#I really only use tumblr as my primary social media so I thought it would be a good idea with some backup...

[fiepige]

Just in case...

After hearing that the staff running tumblr will be cut in half (which might lead to the site slowly dying) I've made a profile on mastodon as well as cohost just in case! (so feel free to follow me there so we can stay in contact)

I don't really plan on using them much if tumblr stays up but I'll be using them as backup in case tumblr shuts down one day and I don't wanna lose contact to all the wonderful people I follow on here!

Also if we're mutuals please let me know which platforms I can find you on in case tumblr shuts down and I'll be sure to follow you there!

[livwritesstuff]

Ok so I feel like Eddie would have Tumblr. He’d be an absolute menace, he just gives off that Vibe, y’know?

Would any of their daughters have Tumblr? Would they know about each others’ accounts? Would they follow each other/interact? Or do their interests differ enough they leave each other alone?

i seriously think you live inside my head or something bc i’ve literally thought about this so many times

So when I imagine Eddie as an author, I’m really picturing him as kind of like a Neil Gaiman-esque figure, both in terms of his genre/style of writing and the way he engages with the general public. The only difference to me is that where Gaiman has put a lot of focus on TV/movies, Eddie sticks a bit closer to novels.

Neil Gaiman very notably has a Tumblr account. He’s been on Tumblr for ages, and I feel like Eddie would be the same way. 

Eddie is definitely a total disaster on Tumblr in the 2010s. He says whatever he wants, engages in political discourse like nobody’s business, and probably spoiled his own writing on one occasion or another. His agent didn’t know what to think because on paper it’s bad news behavior, but Eddie’s primary audience actually seems to enjoy the transparency, so on the whole he leaves him alone.

The older Eddie gets, though, the more he mellows out, and by the 2020s he mostly just uses it as a running Q/A. Still, it’s definitely the platform he’s the most genuine and himself on (because he probably also has a Twitter and an Instagram, but only out of business obligation and he practically never uses them).

As for their daughters, if anybody has a Tumblr, it’s 100% Robbie. Robbie is definitely the pinnacle of a late-2010s Tumblr girl, for better and/or for worse. She knows about her dad’s account (and forever curious about how many followers he has even though Eddie refuses to tell her). She doesn’t follow him, but occasionally one of his posts still ends up on her feed and she is so upset about it every time.

Moe could have a Tumblr – maybe in her late middle school and high school years. I feel like she’d be the kid who taught herself fairly complex HTML coding purely for aesthetic theme purposes. She’s Steve through and through though so as she gets older, the novelty of social media in general wears off and she decides it really isn’t her thing.

I feel like Hazel’s interests wouldn’t lead her down the Tumblr path. She’s a YouTube/TikTok/Insta girlie true and true. Maybe Robbie tries to bully her into making one, but she doesn’t really get how it works so it just never happens.

(And Robbie definitely keeps her Tumblr on lockdown. That shit is hers and hers alone).

[teaveetamer]

Cap: *writes a blatantly sexist, racist, homophobic fic that is immensely popular and influential in the fandom and that many people have explicitly said made them feel uncomfortable when reading it*

Raxis: he's completely innocent everyone who says he ever did anything wrong are just hysterical liars with victim complexes

Moonlitboar: *says that they wanted Lambert to be more morally ambiguous and said they thought Sitri was happy in untagged posts that literally maybe a dozen people max ever saw*

Raxis: THEY DESERVED TO GET CANCELED THEY FUCKED AROUND AMD FOUND OUT THEY’RE AN ASSHOLE but i never did anything to them but i know who did but i won't tell anyone who that is BUT I'M COMPLETELY UNINVOLVED i just know exactly who is involved in this TOTALLY JUSTIFIED C A N C E L A T I O N (and totally not harassment because harassment is bad but cancelation to the point of harassment is fine)

LITERALLY what was the game plan here. His own logic makes it sound like he's actually completely down with Cap getting "canceled" AND he sounds like a blatant liar. Why couldn't he just shut his mouth for once

From the very beginning, no one on Tumblr has done anything that would break his personal definition of "normal" fandom participation. We're "harassing" Cap for talking about his fic and meta posts, but if you bring up Raxy's aggressive disregard for the block button, and how he disregards people directly asking him to leave them alone, he will be the FIRST to say "you put it on the internet so you have no right to be upset about me criticizing your dumbass takes".

He will stomp his feet and throw a tantrum if you say anything even remotely critical of Cap's fic's actual racist, sexist, and homophobic undertones, but Moonlit had one milquetoast opinion about Sitri and Lambert and they "deserve" a brutal cancellation. By his logic Cap should have been cancelled about a thousand times over by now; I'm giving him one cancellation for every use of "girls" to refer to grown women.

He will consistently justify his mistreatment of people with "but someone bullied Cap first" even if the person he's literally harassing has had nothing to do with Cap ever, but if you bring up what he demonstrably did to Moonlitboar it's "how dare you, you shouldn't 'mistreat' me for this thing I demonstrably did and even if I did do it then it wasn't my fault because they deserved it :/"

The truth of the matter is that Raxy doesn't give a shit. His "rules" for engagement are literally just "I should be allowed to react however I want whenever my feelings are hurt, and you should only be allowed to react in a way that doesn't hurt my feelings." Except this man is quite possibly the most fragile human being I have ever encountered and everything hurts his feelings. He genuinely thinks saying "I think Sitri lived a good life" is equivalent in hurtfulness to "I think it's okay to make genocide 'jokes' on your posts". Because the Sitri thing hurt his poor feelings, but well if someone tells me it's funny to remind me that my family died in the holocaust it's not his feelings getting hurt, so who gives a shit, just don't make him look too bad and he doesn't care. I wish I were kidding but that was LITERALLY his primary concern in that situation.

Not "hey talking about how genocide is cool is fucked up" or "hey maybe stop telling the woman who just told you that her family was impacted by the Holocaust that genocide is really funny and something to joke about"

Nope, it's "shut up you're making us look bad, and look now you woke Nilsh up! Don't you know I worked so hard to harass him into leaving social media!"

Like be for fucking real dude, you aren't slick. I can sum up everything you need to know about this guy's attitude in two images:

His logic looks like a mess of spaghetti because it is. Because he works backward from a conclusion ("I should be allowed to do whatever I want and no one should be allowed to do anything I don't like") and he inserts justifications as he goes, with no regard for whether or not it actually makes sense. He went from "Moonlit deserved it because they had bad takes" to "Moonlit was actually harassing me" to "I didn't actually do it anyway" to "I know exactly who did it but I won't say but it wasn't that bad" to now, apparently, "there's a conspiracy against me". He just relies on no one looking closely enough at him to notice the clear pattern. If someone does suss it out he tries to harass them into shutting up about him or he tries to delete evidence of his past logic and behavior (all the better if the person he's harassing deletes everything too, because then he can just make shit up).

The thing that really gets me is like, just how clearly unable to function he is without someone he absolutely hates to bounce off of. Does he even make original posts, or does he just constantly whine about other people's opinions? Every post I've ever seen from him about 3H, even the ones that aren't reblogs or don't have screenshots included, are like 99% "someone had an opinion I didn't agree with! Allow me to debunk it!" posts. The other 1% are recycled talking points from other people's metas, which he writes like he's got a 5,000 word paper due tomorrow that he hasn't even started and he's trying to see how much "slightly reword the wikipedia entry" he can get away with.

And not even speaking just about Raxy, but this is what pisses me off so bad about certain people in fandom. They feel empowered to harass and bully the genuinely awesome, creative people who actually make things. Those people leave, and then they have the audacity to sit there and whine about how the fandom is dead, no one is making anything, everyone left for greener pastures. They suck the life out of vibrant communities and leave nothing but a hollowed out husk. It happened with a ton of fan artists and authors in 3H, including some I'm friends with, who just had to get the fuck out because of the damage it was causing their mental health. And before he says it, no. Saying "Cap's (a white man) fic has some kinda racist and uncomfy undertones I wish he'd take some criticism to heart and correct that" is not the same thing as stalking someone and sending death threats because they have a different opinion about your favorite character. Holy fuck.

Like hey wanna know why no one wants to talk about 3H anymore? Because of this shit. Because saying "I think Lambert doing Morally Complex things is Morally Complex and therefore interesting" is the kind of opinion that can get you harassed into leaving the fandom entirely.

[sleetmonster]

i'm summarizing some thoughts i had over on discord here, bc maybe this would be an ok place to shout about this kinda stuff after all.

i don't like twitter. i still use it, a little, mostly to check up on art and on folks i don't often keep up with otherwise. and that's kind of the point, for me - what i want out of social media a sort of big group space where people gather to chat and make jokes and show art and share wisdom, and that's not how twitter is built. at its core, twitter is a machine that uses misery to milk you for ad revenue.

it's a website with the primary goal of making money, and as with anything that holds a similar goal, it should absolutely be judged based on that understanding. it's only ever going to masquerade as a social site, because what it actually wants is to keep you there, and keep you engaged so that you look at more ads. it's going to force "curated" timelines and it's going to drive you crazy with follower counts and view counts and likes and retweets. it's going to throw misinformation and hate-bait at you. i feel like doomscrolling is a symptom of this kind of social media, but that it could have been structured to avoid that sort of thing.

and i think there is something good about having social media. even without the pandemic forcing isolation on a lot of us, it's harder to really hang out and be social offline these days. stores and malls are all closing up, everything has a progressively higher price tag, there aren't a lot of community spaces. plus you've got folks like me - queer, trans, some mysterious flavor of neurodivergent, who is necessarily nervous around the general public by default. you don't know who is going to want to make a big scene because you're wearing a mask, or who is going to want to murder you because your appearance trips up their constantly scanning gender-role-o-meter. it's not like i can just find a community among my physical neighbors without having to build up a whole false persona to hide inside. so having a gathering place online, where people i am more likely to feel safe around can congregate, is a fantastic thing.

the problem is just that twitter ain't it. i don't think tumblr really is either. it too needs to make money, so it's going to do what it can to make money. and you've still got followers and notes and all these blog statistics which are just inherently unhealthy. it's a better place i think for artists, just because the things you post don't get Lost To The Timeline as easily, but tumblr feels less like a social forum and more like a bunch of people writing in journals where you can read others at your leisure and maybe write a comment in the margins before you leave.

the more i think about it, the more i realize i kind of miss web 1.0 forums. slower paced than discord maybe, but broadly accessible, organized, and thoroughly archived. it's funny to think how much we really got right in the earlier days of the internet, before the specter of capital started infesting its walls.

[tuftypompom]

Update on the Chapter 3 Mock Stuff + Some Other Stuff!!

Hey all! It's me, your favorite purple goat with a booty stank upload and sleep schedule, Pompom!

Ever since the newsletter Toby had published on Halloween, I have started to feel less and less encouraged towards continuing my mock Chapter 3 content. On top of lacking any sort of consistent motivation towards making music like I used to have, it seems like we're nearing the release of Chapter 4 sometime within the next couple of years. Now, that's exciting, for sure! And, while it may seem like a long time, it's been, like, almost half a year since my last uploads, LIGHT THE LIGHTS and Written in Stone, and, while I certainly feel better than I had during that time, there's no denying that I still lack so much of the creative potential I once held, and I'm afraid my motivation has been so lacking, that I can't fathom when I'll ever feel the same again. I would kill to upload consistently again sometime, but it really does feel like I have to be on this little forced hiatus. Darn you, brain!

Well- Apologies for the pseudo vent post! But I only bring this up because, due to these complications, I've decided to just drop what I have now here. This doesn't mean I'll never pick these back up, but I feel terrible for leaving my last upload five months in the past, and I haven't really added anything major to any of these tracks since, well, forever ago! So, if it's something you're interested in, these three are among the primary tracks I was developing for my mock Chapter 3.

"Obligatory Field Area"

Obviously, this track holds no title. I mean, technically speaking, none of them do, but the other two I just decided to play along with the existing naming schemes of Deltarune character tracks (Like "Queen", or "Lancer" (But is that called "I'm the Bad Guy?" I don't really know...)). Meant to be the primary area of the mock chapter, resembling a similar, sprawling "field" to that of Hopes & Dreams and Cyber, this is where you would, inevitably, meet Tenna. The art was just a quick mockup I made and never expanded upon, so excuse the poor quality.

Mike

A (very short) song doodle I was making for Mike, the day host (Think of him and Tenna like Nickelodeon and Nick @ Nite, or Cartoon Network and Adult Swim!). Mike holds a more mature, thoughtful attitude and is much less of a "threat" to the Lightners. Even if he has a notably short temper, he knows how to keep his cool and to remain with his stage face on! Instead of directly stopping the Lightners, he more so just likes fooling with them to keep his audience entertained. That is until partway into the chapter, when a mysterious foe comes to bust the party and kick Mike off the stage...

Tenna

A theme for the Big T himself, Tenna! He's a lot more, uhm.. Obnoxious? Than Mike? Being the night host, he holds a more brash attitude for his more mature audiences, and is a lot less thoughtful than Mike. There's not a lot else to say about him, as that's all I've really had in mind up to now, lol. Probably my favorite theme out of the three, though; Obviously, it's kind of a re-take of my previous "Mike" theme that was just made for funsies.

And that's it, really! Those are the three big songs I was doodling out before my brain said, "No." Perhaps sometime in the future I'll pick these back up and continuing developing my ideas. Thankfully, other than music, I've still been trying to get some stuff done, including prototyping various game ideas pseudo-privately. I do anticipate uploading on Tumblr more, I've just never really had a reason to do so as of yet, lol. Sometime, though, I'd love to eventually start posting about my coding projects, and maybe my art. I've never really worked with social media platforms before, admittedly, but I'll definitely try to at least consider branching out and experimenting more with Tumblr going forward.

Thank you all for the continued support! I hope to continue posting sometime, whether it be about music, coding, or whatever.

[motheffigy]

i recently quit Discord, functionally. it used to be my primary social media, and it was a real drain on my life. but i need an outlet to let out all my nonsense thoughts, so I’ve decided that Tumblr is a natural fit.

THAT BEING SAID, TUMBLR IS A VERY VERY VERY VERY STRANGE WEBSITE AS I AM LEARNING

Look I kind of already knew that. I am not talking about like, the culture. I love the culture. In some ways, I come from a very similar place. But the website itself does so many baffling things and has so many baffling, let’s say, kinks to it that make it a fundamentally undeniably strange online website experience.

So here’s a few things I’d like to note.

-So Tumblr sends notifications to you on MOBILE when you post or edit something, it’ll say like “posted to mothsarcophagus” or “edited to mothsarcophagus.” which is I assume a super useful feature for people with multiple blogs. but I think the problem inherent in that is that, correct me if I’m wrong here I come from Twitter (unfortunately), is that I can’t imagine many people with like 2-3 blogs run their blogs on their phone primarily? Like if I had multiple blogs I would do that on PC myself. So to someone like me who very much just runs this one blog, it’s like just a notification to swipe a way.

-I find it so odd that Tumblr tells you when you reblog your own posts? Like the only way to really publicly addendum to anything you do is to reblog it right? So sometimes (like my recent Sonic 2 thread) all of the reblogs are me just kind of adding onto the original post. But I get a notification for it? It’s kind of silly imo

-I’ve been making a note of each time Tumblr makes me a default post on mobile to congratulate me for some mundane task, as you can see by my recent post history, but like... how is this measured? Also why did it congratulate me for liking 100 posts, that’s still not something I get.

-Also, i looked at my followers and the same person is displayed 3 times in my followers on my end, like it shows oh you have nine followers and all nine are displayed just my first follower was displayed like 3 times in a row at the bottom of my followers list. -Also, Tumblr shows a little “1″ in the tab on PC when a post enters my timeline, making me briefly think I got a notification before realizing no it’s just someone I follow reblogging something.

Anyways, great website, can’t wait to spend more time on it!

[celestiabyss]

[MY THOUGHTS ON TWITTER BEING DOWN + MY CURRENT PLANS FOR OTHER PLATFORMS 🐦]

Hi everyone! As many of you might have experienced, Twitter has not been loading tweets for many hours for a lot of users (me included) due to the so-called "rate-limited" mechanic that doesn't make any sense. At the time of this writing, I could no longer see tweets majority of the time from my main account, so the situation at hand makes me even more pessimistic on the future of Twitter.

A good chunk of you probably knows by now that I've been active in Twitter as celestiabyss for over two years now. It is the platform where I started sharing my theories and thoughts about Genshin lore, and it is where I got to see many fellow lore enthusiasts that inspire me to this day.

Twitter isn't perfect, but ever since a certain someone bought the platform, things started to get really messy. Unnecessary features got added in while necessary features were removed. Twitter Moments, for example, was the only feature that was close enough to being an organized archive. You might have seen me use this before to compile my lore tweets and theories. Around November last year, the Twitter Moments feature could no longer be updated with new tweets, and this was the reason why I barely wrote long lore threads ever since then.

A lot of problems continued to emerge and threaten the stability of the platform 'til this day. Despite the social chaos of Twitter, it couldn't be denied that Twitter has -- or used to have -- certain functionalities and accessibilities that helped a lot of people connect to online communities such as fandoms much easier whether as lurkers or active users. Twitter is in no way "better" than Tumblr, Reddit, Discord, and the like, but it does offer something that other platforms do not have. This is why it's such a shame that the platform has been dying a slow death ever since Spiral Abyss man had the audacity to buy it and ruin it.

I will not deny that branching out to as many other platforms and other social media as possible is one of the strategies that many content creators use to reach many people. While it is inevitable for me to adopt this strategy too, it still pains me to see my primary platform in shambles and potentially losing connection to the communities I've come to love. The incompetence of the Spiral Abyss man is killing many communities that rely on this platform.

1. Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/celestiabyss)

There is such a high learning curve for me when learning extra platforms such as Tumblr and Discord, which is why these two have been collecting dust for so long. I do have Twitch and Youtube as my other more active platforms though, and as someone who just started streaming months ago, it will be a challenge for me to rely mostly on these two alone to reach you. I will see what I can do to better inform everyone of when I'm streaming. But for now, pls keep an eye out on my other platforms. All of them use the "celestiabyss" username:

- I will still be streaming there starting this week once I finish my uni stuff and recover from my sickness this week. Target return date will be on JULY 5 AT 10 PM GMT+8. Please check the Profile tab and Schedule tab of my page for sched announcements.

2. Youtube (youtube.com/@celestiabyss) - All Twitch VODs and future content will still be uploaded here. Twitch stream schedules and other announcements will also be announced through my Youtube channel's Community posts. I currently do not have plans to stream on Youtube, but if I ever feel like learning how to do so, I will let you know.

3. Tumblr (https://celestiabyss.tumblr.com) - This is the backup socmed account I made ever since Twitter started crumbling around November 2022. It's mostly on hiatus right now, so I'll still see what I can do to resume long-form lore posting here.

Anyways that would be it for now. I need to get back to finishing my papers and recovering. All this platform planning will come again later. I'll see you when I see you and stay tuned on my Twitch streams 🌠

4. Discord (celestiabyss) - I am very inactive in this fandom-focused Discord account since I use my personal one more. But yes, I'm in the following lore servers: (1) Khaenri'ah Lore Project and (2) Coffee and Culture. I'm also in GenshinSupportClub's server. I haven't checked them in a long time though and I have yet to learn how to fully navigate these servers. To all my Twitter mutuals who I have gotten to interact with through Genshin and HSR lore tweets: pls let me know if you have a server too (LET ME INNNN 😆).

[teaandcrowns]

fanfiction.net also send emails, though the site itself has devolved into a hot mess imo.

I think there's a really important conversation to be had here around the type of content-as-content that social media has pushed and pushed and pushed on people the last decade or so, to instill some implication that something has to be recent, current, brand shiny new, in order to be worthwhile or worth giving deeper connection and attention to. Content-as-text*, if you will.

Written works—which include fanfiction, yes—are as permanent fixtures as we can get of content-as-text, and they are evergreen in allowing for connection and engagement, and fanfiction is open to this in particular with the capability of comments (and direct messaging).

I think there's another element to this regarding how engagement with content-as-content, which does not seem to encourage in-depth interaction, lengthy discussion, or a series of back and forths between creators and audience or even between members of the audience. Content-as-text, in my mind, is much more encouraging of that, and was also heavily encouraged by Web 1.0 primarily with forums and early Web 2.0 with interactive blogging-forum sites like LiveJournal. Web 3.0, with its focus on constant generation of content (as content), summarily leaves the space and, I would argue more importantly, time for longer and deeper interaction and engagement in its proverbial dust; it is not concerned with how people actually feel about the content so long as they are still consuming the content.

This brings me to a thought concerning what I, and others, have noted as a lack of what I have frequently seen termed "curating your fandom experience." Algorithms now decide what to content-as-content to show based off what you have seen before. There are (virtually) no more chronological feeds. You can only "sleep" functions rather than say, "No." In short, you are no longer the one with the most agency in your online experience if you choose to use or be on certain sites. If this has been someone's primary modality of interacting with any kind of fandom spaces (or any online community spaces), there can almost be no way to have true organic community the way humans have always made community and made connections. You are not encouraged to view something older as still relevant, you are not encouraged to curate your own spaces because you are being given things based off a calculation of your activity, whether or not that is accurate. It's become a commodification of our attention, because so long as we keep consuming, they will keep the conveyor belt of content-as-content churning and turning.

This is a very circumlocutious and somewhat long-winded way of saying that we need to start taking back our spaces, our time, and our attention. Don't sort AO3 by most kudos or most comments; try sorting by first uploaded. Try not sorting at all (after you apply your preferred filters) and go five, ten, twenty pages deep to see what you find. Interact with the content-as-text as it moves you. Choose who you want to follow—use the "blogs you follow" tab on tumblr instead of the "recommended for you." Engage meaningfully with other members of your communities and find others through those connections instead. Use fanfic rec lists made by folks; make your own and share them. Take back your attention, your time, and your spaces.

*by "text" I mean anything that we can experience, read, or view as an audience and think and interact deeply about across modalities, not just written word

not to be "comment on fanfic even if they are oooold"

But I just read a pretty good fic published in 2014-2015 (you know, roughly TEN YEARS AGO) and I was like, damn this is so cool, I have to leave a comment, even if you know, they probably wont see it...

The author replied less than an hour later.

[floaromaxtowns]

7, 9, 21 -salty ask

Salty Ask List [Accepting]

7. Is there anything you used to like but can’t stand now?*

League of Legends - it may have been the reason that pushed me, to leave DeviantArt and join Tumblr as my primary social media all the way back in 2015. But MAN this thing is now insufferable to me, which is 10000x worsened by the popularity of its spin-offs series and games. The community continues to be the worst thing, and it only got worse with Arc4ne (So now you also get mfers who don't play the game. Bc Netflix fans are oh so "nice" and "stable", I'm sure nothing bad comes out of it). I got into it back in 2013, and stuck to it until 2017 and I really don't miss it one bit. This was the very first time I saw just how disgustingly ugly, a fandom can get. And this is no one's fault but the game itself, bc it's a competitive thing which purposely tilts people, even after the game is over.

So you get grass-deprived individuals, who have lost 10 matches in a row in a fandom all gathered up. It's the visual representation of a pressure cooking pot, ready to explode at the smallest things. Oh? You don't subscribe to the popular ship? You didn't draw a character in the precise way this weirdo sees them as? You don't subscribe to the popular fanons? Time to send you death threats and doxx you while at it. That'll teach u to "support" the "right" thing. (Thankfully this has never happened to me personally but, I have witnessed it).

The only good thing I got out of it were the few friends I made while playing it, that I still am in contact with. We've all collectively moved on from that shitshow. I often look back at my LoL years, because I need that reminder about how much I've changed. I've come a long way since those years.

9. Most disliked character(s)? Why?

My most recent addition to that list would be: Wyve.rn Rh.adamanthys. I'll keep it brief, bc I've ranted about it many times in the past but. I didn't like the Hades arc, not one bit, and he is the worst character in all of the classic series. Dude was made out to be this massive big boss threat to everyone and their grandma. Until he wasn't bc Hades decided to turn off the cheat codes, and let them pass for plot progression. Brother in christ, that's not a character, it's just a road cone that's inconveniently blocking the characters' paths. And the fact that Kanon goes out like that??? 0/10,

POV The character you loathed also claims your favorite character's life in the process

21. What are your thoughts on crack ships?

I like underdogs <3 I'm personally way more inclined to give ears to a crackship 1 person made it up and is running with it, than anything massively popular across the fandom.

I myself have several crackships across all fandoms, I've been part of! I just feel like people have a misunderstanding about what the term is referring to. Crackships are also known as "Never met in canon ships". As a roleplayer, I myself had the pleasure to write for so many wild combinations, I wouldn't have come up with on my own. That's why I have a really soft spot for them in general.

In Sts, my primary crackship is Hades/Kanon, and it has become my go-to ship for those characters. I don't ship them with anyone else <3

[dddemigirl]

👄 VENT-ERAN TAG 👄

a tag meme about your time on the Vent app made by PIKO !!

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✹ Did anyone tag you?

➥ Nah

✹ What's your current Vent UN?

➥ 10thtimelord. I’m quite proud of it.

✹ Do you change your username often? Do you alternate between a few?

➥ No

✹ Do you trade usernames?

➥ No

✹ Do you have any dreamies? Why do you want them?

➥ I really wanted TwilightSparkle for a while.

✹ What was your username when you first joined Vent?

➥ Honestly I’m not sure. It may have been WolfandDragon.

✹ When did you join?

➥ @/L3SBIAN was my original account. As it says there I joined nine years ago. Damn.

✹ Why did you decide to join? How did you learn about Vent?

➥ I don’t remember exactly how but it was likely through Tumblr.

✹ Do you identify as kin? How serious is it?

➥ Yep. Used to have a kin related tumblr blog n everything. It’s never been a huge part of my life but when I consume media related to my kins I get the brainrot again.

✹ Did you identify as kin before joining Vent? Did you know about kin before Vent?

➥ Yes, I learned about it through the hellsite Tumblr of course.

✹ Did you ever buy usernames, back when we could do that?

➥ No

✹ Did you hoard usernames before it was banned?

➥ No. The only username that I’ve kept that I don’t use is @/CHVRCHES because they’re my favorite band. 🩵

✹ Do you have a Vent subscription?

➥ Nah, I’m poor

✹ What is your favourite permanent emotion set? Favourite limited set?

➥ It’s very hard to choose! I really like Werewolf, Solar Eclipse, Sci-Fi, Punk Day, Pride, LGBT+ Pride, Emo Day, Earth Day, Disability Awareness, Digital…

✹ Do you actually choose emotions based on how you feel, or do you choose defaults for an aesthetic?

➥ Both

✹ How important is aesthetic to you on this app? How much time do you spend to choose a nice aesthetic, if you make a conscious effort to do so?

➥ I like when things look nice but sometimes I don’t really put much thought into it.

✹ Were you ever mutuals with "infamous" users? Any stories to tell about mutuals, in general?

➥ Probably but I’ve been on the app for 9 years so I can’t remember who they were.

✹ Have you ever been suspended? Deleted? Banned? Why?

➥ Not that I’m aware.

✹ If you had to guess, how much real money would you say you've put into the mouth app?

➥ I bought some rubber bracelets to support Vent in 2016 or 17. I never received them. I don’t remember how much that they cost.

✹ Have you contributed to Vent culture at all (made tag memes, emotions/emotion sets, caused rule changes, run big groups, etc)?

➥ I think that I made some tag memes but that was it.

✹ Any pet peeves relating to the userbase?

➥ Yeah but it’s not anything different from the rest of the internet that bugs me as well.

✹ Is Vent your primary social media? How often do you post?

➥ No. I don’t use it as often as I used to.

✹ What do you think about Vent staff?

➥ They’re okay.

✹ Has Vent taught you anything, about others, yourself, or the world? What was it?

➥ I knew this before Vent but Vent really cemented this for me; that people will assume the worst about you all of the time. Especially when they’re reacting to something in a knee-jerk way instead of taking time to think before they type.

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How many of these milestones, dramas, and elements of Vent Culture™ are familiar to you? Place an emoji after each you recognise. Feel free to tell stories! Not in chronological order.

Drew: 🍉

[WTF]:

Jeremy:

Sarahah: 🍉

Thiscrush: 🍉

Crytyping:

"BREADY":

Mark Smith:

Vent merch: 🍉 (see above)

Vent Angels: 🍉

"DEPRESSED":

Sans ketchup:

Johari window:

No dropdowns:

Most Discussed:

"Don't read" posts:

Buying emotion sets: 🍉

The big server move:

"Creative" set created:

Joker kinnie knife attack:

"SALTY" racism discourse:

"Never [SAME] my posts":

No Mutual Listeners setting:

"DNLI double of mutuals' kins":

All emotions had the same ints:

"Privileges & disprivileges" in bio:

Hashtags disabled (again & again): 🍉

A (consistently) working search function: 🍉

"Are you that kid on tumblr with the c*llouts":

"We can't make white emotions!":

"CRISPY" antisemitism discourse:

Removed from the Appstore:

Emotion Suggestions group: 🍉

"SLUSHY" JD discourse:

Rebecca Sugar factkin: 🍉

St*ff Appr*ciation Set: 🍉

Muted words feature: 🍉

Vent Subscriptions: 🍉

Dean's Bald Head:

Nightmode, finally: 🍉

UN hoarding ban: 🍉

App icon change:

Hot Takes Group: 🍉

Therapy Chatbot:

The Grey Area: 🍉

Ventstruggle: 🍉

Colored text: 🍉

V*ntidrama:

"Get to 10":

"Get to 13":

Buying UNs: 🍉

Scottcourse: 🍉

Nyacourse:

Curiouscat: 🍉

#saveVent:

Groups: 🍉

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✹ Why do you stay on this Hell App?

➥ Old habits die hard

✹ What is the best thing about Vent?

➥ My autism likes the colorful & cute emotion sets. I like pressing the buttons. It’s satisfying.

✹ What is the worst thing?

➥ Cyberbullying, death threats, bigotry, h*rny men

✹ Anyone you wanna tag?

➥ Anyone who’d like to do this

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thank you for doing my meme! g'dspeed, soldier.

[nickelplatestudios]

Not at all sure how many people from Twitter will see this, but for those that do, howdy y'all. I wanted to provide some sort of explanation for my sudden departure from Twitter, and what I'll be doing going forward.

I guess to start out, I should emphasize that nothing catastrophic has happened that led to my departure from Twitter. I am okay, and I think I'll be happier now that I'm off that god forsaken website, and as I further reduce my social media presence to something more manageable.

I decided it was time to rip off the bandage and close the door on Twitter for good. I publicly announced a year or two ago that I intended to leave, but I wound up staying partly due to outstanding art requests, and having second thoughts about leaving the audience I built up, and the artists I supported.

The main reason for my departure however was that Twitter was, and I'm sure many more could agree, an extreme net-negative for my mental health. I do have some personal issues that I face in my day-to-day life outside of the internet, and I am currently seeing a therapist. Twitter only exacerbated my pre-existing problems. What I originally saw as a great way to reach out to folks and help my art reach a wider audience, gradually turned into a mental health nightmare; Petty drama, stupid people, seeing non-stop horrors of war, propaganda outlets spewing disinformation that clearly isn't true...and in the process, I found myself doom-scrolling, becoming more cynical, depressed, paranoid, and with a growing hatred for the world. I believe overstimulation from Twitter, and social media use across the board really, made it extremely difficult to concentrate on my art, and other hobbies that I genuinely enjoy. I had weighed deleting Twitter again and again, but it was quickly placed in the back of my mind, as I continued doom-scrolling in hopes that I'd find some good news. Good news that was often not found, and even if it was, would quickly be replaced with more horrors.

My decision to finally make good on deleting Twitter was motivated by two factors, both of which are intertwined. Last week, I decided to spend my vacation time with my significant other. At it's conclusion, I can say with confidence that it was the best week of my life thus far. The two of us spending time together, largely uninterrupted by social media or non-stop bad news. Together we experienced the good things that life has to offer, and by the end of my stay, I didn't even want to log on to social media. I am more hopeful for the future now than I was the week before last, and I don't need anymore negativity dampening that. The other factor at play was my significant other decided it was time to delete her personal twitter. After a week of experiencing what it was like to truly live, I felt compelled, more so at this time than at any point before, to delete my account. I decided it was finally time to get off Twitter, make good on downsizing my social media presence, and free my mind. I opened up my settings, and as of mid-morning or noon yesterday, the NKP Studios twitter account is now history.

There is still a long road ahead in terms of a my psychological wellness journey, and there is much work to be done. But I feel like this is a step in the right direction. I already feel as if my mood has improved, and combined with last week's experiences, and with the help of my weekly therapy appointments, I'm more hopeful for the future now than I previously have been. Sure, there will be days I trip, fall down, and falter. But hope is a stubborn thing, and I'd much rather it continue to carry me and pick me up from the lowest lows, than to continue sinking further past the bottom.

As for the future, I'll be sticking to basics. I'll still be on Discord as I use it mainly for communication with friends, and YouTube will be staying since it is my primary venue for uploading my video projects. As for this account, here on Tumblr, I'm debating it's future. I hardly ever use this account, but that was because Twitter was the primary venue for my art. Twitter is now gone, and while I'm undecided at this time, Tumblr does seem like a more relaxed place to upload my art whenever I can get around to it. In the meantime, I'll be focusing on what matters, and the hobbies I enjoy: My art, my model trains, video production, and the one I love.

Thank you all so much for your support, patience, and understanding.

Best regards, NKP Studios.

[jupitercl0uds]

ive just been reminded of stuff oh no

if youve read most of my posts since like mid august, maybe september onwards, youll know that i am STRUGGLING rn. while its been all over the place, having highs and lows, i seriously havent been this bad since 2020/21. i know the reasonable thing to do is take a break, but i cant do that because i have pitiful impulse control atm. that being said, the only thing to really stop me is to deactivate. my main blog's been going for years now, so i dont want to lose everything, though i also get the urge to occasionally.

the issue is, the only times i actually feel almost fully comfortable in a social circle is on tumblr and even then im still scared and awkward. my school friends keep saying really hurtful stuff and while a lot of it is just as a joke, theres almost no time to be serious with them. ive tried. i weakly asked them to stop calling everything retarded more months before finally putting my foot down and demanding, although it took a month of 'retard! whoops, i shouldnt say that' before they just went straight back to it.

my family loves me but i dont like it here. i dont think i even can get into it because its complicated. just know ive seen and HEARD a lot over my short life and its finally starting to catch up to me.

as for the other kids in my school, im in an awkward spot. im honestly fairly 'normal', just with slight outbursts from time to time, but ive always been weird so i always will be. oh, year 9 me, how naïve you were. they don't care if you have an autism diagnosis, if you mask or not, you will NEVER be normal, you will NEVER be accepted and they dont care if theres a reason. if anything, that makes it worse.

im only ever happy when im on tumblr or doing something sonic related. on tumblr, im insecure that nobody really likes me or someone's going to manipulate me, with no amount of reassuring being enough to change that. and as youve already seen me say, sonic is 'too childish', no matter how heavy the themes can be.

this always happens. pre-2020, i didnt really use social media much and i was 11 oldest, so my main escape was roblox/youtube. in 2020-22, i was only happy when chatting to friends on discord. that was ruined when we all started to argue and drift apart. in 2022-23, it was tiktok. this was then ruined when popular kids found my silly waluigi tiktoks and started sharing them around. i havent used tiktok since june and i havent posted a public video since may.

but then, last year, i remembered i had a tumblr account. i started to use it more. and then, when sonic got involved and suddenly i was becoming friends with people, i started to feel my absolute happiest. i was euphoric.

until, of course, my brain struck.

if my birthday werent at the end of august, i think i would be much worse than i currently am, because at least i had a short break to be happy. school was off to a bad start from the very beginning. i didnt sleep the night before my first day, nor did i sleep before the second. what's worse, mum didn't let me stop working at the charity shop i had THOUGHT was for the summer, because, you know, i dont have anything on my plate, im able to just have a designated day of the week where i have to be productive. nope! ive had my days off, but ive still had work every week. is it hard? no! do i have the spoons to go most weeks? also no!

thats not to mention exams. ive always been a well performing student and will be surprised if i fail even 1 gcse, but im not the top of any of my classes, not even the ones im passionate about. no, i dont have to be, i know, but when you grow up as a kid who often IS the top of their year in something, the moment you aren't, you feel like a failure. even if i get all 9s and a d* in drama, there'll be someone who gets more than me in something, and i know i definitely wont get all 9s and a d* in drama. i was proud for a moment, for being top of english, until i found out a girl ive known since primary got a 9 in an english language mock. english language. my favourite english and the subject im best at. needless to say, i was miserable. i barely even slept across the course of my mocks and wont be surprised if i do the same for my gcses.

i sometimes wonder if im just not built for the world, which could honestly be the case. because i have low support needs and my biggest problems are sensory issues (which can be easy to prevent) and social problems, i forget im even allowed to be disabled by autism. but i think that honestly might just be the case.

ive always wanted to be a teacher or an animator, hopefully both, but im starting to wonder if i can do either. animator has such a big workload. teacher also has a big workload, but i know because my family is full of teachers and artists that it's the kind of workload i can manage. but the kids? could i control the kids? could they even take an autistic, nonbinary teacher seriously? again, i dont have high support needs, but its hard not to notice im autistic. of course, if everything goes to plan, i would probably start teaching in the 2030s earliest, 2050s latest, so the world will have changed, but how much?

i get most of these are problems out of my control, but i suppose im just scared and tired of living. that's why i make a million posts a minute: i cant get a word in edgeways with anyone else. that's why i get so apologetic: id get ridiculed for trying otherwise. i get that im annoying and boring. i should know. when i was 3, my dad infodumped about back to the future to me for about half an hour and it was such a tiring experience that it still gets brought up. so i get it, it's annoying when all i care to talk about is sonic. but its the one thing i can care about right now. the world is in ruin and i hate being alive. i dont even have enough motivation to act upon any occasional suicidal/self harming thoughts.

but life goes on and there's no way to stop it.

[alltimefanfiction]

haven’t written fic since 2021 (classichysteria on ao3 if anyone wants a nosy) but i wanna start again, is jalex in demand still? is there interest in fics about current jalex? i also started writing a massive trans!alex au for myself and i’ve been considering posting it but i’m so insecure about my writing even though i literally do journalism in college. need thoughts honestly, is the atl fanfic world alive? even just a few people?

ps you’re a lifesaver and have been since i got into the band fucking years ago, keep this blog going until the day tumblr implodes <3

Hello friend!

For anyone who wants a nosy, this author's AO3 account is here.

I don't recognise your fics but I might just have a terrible memory, did you ever submit them to the blog? I'd be happy to get them into our tags if not. (EDIT: I do actually recognise some of your earlier works, but I'm going to just add any that aren't on the blog if that's alright, 'cause I'm not sure if they all are).

Jalex is very much still in demand and probably always will be. There's definitely still readers, unfortunately many of them are probably silent and/or unaware of this blog but there's still people around. I really feel like the more people that post fic though, the more it will encourage others to post it, so I'm gonna go ahead and say hell yeah, please do it and submit the link to us! We're seeing a small resurgence in fics lately (or fics coming through us, anyway) whether it be Jalex or some OC stuff, and I personally have a Callakarth smut ready to go and a Christmas one in the works. The fic community for this band is smaller now but I think that's still nice. As much as it would be cool if it was as busy as it was even, say, seven years ago, it's sweet and cosy like this right now.

There hasn't been any trans!fic for the fandom (that I know of) in a wee while so I think that would be really cool if you posted that one too. Nerves are understandable but you would still have our full support and we're always happy to help with writing tips or encouragement where possible.

PS. I swear if Tumblr implodes ever, I will riot. This is the only social media site I still consider 95% bearable and also the thousands of hours of work I have put into this blog??? I'll fully latch onto the CEO's ankles like a parasite until it's all reinstated.

PPS. Followers reading this, I do gotta beg of you to comment on works if you read them. I know some people find commenting really daunting or don't know what to say, but most authors have an anon commenting option turned on, and I can promise a primary way that we as a community might get more lovely fics to read is by being encouraging to the authors that are still posting. Even one word comments can make an author's day! <3

-Eve

Hello adding in that I'm a HUGE Jalex fan and I will read every single bit of content I can get my hands on, so you should totally post and submit it to the blog for our followers as well!

- Molli

[selormohene]

day 71 (tuesday, september 12th 2023)

(Writing in the early hours of Thursday because it's been a busy couple of days of work.)

I wonder why I've been reading and thinking about so much conservative or at any rate center-right cultural critique recently, and why I find myself so compelled by it. I've never thought of myself as a conservative, but I think I have become more conservative in recent years. Of course my primary allegiance is to uplift the people of Ghana, and the political orientation in question there isn't quite aligned to the left-right or conservative-liberal spectra, as I mentioned in a Hegelian answer I once gave to a question on Curious Cat about the problem of political (mis)education in Ghana. But I guess now it's worth reflecting on my political views.

So for a long time I've had many influences: the mainstream American (and European) media, Ghanaian media, Tumblr, discussions with friends, my own reading, etc. In many ways my political views come from the left. I see much of value in the black radical tradition and in Marxism; in fact I'd say Marxism is probably my primary orienting framework for understanding the world and making sene of politics. I support progressive politicians and don't think there are remotely enough in the USA, and I supported Bernie while thinking that he wasn't even remotely progressive enough. But I thought that he stood the best chance of getting elected and four years of him in power would have delivered a permanent leftward shift to the US political scene, which would have been the greatest thing to happen to the USA and the world in decades. But I think there are a few things that cause me to break with traditional Marxism or leftism. First of all there's something that's really a point of continuity, which is that I take seriously Marx's view that societies must pass through capitalism with all its contradictions in order to reach socialism. Obviously for Marx this was a law of historical development, not a normative standard which suited the human beings who would be worked to death in the development of capitalism, but more generally it informs my view that the Ghanaian economy needs things like industrialisation and more generally to play by the rules of global trade in order to succeed. More generally this ties into a certain sort of pragmatism or realism in my temperament. I feel like a lot of ideal end-states are turned into political programs on the left by dismissing difficult questions about the pathway to those states, or the potential obstacles in the path. Take the prison abolition question for instance, what do we do with inveterate violent criminals. Like those questions exercise me and I don't feel comfortable calling myself a radical, much less beating others over the head for not being similarly radical, if I don't have a good enough answer to the question, no matter how much I'd like the end state which would obtain in the presence of that as yet elusive answer.

But more generally I think there's that book I read back in 2015 or so, about only being able to call yourself mentally strong if you know the arguments for the other side and how to refute them. I think I read too much Weekly Standard and National Review in the lead to the 2016 elections, and some of it stuck with me for non-rational reasons, but also I just kind of got over my immediate sense of aversion to conservative arguments. And then I've been impressed by people who emphasise the elements which are less overtly tied to the peculiarities of contemporary American politics; philsoophers who write on the rationality of tradition, the common good, and so on. And then finally (for now at least, because a more complete and sustained reflection on this would take pages), I'm impressed by the black conservative tradition, or more generally the conservative immigrant tradition: the sort of viewpoint taken by minority groups in a community who have concerns about self-preservation and proving themselves, and thus have developed some sort of collective wisdom about succeeding in the world as it is. Obviously ultimately you want to be able to assert your place without fear and to advocate for a world as it could be, and for freedom to be who you are without being denied access to the world, which is why the black radical tradition is just as compelling to me. I don't want to have to place my ideology in any particular box and I'm grateful to be able to draw inspiration from so many sources which one wouldn't necessarily think could have much to say to each other.

[mecchantheotaku]

I've been thinking about talking about this for a long time, but I always avoided it because I didn't want it to sound like I'm being too negative.

But now that I'm getting close to 10 years on Tumblr and I want to be able to smile when thay day comes on the 14th, I thought maybe I should get it out of the way before then.

This is my story of being someone who doesn't belong.

It started when I was diagnosed with autism at age 4. Because I was different from the other kids at school, I couldn't really get along with anyone. But because I was so naive, I didn't realise that until later. I spent half my primary school years in a mainstream school, and the other half in a specialist school for children with special needs. I had issues staying in one place for too long, as the mainstream school was too stressful for me, but the specialist school felt insulting and limiting to me.

That problem got sorted when I went to secondary school. My mum managed to find a great place for me full of children who were on the same wavelength as me, as well as classes that actually felt fair. However, while I was able to mostly get along fine in regards to the school itself, I had other troubles. My interests were different from the other kids. I was the only one in my class to like anime, christmas, and electronic music. So I had a hard time finding a common interest to talk about.

There was one girl in another class I got along with due to her going along with everything I did, but I came to realise late in my school year that she was only pretending because she felt sorry for me. And I couldn't hang out with her much anyway. I used to lash out violently when angered, and there were kids that deliberately provoked me to get me sent to isolation. They did this a lot. And because I didn't like social media, I was all alone once I graduated.

There was another thing that made me feel isolated as well. At some point during secondary school, I realised that I wasn't only interested in boys. I liked girls as well. So I came out as bisexual to my friends and family... and they all made fun of me for it, so I covered it up as it being a joke. I pretended I was straight for so long, I managed to fool myself. It wasn't until I joined Tumblr that I finally remembered and felt more comfortable with my sexuality (and also discovered more about it, like me being asexual and biromantic rather than just bisexual).

However, my problems as a whole did not end there. Tumblr's culture ended up becoming increasingly negative and hostile. I mentioned that I used to be a very violent person. I didn't like that part of myself and so I buried it in the past and wanted to be more peaceful as a result. But Tumblr's userbase became more aggressive and pessimistic and once again made me feel out of place. Even at the times when I agreed with them, they would express their opinions in such a hostile way that it scared me.

I was still able to enjoy life for the longest time, spending time watching anime, playing games and looking at funny videos to cheer myself up. But over time I felt lonelier and lonelier, and eventually my optimism disappeared for a short while.

I had accepted that I would never find anywhere I belonged, and that I would be alone for the rest of my life. I'd even thought about making the rest of my life shorter.

But then, despite all odds, I finally found it. I was able to make friends and have a nice corner where it finally feels like I belong. I had friends who share my interests, and even those that don't share my interests understanding and not holding it against me. They saw my imperfections and accepted me regardless of them.

And I'm still friends with them to this day. I even found romantic love in one of them, something that I'd always been unlucky with up until that point.

Saying I would die for these people isn't exactly true. Quite the opposite. I would live for them.

I was finally able to enjoy life again. And I still love Tumblr even despite what I said about it. Yes, the bad stuff about it is very bad. But the good stuff about it is very good. And I'll go into that on my 10th Tumblrversary!

As a closing note, I hope this reaches someone on this site. Someone like me, who has survived a world they don't fit in all their life. If this does reach you and you're reading this, I hope you find somewhere where you belong! And if you already have, congratulations and keep remembering you're not alone!

I know you need to remember, because I'm the same way!

[rielzero]

Random Reminder Regarding my username(s)

While my primary username is usually ‘’actualevil’’ the reason I use rielzero as an alt username and otheriwse- is because sometimes either rielzero or actualevil on a website is already taken. (sometimes i use _actualevil, like on tiktok, or instagram.)

check out my carrd to make sure you know which socials i’m actively using; actualevil.carrd.co I recently deleted my twitter btw, so if these usernames pop up there again its likely not me.

the user actualevil on tumblr isn’t me! another example of my other username being used somewhere else would be the warframe forums- there’s an user who uses the username rielzero. I do not play warframe, this isn’t me.

While I personally really identify myself with these as my ‘’brand names’’ I don’t like the concept of copyright surrounding names at times- its just a lot of work, and weird. The only inconvenience being that people might assume every account with such username is yours- This is why stuff like carrd or linktree are really nice.

I feel very attached to these as my ‘’brand’’ but unless its necessary, I will not change them. Just remember to check my carrd to make sure you’re not confusing me with someone who uses the same or similar handle.

Thought i’d mention this since my tumblr is now my primary social media and I’ve gotten a spike in new followers. 

Sometimes I’ve considered trying a new handle, but I’ve been using these two interchangeably since 2016 ish, while still using different handles at times and experimenting. I’m too attached to them, and I don’t want to harass strangers online to ask to change theirs. This is why I have two usernames. If possible, I’d toss ‘’rielzero’’ out as an username, as this is just the name of my main persona, Riel Zero. And Keep ActualEvil as primary brand/handle everywhere. But since I'm not a company or corporate brand, I don’t really feel the need to chase it. I have no plans to make a career with my work, I’m a passionate hobbyist, and as a disabled person I cannot keep a heavy work routine or focus on profit. Social media alone would be a job. I don’t have the capacity to be employed in any way,

TLDR: Make sure to check my Carrd link, (actualevil.carrd.co) Because my handles are not specifically unique to me, sometimes someone else has the username already.