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elizabethalexis · 3 days ago

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I try my very best to trust that the universe will take me where I need to go, and if it leads me to your door it will be because it’s meant to be, and if it leads elsewhere or leads nowhere at all, then that is meant to be too. it’s just so hard to have faith in the invisible hand of the world. to believe that my prayers are real rather than imagined delusions meant to soothe my broken heart. it’s always been so incredibly hard for me to keep faith - in anything, let alone something so enormous, so improbable as fate. but I am trying. to trust that wherever I land is where I’m meant to be. even if that place is removed entirely from the man I loved and love still.

#personal #J #on faith #sincerely though I think I might be doomed to live the rest of my days alone #I love me deeply I love my solitude I cherish my life with every ounce of it #but somehow I just…. can’t shake the sense that no one will ever love me again #which is absolutely irrational but then again is it???#thirty three years of existence have conveyed to me that other people find it incredibly challenging to love me and I completely understand #but now that I am stable sane healthy mostly happy #now that my rough edges have been smoothed over and my knives dulled #who will come into my kitchen just to kiss me again?#and forever I am still wishing that would be you

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