#I still don’t understand how submissions work 😭

[damiansgoodgirll]

just a short one with jhea x reader where rhea ,is frustrated she can’t get her title back and she is taking it out on you sexually and jey is there to calm her down please ❤️❤️❤️ i miss jhea so much 😭❤️

i miss jhea too🥹

jhea x reader (jey uso + rhea ripley)

likes, comments and reblogs are always welcomed!

‼️smut + implied smut, mean rhea, soft jey, a lot of emotions and feelings, mention of safe word‼️

relax

two fingers kept thrusting in and out of you at inhuman pace as rhea had you half naked on your hotel bed. wearing only jey’s yeet t-shirt, your legs were spread open just for her.

she was frustrated. she needed a release from everything and you were very happy to help her. probably weren’t expecting that when rhea said “she needed to take it out” she meant sexually but you couldn’t complain the moment she had you butt naked and screaming her name.

jey was in the shower and when he realised that a slumber party was happening in the room, he couldn’t wait to join you.

but the moment he got in the room, he realised that it was something else that was happening. no matter how good you looked taking rhea’s fingers, he knew that you were holding up just for her, because she needed it.

“rhea, baby…” jey slowly walked towards the bed where you were laying down with rhea on top “you gotta slow down a little…” - he knew that you would have used your safeword in case it got too much but at the same time he didn’t want you to feel like you were forced to do what rhea wanted just to make her feel better.

“she’s okay, she can take it” rhea smirked watching how desperate you tried to close your legs.

jey scoffed.

“oh don’t be dramatic jey, look at our little doll, she’s so wet for me, she’s loving this.”

yes, you were enjoying it as much as rhea was.

yes, she already made you cum three times and your pussy was sensitive as hell.

and yes, you knew that this wasn’t the best time way for rhea to cope but you were willing to do anything to help her, and if she wanted you naked and submissive for her, who were you to say no?

“rhea…” jey reminded her. he was aware that this wasn’t the soft rhea he knew. this rhea was meaner, taking it all out on you as it was you who stole her title and their spotlight. he didn’t see any signs of comfort in what rhea was doing but he wouldn’t dare to ruin it and making her even more upset - as long as you were comfortable.

he looked between the two of you.

her eyes were fixed on your face. watching the way your eyes were closed and your mouth open. a single tear left from your eyes, making rhea aware that you were about to cum for the fourth time that night.

“you coming baby?” rhea smirked, already knowing the answer. she felt your legs trembling against her touch and while you came on her fingers, she didn’t stop there.

no, she brought her thumb to your clit, making you slightly jump from the overstimulation “yeah you like that uh? just like the little whore you are” rhea whispered while her hand was still working on your orgasm.

jey didn’t like the way she was talking with you but again, as long as you were okay with it he was no one to ruin the situation. he sat there, watching you both playing with each others.

“….fuck rhea, hold on” your voice a little broken. you whispered for her to give you a moment to breathe but your words passed her mind and instead, she worked on your clit even harder, challenging herself to make you cum one last time.

“rhea, she said hold on” jey’s voice echoed through the room.

“she can take it” rhea said again “she knows the safeword…”

“rhea, can you stop for a fucking minute?” jey’s voice raised, making the woman’s head snap at him.

“what?” she screamed, releasing her hand from your pussy, as you let your legs fall limp on the bed.

“what is going on baby?” his voice was sweet, trying to understand why was rhea behaving that way.

“i’m just having fun with our girlfriend” she answered back.

“no, you’re fucking using her, that’s not having fun, that’s releasing your problems and emotions on her…and she won’t say anything because she loves you and wants to make you happy but i won’t stay here and watch as you use her as a fucking fuckdoll and pretend she’s not the woman i love…so, i’m asking you again rhea, what is going on? talk to us baby…please” jey almost begged.

rhea took a deep breath and watched between you and the man.

yeah, you didn’t use a safeword and except for some marks on your body you were fine. but that didn’t mean that what rhea was doing was fine.

“rhea…baby” your voice made her tear up as she sat back on the bed facing you.

“i’m sorry…” she didn’t want to cry. she didn’t want to look weak. she was rhea bloody ripley.

“talk to us love, please” your hand gently touched her chin, making her melt into your soft touch.

“everything is too much” she confessed. you and jey both listening to her “i - i don’t know what am i doing wrong? why can’t i get my title back? why can’t i have my hands on liv? i’m so tired of this fucked up situation and i took it all out on you, i’m so fucking sorry y/n…” she tried her best to not burst in tears but the moment you hugged her, she let herself go. jey came closer, softly stroking her hair and kissing the soft spot on her neck.

“it’s okay baby, we are here…” he reminded her.

“i feel like i’m failing” she confessed.

her broken sobs made your heart clench.

“love, it’s not your fault…you are not failing, you are amazing” you reminded her this time.

“y/n’s right…” jey whispered against her skin “you are amazing and you have a lot of people out there that admire you and love you…and you have us here, we both love you and care about you…”

rhea raised her head softly as your hand went to wipe her tears away.

“i love you guys, so fucking much…” her broken voice whispered out “i’m sorry y/n, i never meant to hurt you, i don’t know what has gotten into me” but you shook your head.

“it’s okay, i’m okay…i’m here for you love” you gently reminded her “why don’t you lay down on the bed uh?” you asked her, making jey’s head turn to look at you “you lay down and we help you relax a little bit okay? you need to let everything out, let us take control, just for tonight…”

you and jey were both waiting for rhea to answer back. she’s always been the one who was in control but she knew you were right - she needed to let it all go.

“okay…just, dont leave me” her voice sounded weak and your heart twisted in your chest.

“i’m gonna lay down right next to you okay baby? we’re gonna let jey do all the work” you winked at him, making them both laugh. of course - not that jey minded, in fact, he was more than happy to take of his girls that night.

rhea relaxed a little when she felt your soft lips over her shoulders and neck while jey gently undressed her.

“we are going as far as you want us to go, okay?” jey reminded her, letting her know that even if she wasn’t in control that night, she still had all the power to choose.

“yes” she whispered softly, smiling at jey.

“relax” you reminded her again and for the first time in weeks, rhea was able to free herself from all the stress she had inside, all the bad memories and dark thoughts.

she felt free, her mind was a blank canvas now as she left herself fall into the pleasure her two lovers were giving her.

[darylsdelts]

Hi😊 I was wondering if you could write the A - Z NSFW head canons for Daryl when you feel like it? I really love how you write him!

Tysm for this anon! This is fun!

Please keep in mind that sometimes I’m in the mood for subby Daryl and sometimes the opposite so my own opinions constantly change so, aside from this… yes Daryl is also daddy.

Aftercare - in the beginning, Daryl definitely doesn’t know what to do with himself after being intimate with you. The first few times, he pulls away after without saying anything and would either head out or just make some space between you. After he realises you actually want him there and understands what he should do then he definitely holds you close to his chest, a kiss on the top of your head, tells you he enjoyed it and he loves you.

Body - favourite body part… Daryl’s a boob man. He don’t give a shit, big or small but he loves em. (Norman is the biggest fucking boob man so so is Daryl, ok?) he also loves your eyes because he finds comfort in them, being able to hold eye contact is a big thing for Daryl. That being said, he basically get separation anxiety if he hasn’t been able to play with your pussy for a while😭 (not really but you’re his first time for everything so he just can’t get enough)

Cum - hear me out, Daryl used to get scared to cum. Like it took a while for him to get used to it. He’d enjoy show good it all felt but as soon as he would get too close he’d ask you to stop, he didn’t know why but he’d get all panicky. Until one day you very gently told him you were gonna make him cum and you guided him through it. It’s not like he hadn’t jerked off before, he didn’t even understand the anxiety himself. But the first time you did make him cum, there was quite a lot and he got real shy but he enjoyed it and since then he’s a fiend for when you just use your hand. He’s not really into cumming on your face but he likes the tummy. Even though he knows he can’t, sometimes he’ll still beg to cum inside you.

Dirty secret - he secretly likes the thought of you forcing him to watch yourself get off on your own fingers, tormenting him and not letting him touch you or himself. You’d have him practically rutting into thin air as he watched your fingers work hard, wishing it was his cock.

Experience - Daryl had no experience before you, he was a virgin. He didn’t outright say that but you caught on and you eventually asked him about it, which to your surprise he didn’t get defensive about, he was more ashamed than anything. But good Lord, he used his fingers liked he’d been in training his whole life, sure he was inexperienced but it didn’t show. The only telltale sign was his premature ejaculation the first time you two messed about and also how he humps his hips against the mattress when he eats you out.

Freaky - He’s not freaky lmfao. He’s pretty vanilla, with a submissive streak. The most dominant he gets is calling you a good girl and making you suck his fingers. Other than that he’s gentle and tends to slip into a sort of submissive role.

Goofy - Daryl’s too focused to be goofy. Nothing to laugh about if his girl ain’t cumming yet. But he’s not boring, obviously, just usually too caught up in pleasure. Unlessssss… you’re overstimulating him, something he loves, then he might get a little giggly accidentally but only because he doesn’t know what to do with himself when you’re attacking his sensitive head.

Hair - Daryl’s hair is sparse on his chest and torso but his happy trail gets a little darker, not black though, I would say probably a medium brown colour, let’s remember he’s a blonde baby at heart. He’s got a little bit of bush going on but he trims it now and then. As for you, he couldn’t care less, he’s still gonna eat his meal 😋! If you do get the chance to shave, he’d most likely be surprised. “What’s this? Ya been shavin’? Hope ya ain’t done it fer me”. He wouldn’t want you to think you have to shave for him to find you attractive, to be honest it kinda throws him off when you’re hairless.

Intimacy - he’s a needy fucker for a cuddle. He don’t look like it but he might as well be the damn cuddle monster when it comes to you. In private of course. In public he’d just squeeze your hand and maybe kiss your forehead if no one’s looking but PDA makes him uncomfortable. That’s why he’s so touchy and clingy at home.

Jerking off - not much time for Daryl to touch himself, also, he’s with you so he might aswell just ask you to do it. However, if for any reason you’re apart, he might get a little pent up, start daydreaming about things you say to him and how you say it “such a good boy, Daryl” he’d practically fuck his hand, being so desperate for release that he’d cum way too fast. He also likes to cup his balls when he cums.

kinks - secret mommy kink secret mommy kink secret mommy kink. He didn’t know he had one but he did know that he tends to gravitate to nurturing women who make him feel comforted but he’s never found any sexual desire there until he met you. So attentive and so nurturing, you always knew what he needed… it just slipped out one time, you were straddling him whilst he was still clothed. You’d teased him all day and he was a mess, rutting against your core through his jeans, begging to be touched. He couldn’t help it when he had an accidental orgasm in his pants and moaned out “m-mommyyyy”. And boy did you hold him to that.

Location - Home. Daryl don’t take no risks! Except for when he lets you tease him under the table at meetings.

Motivation (turn ons) - you, especially if you’ve been fighting, he loves watching his girl fight. Your kindness turns him on as-well, unless someone takes advantage of it, then he’s out to kill.

No (turn offs) - roughness, he’s not into being rough with you or you being tough with him. His life’s been rough enough.

Oral - he gets whimpery when you suck his dick, he bucks his hips and whines and he fucking loves it. Almost as much as he loves to eat you out. He’d lay on his stomach, eating you out whilst simultaneously rubbing his cock against the mattress, leaving a puddle of precum.

Pace - usually a slow to medium pace, he likes making love to you but if he’s stressed or had a rough day, he’s gonna go fast. That’s the only time he’ll be overly dominant. Basically just using your body.

Quickie - as much as he thinks about it, Daryl’s not pushing you up against a tree mid-hunt. It’s dangerous and not exactly comfortable for you. The closest thing he’s gotten to a quickie is one time you teased his cock through his jeans during a group dinner and he was so close to cumming he basically dragged you to the bathroom and had you suck him off.

Stamina - less than he had in the beginning 😭 he’s 55 now, he’s still got impeccable stamina and could go for round two but not as quickly as he could at 40.

Toys - one day, you came home from a scavenge with a vibe, he was a little annoyed, saying you could’ve got more important things but you assured him that this was all you found. He assumed it was for your use only but… you held it to his frenulum and suddenly he was glad it was all you could find. You told him that if you found a dildo you could use that on him too but he couldn’t tell if you were joking or not, maybe he’d let you use your fingers before any of that… maybe.

Unfair - after all of this submissive Daryl talk, he does like seeing you flustered, he likes to tease just as much as you do, he makes it like a little competition.

Volume - he’s quiet, small grunts and whimpers unless the vibe is involved then you gotta stuff your panties in his mouth.

Wild card (random hc) - likes when you worship his body, makes him less insecure (which he very much is but shouldn’t be)

X-ray - 7 inches and thick! Tip is a pinky red and he’s uncut. His balls are heavy asf but pretty tight. 4 inches when soft and when he’s hard it stands to attention with no curve.

Yearning - tried to play it cool… still tries to play it cool but is obsessed with you.

Zzz - as soon as you’re snuggled up, he’s gone. Fucking finally, he never slept well before you.

God this took fucking ages.

[yurtb0y]

Ted infodumping:

OKAY. Ted is so horrifically mischaracterized that I don’t even really know where to begin. I’m fresh on my Ted lore because I spent the whole night listening to the audiobook and tweaking out like a nerd 😭

Book Ted is so interesting. Without considering game lore, a lot of people seem to think of him as just a cold, self righteous misogynist. However, the thing is that Ted HATES himself. All of his paranoid delusions stem from insecurity, but the way he frames it in the narrative sounds like he’s ’bragging.’

“They hated me because I was the youngest” and “I was the least affected” both sound like points of insecurity for him. Not that he wanted to be tortured more, but in the sense that he was aware he suffered less, and he was insecure of the fact that it was obvious. Ted watched as Benny was transformed from a handsome, normal guy to a straight up ape, and he seems to use that as a comparison point for the other torture they experience. Like, “Well, I don’t have it as rough as Benny, and my mind is still intact because I would know if it wasn’t!” is essentially what Ted was getting at.

Based on how the canned food incident was mentioned in the game during Benny’s route, it can be assumed that the game takes place shortly after the book (seeing as it’s still only been 109 years), and obviously Ted and Ellen didn’t get to kill everyone.

Ted’s route and section in the game strategy guide highlight the reasons why he is the way he is. He was basically groomed by an older woman when he was 19. He had no education, and was forced to work as a mechanic. Then, this woman shows up and shows him the high life; he doesn’t even realize he’s being used by older women for his body.

Notice in his route, Ted never offers to sleep with the maid or the witch.. they offer it to HIM. And it’s not necessarily even an “offer”, it’s in exchange for something. Ted has always used intimacy as a way to get something, and that explains why he has such a cynical view of Ellen. She services the men to try and keep them sane, but Ted can’t seem to fully understand how it’s a selfless act. He has always attributed sex as a means to barter, and here’s a woman having sex with them for “no reason.” Seeing as he couldn’t make her finish, that furthers in his mind that she’s not getting anything from him, so WHY is she doing it? It doesn’t help that AM altered her to make her crave intimacy more, but Ted can’t escape his own disturbed views of sex, and so he blames Ellen for her service.

Then in the game, the reason I think he’s suddenly switched up so fast was because he saw the opportunity to be the fairytale hero that he always imagined being. In the game strategy guide it mentions how he felt cheated because he already saw Ellen as /his/ partner (or something like that), so now he had an opportunity to play the part of a gallant knight for the damsel in distress.

FUN THING TO NOTE!! In Ellen’s route she’s obviously very self-sufficient and intelligent. She’s strong, too. However, every time Ted narrates something (such as the book or his route) he perceives her as weak and emotional; when she doesn’t seem the type. She’s KIND, compassionate. Ted sees that as a form of feminine weakness. It makes you wonder if you can ever trust anything he said about her in the book, from her crying to her “emotional outbursts”. Ted is 100% an unreliable narrator, but people don’t seem to realize just how unreliable he is.

Another thing worth considering is that Ellen has Ted’s infatuation purely because she is the last woman on Earth. There is no other woman for Ted to run to, and he desperately needs the company/affection. Instead of coming to the terms with the fact that he’d never truly have something genuine, he deludes himself with the IDEA of Ellen (I assume his ideal version of her is the one in his route — pliant and submissive). He doesn’t love her for her, he loves this handcrafted idea that he’s built of her.

I personally think a lot of Ted’s inner hate towards Ellen in the book was also because he was jealous. She gave Benny a lot of attention because he was objectively the one that had the most shit going on (I mean… monkey 😭) and Ted immediately assumed the only reason she must like him is because he’s got a big package. This all ties back to Ted viewing sex as a bartering tactic. She doesn’t give Ted that gentle attention, and he can never make her finish. “Therefore, Ellen must give Benny tons of attention because he’s a good lay!” Is what I think his thought process was.

Now, this might be a crazy take, but I also think Ted projects his potential sexual trauma onto Ellen. He was used by older women throughout his young adult life, and he may not know it, but having sex with them to maintain his finances and social status must’ve been traumatic to some extent. But, he could never realize that, this happened in a time period where people were even more likely to not believe a male victim. Ellen takes him out of turn to thank him for going with them to get the canned goods, and all Ted can seemingly think about is how she MUST be using him. She was just trying to do something nice for him, but Ted is so tangled in his own paranoia and delusion that he can’t fathom why she’d do something nice for him.

Sorry if this doesn’t make sense I just woke up but ooooh I love Ted lore so much ugh!!!

y’all get him so well and this was sm fun to read THANK YOU!!!!

[kaeddehara]

Hii this is really embarrassing for me but I just read ur headcanons (?) for xiao, aether, and Kazuha and I loved the way you wrote aether and was wondering if you could do a nsfw drabble for him or smth 💀 everywhere else he’s written he’s written super submissive and I’m tired of it 😭 but I’m also horrendously down bad for him so 💀💀 it can literally be anything idc I just need content cause I hardly find any good fics of him 🥲

YOU CAN LITERALLY IGNORE THIS IF YOU DON’T WANT TO DO IT ITS FINE HOPE UR HAVING A GOOD DAY AND THIS DOESNT BOTHER YOU OR ANYTHING BYEEEEE

hi angel! there’s nothing to be embarrassed about it’s a very understandable ask <3. and you’re not bothering me; my ask box is open for a reason !

also, definitely have to agree with your opinions on most aether content. i think he’s such a big switch but something about him dominate always does it for me <3. i’m glad you appreciate it as well! i tried my best since you didn’t exactly specify what you wants this drabble about so i hope you enjoy!

“slow down, there’s no need to rush.”

his calming voice tickled your ear as he spoke into it so gently. your lips soon slowed on his and you backed your face away from him slowly. taking a look at his pretty features which always made you so eager to please him. you had to resist the urge to run your hands over his fit body too. after all, aether wanted to take it slow right?

it wasn’t too much later than that that he had you on your knees between his thighs. such a nice sight to see after such a tiring day of chores and commissions. his pretty, long blonde strands still in his usually downward braid, the only exceptions really being some of his bangs and loose hairs sticking to his face. along his torso, which was probably the most enticing part of his body, your hands trailed and marked the soft pale skin. all of that had been forgotten though as your hand worked itself gently along his cock that was just begging for attention. right after you undid his pants, his thick and veiny cock still laid with sensitivity was wrapped in the warmth of your palm.

“should we really be doing this now?”

you whined in protest to just how slow aethers movements were. his sweet amber eyes connected with yours and his gaze softened oh so slightly.

“you scared of getting caught? it’s not like we haven’t done this before hm?”

you softly sighed in response, returning your attention back to aether. feeling just how hard his cock was from being so pent up, it made you want all of what aether had to give to you. you let a glob of your spit run down from his reddened tip all the way down to the base where your hand originally was.

“there you go”

you always enjoyed aethers feedback when you pleasured him, he made sure to assure you of all the little things you did right. now your lips were wrapped gently around the swelled tip as you tongued at it and swirled yourself around the sensitive glands and veins. all aether could do was sit back and enjoy the view while resisting the urge to shove your head down further. he knew how well you took his cock so he didn’t worry his pretty head about you. after all, you always found more and more ways to make him finish faster than the last <3.

[laura1633]

This is so embarrassing for me to ask after following you literally for months, but I have no idea how the omegaverse works😭. I’ve read some of your fics about it (which were amazing and didn’t really need me to know anything about the universe) and I have just gone MONTHS without properly knowing what anything means.

Like, I get that there’s omegas and alphas or whatever, but I don’t really understand the anatomy (like what even is a knot and why do some fics make omegas to have vaginas and others don’t?) it’s just so confusing and I genuinely don’t know any of the terminology no matter how much I read😪

But yeah, this is the only ask I’ve ever anon’d because I feel so stupid for not getting it😭😭

Definitely don’t feel stupid anon, honestly I was exactly the same when I started reading omegaverse. I couldn’t work out what was going on! I still managed to enjoy the stories but there was so much I didn’t understand that I skimmed over. A large part of the reason is that there are different ways to approach ‘omegaverse’ so it can change from story to story. 

I am by no means an expert on this and the information below is only my view of it. Also this is a really generalised simplistic view on matters.

People will have a ‘secondary gender’ which could be alpha, omega or beta. 

Alphas - These are perceived to be the most dominant. A ‘stereotypical’ alpha will be strong, aggressive and possessive. The stereotype can definitely be broken though. I would be perfectly happy to write or read about a soft, gentle alpha. The way I personally see it is that the social perception is that alphas are dominant/aggressive/strong but that not all alphas fit that mould and that just like everyone there are layers to their personality. 

Omegas - These are stereotypically seen as being more gentle and submissive. Again it is entirely possible that an author may go against this stereotype and write a strong omega who knows exactly what they want and is completely capable of going out there and getting it.

Betas - I don’t think I have ever written anything about betas, they tend to be closer to what we would define as a ‘normal’ human. 

As you have noticed, the anatomy of omegas can vary from story to story. Some people write omegas as having vaginas and some people write them as having a penis. It really can change from author to author depending on their preferences. For example I could write Charles as an omega with a vagina or Charles as an omega with a penis. There is no set rule.

Knots -  This mostly occurs when an alpha is having sex (again this is open to interpretation though). It is where the base of the alpha’s penis swells and becomes bigger. Generally it will fully swell when an alpha is about to climax and the increased size means they catch inside the omega effectively meaning the alpha can’t pull out until the knot goes down again. 

Heats/Ruts - These are kind of the same thing but heats are for omegas and ruts are for alphas. Again, like a lot of things in the omegaverse, heats and ruts can be presented differently from author to author. A common thing is for omegas to have heats every month but for alphas to get ruts only a handful of times a year. I see it as a time when they are more fertile and therefore tend to crave their mate (or if unmated crave an omega/alpha). Omegas can spend heats alone but a common trope is for them to want to take an alpha's knot during this time. Omegas may be more sensitive during heats, they may become a little mindless and just want an alpha. Ruts are similar but tropes tend to see alphas as being more aggressive during rut and more possessive. There are variations but essentially during a heat or a rut the omega or alpha will want lots of sex.

Scents - You might hear a lot about scents in the omegaverse. In my variation people have unique scents that can change depending on how they are feeling. Alphas tend to smell more earthy and woodsy whereas omegas smell flowery and sweeter (once again this can vary). Betas sense of smell and scent is a little more muted in comparison. Alphas and Omegas may ‘scent’ each other by nuzzling or rubbing against them and leaving their scent on them. 

Nesting - A nest is a place where an omega can relax and be comfortable and safe. They are cosy and filled with nice soft things, if they have a mate they may have things in the nest that smell like heir mate. Again I suppose you could write an alpha nesting but this doesn’t seem to happen too often. 

If there is particularly terminology you don't understand or anything above you want to know more about then let me know and I can try and explain my version.

My view of omegaverse is that you can play around with the tropes and invent your own headcanons and universes which makes it fun to write but when you first start reading can be a little confusing. 

Hopefully this helped a little! 

[jawllines]

Can someone please explain what A/B/O means? I’ve spent the past 30 minutes or so googling it but I’ve only concluded that I am in fact quite dense. I still don’t understand it, maybe I’m not googling the right stuff😭 is it like where one is dominant and the other is submissive to a degree?? I just want to understand how it works so if A/B/O wins I’m not walking in completely blind and confused. If you or anyone else could explain this to me, I’d greatly appreciate it. Please explain it as you would to the most dense (unintentionally) person in your life because it is I, that is me

SO I THINK THIS WEBSITE EXPLAINS IT PRETTY WELL!! THE MOST BASIC I COULD PUT IT IS ITS WOLF DYNAMICS WITHOUT ACTUALLY HAVING TO MAKE THE CHARACTERS WOLVES!!

EVERYONE DOES IT A LITTLE DIFFERENTLY!!

AD YOU ARENT DENSE OMFGOMFOGM ITS CONFUSING, THE ONLY REASON I GET IT IS BC OF 1D FANFIC FROM 2014

[ruminate88]

What I’ve learned from past relationships and myself so far:

I just watched a video about “good men” and “independent women”. Not going to lie, this video brought up emotions in me and here is why….

I grew up in a traditional household. Mom and dad both worked but mom had summers off. Mom was the home maker and dad was sole provider. Mom spoiled my dad. I watched her wait on my dad and do soooo many things for him. I truly misinterpreted their relationship. Not to mention, I watched a lot of various sitcoms with my mom such as “Andy Griffith” and “I love Lucy”. These old black and white shows that while they made me laugh, I saw this repeated message of “Women take care of the men and are submissive to men.”

I found porn at 15 and also got this toxic message of some men dominating women. I took it as “that’s life” and applied it to my idea of love. However, plenty of women in my actual life worked and provided along with their spouses. Strong women who also had strong opinions of their own outside of a man. All the women in my life voted and stood up for themselves BUT I was too young to see it or get it. I watched both my parents serve in our church and be soooooo beyond incredibly nice to people. I too became the family care taker at 15 and was putting people’s needs before my own. Abandoning myself.

I had a wound from school where teachers made me feel stupid and kids made fun of me and my best friend Lori. I always felt weird and that I was not wanted nor did I fit in. I KNEW how it felt to be unwanted or an outcast. I never wanted anyone else to feel that way but I always had a fear of “rejection” and it hurt every time someone new rejected me,“laughed at me” OR “pushed me away.” Although I was use to people leaving me, it slowly was getting to me and making me more desperate and clingy to any man who showed me attention. 🤡🤡🤡

Whenever I met Jake, he mirrored me at first and made it seem like he believed exactly how I did about love and relationships but he was sooooo controlling and dominating to the point I was not allowed to have a say at all and it shook me!!! I was afraid and intimidated by him. I knew something was off. I don’t mind to be old fashioned and take care of my man but I can still have some opinions and make some of my own choices… Eventually I tried to get away from Jake and the punishment started!!! I became stuck in this cycle and dated two more emotionally abusive men. VERY CRITICAL of me and manipulative…. I became even more sensitive and pliable. By my third relationship, with my ex Andrew, I’m at his feet worshiping and kissing his butt so hard he walks all over my feelings and doesn’t bat an eye 😭😭😭 Months and months of him being totally selfish and subtly disrespectful. Not always saying “noticeably mean things” but his undertones AND his actions making me feel constantly stupid and unloved.

At some point, someone on Twitter who wouldn’t reveal to me who they were, (I believe it was Jake but wasn’t for sure) This person started out tweeting me how they still had feelings for me but eventually it turned into “you’re too fragile” and “how dare you think of yourself as a woman from the 50s”. They called me a “racist”, a “bigot” and a “homophobic”… It hurt me as I didn’t know why I deserved continous criticism AND what’s so bad about being a woman who wants a man to lead her??????

I finally have enough of Andrew’s hurtful words and actions so I walk away but I don’t fully understand. I meet my new man and he’s the nicest guy I’ve ever met. He accepts me but overtime, he gets to enjoy my outlook on the “relationship dynamics”. I wait on him, cook and clean but feel somewhat dependable on him and began to hate it. My mom says to me “don’t you dare make your husband think you’re solely dependent on his paychecks.” wow… what about my WHOLE childhood?? I realize as my mom talks stern with me that I had sorta misinterpreted the relationship dynamics growing up. Yes, my mom did a lot for my dad and yes he was the sole provider with the money but my mom is no push over and neither is my dad. They’re not perfect with each other but try to respect each other and BOTH share opinions even when they disagree.

NOW I’m finally seeing love and life through different eyes. I can still be a loving wife who takes care of my husband and our household BUT whenever a situation seems unfair, I’m more apt to speak up now yet I try to remain nice becuase I stil carry the belief “You treat people how you want them to treat you.” No, you can’t be responsible for other’s actions or words, you can only control your own but still stand up for yourself.

I didn’t use to understand standing up for myself always, I just took all the criticism from men thinking they were right about me and I was “pathetic” and I was so suicidal thinking why wasn’t I good enough… I was too depending on those men and not learning how to be on my own. I’m slowly changing my mind and points of view but I STILL want to be a loving and caring person. Plus I want to be a good wife 🙏🏻

ONE DAY AT A TIME ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[petrichor-tighzyno]

I've seen the other asks about this, and the answers, but I am also still just... trying to figure out exactly how t/b plays into sfw content so I can apply appropriately. I understand that certain tropes are applied to art (ie; making cyno more 'masculine' and therfore making it 'cynonari') but with writing it is more complicated.

You are welcoming t/b neutral content made with the intent of being that way, but then say you will reject content that comes off as "cynonari". Based on your descriptions of what lind of content this can be, this seems to be portraying cyno as the 'caregiver' or putting him in a roll of 'taking care of tighnari', thereby implying that tops cant uh... seek comfort? I guess? Or that bottoms can't be the ones taking care of someone else???

What tropes are associated with t/b in sfw content is heavily subjective and I worry that what is 'neutral' to me, in my work, maybe be perceived as one dynamic that isn't intended. Like, seeing cyno as a caregiver doesn't make him a 'top' for me, it just makes him a loving partner in my eyes, and that has nothing to do with t/b in my opinion.

Of course, everyone is differnt, and this is why I'm confused. If we are allowed to submit neutral content, do we need to make sure that it doesn't hit those notes that you previously used as an example? Because in my sfw content intended to be read either way, I have them mutually take care of each other at different times, and I don't want my work to be tossed out as as "being cynonari" when it isn't, and due to being unsure exactly what it is that you are looking for. 😭

I'm just trying to figure out what to submit within the zine guidelines because to me all my work is neutral, but based on what you described, it may not be.

The judgement of zine applications is entirely subjective. Any artists/writers we decide not to include isn't a reflection on the work as a whole but rather the way it fits into the zine. It is inevitable that not every work will make it into the zine as that is the nature of these projects.

If you feel like your work is dynamic neutral, feel free to submit. If we don't like the themes or decide not to invite you, it is not a reflection on you or your work.

As for the specifics, I've already explained the reasons behind the dynamic choice for our zine (it's for our community), and if the explainations still don't make sense, it's because these are observations and preferences from our community, but I will try to explain it further.

TighCyno subverts many of the common tropes seen in CnNr works, in which Cyno and Tighnari are often shoehorned into specific roles. Hyper-masculinizing Cyno and hyper-feminizing Tighnari (as a note, we as a mod team also dislike it when people hyper-feminize Cyno and hyper-masculinize Tighnari, even in tcn works), for example, is common and something we all dislike. Also depictions of Tighnari are emotionally distant, while not specific to CnNr, are more common within that dynamic. The distinction of caregiving was made as an example and not a strict rule. As long as you don’t play into very common tropes that portray Cyno as dominant and Tighnari as submissive-- which yes, exist even in a SFW context.

If you're still confused about how this exists in SFW content, I urge you to look into other popular m/m Genshin ships in which this split is even more previlant, such as Childe and Zhongli & Alhaitham and Kaveh.

[jiminiesfavouritecolourisblue]

hi darling can I just say your writing is awesome like I love it so much and ik you must be busy but can I ask if you are gonna write anymore split au’s because I honestly love them (may or may not have read them 4 times but you don’t need to know that). It’s alright if you can’t tho anyways have a great day please cause you deserve it and stay hydrated love 🥺❤️

Okay so by split au do we mean like ex lovers or split like the movie split because for a second I was confused af 😂😂 (never watched the movie nor do I have a fic of that kind but actually have an idea in my ideas folder that’s Yandere but very very early on) believe it or not I actually have three ex lover aus in the works that I’ve started or written the middle of so maybe soon… sooner than we think because it’s all I seem to want to write recently 🤔

Thank you for calling my writing awesome 💜 for that I shall give you some information on the Drabble I am working on with the aforementioned genre 🧐😝 it stars Kim Taehyung and it’s called Happy without me 😬 and that’s all I shall tease you with for now, it’s been in my WIP folder for months MONTHS I TELL YOU MONTHS

Maybe this was the kick up the backside I needed to work on it

[cebwrites]

Hellooooo dear! I was wondering if you'd be okay with doing some nsfw O-Kiku thoughts for me? (*/ω＼*) What would she look for in a partner, what would she like in bed, are there any kinks you think she'd have? Many thanks if you decide to do it. ;u;!!!

Kiku-chan my babygiiiiirl!! This ended up being much softer than intended omg 🙈😭💕 Thank you for the ask Bee, I had lots of fun with this <33

N/SFW headcanons (Kiku)

gn reader, lots of fluff under the cut word count: 0.4k

I feel like she’s the kind of person who wouldn’t oppose taking charge, but at the same time leaving the reigns up to someone else is such an act of trust and love that she enjoys being in a submissive role just a little bit more

She’ll top you like a champ though, with praise and body worship and everything, don’t even worry about it

Kiku deserves to be spoiled, she would secretly like her partner to do so but doesn't really vocalize it because she’s too busy spoiling you instead, this is something you’ve gotta work on with her (give this lady the love she is OWED 😤)

As far as kinks go: handcuffs and rope, either you or her, but not full-body binding - if you’d like to try shibari with Kiku, it’s something the both of you have to work towards; again, it’s about trust

Kiku also adores watching your expressions change as she slowly opens you up, be it with a toy, her fingers, or herself - you’re such a good partner to her, and she will tell you all about it as she’s doing this

She’s a little bit shy about having you go down on her, but once Kiku gets into it she’ll be holding your hand, your head locked between her legs, chanting your name like a sacred offering to the moon goddess

Of course, she’ll return the favor with the same reverence, your name being carried by her soft giggles like chimes in the wind overshadowed by your sweet moans of hers as Kiku brings you to the height of pleasure

Kiku flusters extremely easily with any mention or play with her cum, though, especially if you slowly pull off her cock after she finishes and show her that sticky white cream on your tongue

She’s an absolute aftercare queen - getting up to run a bath and then carrying you into it, scrubbing your back and gently washing your hair before the two of you soak in the tub and just u n w i n d for a little bit

If you’re okay with it, Kiku would love to do your makeup for you or put it on you for the first time - initially it starts out as just a comfort thing, she talks about how she used to help Izou with his makeup and vice versa before they went out to perform, but eventually it turns into something more, something tender that the both of you share

You’ll wake up some days cuddled close against the crook of her neck, lipstick smeared across both you, Kiku, and the sheets you shared, your gorgeous 9′5 girlfriend still fast asleep as morning light just barely starts streaming in

You feel like you understand what it’s like to be truly loved

[lutawolf]

Heyy Lovely Mrs. Queen Luta M’am,

Baby ADHD sub again! I was literally so happy when you responded to my last ask AND said I sounded like the iconic coconut mafia! 😭

I’m back again after reading another ask about Phayu/Rain and their acts of service plus you and your husband. I wanted to ask if (in general or for you or just as recommendation for my crazy brain) how you kind of grow into those daily routines. I feel like I’d benefit a lot from not having to make certain decisions like picking my clothes due to my anxiety and overthinking, but I’m also incredibly picky at times so I’d just be unhappy if my dom picked something that I don’t feel was right that day. Does this just come with growing to know the person or would you say that’s part of really letting someone help make decisions for you? While I’m an incredibly sarcastic brat, I worry that someone would just get annoyed when I feel I’d get annoyed at things? And it’s not always specific things, like the act of cooking; it would be like me getting frustrated not having an ingredient then spiraling and getting pissy as a whole. I don’t know if this all made sense, but I’d still love to hear your thought (as always) on whatever you could understand of my rambles. Thanks!!!! 💙

P. S. you and your husband sound really cute together 🥰

Hey Hey sub baby!!!

You really do sound like a coconuts mafia. 🤣

Honestly a sub wants to please their Dom. It's a natural inclination to the point of checking in or they get anxious. If you are concerned that you may get irritated with a decision the Dom has made, then a lifestyle D/s relationship might not be for you. What I'm about to say might sound harsh but I want you to be happy so I'm going to keep it blunt and real.

Lifestyle isn't for everyone. It means being D/s, having control or giving up control 24/7 and some people only want to do this for short periods of time. Which is fine but that would make you more of a scene D/s. In which you have complete control or give up complete control for a short period of time.

You really need to take time to figure yourself out and what you want before you even approach a Dom. It's okay to have questions but it's not okay to figure it out on someone else. Being a Dom doesn't equate to being an asshole. We have feelings too and we are always thinking of yours. You've heard of bad Doms but there can be bad submissives. You'll hear some subs go, "my Dom didn't teach me." Is that right or you didn't want to do it and you didn't take the time to listen. Lifestyle takes just as much time and effort on a sub's part as it does the Dom's. If I say, pick out two outfits and then ask me and I hear from you the day of and then we are figuring things out. Well you didn't really listen did you? You didn't communicate did you? There is a lot that goes into lifestyle and it's not just the Dom that has to put the work in. If you're not willing to give your full effort...

A lot of times a scene sub or vanilla will ghost a Dom because they can't handle it. They can't handle that there are times we will ask you for something that you might not like. To test you. Again, we aren't assholes. If you communicate your feelings, we'll talk it over. The issue is sometimes we are going to override just to see if you're able to do it and how serious we mean to you. Take Payu having Rain sit there for hours. Sometimes it's to see if you will communicate. If you're paying attention. If my praise and willingness to reward is more important to you than a minor irritation. The key to a lifestyle is communication, a willingness to ask questions before you hit uncertainty. It's a lot of work and we will test you to see if you will do it. Then we get to a point where it's better because you've communicated.

My husband might say, "hun, I really don't want to wear this because it feels kind of itchy." Before I might have told him tough shit just to see if what was more important to him but now. I'll pick him out something else because I don't want him uncomfortable all day. Not in this area at least, lol.

The lifestyle is only rewarding for those that have a mindset that it works with. It's hard work even then but the rewards far outweigh at least to us they do. Hope this was helpful 💜💜💜