#I should just kms if everyone hates me sm

[thegirlwholivesin-delusion]

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[subaquatic0mess]

I now present Heather and Noah being the iconic duo we were robbed of in Island hating on everyone. (I love them sm!!!!)

Heather: I hate Harold sm he should disappear

Noah: Every time he talks to me I want to kms

Noah: I hate that stupid eel sm how can somebody be so arrogant

Heather: I know! I wish I could have thrown him in the volcano myself

Heather: Duncan is so annoying how can anyone like that jerk

Noah: He really has no redeeming qualities

Noah: I can't stand Justin he is so insufferable I hate him sm

Heather: He reminds me of the mannequins you see at the mall. He just stands there.

Heather: You know who I cannot stand? Pasty. She was so annoying in island

Noah: Wasn't she the new Heather?

Heather: She's not deserving of that title

Heather: Thoughts on Lindsiot?

Noah: Honestly I thought she was pretending to be dumb at first but she really is stupid

Heather: I'm still mad about the dare she gave me on island. I was robbed of the million!!

Noah: How about Lightning?

Heather: Sha-idiot.

[flowerkcal]

haha vnet

oh god what the hell should o do im fucked i ruined everything in my life and i wont ever get happy and everyone is going to leave me and im a burden to everyone and when i tell them im sad its just to make them feel sorry for me im such a horrible person why do people even talk to me im so awful i absolutely hate myself how can a human being be so fucking stupid and selfish and acutally just fucked up. literally my whole life is ruined already it started when i was a kid im literally only growing up im not even an adult why is everything so fucked i cant make it past 25 if it contiunes like this im acutally so dead how is this all even possible i hope they text me i miss them i absolitely fucked our friendship im the worst friend ever its all my fault how can i even look in the mirror i dont even deserve to have friends this is so messed up i dont want to be like this how can i change i feel so bad about myself im so pittyfull how can i live like this im so tired of this shit i bet they hate me im absolutely just like my father im so narcicistic and i dont care about other peopoe everaything i do is just to justify my selfish actions im acutally such a horribel person i need to drink i need to forget all of this i literally need alcohol like literally give me a bottle of vodka ill ex that literlly please i need it im so horrible i know all of this is hurting me this is so bad why dont i like myself why am i not dead alreasdy i cant even kms the right way im such a pussy this is absolute disgusting im disgusting i hate myself i hope they dont seee me the way i see myself im so annoying ihope no one ever talks to me again please they called me dramatic im actually so fuckign dramatic why am i like this ii cant do this someone fucking save me im literlly so fucked i hate this i hate everyting im so tired of this bullshit there is nothing good about this shithole of a fucking world everyone hates me i really dont deserve all of this my life is over i cant continue like this i lterally hate all of this sm im so disgusting i cant even live the right way i have/had sm addichtions im not even an adult i hate myself this is so horrible pelase someone just shut me up but plwase dont hate me i acttualy need you like dont leave me alone please tect me i need you i cant to do this on my own its absolutely terrrible im an awful friend and i cant continue like this im so horrible i cant to this anymore i hate myself i hate myself why do they hate my please dont hate me please pelas efor the love of god im crying please dont leave me

[cemetereyes]

evolution of me snowballing into isolation lmao

ok i used to cry like every day bc i just wanted a bf sm and then i got one and i loved him and he broke up w me yknow as they do that's normal and not traumatic and then i like was SO SAD and just wanted one again like back to the same old level of instability it was eh ok i mean suicidally lonely is the standard of normal here lmao. and then i started seein this guy and he was just v into sex and we were never official and we never had sex like all the way ok and then he broke it off and then i mean i was still v incredibly longing for love but also now i had this terrible complex abt the fact that i should have fucked him and i didn't and i'll never get another chance and virginity is gross gross gross disgusting i wanna set myself on fire it's the dirtiest thing so that was also a drive for my ljke longing of relationships and THEN everyone in my life like lost their virginities i mean we're like 16 so it's like A NORMAL INSECURITY but i was like oh actually this is fucking disgusting it's gross i hate that people i know like .... have sexual urges its gross i hate that they've been touched and like it got to a point where this v toxic friend i had had sex and i couldn't sleep or listen to like any song on the radio bc they're all sexual and it made me wanna just pour acid in my eyes lmao so i think bc she did it it's like disgusting to me forever like she did molly and now i don't even drink caffeine bc it's a drug and everything she does is so disgusting to me. anyway so then a disgusted by sex not only the act but as like.. like the primal ass feelings it invokes are disgusting. and NOW i'm feeling myself like being repulsed by love as a whole like it's for weak people and it's driven by sex and it clouds your mind and it makes you weak and it's foolish and it makes me SO SAD BC THE ONLY REASON I DIDNY KMS WAS THE PROMISE OF LOVE LOL and now i can feel myself wanna vomit at every single relationship post i see but i still have the virginity complex so now i'm a person who wants to just kill herself everhday bc of this INCREDIBLE OVERBEARING INSECURITY in virginity but also i'm disgusted by relationships and sex and touching at all so there's no way to fix it my life is hell hell hell