#I order food in celebration becauseeee

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I’m free :-) my portfolio is uploaded! Now just have to get my presentation written uk tomorrow. But I’m fucking FREEEEEEEEE

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Sirius as a clingy drunk and remus just happens to be the person he clings to most, if Remus hugs and cuddles cannot be acquired he clings to James and whines about Remus, how pretty he is, how much he wants to snog him and wanting Remus to hug him

it was the last quidditch game of sirius’ hogwarts career, and they’d only gone and bloody won.

as expected, the after party was insane. there was food and music and, most importantly, alcohol.

the common room was still heaving and not just with gryffindors. it was a friday night and apparently the hufflepuffs and ravenclaws who had found the way into the common room to celebrate slytherins defeat, were willing to risk a detention in order to stay long into the night.

“are you not dancing?” lily asked, flopping down next to Sirius on the sofa, her cheeks pink and her smile wide.

“is remus still in the library?”

lily grinned, “aw, you know how he gets before the moons.” she checked her watch. “pince will have kicked him out by now, he’ll be back soon.”

sirius nodded and took a generous sip of his drink. he had been dancing, a lot. he’d sung abba with james and he’d screamed along to bowie songs and he’d jumped on the table so much one of the legs had started to break.

now, however, he just wanted remus. it was a full moon the following night and remus’ headaches were beginning to appear so he had made his excuses. valid excuses, but excuses nontheless.

sirius hadn’t even seen him since they’d won the match; since james had scored right before the slytherin seeker caught the snitch giving them those ten points they needed for the 150 slytherin scored not to matter. it had been a hell of a victory and a hell of a game.

“there you go, what did i say,” lily grinned, pointing towards the portrait hole. remus had appeared. and he was making a move towards the stairs.

“moony!” sirius leapt up from his seat and wrapped remus in a tight hug just before he could begin climbing up to the dormitory.

“agh,” remus exclaimed; he hugged him back anyway. “sirius, let me go.”

sirius just held on tighter. “i missed you.”

remus laughed, “i’m right here.” he dropped his voice to a whisper, “padfoot, you need to let me go.”

sirius sighed and reluctantly detached himself. it sucked, keeping their relationship a secret. sirius knew it was the wisest thing to do, but it still hurt to have to keep everything behind closed doors, especially now, when all he wanted to do was kiss him. but he couldn’t, because people were there.

“you played really well,” remus said, softly.

“for you.”

he smiled at that. “sirius, i’m going to bed now, yeah?”

“noooo,” sirius complained, touching remus’ face and tracing his bottom lip with his thumb. it was not at all platonic but sirius was drunk and people probably wouldn’t give it a second glance.

“yes. keep celebrating, don’t worry about me, okay? i’m really proud of you.”

i love you sirius thought, but the words didn’t leave his mouth and he let remus ascend the stairs.

“prongsssss!” he spun and found james, dancing wildly, and made a beeline for him. “evans, i’m stealing james,” he announced. grabbing james’ sleeve.

“pete, you’re in,” james enthused, pointing at the boy in the corner. peter looked up at him, shook his head, and fell asleep almost immediately.

“what’s up?” james asked as sirius pulled him onto the sofa.

“i’m in love with remus.”

james laughed, “sirius, i know, you told me last year, remember?”

“no,” sirius waved a hand dismissively, “i mean i love him but i haven’t told him that yet.”

“oh... do you want to?”

“obviously! have you said it to evans?”

“well... yeah.”

sirius groaned and lay down, his head in james’ lap. james laughed but didn’t shake him off.

“i love him so much,” sirius complained. “he’s so kind and he puts up with all my shit and he’s so beautiful and—”

james laughed again, “i don’t know why you’re telling this to me!”

“becauseeee,” sirius whined, “he’s gone up to bed and i haven’t kissed him all day because there’s always people around and it just makes me sad that i can’t.”

james ran a hand through his hair, “aw, mate, it’s okay. why don’t you go and find him now?”

sirius rotated himself so that he was looking up at the ceiling. “what do you mean?”

james shrugged, “go find him. he’s upstairs and we’re all down here.”

“but i’m drunk, he won’t think i mean it.”

james ruffled his hair, “he loves you too.”

“did he tell you?”

“he didn’t need to.”

sirius smiled, “you’re a good friend james.” he sat up and everything went blurry for a second before refocusing. he took james’ head between his hands. “no, a brother. you’re a good brother.”

james laughed and pushed his hands away, “yes, okay, now go and find remus he can be all clingy with him instead.”

sirius nodded and stood from his seat, “i love you james! but not like that.”

some of the common room heard it and laughed. “love you too, padfoot.”

sirius saw lily laughing before kissing james’ cheek as he climbed the stairs, slowly as to not fall down them.

“moonyyyy.”

remus pulled back the bed curtains and laughed when he saw the state of sirius, “what are you doing up here?”

“i want to see you, obviously.” he lay on the bed next to remus and immediately wrapped his arms around him.

“you’re so clingy when you’re drunk.”

“‘s not just the alcohol. i haven’t seen you all day.”

“what do you mean? i was with you all morning.”

“no, but,” he leant up and kissed remus firmly on the lips, “i haven’t properly seen you.”

remus raised an eyebrow, “ah. i see. i’m tired, sirius.”

“nooooo.” he clung to him tightly. remus laughed.

“you should sleep as well, padfoot, you’re going to have a wicked hangover tomorrow.”

he groaned, “i regret that last firewhisky.”

“don’t worry, i went to madam pomfrey on my way back from the library, asked her for some pepper up potion. it’s the moon tomorrow so she didn’t question it.”

sirius nuzzled into his neck, “you’re amazing. you always take such good care of me moony.”

remus chuckled and threaded a hand through sirius’ hair, “yeah, well, you take care of me too.”

“yeah. ‘s cause i love you.” he let go of remus and sat bolt up right which made his head spin. “bugger. wait, okay i swear i’m not just drunk because i do actually happen to—”

remus kissed him. to shut him up, sirius realised that much, but he smiled into it nonetheless. “i’ll say it back if you can remember this in the morning.”

sirius pouted. “that’s not fairrrrr.” they lay back down, sirius’ head on remus’ chest. he started to drift off very quickly after that; remus continued to play with his hair gently.

“i love you too,” he whispered. sirius smiled and finally passed out.