#I saw the screenshots first and then didn’t check the tags till after I went to the website

[tentacledsnakelover]

Sad this isn’t real. At least we got the new videos from Jordan F and Athena P.

Guys, PBS Kids just brought back the Wild Kratts flash games to their website and updated them to add the new Creature Powers Discs and Suits from Creature Roundup to the habitats for your character to use! I'm playing them with my character right now! /j

[ficwriterwastakenalt]

Bloody Noses P2

@sk3lby​  this is for you mi amour (any grammer mistakes that show up when Tommy types something is supposed to be there i still find it funny that he called Puffy pussy)

Yn continued to play bedwars, careful not to speak too much in case Tommy recognised thenir voice. “Chat, I’m fine, i just have a sore throat,” Yn explained. Tommy made a 100-dollar donation, making Yn tense up. ‘ello are you an american”

“Hello Tommy, i’m from____,” Yn said with a smile that no one could see Tommy spammed in the chat, “oh my fucking god i met someone from there eralier toda y theirgo name weer Yn they were pog’. Yn smiled even bigger.

Yn continued to play bedwars till a little after midnight, when they realised Tommy had gone live with Wilbur, so they stopped their strieam and jumped onto Tommy’s.

Yn raided Tommy with their 5 million “POG thank you ItsSkillet i saw your stream you’re very good at bedwars,” Yn smiled as they removed their skull mask and gave him a $150 donation. ‘Thanks Tomstier :D’ 

“DID YOU SEE THAT WILL?” Yn watched as Tommy pulled Wilbur down to look at his screen, which he must have screenshotted. “Thats the faceless streamer you like watching right?” “Will” Tommy said dragging out the L. 

Yn took out their phone and went to their streaming Twitter account, where they decided to tweet something they never thought they would, and then pushed Tweet, watching the likes and retweets grow.

'You might want to check twitter Tommy', said a donation on Tommy's stream. Tommy pulled out his phone and shoved it into Wilbur's face, yelling, "PLEASE WILL PLEASE." "I suppose I could take you Tom," Wilbur sighed and agreed. Tommy bounced in his seat, and Yn's phone buzzed. Seeing Tommy's reply to the Tweet, Yn simply DMed him.

Yn and Tommy texted back and forth, working out where they'd meet and stuff. Yn was worried, but they figured they wouldn't be too bad.

--TO THE MEETUP--

As they waited for the two males, Yn adjusted their skull mask. Tommy was the first to notice them, as he was rushing straight for them. Yn let the tall child run into them as they opened their arms. Yn sighed, making sure their mask didn't shift. When Yn noticed Wilbur approaching them, she hugged the tall man. Yn drew back and extended their arms for Wilbur; they had to crouch to hug Yn, but that was OK.

"Are you ok?" Yn sighed as she pushed away from the hug. Wilbur enquired. "Just this silly mask," Yn muttered as they removed it and smiled at them. "Surprise," Yn replied awkwardly with jazz hands. "Yn?" they both exclaimed. "Hey Tomstier, Will you tall motherfucker," they said as they walked to a cafe, where Yn and Wilbur had coffee while Tommy grumbled about being a third wheel.

——- It's been a few months since the meetup, and Wilbur, Tommy, and Yn have streamed numerous times together, with Yn developing feelings for Wilbur. 

Should i do a part 3 Hunny buns  also if u want to be tagged just leave a comment <33

do you guys like it when i add the pics or no?

[zzpopzz]

Really long rant about how I made Vanilla Twilight, I typed it at 2am so it’s kinda crappy and boring, just skip through this post.

So I'd been thinking about it for a long time now, even before finishing Vanilla Twilight that I'd talk about it if someone asked, well that never happened so I was just thinking that I'd let it go but that post is so important to me so well fuck it I'll just talk about it anyway. I did it completely on a wimp like how cool would it be if I make a lyricstuck for Toumaki like I'd be the first (if anyone did this before me im sorry). The first song I intended to do wasn't VT, it was a much shorter and easier song. I saw the music video first time after a while and the lyrics gave me some scenes to draw right away, like the tones, the atmosphere, the lyrics all fit them very well, made me wanted to draw something happy but sad. The ending for it was a happy one instead of a sad one like other songs I did (I didn't post the ending for any of them, just let the viewers decide what it's gonna be) I was very scared like what if it won't turn out ok and people gonna hate me for it or no one even gonna look at it. Also what I visualized are mostly illustrations with backgrounds, what I never done before so high chance it won't go anywhere. I thought well let's just see how far will I get and won't talk about it at all until I post it so at least I won't be all barks no bite. I was very traumatized that someone might know about what I did so I locked all the files when I shut down my PC in case someone hack into it lmao. I started with making a storyboard(kinda) for it, this is where I first got trouble because there was some part I didn't think of when I visualized what I'd draw at first ( 'I don't feel so alone' part mostly and some in between) and it's only at this point that I realized how many I'd have to draw (over 40 images total) and it's mind blowing for someone who rarely finish a painting like me at that time, that number is more than what I'd draw in a year. VT doesn't have choruses that meant I can't do tricks like repeat some panels (I don't like this anyway). I usually painted on small canvas before that but I wanna make sure I can fix things later and some idea I had was pretty big so I used 3000x5000px canvas then trimmed them down ( I didn't know how big it was and it's huge). The idea was to make a tumblr scroll-post like a lyricstuck (my favorites are by paperseverywhere and toastyhat/emptyfeet , they made really cool tutorials about these) so I tried to drew out compositions that would look good scrolling down panel by panel and have some connections between them (this didn't turn out so good in the end because I wasn't good lol) Since I was scared that people might point out that I draw something wrong, it took me almost a week or something searching for references (check my pinterest board) like the streets, sky, houses, roads, outfits, poses,... I was going to draw. I got some knowledge about bikes by this too, like I can tell the differences between road bike, mtb, touring bikes,... I also see and captured bunches of screenshots and reread ywpd trivia countless time to make sure I won't get anything wrong. If you take notice, every outfit Toumaki wear in there are all canon, from anime or promos. The first few panels was really exciting because I had never painted so many with backgrounds before, I was really happy when I almost finished the first verse even compared to the full 3:50 of the song it was only 20 seconds and I thought maybe I can pull this after all. The last panel was intended to be Makichan standing infront of his house looking at the sky but I wanted to show the sky at the end of the panel and that wouldn't work on scroll-down post so I had to leave it for later, I repainted this panel for about 3 times and finished it just 30' before posting. The first panel of the second verse wasn't turning out alright too because that was my first time doing a 3 points perspective drawing and the colors didn't turn out as I wanted either (my intention was a green/gold dawn scene). Things kinda worked well despite that until the scene when Toudou sits in his ink, gdi I didn't know why I was so caught up in that and painted every piece of that wooden floor, it took me almost a week but turned out better than I expected so I was ok with it. I was going to make sketchy paintings for all of the panel but I did too much details on that one so it gave me the impression that I'll have to do just as much for every others. Now I still had school to go and that semester my uni got me pretty crappy schedule that made me have to wait for classes at school frequently, I was frustrated because I didn't get to paint during that time and I might finish it too late (even though I didn't set a deadline) and when I got home I just spent so much time checking twitter and just can't pick myself up to draw and ended up feeling shitty about it. *Side story*  I was so mad because I didn't get anything done and there's still more than half of the whole thing to do and the worst part is that I had no one that I can talk to because I didn't have any friend who ship Toumaki and I also don't want to publicly talk about what I was doing, I wanted to surprise people when I'm done, I didn't wanna give people the expectation then screw it up (I literally thought I'd drop a bomb not a grenade lmao) I can't remember how long was that shitty phase but I felt like it was so long, I barely finished verse 2 at that point. I was so mad at myself and my progress so I spent a few days to look at time management threads and this helped a lot, I changed my habits completely  by this and I still apply those methods now, like I used to stay up til 3am to read fics (bless you writers you fueled me with your writings bless you all) then I switch to bed before 12 and get up early for a good start or reduce working time while increasing quality* After that I kinda got things together,I just went ahead with painting tho it's still kinda tiring, I had to work on 5 essays during this time too. At this point I was like screw all, I give no shit about what everyone thinks I'm just gonna finish this and get some good nap (I practiced power nap to get more focus time for painting but dude everyone wants a good long nap) 10 days before uploading I found out that there's a Toumaki day (I'm so sorry), I was going to posted on the first sunday of June (I did researched on which was the best time to post on social medias so I randomly picked a sunday) and Toumaki day is the last sunday of May, that meant I had 10 days left and 15 panels to paint! I was going to ignore that but I already made it big I should make it right too so I shit my pants going through those last panels. I purposely hiding Toudou's face till the last verse to emphasize the feelz and got so relieved that I finally got to paint him (I read some tags that some viewers got emotional at this part so I'm so glad it worked). The whole things was put under Makichan's perspective so I was so sick of painting him at that point, he showed up in every panel and I can't paint him ugly because he's beautiful (especially his hair, I spent shitload of time painting them). I can talk lots about why I picked to do so but that's headcanon shit and it's embarrassing so let's just skip that. The last day I had only 3 panels left and I was hell confident that I've got this and somehow spent the whole evening rewatch Toumaki pingpong ep (end me). Of course that didn't end well, I managed to finish those by midnight but I still had like 3 panels that needed  repaint completely and all 43 needed retouch and edits. My plan was to post at 9am sunday (thats 9pm saturday est) so I had to get up at 5am and finish all that, I ended up cutting down 2 panels and simplified the instrumental panel (some tags said that was nice so I was at least relieved). Unlike other songs I did, the length of every line's quite different and the original sizes I did would make viewers have to scroll slower or faster at different parts. I didn't plan this beforehand and had to trim down some panels even the parts that I really liked and spent lots of time on. I also found out that people outside the homestuck fandom might not familiar with this type of post so I made a video too (I’m sorry I have zero skill in editing). After posting I was terrified of people's reactions or worse, there won't be any reaction so I turned everything off and went to sleep and woke up with an unimaginable number of notes I'd got, I set the target of 500 notes and I really didn't think that I'd get past that number like maybe 2-300 (well my other songs didnt even get 200), at the end I got 5000. I spent the next week reading and screencap tags given in reblogs, I put them on desktop and they're still my motivation til now. Vanilla Twilight is the thing I'm proud of the most even until now, when I've done other songs and projects that look somewhat better. If I have to recommend one thing on my blog I'd recommend it despite its' unskilled paneling, poor composition and muddy colors. It was the first time in my life that I'd put so much effort into something and went through such emotional roller coaster, the feelings I put into it was raw and the idea was very original compared to other songs, I improved and changed a lot during the 2 months I spent on it and never once regret doing it. ***Anyway, you sure have much free time to read it this far, here's a little game for you: I put random things in VT and HF like some characters/stuff from other series, my ocs,... (there wasn't anything purposeless in there even the logo on their cups or the bags they wear) just send me anything you find and I'll draw you something in return**

[astoryfrom2016]

Ragini’s Side of The Story

So the reason why I’ve created this blog is so you know my side of whatever has been told to you,  which to be honest, i’m not even sure.  I just know that it feels like an injustice that I have to keep this quiet and you are the only person I care about knowing the truth for what it is. 

If it was anyone else, I wouldn’t even feel the need to explain myself but I’ve known you since I was 16, and despite that we may not talk every day or see each other all the time, you’ve still been one of my close friends and I’ve always looked up to you like an older sister.

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you for so many months what was going on or what had happened.  One reason I didn't was because you are his older sister, and I never want to paint Sharan in any sort of negative light because he isn’t a bad person.  We both got into an extremely messy situation. Right now, I feel pretty discarded, like my feelings don’t count.  That I need to be quiet and not step outside the box that he has created for me.  

It’s always been really frustrating to know how your family looked at me,  it always seemed as if I was the one chasing him, that in all these years that I was just the girl who was always after him when in reality,  it takes two to tango. He held onto to me as much (and sometimes more than) I held onto him.

I guess one of the good things about this blog is that I can also properly recount what had happened because it is such a blur honestly.  I spent most of last year battling with remaining in the shadows of his life, wanting to be chosen by him, but he didn’t, just as I knew (deep inside) he wouldn’t. 

in order to tell this story properly, i’m going to use some screenshots from my conversations of him because right now,  I look like the liar, and I promise everything Im going to say is the truth and if there are any doubts you can ask me or him about it.  I understand from his point of view, the use of screenshots is going to be a massive MASSIVE breach of privacy. And no matter what I’ll always look like an asshole too but some of the things he has said to me, I feel crazy saying that he said that without using real hard evidence.  A lot of these screenshots are used to illustrate the nature of our relationship and the extent to which he was saying things to me.

So i might just start from the beginning:

May, June, July 2016

So,  I started talking to him around this period while I was in a comfortable and easy relationship with Zain.  I messaged him on facebook saying Hi, and we simply just became friends again. At first Sharan was kinda cold towards me because of our past arguments but then he let me in and we became very close friends again.  I felt as if I couldn’t commit to Zain long-term unless I figured out my feelings for Sharan (which was a very stupid idea).

We talked quite frequently and hung out here and there.  I knew he was in a new relationship and sometimes I gave him advice + tips.  But during that whole time I would never tell Zain when I was with him and I knew Sharan wouldn’t tell his girlfriend where he was either.  

During this period both of us would make fun of each other’s partners.  It was a little obvious why we did that but we sort of both continued to make jokes about each other’s significant other and call it being protective of the other person. 

In late July after his birthday, I called in sick from work one day and Sharan had the flu so he came over and we spent the day together just cooking, watching shows, he napped while I studied, and then because my friend was DJing in the city, I asked him if he would like to tag along and we went out to dinner and Sharan got a little drunk.

On the way home we found ourselves holding hands and talking about the time we hooked up.  I asked him who he liked more me or his girlfriend and he said me, and asked me the same and I said I liked him more too, and I could kinda tell where the whole situation was going because he kissed me on the neck so I was like ok I’m going to drop you home now, but as he was leaving we ended up sharing a kiss that yeah went on for awhile.

We decided that it would be best if we didn’t see each other anymore but because he had the flu, I ended up getting really sick and he came over again to check up on me and we started talking again a little, went for breakfast later that week and ended up hooking up again.  His girlfriend came home from Europe the next day and we tried to cut contact.

August 2016

In August the we were in and out of contact, which basically means we would block/unblock each other on whatsapp/facebook when we would miss each other and it became a cycle.  But we spent a lot of August talking as I had surgery.   My feelings for Sharan started to affect my relationship with Zain so I ended things with him after surgery,  Zain knew the break up was coming for other reasons and after awhile, he realised the role Sharan played in our break up (thanks to drunk rhea again ==).

Sharan and I started getting really emotional or intense with our conversations. Like we would talk about the future (marriage) and he just said a lot of things that would indicate that he had strong feelings too.   We ended up going on a date (I didn’t actually know this was a date till he told me) to Savanas the day after I got my cast off and afterwards things got a little intimate again &  but he stopped it and then told me how he couldn’t do this right now and that the situation was only temporary and that he would be back soon eventually. 

September 2016

During this month we also were in and out of touch again, I started to see a guy named Nitin that I was friends with for awhile casually (who knew my situation with Sharan) as I didn’t want to wait for Sharan, like he said he didn’t expect me to as I had my own life and he was in a romantic relationship with someone else, whereas I wasn’t anybody’s girlfriend.  My relationship with Nitin was purely casual and only got romantic towards the end (before it ended)

It was after Spot passed away, that I started to feel like the ‘Other Woman’ as I really tried to be there for him but he was always with his girlfriend and would want to see me too, and that made me pretty upset because best of both worlds.   He used to always just say he couldn’t just break up with her because he’s best friend’s with her brother/cousin and because your family was involved. 

October 2016

During this month,  I think the hurt started to surface and I started to really feel like the other chick, even though he was still saying very loving things.  He made it clear again that the situation was temporary and that he was trying to get out of it. 

At one point (imaged below) he asked me if we could stop talking via whatsapp as our messages were too intense and he was obviously getting afraid someone would see them.  This made me very very hurt.

The day before my birthday he came over my house and we were watching tv and his girlfriend started to message him saying goodnight with love hearts and calling him ‘bubba’ and at that point I realised, fuck she loves him too.  I did ask him, but he asked me why it matters anyway. 

For my birthday he came out for dinner with Susie & William, and he even told William that he didn’t see a future with his girlfriend and that it just wasn’t the right time for us.   After my birthday night, because Susie told him to really step back and see what he was doing, he decided it would be best if we weren’t in [active] communication so he said his temporary goodbye.

November 2016

We didn’t really talk this month at all,  I was pretty upset at him over being left behind because I could see he wasn’t making any active decisions to get out of his relationship despite saying a few months earlier that he would be out by the end of the year.    He sent me anonymous messages on my blog during this period.  The boy I was seeing and I got closer too actually,  but I never allowed myself to get too close as I was in this situation with Sharan.

December 2016

As you know, my mum got really sick in early December and we started to speak again, but then it started to become clear to me that he was not going to be getting out of his relationship anytime soon despite saying that he was. He asked me for money a few times in the months prior to december, but for some reason it was only when he asked me in December for money to buy him shoes (which he said he would pay me back for but still) that I realised, how unreal whole situation was.  I told him I wanted to move on and he didn’t really say I also ended things with Nitin while my mum was sick as I didn’t want to be with him either, he was just too aware of what was happening with me and Sharan for it to even work out.

I told Sharan that I deserved to be treated properly right now and not eventually, and that if he really loved me, it wouldn’t be ‘you know my position Ragini’ he would’ve taken active steps to ensure I knew and felt like he loved me, which I didnt. These were all only words.

 I told him I needed end things with him and never got a response.  And by this  point it really felt like I meant nothing to him and everything he said didn’t mean anything either. 

I know that it seems like I assumed he didn’t care, but like if you cant walk the walk then don’t talk the talk.  Actions speak louder than words.  These aren’t just cliched quotes everyone knows about, they are important for a reason. 

The lie you were probably told:

When I spoke to Sharan earlier this week, he said that his girlfriend said that I told her on Christmas eve (presumably to her face) that he was cheating on her with me when I saw her at an event I was at.

The real story is, whilst I was intoxicated in the same bathroom as her,  as I washed my hands I sang quite passively and soulfully “Girrrrrl your boyfriend is cheaating on you, cheating on youu, cheating on you.... Girrrrl open your eyes he’s cheating on you cheating on you” not looking at her or anyone but I was actually looking at my friends smiling (I was drunk and was quite angry at the whole thing) This was hugely disrespectful, and if I could apologise to her for it, I would. Only because she is a woman like me and I have no idea what she could be going through right now.  Also, I knowingly left a lot of room for Sharan to deny it, which he definitely did.  I knew he was going to say something like ‘SHE CRAY’, My older brother calls it ‘Anger Misplaced’ which it definitely was. 

Sooo, where to from here?

You know the more I think about it,  I realised how much you would’ve understood this situation, not because you know me and Sharan on a very personal level, but because you have been through something similar.  & honestly, now that I understand,  I’m sorry if I wasn’t there as much as I could’ve been during that period. 

I’ve started talking to a professional about him, well, I had been seeing a psychologist for a few months during because of surgery, which she knew what was going on with him and she would always try to get me to see what was actually going on but I was too invested at that point to objectively look at what was going on.   I only wanted to talk to her about it till I was 150% ready to make the decision to walk away for life, which I am now.  I saw what I needed to, and it really wasn’t what I wanted.  No matter how beautiful the fantasy was, it was never going to be reality. 

There is no hate, none at all towards him.  I feel really bad for him too,  he didn’t mean for all this to happen. I have a lifetime of memories with him for which I will always be grateful,  But I’m looking to move forward with my life and away from all this.  It’s going to be a long process of healing as there is a lot of things I need to face and accept.  

I understand if we can no longer be friends after this, and eventually I will accept that, but I hope you now see things from both perspectives and the whole story makes a lot more sense to you now.  It was always important to me that you knew the truth eventually.  I just hoped it would be in a more positive way and not via this blog.