#I prob don't disclose everything

[mikodrawnnarratives]

Been thinking Abt how Maggie could grow during trinket duo B4 they get uper close, how her flaws can really flare up, and once she realizes this and apologizes for once, Max becomes the closest person she has, grappling with her selfish tendencies and attachment issues that would need to be addressed at some point for trinket duo to get close, Maggie dealing with her self fulfilling prophecy I always hc her with, Max being like "WTF", and Maggie gets to eventually hsve a moment with him where it's like "sorry. For saying and doing all that. You... You PROMISE you aren't going to leave me? Promise! PINKY SWEAR!! YES PINKY SWEAR!!!"

and then proceeds Maggie just latching onto him. B4, I imagine they find each other out and about and Maggie gets to have her schtick of being annoyed with the ppl she cares most abt, until Max gets enough of it, growth, hey Max I'm coming in through your window now

Anyway, trinket duo making friendship bracelets for each other and it means everything to Maggie. She doesn't fucking say shit Abt how much it means to her though lmao

[cheesus-doodles]

Heyyy! I have been so cray over your red dragonflies works! I just finished dont look back in anger and just EVERYTHING is so good!! You have prob been asked tons of times but could ask about another part of the story being done! I adore your works and most of your stuff is in my likes :`). Please and thank you!!

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OWHJDHDHDHHD AHHHHH IM SUPER PUMPED TO HEAR THAT!!! absolutely made my day ahhh still find it hard to believe that there are sweet folks like you out there who enjoy my red dragonflies universe and ny writing :') thank you so much for reaching out and letting me know!!

i've unfortunately got some sad news i have to disclose - i have yet to start writing the next chapter... planning is in progress but i work full time and have so much others to write as well jdnjxjxjx im sorry ;-; i'll try my best to get it out as quick as i can but especially when it comes to my Reds, I just must make sure the chapter is top quality!! in the meanwhile, i'll get some shorter fics out about my Reds to fill the gap - sorry i dont have better news...

thanks again for your kind words, there definitely will be a next chapter, and i'll work hard to get it out! :D

[zingaplanet]

What are your thoughts on Rafole? I fell down a rabbit hole on everything regarding them and their relationship and it’s very interesting how they went from being quite close to not…

My darling I love u but I'm trying to stay djoko-free and drama-free so I'm rlly not the best person to ask this hahahaha. Either way I don't think I'm qualified to speak about their relationship simply because I don't know much about it? I'll give my best perception but honestly take it with a kilo of salt lol. I seem to remember there was a falling out over Djokovic's father at some point (or was that with Federer?)

All I know is Novak's relationship with Rafa wasn't the only one that kinda suffered this fate. I don't think Novak was ever close with Roger to begin with, but pretty sure him and Murray used to be quite good mates (they were kinda childhood friends on the tour and played doubles) but that kinda fizzled out in the end. Nadal, Djokovic, Murray were kind of a strange teenager friend group at some point, simply I assume cause they're basically just from the same generation on the tour (they played together since juniors as well) and used to play video games n football together i think.

A bit strange cause I don't think Rafa and Andy's friendship ever really got strained. But then again it's completely understandable within an environment as competitive as them (considering the Nadal-Djokovic rivalry is much more competitive and tbf to Andy maybe, I too would find it difficult to be besties with somebody who beat me 6 times in an AO final 😭).

Don't think there's any point in guessing round the dynamics of the men's tour's locker room throughout the years. It definitely is fascinating, tennis is prob the only sport where you have to share locker rooms with your rivals every day of the year, something here and there are bound to happen, I guess. I bet you there are a shiton of gossips more scandalous than the royal family there throughout the 2000s but I also guess that there's a kind of unspoken code of conduct that you shouldn't ever talk about it? Which is why even the retired players never really did (look at A-Rod he's the biggest gossiper there is even he never said anyth about shits going down in the locker room lol).

Whether it was simply them growing up, having families, becoming more serious in their careers and hence more competitive with each other then grew apart or was there an actual internal friction/conflict I don't really know. Not that we'd ever know for sure I think, they'll prob never ever disclose it for PR reasons (maybe when they're retired). For me, Djokovic seems like quite a lone wolf on tour (?) which is quite sad, but maybe that's the way he prefers to stay competitive. He generally seems to have a kind of joker persona that's either well-liked or a bit divisive n he seems close with his Serbian countrymen although never really to the level of friendship with any specific one of them like Nadal did with Marc Lopez or Federer did with Wawrinka. This is all just my perception of course n could be 1000% wrong.

Anyhow, as the two remaining of the big 3 and looking at the way they interact (in laver cup and in charity matches in the AO for instance) i think it's obv that their relationship has grown into one of massive respect for one another, there's still a hint of kind of an old banter there sometimes (look at when they partnered up for the AO relief last year), but it doesn't seem like they have much of a personal relationship nowadays beyond that of respectful, competitive rivals who drove each other at the last leg of their careers.

Rafa and Andy are different tho, quite evident in the way Rafa invited him to his insta live and them interacting by challenging each other to play playstation afterwards. Even in Novak and Andy's insta live, I seem to remember there was a section where Novak said he was actually really glad to be able to do this instalive with him cause they "never had the chance to talk about this kind of things (personal stuffs) before" seemingly kinda hinting that they've been cordial and friendly these days but they never really ✨️ held each other's hands✨️ if u know what i mean lol.

Ok i could do a full on analysis of their interactions or instalives but this will take me 5 lifetimes lol. All in all, I just wanna be honest that I don't, emm how do i put this, really get Djokovic? I can't seem to get a read on him as a person, which is quite strange. I read politicians' faces for a living and I feel like you can always tell what someone is like based on their public persona a little bit cause nobody can hide that well without injecting a bit of themselves into their PR front (Federer is like the most PR perfect guy ever but even sometimes he slips up). Djokovic is just... really hard to read? Although ppl see him as the joker etc I always kinda feel that he's a very closed off person, at least with his personal thoughts. I don't really know what's going through his mind when he does certain things sometimes. But hey, each to their own right?

Again anon, you have alas triggered again this aimless rambling of mine, but there you go, one must eat the fruit that they've picked, (What even is this saying lol, sorry!)

[80svhstapes]

Hi! I'm a follower of yours. I understand hatred for antis but reading things such as "she is prob white" or "white ppl don't get racism" is hurtful. I might be white but I faced heavy racism in the European country my parents and grandparents immigrated to. I'd rather not disclose this on here if that's ok. It's a bit better now but still not quite over. I still face racism sometimes even as soon as they see my surename. I've had a kid tell me "My mom said I'm not allowed to play with you because you're of this nationality" when I was a child. Sadly there are still other forms of racism I wish we not undermine or discard in order to counter antis. We should stand together against antis no matter what nationality 💚 this is no attack by any means I love your blog and your energy in standing your ground. Let's keep on doing this together. You don't have to reply btw just wanted to tell you since I feel it often gets slept on and people forget racism comes in all sorts of nasty forms 🙏🏻

yeah i definitely agree with you on this one hon, I don't really like people who say that either

while i do know that racism comes in many forms, its the white antis that specifically undermine my traumatic experiences with racism to "prove that theyr're morally superior because they don't stan a racist" or whatever, its the performative activism that does my head in

but yeah everything you've said i agree with you on

[manonamora-if-reviews]

Dysfluent by Allyson Gray

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============= Synopsis

Sometimes talking is easier said than done.

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Dysfluent is a Twine(Harlowe) game, submitted to the 2023 edition of the IFComp

Status: Completed Genre: Slice-of-life

CW: / - timed text, animated text

============= Playthrough

Played: 14-Oct-2023 Playtime: about 30min Rating: - [IFComp vote] Thoughts: Untimely struggles...

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Dysfluent is a fairly short slice-of-life story, where you spend the day as a person with a stutter, trying to get through their day. The game uses text animation to highlight the struggles of living with a stutter. While the game includes achievements, linked to choices throughout the story, there is only one ending.

Spoilers ahead. It is recommended to play the game first. The review is based on my understanding/reading of the story.

Aside from my gripes with the timed text (more on that later), the game was quite enjoyable. I found the story especially quite touching with its representation of the realities of living with a stutter (the colour use for the choices were smart!*). Trying to go through the whole checklist of actions made me feel quite anxious (would I manage to go through the day before just calling it quits?), which was pushed further with the formatting of the text. Social interactions felt like a nightmare, and the flashbacks made everything worse. *though I was a dummy, and put the same thing for the best and worst dish... played myself there...

Though there are heavy moments throughout the story, I felt like the game tried to be as light-hearted as possible (save for the flashbacks). You may have a bit of a hard time saying certain words, or get some weird looks from people, but you leave each sequence with what you needed or did the best you could. It sometimes felt like you struggled more with your own feelings than other around you? Which I makes sense if your upbringing laughed at the ailment or looked at you with contempt at best.

It was a bit of a bummer to find out you wouldn't get the job, but it also didn't feel much of a loss when it happened - partly because of the conversation you have with your friend just after the news, but also because there is not much information on the job itself or what the MC thought of the job. Was it a job where talking is required or an added bonus? Did we really want that job? Did we need the job? Was there outside expectations with getting this job? Why didn't we disclose that we had a stutter before*? Would it have changed anything if it did? Was the company open to accessibility? Did we prepare ahead of the job at all? Just having to pick up a suit at the dry cleaner didn't feel enough, I guess? *maybe because we feel ashamed, prob

I understand the choice of using animation and timed text to emphasise on the hardships of having a stutter, how seconds feels like minutes when words don't want to come out, how frustrating it can be to be blocked for no reason, how anxious it can make you knowing something requires speech... but the overuse and drawn-out length of the timed text becomes more a friction than pushing the point (especially as a fast reader). For many passages, I would be doing something on the side, waiting for the page to load fully before continuing to play. As the animation setting is locked behind the ending (for understandable reasons, also makes replaying the game more smooth), I would advise a reduction of the use of the timed text (instead of bits of sentences, show the whole paragraph) or of the time between each block (at least by half, not more than 2s), or transforming it into a type-writer animation, or making the player click-to-reveal (trying to push the words out of their mouth).

It was frustratingly nice.

[feydrautha]

What do you think people close to Alicent think about her relationship with Larys? Canonically, we know Aemond hates him, but what do Aegon and Halaena think of him? Otto and Criston (especially because of his Madonna complex towards Alicent + Rhae banging the other Strong) would probably hate it, but how do they try to stop it? Does Viserys think she's banging this twink on the side and not care? Do Rhae and Harwin joke about Strongs having a thing for strong women? Larys is pretty solitary, but Alicent connects to a whole bunch of people who all have different dynamics with her and view her so differently that I'd be curious to know their reactions. Go into the nitty gritty, bestie!

Oh, I think at this point I need to disclose that I just started reading Fire and Blood, and everything I know about it was me spoilering myself (because I honest to god don't care for spoilers) but from what I heard is that... y'know what, this will come under a read more (spoilers for F&B and future spoilers for HOTD incoming)

He is going to be on the Green Council as the official Master of Whisperers, so I assume that Aegon approves of the job he does just well, if not only because Alicent vouches for him and he trusts his mother on her word. He probably doesn't feel very [sighs] strongly about him, we know he doesn't approve of Otto's tenure as Hand during his reign because Otto would rather rely on diplomacy instead of having a more hands-on approach as Criston would have it, so I don't see him having a whole lot of respect for the secrecy and discretion needed to be spymaster, but Mother Knows Best, so what gives? If he finds out or thinks they're banging? Ew, gross, but is he gonna do something about it? Considering what a mumma's boy he is, probably not.

And this is entirely wishful thinking and gets a tragic dimension when you consider that Larys might be the one to cause her death, but I really hope we get a scene between him and Helaena - I think there's a lot of potential for a positive relationship, maybe a bit similar to what he had with Alicent in the sense that he doesn't write her off because of her behaviour (and if she is indeed talking about prophecies, there's an actual use to it) and sees her. Helaena might seem very indifferent to her surroundings (she certainly doesn't care how she is perceived by others, girl does not give two shits lol) but she is perceptive and that could either see her not seeing through Larys and not trusting him as far as she could throw him (the right choice) or having something like a peaceful coexistence with him. Does she care her mum is fucking this guy? Not really.

I went into Otto's reaction in another ask, and lmao, how funny that I answer this ask when we have it confirmed that Criston totally does catch the vibe and is weirded out by it, if not downright disgusted by it. That delivery of "unabashedly" is still so funny though, because it's clearly a euphemism for "he's totally giving you the fucky eyes". Does Criston stop it? He tries to vaguely allude to sin, whatever, Alicent doesn't reply, then sends him away, and that was the end of that discussion.

Viserys, I genuinely doubt he cares. If the gossip reaches him, he dismisses it, and he tells himself that this isn't happening because it's a ridiculous assumption that Alicent is cheating on him, but in the depth of his heart, he knows but it's also [shrug]. If this were to become public knowledge, he would have Larys punished despite being the Hand's son, but oh god, he is so tired, the man just wants to build his Lego 10 000+ pieces set of Old Valyria Pre-Doom, he is suffering from leprosy, parts of his body are literally rotting away, he's still mourning Aemma's death, whatever.

LMFAO if Harwin knows, Larys has not known peace ever since. Probs vaguely alluded to it without mentioning names so that you'd be sure no one could tell who he is talking about, and Rhaenyra goes "Oh, you're talking about your brother being Alicent's side piece, yeah, everyone who pays attention to what the servants say know that.", to which Harwin replies something along the lines "Huh. I guess you're right. Well, guess Strong men do make legs weak, aha."

Phew, if Rhaenyra knows about it... I think she'd be even more disappointed in Alicent though? First she fucks and marries her dad, then she cheats on him, and has the nerve to spread the word that Rhaenyra is sleeping with another man besides her husband? There are totally some Kill Bill sirens going off in her head whenever she sees them standing next to each other.

TL;DR: it's mostly wilful indifference and disapproval while Harwin is the only one in their corner, even if it's only because of Larys, and Helaena would just rather talk to her beetles.

[diver-up]

not to be invasive, and i understand if you don't feel comfortable answering, but: are you a person of color? just because while i DO think it's an issue when people online have to divulge their identity or trauma or etc in order to be able to speak about a subject. i ALSO tend to view info more critically when i know someone who's calling out and speaking about racism is white. however, this is more of a personal thing, and overall your messages stand, so feel free to ignore this if you want

don’t worry, this is an important thing to disclose! if anything this ask made me realize i havent vocalized it enough so ppl know. i am white, & i completely understand the critical aspect of it when it comes to spreading info on racism. i usually prefer to rb posts abt racism in pjo rather than personally speaking abt it bc it’s not my place but if i do get asks abt it i’ll explain. + w/ the way fans of color are treated here i don’t mind taking the time to call someone out and explain the probs w/ riordan’s work, especially since most of the time the person in question is annoyed at best and outright hostile at worst. idk if this is abt d*midorks specifically or not but after everything that went down w/ riordan & the harassment of fans of color fr speaking out, posting art w/ the exact problems that were discussed was beyond tasteless. they also claimed to have known & spoken abt piper’s racist depiction in the past yet continued to reblog said racist art anyway, so

but yeah, don’t b afraid to ever call me out if i overstep or anything. i have a couple thousand followers on here so i try to bring attention to both events that are happening offline + rr crit posts as i see them bc it’s all important to know

[thisistomuchforme]

Hi ok i know this probs sounds weird and I wouldn't send this on anon if i wasnt a social wreck but i dont wanna be like considered weird as a mutual for asking this ;-;

You haven't been as active on here for a few days and i just wanted to say i hope everything is good and ur ok!! i worry about everybody these days because of covid and stuff so i hope everythings ok and your day is going good <3

As a matter of fact my day is going really well and your sweet message just made it better<3

I won't be as active for reasons I don't wanna disclose here but I promise it's nothing bad going on and I am fine. And I hope your doing well yourself!! Even if I don't really know who you are gkdkkfkf

I promise it didn't sound weird, thank you!

[destinimott]

I have revealed to you the truth of all things. Who is God? A question NONE of you ask. you're full of stupid questions. so I took it upon myself to ask the questions you should've been asking. what is the MEANING of life?!

it is to seek DESTINI! GOD 'S SECRET NAME IS DESTINI MA'AT

you MORONS really thought the name of God is God or jesus...

we are Hebrew Gods. phonetically there was no J sound or letter during that period of your lord and savior. but you dismiss FACTS. I am yeshua the messiah. I am not a savior. your lives aren't worth it.

I have disclosed everything about your world on Instagram as gaia_motherearth1 and aphrodite_chaos. so the information is there. I told you that it was gonna rain. no one believed me. so ships closed 🖕🏽🤷🏽‍♀️ you apparently don't learn from anything. this is your fault that these things are happening to you. accept that, that's least you can do for yourself. pass away with some dignity at least.

but good luck hearing from your Christian God. prob somewhere in Mexico.

I am

that I am

[blackrupee]

Wow your life sounds complicated right now I'm sorry for that. So you aren't gonna have any managers what the fuck? And OH MY GOD I hate when people come in to eat so close to close!!!! ( I work @ zaxbys) if someone is acting passive aggressive I would act even more passive aggressive- make that bitch regret it- regarding the 2 guys: 2 guys is better than no guys:))) wish the first one didn't pressure you though. How did the 2nd one hurt you? - and I care so don't worry about boring me

hi hello would you like to read a novel on my life thanks i talk too much (tldrs at end)

nah like.. we had been managing with a general manager and 3 assistant managers even though we really need 4 so as not to overwork anyone. we recently hired a new one from a corporate arbys (we’re franchised) and two just quit. like i mentioned, theyre not coming back even though the original plan was that their new jobs would be only temporary (6 weeks). sooooo now we have a general manager who only works weekday day shifts, one assistant manager who is relatively new (she had been working at this place for a while but was promoted to manager 6ish months ago) and another who is brand new but still has some experience. they said theyre looking to promote from within initially, but they might have to hire outside people if no suitable potential manager is picked. id love to get manager pay and its not like managers do anything hard so id be WILLING to be a manager..like the whole reason why i got trained on backline was because we have such a big turnover rate with backline people since it fucking SUCKS and i was wanting to be helpful and flexible. so like. thats what i offerred. but one assistant manager was like “lmao all youd do is swear at the customers” and im like bitch when have i ever?? i talk shit about them all the time but ive only sworn IN FRONT OF a customer twice and neither time was it directed at them. but i mean im sitting on a small handful of customer complaints so its not like the gm would even consider me probably. idk dude. i can be nice if you pay me to be nice. but i get paid to do food and do it fast……….so

but yeah literallyyyyyyyyy i have no idea how people can be so??? inconsiderate???? and they dont??? care??? im learning that my contant frustration with people in my personal interactions is due to a disconnect between what i value in  expectations and what actually happens. like. when i go somewhere i already KNOW what i want, so i say it quickly and competently. i preface a lot of my interactions with people im requesting food or services from with “i’m sorry but…”. i phrase things as “could i get” as opposed to “get me” or “i want” which sound HELLA rude tbh. id always have my money ready at the window or the register, im always trying to pay attention and not miss anything or just….be rude in any way bc i know fast food fucking sucks. i know some of the people i interact with probably hate their job as much as i do and i want to be the smallest burden i can be. and it seems like nearly no one else has these same values???? and i dont understand how people can just??? be? so? inconsiderate?

also yes bitch im the queen of passive aggression. literally the night before i was working a short shift and my friend was closing frontline and this bitch was closing drivethrough. i just got the okay to clock out and i was like “bye! have a beautiful night! just know that i love you so much and ive everything ive ever said has always been fake until this point! never meant anything ive ever said until now especially if your name starts with k or ends with ristin (drivethrough girl/the one whos being so difficult is named kristin) but just know that i love you!” and basically being really dramatic and extra as satire.

i guess for context the whole reason she decided to be mad at me was the other night when she was drunk and was like “do you even likeeeeeee meeee i feel like you hateeeee meeee wahh wahh wahhhh” even though im like…..yes bitch i enjoy your company? i joke/use hyperbole/satire/irony/whatever a lot but like occasionally id be like “ey yo you know its all jokes right u know i love u right” just to ensure that she knows but she fucking. ignores it all. i feel like she so desperately WANTS me to hate her and tbh i got fucking sick and tired of hearing her complain all the time about this shit! i fucking hate repeating myself! so sure. if you want me to hate you so fucking much there. i hate you. i fucking hate you so fucking much. like is that what you want to hear? is that validating? are you fucking happy?

its so fucking frustrating

but i will not be held accountable for her decision to be upset. because thats what it is. she wants to be upset, and she wants me to be responsible for it when its literally not my responsibility. i am absolutely not going to stand for this shit like i kind of want to say its emotional abuse lmaooo but im just so fucking sick of it. 

everyone knows that i take chicken tenders and turnovers that would be thrown out at the end of the night and she was closing frontline yesterday and made a point to throw out the turnovers right next to me without asking if i wanted any/leaving any for me. i mean i completely expected her to be that petty of a bitch so it was kind of funny tbhonestly. also im p sure she unfollowed me here lmaoo

with regards to the guys and this paragraph could get a bit tmi/nsfw: yeah the first one kind of sucked but i feel like a little bit of the New Person Nerves have worn down so id do better if we were to hookup again. because like i totally would love to have fucked him but…..anxiety. he was hot tho. like 10/10 body and ass holy shit. plus he complimented me on my ass eating so (assuming that was genuine and not a vapid ego boost haha paranoia am i right) hopefully he comes back for seconds. 

second guy ive had a longish history with. started talking to him at the beginning of last fall semester and we hooked up kinda regularly for about a month. things fell apart, we both understood that we wouldn’t be good dating wise but still enjoyed meaningless cuddles. whatever. it got to a point where he would only hit me up like once every month and a half or so and towards like january-ish he hits me up again. so im like nice cool lets chill. im getting ready for this but my phone is in the other room. while im doing this he drove by my place to pick me up (since he was on his way back from nashville), didnt get a response to an “im here” text (bc i was busy and tbh not expecting him to do that), and left. he lives within like walking distance tho so im like “?? sorry i was busy are you still out or should i walk over?“ and he texts me like “sorry hold up a thing just happened” and im like…….okay. so im just.. waiting around for him. periodically texting like “hey are we good for tonight and whats going on?” because like there was some drama with his friend? hes like.. apologizing and shit but this goes on for an hour. BUT. the ENTIRE time he’s dealing with this friend problem or whatever he’s literally on grindr. and at the end of this hour im like in full blown paranoia panic mode and i literally text him something mentioning this and he BLOCKS ME ON GRINDR so im like ??????!!!!??? and i text him (all while saying “not to be crazy or paranoid bc im probably coming off that way but like could i get an answer or something??”) AND HE LITERALLY SAYS HE DELETED HIS GRINDR. but thats a LIE because i have a secondary account to see like……if guys are still on grindr/if a thing with a guy might turn into something more like if i see he’s not on grindr as much?? thats prob incredibly stalkerish and probably really creepy but hey. thats me. so i KNOW he lied to me but i cant really say “hey ur a liar” without disclosing this weird creepy stalker part of me (funnily enough this isnt the first time a guy has lied to me and i caught it with my secondary account! so it proves to have some function use in the end. not totally crazy). so. yeah. that was the incident. after this i dont trust him at all, and i still dont, but i had it in my mind to like somehow get him to fall in love with me just so i could break his heart for doing this? never really worked out. so now im at the point where im like….eh he’s a piece of shit and i hate him but ill cuddle with him bc it feels good

back to nsfw/tmi: the sex was okay. he’s weird about people being near his like….dick and stuff because he was raped and i totally get it bc i was too but he was comfortable enough for me to finger him and my finger still hurts from where he clenched when he came lmaoooooo. was totally hot tho. and i got to east his ass so im like eyyyyyyyy. its been so long since ive eaten ass so having it two consecutive nights in a row has been cathartic.

tldr; we have 2 assisant managers and a gm rn. looking for more

tldr; bitch. same.

tldr; bitch. same.

tldr; he’s a liar