#I miss fun

[saturday-byte]

Chat throw drawing requests at me

Doesn't have to be spg just fucking. Whatever (can still be tho)

Can't promise I'll do them (and sorry to the ones rotting in the askbox) but I'm. Blocked

[sailoreuterpe]

I miss having time to do stuff that wasn't just trying to catch up.

[satorhime]

wanna get tipsy and film a dramatic reading of my fics

[sharpofteeth]

we remember tumblr 2014, and there was a lot of this at the time - similarly, there was stuff like someone saying they "look like a trashcan", and another adding "a very pretty trashcan. Make all the other trashcan go bangbangcrash"

i started doing that too - but eventually the tumblr phase ended and i also slipped out of speaking like this.

people pick up a lot of their habits and attitudes from the people around them, so doing this can help support others in creating the habit.

it's been said before and i'm sure said better than i can phrase it. but really, really - if you like making "i'm going to kill myself" jokes, please try switching to being ironically conceited instead.

anytime something goes wrong, say things like "ah well at least i'm beautiful and charming and everyone loves me." when you forget something, try "my big huge brain is so smart and thinking about too many other very big wizardly thoughts you wouldn't even understand." when you're frustrated by one of your symptoms, start talking like you're in My Immortal. "Life has come for me but my eyes are beautiful pools of gorgeous fire and my hair is amazing. I stuck my middle finger up at life and told it to fuck off and it did."

just... try it for a month or two. try saying the most absurdly self-congratulatory shit you can think of.

i know it's tempting to make suicide or self-harm jokes. and for me at least, a decade ago (!) when someone suggested i stop making those kinds of jokes, i was kind of at a loss for what to replace them with. i wanted to make light of these moments, but genuinely (at the time) my first thought really was suicidal ideation. there was a part of me that even felt like ... i was kind of "making light" of that voice. that if i could say i want to die lol, it would help take the sting out of that genuine (albeit passive) desire. like i could turn my illness into a joke.

when i started complimenting myself instead, it felt awkward and stupid. it felt really, really ironic. what i was actually saying was nobody would ever think this stuff about me, that's what makes it so fucking funny.

but. the effect was immediate. first thing i noticed was the people around me. when i dropped a glass and said ah my skin is too beautiful and sleek the glass has swooned and broken for me, other people were suddenly overjoyed to jump in with the joke. rather than making an awkward moment, we'd both start cracking up. ah princess sleek hands, i've heard of you.

i was 19. i hadn't noticed i'd been making others tense when i said i want it all to end. i know now that it's incredibly hard to know how to walk that moment - do you talk to them about your concern? do you potentially make them uncomfortable by asking if they're okay? do you ignore the situation? do you help them pick up the glass, or do they need to do it by themselves? are they genuinely made suicidal over this small moment? and most importantly, how do you - without professional training or supplies - actually help?

most people want to help you pick up the glass in your life, they just have no fucking idea how to do it. they don't want to make anything worse. they don't want to make assumptions about you. they love you, they're scared for you - and being scared makes people kind of freeze up. it's not because they don't love you. it's because they do.

now when something bad happens, my first thought is how can i make a stupid joke about this. it isn't my brain saying you're a dumb fucking bitch. i spend more time laughing. i spend more time being gentle with myself. i spend more time feeling good.

and the thing is - what's kind of funny - is that you'd be surprised by how many people agree with you. the first time i said i'm too pretty to understand that, someone else said to be fair you're the prettiest person in this room. i promise - you really don't know how kindly your friends see you. but they love you for a reason. they sort of reverse-velveteen-rabbit you. your weird and ugly spots fade away and you just become... the love they want to give you.

go love yourself ironically. the worst thing that happens is that you end up tricking your reflection into actually loving you.

[wormspoodle]

compiled some things

[shesmore-shoebill]

"I had choice paralysis :(" is a KILLER line.

He's such a comedic powerhouse, I'm glad more people are getting exposed to him :'D

[catmask]

SNAPDEX REPORT: WEEK 1

actually, i guess nows as good a time as any. heres all my pokemon warmups from the past 9 days! i wonder how long i can keep going

[hinamie]

trick or treat!

[soldrawss]

I miss them I miss them so much I just wanna give them silly clothing and a fun childhood

[angelofdumpsterfires]

how i feel about all the changes in s3

[yumishisu]

wade calling him everything but logan

[the-barefoot-hatter]

Triangle solo

[daikaiju-arts]

1st day of Digital December “Feast”

Ever notice how Gangle never interacts with Pomni?

[artist-rat]

fine dining at the blushing mermaid. with the boogieboys

[loveyourhate]

Dogged Love

[xxplastic-cubexx]

something about first impressions idk

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