#I love this family so so damn much god helpppp

[arunikas]

ー𝒊𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒑 𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒓𝒖𝒆

𝖳𝗁𝖾𝗒 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝖾𝖺𝖼𝗁 𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋. 𝖠𝗇𝖽 𝗂𝗍'𝗌 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗆𝖺𝗍𝗍𝖾𝗋𝗌.

Boruto held back his exasperated sigh upon seeing his dad's been following him around the house after they got back from the battle. He was also fully aware how his dad tried to make it subtle but how could he not notice? Boruto could feel all the lingering gaze like Naruto wouldn’t even let a second slip away without him in his sight. Or how Naruto had leaned beside the bathroom door, waiting for him to step out, just to check that he was still there and okay, until he finally walked away when Boruto gave him a questioning look.

Boruto understood the worry and relief still devoutly apparent on his father’s face. After all, he’d experienced the same thing back when they fought against Isshiki. The thought of losing his dad was still sharp in his memory; the gripping dread as he waited for his dad to open his eyes or every ticking second that passed through as it howled out the hymn of death; each of them just kept reminding him just how horrendous, dire, and soul-numbing it was to almost lose someone you loved.  

Thus, he didn’t really have the heart to straight up telling his dad to leave him alone. Not to mention when he still could see the troubled expression plastered on his face.  

But, the moment his dad followed his step into his bedroom, did Boruto finally lose his control of the words he’d been holding all along. “Cut it out already, Tou-chan–” but his sentence was cut midway after he swung his body and found Naruto standing past the door frame while looking at him with eyes faintly glistening with a layer of crystal clear water. Hints of tears already drowning his blue eyes. 

Boruto gulped, swallowed down the words he was meaning to say. When he looked up straight into his dad’s eyes though, Naruto immediately averted his gaze as if he didn’t want to show him another view of his vulnerable side–knowing how his son would feel bad and awkward on the matter. 

Boruto’s more like a tsundere type, sometimes cringes when he witnesses his parents being lovey-dovey with their shameless show of affection (which is an everyday view in the household), but right at that moment, he softened up. Something within his chest melted and clenched at once–if that even makes sense–upon seeing his dad looking almost dead in front of him.

And he felt so bad for making him look like that. After all, the decision of everything that had transpired was nothing but his own will. And Kawaki being the other party that had agreed to execute the rest of what he thought was the only possible way out if the worst case scenario really happens. Until it really did. 

Boruto knew his dad was holding himself back and he decided to be the one opening the door for him. He slowly spread his arms, looking at his dad with very slight blush on his face, then saying, “You know, you can give me a hug if you want–” and the next thing he knew, without even having the chance to finish his sentence, was his dad’s big, warm embrace holding him a little bit too tightly. He was slightly taken aback, until he slowly returned the hug and let them stay like that for a moment. He felt so small yet it also tugged on his heartstrings of the faint familiar feeling melted from inside his chest. 

Naruto still hadn’t said anything but Boruto could very much feel the uneven and anxious breathing his dad labored. Exactly like that time when he had hugged him on top of the hokage monument, with a promise from a father in which he found solace beneath his words. 

“...so–sorry…” Naruto whispered amidst his heavy breathing. “...I didn’t even know…that you’ve made a decision to such an extent… What kind of a father am I? I wasn't even aware of what my own son has been bearing… I’m sorry, Boruto… Tou-chan is so sorr–”

“It’s not your fault, Tou-chan,” Boruto calmly cut him. He clenched his fist onto his father’s back shirt and whispered, “It’s never your fault. I’m a shinobi, remember? You should know better than anyone what it entails once we put Konoha's hitai-ate on our head. Death is always one step away for people like us. And I’m always ready to die–”

“Don’t say that–” he choked on his voice, “...just please…don’t say that.” Boruto gulped, biting his own tongue, and gave him a curt nod to replace his remaining words left unspoken. 

As much as Naruto knew how true what Boruto said was, he didn’t–would never–have it in him to hear him say it out loud. And as much as he wanted to deny the fate that had befall onto them, it would never stop being true. 

But he also knew one other thing he could be so sure more than anything else in the world, that also would never stop being true.

“You know, Boruto… No matter how much fate hates us…or even if the whole world goes against you, you’ll always have me. You’ll always have your Kaa-chan. You’ll always have your family…” Naruto tried to hold back the quiver on his lips. “The fact that you are our son will never stop being true. It will never stop being true.”

Boruto felt his throat tighten. Finding himself unable to utter a single word, he made way for a nod as an answer. The hug didn’t even loosen up even the slightest and, as uncharacteristically as it may sound, Boruto felt as if it wasn’t enough. Maybe that’s one of the little things he failed to take into account when he sealed his resolve with Kawaki: he took those small things for granted. He already anticipated the worst case scenario of what the future may hold thus he’d been preparing himself for it. But, truth be told, he still never knew when that doom would finally befall upon him. That hug might be their last. That moment with his dad might be their last. And with that now deeply engraved in his mind, he held his dad tighter like how he should have been. 

After a while they spent in each other’s embrace, Boruto finally broke their silence again. “Tou-chan, I’m kinda tired, ya know,” he carefully whispered.

“Oh, right,” Naruto slowly released his son from his embrace, “I’ll let you rest now.” 

Straightening up his posture, Naruto put his hands on Boruto’s shoulders and gave him a gentle squeeze. “Sorry for holding you back from your rest,” he said as he gazed tenderly into another pair of blue eyes mirroring his own. He patted his head and spun around to walk out.

But, it was only a step away when a tug on his sleeve stopped him from his track. He looked back at his son, “What’s wrong?”

“You can stay here…if you want, that is.” Boruto already sensed that his dad didn’t really want to leave yet and just for today, he wanted to push his pride at bay and let his inner child get what he wants. 

Trying to hide his blush, Boruto hurriedly spun around and walked toward his bed. He tucked himself comfortably under his blanket while Naruto dragged a chair for him to sit beside the bed. 

“Now you really look like a kid, ya know,” Naruto chuckled.

“Stop it. I’m a tough shinobi, ya know!”

Naruto laughed as he saw the faint blush on his face, before he shuffled on his bed to face the wall, his back to him. He was trying to hide himself and Naruto found it really cute. 

“I’m really gonna sleep now. You can leave if you want.” His voice was muffled beneath the blanket but Naruto still managed to catch it clearly.

“Nah, I’m good.” 

As much as he hated being watched as he slept, Boruto was willing to endure it that time. Until finally his weariness got the best of him and embraced his whole sense into a deep, comfortable slumber.

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Hinata knew something had happened. She realized it right away after his husband and only one son came back home. Kawaki was submitted to the hospital, Naruto had told her. But, she could easily sense something was more to it. The distraught expression and his tear-stricken face just spoke volumes, louder than the words he couldn’t bring himself to say yet.

As unfathomable as it was, she could feel the faint dread settle on the pit of her stomach, giving away a familiar feeling as to that time when they lost Kurama. Like something was lost, but she couldn’t really grasp her hands on it precisely. 

So, she decided to wait for his explanation. Whenever Naruto was ready.

She closed the photo album when she heard the quiet creak of their bedroom door being pushed open, then putting it on the nightstand and looking up to see Naruto there. He smiled at her. And he looked so tired. He looked so tired like he’d just aged a few years older in the span of that few hours he was away to chase after their sons. Whatever had happened there on the battlefield, she’d already prepared herself to hear it. They were a family of shinobi. And something like that should never be something new to them. 

She glanced at the clock briefly to find out that it was already past midnight. She knew Naruto had been spending his time in Boruto’s room, for whatever reason it was they spent on doing.

Hinata waited for Naruto as he walked slowly toward their bed. His head hung lower and lower the more he approached her until he stopped on the bedside. Standing still.

“Hinata,” he spoke, though it was more like a whisper. He finally mustered the strength to lift his gaze and settle them in the cradle of her gentle eyes.

When their eyes made the contact, a soft sigh followed by a small smile escaped her lips.  “Come here,” she said, spreading her arms wide, ready to hold him. 

Naruto didn’t say anything as he made his way up to the bed, succumbing himself into his wife’s embrace, and settled his head on the crook of her neck. He needed that. He desperately needed that. It always struck him in a surprisingly comforting way how Hinata could always understand him without him needing to say a single word. Like he’d always been an open book for her to read. And he had always, would always, and would never stop finding comfort in her smallest act of gestures and cares. 

As she gently rubbed the broad of his back, Naruto was lulled into a calmer state of mind. But, the calmer his mind got, the more and more clear it was for him to recall everything inside his head. All the events that had just happened to his sons came flooding in a slow motion kind of flashback. Like a broken record refusing to stop and haunt him with its gripping dread. 

He found himself starting to breathe deeper, rougher. Every inhale and exhale became a labor of inconvenience, and instinctively, the only thing he could manage was to tighten his embrace on her. Like a ship seeking anchor during a storm in the vast ocean. 

Hinata noticed the sudden changes of his state but couldn’t do anything other than holding him in her utmost care while humming an old lullaby she always used to put her children to sleep. 

“It’s okay…it’s okay… I’m here,” her voice dropped like silk on his ears.

“Hinata…Hinata…” he whispered. She thought she had imagined it at first but the longer she felt it, the more she was sure of what it was. Her pajama was wet. Naruto was crying. 

“I’m–sorry… I’m sorry… I–I’m sorry...” And her assumption was confirmed by his shaking voice, choked by his own sobs. She caressed the back of his head, sparing him all the care she could possibly give…and waited.

“I almost… We almost lost–our son–”

The gentle movement of her hands suddenly came to a halt. She felt her hands start to tremble the more Naruto wailed in her embrace. 

“I was right there… Boruto was right in front of me, yet–” he choked on his breath and his sobs broke louder, “–yet I couldn’t do anything. I–I failed him… I’m so sorry Hinata… I’m so sorry…”

So, there’s nothing to worry about, Boruto. If anything were to happen to you, I’d give my life to stop it from happening.

The promise Naruto had made to his son rang deafeningly inside his head. Just like a knife stabbing right to his chest, Naruto found it too hard to bear because of the fact that he had failed his son. He failed him. He failed his promise.

And he couldn’t do anything but continued to cry.

Hinata’s hands went cold as ice, she could barely feel anything from her fingertips. Hinata reached to cup his cheeks and pull his head to look up at her. Bloodshot eyes stared back at her lavender irises, tears never stopped streaming down his cheeks.

“But Boruto is…okay?”

Naruto shook his head. “Momoshiki…he did something to revive him… Boruto was–” he averted his gaze, drops and drops of tears flowed down heavier from his eyes as he looked down, “Boruto was de–” Hinata hurriedly pulled his head back to her chest, hugged him into her tight embrace, attempting to stop him from continuing his words. She couldn’t. She couldn’t possibly bring herself to hear whatever he was about to say.

They stayed like that, hugging each other tightly as he continued his sobs while mumbling an endless sorry with a broken voice. 

She should have been prepared. It shouldn’t be something new to her. After all, she’d spent years and years in the grim reality of their cruel world…in the war…or how being a shinobi had cost her many and many of her fallen comrades.

The hymn of death was the song trailing their every step once they pledge their soul to be a shinobi. Giving one’s very lifeblood and devoting their every breath to protect their people. She should be used to that concept of a lifestyle. She should have been prepared the moment she sent her son off to the academy.

Yet, hearing how easy it could have been for her son to slip away from her life, forever, Hinata found that slapping fact felt like a thousand piercing thorns ripping her chest into shatters.

“I had promised him, as his father, to protect him with my life… yet…yet I held him as his body went cold–” he paused to catch on his erratic breathing, “...I couldn’t do anything to stop that. I was so helpless, Hinata… I’m sorry…I’m sorry…”

Hinata cradled his cheeks to make their eyes meet. “It wasn’t your fault…it wasn’t…please stop blaming yourself.” She leaned in then kissed his quivering lips. She rested their forehead together and they stayed like that for a moment.

Hinata didn’t even realize since when did her tears start flowing down her face, if it wasn’t for Naruto’s thumbs weakly wiped them off her cheeks. “I…I failed you…I’m sorry…”

She shook her head, a small smile managed to form on her lips. “Uh-hum..you already did your best, didn’t you?” she gulped down a hard lump on her throat all the while holding back the choked breath that almost slipped out her lips, “Boruto is fine. Our son is fine now.” 

Naruto looked solemnly at her, not saying anything. Hinata could easily read how he still blamed himself inside his head, so she only did the best she could do at that very moment. 

She gathered him into another long, tight embrace. 

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In the dead of night, Boruto didn’t wake up even when he felt somebody carefully crawled up his bed and gathered him into a warm, soft embrace. It was loving. It was gentle. And it was comfortable. 

It was his mother.

He still didn’t wake up when not long after that, he felt another bigger body settled itself on his other empty side. A hand stretched out to reach both his and his mother’s body, gathering them together. It was strong. It was protective. But it was still loving.

It was his father.

When the dawn broke, Boruto found his little sister already nuzzled herself on the crook of his neck. Both his parents were still there on his side. He felt at peace. He felt all his worries vanished like they had been just a lie. He felt like everything was gonna be just fine. And he decided to close his eyes again, to let that moment last longer. 

That day, the storm was looming above the home that had always been filled with sunshine. But, no matter how grim the doom was hovering above them, they still had each other as a family. The fact that they’re family would never stop being true.

It will never stop being true.   

[lynn-tged-posting]

tged webtoon ep 166 spoilers and thoughts that are late again sorry about that it's starting to get really cold and my hands are freezing but it's fine below cut

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ALICIA AT THE END OF THIS EP SHES SO. PRETTY SO SO PRETTY HELP OH MY GOD IM . HEL P . HELPPPP YUOR MAJESTY UR TOO GORGOEUS

committing to the fake dating / fake engagement bit is CRAZY HELP ?? ??? HJELP ???? ? ??? WHAT IS HAPPENING

back to the top of the insanity

genuinely i am so glad that we r getting snippets of javier and alicia interacting i know its really brief but this episode rlly cemented in my mind that they're besties . they talk shit and poke fun at lloyd but also they both rlly just want him to fucking live . the besties ever

they're gonna beat the SHIT out of lloyd with so much love and faith and care and genuine hope for him and they're both gonna team up for it and lloyd cannot escape. JAVIER AND ALICIA TEAM UP IS CRAZY. I LOVE IT

also speaking of lloyd HES GOING. THRU IT GOD FUCKING DAMMIT WAAAHHHHH

losing my mind at the untouched food bc i figure he's absolutely taking it just to ease the minds of his family/friends who are bringing the food to him but he cant even bring himself to actually eat it to sustain himself this fucking hruts to look at . even when he's at his lowest he doesnt want to worry people (which kind of failed but damn did he try) IM GONNA EAT MY HAND

it was really REALLY sweet to see his summons and the system message box trying to get him to get up, to live again,,, is today's ep the like tagteam episode or smth they keep teaming up on lloyd . good i need that mf to LIVE

also sorry saying again but gghghh this moment too where even when lloyd doesnt feel like eating or living, he'll do whatever he can to make those around him happy . he keeps doing that, the things he chooses to do always end up being for somebody else, not just him. it's never just for him. he doesn't really admit or realize that though god he's the most selfless bastard ive seen in my fucking life I WANT YOU TO WANT TO LIVE

AND THEN THE FUCKING. COUNT AND COUNTESS ADMITTING THAT THEY KNEW JAVIER WAS LYING GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I SHOULDVE KNOWN JAVIER REALLY IS A TERRIBLE LIAR OF COURSE THEYD FUCKING NOTICE

and at that we FINALLY see a panel of lloyd that shows at least one eye . now he knows that they know,,,,,,,

i really really like whenever the illustrator pulls stuff off like this, where we dont really See them until really hardhitting moments . for the entire time before this panel it was as if lloyd was just,,, shut down. barely even there. not being able to see his face cemented that, and then lloyd hearing the count and countess talk,,, it's like a flip of a switch, both for him and for the reader, and i really REALLY like that. god my HEARTTT GHHH

especially when the count n countess choose to believe in him anyway. to wait for the truth ghghalsdkjflahsdf their patience and their willingness to . listen for the truth my heart my heart i cant .

AND LLOYDS REACTION TO THAT I . GOD THERE HE GOES AGAIN LIVING FOR OTHERS JESUS CHRIST LLOYD GOD FUCK. EITHER WAY HE'S GOING TO LIVE HE'S GONNA LIVE HE WANTS TO LIVE HE WANTS TO LIVE AAAAAAAAAAH AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

i need u guys to understand i started fucking shaking when i saw this

the difference in lighting and framing in these panels compared two the other shots we've had of him i feel INSANEEE WWWHWHHHH

like the one on the left god it's so SO bright now . the fact that the count and countess are waiting for him, are being so patient with him, they want the truth from him so he needs to live to give them the truth and that's just like a window being open to let the stale air out and new fresh life fresh air inside im gonna . feel sick

and the panel on the right he still looks a bit worse for wear but theres that determined look in his eyes again, they're solid and bright and warm and they're not shaking or blank and i feel so so fucking happy HES GONNA LIVE EVERYBODY HES WANTS TO LIVE HE WANTS TO LIVE

taking things one step at a time, ,,,, even when its hard he's so fucking determined god ohhhhghhh my heart you can do it lloyd u can beat it!!! the summons are so sweet too they look just as determined to help him get to his feet again i feel so sick

OVERCOME!!! OVERCOME!!!! OVERCOME!!!! LLOYD!!!!!!

AND THEN WHEN. ALICIA ARRIVES. ALL OF THEIR REACTIONS HONESTLY ME FUCKING TOO I WAS SO FUCKING SHOCKED

im so so happy though im so glad things are looking up and the sillies are back lloyd lloyd lloyd you can do this alicia and javier will help you!!!! the count and countess will help you!!!!!!

step one lloyd back to himself, step two beat the shit out of fate, step three ??????, step four PROFIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM SO EXCITED TO SEE WHERE THEY GO WITH THIS IM SO EXCITED javier what do u have to say for urself. alicia u too. whose idea was this

anyway that's all from me rn i think if i get more brainworms ill add onto this post lol, sorry its not a lot! ill see yall next week (aka tmrw) (this is late lol)

[ritzcuit]

post soj datz makes me CRAAAAZYYYYY to think about.. bc these two kids!!! And maybe three sometimes but lowkey rayfa is notttt attached to him like that and has a whole different support system so it's even more awkward. but he helped raise yuty and aj!! he knows and loves them.... but then -it's been so many years. a lot of time has passed since he helped care for yuty and even more for aj and beyond that ... theyre both adults now! so i like to think about the datz who wants to Help, by god he wants to help so badly, but what position is he in to help at all, you know? and it's like ... how much of his help do they even want or need? THEY'RE ADULTS!!!

like he finds himself at night asking dhurke for guidance (in a mental way not a channeling way) bc god knows he needs it ... but in a sense it's way easier to help two toddlers than it is two midlate 20s yr olds with Jobs... like. you cant put a fussy yuty to bed anymore bc he's the prince regent and can kick you out of the palace for that ,.. and also bc they have agency or whatever. :p

i mean its not impossible and datz isn't the kind of guy, i dont think, to really let it weigh him down...like if he oversteps or gets annoying, Oh Well, he's datz, he's annoying. if its all he can do to field incoming cases or run and grab lunch and make sure apollo eats that day, then at least its anything! if he can give yuty a hug and be entirely unsure as to whether that hug helped or hurt or neither or everything then like, at least there is a yuty to hug and at least he's there to do it. oh well!!

this is like, entirely a speculative thought, but datz's character has such Fixer vibes to me. (which lowkey everyone in ace attorney who isnt a culprit is a Fixer tm so like, yeah, but anyway) ... he's such a Helper. and in the face of his Immense Grief with dhurke .. a large part of why he needs to make sure aj and yuty are doing well is directly related to that grief. your sons are well and i miss you.. etc. he needs to Helpppp or else what is he even doing here!! And also he just loves those kids. but like. without dhurke there'd be no relation. he would not have met these kids you know? it's like how u said datz is the glue for that family... cus that's so REAL, but then i think some nights if datz is real low, he's like. these kids don't Need Me. they need dhurke and dhurke's not here and i'm not him.. like datz is the glue but glue can only hold for so long. do they even want him to hold on like that? but i don't think he's capable of sulking like that for too long anyway. the revolution didnt last so long by succumbing to the bad thoughts :-)

thinking abt that shift between younger childhood "silly uncle datz who let them play with the Big Knives so long as they promised not to tell dhurke (and then got in trouble bc dhurke found out)" vs being older and recognizing that the man who has no obligation to stick around after dhurke's death is still cutting apple slices for a mid-work snack and wont let you stay in your head about The Horrors all day without at least *trying* to interfere ... its like .... AAARGHH!!! THE DATZ!!! HE CARES ABT THESE DAMN KIDS!!!!!

can u imagine being Datz post-SOJ. suddenly now YOURE the single father with two kids and trauma just like Dhurke SDHBDS he can handle himself, but damn. it's probably hard on him, especially when he wants to be the rock for Apollo and Yuta. but Datz has a lot of people who love him, so i think he'll be okay

[saintobio]

[disclaimer: the entire time im talking about SN! Gojo, bc Canon Gojo has me acting up ngl]

Hello and welcome to another episode of ‘Men who don’t deserve rights’

On today’s episode, I will be continuing my exploration of Sincerely Not!Gojo bc mf needs to count his days.

IM LOOKING UP BECAUSE HE LET ME DOWN,

IM LOOKING DOWN BECAUSE HE GOT ME FUCKED UP,

IM LOOKING RIGHT BECAUSE HE LEFT,

IM LOOKING LEFT BECAUSE HE AINT RIGHT MF WRONG

Anyways, what was wild was that I was today years old when i found out that the S in Satoru mean Homeboy ain’t shit™

LIKE SHIT GOT ME FUCKED UP

I hope both sides of his pillow are warm tonight, I hope he gets a paper cut so deep it stings for days, I hope he wakes up and stubs his toe against the bed frame, I hope he slips in the shower, I can keep going but mf won’t give a fuck bout what i’m saying

This man just wants me to commit arson I swear

Kendrick Lamar once said Damn.

And let me tell you, the whole virginity loss scene got me so upset, like wooooooooooo, I felt so upset for homegirl here, THE FACT THAT SHE SAVED HERSELF FOR MARRIAGE, PUT IN SO MUCH EFFORT FOR HIM TO EVEN LOOK AT HER LOVINGLY, AND WAS DREAMING OF THE PERFECT FIRST TIME HAD ME SO UPSET BECAUSE MC JUST WANTS HIM TO AT LEAST SHOW A TINY BIT, MINUSCULE OF EFFORT INTO TRYING TO MAKE THE MARRIAGE TO WORK ALL FOR HIM TO JUST TAKE HER VIRGINITY AND BUST A QUICK NUT IN HERE JUST TO GET SHIT OVER WITH IT

BESTIE, SHE EVEN ASKED FOR A KISS KISS

A GOD DAMN KISS KISS

I’M ABOUT TO CURB STOMP HIS ASS JUST FOR FUN I SWEAR

ANDHEEVENHADTHEFUCKINGAUDACITYTOCALLSERAALLLOVEYDOVEYANDTELLHERTHATHESGOINGTOBRINGHERTHEREONEDAY

I DIDNT KNOW IT SMELLED LIKE BITCH IN HERE

THIS!

THIS RIGHT HERE IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT

Like don’t get me wrong, I am more than 100% aware that the Tag “unrequited” is apart of it and i’m living for the angst lmaooo

BUT THIS GOT ME SO LIKE LIVID. IM PISSED BUT IM ALSO UPSET LIKE SO MANY GOD DAMN EMOTIONS WERE GOING THROUGH ME BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY NO MATTER WHAT MC DOES, IT SEEMS LIKE HE’S NEVER GOING TO ACCEPT HER AND HER KIND PISCES HEART. I KNOW THAT ON HIS SIDE IT’S FUNKY TOO WITH BEING FORCED INTO A MARRIAGE AND THE WOMAN YOU LOVE ISN’T ACCEPTED BY YOUR FAMILY BUT FFS PISCES AND SAGITTARIUS ARE SUPPOSED TO BE A FAVORABLE MATCH INSTEAD HES MAKING MOST SAG MEN NOT CLAIM HIM

MC CAN NEVER WIN IN THIS SITUATION AND IT JUST BREAKS MY HEART, HE KNEW HE DIDNT WANT TO MARRY HER AND DID IT FOR DADDY’S MONEY OR WHATEVER AND SHES STATED THAT SHE WOULDN’T HAVE AGREED FOR HIM TO MARRY HER IF HE DIDN’T WANT TO, SHE IS TRYING HER HARDEST TO AT LEAST MAKE THE SITUATION WORK AND IS EVEN GOING TO THE LENGTHS OF MEETING SERA AND FIGURE OUT MORE ABOUT HIM

ILL BE THE FIRST ONE TO SAY THAT IM SO HAPPY THAT MC MET ALEXIS SO SHE AT LEAST COULD ENJOY HER “HONEYMOON” AND NOT BE ALONE

SATORU GOT ME ALL KINDS OF FUCKED UP IN THIS SITUATION AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT IS AMAZING WRITING RIGHT THERE AI, AS MUCH AS THE ANGST AND UNREQUITED TAG IS THERE AND BREAKING MY HEART, THE FACT IS THAT ITS 2 AM EST RN WHILE LISTENING TO HAPPIER AND IM FEELING SO MANY EMOTIONS AT ONCE JUST OVER THREE CHAPTERS IS JUST SOAGSDJFJDLS

LO QUE NO ENTIENDO ES POR QUÉ TODAVÍA NO LO HEMOS CASTRADO? YO CREO QUE ES UNA BUENA FORMA DE VENGANZA

So, to end this long episode of ‘Men who don’t deserve rights’ i would just like to say one thing and i mean it with all disrespect:

yuli this is the first time i’ve ever had you writing an essay of this much abt a chapter and i’m JSNSNDF yesss ur whole reaction is probably my mood as a reader like literally all the parts that you pointed out helpppp

[stonerbughead]

Maria watches friday night lights (#35)

5x12 baby, helpppp how are we already at the penultimate episode (already, i say, after dragging this first-ever watch out basically as long as humanly possible L O L why am i like this)

my reactions / recap / flailing under the cut

I see that Tyra is literally the preview photo so I’m already like OH SHITTTT

Tami coming home from the airport with potentially life-altering news...and Eric is asleep in front of the TV on the couch, clearly trying to wait up for her, my heart.

AHHH Julie’s home??? A surprise? This is so fucking cute! The ending vibes are definitely here.

Omg Tim are you good, baby? Is he throwing his bed out of the trailer? Damn he clearly has so much trauma from prison.

Damn NBC 8 is pulling up, that’s how you know it’s State. “It’s State, Levi, get used to it.” “No, I’ll NEVER get used to it!” Lmao i love Levi.

WOW look at Luke trying to set up childcare so moms can participate in a hearing about school funding! GO OFF KING

Omg i almost forgot Mindy was pregnant again. Billy’s so excited...oh fuck, TWINS? They’re gonna be so broke forever. Mindy is as horrified as I would be lmao

Oh shit, here we go...Tami’s finally telling Eric about the job offer...and admitting she wants it!!! AHH

“We’d have to move to Philadelphia.” “We live in Texas. Honey, Texas...is where our friends and family are. Texas is where I work, Texas is where I have my job.” Weren’t y’all just thinking about moving to Florida like two episodes ago? I smell a double standard, sir!

Ugh Eric is shutting down. “I can’t talk about this right now.” BISH

“How many times have we moved before for your job?” MMHMM that’s right, Eric! You look shell-shocked but you need to take that in, sit with it!

Tim Riggins behind the bar is hot. Just an observation.

Ugh, the tension between poor Tim and Billy. Tim’s gonna go to Alaska?! WOW did not see that plan coming!

“What the hell are you gonna do, sleep with a bunch of woodchucks?” BILLY WHAT LMAO

“You’re gonna leave Texas?” “YES.” I love the drama in both these back to back conversations about the thought of Leaving Texas.

Broken dryer, Jess, I’ve been there. Like right now, we have a broken dryer in our apartment. Ooh, Vince coming and finding her and being gentle!

Aw poor Jess. “I finally found a coach who was open-minded enough to let me in and not laugh at me. He lets me shadow him and teach me how to be a coach, and now they’re gonna take it all away.” These poor kids.

VINCE: “We won’t let that happen.” MY HEART. I love them.

Wow, Luke’s being sold a low-tier football program, isn’t he? “We just got a Costco, and a brand new movie theater in the town.” yikes.

How is a reporter asking Eric “are you worried he’s taking on too much?” about a teenage boy. Like, how do they know this much about Vince’s life? Texas football culture will forever amaze me, even after watching almost the entire series.

“We haven’t even scratched the surface of what Vince Howard can do.” AWWW my heart! Eric is such a good coach.

Oh wow, the East Dillon Lions vs. Dillon Panthers funding debate!!! Did they send a Booster Club representative here to Buddy’s door to shake him down? “There’s gonna be a lot of changes.” Like what IS THIS?

“Vince Howard is gonna be a Panther.” This is... A Lot. “That chair at the head of the table is waiting on you.”

Oh nooooo Tim getting physical with a customer.

“I’ve been waiting five minutes for my drink.” FAMILIAR VOICE IN THE CORNER??? “Hey there, jailbird.” It’s Tyra, and she has long brown hair! I dig it! I dig this reunion!

Aw, Eric coming home and immediately apologizing to Tami for earlier.

Tami’s being realistic that if the Lions lose, their economic situation is in jeopardy—so a good job offer on the table is something to consider!

“So you’re routing against us?” OMG and there’s a moment when Tami thinks he’s referring to them but then realizes he’s referring to “oh, the team?” jfc “You and I, or us the Lions. Of course.”

“You know what, I’ve been a coach’s wife for 18 years. Every decision we’ve made has been based on your coaching career.” LIFE BEYOND FOOTBALL OH SHIT

Oh God Eric’s getting up with the keys???? Come on, dude! This is not cool! There are so many colleges and high schools in Pennsylvania! I promise they play football there!

Omg did Tyra just tell Tim about the twins since he refused to really talk to Billy?

Aw Tyra wrote to him in prison? That’s sweet.

Awww Mindy’s literally having a breakdown about not having enough space, and not being able to handle three kids. These poor babes. And the football team’s fate hinges on this because of the assistant coach’s salary...fucking crazy

Ooh now Buddy’s trying to hype Eric up on the Panther-Lions Superteam they’re gonna create.

Aw the whole fam at Billy and Mindy’s—Tyra, Becky, even Mama Collette.

“He’s got some stupid idea he’s gonna go to Alaska and work on a pipeline.” Well, when someone comes to prison and tells you they’ll actually let someone who has to check the felony box work a job with decent wages, yeah. God, the prison industrial complex sucks. Feeds the most vulnerable people into the shittiest jobs.

Julie outside of the Saracen home? Awww. Has she seen him since that romantic Chicago good-bye?

Luke, listen to Becky!! “I’d really appreciate if you put down the wrench and listen to me.” YES GURL

“That’s not real. You are! And I just think there’s been a lot of misunderstandings.” “Well, that’s really pretty you should put it in a love poem.” “Are you kidding me? Go to hell!” yeah, correct answer, Becky! These teens are under so much STRESS! The DRAMA!

Omg all these grown men screaming at the town hall meeting about football i cannot

Ewww these classist fucks. “Some of us on this side of town happen to own our houses.” Eat the rich.

Why the fuck is Billy writing a fucking speech while driving? And he’s surprised he swerved? Sir…

Aw poor Eric with pain in his eyes telling Billy he can’t be definitive about his job security...I mean, yeah.

Aw, Luke coming into the bar while Tim is working after...that talk with Becky…

“You and Becky...are you in love with her?” Tim looks so amused. “Are you serious?” “...Yeah. “No, I’m not in love with Becky. I care about her.” THANK YOU BOYS AND GIRLS CAN BE FRIENDS. Is this not what Becky tried to tell you last night? “I’ve been there a few times when nobody else was, but that’s about it.”

Aw Luke is so similar to Tim rn! Not “feeling it” from the school that wants him, even tho he loves football!

“You’re going to state, yeah? Nothing’s gonna beat that.” “Play it that way. Play it like it’s the last time you’re ever gonna lace up.” Some iconic Tim Riggins lines here!

“We were at the meeting last night, but we don’t want to argue or yell, we just want to give you our thoughts.” MY HEART i love Vince and Jess. “Well, that’ll be refreshing.” LOL after all these grown ass men were screaming over each other

“Was it really that bad?” “If you’re asking if I was raped in prison, Tyra, the answer’s no.” LOSING IT at this exchange lmao

“Tim Riggins, what the hell is going on with you?” that’s the question!

Oh shit is Tyra just finding out that Tim took the fall for Billy now...fuck

“He had a wife, a family. I had the chance to give him something, to give Stevie something we never had. To give him his father.” Damn, the look on Tyra’s face. She knows all too well why he did what he did even tho it fucked him up :( THE EMOTION. THE PAIN!

Damn they’re announcing the decision on the Dillon teams *before* state?

“What are you hoping for?” loaded question, Julie! “I hope that the Lions get to stay put, and I hope that I get to be Dean of Admissions at Braemore College.” awww yeah you do deserve it all, Tami.

Oh wow all these people from both teams standing in the street, drinking and talking and waiting for the decision with “i was living in a devil’s town” playing??? THIS SHOW.

I feel for the dude who has to address this town about this decision.

Anddd there it is, they eliminated the East Dillon program. The rich kids cheering for their victory in front of the poor kids mourning the end of the program they fought to make better is so fucking tacky.

And omg now they have to play state?

“Let me tell you something, you’re gonna be the star quarterback of the Dillon panthers next year, and you’re gonna shine.” OH this hug between Eric and Vince! “See you at practice tomorrow.” Again, the reminder that these people gotta play a *state championship*! wild

“We need to talk.” BUDDY WHAT?

Aw Julie and Tyra hanging out and there are Panthers screaming out of cars. “Welcome back to Dillon.” “No place like it.” Oh, this warms my heart.

I love this exchange: “You know, it’s kind of like this drug. When you get outside of it, you see it for what it really is. But when you’re in it, it seems like there’s no other possible reality.” “It’s a hard place to shake.” “Yeah...I didn’t see that one coming.”

“Whatever happened with you and Matty?” SAME, TYRA, SAME. “We’re good. I mean, we still talk every now and then. He went to Chicago. I went to visit him awhile back, and...I don’t really know what we are or aren’t or…” INTRIGUE. “I kind of just really miss him.” “Life’s harder when you really love someone.” Awwww. I loved that scene so much.

Wow, Buddy and Eric are talking at the Panthers field?

Oh, Buddy’s trying to sell him on winning the championship and then going to the Panthers to coach along with Vince….

“I can never come back to this school and coach. Never.” I mean, FAIR.

“Three rings in six years. That’s history. No one’s ever done that. You’ve got everything you want.” Yeah, Buddy, but does Tami get what she wants in that scenario?

Lol i love all the East Dillon Lions drunk on the field, like seasons’ past with teams past…

“Alright I’m taking a piece of grass home.” LOL TINK

To State and to Coach Taylor, huh? Sounds familiar. And Buddy Jr. is puking. Lmao.

“Just make sure you’re really okay with losing him.” YES Tyra! As much as Billy has majorly fucked up, i agree with her that the idea of the Riggins brothers losing each other when they ONLY had each other for so long...it makes my heart sad.

Oh shit are Tim and Tyra about to kiss? I almost forgot they were together back when this whole show started! “Please don’t go.” DAMNNN

Wow what a scene. Eric comes home with his news that he could have “everything” and Tami replies, “I’ll say to you what you haven’t had the grace to say to me: congratulations, Eric.

“I want you to take me someplace.” “Where?” “I’ll tell you when we’re on the way.” This is really cute! Also Tyra is so hot damn gurl i see you!

Aw Vince shooting his shot, yes! “What about you and me?” “I was really proud of how hard you tried. Thank you.”

“You already have two strikes against you.” “Jess, I was born with two strikes against me.” LOL SO TRUE. and aw what a hug!

Tyra took him to his land, didn’t she??? “Alaska, Tim?” He’s SMILING. Is that Texas Forever vibes i’m seeing here?

AH, Matt is home with a Christmas tree to see his grandma!!! She’s so excited!!

Aw she forgot his dad’s dead? “Did you say it was Christmas?” Oh this is so sad.

Why are Buddy and the Panthers coach standing at the Taylors’ front door like fucking cops late at night? This football program is sinister at times.

“Eighteen years.” Yeah, Tami. And then she turns it back on: “Can I get you two anything? Iced tea, water?” and FADE TO BLACK.

Damn!! What an amazing set-up for a series finale I’ve heard only good things about!!! AHHHH

[seastarved]

GOD THIS SONG FUCKED ME UP MORE THAN ANY OTHER SO MUCH LIKE JUST THE MUSIC AND THE LYRICS AND THE EMMA SWAN OF IT ALL WAS THE END OF ME

LIKE GOSH DAMN FUCK SHE STARTED SINGING AND THOSE PIANO NOTES FROM THE THEME AND I HAD GOOSEBUMPS AND IMMEDIATE TEARS IN MY EYES

I AM SO FUCKING EMOTIONAL ABOUT EMMA SWAN OK? LIKE SHE’S BEEN ALONE AND SHE’S BEEN ABANDONED SO MUCH AND STILL SHE LOVES SO FUCKING MUCH AND SHE CARES SO MUCH AND SHE JUST HAS SO MUCH EMPATHY FOR EVERYONE EVER AND SHE LOVES HER FAMILY ENOUGH TO DIE FOR THEM WITHOUT A SECOND THOUGHT AND I JUST-- SHE DESERVES THE ENTIRE FUCKING WORLD AND MORE OK?

THE WAY HER VOICE CRACKS WHEN SHE SINGS THE LINE ABOUT EVERYTHING BEING HOPELESS KILLS ME SO FUCKING MUCH UGHH ALSO ALSO FUCK CAN WE TALK ABOUT HENRY

AND HOW HE’S HERE AND HOW MUCH I LOVE THAT THIS IS COMING DOWN AGAIN TO HENRY AND EMMA BREAKING A CURSE AND IT’S HENRY WHO GETS EMMA TO BELIEVE

AND FIND THE SONG AND THE POWER THAT’S BEEN INSIDE OF HER ALWAYS LIKE FUCKING WHAT A CALLBACK, WHAT A PARALLEL, I AM FUCKING DEAD AND CRYING SO FUCKING MUCH GODDAMN

AND THIS FUCKING MOMENT! THEY PLACED A SONG INSIDE MY HEART MORE POWERFUL THAN YOU LIKE JMO ACTED THE FUCK OUT OF THIS AND I AM HURT IN MY HEART PLACE BECAUSE LOOK AT THIS BEAUTIFUL EMMA SWAN BELIEVING IN THE POWER OF HOPE AND MAGIC AND THE BEST PART, BELIEVING THAT IT’S BEEN INSIDE HER THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME

AND HER SINGING TO HER PARENTS ABOUT RUNNING AND FUCK ME UP

AT THE WAY SHE LOOKS AT THEM LIKE WHAT IS THIS EMOTION IN MY HEART TAKE IT AWAY

I KNOW WHAT I’M LIVING FOR AND SHE LOOKS AT HENRY WHILE HOLDING HER PARENTS’ HANDS AND OMGGGGG AND THEN FUCKING SHE IMMEDIATELY LOOKS AT KILLIAN FUCKING JONES AND THIS IS WHERE I TRULY LOST IT 

BECAUSE PLS YOU DO NOT HAVE EMMA SWAN SINGING THE LINE I’M NO LONGER SEARCHING AND HAVE HER WALK TOWARD KILLIAN JONES IF YOU WANT TO SEE ME IN AN UPRIGHT POSITION. I AM SORRY, THIS IS NOT HAPPENING, I AM NOW A PUDDLE ON THE FLOOR

AND FUCKING SHE LOVES HIM SO MUCH LOOK AT HER GOODAMNIT WHAT IS THISSSSSSSS

THE REUNION HUGS THOUGH LIKE THIS FAMILY WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME ALSO PLS NOTE KILLIAN JONES WAITING HIS TURN BUT HE CAN’T GET HIS EYES OFF HIS SWAN EVEN FOR A MOMENT FUCKKKK

AND HER FUCKING SMILE WHEN SHE’S LIKE YOU WERE WITH ME MY WHOLE LIFE LIKE THE FUCKKKKKK

AND THEN THE FUCKING HUGGG AND I KNOW WHAT’S COMING NEXT BECAUSE I SAW THE START OF THE TRANSITION BUT OMG GUYS I AM SOOOO NOT READY HELPPPP