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arandomcat64 · 2 years ago
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Tsukasa is heavily asociated with the number 88, beginning with his second commissioned song, 88☆彡. The song itself has the number 88 as a recurring motif, with some of this symbolism connecting to Tsukasa.
The following is a (hopefully) complete list of the connections the song and Tsukasa have to the number 88:
The song is exaclty 88 measures long.
The song has a BPM of 176, which is 88 in half-time.
The note count for the song's chart on every difficulty ends in 88 (increasing: 388, 588, 688, 1088, 1188)
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There are 88 keys on the piano. Tsukasa's connection to the piano was explored within the On the stage of dazzling light event, the event that 88☆彡 was commissioned for.
When written in English, Wonderlands contains 11 letters, and Showtime contains 8. If the "x" in WonderlandsxShowtime is used as a multiplication sign, 11 multiplied by 8 is equal to 88.
The song is played in the 8th chapter of WonderlandsxShowtime's 8th unit event. While this makes 88 itself, the chapter also happens to be the actual 88th chapter of WonderlandsxShowtime's story altogether (counting all the main story, Virtual Singer main story, and event stories). This doesn't apply to the EN server due to the omission of Revival my dream.
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There are 88 known constellations. Another piece of recurring imagery with Tsukasa is a star, which is included in the song's title. Some constellations can also be seen on his trained Star Melody banner 4* card.
The Tenma siblings (including Toya as their honourary sibling) have birthdays that are 8 days apart (Saki is May 9th, Tsukasa is May 17th, and Toya is May 25th). Tsukasa has the middle birthday of the three, meaning that 88 (or 8 and another 8) connects him to the people he considers most important to him. All three of them are also connected to the piano.
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Tsukasa smiles in the 2DMV at the end of the bridge, which is also 88 seconds into the song.
In addition to this, Tsukasa's third unit banner, Towards the Phoenix at the Sky's Edge, was the game's 88th event. Again this does not apply to the EN server.
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sxfterhearts · 8 months ago
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cafe crush
⋆ ˚。⋆୨୧˚ jiung x reader (+ side co-worker!theo) ୨୧ ‧₊˚ ⋅
♡ genre/warnings: just fluff!!
♡ word count: 2,371 words
♡ summary: 88. “I'll see you later.”
♡ author’s note: i have not written in literal YEARS. but this is a quick one that i whipped up due to a) my ongoing obsession with p1harmony, b) that cursed gif of jiung in the purple hoodie asdfghjhkld, c) my own experience (aka this is heavily based on my cafe crush HAHA) and d) a sudden itch to write?! i'm so rusty, so expect nothing. enjoy!!!! ⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡
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“Just ask for his number!”
“Oh my goodness, stop it!” You hissed at your co-worker, Theo, elbowing him in the ribs. “You’re being so obvious.”
“Oh, shut it.” He retorted, trying to defend himself. Mere seconds ago, Theo was teasing you and laughing boisterously, attracting the attention of some other café patrons. “Not nearly as obvious as when you ogle at him as if he’s your prince charming or something.”
“Not true!”
“So true!”
“Who’s next?” The barista called out from behind the counter. You nudged Theo forwards in response, hoping to linger at the end of the line for a bit longer to catch a glimpse of your prince charming.
Well, okay, you were being dramatic.
He’s not technically your prince charming. He’s not your anyone, really. But he is the super-hot-waiter-who-works-at-the-café-you-frequent-with-your-colleagues-everyday (you figured prince charming was a shorter and more convenient name).
It all started out as an innocent crush – someone who piqued your interest, really. You noticed a month or two ago that there was a new face at your regular café. He was probably around your age, perhaps slightly older, with strikingly silver hair. The first time you laid eyes on him, you nearly choked on your iced latte. He had the kindest eyes that turned into little crescents and a bright smile on his perfect face as he spoke calmly to the café’s never-ending patrons and urged them to write their names down on the waiting list. You even saw him put out a bowl of water for a cute corgi like a true angel, all while taking pictures of it using his phone.
The café you frequented nearly every single workday (and sometimes, even on non-workdays) was super popular. On most days, there was a long line of people waiting for a table at the entrance, and a small group of customers huddled around the takeaway station. You weren’t surprised. After all, the café was in a popular suburb, and they brewed coffee using well-sourced beans they freshly roasted in-house. The coffee always hit the spot for you, whether it was an early Monday morning, or a midday pick-me-up.
Throughout the weeks, though, you found yourself making the short ten-minute trip to the café more often than usual. You used to go to other cafes in the area. Granted, this suburb was filled with many high-quality coffee houses. However, you would be lying to yourself if you said you didn’t go to the café just to catch a glimpse of your favourite barista.
Slowly, you started to find solace in your little café trips. What used to be an obligation to get a shot of your daily caffeine, transformed into a little bit of me-time when you had the luxury of making the trip on your own. It gave you an opportunity to walk around the neighbourhood, or even walk the office dog when she was in (which got lots of attention from the locals along the way). You couldn’t explain it, but the anticipation of looking for something (or rather, someone) and finding them exactly where you expect them to be, brought you a sense of pure satisfaction.
Seeing him there, standing at the entrance greeting customers, or balancing three plates of brunch on his long arms, or even taking orders with a big smile, brought you a sense of calm and familiarity.
Your mind flashed back to one particular Friday, where the weather was ominous outside the office, and you were periodically nodding off at your desk. Something about the gloomy weather made you want to go home, crawl under your covers and take a nap. Just as you were re-reading the same sentence for the nth time, you decided to make a trip to the café. After briefly checking the time (you were lucky – it was only 1:30pm), you headed out with your umbrella in hands.
The moment you stepped outside, you momentarily regretted your decision. The skies had just opened up, and rain started to fall. You hesitated but decided that there was still four hours left of the workday, and there was no way you could get through it without a proper hit of caffeine from your favourite café. So, you braved the wind and the cold and made the trip down, clutching your tiny umbrella tightly in your fists the entire time. When you arrived there however, the rain reduced to a tiny drizzle, and the wind appeared to calm down as well. Just as you rounded the corner, you caught a glimpse of the familiar purple hoodie. With your heart thumping in your chest and a bright smiled plastered on your face, you took a quick glance towards the owner of said hoodie (who was busying himself with introducing the signature brunch menu to a table of first-time customers) and headed towards the takeaway counter.
“How can I help you today?” The barista at the counter broke you out of your trance as you reached the start of the queue.
“Hello! Can I get a cold brew please?”
“Of course! Our cold brew is self-serve. Do you know how to work the taps?”
The cold brew and batch brews were served in coffee taps in this café. It was a favourite amongst your colleagues in the office. When it was sunny, everyone flocked to the café to get a cup of their cold brew.
“Yes, I do.” You chirped in reply and proceeded to pay and thank the barista, wishing them a good day.
As you made your way to the coffee taps, you caught a glimpse of your favourite waiter in the corner of your eye, filling up a bottle of water on the sparkling water taps behind you. You held your breath as you scooped a bit of ice into your takeaway cup and placed it under the tap. He was only five steps away from you, and you struggled immensely to keep your gaze fixed on the coffee instead of him.
While it was certainly fun to self-serve your own coffee, the lids always proved to be a challenge for you and everyone else. Theo himself spilled one too many cups of coffee at this exact spot, just because he couldn’t get the lid on the right way.
When the coffee finished pouring, you grabbed the cup with clammy hands and took a lid off the pile. “Here goes,” you breathed, feeling the eyes of not only the waiter but also the other baristas on you as you attempted to put the lid on.
Your tongue stuck out in concentration, fingers pressing around the rim of the cup. Your breath hitched when you felt the cup bend slightly under your touch. This was probably not going to end well.
“Do you need some help?” A voice spoke from in front of you.
You paused, heart nearly beating right out of your chest from the nervousness. This was the first time you’ve ever had any sort of interaction with the waiter, and for some reason, his velvety voice made your knees a bit weak. It was smooth and deep, like a cup of perfectly blended and roasted coffee.
“Ah…” You laughed, slightly embarrassed. Looking up, you flashed an unsteady smile. You were close enough for once to read off his nametag – Jiung. So that was his name. “I’ve got it, Jiung.” You said, determined.
You looked down before a shy smile appeared on his face at the sound of his name rolling off your lips. You took a breath, and tried again, this time with a slightly different approach. You got half of the lid to catch on the cup, finally, and just a little bit more until you got it secured, and you were so close, just a little bit –
“Ah!” You gasped in shock. Turns out, you pressed a little too hard and the cup folded in on itself, spilling half of the drink on the countertop.
“I saw this coming; you should’ve let me help.” Jiung teased in a light-hearted manner, hands already armed with a cloth to clean up the mess you made. He handed you a paper towel. “Here, did you get any on your clothes? Clean up and I’ll get you another one.”
“Ah, no.” You did a quick check and thanked the heavens that your grey sweater was safe from the coffee damage. “I’m sorry…” You said sheepishly, cheeks turning pink. “I swear I did it properly last time.”
“What’s taking so long? Ah, Y/N, you did it again.” Theo peered over your shoulder and shook his head in disapproval.
“Again?” Jiung questioned, trying to bite back a smile.
“Shut up, Theo!” You whipped your head around and shot daggers at him with your eyes. “It’s fine, I’ll meet you back at the office.” You squinted and stared at him, trying to communicate with him non-verbally to leave you alone with your café crush.
Thankfully, Theo was smart enough to get the message. “Alright, I’ll tell Keeho you’ll be late to the meeting because of your little accident.”
“Go!” You hissed, threatening to throw your used paper towel at him. His arms shot up in surrender as he backed away and walked back to the office.
“Your coffee.” Jiung said, presenting you with a perfectly covered cup of cold brew. “Next time, don’t be afraid to ask for help. You’d be amazed just how many people have done that.”
“But you guys make it look so easy, I thought I could do it too.” You pouted, accepting the drink and slightly brushing over his fingers as you did so. Your body tingled at the short-lived moment of skin-to-skin contact.
Jiung laughed at that. “You’re forgetting that we do hundreds of these a day. Let the experts handle it, okay?”
“Jiung, lunch!” One of the chefs yelled out from the kitchen.
“In a sec!” He yelled back. Turning back to you, he said, “I’m gonna go on my lunch break soon. Anything else I can help with?”
You gnawed at your bottom lip for a few seconds and played with your fingers which were interlaced around your cup coffee. Jiung couldn’t help but to watch and stare at your lips as you did so, hypnotised. “Actually, there is…”
“Oh, were you waiting on takeaway food? If you’re in a hurry I can check with the back if you – ”
“No, actually,” you interjected softly. “I was wondering if… I could get your number?” You asked, uncertain. “Only if you’re single, of course.” You took a sip of your coffee to calm yourself down. Clearly it didn’t work because you started to ramble. “But who am I kidding, you obviously have a girlfriend. Anyways, I’m late for a meeting so I should just go…”
Just as you were about to turn around and walk away and hide at your office desk, Jiung waved his hands out to stop you. “Wait!” He said belatedly, after opening and closing his mouth for a minute too long. “I- I- I don’t.” The two of you locked eyes, remaining silent for a few seconds to let his words sink in. “Hold on, you just- I just- I -” He shook his head and heaved a sigh. “Sorry, just give me a sec okay? I’m on my lunch break, I’ll walk you back.”
You couldn’t do anything but nod at his words as he turned around and raced back to the kitchen to grab his lunch. The minutes felt like hours as you waited for him, sipping on your coffee, and allowing the cherry and chocolatey notes to invade your tastebuds. You felt a bit numb after your confession that wasn’t really a confession, yet your heartbeat refused to stop thudding against your ears in anticipation. You really couldn’t tell how this would end.
“Hey, sorry I took so long.” Jiung said, breathless, as he came around the other side of the counter, dressed in a black cap to match his black hoodie. Now that he was standing in front of you, you realised just how tall he was. “Do you work around here, Y/N?”
You shivered at the way his voice wrapped around the syllables of your name. You could only look up at him and nod and point in the general direction of your office.
“I thought so, I see you here all the time.” Jiung continued, slowing his footsteps to walk at the same pace as you as you lead the way.
“You noticed me?”
“Of course, how could I not?” He replied, hands coming up to rub the back of his neck as an embarrassed grin paints itself on his features. “I’m always waiting around to catch a glimpse… of you…” His voice got softer and softer and trailed off towards the end of the sentence.
“You do?” Your eyes turned as wide as saucers.
“Yeah, seeing you is the best part of my shift.” He says, as plain as day, as if he was stating a well-known fact, or reading out the weather forecast, or answering a math question.
“Seeing you is the best part of my day.” You countered.
“Are you sure it’s not just the caffeine?” He teased, bumping your shoulders as you walked with matching steps.
“That too,” You admitted, lips pulling into a small smile. “But seeing your smile in the middle of a boring workday makes things a lot more bearable.”
“That’s…” Jiung trailed off again. “So cute.” He burst into an uncontrollable fit of laughter in combined fascination and disbelief, and you thought that nothing, not even the sounds of angels singing at the gates of heaven could be better than this. “Oh, here.” He stopped and pulled out a piece of paper from his pocket. He reached out for your hand, and dropped it into your palms.
“What’s this?”
“My number, silly. What are you doing tonight? If you’re free, let’s grab dinner?”
You couldn’t hide the pure excitement and joy seeping out of your body. It took everything in your power to not jump up and down on the spot. “Yeah,” you breathed out, still unable to believe that shooting your shot actually worked for once. “Yeah, I’ll see you later at 6.”
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misshoneyimhome · 8 months ago
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But with three of us, honey, it's a sideshow I William Nylander & Matthew Knies - Part two
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Summary; A quote by Hector Urquhart goes "One man's rubbish may be another's treasure" - however, what happens, when the first man realises that it wasn't rubbish after all?
Other notes: Alrighty babes, so here's the continuation (yes, there will be a part three) of the threesome drama I've been imagining 🙃 And if you notice me alternating between the good guy and the bad guy, it's because I'm debating with myself along the way 😉 Anyway, I hope you still find it enjoyable 🤍
Tropes & Warnings; William Nylander x Matthew Knies x reader, Friends to lovers; jealousy; 18+ smut; fingering, protected penetrative sex (p in v); bloody nose, mild "fighting";
Word count; 6.2K+
Taglist; @couldawouldashoulda50 @findapenny @justwanderingbutneverlost @Fortheloveofnylander
➼。゚
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The game against the Tampa Bay Lightning turned out to be incredibly frustrating and verging on awful for the Leafs. They just didn’t perform at their best, and the Lightning quickly gained the upper hand. Only Auston’s power play goals offered a glimmer of hope for the team, but it was short-lived as they struggled to coordinate effectively.
And what was particularly evident to everyone, especially the team's coaching staff, was the lack of teamwork between players 88 and 23. So, as the game ended with a 4-1 loss for the Leafs, Coach Keefe wasted no time in pulling the two players aside in the corridor.
“I don’t know what the fuck is going on between you two… but whatever it is, you better fucking sort it out and stop behaving like spoiled kids.”
“Yes coach…” 
“Sorry, coach…”
It was a stern reprimand, but a necessary one. While neither player had intentionally avoided each other on the ice, their subconscious actions had influenced their performance, which was unacceptable at their level of play.
So, as they stood there in the Scotiabank Arena corridor, exchanging glances, they understood that they had to address the issue. Their focus had to be on the game, and no personal matters should interfere. However, putting this into practice would prove to be much easier said than done.
Once both lads had changed into their regular attire and left the locker room to greet the gathered family and friends, they purposefully avoided you. Not out of desire, but out of necessity.
You seemed to be a source of disruption for both of them, and at that moment, they needed to clear their minds and concentrate on hockey. With the playoffs looming closer, both of them had much to demonstrate.
And in truth, you didn’t mind the avoidance. You weren’t inclined to confront either of them, so the lingering silence among the three of you created a strangely calming atmosphere for the already lacklustre evening.
Even in the subsequent two days, there was minimal communication from both players, leaving you feeling somewhat unsettled. Unsure of the nature of their exchange, you contemplated initiating a conversation, but instead, you welcomed the drama-free days, immersing yourself in work and sidestepping your own conflicting emotions.
However, that all changed when you were picking up your favourite coffee at the quaint nearby café you frequented, and you turned around only to find William's handsome face before you.
“Willy,” you gasped, feeling a sense of déjà vu as if history were repeating itself with his unexpected appearance.
“Hey y/n,” he spoke softly, a charming smile playing on his lips.
“What are you doing here?” you asked tentatively, aware that this wasn’t exactly his usual haunt, though close enough for him to drop by easily.
William chuckled lightly, shrugging as he gestured towards his hands in his pockets. “Just passing by, taking the dogs for a walk,” he nodded towards the window, where you spotted Pablo and Banksy tied up outside, patiently awaiting their owner.
“Oh,” you simply replied, surprised by the slight prickle of disappointment that flickered in your heart.
“And... I sort of... was hoping to bump into you,” William admitted nervously, rubbing the back of his neck as he avoided meeting your gaze.
And just like that, the disappointment swiftly faded, replaced by a small smile that crept onto your lips. You couldn’t quite pinpoint why this moment held such significance for you, but seeing William here, making an effort to find you on a Tuesday before the match later, warmed something inside you.
“Oh,” you responded with a gentle smile, still standing amidst the quiet of the small coffee shop. Fortunately, there were few people around, given that it was just before the afternoon rush. “Why... why were you hoping to see me?” you asked softly, the curiosity evident in your voice.
“Well, uh... I mean... I think I just... I just wanted to apologise... for being distant and all...” William began, his tone hesitant as he tried to collect his thoughts and find the best way to express himself. Then taking a deep breath, he timidly continued, “Listen, y/n... I know you’ve started something with Kniesy, and... that you’re happy, but... I’ve come to realise that lately, I’ve just been missing you a lot, and, I know, it’s a pretty mad and shitty thing to do, but... I just know that I really like you  - and I’d hate myself if I didn’t tell you that… I guess I’m sort of... maybe, in love or something…” William released a heavy sigh of relief. “I’m not trying to come between you two, but... at least now you know... sorry.”
You couldn’t believe it. Was he truly serious right now? Just when you were finally making an effort to move on from him, to try and bury the wonderful moments you’d shared, he drops this bombshell.
Lost for words, your eyes nearly glistened as your mind waged an internal battle between wanting to punch him and wanting to kiss him. But instead, you remained still, managing only a soft voice.
“Yeah... this is a pretty shitty thing to do, Willy,” you said, mustering half a smile. “Where was all of this last year?”
“I’m sorry,” he repeated, his apology sincere. “I guess I was just so focused on hockey that... I didn’t want to risk, you know, feelings messing with it…” he admitted with another sigh. “But as it turns out, they did anyway... and now I fear I’ve lost you for good.”
You had to swallow hard as you noticed the sincerity in his eyes, and you couldn’t deny that his words made your heart sink in your chest. Taking a deep breath, you tried to find the best words to navigate this difficult situation.
“Willy, you could never lose me for good,” you whispered. “But... I didn’t need to see you with someone else to know I liked you... and now, I’m just worried that the only reason you feel this way is because of Kniesy…”
A part of you resisted believing that this was true, but you’d been hurt enough times before to know this seemed like the most likely explanation.
“Y/n, I swear... I mean, seeing you with him did make me realise it, but…” William struggled to find the right words. “It’s not about him... it’s about you. And the other night, when you called me because you were scared... it just hit me how much you really mean to me… But if you say you don’t feel anything for me and you want me to stay away…. Then I promise I will…”
Once again, you found yourself unable to reply, your breath caught in your throat as he left you breathless. His hold over you was a mystery, and you knew he was tearing you apart. Yet, your heart raced as his mesmerising eyes locked with yours and his smile erased all logic in an instant.
“Anyway… I just, uh... I guess I just wanted to tell you that… so, I’ll see you around…”
And with that, he left you in turmoil, your thoughts swirling as you remained breathless and undone. “Fuck...” you muttered under your breath as you watched him casually stroll away with his doodles by his side.
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William Nylander had you completely captivated, and no amount of work could distract you from thoughts of him. His name and face seemed to follow you everywhere, whether on the street, social media, or the radio. And it made sense—he was a hockey star in Toronto, having one of the best seasons of his career, and naturally, he was receiving all the attention he deserved.
And every time you caught sight of his handsome Swedish face; a quiet ‘fuck’ would escape your lips.
But what truly caused the ache was the fact that your heart was torn in two, and you knew you had to confront it. Ignoring it wouldn't make it disappear, especially since both William and Matthew were part of your inner circle of friends, and you would soon see them both again.
And with the playoffs drawing nearer, the players' focus would soon be solely on that, and for good reason. While they had almost secured their spot to advance, the real challenge lay ahead.
So, as you headed to Matthew’s apartment on a fateful Friday evening for a casual dinner and a movie, your hidden agenda was to resolve things. At least within yourself. You knew you had feelings for him, but a part of you couldn’t let go of William either, and you didn’t want to be unfair to Matthew. In your mind, he deserved only the best, and right now, you couldn’t provide that.
“Hey,” he greeted you with a broad smile as he opened the front door, and immediately, you couldn’t help but return the smile. Despite rehearsing how you would approach the situation on your way there, he completely flipped the script as you stepped into his cosy apartment and saw that he had already prepared, or attempted to prepare, dinner. The dining table was set with a cloth and fake candle lights, almost like the most romantic gesture a man had ever made for you. And your heart swelled in that moment.
“Matts…” you breathed softly, wide-eyed, and breathless as you stood frozen in place. “You didn’t have to do this…”
You were taken aback. He was being so sweet that suddenly, all the rational thoughts about ending things slowly faded into the background of your mind.
“I know I didn’t…” Matthew chuckled lightly as he came to stand gently behind you, softly caressing your arms as he smoothly helped you out of your coat. “But I wanted to.”
Matthew Knies wasn’t particularly an expert about romance. In fact, he was a rather typical young boyish lad, with hockey and hanging out with his teammates occupying his thoughts. However, ever since you’d entered the picture, a small part of him wanted to explore the realm of romance. You seemed more mature, with your life seemingly in order and possessing a strong mind - and he wanted to impress you.
So, drawing from his limited experience in past relationships, he saw the chance to woo you in a way he believed William wouldn’t. Recognising that his Swedish teammate had already captured your affection with his sexual talents, charming personality, and grounded demeanour, Matthew decided to take a different approach. He thought that his own mix of youthful innocence yet mature demeanour could work in his favour—romantic gestures with a hint of flirtation.
And it was working.
As the evening slowly unfolded, you found yourself swiftly enchanted by Matthew's charm as you savoured the delightful dinner. Sure, perhaps the culinary skills could have been improved, but that wasn’t the crux of the matter. The important part of the evening lay in the effort Matthew had invested in it all.
And soon, both of you were immersed in hearty laughter, exchanging jokes and interests as you had done countless times before. In that very moment, he was the most important person in your life—someone with whom you could truly be yourself and unwind. His company required little social energy, and it suited you perfectly.
However, as you finished dining and began to clear the table together, what should have been a simple and innocent task took on a more sensual tone. With gentle touches as you manoeuvred around the small kitchen, occasionally brushing against each other and sharing giggles, it was inevitable that the movie night would carry a certain level of sexual tension. 
You tried to maintain your composure, really, you did. However, as Matthew tenderly enveloped you in his strong arm, drawing you nearer to his large, comforting frame while lounging on the sofa, you couldn’t resist the yearning inside you.
The memory of the pleasurable sensation of his lips was all too vivid, and soon enough, you found yourself back in his embrace, your mouths meeting as your fingers tangled in his hair and your tongues intertwined.
It was intense and brimming with desire as you straddled his lap, your body moving against his in a sensual rhythm as his hands explored your form.
Matthew was undeniably attractive, that much was certain. But this wasn’t part of the plan. You weren’t supposed to feel this exhilarated with his chest against yours, your hips moving against him as if your primal instincts had taken control.
No, you were supposed to end things. To explain to him that he deserved someone fully committed to him, not torn in two.
Yet, as you delved deeper into the passionate kiss, there was no room for such thoughts.
Instead, you were consumed by pleasure, gripping his brown locks tighter as he nibbled your lower lip and sighed softly into the kiss.
To be fair, this hadn’t been Matthew’s plan either. He had simply wanted to impress you with a romantic dinner. Yet he didn’t exactly protest when he felt you responding to him. In fact, he felt rather pleased about it, sensing your longing for him as much as he longed for you. Perhaps he had secretly hoped for this to happen, yet he didn’t want to get his hopes up too high, knowing you still had feelings for someone else.
But the moment your lips were locked in a passionate kiss, Matthew’s worries about William faded into insignificance, and his sole desire was for you.
The sensation of your body pressed against his surpassed anything he had imagined. And though he had experienced a glimpse of it before, tonight, he yearned for more, his hard member, evident in the bulge in his trousers, betrayed his most fervent desires.
The small living room was growing warmer with each passing moment, almost overwhelming you as your body yearned for more than just his lips. And when you finally pulled apart to catch your breath, your eyes locked in a lustful gaze, both exhaling deeply as you contemplated what would happen next.
You couldn’t resist the pull towards him. With your core throbbing between your legs and feeling his bulge pressing against you, you lacked the willpower to resist the situation.
And while Matthew took a moment to think it over as well before proceeding, there was no doubt about his desires.
So, summoning the courage, he had gathered from their romantic dinner, he gently tucked a strand of your hair behind your ear as he spoke softly.
“Want to… go upstairs?”
His voice remained steady, devoid of any trace of insecurity, which only fuelled your desire for him. And with a soft smile and a teasing bite to your lower lip, you nodded, encouraging him to effortlessly lift you into his arms and carry you upstairs to his bedroom.
The touch of the younger hockey player was nothing short of exquisite. The way his lips lingered on yours as he eased you onto the mattress was pure bliss. His hands on your curves were both firm and gentle as he explored every contour, slowly undressing you.
In return, you took the initiative to remove his t-shirt, unbuckle his belt, and slide down his jeans. Matthew's physique was simply impressive. His toned torso resembled that of a Greek god, with broad shoulders and hips that were nothing short of captivating.
Likewise, he admired your body as you lounged before him in your underwear. The light blue lace complemented your skin beautifully, while your bra provided just the right amount of support without distorting the natural size of your breasts. Your hips formed a graceful curve, your thighs exuding strength. And as his gaze devoured every inch of you, he couldn't help but lick his lips in anticipation.
Then with a playful smirk, Matthew leaned in for a quick kiss before kneeling back and slowly pulling down your panties, revealing your core to him. And it was a delightful surprise for him to feel your wetness, as he wasted no time in stroking his thick fingers along your folds, preparing you for the pleasure to come.
And it felt good. A soft gasp then escaped your lips as Matthew allowed his fingers to gently penetrate you, stretching you slowly, while your toes curled into the sheets beneath you, and soft moans spilled from your lips as ecstasy washed over you.
The hockey player was utterly captivated by the array of expressions crossing your face as he skilfully massaged your inner walls, surprised by how much pleasure it brought him to please you. Yet, beneath it all, he felt a deeper longing to feel his own length buried within you. The mere sensation of his fingers enveloped by your tightness and warmth caused him to already drip with pre-cum in his boxers. So, with gentle care, he withdrew his fingers before discarding his final piece of clothing.
Matthew was a big boy, much as you had anticipated even before seeing him naked. And as you saw his long and thick member, hard and proud, you were relieved he had used his fingers first. In comparison to William, his proportions were likely similar in scale, but Matthew stood a little taller and broader, so his member naturally slightly larger.
Then rising from the mattress, you couldn’t tear your eyes away from him as he carefully rolled a condom onto his shaft, your anticipation nearly palpable as you longed to be filled and stimulated. And fortunately, you didn’t have to wait long.
Drawing you into another kiss, Matthew reignited the fire between you, gently parting your legs as he removed your bra, his hands tenderly exploring your rounded breasts. Meanwhile, your fingers threaded through his hair as you pulled him in for a deeper kiss, the mutual longing for the final act palpable between you.
And then, a surge of confidence coursed through you. Biting his lip, you signalled for him to lie back, to which he complied. You weren’t typically the dominant type in bed, but given that Matthew entirely wasn’t either, at least not with you, you seized the opportunity to take control.
So, straddling his hips, you gently guided his cock between your folds, riding it a few times while supporting yourself on his chest. Then, with careful precision, you positioned the tip at your entrance and pressed it in slowly. Gasping, you allowed him to stretch you as you relied on your legs for support, sinking down a little before rising back up, repeating the motion until he was fully inside you.
“Oh, fuck, Matts,” you cried as he filled you completely. He was definitely bigger than William, although lacking the slight curve that would hit your sensitive spot every time.
But as soon as you had adjusted to his size, you gently began to rock your hips, his shaft sliding in and out of your moist cunt with each sensual movement.
Moans filled the room as pleasure engulfed both of you, Matthew's hands finding your hips for support as your tightness brought him a little closer to climax sooner than he expected. But he couldn’t resist the intense sensations. You felt incredible around him, and the faster you rode him, the louder his moans grew, and the nearer he came to the edge.
And it was gratifying to watch him pant beneath you, his eyes occasionally fluttering shut and his breath erratic as he struggled to maintain composure. You sensed his climax approaching, mirroring the impending arrival of your own.
So, with the orgasm building in your stomach, you increased your pace, your fingers digging into his chest while your breaths mimicked his—panting and gasping in unison.
Though it didn’t flow as smoothly and naturally as it had with William, it was still pleasurable. Matthew felt good inside you, and his physique was impressive. Yet, you couldn’t shake the feeling that something was missing. With William, there had been a sense of fluidity, effortlessly moving around and smiling as he brought you to climax.
With Matthew, it required more effort. You had to focus on riding him and bringing yourself closer to orgasm. Even his thumb on your clit didn’t quite get you there, and after a short while, you started to worry that you wouldn’t reach the peak you desired.
However, everything changed when Matthew grew more eager, suddenly flipping you over into missionary position. With his hands on either side of your head, he picked up a faster and harder pace, thrusting into you deeply.
And at this point, the intensity was overwhelming. His large cock overstimulated your walls as he pounded into you with quick and passionate motions. Your hands instinctively grasped the back of his shoulders, your legs wrapping around his lower back as euphoria consumed you entirely. Your eyes nearly rolled back in your head, your nails digging deep into his shoulder blades as your climax now quickly approached.
It was more fervent and eager than it had been with William, perhaps a bit less refined compared to the older hockey player's skill and experience, yet it felt surprisingly satisfying. Your moans were loud cries mixed with whines of pleasure, and you found your fingers digging deeper than you intended.
But in that moment, neither of you cared. Matthew's mind was entirely consumed by the intensity of the moment, his deep gasps punctuating each eager thrust as he knew he was nearing climax. Despite his desire for a more romantic encounter, your tightness around him was too much to resist.
And with a few final hard pounds, he let out a deep grunt as he released himself, thrusting one last time and pushing you over the edge as well. Loud moans, almost screams, filled the room as both of you reached your peaks, yet the rush of orgasm didn’t linger as long as it had after your encounters with William.
Stop it, you reminded yourself. You couldn’t keep comparing the two.
You had to push every thought of William out of your head as you slowly came down from the high, your mind emerging from the blur as Matthew gently withdrew from you. And despite feeling a twinge of guilt when Matthew returned from the bathroom and pulled you in for a cuddle on the warm, steamed mattress, you pushed it aside.
The fervent and intense sex had shifted back to the romantic and sweet atmosphere that had characterised the beginning of your evening, with Matthew turning to face you, gently stroking your features as he admired your beauty.
Lying on your sides, you let the soft moment linger, the scent of sweat and sex filling the bedroom as you simply enjoyed his tender touches and the comforting atmosphere. And though you had briefly felt guilty, Matthew had a knack for washing away all concerns. In his arms, you felt safe and content, and there was no reason to feel guilty about that. Especially not considering the outcome of your casual relationship with William Nylander, who, for the record, had been the one to avoid any progression into a more serious relationship, and then had the audacity to confess his feelings for you months later, when it was too late.
No, Matthew Knies was different. He was sweet, kind, gentle, and caring. He showed his emotions openly, despite the looming playoffs. He wasn’t afraid of love like William had been, and since you weren’t either, being with him felt incredibly fulfilling.
It should have been a no-brainer.
Matthew embodied everything desirable in a potential partner, despite his younger age. While he may have been slightly less mature, it wasn’t as pronounced as many would assume.
But William had left his mark on you so deeply. It felt as if he had poisoned your mind and heart, his influence spreading through your veins like venom. So, despite the comfort and warmth Matthew provided, you chose not to stay the night after your intimacy, as you reasoned with an early morning and the need for him to focus on the upcoming game. And though being with him felt incredible, you had to admit to yourself that your heart still wasn’t fully committed.
Naturally, he was disappointed, but he understood your reasoning. Part of him knew that the rational and sensible choice would be to let you go and simply focus on hockey and his career. Yet, as you left his apartment, a sense of emptiness lingered. It felt as though you were the missing piece in his otherwise hectic yet successful life.
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As the morning skate approached, Matthew felt like a renewed person. The night with you had been nothing short of wonderful, and as he prepared for the game day, he couldn’t help but smile.
Matthew understood that you weren’t completely devoted to him, at least not yet. However, he was confident that you felt something for him, something deep and profound. In the time he had spent getting to know you, he had learned that you weren’t malicious or intentionally trying to hurt him. You were simply torn between two men you cared for deeply, unable to make a choice.
And he tried to empathise with your dilemma. While he wished you would declare that you had forgotten about his Swedish teammate, he recognised that pressuring you to make a decision would only exacerbate the situation. So, for now, he accepted the situation as it was. Even as he arrived at the training centre, his lips still curved in happiness, and his demeanour did not go unnoticed by his teammates.
“Woohooo,” Auston whistled. “You seem a little too happy over there, Kniesy!”
“What’s brought such a smile to your handsome face?” Gio added, joining in the laughter.
“Or more like who?” Max chimed in with a grin.
It was nothing but the typical banter among teammates that filled the locker room as they all undressed to change into their gear. However, something more profound caught their attention this time, prompting a need for answers.
"Whoa, hold up there, beasty!" Auston nearly shouted, noticing the scratch marks on his fellow Arizona teammate's back. "Who the fuck has been doing some artwork on you?"
"And more importantly," Max chuckled deeply, "what did you do to deserve it?"
Dark chuckles filled the room as more players gathered to admire the nail scratches left from your intense night with the forward the night before.
"Looks like someone got laid last night!" Reaves added with a loud, deep grin. "And who's the lucky girl?"
"Or guy?" Mitch playfully joked.
Matthew took a small breath, glancing over to the empty stall where William would have been sitting if he hadn't been perpetually late, before deciding to speak up. "Her name is y/n," he spoke proudly, perhaps slightly boasting, though it lacked the same satisfaction without William in the room.
"Wait, you mean Willy's y/n?" Auston raised a brow, a light grin playing on his lips.
"Well..." Matthew began to respond, but then Max interjected.
"Oh, she's not Willy's girl anymore, man! Did you see those marks? Seems like our freshman here really showed her what a real man can do!"
Matthew felt a twinge of embarrassment at the words, but it was quickly overshadowed by the pride he felt. He had given you a good time, and the marks you left showcased the pleasure he had provided you.
And he couldn’t help it as his eyes gleamed with pride and he chuckled along with the other players. However, as the door then swung open, the laughter faded into a subdued murmur as William walked in, fashionably late as usual.
"What?" he asked, noticing the not-so-subtle change in atmosphere.
But the boys simply muttered 'nothing' before returning to gearing up for practice before the crucial match. They all sensed it was better to keep things low-key before the match that could either propel them into the playoffs or have them fighting for a few more games.
And it almost worked, until the practice games had William and Matthew facing off on opposite teams.
Initially, it hadn’t been a problem. William had resolved to act maturely about the situation, acknowledging his own villain role in it and allowing you to make your own decisions about how you felt toward each of them.
But as training progressed and he and Matthew found themselves in continuous physical battles on the ice, tension began to mount. What started as friendly hockey banter, suddenly changed when Max couldn't keep his mouth shut, and the atmosphere shifted.
"Looks like Kniesy isn’t just stealing Willy’s girl – he’s also beating his ass on the ice!"
Those words set William's mind spinning. What did Max mean by that?
Yet trying to shake it off, the Swedish forward focused on the training match, but to his frustration, he missed a crucial opportunity for a goal.
“Fucking hell!” he shouted loudly, banging his stick against the boards in frustration.
“Hey,” Auston came over, lightly chuckling. “Just because Kniesy’s sleeping with your girl, you don’t need to take it out on your stick, man.”
It was meant to be nothing but a playful remark, a joke among teammates, but William didn’t find it amusing at all.
“What did you just say?” he asked with a serious tone, more serious than Auston had expected.
"We- well… you know… Kniesy and y/n…" Auston stuttered, realising he might have just sparked something more serious.
“They what?” William asked again, his tone stern as his eyes fixed on the smiling freshman on the ice.
Matthew hadn’t intended to taunt William about his success in winning over a girl, but as the Swede took to the ice once more, an urge within him rose to showcase his newfound confidence and dominance.
As the two players were positioned in front of each other, they were ready to face off. And that's when William couldn’t maintain his composure any longer.
“You slept with her?” His eyes bore deeply into his teammate's, who simply nodded.
“Last night,” Matthew confirmed, prompting William to nod, his throat tightening as he imagined his teammate's hands on you.
“Hmm…” he muttered under his breath, unsure of how to react.
But before he could respond further, Matthew, perhaps emboldened by his newfound confidence, spoke again. “Guess I won her after all.”
And those were the wrong words to utter in William’s presence. Straightening his back, he halted the game and skated closely to Matthew’s face. “She’s not a prize to be won.”
The Swede asserted his dominance over his teammate, causing everyone to pause and observe the unfolding confrontation.
“Come on, Willy,” Matthew huffed, giving his shorter teammate a little push. “You’re just angry because you were the one who treated her like shit... and now she doesn’t want to be with you.”
“Fuck you, Kniesy!” William shot back, but Matthew was ready to defend himself.
“Oh yeah? Well, she did!”
And this had William push back, both physically and verbally, relinquishing the control he had been determined to maintain.
“Well, at least I know I won’t always be her second choice!”
What transpired between the first punch and the two boys ending up in the locker room with ice packs on their faces and towels containing the blood streaming from their noses was a blur to most. It happened so quickly, both players taking swings at each other in a fight far more intense and serious than any on-ice altercation. The coaches naturally intervened, while Tavares and Morgan pulled them apart, and with Reaves and other players chuckling in the background.
It was a coincidence that you had been nearby, as Stephanie had invited you to join her and some of the girls for preparations in case the Leafs continued into the playoffs. But the joy you had felt among the girls froze when you heard what had happened at training, prompting you to swiftly make your way to the Ford Performance Center.
Walking through the halls, your heart pounded in your chest, uncertain of what to expect when you faced the two boys who had torn your heart in two and claimed a part each.
And as you entered the locker room, you couldn't help but mutter, "Shit…" under your breath. Yet, other than your soft curse, there was silence. The tension filled the air as the three of you stood and sat frozen, no one wanting to take the first step and potentially worsen the situation.
It was as if all three of you were silently expressing the guilt you felt toward one another. 
William for dismissing you and then trying to reclaim your deep feelings for him and acting aggressively toward his teammate. 
Matthew for attempting to win you over despite knowing your feelings for his teammate, and then wanting to boast about his success. 
And you, for leading Matthew on while being unable to let go of William, unwilling to accept that Matthew might be the better choice, yet not fully believing it, as William still held a grip on your heart.
It was anything but an easy situation. And sensing your inner panic, the turmoil you were feeling as he saw your concerned expression shifting between him and his teammate, William chose to be the one to act.
Rising from his seat, the Swede let out a deep sigh, his eyes meeting yours in a heartfelt gaze. And without a word, he decided to be the one to walk away. He didn’t want to be the cause of your pain anymore, so he stepped down.
“Willy…” you softly gasped as your heart felt like it was being ripped out of your chest, a tear forming in the corner of your eye as you followed his movement.
You were on the verge of breaking, tears pressing on, yet you managed to focus on controlling your breathing. In the corner of your eye, you noticed Matthew’s intense stare as he watched your reaction, curious to see whether you would stop William or let him go.
And as it turned out, William walked out of the locker room, leaving you alone with Matthew.
Your heart pounded faster than ever before; palms sweaty as a tear trailed down your cheek. Breathing felt almost impossible in the moment, and your mind, soul, and body felt torn apart. You had never expected a heartbreak to hurt this much, and never had you expected it would be William to be the one to cause it.
The air felt thick, and though a small part of you felt relieved that now you didn’t have to make the hard choice between them, another part didn’t want that to be the case. So, without even consciously acknowledging your next move, you suddenly found yourself moving out of your frozen position and making your way with fast steps out of the locker room, following William.
“Willy, wait!” you heard yourself shout. But he didn’t stop. Instead, he just kept on walking, so you picked up your pace. “Willy, please!”
“What for?” he suddenly responded, halting in the middle of the corridor as he turned to face you. He didn’t shout, yet his facial expression conveyed signs of defeat and hurt.
“Because I don’t want you to leave…” you tried to argue, but it came out vague.
“Of course, you do, y/n… you can’t choose between me and Kniesy, so I’m deciding for you…”
“Willy,” you softly cried. “Please don’t do this…”
“Why not?”
“Because you’re too important to me…”
“That’s not enough, y/n… I promised I’d stay away if you didn’t feel anything for me, so that’s what I’m doing…”
You held your breath for a moment, torn between your emotions and rationality. “But I do feel something for you, Willy…” you admitted softly under your breath.
And in a swift motion, William's hands cupped your face, as he pressed his lips onto yours.
It was the familiar warmth coursing through your body as you felt his touch once again. The intoxicating sensation had your mind in bliss as his mouth melted with yours, lips moving in perfect sync as your hands instinctively reached to palm his chest.
Time seemed to stand still. The world stopped turning as you connected with the one who had captured your heart from the start. And though a part of you wanted to feel guilty for leaving Matthew in the locker room, it slowly washed away under William’s touch.
And as you then pulled apart to catch your breath, you shared a tender moment of gazing into each other's eyes. William's thumb gently wiped away the tear that trailed down your cheek before you managed to flash him a timid and soft smile.
“Please don’t leave…” you whispered.
“I won’t…” he spoke gently in return.
There was another moment of silence as you stayed connected. 
“I’m so sorry, Willy…”
“I know,” he simply responded, gently placing a kiss on your forehead before pulling you into a tight hug. Your body immediately responded to his, wrapping your arms around his warm body as you relished your re-found connection.
“I’m in love with you…” you sobbed into his shirt, tightening your arms around him.
William let out a deep sigh as he held you close, finally feeling the happiness that only you could bring him. But then, pulling back slightly, he looked down at you with a soft, concerned expression.
“But you’re in love with him too…” he stated softly, finally acknowledging the truth of the situation.
And you could only nod in response. “I am…”
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Temporary Home : Chapter 29
Guardians of the Galaxy fanfic | Reader x Guardians (With Yondu and Kraglin!)
Summary: Pretty much all fluff and some mischief. The guys invite Reader to play a game, and they all just hang out and have drinks after.
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Author’s Note: Shorter chapter this time. Thank you to @allylin05 for the suggestion of the fluffy scene at the end (though it's been so long since you suggested it you probably forgot that you did- but I finally found a good place to add it in lol) For my records this chapter ends on day 88 of the Guardians living with reader. Enjoy!
Word Count: 3,288
A couple days had past since you begrudgingly granted Peter the title of "The Prank Master," and ever since he had become insufferable.
Every moment you that found the two of you alone he'd smirk and whisper "Prank Master!" before poking you and running off before you could smack him. And every moment you were in the same room, but weren't alone, he'd still give you a knowing grin, which you always returned with a roll of your eyes. Other times, if he needed to ask you something he'd stroll up and proclaim something like, "The Prank Master requests to know where he might find a pen!" (And then you'd un-enthusiastically point to the drawer beside him, because you knew that he knew where they were by now, and that he was just wanting any excuse he could get to rub it in your face that you had declared him "The Prank Master.")
At one point you did come very close to beating him over the head with the nearest chair, after maybe the 10th or 20th time of him calling himself the Prank Master, but lucky for him Mantis called you from the other room requesting help finding some paper.
Then one evening you mused to yourself as you lounged sideways in one of the armchairs with a book, having found a rare moment where the sitting room was empty; There was one benefit- just one- and that was that his annoyingness had helped take your mind off the tunnel situation, which was good considering you couldn't ask anyone about it.
Logic told you it must have been Fury, because it's always Fury, but Reason told you that idea made no sense. Firstly, he'd have to know about it. Secondly, even if he did, how would fixing it up benefit the assignment he tasked you with? Thirdly, assuming he knew about it- or found it when scoping out your place, and assuming it somehow would benefit you in keeping the Guardians here (though you could not for the life of you figure out how it might) -- then why wait so long to do it?
Realizing you were speculating too much again you shook the thought away and tried to lose yourself in your book, only to be rudely torn from it some minutes later when you felt a hand grab your ankle, quickly followed by someone sending ticklish charges through your nervous system as they began scratching at the bottom of your foot.
A shriek escapes your throat and you spasm in the chair, dropping your book to the floor. Said shriek turns to panicked laughter and you begin to kick at Peter, your annoying assailant, who laughs and drops your foot, ceasing his attack only moments after it began and saying, "We're bored."
"Clearly!" you scold, giving him an incredulous glare at how he chose to get your attention as you snatch up your book from the floor and pull your feet towards you and away from any possible re-attack. "And just what does that have to do with me?" You glance to see Drax and Kraglin standing behind him and feel your face grow warm as you realize that you had been so engrossed with your book that hadn't even noticed any of them walk in.
"Wanna play a game?"
Your eyes narrowed slightly. Obviously, you had doubts. "What game?" This better not be anything stupid, or anything at your expense. He was already on thin ice, but at least he hadn't come in touting his "Prank Master" nonsense.
"You laugh you lose."
Your eyes immediately narrow further and you glare at Peter, immediately assuming where this was going, and for good reason, but then Drax speaks up.
"Peter already made her laugh, does that mean the game is over?"
"No Drax, we ain't even started playing yet." Kraglin answers before turning to you and explaining, "We saw a guy playing it on the TV the other day. You watch a buncha these funny clips and whoever laughs loses."
Drax speaks up again, "And we just bet Peter that he could never win against you-"
"-On account he's a giggly little shit and you hardly laugh at anythin'." Kraglin finished, slightly smirking with an unsaid joke about how maybe he was wrong given just seconds ago Peter had made you immediately collapse into laughter. He grinned and nudged Peter, who frowned at him.
"I'm not a 'giggly little shit!'" Peter says exasperatedly, clear that he already had this debate with Kraglin before they came to find you.
You blink, then give a slightly annoyed frown, hiding your relief that your assumption of their game was wrong. "I do too laugh at stuff… not my fault if none of you are funny." You considered asking why they didn't ask Gamora or Yondu to play with them instead, as he probably wouldn't be able to win against them either, but then realized they likely had already turned them down if they had. Figuring maybe it would be fun to take him down a peg for all the "Prank Master" stuff you decide to play along. "And… you kinda are…" you tease Peter, grinning. It was kinda true, if he had a drink in him, but you felt like teasing him anyway.
"Then you're a stick in the mud." Peter countered. Then, with a mischievous smirk he adds, "Except for this-" he moves to tickle you again but you smack him away. He laughs in response, but he doesn't attempt again. "You going to play or not?"
You roll your eyes and stand. "Alright, I'll play- but only because I have nothing better to do right now." Not a total lie. Sure, you could be reading, but again- this was a surefire way to bring the "Prank Master" down a peg.
The four of you head to the couch, Drax sitting on one end and you at the other with Kraglin sitting between you and Peter.
Kraglin pulls up a YouTube video on the television screen titled "Try Not to Laugh Challenge". It was a compilation of different funny videos being reacted to by youtuber you recognized. Before beginning he stated that the compilation he was about to watch was "highly rated" on Reddit.
You considered telling the guys that you could probably find a compilation to watch on its own, but decided you didn't actually care enough to search one out when they already had this one up.
Drax was the first to break, letting out a loud booming laugh when a news anchor ran screaming for his life after a large chicken spooked him.
Peter tried to tease him for losing so early, but Drax merely frowned and stated that he didn't understand why one wouldn't want to laugh at something funny. You grin and shake your head at him, not surprised that he wouldn't have understood the game.
Kraglin lost next, to a clip where a man fell through the ceiling in a store, yet merely prompted a calm exchange of; "Hey Ron." "Hey Billy." pause "… that hurt."
Admittedly you found that one quite funny as well, but you kept it together, having barely cracked a smile the whole time. Hell, if they were going to accuse you of "Hardly laughing at anything" you might as well prove them right if for no other reason than making Peter lose his bet. And, as it'd turn out, that video didn't succeed in making you laugh at all, and since Peter also kept it together, you all opted to let the next video come through the autoplay.
It was from the same creator and title, only this seemed to be #14 in his series.
Peter cracked his knuckles and looked cockily at you as the movie began, to which you merely rolled your eyes. You could almost hear him telepathically telling you that he'd win because he was "The Prank Master," - even if that didn't make sense as a reason why he would win.
Neither of you laughed at the first few clips, although one of a dog letting out a terrible howl made Kraglin jump, which did make you crack a smile.
A clip of a huskie sneezing several times, only to "explode" on the last one nearly made Peter break, and Kraglin could be heard laughing beside you. Since loosing on the last video, Drax had been spending his time going between a thankfully lower volume of laughter and looks of confusion to clips he didn't understand the humor behind.
A clip came up of a cat getting bonked on the head with a bouncing ball, and a wide grin came over your face at the unexpected expression it made, but you pulled it together just as quickly by the next clip. Throughout the next several clips you managed a blank expression, much to Peter's annoyance, as he was having trouble not grinning.
This became worse for him when a clip of a young man asking for a Capri Sun got hit in the face with a full gallon jug (set inside the ATLA opening), and he had to choke back a laugh. And again when the video made a callback to this same clip later but set into a different context.
These seemed to open the floodgates because he then started having trouble holding back with every clip.
You smiled watching him try to pull himself together. It was clear he was falling victim to the whole 'Everything is funnier when you're not supposed to laugh' rule.
It wasn't until a clip where an Animaniac started to sing "The Nations of the World" and only got to "United States" before being cut off by Donald Glover firing a pistol and singing "This is America" did you finally have another reaction, nearly choking as you swallowed a laugh. The others didn't get the reference to Americans and their guns and so didn't find it nearly as funny as you, someone who had lived on Earth to understand various nations politics, but you knew there was bound to be a few clips like that that only you'd really understand. Hopefully there wouldn't be too many if you wanted to win.
You pulled it together in time for Peter to start losing again with a clip of a bouncy parrot and then a howly husky, but he got it together when audio referencing a movie he had never seen played over a Rabbi dunking a baby.
Unfortunately the YouTuber lost at that clip and the video ended, leaving both you and Peter once again undefeated.
Finding that this was actually fun you didn't mind when another video queued up. It was by the same creator as before, but this time #13 in the series.
Several clips go by and Peter is biting his lip not to laugh while you simply sit there unfazed. It wasn't until a clip came up of a sleeping man holding a woman's foot, fingers laced with her toes as if it were her hand, came up that you made any sound at all, but it was a gag of disgust rather than a laugh. Of course, Peter tried to accuse you of having laughed, but was quickly shut down by Kraglin.
The video continued, again with Peter being frustrated that you were watching with little emotion while he couldn't manage the same, seemingly proving his friends right.
Finally the clip that would make him lose came up. It was a deer that was squeaking quietly, which you weren't even aware they could do. You watched on in confusion, tilting your head to the side as it began to tilt it's own head back when the deer's sudden switch from squeak to awful howl/shriek made you jump in your seat.
It was your reaction that made Peter finally crack with a startled laugh rather than the clip itself, which of course made him contest his loss.
"Shit-! That doesn't count! I laughed at her- Not the-"
"Nah, Quill, y'all lost fair and square." Kraglin chuckled.
"But-"
"Kraglin's right. You laughed, so you lose." Drax said, backing Kraglin up.
Peter sighed in defeat. "Lame." He turned back to you. "Best two out of three?"
You rolled your eyes and grinned. "Sure. Why not."
Suddenly the TV screen went dark, causing Peter to throw up his hands and exclaim, "Really!?"
You were just as confused, but almost as soon as it had turned off, the screen turned back on again and out of the corner of your eye you just caught sight of Rocket in the hall through the doorway. It was clear the others hadn't noticed him, which is probably why he felt safe enough throwing you a quick smirk and a wink just before he scampered off.
However, when you turn your head back you see Peter glaring at you.
"Wha- Don't look at me!" you exclaim, holding up your hands, realizing that he was obviously going to accuse you of pranking him again.
Peter's glare morphs into an incredulous grin as he replies, "Really?? You're really going to pull this again and think it's gonna go any better for you than last time?!"
He starts to get up, presumably to lunge at you, when suddenly Kraglin puts his feet up on the coffee table, creating a makeshift barrier and causing Peter to pause his actions to give the former first mate a confused look.
"Now hold on a second there, Pete-" he reaches down beside himself. "You was sitting on the remote."
"What- but I-" Peter sputters, looking at the remote. Meanwhile, you realize you just caught an incredibly lucky break. Peter finally looks at you and mumbles an apology before tossing the remote onto the coffee table.
He wound up losing those two rounds as well and you grinned at his chagrin at having seemingly secured his status with the other two as a "giggly little shit."
After this you were in pretty good spirits, and offered the guys a drink to 'celebrate your victory.'
Ok, so maybe you were rubbing it in just a little.
Regardless, they accepted your offer and you all head to the kitchen, the guys grabbing some glasses while you pulled the whiskey from the fridge.
The rest of the Guardians were already in the kitchen so you offered them to join you, and they accepted.
You all sat around the table sipping whiskey- or in Mantis's case, whiskey mixed with soda- and in Groot's case just soda- and talking about random things.
Kraglin told a story of breaking up a past bar fight; Drax reminisced over a memory of starting a bar fight- and winning; and Mantis, not having a bar fight story, brought up how she saw a cute animal in a book the previous day- only to retrieve said book and show everyone a naked mole rat. This made the rest of you laugh in disbelief, though no one corrected her or called the animal ugly.
All in all, everything was pretty fun and chill. Everyone was chatting and getting along. So far no signs of any drunken bickering, despite the fact that Yondu was discussing an apparently embarrassing story about Peter to Gamora, which made Peter groan and cover his face once he realized trying to get the old man to shut up wasn't going to work. Groot was playing hide and seek with Rocket- using Drax's chair as a hiding spot- to which Rocket put on a show pretending he couldn't see him under there. Kraglin was just laughing at the scene, and Mantis was doing that strange thing she liked to do after a drink, which was going about and feeling the joy off of the others by placing her hand on theirs and "reading" them- or whatever it was she did.
This was nice, you thought- having people around. You could get used to this...
Except that you knew you couldn't. Not really. This was temporary and you knew th-
That thought was ripped from your mind almost as soon as it appeared when a ticklish feeling on the back of your neck drove out all other coherent thought.
"Hey!" you scold through giggles, scrunching your shoulders and twisting in your chair in an attempt to get away from your attacker, but to no avail.
"Just gettin' your attention!" Peter teased. "This is what you get for ignoring the Prank Master!" As he continued tickling at the back and sides of your neck he further teased, "Geeze, is there anywhere you're not ticklish?"
Still giggling, you twist to smack at Peter's hand away and scold him for being an insufferable brat. "What do you even want, you little pest?!" you ask as he continued to torment you, seemingly emboldened by the others' laughter at your reaction.
Before he could answer, Mantis attempted to touch the hand you were using to brace on the table, but you noticed and pulled away with a "Hey! We had a deal- no empath mojo without consent!" before finally managing to twist in a way that allowed you to grab Peter's hand and push it away.
Mantis just giggled an apology and moved on to do her empath thing to someone else, as your own laughter had taken most of the weight out of the scolding. Honestly you would later be grateful for this, as you would have felt bad had you made her sad when you knew she really meant no harm.
Kraglin snorted. "What? Worried she's gonna tell us that you don't actually hate this?" he teased, tweaking your ribs and making you jump with a squeak as he walked by to the pantry.
"Piss off-" you light-heartedly scold with a roll of your eyes. You might have swatted him if it wasn't for the fact that you were still wrestling with Peter to keep his hands to himself.
Now Yondu decided to chime into the teasing. "Aw, is someone's reputation for being a little grumpy ass being threatened?" he took another sip of his whiskey. "Wouldn't that be a shame- not like we don't already know yer a softy."
You shot him a look that was a mix of "What you on about?" and "Piss off" but unfortunately this made you let your guard down just long enough for Peter to break free and attack your stomach- a distraction you were oddly grateful for, considering that even if there was the tiniest chance that it might be true, you sure as hell weren't about to admit to it. That would be a type of vulnerability they couldn't torture out of you if they tried.
Doubling over in your chair with a laugh you manage to grab his hands and ask again, "What do you want?! You annoying shit!" This, again, was ladened with giggles, which again took all the bite out of your words. Just as well, seeing as you weren't actually angry at him- even if he was an annoying little shit.
"I... actually don't remember anymore-" Peter admitted with a grin, which caused the others to laugh and roll their eyes.
Also rolling your eyes you pinched his sides in retaliation, earning a giggly yelp from Peter before you stood up up and stated you were going to the Jacks then, seeing as whatever he had to say obviously hadn't been that important for him to remember.
He only uttered a mock-indignant "Hey!" as you made your escape, and by the time you came back everyone was already on a new topic of conversation, the previous shenanigans completely forgotten.
As you rejoined the group you couldn't help but think back to your previous thoughts. That all this- the comradery and tomfoolery- this was nice.
And you might as well try to enjoy it while it lasted.
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lnnlove · 2 years ago
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leather and lace | e.m.
eddie munson x fem reader
summary: your band plays at the hideout on thursdays and you've always competed with eddie munson. when you realize your actual feelings towards him, you start sending messages in the songs you choose to sing and eddie notices. a (fr)enemies to lovers with mutual pining story where the upside down is never mentioned and the only conflict is the one that these two idiots in love create on their own.
word count: 10k
warnings: slight asshole!eddie, general angst, cussing, marijuana use, drinking, reader uses fem pronouns, mentions of harassment, beginnings of smut, if I missed any please let me know!
author's note(s): I did not fact check if all of the songs mentioned were released at the time this would be taking place (I feel like this is '87 or '88 and our boy got to graduate), please don't hate me! this is basically an open love letter to miley cyrus's version of heart of glass (when they sing heart of glass in the story, imagine this version) which obviously was not around then so if you can't ignore a few inaccuracies, don't read. also, i've just decided the fourth member of corroded coffin is named kevin instead "unnamed freak" or "freak 1" as he is referred to on wiki and imdb (😭).
here, have an accompanying playlist bc I love you <3
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The Queens of Noise were what you sentimentally named your band after winning the middle school talent show when you sang the song of the same name by The Runaways with your four best friends.
"It's easy to sing the same words over and over again," Eddie Munson said to you backstage after the awards. "You just sang to the recorded song, you didn't even play your own instruments." That was the first thing the older boy ever said to you.
"Whatever Eddie. You're just jealous that we won," you replied to him with squinted eyes and a look that said eat shit Eddie Munson.
"First place doesn't prove anything except that the teachers like you better than us. It doesn't mean you actually have any talent," Eddie sneered, "come on guys, let's go."
Eddie brushed past you to leave the auditorium, jutting his shoulder into yours harshly as he walked past with his band Corroded Coffin following closely behind him, but Gareth actually smiled sweetly at you and your friends and Jeff quietly congratulated his sister standing behind you.
Ever since that day, everything you do is to prove Eddie Munson wrong.
Eddie said it wasn't impressive if you weren't playing your own instruments, so you learned guitar. Sarah switched to keyboard from piano lessons. Jess took up drums and Heather decided on bass. Tiffany (or Tiff as she preferred) got her brother Jeff to teach her guitar and she turned out to be better than you so you became the lead singer. The girls all help you on backup vocals and sometimes Sarah takes the verses of songs that require a more soprano voice, just like Stevie Nicks and Christine McVie the two of you like to joke with each other.
By the end of your freshman year in high school, you and your girls had solidified yourselves as the Queens of Noise and were practicing every other day in Heather's garage (much to her parents' dismay). You all decided to enter the talent show again next year.
You thought Eddie might finally see your group as a proper band according to his standards since your friends would be playing the music for One Way or Another by Blondie while you sang. But all he said to you after the show was "Easy for you to get all the attention when they're stuck with all the hard work," motioning to your friends behind you before brushing passed you to the other guys.
So you decided you could start playing the second guitar part under Tiff on some of your songs.
After you played on stage for the county fair in 1985, The Hawkins Post wanted to write a story about the band. You found out at the after party Tiff was having, so of course naturally Eddie was there with Jeff and the other boys too.
"Remember us when you're famous," Gareth joked and the other boys congratulated you in some way, but Eddie's competitive nature compelled him to say "Of course they want to write about it, all you know how to play is the hippie shit everyone loves."
"Don't talk about Fleetwood Mac like that man," Kevin retorted in your defense.
You dismissed his comment, but decided you could start training your voice to sing more like Joan Jett and Cherie Currie anyway. It had always been obvious to your friends why you made the decisions you did, but they knew better than to bring it up.
You thought he might finally be impressed during your senior year when the Queens of Noise started playing at the Hideout on Thursday nights and you consistently had a bigger crowd than Corroded Coffin did on Tuesdays.
"No surprise that the drunks of Hawkins would rather watch a bunch of girls on stage than listen to real music," Eddie claimed.
He loved to taunt you over the songs you chose to play, insisting that his metalhead preferences were better than the covers you did of Stevie Nicks and Fleetwood Mac, Joan Jett and the Blackhearts, The Runaways, Pat Benatar and Blondie.
Although you and Eddie would never call each other a "friend," you were nearly always around each other. You even had to endure two extra years of high school with him because he refused to apply himself to academics. Your bandmates had gotten close over the years, bonding naturally over shared interests and participating in healthy competition any opportunity you got. Eddie had a good relationship with all the girls except you, who appeared to be a perpetual thorn in his side. It was fine because he was the exact same to you.
The other members of your bands could still give their all to the band while supporting and cheering for the other but you and Eddie, both as stubborn as you are, could almost never put the aggression of competition aside.
Jeff and Tiff were close as siblings, Sarah and Gareth finally took their flirtation and secret hookups to the next step and told everyone they were dating in '86, and even Heather, Jess and Kevin were close because they lived in the same neighborhood. All of that was great, except that it meant you had to run in to Eddie all the time at parties, movies, or the other's shows.
"For someone who doesn't like me, it seems like you're one of our biggest fans," he'd mock you when they got off stage.
"I just came to keep Sarah company asshole," you respond with rolled eyes.
"Whatever you say Y/N," he'd joke as he walked away from you.
It seemed like you'd had a version of that conversation after every show you went to.
Just like going to their nights at the Hideout, you'd been roped in to many movie nights at Jeff and Tiff's house before, and stopped being surprised when often times Eddie would join as well. It typically ended with you two in some type of disagreement about the movie being good or not, since Eddie considered himself such a movie critic.
It wasn't always that bad though. Eddie is the type of guy who always noticed when your drink was empty and was quick to get you another. He'd stepped in several times to say "Hey man, she said she's not interested," when drunk assholes harassed one of you at the bar or parties. You noticed he would always seem to stick close by after something like that happened.
"A tad flat tonight babe," Eddie announced to you after forcing the heavy back door of the bar open to join you in the alley after a show one night.
"Not right now Eddie, I'm not in the mood," you attempted to brush him off.
"What's wrong, can't take a little constructive criticism?" he taunted.
You scoffed and turned your back to him, hoping he'd take the hint and leave you alone. But Eddie is not very good at leaving you alone.
He circled around to face you, dropping his head to meet your eyes when he noticed the smudged mascara under your lashes and clear glassiness in your eyes.
"Whoa whoa, what happened?" he said, bringing a hand to your shoulder. But you look away from him, unable to meet the concerned expression on his face.
When you don't answer, he jumped to conclusions.
"Did some asshole say something to you?" he questioned you, "other than me?"
How is it that he can make you laugh at a time like this? As small and delicate as your little laugh was, it shot something much stronger to Eddie's core.
All you could do was nod, feeling silly in his presence for letting something like that get to you. You noticed Eddie's jaw clench when he raised his head and turned it to look behind you toward the door.
"What guy? What's he wearing?" Eddie asked.
You didn't want to answer. You didn't want him to do something irrational or even get hurt because of you.
"No Eddie," you whispered.
"Tell me Y/N," he demanded.
"Okay, he's sitting at the end of the bar wearing a white collared shirt."
You'd barely finished before Eddie tore off in the direction of the bar. You stayed out there another minute or two collecting yourself and wiping your eyes clean of makeup.
To this day you're not certain what happened. But when you got back to the group, the guy at the end of the bar was gone, Eddie had a bag of ice from the bartender on his right hand, and your friends didn't say a word about it.
He punched a guy out once when he came on too strong to Jess after a gig and now you know he'd done the same for you even though the two of you barely ever saw eye to eye.
You found yourself in the smoke circle with Eddie at every party and he'd always let you take the first hit of a bowl. He'd let you bum a cigarette behind the bar or outside of school any time you asked and would light it for you sometimes even though you never once asked him to do that. The groups would get together to go to movies and concerts sometimes, all piling in to Eddie's van and carpooling to the city.
"Ah ah ah, what's she doing here?" Eddie asked, eyes darting to you. He can't resist an opportunity to torment you.
"Come on Eddie, you know Y/N's part of the group just as much as we are," Jess defends.
"I'm the one who told you all about this concert in the first place, Munson!" you argue.
"Can't you two please behave just for one night?" Gareth asks from his spot behind Sarah, head hanging over her shoulder. She nods in agreement.
You and Eddie hold eye contact for a few moments, considering all of your options.
"I will if he does," you bite as everyone begins to pile into the van.
The groups' eyes trail to where Eddie towers over you, watching from their seats in the back of the van.
"Fine," he answers, "after you," motioning for you to take a seat inside so he can close the back door. You move to climb in and can't help but gasp silently when you feel his hand under yours gently squeeze to help lift you into the van. But when you look back to him once you're seated, he's already slamming the door shut and turning his back to you to walk around to the driver's seat.
He left you alone the rest of the night, but there were a couple of times you shared quick glances from where you danced with the girls and he was standing behind the group nodding along to the music. You almost thought you could even make out a smile on his lips. But that was wiped from your memory the second he looked away from you and back to the stage.
Sometimes you could swear you caught him looking at you across the room with a look that wasn't hateful. Sometimes he even did things that sent a jolt of warmth to your stomach. But that was quickly diminished every time when Eddie would return his attention to another girl or say something that reminded you of his disdain for you. You tried so hard to ignore the pangs of jealousy when you saw him with someone under his arm or the flutters in your stomach when he held eye contact with you. All of it just added to your confusion and the frustration you felt towards him grew with every broken gaze.
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That brings you to tonight, Thursday at The Hideout. It's 7:45 and you're getting ready for your weekly show at 8:00. The stage is all set and you're backstage with your girls, putting final touches on makeup and warming up for the performance.
"Shit," you hear Tiff utter under her breath after a snap echoes through the small green room.
"What's wrong Tiff?" Heather asks from her place on the couch.
"My string broke," she announces, stress lacing her voice.
"Shit," the other girls repeat.
"I don't have any extras," Tiff says anxiously.
"Okay, okay, don't panic. I'll be right back," you announce on your way out of the door. You know Eddie's here and maybe he has some extras. You'll just be a little late on stage.
You make your way from the green room behind the stage, into the office and then out to the bar where Eddie is occupying a seat talking to the bartender.
"Eddie," you call out nervously as you approach him.
"Y/N," he returns tensely.
"Do you have any extra guitar strings with you?"
"Other than the ones that are strung to my electric, no. Sorry sweetheart."
"Fuck," you mutter under your breath, secretly shuttering at the nickname but turning away from him and leaning your elbows on the bar, attempting to come up with another solution.
Eddie eyes your slumped figure and brows that are furrowed in contemplation.
"What's the matter?" he asks.
"Tiff's string broke and we're obviously supposed to be playing in a few," you motion to the stage.
"Ah, that is quite the pickle you're in," he teases you, his mind calculating what you'll ask him next.
You think of something and sigh, closing your eyes and bracing yourself for what you're about to ask.
"Eddie...." you begin.
"Yes dear?" he mocks.
"Can we borrow your electric guitar? Pretty please," you utter with monotone.
Eddie exhales, puffing his lips and eyeing you sarcastically.
"That's a pretty big favor to ask without a cherry on top," he jokes. "Ask me again like you mean it." He says with squinted eyes examining you. He loves having power over you, there's no way he'll relent this easy. He'll make you beg a little first because he's reveling in the pouty expression on your face right now.
"Eddie please," you swallow your pride and begin, "if you care about me in any way at all, can I pretty please with a cherry on top borrow your guitar that I know is in the back of your van right now anyway?"
He fake considers for a moment, prolonging your torture.
“And what makes you think I care about you?” he asks, seriously.
“You're right, nothing. I wouldn't dream of you having any type goodwill towards me," he smiles at your response, quite satisfied with it. "But if you like me even just a little. I mean, not like me. but if you think I deserve any amount of kindness - "
"What'll you give me if I do?" he interrupts.
"Anything!" you shout impulsively, "Anything you want." You regret that instantly while considering all of the things he could ask of you.
"Jesus Christ babe, yes if you're that desperate, you can borrow my guitar."
You sigh, relieved, trying to ignore the twisting feeling the pet name causes inside you. Eddie stands from his seat and moves past you to the door to go retrieve the guitar from his van.
You stand, slightly in place as you awe at the fact that you just successfully asked Eddie Munson for a favor, and he said yes.
"You okay in there there?" he asks from his place a few feet away from you, interrupting your thought and grabbing your attention with a small wave in front of your face.
"Yes, Munson, I'm fine," snapping back to your normal self and rolling your eyes at him.
Eddie smirks, he secretly loves when you call him that.
“Good. For a second there I thought you might be in love with me or something," he jokes before turning around to make his way out of the door.
You curse yourself for not being able to think of a witty response and wait by the bar for the few minutes it takes him to return.
He hands you the guitar. "If you return her with even a scratch - "
"I know I know, you'll have my head," you interrupt jokingly, as you grab the instrument from him and turn hurriedly to leave for the girls backstage, not thinking of the many ways he could interpret that.
You return his guitar the same night with no mention of what he wants for his payment. He'd briefly considered asking for a kiss just to torture you, but quickly decided against that thinking it would be too much like the creeps who hit on you girls at the bar all the time. Eddie was not actually interested in coercing you into anything.
So Eddie decided to drop it, not wanting to hold anything over your head or make you feel like you owe him anything.
But a few days later, he opened his van door to find the new Dio and Judas Priest tapes he'd been wanting from the music store but hadn't bought yet with a note that simply said "thank you," in your scribbly writing that he recognized from class. You'd noticed him eyeing those tapes during your shift at the store and thought two tapes with your employee discount was the least you could do to thank him for saving your show.
Eddie smiles to himself at the thought of you doing something nice for him, even going as far as breaking in to his van to keep it a surprise. He chuckles to himself, thinking how out of character it was for you to do something sweet for him. Maybe, he thought, she feels the same. But he dismisses the thought as soon as it enters his mind. No, we're just even now. Nothing's changed, returning to his normal train of thought and strengthening his resolve to continue treating you as he always has.
Neither one of you ever bring it up again, but you have hope that maybe things are different between you now.
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The following Saturday was special because the band that was scheduled to play at The Hideout canceled and Sarah and Gareth convinced the owner to let Corroded Coffin and The Queens of Noise play back to back to fill in.
It was a big deal for both groups. You'd been playing Tuesdays and Thursdays for years, but a Saturday is different. Saturdays are for big groups, sometimes even from other cities. There's always a bigger crowd and one of the bands who used to play on Saturdays at The Hideout are on a small nationwide tour now.
Best of all, you'd be able to be there for each other's big moments front and center on the floor while the other group played on stage.
You and the girls practiced every day after work in preparation and even agreed to skip work the Friday before to finalize the details and make sure everything was clean and perfect. You all agreed on your strongest songs and put together a set you were really proud of. You were even going to debut a Blondie song that you've put your own spin on to see how the crowd likes it.
On Saturday, you and the others all arrived in the afternoon to begin setting up and warming up. You shared the green room backstage and it felt like any other night you all got together at Jeff and Tiff's. Gareth and Sarah were draped over each other on the couch, Jeff was playing some card game with Kevin and Heather, Tiff was tuning her guitar in the corner with Eddie who was strumming along to something, and you were sat at the vanity with Jess, sharing a joint for your nerves and deciding when to start your makeup and hair.
"Let me get a hit of that please," Tiff requests and so you bring the joint to her in the corner, holding it to her lips. After she takes a drag, you offer it to Eddie and he accepts quietly with a raise of his eyebrows. You let him keep it because you figure he'll want more than just on hit.
The boys were scheduled to start at 8:00 and then you would follow them at 9:00.
It was 7:00 when you broke the silent calm that had fallen over the room.
"Shouldn't we do a toast or something?" you suggest, "I mean this is kind of a huge fucking deal." You can't help the nervous laugh that falls from your lips after the realization hits you.
"We should," Jeff agrees, "we're playing a FUCKING SATURDAY SHOW!"
The group erupts in shouts, hollering cheers and praise for the situation you've found yourselves in.
"Okay then let's circle up," Sarah says as she jumps off the couch, pulling her arms around the two standing closest to her.
The nine of you circle up in the middle of the room, wrapping arms around each other and huddling together. Eddie stands across from you, gazing down at your excitement as he pops the cork out of the complimentary bottle of champagne left for your group and spraying the foam over all of you in the center of the circle.
"We all drink," he declares, pulling the bottle to his lips and taking a long pull of the lukewarm wine before dropping his head back down and returning his gaze to you.
He extends his arm, handing you the bottle. You accept it with an appreciative smile and take your pull.
"To...." Eddie begins, unsure of how to make a toast. "To us!" he shouts when you take your drink.
"To us!" the others chant in chorus.
"To us," you say when you finish your sip and pass the bottle to Gareth on your right.
Everyone passed the the bottle until it was empty, and then it was time for the boys to go on stage.
While the boys played, you and the girls were front and center to the stage moving to the music with each other and getting the crowd excited. You usually sang along but tonight you were trying to resist the urge so you could save your voice. Their music buzzed through the amps and speakers plugged in around them, vibrating in your chest. You danced and swayed with your friends to get yourself warmed up for your show.
The stage at The Hideout is just a platform that's elevated about three feet. If you're standing at the front of the crowd, you're still close enough in height to whoever's on stage that you can interact, something you've taken advantage of many times in the past while on stage and in the crowd.
From your angle below, the boys were backlit by the stage lights and covered in a warm halo that illuminated their forms. You couldn't deny how beautiful Eddie looked on stage. A natural performer, a personality that shined up there. You secretly ached at the thought that he seemed sweet and flirty with everyone but you.
The boys were great during their set. Of course they always were. But you enjoyed tonight more than any other night because it felt like they all were glad that you were there. There was such little animosity coming from Eddie that you almost thought he wanted you to be there instead of just accepting your presence. You even caught his glance a few times from your place below them.
During their last song, you had to leave the crowd and get backstage to take their place, but you were able to see the last song from the side stage. Gareth and Jess and agreed to use the same drum set, so all you had to do was walk out with your instruments, get Sarah's keyboard, and adjust the mics to be ready.
Suddenly you were wracked with nerves.
After their last song, you all cheered and whistled at the top of your lungs from the side stage so they could hear you over the rest of the crowd. You saw Gareth blow a kiss to Sarah and a blush creep up Kevin's neck.
"Thank you," you hear Eddie on the mic. "We are Corroded Coffin." Another cheer from the crowd. "Now please welcome our Queens of Noise."
Our Queens of Noise.
The possession in Eddie's words rung in your ears and froze you in place.
The boys were approaching you as they exited the stage. Kevin patted Heather's back in encouragement, Jeff hugged Tiff off the ground and told her to get out there, Gareth did his handshake with Jess before twirling Sarah off the ground and setting her down with a kiss.
Eddie spun Heather around and then moved toward you. He was glistening with a thin layer of sweat and his smile was contagious. His chest was heaving with breath and his delicious musky smell surrounded you as he casually enveloped your head in one of his arms and whispered "your turn" against the top of your head. Then you felt him release your head and his other hand on the small of your back nudged you forward. He was so relaxed, as if this was not the first time he's ever embraced you.
Yeah, things were definitely different now.
You took a step forward and shook off the surprise that had overcome you.
You were on fire during your set. You could feel your diaphragm tighten in your stomach as your sang deep, bellowing notes. In between your verses or the chorus, you'd dance back to back with Heather or Tiff, twirl and sway in the middle of the stage, shimmy to Jess in the back on drums and blow kisses to Sarah at her place on keys. Your stage presence was something you were proud of.
You noticed the boys squeeze their way to the front of the stage with their drinks during the third song, all nodding along and praising you all in their own boyish way. You think this is probably the closest Eddie's ever watched one of your gigs, and try to act unfazed by his closeness.
The last song of the set was your new one. You'd only sang it in rehearsal. Never in front of a crowd and never in front of Eddie.
You took a few deep steadying breaths before nodding at Tiff to begin her riff. You nodded along to the beat from her, Heather and Jess, closed your eyes and took a breath before singing the first line.
Once had love and it was a gas. It soon turned out, I had a heart of glass.
The crowd responded well, singing along and screaming for you.
You heard a loud whoop from Jeff with hands cuffed around his mouth and even a shout from Eddie.
During the break when Sarah took over with a keyboard solo, you take a moment to breathe and dance to the music from your friends around you. Below you, the boys were passing out shots and you notice Eddie raising one above his head, intended for you.
You squat to his level to accept it, offering him a quick clink as a cheers before standing, knocking back the shot, and jumping back in for the rest of the song.
Eddie thinks it might be the hottest thing he's ever seen. He swallows a gulp that rose in his chest and exhales deeply.
The crowd erupts into a chorus of cheers and praise on your last note and you inhale sharply to regain your breath. You smile into the mic and say thank you to the people in front of you. You gather with the other girls in the middle of the stage and bow while they cheer for you before turning to exit the stage.
Eddie calls your name from where he's standing by the corner of the stage as you walked down the stairs on the side.
You walk over to him, your heart pounding from the adrenaline in your system from the show and also from the look Eddie was giving you. He looked so good standing there with the stage light behind him and rush from their set still evident in his eyes. Maybe this is it, you think.
He exhales as you approach him like he had been holding his breath.
"That was great," he admits, his eyes taking in your chest rising and falling with heavy breaths and your post-stage glow.
"Yeah right Eddie," you scoff, rolling your eyes and turning away from him towards the bar. You're so used to his insults that you can't even register him being sincere.
He catches your wrist and spins you back toward him. You collide with him, bringing your free hand to his chest to steady yourself and look down to where he is holding your wrist between your bodies.
"I'm serious," he breathes, eyes trained down at where you stand pressed against him.
He towers over you with a look in his eyes that you don't recognize. Your breath hitches in your throat and you can't think of what to say.
"You were amazing up there tonight," he continues, "I couldn't take my eyes off of you."
Your lips part at his words and your insides twist. Every thought has left your brain as you stare up at him. His eyes are so inviting that it makes you forget all the things you'd planned to say to him for years when he finally admitted that you impressed him. Your gaze falls to his lips just for a second and you allow yourself a selfish moment to indulge as you imagine what he would taste like if you leaned in and just kissed him right now.
Your fallen eyes don't go unnoticed by Eddie.
Eddie begins to dip his lower to you when you're interrupted.
"Y/N, come on, the boys are buying us a round," Sarah says from behind you before crashing clumsily into your back, placing her arms on your waist and peeking around your shoulder to kiss your cheek, completely missing Eddie's expression and the moment that was unfolding in front of her.
She pulls you back and your wrist is freed from Eddie's grasp but you don't break your eye contact with him until she spins you around to face Heather, Tiff, and Jess who came along to collect you.
"What was that about?" Heather whispers in your ear as you're pulled into the group's embrace.
"I don't know," you whisper in response. But you think you might.
"He looked like he was going to eat you up," Tiff jokes, well aware of the implications in her tone.
You secretly wished he would. But you swallowed that feeling into your stomach, convincing yourself that there was no way he felt that way about you.
The girls giggle around you as they make their way to the bar to celebrate. You accepted drink after drink handed to you that night, but you weren't able to fully celebrate. Not when Eddie didn't follow you back to the group. Not when Eddie had looked at you that way. Not when you weren't sure what you were feeling in your stomach. Not when you could be putting yourself in the most vulnerable place you've been in in years. And especially not when you could be exposing yourself to someone who you're certain couldn't return the feelings you're having.
You didn't see much of Eddie after that Saturday at The Hideout. You went to your job at the music store every day thinking he may turn up, but he never did. He gave you the cold shoulder on his way out of the door when you tried to say something to him at their show on Tuesday and he wasn't at yours that Thursday. Avoiding you, you thought to yourself and tried to swallow the feeling that it elicited from your gut. Of course he was. How could you have been so stupid to hope something was there?
What you didn't know is that Eddie was hiding from you, worried that he'd revealed too much to you that night at The Hideout. Part of him wanted to reveal more to you. But he wasn't even sure himself what he felt for you. So until he figured it out, he was doing the safe thing and staying away from you. Except this coming Thursday because he agreed to cover for the bartender at the bar, so there's no way he could skip your show.
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You went back and forth between being certain the way he'd looked at you after the show was out of desire and thinking the way he was holding your wrist firmly was out of hating having to admit that you put on a good show. But either way, the taste you'd had having of him close to you was not enough.
So when Sarah told you at Sunday's practice in Heather's garage that the boys would definitely be at your show on Thursday, you couldn't help but ask "all of them?" sheepishly.
"I think so, why?" she asks, giving you a probing smile with raised eyebrows.
"No reason," you shrug off. "Think you ladies would be up to learning a new song for Thursday?"
They agree, exchanging knowing glances to each other as they took their places.
On Thursday, you arrived through the back of the bar so you didn't see Eddie until you were on stage. You could feel his eyes on you from his spot behind the bar but you refused to lift your gaze to him. He'd been giving you the cold shoulder for over a week and two could play at that game. Besides, your song choices for the night were bold and you thought you might chicken out if you saw anything in his eyes that changed your mind.
You sang I Hate Myself for Loving You and it meant more to you tonight than it ever had before. Your past relationships and meaningless hookups never once crossed your mind when that song came on, but one stupid tall metalhead with stupid brown button eyes and stupid long hair that you want to run your fingers through flashes through your mind every time you've heard it for weeks now.
Jess started playing the beat for your last song and you took a deep breath as you closed your eyes and felt the music surround you. Tiff came in on guitar while Heather and Sarah kept a steady bass line that you're certain was the only thing keeping your heartbeat regular.
We've been here too long, tryin' to get along. Pretending that you're oh so shy, you begin to sing.
You glanced at Eddie behind the bar who was watching you. You wondered if he recognized it yet and if his heart was racing like yours was at the sight of him.
Do you wanna touch, Do you wanna touch, Do you wanna touch me there? Where? There. Yeah! Yeah, oh yeah.
You have to hold the mic with both hands and screw your eyes shut to will yourself to finish the song without looking in Eddie's direction again. When you were done, you said "that's all for tonight, thank you" to your crowd and you quickly exited the stage.
While the other girls went the bar immediately for the post-show shot tradition, you took the opportunity to sneak out back for a quick cigarette, desperate for a moment alone to catch your breath before facing Eddie.
But of course he doesn't allow you that favor.
Eddie watched your attempt at a sneaky escape and followed you out after pouring the other girls their shots on the house and making sure there was no one else at the bar for drinks.
You were standing to the right of the door with your back to the wall when he came out, you had a joint hanging loosely from your lips while you clumsily searched in your pockets for a lighter. You'd realized in seconds that you didn't have one, but you were still using that as your excuse not to look up at him.
Eddie reached his arm to you with his lit zippo, raising it to your lips. You leaned in with your hands cupping the end of the joint, allowing the flame to light it and take a deep hit immediately.
You finally lift your eyes to meet Eddie's. He's staring hot daggers in to you. You swallow the feeling growing in your throat, becoming acutely aware that neither of you have said anything yet.
"You sing that just for me?" Eddie asks, taking a dangerous step closer to you.
"What?"
Eddie tilts his head in frustration, squinting his eyes at you. Annoyed, he snatches the joint from in between your lips and tosses it to the ground, ashing it with his toe. He can't believe the capacity you have to bother him.
"You heard me," he says, bending at his hips so he's eye to eye with you, lifting his hands to either side of your face and caging you into the wall.
Your breath hitches in your throat. Your insides twist into a knot and your legs feel like they're melting. He hovers above you, your lips only parted by a few inches. His face is tilted towards you and he's drinking you in, reveling in the way your eyes fluttered shut and your chest began to heave.
"I," you whisper unsurely. "Yes, I did."
"And yes I do," Eddie breathes before moving forward, admitting the answer to the question you were asking with your song and crashing into your lips.
He brings his left hand to cradle your cheek and uses his right to grab your waist and pin you to the wall. You ball his shirt in your fists to pull him flush against you before reaching your arms to rest on his shoulders and wrap around him, sending one hand to the nape of his neck and feeling his hair between your fingers.
"God, I hate you," you whimper as Eddie breaks from your lips to suck sloppy kisses into your neck.
"No you don't," he murmurs with confidence just below your ear before returning to your lips.
"No I don't," you repeat into his lips.
You part your lips for him, allowing Eddie to slip his tongue inside. "You drive me fucking crazy Y/N," he utters into your mouth and you mewl in response.
His tongue moves smoothly with yours and he tastes like the shot of whiskey that he took just before following you out here. He was warm against you, both your chests breathing heavily between you. Eddie trails his hands all over your body in exploration. You wondered if he could feel your heartbeat with how hard it was fluttering against your ribcage.
You realized what you felt pushing against your stomach is his hardened cock swollen against his jeans and you moan into his mouth, clenching your thighs together at the thought of him filling you up and becoming aware of the wetness pooling between your legs.
The noise drives Eddie wild. He reaches down, sweeping his large hand down your waist, over your hip and to the back of your thigh. He grips the dough of your thigh and hikes it up, hooking it around his middle and lining your warm center up with his throbbing erection. You gasp at the sudden friction you didn't realize you were aching for. It's just a taste of what he could give you. You feel his lips pull into a smile against yours, knowing the effect he's having on you. You consider giving in to him, right here.
Your mind races with possibilities.
Have I felt this way all along? Has he?
Is this how it will be from now on? Does he want that too?
What if he doesn't? He definitely doesn't. He doesn't know how much it would mean to you.
What if it's just this one time? You'd never survive that.
"Wait," you say, breaking your kiss and catching your breath. Eddie rests his forehead against yours, ready to jump back in whenever you're ready. "I can't."
"Why not baby?" he whispers against your lips, hot breath fanning over you.
Baby. It sends a fluttering to your stomach. Your heart aches. You want him.
"I'm scared Eddie." Your eyes are closed.
"Scared of me?" He pulls away and straightens in front of you.
"No," you open your eyes to see the pained expression that paints his face. You want to kiss it off. You bring your hand to cup his cheek and he leans in to it. "I'm just really scared of getting hurt," you feebly admit. Eddie is silent for a moment. You pull your hand from his cheek and hug it to your middle. His silence scares you and he stays silent for just a second too long. You turn to the direction of the parking lot and take one step, then another.
"No I would never - " he tries to assure you but he was a second too late. You're already walking away from him.
When Eddie returned inside without you, he was met with the barrage of worried faces of his friends.
"Where's Y/N?" Jess asked, stating the thing that was obviously on everyone's mind from the kissed out look of Eddie's lips that were swollen and stained slightly with the color you'd been wearing.
"She uh..." Eddie trailed off with his face turned to the side, unable to meet the concerned looks in their eyes. "She left."
A choir of questions sprang from their mouths.
"She left?" Heather asked quietly, dread tugging in her stomach knowing something must have happened.
"What did you do to her man?" Jeff asked at the same time.
But Eddie didn't answer. He knocked back a shot from the bar and walked away from the group, the sting of rejection still too fresh inside him to discuss it any further with the group while he was fighting the negative feels rising in his gut.
The group watched as he approached a table of girls across the room, and couldn't help the groans that they sighed out in unison with rolled eyes, realizing how completely unprepared they were for the fallout that was sure to follow Eddie's agonizing attempt to nurse his ego.
You drove home in tears, shaking from the sudden absence of Eddie you felt and sickness churning your stomach as you played the events back in your head. The shock eventually wore off and your tears slowed to a stop, but the nausea remained until you fell asleep that night, unsure if you did the right thing or made the biggest mistake of your life.
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You called out of work the next day, allowing yourself one day to wallow in self pity since you were now leaning more towards thinking you made a huge mistake. It seemed like your lips still tingled from the pressure of his kiss, your body felt hollow without his touch and you longed to feel it again. Your heart ached every time your mind betrayed you and flashed the memory of his wounded expression through your mind.
It wasn't until Saturday morning that the girls showed up to your house, forcing themselves in to confront your sullen state. You were asleep when they opened your door.
Heather climbed into bed beside you and mirrored your position on your side, bringing her forehead to yours and tracing a soft finger down your nose to wake you up.
Jess sat at the edge of your bed with a caring hand placed on your exposed calf and Sarah hovered behind her with her head hung over Jess's shoulder.
You took count of your friends as your blurry vision cleared before realizing one was missing, rolling over on your back to see Tiff with her head hung low to meet your eyes and hands on her hip. "Good morning," she greeted briefly, "now spill."
You sat up a scooted closer to Heather, making room for Tiff to slide into bed on your other side. Sarah and Jess sat at the foot of your bed, crossed legged and facing you, both clutching one of your excess pillows for comfort.
It feels like you've been in a variation of this arrangement a hundred times before, either cuddling or being cuddled by your girls while you or the other works out their problem. It feels the same as it has since you were little girls. Like nothing has changed in the decade you've all been taking turns crowding into each others rooms, only this time something has changed. Something huge.
You don't hate Eddie Munson at all. You love him.
You were afraid that he wouldn't feel the same, that he'd only planned to be with you once and things we be the same between you after.
But now you were more afraid of never having him at all.
When the girls left, you decided you'd suppress your fear and just call him. But when you heard to the dial tone for the eighth time, you hung up with a huff and looked up to your ceiling to choke back the tears that threatened to fall.
On Monday, you knew that he'd be at Gareth's for their practice. Sarah gave you the number for his garage phone and when you called, Gareth answered.
"Hello?" Gareth asked on the other end, kindness always evident in his voice.
"Gareth hey, it's Y/N."
"Y/N?" he asked, thoroughly surprised.
"Yeah," you said with your eyes screwed shut, "listen, is Eddie there?"
"Eddie?" Gareth asks, and you can hear him shift on the other end of the phone.
"Yeah," you say, embarrassed while you wait.
You hear unclear whispering in the receiver, mumbling from definitely more than one person.
"Um, sorry Y/N," Gareth returns, his voice dripping with uncertainty, "he's not here."
You gulp down the lump in your throat, knowing there's no way he's not there.
"Okay," you sigh, defeated. "Would you just let him know I called?"
"Yeah, I'll tell him you called."
"Thanks Gareth." And you hang up.
You thought about going to their show Tuesday, but the dread that filled you when the time came was enough to keep you away. If he was avoiding you, you didn't want to make it worse by forcing him to see you. Not yet.
So on the next Saturday when you saw Eddie passing in front of the music store window during your shift to get to Family Video next door, you blinked first to make sure you weren't imaging it. But before you could understand it, your legs seemed to be carrying you towards him while your brain was yelling at you to turn around.
You ran quickly from behind the counter, leaving customers alone in the store and you threw open the door, flying out of it and running after him before he could get inside the other store.
"Eddie!" you shout at his back.
He pauses, shoulders tense in his leather jacket as he stands up straight. He hesitates for a few seconds, making you afraid that he won't turn around at all.
But he does. And the stony look on his face makes you wish he hadn't. His brows are knitted together in a furrow and his lips are pushed together in a tight line.
"What do you want?" Eddie says, so calm that it unnerves you.
When you don't answer right away, he shakes his head slightly and sticks a hand out like you're inconveniencing him.
"Something you want to say?" he asks, his eyes staring at you, annoyed by your silence.
"Yeah, I.." you choke on your words.
"You what Y/N?" Eddie scolds, his eyes squinted at you the way they used to when he looked at you. Before. "Your stash running low? Need to buy an ounce? Someone's instrument is broken and you need to borrow one? Your car's not starting and I need to fix it?" His tone is getting more and more exasperated.
You can't form any words. All you can do is stand there and accept him berating you. His words hurt and your lower lip begins to tremble.
"Because unless it's one of those things, I don't know what you could possibly be talking to me for."
When Eddie finishes, he turns and walks away. You exhale and a tear spills over your eyelashes and down your cheek.
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"He hates me," you say on the phone to Sarah when you get back behind the counter at work.
"I don't know, Y/N I think maybe he's just hurt you know?" Sarah attempts to soothe.
You disagree.
"Listen Y/N," you hear Gareth say distantly in the receiver before a shuffle on the other end. "I've known Eddie a long time okay?" His voice becomes more clear. "And he's not very good at this kind of thing. He'd much rather avoid his problems than deal with them and right now that's you."
"Oh thanks a lot Gareth, I feel so much better," you joke.
"Not his problem," he says. "I mean... the problem is he feels rejected, like you don't feel the same about him."
You heart drops.
"What do you mean the same about him?" you scream.
"Shit," Gareth curses under his breath, "I've said too much."
"You're gonna have to say a little more," you threaten.
"Well, we all know it, Y/N" Gareth explains, "he's always teased you and stuff because he loves to get a rise out of you. I can tell he has feelings for you. The whole hating you thing was always an act because he got off on the wrong foot when we were kids and he kept it up because didn't know what else to do."
You can't believe what you're hearing. His words ring in your ears like a squealing amp and your breathing picks up.
"Oh my god," you whisper, dropping the phone while you try to grasp what Gareth has just told you.
"Gareth, why the hell have you never told me that?" you faintly hear Sarah reprimand him on the other end of the phone.
"Um, okay okay," you catch back up, "Gareth can you please just make sure he comes to our set on Thursday?"
"I don't know, it'll be really hard to convince him."
"Just do it!" you and Sarah yell in unison before you slam the receiver down.
You know what you have to do. You lost your words when you tried to talk to him so you just have to find someone who's already written the words for you.
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When Thursday came, you were hopeful things might work out. You took deep breaths in the mirror as you got dressed for your show at The Hideout. You were sure of your feelings now and you'd make Eddie see, one way or another.
Gareth came to you and Sarah on Monday to say that there was no way in hell he could get Eddie to the entire show on Thursday, so you devised a plan to get him there in time for the last two songs. So you knew you had to make the last two count.
You'd felt like you were floating through the entire day, like a puppet going through the steps of a routine, legs carrying you places without you thinking about it.
So when you found yourself in the green room before your set, the gravity of the situation finally started to set in as time inched closer and closer. Your stomach twisted into knots and your mouth went dry.
The girls noticed the shift in your spirit immediately and came to you with hugs and enough encouragement that your doubt was replaced again and you felt good enough to take the stage.
Your set went by in what felt like just a few minutes. You had your normal crowd at the tables and some in the standing space in front of the stage, including the three attending boys of Corroded Coffin. You silently wished time to slow down, you were so nervous for what was coming. So when you were playing your fifth song, Sarah nodded to Gareth who snuck away to the phone.
He dialed Eddie's number from memory and waited eagerly for an answer.
"Hello?" his friend answered. Gareth let out a sigh of relief.
"Hey man," Gareth began, "Do you think you could come get me and the boys? Jeff's car isn't starting."
"Uh yeah I guess, where are you?" It was a dumb question. He knew where they were.
"The Hideout," Gareth said with eyes closed and teeth gritted in suspense as he waited for Eddie's answer.
"Shit, it's Thursday isn't it?" Eddie cursed into the receiver.
"Yeah man, but they're almost done with the set so you don't have to stay or anything. And we'll wait outside for you," Gareth lied. He was trying to time it perfectly for Eddie to arrive for the last two songs and have to come inside when they weren't waiting outside for him.
"Alright alright, I'm leaving now."
"Thanks man, see you in a few," Gareth silently celebrated in place as he hung up the phone and made his way back to his friends for the last of your set.
It was almost perfect. You looked around the room but didn't see Eddie when Jess tapped the count off for Heaven Is a Place on Earth with her sticks and you had to start singing the first chorus. You try to ignore the worry that he won't come growing inside you and sing the song, closing your eyes for the first verse.
When the night falls down I wait for you, and you come around.
When you finished the first verse, you opened your eyes and see him. He was standing at the very back of the room with his back against the wall. It looked like he had just walked into the door and he wasn't planning on coming any closer. He kept his lips pulled together in a tight line, his head head slouching against the wall and he looked at you through hooded eyes.
You smiled as you continued the song, happy that your plan had worked. You couldn't help yourself and met his gaze as you sang baby, I was afraid before but I'm not afraid anymore, hoping he understood to true meaning behind the lyrics.
When the song ended, Gareth followed your gaze and saw Eddie standing at the back of the room. Eddie met his eyes and gestures for him to get the others and leave. Gareth is shaking his head rapidly at Eddie, refusing to leave. You knew you had to act fast.
You cleared your throat into the mic. Eddie stops motioning to Gareth and his attention snaps back to you.
"We have one more for you tonight, and it's new for us but I'm sure you'll recognize it." You pause for a few cheers from the audience. "It's um... for someone special who made it tonight," you murmur into the mic. "I hope they know who they are." The room falls mostly silent, spare a few whispers you can hear among the crowd.
"I think maybe a few of you do," you joke into the mic, hearing comfortable laughter fill the room. And with that, you nod at Tiff to begin the music.
There's a few seconds of music before you have to come in with lyrics, so you use them to take deep breaths and when you glance at Eddie, you notice he's already moved a little closer. There's no going back now, you think. So you close your eyes and start singing.
Tonight, I want to give it all to you. In the darkness, there's so much I want to do. And tonight, I want to lay it at your feet. 'Cause boy, I was made for you and boy, you were made for me.
You looked up to see that Eddie has moved to his friends and he's watching you. His expression has slightly softened and you think you can maybe even see a grin painting his face in the dim light.
I was made for lovin' you, baby. You were made for lovin' me. And I can't get enough of you, baby. Can you get enough of me?
You sing directly to him, holding his gaze that's he's trying to intimidate you with. He won't win because you're not scared anymore. He's the first to break your eye contact, turning his head when Jeff nudges him and he begins nodding along with his friends.
Tonight, I want to see it in your eyes, feel the magic, there's something that drives me wild. And tonight, we're gonna make it all come true. 'Cause boy, you were made for me and boy, I was made for you.
You continued singing, moving your body to the music on stage for him, but your eyes never wandered far from where he stood in front of you.
Eddie exhaled the breath he was holding in, giving in to his weakness for you as he watched your electricity on stage. Someone passed him a shot. He downed it without even stopping to ask what it was, smiling at the stranger and thanking them. He needed it for his nerves. He was not sure what he was going to do when you finished singing.
I was made for lovin' you, baby. You were made for lovin' me And I can give it all to you, baby. Can you give it all to me?
You draw out your last note slightly, and breathe deep with a heaving chest when your song ends. You smile at the applause, lower your head back to the clapping crowd and see Eddie weaving his way through the people to the front of the crowd at the stage, to you.
Your heart thumps at the sight of him coming towards you. Just as he approaches the stage, you bend at your knees and come down closer to his level. You're hovering just inches above him at this height, his head is turned up only slightly to meet your eyes.
Neither of you say anything as the crowded room is cheering around you. Eddie stares at you from his place beneath you and the heat flushes you, pink rising from your chest and into your neck.
Almost instinctively, Eddie surges forward and you meet him without second thought, bringing your empty hands to either side of his face.
You kiss him with desperation, as if you could kiss away the agony of the last week, as if you didn't kiss him like this he would disappear from in front of you forever, like this is your last chance.
The crowd erupts around you, cheers and shouting and applause filling the room. It causes you both to break your kiss because of the huge smile that spreads on both your faces.
"You sing that just for me?" Eddie breathes against you.
"Yes."
"You mean it?" he asks in disbelief.
"Every word," you promise, planting a sweet kiss to his lips as his insides burn up with your love.
Then you feel his hands reach up and grab your ribs. He applies the slightest pressure, telling you to jump, that he'll catch you. And he does. You wrap both arms around his neck and Eddie pulls you off the stage effortlessly. He lowers you with firm hands on your ribcage to straddle your legs around his tall frame and keep your lips trained on him the entire time.
"Yeah you're welcome!" Jeff shouts.
"See you later then? We'll just pack up here!" Jess yells from stage with sarcasm.
"It's about fucking time!"
The whistling and catcalling you hear behind you grow more and more distant as Eddie walks you to the closest door, unwilling to waste another second without his hands all over you. You lift one hand from its place on his back to give them all the bird.
You can thank them later.
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1. "You're such a dork."
2. "Get over here, you doof."
3. "Cheeky."
4. "You're so needy."
5. "Kiss me again."
6. "You're so adorable!"
7. "Look at you... goodness, you're so cute!"
8. "I'm just so happy!"
9. "I can't stop smiling."
10. "I like that you make me laugh so much that my cheeks hurt."
11. "You are being extra sweet today."
12. "Oh, look at you!"
13. "Your eyes are so pretty."
14. "I'm really happy that you're here with me."
15. "Thank you for staying with me."
16. "I don't think I've ever loved someone this much before."
17. "I feel like I'm in the clouds when I'm with you."
18. "You're like my hero/heroine."
19. "I'm gonna tickle you if you don't come over here."
20. "My, oh my. You are such a beautiful creature."
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21. "Go with me?" "As long as you hold my hand."
22. "Is there a reason you're blushing like that?"
23. "Have you seen my hoodie?" "Nooooo..." "You're wearing it, aren't you?"
24. "OH you're jealous!"
25. "Can we stay like this forever?"
26. "Please just kiss me already."
27. "I think you might be my soulmate."
28. "Sleep over? Please?"
29. "Are we on a date right now?"
30. "I think I'm in love with you."
31. "Are you flirting with me?" "You finally noticed?"
32. "Am I your lockscreen?" "You weren't supposed to see that."
33. "I wish we could live together already."
34. "They're so cute when they're asleep."
35. "I just wanted to let you know that I think you're beautiful."
36. "Quit touching me, your feet are cold!"
37. "Sharing is caring, now give me the hoodie!"
38. "Give me attention."
39. "You met me yesterday." "Yes, and I would die for you. Next question."
40. "She's hiding behind the sofa."
41. "Did you just hiss at me?"
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42. "Have you kissed anyone before?"
43. "Can I kiss you?"
44. "You're not hurting me, you're not heavy. I've got you, love.” 
45. "I look at them and I just... it's like when the Grinch's heart grows three sizes."
46. "I don't... I've never... been in a relationship before and I'm going to make mistakes... I just need you to tell me. I need you to talk to me."
47. "You didn't tell me your friend was cute! Now what am I going to do?"
48. "You give me a reason to be better, to do better."
49. "God, you are so fucking cute."
50. "I love you, but I need you to go away because you're really bloody distracting and I have to pass this test tomorrow."
51. "Oh no... they're cute."
52. "I can't talk to cute people, okay? I don't know how to flirt!"
53. "God, I love your face."
54. "Don't look at me, I'm a mess!" "I love it when you're a mess!"
55. "Please do your homework for me...? Just one time." ... "I said one time, y'know... you didn't have to start studying. Not that I'm not proud or anything."
56. "I'm already home."
57. "Your comfort and happiness is more important to me than some stupid dinner."
58. "Stop moving! I'm going to have to start counting all over again!"
59. "I just thought that since you weren't feeling too good, this would help."
60. "I'm not kissing you in the rain! We'll catch our death!"
61. "Would it help if I stayed?"
62. "I apologise sincerely if my beautiful/handsome face has kept you up all night."
63. "God, you're pretty."
64. "Calm down, it's just a chocolate bar!"
65. "Please, tell me you brought a toothbrush?"
66. "You take the bed, you need it more than me."
67. "You're so warm!"
68. "You're freezing, Jesus!"
69. "You always look beautiful."
70. "Your hands are so small!"
71. "Sometimes I just want to cuddle, okay? Is that so bad?"
72. "Now I know where half my wardrobe went."
73. "Here, let me just–" 
74. "You're really special to me."
75. "That tickles!"
76. "We only have one room left for the night..."
77. "Naps are life, okay?"
78. "I don't think I could love you anymore than I already do."
79. "I had the weirdest dream..."
80. "I got you a trophy, it's only plastic, but it's for being the best human I know."
81. "Someone keeps leaving love notes in my locker and I don't know if I should find it endearing or creepy..."
82. "I love your voice."
83. "Put me down! I can walk!"
84. "Can... can you come over?"
85. "You're the best."
86. "Can you please stop biting your lip, it's distracting."
87. "I thought you liked love songs!"
88. "I know you're not a fan of Valentine's day... I just thought that maybe I could change your mind..."
89. "You're my favourite know-it-all."
90. "That was the least romantic proposal in the entire history of proposals."
91. "I never knew you were a romantic at heart."
92. "I made it. For you. I know it's not the best, but..."
93. "Let me carry that."
94. "How do you know my favourite drink?" "I'm observant."
95. "We've known each other's for years and I don't think we've ever had a proper conversation."
96. "You're the clumsiest person I know, how did you survive past childhood?"
97. "It's always time for a milkshake."
98. "You know, humming the James Bond theme tune defeats the point of sneaking."
99. "I think your cat wants to kill me."
100. "Where have all my jumpers gone?"
101. "I don't get paid enough for this shit."
102. "Oh my God, I love you."
103. "I told you to bring a jacket."
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104. "Is that my shirt?" "You mean our shirt?"
105. "It's you, it always has been."
106. "You're everything I could've wanted and more."
107. "Kiss me."
108. "Home stopped being a place when you entered my life."
109. "You should probably go home." "But I'm already home."
110. "You're an idiot." "But you love me."
111. "I'd do anything for you."
112. "You took all the pillows so I'm using you as one."
113. "Stop moving and let me braid your hair."
114. "I'm so proud of you."
115. "You are my family."
116. "I'm right here."
117. "Can you just please hold me?"
118. "I'm pretty sure they're my soulmate."
119. "This reminded me of you."
120. "Your hair is really soft."
121. "Are you blushing?"
122. "Can I stay here tonight?"
123. "Because I love you."
124. "Make a wish!"
125. "I love seeing you smile."
126. "You're just a softie."
127. "You are crushing me right now."
128. "Darling I love you and all, but please step out of the kitchen."
129. "Take my hand. Just trust me."
130. "You're the only thing that matters."
131. "Did you know that you talk in your sleep?"
132. "Hey, look at me. Focus on me, alright?"
133. "Why can't I get you out of my head?"
134. "Don't let go."
135. "Stay."
@blisfvll​
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136. "You smell really nice."
137. "If you steal the blanket, I'm going to put my cold feet on you."
138. "You're comfy."
139. "But I want to hear you sing."
140. "Don't get up – I'll do it."
141. "Care to give me a back scratch?"
142. "Your bed head is really cute."
143. "How about a kiss?"
144. "Uh oh, I know that look. What do you want?"
145. "Are you really flirting with me right now?"
146. "I like the way your hand fits in mine."
147. "You have something in your hair, umm... do you want me to get it out?"
148. "It's nice that your voice is the first thing I heard today."
149. "This movie is really scary, but you're into it so I'm trying not to cover my face the whole time but– WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!?"
150. "Wait, don't pull away... not yet."
151. "Half the time I get too embarrassed to say anything."
152. "No, it's fine. I can wait until you're done talking to them."
153. "No, like... it's just, I can't believe you're actually wearing my clothes."
154. "I've been trying to get ready for like an hour and an half because I know you're going to look so good and I need to try and match up."
155. "I wanted to say 'I love you' for the first time without stuttering, but that failed."
156. "We could order pizza and just stay like this all day."
157. "It's not a double date. We're just third and fourth wheeling."
158. "I remember practicing how to ask you out in the mirror..."
@marauder-exe​
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159. "It's not funny!"
160. "That wasn't suppose to happen."
161. "Hurry back."
162. "I can't take you seriously."
163. "Problem solved."
164. "That was embarrassing."
165. "It's freezing in here."
@love-me-a-good-prompt​
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166. "I love you, baby."
167. "Hey, cutie."
168. "I promise to love you for the rest of my life."
169. "You're my world."
170. "I don't care if you're sick, catching a cold from kissing you is worth it."
171. "You are so perfect."
172. "Marry me?"
173. "You're the best part of me."
174. "Stay here with me. For the rest of our lives."
175. "I'm speechless, you're so beautiful!"
176. "Come here, I need to hug you."
177. "When everything's wrong, it's you that makes it right."
178. "You're the one."
@raggedy-dxctor​
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179. "Well, it's the thought that counts." "Wait, no, don't take my kisses away from me!"
180. "Oh, you've started stealing my socks now?"
181. "You owe me a kiss."
182. "How did you get in here?"
183. "That's not even fair."
184. "You promised me a cookie!"
185. "Ew, that is so sappy, I might vomit."
186. "You're not very intimidating."
187. "That was, by far, the stupidest thing you've ever done."
188. "Why don't you take a picture? It'll last longer."
189. "Why the hell is there glitter everywhere?"
@whcczes​
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190. "I'll feel much better if you let me walk you home."
191. "Apparently, all our friends have a bet going that we end up together."
192. "You make me feel alive. For the first time ever, I feel like I can breathe."
@moanlightlust​
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193. "It's two in the morning and you want to cuddle?"
194. "You shine so bright it's intimidating. I love it."
195. "I'm here."
196. "What's your name again? Sorry, I just got that super weird feeling that we only see in movies, you know? Like, the whole world stopped turning and all I could see was you."
197. "I was born to be yours."
198. "Isn't it a bit too cliché?"
199. "So, you're just kissing strangers for no apparent reasons?"
200. "You'll always be my favourite person."
201. "You're making it weird, stop making it weird."
202. "There's nothing I love more than running back into your arms."
203. "I'm yours. Forever."
204. "You always know how to cheer me up."
205. "I... I lost the ring."
206. "Will you be mine?"
207. "Darling, you look perfect tonight."
208. "You saved my life."
209. "Don't give me that look. No... NO! I said no puppy dog eyes! You know I can't resist them! Argh, fine!"
210. "I missed you and your bad puns and even your horrible cooking and the way you fit perfectly against my body when we cuddle. I just really missed you."
211. "We're a team, remember?"
212. "There's no place I'd rather be than by your side."
213. "Your smile brightens the whole room."
214. "I kinda adopted a puppy behind your back... don't be mad! Look at those cute fluffy paws!"
215. "You're burning up. Guess I need to activate my nurse mode."
216. "I love you. As in more than friends, more than best friends and more than super extra best friends."
217. "I love you just the way you are."
218. "We need to kick his ass, no questions asked. You in?"
219. "Hot chocolate and cuddles? Kisses?"
220. "You make me feel pretty."
221. "You'll always be my best girl."
222. "Never hide yourself from me."
223. "Babe! There's no toilet paper!"
224. "I'll never give up on you."
225. "Do you feel that shirt? That's boyfriend material."
226. "That prank went so wrong."
227. "Care to dance, my love?"
228. "AH! You're stuck with me!"
229. "You're too good to me."
230. "Is it that time of the month?"
231. "Can I braid your hair?"
232. "It's okay to have doubts, as long as you don't let them overwhelm you."
233. "Come here! I can't stand to be so far away from you!"
234. "I got you."
235. "I wanna fall asleep next to you every night and wake up every morning with you by my side."
236. "Stop, I need to finish this!"
237. "I just wanna binge watch The Office, but it's not the same without you."
238. "Because I care about you!"
239. "I just wanted to impress you."
240. "I love you even though your breath stinks right now."
241. "Did you just puke on me?"
242. "We should get drunk and do stupid things."
243. "I always know what you're thinking about, babe. You're like an open book!"
244. "Could you sing to me?"
245. "I, uh, could you... could you play with my hair, please?"
246. "Nooooo, don't leave! I'm cold!"
247. "I think you're suffering from a lack of vitamin me."
248. "A mistletoe? Really?"
249. "Will you join me, love?"
250. "I have feelings for you."
251. "You are the reason."
252. "Take my hand, I wanna show you something..."
253. "You have a lovely name."
254. "You're my everything."
255. "You do know a lot about my blushing schedule."
@voilawind​
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If y'all were curious and / to the people that are tagged lol
I posted 1,774 times in 2022
That's 1,744 more posts than 2021!
746 posts created (42%)
1,028 posts reblogged (58%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
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I tagged 1,636 of my posts in 2022
Only 8% of my posts had no tags
#nan talks - 434 posts
#asks - 345 posts
#anon asks - 204 posts
#anon - 121 posts
#seventeen smut - 88 posts
#seventeen - 76 posts
#seventeen fanfic - 60 posts
#seventeen imagines - 60 posts
#seventeen scenarios - 48 posts
#ship game - 43 posts
Longest Tag: 139 characters
#i hate knowing bc of how the world is now there a very low chance i’ll never see this person in real life or in concert to truly appreciate
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
and they were roommates pt.2
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find the first part here, part three here
A svt.hub collab
Pairing: camboy!chan x afab roommate!reader
Genre: smut
Word count: 2.2k
tags: pet name (kitten), oral, 34 +35, dirty talk, mentions of sex tape
Summary: Wanting sex is a natural feeling, it just so happens that gratification could be found in the next room with a shitty webcam and an infectious laugh.
author note: thank you @chogiwapadada for helping me proofread this thing and thank you guys for the endless support. the fact that this was on the top page for the seventeen tag is insane and y'all made such a big deal of this and therefore i thank you guys so much. but josh if you see this, no you don't go away, please. i am always constantly overwhelmed by the support and hopefully you guys enjoy this one too!
tag list: @sapphichui @librarian-stacks @dontflailmenow @gyuldaengie @minniemole @greysdarling @romromthedeer @yoondae @dinosbestie @boo-tycall
You may be wondering, what happened that night when Chan fapped to the thought of you in front of a live audience, not forgetting to invite you when he’s made a mess of himself. Did you really take up his offer, stormed out of your room, and had the most mind-blowing sex with your roommate you ever had?
Of course, you fucking didn’t, are you kidding?
What you actually did was finish off independently in your own rooms and did not speak another word to each other for the rest of the night.
You were awkward roommates at the end of the day and who knows what kind of shit would happen if you decided to pursue these escapades any further. No matter how hot and incredible Chan/Dino looked naked, there was no way you’d potentially ruin your convenient living agreements with your roommate who obviously makes enough money for the both of you (a lot of thanks to you I guess). So, what was the tactical decision after learning your roommate is a popular and successful sex worker?
Act as if nothing happened. What live show? What’s Dino? What even is Svthub? You don’t masturbate, that’s icky.
Yeah, you’re having a hard time believing that too. But what else were you supposed to do?
You could hardly look Chan in the eye the next day. Fortunately, he paid you almost no mind being that it was his weekend too. However, last night’s show was not as easily forgettable for you as it was for him. You could still picture the momentum and force that took hold of his body that managed to power his personal gratification, killing every functional cell of your entire being. His smile was already so pretty on a normal basis but how it twists desperately when he gets closer and closer, and his whines get louder and bolder, you could just cum then and there.
It fucking drove you insane he was just sitting there on the couch, laughing at cartoons as if nothing happened. It, in fact, confused you, even more, making you consider whether last night was even a dream because of how contradicting Chan and Dino really were, but it’s him. That laugh is his, that smile is his, that body is his, and that semi-hard cock poking at his gray sweatpants was definitely his. How were you so stupid that you didn’t notice sooner?
You press your lips in a firm line when you notice him turn his head at you, urging you to swallow the built up drool in your mouth.
“You wanna go grocery shopping today,” he asks, “I think I remember there was a sale for something I’ve been needing for a while.”
Like he needs to participate in any sales from the income he grew overnight.
“We went shopping last week,” you pointed out.
He nods agreeingly, “yeah, but I think we can afford it. I kinda got a huge bonus.”
Yeah, because Chan’s horny roommate couldn’t control themselves.
“Sure. Just let me get my bag.”
He claps his hands in rejoice and waits for you on the couch. When you’re both ready, Chan grabs the house keys and you’re the first one to head to the front door. Turning the knob, you swing the door open and at your feet was a package labeled to your roommate. You curiously pick it up from the ground, “Hey, Chan—”
“Uh, that’s mine,” he snatches it, nervously chuckling, sticking it in a vacant spot on your shared bookshelf.
You narrow your eyes at him as he pushes you out of the apartment and locks the door behind you both. “What was that?”
He shakes his head dismissively, flicking his hand in feigning lack of care. “Just treated myself. Got here earlier than I expected.”
Next day shipping, hmm?
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750 notes - Posted June 26, 2022
#4
Bad Habits (M)
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Pairing: fwb!seungcheol x fem!reader
Genre: smut
Word count: 3.2k
tags: dom!seungcheol, sub!reader, daddy kink, spanking, overstimulation, degradation, dirty talking, pussy slapping, pink!cheol, fingering, reader being in denial, light tit play, light edging
Summary: To take your love life seriously, you need to cut ties with the one person holding you back. Too bad he comes back to you like a bad habit.
author note: I feel like it's been a really long time since I posted smth longer than 1k bc I have been fucking drained and I am so tired of being an adult like I don't wanna be here. I am so happy I got this done but I feel like it is so much tamer than I wanted it to be like I kinda have been having a soft cheolrot and all i wanna do is cuddle his ass. Btw I'm gonna try working on more stuff next week, maybe post multiple short pieces here and there next week bc i will be on vaycay with no internet access from April 9th to 17th, so yall will see me inactive.
His face, his body, his words; everything about him was fucking mind-blowing, and how he blew out your back was indescribable. Seungcheol was the top picking of casual sex.
It was mutual that things stay sexual and only sexual, but how this one guy had you wrapped on his finger was something that you had to go to your therapist for. You worked your schedule around this man. Every time he’d text you, you’d drop everything and make sure that he had your full undivided attention. Often he showed how grateful he was while simultaneously showcasing how strong those thighs underneath you while you grinded on top of him or how fast and powerful hips were slamming full force into your cervix. His big hands always gripped the flesh of your ass as he fucked you from behind. Much often, your face would be buried in his pillows while you muffled your loud moans. 
“You fucking like that, baby?” He muttered under his shallow breaths.
You turned to your cheek, trying to look back at him. “Y-yes, fuck, just that. Your cock is good fucking my pussy.”
“You take it to f-fucking good,” he praised, both palms clashing against your ass cheeks like a pair of cymbals.
You arched your back at the strike of pain, your teeth digging into your bottom lip while you let out a hoarse moan. “Mmm, daddy.”
Seungcheol was like a well-oiled machine. He ran beautifully, pressing into your core in a steady rhythm, audibly degrading you to filth, filling you with a sense of accomplishment. “You’re such a good slut for me. Is my little cumslut enjoying how I fuck your filthy hole?”
“Mmmh, yes. I love how you fuck me, daddy. You always know how to make me feel so good.” His hands smoothed against your side, not losing his pace, fucking you until the sunrise, only to have you do it all over again the next day. 
He was insatiable and you found it addicting. Eventually, all things had an end and that end for you was when one of you had decided to take control of your life again. It had been a long time since you were in a committed relationship and to you that meant differently now that you were older. At this point in your life, you needed some romantic consistency and you weren't going to get it stuck in your college ways.
“I don’t want to just sleep around anymore.”
“I told you, y/n, I’m not looking for anything serious.” Seungcheol reminded you.
He shielded his body with his once abandoned white tee, getting ready to go about his following day. Being in your home, you laid comfortably nude in your own bed.
“I know. That’s why I’m ending things between us, Cheol. I want to get into dating again. I want us to stop sleeping together.”
With his back towards you, he halted midway pulling up his pants, almost contemplating, before pulling them back up all the way. “Did you meet someone?”
“No,” you admitted, “I just want those other things to come after sex.”
You watched him nod, before turning back to you. “Okay…So this is the last time then.”
You nodded.
“I wish you would’ve told me that. I could’ve made it a bit more…celebratory.” He joked lightly, a dark undertone in his voice.
You looked at him intrigued. Your upper body slipped from the covers, hanging the delicious fruit that would at times be suckled on or bruised with hickies by his cherry red lips. Seungcheol’s throat went dry by the simple gestures, mesmerized by the beauty every time you displayed it, wondering if there will be anyone else like it once you leave. He finally met your eyes, tempted by your siren gaze. “We still can, if you want that is. The day is still young.”
Seungcheol gathered his thoughts. A speedy gulp of saliva ran down the narrow pipe of his throat as he fixated on how you shifted in bed. Revealing more and more skin, you leave nothing to the imagination. This was a momentary crucial decision, he could decide to leave and help himself to what else the world had to offer starting now, or—“Fuck it. Get on your knees for me.”
Seungcheol took his time that night, making sure you felt every inch that craved your attention, just as you took your time finding a permanent romantic partner. You’ve had your fair share of dates back in your college days but this was a long time coming and you were no spring chicken anymore. It’ll be the first time in a while that you've put yourself out there. How you came upon Seungcheol was pure coincidence and convenience, not expecting it to have lasted as long as it did. Now you’re finding yourself finding something to occupy that time in your life, a time where you put your energy into someone else.
You start to remember how tiresome it is getting to know someone and making an effort to be presentable. By now, you’d have several dates, all varying types of people, and all varying different types of disappointment. None of them made themselves second-date worthy and all lacked an attractive quality. Maybe you were being picky, but none of them drew you like you wish they had. Some were nice, sweet even, while some were simply a waste of time, but there were none you willingly thought twice about.
You waited even now for possibly another awful date. You both agreed upon a bar, thinking of a night letting loose with drinks would be a good start to whatever this is. Whoever this person was, their impression was already off given that you’ve waited a good half hour for them to arrive. Additionally, they began to be unresponsive, leading to the point that tonight was likely another failure of date.
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#3
Healthy Bodies (M)
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Pairing: fem!reader X chilhoodfriend!soonyoung
Genre: smut, slice of life
Word count: 6.2k
tags: plot before smut, mentions of body image issues, supportive besties, mutual pining, estranged friends to lovers, soft dom! Soonyoung, sub!reader, unprotected sex, oral (giving and receiving), rough to soft, passionate sex
Summary: There's no one that could relate to your struggle of being a former fat kid like your one and only old friend. So, what’s to happen when you reunite with him before a 10 year high school reunion.
author note: I have no answer to why the hell this is so damn long or why the hell it took as long as it did to get finished, but this image has been in my head for FOOKEN MONTHS I TELL YOU. I’d like to say it was worth it finally having out now. An in perfect time bc this pic from the photoshoot is so gorg and FITTING. While I do love the photoshoots and promotions we’re given PLEDIS/HYBE need to fucking chill out on all their employees getting fucking sick. If one member is sick, quarantine all of them. Having one sick means they’re all at risk of covid, this is why they are all getting sick one by one. TLDR; CHILL THE FUCK OUT ENTERTAINMENT COMPANIES. I might re-edit this btw idk
Only you and Soonyoung knew how bad it was in high school as overweight teenagers, only having each other to rely on as you bonded over your struggles and exchanging traumatic stories over street food. So when you heard about your 10-year high school reunion, you were so eager to see your chubby buddy again that you planned a small reunion of you a few days before the big gathering. It would be the first time in years since you’ve both graduated, saying you’d keep in touch when you both pretty much forgot each other all this time, caught up in your education. Luckily returning your thoughts, Soonyoung agreed to meet up with you, reciprocating the same excitement.
A lot of things have changed since your pubescent years and you’ve managed to make a name for yourself in, surprisingly, the fitness industry. Your name is plastered all over street benches, office buildings, and even college campuses. You were essentially the picture-perfect image for all things fitness. Seriously, you were on the cover of All Things Fitness magazine for July. To say you were excited to show off your success to the one person who’d understand what you’re feeling would be an understatement. You were dying to see the reaction of your estranged best friend for the first time.
“Y/n?”
When you looked up to the sound of your name, the sharp, familiar eyes attached to the not all familiar toned and lean figure approached your table with a bright expression on their face. You blinked up at the stranger, taken back by his stunning figure. You recognized him from the many fashion catalogs you’ve graced your eyes on at the salon when you get your bi-monthly treatment. You knew him by name, by eye gaze, and by every detail of his ripped-up body he had a habit of showcasing on every pictorial he was on, but how the hell did he know you.
You pointed at you dubiously, “Do you know me?”
“Y/n. It’s me. Soonyoung.”
You got up from your seat, your eyes growing wide enough to make you think like you were missing all the skin around your eyes. “Kwon Soonyoung?”
“Nice seeing you too, Mochi.” He quickened his pace and wrapped his arms around your waist, hoisting you up in the air.
You returned his embrace, involuntarily groping his broad shoulders and firm back through the thin fabric of his t-shirt, all at once hearing the beat of your heart pound tenfold. His hand met the small of your back, lightly rubbing against it, breathing in your expensive perfume that you said yourself ‘reeked of success.’ “God, you even smell great.”
Soonyoung released you from his hug, holding on to you by your shoulders. He gazed back at you like you were the most precious thing he’d lay his eyes on, while you stared at him like a stranger. Kwon Soonyoung and Kwon Hoshi were the same person and you had no idea.
“Ho-Soonyoung! You look incredible.”
He offered you a side-grin. “Speak for yourself. You’re gorgeous.”
He planted a kiss on the side of your cheek. Eighteen-year-old Soonyoung definitely would not have done that.
Falling out of your spell, you shook your head, gesturing to the empty chair. “Uh, sit. Sit.”
Soonyoung got comfortable opposite you, not once his eyes tearing apart from your appearance. You mentally traced over his sharp jaw and down his toned frame, looking just as majestic as they felt. There was not a trace of the braces he had during graduation, besides his perfectly straight teeth, and his hair was parted in a style that accentuated every pretty feature he had. He really grew up to be so gorgeous.
“How is that you look so…”
“Different?” He finished, “You’re looking at the other side of the same coin, Mochi. You look different too.”
“Yeah, but, Soonyoung. Not like you.”
He chuckled, taking a sip of his iced water. “Thank you. If you weren’t my best friend, I would have a really hard time looking you in the eyes right now.”
“This is freaking me out a little bit right now because you, Soonyoung, are Hoshi.”
He grew shy, a pinkish glow tinting his cheeks. “Yeah, I’ve been doing well for myself, so today’s my treat.”
“Oh, you know I’d never deny a free dinner, but you’re not the only one doing well for themselves.” 
A sexy chuckle escaped him. “Alright then. You buy dinner, I buy the drinks, and we both get to talk about what’s going on in our lives, hmm?”
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#2
for you, always
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Pairing: wonwoo X fem!reader
Genre: smut
Word count: 1.4k
Tags: smut with some plot, ex!seventeen member, pining, exhibitionism, cunnilingus, implicit consent, unprotected sex, phone calls
Summary: Heartbreak recovery requires patience, incentive, and Jeon Wonwoo.
author note: hello welcome back to horny hell. we have lemonade and abandon kittens to adopt, kittens being pussies, and pussies being my {redacted}. I have no real serious notes beside the fact that I feel like grown so many good relations being on here and I hope we continue to connect and reconnect for a long time.
It was initially a means of getting over your ex. He would call all the time, get back together with you, only to break up all over again. At some point, it had to stop. 
Wonwoo was sick of every little pity party you’d throw at his place and he was running low on his stock of monthly supply of snacks in a mere week. Of course, there was the matter of your emotions, which were unstable and unpredictable, the worst kind to manage. You would throw tantrums, cry excessively, and experience the ups and downs comparable to an amusement park ride.
That was when he proposed an idea. He’d check on you, and hold you accountable for every time you get too close to your ex. Originally, a flick on the forehead seemed enough, you then began to get insufferable, fighting back. Other times you’d scratch at him like a cat, trying to retrieve your phone that he’s stolen from your grasp. It was until finally, he found a strong enough method to hold you back.
Pinning your hands on either wall, unable to even twist your wrist to face your phone screen. His hands were stronger than you had anticipated, hardly moving an inch, while struggled, and then you stopped completely. Wonwoo’s eyes pierced into yours like a knife, salvia shooting down his throat, but having complete control over the situation.
“Wonwoo—”
“Can’t you just ignore him when you’re with me? What good is it keeping him around?”
“I’m not—”
“You haven’t looked up from your phone all afternoon, stay with me here!” He points out, shouting.
Your lips quiver. Unable to tear your eyes away from him. “I-it’s, it’s not easy!”
“Can’t you see I’m doing the best I can to help you forget about him?”
You feel tears brim your eyes, helpless and irrational, pounding the back of your fists at the plaster of the wall you’re still restricted to. “Can’t you see I’m trying? I can’t help but…miss him. Just…let me take the call, hmm? Hmm?”
He shut his eyes painfully, fingers tightening around your wrists in frustration, hearing you wince in pain. “…God, you’re so stupid.” 
He pulls himself forward, his head drawing closer, and soon his lips on your face. The way they moved against you was sweet and slow as if to let you know that everything is ok, and eventually, everything will be. He loosens the grip on your wrist, causing you to drop your phone to the ground, cracking its screen. Your eyes flutter in anticipation, melting in his open arms. His arms tighten around your torso and you grasp his neck. Your bodies gravitate to the bedroom and Wonwoo never leaves your side.
This single event would lead to several endless night of involved with your dearest friend. Many of those nights including hands in each other hair, lips on each other’s body, hours lost in space, and more than enough orgasms to tattoo Wonwoos name on your tongue, and he loves how you would say his name. How he’d worship your body in return like religion, never ceasing to give every inch of you his undivided attention.
And this went on for as long as you needed. Wonwoo gave you all the distraction you needed, to the point that this entanglement started to work and you wouldn’t even think about calling up your ex.
“Mmh, Wonwoo.”
Your fingers interlocked with his hair, capturing his dark locks before tugging, his soft grunts escaping before his lips tug at your folds and close around your entrance. The way his arms would encapsulate around your thighs and push your sopping cunt closer to his face was exhilarating. The gears in your stomach churn like they were shifted to overdrive, mesmerized by the owner of those same eyes that a week ago scooped you from your disgraceful state and ravished you until the following morning. You were eternally grateful.
It is then you hear a buzz in the background of your pleasure, to which Wonwoo urges you to check who it was. You palm over the sheets and barely clutch in your hand and your eyes perk up at the sight of the dreaded name. “It’s S-Soonyoung.”
Wonwoo scoffs, “Good. Pick it up.”
“B-but—”
“I know, but I think you’re ready. Go ahead.”
You hesitantly accept the call, holding up to your ear. “Hello?”
Wonwoo mouths the word, ‘speaker,’ and you follow suit. You both hear your ex-boyfriend's voice bright and clear on the other end, talking to you as if nothing has changed.
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My #1 post of 2022
and they were roommates
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A svt.hub collab
Pairing: camboy!chan x gn roommate!reader
Genre: smut
Word count: 2.2k
tags: mutual masturbation, nipple play, dirty talk
Summary: Wanting sex is a natural feeling, it just so happens that gratification could be found in the next room with a shitty webcam and an infectious laugh.
author note: so I hope you guys are liking the collab so far. its been in the works for a while and this has been one of the most fun projects i've had in a while since i get to meet so many new writers. I was in a harsh drought for a while and I'm just glad this collab sparked up some interest in writing again. Here's a link to part 2
You fall to the bed with your legs clenched together, soaking in your guilty arousal, whimpering as the images of the adult video you stumbled upon replayed in your head. In detail, you could remember the soothing tenor voice as he gasped out terms of endearment, teasing his audience before releasing thick milky fluid up his bare and toned abdomen. The white sunk into the valleys of his stomach, his hum echoing in your ears through your earbuds before letting out a soft thanks and leaving the prerecorded video with an ending statement he does in every video, “Hope you’ll cum again soon. Bye.”
You hardly entertained the idea of cam shows since high-level production porn was easily accessible and needed no monetary compensation for most sites, but this guy was intriguing enough to stay and watch. He seemed like the perfect combination of gentle yet demanding, even with his awful username (what kind of name was Din0dicksd0wn anyway). You thought of him so much, that you couldn’t help but imagine your mouth wrapped around that hard gorgeous cock. And then there was the matter of his familiarity, which frightens you for countless reasons you don’t want to get into.
He didn’t show his face at all in the videos, maybe a peek at his smile if he slouches, but everything about him was a mystery besides the fact he went by Dino and his laughter could uplift any spirit dead or alive. His seductive internet presence increased your screen time usage and now leaves you anticipating the next time he does a live show, where you’d have a front seat.
You kept your promiscuous thoughts to yourself as you wanted your roommate to come back with food, remembering how you work better on a full enough stomach. Promptly, he returns to your place of residence with food and a big goofy smile on his face. “I hope you like extra cheese!”
You smile thankfully at the young man, who is urging a filling burger to your lap and you enjoy your late dinner together. Now with your mind on the way to being nourished, you had to think of a way of doing some ‘finger painting’ with your innocent roommate from hearing or interrupting. “Don’t you have any plans tonight? What are you doing at home on a Saturday?”
He halts his chewing, looking over at you with frightened eyes, “Oh, just, nothing. I don’t feel like going out today ‘tis all.”
“So you’re gonna be home all night?” You rephrase with subtle disappointment in your tone.
“Yeah, I’m just tired,” he adds, “after eating I was gonna tuck in early. Work has been really tiring this week. How about you? Are you staying home?”
You gulp, readjusting your burger in your grip. “Yeah, I thought I might sleep too. I guess it was a rough week for the both of us.”
“Yup.”
Silence fills the air, neither one of you could look at each other. Chan awkwardly finishes the last of his fries and picks up after himself, offering to help you with any of your trash before he leaves. He sees you shake your head in response.
“No thanks, Chan. I’m good.”
Chan politely smiles, turning away from the living area and washing up before he starts to head to bed. You sigh quietly, crumbling up the paper wrapper and washing up in the kitchen sink with the bathroom occupied. Being home all day, there was no need for you to shower, just good teeth brushing. However, looks like the toothpaste you keep by for cases like this ran low, meaning you had to bother Chan for another awkward encounter. 
You speed up to the bathroom door and turn the knob open without thinking, wanting the interaction to be fast and over. On the other end, your roommate was already stripped of his work clothes, dawning a perfectly sculpted body that you could recognize immediately from a singular mole on his loser torso. You immediately clasp your hands over your eyes, blushing hard enough to taunt a bull, and his shrilish scream is all you can hear.
“Occupied! You knew I was in here!”
All you could see was black, but from the audible shuffling, he had to be covering his important bits. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry. I had to get toothpaste.”
“Ok well, get it and leave, please.”
You sheild your vision from his build and hastily grab the toiletry, shutting the door behind you. After running away, you brushed your teeth at the kitchen sink, lost in your thoughts. The fact of the matter dawned on you, making you feel a long list of emotions that included guilt and longing.
Even knowing the fact, it didn’t matter, you were still going to watch the damn stream. You’d only ever have to watch once and never again, for the sake of your sanity.
You plug your earbuds in and hand down your pants as you lay in peace, waiting for the page to start up. You remember Chan leaving the bathroom in a hurry, without a second glance your way, which only heightened your suspicion. When his username appeared as live, along with its stream, it was the same man you climaxed to hours ago, living, breathing simultaneously with you. 
The same shaped mole was on his torso leading up to friendly accompaniment of his genitals that only grazed your vision mere moments ago, and a smile once again peaks through the top of his screen. You internally melt.
“Good evening. I hope you guys had a nice day. Mine was…eventful. I hope you don’t mind me talking about my day.”
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I posted 258 times in 2022
That's 258 more posts than 2021!
189 posts created (73%)
69 posts reblogged (27%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@mishkakagehishka
@5ugarcan3
@kasumikoujou
@yandere-daze
@makur0
I tagged 147 of my posts in 2022
Only 43% of my posts had no tags
#enstars - 91 posts
#ensemble stars - 85 posts
#ensemble stars x reader - 64 posts
#enstars x reader - 63 posts
#enstars smut - 60 posts
#ensemble stars smut - 58 posts
#kinktober - 29 posts
#makur0 - 20 posts
#interactions - 19 posts
#enstars fluff - 15 posts
Longest Tag: 88 characters
#dont ask for part two please you have no idea how hard it was for me to get through this
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
hihi! could i request an izumi x fem!reader where they just got married, and izumi has always wanted his children running around for the longest time, and just imagining his wife’s belly round and full of his children gets him acting up (in other words, he has a huge breeding kink)- so one fateful night, he creates a super romantic environment in their shared bedroom, and things escalate as he vows to fill her up with his kids ;) perhaps a timeskip at the end where izumi gets his wish of seeing his wife full if that’s not too much!
“‘M gonna fill you up~”
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synopsis — it may not be obvious, but izumi wants a certain something... from you. so one fateful night, he decides to take action. [izumi sena x fem! reader]
content warnings — nsfw, mdni. top! izumi, penetration, breeding, nicknames, body worship, izumi somehow being a fluffy yet sexy man, chaotic leo at the end
authors note — IZUMI GIVE ME ONE CHANCE- uh, ignore that. Anyways, YES I AGREE 100 PERCENT THIS MAN IS A CHILD LOVER and breeder. Ahem, but thank you anon for the detailed request, this was really nice to do!
word count — 1849
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245 notes - Posted September 16, 2022
#4
“I’m sorry for leaving…”
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247 notes - Posted September 18, 2022
#3
hELLO! Can I req threesome w mean dom reikao x afab reader ? 🥹🫶
“Don’t try to play with us.”
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synopsis — your friend warned you to stay away from his brother. but you get tangled with one of his friends, which then attracts the old vampire. [kaoru hakaze x AFAB! reader x rei sakuma]
content warning — nsfw, mdni. mean! dom! rei/kaoru, threesome, a slight altercation, fingering, penetration, oral (male recieving), manhandling, biting/marking
author’s note — kinda miffed that they weren’t as mean as intended to be but I somewhat figured out the plot- so I hope you enjoy! (First threesome y’all don’t expect anything)
word count — 1450
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270 notes - Posted September 19, 2022
#2
“you’re perfect every way.”
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synopsis — mika is noticing that you’re slowly distancing yourself from him. after finally pinning you down and getting an answer, he does his best to make you feel loved. [mika kagehira x AFAB! reader]
content warnings — nsfw, mndi. soft! dom mika, nicknames, mirror play, praising, self-praise, slight teasing, fingering; slight angst in beginning, fluff at end (possibly ooc mika?? i’m too tired to really look)
author notes — uh, hi! first oneshot here, hope you (nearly nonexistent readers lmao) guys enjoy!
word count — 1195
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301 notes - Posted September 14, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
hiiii may I request the reader seating on rinnes face as he's eating the reader out like his last meal ?? :) THABK YOUU
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“So, so good...”
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I posted 618 times in 2022
12 posts created (2%)
606 posts reblogged (98%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@thecrowssideblog
@imma-potatoo
@princeanxious
@lost-in-thought-20
@red-imeanblue
I tagged 564 of my posts in 2022
Only 9% of my posts had no tags
#janus sanders - 394 posts
#art - 302 posts
#remus sanders - 158 posts
#virgil sanders - 108 posts
#logan sanders - 88 posts
#incorrect quotes - 72 posts
#roman sanders - 60 posts
#daily reminder that janus sanders is gorgeous - 46 posts
#patton sanders - 45 posts
#anxceit - 37 posts
Longest Tag: 139 characters
#i know religious trauma is a whole thing in the series but i'm not religious and was raised buddhist so i have like no connection to it lol
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
Crow's horrible challange:
Start writing a story using the prompt: "I'm going to close my eyes and count to ten. Maybe I'll convince myself you were never here if you won't be here when I open them." with any character you'd like and the tag 3 people who you want to continue it. You can give them their own prompts to include :D!
Virgil hadn’t even turned around from closing the door when he started speaking.
"I'm going to close my eyes and count to ten. Maybe I'll convince myself you were never here if you won't be here when I open them."
Janus should have known to expect such a cold welcome. He stared at Virgil’s back, willing him to turn around and hear him out, to notice and acknowledge him, even just to glare at him. The sharp interjection of Virgil’s counting cut through the air before he could speak.
“One.”
It had been instinct, to go to Virgil first. His former best friend. The one he once trusted more than anyone else.
“Two.”
Maybe Janus should have gone to someone else.
“Three.”
Patton wouldn’t have turned him away.
“Four.”
Maybe Logan would have tried to help.
“Five.”
Roman... Roman probably would have pretended he wasn’t there, too.
“Six.”
Remus would have stayed until the bitter end.
“Seven.”
He was already running out of time anyway. What did a few more seconds matter?
“Eight.”
But, if Janus was being honest with himself - and sometimes, he was - he just wanted to see Virgil one last time.
“Nine.”
Janus closed his eyes.
“Ten.”
No one was there when Virgil turned back around.
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Wow, I wonder what happens next? Also, I never know who to tag, so write your own continuation if you want ;-;
133 notes - Posted March 15, 2022
#4
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hate the sin, love the sinner
dukeceit week 2022 day 1: truth/dare
[Image Description: A colored drawing of Janus and Remus facing the viewer with the text "Truth? Or dare?" beneath them over a dark grey background. Janus is wearing a wide hat, a capelet, and long yellow gloves. He is making a shushing expression while holding out a bitten apple to the viewer. Remus is wearing his canon outfit of a black long-sleeve shirt with a green sash and embellishments. He is standing beside Janus with a devious expression and holding his morning star over his shoulder.]
@dukeceitweek​​​​ Thanks to @sanderdarksides​​​​ and @mimssides​​​​ for putting up with me while I worked on this XD
145 notes - Posted August 14, 2022
#3
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oh, yee-aaaaah! it was like lightning!
dukeceit week 2022 day 2: mischief/dancing
[Image Description: A drawing of Janus and Remus dancing with joyous expressions in front of a dark grey background. Remus is standing slightly bent over, holding Janus by the waist. Janus is hanging upside-down with his legs crossing behind and above Remus' back and head. They are both wearing their skirt photoshoot outfits. Remus is wearing fishnets under a slime-patterned tanktop and a frayed tutu skirt. Janus is wearing a long black skirt, yellow opera gloves, and a black and yellow capelet.]
@dukeceitweek​ Thanks to @sanderdarksides and @mimssides for putting up with me while I worked on this XD
160 notes - Posted August 15, 2022
#2
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I drew the boys for @sanders-spring‘s intruloceit day! God, I love them.
215 notes - Posted March 2, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
CW: eye contact
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who’s really in control here?
dukeceit week 2022 day 4: wild/control
[Image Description: A stylized illustration of Janus and Remus in silhouette, lit from each side by green and yellow light. Janus is sitting in an armchair with his legs crossed and hands clasped in his lap. Remus is leaning on one side of the armchair with one arm draped across the back of the chair and resting a baseball bat on his other shoulder. Their faces are obscured, showing simplified smiley faces instead. Remus has a mustache and Janus has a snake eye and split tongue. The background is a swirl of green and yellow that fades to black from the center out.]
@dukeceitweek​​​​​​​​ Thanks to @sanderdarksides​​​​​​​​​ and @mimssides​​​​​​​​​ for putting up with me while I worked on this XD
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I posted 8,247 times in 2022
That's 8,247 more posts than 2021!
1,001 posts created (12%)
7,246 posts reblogged (88%)
Blogs I reblogged the most:
@calkestiis
@wild-karrde
@rexxdjarin
@thefact0rygirl
@lady--kenobi i would die for all of you
I tagged 4,449 of my posts in 2022
Only 46% of my posts had no tags
#captain rex - 931 posts
#pedro pascal - 242 posts
#boba fett - 242 posts
#my sun moon and stars - 235 posts
#wip captains log - 202 posts
#captain rex x reader - 198 posts
#temuera morrison - 165 posts
#commander wolffe - 162 posts
#din djarin - 150 posts
#captain rex x you - 145 posts
exactly who is surprised
Longest Tag: 139 characters
#i have no idea what i’m going to do and i don’t have enough money to run around spending it on things i shouldn’t have needed to repurchase
My Top Posts in 2022:
#5
I am so fucking feral I think I need to be hospitalized
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300 notes - Posted June 16, 2022
#4
bro when I tell you this man has a grip on my very soul I am absolutely not kidding. the depths to which I love him are immeasurable. just look at him. isn’t he fucking s t u n n i n g
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395 notes - Posted April 28, 2022
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No Shame
Commander Wolffe x F!Reader One Shot
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Summary: Based on the above song - You and Wolffe have been FWB for quite some time and although you want it to be something more, there's no way he would ever want that with someone like you. Right? Word Count: 7k Chapter Warnings: MINORS DO NOT INTERACT. 18+ RATING, angst, FWB to lovers?, dom!Wolffe (is there any other kind lol?), p in v sex, fingering, light bdsm themes and spanking (if ya squint), self-esteem issues, self-doubt, hurt/comfort, very mild arguing Notes: this is loosely based on themes of this song (or rather what I imagine a happy ending to be like bc I refuse to write shit that ends sad haha)
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Commander Wolffe was always far better than any other partner you’ve ever had. He was so good. Too good for you. His interest in sleeping with you often scared you. Because you knew you loved him and sleeping with him was only making that affection deepen. But you were filled with self-doubt. Denying your own worth against quite literally the perfect man. You weren’t a carefully engineered genetically ideal human. You were just you. Average men didn’t even like you. His interest in you didn’t make sense. Someone as perfect as him could never love you. No matter how much you wished he could.
You filled your life with men you thought you deserved. Men who could never measure up to him. Men who couldn’t even call themselves men by comparison to him. You were inferior. You knew it. He’d be ashamed of you. Ashamed to be seen with you. The fact that he even wanted to sleep with you at all was just because you were easy and accessible. That’s what you told yourself. You wouldn’t bother wasting his time by asking him to do all the relationship stuff you wanted. He’d probably laugh at you.
You tried to cut it off before you hurt yourself. Before you loved him so much it would kill you to ever see him walk away in disgust. But you couldn’t stop yourself. Every time you swore it would be the last, you found yourself comming him, begging him to find you and fuck you like only he could. You felt pathetic needing someone, who didn’t think of you for even a second, so badly that it hurt. So you decided you’d look elsewhere for the relationship you wanted, even if they were far less than everything Wolffe was.
Tonight you walked through the doors of 79s with your date and saw him sitting at his booth with all his men, clutching his drink in one hand and staring up at the waitress with a warm smile, an actual fucking smile, on his face. Finally, something in you just snapped. He didn’t want you. He really didn’t. He could look at anyone, no, everyone else the way you wished he’d look at you.
Your date stood beside you, not even noticing you as you seethed in anger beside him. He was too busy eyeing several of the twi’lek waitresses to notice. If you actually cared about him, you’d be as angry at him as you were at Wolffe, who wasn’t even yours. He would never want to be yours. As if pulled your direction by gravity itself, Wolffe turned and looked directly at you.
The familiar darkness you knew all too well wiped whatever warm friendliness you’d just seen right off his face. His brow furrowed in anger and his eyes narrowed, looking you up and down with the disgust you knew he’d felt for you. You’d never brought dates here before, but in order to move past him you’d have to show him you didn’t need him anymore. Even though everything inside you was screaming that you did.
You stood by the bar watching Wolffe stand up like he was going to walk toward you, only for him to turn and enter one of the freshers in the back. You excused yourself from your date to use the fresher and followed into the one Wolffe had just entered. You pushed open the door to find him leaned up against the wall scowling at you.
“You know I don’t appreciate you coming to my bar parading around some other pathetic excuse for a lifeform you’re dating. It’s insulting.” He spat, his voice low and his brooding expression dangerous. He took up all the space in the entryway, his broad shoulders caging you in against the door you’d just locked behind you.
“Your bar? Since when do you own 79s? It’s Republic property.” You argued, trying your best to stand up to him without breaking down already. Looking at his perfect face was hard enough from across the bar, but it was even more painful just an arm’s length away.
“I am Republic property.” He scoffed sarcastically, stepping close enough to you to press his puffed up chest into yours. He slammed his hand on the door just beside your head and smirked at you. “You’re not going back out there to that lowlife. I won’t let you.” He muttered, the slightest hint of desperation littering his tone. But that was probably in your head.
“You don’t get to tell me what I can and can’t do, Wolffe. Haven’t you already taken enough from me?” You practically whimpered, turning your face from him as you felt tears well up. His face was only inches from yours and you could feel what felt like his glaringly angry stare burning a hole right through you. 
“What? You’re the one that calls me. You’re the one begging me to come over. You’re the one pushing me away.” His voice was escalating and he stepped back, lowering and unclenching his fists, giving you space as you flinched at his every word. He was right. That’s exactly what you were doing. Keeping him away from you so that when he finally realized he could do better, that he deserved better, it wouldn’t devastate you so much. 
And yet, as you crumbled against the fresher wall, you realized it didn’t matter. Knowing him at all had already devastated you anyways. He was too good for you. You didn’t deserve him. He should be fucking ashamed that he’d stooped low enough to be with you.
“Not enough.” You whispered, finally finding the courage within you to admit to him how you felt about this arrangement and yourself. You were never going to be enough for him. He might as well leave you here now. Save himself the humiliation. 
“You’ve made that pretty fucking clear. It’s never enough. Nothing I do, nothing I am…is ever good enough for you.” His shoulders sagged and he looked at you pitifully, an expression the big, rough Commander had never shown you in all the time you’d known him. 
He’s…got it all wrong. It’s backwards. How does he not realize that it’s you that isn’t good enough for him? That you could never let someone like him waste their time on you. He shouldn’t waste his time loving you. Even if all you ever wanted was to love him. 
“Wolffe…no. It’s not you-” He stepped closer and leaned his face down to your ear. He lifted his gloved knuckle along your cheekbone softly, brushing your hair aside and kissing slowly up your neck. You let out a shaky sigh, swallowing your thoughts down as he awakened the same desperate yearning that he always did. Whenever you were in his presence. Whether he was directly in front of you or 30 clicks away. Whenever he was near you, you needed him like this. 
“Who’s gonna touch you like me? Hmmm? Him?” He asked, running his hand down your arm and tracing his tongue along your jaw. He pulled back, smirking as you trembled with need you couldn’t deny yourself. He pushed you up against the wall gently, slotting his knee between your open thighs. He brushed against your heat and sent a shiver of pleasure down your spine. You let out a soft moan and he chuckled quietly. “No. He doesn’t know you like I do. Make you feel good like I do…Care…about you like I do.” 
“Wolffe.” You sighed out resting your hands on his chest before he crashed his lips against yours. He slid his tongue in your mouth, overwhelming you and stealing every breath you needed to form words you wanted to say. He melted you. He always did. You drowned your sorrow in the flood of arousal that he sent rushing between your legs whenever he touched you. 
He maneuvered his thigh against your clit, making you break the kiss to moan desperately. “That’s it, mesh’la. There’s that sound I love.” Warmth radiated from your core outwards, the feeling consuming you and making a thin sheen of sweat coat any of your exposed skin. You forgot your pain. You forgot your self-consciousness. Your inferiority. It was just him. Him and the pleasure he always brought you. Even if it was just a momentary comfort from him, you’d take it. You’d take whatever he gave you until the end of time.
“Wolffe…mmmf please. Feels s-so good.” You whimpered, resigning to the pleasure and burying the inevitable. Pretending he won’t take what he needs and walk out that door like he should. “More.” You gripped the armor on his chest for dear life and looked up at his handsome, stern face with the pathetic, lovesick adoration for him that he’d never return, but you couldn’t help showing. You rocked your hips against his codpiece and let your hands fumble with his to tear it off him to get the salacious contact you needed.
He shoved his gloved hands underneath your shirt, tearing the fabric off your head and onto the floor. “You look…fucking incredible. Much too good for anyone else to have. No one else deserves to touch your skin,” His hands gripped your breasts hard, kneading them and teasing your nipples to hardness. 
His hand slid down your torso and tore down the skirt from around your hips, leaving you bare and exposed in front of him. He slid two of his thick, gloved fingers through the slick between your legs and grunted in amusement. You whined at the contact, jerking your head back against the door as he teased your clit with the heel of his palm. The dizzying pleasure buzzed through all your nerves, making your eyes slam shut. 
Just as quickly as he started working your heat under his touch, he pulled away, lifting his coated digits to his lips. “No one else deserves to taste you,” He grabbed your face in his other hand, making you watch as he slid his fingers past his lips and dragged the taste of you across his tongue. He let out a strangled exhale, releasing the digits with a pop to settle them between your folds again. He slid his hand down to your neck and curled his fist around the smooth, unmarked skin. Slowly, the pressure of his fingertips increased, making you feel the race of your pulse as he sent your heartbeat skyrocketing.
The hunger in his brown eye was dangerous and alluring, making you crave the thorough fucking he was planning on giving you even more. He rested his forehead on yours, staring deep into your eyes as he plunged the same two fingers inside you. The delightfully sinful stretch at your entrance made your eyes roll back in your head as the pounding of your walls around him matched the thumping rhythm of your pulse. “No one else deserves to feel that pretty pussy strangle them but me. Saved this dripping little cunt for me, didn’t you, darlin’?” He growled, his hand on your neck massaging gently and loosening just enough to let you speak.
“Yes, Wolffe.” You moaned, gripping his forearm and hoping he could feel just how desperate you were to tell him how much you only ever wanted to belong to him. That every part of you was his. All he had to do was say so. The gnawing in the back of your mind always told you that day would never come. That physically using you like this was all you’d ever be any good for to him. 
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#2
talking about Rex banging the shit out of you in the 501st clone barracks in the discord and I am a mess
he’s covering your mouth to keep you quiet and whispering filthy praises in your ear about how good you are for being quiet enough to let all his men sleep.
and he’s all “you’re taking me this hard and still staying so quiet…because you’re a good girl for me. Always my good girl.”
he just needs the relief of you. he needs you. but you’re considerate when he gets too worked up to remember or care. so you’re biting down on his hand to hold back the screams you desperately want to release and the only thing anyone can hear, if they listen hard enough, are the sounds of his thighs slapping yours repeatedly and both your labored exhales in rapid huffs.
and well, if the occasional moan or whimper or cry actually does escape you, it’s brings a little satisfied smirk across his face because damn it if it doesn’t make him so proud to know his men will realize your his. you belong to the captain.
740 notes - Posted June 7, 2022
My #1 post of 2022
A State of Mind
Daddy!Din Djarin x F!Reader
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“I’m your Daddy.” - Pedro Pascal’s actual words.
He said it. I will not apologize for where my mind went with it.
Summary: Din Djarin has kinks that he doesn’t even know he has. He’s leaning into it though. The second the name falls from your mouth, he knows he's in trouble. Word Count: 9k Chapter Warnings: MINORS ABSOLUTELY DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS. 18+ RATING SO EXPLICIT I SHOULD BE SENT TO HELL FOR EVEN THINKING THIS. this is daddy kink filth and I’m not even sorry. soft dom!din djarin, p in v sex, fingering, creampies and cumplay, praise kinks, lil bit of violence Notes: this came from the darkest depths of my daddy kink loving soul and I- I’m sorry but I’m also not.
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The second he stepped into the ship’s cockpit, I was on top of him, riding his lap, really grinding on him and driving him nuts. The Razor Crest was still in park, not even moving yet. I hadn’t given him time to even start the ship before I pounced on him. Normally, he’d scold me for this because he has a job to do first you know but he’d been gone far too long. 
It had been almost three weeks since I’d seen him last and he was secretly just as eager as me to get a little indecent. The Kid had been sleeping for the entire day, which meant no distractions. Timing was everything. 
The muffled sound of his harsh breathing through the vocoder in his helmet was enough to get me off. His hands roved along my lower back, gloves smoothing down the curve of my ass to grip hard and move me to his liking. He had absolutely no patience today. “Need you now. Right now.” He demanded. His beskar clad body clattered against the pilot’s seat as he plopped down into it. 
I giggled eagerly, working with his hands to pull my bottoms down off my legs. “Stars, did ya miss me that much?” I joked, tearing down the cowl around his neck and burying my face in his overheated skin. I nibbled gently, tracing my tongue along the veins strained from holding his helmeted head up for days straight with no rest.
“I did. Fuck- I did.” He let out a harsh whisper as I sucked a deep bruise into the space where his neck joined his collar bone and rutted my hips along his codpiece. His excitement already straining behind his armor and jutting into the space between my waiting thighs. “I can’t fucking wait.”
His hands slid between us, removing the metal covering and tossing it to the floor with a clang. I loosened the closure of his bottoms and looked up into his helmet as I wrapped a hand around his painfully hard cock. “Then I won’t make you.” I muttered, feeling wet droplets of precum already dripping down the shaft. I slid a thumb over his slit and watched his chest stutter as he gasped for air at the sudden pressure.
Not one to be outdone, he trailed his hand around the curve of my hip, resting a palm on my hip bone and coaxing a thumb gently across my clit. My other hand gripped the pauldron on his shoulder and tightened as he guided more fingertips down into my wet heat. “So fucking wet, pretty girl. You were ready for me…” He laughed softly, the impressed smile nearly visible through the helmet.
I nodded, fumbling at his pants opened up at his waist to silently ask him to get them out of my way. I wanted to forgo any teasing or foreplay, I simply couldn’t take anymore. “Off. Please.” I asked, still sliding his thick cock through my gently twisting fist. He thrusted his hips up, tugging his pants just far enough down to reveal his center comfortably.
“Ready for me?” He checked, gripping onto my half clothed hips with one hand and brushing my hair from my eyes with the other.
“Yes please, Din, let me ride you.” I moaned, lining the head of his cock with my entrance and keeping eye contact with the dark center where his eyes should be. He nodded his helmet to signal his approval and I sank down on top of him.
And suddenly he was there. Right there. My senses are heightened, everywhere so completely touch sensitive, noticing every little sound emitting from him and the ship around us. The high is so intoxicatingly within reach. I tossed my head back to moan when I saw a flash of blue dart past the cockpits door frame. 
Not a single thing in this entire ship is blue.
Not me, not him and not the Kid. 
The Kid. Fuck. 
I wondered if he noticed, but the way he was gut deep inside of me and still relentlessly pounding said he hadn't. The way he was slamming into me made the blood rush in my ears and the adrenaline pump a bold confidence from my fingertips to my toes. 
The blue figure was just outside the kid’s quarters, hopelessly searching for a way to pry the locked door open. Probably judging, by the sound of it, that the ship’s owner was too preoccupied right now to notice. 
His short blaster was still attached to his hip, dangling from the holster on the pants that were pooling under his thighs. He was lost within me, so thoroughly enjoying all he missed about me. I slid my hand down into the holster he could no longer feel and wrapped my fingers around the weapon’s handle. Gripping it in my still spent covered hands, I switched it off of stun and back into blast mode, resting a finger shaking from aroused anticipation on the trigger. 
The blunt of his head careened into the base of my insides, a stunning groan leaving my lips as I felt myself toppling into a gravity shaking orgasm. I channeled the pleasure into focus, letting every muscle in my body relax and dropping my mouth open to emit a single sound. 
“Daddy.” 
I blissfully called out, gripping on his forearm possessively. I took in a final gasp as I tightened around him. He let out a harsh groan, reeling in response to a name I’d never called him before. 
“Fuck.” He hissed, hips sputtering into me and threatening to throw off my aim. I bit down on the flesh of my bicep, using it to balance my shot. I waited, the waves of orgasm crashing through me over and over as I watched for the target to lean into view. 
The back of a blue Rodian head slowly appeared, stepping back to reassess how this goddamn door might open. The bounty hunter turned to think and immediately locked eyes with my hooded, lust blown gaze. My walls collapsed around Din just as my finger squeezed the trigger.
BANG. 
Red blaster fire streamed across the ship, light reflecting off the crest’s shiny metal walls. It was a perfect hit, burning a hole clear through the Rodian’s head right between the eyes. The figure toppled over onto the floor with a thunk.
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sleeperswakewriting · 4 years ago
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After Class
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For @himebee-5's prompt!
Summary: Petra is Professor Ackerman's star student and yet, she keeps meeting him for office hours every Monday afternoon.
Rated: E
CWs: teacher/student relationship, age gap, praise kink
Word count: 3.2k
Surprise! I queued up another fic for smutty Saturday since I'll be out for most of the day--enjoy! 😉
She was distracting.
Levi prided himself in his stellar concentration, his perfunctory work, and despite his cold and callous demeanor, he was an excellent professor. Always receiving high remarks from his students and colleagues, and managing to churn out at least two research papers a year, there was little that compromised his neat routine.
He pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose as he faced the chalkboard, clearing his throat. Levi Ackerman didn’t make mistakes, but after one look at her, his mind went elsewhere as he absently completed the calculus equation and one student shakily raised his hand and said, “E-excuse me sir, but I think you forgot to take the derivative in the fifth step.”
Taking a step back, realizing that his glasses slipped from its usual position since he took a double take at her, he merely nodded and erased the step in which he made the error and redid the equation. He thanked the student and a flurry of pencils hit paper as they recorded the problem, and Levi glanced at his watch, giving them a few minutes before he moved on.
It’s wasn’t just the plaid mini skirt and thigh high stockings that did it--he knew he was enough of a perverted old man that he at least acknowledged that turned him on, but the way she sat in the front row, prim and studious as she eyed him for the hour and a half lecture made him feel stupidly special. Most students’ eyes glazed over, and he didn’t give a shit if they were on their phones, it was their time and money after all, but the way her amber orbs never left him was almost damn unsettling if she didn’t have such a coquettish look.
Her short ginger hair was pulled back with a red head band today, and as he was giving back the first test of the semester, he paused at her seat and said, “Good work, Ms. Ral,” while sliding the test face down onto her desk. She beamed, looking at the paper, and her face fell at the grade. Levi frowned slightly, wondering what she could possibly be upset about since she received an 88, the third highest in the class. Calculus wasn’t an easy subject, and it was usually the class where students on the science and math track chose to drop out and choose a different major.
After passing out the tests, he returned to the desk at the front of the classroom to collect his things and head back to his office for his office hours for the day. As most of the students filtered out of the classroom, Petra sat stark still at her desk, eyes running over her exam, and eyebrows contorted in confusion.
“Is something wrong, Ms. Ral?” he asked, slinging his messenger bag over his grey dress shirt, adjusting his tie, and she looked up, eyes aglow. Levi pretended not to notice the way her tight long sleeved shirt hugged her curves, and the v-neck emphasized her breasts when she brought her arms together in anguish.
“I’m trying to figure out where I went wrong, Professor. I’m really disappointed in myself, I thought I aced this test.”
Levi cocked his head. “You should be proud of yourself, you have one of the highest marks in the class.”
Petra shook her head in disbelief. “Even so, I think I made far too many silly mistakes.” She sighed, shoulders slumping in clear disappointment. “I guess I’ll try harder next time. Sorry professor, you probably have to go--”
“My office hours are now,” he said, the words leaving his lips without even thinking. His glasses shone from the ceiling lights of the high lecture hall, and he swallowed. “We can go over the test if you’d like.”
And she smiled brilliantly at him again, collecting her things and swinging her fashionable book bag over her shoulder as she followed him to the math building. Levi kept at least three feet ahead of her, not wanting to give her the impression they had to make small talk since the math building was on the opposite side of the quad, and he breathed a sigh of relief when they entered his office. It was at the end of the hall of the third floor, a quiet place since it was around lunch time and most students were at the dining hall.
Levi closed the old wooden door and gestured for her to sit at the front of his desk while he deposited his bag and thumbed through the manila folder for the answer key. Petra set her things down and unfurled her own test, using his desk as she tapped her pencil at the corner of her lips.
“So which problems were giving you trouble?” He asked, loose leaf paper at the ready, and Petra motioned to problem number three.
“I get tripped up when there’s a double integral, I think.” She was already making the amendments in her head and she asked him for a piece of paper as well. Levi withdrew another from his desk cadenza and his breath hitched as their fingers touched. Stop acting like a teenage boy, he scolded himself, wondering when the last time he went on a date or had gotten laid because this was ridiculous. She was at least ten years his junior, his student no less, and she was just asking her math professor for help, even though she clearly didn’t need it.
She crossed her legs cutely, emphasizing her thighs between the space between her skirt and socks, and Levi averted his gaze as he forced himself to concentrate on her bright tone, going over her process as she circled and made the adjustments from her previous attempt.
“Yes, that’s correct. You want to integrate x and treat y as the constant. It’s like in the partial example, which you completed correctly in problem one.”
Petra smiled, nodding as understanding entered her field of vision and she completed the problem with ease. “Thank you Professor! Can you give me a harder problem just to make sure I understood the concept?”
And as Levi did his best to not pay attention to the way she said harder, he opened up the math textbook and selected an exercise, scratching it onto the paper between them and slid it towards her.
The mahogany desk was slightly too tall for Petra to comfortably lean against from the chair, so she sat up and leaned over to solve the problem, orange hair falling from her tucked ears. This time, Levi didn’t even bother looking away since Petra was fully invested in solving the equation, and he felt his pants tighten as he noted the white lace bra she had on underneath, and her round mounds spilling from her top.
“Is this right?” She asked, finally finishing, sitting back down in her seat and Levi coughed as he fought down the flush on his face.
He stared at the problem, willing himself to concentrate on the numbers in her neat handwriting, but he was finding it difficult to focus as he noticed her licking her lips after reapplying some chapstick. He took it line by line until he finally nodded and said, “Good work.”
Petra returned the paper to her folder and touched his hand gently from across the desk. “Thank you Professor Ackerman, it really means a lot to me that you went out of your way to help me. I guess the reviews were right after all.” His eyebrows rose since he didn’t usually make a habit to read his class reviews but relied on the report that the school gave him at the end of each term.
“Oh really? What do the reviews say?”
Petra giggled, and Levi felt his heart stop at the beautiful sound. “Well for one, they say you’re the sexiest teacher on campus, but more importantly, students who take your class are set up for success for linear algebra, which is my goal. I’m an astronomy major.”
He didn’t know why he found that to be a turn on since he worked at a university where there were literally hundreds of majors, but before he had a chance to think, Petra had collected her things and waved as she made for the brass knob of his office door.
“See you next week, Professor!”
And the door clicked shut. Levi’s head was spinning, and if he didn’t know any better, Petra was outright flirting with him, and he was having a difficult time processing that. He moved to lock the office door and he double checked to make sure that he didn’t have any upcoming meetings. Sinfully, he laid back in his chair and closed his eyes while he unbuckled his pants.
She’s your student, you filthy fuck. But her shiny lips, her sweet voice, and her intellect…
He stroked himself, thinking of her, and he came quickly, her name on his lips as he imagined himself taking her between her plaid skirt and thigh high socks.
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Monday afternoons became a ritual for them, and while Levi attempted to muster up every ounce of professional courage, he found himself unable to say no to her. Every day, after class, she would sweetly ask if she could go over the day’s lecture, and he would say yes and they would wordlessly walk to his office and repeat the same routine.
It was always strictly professional, but he could have sworn that she was intentionally taking off her jacket or sweatshirt in front of him, sometimes leaving her in only a crop top. He decided then that she was purposely trying to kill him because the blood rushed faster to his groin than he could will himself to stop. He had to keep himself firmly behind his desk, not wanting to scare her from his raging hard-on as she pattered on about her misunderstandings for the day, and he would mutely nod, watching her the entire time.
She stopped the week during finals, only visiting him after his final lecture and he missed her presence during the two week absence. He eagerly awaited the day of the final exam, just to pathetically see her again, and there she was, front and center, pencil at the ready.
“This is my last test,” she whispered to him excitedly as he handed her the exam and he gave a thin smile and muttered a ‘good luck’ to her row, but looked at her the entire time.
She was the last to leave, and she heaved a sigh of relief as she handed him her packet, looking joyful.
“How did you find the test, Ms. Ral?” he asked, sparing her a last glance before she left his classroom for the final time. His heart ached at that, but he supposed it was for the best since dreams and visions of her had plagued him since the beginning of the semester.
“I think I aced it, thanks to my excellent teacher.” And she gave him a dazzling smile as she walked away and Levi trailed her form until she disappeared.
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It was a routine message that Levi sent out to all of his students, that if they wanted to go over their final exam that they could set up office hours. He didn’t allow for debating for points--he had no time for that, and his grading procedure was precise and calculated, but he set up time slots for ease of the students.
So when he saw Petra Ral in his email, requesting for the last time slot before the last day of the grading period, he hurriedly clicked accept even though she received a perfect score on her test.
It was spring, and the promise of a new future hung in the air when Petra entered his office, wearing a similar ensemble to when she first came in, a red plaid skirt, thigh high stockings, and this time, a white knit t-shirt that unbuttoned just at her cleavage. She poked her head in, and he noticed that she didn’t carry a book bag, but opted for a small purse that slung over one shoulder.
“Hi Professor!” she chirped happily, hands clasped behind her back. Levi allowed himself a smile as he took her in.
“What can I do for you Ms. Ral? Surely you don’t have any complaints about this test--congratulations on ruining the curve, by the way. Your classmates are furious.”
Petra laughed, feeling satisfied with herself as she gazed at him--sleeves rolled up to his forearms and he opted for a vest and tie set that complimented his eyes nicely. “I wanted to let you know that I’m taking Professor Hange’s class next semester for linear algebra.”
His heart fell; he was also teaching that class, but maybe it didn’t fit into her schedule. He didn’t meet her eyes as he said, “She’s a tough teacher, but she’s good at what she does. Don’t expect to be let go early, the woman can and will go on for hours.”
Petra smiled. “I’ll be sure to make a note of it.” And she shuffled between her feet as a light blush came to her cheeks. “I wanted to give you a thank you gift, for all the office hours you’ve given to me the past semester.”
Levi raised a thin eyebrow between his glasses. “You don’t have to do that, Ms. Ral. It’s part of my job. You’re an excellent student, you made my job very easy.”
She batted her eyelashes as she stepped closer to him. He was seated in his leather office chair, arms crossed and she took a deep breath as she stood a foot apart from him, hands still playing with each other behind her back. “It’s nothing expensive. And you can call me Petra, Professor, the semester is over.”
And before Levi could question her words, she leaned in and kissed him gently on the cheek. Levi’s heart pounded in his chest, noticing that Petra was visibly shy despite the bold gesture she had just committed and he stared at her, slack jawed.
“Thank you, Professor.”
Levi’s eyes widened, and the hungry need he had for her over the past three months took over. Before he knew it, he was tugging at her wrist and she was straddling his lap, skirt pooling between them as he devoured her into a kiss, lips furiously nipping and biting as she let out an animated moan. Her hands went for his tie, pulling it from his vest and then around his neck where she buried her fingers into his undercut. A shiver of pleasure went down Levi’s spine as he settled his hands at her waist, then her back, and then at the fabric at the end of her shirt.
Panting, Petra raised her arms, signalling for him to take it off, and Levi let out a groan and a fucking hell at her lacy push up bra. Arms wrapped around each other again, Petra leaned into his chest, pressing her tits against him while she grinded against his lap, smiling as she devilishly noticed his hard-on between their clothing. Her breath was hot against his as she moved to unbutton his vest, and he raised himself to take it off, but let out a hiss as their centers made contact.
Not being able to help himself, Levi trailed his fingers up and down her legs, groaning that he was finally able to touch her, and the way the spandex hugged her skin was driving him crazy. He dove between her skirt, reaching for her panties and he played at her apex, noticing that she was incredibly wet, which only turned him on more.
Petra keened and threw her head back in pleasure as he began lavishing her neck with kisses and suckled at her jawline, happy that she tasted as beautiful as she looked. A light floral perfume danced across her flesh, and he inhaled her as he undid the headband from her hair, freeing the locks so he could bury his nose between them.
“Professor, ah, can you please touch me?” She asked weakly, eyes clenched shut from Levi’s ministrations and he chuckled.
“Only because you’ve been such a good student,” he whispered into her ear, and she nodded as he slipped a finger in, and pleasured sighs escaped both of their lips.
“God, you’re so fucking wet. Were you planning on this before you came in?” Levi asked, using his other hand to unbuckle his pants and slid down his zipper.
Petra was finding it harder and harder to think as Levi pumped into her, alternating between two and three fingers, teasing her clit and taking his hands away before she could go any higher. Vision going blurry, she reached for the back of her bra and undid the hook, letting it fall between them and Levi ripped it off, freeing her breasts.
He took a nipple between his teeth and bit down hard, earning a cry from Petra as she begged him to keep touching her while he buried his face into her chest. Petra moved to play with both of her nipples, all while riding against his hand and she felt like her heart was about to explode from Levi’s touch.
She slid her tongue against his lips, drinking him in as she asked him to help slide her panties down, and he obliged, but not before pocketing them into his pants. She shot him a questioning look, and he smirked, “This is my thank-you gift.”
Bashfully, Petra smiled and pawed him between his underwear, stroking his length up and down with her hand and she pulled his waist down just far enough to free his member. She gasped at his size, and Levi let out a hum of satisfaction while she took a moment to gaze at it, providing him with light touches.
“Levi, can I ride you?” She asked demurely, eyes fixated on his dick and he gripped her by the ass to guide her close.
Leaning over, he whispered into her ear, “That’s Professor Ackerman to you.”
Petra keened at his husky voice, and lowered herself onto him, moaning loudly as he breached her, dick hot against her tight entrance.
“That’s a good girl,” he encouraged, holding her close as she steadily bobbed up and down, her wetness providing enough slickness between them. His balls smacked against his legs, and her tits bounced each time she reached his hilt and she cried out.
Wild with lust, Levi toyed with her clit as she continued to ride him, fingers dancing and shaking as she paused to catch her breath. Their eyes met, and with equal fervor, they kissed as Petra braced her hands against his shoulders, pace increasing and then reaching her climax in a frenzy as she bobbed up and down.
“Professor,” she whined, releasing her hands and crying into his collar as she rode out her orgasm.
Levi’s eyes were clenched shut as her walls fluttered around him, her tightness becoming too much for him as he also met his own pleasure, and he pumped into her in short pulses. Breaths panting, he looked up to meet Petra, who was smiling between breaths.
Still sitting comfortably inside her, Levi laughed warily, unsure of where to go from here. Petra, still wrapping her body around his, licked the lobe of his ear as she said sultrily into his ear, “Did that count as extra credit?”
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goldenkamuyhunting · 4 years ago
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Ogata’s iconic gesture
We’re all familiar with the way Ogata’s caresses his hair...
...to the point it had become his iconic gesture so that even the first time he shows up on a cover he’s shown doing it...
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...and he’s also shown doing it in a colour illustration which was used as cover for chap 79
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...and in one of the summaries for the skin count.
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It’s clear he doesn’t do it just to comb his hair as he had been shown doing it even when he wears a hat so, more than fixing his hair, it’s clear he’s sort of caressing himself, making that gesture a self comfort gesure he might perform in an unconscious manner.
The movement is likely based on how cats groom their fur...
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...a not so indirect reference to Ogata’s nickname, ‘Yamaneko’ (“Wildcat”).
While cats groom themselves for practical reasons, they also groom if they feel embarrassed, anxious, or to calm themselve, which would tie well with this being Ogata’s self comfort gesture.
But let’s look at when he does it through the manga.
Note that there are instances in which it’s actually unclear if he’s doing it so I will leave them for last.
The first time is in chap 43.
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Ogata thinks Tanigaki might have killed Tamai, Noma and Okada and he’s obviously not pleased. Later, he will hunt Tanigaki in retaliation even though it’s completely useless as, as we’ll discover in chap 243, he’s aware Tsurumi already knows of their rebellion and is hunting them, meaning remaining there to hunt Tanigaki is a mere waste of time, a hint Ogata in that moment felt a deep grudge toward Tanigaki if he decided to spend his time so uselessly. As he pats his hair Ogata’s face is shadowed. It’s clear he’s not in a happy mood.
So the grooming can be a soothing gesture for him. He has to keep calm and not shoot Tanigaki right then or he’ll involve Huci too, whom, he’ll reveal, he wanted to spare.
We continue with chap 46.
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In it Ogata does it before praparing himself to face the soldiers Tsurumi is sending against him. As the situation is clearly risky, it makes sense he’s soothing himself with a quick ‘hair grooming’ before facing his enemies.
We move to chap 70.
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For who doesn’t remember it the scene happens prior to Ushiyama listing all the skins they got, pointing out the last one was recovered by Ogata...
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...but prior to Ogata casually questioning Hijikata.
It’s hard to say why exactly he’s grooming himself, it can be he’s calming himself a bit before having to question someone like Hijikata, who basically doesn’t trust anyone. Of course it can also be tied to the memories Ogata had of how he got the skin in Barato, where another ‘father’ tried to kill his own son, something which clearly reminded Ogata of his own father.
We continue with chap 78.
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Ogata, who’s cornered behind a table and some stuffed corpses, pats his head when Tsukishima attacks him, saying he’s betraying them to surpass his father. Again his face is shadowed and his expression somewhat pained. If the purpose is to calm himself down it works as he then smiles, dismisses Tsukishima’s words as Tsurumi using stupid cliches and shoots in Tsukishima’s direction although this is one of the rare times in which Ogata completely misses his target.
So to chap 80 we go.
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The situation is clearly unpleasant. Although Ogata survives he claims to have no other choice but to bring Sugimoto’s group along and that’s not even the worst part. He knows Edogai died and Tsukishima might be bringing some fake skins to Tsurumi as they speak. One might need some self confort in such a situation... and if it helps fixing his hair which is likely a mess after his experience in the mine, well, that’s a plus.
And now chap 83.
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The image in its own doesn’t tell us much.
For the context Ogata was about to shoot at the woodcooks when Asirpa stopped him saying even if he were to manage to hit 1 the others would fly away and anyway it’s hard to hit them with the rounds Ogata uses, hence they should use an Ainu method to get them.
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While Sugimoto is amused by Asirpa’s lack of faith in Ogata’s ability, it makes sense Ogata wouldn’t be pleased. Even the sound he makes seems to point at it.
There’s another scene in chap 83 though where he pets himself.
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This time is after he got praised for getting three of them. It’s hard to think at discomfort, unless Ogata is so not used to praises they too make him nervous, so he needed it to later manage to assume a confident pose. Honestly I would say it’s more a self praising move but it’s hard to read Ogata.
Fast forward to chap 88.
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Same as the above this is hard to read. Is he praising himself for guessing right or having the confirmation they’re in the hideout of some Yakuza pretending to be Ainu makes their situation worrysome?
At the list I’ll include a cut scene in chap 101.
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In the volume version this scene isn’t present, but in the magazine version Ogata grooms his hair when he realizes they’re encircled by bears, a definitively worrying situation.
Then we move to chap 108.
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It’s another scene that’s not clear. Is he proud of himself because he figured out why Sugimoto is searching the gold or the thing makes him uncomfortable because he has realized Asirpa has a crush on him and the whole situation reminded him of his own mother?
And then we’ve chap 109.
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Is he proud because he was the first to find him? Or it’s just the situation is troublesome because Ogata would still be of the idea of killing Tanigaki for what happened to Tamai and Co (which he will mention later on to Asirpa and Sugimoto), but killing him would be troublesome because Tanigaki is friend with Asirpa and Sugimoto, whcih are part of the group Ogata is in currently.
And then we get the infamous chap 113.
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Ogata is teaching Asirpa why Anehata just wouldn’t think to consequences before violating animals. While the scene seems funny, his father was also one of the men who didn’t think to consequences before having sex with Ogata’s mother.
On another side I’ve been told Ogata’s words are losely translated as the sentence was pretty unclear in Japanese so...
‘Otoko tte no wa dasu mon dasu to sōnan no yo’
男ってのは出すもん出すとそうなんのよ
“That’s how a man is when he put it out."
And then we’ve chap 128.
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Again Ogata’s parentage is used against him, as Hijikata says due to it is hard to think Ogata might be in this for some gold. And again it makes sense the situation makes him uncomfortable.
So we move to the infamous chap 137.
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Is he praising himself because he got Wilk and Sugimoto? Or is he troubled because, although he got Sugimoto, he knows the bullet might not be fatal which is why he has to remain there and try to shoot Sugimoto some more?
To Karafuto we go and to chap 159.
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And here it’s pretty clear Ogata is uncomfortable at the idea of having to go and apologize.
Chap 170 then.
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We’ve Ogata grooming his hat... because he got praised by Asirpa. Again if he’s uncomfortable (he’s not even meeting her gaze) or if he’s praising himself for his own shoot is up to speculation.
And then chap 180.
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More hat grooming. It was interpreted as a stab at Kiro, who also had to move from Russia because chased... but he’s not even looking at him and Ogata was the one sure Tsurumi would chase him so it might be just a jab at himself.
Hard to say.
We continue with chap 187.
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And this time Ogata don’t content himself with hat grooming, he moved his hat away that’s much that’s needed to confort himself after Asirpa (legittimately I might add) told him to stay away and that he is untrustworthy.
A big fast forward to chap 222.
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And again Ogata is in a clearly discomforting situation as he has to explain Abashiri keeping hidden the role he had in it considering he’s a horrible liar.
And finally chap 257.
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Ogata crossed paths with Kikuta but Kikuta let him go, pretending he never saw him. Either something happened between the two, something we weren’t shown, or still this meeting managed to make him uncomfortable, a clear hint they aren’t on the same side, even if they aren’t at war with each other.
And that’s all, or better, those are all the scenes in which we can be confident Ogata is grooming himself.
There are then some unclear scenes.
Chap 5 for example.
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It might be a ‘proto grooming’ scene. Ogata is clearly not petting himself, he’s scratching the back of his head, which usually is done to imply the character is puzzled but the scene might have inspired Noda into giving him the habit to groom himself.
Then chap 115.
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Some think this is a grooming scene but as Ogata says his head is spinning it makes sense he would touch it (it’s a pretty standard movement), especially since his hand isn’t in the usual grooming position. On the other side having your head spin is clearly uncomfortable so a grooming scene would make sense too but really, I think he’s only touching his spinning head.
And lastly chap 159.
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It could be a grooming scene... but it could also be Ogata pulling down his hood as first he had it raised and then he had it lowered.
Hard to say anyway, if it’s a grooming scene it would again fit in the list of scenes of Ogata doing it after hitting something.
And that’s the end.
As you can notice there isn’t a single grooming scene placed prior to Ogata’s hair growing.
Some assumed he groomed himself when he met his father.
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Truth is it’s hard to say as it can be he was merely covering his eyes, as when Ogata grooms himself, Noda usually draw his hand in a higher position and with the fingers touching each other.
It’s hard to say but it’s still interesting.
Of course his possible Ogata merely started doing so because his fur... ehm... I mean hair, got longer... I mean... the short hair he had previously might not have been the most pleasant thing to pet... but maybe there was a starting factor. I don’t know, we’ll see.
Well, and that’s all for GK resident kitty. We’ll see if the future will gift us with more grooming moments.
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So....
I finally got my Four Swords manga and read the entire thing in one sitting.
I have a few notes.
Red is a dumbass and I love him.
That whole hugging scene with Red and Blue came a little out of nowhere, but it was funny.
Red is an arsonist and I love him.
Green totally has the hots for Zelda.
I don't know why but Vio is my favorite.
Red is close in second though
Blue got fucking EATEN by the fucking Big Poe
And Red fucking saved him by being an arsonist
TWICE
Green is definitely the straight one, you can tell.
Shadow is dramatic as fuck
Vio is also dramatic as fuck
Shadow has a fucking DRAGON
Shadow literally destroyed Hyrule Castle and Castletown in a day. He's technically up there with Calamity Ganon
Shadow tricked Link into freeing Vaati!
My take was that Shadow was being heavily mistreated by Ganon and Vaati, which laid down some abuse subtext and....holy fuck that was sad. Maybe it's just 'cause my family was abusive that I got that read, but wow.
Shadow needs to be protected.
I love Shadow he needs to be given the good fucking things in life.
In the LU could he technically be brought back by one of Wild's blood moons? I read a fic about that. Does he count as a monster though? Then again, the blood moon enhances your cooking, so really I don't see why it can't give Shadow his physical form back.
Shadow deserves good things.
He just wanted attention and a family.
He killed himself to kill Vaati....I mean, I knew that before hand, but seeing it with my own two eyes....fuck
Shadow is a troll and I love him
He and Vio were just messing with Blue and Red lmao
Blue learned patience by being frozen in ice until Red decided to set him on fire, which, how long was that really? It was stated that they only left Vio alone for a day, so it must've only been a few hours. Must've felt like an eternity though.
I feel like Red and Blue were the main characters for most of the middle really.
I'm not complaining, their dynamic is hilarious and I love them
But I wanted to see Green and Vio interact with them more y'know.
I feel like Vio only really interacted with Shadow
And even then he was kinda lying the entire time.
Oh Hylia, Shadow's face when he realized Vio was going to smash the mirror.
That was just betrayal on so many levels
And he had just opened up about thinking Vio was the only one he could really trust.
After that I honestly feel it was dickish to just kill him.
And then he lives
Zelda is a top tier fucking Queen(tm)
She had no obligations to comfort someone who had kidnapped her and yelled at her
But she did and it was super sweet
THEN THE FUCKING SENTIENT CLOUD
I didn't know the clouds were sentient and honestly I'm still having a crisis over it
And in the beginning I thought Shadow just straight up killed Link's dad and I was like "oh damn okay this is darker than I expected"
But nope the fucker is still alive.
I feel like the knights of Hyrule were kind of a deus ex machina
And the final show down with Ganon was underwhelming
Vaati is a bitch
I think Red was the highlight of this story
And the fucking art style, because damn the expressions were funny
And I'm glad they implemented the subtle ways to tell them apart, like the textures of the tunics, the color of the shirt under the tunic(Green's is black) the light and dark eyebrows, and the eyes themselves.
Tingle was unexpected and I wanted him to go away like Green and Vio did
Honestly I still don't understand why people love Tingle, he annoys me.
Back to the actually good characters-THEY FUCKING LITERALLY TURNED A LITTLE GIRL INTO A DOLL
Her fucking doll(Rosie?) was creepy as fuck!
That trick was absolutely CREEPY AS FUCK
And I like how the four just wreck the bastard with toy weapons
And they keep them as real weapons when they leave
Like, how does that work lmao
Red set a fucking forest on fire
Red is an arsonist
Red is brilliant and I love him
Vio is an asshole and I love him
Just playing up how "Oh yeah Green is dead" and fucking messing with Red and Blue
I noticed Shadow is super touchy-feely with Vio and he's probably touch starved which makes sense.
Okay so Shadow wasn't dead, technically, is he still alive if all he can do is wave from Link's shadow and stuff?
It seems like a bad ending for Shadow.
In the LU, does this mean that Four just fucking stole the Four Sword and killed Vaati? Or did Zelda find some other way to seal him, 'cuz like, I'm pretty sure Four has the four sword in LU right????
So many plotholes but if this means I get more arsonist Red content, then I'm down.
Also, Shadow is gay af for Vio
Like, my gaydar was off the charts
YOU DON'T JUST GIVE A BRO THIS LOOK
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70. And, like, Vio, you JUST fucking killed Shadow, don't give me this shit
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71. This art is super gay, you can't deny that, they are literally fucking wrapped around each other
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72. And Shadow wanted to fucking rule the world WITH Vio, like, DAMN he's thirsty 73. If it were me, I'd still prefer ultimate authority 74. Just in case y'know 75. And Shadow was so ready to spill his secrets 76. And he was so fucking heartbroken when he saw Vio with the sledgehammer 77. Like fuck Vidow is definitely my top pairing. 78. And Green and Zelda, the token straights 79. And we can't forget Red and Blue 80. Like Red was hardcore flirting with Blue, you can't change my mind. 81. Zelda was so fucking confused when she saw that there were four Links, and it was cute and hilarious 82. I normally don't like Zelda, but she was so cute and sweet that I really couldn't help it. 83. Also that chad drawing of a past Link that split into four was funny 84. It was just so fucking out of place 85. They literally only rescued two of the six mages, so are the other four still trapped or were they released when Vaati and Shadow "died"? 86. The knights of Hyrule had to save the four, so are they technically the weakest Link? 87. Fuck I made a pun 88. I fucking hate myself 89. Blue was probably my least favorite of the cast, but that was probably because he reminds me of my sister 90. Y'know, the sister that hits me, yells at me, and calls me names? 91. It just rubs me the wrong way. 92. But aside from that, he was great. 93. A bit of a cocky asshole, but great. 94. And Link's dad just thinking he sees his son's dead body and Shadow just yeeting him into the dark realm. 95. Damn Shadow was an asshole 96. Vaati was even worse though, trying to get Link's father to kill his four sons. 97. That would've sucked. 98. Link hiding behind Zelda's chair was funny 99. Green and Zelda with the childhood friends turned lovers aspect would be cute 100. I like how a fairy just pops up out of no where in the middle of the book
I think that's it?
I love this book and it'll probably be the only one I ever reread.
If you didn't know, I hate rereading content unless I find it or a certain part of it worth reading through again. Which is to say, one, maybe two, fanfics(oneshots technically), and maybe this manga. So yeah, quite an exclusive club.
I don't regret this purchase!
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constellations | part eight.
summary: there are only 88 officially recognized constellations, a small number considering you and your soulmate would have the exact same constellation on your skin. how can be sure if it was really them with so few of them? you could mistake your soulmate.
word count: 1628.
pairing: bucky barnes x reader.
warnings: mentions of past violence.
author’s note: well babes, this is it! I hope you’ve enjoyed the ride so far and I’d love to hear what you think about this story.
constellations masterlist | masterlist
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Everything was a blur, Erik was just there standing as if this was over. Hands around (Y/N) throat and her eyes, her eyes were red. Little petechiae were already forming thanks to the pressure cutting her oxygen.
Erik’s smug was on full display every time his eyes were fixed on mine and the grip on (Y/N)’s neck was only getting tighter and I couldn’t do anything. But her eyes, oh boy. Her eyes showed nothing but love, nothing close to fear, just love and an apologetic look.
How could she not be afraid? I was terrified on the prospect of losing her, losing her kind and warm smile as well as the feeling that explodes on my chest every time her soft lips are pressed against mine.
I couldn’t hear the words Erik was speaking, it was as if my ears blocked them and I was only getting some of his words and all of them made me just crash his head down on the pavement. And then, he said something about soulmates and I just snapped out of whatever was going through my head.
Next thing I knew was that Erik is sprawled far away from (Y/N) and my left arm seems to have a brain of its own. It kept on hitting him, well me, I kept hitting him hard on his head. And as his laughter only increased talking nonsense, my hitting increased too.
Until some strong arms were wrapped around my metal arm as a voice told me to stop, that it was over and I needed to get back to (Y/N).
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Suddenly, your eyes opened up and you tried to breathe but something was preventing you from doing that. Your hand reached to the thing in your mouth fanatically, trying to rip it away so you could breathe.
A monitor to your left side started to beat loudly, the door to the room you were in was opened rapidly. Steve making his entrance and heading quickly to your side.
“Shh, (Y/N). Stop it, stop it.” He said as his hands were placed on top of yours, trying to calm you down. “You need that thing to breathe, you’re at the hospital. You’re safe.”
Your respiration calmed down as you heard Steve’s words. You closed your eyes so no tears would spill from your eyes, safe.
You re-opened your eyes again searching the room. You were safe, but…
“He’s not here (Y/N)” Steve spoke softly like he read your thoughts. “He’s back at our place, he… Well, he’s quite broken about what happened.”
A puzzled look in your face was all it took for Steve to grab a notebook and a pen so you could communicate with him.
“What happened after I passed out?”
“He beat the hell up from Erik, almost killed him.” His sounded pained, but it was impossible that he was as pained as you were in that moment. Your heart beating with sorrow and concern for him.
“I want to see him, I need to see him.”
Steve sighed running a hand through his hair. “I don’t know if he’s gonna be up to it. He just thinks this is his fault and it’s afraid of how you’ll react.”
“THIS IS NOT HIS FAULT. I’m not reacting anyway, I just need to see him Steve.”
“Okay, I’ll do my best (Y/N). But you need to get some sleep now.” He finished the conversation with a tone that made it clear that there was no room for discussion.
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Next time you woke up, a doctor and some nurses were around you. They seemed happy about your progress and started to chat about some medical stuff you were not able to comprehend. But they did say there were going to take out the tube that was helping you breathe.
Once the tube was finally removed, your lungs were burning with the sensation of fresh air after so long without a real intake. But you couldn’t talk, at least not yet. Erik damaged some of your vocal cords and you needed to stay silent to recover if not, you were going to go under the knife, again.
Steve kept his visits daily, sometimes he went with Maria Hill. Other of your friends were there too, updating in the social events of your college and just keeping you posted on everything you needed to know. It was nice for all of them and as much as you appreciated it, you just wanted to see Bucky.
As time passed, your bruises and cuts were healed. You could speak, no to carry a long conversation going on but small sentences. You learnt that Erik was alive, Bucky didn’t kill him at the end, but he was kicked out of college and legal actions were taken against him due to the beating and to almost killing you.
But Bucky did not appear and Steve couldn’t answer your questions or put a good word or excuse for him anymore. Your heart ached every time someone opened the door and it wasn’t him, each passing minute your heart broke down more.
You couldn’t understand why he was not there, he saved you. He was a hero and you didn’t love him less because of what he did to Erik if anything you understood and were forgiving.
Maybe he realized that as much as you were his soulmate being put through this much crap wasn’t worthy and just couldn’t tell you that he didn’t want nothing to do with you. Maybe he was a coward and that’s the reason he didn’t even care to know how your recovery was going.
On account of this, the day you were discharged you grabbed all of your things and instead of going to your flat, you went straight to Bucky’s. You still couldn’t talk but it didn’t matter, you needed to finish with this, at least for your mental health.
No one opened the door and it was getting you all frustrated and angrier so it was time to put your skill to do something good. Picking a bobby pin from your hair, you went for the lock. Ezra taught you to pick a lock when you were 8 and your dad locked the barn so you wouldn’t eat all of the ice-cream.
Once your work was proved successful, you entered the apartment in search for Bucky. If you would have not ventured to the back part of the shared flat you wouldn’t have found him. He was at the balcony, not t-shirt on and a drink on his right arm.
You approached slowly and if he noticed you he didn’t say anything, he just kept staring to the horizon.
“Hey” Your voice still damaged and it sounded more like a dying cat than anything else.
“You should go”. He didn’t even turn back to face you.
“I’m not. I need an explanation”.
You heard Bucky snort, his hand gripped the drink he was gulping down. “An explanation, yeah… You’re not getting anything here doll.”
“You should’ve been there” You whisper-screamed. “You should’ve been there when I woke up not being able to breathe on my own or talk. I wanted you there when I woke up in the middle of the fucking night from a nightmare.” Your voice cracked as you began to sob.
He finally turned around, his eyes were puffed, he must have been crying at some point. “How? How (Y/N)? I almost kill him with this fucking arm.” He said pointing his head towards his metal arm.
“He was right, I’m a fucking abomination and I will never be able to give you what you need or deserve, not when I have all this anger inside me and I could explode.” He smashed the glass to the wall turning back around.
You walked to him and grabbed his metal hand spinning him around. “DON’T, DON’T YOU DARE,” You said through clenched teeth. “You don’t get to be… This, all self-loathing. You get me?”
You took a deep breath. “It was not your fault, none of what happened was your fault or mine. I got a boyfriend that turned out to be a psycho, and it has nothing to do with how I feel. All you ever did was protect me, your metal arm protect me Bucky.” You reached for his metal arm to your lips and kiss it, Bucky looking at you surprise but with so much love radiating towards him.
You slowed your breathing down and look into his eyes, cupping his cheeks. “Look Bucky, I’m not afraid of you, I don’t blame you. I just love you so much, you can’t just imagine how much.” You chuckled. “I don’t know what you do to me, I cannot explain it, but I just want to feel it for the rest of my life” You look down blushing but Bucky lifted your chin up.
“Believe me when I say this. Back there, I just wanted you to be safe, that nothing would happen to you because of Erik. I was okay with dying if that meant that you would be free of the consequences Bucky.”
“How could I ever be fine if you would’ve died?”
“Bucky,” You said softly, you saying his name made Bucky’s heart stopped and burst out in love and adoration. “You saved me, you’re my hero and I don’t care about anything else that it’s not you or me, okay?”
“Okay Antlia,” He said while kissing you deeply and passionately, dragging your body to him. Embracing you into a bear hug as if he just let you go an inch you would disappear from his flat.
That was the way that the stars in both of them merged to form a single star.
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Bratty (Spencer Reid Imagine)
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Summary: Reid must supervise Camille, who makes Reid’s job anything but easy for him.
Category: Soft angst Couple: OCFem!Reader x Spencer Reid Word Count: 2.6k
✧・゚: *✧・゚:* 
“You’re being ridiculous.” Camille huffed. 
“No - what I’m being is a good uncle.” Cruz retorted while handing Camille a jacket.
“It’s literally midnight!” 
“Exactly. I’m not leaving you alone this late at night.”
“You’re seriously gonna make me go all the way to Quantico with you right now?” 
“I won’t be able to leave work after I’m there. If you come with me, I can work and take care of you.” He explained.
“I’m an adult! I can take care of myself.”
Cruz completely dismisses this. “I already told JJ that you’re coming. She’s excited to see you again. You can meet the whole team, too.”
“If I go, will you please stop acting like I’m a child?”
“I can’t make any promises.” He shrugs.
Camille groans in mild frustration as she reluctantly readies herself to leave with her uncle for Quantico. 
As soon as Camille enters the BAU, she’s showered with love from JJ. 
“Hey, you! How are you holding up?”
“Well right now, I’m really wishing I didn’t give Uncle Matt a key to my apartment.” Camille quips.
“Yeah, maybe when he’s distracted I’ll grab his keys and remove yours.”
JJ’s joke makes Camille smile. JJ winks at Camille before turning away to talk to Matt. 
“How’s Elena?” Elena is Camille’s mother and Matt’s sister.
“Reception’s shoddy where she is, but when I drove her to the airport, she couldn’t be more excited. She’s always wanted to travel to an underdeveloped country and teach English as a second language. That’s why it wasn’t even a question if I would take care of Camille while she was away.”
“Good for her. I guess it runs in your blood to want to help people, huh?”
“No,no she’s more selfless than me. I can tell you that. She’s so patient with her students. Probably developed that skill when she had Camille. I love her to death, but kid’s feisty. Just like her mom when she was her age.”
JJ grimaces in preparation for a hard question she feels obligated to ask. “You know, it’s none of my business, but what’s Camille - 21, 22?”
“21.”
“I know you told Elena you’d watch her, but helicopter parenting her like she’s a teenager isn’t the way.”
“Forgive me if I’m not comfortable leaving her alone with a serial killer on the loose.”
This statement alone is enough to shut JJ down. On a lighter note, the team greets Camille. 
“Welcome. I’m SSA Aaron Hotchner.”
“Camille de la Vega. Nice to finally meet you.”
“You’ve met JJ. This is Agents Derek Morgan, Emily Prentiss, and David Rossi. She’s our technical analyst -  Penelope Garcia. And this is Dr. Spencer Reid.”
Camille goes down the line shaking everyone’s hands, but then she reaches Reid. 
“A doctor in the FBI?”
He corrects her instantaneously. “Not M.D. PHD. Three of them actually.  Chemistry, mathematics, and engineering.”
“Good to know.” She nods.
Camille extends her hand to shake his and everyone notices that he obliges. 
“Hey, Reid what’s with the handshake? I thought it was safer to kiss.” Morgan teases.
Camille shyly laughs. 
“Yeah, why the exception, kid?”
“Don’t listen to them.” Reid timidly tells Camille, making her grin from ear to ear. She’s already taken a particular liking to him. And from the looks of it, he’s done just the same. 
“Although I’d love to catch up with you, Camille, we have to start working immediately. Anderson will show you to your uncle’s office.” Hotch gestures towards Anderson who’s waiting in the doorway to lead Camille out of the round table room. 
. . .
Notably, the clock reads 4:10 a.m. Camille is reading a book at her uncle’s desk, when there’s a knock at the door. It’s Spencer. 
“Oh, hi. Did you need to grab something from his desk? I can move if you need me to.” She politely offers.
“No, no I actually came to bring you food. I thought you might be hungry.” 
Camille thanks him and accepts the paper bag of food. 
Reid notices she’s reading a book. “What are you reading?”
“Little Women.” Camille says, flashing the cover. 
“Have you read it before?”
“Mhm. It’s one of my favorites. Have you?”
“My mom read it to me when I was younger.”
Camille sees an opportunity to mess with him and takes it. “Wasn’t it crazy how Laurie set the March house on fire and all of them died?” 
Spencer furrows his brows in confusion. 
“I, um, I don’t remember that part.”
Camille immediately registers Reid’s discomfort. “I was just messing with you.” 
“Oh.” Spencer nods and forces a laugh. “I should, um, probably get back. Do you want anything before I go? Coffee, water, maybe?”
“I’m okay, thanks.”
“Alright, I’ll be back to check on you.” Reid scrunches his lips into a small smile before closing the door behind him.  
As he makes his way back to the round table, he smiles so widely, that when Morgan passes him, he notices. 
“Stop it right there, Pretty Boy.”
Reid stops in his tracks. 
“Now turn around.”
Reid obeys. 
“Why do you look like a kid in a candy shop right now? What did I miss?”
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
For someone that studies behavior, he’s not too good at lying. Morgan sees right through Reid. 
“Come on, man. You can tell me.”
Penelope passes by. 
“Tell him what? Whatcha hiding, Boy Wonder?”
“Nothing. I’m not hiding anything.”
Morgan and Garcia look at him with skepticism. 
“Did you hear how his voice did that thing? His voice only gets that high when he’s lying.” Garcia notes.
Reid clears his throat to deliberately speak in a lower pitch. “No it doesn’t.”
Garcia squints her eyes at him. “What do you not want us to know?”
“Guys, seriously. It’s nothing.”
“Is this about Cruz’s niece?” Morgan asks, hitting the nail on the head. 
“Ooh, I knew something was fishy when you shook her hand.”
“It was just a handshake, okay?”
“Well, excuse me, but I’m having a hard time believing you.” Morgan cleverly retorts.  
“I don’t like her. If that’s what you’re implying.”
Morgan smirks. “Oh is that so? Then riddle me this Pretty Boy - where were you just now?”
Reid loosens his tie, feeling like it’s a noose. 
“Oh did you see that? His body language is speaking for itself. And it’s saying A LOT.” Garcia giggles.
“Go get em, tiger.” Morgan leaves Reid to his devices with a pat on his shoulder. 
“Shut up.”
. . . 
No longer reading, Camille is scanning her uncle’s shelves - looking at the pictures and the books, and opening and closing different cabinets or drawers in his desk. A knock on the door startles her. 
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you. I’m just checking in. How are you?”
She frowns. “Incredibly bored. I finished my book like thirty minutes ago.”
Reid checks his watch. 
“How long was I gone?”
A small laugh leaves her lips. “I was basically at the end when you left.”
Reid’s lips shift to one side of his face as he thinks of something to help Camille out. “Um, I - I have newspapers. With, with crosswords on them. I can bring them to you.”
Reid rushes out of the room and comes back awfully quickly with a stack of newspapers. Camille laughs delightfully at the sight of them. 
“These are scans of ones I’ve already solved.”
“You’ve solved all of these? What are you? Some kind of genius?”
“I don’t believe that intelligence can be accurately quantified. But I do have an IQ of 187, an eidetic memory, and can read 20,000 words per minute.”
Camille is in awe. 
“Uh, yes, I’m a genius.”
“So what I’m hearing is, if I get stuck on a word, I could just ask you and you’d remember what the right answer was?”
“Kind of takes the fun out of solving it yourself, don’t you think?”
“Not if it means I get to see you again.”
Reid laughs uncomfortably. “Uh, so how will I know if you need help?”
“I’ll text you.”
“You don’t have my - Oh got it.”
Camille makes a face and hands him her phone to take. He makes a contact for himself and hands her back the phone. 
“Great. See you in an hour, Laurie.”
Reid’s caught off guard. 
“If I’m Laurie, are you Jo or Amy?”
“Well that depends. Am I the best friend or the love interest?” 
Reid raises his eyebrows in surprise. 
“I resonate more with Amy - if that’s what you were asking. I’m young and driven - like her.”
“I always thought Amy to be sort of a brat.”
"She knows what she wants. So do I.”
“Oh yeah? And what do you want?” This is a newfound display of confidence coming from the Doctor. It catches her by surprise. 
Camille doesn’t play into it, just to tease him. “What I want is for you and your team to catch this guy, so I can go home.”
“I should, uh, I should go back now. See you in an hour.”
“Looking forward to it.” She says sarcastically. 
. . .
Reid is working on the geographical profile when he feels his phone buzz. Without even needing to see it, he knows it’s Camille. 
UNKNOWN NUMBER: You’re late for your check in, Doctor. 
Reid looks at his watch. He’s only three minutes late. 
REID: Sorry, I’m busy. And you’re only supposed to text when you have a question. That wasn’t a question. 
UNKNOWN NUMBER: Fine, here's a question - when are you gonna make your hourly check in?
REID: A question pertaining to the crossword. 
UNKNOWN NUMBER: Los Angeles Times. 64 down. Clue is “Dr. Reid is late for his check in. When should he be expected?”
REID: The ‘Amy’ in you is showing. 
UNKNOWN NUMBER: The brat part of her or the love interest part of her?
REID: Former. 
UNKNOWN NUMBER: It’s fine. I can wait. Nowhere else I have to be anyway. 
REID: I’ll be there when I’m done.  
. . . 
Reid is walking through the hall and entering Cruz’s office. Camille works diligently on the crossword.
“Not so fast. You have to stop by the main office and get a tardy slip.” She quips.
“Funny. How’s the crossword?”
“I’ve finished two of them since you’ve been gone.”
Reid glances at his watch. “That doesn’t make any sense. The average time to finish a puzzle is 21 minutes. I’ve been gone for 88.”
"I got distracted.”
“Really? By what?”
Camille fights a smirk. “A little birdie who stopped by.”
Reid shakes his head and exasperates. He needn’t know more to figure out what she meant by this.
"Which one - Garcia or Morgan?”
"Does it matter?”
"What’d they say?”
"Enough.”
"Enough to?”
Camille gets up from the chair and walks around to the front of the desk. This places her right in front of Reid. This is the closest they’ve been yet. 
"Enough to let me know whether I’m the best friend or the love interest.”
Camille draws back and grabs her coat from off the chair. She puts it on.
"So who are you? Jo or Amy?”
"Don’t play coy. You know the answer. You are a genius after all.” 
Camille grabs her purse off the desk and begins to leave the office. 
“Where are you going? I thought you were supposed to leave?”
Camille exits the office and begins to walk into the hallway toward the elevator. The worried doctor follows close behind. 
"I’m going for a walk to a cafe. No offense, but I’m not a huge fan of the coffee you’ve got here. Plus, I could use the fresh air.”
"You shouldn’t leave. Especially not alone.”
"Not you, too. Come on. You know I’m not a target. From what I saw in your little conference room, all the victims are blonde. And unless I bleach my hair between here and the time I reach the sidewalk, I think I’ll be okay.”
"Are you at least going to let your Uncle know where you’re going?”
She shoots him a deadpan stare. “What would be the fun in that?”
Camille presses the button near the elevator. 
"Anderson can order coffee for you. He’ll bring it back here so you don’t have to leave.” Reid suggests. 
"Mmm, no thanks. I’m a big girl.”
The elevator door opens. 
“Are you sure about that? Because right now you’re acting like a -”
He hesitates. Camille steps into the elevator and turns on her heels so she can face him before the doors close. 
She provokes him. "Say it.”
"You’re acting like a brat!” 
"Oh I’m sorry - is my ‘Amy’ showing, Dr. Reid? Well, I am your love interest after all - Laurie.”
Camille winks and the doors close. Reid lets out a frustrated sigh and shakes his head and he begins to jog to the stairwell. With speed and caution he only exhibits when trying to apprehend an unsub, he flies down the stairs. His slender figure can’t support this kind of cardio, but nonetheless, he runs. 
When he finds himself in the parking garage, just beside the elevator, he sees Camille several feet away, walking out of the structure completely. He runs as fast as his feet can take him. Eventually he reaches her before she’s on the main sidewalk. 
"Camille, wait!”
He’s breathless and red. Camille walks back over to him with a devilish grin. 
"Did you actually just run all the way here?”
"What gave me away?”
This earns a hearty laugh from Camille. 
"I’m coming with you.” He breathlessly explains.
"Why didn’t you say so earlier? Would’ve saved you the marathon.” 
"Yeah, yeah, be quiet.”
“Swallow your pride. Occasionally, it’s not fattening.”
“Frank Tyger. Touché.”
She’s even more impressed at his knowledge of the quote she recited. This makes her more keen to starting an actual dialogue with him instead of just provoking him. 
“So why’d they leave you behind?” She asks. 
“They didn’t leave me behind. I just choose not to go. I’m notorious for being prone to gunshot wounds, so I choose to stay where I know I’ll be safe. What about you? Why’d Cruz bring you to the office?”
"For the same reason you stayed back. He wants me somewhere I’ll be safe.”
"You’re a little old for a babysitter, don’t you think?”
“You would think, but Uncle Matt has this gift where every time he looks at me, he still sees his helpless 8 year old niece.”
“What happened when you were 8?”
Camille doesn’t even realize what she might’ve accidentally revealed. “Freudian slip. Nothing you need to worry about.”
"You sure?”
“All you need to know is that what happened to me motivated him to work in the field. Ever since then he’s been working to get to the top.”
"So how old are you anyway, little woman?”
"Oh, is that my nickname now? An outright juxtaposition of “big girl” and a reference to the book?”
"Mhm.”
"21.” 
"Wow, you really are a little woman.” 
"Better than being an old man.”
“Old man? I’m 32.”
"My point exactly.” 
"You’re welcome by the way. For doing this.” He adds.
"Oh please, I didn’t ask you to walk me to the cafe.” 
“But you wanted me to.”
"Oh wow, you know about reverse psychology. Congrats you’re with the other 98% of the population that does too. Don’t act like you’re doing me a favor. You wouldn’t have followed me if you didn’t want to come.”
"What I want is for you to be safe.” 
"Like I said before, I don’t fit the victimology. He has a type and it’s not me. I’m fine going by myself.”
"You know something? You’re really stubborn. Anyone ever tell you that?”
“Aww, I’m so hurt. Boo hoo.” She sarcastically remarks.
“You think you can be just a little bit nicer to me? I am babysitting you after all.” 
Camille halts. 
“I’m gonna ignore the babysitting part, but yes, I can be nice, but right now, I’ve spent 6 hours cooped up in my uncle’s office bored out of my mind.”
"So what? You’re only toying with me because you’re bored and I’m your only entertainment?”
“Oh congrats! You finally figured it out, genius.”
✧・゚: *✧・゚:* 
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26, 58 and 61 for ethan x mc please? like angst in the beginning but fluff in the end. thanks!! i love your fanfics btw i read it like 100 times and i can’t seem to get over it.
Aww thanks anon ☺️ and thank you for the ask ❤️❤️
You can find the prompt list here.
#26-“Are you angry…?”
#58-“Where have you been?!” 
#61-“I’m sorry…I shouldn’t have done that, you can look after yourself…I shouldn’t have…I’m sorry.” this prompt is in the form of a text message 
Author's note: okay anon I know you wanted a fluffy ending BUT, I decided to write it as a continuation to Hard for me i.e the prompt in which people demanded asked for a part 2
So forgive me for the ending
Word count: 1.2K
Warning: none, it's just angsty as hell
Cry for me
The next one week was painful. 
Ethan's confession in the lift had left Leah in a flux of emotions. On one hand she was joyous that he returned her feelings and that he was all in.
But on the other hand she felt gut wrenching guilt which slowly started eating away at her sanity. She was in a relationship with Bryce. She had a freaking boyfriend but that still didn't stop her from pining for Ethan.
She was so lost in her thoughts half the times, zoning in and out of conversations. Bryce could see something bothering her so he slowly formulating a plan to cheer her up.
"Hey Princess?" Bryce asked as they drove to the hospital.
Leah snapped her head towards Bryce. "Yeah?"
“Are you angry…? Did I do something wrong?"
"Of course not, queen B!" I am angry with myself and the world.
"I just... Can't see you so down and lost. You know you can talk to me, right?"
I don't think I can talk about how I am completely and utterly in love with my boss and the fact that he returns the sentiments.
"Yap I know. It's just been a stressful week, y'know?"
"What if we have a movie night today?  We can eat junk food and laugh on trashy movies?" Bryce spoke up as they got out of the car.
"That's exactly the thing I need. Thank you Bryce." Leah smiled at him and wrapped her arm around his waist, giving him a side hug.
Bryce gave her a breathtaking smile and wrapped his arms around her. "Anything for you Leah."
As they stood there, with their arms around each other in the parking lot, Leah failed to notice a pair of stormy blue eyes burning into her back.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------- After changing into her scrubs and grabbing a coffee from the coffee cart, Leah made her way towards Ethan's office. June and Baz were sitting and drinking coffee, pouring over the charts while Ethan wrote on the whiteboard.
"Good morning team." Leah greeted them with a smile.
"Good morning, Leah!"
"Good morning, Dr. Garcia."
"You are late. Where have you been?"
Leah's eyes snapped to the clock above the whiteboard.
8:00 am.
"I was getting the charts. And I am not late. We start the meeting at 8am." Leah said as she placed her laptop and coffee on the table.
"Dr. Garcia, this is not your 9 to 5 corporate job where you enter and leave at a given time. You are a doctor and time should cease to exist because our patient's life is in the palm of our hands. Every minute you spend wasting time, that much is cut from our patient's life. Have you forgotten your Hippocrates oath?"
Leah wanted to answer back, but she bit her tongue. NOT worth it Leah, calm down. 
So clenching her jaw and swallowing down the humiliation, she responded in a curt voice. "Yes Doctor."
"Tardiness in not acceptable. Is that clear?" 
Baz interrupted, trying to diffuse the situation. "Ethan she wasn't even that lat-"
Cutting Baz off, his icy eyes bored into her angry hazel ones. "Dr. Garcia, am I clear?"
"Crystal." Leah spoke up, glaring at Ethan.
-------------------------------------------------------------------------- And that's how the entire day continued. When working the case they were like a well oiled machine but outside in the hallways, they would glare at each other as if they wanted to kill each other.
The tension between Ethan was so thick that you could cut it with a knife. They butted heads throughout the duration of the shift that even the staff noticed.
Leah felt like a ticking time bomb, threatening to explode. Anger, frustration and pain is a very dangerous cocktail together, and now she had all of them whirling inside her like a tornado.
I'm gonna fucking confront him. That son of a bitch has it coming. Leah thought to herself, her teeth grinding.
So when she saw Ethan head towards the stairwell, she followed him.
"Dr. Ramsey, wait up."
"If it isn't patient related, don't bother me."
Leah rushed after him and grabbed him by his elbow with incredible strength, causing him to stop and turn towards her.
"What has gotten over you Ethan?"
"I don't know what you are talking about." He crossed his arms and stood there, towering over her.
"You are a smart guy. Acting dumb doesn't suit you. Now, let's try again, what has happened that has made you so pissed with me?"
"Rookie, I'm not mad at you."
"Yes you are!! You said Rookie in B flat and that only happens when I have royally pissed you off. And last time I checked I haven't done anything wrong-"
"What you did wrong, was crash into my life. What you did wrong, was try to cheer me up on a bad day. What you did wrong, was comfort me in my pain. What you did wrong was have faith in me when I was in doubt. What you did wrong, was make me fall for you."
Leah's jaw dropped. What sort of backhanded compliment was that? Clearing her throat and squashing the butterflies in her stomach, she spoke. "Ethan you can't say things like this to me."
"Why not? It's the truth. I like you way too much for my liking." He said in a low voice.
Leah threw her hands in the air. "Because, I am in a freaking relationship! You had your chance and you blew it. Don't Gove me mixed feelings now."
"I-"
"No now you will listen. You pushed me away. You said that you wanted space. You wanted my professional development. You wanted things to go back to normal. This is the new normal, okay? Accept it."
For a first time in a very long time, he looked helpless and guilty. "I was so wrong sunshine..."
Leah stuffed her hands in her coat and looked down at her lavender converse. She was at a complete loss of words. If things would have been easier she would have kissed him and hugged the sadness out of him.
But life is complicated. And everything has a price.
"So that's it huh? So..." Gulping Ethan continued, "You are over me?"
Silence.
Her brain was screaming at her to say yes and to move on from the angsty and painful chapter of her life. But she could not get herself to say it.
"If things were not as fucked up as they were... Do you think we would be a thing?"
Sighing she patted his arm. "I think you are smart enough to figure that out."
Leah side stepped him and climbed down the steps and opened the door of the stairwell to find Bryce standing there, a deer caught in the headlight expression on his face.
Leah greeted him, curiosity laced in her voice. "H..hey?" 
Bryce immediately turned and started walking away fast.
"Bryce wait up."
This is some deja vu.
Bryce stopped and turned towards her, pain shining in his eyes. "Is it true?"
"What?"
"That you have feelings for Dr. Ramsey."
Shit shit shit. An alarm went on in her brain which caused her to freeze up.
"I-" Leah started but she was interrupted.
"I heard everything."
Leah took a deep breath. Cat’s out of the bag. No point denying it. "Please don't jump to conclusions. I-" her pager beeped, signalling that a VIP patient had arrived and she sighed.
"I need to go now. I will talk to you tonight. Please don't do anything rash. I beg you."
Without saying a word, Bryce shrugged and walked away.
Why is does it feel like the two important men of my life walked away from me in a span of 2 minutes?
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It was nine in the night and Leah was finally done with her rounds. Wearing her jeans and jumper, she tied her hair long black locks into a messy bun and stared at her reflection in the mirror.
Letting out a breath, she gave herself a pep talk. Okay Leah... You have to make a decision. You are not Hannah Montana. You can't have the best of both worl-
Her phone pinged, interrupting her. She picked it up to see that it was a text from Ethan. 
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Letting out a sigh, she picked up her messenger bag and walked out of the hospital, only one thing running in her head.
Who do I listen to? My head thats telling me that Ethan will hurt me again and that Bryce is better? Or my heart which tells me that Ethan is my one shot at true love?
It was painful to write this 
Also the last part got 88 notes so lets get this to 90 notes so that I have motivation to write part 3 heheheheh 
what do you think will happen in the next part?
ALSO GIVE ME SUGGESTIONS FOR WHAT I SHOULD NAME THIS SERIES
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