#I like this fic a lot

[hollowcatghost]

made some fanart for @ohno-the-sun luca au

the story is just amazing

fish sun struggling with swimming hehee :)

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[sanb3rry]

i like you a little ...

in which jean might have a tiny crush on you.

"for the last time, no, i don't like her."

jean knows lying won't do him any good, especially lying to his best friends.

jean likes you, he's liked you for a while actually.

he likes your smile, your humor, the way you carry yourself, he likes that you always know how he's feeling even when he doesn't say it and how you always brighten up his day. whenever you walk into the room, all the gloomy feelings he has evaporates.

he likes how you make him feel wanted. he likes every moment he spends with you, he likes the days when you two would go to the library to study, the days the two of you would go to cafes and just talk for hours, the days you two would go to a playground and just mess around, or the days you two would spend in his room just listening to vinyls.

he would climb the tallest mountains and swim the deepest of seas if it meant you'd be happy. his heart almost always beats out of his chest whenever he sees you.

"jean, it sounds like you're trying to convince yourself more than me" sasha replied, "i mean if you like her just go for it, y'know she probably likes you back" sasha added to herself.

"you think she might like me back? really?" jean said, connie and sasha share a look. "so you do like her?" sasha asked. jean widened his eyes, "loser, you can admit it, no ones gonna come out and get you." connie teased.

a day has passed since the conversation he had with his two friends, did he finally admit he liked you? no, of course not.

"thanks for walking me home, i appreciate it a lot." you said to break the silence. "i appreciate that you're letting me walk you home, i'd rather be here than anywhere else." he retaliated, and to make you even more flustered than you already were, he gave you his signature charming smile.

you nodded, "y'know, i've been hearing a lot of rumors in school." he looks at you confused, and also partly wishing his friend group didn't rat him out on his small crush on you. "rumors? what do you mean?"

you looked at him, "jean, do you want to go out to the carnival with me this weekend?" he blinked, why were you changing the topic so quickly? was it something he said? his thoughts were going a million miles a minute. "yea sure, i can pick you up. who's coming?" well, at least he sounded a bit suave.

"no, i mean, i want to go with you, just you, like just you and me." you were stumbling over your words, you were obviously very nervous. jean finds it very cute, but he couldn't admire you when he is equally as nervous and he's very certain his brain is malfunctioning.

"just you and me?" he asked to make sure he was hearing things right.

you nodded "just you and me, like a date, i mean that's how dates work right? i think, no i'm pretty sure they work like that, sorry, i'm rambling way too much"

jean is going to explode, his heart is actually gonna beat out of his chest, at least he'll die knowing you like him back.

"no no, i'm sorry i was just confused, i didn't think you liked me back" jean laughed awkwardly. "so the rumors i heard were true? i'm so relieved, i thought i was taking my chances here." you sighed.

"of course they're true! you are all i can think about if i'm gonna be honest." he confessed.

to say you were flustered was an understatement, "jean, i feel exactly the same about you, it's like you complete me, i wouldn't be me without you."

when those words came out of your mouth jean knew his tiny crush on you maybe isn't as tiny as he thought it was.

jean kissed you, he couldn't help himself. how could he? you're all he could dream of, and you just said you liked him back. but now he could add 'an amazing kisser' to the list of things he likes about you.

"i would love to take you on a date." he said after he pulled away.

"i hope you know i'll be holding you to that" you smiled.

© sanb3rry2023

[youngpettyqueen]

Director’s cut for Things That Cry In The Night?

Funnily enough I reread that one last night actually!

The idea for that one came to me because I wanted some good ol’ hurt/comfort for BJ. When it comes to hurt/comfort fics a lot of them are Hawkeye-centric (not a shot or a complaint, just look at my bibliography lol) so I decided to go with a classic nightmare scenario and reverse the typical roles

The fic is written entirely around that idea of BJ needing to feel Hawkeye’s heartbeat to calm down. It was the first thing I wrote, because it was the first concrete part of the fic I had. I’m a sucker for when character A wakes up from a nightmare and is immediately calmed by seeing character B, but I wanted to take it a step further here. The implication there is BJ thinks that this is the dream, and the nightmare he just had is the reality. It’s only once he feels Hawkeye’s heartbeat, and hears Hawkeye talking to him, that he’s able to calm down a bit and realize he’s awake and that this is real

I kept the nightmare fairly vague on purpose, but I left enough context clues to give the gist. BJ dreamt Hawkeye came back from battalion aid wounded, and died on his operating table. I did want to imply a pretty gruesome scene for it, hence-

“BJ doesn’t look up. “I couldn’t feel it,” He’s barely above a mumble, his voice frayed and on the edge of snapping like an overworked guitar string, “I couldn’t, I- I had to cut you open, I- I had to cut you open and I couldn’t-“ His fingers claw against Hawkeye’s pulse point, nails scratching, but Hawkeye holds him in place, “I- was holding it and it wouldn’t start, it- it was gone, it- you were gone, you were-“

-this bit. I really like the line ‘I was holding it’ because it really does convey that he was having a very vivid and gory dream where Hawkeye’s heart was literally in his hands. I could’ve had him describe the nightmare in detail, but I don’t think he would’ve, plus my descriptions would not compare to a reader’s imagination! I think the details are better left up to interpretation, while the necessities are given. You know what the nightmare was about, but you don’t know how bad it was- you can only guess based on how BJ’s acting

I had toyed with the idea of this being from BJ’s POV, and getting into writing that panic upon waking. I decided to go with Hawkeye’s POV instead because I didn’t want the time to be panick-y, I was working on and miles to go before i sleep at the time and didn’t want to cross wires with the anxious time of that fic. I also wanted to write Hawkeye offering comfort from his perspective, and get into how he knows exactly what BJ is dealing with here. I also wanted that mention of the will itself-

“Hawkeye thinks about the will stashed in the bottom of his footlocker. Written in such shaky handwriting the terror he was experiencing can be felt with each botched line, each illegible word. He wasn’t planning on telling BJ about it. Now he knows he can never let him find out it exists. He’ll have to find a better hiding spot, one where it won’t be found even by accident.”

-because I don’t think Hawkeye ever tells anybody about that will. He knows guilt is the core of the fear BJ is feeling in this moment, and he knows it’d probably destroy him if he ever found out about the will

It’s genuinely so sad to me- BJ takes one day to go try and relax only to get back and find out Hawkeye had to go to the front because he was away. It’s not his fault, it really isn’t, but he blames himself anyways

[king-nyx]

Say it with me now

You are never late to a fandom. Your fic is never "invalid" for being "late". Your fic doesn't need a high word limit. Your fic does not need a high standard. Your fic does not need to be highly popular. Your fic isn't less valid than a popular author's fic. Your fic isn't inheritly bad. Your fic is amazing. Your fic is valid. The only thing that matters is that you're having fun. Fandom is not consumption and consumerism. Fandom is fun, free and for the people. Fandom is not a popularity contest. We're all nerds at the end of the day.

[noelledeltarune]

EVERY SINGLE DAY there are MILLIONS of characters in their late 20s who get falsely accused of being father figures to teenagers when in reality the description of "weird older cousin" or "step-sibling that moved out before you were born" is 1000000x more apt

[lazylittledragon]

if i had a nickel for every au spawned from twitter that i SWORE i was going to be normal about

[lgbtlunaverse]

Nothing will dispell the "the curtains were just blue" myth faster than writing something yourself, because the amount of pretentious symbolism i am putting in my silly little fanfics is ridiculous. I mean SO much with these words, literally every single one of them. This fic has twenty five typos and zero correct uses of punctuation but if there's curtains you bet your ass I put thought into what colour they were.

[tadfools]

You guys are commenting on the fics you read right? You’re at least leaving kudos on the Astarion smut and the pairs that have less than 20 fics for them too? You’re bookmarking stories you really like that are still being updated and ones that haven’t been touched in over a year right?

You know that even the smallest interactions are like cocaine to fic writers right? You understand how important a string of emoji hearts left behind on a chapter at three am is right?? Right????

You’re treating AO3 like a community and not a content factory….right?

[morganbritton132]

17 year old, CEO Tim Drake canceling a press conference and then putting out a statement like, “Sorry for canceling last min, Alfred said that he was going to run my laptop through the dishwasher if I didn’t clean my room. I think he’d do it :/. Also, wasn’t really in the mood. Cya -Tim.”

[qoldenskies]

i think its so funny when people take the way donnie acts at face value even though its a horrible lie because he's a horrible liar, while understanding leo is bullshitting very well despite him actually being GOOD at bullshitting. many such cases

[hinamie]

"I'll show you every day that choosing to live was worth it"

some of my favourite scenes from @hijinks-n-lowjinks' fic things i would miss from the other side . this fic tore my heart out fr but like in a good way and i wanted to pay it homage the only way i know how <3

[felixcosm]

I think it's mean how some people talk about fics on AO3.

'Oh you gotta wade through literal trash to find the good stuff'.

Were you not a beginner once? Did you not write crack fic or self indulgent things for your own entertainment?

Maybe don't speak that way about your fellow fic writers? Just because some fics aren't as polished as others, or involve fetishes and tropes you don't enjoy, or are not the style you want your fics to be doesn't mean they're trash.

It's a horrible thing to say and beginners are going to be discouraged from writing knowing that their fics might be considered trash because they're just starting out.

[themissingmango]

[tourettesdog]

I am begging people to be normal about completed fics, and in particular one shots.

I am begging people to stop demanding more from authors, and insisting that one shots need to be longer or have sequels.

I don't think yall understand how many fanfic authors are one more "where's the rest of it?" comment away from throwing out any plans they might have had to continue an idea.

Unless an author like specifically says they might write more for an idea, just-- assume something marked as completed is complete, and respect it as it stands, please.

[canterbury-bell]

Fanart for @beanandberry 's This Love Is Ours 💗

[aitadjcrazytimes]