#I might have missed some songs that match them tbh

[mintandcreme]

These are GFriend songs that give me the same vibes as Twinkling Watermelon Characters/Ships (by the way, GFriend is my favorite group 😭)

Twinkling Watermelon as a whole: The Beginning of Love, Emotional Days, Labyrinth, Crossroads, My Buddy, From Me, Eye of the Storm, Three of Cups, Night Drive, A Starry Sky, Here We Are Ha Yichan: Life is a Party, Stairs in the North

Yoon Cheongah: Glassbead, Crush

Cheongchan: You are my Star, Dreamcatcher, Neverland, White, Mermaid, Sweety, Love oh Love, Sunshine

Ha Eungyeol: Gone With the Wind, Memoria

On Eunyoo: Room of Mirrors, Contrail Euneun: You Are Not Alone, Someday, Fall in Love, Rain in the Springtime, Summer Rain, Falling Asleep Again, Beautiful, Tarot Cards

[heartshapedbubble]

HELLO EVERFYNYAN

can i request ganji and aesop with a modern s/o hcs who listens to lofi and/or rnb to help them unwind after a match? just like helps their mind and body slow down after such a high-stress and high-tension situation..

HARROOOO ^_^ of course!!!!!

ganji gupta and aesop carl with an s/o who listens to rnb/lofi hcs🏏⚰️

ganji gupta🏏

ganji is not someone who's ultra picky about music tbh

like, if something is new to him he might be confused or intrigued at first, but he comes to terms with it quite quickly

when it's you who's relaxing after a match, then he always tags along😭 just spawns in your room and plops down on the bed by your side, inching closer to you and fulfilling his duty of The Big Spoon™

he doesn't even notice when you turn on the music tbh??? like he's so accustomed to the already relaxing atmosphere of your room that the noise just blends in

the fact that he's half asleep from the second he lays near you really doesn't help it

you'll have to point it out to him.... he's a bit eepy but he will comment on the music, saying it's quite good

he likes old rnb the most! he really, really likes the gospel/soul roots it has. something leaning towards jazz, like sade, might really suit him

not a music nerd as expected so if you go on and show him some streams/playlist he won't say much other than "mhm/nice/yeah?/that's neat" etc. but he still enjoys the quality time

+ and the fact that you're showing him something you're passionate about :)))))))) he's always willing to learn even if he doesn't have much knowledge on music in the first place

for him, as long as it sounds pleasant to his ears, it's good music

aesop carl⚰️

aesop, on the other hand, is VERY picky

he doesn't listen to music much but when he does, everything has to be perfect. noise cancelling headphones? on. equalizer? adjusted to a T. volume? not too loud, but not too quiet either.

in conclusion he's not a fan of anything loud lol. i do think that, out of music, he would really like classical music (i'd say like...romanticism or classicism? maybe add a few modern composers into the mix) and goth music (bauhaus enjoyer aesop real don't @ me) .... you can't really miss with good old dvořak and goth music, on the other hand, is quite calming to him, he really enjoys the vocals and the lyricism

so he'll come into your room, finally finding enough strength to tag along with you after a match, and actually be pleasantly suprised!

might not fit his style or his usual repertoire, but he has to admit it's quite calming

and it does put him at ease of some kind... i mean, it can't be bad if it's not extremely loud, right?

i think he might like reading with lo-fi in the background cccc:

when he's not using his trusty headphones he prefers analog music... poor aesop will go and ask you if there's any purchaseable lo-fi vinyls out there lol

he'd be very interested in exchanging music recommendations w/ you!!! link him some of your favourite songs and he'll hand you some of his favourite vinyls/lps c:

[127lovegalaxyperson]

I AM STARTING AN WELCOME HOME THEORIES (YAY)

due to my hand cannot draw bc too painful, so I start some theories

well.........since I cannot get into the welcome home page(idk why),I got to the welcome home wiki and check sth

(I like MUSIC AND ARTS,so it might be related to them)

the reason why I do this is because of these

Warning:mostly about the relationship between Eddie and Frank but THIS IS JUST A THEORY OF MINE

IN ARTS

the welcome home character's favourite colours

Wally-red

Sally-orange

FRANK-YELLOW(I cannot find the colour )

Poppy-green

Howdy-teal(I cannot find the colour )

Barney-blue

EDDIE-PURPLE

Julie-pink

(I capitalize Eddie and Frank bc my theories related to them)

I suppose everyone (artists)may be familiar with this

This is a color wheel

if you guys notice Frank's and Eddie's fav colors

they are the opposite side of the wheel

this is called an opposite color (ig,my art teacher taught me but I forgot the name) ,meaning that they aren't meant to be tgt

For example:red is opposite to green and blue is opposite to orange(you can see it on the wheel)

so I have been thinking........Frank and Eddie aren't meant to be tgt but they do love each other (the giveaway is that Clown uses "Esperar pra Ver" by Evinha to describe the relationship between Frank and Eddie and in that time,LGBT was forbidden so they separated them in the workshops ,but Clown sometimes shows their relationship outside of the Welcome home page)

and if you look up the personalities of these two favourite colours:

Yellow was meant a joyful,*kind* and had a funny sense personalities

Purple was meant royalty, full of passion and imagination, great in art(creative),*but the personality is quite sensitive so it's quite hard to know their true personalities.*

the personalities in these colors that they liked were meant to be each other.

Eddie is a helpful, kind person (in yellow)and he is great in arts and crafts(this is in purple which some of them represented his personalities )

Frank always frowns but if someone becomes his frds(like Julie ),He showed them a warm,KIND and quite JOYFUL(in yellow) personalities(and you can say he HAS a funny sense for A PAIR OF SOCKS), just like the description in purple as well(meaning that he is quite sensitive to show his true personalities to anyone but his friends)

They packed up each other's missing personalities (For examples:Frank's sensitive personalities (no offense)matches the purple personalities which was the only thing Eddie didn't have,Eddie's ultimate kindness (I know Frank might have but not as much as eddie)matches the yellow personalities which Frank MIGHT not have that much)THEY ARE LITERALLY LIKE A PUZZLE WHICH IS A PERFECT FOT FOR EACH OTHER

Eddie and Frank cannot not be tgt in the Welcome Home cartoons (just like the opposites of yellow and purple) but they would always love each other as in a relationship(fixed each other's missing colour personalities ) and this might be a unfinished love story due to the cartoons actually showed their love for each other(not that obvious )but we all know that something might happened to Eddie in the next update,just continued to be the opposite sides for each other like yellow and purple.(Frank actually sang a song which is a metaphor of him being alone in the end,meaning that Eddie won't be with him anymore)

In music

I IMMEDIATELY PUT ALL MY LOVE ON THEM ONCE I KNEW THEY COULD PLAY DIFFERENT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS INSTEAD OF JUST RANDOMLY SAY THEY PLAYED PIANO,VIOLIN OR STH.

what the Welcome Home character's played

Wally-mostly none but he will play the drums just for fun

Sally-singer and a concert conductor

Frank-Bassoon

Poppy-vibraphone

Howdy-triangle

Barney-trumpet and trombone

Eddie-violin

Julie-saxophone

these aren't actually a great group of musical instruments when it comes to group tgt as an orchestra (tbh,I would wonder how Sally will do and conduct music with these instruments, I tried but failed) .For an example, in Eddie and Frank,they won't be a great duet between those two instruments (they might but when I tried to find ONLY those two tgt,I only found a few)

At first I didn't pay much attention of these,but I might have watched too much Game Theory during these time which made me think of sth--does this actually meant about their friendship at the end.(Eddie was underrated and ignored,almost being controlled by home if it wasn't for Frank's help while Barney bullies some of the cast in welcome home,Frank began to sent help by sending videos for us to know about what happened in it,Wally is already being controlled and maybe something will happened to Julie due to the next update was related to her) their relationship almost like the instruments they played now-- some of them were not always matched or played well tgt.Their great relationships they had is beginning to corrupted due to Wally was in 'the control of Home'(I thought about that),making me feel like they are not the same as the original ones in their cartoons

'BUT HEY!THAT'S JUST A THEORY! '

-Game Theory

who knows what might happened in welcome home in the future,this is just a theory of me,a person who only watches the homepage by watching others watching it,theorize it.But through the Welcome Home Wiki,I would never actually made these in the first place.By knowing what happened and the fun facts in it,not all of the people will actually ended up searching clues in the wiki lol

[xxnghtclls]

Permission Playlist!

So I‘ve tried to put together the songs which inspired me the most or that I remember vividly listening to, while writing chapters!

A lot of them just served to put me into a certain mood, so the lyrics don‘t necessarily match up, but the lyrics of most of the songs played a huge role. You might recognise some of them even 😋

Here’s the link: Permission Playlist

And if you haven‘t read Permission yet, here‘s Chapter 1.

Other than that, I want to give a little direction here, that you know which songs belong to which parts of the story, since sometimes they guided me for a whole chapter, sometimes a whole song for just a short moment! Sometimes the songs describe y/n’s point of view, but sometimes Sukuna’s too!

I’ve been writing Permission for over a year, so I probably won’t remember everything, but these were the most important ones I remember! I also tried to put them into order of when they fit into their moments or chapters:

(in-depth description (-ish) under the cut)

Song 1-15 (Wicked Games - Jenny Of Oldstones)

I listened to those songs mainly when I was planning the whole story. To give me moods, themes, emotions that I want to convey. I listened to the Game Of Thrones Soundtrack a lot in general, but those songs I listed in there were the ones who inspired me the most!

Fun fact here: Mado Kara Mieru from Christopher Tin was the one which gave me the most inspiration for how Sukuna’s melody would’ve sound like.

Song 16 (Serj Tankian - Rains of Castamere)

Basically my Soundtrack for Chapter 13 and especially the throne room scene, when the new girl arrives and Sukuna invites her in.

Song 17 - 21 (Obsessed - Entitled)

Those songs guided me from the moment when Sukuna saves y/n from the curses until the end of the camping arc. I don’t recall listening to music a lot during that time of writing, cause I acquired that skill only later 🌝

Honorable mentions here:

Zandros - Obsessed was for me the moment y/n sees Sukuna standing over her after killing the curses, seeing the snow flakes crash against his body. Idk this song carried the mood for me.

Adin - Somebody Else was one of the few songs that I connected with Sukuna’s pov.

Song 22 - 23 (Crash and Burn - Breathe)

Those songs described for me the moment when they return to the shrine and long for each other, before y/n gains the courage to knock on his door in chapter 24.

Song 24 Max Richter - On The Nature Of Daylight

I don’t remember clearly, but I think I listened to this to get in a sad mood to describe y/n’s pain when Sukuna left for war and she misses him dearly.

A good song in general to get a fucking sad mood tbh.

Song 25 - 27 (The Way - Violently)

Oh those were the songs I listened to when y/n follows him into the war. Chapter 29 & 30 all the way.

Zack Hemsey - The Way was perfect to listen to when she realises, she’s close to Sukuna and the war is starting. This remix with the sirens was perfect for me to visualise how she’s running over that battlefield, dodging the bombs, fighting her way through. It’s still such an epic scenery in my head which I hope I could convey!

Jayme Deville - Right on Time kinda gave me slow motion pictures in my head, for when Sukuna approaches her during battle.

Mira - Violently is such an incredible song for me. It describes her whole journey and emotions so so good. I listened to it when I wrote the kissing scene, but it grew to be a super important song for their whole relationship, that’s why I would choose it for a rolling credit song hehe.

Song 28 - 31 (The Shadows - Take Me Back To Eden)

Those were all the songs which inspired me for the Sex Scene when Sukuna returns from war in Chapter 32.

Honorable mention here:

Sleep Token - Take Me Back To Eden just IS the moment for me when y/n notices, that Sukuna stayed in her room and he opens his eyes to her.

The lyrics

My, my, those eyes like fire

I'm a winged insect, you're a funeral pyre

just describe the effect that Sukuna (and his gaze and eyes) have on y/n (and on me tbh) so perfectly, that I needed to add that to the rolling credit choice as well.

Song 32 - 33 (O Saki Saki - Lahu Munh Lag Gaya)

Heh! Chapter 33, the festival! I actually planned to have a dancing scene with y/n and other people from the festival, kinda Bollywood style, to impress our Lord and Saviour Sukuna! 😆

However, since that requires A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL of writing skill, I decided to leave it. The Songs still served me perfectly well to get in the mood for a cool ass festival atmosphere for a cool ass King!

Song 34 Clann - Her & the Sea

Chapter 35, when Sukuna and y/n talk on the bridge. Just that moment and atmosphere.

Song 35 - 36 (Timeout - You Thought)

Mood Songs for when y/n is gonna find out that Sukuna fucked around when he was in war. No particular moment here, but served me to get into her emotional state.

Song 37 - 41 (Ecstasy - Luscious)

Again mood songs for sex scenes after Sukuna’s confession in Chapter 36.

I think I listened to Ecstasy and All I Need by The MXXNLIGHT for the Throne Sex in Chapter 25 as well.

Song 42 Clann - She Loves The Rain

I think this one explains itself…Dancing in the rain with Sukuna in Chapter 44.

Song 43 - 44 (Fatal Attraction - Obsession)

Again mood songs for their overall relationship, that represent how knee deep y/n is in love with Sukuna.

Song 45 Mira - Thorns

Oh Mira, how I love her music. That song was published a few chapters before I was ready to write Akiko’s murder, but it described y/n’s reaction regarding Sukuna’s apathy so perfectly in Chapter 45. My heart ached so much when I listened to it the first time!

Fun fact here: The moment when Sukuna reveals that he was pushing the maids with motivation, was actually planned to be directly after Akiko’s death. I noticed in the early draft of that chapter, that it doesn’t work out and decided last minute to completely change that plan and to write that moment into the finale of the story.

Song 46 - 48 (Blood Code - Cold Blooded)

My soundtrack for y/n’s killing spree in Chapter 46 😆

Song 49 Zandros - Look What You’ve Done To Me

Mood Song for the aftermath of Sayako’s death and y/n’s feelings about coming a monster in Chapter 47

I think that‘s it. I hope you enjoy! <3

[yuseirra]

This isn't totally about 162 so I'll just post this without a read more:

Here I am trying to make sense out of things that don't~ it's times like this I realize I have a brain because I can feel it running frantically on its own in the background like CPU to form an analogy to make it all work together.

It's really confusing...tbh,

By the way, WHY did Kamiki acknowledge Ai was just your normal, ordinary girl if it were to come to this? It's what's helped me build my understanding around this guy, is that idea still relevant? About Kamiki still loving Ai even while seeing her as a person?

At this point, I won't be surprised if the author writes they changed what they originally planned bc they saw the reactions that insisted Kamiki should be a villain, because what's been going on totally contradicts what he's said back there. He DIDN'T have to say it, no one expected the character to make such a statement but he did, was there a point in that? That was the line he's made that sold me the idea that him and Ai could have really been a match as well as Ai's video.

Yeah, it's probably that Kamiki broke down after Ai passed? Because he couldn't bear her presence fading away year after year after her death, so he couldn't accept that and wanted to become closer to her somehow(through this bizzare reasoning he's formed)

So, this motive of his isn't about her popularity or how well she's known to the public, it's more about the way he "feels" about her. Because... Yeah, killing someone who surpasses Ai doesn't really automatically lead to her suddenly being acknowledged more by the public. It's really hard to form that sort of connection, wouldn't it?; and why do something like that during when Ai's still alive? It would have taken place after she's gone away.

Would it really be that he changed only because she left him? That wouldn't be it, could it?; she had his kids!! He could have gone and met them! The fact that she's alive and he could meet her would BE proving her presence and significance. So I do insist on the idea that Hikaru started growing the way he is after Ai's passing.

It does also align with the song's vibes on how he can't bear to live without her and would sacrifice anything, to fill in what's missing and all that. The song also states that he's accepted this sort of fate he is, and that he "wants to get closer to the only Ai"

So yes, it's determined that Fatal is really indeed his song.

In that case though, how DOES doing what he does make him grow closer to her?; Is there something that's made him convinced it'd actually prove to do so and an idea that has some sort of solid base or reality, or is it just him having a vague feeling of twisted closeness towards Ai? Goodness, what's gotten into him?

In an analysis I wrote sometime back, I wrote this must be the way he felt after Ai's death:

He hasn’t been able to move on at all. It’s like he was unable to take a single step forward from the moment Ai died. He’s probably been living with that kind of deep sorrow and despair, thinking he deserves to suffer as punishment, and he might have intentionally kept those feelings alive. That’s why I believe this character would’ve tried to undo the situation. To him, it’s as if time hasn’t passed at all… He just couldn’t accept Ai’s death, so he’d wish, even at the cost of anything, that it hadn’t happened, and maybe he wished he were dead instead of her. Without Ai, as the lyrics say in the song, he can't go on living. He doesn’t even want to live. If there had been any hope of saving her, I think he would’ve clung to it. If such a hope didn't exist, it would’ve been tough for him to hold on to these emotions for so long.

He really could not move on at all, huh...

But would he be worth sympathizing with or deserve some sort of pity if he only results to this... He's the one Ai loves and risked so much for, I really, really wanted that to be the case. Now I just don't know. Ai should smack him back to his senses if it is that he's lost it;

I really should give up on the idea that he wanted to bring Ai back to life at this point (even if that's what he wanted, I guess he's already crossed the line)

But why have lyrics like that in Mephisto, I wonder;; that song really ISN'T Aqua either. It's about wishing the dead back.

Hm.. It could be that he really did want her back but since that's what's impossible, he wanted to become like her by taking lives that he deems as valuable as Ai's and that really was all there is to it.

It'd be.. Sad if the guy Ai loved only amounts to this much though, I can sense his desperation and how significant Ai was to him, she really WAS his everything, but... That's not someone Ai should wish to save. He really should rot with all those lives he's taken(if he's ACTUALLY done so)so I wonder.

This turn of events would make sense and I'd have accepted it in one go if only 153-154 did not exist, so I really have to wonder what the author wants to do with that... Man, he seems too far gone repair,

REALLY!! Maybe he's really possessed and needs to undergo Misogi you know?? Sarutahiko is THE symbol of misogi.. Involves salt and water -_-)

Mephisto and Fatal really turned out to be his song!! I believe so? Because Aqua is not about wanting to meet someone beyond death again?? He's not all about I can't bear to live without you, what should I use to fill in what's missing?

So is this all there is to those songs? They seem too strong to be left at this. I feel it should be displayed in a more obvious and significant way within the story if it's tied this strongly. I'd do that if I were to be a comic writer because it'd be a perfect opportunity to bring a catharsis, but again, who knows? Mhm, I'll just stand back and read a few more chapters.

Seriously why introduce the idea that he was as far as being "noble"? There is no point in that if he results to someone that can kill their own child for some ridiculous reason. And some parts of the lyrics always stood out so much for me... Is it really natural for your average person to say things like embaracing destiny or fallen-ness, reincarnation, forgotten who I lived as, etc? Become someone else? I wonder if there is point to hope, but I do really want some explanations regarding why those whole had to be mentioned.

Will then, till next chapter drops!

[hayatoseyepatch]

hi pookie wookie ilysm 💅 congratz on the milestone you deserve it.

I AM HERE FOR A MATCH UP POOKIE no pressure tho

Im on anon but Im sure you can figure out who I am so it don't really matter but I gotta keep ya on ya toes 😤

Personality: You know me sooooo well tbh, Introverted as hell, I gotta a dog. I do art, and listen to music really. music is lifeee iykyk. I can yap a lot when Im finally comfy with people Im around. Im just a girl yk I get shy or whatvr.

Fandoms: jjk, l&ds, DS, and tokrev

Trope: childhood friends to lovers, and love are first sight are the two that I simple adore the most.

What’s your Type: someone who is a bit more out there than myself, but also shares the same interests as myself. I wanna be able to paint with them or even sharing playlists/song that remind me of my partner. Someone who could burn the world for me but is actually really sweet yk? like dress how you want I can fight.

Favorites: Megumi, Yuji, Yuta, Inumaki, Rafayel, Xavier, Shinazugawa brothers, tengen, Haitani brothers, Haruchiyo, Hanma

➼ Icks: FUCKING KISAKI DO NOT 🔫.

Hi there my pookie wookie bear ( ˶˘ ³˘(ˊᗜˋ)!♡ I know exactly who this is but I will let you keep your anonymity if that is what you desire my love. Thank you for the congratulations and for taking part in this event I adore you! That being said, let's do the damn thing!

First I match you with Rafayel from Love & Deepspace!

⤜♡→ Rafayel is so dramatic, you better be able to deal with his sass. He’s such a grump. But only because of how dearly he loves you. He has waited for you time and time again and he will stop at nothing to make you fall for him over and over again. Even if its through hearing your laughter at his dramatics.

⤜♡→ You have a dog? Yeah, Rafayel is jealous of the baby doggie. If he feels you are giving more of your attention to your pet he throws himself on the bed next to you, huffing dramatically until your focus was on him. “Oh no don’t mind me I’m just over here dying from the lack of love and affection. Please go back to what you were doing, I’m not a good boy or anything.” He huffs, his cheeks puffed out in a pout. Yeah, he’s so dramatic its insane.

⤜♡→ This man is so devoted to you, he will never miss an opportunity to spend time with you. Despite the way he behaves he is very emotionally intelligent. Rafayel is very in tune with your emotions, he always seems to know when you're not feeling your best. And he is fully prepared to do whatever he can t see you smile again. (Or handle anyone who dared make you feel lesser than.)

⤜♡→ His love languages definitely strikes me as quality time and physical touch. Rafayel needs to have his hands on you at all times. Not even remotely in a sexual way. He is perfectly content so long as he can feel your hand in his, kissing the backs of your knuckles occasionally. Or even listening to the music you had curated for him in a playlist as you both painted in his studio. He just wanted to be around you at all times, so long as he was in your proximity he was happy.

Rafayel snorted as you bustled around his studio, setting up for some trend you had seen online. Rafael loved that you shared his love for art, nothing made him happier than sharing his passion with the woman he was most passionate about. He followed your instructions, sitting down at the table across from you. You explained the premise of the activity. You both would start with a canvas, swapping in intervals of five minutes to add elements to each piece. By the end of it you would have two pieces of collaborative art that you both created together. His heart soared at the idea. Knowing he would have two pieces of art you both created from start to finish together made him fall even more in love with you. He was already picturing the perfect sport for them in his gallery, he might even attend the next exhibition to boast about the pieces. But this was Rafayel it wouldn’t be him if he didn’t tease you just a bit. Resting his cheek in his palm as he looked at you from across the table.

“Five minutes? You can't put a timer on my artistic perfection, starfish.” He said dramatically, putting a hand to his chest to emphasize his words. “Oh?” He heard you coo. “Is that what you call it? Or are you scared my additions will be better than yours, hm?” He gasped, crossing his arms, furrowing his brows with a pout on his lips. He sucked his teeth, making a tsking sound. “What-ev-er.” He punctuated each syllable to add to his dramatics. Eyes now alight with determination, prepared to make these the best creations he had ever made, just to make you swallow your words. The next two hours were met with rounds of smack-talking exchanged through giggles and refusals to let Rafayel steal kisses (a clear ruse to let his eyes wander to what you were doing in that round).

When you were both done he had hung them to dry eyes wandering over the canvases. The knowledge that you had both made your contributions to each piece made this feel so intimate, so special. It made him feel so in love, so moved. Unable to help himself. He turned to you, his hand cupping the back of your neck. Lips hovering over your own. “I love you, my beloved bride.” The age-old nickname fell from his lips before he could realize it, silencing any questions you could have about the meaning of his words by connecting his lips with yours. Rafayel has loved you countless times, in countless lifetimes, and over and over again he would make you his wife. And this one was no exception.

⤜♡→ Oh GOD Megumi just SCREAMS childhood best friends to lovers to me I’m so sorry! Like being like Shoko’s little sister, raised right beside Megumi within the walls of Jujutsu Tech. The two of you growing and training together. You definitely had a backyard wedding at like five and you bring it up all the time cause he gets so flustered. DHBSDICHF

⤜♡→ Please be patient with Megumi the poor boy is emotionally constipated and absolutely HOPELESS. He tries so hard to keep it from seeming like he cares, but he is so in love with you its actually insane. He would risk his life time and time again just if it meant you’d be safe.

⤜♡→ Megumi gets JEALOUS he pretends like he couldn’t care less but hearing you speak with Inumaki, fully fluent in his ingredient speech, just know he is seething. He knows you can be a bit reserved at first but seeing you talking so freely and laughing with him makes the ugly green monster rear his head. He’s gonna give you the silent treatment, he’s so dramatic in a relationship I just know it.

⤜♡→Formation B was definitely started by you and Gojo. A thousand percent it was. I feel like Gojo knew about your feelings before Megumi did, and oh boy did our favorite blue-eyed meddler try and fail so long to play match maker. (Def cried and was so dramatic about you two getting together, I love him sm).

Panic consumed Megumi’s entire being, Nue’s wings couldn’t carry you both fast enough back within the walls of Jujutsu Tech. It had all happened so fast. It was just supposed to be a grade two curse, something the both of you would be able to handle with your eyes closed. But a special grade had appeared out of nowhere, he watched helplessly as you were attacked. Tears stung his eyes as he landed, collecting you in his arms. “Don’t you dare close your eyes, stay with me.” He begs, rushing as fast as his feet would carry him to the hospital wing where Shoko was. He watched with bated breaths as you were taken from his arms. Neither of you capable of reversed cursed technique, this was bad. This was so very bad. Megumi wasn’t very forthcoming with his feelings, often hiding behind his stoic persona. He never told you he loved you, what if he lost you? What if you slipped from his fingers before he could tell you how he felt?

The next hours were torturous, he all but leaped from his seat as Shoko emerged. He heaved a sigh of relief to hear you were stable, that you had pulled through. He didn’t leave your side, ignoring Gojo and Itadori’s pleas with him to sleep in his own bed, to eat something. He couldn’t stomach the idea, couldn’t bring himself to leave your side. He was sat in a chair next to your bed eyes drooping as he struggled to stay awake. Though he felt like he was doused with ice-cold water as he heard you groan, your eyes finally fluttering open. His body moved quickly, scrambling to your form, careful not to harm any of your injuries. He was careful when he cupped your cheeks, tears falling once more as he called out your name in a mix of shock and relief, head coming to rest in your chest as he sobbed. He didn’t care, couldn’t be bothered to push his emotions down.

“Moonlight, almost made me a single dad, you ass”. He joked through sobs trying his damnedest to relieve some of the tension that filled the room like a heavy fog. You had always claimed that his divine dogs were your children, he’d give you the satisfaction elated to hear your voice once more. His ears perked up when you let out a soft laugh at his words, frowning seeing you wincing a bit as you spoke. “I could never leave you and our babies all alone it’ll take more than that to get rid of me.” Your words put him at ease more than you know, he couldn’t control himself any longer, however. He almost lost you, he couldn’t live another moment without letting you know how he felt. His lips met yours before you knew what was happening. His hand gently cupping the back of your neck as he deepened the embrace. He pulled from you, pressing his forehead against your own, eyes boring into your own.

“I love you, I love everything about you. I love your smile, I love your laugh, I love how you always know when I need you most, I love that you always know just what to say, I love your devotion, I love the way you're willing to lay your life on the line for your friends. I can't imagine another moment going by without telling you. I spent so long keeping it to myself but I will use the last breath in my lungs to tell you how much I love you. Its always only ever been you, so please don’t leave me. I cant bear to live in a world that your aren’t in.” He huffs his heart sinking when he hears your laughter, bracing himself for rejection. “I love you too silly Gumi-Bear. Took you long enough, I thought I was going to have to do it for you.” In that moment he couldn’t help but join in on your laughter heart soaring at finally being able to call you his.

[millepara]

himitsu no aipri episode 1 (a week late)

it's been so long since I've written about a priseries (or any other idol) show... I'm realizing that I legit didn't think I'd ever get the chance again. I got tired of doing it before because I felt like I was either complaining too much (planet) or just happy abt everything that was happening (primagi) and thus had nothing interesting to say either way, but ever since watching aipri on sunday I've been looking forward to this... I think I'm just happy about new idol anime content after such a long drought tbh but it's something good that aipri has already brought us, no matter what you or I think of anything else about it.

I missed the first 5 minutes bc I was reading bad fanfiction in bed to wake up (nigh daily routine) and totally forgot abt aipri... then I did remember and had to sprint to my computer, but the stream kept stopping so I missed some critical stuff throughout. I liked the ep okay, but maybe actually seeing all of it will improve it?

ohhh ok it starts off with those cute lemon coords in the op. actually this does help, those coords are easily my favs that I've seen in aipri so far. esp Mitsuki's blue one is sooo cute... I am saying this as a person that buys every single blue gingham item of clothing I come across though haha. I will say that the coord & dance totally don't match the sort of sweeping fairytale (just mistyped that as dairytale. hm) majesty that the bgm and voiceover is going for, but...

oh, I didn't know that Mitsuki had a snippet of performance in here. I've seen it in gameplay videos already, I like it ok---wow, it's already over.

the way Mitsuki is pausing for her viewers to answer is just like shows for preschoolers... they're really going after that age group, huh. (do actual streamers do stuff like that....?)

oh, I already saw Himari get a call from her sister. looks like I only missed 1 minute.

that is the ugliest anime dog I've ever seen, hands down, but Hiiro is cute. I'm sure she's well on her way to being the Non or whoever the prichan little sister was of aipri, in terms of popularity.

I do think it is very, very interesting that in this pretty series anime which is aimed at perhaps the youngest audience yet, they have put the mc in a dorm, away from her family. weird. actually I am for the first time realizing exactly how many anime have schools with dorms. you'd think japan is overflowing w boarding schools but idk of a single one lmao...

Mitsuki: it sure was the right decision to move into the dorm!

Himari: (completely ignores her statement to bring up aipri)

Himari's look out of aipri is really cute, I've finally decided. it's a shame that her twintails as an aipri are such a weird shape??? why do they curve up on the outside like that, all I can see is a large intestine when I look at them...... :(

the first time I watched this my internet cut out just as Mitsuki's face was approaching Himari's. I knew what she was doing bc of the comic in the aipri fanbook, but still it was like, oh! looks like it's gonna be another totally straight pretty series show!

oh man, the op. the song itself is cute and catchy, but this vtuber's voice is just too much, and it gets more too much as the song goes on. I get the appeal of her being a "real-life aipri", and presumably she's popular so her fans might be drawn to watch, but I hope she doesn't sing the next op too..... oh you know what would be kind of cool is if every op was sung by a different vtuber. that way if one sucked we wouldn't have to hear them again, and they'd showcase a lot of different people.

Meganee is especially exceptionally cute in her op cameo!!!

oh. A Crush. let it be insignificant 🙏 but if they become idol princesses too I'll allow it.

I like Chii's voice a lot, and her passion regarding aipri, but on the list of things I'm finding myself saying "oh. shame :( " about is her unfortunate hairstyle. also speaking of things that remind me of other things, her name Chii Mamiya sounds like "chi mamire" (blood-soaked) or "chi mame" (blood blister). surely I am not the only Japanese understander who hears this.

Yusa Kouji-sensei has by far my fav character design in this show. he is officially my favorite aipri.

wow, it's the classic post-covid tv broadcast opening ceremony... a chillingly real element in this fantasy rich kid school. irl this is the first year since covid we've had in-person opening ceremonies in many schools, it's a shame they don't get to at paradise academy yet lmao

I'm not even going to touch this whole welcome speech. I'm just going to slowly back away and pretend like I didn't see anything.

I love the aikatsu-level background character design in this classroom!! bicolor twintails is cute.

I wonder if these elementary schoolers are relevant or are just there to show how many people are watching Himari.

lmao despite what I said about Chii I think we were sharing the same braincell when she said "Her Victoria levels are out of control!!" they totally are!!

am I misunderstanding this or did Victoria not ban aipri? didn't she say "in moderation" only...? this is literally the same kind of thing schools say irl abt cutting down on screen time. just more dramatic.

so the elementary kid is relevant. Yuma... will he be an aipri too? if not, why would he even exist?

I didn't catch the first time around that this bracelet was the one uh, Candy Motif was fiddling with in the student council meeting. where'd she get it from?

this is the least amount of love I've ever seen put into a commercial break eyecatch.

are the aimus... cute? I can't see it...

it's very funny that the lipstick immediately disappears when they go 3d. they knew it looks bad, and they've still gotta cram it in there for that single second to sell toys.

this cgi. I think everyone's said it so far, but it's really not the best... I think I might like the game's graphics a little better, even. I do like seeing the coords lit up at least.

P.O.P.P.Y is a cute enough song. it's just barely on the listenable side of the line for me, but I do think it's a great match for what aipri is going for. also that is definitely a dance that was made for preschoolers to imitate.

buzzalyume... idk if anyone is aware or not, but buzz is a word that's in really common use regarding social media in japan atm. like you would say "that's buzzing" (literally I mean, figuratively it's more like "that's all the buzz" like the english use of the word) about something that's all over your timeline or whatever. so it's not totally out of left field for them to choose that word in particular, but it doesn't mean that it sounds any less forced, that's for sure!!

Bear Bear Bear's voice is cute.

I don't like these emoji reactions all over the screen. not cute.

the ed is cute.

...finally, I watched it all. whew. I have to say, I was not wowed by it! but it was fine. it's far better than having no pretty series at all. I keep thinking "I'll put off my opinion till I know more about it" about aipri and I'm tempted to say it again now--in this episode we barely met the main two characters in favor of worldbuilding. it kind of makes sense as the first ep of a little kid show, but will the rest of the show stay at this same level of character depth? it's way too early to say. but for me, that's what'll determine how much I like it.

[eldritchsurveys]

1234.

How is your boyfriend/girlfriend doing?: .

Do you have anything to pay off?: >> Only informally (V fronted the cost of a limited-run hoodie for me and I've been paying them back little by little).

What are you wearing right now?: >> Grey lounge pants, lighter grey undershirt, Duff's hoodie (in August! unbelievable). What are you listening to?: .

Where did you first hear this song?: .

Are you the one that normally makes the first move?: >> I suppose that would depend.

Would you sacrifice yourself for a friend?: >> I can't imagine being in this sort of situation in the first place. I certainly don't consider myself very sacrificial by nature.

What's really annoying you right now?: .

What did you do today?: >> Woke up, took a walk even though I was still pretty tired (I think it helped, tbh), made oatmeal, did my various daily tasks on the internet, played Grim Dawn for like 5 straight hours (well, I did break for lunch).

Are you always in a hurry?: >> I am rarely in a hurry. I hate feeling rushed.

Do you drink/smoke?: >> I drink occasionally.

What's one horrible thing you do?: .

What do people label you as?: .

Do people see you as a preppy person?: >> If so, then they really do not know what the word means.

Whats your shoe size?: >> 8 or something.

Do you currently work?: >> I do not.

What do you miss the most?: .

Who do you know you can depend on?: .

Do you take any prescribed medication?: >> I take birth control.

Have you ever watched a needle go into your own skin?: >> I usually do, yeah.

Have you ever seen someone get a piercing/tattoo?: >> I have. Are you currently full or hungry?: >> Closer to full than hungry.

Has a taste of something ever made you smile?: >> Certainly.

When you're done eating finger foods, do you usually lick your fingers?: >> I do.

Who was the last person to hit you in the stomach?: >> I don't remember. It's been a long time since that happened, thankfully. Incidentally, that's one of the first sense memories I recall having -- being punched in the stomach by some kid at school. It's just such a strong, fucked-up sensation.

Would you ever snap you cell phone in half, if you could get a better one?: >> I think that only works with flip phones, which certainly dates this survey, lol. But either way I would not do that. Do you think twenty-two is old?: >> I do not.

As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?: .

Are you planning on going to college?: >> I will likely never do this.

Do you know someone that is/was abused by their parents?: >> Well, yeah.

Does your cell phone have a touch screen?: >> It does.

Do you like strawberry and banana smoothies?: >> I don't like banana, so no. Plain strawberry would be good. Would you cuss the person you hate the most out to their face?: .

Abortion: murder or it's fine?: >> It's fine to me. More than fine, even.

Do you know someone that is mute, deaf or blind?: >> I do not.

Have you ever spent more than two weeks in a wheel chair?: >> I have not.

When you cry, do you hyperventilate?: >> Sometimes, if it's a really intense cry.

Is tapioca pudding nasty to you?: >> It isn't, but it's not my favourite (that would be rice pudding).

Is pudding nasty period?: >> Not to me.

Is there a lot of drama in your life?: >> There is zero drama in my life.

Do you drink straight from the bottle, instead of getting a cup?: >> I do. I avoid giving myself dishes to wash at all costs.

Have you ever been in a taxi?: >> Quite a few times, yeah.

Do you listen to modern music or classic music?: >> Yes.

How many times have you had the hiccups today?: >> Zero. I rarely have the hiccups.

Does weed smell good? Or no?: >> Some weed smells fucking amazing to me -- anything with a citrus terpene, especially. I'm not crazy about skunky weeds like diesels. Fun fact, I think liking a strain's smell is a great indicator for whether you might like the strain's effects. It seems to match up perfectly for me. Where do you see your closest friend in ten years?: .

Pronunciation of your name, please?: >> /'moɾ:dɻɛd/. Wikipedia says /ˈmɔːrdrɛd/ but that just don't look like how I say it :V Then again, everyone mishears me when I say my name so maybe I need to relearn my phonics.

Are/were you loud in class?: >> I was not.

Do you cut out coupons but end up never using them?: >> I don't.

Name all the ways you can say 'goodbye': >> Goodbye, au revoir, slán, adios, panahedan (:p)...

[somewillwin]

Sorry I know this has nothing to do with art, which ur art is beautiful! I was just wondering if you had any facts about nico (your infamous oc) that you could share. I love their aesthetic. 👀

oof! do I have fact! ajsdjhdajh i think i made one of this a while ago but who cares i love nico.

-ok so first of all she's a mess. ajdkadj tho thats obvious.

-she uses glasses when she writes songs and contacts all the other times

-she has abandonment issues, I mean her parents where never there…. And then…. Seven. She basically thinks she’s the problem. I mean she’s the only constant in all the abandonment.

-she’s bisexual. Sometimes hides the seven tattoo with a bisexual flag wrist band

-she plays the piano, guitar, and had an harmonica phase hahahha

-she doesn’t think she’s as talented in those as Rowan or Iris. So she just uses them to help compose the melody of the songs.

-(this is a headcanon for now cause idk if it will come up in the book or not. I might change this later depending on what happens) she shut herself off from the band after what happened with the vote and the fallout with seven. She blamed them for a while, but then she went back to blaming herself.

-she started to fall into drugs in that period where she was shutting everyone out. That’s also when she shaved her head.

-she never dated after seven. Just flings and one night stands with men, cause she knows she will be comparing every women to seven.

-(this is another headcanon cause I don’t know if it will be addressed in the book) she hit rocked bottom from all the drugs and stuff. She OD once and got scared after so she got herself into rehab.

-I think there might have been a year she was clean, before the botb started and all the pressure kept mounting and she did a bit of cocaine in the bathroom before the audition.

-she misses Lucy everyday ofc. But she loves seven enough to respect her boundaries…. Even if it hurts her cause Lucy was also her mother figure. (I need to know Lucy POV of this whole issue with ex seven or im gonna die)

-she’s still madly in love with seven ofc. But she doesn’t think she’s good enough. I mean, if she wasn’t good enough then she’s def not good enough now.

-she blames herself for what happened between them…. Even if she doesn’t understand how it really happened. How did they get to that point.

-she regrets most of all losing her best friend tbh.

- she’s def jealous of avina…. But think they would make a good match. She just wants seven to be happy.

- she would fight for seven tho. Even if she’s not enough…. If seven shows even a silver lining of interest. She would fight everyone.

And lastly! No one figured out why she dyed her hair green hsjsjsjs so.

-green is her favorite color since it reminds her of seven’s eyes 💚

Oof! Those were a lot! A wip to add some art to the mess that it’s Nico.

Anyway! Play @infamous-if

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

I mean, given that P5D flopped and Atlus stopped making dancing games but kept/keeps on making P5 spinoffs I'm doubtful that Atlus would make tactics games whether P5T does good or bad (plus I feel like its every other time I hear about it I hear a persona fan mentioning they're not a fan of tactics games so it's def not just a thing on this blog)

Hahahaaaaaa......yeah............

Tbf I don't see a REASON for a dancing game atm. That's more of a game to celebrate the music (or throw it in the trash and set it on fire like P5D did, RIP to P5D you shouldn't have come out when you did)

Also tbf PQ2 didn't sell THAT much better (I think the sales were fairly within what Atlus is/was used to tho? only like 20000 less....then again that might've been OLD data I was looking at). And there hasn't been a Q game since....but tbf Atlus isn't popping them out AS FAST as when they were having their P4 era. (we almost got like 3 games in one year? TT0TT god everything was moving so fast in that era)

Probably cause of quality contr-I can't even finish that sentence.

Ahem. Probably cause of scope maybe.........except PQ2 was roughly the same story length as PQ1......or at least ONE SIDE of a PQ1 playthrough (tho some bits of PQ1 did repeat on each side, A LOT didn't). (there's also the fact they released it on a dying/dead console ahhhhhh, unrelated to scope but still TT0TT)

Uhhhh ummmmm, oh! P3/5D! Right- no I notoriously lambast them for CUTTING content that a single P4D could handle. Half the "story" and less songs. (of course this is considering P3D, P5D, and P4D all separate games on their own....which they are....and were sold as...................separate games......full price....games.....)

Ok ok Strikers! Yes Strikers. That had the scope that matched/exceeded Arena/Ultimax.... at least story wise. But....no one talks about Strikers for some reason. I thought y'all where hyped??????? It seemed to have sold well, but I dunno if that means it's liked..... (I have a VERY small sample size, but outside myself, all the people I've talked to IRL said they hated P5S TT0TT)

Wait why am I bringing this up? Maybe it's cause I miss the P4 era. TT0TT ajfksjf;d

Oh! No no, it's that, P5S is like the most successful P5 spinoff imo (didn't look at the sales but I think it might be the best selling Persona spinoff in general)....but we also haven't had a P5S2, or DLC for it (surprisingly/unfortunately), or another Persona game just like it (like P1S or Raidou S or yadda yadda).

That being said.......P5S was made with another company so....yeah...... that could be why jfsdljafdsakj

Unlike P5S, Dancing and Qs are made in house, P5T is too? I haven't been paying attention. TT0TT It could be they are just focused on T and...."Asa"? and P3R and/or something else. So that could explain the lack of another dancing game (or Q). Plus, again, the dancing games are more of a celebration. I can see a P5D2 happening as we get closer to P6 tbh (if not a P3/4/5D PS5+others port). (and I'm sure they are figuring out how to port Q to other places now they don't have the dual screen). I dunno, this part went on longer than I thought @_@ Just woke up and I'm rambly sorry

I mean Atlus has had the chance to do another Tactics game for years with the DeSu franchise, and those aren't even connected/have to be connected in a single timeline! And people are still waiting on 3! TT0TT So yeah I can see them just dropping it orz

(Yeah I've asked others IRL and they weren't exactly excited either TT0TT Tbh as long as I get another version of this artstyle again I'm fine with that, doesn't need to be a Tactics game.)

[kmgkmg]

BACK TO US - BONUS. PLAYLIST BREAKDOWN

┊masterlist┊

for those that connect to music as deeply as i do, i thought it would be a good idea to make this post! diving deeper into my picks for the back to us playlist, all of the tracks are extremely intentional and you might not have even noticed their presence since i tried to weave them in naturally!

**below cut i give details about each track, spoilers included so i recommend reading once you've finished the series. long post (1.5k) since i included reasons + lyrics under the cut!**

first section: reuniting

✧ keeping tabs by niki: i can 100% see joshua listening to niki's music! her voice would match his really well imo and i could see him trying to harmonize with her voice as he was cleaning or smthn! while reader's emotions towards joshua aren't as strong as this song, it definitely has the same vibe!

you left without saying goodbye ---- i wish i never met you. you are the worst thing that i'm still keeping tabs on for some stupid reason. you were just being nice. now i fully believe you're out there somewhere also keeping tabs on how i might be feeling.

✧ sugarcoat (natty solo) by kiss of life: again this is veryyyyy joshua coded! when he recommended emotional oranges on summer vacation with vernon, i knew i had to add this track. the pop/rnb vibe is perfect. the lyric i included imo sums up how joshua came to his conclusions way too quick.

the image of me that you judged arbitrarily cannot be all

✧ haunt me by rini: this really describes the longing that they both felt for each other after joshua cut contact with reader.

thought i heard your voice, my favorite sound. was is somethin' there? ---- 'cause you haunt me, daily, nightly. get no peace of mind.

✧ still by jeff bernat: an artist that joshua has mentioned several times before! he's actually the person that got me into bernat's discography when i used to be a joshua/hoshi stan lol. another longing song (shocking to no one). goes over joshua's thoughts about getting past reader abandoning him :(

it's been a long time since we last spoke. i still wonder what you’re up to, after all that shit we've been through. ---- and there's probably people telling you that i’m doing fine, just taking my time. although it appears that i’m strong, it still hurts.

✧ not my job by flo: actually used lyrics of this song in 01. gentleman hong hahahaha. when reader asks joshua to tell the campers to knock it off with all the shipping, joshua says:

it's not my job to make you feel comfortable.

✧ summertime by flo: kinda inspired an interaction btwn reader and hoshi in 02. camper spirit when reader is like "i'm not going to let someone who deserted me ruin my summer."

second section: what are we?

✧ lemondrops by telana: the song that is behind it all!!!!!!!!!! i had no idea i was going to turn this into a series. it was originally going to be domestic fluff of reader giving joshua lemondrops so he could sing. but i mean hey, i gave credit where credits due, naming 06. popsicles and lemon drops after this song! just a very comforting song, one that definitely shows the dynamic between reader and joshua when they were close. the closeness that both of them miss.

✧ like i feel (feat. mereba) by xaiver omär: this song is LITERALLY about friends-to-lovers, i would be a fool to exclude it! kept this track on repeat while writing 11. taking inventory. joshua says to reader:

so, let me know if you feel how i feel. ---- also reader confesses with: i swear, i tried letting go of the feelings i had for you which is inspired by the song's lyrics of: swear i tried lettin' go ---- but i mean everything about this song is so good, esp this line: i feel a family of butterflies all in my gut, oh, and they're fluttering

✧ m.h. by yeek: just added this song for my own pleasure tbh, but one of the main repeating lines is definitely joshua's feelings towards reader when he starts hanging out with them more (around part 06/07)

i miss you when i see you no...(they) hit me with i love you.

✧ gotta get back (feat. pink sweat$) by p1harmony: another track i could see joshua singing along to

i know i'm not perfect, and i've hurt your heart before. so, i don't wanna make a promise i can't give. ---- never had someone make me feel all these ways before and now it seems that i can't get you out my mind. you got me hanging on to every word you say.

✧ all our time (feat. jae stephens) by xavier omär: summer breeeeze. perfect summertime song, could definitely see chan dancing to this for a dino danceology. and it would stick in reader's head after leaving pledis studios. would be the summer anthem for hoshi and reader.

✧ simple life by lexy panterra: nothing much lyrically, just a summertime vibes track.

✧ mornings (see you again) by alextbh: for the he/him readers! alextbh writes so many songs w a guy lover in mind, so i highly recommend checking his discography out.

been outta focus lately. all these images, playing in my head. i can't help it

✧ mess around by starchild & the new romantic: unable to think of a good description for this song so 👍

i know i shouldn't mess around, i shouldn't even hardly doubt you. i know i shouldn't fuss & fight, i shouldn't hardly run around you. all of these thoughts in my head...

✧ good life by otis kane x clay: this song is so smooth and incredibly joshua coded. kinda reminds me of niki's songs as well, vibe wise.

all the games aside then, i want you in my space. and now that you're in my world i'll never be the same.

✧ the chase by alextbh: no lyrics for this one, very sad if you listen to them but the vibe of the song regarding the instrumental and such fit the series!

✧ bamboo by ivy sole: another song in there for vibes, very much a summertime song!

✧ back to us (feat. julissa leilani) by jeremy passion: filo-american singer! idk if he's ever recommended his music, but i mean listen to it and it's just the embodiment of joshua's vibe into a song. obviously this song holds a lot of meaning for the series, it is literally the title! the song is more about a couple falling out of love, but this is based on vibessssssss! (it's a groovy little song, what can i say?)

✧ je t'adore (feat. ty senoj) by sylo: another song in the playlist for vibes. but again, very joshua coded imo! groovy pop is right up his alleyyyyy

third section: this is not a drill

✧ trust by thuy & rini: oh? rini makes a comeback? definitely a good song for explaining how reader and joshua slowly open up to each other, their need to build trust first.

baby, let your guard down. world's loud, we could shut it out. you can put ya trust in me if you choose. ---- how do i make you realize i'ma stick around if it's with you, you, you.

✧ ride with me by pink sweat$: a song joshua recommended in his 'beach drive' playlist on spotify! beach drive, perfect way to describe it. and when you think beach, you think summer, right? summer...summer camp? aha...

✧ blur by dhruv: joshua's double take cover remains iconic! and i really love dhruv's voice so i knew i wanted to add a song of his for sure! joshua's tweet in 08. another serious camper takes the first lyrics of the song:

the room tonight became a blur and all i could see was them you dancing.

✧ misfits' sunday by jooyoung: jooyoung's voice is perfect for a love story, i mean it fits all the moods. he usually does smooth rnb and although this is a newer sound he's been experimenting with, i thought the lyrics fit the series nicely!

we were young and naive nothing to worry. all the memories, fading with graphite scribbles. we grew too fast, a blink, slow talks.

✧ ore ore by sole: another track that i can't figure out how to describe...

love isn’t too far from us, love can handle everything.

✧ lucky by jason mraz & colbie caillat: tfw reader walks past joshua rehearsing with this song... (ahem, 10. what's your eta, anyone?)

lucky i'm in love with my best friend.

✧ angel 2 me (feat. jeff bernat) by mckay: jeff bernat feature, you know joshua would love this song and cover itttttt!

✧ ikaw lang by nobita: it's pretty established joshua loves filo artists, this would be a track he would play all the time. the title translates to only you.

oh, what a beautiful sight it is to look into your eyes. the way they sparkle, i cannot fathom. the way you look back at me, how brilliant they shine. heaven must be on earth. stars actually fall from the sky.

✧ 7pm (apple music home session) by joshua: joshua lulling reader to sleep with his guitar??? 🫠

at seven in my house, we'll sing both our lungs out and dance to the moonlight 'cause everything feels right.

✧ whether or not by gabe bondoc: the inclusion of gabe bondoc should be no surprise to a longtime carat! joshua loves his filo artists and i still remember this predebut vid of him singing some gabe bondoc!

i've dreamed a thousand dreams and still nothing compares to the feeling that you give me while you're standing here. i don't care if its fair.

[prodsh00ky]

i really felt like doing this one bc i love hearing this type of fact ab other people people, so why not share them ab myself too?

1. are you named after anyone?

not that i know? but my name has a fun behind story: at the time i was in my mom's belly, there was a very famous soap opera on air in my country. mom thought about a name but my elder sisters asked her to change it to my actual name, which is v similar to the one my mom wanted, just a single different letter, bc they said it was prettier. mom agreed and here i am. i ask them all the time why they wanted my mom to change it and they always say its just bc they like my actual name better and i do believe it bc it is, indeed, prettier than the old one, but there was a character with my name in that famous soap opera i brought up in the beggining, so i think they might have unconsciously gotten the idea from that character.

2. when was the last time you cried?

in the moment im answering this, just yesterday. and it was because of a seventeen song. lmao

3. do you have kids?

no, and i intend not to.

4. do you use sarcasm a lot?

i actually do, and sometimes i don't even notice it. irony and sarcasm are my bffs after a whole teenage of reading edgy female protagonists written mostly by men

5. what sports do/have you played?

handball, soccer, volley and a bit of basketball. i did some swimming too. but!!! im not from a country in which you can easily start a career in a sport by playing it in school or something, i just played them in p.e. periodically so i could learn the basics and all. i miss soccer and handball specially, tho.

6. first thing you notice about people?

it may sound futile but their clothing choice and how their accesories match. physically, their height, hair and hands. personality wise, politeness and gentleness.

7. whats your eye color?

dark brown that get some lighter (honey colored) reflexions when the sun hits them.

8. scary movies or happy endings?

happy endings for sure. im a scaredy cat so i generally dont watch scary movies. the few i've watched was due to being with my friends.

9. any special talents?

not a talent exactly but im a very good comunicator. i've always done well in writing and talking, presenting things in public and all. i was the spokeswoman for the two graduation cerimonies ive had till now with completely different people involved in it, so yeah :) im also pretty good in problem solving when they're domestic and daily based.

10. where were you born?

11. what are your hobbies?

im in the middle of a hobby crisis tbh? but i'd say the classic ones: listening to music, reading and watching movies, tv shows and anime. i also write and have been learning how to play the violin.

12. do you have pets?

a 4 year old dog who's the most happy and funny pal to be around :)

13. how tall are you?

165cm and google says me that this is the same that 5'5 or 64.96 inches? but i dont know how that works? why the fuck feet and inches measurements are so difficult and why do native english speakers love it so much meters are so much easier to deal with...

in a nutshell im as tall as svt's woozi

14. favorite subject in school?

for a long time it was my native language class, then at some point it was geography, literature, english and history and at the end of high school i had 0 preferences and hated them all the same :)

15. dream job?

not having to work. being rich. being an heir to a great fortune. i wish it was a joke.

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im not tagging anyone, if you feel like doing it go on and have a blast! :)

@shadowynn feeling shy to tag you but u asked it so... here we go

another tag game??? yes pls :)))

15 questions, 15 people!

tagged by: @monmonsu tysm my dear <333

1. are you named after anyone? - ... technically, yes. i did name myself; i plead the fifth on who lmao

2. when was the last time you cried?  - a couple days ago

3. do you have kids? - i have fraternity children that call me parent/grandparent/great-grandparent (i've been around a while)

4. do you use sarcasm a lot? - with select people who take to it well, yes.

5. what sports do you play/have you played? - nothing right now, but i've done a little bit of everything. soccer, softball, cross-country; my favorites were marching band/color guard and martial arts. i was in the best shape of my life

6. what’s the first thing you notice about people? - how they carry themselves.

7. what’s your eye colour?  - hazel!

8. scary movies or happy endings? - depends on the day. i'm a fiend for a good horror movie tho

9. any special talents? - i sing; used to sing opera but i do not have the pipes anymore

10. where were you born? - middle of nowhere, usa

11. what are your hobbies?  - writing, gaming, knitting, reading

12. do you have pets? - i have three pups :)

13. how tall are you? - 5'5" or 165ish cm? (idk if that's right, google told me)

14. favourite subject in school? - music history, currently. in high school i think it was english

15. dream job? - i dunno. software dev for a spotify-esque company or music production/sound mixing stuff, maybe? i also talked to a guy about tuning sound mixing equipment once and that sounds fun

no pressure tagging: @loving-strawberry @justhere4kpop @jaehunnyy @yunbug @cloudy-cranium @thatonenoona @pyeonghongrie-main & anyone else who wants to bc i don't talk to that many people on here?

[tomdutch]

Oooh s I am FEELING number 9 for flufftober with tom??? And perhaps there was some mutual pining happening... Okay also as I was reading through the prompts I was listening to "clouds" by børns which is just... such a romantic song to me and it made me so giddy while reading the prompts so I thought I'd mention it in case if gives you any inspiration :)

❀ clouds ❀

i love this song too 🥺 this is so self-indulgent (as all my drabbles are tbh) i hope you enjoy <3 this might be the best drabble i’ve ever written lmao i’m rlly proud & in love with this one :’)

prompt: (9) your first passionate kiss with a person. you touch your lips absently, feeling the phantom of your lover’s lips.

↳ actor!tom, friends to lovers, tessa holland supremacy bc i miss her & need her back in my life

word count: 1.8k

flufftober drabbles (requests closed!)

“this one kind of looks like a one-eyed bunny. a one-eyed, one-legged bunny.”

snorting, you tear your gaze away from the sky overhead and onto the man lying beside you. his hand is outstretched, index pointing to an oddly shaped cloud slowly rolling away from you, and you try your best not to stare at his flexed forearm so close to your face. a passing autumn breeze gently ruffles the brown curls smushed on his forehead, his hair unruly after an impromptu nap.

a nap you shared. which is totally normal. it’s so normal for best friends to fall asleep cuddling each other that it borders on mundane. it’s boring, even. yes, you’re so bored of falling asleep in tom’s backyard with tom’s head on your chest and tom’s dog’s head in your lap and tom’s scent lingering on your clothes from the last time you fell asleep with tom a week ago. stupid tom.

“that’s not true.” tom says, turning onto his side so he’s facing you, the movement making you reluctantly open your eyes again. “you don’t remember bobby bugs?”

“that’s not true.” tom says, turning onto his side so he’s facing you, the movement making you reluctantly open your eyes again. “you don’t remember bobby bugs?”

at the name, a loud laugh erupts from your mouth, and you hasten to slap a hand over it. “oh my god, i can’t believe i forgot him. he was your only friend before me.”

“yeah, and you’re so fucking mean, i might just dump you and buy another bunny to be my real best friend.” you giggle again as tom fake pouts, your neck hurting from being twisted to watch him.

silence falls over both of you again, interrupted only by random whines from tessa and the occasional passing car. most of tom’s neighbours are smart enough to stay inside when it’s only five degrees, whereas you both have just enough brain cells to decide laying down a picnic blanket and then laying under a couple more blankets should warm you up just fine. after all, cold and bad weather never stopped you and tom from indulging in your favourite pass-time as loud children who were often told to just go outside because you were too raucous.

you don’t remember which one of you began this tradition of cloud-watching. all you know is that your childhood memories are almost all riddled with tom’s crooked nose and chaotic curls and the large mole on his chin that is no longer there. many of these memories include spotting weirdly shaped clouds and inventing stories about them together, a habit you’ve continued well into your adolescence and haven’t begun to let go of in your twenties, either, even as one of you has become a bloody celebrity.

“ooh, i think i spot a giant raccoon.” you grin, nodding towards a particularly large cloud further away.

tom squints, sitting up to see better. the hood of his pink sweater flops with the movement, and you bite back the immature urge to shove leaves into it like you did when you were young. well, younger. you’re not proud of the side of yourself that loves stupid pranks. mouth turning into an o, tom’s expression soon breaks into a matching grin when he finds the cloud, too.

“he’s definitely got rabies.” he jokes, flopping down beside you, beam only widening when you giggle, palm clasped against your mouth. it doesn’t last long, though, the smile slowly being wiped off his face. you’re too busy staring at the burst of colours from the sunset to notice. “why do you do that?” he asks, voice suddenly monotone.

eyebrows furrowed, you look over at him. your lap grows colder when tessa gets off of you, almost like she’s sensed the awkwardness settling in and preferred to go sniffing for squirrels than to witness it. “do what?” you respond, shivering from the wind.

“you always hide your face when you laugh. like you’re ashamed of being happy.”

huh. you did not expect that. sitting up on your elbows, you scoff, “okay, i do not need you to go all walmart doctor phil on me right now. that’s the most cliché thing i’ve heard in a while, and i eavesdropped on harrison telling his girlfriend she lights up his world like nobody else this morning.”

“i’m serious, y/n.” tom snaps, sitting up again and giving you no choice but to do the same since, clearly, he’s turning this into a whole conversation. “why do you always put your hand on your face or hide behind your hair whenever you laugh?”

you sputter, not knowing how to answer such a ridiculous question. “i don’t—i don’t know. it’s just something i, and many other people, do. not everything means something. why do you always knock three times on the doorframe before you go to the bathroom at night?”

“to alert any ghosts that i’m entering, obviously.” tom deadpans. “don’t change the subject. we’re talking about your insecurities and bathroom endangerment habits.”

“you’re ridiculous and i don’t like you.” you snap, lying back down and crossing your arms over your chest. “no wonder bobby bugs ran away from you. you’re annoying and you gave him the worst rabbit name ever.”

tom’s neck snaps towards you with full shock and offense, his eyes wide and lips pursed with anger. you’ve gone too far to back down, staring right back at him with steady resolve.

“why do i love you?” he mutters under his breath, disdain coating his words like a fresh coat of paint, before he falls back into his place beside you, shoulders touching.

even though you’ve heard those three little words from tom countless times in all the years—decades, really—that you’ve been practically attached at the hips, they never fail to make a lump form in your throat and to kick your heart into overdrive. especially when he’s so close to you that your pinkies brush against each other. you hate indulging in clichés, like you remind tom all the time, and yet you’re living in the biggest trope of all time. falling in love with your best friend wasn’t a realisation or a sudden crush leading to longing looks and timid touches. no, you don’t think you even fell in love with tom. there was no falling, no tripping, no moment in your friendship before you loved him. being in love with tom was simply a part of you, a facet of your personality with how long you’ve loved him, and you can’t imagine being y/n without loving tom.

quiet settles in again, the strain between you and your best friend lessening but not disappearing. you’re in the midst of convincing yourself that the only way to avoid this becoming a real fight is to just get up and pretend you’re hungry or thirsty or need to pee or anything that lets you stop your hand from inching towards tom’s, when he speaks up.

“i think you’re beautiful when you laugh.” tom says, gaze trained on the gradually darkening sky. it’s no longer a bright pink, but a fuchsia with sparks of orange, awaiting the deep blue of the nighttime.

your heart thuds to a stop in your chest, lungs expanding with air that you can’t seem to exhale.

“and when you smile,” he adds, tugging down the sleeves of his sweatshirt until they cover his fingers. “and when you snort when i say or do something stupid, when you squeal when i tickle you. when you glare at me for eating the last brownie. when you’re drooling on the couch while watching deadly women like it’s not supposed to be a little alarming to me i live with a woman who likes to learn about female serial killers to wind down after work.”

you crack, a breathless laugh escaping your throat, and tom takes that as his sign to lean on his elbow, face hovering over yours. there’s enough space between you not to be completely overwhelming, but you still find yourself drawn into his honeyed eyes and the splattering of freckles beneath them.

“i think you’re beautiful all the fucking time, y/n/n.” tom whispers, the wind tousling the curls on his forehead. “it kills me when you don’t see the beauty in yourself. like you’re trying to convince others not to fall in love with you when you’re at your happiest. but it’s far too late to do that with me.”

your breath hitches loudly in your throat, eyes as wide as saucers when tom leans in just a bit closer. hesitantly, you raise your hand to cup his cool cheek, thumb rubbing over its apple. the corner of his mouth quirks up in a minuscule smile, brown eyes flickering from yours to your lips. when you nod and lick them, he closes the gap between you, and you finally feel like you’re plummeting. all these years you’ve loved tom so much it felt like your heart was constantly bursting, and now, you’ve let yourself stumble off the edge—now, you’ve let yourself go. you know now that he’ll catch you.

tom kisses you softly at first, lightly rubbing your lips together, before your fingers travel to his hair. when you tug a little, he groans into your mouth, tongue flicking out to lick your bottom lip. you kiss for what feels like hours, indulging in each others’ touches and moans, until tessa’s loud barking interrupts you.

breaking apart, tom sits up properly, looking over to see his dog with her head stuck in a hole in the wooden fence separating his backyard from the neighbour’s. the laughter that befalls both of you is loud and disbelieving, bringing with it sparkly eyes and light stomach cramps. breathless from tessa’s comedy act and the kiss that propelled you off a bridge, you run your finger over your lips absent-mindedly as tom gets up to help her out.

he looks over at you, still sprawled under the blankets in a daze, and grins. “you wanna go back inside and get a drink?” he asks, patting tessa’s head once it pops back into the correct yard.

“will you kiss me again?” you blurt out, pinching yourself on the inside for being so utterly tactless.

tom laughs again, the sound like music to your ears. his grin is blinding and you’d let him take your heart and sight all at once if he would just ask. “i’ll kiss you any time you want for the rest of our lives if you’ll have me, love.”

[talestobetold]

Mechs Songs Voting Bracket: Format

Looks like there’s enough interest, so let’s get this going!!

If you didn’t see my earlier post, I’m putting together a tournament-style bracket where we can vote on our favorite Mechanisms songs head-to-head until we end up with one winning song. Hoping it’ll spark some fun conversations about the songs and give an opportunity to look through songs you might not have checked out in a bit.

I have a pretty good idea of how this could run, but wanted to run it by everyone before getting it started. Here’s my current format:

-64 songs. Gunpowder Tim vs. The Moon Kaiser is split into five songs, Alice is split into three, and works that are mostly narration aren’t included. Works out to 64 pretty nicely that way. I’ll link each song and add the time cuts for these two on the voting form to prevent any ambiguity.

-Four main “divisions” of 16 songs each, one for each main album. I tried to sort the non-main-album songs into the divisions as reasonably as possible, first to keep settings together, then to keep time of publication roughly together. When there are four songs left, the winners of OUATIS and TBI will play and the winners of UDAD and HNOC will play, then their winners will play for the finals.

-Ten rounds of voting. I want to keep a limit of eight votes (16 songs) in a given round so that everyone gets a chance to listen to them again before voting. That means the Round of 64 has four rounds of voting, the Round of 32 has two, and 16, 8, 4, and 2 each have one, for a total of ten rounds.

-Each voting round will stay open for two days. On the third day, I’ll post the results for that round and preview the match-ups for the next round. That way we have some time to listen and discuss before actually voting.

The bracket I came up with is below, with close-ups below the cut. The match-ups are mostly randomized. There’s a bit of moderation to prevent known fan-favorites from being first-round match-ups, but tbh there are so many fan-favorites that there are sure to be some rough ones early on. It is what it is.

Does this all sound good? Excited to get started if so.

EDIT: Reply saying so or DM me if you want to get tagged for each update so you don’t miss any voting

OUATIS Division

UDAD Division

HNOC Division

TBI Division

[lovehimeri]

WARNING : horror , stalking , blackmail , threatning , character death , dark themes , gruesome details , gore

Tbh the inspiration for this was a song..I didn't plan to post creepy stuff on this account as it was just for cute stuff but oh well 😭 creepy alkaloid fanfic with some hiiai angst ig!

In this world , it's common knowledge that the strong eat the weak. Ever since he's  been a young one , he was taught to always know his place. Through the years , he learned that not everything adults say is true~he developed his own special way of thinking..But what happens when fright and terror turns into something else...? A weapon , one way to destroy everything he ever cherished .

The streets were dyed with a crimson color. The sound of chattering red leaves rustling in the wind was comforting~as some people might say . Fall is everyone's favourite season , isn't it? Is there even anything slightly better than piles of shimmering leaves gathered neatly, the fresh smell of wet grass after a long night of rain , the warm taste of hot cinnamon cocoa , the dark figure lurking in the shadows , waiting for the perfect moment to strike and swing a thick , metal axe at their poor prey..

"You barely ate anything! I'm not keeping up with this new routine anymore , Aira!"

"Moooom! I'm an idol now , I need to watch what I eat!" The little boy quickly puts on his shoes and hugs his mom , who hugs him back with a long sigh .

"Be careful on your way to school . There have been reports of people going missing these days..I don't mind if you walk with some friends , but straight from school to home , got it?" The woman spoke with a slight shake to her voice . Her son fails to match her worried expression as he grins and opens the door .

"You always worry so much mom , I'll just walk home with hiiro-kun!" Aira runs out and shuts the door behind him . 

'Waaaaaah! The trees are really giving their all this season! So pretty!' 

He loved admiring the scenery on his way to school . Aira was lucky to be able to see the beauty in many things , and only the bright side of the world . After all , he was just a young , innocent boy..

"Good morning!"

"GYAAAH!! HIIRO-KUN—you scared the life out of me! Did your parents never teach you to not sneak up on people from behind?! Especially when they're focused in something!" 

"Sorry , I'm sorry—you can let your anger all out on me like you always do!" The red head gives a cheeky grin , like he always does when he gets scolded by aira .

"No...that sounds like bullying! I do not bully people" Aira crosses his arms .

"Right..hiiro-kun , do you mind if we walk home together? My mom says people are going missing recently , I tried to shake it off but I do feel uneasy just thinking about being followed—that's kinda why I was scared when you came up behind me.." The boy anxiously rolls a piece of his hair in his fingers .

"Of course! Don't worry Aira , I went through a lot of special martial arts practice back in my hometown. I am fully capable of protecting you if anyone tries to steal you! Though I think no one should..I like having Aira by my side , so if anyone tries to take you away from me , I might have to severely injure them!"

"Sheesh , Hiiro-kun! You can't say things like that! it sounds reeeeally creepy!"

"But wouldn't it be creepier if someone takes you against your will? Wouldn't you feel so scared without me , Aira?" 

The blond boy looks down , thinking deeply.

"We arrived at school anyway! We're in different classes , but if you feel unsafe , you should call me! I will always be able to find you with my special senses!" 

Aira feels at ease when he's around hiiro .

"Teehee , alright , if that's what you want . Don't forget we'll walk home together later!" Aira giggles as he runs off to class . 

"Good morning , Ai-chan!" One of his classmates greets him as he walks through the door . Instead of a smile , he frowns . 

"Ugh , I told you not to call me that" Aira places his bag on the side hanger and sits next to his friend .

"It just suits you nicely! You're so lucky , you're popular and everyone loves you.."

"What's with the sudden switch? You don't seem so happy.." 

The other boy rests his face in his palms , as he looks sweaty and anxious.

"I'm just..really worried about you . You've heard about the missing reports lately , haven't you?" 

The blond boy nods.

"Well...my dad was watching the news this morning , I happened to pass by him and heard something on the tv . the police found 3 bodies out of the 10 missing cases , and all 3 of them belonged to popular idols..and the photos they showed...I don't think you should know about this either"

"No please! You gotta tell me , you can't just stop here" aira begs his friend to tell him more.

"I'm sorry if you get nightmares later then..here's the website , scroll down a little and you'll see the photos..but don't throw my phone in panic!" The boy hands aira his phone with the website on the main page , aira shakily takes the phone and scrolls down . The first photo that meets his eyes is a decapitated body , spine out and laid aside it , whatever is left of that body is a pile of rotting flesh and scattered intestines , the body wasn't clothed , and the chest area looks like it was cleanly cut open , all the insides poured out and instead of a heart , something that looked like a head , stripped of every inch of skin , rested inside the empty chest area . Aira couldn't stare any longer , he pushed the phone onto his friend , fighting back the urge to throw up the small amount of food he ate at breakfast . His eyes wide at the horrific idea that a human being is capable of painting their hands with someone else's blood , and transforming the image of another perfectly-shaped human into this..

He was even more terrified at the idea that he could be this monster's next victim .

"I-I'm sorry! I shouldn't have let you see that..I wish I lived near you so we can walk home together . Are you going to be okay?" 

"Y-Yeah..I think..I'm walking home with hiiro-kun , y-you know? The boy from my unit?" Even when he tried comforting himself with the fact that hiiro is walking home with him , Aira couldn't shake that image from his brain the entire day . The terrifying details and thoughts—what if the last day of his life is today? What if even hiiro can't protect him? What if he makes the horrifying discovery of hiiro's body one day? He wouldn't let himself live to see another day if anything bad happened to any of his friends .

Five more minutes until the last school bell rings for the day , Akiomi walks in with an announcement .

"I'm very sure all of you already heard about the missing reports these days , so we advise you to walk home in groups and look out for each other . There won't be any classes starting from tomorrow , until the police lets us know that it's safe for students to come back . In the meantime , please stay at home and only go out if necessary" 

The teacher's announcement only made Aira feel more shaken . He just wanted to go home and sleep in his bed , and hope that this day will pass like a bad dream . Once he heard the bell ringing , he grabbed his back and rushed to find hiiro , not bothering to say his goodbyes to his friends .

"Hiiro-kun!" Aira hugged hiiro with all his power as if it was the last time he gets to hug him.

"I'm here , aira! Why do you look out of shape? Did something happen?" 

"I'm just..I just really want to go home..let's just leave" he grabs hiiro's hand , but the other boy doesn't move.

"I'm sooooo sorry aira! I promised sagami-sensei I will help clean up the gym after school , everyone was too scared to volunteer so I did!" Hiiro rubbed the back of his neck .

"Are you serious right now?! I..I'm really scared! I've seen things that you haven't , you don't understand how dangerous this is! You're ALWAYS like this , Hiiro. You never take anything ever seriously! If I don't make it back home alive , I'll never forgive you!" And with that , aira stormed off .

'Ahhh you have to focus! Keep your guard up! If I see anyone acting suspicious I'll just scream for help..I guess' His mind was blurry with thoughts , he didn't notice the familiar person waiting for him by the school gate .

"Aira~right here" 

"Tattsun-senpai? Why are you here?"

"Your father called and asked me to drive you home~the reports of missing people only go higher by the minute , he was worried about you . Let's go~"

Aira smiled . He truly felt safe with a trusted adult like tatsumi , not someone who'd leave him behind like hiiro...

As he got into the car , something didn't feel right . Why did his father trust Tatsumi out of all his friends to drive him home..? Even if they were friends and in the same unit , wouldn't his father trust someone more "responsible" in his eyes..?

And then he noticed Tatsumi driving in a different route .

"T-tattsun-senpai..? This isn't the road I usually take-"

Shit . His quivering voice gave it all away .

"I know~I'm just avoiding traffic , and I'm passing by a store to grab a few things , I hope you don't mind~"

Aira tensed up . Tatsumi was his friend that he could trust , he would never actually kill him..right.......right?

"I won't be late~" Tatsumi leaves the car . This was Aira's chance . 

Once he sees the green haired man disappear into the store , he opens the door and runs as fast as his legs could carry him . 

The adrenaline pumping in his blood from the suspicious situation he just encountered helped him run faster . He didn't bother looking behind , and while he was still running on the main road he figured out tatsumi could still see him when he leaves the store , without thinking , aira runs into an empty , dark alleyway .

Barely running a few meters into the dark area , his senses stopped him .

'What am I doing..! My fear took over me..tattsun-senpai would never..! Or would he...just shut up! Wait...is there someone sitting by the wall there? They could be gangs..or even worse..! I need to go back..but..tattsun-senpai..God this all that dumb hiiro's fault! Wait..didn't the person notice me? I've been here long enough to be noticed..they might just be drunk..in broad daylight?'

"U-uhm..excuse me?" The boy approaches the person crouching on the floor , but the closer he gets , the more he regrets it..

His hand flew to his mouth to stop himself from gasping too loudly . His legs shook , but no matter how hard he tried to move away , he felt as if he was frozen in place . He wanted to scream , cry , throw up , die...

He never would have imagined that one day he would witness a scenery as gruesome as this one . He just discovered a dead someone's remains , and even worse , he hated how he could recognize those blue locks and frail figure as his beloved senpai, hajime shino . He knew it was him , how can he not recognize the purple heart keychain he gifted him on his birthday , hanging from his bag the was thrown next to him?

His senses kicked back in before he would expose his position even more , and he turned to made a run for it , but got caught as fast as he tried to move . Someone is standing behind him , pinning his arms with their own , and their other hand muffling his noises . He couldn't help but break down in tears . He just wanted to scream and cry and beg to be spared . He didn't want to die . All the regrets of his previous actions made him choke on his tears . He should have never left tatsumi's car , now he's going to die and the last words he ever spoke to hiiro were stained by his anger and fear .

"Shhh..not a sound little bird~ or you'll end up like the messy thing you just saw" 

Why did the voice seem familiar to him?

He wanted to speak , ask who they are , what their motives are , he wanted to let out anything , just a few minutes long enough to convince this monster to let him go and live another day .

"I'll loosen my grip now , but don't think of running off anywhere , I can find you~" the taller person slowly loosened their grip on aira's body as they sensed he wanted to say something .

Aira took a few moments to breath and cry silently , his knees buckled and he fell to the ground , shaking and trying his best to silence his sobs .

"P-Please don't kill me! Not now..! I'll do anything—please!"

He couldn't look up to see his friend's murderer , he didn't even want to . He couldn't imagine what terrifying expression this monster could be wearing right now . It must be a really fun thing for them to haunt down little boys and kill them .

"W..what? Are you..aira-san?" 

Aira's eyes widened in shock . He finally understood why this voice was so familiar to him .

He slowly and shakily looked up to meet the person's eyes .

"H-huh?"

"I feel so, so bad you had to see this! I'm so sorry , I'm horrible , I should die instead!"

"M..mayo-san?"

Aira , still shaking in shock , couldn't believe what he was seeing . He hoped it was just a hallucination due to the insane amount of adrenaline running through his veins—he was still hoping it's just a bad dream .

"I won't hurt you..please don't be afraid of me!"

Was he seriously saying that right now? Aira's eyes couldn't deceive him..it's true . Mayoi is the one behind all those disappearing , and behind his dear friend's death .

Mayoi kneels down to aira's level , brushing his tears away with his bloody hands .

"It's really my fault for not cleaning up my mess~I feel so bad a cute and innocent person like yourself had to see this~" mayoi smiled . How can he smile? It's that same smile he wears when he's really happy about something..was he lying this whole time?

"Mayo-san..are you..happy? Are you..seriously happy? Did you hit your head?" Aira pushed mayoi's hand away from his face .

"Hehe..of course not~ I'm not doing this with my own will~ I can't control it , aira-san . Please believe me" mayoi pouted .

"N-No..you're a liar..you..You killed shino-senpai..you.." aira broke down in tears again .

"I didn't do it on purpose~people make mistakes~" mayoi reached a hand to pat down aira's hair , but the little boy slapped it away .

"Please don't touch me..I want to go home" aira cried . 

"Don't get on my nerves , aira-san~ you've already seen what I can do when I'm mad.."

Mayoi's voice change sent a shiver down Aira's spine .

"O-okay.. I'm sorry..please let me go home in one piece and I swear I won't tell a soul about this!" Mayoi could easily let him go , as long as he keeps in touch with him,  he knows aira won't tell on him . But something about aira's begging and his undying will to live made mayoi rethink about his decisions . 

"I'm doing this because I love you~" without a warning , mayoi hugs aira. The blond yelps at the sudden action , and completely shuts his eyes and buries his face into mayoi's shoulder , as he could clearly see Hajime's corpse from the position he was in .

"And because I love you , I want the best for you~ so be a good boy and do as I tell you from now on~"

"What..?"

Aira hears a clench , with a sharp pain in his left side , his eyes widen as mayoi pulls away from him , his body goes cold and he freezes in place. 

"Now if anyone asks , I saved you from an encounter with the 'mysterious' murderer, if you keep it that way , I'll let you live~ you're a cute shining idol , I don't want you to end up like your little friend over there~"

Mayoi pulls out the sharp knife from Aira's side , licking the blood away .

"Hm..doesn't taste as good as I had imagined..alright , I'll take you to the hospital now!" Aira struggled to keep up with anything mayoi has said , he struggled to breath or keep his eyes open , the last thing he saw was mayoi's sickening smile as he carried him and ran off . After all , the monster that grew within him of his own selfishness , desires and feelings that have been buried a long time ago . It's all out now and it will take a lot more than a series of killings to stop it…

[sylvies-chen]

Portwell + I don't want to dance if I'm not dancing with you✨

AHHH MORGAN I LOVE THIS ONE!! And I know you sent in two other requests but this is my first ever time writing for Portwell/getting a Portwell request so I had to do this one first. It was mandatory tbh‼️

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At first glance, being asked by Gina Porter herself to dance is a blessing.

EJ’s well aware of the fact that his girlfriend can quite literally dance circles around him, so when she asks him to help her work out some moves for the musical’s choreography, he foolishly agrees. Then, he remembers that agreeing to that means he won’t just get to watch her dance but he himself will have to actually dance, and then he feels really stupid.

It’s not that he’s a terrible dancer, per se. Caswells aren’t terrible at things. They’re either great at something, or they’re simply uninterested. No mediocre, no half-assing, and definitely no terrible. So he dances when he needs to for the musical, and can do basic choreo, but Gina Porter is a whole other level of amazing that he can’t match when it comes to dancing. And as stupid as it sounds, he’s a little worried that the success of their relationship, still new and exciting, is going to be determined by how well he can tango or salsa dance.

But lo and behold, when he does get to Ashlyn’s house and is yanked into the basement by Gina (where his aunt and uncle have created a pretty sweet rehearsal space for her), he thinks there might not be so much to worry about after all.

“Ok so, remember when we were watching Dirty Dancing the other day?”

“Yeah,” he nods in the affirmative.

“Right, well I wanted to add that lift from the final number into one of the songs. The only problem is, when I ran it by Miss Jen, she said it can only get in the musical if I know it can be done safely. That’s where you come in,” she explains with an excited wiggle of her brows.

“Wait,” he realizes, “that’s all we’re doing today? I just have to lift you in the air?”

“Yeah, pretty much,” Gina shrugs. “What, you thought I was going to put you through a whole merengue?”

“It may have crossed my mind, yeah,” he admits with a wince.

She holds a hand to her chest in mock indignation as she gasps dramatically. “What kind of girlfriend would I be if I did that?”

“Still the best kind of girlfriend. You always are,” he tells her with a smile, leaning in to give her a chaste kiss.

She’s blushing as she pulls away, letting out a content hum before shifting back into choreographer mode and clapping her hands together. “Ok, I laid out mats just in case, but basically I’m just going to run towards you head-on and then jump, and you’ll have to grab hold of my waist and hoist me straight above your head.”

“Got it,” he nods. “How long should I be keeping you up there for?”

“Just a few seconds, I think. And don’t make your arms straight, keep them a little bended to give you more support.”

“Yeah, yeah, cool,” he nods, trying to psych himself up. “Just keep my arms bended, hoist my girlfriend in the air and hope I don’t drop her or kill her. No big deal.”

His nerves make her giggle, but the laughter also calms him down. She gives him one last kiss on the cheek before she says, “You’ve got this, Eej. I trust you.”

And it’s the implicit trust in the end that convinces him. The look in her eye is hopeful and devoted and completely trusting. He literally (and depressingly) doesn’t know anyone else in his life who’s had so much inherent faith in him, so when she turns the music on and backs up to the other half of the room, for a split second he doesn’t feel scared at all. He just readies himself with open arms, keeping his eyes sharply focused on her as she counts down and begins running towards him.

So finally, when she reaches him, her arms stretched out sideways as he grabs her waist and hoists her over his head, he does it. He actually does it.

For a second they hang in suspense, frozen in position as they both laugh victoriously.

And then, just as quickly as it was manoeuvred… it all falls apart.

Gina’s weight shifts forward a little too much and he gets the feeling she’s going to fall forward, so in an attempt to keep her from falling, he overcorrects by moving her more backwards. Only that causes his elbows to buckle and lose control and soon, he’s falling too. He falls back on the mats and Gina falls right with him. She comes toppling down, landing flat on him with a hard thud!

And holy hell, does it hurt when she does.

They both let out pained grunts, but Gina’s grunt turns into laughter quickly. EJ’s pretty sure whatever impact she would have felt was cushioned by him. Suffice to say, being sandwiched between her and the floor is not the most comfortable thing. But it’s definitely… well, it’s something. Because they’re both sweaty, smiling, and flush against each other, something he really, really doesn’t mind.

“I’m so sorry,” she laughs, her arms on his chest propping herself up so she can meet his eye. “Did I totally squish you?”

“Only a little,” he grunts and winces, trying to hide the pain, which only makes her laugh even more. “Sorry about dropping you.”

“Are you serious? You caught me,” she assures him, her eyes twinkling with affection. “That’s what matters. You’re still a hero in my book, Caswell.”

“So you still want me as your dance partner?”

“Of course. I wouldn’t want anyone else,” Gina replies simply, and he thinks she genuinely means it. Her eyes are still twinkling, her arms still crossed neatly on his chest as she leans down and kisses him. He musters up the strength to lift his head off the mat and meet her in the middle, his lips pushing back softly as they both smile into the kiss.

It’s then that EJ is reminded that being a good dancer means nothing to their relationship. He’s good at the things that count. He sees that now, through her eyes. He catches her when she falls, and it’s just like she said: he wouldn’t want anyone else.