#I still don't know if my hyperfixation will return to this shit lol

[lostsomewhereinescapism]

to be honest, i didn't think i'd ever use these tags again.... hello, my dead, old hyperfixation ig.

[nightowl33art]

Just putting it out there that I'm like.. not a Phisnom supporter these days lol. I don't care to explain exactly why-- I just am. I love the concepts he's put out there and I very much consider myself a part of the toxic cesspit community still, but I'm not really interested in what Phil's doing these days. I just have a massive toxicsona hyperfixation.

I won't take offense if someone mistakes me for a fan or calls me "red Phisnom" like I've often gotten. He's by all means an inspiration and I appreciate the impact he and his content's had on my life for the last year+, but I've said goodbye to my channel membership.

Hazard aesthetic and all toxicsonas aren't going anywhere fyi-- that shit rocks and is part of me now. I DO plan on engaging on occasion (ex: toxicsona review submissions if those return), and I'm still going to make/like Phi content. Even if my behavior may be confusing, I still can do whatever makes me happy. Members are always ofc more than welcome to interact but if you talk specifically Phisnom with me, I may not know about modern stuff.

It might be odd to see why I'd make a post like this since nobody Actually cares. Normally I wouldn't feel inclined to share any denouncements, but I feel I have place to bring it up because of how influential Phil's been to me, and how I've grown to be a wider known name in the cesspit for this long. I've been known to be a supporter by many for a while now. Don't want people to get confused if I say something about it later, nor do I want to be grouped in with people for something currently inaccurate.

[floofusloofus]

This weeks (months? I don't think my hyperfocus actually changes weekly 🤔) hyperfocus is RC! Specifically RC crawlers.

What started off as an innocent look at a marketplace ad for an RC Ural 375 lead to a rabbithole of scaled vehicular dopamine. However before we get to that I need to mention my favorite video game for some context.

For those who haven't played it, Snowrunner is an off-road driving game where you do just that. It is not a racing game, rather speed is hardly present as stomping on the gas pedal will usually lead to your truck getting flipped or stuck in the bog (this is why off-roading is often known as crawling). Getting from point A to B is a lot like solving a puzzle, as you need to carefully plan your route to ensure your rig and cargo stay upright over the rough terrain. On paper this sounds extremely boring, and for a lot of people it is. But for myself this shit is my comfort food. Nothing is more relaxing than popping on a podcast and taking my time traversing rivers and muddy roads at my own pace.

Now let's return to that marketplace ad. The Ural 375 is one of the trucks featured in Snowrunner, and here I was looking at a highly detailed RC version. So I bought the thing......and promptly resold it the next day when I realized it couldn't do any offroading AT ALL. What's even the point in making an RC Ural if it can barely crawl across carpet?? So gone was the truck, yet the daydreams of traversing hazardous trails at the local park with my 1:18 scale wheels remained. It could not stand. I NEEDED a replacement to fill the void left in my heart.

After a week of vigorous research, scrolling through RC posts on Reddit during bathroom breaks, and dancing back and forth between assembling my own build or buying a prebuilt, I had made my choice: A tiny blue Land Rover no bigger than a shoe, that somehow cost more than all my shoes.

Yet for it's size they still managed to cram a lot of details into it, and unlike the marketplace special I briefly owned this thing can actually crawl! And oooohh how the dopamine flows when you drive it. Nothing beats the satisfaction of successfully crawling up the side of a rock face, through a brook, or whatever route/obstacle it is you've picked. It's a little like playing Snowrunner, but it actually gets me out of the house. And there's just something I find more enjoyable about controlling a physical thing (even if it's just a toy 😛) vs. a video game vehicle.

And that's just the experience of driving it. The amount of tinkering you can do with these things is insane. Everything from swapping out wheels and tires, lower or higher ranged transmissions, stronger motors, functioning headlights, etc. You name it, and I guarantee there's some guy on eBay selling the exact part. Heck you can even be the local small penis and add mini truck nuts to your rig (please don't).

Honestly I shouldn't be surprised at how I latched onto this, as RC builds and components are very similar to PC builds and hardware. Both feature endless nights spent researching parts for your build, fanboys fanboying, and components that will fuck you up it mistreated (don't mess with LiPos or PSUs kids). Both are hobbies that require knowing the ins and outs of your machine, the skills to build/maintain it, and involve constant tinkering.

Anyways, I realize I just spent way too much time on this block of text lolol. But I would highly recommend this hobby as your next hyperfixation. Just be mindful of your wallet 😅 I've since bought a 2nd truck, a significantly larger Ford Bronco, and am eager to take it hiking with me this summer 😊 thanks for reading! (If anyone ever does lol)

[darkheroclone]

Important Announcement

[So uh hey y'all, it's me again. Sorry for popping back only to drop out again there so soon. I accidentally fell into another fandom shortly after my last post and, well, ended up hyperfixating on it a biiiiiit too much. Still am right now tbh. I had had some plans to return back a few months ago but... well, let's just say some personal shit happened and leave it at that.

Anyway, just wanted to pop in to make a quick little announcement.

This blog shall be revamped into a new one. Specifically one with multiple muses on it.

Axel will still be a part of this blog, don't worry. That being said, as much as I hate to say this, he's not exactly my main muse anymore. Uh I dunno how to word this exactly but you know how some folks have a "default" muse they tend to go to? Or whoever they're feeling the strongest for here? Yeah, like that if that makes any sense there.

I don't know when I will actually get around to revamping the blog. I probably should have waited until after I got some time but, well, to be quite frank here, with how things have been lately, I figure it'd be best to just go ahead and make this announcement. Not to mention but, well, like I've said, Axel isn't my main muse anymore. I still got plenty of muse for him but, again, been wanting to do other muses more lately.

As for the muses, well, I'll be keeping that as a surprise for now lol.

Anyway, happy holidays to you all~!]