#I say that as I pressure myself😎😎

[chukys-mouthguard]

what are the odds? | part 5

matt rempe x female reader; featuring numerous side characters

social media au!

part 4

your.name.here

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your.name.here what the cake says 💋

alleyrempe booking a flight and flying in asap

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user41048 wait what?! They were just together in Calgary and seemed good?! 😭😭😭

-> user62048 if they can’t last then i give up 🥲

addison.clark nothing some cake and wine can’t fix 😘

-> your.name.here more like lots of cake and wine

-> francesca.kreider i know a jacket we could burn 🙈

-> francesca.kreider but apparently chris said he gave the boy a talking to

-> addison.clark k’andre called him immediately lol, the boys aren’t letting him fuck this up

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-> your.name.here well maybe we don’t burn the jacket then just yet 😬

user31048 WHAT. HAPPENED?!

-> user63048 no clue because they were just at stampede…but seems like he did something

-> user63048 and kreider and k’andre are trying to help fix it lol

tybauer_ he says he’s sorry

-> your.name.here well he can tell me himself if that’s the case

mattrempe if you’d answer my texts and calls i could apologize

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mattrempe I’m sorry 😞

user20549 what did he do????

-> user52048 i don’t think it was something with another girl

-> user10459 it’s probably just been the pressure of the public on their relationship making them uncomfortable or something

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user07493 can she let him apologize so they can fix things? They look so happy together 😭

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mattrempe

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mattrempe hockey boy summer 😎

alleyrempe matthew rempe…the caption, really?

-> mattrempe i thought it was funny…

-> alleyrempe not with the shit you’ve got going on right now, it seems a bit like a dig

-> mattrempe let me get my shovel to get myself outta this hole 🫠

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user40275 soooo they aren’t together??

-> user10489 he says the caption was a joke, but it appears like a response to her post 😬

-> user70248 big yikes…

trevorzegras let me know if you ever want to pass along a few inches so i don’t look so damn short next to you big fella 😎

-> mattrempe i like my inches where they’re at 😎

chris.kreider dude, k’andre and I are gonna beat your ass

-> kandre.miller i like to think it’s one too many punches to the head that have him acting this way but…

-> mattrempe the caption was a joke! I’m sorry! 🙃

user20458 i feel like it’s something serious if they are all giving him so much shit…

-> user10383 did we all forget he’s literally 22? Like he probably did something dumb and they are just trying to help him fix what he had with her

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-> user10348 they probably see she’s good for him and just want him to fix it, i don’t think it was something bad

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your.name.here hockey boy summer must be real fun without me cheering you on

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your.name.here can you take a break from hockey boy summer for 5 minutes to talk??

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[theic-manic]

Praise Apollo and Hermes ☀️🪽

Me and my paternal family experience barometric pressure sickness.

So yesterday when I received an email alert for a massive fluctuation, I start mentally preparing myself for my date and sleepover with my partner to be ruined.

Meanwhile, one cousin posts about experiencing massive ADHD executive dysfunction while her son is sent home with a headache and nose bleeds thanks to this pressure change.

However, while I am sitting in the sun at the park with my partner, I see a Raven approach us.

My partner had been telling me how the public transport had been eerily efficient (thanks Hermes) as it approached.

I mentally say "hi Apollo" to the Raven before we leave.

And by the grace of Apollo I did not experience ANY barometric pressure sickness despite the fact I cop massive migraines during fluctuations of a lesser severity.

Apollo and Hermes by patron wing-men 😎❤️🪽☀️

[babyvivi]

Blankie fort serious bidnus talk time ✨😁

I just wanna say that I really like being able to be little so much on here... it makes me feel so good knowing that I can just do that and not feel ashamed or anything for it. I normally have issues getting into little space in real life, but with how much positivity I get from everyone liking my posts, it makes it really easy to feel like im being a good girl :)

But I do exist as a big girl tooooo... so I think for the next week I might lean into that a bit more and see how you all like that. To be honest I kind of was seeking a lot of ✨attention✨ on my first week here because I wanted to see what it would be like, and how well I could do, and as far as I can tell, I did at least ok 😎

But I might slow it down a bit, I mostly want to make this blog all about me and my experience with being little, which is just me relaxing and being cute & me enjoying time with my girlfriend/mommy 🥰💕💖

the more explicit things might be less frequent for a bit, that's not really how I am often, and I like to be genuine to myself. Not to say it'll never happen again, just on my own pace, with no pressure from anyone else 💕

[crazylittlejester]

A warriors…meets…cia again fic???

hold up lemme just—-

😎

😳🕶️🤏

he is only ten years old jes. Devastating. (*adds it to my future a03 bedtime stories to-read later*)

it was like a four word prompt sent in by an anon that’s grown into a huge multi chapter thing because I didn’t expect it to get as long as it has and now I’m realizing I have to break it up into chapters 😭 I’ve literally been working on it for like… five months, poor Mandarin Wars Anon has had to deal with my dumb ass getting too carried away with things and I’m so grateful for their patience 😭 It’s been scrapped and completely rewritten at MINIMUM like six times now, the plot has been COMPLETELY changed, it’s been a wild ride 😭 I’m sticking it in my ‘You’re A Part Of Me’ series which has been a bit fun because i get to drag little elements from past fics in that series into this one. small enough things that someone who hasn’t read the series won’t feel like theyre missing something but people who HAVE might recognize the reference

the plot has sort of turned into a murder mystery almost… im losing my mind, genuinely, i’ve put so much time into this fic

it’s also something i’ve been struggling with the rating on for months, because while I do not write explicit things (because that is my personal preference), the themes are a bit heavy, and because of that I decided I’ll be raising the rating to M. Which has also just allowed me to add in other things unrelated to the initial reason I was worrying over the rating and not worry about thinking “is this too violent-“. A while ago I considered writing two versions of the fic because I know a lot of people who’d been following me back when I got that prompt in the first place were really really excited about it, but that’s a lot of editing and I’m not sure how many people are still that into it 😭 So i’ll probably do a poll or make a post or SOMETHING to see if people would want a T rated version, if enough people do I’ll edit the fic

to be so so clear tho: the main reason this fic is going to be rated M is because of heavy themes, heavy discussions, and trauma related to a past event, i just wanted to play it safe. since deciding i was going to rate it higher, ive allowed myself to throw in more detailed descriptions of violence and nightmares and shit like that. and the main part of the fic that made me first think i should bump the rating up is going to have like *** in the text before and after it so people can just skip that if they want, cos if I’m gonna write a fic about trauma, then i’m gonna write a fic about trauma. and this is my free therapy so 🕺🕺🕺

anyways, i don’t wanna say it because i feel like then it’s just not gonna happen, but I’m hoping and PRAYING i can post the first chapter when Mandarin Wars Anon gets back 😭 fingers fuckin crossed. AND THE FIC ACTUALLY HAS A NAME NOW, WHICH IS FUCKING CRAZY AFTER FIVE MONTHS OF JUST CALLING IT “Mandarin Wars Anon’s Fic”

also i’ve been debating letting Time just go absolutely batshit towards the end of this fic because he kinda deserves it, as a little treat, yknow?

i really hope it lives up to the expectations🧍‍♂️ ive felt a lot of pressure while working on this cos so many people have gotten excited for it and im a BIT worried its just going to absolutely suck, so if i drop it and disappear off the face of the earth for a bit its because the anxiety ate me alive

[starsurface]

Hii can I request Regressor Liu Kang (MK 11) with Raiden (MK 1) if that's okay I live the idea of bending timeliness and cannon to see different versions of the characters interact ♡☆

Also hope you're doing well with all these requests they're all so fun but remember to take care of yourself

Hi!!! Making Hcs is really fun, but I'll make sure that I take care of myself!!! Promise!! <3

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

CG Raiden MK1 w/ Regressor Liu Kang MK11 Hcs

🌩 I think they’d be really good friends!! :D

❤️‍🔥 Both boys bond over the pressure of being Champion, and their best friend being super awesome 😎 (and a bit chaotic)

🌩 When Raiden learns of Liu Kang’s regression, they were training and Liu Kang hit the ground a bit too hard and regressed on spot

❤️‍🔥 Raiden was very gentle about it, and got him to the infirmary very quickly

🌩 Liu Kang got a sucker and a pretty bandaid that he showed off to all his new friends (even if he wasn’t that hurt)

❤️‍🔥 Raiden is a bit more of a babysitter (the whole two different universe problem), but adores watching Little Liu Kang and does so regularly

🌩 And Liu Kang also really likes if when Raiden watches him!! 

❤️‍🔥 Liu Kang acts like a good rule follower, especially around Lord Raiden and Kitana

🌩 He has to be good!! Kung Lao’s the one that’s a patient tester, and Liu Kang doesn’t want to be sent to timeout

❤️‍🔥 But after a few babysits, he starts acting a bit naughty

🌩 Raiden isn’t his Lord Raiden, so he can’t get him into tooooooo much trouble . . . right?

❤️‍🔥 Right actually!! Raiden will put his foot down on somethings, or catch Liu Kang in the middle of being naughty, but he usually goes with the flow

🌩 It makes Liu Kang really happy because usually he’s gotta follow all these rules and now he gets to be a little carefree

❤️‍🔥 A few stomps and whines before bedtime? Raiden will let him stay up a little bit if he wants!! (Liu Kang will clock out in two minutes anyway, silly baby)

🌩 However, if Liu Kang tries to push his meal off the table, Raiden will set his foot down because Liu Kang will make a mess and Raiden will make him clean it up

❤️‍🔥 Liu Kang also likes that he doesn’t get a timeout for acting ‘naughty’, 

🌩 Sometimes Liu Kang runs directly to Raiden, stressed about the outcomes of the tournament and the training he still has to do

❤️‍🔥 Raiden will gently hold him, coeing softly when Liu Kang regresses very tiny

🌩 Luckily Raiden works well with baby regressors, and vent baby regressors

❤️‍🔥 Sometimes Liu kang needs padding with how tiny he regresses, which he is NOT a happy camper about

🌩 However, Raiden uses padding himself, and works with a bunch of other littles that need padding!!

❤️‍🔥 So he tries to reassure Raiden that using padding is ay-okay, and there’s no reason to be ashamed or embarrassed about it

🌩 And, anyone who tries to say otherwise gets a big scolding, and most likely a timeout!! :O

❤️‍🔥 Raiden’s nickname is Rai or Rai Rai

🌩 Dada or Grandpa is reserved for his Lord Raiden . . . although baby Liu Kang has slipped up a few times and called him Dada, but they never really talk about it

❤️‍🔥 Liu Kang’s nicknames are Tough Guy, Little One, Munchkin, Sweetheart, Baby Boy, Little Guy

🌩 One time Raiden called Liu Kang a brat when he was being naughty, and it caused Liu Kang to start bawling

❤️‍🔥 He didn’t mean to be a brat! He was good, he was still good! Raiden didn’t have to call him that, he can still be good

🌩 Raiden gently shushed and apoligized, explaining to the boy that he didn’t mean it meanly, sometimes he calls Kung Lao a brat and he giggles, but if Liu Kang didn’t like it then he wouldn’t call him it

❤️‍🔥 When Liu Kang’s a bit bigger, he really likes play wrestling and running around outside

🌩 Raiden will play with him, rolling around with him and letting Liu Kang put him into a soft headlock

❤️‍🔥 ^ Usually Liu Kang has to be careful while wrestling because sometimes his strength is a bit too much, but Raiden makes sure that he can have fun!!

🌩 What’s better than grass cuddles afterwards!! :D

❤️‍🔥 Lazing in the sun with a cute little baby in his arms, no care of being Champion in the world <3

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

I think these two would be good friends!! I like cross universes, they're fun to do . . . Unless they're difficult, but most times they're fun!! :D

[thegamingcatmom]

Would the sisters know when MC is about to get her period? And how would they deal with it? Like as vampires would the blood bother them for example, or make them feel hungry(hope not yikes) or make them uncomfortable? Uncomfortable bc I think that kind of blood doesnt have the same scent as fresh blood from another source. What if MC got unbearable pain for a couple days with fever and such so she had to be on bed? (Maybe projecting myself there, is terrible) I have a feeling they would spoil her to no end after the panic fades away, perhaps Carmen would need to intervene, we can call it Divine intervention 😂😅

Would the sisters know when MC is about to get her period?

Yes. Defo. 100%.

I´ve made a post about this quite a while ago actually (I´d search my blog but...am too lazy atm tbh 😅). Basically, it´s all about those subtle changes that occur in and with the female body just before period hits. Yknow, things like-

hormonal shifts (estrogen levels and all that stuff)

release of pheromones (due to the hormonal shifts)

physical changes (bloating, tenderness, cramps)

mood swings (those are dangerous)

etc.

While mood swings are a dead giveaway, stuff like hormonal shifts isn't as obvious. At least not to your typical human. Meaning:

They can smell it. They can smell any changes occuring in- and outside MC´s body. They´ll probs know she´s about to bleed long before she does.

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How would they deal with it?

I don´t think it would make them uncomfortable in the sense of making them hungry. They got centuries of experience when it comes to dealing with their bloodlust, so I think MC´s quite safe there, lol.

However, I can´t imagine that, in all their years, there hasn´t been an opportunity for them to get a taste. For a vampire, there´s gotta be some curiosity whether there´s any difference to their "usual" source. So I think the sisters very likely gave into their curiosity at some point. Especially during their Succubus phase in which they pretty much acted like horny teenagers 24/7. (Good times. When we leave out the why...)

Also, perhaps it works as some kind of...nutritional supplement? For some vamps? Like, I don´t think they could sustain themselves SOLELY on that type of blood. It´s just entirely different in composition, and the amount they´d get from it pales in comparison to their usual food source. Let´s also not forget the fact that it´s only available for a limited amount of time, then they´d have to wait for a new cycle to begin, literally lol. It´s just a very taxing way of getting blood because you constantly have to be on the move to get that good stuff before it runs out again. Can you imagine the pressure?? 🤯

Right, to get back to the sisters:

I don´t think it would bother them. On the contrary:

The need to be close to MC would probs increase tenfold because something about the way she smells is just so...addicting? But also kinda soothing?? Like you said, the smell is probs different because there´s other stuff mixed in that blood as well, so I´d like to think the experience wouldn´t be as intense for a vampire. It´s more like a cat getting a healthy dose of catnip I´d say:

The sisters just wanna bury themselves into MC, rub themselves in all that is their mate whilst purring aggressively, only to flop over and cease to function for a while. It´s like a drug. 😅

(Yes, that stick is MC. And there ain´t no way they gonna let her go anytime soon. And yes, they might also try to lick-)

Also, their protective instincts would go through the roof because of all those hormonal/pheromone changes. In the animal kingdom, lots of the communication happens through that stuff. Vampires are more on the animal side of the spectrum imo, so the need to defend what is theirs might be stronger than usual.

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What if MC got unbearable pain for a couple days with fever and such so she had to be on bed?

(I feel that. Luckily for me, I only gotta deal with that crap twice a year. ✌️😎)

Right, as I said previously, there ain´t no way they´re gonna leave MC´s side if there´s no need for it (like to go hunting). Especially not if their fragile hooman is in pain. No power on earth could tear them away from her while she´s in that state. In fact, they might even cease to take care of themselves-

Carmen: "You need to feed, my loves."

The Sisters: *refuse to even acknowledge her presence*

Carmen, realizes she needs to get out the big guns: "For her."

The Sisters: *reluctantly lift their gazes from a sleeping MC to share a look, only to realize all the gold has indeed been swallowed by darkness*

The Sisters: *turn to regard Carmen*

Carmen: *has that I told you so look on her face*

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LIKE, YKNOW???

I mean, they very likely would have thought to go hunting before that period hits. Especially because they´re aware of its presence before it´s even there. So, a scenario like that probs won´t happen unless the sisters weren´t able to hunt for some reason. BUT STILL-

It´s just so ugh to imagine, ain´t it?? 😩🤌

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So yes, there´s defo gonna be lots of pampering and spoiling to no end. Anything MC desires shall be hers. In fact-

They´re a bit too overzealous. Bringing MC stuff that she didn´t even know existed. (They purchased it for that exact scenario.) Like, all MC wants is some chocolate, perhaps a heating pad and her wives showering her with their love. Which means lots of cuddles and kisses.

And what does she get instead?

Literally anything else because the only time the sisters aren´t on the move is when MC is asleep. Thus, they´re never stopping, always searching for something to get her and make her feel better-

Enter: The Divine Intervention

(I fucking love that btw.)

Carmen´s gonna have that look, yknow? The one that says how utterly charming she finds the attempts that have been made, but also *affectionate* wtf are you even doing, you fools? Like, yknow, she´s gonna go all "Oh, honey..." on them.

In other words: Carmen becomes (even more) Momma.

She´s gonna bring MC that chocolate and a heating pad, she´s gonna give her the biggest hug and a kiss on the forehead, and then she will proceed to fluff up that pillow, tuck in that blanket nice and tight, basically turning MC into a burrito-

And MC? Finally at peace, in heaven even. Can´t contain her sigh of utter relief and satisfaction. This is the shit-

...And the sisters?

...

What can I say? It´s the simple things, sometimes. 🤷‍♀️

The sisters will get it. Eventually.

...Perhaps.

LISTEN-

Only the best is good enough for their darling mate, aight?? Don´t judge them. 😭

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Thanks a lot for your ask! 💋

[gender-bro-im-not-even-human]

Hihi! Questions! Doing you first, so correct me if i use wrong terms. :3

Wanna say this is specifically for alterhuman/therians/nonhumans, not fiction kins!! I want to do a general information gather on alterhuman / therians / nonhumans :3

Since im trying to gather general information, please keep answers general to its easier to plot a pie chart or something

Dont feel pressured to answer all of these! Pick and choose! Gonna try to keep this pretty smal so i dont have to sort through hundreds of peoples answers. I should probably make this a form lmao...

What are/is your type(s?)

If you experience phantom sensations, which do you feel like most?

What part do you enjoy the most and hate the most of being an alterhuman/nonhuman/therian?

When did you first realize the term applied to you?

Why do you think you are an alterhuman/therian/nonhumans?

This one is optional, but do you have any mental health issues (like depression), are you autistic, and what age are you / were you when you realized you are a alterhuman/therian/nonhumans. (Again this is optional! Just want to see if certain groups of people are more likely to be an alterhuman/therian/nonhumans)

Also evil i have it set up like this so i can copy paste 😼❤

idfk how to make tjis go away so plz ignore😼😼

1. I am a snow bengal cat, blue jay, fluffy calico cat, eldritch kin, border collie, and a fiction kin of two characters but yk who they are already :3

2. Wings all the time UGH I hat and love them. Also ears and tails. Also eyes. Many eyes. They are annoying :( only shift I don’t like

3. Dysphoria is 👎👎👎 100% the worst part. Shifts can also be pretty annoying especially because I can’t manage to control most of them so 80% of the time I am creechur which can be pretty annoying especially in public places. There’s also a lot of misinfo and hate spread in the community. Like stop policing my identity bruh I am a creechur now shush

4. When I first found it 3 years ago :) January 31st will make it 4 years of knowing I was Alterhuman!! Although I did not dig deep and actually accept the fact I was truly not human and actually dig deep until last year

5. Past life but when regular humans ask I just say I’m a creechur just because I am and I see myself as not human in most ways. I am being perceived as human but I’m,,, not? I don’t know it’s confusing even to me-

6. Depression, anxiety, adhd, and possibly autism. I most likely am according to my autistic friends 😎

[blueberry-gills]

//Crashes into the party. Hi. I'm here with my poll for the follower event!

Again, this probably won't happen until later. Late April at least. But if I figure out what the people want I can better prepare myself you know

Currently, I have four event ideas! Two of which are light-hearted, 1-day long blog takeover-type events. It'd be similar to what I did with Susanne and 50 followers, but it probably won't be her again! And like she's already got a blog and everything so

The other two are multiday (2 day min, like 2.5 day max) events that have more lore, writing on behalf of me, and overall effort. Gill will get put in the emotional and physical pressure cooker, and itd offer a better look into her mind(?) and those juicy juicy character details that I'm too scared to lore dump about. 😎👍 not to say the other events won't have that sort of stuff! Either way Gill is going to mildly suffer I think/silly

Here you go!!

Okay NOW back to angst and ask games KAHFAKGD

[ashtonsunshine]

hey carmo!! i'm wondering if i can ask you maybe a couple questions/for advice as someone who's on other social medias than just tumblr? (to which i have to say 1) you're so pretty omg and 2) congrats on ashton retweeting you and liking your poster) i've been off basically all my other socials for about a year now and i'm realising i'm much more able to be myself on here without the expectations of all the people i still have on my socials from school and uni and every part of my life, and showing this side of myself on say, instagram, is kinda terrifying me, but at the same time it's important to me to push through this and get to the point i can be more genuine on there, i know it'll feel good when whoever still follows me knows a version of me that isn't as fake and highly masking as i've been for most of my life.

kinda pressuring myself on this rn too because i've gone and made a parody of red line that's about protesting genocide and i know if i post it there's a nonzero chance ashton will see it and if he sees it he will absolutely love it but i've never posted any of my music online before and i've also never sung anything in public either. and these are just things that are scary but i can get through them, but in the meantime i did want to ask, how do you do it, how do you decide what to post on there vs here, etc, if you're willing to answer at all? anyway thank you so much <3

Hello! 😊

Thank you so much! That's very nice of you. 💛

I've been on Tumblr for so long now and I'm pretty sure that people on here who follow me from the beginning can attest to the fact that I'm not the same person I was back then. I've grown a lot here. More confident. More outwards. More free. More unashamedly me.

Back then, there were no relatives on my Instagram, which made it easy for me to just do whatever I wanted. I've always been very careful in keeping family away from me online (hence Tumblr) because, as you said, expectations. That's why my Facebook is dead. All of them are on there. I was never afraid of my friends or uni colleagues. At 23, I had stopped caring in a way. I just wanted to be me, but it still didn't come naturally. I was still in my shell and afraid of what people would think, but I kept posting photos I liked that I wasn't ashamed of.

However, as the years went by, relatives started migrating onto Instagram, and I couldn't just block them (I mean, I could, but, ya know, interrogation would follow), so I just let it happen. I did block them from seeing my stories, though, so I still have some total relative-free freedom on there. Now they comment on my pics online and irl and they just accept it. What are they going to do? Tell a (almost) 30 year old woman what to do? I don't think so. I'd tell them to fuck off. They know not to mess with me anymore. 🤣

I personally always used social media for the things and people I like, and not to please anyone but me. I created and upkept my own bubbly, happy and genuine bubble, and I love it and wouldn't trade it for anything. I'm still very awkward in person, though, but I'm embracing looking stupid and silly in order to be able to move on with my life. It's not easy, but we roll anyways. 😎

My point is: it takes time and a it's a constant effort. You don't need to go all out, just bit by bit. You'll reach a point where you don't care anymore. And if someone has anything unpleasant to say about you or what you like, then bye bye! You don't need them in your life. You said "whoever still follows me", and that's exactly it. Those who don't mind your quirks and genuinely like you will stay, and that's all that matters. Hell, they might even encourage you further! 😊

When it comes to what I post here vs anywhere else, it's simple. I have different standards for each. Tumblr is for fandom and for me to be silly and fun and weird and insanely unfiltered. Instagram is for me irl, so it's more curated (my photos, my art, be it 5SOS or not). And Twitter is for...., honestly, I don't know. The reason I still have Twitter is because Ashton follows me on there, so I have a higher chance of him seeing my stuff. My Twitter page is very quiet. My feed is basically updates from artists I like. I don't do the social on there because I've always been scared of Twitter fandom, ngl. 😅

I only started posting my art on Instagram and Twitter because I wanted 5SOS to see it, and it has paid off on various occasions, which made me very happy. So there is a chance he will see your song, but you have to tag him in it. That's what I do. That's how he saw my StyH poster.

My advice to you, and for anyone who's reading this, is to be yourself, and I don't mean that in a magical oh just be yourself kinda way. I mean it as be genuine in what you post, wherever and whatever it might be. Masking or not masking. If you post something you truly like and that you are truly fully comfortable with, then there's nothing to fear. If people leave, then they leave. It doesn't need to be grandiose. It can be something little for a start. A photo that you absolutely adore but think that people will find weird, for example.

For me, I've learnt over the years to just be. I'm living my life, and I'm not ashamed of what I like. I'm insignificant, so I'm just gonna exist my own way. I don't care anymore. If people think I'm crazy for liking a band so much, so be it. I'm not hurting anyone. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I kinda ramble a bit, but I hope it was helpful. 😚

[serpercival]

Dear tumblr-user serpercival,

it’s me, the guy who delivered 500 words of gushing about the Foxboy-Trapper-AU in your inbox a week ago (now not hiding behind anonymity anymore!). Told you about how it wouldn’t leave my brain, didn’t I? 

So. Question.: If we could pretend hypothetically that I had 2k of words of fanfiction about your fanfiction (generally the FBT-AU) sitting in my documents, would that be… ok? I remember a post of yours saying it’s fine if one plays in the sandbox, but I can’t find it anymore and I just maybe have started writing. Is there interest on your part in seeing that? Should I delete that thing? Tragically, it is a fake study on the “McIntyre-Method” that you mentioned oh-so-briefly in Professional Courtesy. It features graphs. And a questionnaire. 😎 yeah

Kindest regards and best wishes, Tigoteus

P.S.: I am as enthused about updates on Mating Habits as the next person, but don’t stress yourself!!! Writing is an art that needs time and consideration, your fic is beautiful, I hope you don’t feel pressured to update. This isn’t a race, we’ll be here when the chapter’s finished and if that takes time that’s fine. Anyways. Just wanted to say that. GREAT fic btw.

I WOULD LOVE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There's already one piece of fic out there written by someone who wasn't originally involved in the AU's creation so it's so so so so welcome. I'm especially vibrating about the idea of something formatted in a fun way, I eat that shit up 👀👀👀👀👀 If you put it on ao3 you'd be more than welcome to add it to the collection!

I don't feel pressured, no worries! I've mentioned it a few times but I have a truly awful creative writing class I'm taking this semester at school and I just want to upload something to get nice comments about it lmfao. There's even a pretty natural break point; I think restricting myself to only uploading when I have a section break is doing more harm than good with this particular part just because it's so much.

[leaves-of-laurelin]

Hiiiiii ! I absolutely love your fic Binary Light, it’s so well written and the plot is just so amazing I could die 🥹🥹 i was wondering whether you have it already written and have planned regular updates (like weekly for example) or whether you are simply going with the flow ? (I’m actually just wondering, not trying to pressure you or anything, only trying to mentally prepare and make myself be patient between updates haha)

Lots of love xxx

I’m a go with the flow kinda gal 😎

Thank you for all your kind words! They mean a lot and I’m glad you’ve been enjoying Binary Light. To answer your question more fully, I have big chunks of each future chapter written but the story as whole is not fully written. I’m generally able to post a chapter about once a week, but I don’t promise a schedule as writing is a hobby for me and not a job. My actual irl job was full of headaches this week, so I’m likely not going to get the next chapter up today, but as a consolation have an extra little snippet:

“I don’t know,” he moans, rubbing at his face. “I mean, Henry is hot. I guess. But he’s my co-star, so things could get weird. Also, until this, I was pretty sure he hated me.”

“But now you think he likes you?”

Alex sighs, sinking lower in his seat. “I have no idea.”

“He likes your dick, at least,” Nora says with a wry grin.

“Yeah,” Alex nods solemnly. “He definitely seemed to like my dick.”

“I’m ending this call,” June declares and Alex can see her reach for her laptop screen before Nora intercepts her arm.

[willkimurashat]

Tag Games

Thank you for tagging me @queen-of-boops 🥰🥰🥰

Name: AB

Your birthday: Feb 13

Where in the world are you? New England

When did you join tumblr? 2016ish I think?

Do you have any sideblogs? This is one of them lol😅 I don’t post anything on my og blog anymore, but I have all the sideblogs listed in my pinned post:)

Mobile or desktop? Mobile! Desktop only occasionally, when my phone dies lol

Your perfect sleeping conditions: Window is open, it’s late summer and a little chilly at night, around 65F, so I can cocoon myself in my soft blanket😌

A movie you think everyone should see at least once: Kill Bill because I just watched it for the first time a week ago and I already watched it twice since and I love it so much haha🙌

What shoes do you wear the most often? My high tops Converse💕

Describe your keys to me: Nothing special about them lol, I have a pop funko Niffler keychain with them😄

Find the book closest to you. Turn to page 7. What’s the 7th word? Space

What’s your favorite snack? Ooooh depends on the mood🤔 I’d say, can’t go wrong with Doritos or Pringles😋

One of your aspirations: Finish my masters degree to finally become a cool chick with a diploma😎

And finally, tell me a random fact about yourself: I graduated from music school that I went to for 8 years👀

Picrew: my Amelia from Beloved & Beloathed❤️

Tagging: @operationnope @libelle949 @crimswnred @mrsbsmooth - sorry if you’ve already been tagged or done it already, no pressure💕

[toads-treasures]

Fifteen questions for fifteen mutuals!

(It will probably not be fifteen I am too scared to tag too many people)

I was tagged by @galaxycunt weeks ago, and I finally got around to answering.

Tagging @hereforthehaunts @cactme @plasticdodecagon @iwanttobecomeavoid @mars-colony no pressure tho!

Also, feel free to skip any questions you don’t wanna answer.

1. Are you named after anyone?

My great grandpa Tora. But he went by Tory. He was apparently a grumpy ol sonofabitch according to my dad, but it was also his idea to name me after him so 🤷‍♀️

2. When was the last time you cried?

Prolly like two days ago but I don’t know for sure for sure. I cry all the time. I think this time I was crying in frustration at packing for my last camping trip lol

3. Do you have kids?

Nope, and I don’t know if I want any tbh. It would really cut into my time of being the Weird/Fun Aunt who lets my nieces and nephews stay up too late and helps them dye their hair

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Not nearly as much as I did when I was younger. We call that Growth 😌 but sometimes I can’t help myself

5. What sports do you play/have you played?

Ha. I am so uncoordinated I don’t play any sports. I played tennis for one year in high school and hated it. I’ve gone rock climbing once and really enjoyed it even though I was scared shitless, so I’d really like to get back into that. I’ve also been kind of wanting to play tennis again just for funsies with my husband and not actually pay attention to any rules or anything and just have fun.

6. What’s the first thing you notice about other people?

I think height? Because I’m pretty tall and if someone is taller than I am I definitely notice

7. Eye color?

Hazel is the least pretentious way to describe it. Or green…ish.

8. Scary movie or happy endings?

Why not both? I will say I like things to end happily, because I need to have some semblance of hope in the world lol, but also bittersweet endings will stick with me for the rest of my life.

9. Any special talents?

I am freaky good with names and faces. I will remember people who I had one college class with but never actually personally interacted with them. I can also like, trifold my tongue so it looks like a clover.

10. Where were you born?

Ha nice try fbi. Just kidding, it’s just a small town (like, less than a thousand people) in southern Utah and I highly doubt anyone would know the name or where it was, but if perchance they do, it probably means I know them in real life and I’d rather not risk it.

11. Free space

Ummmmm I love hiking and camping, and I’d love to get into photography and videography to be like a nature photographer, I think that would be cool. But I’m also Very Bad at taking pictures. I always forget to take them, or I frame it really bad or the lighting is really bad, I’ve got a lot to learn with that hobby lol. Also I wish I could just wear my crunchy/granolaey/outfits all the time business casual my absolute beloathed

12. Do you have any pets?

No 😔 I want one, either a cat or a dog, but honestly I have so much anxiety around it because there’s this CREATURE in my HOUSE and it needs me to live! And what if it eats my plants and what if my plants are toxic and what if it chews a hole in the floor or the door and we get kicked out and and and (you get the idea).

13. How tall are you?

5’10” 😎 my husband insists I’m 5’9” but he’s wrong

14. Favorite subject in school?

I’m still recovering from the god complex that being in English class gave me so, we’ll leave it at that.

15. Dream job?

I do not dream of labor, but I have a few ideas of what would be preferable than being a receptionist for the rest of my life lol. I’d like to open an online sticker/print shop and just draw and design cute silly stationary and stickers. I’ve also always dreamed of being an author, but seeing as how I can’t finish any of my wips that will probably remain a dream lol.

[twinkubus]

tagged by @dovebeast for a writing project game!! tagging @congressofspirits @thebestestbat also sorry i just woke up from a nap but i KNOW i have other mutuals with wips so if you see this. no joking. i'm tagging you. if ur thinking "this doesn't apply to me" IT DOES!!!! sit down and answer🔽

1: what are you currently working on? 

have not been *writing* a lot recently + trying to be gentle with it. i have several short stories in the works, most of them are "contemporary fiction"? "surrealist"? idk

2: summarize your current project 

a couple of the short stories

butch desperately tries to find outlet for religious fervor

modern guy pledges knighthood to his senpai

boy lives in the real world but is only thinking about his wip 24/7

3: summarize your current project poorly 

read these like isekai titles

"EDs will not unlock angelic communication no matter how much you hope they do"

"i guess you CAN hero-worship your crush but does he even want the attention?!"

"a teen in an unlivable situation gets to have a little dissociation, as a treat"

4: describe your favorite character or characters

pedja is solicitous without being cloying. caring but not annoying. always a few years older than you & has an in everywhere. seems to know everyoone. you tag along in his wake. admitted to places you'd never be allowed on your own. the relationship is clearly defined--so you think--which makes it safe. no chance of sexuality mucking anything up so he can put a hand on your shoulder or give you a hug and it's fine to linger in it because it doesn't mean anything more. ok to stand shoulders pressed against each other, for him to tilt your chin up and say you are precious in the eyes of god. knowing that's what he believes. knowing he believes in you.

5: post a line from your current project without any context 

It seems undignified to slide the rat off the plate. She takes a breath and picks it up with one hand. Brings it to her face. Faint smell of freezerburn and Petco.

Squeezing it, without really knowing why. The fur prickling against her palm. She can imagine the organs squishing around in there, the meat. Her stomach growls again and she grimaces. Leans over the cage and slowly, slowly lowers the rat, so Billy won't think her hand is part of the dinner, then extracts it at the same speed.

It glistens, her hand, once it's out, glistens with rat-juice in the dim light. Doesn't smell like much of anything. Clouds of angelsmoke in her nose and ears, though, might be missing out on key perceptions, god's cig, maybe a fine cigar from the seventh heaven. 

She licks her hand. Slowly, the way she'd lick pussy. And is rewarded--taste buds flooding with richness, meat sensation, A5 wagyu, foie gras, bluefin tuna, new veal.

6: how do you get through writers block?

gotta be paticent!!! i'm kind of recovering from a few Years of writers block, the last stuff i really wrote b4 these short stories was in like, 2019. being understanding of myself even if it's frustrating. trying to acknowledge the frustration but not letting it put pressure on me to output stuff. and working on other creative projects if writing isn't going for whatever reason.

7: would you want to live in the world of your current work? 

i already dooooooo 😎

8: briefly discuss your outlining process, if you outline 

i write a bunch of stuff on a few pages and try to get specific lines/images that will ease me into writing the scene. a lot of the conceptualization happens in downtime/random time so i wanna try and capture that to use when i get it all out.

9: what is the aesthetic of your current project?

anime girl angel in a skimpy dress that she looks too young to be wearing, it makes you uncomfortable to look at even if she's technically ageless, she's carrying a gun and a cig. if she was a picture in your browser you'd close the tab but she'd reappear in a popup, she'd freeze your screen and be SO smug while she was doing it, you want her to go away but she's replicating endlessly now and even if you squeeze your eyes shut her afterimage is still burned into your skull. also see this tag

10: what song sums up your current work the best?

[kirk-says-wah]

Hey 🫶🏻 hope you're doing well ❤️😎

I wanted to come here and tell you to make sure you are taking care of yourself and not feeling pressured to write or get anything out.

you’re so kind omg 🥺 thank you! I’ve definitely put the pressure on myself lately to write, I get so caught up with the whole writing for other people thing when it should be for myself too so this was nice to hear. You’re honestly so sweet for sending this ❤️❤️

also I hope you’re doing well too! (While I’m here I have to say I love your writing too!!)

[marsbotz]

(disco elysium anon, wanted to send this separately) (and i'm sorry if this is invasive/whatever, also no pressure to respond to this at all! but if you want to talk more/ask questions then let me know however you'd like, i'm happy to send you a proper message and whatever you need)

anyway my point is: you mentioned a gender clinic referral in a tag and i'm a trans man also in the uk with a lot of experience in that area so i thought this might help in some way 👌🏼

if you've gone through the nhs, the wait times are astronomical (the shortest one is about 15 months, the longest around 62 months). the current legal limit on nhs referrals is a matter of weeks so it's literally criminal but that's another story lmao

if you go on the 'transgenderuk' subreddit there's a pinned post with current wait times and there's a wealth of information and people happy to help with anything from name changes to 3 stage surgery. also the nhs are notorious for just. not referring people to their gender clinics so if you did go through them it may make sense to give them a ring and check they did their job!

if you went through a private gender clinic and haven't heard back in months, 1000% follow up. the longest reply time i've heard is a month or two and the longest appointment wait i've seen is 7 months

lastly: there is another route. it's a lot more popular for transfems to do it, given feminising hormones are legal here but masculinising ones aren't, but transmascs (myself included) can 'diy' hormones, if hormones are the transition route you're after. even after i checked with like... tons and tons of people and different resources i was still terrified but it does work! also i get if a stranger on tumblr dot com doesn't reassure you, but i wanted to let you know about the option because it honestly saved my life and i think more transmascs need to know about this as a route especially those in this hell country lolol

for more info i would recommend the diy hrt wiki, just google that term and it should come up. i should mention though, with this though you're probably going to have to inject yourself which i know isn't for everyone (i used to need to have someone on facetime with me for like 45 minutes hyping me up lol). there is gel available on some sites but it's super expensive. also some sites will have tablets for sale but they don't work to masculinise unfortunately. OH and it's also recommended that you do blood tests semi regularly (once or twice a year) to test sex hormones and some other things like your liver, which you'll probably have to pay for yourself if you diy - in saying this though, the cost of 6 private blood tests, and 3 years worth of T and injection equipment would cost about the same as the initial appointments you need with the more reliable of the 2 private gender clinics. something something seize the means of transition

anyway. this is an absolutely insanely long message and i'm so so sorry if this is too much and too like... invasive but whats the point of having trans resources if you dont share them and whats the point of having a trans community if you dont trans commune 😎🏳️‍⚧️

WHATTTT THSI IS CRAZY THANK U. LOVE YOU. i definitelyyyyy need to look into it all more and start DOING SHITTT bc yeah this stupid fuck country SUCKKKKS. i did go thru nhs and cant afford to do private rn but ill tryyy to chase it :] THANK UUUU this is so so sweet i cld cryyyy 😭😭😭