#I might revist more as the days go

[ahsokaisawesome]

HELLO AGAIN I've been very busy with personal matters including school, but figured a good way to ground myself was to get back to drawing. Decided to try and finish a new monthly challenge, been too long since I did that so I'm dedicating the next 31 days to a new prompt idea I'm doing called Hometober. I want to capture memories and feelings from various "homes" I've experienced. They won't be 100% accurate, but they will have some correct details based on real-life events.

This first prompt is "What does home feel like", I call this "Spaciously far away". More details under a read more.

This is based on one of my childhood bedrooms in Peru; I was a month from turning 4 when we moved to Canada so this bedroom I shared with my parents in my grandmother's home was the one I remember living in the most. The outfit I'm wearing is directly from a photo my dad took that I remember loving. The bed and window are where they are in my memories as a child, though having been to that room again for the first time in years showed me how small the room really was.

The door leads to a bathroom, it was small but functional and I remember the tub feeling big even though it would have been barely enough for two adults to stand in let alone sit down.

The window was small and peered into the tiny garden surrounded by concrete walls that was next to the dining room. It had lots of plants and a small fruit tree though I can't remember what kind. I could see the neighbours down that direction too and their yards, though calling them yards are kind, they were very much just rectangles with no ceiling. The view to some would have been grey, but I remember feeling like a big kid peering into the world. Maybe the next time I see the house, if ever, I'll feel that way again.

The bed was a toddler bed with plastic sides and I remember there being a safety wall on the side but I couldn't get it to look right. Pillows were always falling because I had a big head and I felt off balanced when I used them. I still loved it, I felt like a big kid being in her own bed, despite my parents bed being just a few feet away, if even.

The carpet is the least likely thing here, I can't recall much of there being one but I have the faintest feeling there was but perhaps my mom just took it outside to be cleaned more often than not. I had similar carpets in later bedroom set ups so I figured it wouldn't hurt to add it here all the same.

2003 makes it 20 years in Canada this December, so I suppose doing this challenge was good timing. I might do something similar in December baring what projects I have to do and exams, but I'll try.

If you've read this far, thank you! See you in the next drawing! <3 Prompts will be based on this list:

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

Hi, 👋 I’m currently in a writer’s block but also trying to note down some writing exercises to get me into the groove again. Do you have any exercise tips for writers?

PS: I just heard a cover of My Immortal (original song by Evanescence) and immediately thought of Good Omens. My brain is also connecting every song with Good Omens. Help!😅

Anyways, I hope you have a fantastic day/night whenever you’ll answer this!😊

HELLO ANON MAGGOT HELLO IT'S THE NIGHT AND I'M ON BLACK COFFEE AND YOU HAVE PICKED THE RIGHT PERSON TO ASK I'VE BEEN INHALING BOOKS ON WRITING FOR ALMOST AS LONG AS I'VE ACTUALLY BEEN WRITING.

OKAY NOW LISTEN YOUR LIL EARS UP. I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU SOME EXERCISES, AND THEN I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU ADVICE FOR WRITER'S BLOCK. GOT IT? KAY LET'S GO WRITERS.

FIRST, WRITING EXERCISES.

NOTICING. NOTICING, NOTICING, NOTICING. LOOK AROUND YOU AT THE THINGS YOU SEE, THE PEOPLE YOU KNOW, THE TEXTURES YOU FEEL, THE SOUNDS YOU HEAR, EVERYTHING. AND THEN WRITE THEM DOWN. JUST KEEP DESCRIBING. YOUR BRAIN MAY NOT BE ABLE TO COME UP WITH FRESH MATERIAL RIGHT NOW, BUT IT CAN DESCRIBE THINGS. A BONUS, THIS WILL REALLY HELP THE QUALITY OF YOUR DESCRIPTIONS, SINCE YOU'LL BE ABLE TO PICK INTERESTING DETAILS AND KNOW WHAT TO LEAVE OUT.

STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS WRITING. THIS MAY BE A BIT HARDER, BUT JUST START WRITING ABOUT WHATEVER COMES TO YOUR HEADS. ANY THOUGHTS, PUT IT DOWN. DON'T BOTHER ABOUT THINGS LIKE PUNCTUATION OR GRAMMAR OR SENSE. JUST KEEP WRITING WHATEVER ARRIVES. IF THIS GETS HARD, YOU CAN MAYBE FIND A PROMPTING WORD TO GET YOU GOING. A BONUS, THIS WILL TRAIN YOUR WRITING TO BE MORE SPONTANEOUS AND NATURAL RATHER THAN ARTIFICIAL OR MANUFACTURED.

WRITE WITH A PURPOSE. PICK ANY INCIDENT FROM YOUR LIFE, SOMEONE ELSE'S, ANY INCIDENT WILL DO AS LONG AS YOU HAVE ENOUGH DETAILS OR CAN COME UP WITH THEM. NOW WRITE THAT INCIDENT DOWN THE WAY YOU WOULD DESCRIBE A SCENE IN A BOOK, BUT WITH A CATCH: FIRST THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU'RE TRYING TO CONVEY. FOR EXAMPLE, IF THE SCENE IS JUST YOU BURNING BREAKFAST WAFFLES, COME UP WITH DIFFERENT PURPOSES. FIRST WRITE IT WITH THE PURPOSE OF CONVEYING YOUR CLUMSINESS TO THE READER. THEN REWRITE IT WITH THE PURPOSE OF DEFENDING YOURSELF AND BLAMING THE FAULTY STOVE. THEN REWRITE IT WITH THE PURPOSE OF CREATING A SENSE OF FEAR AND AN ATMOSPHERE OF HORROR. THEN REWRITE IT AS A COMEDY. A BONUS, THIS HELPS YOU FOCUS YOUR SCENES AND KNOW WHAT DETAILS TO GIVE ABOUT AN EVENT TO SERVE THE SCENE'S PURPOSE IN THE STORY.

OKAY I'VE GONE ON A LOT IDK MAYBE Y'ALL WANT ME TO SHARE MORE WRITING EXERCISES? SOME I'VE LEARNED AND SOME I COME UP WITH IT'S ALL WILD. IDK LET ME KNOW IF THAT'S SOMETHING YOU WANT. I NEVER SHUT UP ABOUT WRITING ONCE I START.

AS FOR YOUR WRITER'S BLOCK:

LEARN MORE. ROBERT MCKEE SAID IN HIS STORY THAT WRITER'S BLOCK IS MORE A LACK OF INFORMATION ABOUT YOUR STORY AND YOUR WORLD. DO MORE RESEARCH ABOUT YOUR WORLD, CHARACTERS, STORYLINE, ETC. TAKE THIS WITH A PINCH OF SALT I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO DOWN A RABBITHOLE OF RESEARCH AND NOT WRITE.

REVIST THE STORY AND PREMISE. ASK YOURSELF WHY YOU HAVE WRITER'S BLOCK. COULD IT BE BECAUSE THE STORY NO LONGER AFFECTS YOU AS DEEPLY OR IT ISN'T AS IMPORTANT TO YOU ANYMORE? ARE THERE THINGS YOU NEED TO TWEAK SO WRITING IT IS SOMETHING YOU CARE MORE ABOUT? THIS ISN'T ALWAYS THE CASE BUT STILL. IF YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR STORY IT'S UNREASONABLE TO EXPECT ANYONE ELSE TO.

WRITE SCENES OUT OF ORDER. OKAY, THIS IS HOW I FINISHED THE FIRST DRAFT OF MY DEBUT NOVEL. I JUST WROTE WHATEVER SCENE I FELT LIKE WRITING AT THE TIME. DURING THE SECOND DRAFT I REWROTE THE ENTIRE THING IN ORDER. BUT THIS WAY I KNEW I CARED ABOUT THE SCENE I WAS WRITING AND IT WAS AUTHENTIC. JUST SOMETHING THAT MIGHT HELP.

THERE ARE MORE BUT IG THIS POST IS GETTING LONG I HOPE THIS HELPED ANON MAGGOT GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR WRITING!!!!!!! IM SORRY THIS IS IN CAPS LOCK IT COULDN'T BE HELPED. HAVE A LOVELY DAY AND MAY YOU WRITE MANY WORDS.

PS: ALSO MY IMMORTAL JUST REMINDS ME OF @patoslover'S CURSED MY IMMORTAL X GOOD OMENS FIC NOW HELP

[fascinationstreetmp3]

afaik, for LOTS of brand names (which I believe books are included in as intellectual property), when something is clearly identifiable in a shot, the props/set dec team has to go through the task of getting the rights to those brand names cleared for production. this is a lengthy process (and thus an EXPENSIVE process in labour-hours) and in many cases it is quicker and cheaper to just fill a set with fake cover wraps that were made by the production so they don’t have to be cleared. i guess shows don’t wanna be sued by a major publishing house for including their work alongside “objectionable content” which the publishers could argue “damages their brand value”.

i don’t know 100% but my coworker who does paper props for detective shows says she has a list of cleared names from the company she is allowed to use in paperwork, on cork boards, binders, filing cabinets, etc. bc they don’t want to accidentally open themselves up to being sued.

so this is to say the deliberateness of books as easter eggs kind of 50/50 bc i imagine the process is like: some books are specified thru notes from the artistic team -> some are chosen based on the rough idea of “what would this guy like to give texture/colour to this world?” -> “let’s prioritise what we can get cleared”

oh very interesting, i didn't know that! there are quite a few books displayed clearly throughout the show both as props and set dressing, so i wonder how much time went into getting the rights for them all

i would love to get some more insight about daniel's apartment in general one day... i'm not sure there's a reason for him to be spending much time at home in s3 but it's not out of the question for the apartment to be revisted, and then they might reveal some of the choices that went into designing it (maybe including the books they deliberately chose to display and the reasons for them)

[finnickodaiir]

Okay, so I've been doing the "re-listen and rate all the 11 albums" thing. I did Debut on Wednesday, so today it's Fearless's turn!

1. Fearless. What an opening!! Easily in her top 3 opening tracks. Seeing this in the Eras and doing the 🫶 was one of my fave moments of 2023. Rating: 10/10

2. Fifteen. While I don't revist this song super often, I still think it's great and quite touching. My favorite lyric is, "But I found time can heal most anything, and you might just find who you're supposed to be". Rating: 9/10

3. Love Story. This is the first Taylor song I ever heard in 2010, so I'll always have a soft spot for it. But it's also genuinely a perfect song. Rating: 10/10.

4. Hey Stephen. Super cute and iconic. "All those girls, well they're beautiful, but would they write a song for you?", you'll always be famous. Rating: 8.5/10

5. White Horse. You guys give this song too much hate. It's s not her worst track 5 by any means. You guys just don't get her like I do. My favorite lyric is "Maybe I was naive, got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance.My mistake, I didn't know to be in love you had to fight to have the upper hand.". Rating: 8.5/10.

6. You Belong With Me. Banger of all time! Been there, too, Nerdy Taylor in the mv. Rating: 10/10.

7. Breathe. One of my fave deep cuts. There aren't a lot of friendship breakup songs out there, so I'm glad she exists. My favorite lyric is, "Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out". Rating: 10/10

8. Tell Me Why. The fiddles here give me life. It has a lot of good lyrics, my favorite one is "You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day". Rating: 8/10.

9. You're Not Sorry. Gonna piss a lot of people off, but I genuinely don't like this song much aside from a few lines and the production. I just find it rather boring, and it's really similar to White Horse because both songs are about not forgiving an ex and going your own way after finding out they were cheating on you. I do like the first few verses. My favorite lyric is "And it's taken me this long baby, but I figured you out" and I love the guitars and violins, but yes, I don't have a lot of positive things to say about this song. Rating: 6/10.

10. The Way I Loved You. What a banger!! The guitars, the banjo, everything!! Chorus of all time, which also has my fave lyrics in this song. My favorite lyric is Rating: 10/10.

11. Forever & Always. Another perfect song! And late 2022 me really related to this (fun fact F&A was written on the same day I went through a friendship breakup that had me blasting this the rest of that day). My favorite lyric is, "Was I out of line? Did I say something way too honest, made you run and hide like a scared little boy?". Rating: 10/10

12. The Best Day. I get why some people may not like it, but I love it. Favorite lyrics are, "I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean. I come home crying, and you hold me tight and grab the keys, and we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away, and we talk and window shop till I've forgotten all their names", because yeahh... anyways. Rating: 9/10.

13. Change. Love the production, but lyrically, it is weak. I don't 100% agree this is Long Live 1.0, because Change feels more like a rousing speech, while Long Live feels more like a celebration of their achievements, declaring that in case everything goes wrong she hopes everyone will look back fondly on their times together. My favorite lyric is, "Because these things will change. Can you feel it now? These walls that they put up to hold us back will fall down". Rating: 6.5/10.

14. Jump Then Fall. This song is cute and all, but I just think Hey Stephen is better tbh. My favorite lyric is, "The time is gonna come when you're so mad you could cry, but I'll hold you through the night until you smile." Rating: 7/10.

15. Untouchable. I've debated whether rating this song or not since it's just a cover, but since it's on both the 2009 Platinum version and on Fearless TV, I'm rating it. I think her vocals here are quite good, and I love the country rearrangement. My favorite lyric is, "In the middle of the night, we can form this dream, I wanna feel you by my side, standing next to me. You gotta come on, come on, say that we'll be together." Rating: 8.5/10.

16. Forever and Always (Piano Version). Since this is genuinely another version of the song with different vocals and production, and not just a remix, I'm rating it. While it's not my preferred version of the song, I think it's a nice rendition. Rating: 8/10.

17. Come In With The Rain. Soo underrated, her vocals are quite nice, and the production is really good. Rating: 8/10

18. Superstar. I don't get why you all hate this song. Is it the best platinum track? No, but it's not the worst one when Jump Then Fall is right there. Rating: 7.5/10.

19. The Other Side of The Door. Another banger of the century. One of her best outros!! Rating: 10/10.

20. Today Was A Fairytale. Sooo cute, you are mean for hating on this one. Rating: 8/10.

21. You All Over Me. I'm gonna be honest, I'm not big on the Fearless vault tracks, because I feel like most of the truly great material made in either in the standard edition or the platinum edition, so what was left off was overall just alright imo. I don't dislike this song by any means, but I prefer production on the 2005 demo over the one on the Taylor's version because it just doesn't like a Debut/Fearless Taylor song and it sounds a little too polished (idk if it makes sense? Idk, the only time Aaron Dessner has let me down is when it comes to the Fearless Vault). Rating: 6/10.

22. Mr. Perfectly Fine. It's definitely the best vault track on Fearless! My favorite lyric is Mr. "Insincere apology so he doesn't look like the bad guy". Rating: 10/10.

23. We Were Happy. I quite like this song, actually, but I prefer the demo production over the TV one. While it does feel more Fearless esque than You All Over Me TV, I didn't love how they switched it from the orchestral arrangement to a downtempo ballad one. Rating: 7.5/10.

24. That's When. Writing wise, this song makes no sense... but melodically, it's quite nice soooo... Rating: 6/10.

25. Don't You. I kinda hate this song... the lyrics are okay, I guess, but the production??? This sounds like a Midnights demo... why are you doing synths and vocal layering on the most awarded country album??? Rating: 5.5/10.

26. Bye Bye Baby. Well, I hate this one more, actually. I do like the lyric "It wasn't just like a movie, the rain didn't soak through my clothes down to my skin", because of how it contrasts with Fearless the song and her vocals here are nice, but everything else sucks imo. Rating: 5/10.

Overall score: 7.8/10 (counting the vault), 8.6/10 (if we're going off solely the original tracks).

[sketchyfrogzz]

Funky Colour Wheel: Green Blossom!

Meet Green Blossom! One of the main characters for my series: Funky Colour Wheel! She is Yellow Dude's girlfriend who runs a small flower shop in ●Fusion Twist City●!

I was going to make a bio about Yellow Dude first but I kept doodling Green Blossom,so we'll start with her! Yellow Dude will be included in this lmao

1: What will be Green Blossom's role in the story?

◇Apart from being Yellow Dude's love interest,I hope to shed light on Green Blossom for her interests and other talents she'll have to show throughout the series! The story won't be too serious,but will focus on some (maybe?) political views on how other colours are treated,their might be a chart of the colours with the highest control over the rest (I was thinking it could be the reds but I'll think of something else soon!)

◇Now,back to Green Blossom.The series will start off exploring her and Yellow Dude's current relationship,and maybe having little flashbacks to before they got together.But over time,we'll pay more attention to the couple separately; Yellow Dude's backstory being revealed,and Green Blossom's motives and family history also having light shed on (trust me that'll be important later on)

2: Why did you name her "Green Blossom"?

◇Its simple but in the world of Funky Colour Wheel,the colour's first name will always be the name of their colour,their middle or last name describing their interests/hobbies.

For example:

◇As most people should know,green is often associated with nature and plants,so I added Blossom to her name so it could link to how nature is usually greens colour.Her last name is also a reference to her past concept that would nearly be the final design but I changed it.She was supposed to be named Pink Blossom or Pink Sugar,but I didn't really like the design :/

◇With Yellow Dude,this one is a little bit more complicated.You see,when people see the colour orange they think of hope,happiness,joy and other enthusiastic emotions.Whilst making Yellow Dude,I was stuck on what his last name should be.(I tried to be slick with this..) but then I thought: usually happiness is made by family or friends,right?? So I started thinking of friends more cause Yellow Dude doesn't really have any relatives,so I just thought of "dude" and added it before I could change my mind lol.He was supposed to be called Yellow Friend but I changed it :(

3: What can Green Blossom's hair do?

◇Glad you asked! Green Blossom is able to manipulate her hair like vines (based of Shiozaki from My Hero Academia and Poisin Ivy!) Her hair is usually used for grabbing and carrying stuff around her flower shop,and it can also carry other pople if needed.She sometimes cuts her hair but it only takes about 2 whole days before it grows back!

◇With her past concepts,Blossom would be able to produce flower from her hair and body,but that idea was scrapped cause I didn't really want that for Blossom! Who knows,I might revist that idea one day!

And! Some extra doodles of her!

Doing Yellow Dude next! And other characters are in the progress of being made!

[jinxthejubilee]

Venus - We Need to Talk (Again)

Back here again, aren't we? I'm so sorry, but I just can't help myself.

Because I have just discovered that there were plans to reveal not just one, but TWO lost turtles in ROTTMNT, I will discuss the story potential both Venus and Slash could have, should this show ever come back. (Please Nickelodeon, do something right for once and give us this show back-) But I must finish Venus first, before moving on to Slash.

And for those of you who might ask about Jennika, I thought about making her own page to hold out hope that she could make it into the Rise universe, only to come to the tragic realization that it was highly unlikely that she could ever appear in the show, given that Venus and Slash are pretty infamous as characters, and that the creators said that there were 2 missing turtles and not 3. My apologies to all Jennika stans.

Anyway, I did talk about Venus already, yes, but after revisting her backstory from The Next Mutation, I've come to the conclusion that her debut story isn't all bad? Yeah, I can't believe I just said that either.

I'll give the Next Mutation writer's 15-year-old brains credit, the idea that Venus was adopted by someone else and learned ninjutsu/magic is a cool concept, if explored correctly.

Since it's been pretty well-established that Big Mama's assistant was likely going to be revealed as Venus, I have an idea as to how she got there.

Now I could be wrong, but I believe that Big Mama's assistant debuted in Season 2. Whether or not she was just hired or was hiding out until the time was right, who can say.

For those of you who don't know or simply wiped that show from your memory, Venus was raised by Master Chung I, a human martial artist who taught Venus everything he knew.

Chung I died after confronting the Dragon Lord and demanding that he release Splinter. And his last words to Venus were for her to travel to New York City.

Now if I were in charge, I would keep some similarities to this, but obviously take some creative liberties.

In my Rise version of event, Draxum's lab explodes, the boys and Splinter take off, and Venus and Slash are presumed by Draxum to have died.

Instead of Venus' father being a human, I would make him a yokai, who finds her somehow and takes her to the farthest end of the Mystic City.

This father-figure would parallel Splinter in a few ways:

He would simultaneously be responsible, yet neglectful at the same time. The guy would be very much a loner with a tragic past, so while he would take care of Venus physically, her emotionally needs are something he simply can't and would not handle.

He would never leave his home. Granted, it would be hard to do so, as he lives very, very far away from other yokai, but he just refuses to interact with anyone he doesn't have to. But not because he's lazy, it would likely be due to paranoia and his strict moral code to keep his whatever he's keeping secret, safe from everyone.

Less of a father, and more of a master. A total flip from Rise Splinter, who focused more on fatherhood than teaching his sons dangerous martial arts, this guy is "teacher first, father second."

I see him as a cat. Not sure why I went with that, but it was a cool idea I thought of while brainstorming. While Splinter is an overweight, yet agile rat, I imagine Chung I would be a skeletal, agile, and exhausted cat.

I even have a sketch I drew.

Honestly, just think of 2012 Master Splinter for a frame of reference on his personality. He's still wise and knowledgeable, but instead of kind and compassionate, he's grumpy, unwelcoming, and snappy.

Not the greatest upbringing for Venus: living in isolation and rarely going outside, only knowing and living with one person her entire life, training constantly every single day, and being told that her emotions should never interfere with her duty, but she knows that it's the best for her! Poor thing...

So how does this play into how Venus became Big Mama's assistant? Allow me to explain:

The whole reason why Venus' father isolated himself and Venus was because of an ancient prophecy. I haven't worked out all the logistics of the prophecy, but basically he needs to protect that sacred amulet he has around his neck, or the Dragon Lord will rise once more.

Unfortunately, shenanigans happen and the Dragon Lord is awakened, but not at full power. Though he has just enough to kill Chung I.

Heartbroken and determined to stop the Dragon Lord, Venus travels through the Mystic City for any information on another ancient weapon that could destroy the beast once and for all.

This leads to her meeting Big Mama and learning about the Battle Nexus tournaments.

Whether Venus likes Big Mama or not, I haven't decided, but she's honestly just using her to gain battle experience and knowledge on everything going on within the Mystic City and/or the surface.

Depending on when all of this happened, she might have become Big Mama's assistant at least several months to a year prior to the boys being introduced to her in Season 2.

I picture that the big reveal of Venus being their sister would play out a bit similarly to how I discussed previously. I loved looking through everyone's ideas about Venus, and I can say without a doubt, that the amount of fanfare behind ROTTMNT and Venus overall is worth Nickelodeon bringing back this show.

Note: Well! I hope you all enjoyed this! If you read till the end, thank you very much! Please tell me what you think of my ideas, that would be very much appreciated! Until next time with my comments, concerns, and ideas about Slash, have a great day everyone! Byeee! 💗

[enderon]

This is another instance of something seeming terrible when I wrote it, but after some time, revisting, it's actually not that bad. A but awkward in some places, but not terrible.

It's the start of a fic that will explore the specifics of Junior and Leo's relationship that does turn smutty, but the smut is for the sake of exploring characters and relationship and I actually put a lot of thought into what Leo, a being with no secual organs who reproduces asexually, might get out of such a relationship. If that interests you and you like this beginning, let me know and I'll see about finishing it.

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Leo was busy discussing the preparations of an upcoming ritual feast when a handmaiden walked up and cleared her throat to get the spirit's attention. He turned to her, not feeling even an ounce of annoyance, as his duty as master and guardian of Infant Island saw many people needing him all throughout the day, making interruptions like this very common. 

She bowed politely in greeting. “Your grace, you have a visitor.” She gestured towards the entrance, where a small body could be seen leaning up against a wall. 

Minya didn't often come to the worship chamber. While he was thankfully beginning to grow out of his timidness, he had once admitted that the place was so special that he felt wrong being there. Leo had of course assured the child that he was more than welcome in his family's special place, but he still tended to avoid it if he could. So to see him there, wringing his scarf in his hands in his usual nervous fashion, Leo knew it had to be important. 

“Thank you, I'll go handle it.” Turning back to the priest he had just been speaking to, “Go forward with that idea, see what can be done. I'll check in on the progress later, once this issue is handled.” 

All present nodded and bowed once again in respect before heading off to tend to other matters, leaving Leo with the young mutant. 

“Is everything alright Minya?” He made sure to keep his voice soft and kind as he approached the child, kneeling down once close enough so he wasn't towering over him. Not that that was quite as easy these days. 

While still a bit underdeveloped for his age, Minya was shooting up quick, as most mutant children did. At a mere ten years, he was already beginning to match grown humans in height, and would likely surpass them quickly in the next few years. It warmed Leo's heart a bit to remember the scrawny, malnourished little thing he'd been when they'd first found him three years ago, and to see how much he's grown out. 

But it isn’t the time to get overly nostalgic, as Minya turns wide, concerned eyes on him. 

“I'm alright,” he admits, but instead of continuing just bites his lip and looks away. 

He's not saying it, but the specification of his own state, and present concern, is all Leo needs to know what the issue is. 

“Take me to him.” He insists, standing up and following behind as the child quickly begins scurrying off towards some far corner of the island. They travel along the line where the jungle turns into beach, making for faster travel. If he wanted this to be over even faster, Leo could just fly over, but Minya has never enjoyed the process, and he doesn't feel like troubling the child more than he already is. 

As the sound of snarling and smashing begins to reach his ears, Leo can't help the soft, quiet sigh he releases under his breath. While it's been quite a while since the last time this happened, probably the longest since they began, it's still troubling that it's still happening at all. 

Leo knows that recovery can be a slow, steady process, and that it's possible that complete recovery may never be entirely possible, but they've not been doing this long enough for him to come to terms with that. 

They turn a corner when something heavy smashes into the boulder next to them, spraying debris everywhere. It's instinct that brings a brightly colored wing up, shielding himself and Minya from the onslaught. Bringing it back down, he takes in the scene in front of them. 

The clearing is a mess of broken boxes and crumbled rocks, holes and trenches gouged into the ground and boulders shining with claw marks. 

And in the middle stands Godzilla, huffing and snarling, his body tense and a little curled in on himself. A defensive stance, like he's expecting some kind of fight. 

“Goji?” Minya calls out, his voice colored with concern. Leo doesn't like Minya having to see this, and he knows Godzilla likes it even less, but he won't deny his gratefulness of having him there when the man's gaze immediately draws to them. His chest expands as he takes a deep, slow breath, clearly trying to get himself back together in front of them, though still struggling to do so. In these moments he's his own worst enemy, and it will take a bit more to get him back to himself. 

“Thank you for bringing me Minya,” Leo says and rubs his thumb into one of the boy's shoulders soothingly. “Why don't you go into town and play with some of the other children?”

Minya looks uncertain at the idea, looking between the aggravated mutant and the spirit. While bothered by the sight, he was clearly hesitant to leave his guardian behind in such a state. 

“It will be alright, I promise. I'll help him.” With a confident smile, Leo turns the child and pushes him back the way they came, shooing him further when he still stumbled with hesitance. Finally Minya truly began to walk away, allowing Leo to turn back to the matter at hand. 

“Are you good to go, or do you need a bit more time here?” 

Still struggling with himself, with the heavy, heaving breaths, Godzilla seems to think to himself for a moment, though in his state it’s hard to tell if he’s  actually thinking about Leo's question or arguing with himself more. 

[acatinstarktower]

The Avengers: Earth's mightiest heroes

S1:Ep4 Meet Captain America

My thoughts on the episode below the cut! Spoilers obviously lmao

Oooooooo are we going into the past with this episode? Hmmm I'm realizing I have very little backstory/comic knowledge of a lot of these characters, which honestly the show does a good enough job of giving a quick summary/ relying on everyone already knowing at least smth about them.

Dude didn't just get muscles he got like 3 feet of height from that serum.

That guy blowing bubblegum while in an active shoot out is an icon. Please tell me that's Bucky.

OH LMAO get American colored circle attacked bitches

Having an indestructible peice of metal you can fling around and boomerang back to yourself really does a lot huh, I do have to mention the iconic, why don't they just aim for his knees. Cause,,,, yeah.

OH THAT'S BUCKY. Wow not at all like who I expected I have been very used to MCU portrayals. Is this character design more accurate to the comics? He's like in a mini Captain America outfit and seems to be taking the role of the techy sidekick to Cap's muscle this is hilarious to me.

Ooooo their first exposure to fully non humans/magic(?) stuff? That's a cool thing to explore. Cause hyped up drugs are one thing but a massive cyclops is another. Pretty easy fight tbh

Inhumane cages! Get fucking (in)human resources on it!!!! Can they do a thing where they release all the caged beings who join in on beating the shit out of this guy. I think they should get to do that. As a treat.

Ohhhh that effect is cool. YESSSSS RELEASE THE BEASTS!!!! LET THEM GO APESHIT WILD!!!!

Where'd Bucky learn to fight like that is my question. Bro's goated.

Woooooo they saved the day from the portal surely everything will turn out fine!! Actually find it very cool how each intro episode sets up like a different antagonist that's going to definitely return at some point.

Oh is that rage on Bucky's face? Is he upset at being left behind because no superpowers or just blind rage at the red skull? Ah it was at being left behind lmao. If only I didn't have plot awareness I might think this would go well.

Cap honestly all you had to do was just shove the shield into the side of the rocket and cause a hull breach. That thing would have exploded so quickly one it took off and there would be no need for clinging to the side of a rocket as it shoots into space. Actually wait they hadn't gone to the moon yet at this time he doesn't know that yet. Darn.

Ah but breaking the window going however many miles fast in the air is totally fine. That makes sense.

Oh my god Bucky you had to fuck it up and get stuck right now smh smh

o7 Bucky we lost a real one today. Actually though was he just assuming Cap would survive a fall from that height? Cause otherwise it's like yeah you pushed him away from the bomb so he could fall to his death knowing he failed to save you?? Okay dude.

LMAO GET POPSICLED

Also who's this blue bitch I forgot to say from the begining. Actually it is pretty cool people can see him but just don't notice rather than him being fully invisible.

Ayyy a sneaky suit rip ty for the fanservice show. Also o7 to the like structures of time space or smth? I can't quite figure out what he's saying. Ooooo Cap harbinger of doom for this guy? That's pretty fun.

Love interest with injury that villian will stop at nothing to fix spotted I'm sure we will revist that later!

Yaaay end of episode. I am loving how they are setting things up for later and it's been interesting seeing how what I have seen about these characters before be so different to what's in this show sometimes.

[yokomation-blog]

Yoko Ruby´s In the House BABY

1 down, 11(Scrapped Raion Kuma for now) to go and maybe also a few more if i can.

last time i did a timekill didn´t go as planned, Arlo would have had a model but it might not had looked as good, SO yeah.

Yoko Ruby, you Arvage Tomboy-Neko Gal and Yokomation Studio´s Mascot for the future, Really Her First video´s likely to be my new channel intro... HOLY FUCK what a Journey, feels like forever i last got a Model done like this and with the Whole new Rigging coruse i almost felt like Quitting but, thankfully saved the day when i heared via Discord it wasn´t Worth it deleteing her completely, i Gotta say outside the Hair a bit and not rigging her Toes, this model went FLAWLESSLY!, mostly like if i were to put at a score from 0 to 100 of how well it went i think it would outside Grooming her Fur and hair(went well but still a bit fucky)

Sculpting - 99 to 100/100

Retopo - 100/100

Multires sculpt - 100/100

Textureing - 95/100(good but still needs some improvemeants might re-texture her)

Basic rigging and weight pianting 100/100

complex Rigging - 75/100(new things to learn, got more models so might revist Yoko Ruby to improve her rigging over all)

and the shape keys and action animation things went pretty Fast due to the corrective bones, i Can see myself use them more Often tho, maybe Not around the Butt area tho, anyways time to chill off a bit THEN we can get To work on Doily, Nat and Kitube, all the Next Models are going to be as good or better Then Yoko Ruby, i´ll do a channel intro with and upload to newgorunds too(cause hey why not?) when i´ll work on it is still unkown, anyways hope you love her, because took too long to work on her and WELP Relearning alot of shit on the way was worth it and makeing her was part of getting more used to the new workflow and well let´s see if it worked out.

[starlightswitch]

Engaged to Someone Else

(for writer's month day 4 prompts memories and underwater-- although no one is actually underwater here! I decided to revist a concept and characters I came up with in like high school. Written mostly in a notebook while in New Jersey, finished on my phone on the drive home.)

Nica knew the role was hers if she wanted it. The role had been hers since she was 16.

Which was part of the problem.

Scott and Tammy had complained, in the time after the show ended when the cast was still in touch, about not getting work because no one wanted to touch actors famous for a beloved kids’ TV show. Greg and Raquel had moved away from acting, so they must have been having trouble too. Nica, who had gotten a recurring role on another show within a year of In Our Element ending, was in the minority. Maybe she had her agent to thank. Maybe she was a better actress, able to make the character she’d auditioned for seem totally different from her Element character Becca. Maybe it was that even though all the kids on the team in Element were considered “main” characters, Becca wasn’t one of the main main characters.

Maybe she just got lucky.

Did she want to take the chance of testing that by playing Becca again?

When her fiancé asked if she had decided yet, she had to say, with a sigh, “I just don’t know.”

“Okay,” said Joel. “So… do you want to talk me through it?”

“Well, pros would be that I liked the role,” said Nica. “Of course. And it would be fun to play her again. And I loved being part of such a big cast– we all got along great. So many great memories with them. And it’s a movie, not a TV show, so probably I’d get to do more with the water powers. We always talked about Becca being able to create a bubble of air underwater–” She gestured with her hands as if forming it. “But it never happened because we couldn’t have an underwater scene with the budget. Maybe we’d be able to do things like that.”

Joel nodded.

“And it’s supposed to do well, with the original fans plus bringing in the new generation. And working with teenagers could be fun, although most people think I’m crazy for saying that. The cons… Well, that’s the part we’ve talked about.”

“Scott and Tammy,” said Joel.

“But then– this isn’t really a pro I guess, it’s not really a positive, but I don’t want the judgment for not doing it.”

“You said Kristy’s not doing it.”

“And is getting judged. And she has a reason, major role almost locked in. I don’t have anything like that.”

“Any other cons? You only said one. I guess it is a big con.”

Nica took a breath. “Well, there’s a con for you, I guess. One of the things they’re already promoting about this new movie is Becca is engaged to Rick.”

Joel laughed, and it sounded fully genuine. “Cool. You can wear your ring.”

Nica automatically looked at her engagement ring. She had a feeling she would not be able to wear it, since she had a small heirloom diamond and they would probably want Becca’s to be bigger so Rick didn’t look cheap. “I just thought it might be… you know, not your ideal for me to play someone engaged to someone else.”

“If I didn’t like the idea of you acting, I wouldn’t be with an actor. It’s not even like it’s a romance movie, it’s just a movie where you happen to be in a relationship. So.” After a minute he added, “If you’re going to limit yourself to characters who are single, that seems very limiting.”

“True.” Nica nodded slowly. She couldn’t think of a way to neatly end the conversation so she just wandered out of the room.

The question wasn’t whether Joel was okay with her playing something who was engaged. She was pretty sure they’d talked about that part when they first started dating. She wasn’t so sure he would be okay with the part she hadn’t managed to bring up, because even bringing it up made it seem like it mattered too much– the guy who would be playing her fiancé had been her teenage crush.

-

2020 Day 4: The Rest of His Life (long distance relationship)

2021 Day 4: In Character (play)

2022 Day 4: A Melody, A Memory (melody)

[totaldramafan-lauri]

A little self-discovery

Heyyyyyyy! It’s....b-been a bit! Truthfully, I....I haven’t been completely OK this week. I’ve been dealing with some stuff, but....I’ve been though worse at the same time, so it’s not a super big deal. But.....I wanted to talk about this, cuz I.....kiiiiinda alluded to it before....? Dunno if anyone saw it, tho, but..y’know.......

I-I still wanted to talk about it....

This is something that no one but me will care about, but....s-screw it, I'm already here, and this might be something I'll mention again in the future, so....here goes....

So....this has to do with....family history and stuff, so if that doesn’t interest you, keep scrolling, nothing to see here.....XD

So, I’ve had to do some CRAZY stuff in order to get over post-Eurovision depression this year. I still dunno why it got SO bad this time, cuz it’s usually not, but....yeah. I was doing pretty much nothing but rewatching Eurovision videos for weeks last month. On top of that, my favorite idol/comfort person has been on hiatus for health reasons, and his fanbase is collectively miserable and missing him horribly, which brought down my mood really badly, making it harder to move on from Eurovision which makes me happy. But....I FINALLY did something that got me over it for the most part.

And that’s that....I, uh....I revisited an old special interest of mine. I’m not sure if I’m getting back into it necessarily, but I’ve been looking at old things and having a nostalgia trip. I was last into this in early 2013 (it was one of the last special interests I was into before Total Drama and me getting this blog), so it’s been a while. And....yes, it does have ties to Eurovision for me. It's how I first discovered Eurovision, which....is a really weird story. KeepinmindI’mAmericansoIHADtolearnthroughaweirdway*cough*

Now, I’m not gonna say what this is, cuz it’s not SUPER important to this topic. It’s just the catalyst for it. This is its own can of worms. And honestly, altho I look back on this thing very well (and I consider it one of the best fandoms I’ve ever been in), I’m also embarrassed by it in the present day. This isn’t something I’d really recommend to people. I’m happy it exists, but I’m worried if it’s.....aged well enough to point new fans toward it, is what I’m saying.

All I’ll say for now is that....it has to do with world history, and leave it at that.

(If anyone is interested in me talking about this, and don’t mind me potentially talking about weird stuff, I AM more than happy to explain. There’s a LOTTA stuff I can talk about, seriously. XD I had a lotta great experiences in that fandom, and could basically talk about it all day if I could. It was one of those fandoms that I had multiple phases of. It basically ruled my life for many years, and it helped me learn certain things about myself that are....still getting mileage today.....and again, it’s the reason I got into Eurovision, which I STILL love today, so....NEED I SAY MORE? It’s very close to my heart. I just don’t wanna talk about it RIGHT NOW cuz it’d lead to a huge tangent.)

Point is.....I’m revisting it. I’m looking at old stuff I saved, and even stuff related to it that I made myself. It feels like I’m 18-21 again......and, through that....I remembered that.....there was something I’d started to do, that I’d stopped when I moved on.

I was.....learning Croatian. In 2013....

And I stopped....

I had a whole list of words I’d learned even, and I- I forgot all about, it-

So, uh...I know that sounded REALLY REALLY RANDOM, so- uh-

The same time I was in this fandom, I was part of a subfandom for this group of OCs I really liked, and- g-gosh, this is going all over the place, pffffff- b-but, these OCs, had to do with the history of Yugoslavia and the countries it became and- I sound so stupid right now- P-point is, it was a really weird coincidence, that this happened, not that long after I learned that I’m one-quarter Croatian!

So......family-related rambling time:

So, I knew that my dad’s side of the family was Greek. And that my paternal great-grandparents (none of which I got to meet) were immigrants. But....I didn’t know everything for the longest time. I knew I was Greek, cuz fun fact my last name is VERY Greek, and we celebrate Greek Easter instead of regular Easter (I’m PRETTY SURE I’ve mentioned this on my blog before?). We also follow a few other Greek traditions, and I was taught a few words. And indeed, SOMEWHERE in my grandparents’ house, we still have my grandpa’s parents’ Ellis Island papers when they came to America from Greece. My grandpa is very much Greek.

But.....what about my grandma? Through my childhood, I thought she was also Greek, she’s always just fit in with the traditions and stuff.....I knew that I was told her maiden name when I was young, but I forgot it....and no, turns out she isn’t Greek. Turns out, as I learned randomly as a teenager....she’s actually Yugoslav. But wait, that country doesn’t exist anymore! It DID exist when her parents left it, but....not anymore. I was briefly curious about what she’d identify as in the modern day, but never asked and promptly forgot for a few years cuz it wasn’t a big deal.

BUT, in 2012-2013, somewhere around that time, in a random conversation with my grandpa and uncle, things finally came together. She was playfully poking fun at Greeks, and my grandpa made a joke about Croatians in response.

And it came together, exactly where she was from, and I could say what every part of me was without using outdated words. I was like....”that’s neat” at first, but I didn’t really dwell on it for a while.

But THEN, this fandom happened again! And it got me interested in world history, and I hyperfixated on this group of popular OCs from it, and.....i-it led me to blogs, and art, all dealing with.....all this history, through the lens of characters I liked, and I realized that I was kinda.....learning about a p-part of myself? And through it, I got....curious about it.....? It seemed so interesting to me all of a sudden.....?

I’m....one-quarter Croatian. Yet, I was raised as if I was half Greek. I....didn’t KNOW anything about Croatia or Yugoslavia. My grandma never taught us anything about her family and how they lived. She just took on the role of my Greek grandma with my Greek grandpa and she was just fine with that. And I am too, don’t get me wrong, cuz I love my Greek side, but.....I’ve ALWAYS known and have been in touch with my Greek side. And, for once, I was like...VERY curious all of a sudden, sparked by fandom of all things, to discover my Croatian side.

Through this RP account I used to follow (RIP Formspring), I got interested in the language. I taught myself the alphabet and a few phrases. I also watched a YouTube documentary on the history Yugoslavia once (dunno if it’s still up) and hooooly crap Croats are badass (there’s no other word to describe that, pfffff). That country has been through a LOT and WON. The fact that I probably have distant relatives over there that fought through all that for their independence REALLY interested me. Ashamed as I was to admit it, I got really into learning about Croatian history, all thanks to this really weird coincidence of discovering I’m part Croatian and then almost immediately after, discovering a Croatian character I liked that talked about his history a lot. All the while, jumping between this and a historical comedy anime. It was probably one of my weirdest summers interest-wise. One day, I’d be looking up art of ships I like, and the next, I’d be learning a new thing about Croatia. A fun fact, or a not-so-fun fact, or a new word or phrase, or something completely random from this blog I followed, pffff....

I was super into learning about this seemingly-random country that I was slightly embarrassed about it, and didn’t really talk a lot about it to others. It would’ve been easy to say “my grandma’s from there”, but I dunno, part of me didn’t feel like that was a good enough excuse to admit I’d watched war documentaries. Guess I felt....guilty, so I hid it.

And then.....I stopped.

I got into new interests. It happens. I couldn’t stay fixated forever. The fact that it was a short Kirby’s Return To Dreamland phase, and then Total Drama of all things happening, that led me away is kinda funny to think about......but, eh, with how problematic my old fandom....could PROBABLY be viewed as, I guess I’m happy I avoided having a Tumblr while I was an active fan? Again, it was probably the best fandom I’d ever been in, but.....y’know, with time, things could’ve gotten uglier if I was actively gushing over it, so it kinda does feel like I dodged a bullet. I could easily see myself pissing off a hatedom.

But.....here I am again. I came back. Not to the fandom as a whole, but just feeling nostalgic and looking back at old stuff. And lo and behold, I remembered my old project eventually. I kinda felt bad that I stopped for dumb reasons, but then again, I started for dumb reasons too......

I still remember the alphabet, and a few words. Part of me still wants to learn how to speak in...even small sentences at one point. Not enough to wanna take lessons, but...step-by-step by myself. It’s a “what if” situation. Maybe I never will be able to speak it, but one can dream.

So....yup, that’s what I’ve been up to this past month or so. I’m not watching war documentaries this time, thank god (seriously, 21-year-old me went to the darkest places first, huh >__> Dang history fixation), but I’ve been looking up videos on several locations in Croatia, for one. Gorgeous place. If I could, I’d try to go there, but social anxiety makes it REALLY HARD to bring it up to my family, especially when I’ve NEVER brought it up before. But even in videos, I am immersed when I look at it. It’s my dream vacation (well, one of them). Split is one of the prettiest places I’ve seen in my life. Which, again, I did NOT expect. I’ve heard multiple people talk about the prettiest countries in the world, but did anyone mention Croatia? Nooooo! But it’s a very touristy country for Europe, it’s just that Americans don’t talk about it. Hmph! >__> Not only that, but.....Croatian music. SO much music. SO MUCH. I’m mainly using music as a way to learn new words, and....I got hooked. It’s REALLY WEIRD to say that the music I’ve been listening to has been one-third Eurovision, one-third K-pop, and one-third random Croatian songs from playlists I found on YouTube.

It’s been....a LOTTA Eurodance, actually. I didn’t search for any specific genre of music, I just looked up “hrvatske pjesme”, found a playlist, and it was mostly Eurodance, which I did NOT expect! From the kinda songs Croatia sent to Eurovision, I didn’t really associate them with dance music, but....turns out, they’re REALLY GOOD at dance music? Who would’a guessed.....Seriously, I’m tempted to queue up some of the best songs I’ve been listening to to prove this. I might still do that....

(This doesn’t mean I’m gonna be developing a bias when it comes to Eurovision, tho. I’m still unbiased at heart =P I’ll be happy to have a good song, but if it’s mid, I’ll still say it’s mid. If anything, I might be HARSHER since I know how good their music can be now. And I’m not gonna hold back if 2022 happens again, Hrvatska. Oprostite. =P)

(D-don’t get me wrong, I’m not MAD that they don’t send the stuff I’ve been listening to to Eurovision, cuz.....well, it’s junk food. It’s not for everyone, especially here in the 2020s. XD Going the Balkan route makes more sense. Even this year, when they were taking the piss...still, that song was clever and had a message, which is more substance than Eurodance has, pfffff)

To think that this was all sparked by a fandom....that THAT’S what it took for me to fixate on learning this part of myself. But it’s true. It’s....e-embarrassing, yes. And it really only is one quarter of myself. I really could’ve went the rest of my life without doing any of this. But....my brain works in weird ways. And my interests can be super unpredictable. That’s a fandom that, again, I might talk about another time, but.....it really is super important to me for multiple reasons, and this is one of them - leading me to learning about my grandma’s country and its culture and history.

Why am I sharing all this? Cuz.....for one, I might be following this up with sharing Croatian songs on here in the future, or referencing E.T (Electro Team) or Colonia next Eurovision season, or even something else might pop up. It might seem super random, cuz, again, I’m American.....so I wanna explain where it came from. And also, cuz this started before I joined Tumblr, I...never got to talk about this weird interest of mine before. So...it feels good to finally get it out.

Again, it’s only a quarter of myself, but it’s something that makes me unique, and I’m still happy discovering it.

[g0nta-g0kuhara]

@fenyaee Oh definitely. I feel like even more than the electrohammers, the electrobomb would be essential if you wanted to communicate anything about the ch6 reveal with the characters without putting a major target on your back.

@changeling-droneco I didn't even remember the antidotes!! Stocking up on those throughout the first few days of ch5 would be an essential back up plan, I think, if it got to the point that Maki got past you. Breaking the "everything's connected!" flashback light MIGHT help stop maki from making her move, but also without it, I'm worried the rest might all commit suicide together like how they almost did...

I think trying to talk down Kokichi is a lost cause, if anything because he's Kokichi and I don't know how anyone would be able to fully predict how he'd react to anything you'd do. Even if you used the electrobomb and fully laid out the truth of the killing game, would he believe you? Would he change his plan at that point, after being committed enough to die for it?

I think better than just giving him (or anyone else) the answer to ch6, the best bet might be to tell them where to investigate so they can find those conclusions themselves. The hidden door in the 1st floor girl's bathroom leading to the mastermind's room (which also directly implicates tsumugi in rantaro's murder) and the flashback light programming panel in the classroom on the second floor would be the most important two, I think. With that, you can bring down the killing game through the same means at ch6, just at an earlier time.

@ace-disaster-weeb I see your point but I have two main counter arguments:

I'm not sure the ch1 time limit would have actually amounted to anything. It's hard to say, but considering the specific wording of "everyone forced to participate in this killing game will die!" and the reveal that everyone joined the killing game willingly in ch6, to me this motive seems like a major bluff on Tsumugi's part. No one was actually forced to join! On the other hand, I'm not really sure what they would've done if no one had died before the time limit.

Are we sure killing Tsumugi would have actually ended the killing game? Tsumugi wasn't working alone, she had a whole team behind her. Even if they killed her, couldn't they just continue to lay out her plot, push the angle that even with the mastermind dead and gone, since the earth was destroyed centuries ago it never even mattered -> despair?

Also, I actually think if you have the knowledge of all games, DR2 might be the easiest to stop with the least amount of casualties. THH is rough, because knowing the identity of the mastermind really doesn't help you stop the game. Trial 6 is absolutely essential to all of them escaping. I guess if they broke down the mastermind's room and ganged up on Junko maybe?

(Excuse me if this is off, it's been almost a year since Ive revisted sdr2) But if you can convince pre-monokuma Usami that something terrible is going to happen and to initiate the graduation protocol, or unlock the door with 11037 to that final trial ground and get everyone to override the graduation protocol, you might be able to get everyone out before anything's even started. But that fully depends on Usami and Chiaki, so I'm not really sure

Recently been filling time by trying to think what the best possible course of action would be to prevent Kaito and Kokichi's deaths if I was plopped into v3 right at the beginning of chapter 5

[philossworld]

Its funny in my life right now. Its December 13th, 2022. Og jeg er i københavn, Danmark. Revisting a place that I feel like has changed my life. Years ago I came here and fell in love with a girl that I met on the internet. Long story short I got my heart broke and couldn't take our break up for years lol. It hurt a lot and that break up changed me a bit too. It caused me stop smoking weed and getting "fvcked up" entirely, substance wise at least. It made me a bit salty towards somethings. I didnt want to look at people who were in relationships. It made me crave the want or need for a relationship, I was at a point where I wanted to kiss, have sex, or get in a relationship with any girl who would give me the time of day. I feel like at that point is where I recgonized I had bad tendencies and sort of "Lack of potential" desires. I was in bad shape, and still am. But now, it is a little better I feel. I sort of recgonize that I was hurt. And that hurt made me mad and sad. It was when I got hurt I tried to hide the pain with some connection that would give me a similar thrill to the love i once felt. Its why I started getting into vampires, I thought I felt like them lol. But as time went on, days would pass, and just a little bit each day I would admit I actually feel like shit, and whatever I was doing to stimulate that "previous love feeling" I had was just a trend, or a phase. I was chasing, chasing an idea, a want, a desire. I lusted for love. With people, activites, lifestyles. But. Little by little, each day. I would feel in my body, my heart, this isn't really what i want. That little feeling that told me this isnt what u want was important I feel. Little by little each day, I held on to that just a bit. Because i felt like it was the truth. And I believed in happy endings. I believed that things get better if u put in the effort and time. I believed in hope. Me holding on to the thought telling me "this isn't what u really want" was hope. I watched movies, listned too music, and listned to peoples stories to see how life happened for them. Some stories were bad. Some stories were stale. Some were triumphabt. Some wholesome and hearty. Some were romantic. And some were hopeful. I held on to the romantic, triumphant, and hopeful ones. Because thats what i wanted for my life. When I saw these stories and hear how there lives ended up, I said thats how i would like my life. Watching forest gump, The anime movie "Ninja Scroll" and "Wicked City" and many more. I saw the life i relate to and how they dealt with it, and it was inspiring. Obviously I know I am not a movie character or anything but damn did I relate to these stories. Anyway. Keeping my heart, body, and mind open to a possible hopeful outcome to my dreadful situation is what has brought me to my current spot/journey of getting out of that dreadful and lonely spot in life. Its taken years but everyday I feel i am getting closer to getting out. Damn near I say I am out now, but i still do some of the bad, same things i was doing before. I dont expect to just be perfect and not ever feel bad anymore, but 🤷🏾‍♂️.... hahah i might try at least. So. the point of this message is to not give up. Dont give up man. ❤️❤️❤️ Life can be pretty rough but got damn is it worth it when life is going right. Thats what u should fight for. ❤️ There are a lot of good things in life and its hard to stay with those good things but, its worth it. Dont give up my friend ❤️ 💪🏾 Everything u do is worth it and a step in the right direction.

[drakenology]

“what that mouth do?” - w/ random haikyuu boys. because I dont know all the team names yet.

ft. bokuto, aakashi, kageyama & asahi

🎵 inspo song 🎵

warnings: oral sex (fem!receiving), cussin’, d+ddy kink, exhibitionism?, slight overstim, spit (yall know me), use of kitten in asahi’s sowwy, dash of somnophilia, a pinch of “cunt”

bokuto (mine)

i feel like bokuto would be the type to just get straight to it.

and believe you me he is a messy eater.

the whole room would be filled with sounds of him slurping and sucking all over your pussy

loves eating it from the back to prep you for the brutally beautiful backshots he’s about to bestow upon you.

also just loves your ass in his face.

fingers you and eats you out at the same time. (demon)

will tongue kiss you when he’s done to make you taste yourself.

talks about eating pussy to his teammates alll day. (much to their dismay)

he just loves eating pussy.

pussy eating experience: 10/10.

bokuto laid on the bed like a sniper with his sights on his target between your legs, hands resting on both thighs to keep you nice and spread for him. his tongue glides over your plush folds, poking and prodding at your entrance as his pretty eyes lock onto your face.

fuck, you were so beautiful like this; face scrunching up with every swipe of his tongue. you whimper as his fingers dive deep into your dripping sex, slurping noises ringing in your ears as he took your clit between his soft lips. you were blinded by pleasure, incoherent sentences flowing out of your lips of how good he was eating you right now.

bokuto nods, a cheeky “mhm.” sending you into a daze. your legs quiver and vibrate around poor bokuto’s head as you cum violently on his tongue. Even as your thighs are squeezing him to death he’s still licking you, riding you through your high and straight to yet another. Your back arched, your fingers entrapping into bokuto’s hair as you try and escape his killer grip on your hips.  “fuuuck, baby!” you cry, sobbing at the assault on your oh-so-sensitive pussy. bokuto can’t get enough of seeing you this way; begging and crying for him to stop. part of him loves your desperate pleas, relishing in every little jumbled swear you let out. 

aakashi (also mine)

another one who devours the pussy.

absolutely insatiable

will eat you anywhere... like anywhere

and will go all out on purpose so others could potentially hear you moan for him eek!

likes to 69 so your pretty mouth pleases him while he pleases you

high-key likes it when you get so tongue dumb that you can’t even focus on sucking his dick. 

loves to praise you; could literally write an essay about how good your pussy tastes

he’s just a damn demon ok?

you’re out trying on cute little dresses for aakashi; short ones to tease him when you go out. you smirk as you watch his face flush, loving the way he looked at you with such hunger. your panties soak at the thought of what he was going to do to you when you got home; what he might do when he sees you all dressed up pretty and ready to go out with your friends.

as you go to change out of the dress you tried on to put your clothes back on, aakashi rushes into the dressing room and pushed you inside. he doesn’t say a word, his feral eyes speaking every filthy desire for him. he kissed you, so hard you both stumble into the wall. clothes molted off your bodies quickly, aakashi lightly pushing you down onto the bench following you down. in an instant you spread your legs for him, panties wearing a wet spot as aakashi moans at the sight.

his lips are on you before you can even speak, a long, sloww drag of his tongue over your panties turning your thoughts to mush. aakashi rests your legs onto his shoulders as he kneeled in front of you as if eating you was a privilege. slowly he peeled your panties off to the side, looking up at you with those fucking eyes of his. he leaves these sloppy kisses all over your sopping wet pussy that were so intoxicating that you completely forget you’re in public with all the noise you start to make.

your slick mixed with his spit dripped down your ass and all over the bench as aakashi traced circles on your clit, leaving only to dip his tongue inside to really taste you. your breathing seemed to stop as you hold back your whimpers, catching your lip between your teeth as he pushed you down to your end. “yess. you taste so good, love. give me more.”

Kageyama (psh.. buckle up)

closet freak

mr. tobio likes to tease a lot

loves when you beg for him

in fact it’s mandatory that you beg for him

will not stop until you cum at least twice and even then you’re pulling him off you

leaves little hickies on your thighs as a reminder of how good he makes you feel everytime he revists your pussy.

Kageyama comes home late at night; a celebration of another successful game still lingering on his breath (probably from drinking all night). He stumbles inside, eager to claim his prize. Tobio shuffled into the bedroom you share to see you sleeping soundly, stomach flat on the bed and your perfect ass sitting right up as if to greet him.

He practically drools seeing you like that all but fully clothed, the only thing covering your body was one of his jerseys. You looked good enough to eat. Kageyama crawls on top of your sleeping body, trying to nudge you awake all to no avail as you snore away completely unaware of the savage beast leaning over you. He starts kissing your body, whispering your name to stir you awake as he trailed down to your ass giving it the biggest kiss so far.

“wakey wakey...” he whispers, snapping the waistband of your panties with his thumb, taking two loving fingers to prod at your clothed cunt. you stir, moaning as he moved you to lay completely flat on the bed. “there she is..” he smiles, looking at your half sleeping face. “T-Tobii. What time is it?” You whine, reaching for your phone only for him to pull you to the edge of the bed. “Doesn’t matter. Bend over.” Tobio groaned, drinking in your body as he prompts you to lay down with your ass up. You bite your lip, doing as your told.

“You’re in a good mood. You guys won?” You ask, eyes closed as he kissed your thighs, licking just below your now aching pussy. He was so needy for you, words only slowing the process of him getting what he wants. He doesn’t even answer your question, only thing he used his mouth for was to devour the woman who lay bent over for him.

Kageyama pulled your panties down about half way, just to get to your cunt as quickly as humanly possible. He prods at your folds, taking in the taste of your sweet juices as he moaned into you. You shudder, leaning into the bed to muffle your noise.

His hands explored your lower half, focusing on grabbing your ass and caressing your thighs then refocusing his attention on sticking his tongue deep inside you; just drunk on your body. You’re quickly reduced to a moaning mess, the massaging of his big hands along with the intense make out session on your pussy was just doing it for you. Tobio lost all composure.

Your pussy was quite possibly the best thing that had ever happened to him or maybe that’s just how it felt. Not a single spot of you wasn’t touched, filthy sounds of him tonguing you down caused you to utter filither things back.

“Tobiii!” You sob into the pillow, almost completely sure you’re crying. You start shaking, arching your back to get him to go deeper somehow, telling him you’re soo fucking close. Keep going, don’t stop, you urge him. He obliged happily, suckling on your clit and sinking his slender fingers inside you in such a way that caused you to boil over as fast as you could dig your nails into the sheets. You feel your slick drip down your leg, Kageyama pulling away from your leaking pussy to lick up your thighs not wanting a drop to go to waste.

fuck.. i’m hot.. i’m hot.

Asahi

huge slut for foreplay, he just wants to make you feel good

eating you out is now second nature to him

it’s kinda scary how quickly he’s learned your body; what to do and what not to do

ways to get the faucet running smoothly, ya know?

loves when you pull his hair, it’s like a sign he’s got you going crazy for him.

probably the one to stop eating you to get his dick in there, soooo needy.

Something about seeing you in a skirt just makes Asahi want to tear you apart. So when he comes home to you getting dressed to go out with your girlfriends he froze. Not only did you wear a skirt but you also had the nerve to put on some thigh high socks with it. Wherever you were going didn’t matter anymore. All that mattered was getting his face in between those thigh highs.

Asahi takes you by the hand and pulled you away from the bathroom sink, kissing you with sheer lust and passion. Even though your friends were blowing up, call after call falling on deaf ears you didn’t fucking care. You kissing your boyfriend became the only thing that seemed right. Fuck going out to be honest. Asahi whisked you away to the bedroom, laying you carefully over the bed. He crawled on top of you with this starved look on his face, as if he’d never taste you again.

“A-Asahi, I’m gonna be late.” You say, being completely ignored by Asahi. Whatever it was you said though didn’t matter, his hands running up your thighs and lifting up your skirt. You’re flushed, looking down at him as he pulled your panties off in one fell swoop.

“This will be quick, promise. I just have to have you, kitten.” Asahi chokes out, eyeing your pussy. He was usually the calm one; the one who brought you to beg for him but now he’s practically aching to taste you. And so he does, diving deep into your pussy with his tongue. Any rationality left your thinking, the sensation the only thing making sense to you right now.

Asahi now has your thighs pressed into your chest, spread just enough to lick your sweet cunt. Your knees cover half your face as you practically drool on them, his mouth working it’s magic all over your most sensitive spots. He takes his thick fingers and slides them inside with easy feat (its the wap for him.), causing your thighs to quiver. Your eyes roll back as you try holding your legs open for him, thighs quivering as Asahi makes it harder to do so.

“fuuuck, asahii!” you mewl, eyes crossing at every stroke of his tongue; every pump of his fingers. Asahi swore and pulled away, sloppily kissing you with his wet lips.

“I lied. I won’t be quick.”

[jackwolfes]

will we be seeing more sub alex one day? no hurry please write whatever makes you the happiest but your fics are my favorite so i wanted to check and see 👉🏼👈🏼

alright this is a much longer answer than i think you were expecting, buckle up + i am sorry 😂 and also thank you im glad you like them it's very sweet of you 🥺

so the thing isn't that i'm no longer into rwrb or firstprince, it's just that i have so many ideas so quickly that are, given what im currently writing, in different fandoms. HOWEVER i have looooooads of like, draft fics for FP that.... might see the light of day? or will hopefully see the light of day! i havent revisted them lately and i think a big long break writing other things was what i needed, so may well go back to them now, especially if there are certain ones folks are interested in 👀 theyre not all sub alex and most of them are actually not nsfw! but i also dont write dom alex so any nsfw firstprince fic is... gonna be sub alex 😂

tl;dr bc that got wordy: i dont have any imminent fics to give you a concrete "yes and here's when they'll appear" HOWEVER i can definitely say the answer isn't no!

i will drop all the different working docs/premises/drafts under the cut for anyone who's interested in seeing what might be coming up (pls do ask about them if youre curious, discussing fics helps me get excited to finish them!!!!)

almost done/being worked on fairly consistently:

'won't lose you' (alex gets kidnapped/held hostage fic - keep wanting to finish this but it gets pushed down behind wesper things bc i have so many wesper things to write)

'discreet packaging' (smut adjacent fluff/comedy, i'll let you imagine what this is 😂)

not quite done but with a fair amount already written:

prequel to 'buzzing' (yay sub alex)

'glass' (not explicitly sub alex but there's no plot, just sex)

'im in the stars tonight' (drunk pez & alex shenanigans)

'testing testing 123' (what is effectively a psa about safe sex and getting tested, might get written for HIV awareness day bc i love a theme)

OC cafe banter (probably will just appear on tumblr one day)

'soft for you' (more smut adjacent comedy/fluff)

'follow my lead' (strictly come dancing au except im also writing a wesper strictly come dancing au that will come first i think? who knows. also fun fact: this is a CMQ crossover! so jane and august are in it)

body swapping (magical realism where they swap bodies which is so FUN but i also do not have the brain space to finish it properly so it just exists in a limbo)

'the clock is ticking' aka the sequel to do you want to play a game (yes THIS FIC! THIS FIC! IT'S THIS FIC I WILL FINISH IT ONE DAY BUT I ALSO HATE WHAT I'VE WRITTEN SO FAR AND IT MAKES IT VERY HARD TO ACTUALLY DO IT. like i will finish it because i want to finish it but i wont until im happy with it which is going to be a lot of brain space)

ideas floating about in my brain with nothing else whatsoever:

follow on to god bless the nhs that i want to write to cope with my GFs broken bone (she is fine)

royal wedding fic that i was going to write but then shit with harry and meghan broke bad and i was like, fuck at least this fic would have been accurate but i need to rework this now

a few long form norabug things that i do want to write but again, all the long fics in my head right now are a completely different fandom and vibe so... who knows one day

[bookwyrminspiration]

ngl, I feel like Shannon might be hinting at Tiana

that's possible. Outside of the main love triangle has been kinda left to it's own devices aside from occasional hints as to others' crushes on each other. Like Jensi likely having a crush on Biana around Exil-Everblaze (I think that's the correct time frame) and Biana having a crush on a Keefe for a while (starting before the series up until part way through).

Based on my memory of the last few books of the series (just started my reread of Legacy today, so my memory is in the process of being refreshed) there's also hints of Dexiana, but I don't think Tiana is off the table.

Shannon has said that when it comes to the characters' feelings, she doesn't decide that and instead lets it do it's own thing, so I don't know if we're going to get a decisive "this is who Biana wants to date!" because she's also still figuring it out. But I'm getting off topic.

when it comes to Tiana, there have been a few vague mentions in the past that could attribute to a future together. i think the most obvious one was in Lodestar when Linh shared with everyone that Tam likes brunettes, and at the time of saying that the only brunette girl in their group was Biana. I don't know if you count Stina now, but now she's kinda part of the group.

There's also how Biana got embarrassed when Fitz brought up how she was looking forward to seeing Tam, after which she brings up crushes. So given how obvious Shannon is with body language in her books (well, it's a thing basically all writers do so) that's a fairly strong point in favor of Tiana as the series comes to a close.

Outside of the telling interactions, though, there's also the fact that they seem to get along well and have spent time together and gotten to know each other. For example, Biana and Tam working together to figure out how the Neverseen got into the Silver Tower in Lodestar. Those interactions afterwards as they explain don't seem flirty, but more like they're being friends and boosting each other. Similar situation when Biana altered the portraits Tam mother did of him and his sister to make them more accurate. It's not necessarily because she's crushing on him, but instead because she understands him and doesn't like seeing him so misrepresented, so unknown by his parents. So she takes that little stand in defense of him.

So if their relationship comes to fruition, it would be built not on anything immediate or uncertain, but on a solid friendship and companionship they've developed over the time they've noticed each other.

So! I don't think Tiana is impossible or that it would come completely out of nowhere should it happen, just that it isn't a done deal yet, if that makes sense. The groundwork has/is being laid, but whether it's followed through on isn't certain. I'm not convinced that Dex is completely out of the picture when it comes to Biana's love life.

and like I said I still need to reread Legacy and Unlocked, so there may be information in there I'm not recalling that would add to this investigation into Biana's love life, so perhaps I can revist this in a few days and see if there's anything additional to be said

but I agree! I think there are plenty of hints towards Tiana, we'll just have to see what actually happens