#I like loud music but I don't feel like that's the first thing ppl would guess since I'm more of a shy and soft person otherwise

[lieutenantselnia]

thanks for the tag @kyuoki! <3

I feel the need to explain that I'm the kind of person who rarely ever listens to music per album (unless maybe when a new one has just released), usually it's either "complete discography playlist" or "one to three particular songs on constant repeat", there's no in-between😂 That's why I also have a hard time deciding on a favourite album, because I tend to have some songs I really enjoy as well as some songs that don't interest me as much in almost all of them. But I think these are some that I especially like :)

No tags this time (partly bc I just straight up forgot them when clicking on "post"💀 and I'm not sure if the tagged people would be notified if I add them in later), but feel free to continue :)

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

hello ari i am gently bonking your head with mine hehehe this is how we exchange ideas ok..... now that i've heard abt arisugu n arigojo first meetings.... i do need to know abt arikenny's first interaction now!!!!! and and and.... is.... is arishoko also a thing.... bc i think she would absolutely love you too like holy fuck you guys would work so well i feel like!!!!!!!!!!! why'd i immediately think of a first meeting that's like a little clumsy and cute?? like smth along the lines of you just bumping into her in like a coffee shop???? and you'd apologize over the shoulder and then she's just staring at you with that little devious smile of hers???? hehehe idk i feel like this could be canon ok anyway ily don't stay up too late my love!!!! mwah<3 - @teddybeartoji

HELLO MICKEY :33 this is us rn

okay so !!! i thought a Lot abt this one….. arishoko n arikenny are definitely the ones that r the least. Clear. in my mind. bUT i love them very dearly so!!!! we’ll see if i can make this cohesive 😭

FIRST OF ALLLL arishoko :33 it’s very very much a Thing honestly i think that. realistically. out of all four options shoko is the one i’d get together w irl… she’s just very much my type n i think i could charm her w my silly ways !!!!! but yes …..

OKAY SO I THINK. that. you’re absolutely right….. it’s a lot more soft n sweet than some of the other ones 😭 THE CAFE IDEA IS SOOOO CUTE cafe dates would be our standard for sure…… BUT I FEEL LIKE. we would meet. at a Bar. i don’t drink so i’d probably just be there accompanying a friend and i’m hating every second of it bc :// there r ppl around :/// the music is kinda loud and the lighting hurts my eyes :////// i’m just suffering and trying to read my lil book while my friends are dancing in the corner and ohhhh would you look at that…… a pretty girl is sitting rlly close to me…………. and i’m trying to subtly stare at her bc i’m enamored and. i think. she catches me in the act and i get flusteredPBDKDBDJD you get the vibes. i’m normal abt her.

so she strikes up a conversation …….. for SURE teases me abt coming to a bar just to read my gay little book and order sweet non-alcoholic drinks smh (may or may not make a throwaway comment abt how she has a friend who’s just like that… i’m forever thinking abt her calling gojo a big kid in one of the light novels bc she had to find a bar that sells non-alcoholic drinks for him LMAOO)…. and i am just. a little smitten. this is 100% an ari falls first kind of scenario i can’t resist the allure of a super pretty mysterious woman !!! :((((( and then i think she recommends a bar . that’s a lot more chill. that she likes. and she kinda just coaxes me into dating her i think 😭😭 i doooo see it as a slowburn but not nearly as much as the others shoko has me wrapped around her finger 💔💔

OH ANDDDD i should mention that i thought more abt the Lore both for arishoko and arigojo and!!!! i think that i’d probably be a non-sorcerer in both…. bc i think satoshoko in particular would rlly benefit from that ?? likeee shoko just meets someone outside of the school / jujutsu society and it’s just. a kind of normalcy that she doesn’t usually have!!! one that she finds rlly precious!!!! :((( and it’s the same w gojo but even worse bc i think he Craves normalcy. shoko already has canonical ties to non-sorcerers but gojo is kinda stuck in the jujutsu world so :’3 i feel like he’d meet a rando and just. fall for them very hard. they don’t know who he is, they don’t know he’s the strongest. to them he’s just. a Guy. and i think he loves that a lot. i’m just their Just Some Guy <333333 i think they’d both be reallyyyy adamant on Not getting me involved in their world at all. gojo introduces me to the students and shoko (begrudingly) introduces me to gojo when he crashes our date (😔) but it’s like. they’re protective … yk ……

…… this is already rlly long T—T BUT THE TRAIN NEVER STOPS i need to let it run its course…….

with that being said !!!! arikenny. the Forbidden selfship. the deranged version of arisugu. where do i even begin w this man….

honestly . this one is… yeah . i imagine it as an established relationship (<- very vaguely) bc it’s hard to picture Anyone capturing kenny’s attention w/o being reallyyyyy special 😭😭 which is why i have less thoughts on the Lore and more on the dynamic itself!!! but ummmm . i can picture us meeting in a coffee shop…. there’s this old wip i have where reader spots him sitting in a corner and eventually they start talking. abt the books they’re reading. nothing much just kenny picking their brain a little and yapping just to yap….. so i could picture it being kinda like that!! maybe i capture his attention somehow? 😭 it only really makes sense if i happen to be beneficial to his plan or something…? BUUT again i’m not super interested in the lore for this one!!!! so i’ll just talk a lil abt the dynamic hehe.

i just think. kenny is a freak. i’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure him out when it comes to x reader stuff bc i think his love is very unorthodox 😭 he’s just so detached yk?? buuut i think he can be very silly and affectionate in his own way :3 i fear he’s a Mother and a Father in one. in the worst of ways…. i could only picture him being in an Actual relationship w someone he views as his equal, but i don’t know if . that could ever apply to me LMAO. so if anything i think it’s similar to moji in that….. he just. finds a puppy in the pouring rain and brings it home. bc it’s kinda silly and good company. so maybe he does see me a little like. a Pet. kind of . I DOOO WANT TO SAY HE CARES FOR ME BUT. yk… he really wasn’t built for selfshipping. he’s a weirdo!! but i think it’s love at first sight for me…. i’m weak for milfs i fear 💔💔 and i think he does develop some kind of soft spot eventually :3 we’re. roommates. roommates who play board games and sleep in each others’ lap. roommates who kiss. i’d like to kiss his brain. WHO SAID THAT…

ok that was a big big ramble but !!!!! standard arimickey interaction let’s be real. it’s funny bc arishoko is so grounded somehow and arikenny is 💀💀 the way it is. i guess it’s sort of like a god/devout believer pairing … but without. the religious aspect. i think there’s very much a power dynamic involved this bitch is ANCIENT….. anyway that’s all tysm for reading my lovely sunflower baby <33333 i hope !! you’re having a nice day!!! ilyvm!!!!

[hearts401]

wait I forgor that the reason I was in your ask box was bc I wanted to say that your art is rlly cool and reminded me why I liked fnaf in the first place!! :]

(Also if you don't mind id love to hear some headcanons you have for the aftons ehe)

DSJDSFKJD TYYY OUHFUH Thats so sweet omg :(((

OOH BOY HEADCANONS FOR THE AFTONS (Not gonna include mrs.afton aside from vague mentions simply bc i dont care about the implied existence of a wife for william lmaoo)

Elizabeth

-8 years old

-audhd

-I am an intense ginger hair lizzie truther. SHE IS NOT BLONDE!!!! I REFUSE!!!

-She looooves circuses and would dress herself and her friends up as clowns a lot. her love for makeup sparked it and then it went on from there

-music stims galore!! humming, patting her legs, bouncing to the sound of music

-likes first person shooters!! not an a "cute girl likes edgy games" way but in the way that she genuinely enjoys them! shed rlly love shooting games. shed also likes games liek stardew and animal crossing bc shed like getting to know the villagers. (ik these games dont fit the timeline of the 80's but whatever idc) she'd like those gun games at amusement parks too

-lots of energy!!! you cannot stop her!!!!!

-her fav ice cream is mint chocolate chip

-shes not close with her brothers, much closer with her father. because of her fathers distance, however, this results in her feeling lonely a lot, but shes not willing to get involved in whatever her brothers are doing

-LOVES SPRING!!! LOVES IT!!! ITS HER FAVORITE!!!

-really likes animals and especially colorful birds. she has a collection of many things, one of them being colorful and pretty feathers (she has a peacock feather and its her pride)

-really likes bunnies just like her dad!

-likes to braid hair and do makeup. she used to do it with michael whenever he let her. him cutting that off kinda fucked their relationshipt. (and ofc then came the bite)

-She has a very orange room. orange red and pink r her favorite colors.

-thinks her eyes are super pretty

-if she's curious about an item, she'll sniff it and inspect it and feel it but not put it in her mouth bc thats gross ><

-sleeps on her side like a normal person

-likes dolls n stuff :333

Evan

-10 years old

-anxiety and autism

-very good at sewing (bc michael would break his plushies a lot)

-never let lizzie do his makeup bc it overstimulated him

-anxious stims. hand shakes, biting his nails, wringing his hands, shifting side to side, ect.

-enjoys crocheting but almost never has yarn. lizzie gave him an unused yarn ball once and he used it to make a bunch of stuff

-very picky eater, but he wont say it out loud.

-likes webkinz

-HATES HORROR MOVIES!! like this is a given but he will stay up all night thinking about it. its the one thing he stands up for himself on is not being forced to wathc horror movies (mostly because its the only thing both william and lizzie will back him up on)

-he likes yellow a lot. his room isnt hyellow but he wishes it was.

-doesn't have friends and is regarded as weird, but kids avoid him for the most part. most of his bullying comes from ppl who know michael.

-hed like racing games a lot

-scared of his dad and by association he was scared of henry too

-not super close with charlie but he knows her to be a good person. wishes he was closer with her

-ofc easily startled, freaked out, and made uncomfortable

-does NOT like being talked over

-gets frustrated rlly easily and often rants to his fredbear plush

-liked to draw!! he picked it up from mike when he was younger and continues to do it as an outlet

-wishes he had a bigger family

-definitely not flexible at all, but doesnt hurt himself much (hes not dumb, he learns what makes his bones break)

-will feel things over if hes curious about them. maybe sniff them too but he gets scared they'll kill him 😭

-dislikes amusement parks bc overstim but does enjoy the games and prizes

-he likes rice. idk. he just likes rice a lot.

-if he grew up, hed be taller than mike AND lizzie idc idc

-he tries his best to smile in family photos but he just looks so goddamn uncomfortable that eventually william just let him sit them out.

-definitely a peacemaker between lizzie amd mike

-if hes thinking hard he looks PISSED. RESTING BITCH FACE. He is GLARING AT HIS PLATE. "Evan? What's wrong?" and he just immediately is like 😠😯🙁

-he cares about michael a lot more than he should. he tells him to stop when hes fighting someone, he tries to calm him down when hes angry, he tries to talk to him. it makes him so frustrated, it makes him so mad when michael refuses him rudely, but he keeps doing it. its who he is.

-he got a golden freddy mask that creeped michael out and he jumpscared him with it once.

-cuts his own hair

-not a hugger but if EITHER of his siblings offer a hug he will NOT deny them (does not apply to william tho)

-i dont think he cared about william tbh lol

-sleeps on his back like a corpse.

Michael

-14

-audhd

-nonbinary he/they but doesnt realize it til hes 18

-gets mad when overstimulated

-Likes pirates a lot, watches lots of pirate shows.

-INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA it kicked in in like 2nd grade when someone made fun of him for letting lizzie do his makeup. (jeremy helps him get over it)

-forgets to eat a lot. not intentionally. hes just dumb.

-argues with his dad the most, and drives william nuts

-if hes curious about something, hes gonna bite it. what is it? idk. CHOMP

-loves skirts bc sensory issues are worse in his ankles. he compromises by wearing basketball shorts.

-canNOT wear things near his neck. hates things near his neck.

-close-ish with charlie. likes talking to her.

-favorite color is red. he puts it everywhere.

-likes pokemon.

-watches anime

-BIG HORROR FAN BUT THAT SHIT KEEPS HIM UP AT NIIIIGHT

-halloween is his fav holiday. ud think its bc he liked scaring evan (and it kinda is) but mostly he jsut likes dressing up and going trick or treating. he'll use his costume to scare evan later tho. william takes them away because of that, just bc he doesnt want michael ruining the costume (they reuse them sometimes)

-likes growing his hair out

-looks very soft when thinking. evan only talks to him when he looks calm and collected.

-stims by humming, tapping, slamming his fists, and making loud sounds (shouting, whining, UGH AAAGH ect.) which tend to overstimulate evan

-him and evan are adhd vs autism but if the adhd also had autism

-scared of the ocean but he'll never admit it (got bit by some small fish once and it freaked him out)

-mouth moves faster than his brain

-NOT A MORNING PERSON (except on halloween) DO NOT TALK TO HIM IN THE MORNING!!! HE BITES!!!

-messy room with very little in it.

-punches holes in his walls as a stim :(

-likes sweaters in fall

-for someone who jumpscares his little brother, he gets jumpscared easily

-giggles a lot during hide and seek but thru hiding from evan he learned how to stop it. if he does giggle it means hes genuinely happy

-faints when SUPER freaked out. but it takes a lot

-probably gets queasy around blood

-lactose intolerant but he'll be damned if he doesnt eat that mac n cheese

-has SO MUCH FOXY MERCH. he convinces his dad to give him EVERYTHING HE LOVES FOXY SO MUCH

-would do awesome in school if he could get himself to try

-probably felt rlly hurt when he heard foxy was confined to a small area and not onstage. not because it mattered to him, but because the way william looks at foxy makes him think of the way he looks at him.

-gators r his second fav animal

-draws as a way of venting, but it rarely works. he likes it tho

-SINGS ALL THE TIME. WALKS INTO THE HOUSE DANCING AND SINGING AND TAPPING THINGS

-moves in his sleep

-TIGHT HUGS.

-AFFECTIONATE SHOULDER PUNCH GO!!!

-AGGRESSIVE SHOULDER PUNCH GO!!!

-NEUTRAL "I'm uncomfortable and idk what to do rn" SHOULDER PUNCH GO!!!

-giggles evilly

-like evan hes not very flexible but hes much more likely to hurt himsel fand sprains his ankles a lot

William

-Do not misspell his last name he will get unbelievably pissed

-probably nd too bc all his kids are but he doesnt gaf abt that 😭

-has kissed a man before as an experiment. did not get anything from it unfortunately

-met henry in college for robotics and became friends

-when his wife left/died he was just like "oh. i have three kids now. fuck." and then avoided them

-doesnt care about his kids but them dying causes problems for him so he tries his best to keep them alive (unsuccessfully. this is the afton family after all)

-just like mike, he sings and taps a lot, but its more humming and tapping.

-also lactose intolerant but he actually cares about it

-likes bunnies a lot.

-allergic to pollen. severely. he walks outside in spring and is already sneezing and rubbing his eyes

-Frustrated easily

-Looks pissed when hes not, looks pissed when he is. looks pissed when hes sad. looks pissed when hes thinking. the only time he doesnt looks pissed is when he looks happy and that is very rare (and never happens around his kids, only henry)

-TIGHT HUGS.

-Buys his kids gifts but its always stuff they either dont like anymore or didnt like int he first place. he doesnt care

-secretly likes thanksgiving a lot. hes a foodie what can i say

-lizzie is his favorite but that only means he is occasionally gentle with her in a way he'll never be with his sons

-likes dressing up fancy but als freaky he just likes dressing up

-poses in the mirror to check his outfit. michael walked in on him once and william has never yelled at him so muhc in his life. michael acted upset but he was giggling to himself

-does not and will never care about whatever michael and evan have goin on. he does NOT have time for them.

-drops and breaks his phone ALL THE TIME.

-likes stress balls a lot.

-springbonnie is his BABY. he LOVES HER.

-grabs his kids by their heads a lot. like if michael is in his way he'll just put a hand on his head and move him off to the side. the only one he cant do it to is evan because he just moves out of the way

-has a bunch of tiny robots of his own. he likes to make silly bunny robots taht r tiny

-thinks hes smooth wiht flirting and could grab a girl (he cant henry knows he cant)

-sticks his tongue out like a cartoon character when hes thinking SUPER hard

-pats michael on the back a lot to lighten a tense situation but it just makes michael tense up and makes it worse

-giggles evilly

-used to be queasy with blood and spent an hour in front of a mirror post-killing charlie telling himself to man up and somehow that worked

-not a hugger. only hugs his kids in public to lighten the mood. except mike. mike u get awkward back pats

-doesnt like being touched (he WILL smack your hand)

I THINK THATS ALL LMAOOO I HAVE SO MANY

[messedupessy]

Ok so I finished Dawntrail a couple of days ago, and I got so many thoughts about it, things about it I loved, things I didn't vibe with, thoughts of what I both hope and fear will happen next, so prepare for a ramble as this will prolly get long xD MASSIVE SPOILERS FOR DAWNTRAIL DOWN BELOW!!!

Where do I even begin? I got so many throughts about literally everything it's hard to decide where to start, but think I will start with what I loved with this expansion overall and then go from there:

The graphic update is so good, everything looks so nice, the new zones and towns are amazing, all the zone music and music overall this expansion is a fucking banger there is no music I dislike which is amazing, the dungeons and trials, except for the last two for me, was so good, fun mechanics and bosses that is harder but not impossible! Most of the characters were so good and interesting and I loved to get to know them all!

But one issue I had with the expansion as a whole and not just the second half of it, where pretty much all my issues are tbh, is that the voices or rather the voice deliveries this expansion was really weird for the english voices, it felt like the voice direction or the mixing was very off and every character was affected. Like there were several moments Graha or any of the other scions spoke and I got all ??? that's not how you usually sound like what is going on?? And then there is Wuk Lamat, love her voice af, but there were many moments where I felt she just needed to push a bit more especially in emotional moments, her crying is fine but when she needed to get loud and yell it just didn't work, but I feel it's more because of the voice direction and mixing than the actual voice actor. And she isn't the only one though and this has been a issue I feel since the patches for Endwalker, something is really off!

And not to mention that the translation and subtitles are very off, they gotten so very bad since the patches, as my older sister plays in japanese but with english subtitles, and she understands japanese well enough to notice when the characters says more than is subtitled which really sucks. And there was allot of that in the patches, an example when Zero says to thank everyone she says their names in japanese but not in english, and there were moments here in Dawntrail that happened too, don't remember them atm tho since it was a bit since me and my sis talked about it, which sucks, feels like we who play in english are missing out on things all because things just isn't translated properly.

Then there is the msq, I absolutely adored everything until lvl 95 after the first story was done where we crowned Wuk Lamat dawnservant etc, mostly everything between 90-95 was perfect to me, great pacing, great characters, fun bosses and dungeons. The small critiques I got is that we barely spent time at the moblins they didn't even get any voice scenes, and that I wish the like rivalry we were meant to have with Thancred and Urianger thanks to them working for and supporting Koana instead of Wuk Lamat could been stronger. I would had loved a instance of us maybe fighting or just something more there.

And then there is the whole trading part with the Pelopelo, forgot their names the small duck faced ppl, where you are meant to trade things up for more expensive stuff, loved it love the UI they had for it and so on but wish they could gone a bit further with it, like they could have let us fail properly and mess up for example, that if we choose wrong here and there we would been forced to start over at a certain point, just something more there and it would been perfect!

But those are the only things I had issue with when it comes to the first part of the expansion, now to the second where most of my grievances lies and also my fears for what will come next:

First of shiiooni the cowboy place, the story there was truly what you call filler, which I get we can't always have something high stakes thing happening, not always needed either and things was brewing in the background, but I wish there had been more to the story there just it was very bland, something more could have happened there and instead it feels a bit like a waste of a zone even though I like the zone itself very much! Just something more happening in that zone could been really good but no we got like nothing. Connected shitall with the characters there except for our reflection versions of the trolley people they made me so darn happy!

Then the attack at the city happened, wonderfully fucked up but why did they have to kill off Guloo Ja Ja?? Think that's how you spell his name, but Papa simply I love him he was and still is one of my fave characters from this whole expansion, and it feels they went with the way too easy route to just let him get killed for drama, it always happens with fathers who are done and give away their position but i am so tired of it he could just gotten really hurt instead it would done pretty much the same give or take, you don't need to kill off someones dad to give them motivation to kill their own brother for doing so! He had already butchered a bunch of the towns people Wuk lamat did not need more motivation to go for it, and if he just needed to be put out of comission so he wouldn't solve shit too quickly then just hurt him a bit and shit would been fine, it just sucks and while the death scene was good it just frustrates me, let the parents live for once!!

But anyway then there is the dome, 30 years passing etc, loved that whole thing wonderfully messed up but here we meet the sole character that ruined the ending for me personally, Spherne or however her name is spelled. The idea of her and her story is great, but the execution of her character did not work for me at all, and it could been easily fixed if at the end of her instead repeating the same old "sorry for killing your ppl" she could had tried to tell something about herself but maybe failing etc, just said something to give her more character than "I love my people above everything else and I will kill anyone who harms them and I will keep them alive even if it means killing others", that was her whole personality there was nothing else there and it could been fixed so easily by her just admitting to it? If that makes sense? She was just so very bland and could been so much more and I get it she is just the memory of a person long dead but just give me something more, and then there is her design it is so bad if they just pulled back a smidge it would been fine!

After meeting her I feel the rest of the msq ends up so rushed, which like technically makes sense since we in a hurry to stop zorol ja think it was spelled mister first promise boy, but it made it so for me at least, that I didn't get a chance to connect with the new characters properly, didn't get to know the new villain at all, which could been on purpose since wuk lamat and sperne is kind of opposites, but it just didn't work which makes me so frustrated because it could worked so well!

And not to mention, a thing I didn't think of until my big sis mentioned it and how frustrated she was about it, is the whole electric sickness happening there! We have a cure for it we can fix that but there was no mention of it or anything where we could go oh hey we have a cure for this since its the whole thing from the first and tempering we could gotten Aisaie summon Angelo and help the sick boy but no, nothing! This better get mentioned/fixed in the future story patches or I will go insane!

Fuck we could had brought it up to Spherne and made her situtation more complicated but no!

And then there is Otis, I loved that guy but he was instantly taken away and killed we got no time so spend with him except for in the Living Memory later on but that wasn't truly him and it just sucks, wish he had been around longer and things didn't get so fucking rushed here!

Loved the trial for Zorol ja tho it was great, loved how it subtly explained why he was how he was, and while I would had loved having more of it outside the trial before we killed him etc it still worked out and made sense, love his son so much he is so good and I adore that blue baby! But I want to know who his birth mother is, who the fuck is Zorol ja's birth mother?? How was he born even though it is said two headed maamol ja can't have kids? Or is it just so darn rare he just ended up been the first ever? Game please explain gkejngke!!

But then comes Spherne and fucks shit up, which would work if her whole character wasn't as bland as a wet salty cracker! The whole of Living Memory was amazing i cried so much, the zone is amazing the music the progress of it was great, the whole message of everyone dies and life goes on hitting me way too hard.

But then there is the dungeon and Sphernes trial, the fights etc is fine and the visuals great, but thanks to her constant talking in the dungeon and its her we fight it just it's just so meh, she needed something more and now she will be part of Wuk Lamat's story forever and it sucks! Also I am still irritated that she kept calling Wuk lamat by her family nickname like please that was so rude, but I also get why Wuk lamat didn't protest proepr but still! It would been more interesting if like wuk lamat was like no u can't call me that and spherne been apologetic etc, and then later at the end wuk lamat lets her call her by that, just something!

Ok so rant over there but now we get to what my hopes and fears are for the future story, as now we got a fucking mguffin that can open portals to other reflections! Which we luckily know shit about except Kriles people had it but that's all luckily since they didn't know shit about it either, and I hope it stays that way for at least another expansion as it feels we are rushing the whole "find a way to other reflections" bit way too much, it already felt a bit rushed in the endwalker patches, but now we got a mcguffin and I am worried about it!

As while I want to visit other reflections, be able to visit the first with the scions again etc, I don't want to do that just yet! There been too much of reflection stuff in the story, I want a break from that and focus on other parts of the world we haven't been to, like Mercedia, Graha's home land, the Roegadyn homeland etc, I want to wait and let Y'sthola work more on finding a way, as I fear this mcguffin will make things way too easy and solve this whole thing, I want the story to wait, let us do other shit while this storyline can be like in the background a bit, and not the focus! And then it can blow up and be the focus again! I feel we need a break from it and I fear this will be the focus of the patches that is going to come.

After all the best part of the msq for me was when we just enjoyed ourselves in the new world and places we got to explore, where there was no mention except some smaller references and the reflections was not in the focus. I just want a break from it let it brew and stop rushing it!

But I am hopeful that this is something that will take awhile, since we literally have no clue what or where the mcguffin even came from or what it is, so I hope this will mean that it will take awhile, and that we can focus on other things like the electric sickness in solution 9 and their whole messing with souls there! I want clarification on if Alexandria etc is from the reflection from the second umbral calamity or not, as the hints are there as it would make sense, but I do not want to focus on traveling to any reflections for now. I want to explore other things so badly get to do new things and not reflection stuff please.

The only exception to any reflection focus is if something gets fucked up and the WoL gets sent to a reflection alone, with no one there to help us while the scions etc tries to find and contact us, that is the only reflection story I will be ok with getting at the moment as I want things to go wrong more and not feel as easy as it feels currently when it comes to travelling to the reflections!

Ok so think I have gotten out all that I wanted to say, sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes but I can't be bothered to fix shit, thanks for coming to my ted talk and feel free to chime in with your own thoughts and so on would love to chat or clear up any misunderstandings, as I know I am not the best at explaining stuff at times xD

[olgunia]

also... i feel like writing it down and getting it out of my system but... i mean... i told my boyfriend and two best friends... and my new therapist. . .. (i'm finally getting help!!! and it turned out that i was right!! it is that i have been suffering from utmattningssyndrom [exhaustion disorder] for the past 2 years! and also! finally i accept the fact that i have been suffering from it and i feel less of an impostor and also!! for the past 3 months i have been recovering and feeling better and better with every week, i wanted to cry last week when i was able to cycle! every day!! it was impossible even a month ago, i felt so humiliated with how little energy i had all the time.. usch, don't wish that shit on anyone) said that we're gonna Look Into It.. TBC

ok but yes, the thing is that 3 months ago one thought struck me and that is that i may be autistic.. at first i did cry bc i felt overwhelmed and scared because i have this imagine in my head of prejudice and lack of understanding what autism really is and that people on SM are trying to be quirky or special or whatever, i don't even know! it just felt so overwhelming.. but after that i had conducted more research that has been ongoing and.. i think apart from the fact that i just feel like i'm an impostor and that if i would say it out loud - other people will think that i'm 'making it up' (hehe that hasn't happened and those 3 close ppl are supportive BUT!!!) ---- apart from that.. the more i read and think - it just becomes more apparent that i am on the spectrum! and once again it feels like a lot but on the other hand it would explain so many things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! some silly things like me having to ask people if they're joking bc i really can't tell lol, same with irony, to not getting if someone is flirting with me, to people believing i'm being flirty while i'm just interested and excited about the topic and want to be nice lol, me losing my fucking everything and exploding internally while having to go for e.g. on tour - no matter how much i like someone - to be in the same space [car/venue/sleeping place] and to not have enough 'alone time' is just! i just fucking cant! mental breakdowns every 2nd day! i hate spending too much time with people (that doesn't apply to my boyfriend though but till exempel to my family/friends) in the same space! ----- and i mean... i have been diagnosed with ocd and social phobia while being a teenager but there were some things that have been.. puzzling me and now! it feels like i found the missing puzzle! and it feels both good and weird

and other things like being naive, an open book, shitload of thoughts, feeling intense feelings towards stuff - loving/hating, having hard time with 'not exploding' and att hantera emotions, seeing 'patterns', these whole stemming thing- whenever i listen to music that i love it's just.. i just cant NOT move fingers or hands or legs, getting stuck with some sayings/catchphrases that change every now and then, i guess i also overshare stuff but hard to tell hehe, always trying to learn how to navigate small talks and talking and social things, being called blunt, believing that i lack empathy because i just.. i cant imagine how it is to 'put myself in someone's shoes', loving 'shitposting' or wordplay bc they're either absurd and therefore funny or just easy to understand hehe, planning things, not being able to summarize things, doing lots of lists, i just f-ing love to research, getting sucked into things and having a very hard time to get out but also having a hard time to start doing shit and more things bla bl albla lbllalalal.. . .. writing it down so i can have it for future purposes

but yes.. it's scary but good i guess to realise that? Smiley Emoji

[boyfhee]

GET TO KNOW ME GAME !

tagged by · @dearhee

tagging · @koishua @yujipg @amakumos literally don't have anyone to tag 🤣 just do this even if ur name isn't here

birthday: 25th may, i wish i shared it w someone

favourite colour: rose gold, gray rose / gray lavender, ice blue

do you have pets? no, but i do have a stray cat i feed and she basically lives in my backyard

how tall are you? no

how many pairs of shoes do you own? 😵‍💫 around 20

favourite song: sherlock ( oceanfromtheblue ) 긴밤 ( seori ft GIRIBOY ) mimi ( youra ) by my side ( junny ) i have so many help

favourite movie: interstellar, literally the best thing ever directed. also, these are not movies but 2521 ( kor. ) first love ( jap. ) threads our tapestry of love ( jap. )

who would be your ideal partner? lee heeseung yeah, he is the standard. but fr i like people who i can communicate with easily, without much issues ( i mean, we can understand each other ) the main thing i look for is probably, how they are under pressure or how they deal with things / serious things. this is very important to me because i need that person to be there when we're going through something so it's really important that they don't avoid problems ( besides, people like that annoy me help ) also someone who's fun but is also smart ? like, we can joke around and also discuss about something academic, it's fun. i mean i love to talk about interests and how things work, everything logical. i also like pretty ppl and heeseung is very, very pretty.

do you want children? ok i'm gonna be honest. like a few years ago, i was so against it, but now, i can consider. i mean, i'm not saying i will have kids in future, but i can consider. i can at least adopt one so yeah, can consider.

have you gotten in trouble with the law? no

what colour socks are you wearing? i don't wear socks off season ( no one here does )

favourite type of music: classical, but most recently added is krnb

how many pillows do you sleep with? one

what position do you sleep in? straight ?? it's good for posture

what don’t you like when you’re sleeping: noise. loud music, or talking too much. u want to talk, go do it somewhere i am not sleeping

what do you have for breakfast: fruits / fruit juice, milk ( with toast, optional ) on school days. when i'm home, i usually have a bowl of fruits with coffee ( odd choice, i know, but it really gets me through next 5-6 hours that are very crucial )

have you ever tried archery? except in amusement parks, no

favourite fruit: guavas, grapes, kiwis, bananas

are you a good liar? very, very good liar

what’s your personality type? intj, i like being smart fr

innie or outie? former

left handed or right handed? ambidextrous hehe i can write + draw with both hands ( love me for that )

favourite food: we have these dishes called pav bhaji & idli sambhar, honestly heaven

favourite foreign food: pasta ( creme cheese one especially )

am i clean or messy? both, more on the clean side

most used phrase: innit, "just like me fr," at the most random times, "help me" as a way to express delight "sweetheart," to call my friends help does that count?

how long does it take for you to get ready: 20 minutes, at most. i don't use makeup except eyeliner & gloss but even if i opt for anything more like blush or eyeshadow, it takes 30, at most

do you talk to yourself? it's a coping mechanism

do you sing to yourself? all the time

are you a good singer? i think? i mean, i passed 2 rounds of sm global auditions so that says something

biggest fear? yk deep water? where you aren't able to see anything except pure darkness? the eerie feeling it carries? that. it's not a phobia, but it's to the point that i get scared even by looking at it in pictures so i avoid those

are you a gossip? we all are, to an extent

do you like long or short hair? medium to long

favourite school subject: science, biology specifically ( zoology, in that ) and that's why im pursuing med lolol, also i love english, engineering graphics and math minus commercial mathematics and trig

extrovert or introvert: introvert but i talk quite a lot when i'm with family or with close friends ( the classic, yk )

what makes you nervous: doing something for the first time, going to a place i've never been, MAKING SPECIMEN SLIDES i swear i've spent my highschool years making microscope slides but it never fails to make me nervous like what !! if !! there's !! an !! air bubble !! v good at it but i still have tendencies to mess up

who was your first real crush? this guy from tenth grade, we went to a competition together from school and got lost in the city so ig that's where my feelings originated from

how many piercings? 2

how many tattoos? none

how fast can you run? idk bro but it's pretty decent

what colour is your hair? black

what colour are your eyes? black

what makes you angry: when i can't do something that i know i can do ( like when i mess up a painting, or some questions ) people who think they're entitled to everything, people who talk shit behind others ( i mean we all do that, but like, i dislike ppl who use others and then talk behind their back ) people who avoid responsibilities, PEOPLE WHO ARE CRUEL WITH ANIMALS i swear if u dont treat animals nicely you will have a miserable life

do you like your name? definitely

do you want a boy or a girl as a child? can't pick

what are your strengths? i am very, very calculative so i make decisions i do not regret ( slay ) my determination is through the roof, i've been told that i'm eloquent & clear with agenda which is such a plus point for me, i have experience with tons of things ( science, math, art & painting, music, dance, basketball, volleyball, swimming, cricket, badminton, chess, baking, finance, coding & computer science, writing, tutoring, public speaking, basically everything that my parents ever made me learn plus it's v fun tbh ) i can adapt quickly, i am amazing memorizing skills, quick learner

what are your weaknesses? i know i sound like im bragging in prev question, but i have so many weaknesses to cover my strengths up . major one being finding it hard to concentrate and staying motivated, getting things done on time, my laziness god i am so lazy. it's super hard for me to build a habit and ever harder to get rid of one, i can't cook for the life in me and i have so much trouble trying to mix up with new people

what is the colour of your bedspread? teal

colour of your room: one wall is pink while rest 3 are off white

[satocidal]

I forgot about the bengali 💀 but yes, I've heard of it

And omo, it's like

My country is heavily christian but probably not in the ways you would expect

Like, ppl don't care much about the bible and all that besides holidays, being anti lgbt and being offended if you don't practice a religion 💀

It's more of an effect of not being let to practice religion during the communist days ngl (Revolution was in 89 and was bloody af)

But we got cool traditions for Christmas such as "colind" (going from house to house and singing to get money and sweets), we have the goat (which is basically made out of paper and there's a whole scene around it with a doctor and a rroma person and all that. Boys used to make a competition out of who has the nicest, most colorful goat). We got the bears (which are many times actual bears costumes. As in, made of their fur. They use drums and roll in the snow). After new year we go sing again but spread grains of rice for luck. We have to wear red and new things on new years (even money in our clothes) to attract luck. My parents used to gently tap my forehead at the first thunder of the year with a metallic spoon for a "clear, smart mind". On 1st march we have mărțișor, which means giving tiny things with red and white strings. We have the easter and we make eggs red and have a competition of cracking eggs one against another and washing our faces in the morning with money and a red egg. We have a special dessert given at funerals (colivă). And the weddings? Weddings are so fun. We crack glasses for luck. We dance. Cars honk in the whole city and people have fun. We have traditional dances and music and a costume. At my sister's wedding, my brother (as per tradition) was at the front door, negotiating with her husband, who had to bribe him in order to pass 🤣. We "steal" the bride and the husband has to negotiate to get her back.

I love the traditions in my country, tbh. They're loud and colorful.

Not all christians have the same traditions from what I gathered.

There's also the "devil's eye" which is basically someone looking at you and having intense feelings of either hatred, jealousy or admiration. It can be undone with an old tale singing you have to "catch" by hearing it from someone else or it can be lessened by wearing red.

Vampires are based on one of our old leaders, for example. Our vampires are scarier tho (strigoi).

The legends we have. Oh my god. They're quite scary and so cool.

~🦊

Wait I FORGOT TO ANSWER THIs😭I’m so sorry baby

Ok ok ok we have similarities sweets💀 but like y’all so cool fr (had me in the second para itself lol)

So we don’t have any similar festivals but the weddings? So we do this thing where the bride’s sisters and cousins and all steal the shoes of the groom and he has to negotiate em back and it’s just. Weddings are just a way to make money for bride’s cousins (I’m the literal best negotiator when it comes to getting money🫶)

And we have that devil’s eye thing too—I don’t believe much into it but yes

[xirae]

Talked to downstairs neighbor about weed smell, she said she could make it smell less bad! It's possible! Being polite and talking to neighbors works - which I always knew, but I had a really bad experience adapting to ppl in . She brought up the music thing too..... oh god I think she remembers the foot stomping. It was ONE time out of many, it was a bad day for me, but I'm still super embarrassed. I feel like a dick. I feel like a dick for asking anything at all but I know that's just my mental illness - you're allowed to bring things up and ask, just be prepared for a "no" and don't make a scene. Which I never do, it would have been awkward if she said "nah, sorry bye." My prepared response was "ok, thanks for listening me out anyway" bc maybe they get a change of heart if you're nice about it

Tbh since I talked to her, it's weird but I'll actually be less annoyed if I smell weed or hear super loud music. Tbh I just need to know ppl first then I adapt to whatever they do, it changes from "enemy noise" to "friend noise." I'm just a psycho, I kind of hate myself. I recently thought to myself "why does X person have to make everything a self-manipulation logic puzzle" and here I am myself making things into a self-manipuation logic puzzle. i think the difference between me - not entirely sane, neurodivergent - and sane (appearing) neurotypical ppl is they just do things and it's way more subconscious. if you point out a rule they very much follow, they'll often think you're crazy.

[dojae-huh]

I saw it on Reddit that ppl are complaining abt the lack of promotions of this comeback, and I realize SM really has a bad reputation among western audience... honestly I seriously enjoyed this comeback and I do think the promos okay. We got the movement dance my and b side mvs, and tons of Jaedo moments! I guess people are just worried at the "senior" status of 127? reddit.com/r/NCT/s/Gr5IXfIE7F

Link

First of all, thank you for speaking up.

In any type of society or a big group there exist a problem of a small loud minority gaslighting the silent majority. An individual from the silent mass thinks he is alone in his opposing view because he doesn't see his own opinion and thoughts echoed in the discussion in media or in comments on boards. So he keeps silent in fear of being ostracized.

When it comes to fans, writing about what they don't like or find lacking releases steam. Writing something positive? Not as attractive. A content person is a lazy person. There is no motivational "fighting spirit". Even I complain about songs but seldom write about what I like. It is just in human nature - take good things for granted and demand more and more.

Fans do leave positive comments, but usually under YT videos (I saw many an opinion that this comeback is the best there, heh). Either to thank the team behind the content or in hopes idols will read their words of support. Reddit, twitter? - a platform for small talk and offhand comments. Not to forget, other fans happily retwit and spread (and remember) negative twits and seldom retwit and discuss positive ones. People remember bad things much better than the good ones.

"I feel like unless you follow NCT, you wouldn’t even know they were having a comeback." - It goes for every group unless a fan pays close attention to music shows and k-pop music releases. I can't say when EXO had comeback last time. Let alone Cravity or even Seventeen (I know they had a song recently thanks to MokChu and SM fans accusing Hybe of copying aespa teasers only).

127 was promoted on Melon, Spotify, K-pop On, etc - streaming platforms and new k-pop songs playlists. M2, Killpo - choreo channels. Grammy site and other sites releases articles. It's these places that actually inform k-pop fans at large about new songs and comebacks. Fans still can't realise that the ways promotion brings results has changed and clings to some "badges of participation" that a group should collect every time.

Why ifans care about radio-appearences, a dying media, when noone even will translate a radio episode for them, for example? A tiktok with Seventeen will give more exposure than appearence on some YT show with a non k-pop MC.

Killer Voice is a different cause. It would be good if 127 were to go there again. Their first Killer Voice is still makes rounds.

Lastly. The comeback is still ongoing. There can be some programme appearences with a delay, who knows. Jungwoo has a variety show he is on. He can mention about the comeback there.

The OP on reddit wrote about own experiense - I found 127 through a YT programme with Tae and JN. OK. There is a ton of programmes on YT from past comebacks. Noone watches old episodes or what?

But anyway. As I said before, it is time to come to terms that 127 is a senior group by k-pop standarts. At the very beginning promotions are on a big scale because noone knows the freshly-debuted group. Meanwhile nowadays fans of Zerobaseone or Boynextdoor get to know about NCT through their biases fanboying over Doyoung and Jaehyun, or their biases making covers to their songs. The same way we get to know Taeyeon or Kyuhyun. Right now SM has several new groups (Riize and NCT Dream) and will debut new acts soon (SMgg and Naevis).

Riize is the most popular right now in SK. If they promote their seniors, the job is done, heh. Same goes for Stray Kids and Seventeen, who are friends with 127 neos.

[castle-dominion]

s7 3xk audio

michael mosley rob bowman andrew marlowe nathan fillion

He has done s3, 5, 6, & 7 episodes, in fact s7 had two.

Go as deep as possible as fast as possible without lingering anywhere.

How far will a person go for someone they love?

Mosler has done it before too! & he brings it up again lol. "Even your charming innocence is creepy"

It's great for caste to throw ppl around & get thrown around.

"unless it's michael molsley, we don't care about him"

Joques Goudreau lol

People come up to him on the street & say he's creepy XD "I've found something I'm good at"

Cars pulling up does not feel like a metaphor for me but ok.

It SHOULD feel like what castle is going through. Willingness to go to the other side this patience & impatience, the darkness, also frustration.

The two month thing

3xk made this VERY personal

How do you expose a character who is not present? 3xk's manipulation.

NF: always exciting to kill off a powerful, popular character.

"he really was mike boudreau" "when the zombie apocalypse comes Tyson will be the first to rise"

the cars have gotten better on set apparently

Do they not call it a toque anywhere else...?

RB: my credit right over castle's butt

RB: what was it like to handle this (fight) scene? MM: There's a bruise

Hm, this moment was not? scripted?

How much mike & how much 3xk?

It's all backwards

Gates & Castle <3 she is resetting him, use your head.

Tracking shot of fillion & everyone following along... wow this IS bowman magic...

Everyone: right HERE!

One shot there going in & finding his girls.

colour correction

They never solve the homicide of who THIS girl is

Getting caught watching

Ah the blood was digitally added in! It is not beckett but he killed someone else half to torture him (the other half just for fun)

The slow quiet is greattttt.

we cannot see anything except from her eyes

relatively irrelevant XD

Build it & recontextualize.

Yay welcome back gen kill reunion ig!

Writing this scene was fun but seeing it come together is better

rob duncan <3

I like how they can all laugh at this Ah less lighting bc we are not seeing as much of the castle we know anymore

Yay Roe & Daryn "we only did what you would have done" "if he's listening" "how likely is it that these guys watch the commentaries?"

Yeah they shoot all the stuff "here" first & "there" all at once, so it WOULD be hard, at least for me

RB: I used to speak three paragraphs to nathan & he'd sum it up with "so faster?"

topanga canyon

the anxiety is not just camera work but also the audio "the director was anxious so the camera was anxious"

the no-dialogue scenes, such a Thing you know?

Villainy really can be overplayed but you can avoid twirling the moustache & petting the cat.

it LOOKS like bubble wrap so I am not shocked

THIS IS ALL TAKE ONE? you did it all one take, two cameras?

This room is so weird tho bc how did they get that light through the bottom of the door?

Watching it a second time "she's not here" he said out loud

WAIT PAUL SCOTT LET HIMSELF GET SHOT WITH A TAZER?

Yeah of COURSE she is not going to literally remove her face lol

I love a good monologue. Honest for this non-sane character w/o cliche

He always thinks he is in control bad guy mea culpa lol reason & thinking

Yeah it was a little bit... too much. Tilting the scene to castle

This is the journey gates sent castle on

"I'm dead I might as well tell him what I think of him" or power to him lol

Ew ew ew all the way in I hate it

No no this draining life force thing was gooood except dang what if he DID manage to shoot castle? I think that it could have been something interesting for sure. like the fic I read with the burning building

Esposito & Ryan!

the music IS GOOD but I don't much like it you don't see who killed whom castle bought her the time to rescue herself, they needed each other

that is not a lot of time, like 6 months working full-time. that is a hell of a long time I take it back

Everyone is group hugging & it is intimate & touching but then apparently huertas kept ruining it.

"oh yeah I shot you then too"

Too bad we didn't have more moke mosley commentary.

Rly fun! "letting me play in your sandbox" oh it was his first audio commentary! Good for him!

[msookyspooky]

I’m feeling so poorly but I did have the thought of being stuck babysitting and roping Stu and Billy into helping you (before all the murder stuff obvi)

Maybe some hcs? Maybe just sit with it? Idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ up to you babe.

(Also is babe okay with you because if it makes you uncomfy I will never use it again I’ve just gotten used to saying it platonically.)

You guys can call me anything, I truly don't care. I call other ppl petnames. If it makes anyone uncomfortable let me know but I honestly mean it in an endearing way.

Hope you don't mind bulletin point style hc instead of a prompts.

I hope you feel better soon angel 🖤🖤🖤

Babysitting with Billy and Stu

"What the hell- I didn't sign up for babysitting duty! You promised a horror movie marathon, YN. Not Barney and Friends." Billy hissed out as you told him the news AFTER him and Stu came over.

- You begged them to stay because you would be bored out of your mind babysitting 3 kids on a Saturday night by yourself. (You might have to owe them cause they're assholes like that.)

- Stu shrugs as Billy drags himself inside. Both of them dreading dealing with kids on the weekend. You lay down ground rules and they both are already rolling their eyes.

- Stu warms up to the kids first. Asking them things and being casual with them. "Cool shirt. Scooby Doo's awesome, man." Be prepared for them to LOVE Stu. He's as immature and energetic as they are just add in being a popular teenager with...Erratic behavior.

- Stu does voice impersonations and built a couch cusion fort with them. He keeps chucking marshmallows at Billy's head while hiding in the fort and you have to remind Billy he can't hit Stu in front of the kids.

- Billy is sitting in the corner ignoring them and Stu but like moths to a flame they're eventually pestering him. He's side eyeing you as one keeps asking him intrusive questions. (He might have gave them a counter burn if they made a remark about him..."Why's your hair like that?" Billy: "Why's your face like that?")

- Within an hour Stu has one hanging on his arm laughing while chasing another one through the house. Billy and you watch as he pretty much entertains the kids for the most part.

- Eventually, they go back to Billy and keep begging him to play with them like you and Stu are. Billy refuses BUT will agree to tell them a scary story if it means they'll leave him alone.

- Stu smirks at that as they turn off the lights and Billy gets a flashlight; an evil grin on his face. You tried telling them no but it was 3 demanding whining children and 2 enthusiastic friends against you.

- Stu does the sound effects and adds in tiny details here and there. They're so casual and GOOD at story telling that even you're engrossed in it.

"Don't you remember? She went out to get her jacket from the car while everyone else was inside." Stu gave, the flashlight and candles the only thing illuminating your faces in the room.

You couldn't help asking. "Why would she do that? That's stupid! There were murders-"

Billy interrupted you. "Hush, YN; Don't ruin it...So...She went out to the car. It was a dark and cloudy night, not a single star out. No moon. No lights. And everybody else was inside the well lit house...Safe...Having a good time with the music turned up just a little too loud and everyone just a little too tipsy...The wind bellowed outside-"

Stu made the noise of the wind whistling as you and the kids huddled up close to them on the floor in front of the couch Billy and Stu sat on.

Stu added after he was done with the wind. "She couldn't hear anything but the wind...However...There was one noise that caught her attention-" He made a sound effect of metal against metal.

Billy continued, leaning forward with the flashlight under his chin. "She told herself it was her imagination. Just a tree branch scrapping the nearby shed...But soon it got louder."

Stu got louder everytime.

"And louder....And Louder!...It got to the point she couldn't say it was her imagination anymore...Little did she know, the noise was coming from the outside of the car."

The kids eyes were wide as they got closer to him and even you listened intently.

"She shut the door, not even getting the jacket in the backseat. Too scared that the noise was getting louder and closer. Like a knife grazing the side of her car door....She turned around to run back to the house....And then-"

Everyone was silent. One of the kids asked. "...Then what?"

Billy stared at the kid, not even blinking. "And then...She saw them..."

"Who?!"

"....The killer..."

Stu gripped Billy's knee. "....What was that?"

Billy blinked at him. "...What?"

Stu whipped his head to the kitchen. "I swear I just heard something..."

You scoffed at them. "Very funny-"

"SHH!...I'm gonna go check it out. You stay here. Billy, stay here with YN and the rugrats."

The kids yelled at him not to go as he got up. Billy shut the flashlight off and put on a concerned face.

A few moments of silence passed and the kids whimpered as you went to get up. "Okay, guys. That's enough."

Billy stood up with you. "Hey, stay here...Stu should be back...It's probably nothing."

You rolled your eyes despite the anxiety building up. The kids clutched your legs as a banging crashing happened in the kitchen. You held your breath as you heard Stu yell out in pain.

You went to go around Billy but paused when you heard the crashing stop. Everyone froze...Billy shined the light.

"Stu? Stu, what the hells going on?...Stu?"

The flashlights light shined in the kitchen doorway.

Suddenly, Billy jumped at you with a yell as his light shined on Stu running into the living room with red blood on his face. Yelling and flailing his arms like a lunatic. You practically jumped up onto Billy as the kids piled ontop of eachother, screaming their heads off.

You felt Billy's shoulders shaking with laughter as Stu turned the lights on just to see he had ketchup on the side of his face.

- You smacked Billy's shoulder as he laughed at you, mocking the look on your face. The kids angrily yelled at Stu as he practically collapsed on the ground laughing and they attacked him with throw pillows. They both laughed about it the rest of the night every time they looked at you.

- Stu agreed to teach them how to make some type of quick junk food concoction in the kitchen.

- You realized one child was missing as well as Billy and panicked. You ended up hearing them near your room as you crept to hear Billy talking. You looked to see him crouched down talking to someone under the bed.

"Oh come on, it was just a story!.... Kid, come on...Do you actually think YN would let a killer get you?"

You heard them whimpering and sniffling under your bed as Billy sighed to himself.

"Kid...Come on, quite crying."

They cried louder and he groaned to himself. He didn't realize you were watching as he plucked your stuffie from the top of your bed. You held your mouth to not make even a peep as he talked to them in a comical goofy voice through the toy.

"Don't be scared!" Billy smiled and kept using the voice. "All killers and monsters are terrified of me."

They peaked out at the stuffed toy in his hand. "You want to be friends? I'll protect you from monsters but you have to come out first...And no more crying."

They eagerly nodded and crawled out as Billy handed it to them. He looked at them, talking in his normal voice again. "I'm sure YN won't mind him protecting you till your parents get here...You want to know what YN's secret is to keeping monsters from getting them?"

The kid listened as he whispered. "Me, Stu and that stuffed animal you have in your hand. As long as we're here; we're the scariest thing in the house. Got it?"

They nodded and smiled at him. You covered your mouth to prevent the noise you wanted to make at the soft smile he gave the kid. You quickly as you could made your way back to the kitchen trying not to get caught spying.

- Stu definitely allowed the kids to use a curse word and taught them a bad joke they don't get but he thinks is hilarious

- Billy let the oldest ones watch a scary movie when they begged him even though they're not allowed.

- Once the kids leave, they shrug and act like it was a chore but...They ellude that it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world if they HAD to come back and help babysit next Saturday IF they had nothing else better to do.

[hoe4rairai]

Headcanon :

Raian Drunk... Part 1 ♤

Photo credit @himbo-in-limbo ...

Hummm so it really all depends on the main reason why he got drunk in the first place ...

I will talk about him Angry Drunk

( warning ⚠️ rough scenes )

He doesn't go out to drink, simply because he knows he will be killing ppl left right and center, he will be also vulnerable and that would make things worse. When Raian feels vulnerable he gets really aggressive and hostile and would do unexplainable things to cover up his vulnerability.

He will be in a dark closed place /room far away from people. Just him and his booze and probably loud heavy metal music. But he will turn the music off with either a kick that will break the player or he will throw it against the wall.

He will not talk not even to himself but he will keep repeating that scenario that made him mad over and over again in his head till he probably decides finally A pay back time.

He will smell like booze and he will drink from the bottle . He has not manners when it comes to drinking .

Raian holds himself surprisingly well while drunk, he hardly speak but his eyes shoot daggers on anything, and everything that they look at, laser shooting eyes that will clean cut anything he looks at.

If he is already intimidating being Sober, will x10 when he is drunk.

His aura becomes extreemly dark, unpredictable and unreadable not even to Ohma who prefers not to stand his way when Raian is drunk.

Raian rarely gets drunk but if he did you his S/O better leave him and go hid.

If God forbid he got drunk because you made him mad, this might be the end of you.

Now, Raian doesn't really let anyone get under his skin in any way, his ego and pride against the concept that someone out there means something to him to actually make him care.

UNTIL YOU SHOWED UP.

Let's say you did something that made him get so mad and got drunk

The house door will be banged open

If you were in bed he will grab you either by your hair or your PJ from the chest area.

He will literally pull you close with one arm to look straight into his devil eyes .

His breathing is hot and rigid, he is literally blowing hot steam over your face like a mad bull about to snap.

Your feet is not touching the ground and silence between you too is deadly. All you can hear is his hard rough breathing.

He pulled & lifted you up with one hand too close to aligne both faces together, his head is touching yours and he started to laugh like a maniac in the scariest way ever.

All that, and you still don't know if you should say your last prayer !

Yes he loves you but that Raian when he reaches to that level he isn't Raian any more and no one absolutely no one will be able to help you not even Ohma .

You closed your eyes, your heart is racing, your eyes starting tearing up and you body started to shake uncontrollably.

He suddenly stops laughing, looking at you dead straight into your eyes Nose touching, forehead touching. Death stares and he spits out poison saying : ( Now now, helpless bitch ... ) he smirked while still spitting out his poison:( making me mad, testing my patience you piece of shit )

You cried, now you know what you had done. You can't take it back and you know its all done for you.

He roughly threw you back on the bed, the fall was so rough it paralysed you .

He didn't give you a chance, he torm your silky short nighty and then he flipped you on your stomach.

If you think you will be okay after this incident then you are mistaken.

Raian is angry and drunk, the scariest part though, HE KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT HE IS DOING

RAIAN DOESN'T GET WASTED WHEN HE IS DRUNK. On the contrary he gets sharper, more alerted and extremely vicious and brutal that's why he rarely gets drunk. He is not a sensible man so to speak but He knows the damage that he can cause if he gets ANGRY DRUNK.

You are on your stomach, your entire naked body is fully exposed to him.

He is still clothed and not attempting to touch yet, instead he threw himself at you .

Holding you tight, still breathing hard but you can feel his strong chest breathing movements on your back.

His voice is low but deadly like a hissing snake.

He turned your face to the side to look at you while he's still on top of you. He's very heavy and you can't breathe.

He rubbed his head roughly on the turned side of your face while whispering : SEE WHAT YOU DID TO RAIAN ...

Your heart skipped a beat and you said sorry genuinely with your little voice while shocked in tears .

He repeats again with more breathy but stern voice : SEE WHAT YOU DID TO RAIAN... and punched the bed next to your head, it startled you .

You cry but he hates it when you cry so he pulled your hair and whispered in your ears : ( I WILL FUCKING HURT YOU NOW ) ...

He turned you around, grabbed your neck with one hand and grabbed both your hands in another hand, pinning you down into the mattress with his iron clad thighs. His literally has his entire weight on your pelvis and you started to loose focus and vision.

He was laughing and surprising his eyes had tears ..

Is he attempting to kill you ?! Or maybe get you to faint ??! either way you don't want to black out because you don't know what he will be doing to you.

Raian is an assassin but he will never hurt any woman physically ( u know what I mean and I don't like to use the Spesific word because I am not comfortable with it )

Any way ....

He suddenly stopped when he saw ur eyes turning up.

Silence ...

Unmoving body underneath him

He calls your name in a steady but shocked tone ..

You don't respond back.. he calls again and again while still on top of you.

Then he moved away stood at the edge of the bed staring at you .

Shit shit .. Did I kill her ..Shit no NOT HER NOT HER...

You suddenly coughed. He was a mess , you were a mess he tried to come close but you pulled yourself away from his reach and started crying loudly.

He stood there staring at you , the mess he made out of you.

He was angry, mad and somehow worried that he damaged any of your organs internally .

After few hours in silence and sobbing you stood up heading to the bathroom. He was not in the bedroom.

You came out, heading to the living room , dark and cold and a huge shadow sitting on the floor back against the wall facing a window panel that reflected the moon light on half of his face.

You made your way slowly to him and his eyes was following your body moving towards him.

You crouched down facing him and hesitantly you touched his soft hair lightly

To your surprise he held your hand firmly but he kissed it gently.

You started to sob again , he is in this mess because of you.

You should had listened when he told you that colleague of urs is up for no good and you straight up ignored him, until he was on a mission and saw you at a restaurant with her while being introduced to the Asshole he was about to kill the same night.

He withdrew that night because your life would be at risk had he haunted that man down, they are clusters and you were in the lion den . A bait .

You hugged him by his neck, sobbing, shaking apologising but he still sat there not making any move to comfort you.

You moved away looking at his face trying to figure out what he's thinking but it's impossible.

He got up without any word.

Took you by the arm walked to the bathroom.

Turned on the shower, pushed both of you inside still clothed .

You both stood under the cold shower for how it felt like eternity. He wasn't budging due the cold water but you were shivering and couldn't take the coldness so you pushed your body towards him and basically glued urself into his chest and torso. He didn't move nor did he push you away.

He was basically standing under the cold shower head down arms streathed to the opposite wall tiles firmly, legs apart and still clothed.

You felt his head leaning towards the crock of your neck , where he rested it and pushed you with his body to the shower wall behind you.

He started kissing your neck slowly at first, then moved his head and pulled your face to kiss you. His mouth was warm, you were eager for his touch as if you wanted to feel insured and secure again, and the only way in this situation was by his love and body.

You returned his kisses with eagerness but he stopped with a swift fast move and looked into ur eyes, you can tell Anger returned again but he spoke softly though : ( I could had lost you ) ....

You remembered what happened just moments ago on bed and asked him in a small regrettable voice : ( would you had killed me )

He sighed roughly, air from his nose blowing on your face. He didn't say a word but his actions afterwards said it all.

He took off the silk robe ur were wearing with one swift move and your hand found its way to where it belongs naturally, under his shirt. He rose his arms so you can pull it off of him ..

Finally his body warmth connecting with yours.

Finally you are back to where you naturally belong.

He pulled you closer, holding the back of your neck as if he was telling you with no words spoken how much you mean to him.

Later that night Raian made you see the moon and the stars, he himself was not the usual silent lover, you heard him moan few times and he didn't shy away. He never allowed you to take control while having sex but that night he made you on top of him taking control while he was looking at you with unexplained looks.

His eyes spoke 1000 words and they were all about his feelings right that moment.

When you needed his support to get off he held you firmly while u r on top of him pounding into him and was just looking admiring your beauty and body.

He wasn't the one who ever stops till he gets enough but that night he didn't care.

After the heated session of love making you slept, ur head on his bare chest . His arm were behind his head looking at the sealing and thinking : ( I ALOMST KILLED HER )

One more look at you and he disappeared.

You woke up the next moring and he was not there.

Raian understood being with you might end up bad. He had to retrieve ..

You are broken and you would only wish for him to come back.

You Think he will ever be back

[baby-im-a-hallucinationnn]

Me: "Oh, I've got all these ideas, I'll write about these."

Jojo's Bizzare Adventure addiction:

Anywho, time to talk about JoJo OCs under the cut that'll happen eventually:

BTW starting at part 3 they all get 1 power cause Goldsboro blood or smth I just wanted to

Part 1: The Sun and the Mask (Don't know how I feel about this title)

Basic background to other parts cause I want a developed character backgrounds cause I swear I wasn't high when I wrote out these characters but it looks like I was

OC: Rebecca "Becca" Goldsboro

Lemme put it this way; if it wasn't 1890 and she knew diddly-squat about the LGBT other than "SIN!" She would be Trans-masc. Jonathan is the only one nice to her too.

Part 2: Roses and Bubbles (I'm working on the title plz leave suggestions cause it sux rn)

Cesear Zeppeli x OC

OC: Rose "Rosy" Goldsboro

Yeah, she just kinda vibin and occasionally saying sus stuff.

Part 3: Lightning (Title also sucks! I'm coming up with them as I write this :D)

Jotaro Kujo x OC

OC: Kasumi "Misty" Goldsboro

Crackhead energy. 1000% crackhead energy. And with a fast af electricity stand called Blue Lightning. Also in a band, cause... why not. Weird power is that she can like see dead ppl in her sleep but like... important to plot ppl. Like her grandfather, Cesear.

Part 4: Angel with the devil's eyes (This one kind of works ig???)

Josuke x OC

OC: Usagi Goldsboro

Crackhead energy 2: Electric Boogaloo. Also will murder anyone who talks shit about her friends on site, but you would never fuckin guess it cause she's got that petite Kawaii girl energy. Her stand is called Pink Thunder and it yells really loud. Her dad works out of country (Italy, hint hint nudge nudge). Weird power is that sometimes she'll just sit down to draw cause she's an artist and she'll draw past events (Bonus: Jotaro saw her just randomly doodling Kakyoin right after he died and that was... and experience.)

Part 5: Red-eyed hacker

Giorno x OC

OC: Georgia Silverthorne

Chaotic Gremlin + Crackhead energy 3: Syrup Village Arc. U totally thought she wasn't a Goldsboro, didn't you? Yes, but actually no. Her mom is Usagi's. She's just raised mostly by her mom who's incredibly abusive and she doesn't know who her dad is. Also it's "Red-eyed" bc everyone else so far and continuing on has bright ass Green eyes and hers are red. Normal eye color is boring. Her stand is called Techno Glitch and it's like normal stand, but it has to be programed by hand from a floating computer cause it sounded cool in my head so I said "yeah that." Weird power is that she sorta sleepwalks into the other 2 living Goldsboro's heads, like Usagi'll be dreaming and the 2 knew each other for a long time cause they have the same mom and stuff and Georgia will go "Ayo, what u dreaming about?" And Usagi will jump like 6 feet in the air.

If you can't tell by the length of that wall of text, she's my favorite

Also I'm skipping part 6 cause Jolyne is literally Kasumi's daughter, we don't need to sweet home Alabama this stuff

Part 7: Oh, to be young again

Johnny Joestar x OC

OC: Lucie "Lucky Lu" Goldsboro

Has that "popular yet still a good person" energy rarely found in my generation, or at least just in my school. Her stand is called Boomerang, and I'll let you figure out what it is. Only thing is that it's a person holding them, not an actual boomerang. Also 110% horse girl energy, but not in a cringy way Her weird power is that she has an insane amount of luck, hence her nickname.

Part 8: Rock n roll all night

Gappy x OC

OC: Rin Kaneko

Crackhead energy 4: Tsuzumi Mansion Arc, mixed with small but noticeable amounts of Undertaker from Black Butler and Hu Tao from Genshin. She just woke up next to Gappy, no memory of the last 2 months, and went "Ima just follow around this dude and help him remember his shit first." Her stand is called Ragged Glory and it's a guitar, but it doesn't just play music if you pull the strings, nonono, it also generates a random effect from a defined list because I only have so many sides on a die, and it's great. Her weird power is that she is well aware of the TimeLine reset in the end of part 6 (The one that left me crying cause all my Husbandos are gone now) and the memories and experiences of our past characters live in her and just surface at random.

I might make one for JoJo lands, depends on how I feel about it, dunno

[pumpkinpastiesandcoffee]

Party Games and Punishments

Bakugo x M!reader

Words: 2115 Warnings? rough-ish sex, cum, anal, use of hidden toy in public MDNI! NSFW under the cut All characters are over 18

A/N Look, this is the first time posting this sorta thing to tumblr, its my first bnha fic, its my 2nd smut fic. I want to get into writing again, it's been a long ass time. Please feel free to give me constructive criticism, I want ppl to enjoy my fics. If I haven't tagged something, whether its a kink or a tw, please don't hesitate to tell me! I'm not about to be mad. I'm also hoping to do more, so if anyone likes my writing enough please send me a request, atm its just BNHA. Also gonna do some HC's etc.. Okay, enough rambling, enjoy

'you cannot be serious!?' you huffed, glaring at Bakugo who was smirking, a small object held between his fingers. The blonde pressed you forward against the bed you often shared, his free hand tugging at the hem of your briefs, sliding them off your ass as he placed a quick kiss to your mid back. Despite your current position, you were supposed to be getting ready for a party held by Kaminari. Class 1A was graduated and enjoying their adult life as sidekicks before the hard responsibilities of being pro and this often lead to house parties. These parties were not something Bakugo particularly enjoyed, you however, loved them.

While the two of you weren't openly dating, you would attend these parties together, as 'friends'. Which usually meant you owing the blonde something. Tonight however, your debt was to be paid before the party, and during it seemed. The small object was a metal butt plug, the base decorated with a red gem. It wasn't the first time you'd used one, however it was the first time Bakugo had insisted you wear the piece out in public, and to a party no less. You groaned as his finger traced your entrance, your cock twitching. You heard the familiar pop of the lube cap opening and seconds later the cold substance was pressed into you. Giving you a moment to adjust and relax, he slipped the plug in, smirking as he slapped your ass. A gasp escaped your lips as your hips jerked from the impact. "c'mon, finished getting dressed" Bakugo huffed, tugging on your waist to pull you up. It didn't take either of you long to finishing getting dressed, even with your half hearted complaints.

Arriving at the party, the two of you looked up at the porch, it had a couple people milling about but it seemed everyone else was inside. The loud music and light emitted from the front door and windows drew you in, pulling you past the threshold. It was easy to get lost in this atmosphere, bodies pressing against you from all angles as you tried to find your friends. Bakugo found your ass however as you moved through the crowd, his hand squeezing a cheek which tugged lightly on the plug causing your body to tense as you shot him a filthy look. Finally making your way far enough in, you could spot the bright red hair of Kirishima. The two of you headed for him and the others, being pulled in to a couple hugs and a few handshakes.

You spent the next couple hours chatting to Sero, Kirishima and Denki, Bakugo having wandered off at some point. Your conversation was cut short by Mina who was grinning, a look that thoroughly concerned you. "We're playing Truth or dare spin the bottle!!! You guys absolutely have to join in!" She yelled over the music, grabbing Denki by the hand and tugging him along behind her. The blonde shot you guys a look that screamed 'help me', causing you and the two others to laugh as you followed along. It didnt take long for everyone to settle in to place in a rough circle, you settling by Kirishima, sitting on your knees to avoid nudging the plug, knowing you'd make some obscene and embarrassing sound. Deku sat beside you, nudging you and saying a hello.

Mina had placed an empty spirits bottle on the table and with a wide smile she spun it, watching as it landed on Sero. "Truth or Dare?" she asked, her voice was brimming with excitement. Sero sighed "Truth?" "Have you ever used your quirk in the bedroom?" she smirked, Sero having sent her a death glare at the question. "Yeah", it was a short answer and it was snarky but the rules were once you chose you couldn't change you're mind. Sero reached forward spinning the bottle before Mina could question him further.

The bottle was spun a few times before it had landed on you, your eyes lifted to Momo who was just beyond tipsy at this point, "Truth or Dare?". "Dare? I guess..." You spoke apprehensively. She shrugged, pointing beside you to Kirishima with a lazy smirk, "make-out with him". Your face heated at the dare, your eyes snapping to the guy beside you. See, everyone knew you were gay, it was not at all a secret, you were open and proud. However, this wasn't the first time in your groups history they've tried to get you to make-out with one of the guys. This was however, the first time they'll be successful at it and you immediately wanted to slap yourself for choosing dare, realising it was such an obvious one.

Your eyes flickered to Bakugo who did not look pleased, he'd been off to the side, drinking something but not really playing when he heard the dare. Currently his vermillion eyes were narrowed on you, and you knew full well there'd be hell to pay for this. But despite your quiet nature, you often found yourself being a brat to rile him up and this felt like a great payback for the plug currently in your ass.

"You mind?" you queried, eyes now flicking to Kirishima who shrugged, "sure man, why not? Dare's a dare after all". Kirishima was not a shy man, and while he'd never said anything about his sexuality, he did not give a fuck what people thought of it, so without anymore hesitation, her grabbed your jaw and pulled you close. His lips hit yours roughly, although they were surprisingly soft and you felt yourself lean into the kiss, running your tongue across his bottom lip. He surprised you by opening his mouth, although he didn't give you power, instead he pressed his tongue into your mouth, sliding it along yours.

The kiss lasted maybe a minute before you pulled away, although it felt a lot longer, especially with a pair of angry red eyes were burning a whole in the back of your head. The group cheered, the girls thoroughly enjoying the display. Kirishima grinned at you, ruffling your hair causing you to huff. You leaned over, spinning the bottle to continue the game before your eyes flicked quickly to Bakugo, who held a concerningly calm look on his face. The two of you were very much exclusive, despite nobody knowing about you, so you knew he would be pissed, even if it was a game. You were his after all. After a few more rounds you excused yourself, heading upstairs to one of the bathrooms although before you could close the door a large hand clamped around it, shoving it back open. Bakugo stood before you, a calm façade as he stepped in, pushing the door shut and locking it.

"What the hell was that?" It was practically growled at you, which was a lot scarier than him yelling. You rarely saw him hold down anger like this, you knew your punishment wasn't going to wait until you got home. "Wh-what was wh-" your voice was cut off as he pressed you against the bench. "Don't play fucking dumb, you made out with shitty-hair, and you enjoyed it!" He huffed. "It was a part of the game! And I didn't enjoy it" you scoffed, rolling your eyes, however your face changed to embarrassment quickly as his hand groped at your crotch, confirming the semi-hard erection. "Oh? This says otherwise" He mocked, before grabbing your hips and turning you around, pressing you into the counter.

You gasped loudly as he pressed his middle and ring finger against the red gem he knew was hidden behind your pants, although it quickly turned into a pitiful whine as he pressed his hips into you instead. "Such a needy little brat tonight" Bakugo growled against your ear as he pressed himself flush against you before pulling back. He undid the button at the front of your pants before yanking them and your briefs down exposing your ass to him. He wasn't going to be gentle, no he was going to punish you for kissing that idiot. Your hands curled over the edge of the sink, holding tightly as he tugged on the plug a few times before pulling it free, watching the excess lube seep out. You heard the sound of his belt being undone, then his zipper and finally the rustle of his pants as he shoved them down to free himself.

Katsuki Bakugo was by no means a small man, he was buff, muscles easily scene through his clothes and rivalled only by the red head you had kissed earlier. His cock was no different than him, while the length was average, the girth was obscene, and you knew the plug was the only prep you were getting which caused a swell of anxiety in your stomach. He reached around you, thumb sliding over the head of your dick, collecting the pre-cum and using it as lube on his own member before pressing his pulsing red head against your hole, smirking at the whimper you made.

Despite the urge to snap his hips into yours he moved fairly slow, pressing the head in, his hands moving to your hips as he sunk himself in to the familiar warmth of your ass. The blonde couldn't help the groan that escaped his lips as he bottomed out in you, eyes flicking to the mirror to see your own eyes shut tightly, tears rolling down your cheeks. He waited for a moment before he heard a small whimper from you "green".

That's all he needed to hear before he pulled back, then with a punishing force slammed himself back in, keeping a quick pace as his balls slapped against your skin. He knew the two of you couldn't be gone too long without questions arising, and he wanted to make sure that didn't happen. It didn't take either of you long before you felt the familiar tightness grow. "Kats-ahh-Katsuki I'm getting close" you huffed out as he pounded into you relentlessly. "Then come for me, like the good little boy you are" He breathed into your ear, hand reaching around to stroke your cock, seconds later you were crying out, your hand quickly moving to cover your mouth as your cum shot forward onto the front of the counter. Your legs shaking with the force of your orgasm and effort to hold you up.

It didn't take Katsuki long either, the feeling of your ass walls clamping around his cock had him burying himself as deep inside you as he could while he came. Hot, thick ropes of his cum filling your ass to the brim, a moan falling from your lips at the sensation. the two of you stayed like that for a moment, taking the chance to breathe as you came down from your highs. However you didn't expect to see Bakugo reach past you for the plug.

As he pulled himself out of you, he pressed the toy back in place, stopping any of the cum from escaping, keeping you feeling full. The cry that escaped your lips at the sentiment was indignant, even more so as you heard him pull his pants back up. "You're gonna be a good boy and keep all of that in until we get home." Bakugo's hand squeezed your ass, massaging it lightly for a moment before helping you pull your own underwear and pants back up. His arm wrapping around your hips, pressing your back to his chest as he plants a kiss to your temple.

"You did so good baby", it was barely audible but the praise made you melt into him, turning around to bury your face into the crook of his neck. Staying like that for a few moments was all the aftercare you were afforded before there was a loud knock on the door, pulling your attention. "It's occupied asshole!" Bakugo yelled out, earning a disgruntled 'fuck you' from the other side before their footsteps receded. You leant against the door as Bakugo quickly cleaned the mess you had made before washing his hands and leading you back out. His hand rested on your hip for a moment as he leant in to your, smirking, "You feel good? Brat?" and to make sure you knew he meant your cum filled ass, he slid his hand down, pressing into the plug to elicit a cry from you. Chuckling in your ear before he pulls away.

The smirk that flicked across his face would be burned into your mind forever, as he walked off down stairs, forcing you to deal with your dirty little secret alone.

[oivsyo]

I came here for NejiHina and it seems to me that you are almost single ha feely holding the fandom of this couple alive. And I honestly love you for that. Your art is amazing, your characterization of Neji is accurate and compassionate, and your support Hinata as a fully realized and developed character. If I ever get around to writing a fanfic for them, I’m going to dedicate it to you and your amazing art.

Good Day!

Sorry for the delay, I wanted to prepare some illustrations for the reply! Hope they will make you smile =)

I'll start from the end and say that I would be honored if any of my work inspires you to write a story! I would love to read your interpretation! ⁄(⁄ ⁄>⁄ ㅅ⁄<⁄ ⁄)⁄ ♡

*music from Pirates of the Caribbean starts playing*

The truth is that NejiHina as a ship and as a fandom is not on the rise. It is sad, but it is natural since the show is over, Neji is dead and we get no more new official content with him and Hinata, Hinata ended up with another character.

Besides, most NejiHina shippers, those who started to ship them in 2003-2010 are in their +- 30ies now and may have left the fandom for some reasons. And it may be hard for new people to find the ship appealing for the reasons I mentioned above.

I also noticed observing the community for a year now, there are quite many NejiHina shippers, but there are few who make original content for NejiHina. Many people prefer to consume content and not to create it.

Some are afraid to try creating. Some are giving up in the beginning. Some think they are not good enough to post their arts or fics, no matter the level of their skill. Some are closet NejiHina shippers and are afraid to reveal themselves because they are afraid to be assaulted because there are many loud haters (that is not the case actually). There are those who WERE assaulted and now they are afraid to start creating again. The Internet is rather cruel. And it is not the problem of NejiHina fandom only, unfortunately, it is the global tendency.

Anyway, actually it is not true that I'm the only one creating for the ship. Maybe I'm the most omnipresent, ahaha, but it is only because I want my arts to be noticed and I have some social media management experience to promote them. Though Tumblr does its best to hide my posts from feed in the last few month =__=|||

Luckily I have a bunch of NejiHina fellow artists with whom I can talk to and discuss ideas, headcanons and memes. Our community is not numerous but it does exist. I share their arts here on my blog, check, share, comment and like them!

The feedback is essential. Even a strongly motivated person can't create without a moral boost. It is hard to create into nowhere. That is why I love your comments, asks, and shares so much. And all creators love them! I'm doing my best to answer to everyone even if it takes some time.

I do feel lonely sometimes, I do resent and do feel sad that I'm too late with my arts and no matter how hard I try, no matter how many arts I draw, and no matter how good/cute/hot/funny they would be nothing will change, that it is for nothing. I do wish there were more content with NejiHina, official and fan, I wish there were more ppl to discuss the ship, share ideas and headcanons. I'd love to see other people creating.

At first I was afraid to come to Twitter (TWITTER!) with my NejiHina art but now I'm close to 1k followers within less than a year. I draw NejiHina, Neji and Hinata mostly. 1k is not a big number, but it's much more than I expected. In comments people wite mostly positive things and it inspires me a lot.

I don't hope to make NejiHina top-5 popular ships as it used to be, but it would be great to have more people, ordinary shippers and content makers to fuel and support each other and make the ship alive. This is how creative community works. This is why I launched NejiHina Summer Week last year and this is why I'm preparing the Hyuga Clan week for this July. I hope more people will join us! It would be great if you join too =)

My goal is to spend evenings reading new NejiHina fics and liking new NejiHina arts when I retire, ahaha

I will draw NejiHina as long as I can because I love them, I have many stories to tell about them and it is what I want to do. I enjoy drawing them even though I understand that my arts would get much more attention if it was any other ship.

And a couple of more observations.

I have been in the fandom for a year now and I've met many people who actually like and support NejiHina. There are even people who are strict canon adherents saying that NejiHina made sense and they rooted for them before the ending. This really warms my heart.

There are also many japanese artists who draw cute NejiHina arts but it is rather difficult to find their arts. On Weibo there are rare but regular updates. New fanfics appear from time to time. I also heard NejiHina as a ship is rather popular on TikTok.

So I'm looking positively into the future and not giving up. May be it is my ninja way xD Our ship is not dead. Its sails are frayed, the deck needs repair and more people for a crew, but the ship is afloat.

As usual, I failed to write it short. I'm sorry I made you read this much. My thoughts may be confused as I wrote this on emotion, but I hope I was able to convey the main idea.

[astrologgeek]

⚠️ I do not give any permission to anyone reading this post to re-post my content nor plagiarize it. This content belongs to me and myself only @astrologgeek ⚠️

My ✨astro✨ notes

Part 1.

This is my first post on tumblr, I've been learning astrology for over a year now - and I have finally succeeded and wrote my own personal astrology notes! ⚠️these are my own personal observations and notes, which means that whatever I'm saying here isn't 100% astrology accurate & approved by any professional astrologer⚠️ hope you enjoy I guess <3 (BTW: if anyone wants to repost or anything pls tag me, and don't steal pls!! I've worked so hard on these.)

• Taurus risings have 2 types of luaghter: crying-like laugh because of their 3rd house cancer or a smirky / deep-like laugh because of their capricorn 9th house. As a taurus rising I approve this message.

• speaking of taurus risings: gemini 2nd house ppl may joke a lot about their self worth. They also have a very big vocal range - whether they can sing or not, they can be great at dubbing.

• Neptune in the 2nd house have dreamy voices / amazing singing abilities or they may sound like a someone that does drugs / smoke / just high.

• having your mars in the 10th house can indicate a modeling career, especially if your MC is in good aspects with your ASC.

• virgo 9th house people have the most provocative sense of humor, they are also a "know-it-all". Yet, they are extremely loyal, so passionate and devoted to their duties.

• whichever house your pluto is in explains your deepest fears and where there is true chaos in your life (I'll make a post about it!)

• having your pluto in libra - as pluto being the planet of our generations - means that these people have always tried to fit into norms and into society, to not stand out, to be the most basic they can try. I believe that if they had a catchfraze it would be: "fake it 'till you make it".

• whatever house you have libra in is an area in your life that tries to fit in norms / society / normality (libra 11th house: have friends that are normal & basic / you try to to fit in society to make friends)

• aries rising's facial expressions are IMMACULATE (aries rules the face, so it's fitting that their face and facial expression will be very dominant)

• if your lilith conjuncts your saturn then solving the dark and hidden parts of you will help your career life grow and evolve as well.

• Mars-neptune aspects makes your anger blurry - like you don't know when your angry or how to feel / express your anger. Bonus points if the moon has contact with mars.

• There are 2 houses that rule the feeling of not belonging: the 11th house (not belonging because ur special, unique, weird, not normal) and the 12th house (not belonging because of your lonely energy, your blurry energy that makes you feel drifted from everyone automatically)

• Parent & children 🤝 not understanding each other's generation. Why, you may ask? Most if the time the age gap between children & their parents is 25 - 40 years, now if pluto is changing it's sign every 12 (mostly) - 31 years it means that the gap of the signs is creating a square! Example: gen z (pluto in sag) & boomers and karens (pluto in virgo), yet gen z (pluto in sag) & gen of pluto in leo (our grandparents) are creating a trine aspect (good relationship between generations).

• Capricorn stelliums are the most impatient people ever, time just moves with their own schedule and they are the ones that are always perfectly in time. Why? Saturn, which is ruled by capricorn: is ruling time.

• 12th house placements in general but especially 12th house NN & chiron 10th house people have a hero complex, that we must help everyone and save everyone. It's because the 12th house is about selflessness and empathy.

• Sagittarius rising feel so intimate and private, like no one really knows them - because of their 12th house scorpio, which makes their intimate side hidden, and makes them a mystery.

• Your 7th house sign is also the sign you have celebrity-crushes & obsessions on.

• You can know leo's even without them having a sun, moon or rising in leo. They are just SO noticeable! Their energy is just IMMACULATE

• I think that 12th house people are very intersted in prisons, mental hospitals, illusions and parties actually! Now all of them are understood because of our natural will to search for the unkown and the mystery and the unrealistic stuff in our lives, stuff that makes your soul change.

But why parties? Parties may be a place filled with people and noise which 12th house ppl won't like but the thing is parties are a fun illusion, with the lights changing all the time and the music that makes our body adapt to an entirely different environment because of it - it makes u very much aware of everything within the noise and loudness and madness.

• Talking about parties and 12th house people - I have noticed that they have 2 options of how they act:

1. They sit in the corner and analyze literally anything or just drown in their own thoughts or distract themselves from "all of the eyes looking at them".

2. They try to dance and get involve in the party but they're or getting to carried away and then feel embarrassed af and isolate themselves or immediately regrets it and goes to isolate themselves.

• 10th house transits for ppl who haven't graduated high school / university yet will be manifesting in their school life because it's where you're "supposed" to find your career path.

• In my opinion, the co-ruler of fun (which is ruled by leo) is sagittarius. Why? Leo rules entertainment and sagittarius is the ruler of jupiter, which resembles happiness, optimism (, expansion, growth) which is like the soul purpose of fun and entertainment.

• Even tho communication and the social media are a mercury - thing, I actually think that specific parts have 2 or even 3 rulers. For example: articles are ruled by gemini, virgo and aquarius (gemini to represent the creativeness and flowing speech in the article (also gossip if included), virgo to represent the order and wording of the article and how it's represented and brought to the readers and aquarius is for the fact that articles always talk about new, innovative or unusual things that are happening currently [little bit of cap right here lol] in the world, which also bring awareness (def an aqua theme).

• As the 8th house representing secrets, intimacy and shared resources - it must mean that people with this stellium or placements LOVE gossip. gossip is the combination of shared resources (media - which related to my last note - so gossip pages are gemini scorpio thing), intimacy and secrets.

• I have a theory - vehicles, as all materials and machines - are ruled by earth signs, so here are each vehicles rulers in my opinion:

virgo rules the air-vehicles (plains, helicopters etc.) Because that's a mutable sign that's adaptable of change the most out of every earth sign, and because the sky is so unpredictable and there's infinite courses of ways to reach ur destination - virgo fits the most to it.

capricorn rules the sea-vehicles (ships, boats, submarines etc.) Because that's a cardinal sign, an initiator that doesn't wait for things to happen, but makes sure every sudden change has a stable solution, also the sea is such an exotic place - fitting for a Capricorn's rich taste in views and life. Other than that, water may be unpredictable as well, but less than the open air and sky. Capricorns are the sea goats for a reason ;)

And last but not least - taurus rules the earth-vehicles. As The most stable, grounded, stubborn & down to earth sign it's kind of fitting for the vehicles that moves through the earth to have taurus as it's ruler. As cars, motorcycles etc. Have roads, so does taurians have their own, only path. They depend on the only thing they trust and any sudden change will make chaos. It's also the most comfortable - the thing taurians are craving for most.

I HOPE U ENJOYED my astro-notes :) I'll def try to keep them coming lmao if y'all would want to. Hope y'all Have a nice day 💕