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peapod20001 · 2 months ago

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WELP.

An attempt was made I GUESS

#random post #fuckin uhhhhhh. back to square one then folks #I really did try tho lmfao #maybeeee I’ll try fuckin uhhhhb #making a channel on my discord. or smth. idk

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tradingjack · 10 months ago

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having fun with colors for once :P

thanks @creepycoffins for the awesome dtiys :D

#creepycoffinsdtiys #trigun #millions knives #vash the stampede #i haven't drawn nearly enough knives. posted him even less #him and vash are so fun to draw :P ik they have the same face but it's like. fun to experiment with how different i can make them look yk #also admittedly. did most of this at work during downtime so if it looks funky..... my bad #the lighting isn't the greatest aight?? it's night shift and there's no windows but they do dim the lights #i did do the limited coloring i did at home lol. wasnt gon bring more art supplies to work #trying to get back into the swing of things with my drawing. i got myself a huion display for my birthday this year!#on top of my traditional i wanna do more animated stuff #primarily animated bc honestly i don't really wanna learn digital painting or whatever. im not interested in that and i like my harsh style #i'd also like to do more original work. i think last year was literally just trigun fanart lmfaoo #we'll see how things turn out ig #i'm not really holding myself to doing anything bc i don't see that turning out well. i am applying myself to more fan projects at the leas #tho those i'm applying more as a writer lmfao #well anyway. enough about me. i actually really like the drawing this was based off of! i didn't include the full body designs #and tbh vash's design is almost entirely cut out just cuz how the pose worked out :(#so i would highly suggest checking out the original art by the person i tagged!#and their other art's pretty banging as well :D

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 1 year ago

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oh! while we're on the Appreciation Train and before i go to sleep! i would like to say that although i rarely respond to replies, i do see them! and i Do cherish them! thank you!

#the only reason i dont really respond #is there tends to be uhhhh a lot sometimes?#which is great! don't let me stop you!#but if i start regularly responding than that is a Lot of responding #& then if i only respond to One and leave the others then i feel really bad bc thats unfair!#and really i have my work cut out for me with asks ahaha #they take a Lot of energy to respond to (affectionately said)#i have to ration it out yk yk #i do try to respond to replies that have questions and such that i can Directly and Quickly answer!#that being said i miss some. i think. im betting that i do bc there's always something im not seeing #but i try to read them all!#and i deeply appreciate them!!#absolutely unprompted #just wanted to say this real quick #i felt like it needed to be said. did it? remains to be seen! we won't see the seen tho #okay i really need to sleep lmfao im seeing spiders and i have a feeling im quickly losing coherency #good night or good morning depending on where you are #good afternoon? i dont know!#whatever position the sun/moon is in: Good [x]!#me? going to sleep BEFORE the sun is up? its more likely than you think #wait... shit the sky is starting to lighten if i hop in bed and play corpse Right Now i can pass out before it reaches the horizon #OH ALSO I SEE COMMENTS IN TAGS AS WELL!!!#I LOVE TAGGED COMMENTS THEY ARE EVERYTHING TO ME!! THANK YOU! GOOD NIGHT!

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hexcitrine · 10 months ago

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randomly looked at this account to update my age and holy shit it's been a while since i posted here..........i have a small pile of art i have yet to post but hbhbshdbshbd too lazy

#part of it is that i haven't posted any of my recent art but in addition #i haven't made new art in a WHILE (abt 3 months) which is highly unusual for me but the reason for that is #3 months ago i suddenly remembered that i tried learning mandarin for three (3) days before forgetting about it for 9 months #(amusingly the reason why is not because of danmei......i did not even know danmei existed when i first decided to learn it)#anyways i have been insanely fixated on learning it for the past 3 months #however since art is primarily a way for me to process my interests and that only really be done when i'm fixated on media........well #let's just say i have not been making art at all #that might change soon tho #rn i'm reading 撒野 (saye) in chinese bc it's at a level i can read and i fucking love it so far #idk why i picked a book longer than svsss (which took me a week to read in english)...u would think there's no chance of me finishing it #or even reading it #especially when the only novel i've read before this is a chinese translation of the fucking magic finger by roald dahl LMFAO #but it's been a week and i'm a fifth of the way into it which i was not expecting at all #it was initially an exercise of “i will get as far as i can and try my best to read a chapter a day” but i've been zipping through chapters #last night i was up until 3 AM reading it and i was so tempted to read more but had to stop myself #of course this is all aided by pleco which lets me quickly look up words that i don't know yet. pleco ily #that being said...this all does mean i know words like 收銀台 before i even know the word for “orange” (the color) which is pretty funny #but idk considering that the sum of my time spent learning chinese is just 3 months..........i think i am doing pretty damn good #i thought it would be a LOT longer before i could finally start enjoying some interesting things #god but it really has been a while since i last read a high school romance...but i am quite fond of the leads and their respective baggage #sorry for the whole tag ramble.........i haven't really had anyone to talk abt this stuff with #oh also it's my birthday #that is why i am even here to update my age in the first place #happy lan wangji birthday #actually the only reason i realized it was gonna be my birthday soon is because i saw chinese artists posting lan wangji birthday fanart #and then remembered that we share the same birthday #also re: the art i haven't posted yet.........a good chunk of it is misvil fanart...song qingshi my beloved #and there's also a luo binghe drawn on an art app i PROGRAMMED MYSELF (!!!!!!!!!) in there #actually that piece is the main reason i haven't posted the art i HAVE made. how the fuck do i explain that i drew it on an app that i made #sorry this is genuinely the most off the rails tag ramble i've ever done. okay i'm done

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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ok i am actually so very angry and there's literally nothing i can do to fix it. life keeps going on. she might even be happy. and fuck dude, i'll make sure im happy too, i was a fully developed person before she was in my life and i'll continue to be one without her. but God Damn, the fact that she can just do something so blatantly awful and unfair to me and then run off without any actual repercussions is just so fucking rankling to me.

like perhaps she feels guilty. she said she did when it was all going down. but it was just something she "needed to do". so obviously she didn't feel guilty enough or she wouldnt have done it like that lmaoooo

i really did deserve to have a good solid yell at her. but unfortunately, by the time i did see her in person i just wanted her out of my fucking life. so. no yelling was done, unfortunately.

#speculation nation #the duality of being a deeply resentful and angry person. and being a person that Tries to be mature and peaceful.#like im not gonna actually Do shit even tho i keep wanting to message her just to yell at her some more again #it's like there's a beast in me that keeps yelling for retribution. she wronged me in such a disrespectful and humiliating way #and yet she just gets to walk away like it was nothing? live her life like it was nothing?#be in 'love' with her new 'soulmate' after cutting me off like a rotten limb?#i feel so DEEPLY angry. i want to spit vitriol and fire. i want to dig my claws into her bones. make her really FEEL how i feel.#i want to wander into her dreams and make her experience what i felt. every miserable second of silence.#the humiliation of admitting you might be falling in love only to be told you were never loved at all.#and i want to knee her in the gut and spit in her face and really make her regret ever fucking wronging me #but unfortunately im a stupid fucking pacifist so all the aggression and anger and violence has no FUCKING outlet #ive been. trying to not think about it too much. ive been trying to just live my life. because i dont want her to run my life.#but the anger keeps catching up to me. filtering in when i dont expect it. endless constant fucking thoughts coming back to me #on and on and on and on i live and i eat and i read and i game and i hate and i hate and i hate and i hate and i hate and i HATE AND I HATE #the greatest injustice is that i cannot make her truly feel every single ounce of my resentment and anger #it's so overwhelming i think i could choke on it. and she gets to live her FUCKING happy little life with her stupid fucking 'soulmate'#i hope it collapses around her and she loses her too so she's single and alone and miserable and regretting all of her fucking impulsivenes #she deserves to have it fail after what she did to me. and all i can really do is hope that karma has its fucking kiss for her.#if only curses were real. what i wouldnt give to put some energy into that karmic payback lmfao.#ok . ok ok ok ok love and peace on planet earth. i am shifting out of vitriolic little shit mode.#just had to let some of the steam out. im still angry but i am going to go back to not thinking about it.#i think i should go on a nice long bike ride tomorrow. to decompress and work some of the steam out.#it's something that she can never take from me. something that is so wholly mine. fuck that stupid bitch and fuck her new girlfriend too #...............................ok NOW im shifting out of vitriolic mode. lol #negative/#WAHOOOOOO i am certainly not taking this breakup well. but i dont think anyone would be lmfao.#all things considered i think im doing a pretty great job at handling this breakup.#bc at least im only recounting unrealistic threats and fantasies on my tumblr dot com instead of messaging Any of this to her.#i may kinda want her to read it so that she knows anyways. but i wont message her directly. bc i am Trying to be at least a little mature.#complaining on my tumblr dot com so i dont message my ex with more vitriol. gotta cope Somehow.

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sunlightfeeling · 1 year ago

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One a Year: 2000 to 2023

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gemharvest · 5 months ago

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observation I have made about myself and the fixation cycle that I wanted to put into a visual form.

#ramblings #i guess the ``ugh why did it have to be THIS`` thing depends on the specific interest #like danganronpa i hid that shit from everybody until it got too much for me to keep in LMFAO #funkin i didnt necessarily try as hard to hide HOWEVER i was still super fucking nervous about developing this current fixation on it qwq #but i guess the previous two before this current one i havent been as anxious about #mob psycho 100 i know is really liked so i was super excited to be fixated on a piece of media that doesnt have a lot of detractors #and then fnaf ive been into since i was fucking 9 and i make this super clear since when im not fixated it remains a constant casual-#-interest. so theres no shame in me admitting im into something thats kinda just always there with me #soooo fucking curious what the next one is gonna be. i say that as if the second fnaf movie isnt supposed to come out #december next year so i have a ticking time bomb on my fucking ass #tho theres still enough time to where this fixation can fade and a new one kick in. so i guess we will seeeeee #im not betting on this fixation becoming one that lasts longer than a year like dgrp did but itd be nice i think

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wewontbesleeping · 10 months ago

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lol last month i had a party at my house and one of my acquaintances took this old wig off of my mannequin and started wearing it. and it was like. whatever. she's having a rough time. but she took it home and keeps posting pictures of her wearing it like ?? LMAO

#i'm fine with her keeping it bc i've been trying to downsize #and i'm at the point where i'm like PLEASE TAKE SOME OF THIS STUFF every time people come over #but it's still fucking funny that she just TOOK it without saying anything #she's kind of ... a lot lmfao #she actually really freaked me out that night bc she just stayed in the other room and did cocaine by herself for hours and hours #this was supposed to be a chill movie night btw #idk it's whatever tho. she's going through a tough time #but yeah i will not be inviting her to any more movie nights lol

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fr0stbearer · 11 months ago

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got a 79 on my economics finals i need to jump off a cliff 😂

#i still passed that class and got good grades on the rest of my classes too #just waiting for one more but damn this just looks so fucking ugly 😭#dude barely thought anything and he did say he will let u pass as long as you attend his classes AND I DID WTF #even that one time there was only five of us in there like you could've considered attendance bro 😂#i swear all of us learned NOTHING in his class like he would literally just read off the book or a ppt and like..translate it in tagalog #a total of 10 mins of lecture then he starts gossiping with my classmates like it was fine at some point but then he really just kept doing #that on all of his classes like even in the exam day he was so noisy gossiping with the students 😭#he gave out the lesson resources(?) LATE too and i did try to understand them but the exams are just so fucking weird 😭#its like....idk i READ the lessons and understood them but the exam was still so fucking hard like do you want us to pass or not 😂#well idk im just pissed off KSKSKD a line of 7 grade made me the way i am now lol suicidal and shit 😂😂😂#the last time is another complicated story tho...i mean i don't care as much now bc i still passed anyway?#it just looks so ugly.....fuck you 😭#like he didn't even have homework or projects like dude literally just predicted the grade for pre-finals i mean from 93 to 79 like okay 😂#share ko lang 🙄#<- this might be my vent tag KDJDJ i hope no one uses the same thing lmfao

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masqueradewaltz · 1 year ago

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i feel like atsv was pandering to the marvel fans a little. itsv remains superior.

#like what was the reason for so many live action references #also in the beginning when gwen was having her Action Movie Opening Chase Scene the one liners were so... marvel core?#like hes behind me isnt he core. which was annoying for me lmfao and i dont remember itsv being like that #also i signed up for a miles film not a gwen film. not that im complaining but when SPOILERS uncle aaron appears and we meet prowler miles #i was like OMFG yes finally. and then. to be continued??#that was the biggest plot twist in the movie tbh. i didnt expect it at all tho i was like ive already been in this theatre for who knows how #long where are they gonna find the time to wrap it all up #and the time is another 2hr movie???#idk i think movies should be self contained #i think they did a bit too much #maybe they should have made a second miles film ABOUT MILES that was complete both in plot and themes closing out a great duology #and this could have been the third film??#like kathyrn han doc ock is still running around ny right.#idk i feel like this movie was very far from the spiderman core values abt saving the little guy #and you could argue that that was the point w miguel trying to stop miles from saving his dad and everything to do with the spider... team #or whatever theyre called idk #but it never really get back to that #bc its not its own movie lmao #in this movie things happened so they can be wrapped up in the third movie #it suffered massively from second in a trilogy syndrome #all that to say i think story wise i was a little disappointed #for a movie i waited 4 years to see #and after itsv i mean i obviously knew they wouldnt really be able to repeat what made it unique but still...#the animation was excellent though #the soundtrack was immaculate #and i think they did a rly good job making all the spiderppl unique and their worlds having different styles #but yeah #itsv

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crybaby-bkg · 1 year ago

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I be ready to block and filter people and their dumbass opinions off of my dash but then I remember I’m just pmsing

#I think I’m still valid tho #sometimes people should just. shut up.#trying to be helpful about shit but it’s so tone deaf and annoying #and it always seems to come from ***** people #I think I just need to log off and take another nap lmfao #—in store chit chat! 🍫#also this fucking change in buttons is really PISSING ME AWF #literally what was the damn point WHAT DID YOU GAIN

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astrxealis · 2 years ago

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uhh 1bitheart nanashi (pink & white) or neo twewy rindo (yellow & orange & green) or ffxiv wol (aka my character, black & red & purple) or fe3h felix (or dima or yuri or anyone really, idk what colors bcs it depends on the chara but blue & black for felix) or gbf sandalphon (valentine art specifically or tbh just any gbf chara maybe esp one of the six dragons or that new gbf chara in the event or seox, red & green & white) theme

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#kinda wna make a lil teeny tiny poll but anxiety tells me no one will answer LOL #THO I AT LEAST KNOW. my twin ofc. and damn my rational mind tells me more also so i don'f have to be anxious but yeah #anyways nah i don't really wna make a poll unless someone outright tells me to lmfao but uhh if any of you wna tell me #which theme you wna see. hi #SORRY GORO i never finished my idea for u ily but fixation Over (not really but yeah yeah)#yeah idk which i want from these. maybe i will make a poll.#i also wna change my twt theme... and disc.....#I FORGOR SANDALPHON jfc guess what i keep calling him g'raha as well i'm so sorry #i have other ideas oopsies but i will contain myself. try to.#i think these are all my current big fixations. not including terraria bcs i dont want to make a theme for that LMFAO #SO HARD TO PICK OH MY FUCKING GOD SO MANY CHOICES FOR GBF DID YOU KNOW I LOVE GBF #i havent read uhhh yk. tho. havent properly read seeds of redemption #but i do know the whole (important bits at least) story and read online i think #anyways. raghhhhh

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alchemylive · 2 days ago

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FUCK yakuza table smash gif

#working out makes me feel better #:((((#txt #i started yoga at the rec center with this wonderful instructor she's so welcoming and she says my practice is pretty :)#i went last night for the first time and it made me feel so good #i was late this morning tho so i did a 2k on the rowing machine and some core/shoulders/back #i still dont really have workout gear #and i should probably try to get a yoga mat that's tall enough for me lmfao

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orcelito · 4 months ago

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Ykno the suckiest thing about being broken up with for someone else is that like. Well I'm doing generally fine, all things considered, but I Am kinda sad thinking about the things I've lost and all the casual affection that I can't have now.

But she's out there having all the affection she wants from her coworker, and it's just like. Damn this feels so skewed and SO unfair.

#speculation nation #and then U add in the fact that the girl she broke up with me for is already dating someone else (poly sort of situation)#and im just like. WHYYYYY did she break up with me instead of trying to negotiate poly???#she was gonna at first but when i expressed concern about poly given her obvious communication problems about it #then she dropped me like a hot coal. like sorry i wasnt about to let myself be stood up and ignored for basically a whole day #just to accept u trying to negotiate poly. like What?????#anyways i may have a bit of a history with being a bit of an asshole and breaking up with them #but at LEAST ive never broken up with anyone to immediately start dating someone else #and at LEAST ive broken up with them in person and not over text!!! the fuck?????#i keep alternating between 'surprisingly okay with it all' and 'maybe a little sad' and 'absolutely fucking LIVID'#and i keep wanting to yell at her more but i already said quite a lot of things. so id just be repeating myself #and at that point id just be a vitriolic piece of shit. which i try not to be.#so im letting her live in peace while i continue to be So Pissed about it and it just sucks man lmfao #why do i gotta be the bigger person fr. i even apologized for the hurtful things i was saying in anger. literally in that same conversation.#and she gets to pull this stunt and walk free and spend so much time with her new 'love' ignoring the world etc etc #honestly i hope it fails miserably for her. bc sure theres a chance it works out but every single part of this is impulsive and So Stupid.#and even tho my ex agreed with me when i told her it was INSANE. she was just like 'i have to' like OKAY????#jesus fucking christmas she's revealed a side to me that i really hadnt seen before.#so i hope it fails and i hope she tells me about it. i hope she owns up to her mistakes. for my own satisfaction.#but i have 0 intention on ever taking her back. because what the fuck????#i may be a flawed individual with plenty of problems. but i still have basic fucking dignity. and i am NOT accepting this back in my life.#and god damn her friend is moving into the unit across from mine for this coming year #and i may have to see my ex sometimes bc of it 😭😭😭#the friend seemed generally level headed tho. idk if i happen across him & he doesnt avoid me maybe i'll ask him what he thinks of this #bc she was treating me with such love and affection showing me off to all her friends. and then she drops me like a fucking coal.#i wouldnt say i made friends with them myself but we were at least friendly. so i doubt theyd have a good opinion of her for this.#so would the friend loyalty take precedence? or would he be willing to chat with me and confirm Yeah what the fuck?#bc if i had a friend who did this same exact thing id be side-eyeing them SO hard.#id support them bc theyre my friend but i would also be like 'hey uh Why did you do that. that was pretty awful of u you know that right'#& itd also make me more cautious of them too. for being Able to drop someone so suddenly lol.

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scarlettcryptid · 26 days ago

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i need a car 🧍🏽‍♀️

#horrific #i hate driving but i can't do shit w/o it #2day was rhe perfect day 2 go beachcombing #i was planning it for a week #then mom had to take grandpa to the ER and im mad cuz i told her to do that yesterday but she didn't #and i know she didn't really do it on purpose but why did she have to leave 30min b4 i planned on leaving 😭#i'll try again tomorrow but i didn't wanna go on a day she had work bc i don't like feeling rushed #it was supposed to rain but it did not. it wouldve been gr8 cuz then most ppl wouldn't have gone to the beach #my hands won't let me do anything for too long but shark teeth hunting is a little easier on them #grasping things does make them cramp bad tho #but let's ignore that i need teeth #scarlett.txt #employment era soon i need an early 2010s toyota or honda civic #my medical bills burning thru my savings too #my body is always deteriorating please hire me #good thing i didn't apply to spirit halloween tho it is so humid and hot in the old sears at the mall #i was supposed to get my little brother's 2014 nissan but my dad gave it to my tío instead and he did need one but im mad #bc he always does that kind of thing to me LMFAO #this was last october im over it now (the car not the dad thing)#(there's always a dad thing)#(dabi let's super glue endeavor to his toilet seat)

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super-done-dead · 2 months ago

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#having very conflicting feelings over this guy #he just keeps telling me all the bad things he’s done but I like him so much #I know I need to run #but also we had really good sex last night….#broke my own fucking rule abt him not staying over AGAIN tho #fuck!!!!#we fucked on the couch lmfao #he left a hickey on my nipple #and I came so #hehehehehehe #when he’s comfortable and fully hard it’s so good #had a house party last night #only had two friends other than him there so once they left…#got to fuckin #all I can think abt is sex #lmfao #my housemates came back at like #8am and I got up lol #went back to bed after he left #we put the dining table in the lounge room to play poker lmfao #the wii is also highly likely to be fuckin broken #which is so disappointing #like I love my Wii #it’s my Wii…#omg so my housemate did speed last night #came back clearly panicked as all fuck and worried #cementing that I shouldn’t try speed tbh #there’s more to this lol

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