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#I lowkey feel like this is Very Vulnerable for me to post when it’s….. hardly that at all hahahaha#my eema plush is the perfect size and shape to hold while I’m having a Cry (<- is a crybaby and discovered this immediately)#very good impulse purchase that was planned months in advance#anyway. I’m okay I just feel stuck and like I’m running out of time and have been hermit-ing up as a result which i know is not good for me#making myself break out of it today! 🤠 texting all my irl friends back finally and redownloading discord once my nanny baby goes to sleep#(I hadn’t opened the app in so long it Offloaded. sorry dudes my bad.)#okay now I’m going to focus on the good! my new glasses are out for delivery and i won’t be on my period during my trip and FOB!! SOON!#i have an incredible partner who loves and supports me and always jumps in to defend my craft and skills he is so handsome and good#my hair is purple!!! sometimes i forget then i remember#pasta literally exists. hard to be sad when there are so many pastas in this world. and so many sauces? incredible. life is so beautiful.#my skin flare up finally cleared and my tattoo is unharmed :’) and the fic I’m most proud of is nearing 100 kudos which is crazy to me#Omg my OTPs also literally exist!! Rotating them around in my mind forever and always
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Sadistic vampire lord kidnapping and turning his human bride (literally or just by role) into a vampire? Then caring for said bride when they wake up hungry.
YAN! SADISTIC! VAMPIRE LORD x FEM! READER
tw(s): kidnapping, yandere, bro is lowkey mean!!! a/n: ty for requesting! feel free to send more reqs!! (posted this late bc school!!!!1!!!!)
YOU NEVER THOUGHT THERE was anything wrong, or strange about him.
He even proposed to you.
He acted like a normal human.
You saw him, his skin had become ashen, his nails pointed and long. Yet, his eyes stayed the same. The same look he had when he first met you.
"You-" You stopped, unsure what to say, unsure of how to respond to him.
"I'm?"
"You're a monster," your voice was quiet when you spoke, almost a whisper. You felt your lips dry, your fingers cold, but your heart racing with fear.
He laughed, a cold and mirthless sound that made your skin crawl. "Yes, my dear," he said, tracing a finger over your cheek. "I suppose I am."
He revealed his fangs then, as if to underline the fact that there was nothing human left in him. "But you'll come to love me," he said, his eyes glinting with a cruel light. "I'll make sure of that."
You were frozen when his mouth came closer, your heart pounding in your chest. Your wide eyes locked onto his sharp fangs, glistening with a hunger that sent shivers down your spine. The room felt suffocating as he leaned in, his breath icy against your skin.
"No," you managed to whisper, the single word filled with desperation and fear.
But he paid no heed to your pitiful plea. Instead, a sinister smile twisted his lips as he brushed his lips against the vulnerable curve of your neck. His touch was both chilling and electric, sending a wave of anticipation mixed with dread coursing through your veins.
As his fangs grazed your flesh, you felt an excruciating pain surge through your body. You gasped, a strangled cry escaping your lips, but the sound quickly faded into the air as darkness clouded your vision. It was as if your very life force was being drained from you, leaving you weak and helpless.
Your consciousness wavered, teetering on the edge as your body succumbed to the transformation that was taking place. In the midst of the agony, a strange sense of euphoria began to weave its way into your thoughts, blurring the line between pleasure and torment.
Everything around you became a blur of shadows and whispers, as if reality itself was warping under the weight of this dreadful transition.
Your last coherent thought before succumbing to unconsciousness was a desperate plea for freedom, for escape from the clutches of him.
"You're awake," he hummed, sitting next to you watching as you rubbed your eyes open.
You could hardly remember what happened before, your hand flying to touch your neckwhere he had bitten you. You felt the mark still there, a slight ache under your fingers. You looked up at him, at the monster who had turned you into a creature of the night.
"You're a vampire," you mumbled, glancing around the room in confusion. "And I am too?"
He nodded, an expression of intense pleasure on his face. "Yes, my darling. I have turned you into one too."
You didn't know what to say.
Yet you were hungry.
Thirsty almost.
"I'm hungry," you said simply, staring at him.
He folded the collar of his shirt, making his neck more accessible.
"Bite away."
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Smut Alphabet -- Eobard Thawne
NSFW Alphabet // Eobard Thawne
(Legends//Mattobard)
Well, as a present to you all, here you go!
This is looooooong, but let me know if you guys want an Eowells one at some point.
NSFW under the cut
A=Aftercare - What they do/act like after sex.
This really depends on the context and type of sex, as well as partner preference. If his partner has a clear preference in post-sex cuddles or other favorite go-to’s, he’s very willing to accommodate.
On his own, he’s not often one to be super overt about affection, especially if he’s really realizing he has significant feelings towards someone. He’d never admit it, but it brings out a sort of vulnerability that terrifies him. Yet, over time and as he grows more comfortable with his partner, he’s much quicker to pull you close and contentedly let his hands wander over your hair and body, whispering sweet words against your skin.
If it’s a rough quickie he may not dote, but he would show his affections in a quieter way. Something like a deep kiss and redressing you at lightning speed, pulling you close with the twinge of a smile on his face as his hands gently smoothe over your hair.
If you two had to hurry back to the group, you’re discrete about it. However, he does holds you tighter to him afterward. When you two walk, he’s practically glued to you, his hands on you, body always pressed against you in some way.
B=Bondage - Are they into BDSM, and how far they’ll go if they have a green light.
That’s a big yes for him. Even more vanilla sex with him still has something of an edge of kink. He practically gets off on any control alone. Add an actual sexual element and he’s very into it. He has quite an imagination, and a filthy mind.
With the green light, he’ll have quite a bit of fun trying different things with you. He loves seeing you restrained, handcuffed, or tied in any way, and will absolutely make you beg for everything he gives you. Call him Daddy, Sir, or Master and prepare yourself to be very well taken care of.
C=Cum -
Prefers to come inside of you, but he also enjoys seeing you covered in it. One favorite he has is coming down your throat while his hand rests on the back of your head, making sure you catch every last drop of him
D=Dom - Are they dominant, submissive, a switch?
Very dominant.
This isn’t to say that he minds the occasional switch-up every now and then. (and though he’d never admit it, he absolutely used to fantasize about being dominated by the Flash)
That being said, even with any changes of pace, his default is very much dominant.
E=Edgeplay - Similar to ‘Kinks’ except it’s a lot riskier than usual kinks (knifeplay, breathplay, etc.).
Let’s say, Eo is a bit of a boundary pusher. If something is an expressed no-go, he won’t push it, but with the go-ahead, he’s certainly willing to try a lot of things.
He has a bit of a sadistic streak, so it may get him going if you have any slight masochistic tendencies, but ultimately loves to see you satisfied and wanting him more than anything.
He’s too proud to admit it, but he wouldn’t mind being edged. Also, he equally enjoys when you’re a bit rough with him.
In the right context, he’d try knifeplay.
If you ask him to choke you, he’ll oblige with a frankly unsettling eagerness, but will never have you doubting for your own safety. He likes seeing you squirm and beg for him, but he’d never hurt his precious kitten.
F=Fantasy - A fantasy of theirs (ex: a teacher/student fantasy).
Absolutely has a Professor kink and student/teacher fantasy
Anything involving you tied to things and in various places
G=Got Caught - How they react when they get caught having sex.
Too into it, less in an exhibitionist way, but more in a show-off way. He wants others to know who you’re with and that you’re off limits. It wouldn’t last long though, if at all with his superspeed. He’s more content to let the two of you be overheard than seen.
H=Hot Spots - A place that drives them crazy when stimulated
Kiss down his torso and linger on his lower abdomen and you’ll notice the rapid rise and fall of his chest and maybe a gasp if you tease across it with your lips before going down on him.
He’ll melt under any kiss to his neck or collarbone. The softer it is, the more likely you might get an involuntary shiver from him. Running your hands through his hair and tracing your fingertips across the back of his neck will elicit a similar effect.
I=Intimacy - How romantic they are, or can be, before, during, or after sex.
Getting there is the hard part. Once you reach a point of intimacy with him, he has a surprising romantic streak. He is very observant about what you like and prefer, and wants you to want him more than anything, so expect to be thoroughly wooed when he’s in that mood.
J=Journey - Their ideal way of leading up to sex
This man is a tease, and can be quite patient, but not as patient as he thinks himself to be. He will plan a drawn out teasing process, but if you tease him, you better believe the two of you will be zoomed away to a private place in a heartbeat.
K=Kinks -
Kinky boi
Being dominant in any capacity.
(But also lowkey being dominated in the right setting)
Just generally gets off on power dynamics of any kind. Again, call him Daddy, professor, Master, Sir, or take your pick because either way you’re going to be sore later.
Light choking kink
Lowkey worship kink
Restraints in any way (handcuffs, ropes, gags, collars, chains, this boy is kink)
L=Location - Where they like to have sex at, do they like risky locations, etc.
Preferably quitter places, but also anywhere.
He’s into fucking in a lot of questionable locations, with the possibility of being caught. (but without the real possibility, given his speed.)
M=Masturbation - How they are when they get themselves off, what they get themselves off to.
When you caught his attention early on, he found himself needing to and it was frustrated and quick. The same goes for when you two are apart, but he’s not opposed to phone sex. Most of the time this can be avoided, considering he can usually speed to wherever you are.
N=NO - A few things that they will absolutely, under no circumstances, ever do.
Not into anything involving urethral play or any other cock bondage devices
Not into super hardcore humiliation for himself or his s/o (with the exception of the Flash)
O=On’s - Their top turn on’s that they have (things that’ll get them super horny super quickly).
Calling him Daddy or any other preferred title in public, just soft enough for him to hear.
Teasing or pushing his boundaries while out and about (cheeky comments, verbal jabs, witty remarks in general)
Begging—literally you can extort the hell out of this and he even knows it. He gets a sort of high from listening to you beg, but on the flip side of this, if you beg for something he gets just as much satisfaction out of giving it to you as hearing it. He’d give you anything, literally anything.
Subtle habits you have that he picks up on when you’re completely oblivious to his watchful gaze. (running hands through your hair, biting your lips, smiling softly at something you read, ect.) Usually, not overtly sexual in nature, but once you notice and meet his eye, something switches in him and he feels the sudden need to pull you close into a heated kiss.
Ego, complement him and he’ll be horny without a doubt.
P=Position - Their favourite position to have sex in.
He loves having you bent over something, or on all-fours as he takes you from behind. He loves the power it gives him and how easy it is to yank your head back by the hair and drape his body over yours, whispering filthy words into the skin of your neck.
However, he equally loves being face to face, pinned to the mattress beneath him, making you meet his eyes as you writhe, begging and breathless in pleasure. He loves the closeness and intimacy it allows, while also allowing for the versatility to be as rough or gentle as he chooses.
Perhaps his favorite is gripping your hair and tilting your head back so you look back at him as he fucks you from behind, your hands gripping the sheets in front of you as he pulls your hips back to meet his. Add a couple of his fingers in your mouth, or a slight grip around your throat, and his composure won’t last very long.
Q=Quickie - Do they like it, do they prefer quickies over actual sex, etc.
He is obviously very good at quickies, but he likes to really take his time with you if time and situation allows for it.
Yet, he seems to always be ready to fuck in the more time sensitive scenarios. He’s equally content zooming you behind the nearest corner and fucking you hard against the wall, his hand over your mouth to stifle your moans as he whispers sweet filth into your ear.
He gently reminds you that ‘you wouldn’t want to be overheard now, would you?’
And he whispers praise of how ‘you’re being so good for him,’ as you try to stay quiet, pulling your legs wrapped around him to pull him closer.
R=Rough - How rough they are, or get, when in bed.
Rough boi
He generally loves being rough, but he can have his moments of both. He’ll certainly cater to whatever your preference generally is, but as a baseline of measurement, his gentle may still be a bit rougher than what would count as normal.
He wouldn’t be rougher without your consent, but with that he’d love to do whatever kink that would fulfil something for you, especially if it puts him in a position of control.
He’ll spank you, pull your hair, scratch, leave marks, bite, press you into the mattress beneath him, wrap his hand around your throat, and generally play rough, but he’s very observant to your reactions and controlled with anything that might be more dangerous.
S=Stamina - How long they can go before they tap out.
Too long.
Even when he’s pent-up and comes too quickly, he hardly has a long enough refractory period for you to even fully register him being hard again. He’s up for as many rounds as you are.
T=Toys -
Not super necessary, considering he’s practically a human vibrator.
U=Unfair - How much they tease you, how they tease you, etc.
Asshole supreme. Don’t expect sex without at least some begging first.
He’ll tease quite a bit, given how much he loves seeing you swirm, but maybe not as often as you might think. He can be quite a tease and seductive, but if he feels that you’ve been teasing him, his patience won’t last long. (Eowells, is a bit more patient compared to early Eobard)
V=Volume - How loud they get when having sex, things they might say, etc.
Quiet grunts, moans into your ears and skin, just soft enough to hear, filthy whispers about whatever you two are doing/ what he’d like to do. He’s eager to share a little glimpse into his filthy mind. Sometimes he comes with a louder moan, but more often if you two had a long night of foreplay.
W=Wild Card - a random letter for the character of your choice.
Affection— he’s a tough man to crack when it comes to emotional walls. He isn’t likely to have some emotional overt heart to heart with you, but he thrives on your affectionate touch. In his time, there was never much emphasis in his past on affection or any real human connection, even from his family. He is aware of his own tendency to become obsessive and approach a desire for human connection in a less than healthy way. He can’t help but become a bit breathless when you reach for him and pull him into hug, hold his hand, or place a gentle kiss on his lips or jaw, all of your own accord. For all his rationality, he can’t quite figure out how he got so lucky.
As big as his ego is, deep down, it’s a relief to him when you lean closer into his touch. He holds you close and absorbs every bit of affection you offer to him. He’s glad he did not need to show his less savory side to keep your attentions. Beneath the surface he’s very needy, and very protective.
X=X-Ray - How they look with their clothes off.
Definitely larger than average and well endowed. Neatly groomed with a light tuft of hair on his chest and a light happy trail.
Y=Yearning - How often they need to have sex.
He generally isn’t someone who feels sexual urges too often without a focus of interest. And he can usually shut out any sexual urges if he needs to accomplish a task.
But also his patterns of urges tend to change if he has a focal point of interest. Ordinarily, he didn’t waste much time with it, but with having you so close, quite often.
Z=ZZZ –
He’s not a quick sleeper, and even when he does, he requires fewer hours of it. So, expect him to silently plot and stroke your hair as he keeps you pressed against him. He’ll either curl around you, or have you curled against him, with your head on his chest and your arm around his middle.
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Doctor Who Series 12 Review Part 7/10: Can You Hear Me?
Air date: 9 February 2020
This was a pretty deep episode if you ask me. Dreams and nightmares have been explored in Doctor Who over the years, but this is the first time that we have gone deeper into them and linked it to mental health. Apparently, this was why a BBC Action Line tag was included in the original UK broadcast of the episode.
My spoiler-free thought for this episode: “Who let Gen Urobuchi touch the script for this episode?”
As the BBC Action Line was mentioned, I guess I have the duty to recommend some support lines before I start the review. This page has a vast collection of mental health hotlines and websites from around the world.
Spoilers continue after the break.
Character development everywhere
This episode managed to develop Graham, Ryan and Yaz’s characters at the same time as we gain an insight into their fears and nightmares. Graham’s fear was his cancer coming back and Grace being disappointed in him (which likely manifested as a result of the guilt of not being able to save her). Ryan’s fear was not being able to see his friend, Tibo, during his lifetime and the Earth turning into what would be Orphan 55 (as shown with the Dregs in his nightmare). Yaz’s fear was a bit confusing for me to decipher, but it seems to be being left alone with no one to help her.
At the end of the episode, it becomes evident that this experience inspires them to do something that furthers their characters. Ryan encourages Tibo to seek support or therapy for his depression. Yaz is inspired to seek the policewoman (Anita Patel, I hate it when they name characters in the credits and they don’t say who they are in the episode) who inspired her three years ago when she ran away from home to answer her bet. Graham confides to the Doctor his worries about his cancer potentially coming back.
At the same time, we also get an insight into the Doctor’s fear (at this point in time), which is evidently that of the Timeless Child and everything she knew being a lie. The Doctor’s previously known fear was back during his eleventh incarnation, namely the cracks in time not being fully resolved as a result of them leaving “scar tissue” in the fabric of the universe.
Overlords or not?
Zellin and Rakaya (the other imprisoned immortal whose name was never spoken in the episode) reminded me of the Overlords of Kamen Rider Agito... until we saw that they were both evil. I was going to put the Doctor into the equation, but then I realised that she is nothing like the Overlord of Light.
Let me clarify. In Agito, the Overlords are twin entities who embodied light and darkness. They created the world, but neither of them could agree on who would reign and so, they fought. After losing to his ‘brother’, the Overlord of Light bestowed his essence on humanity in the form of Agito’s power in the hope that they would evolve beyond his control. The Overlord of Darkness, however, saw to eliminate any who possessed Agito’s power and would have the potential to evolve into him.
Zellin and Rakaya are immortals who entertained themselves with the fears and nightmares of humans, while also destroying planets for their own amusement. The Doctor admires humanity’s potential and encourages them to be the best they can be, giving them as little assistance as possible so they can progress with their own abilities. In a way, they are somewhat like the Overlords, but they are not entirely like them at the same time.
A theory I missed about Ruth
I just realised something about Episode 5 that I forgot to include, namely the theory that Ruth was a pre-Hartnell Doctor. Now, I am of the belief that the First Doctor, as first shown in 1963, is the first of all the Doctor’s incarnations and that any attempt to shoehorn Ruth in at any point in the Doctor’s past (as we know to be) will be proof that the SJW agenda is here to stay.
Apparently, I saw that people were using the Fourth Doctor story The Brain of Morbius as evidence that the Doctor has had incarnations before the First Doctor, as we knew it, and used it as a theory that Ruth could be a pre-Hartnell Doctor. This is shown during the mindbending sequence near the end of the fourth part, where we saw a face apparently belonging to Morbius, then the faces of the Doctor’s previous incarnations, then eight other faces taken from the production team of the time.
Assuming the eight other faces were the Doctor’s previous incarnations and the Doctor can only regenerate twelve times, here’s my theory. Ruth could be a “missing” incarnation in the eight, making the Fourth Doctor the last incarnation in this particular regeneration cycle. The Watcher merging with the Fourth Doctor in his regeneration story, Logopolis, could represent him gaining a new regeneration cycle, but between that and the Eleventh Doctor gaining another regeneration cycle, there are still four incarnations left unaccounted for.
Going by this article on the TARDIS Data Core, some classic-era material seemed to imply that Hartnell’s Doctor wasn’t the first, with even Philip Hinchcliffe, producer of The Brain of Morbius, saying that it was his intention to do so. However, at this point in time, there has been no attempt to confirm this fact, so my belief regarding the Doctor’s incarnations has not deviated from the mainstream view. People can say that those faces were randomly generated or that they originally belonged to Morbius and I’d be inclined to agree with them.
At this point in time, all the episode titles for Series 12 have been revealed. With the final episode of the series aptly being named “The Timeless Children”, I hope the issue of Ruth being the Doctor can be explained, hopefully with the appearance of the Master.
Other general thoughts
The exposition of the two planets was animated in cartoon form. What is this, Homestuck?
Is it just me, or did the Doctor manage to summon her sonic screwdriver into her hand while they were cuffed? I’m sorry, but that is a deus ex machina right there. Someone stated on Twitter that the cuffs were magnetised, but there has been no indication or explanation that that is the case.
According to this Radio Times article, some fans said that the Doctor was apparently dismissive of Graham’s concern regarding his cancer coming back, particularly this fan on Twitter, who lost his grandmother to cancer. Um, the Doctor literally said she was socially awkward and her fam has known her for so long that they should know it, given her alien nature. It’s not the first time the Doctor has struggled with being sensitive towards vulnerable people. If it’s any consolation, she stated that she would eventually think of something that she should have said. If she was actually being dismissive, she’d be more like the Twelfth Doctor during Series 8.
I know I’ve hardly ever mentioned Bowlestrek during the course of these reviews, but I can’t help but say this. I’ve seen some of his reviews of this series, out of curiosity, and while I still agree with his sentiment somewhat, I can’t help but feel that he’s become a shadow of what he was two years ago, during Series 11. Heck, I made rants on a very divisive aspect of anime and video game localisation for five years and it only took three years to make me realise that I’ve become a shadow of myself, and yet I still went on for two more years after that. But I digress; I still think The Oldest Nerd does more level-headed reviews. Tharries sums Bowlestrek up quite well here.
Summary and verdict
This was another thought-provoking episode. If you go on to read the next section, you’ll see how this episode inspired me to talk a little bit about the lowlights of my life.
The characters got decent character development and while we didn’t get any more progress in the Timeless Child arc, it’s good to be reminded that it exists and that it is one of the Doctor’s biggest fears.
Rating: 8/10
Being as personal as possible (without going into too much detail)
Before I go IRL, let me tell you about a fan of mine from years ago. When I first started the Koei Warriors Rant Series, there was a fan who followed me as I presented my research on English dubbing in video game localisation. This person was trans and they had split personalities - a boy one, a girl one, and a third one they claimed was an evil one. They were lucky to be one of the only fans I added on my personal Facebook as I was posting to Koei Tecmo’s page from there before I moved it to the Yeonchi page. Over the years, I saw stories of them writing about their depression and how their family treated them like shit. Near the end, I reported a post where they said they were going to commit suicide by taking a lot of pills - this was their second time if I remember correctly. I still have the screencap of that post. Some months later, they deactivated their Facebook account and I never heard from them again. I presumed they committed suicide given some of their posts, but I never thought about emailing them or anything until I had already started writing the review for this episode. I have no idea if she’ll reply eventually, but if she doesn’t, then I guess my intuition may have been correct all along.
I was going through a random mood before and after I watched this episode. Before I watched it, my mind, for no reason, suddenly triggered my anger towards something I thought I’d forgiven years ago when I lowkey haven’t (which is why I elected to forget it in the hope that it’d be the same). After I watched it, I, for unrelated reasons, was “reminded” of a few people from high school (it’s a harmless habit that usually goes undetected by others that I’m also hoping to reduce) who I didn’t hang out with a lot, but they intrigued me in different ways. Like the Doctor admits, I have been socially awkward and am trying to overcome it little by little as I see old friends wherever I go (which frankly is a rarity for me), so I have different thoughts about them now than I did back then; I probably wouldn’t have been able to understand those current feelings back then.
One person was another socially awkward person like me, but she had managed to make a few friends in her locker area (she was special enough to have a locker with a few other special students in the year level above her instead of everyone else in our year level). Because of how “similar” our situations were, there were one or two times when our friends shipped us together (as a joke) and I was pissed at it because I never felt that way towards her. We did work together on a few pieces of schoolwork though. The real hitter for me regarding her was when I saw her contribution to an autism awareness project where she mentioned that she was homeschooled up until late into primary school and that she was bullied during the two years each in primary and high school. I was largely unaware that she had been bullied at all (though I did hear a story or two) and, for a great deal of the last decade, I was unaware that I had contributed to it indirectly by filming her on a couple of occasions during camp, screaming and crying at things normal people would have deemed harmless.
Another person was this girl I had this huge crush on during my entire time in high school. She was aware of it and she never loved me back, but the thing I hated about it was the fact that she didn’t tell me directly, in person or on Facebook; no, she was enough of a coward to have her cousin do it for her. Admittedly, while I did show a lot of animosity towards her, hatred even, my crush for her never subsided. If we were in an actual relationship, we’d be flip-flopping between being the abuser and the victim. At the time, I denied feeling this way because my anger and addictions to Dynasty Warriors, later tokusatsu, seemingly covered it up (I was very chuunibyou at the time and had fantasies of fighting her, wrong I know), but at this point, years after we graduated high school, I accepted that I did feel jealous of her, not just because she had a lot of friends and hung out with them all the time, but because she also hung out with a few boys and I was paranoid enough to think that they were in a relationship. I remember fictionalising all this as part of my personal project (that has a big connection with Doctor Who) ala Chris-chan with this girl and her friends as the villains. The main character (not the Doctor) of the project has a turbulent relationship with her - them being together represented my delusion of wanting to be with her, while them being apart and killing each other represented how she didn’t love me back and how I saw it as us hating each other. At this point, I’m planning on ending the personal project, so I put them back together and made them average characters just so I didn’t have to end the story with them killing each other.
The final person really pissed me off because of the way she acted towards the end of our friendship; she was a wolf in sheep’s clothing. She was a cold and socially awkward person when we first met, but over time, she warmed up to social interaction and we eventually became friends. At the end of Year 10, she moved to a different school because her dad just up and signed the contract for their new home. We still stayed in contact for the next few years and caught up with each other, even. Our catchup outings were generally pleasant, but there was this one time where it left a sour taste in my mouth. We went out to watch San Andreas with another friend of ours. We parted with our friend after the movie ended (he was also socially awkward like me) and soon after that, she got pissed off at me for no damn reason, other than me being blunt in our Facebook chats (remember, I was socially awkward at the time as well, but I still tried my best to carry a conversation even if I wasn’t good at it). I had no idea why she suddenly decided to be a bitch to me at the time, aside from a suspicion that she was PMSing at the time. We made up after that, but our friendship continued to drift as time passed. We managed to get into the same university, but we weren’t able to catch up as much as we wanted to because we did different courses and had different timetables. By the time that ungrateful slut (and no, I won’t apologise for that, that’s my honest opinion) deleted me from Facebook, she had a boyfriend and was going out to clubs quite a bit; it was like she became the protagonist of 177013, only she didn’t get injected with drugs and become a megaslut.
Sometimes, I imagine how happy I could have been if things had been different. Sadly, I have to live with the consequences of my actions, intentional or not, for the rest of my life. Many people seem to think that depressed women are the only people we should show compassion to, but they also seem to forget that men like myself can get depressed as well. At the moment, I’m doing just fine; I have a goal I want to strive for and I don’t intend on giving up until I get it - or someone gets to it first.
Stay tuned next week as I review the eighth episode, The Haunting of Villa Diodati.
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