don't know how much longer I can keep this up."
You swallow as your eyes burn. "It's... it's your choice. Always your choice." You look away, trying not to cry.
"Honey," she squeezes your hand. "I don't want to give up. I know you won't, either, but you're tired too. It hurts me to see you like this."
"Mom," is all you can eke out.
She lets go of you and looks at the folder. She exhales. "I'll read it over."
"We'll read it together," you offer.Ā 
"When's work?" She wonders.
"Noon," you answer. Not work, per se. Just an obligation.
"Enough time for breakfast," she says. "My treat."
"Mom," you say.
"I know, I know. But I just want one last cinnamon bun before I go," she insists.
šŸ¦‹
You're trembling. You haven't been able to stop since you left the apartment. You couldn't let your mom see the panic. She's already having a rough day.
You stand under the awning of the building, waiting. S drives up and you run out without pulling up your jacket hood. You feel in your pocket for the pamphlet.
You get in the car and flick the moisture from your cheeks. You gasp. "It's really coming down."
"You don't have an umbrella?" S says.
"Forgot," you shrug.
"Mm, well, looks like a day best spent inside. I was thinking, they got pretty good food at my hotel. We could have lunch."
You hesitate. The thought of his hotel room makes your stomach stir. You remember what he said. 'We'll see where it goes'. It's feeling more and more like there's only one way this goes.
"Sure, whatever you like." You sniff.
You buckle up and sit back. You tilt your head up.
"Long morning?" He asks as he pulls into the street.
"Yeah... a little."
"Bad news?" He asks cautiously.
"Mm, news... stuff to think about."
"Right," he steers on as the wipers swing back and forth. "Well, just relax. Once we get to the hotel, you can get dry and clear your head."
"Yeah. Thanks."
You close your eyes, content to let the rain and the motion soothe you. It's a moment to prepare yourself.. Maybe once you tell him, he'll change his mind.
When the car stops, you snap up as if you were sleeping. Your mind slows as the world does the same. S smiles at you and reaches behind your seat. He grabs an umbrella out of the back.
He gets out, shielding himself from the downpour, and comes around to open your door. He walks you up to the hotel doors and folds up the umbrella before he enters the lobby. He points you to the elevators.
"Got some work done this morning," he proclaims asĀ you get on. "You were asking about my company."
"Oh, right. I was. Curious, I guess. I don't know anyone who owns one."
"You do now," he chuckles. "It's not as glamourousĀ as it seems. This is as much time as I've had to myself in... a decade?"
"Really?"
"Not to complain. I mean, certain things I don't have to worry about. It's not a bad life. Solitary," he shrugs and the doors open.
He guides you along the hallway to his suite door. He lets you in ahead of him. He puts the umbrella in the tall vase by the door.
You unzip your jacket and hang it. You look down at your jeans. They're soaked. You rub the damp fabric.
"I got a spare robe in here, if you want to let those dry," he says.
"Sure, uh, probably," you agree.
He takes off his shoes and you step out of your boots. You linger by the door, shyly glancing into the suite. He stands up and combs his fingers through his hair.
"I'll get the room service menu," he grins and struts away. "Make yourself at home."
As he looks around, you reach into your jacket pocket. You hide the pamphlet behind your back, clasping your wrist tight, and tiptoe further inside. He waves the laminated menu at you.
"Right here," he puts it on the small round table between two chairs. "I'll get that robe."
"Sure."
You wait, reluctant at the edge of the sitting room. A couch and a clamshell chair in velvet. It's all so nice.
He comes back in.
"If you want to change before you make up your mind--"
"Uh huh, yeah."
You keep the pamphlet behind you and take the robe. He points you to the bathroom and you scurry into it. You lock yourself inside and strip off the wet jeans. The texture leaves your skin itchy. Ugh.
You hang them on the bar meant for towels and pull on the robe. It'sĀ soft and roomy. You tuck the pamphlet into the pocket and face the door.
You emerge as S sits at the table. You walk carefully, paranoid that the robe might fall open despite the tight knot around the middle. You sit down and lean over to read the menu. It's a good distraction.
"I recommend the mac and cheese, as simple as it sounds," he taps with his finger.
"Oh, I like mac and cheese," you say.
You continue your perusal. You'll probably just go with what he says. Your appetite is lost in the storm of your inside.
"So, uh, did you bring that bill?"
You sit up stiffly and blink at him. Your hand goes to the pocket of the robe. You gape at him. How do you do this?
"We can wait--"
"No, I can't. Not-- no. Because..." you stammer as your heart races. "Because it's... it's too much and... you can say no and... I'll be okay. My mom will be okay. I'll figure it out. I will."
"Woah, woah, sweetheart," he gets up and comes around the table. He gets down to his knees as he puts his hands on your arms, his thumbs caressing you. "It's alright. I asked you to--"
"No, no," you jitter as you reach in the pocket and slide out the pamphlet, slightly damp from the rain. "It's... it's more... it's..." you look down at the paper as you clutch it in your hands. "The doctor said it will be good but..."
He drags his hands down your arms to your hands. He eases the pamphlet free. He sits back on his heels and opens it. He reads it over as you cover your face.
"I think I should go--"
"I can do it," he says calmly. "One hundred? Easy."
"One hundred thousand!" You drop your hands. "S!"
"It's just money. This isn't about that. It's about your mom, isn't it?"
You stare at him. You don't understand how he can be so generous. It's just take, take, take, and you have nothing to give. And the more he gives, the more you depend on it. The hole only gets deeper and deeper.
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Little Big Fan | Seven
— Little Big Movie Night
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Max kept his word and was entirely available so far out of the ten days between races. That is, if the two hours that were spent on an impromptu online meeting set up by the team principal don't count.
Max was actually at your place when he received the call, about to enjoy a movie and some popcorn with you and Isabella.
"Christian, with all due respect, it's seven pm. Can we push this to tomorrow morning?" Max walked towards the other end of the room but you heard his question, already understanding that something had come up.
After some hushed voices over the phone, Max returned with an apologetic look on his face. He began muttering your name slowly, but you shook your head, "you don't have to explain, it's fine."
That earned a frown on his face, "what? No, let me explain."
You remained silent, allowing him to go on. "Christian set up a meeting, so I was going to ask if there's a room I could use for a bit?"
Your lips parted, almost turning up in a smile, "you're not leaving?"
Max shook his head, "I figured I'd stay and we can watch the movie after the meeting's over, if that's fine with you?" He scratched the back of his neck with a sheepish smile on his face.
You couldn't contain the smile that graced your lips, "of course, that's totally fine. I have a little room I use as an office so we can set up there."
Leading Max towards your office, you quickly closed all the excess tabs on your laptop, and opened up a new one.
Then you looked back to see that Max was still standing by the door, looking around in surprise. "Sorry, I didn't really get to clean up today."
His head snapped towards you at your words, "no, don't apologize. I'm just admiring it, that's all." He walked closer to a cork board, which was covered in so much paper that you weren't able to see the brown board underneath.
Next to it was a whiteboard, with your handwriting scribbled onto it with dry erase markers since you jotted down some notes and reminders from a few days ago.
"What's there to admire about this mess?" You asked with a small laugh, partly at yourself because you had always kept this room tidy; it simply happened to be messy on the day someone other than you entered it.
"It tells me more about you," he spoke, but before you could utter a word he continued, "and no I don't mean it tells me that you're messy because you're not. It's just nice, that's all."
Pressing your lips together to prevent yet another smile, you nodded, "okay."
Max insisted that you should remain by his side until the meeting started, just in case something happened and he needed your help.
You chose not to comment on the fact that Max clearly knew how to use a laptop and did not require your assistance. Instead, you stood by his side as he sat in the chair, slightly bending over closer each time he asked a question while pointing at the screen.
Every time you inched a little closer, Max looked up at you with a fond smile on his face. He had to occupy his hand with something else such as typing or he would have pulled you down to sit on his lap.
"Max?" You spoke with a teasing smile once you realized his gaze wasn't wavering away from you. He hummed in response, and you couldn't help but chuckle at his lack of words.
"Your phone's ringing," you simply stated, causing him to look away from you for a moment as he noted the caller id, before looking back at you, this time with an annoyed expression on his face.
"It's Christian," he held the phone in his hand, contemplating whether or not he should answer.
"What do you think? Should I just ignore the call and the meeting, just watch the movie with you and Bella?" He asked with the phone still ringing.
"Max, if it wasn't important I don't think you'd have an impromptu meeting." He groaned, "but the movie, I don't want you both to wait."
You placed a hand on his shoulder, "we're not going anywhere, if anything, we can watch it another day. Plus, it's Cars 2, you have no idea how many times Bella watched it. I think she knows every line by heart."
That seemed to convince Max enough to join the meeting. You walked a step away right before he was about to turn on the camera, but Max caught your hand in his, pulling you back.
He placed a small kiss on the back of your hand before gesturing to his cheek. You couldn't contain the blush creeping up your cheeks as his lips touched your knuckles, but tinge grew deeper when you realized what his gesture meant.
In the spur of the moment, you had kissed Max's cheek while you were shopping a few days prior without a second thought. But it seemed to stick in Max's mind and instead of being repulsed by it, he wanted yet another kiss.
"I thought you didn't notice it," you mumbled, then your gaze moved towards the meeting screen, and noted that Max's camera and mic wasn't on.
"Your lips were on me, and you think I wouldn't notice it," he dropped your hand and turned in his chair, so his cheek was facing you.
"Max, are you there?" A voice sounded through the laptop, which brought both of your attention back on it. Max quickly leaned forward to unmute the microphone and spoke, "yeah, I'm here."
You chose that moment to grab his chin, turning it to the side and pressing a lingering kiss on his cheek. Max couldn't utter a word, eyes widening since he thought you wouldn't do it.
He also couldn't utter a word because now his microphone was unmuted, and anything he wanted to say could've been heard by everyone in the meeting.
He watched as you began leaving the room, turning back for a moment to look at Max's surprised face that quickly turned into something mischievous. You smiled cheekily, knowing exactly what you did, with no regrets.
"Turn your camera on mate," the voice belonging to someone from his team, but he couldn't care less about who it was, not with you running through his mind.
Max did as requested, and the first comment he received was from Christian, "that doesn't look like your apartment, where are you?"
He wanted to roll his eyes, but that would've been very unprofessional, so he stuck to something slightly less unprofessional, "can we just get started?"
Max leaned back in his chair, or rather in your chair, as he thought about what he could've said to you if he wasn't in this meeting.
Downstairs, your daughter was sitting on the couch with her favourite teddy bear and a light blanket as she asked, "where's Maxy, mama?"
"He's in a meeting, Bella. I don't know if we can watch a movie tonight," you sighed, knowing that it was a common answer you used to give her when she was younger.
"Just like daddy?" Isabella asked, speaking your thoughts out loud. You shrugged, because you didn't know what else to say.
You wanted to deny and tell her that the meeting Max is in, is nothing like the ones Tyler had. You wanted to tell her that Max really didn't want to join it because he wanted to spend time with her.
But that would simply lead her to wonder why it is different from her father's meetings. Then, you wouldn't be able to tell her that Tyler used to schedule "meetings" merely to cancel the plans with Isabella.
"I don't know, angel, but it shouldn't take too long," was the best answer you could come up with.
It did take a while before Max came back downstairs. A whole two hours to be exact. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," he exclaimed as he neared you and Isabella.
While you nodded along, telling him that he didn't need to apologize, your daughter crossed her arms and turned her head away from Max.
"Not fair, Maxy," she muttered, inching closer to you and away from him. Max frowned, "I'm sorry, Bella, do you still want to watch the movie?"
She uncrossed her arms but didn't move any closer. "I already finished the popcorn," she muttered, and Max couldn't help but chuckle. However, his smile made her frown, "don't laugh at me," her crossed arms were back.
Max instantly stopped, and you held back your own giggle watching the interaction. "It's okay, we can make more," he suggested which made Isabella look up at you.
"Can we make more, mama?" You shrugged, "I thought you were upset with Max? Not anymore?" Although Isabella tried to be upset with Max, she truly wasn't. Max, however, gullibly played into her little scheme.
"No, meetings are important, I guess," she responded and clutched Max's legs like she always did. This time, Max picked her up, "you are also very important, Bella."
You watched as they walked into the kitchen, with your daughter leading Max towards the popcorn. He did it all while still holding Isabella, and that sparked a bright smile on your face.
You finished queuing up the movie as they returned to the couch, Isabella sitting between you and Max while holding a bowl of popcorn.
Around half an hour passed by before Isabella dozed off. She was cuddled against Max's side, still holding onto the bowl which you carefully retrieved from her without waking her up.
You reached out towards her, but paused as you tried to figure out how you could pick her up and away from Max without waking her up.
"It's okay, let me take her upstairs," Max suggested quietly before carrying your sleeping daughter to her bedroom. You followed, just in case, plus Max didn't know where her bedroom was.
Leaning against the doorframe, you watched as he carefully tucked her in, which was a difficult task since Isabella didn't let go of her grasp on Max.
When he placed a short kiss on her forehead, and ran a hand over her head to smoothen out her hair, you turned away, no longer being able to watch such a gentle moment.
You walked back downstairs, with Max following moments later. Both of you looked at the tv screen where the movie was paused, then back to each other. "Do you want to continue?" He spoke your thoughts out loud.
You nodded, "sure."
This time, without Isabella sitting in between, you and Max were able to sit a lot closer. You grabbed the remote while Max held the bowl of popcorn.
Perhaps the movie was just a ploy to spend time together, to give Max a reason to stay longer because neither of you actually focused on the animation playing.
"How was the meeting?" You asked, making Max let out a groan. "The worst."
"It couldn't have been that bad," you commented, watching Max shake his head. "No, I never understood it when people say a meeting could've been an email, but this meeting—oh my god— it truly could've been an email."
You threw your head back with a laugh, "oh no, poor Max," you teased with your finger poking his cheek.
Before you could move it away, he linked his fingers with yours then facing the screen as if nothing happened. You looked at your linked fingers, smiling with a slight tinge growing on your cheeks before you looked ahead to focus on the movie.
Then, you felt his gaze on you, and you couldn't help but comment, "you're not watching." You turned your face to look at him, and he shrugged, "I can't help it, you're so beautiful."
"Such a flirt," you moved your hand away, briefly unlinking your fingers but before Max could protest, you shuffled closer to him, looping your arm with his and resting your head on his shoulder.
You couldn't concentrate on the movie anymore, and you weren't sure if it was because you'd seen it so many times with your daughter or because Max was tracing shapes with his fingertips on your thigh.
Feeling him shuffle around, you lifted your head to face him, "what's wrong?ā€
He shook his head but continued looking at you, this time with a look that seemed like he wanted to say something.
Max's thoughts were reeling inside his mind, trying to come up with the right words. So far, he's tried to remain calm around you, but with you so close to him in a way that seemed normal, he couldn't think.
Since he couldn't think, he mouth moved and spoke the words he had stuck in his mind for a while now, "can I take you out on a date?"
Your lips parted slightly in surprise, because out of all the words you expected to hear from him, it wasn't those. Well, you hoped he'd say it, but you didn't actually think he would.
Max mistook your surprise for denial and started spluttering with apologies, "sorry—um—that was unexpected—" he tried but the smile growing on your face told him to shut up.
"I was waiting for you to ask me out," you admitted, but Max still didn't sigh in relief. He needed another confirmation because right now, he could not believe the words you were saying.
"Is that a yes?" He only relaxed when you nodded, "yes, Max, I'd love to go on a date with you."
Then he sighed, a happy smile overtaking his face. "Thank god, I thought you were going to reject me."
Since Max stopped moving, you rested your head on his shoulder again, your arm still hooked with his but you slid your palm down until you met his. Max didn't think twice before threading his fingers between yours.
"Reject you? Never," you stated, and Max began thinking of how he was truly lucky to have met you.
"It's all because of Isabella," you answered his thoughts, making him realize that he had said it all out loud. He chuckled, "yeah, it is."
"For the record, I'm glad that I met you too," you stated, causing a slight blush to rise onto Max's cheeks but fortunately, you were focusing on the last few minutes of the movie.
This movie night might've gone in a different direction than Max expected, but the outcome was gladly appreciated. He didn't leave your hand even after the end credits ended, and you didn't move away either.
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