#I like talking about myself

[billygaysanguine]

Should i make a meet the artist..

[splungecoyote]

TMI Tuesday: What inspired you to create your ask blogs?

I wasn’t fully on tumblr yet, but somehow stumbled on MLP ask blogs like Moonstruck, Ask Miss Twilight Sparkle, Motherly Scootaloo, etc.

I was too insecure to interact, so I started lurking. I followed more and more Ask Blogs, so it felt like any AU with Canon characters you could imagine had already been done.

At the time, it hadn’t been since Sailormoon that I had felt the urge to create a ‘sona from a fandom. But as blogs with characters of their own started to emerge, it kinda made me want to tell my own story with a character based on me.

Of course at the time, I had no friends on tumblr- so I flopped as far as getting asks went. XD It wasn’t until I started posting more often and actually interacting with other blogs that I started getting attention.

Working on @askdaisydandfriemly kinda opened my muse state, and I had fun thinking of how her world intersected with Equestria while interacting with the friends I was making. @daedalverselore came to me when I just wanted a place where I could share my ideas about how Equestria worked. And @sanfranciscoltafterdark came from a desire to work on spookier stories that don’t quite fit the sfw tone I made for askdaisydandfriemly.

And… yeah. Don’t currently have any more ask blogs, although I wonder if some of my characters might deserve blogs of their own. Not that I have time to start new ones. XD

TLDR: Other mlp ask blogs

Thanks for the ask, @foodielovethealicorn ! ❤️

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[johnegbbrt]

i love making sideblogs just because i get to write New pinned posts

its a bit more difficult when i have to write about the personality i have made up for people i dont trust

[mrtequilasunset]

Listen man, you guys can't be like "you guys need to be normal about asexuality" and then turn around and get weirdly judgemental when you find out someone doesn't have sex by choice. Like that's weird that some of you do that.

[hinamie]

morning glory

[artkaninchenbau]

A h-heartfelt reunion..?

Bonus

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

[iwieldthesword]

I need to talk about this because it's making me feel insane.

Last week, my white leftist goyisch friends sat me, a wholeass antizionist Jew, down for a "talk" because they "needed to check in about Palestine" and make sure "our values aligned before we hung out again". They apparently needed to "suss out" where I stood on Palestinian rights, despite having had several conversations about Palestine and them being some of my closest friends. They needed to check, to search for and uncover my true values, because I had said some "disturbing things" that had made them "suspicious".

Disturbing things included:

Supporting IfNotNow which is a "liberal zionist organization" because it normalizes Jewish heritage in the Levant

Not bringing Palestine up enough, despite them also not bringing it up (this was apparently a test)

Mentioning that the Houthi's flag talks about cursing all Jews

Saying Stalin was antisemitic because of the "all the paw-grihms"

...and apparently other things they wouldn't specify, but had been tracking for months.

To clarify, I am an antizionist Jew from three generations of antizionist Jews. I have been vocal in my support of Palestinian liberation and in my condemnation both of Israel's actions and its violent founding as a state, and of zionism in many of its forms. I am a regular donor to Palestinian and Jewish NGOs and advocate for Jewish antizionism in person, at temple, and online. I have been talking about Palestinian liberation before they could point to Gaza on a map. But they needed to make sure, they needed to "suss out", they needed to check. And it's notable that the majority of moments that made them suspicious of me were times where I talked about antisemitism: not about Palestinian liberation, not about Israeli decolonization, not about anything actually relevant to Palestine. It was talking about antisemitism that made them check to see if I was a cryptozionist.

One of the most pervasive and insidious forms of antisemitism is the idea that Jews are inherently untrustworthy and suspicious. You have to constantly be on guard, track what they say and do, "suss out" the real truth. You have to keep them in line and and watch them carefully because they're liars and sneaks, and if you're not looking closely they'll return to their real values (and drag you down with them). This is where the idea of "cryptozionist" comes from and what it's directly building off of: the inherent untrustworthiness of Jews and the need to check. Because no matter how close you become you can't actually trust them, and any upstanding gentile should make sure to avoid associating with Jews before "sussing out" their real allegiances and intentions. You have to make them turn out their pockets, just in case.

I'm the first and only Jew they actually were friends with; I know because they've told me (strangely proud of it in the way white Americans are proud of that kind of thing). They've asked me questions about Judaism and fawned over how beautiful and unique it was for me to be connected to my community and culture. Pre-October 7th, one of them had even mentioned being interested in coming to services at my temple. She still has my copy of our siddur. But now she needed to "check" before she could be seen with me in public. Which is what it was: it wasn't a "you're my friend and I need to give you some feedback because you're fucking up" kind of intervention (which is normal and important to have), it was a trial. It was a last chance for me to prove to them that I'm clean-enough that they could afford to risk being seen with me in public, just in case someone noticed them fraternizing with a hypothetical Enemy and their leftism was compromised. It was a test to make sure that I behave properly when required to, that I'd play along and do what I'm told and turn out my pockets if asked (because any refusal would validate the notion of having something to hide). And above all it was an opportunity for them to reaffirm their own cleanliness by putting my imagined immorality in its place.

I did what I needed to do: I smiled. I apologized. I "didn't know that". I "appreciated the feedback". I turned out my pockets because what else could I do? They'd decided who I was and what I believed, regardless of what I said or did, so there was no point in explaining that they were wrong about me. If I had told them they were being antisemitic, it would just have been proof that they were right. Caring about antisemitism is a dogwhistle in the spaces they've chosen: it's not a real form of oppression, it's a tactic for sneaky, lying Jews to weasel out of admitting their true alliances. There was nothing I could say.

Nothing's really changed for me. I'm going to continue my activism for Palestinian liberation rooted in my culture and my faith. Antizionism is still not antisemitism. But I got a reminder that many white goyisch leftists fundamentally just don't trust Jews, and that the activist spaces they're in not only exacerbate their antisemitism in an increasingly insular echo chamber, but also allow them to finally vent their internalized bigotry in a socially-acceptable way. In my former friends' eyes, what they did was activism—disavowing a Jew (and making me feel humiliated, scared, and unclean in the process) as a cathartic stand-in for doing fucking anything for actual Palestinian liberation—but for me it was a grief that I'll be feeling for a long time: not only over losing friends I loved and trusted, but also over my sense of belonging and security in leftist spaces.

[catgirlneomatrix]

8 and 15 from ur ask thing

8 - what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?

I don’t really know. I feel like I’m still figuring out my taste in music tbh. My family was really late to getting music streaming, and I didn’t have many friends as a kid, so my music was pretty much limited to whatever my mom happened to download until like my sophomore year of high school. For years I had like 3 now that’s what I call musics (47,48, and 52), a handful of musical soundtracks, the 500 days of summer soundtrack (I have never seen that movie), and the occasional Taylor Swift or Katy Perry CD to listen to, and that’s it. Let me tell you the Hamilton soundtrack is what got me through middle school. In late high school, I got deep into TikTok and ended up fixated on Lemon Demon and Will Wood during my incredibly cringe, but incredibly free era. More recently Mitski and The Front Bottoms got me through The Horrors™. 

15 - five most influential books over your lifetime.

I’ve got a bad memory when it comes to books i’ve read, but I’m looking at my bookshelf rn, which is mostly stuff from my childhood, and that is definitely influencing this list.

1- Zita the Space Girl

It was my favorite graphic novel as a kid, and graphic novels are what got me into reading. I would read everything and anything my library had in the graphic novel section

2- The Lost Track of Time

I probably got this at a scholastic book fair in mid to late elementary school, but I was absolutely obsessed with it for years. It changed my brain chemistry i think.

3- I am Princess x

Another scholastic book fair banger that I reread for years. This one is about a girl who made comics with her best friend as a kid. Years after her best friend supposedly died in a car crash, she realizes that there is a popular web comic about the character they made together, and she has to solve clues in the comic to find her friend. 

4- Damsel

Traumatizing. I got this book from a raffle when I was 12 or 13, and it should have some trigger warnings cause dam. It looks like a standard y/a fantasy romance from the outside, but the male lead is incredibly abusive (the point of the book, but again, not mentioned on the blurb on the back). Let’s just say the words “king’s yard” were used multiple times. It is a genuinely good book, but I wish it was labeled better.

5-Wings of Fire

On a lighter note, me and my highschool best friend bonded over this series. I was  definitely out of the target demographic when I read it, but me and my friend used to talk about it on the way to class every day.

Honorable mention for Dreadnaught (one of the first queer books I read as a kid, about a trans woman superhero)

[yardsards]

surrounding myself with a bubble of diversity and self love and body positivity online and then being exposed to normies who actually care about conventional beauty standards feels so fucking bizarre. like you people just live like this??? are you not tired???

[elegyofthemoon]

It's still surprising to see people say that when they see the upcoming strike post I made that this is the first time they're hearing about it, especially because I've seen several posts now talking about the same strike.

That being said: regardless of what kind of blog you are, please spread the news about the genocide, the strikes, boycotts, etc.

Even if you are a small blog, spreading word allows for more people to know what's going on and also do their part in protests and strikes, and maybe even the right people will be able to do more than what you're able to do.

And reminder: there is an upcoming strike on February 18th-25th. Prepare accordingly, protest, boycott, call your reps, and spread the word so more people are aware.

[dayofrainclaw]

I say im bad at flirting but the reality is I can be very good at it when i feel possessed/when my inhibitions are down. I'm like an accidental fuckboy cause i know ive led ppl on in the past when im actually not super into all that.... whoopsies... :))))

[kibblz-n-bitz]

16, 25, 57!!!

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

I'm tired and really really sore 😭😭 I came down with a little illness because of the holidays and this morning i did an intense workout so my body is mad at me. But that's okay! Emotionally I'm happy and content :) I love the holidays because my sister visits and it's nice to have everyone together :D

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

It's hard to say. A lot of the people I no longer have in my life left for a reason. And I feel like I'd much rather keep it that way.

57: Do you believe in true love?

Yes and no. I feel like true love exists because I see it all around me but if anything it's rare and hard to come by. I've never been in love, though. Not yet at least

[jinxnvi]

1.01 / 2.09

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[oidheadh-con-culainn]

i know this is the Unhinged About Blorbos website but at the same time isn't it just a little bit embarrassing coming back after you had a particularly unhinged moment and now you're like. okay it's fine. I'm normal again. but the evidence of how not-normal you were feeling earlier is still there and potentially spreading