#I like loud music but I don't feel like that's the first thing ppl would guess since I'm more of a shy and soft person otherwise

[lieutenantselnia]

thanks for the tag @kyuoki! <3

I feel the need to explain that I'm the kind of person who rarely ever listens to music per album (unless maybe when a new one has just released), usually it's either "complete discography playlist" or "one to three particular songs on constant repeat", there's no in-between😂 That's why I also have a hard time deciding on a favourite album, because I tend to have some songs I really enjoy as well as some songs that don't interest me as much in almost all of them. But I think these are some that I especially like :)

No tags this time (partly bc I just straight up forgot them when clicking on "post"💀 and I'm not sure if the tagged people would be notified if I add them in later), but feel free to continue :)

[tododeku-or-bust]

could you elaborate a bit on that post abt (not) wearing headphones in public/playing your phone out loud? i was under the idea that it was nice to not play stuff aloud bc ppl might have migraines or be sound avoidant, but didn't realize i might just be seeing it from a white perspective, and id love to learn more

All right! First, check this link out: Xochitl does a far more eloquent job of explaining the idea than I would:

I assume that you're specifically honing in on my tag about the "white right of comfort".

Okay, so here's the thing. You're allowed to find public noise annoying. I too, find public TikToks and music annoying! And if you have migraines and such, I can understand how it would be impolite and inconvenient.

But what you're NOT allowed to do, is feel entitled to the public and prioritizing your OWN comfort in it over everyone else to the point of DEMANDING that it conforms to you or it's "bad". Especially when there are things you as an individual can do to prevent this discomfort.

While this gross sense of entitlement is very first world American in nature, it is extremely White American in nature because white Americans actually have the social power to enforce what they believe is the "right" thing based on their own standards.

For many cultures around the world and for many people of color, noise in the community is a GOOD thing. It's part of being a community. I feel safer if the people around me feel safe enough to be outside, to exist and to be, visibly in public.

And you got to understand, while many white people think they're genuinely in the right for believing that being loud on public transit or in the public is worth enforcing as a "bad" thing, people of color have literally already been killed for it. A Black teenager was shot in the face for playing music that a white man didn't like. A Black mentally ill man was murdered in front of EVERYBODY on a train because he was having a mental breakdown. This sort of policing ALREADY HAPPENS to us. Hell, even white gays with any sense of community should be aware of how queer gatherings would be shut down for "noise" (when in reality it was bc it was homophobia).

And now people want me to empathize that YOU'RE oppressed by... noise? On Public Transit?? IN PUBLIC?? Kiss my ass lmao.

I've been on trains where a man was legit growling at me like he wanted me dead. Another i saw Teens high on crack. Another where people beg and people sleep and people listen to music. And you know what I did? I turned my OWN music up and went on my way. Because at the end of the day, the only person I control is me!

And if people were REALLY concerned about others welfare, they would COMMUNICATE. no one is willing to say "hey, I have a headache, do you mind-" bc they're afraid of the rejection, so it's easier to demand "well EVERYONE SHOULD BE LIKE ME". Mhm. Learn to confront your issues. But you're not "unsafe" bc music. You're just annoyed, and you'll get over it.

In summary it really gives me "I can give you something to cry about" energy. Bc y'all swear y'all don't understand the existence of an HOA but here yall are replicating the same Karen behaviors, and y'all don't even realize (or maybe even care) how racist you sound. But why would you lmao, that makes you uncomfortable! And damnit, you have a right to comfort!!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

hello ari i am gently bonking your head with mine hehehe this is how we exchange ideas ok..... now that i've heard abt arisugu n arigojo first meetings.... i do need to know abt arikenny's first interaction now!!!!! and and and.... is.... is arishoko also a thing.... bc i think she would absolutely love you too like holy fuck you guys would work so well i feel like!!!!!!!!!!! why'd i immediately think of a first meeting that's like a little clumsy and cute?? like smth along the lines of you just bumping into her in like a coffee shop???? and you'd apologize over the shoulder and then she's just staring at you with that little devious smile of hers???? hehehe idk i feel like this could be canon ok anyway ily don't stay up too late my love!!!! mwah<3 - @teddybeartoji

HELLO MICKEY :33 this is us rn

okay so !!! i thought a Lot abt this one….. arishoko n arikenny are definitely the ones that r the least. Clear. in my mind. bUT i love them very dearly so!!!! we’ll see if i can make this cohesive 😭

FIRST OF ALLLL arishoko :33 it’s very very much a Thing honestly i think that. realistically. out of all four options shoko is the one i’d get together w irl… she’s just very much my type n i think i could charm her w my silly ways !!!!! but yes …..

OKAY SO I THINK. that. you’re absolutely right….. it’s a lot more soft n sweet than some of the other ones 😭 THE CAFE IDEA IS SOOOO CUTE cafe dates would be our standard for sure…… BUT I FEEL LIKE. we would meet. at a Bar. i don’t drink so i’d probably just be there accompanying a friend and i’m hating every second of it bc :// there r ppl around :/// the music is kinda loud and the lighting hurts my eyes :////// i’m just suffering and trying to read my lil book while my friends are dancing in the corner and ohhhh would you look at that…… a pretty girl is sitting rlly close to me…………. and i’m trying to subtly stare at her bc i’m enamored and. i think. she catches me in the act and i get flusteredPBDKDBDJD you get the vibes. i’m normal abt her.

so she strikes up a conversation …….. for SURE teases me abt coming to a bar just to read my gay little book and order sweet non-alcoholic drinks smh (may or may not make a throwaway comment abt how she has a friend who’s just like that… i’m forever thinking abt her calling gojo a big kid in one of the light novels bc she had to find a bar that sells non-alcoholic drinks for him LMAOO)…. and i am just. a little smitten. this is 100% an ari falls first kind of scenario i can’t resist the allure of a super pretty mysterious woman !!! :((((( and then i think she recommends a bar . that’s a lot more chill. that she likes. and she kinda just coaxes me into dating her i think 😭😭 i doooo see it as a slowburn but not nearly as much as the others shoko has me wrapped around her finger 💔💔

OH ANDDDD i should mention that i thought more abt the Lore both for arishoko and arigojo and!!!! i think that i’d probably be a non-sorcerer in both…. bc i think satoshoko in particular would rlly benefit from that ?? likeee shoko just meets someone outside of the school / jujutsu society and it’s just. a kind of normalcy that she doesn’t usually have!!! one that she finds rlly precious!!!! :((( and it’s the same w gojo but even worse bc i think he Craves normalcy. shoko already has canonical ties to non-sorcerers but gojo is kinda stuck in the jujutsu world so :’3 i feel like he’d meet a rando and just. fall for them very hard. they don’t know who he is, they don’t know he’s the strongest. to them he’s just. a Guy. and i think he loves that a lot. i’m just their Just Some Guy <333333 i think they’d both be reallyyyy adamant on Not getting me involved in their world at all. gojo introduces me to the students and shoko (begrudingly) introduces me to gojo when he crashes our date (😔) but it’s like. they’re protective … yk ……

…… this is already rlly long T—T BUT THE TRAIN NEVER STOPS i need to let it run its course…….

with that being said !!!! arikenny. the Forbidden selfship. the deranged version of arisugu. where do i even begin w this man….

honestly . this one is… yeah . i imagine it as an established relationship (<- very vaguely) bc it’s hard to picture Anyone capturing kenny’s attention w/o being reallyyyyy special 😭😭 which is why i have less thoughts on the Lore and more on the dynamic itself!!! but ummmm . i can picture us meeting in a coffee shop…. there’s this old wip i have where reader spots him sitting in a corner and eventually they start talking. abt the books they’re reading. nothing much just kenny picking their brain a little and yapping just to yap….. so i could picture it being kinda like that!! maybe i capture his attention somehow? 😭 it only really makes sense if i happen to be beneficial to his plan or something…? BUUT again i’m not super interested in the lore for this one!!!! so i’ll just talk a lil abt the dynamic hehe.

i just think. kenny is a freak. i’ve spent a lot of time trying to figure him out when it comes to x reader stuff bc i think his love is very unorthodox 😭 he’s just so detached yk?? buuut i think he can be very silly and affectionate in his own way :3 i fear he’s a Mother and a Father in one. in the worst of ways…. i could only picture him being in an Actual relationship w someone he views as his equal, but i don’t know if . that could ever apply to me LMAO. so if anything i think it’s similar to moji in that….. he just. finds a puppy in the pouring rain and brings it home. bc it’s kinda silly and good company. so maybe he does see me a little like. a Pet. kind of . I DOOO WANT TO SAY HE CARES FOR ME BUT. yk… he really wasn’t built for selfshipping. he’s a weirdo!! but i think it’s love at first sight for me…. i’m weak for milfs i fear 💔💔 and i think he does develop some kind of soft spot eventually :3 we’re. roommates. roommates who play board games and sleep in each others’ lap. roommates who kiss. i’d like to kiss his brain. WHO SAID THAT…

ok that was a big big ramble but !!!!! standard arimickey interaction let’s be real. it’s funny bc arishoko is so grounded somehow and arikenny is 💀💀 the way it is. i guess it’s sort of like a god/devout believer pairing … but without. the religious aspect. i think there’s very much a power dynamic involved this bitch is ANCIENT….. anyway that’s all tysm for reading my lovely sunflower baby <33333 i hope !! you’re having a nice day!!! ilyvm!!!!

[hearts401]

wait I forgor that the reason I was in your ask box was bc I wanted to say that your art is rlly cool and reminded me why I liked fnaf in the first place!! :]

(Also if you don't mind id love to hear some headcanons you have for the aftons ehe)

DSJDSFKJD TYYY OUHFUH Thats so sweet omg :(((

OOH BOY HEADCANONS FOR THE AFTONS (Not gonna include mrs.afton aside from vague mentions simply bc i dont care about the implied existence of a wife for william lmaoo)

Elizabeth

-8 years old

-audhd

-I am an intense ginger hair lizzie truther. SHE IS NOT BLONDE!!!! I REFUSE!!!

-She looooves circuses and would dress herself and her friends up as clowns a lot. her love for makeup sparked it and then it went on from there

-music stims galore!! humming, patting her legs, bouncing to the sound of music

-likes first person shooters!! not an a "cute girl likes edgy games" way but in the way that she genuinely enjoys them! shed rlly love shooting games. shed also likes games liek stardew and animal crossing bc shed like getting to know the villagers. (ik these games dont fit the timeline of the 80's but whatever idc) she'd like those gun games at amusement parks too

-lots of energy!!! you cannot stop her!!!!!

-her fav ice cream is mint chocolate chip

-shes not close with her brothers, much closer with her father. because of her fathers distance, however, this results in her feeling lonely a lot, but shes not willing to get involved in whatever her brothers are doing

-LOVES SPRING!!! LOVES IT!!! ITS HER FAVORITE!!!

-really likes animals and especially colorful birds. she has a collection of many things, one of them being colorful and pretty feathers (she has a peacock feather and its her pride)

-really likes bunnies just like her dad!

-likes to braid hair and do makeup. she used to do it with michael whenever he let her. him cutting that off kinda fucked their relationshipt. (and ofc then came the bite)

-She has a very orange room. orange red and pink r her favorite colors.

-thinks her eyes are super pretty

-if she's curious about an item, she'll sniff it and inspect it and feel it but not put it in her mouth bc thats gross ><

-sleeps on her side like a normal person

-likes dolls n stuff :333

Evan

-10 years old

-anxiety and autism

-very good at sewing (bc michael would break his plushies a lot)

-never let lizzie do his makeup bc it overstimulated him

-anxious stims. hand shakes, biting his nails, wringing his hands, shifting side to side, ect.

-enjoys crocheting but almost never has yarn. lizzie gave him an unused yarn ball once and he used it to make a bunch of stuff

-very picky eater, but he wont say it out loud.

-likes webkinz

-HATES HORROR MOVIES!! like this is a given but he will stay up all night thinking about it. its the one thing he stands up for himself on is not being forced to wathc horror movies (mostly because its the only thing both william and lizzie will back him up on)

-he likes yellow a lot. his room isnt hyellow but he wishes it was.

-doesn't have friends and is regarded as weird, but kids avoid him for the most part. most of his bullying comes from ppl who know michael.

-hed like racing games a lot

-scared of his dad and by association he was scared of henry too

-not super close with charlie but he knows her to be a good person. wishes he was closer with her

-ofc easily startled, freaked out, and made uncomfortable

-does NOT like being talked over

-gets frustrated rlly easily and often rants to his fredbear plush

-liked to draw!! he picked it up from mike when he was younger and continues to do it as an outlet

-wishes he had a bigger family

-definitely not flexible at all, but doesnt hurt himself much (hes not dumb, he learns what makes his bones break)

-will feel things over if hes curious about them. maybe sniff them too but he gets scared they'll kill him 😭

-dislikes amusement parks bc overstim but does enjoy the games and prizes

-he likes rice. idk. he just likes rice a lot.

-if he grew up, hed be taller than mike AND lizzie idc idc

-he tries his best to smile in family photos but he just looks so goddamn uncomfortable that eventually william just let him sit them out.

-definitely a peacemaker between lizzie amd mike

-if hes thinking hard he looks PISSED. RESTING BITCH FACE. He is GLARING AT HIS PLATE. "Evan? What's wrong?" and he just immediately is like 😠😯🙁

-he cares about michael a lot more than he should. he tells him to stop when hes fighting someone, he tries to calm him down when hes angry, he tries to talk to him. it makes him so frustrated, it makes him so mad when michael refuses him rudely, but he keeps doing it. its who he is.

-he got a golden freddy mask that creeped michael out and he jumpscared him with it once.

-cuts his own hair

-not a hugger but if EITHER of his siblings offer a hug he will NOT deny them (does not apply to william tho)

-i dont think he cared about william tbh lol

-sleeps on his back like a corpse.

Michael

-14

-audhd

-nonbinary he/they but doesnt realize it til hes 18

-gets mad when overstimulated

-Likes pirates a lot, watches lots of pirate shows.

-INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA it kicked in in like 2nd grade when someone made fun of him for letting lizzie do his makeup. (jeremy helps him get over it)

-forgets to eat a lot. not intentionally. hes just dumb.

-argues with his dad the most, and drives william nuts

-if hes curious about something, hes gonna bite it. what is it? idk. CHOMP

-loves skirts bc sensory issues are worse in his ankles. he compromises by wearing basketball shorts.

-canNOT wear things near his neck. hates things near his neck.

-close-ish with charlie. likes talking to her.

-favorite color is red. he puts it everywhere.

-likes pokemon.

-watches anime

-BIG HORROR FAN BUT THAT SHIT KEEPS HIM UP AT NIIIIGHT

-halloween is his fav holiday. ud think its bc he liked scaring evan (and it kinda is) but mostly he jsut likes dressing up and going trick or treating. he'll use his costume to scare evan later tho. william takes them away because of that, just bc he doesnt want michael ruining the costume (they reuse them sometimes)

-likes growing his hair out

-looks very soft when thinking. evan only talks to him when he looks calm and collected.

-stims by humming, tapping, slamming his fists, and making loud sounds (shouting, whining, UGH AAAGH ect.) which tend to overstimulate evan

-him and evan are adhd vs autism but if the adhd also had autism

-scared of the ocean but he'll never admit it (got bit by some small fish once and it freaked him out)

-mouth moves faster than his brain

-NOT A MORNING PERSON (except on halloween) DO NOT TALK TO HIM IN THE MORNING!!! HE BITES!!!

-messy room with very little in it.

-punches holes in his walls as a stim :(

-likes sweaters in fall

-for someone who jumpscares his little brother, he gets jumpscared easily

-giggles a lot during hide and seek but thru hiding from evan he learned how to stop it. if he does giggle it means hes genuinely happy

-faints when SUPER freaked out. but it takes a lot

-probably gets queasy around blood

-lactose intolerant but he'll be damned if he doesnt eat that mac n cheese

-has SO MUCH FOXY MERCH. he convinces his dad to give him EVERYTHING HE LOVES FOXY SO MUCH

-would do awesome in school if he could get himself to try

-probably felt rlly hurt when he heard foxy was confined to a small area and not onstage. not because it mattered to him, but because the way william looks at foxy makes him think of the way he looks at him.

-gators r his second fav animal

-draws as a way of venting, but it rarely works. he likes it tho

-SINGS ALL THE TIME. WALKS INTO THE HOUSE DANCING AND SINGING AND TAPPING THINGS

-moves in his sleep

-TIGHT HUGS.

-AFFECTIONATE SHOULDER PUNCH GO!!!

-AGGRESSIVE SHOULDER PUNCH GO!!!

-NEUTRAL "I'm uncomfortable and idk what to do rn" SHOULDER PUNCH GO!!!

-giggles evilly

-like evan hes not very flexible but hes much more likely to hurt himsel fand sprains his ankles a lot

William

-Do not misspell his last name he will get unbelievably pissed

-probably nd too bc all his kids are but he doesnt gaf abt that 😭

-has kissed a man before as an experiment. did not get anything from it unfortunately

-met henry in college for robotics and became friends

-when his wife left/died he was just like "oh. i have three kids now. fuck." and then avoided them

-doesnt care about his kids but them dying causes problems for him so he tries his best to keep them alive (unsuccessfully. this is the afton family after all)

-just like mike, he sings and taps a lot, but its more humming and tapping.

-also lactose intolerant but he actually cares about it

-likes bunnies a lot.

-allergic to pollen. severely. he walks outside in spring and is already sneezing and rubbing his eyes

-Frustrated easily

-Looks pissed when hes not, looks pissed when he is. looks pissed when hes sad. looks pissed when hes thinking. the only time he doesnt looks pissed is when he looks happy and that is very rare (and never happens around his kids, only henry)

-TIGHT HUGS.

-Buys his kids gifts but its always stuff they either dont like anymore or didnt like int he first place. he doesnt care

-secretly likes thanksgiving a lot. hes a foodie what can i say

-lizzie is his favorite but that only means he is occasionally gentle with her in a way he'll never be with his sons

-likes dressing up fancy but als freaky he just likes dressing up

-poses in the mirror to check his outfit. michael walked in on him once and william has never yelled at him so muhc in his life. michael acted upset but he was giggling to himself

-does not and will never care about whatever michael and evan have goin on. he does NOT have time for them.

-drops and breaks his phone ALL THE TIME.

-likes stress balls a lot.

-springbonnie is his BABY. he LOVES HER.

-grabs his kids by their heads a lot. like if michael is in his way he'll just put a hand on his head and move him off to the side. the only one he cant do it to is evan because he just moves out of the way

-has a bunch of tiny robots of his own. he likes to make silly bunny robots taht r tiny

-thinks hes smooth wiht flirting and could grab a girl (he cant henry knows he cant)

-sticks his tongue out like a cartoon character when hes thinking SUPER hard

-pats michael on the back a lot to lighten a tense situation but it just makes michael tense up and makes it worse

-giggles evilly

-used to be queasy with blood and spent an hour in front of a mirror post-killing charlie telling himself to man up and somehow that worked

-not a hugger. only hugs his kids in public to lighten the mood. except mike. mike u get awkward back pats

-doesnt like being touched (he WILL smack your hand)

I THINK THATS ALL LMAOOO I HAVE SO MANY

[messedupessy]

Ok so I finished Dawntrail a couple of days ago, and I got so many thoughts about it, things about it I loved, things I didn't vibe with, thoughts of what I both hope and fear will happen next, so prepare for a ramble as this will prolly get long xD MASSIVE SPOILERS FOR DAWNTRAIL DOWN BELOW!!!

Where do I even begin? I got so many throughts about literally everything it's hard to decide where to start, but think I will start with what I loved with this expansion overall and then go from there:

The graphic update is so good, everything looks so nice, the new zones and towns are amazing, all the zone music and music overall this expansion is a fucking banger there is no music I dislike which is amazing, the dungeons and trials, except for the last two for me, was so good, fun mechanics and bosses that is harder but not impossible! Most of the characters were so good and interesting and I loved to get to know them all!

But one issue I had with the expansion as a whole and not just the second half of it, where pretty much all my issues are tbh, is that the voices or rather the voice deliveries this expansion was really weird for the english voices, it felt like the voice direction or the mixing was very off and every character was affected. Like there were several moments Graha or any of the other scions spoke and I got all ??? that's not how you usually sound like what is going on?? And then there is Wuk Lamat, love her voice af, but there were many moments where I felt she just needed to push a bit more especially in emotional moments, her crying is fine but when she needed to get loud and yell it just didn't work, but I feel it's more because of the voice direction and mixing than the actual voice actor. And she isn't the only one though and this has been a issue I feel since the patches for Endwalker, something is really off!

And not to mention that the translation and subtitles are very off, they gotten so very bad since the patches, as my older sister plays in japanese but with english subtitles, and she understands japanese well enough to notice when the characters says more than is subtitled which really sucks. And there was allot of that in the patches, an example when Zero says to thank everyone she says their names in japanese but not in english, and there were moments here in Dawntrail that happened too, don't remember them atm tho since it was a bit since me and my sis talked about it, which sucks, feels like we who play in english are missing out on things all because things just isn't translated properly.

Then there is the msq, I absolutely adored everything until lvl 95 after the first story was done where we crowned Wuk Lamat dawnservant etc, mostly everything between 90-95 was perfect to me, great pacing, great characters, fun bosses and dungeons. The small critiques I got is that we barely spent time at the moblins they didn't even get any voice scenes, and that I wish the like rivalry we were meant to have with Thancred and Urianger thanks to them working for and supporting Koana instead of Wuk Lamat could been stronger. I would had loved a instance of us maybe fighting or just something more there.

And then there is the whole trading part with the Pelopelo, forgot their names the small duck faced ppl, where you are meant to trade things up for more expensive stuff, loved it love the UI they had for it and so on but wish they could gone a bit further with it, like they could have let us fail properly and mess up for example, that if we choose wrong here and there we would been forced to start over at a certain point, just something more there and it would been perfect!

But those are the only things I had issue with when it comes to the first part of the expansion, now to the second where most of my grievances lies and also my fears for what will come next:

First of shiiooni the cowboy place, the story there was truly what you call filler, which I get we can't always have something high stakes thing happening, not always needed either and things was brewing in the background, but I wish there had been more to the story there just it was very bland, something more could have happened there and instead it feels a bit like a waste of a zone even though I like the zone itself very much! Just something more happening in that zone could been really good but no we got like nothing. Connected shitall with the characters there except for our reflection versions of the trolley people they made me so darn happy!

Then the attack at the city happened, wonderfully fucked up but why did they have to kill off Guloo Ja Ja?? Think that's how you spell his name, but Papa simply I love him he was and still is one of my fave characters from this whole expansion, and it feels they went with the way too easy route to just let him get killed for drama, it always happens with fathers who are done and give away their position but i am so tired of it he could just gotten really hurt instead it would done pretty much the same give or take, you don't need to kill off someones dad to give them motivation to kill their own brother for doing so! He had already butchered a bunch of the towns people Wuk lamat did not need more motivation to go for it, and if he just needed to be put out of comission so he wouldn't solve shit too quickly then just hurt him a bit and shit would been fine, it just sucks and while the death scene was good it just frustrates me, let the parents live for once!!

But anyway then there is the dome, 30 years passing etc, loved that whole thing wonderfully messed up but here we meet the sole character that ruined the ending for me personally, Spherne or however her name is spelled. The idea of her and her story is great, but the execution of her character did not work for me at all, and it could been easily fixed if at the end of her instead repeating the same old "sorry for killing your ppl" she could had tried to tell something about herself but maybe failing etc, just said something to give her more character than "I love my people above everything else and I will kill anyone who harms them and I will keep them alive even if it means killing others", that was her whole personality there was nothing else there and it could been fixed so easily by her just admitting to it? If that makes sense? She was just so very bland and could been so much more and I get it she is just the memory of a person long dead but just give me something more, and then there is her design it is so bad if they just pulled back a smidge it would been fine!

After meeting her I feel the rest of the msq ends up so rushed, which like technically makes sense since we in a hurry to stop zorol ja think it was spelled mister first promise boy, but it made it so for me at least, that I didn't get a chance to connect with the new characters properly, didn't get to know the new villain at all, which could been on purpose since wuk lamat and sperne is kind of opposites, but it just didn't work which makes me so frustrated because it could worked so well!

And not to mention, a thing I didn't think of until my big sis mentioned it and how frustrated she was about it, is the whole electric sickness happening there! We have a cure for it we can fix that but there was no mention of it or anything where we could go oh hey we have a cure for this since its the whole thing from the first and tempering we could gotten Aisaie summon Angelo and help the sick boy but no, nothing! This better get mentioned/fixed in the future story patches or I will go insane!

Fuck we could had brought it up to Spherne and made her situtation more complicated but no!

And then there is Otis, I loved that guy but he was instantly taken away and killed we got no time so spend with him except for in the Living Memory later on but that wasn't truly him and it just sucks, wish he had been around longer and things didn't get so fucking rushed here!

Loved the trial for Zorol ja tho it was great, loved how it subtly explained why he was how he was, and while I would had loved having more of it outside the trial before we killed him etc it still worked out and made sense, love his son so much he is so good and I adore that blue baby! But I want to know who his birth mother is, who the fuck is Zorol ja's birth mother?? How was he born even though it is said two headed maamol ja can't have kids? Or is it just so darn rare he just ended up been the first ever? Game please explain gkejngke!!

But then comes Spherne and fucks shit up, which would work if her whole character wasn't as bland as a wet salty cracker! The whole of Living Memory was amazing i cried so much, the zone is amazing the music the progress of it was great, the whole message of everyone dies and life goes on hitting me way too hard.

But then there is the dungeon and Sphernes trial, the fights etc is fine and the visuals great, but thanks to her constant talking in the dungeon and its her we fight it just it's just so meh, she needed something more and now she will be part of Wuk Lamat's story forever and it sucks! Also I am still irritated that she kept calling Wuk lamat by her family nickname like please that was so rude, but I also get why Wuk lamat didn't protest proepr but still! It would been more interesting if like wuk lamat was like no u can't call me that and spherne been apologetic etc, and then later at the end wuk lamat lets her call her by that, just something!

Ok so rant over there but now we get to what my hopes and fears are for the future story, as now we got a fucking mguffin that can open portals to other reflections! Which we luckily know shit about except Kriles people had it but that's all luckily since they didn't know shit about it either, and I hope it stays that way for at least another expansion as it feels we are rushing the whole "find a way to other reflections" bit way too much, it already felt a bit rushed in the endwalker patches, but now we got a mcguffin and I am worried about it!

As while I want to visit other reflections, be able to visit the first with the scions again etc, I don't want to do that just yet! There been too much of reflection stuff in the story, I want a break from that and focus on other parts of the world we haven't been to, like Mercedia, Graha's home land, the Roegadyn homeland etc, I want to wait and let Y'sthola work more on finding a way, as I fear this mcguffin will make things way too easy and solve this whole thing, I want the story to wait, let us do other shit while this storyline can be like in the background a bit, and not the focus! And then it can blow up and be the focus again! I feel we need a break from it and I fear this will be the focus of the patches that is going to come.

After all the best part of the msq for me was when we just enjoyed ourselves in the new world and places we got to explore, where there was no mention except some smaller references and the reflections was not in the focus. I just want a break from it let it brew and stop rushing it!

But I am hopeful that this is something that will take awhile, since we literally have no clue what or where the mcguffin even came from or what it is, so I hope this will mean that it will take awhile, and that we can focus on other things like the electric sickness in solution 9 and their whole messing with souls there! I want clarification on if Alexandria etc is from the reflection from the second umbral calamity or not, as the hints are there as it would make sense, but I do not want to focus on traveling to any reflections for now. I want to explore other things so badly get to do new things and not reflection stuff please.

The only exception to any reflection focus is if something gets fucked up and the WoL gets sent to a reflection alone, with no one there to help us while the scions etc tries to find and contact us, that is the only reflection story I will be ok with getting at the moment as I want things to go wrong more and not feel as easy as it feels currently when it comes to travelling to the reflections!

Ok so think I have gotten out all that I wanted to say, sorry for any grammar or spelling mistakes but I can't be bothered to fix shit, thanks for coming to my ted talk and feel free to chime in with your own thoughts and so on would love to chat or clear up any misunderstandings, as I know I am not the best at explaining stuff at times xD

[olgunia]

also... i feel like writing it down and getting it out of my system but... i mean... i told my boyfriend and two best friends... and my new therapist. . .. (i'm finally getting help!!! and it turned out that i was right!! it is that i have been suffering from utmattningssyndrom [exhaustion disorder] for the past 2 years! and also! finally i accept the fact that i have been suffering from it and i feel less of an impostor and also!! for the past 3 months i have been recovering and feeling better and better with every week, i wanted to cry last week when i was able to cycle! every day!! it was impossible even a month ago, i felt so humiliated with how little energy i had all the time.. usch, don't wish that shit on anyone) said that we're gonna Look Into It.. TBC

ok but yes, the thing is that 3 months ago one thought struck me and that is that i may be autistic.. at first i did cry bc i felt overwhelmed and scared because i have this imagine in my head of prejudice and lack of understanding what autism really is and that people on SM are trying to be quirky or special or whatever, i don't even know! it just felt so overwhelming.. but after that i had conducted more research that has been ongoing and.. i think apart from the fact that i just feel like i'm an impostor and that if i would say it out loud - other people will think that i'm 'making it up' (hehe that hasn't happened and those 3 close ppl are supportive BUT!!!) ---- apart from that.. the more i read and think - it just becomes more apparent that i am on the spectrum! and once again it feels like a lot but on the other hand it would explain so many things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! some silly things like me having to ask people if they're joking bc i really can't tell lol, same with irony, to not getting if someone is flirting with me, to people believing i'm being flirty while i'm just interested and excited about the topic and want to be nice lol, me losing my fucking everything and exploding internally while having to go for e.g. on tour - no matter how much i like someone - to be in the same space [car/venue/sleeping place] and to not have enough 'alone time' is just! i just fucking cant! mental breakdowns every 2nd day! i hate spending too much time with people (that doesn't apply to my boyfriend though but till exempel to my family/friends) in the same space! ----- and i mean... i have been diagnosed with ocd and social phobia while being a teenager but there were some things that have been.. puzzling me and now! it feels like i found the missing puzzle! and it feels both good and weird

and other things like being naive, an open book, shitload of thoughts, feeling intense feelings towards stuff - loving/hating, having hard time with 'not exploding' and att hantera emotions, seeing 'patterns', these whole stemming thing- whenever i listen to music that i love it's just.. i just cant NOT move fingers or hands or legs, getting stuck with some sayings/catchphrases that change every now and then, i guess i also overshare stuff but hard to tell hehe, always trying to learn how to navigate small talks and talking and social things, being called blunt, believing that i lack empathy because i just.. i cant imagine how it is to 'put myself in someone's shoes', loving 'shitposting' or wordplay bc they're either absurd and therefore funny or just easy to understand hehe, planning things, not being able to summarize things, doing lots of lists, i just f-ing love to research, getting sucked into things and having a very hard time to get out but also having a hard time to start doing shit and more things bla bl albla lbllalalal.. . .. writing it down so i can have it for future purposes

but yes.. it's scary but good i guess to realise that? Smiley Emoji

[boyfhee]

GET TO KNOW ME GAME !

tagged by · @dearhee

tagging · @koishua @yujipg @amakumos literally don't have anyone to tag 🤣 just do this even if ur name isn't here

birthday: 25th may, i wish i shared it w someone

favourite colour: rose gold, gray rose / gray lavender, ice blue

do you have pets? no, but i do have a stray cat i feed and she basically lives in my backyard

how tall are you? no

how many pairs of shoes do you own? 😵‍💫 around 20

favourite song: sherlock ( oceanfromtheblue ) 긴밤 ( seori ft GIRIBOY ) mimi ( youra ) by my side ( junny ) i have so many help

favourite movie: interstellar, literally the best thing ever directed. also, these are not movies but 2521 ( kor. ) first love ( jap. ) threads our tapestry of love ( jap. )

who would be your ideal partner? lee heeseung yeah, he is the standard. but fr i like people who i can communicate with easily, without much issues ( i mean, we can understand each other ) the main thing i look for is probably, how they are under pressure or how they deal with things / serious things. this is very important to me because i need that person to be there when we're going through something so it's really important that they don't avoid problems ( besides, people like that annoy me help ) also someone who's fun but is also smart ? like, we can joke around and also discuss about something academic, it's fun. i mean i love to talk about interests and how things work, everything logical. i also like pretty ppl and heeseung is very, very pretty.

do you want children? ok i'm gonna be honest. like a few years ago, i was so against it, but now, i can consider. i mean, i'm not saying i will have kids in future, but i can consider. i can at least adopt one so yeah, can consider.

have you gotten in trouble with the law? no

what colour socks are you wearing? i don't wear socks off season ( no one here does )

favourite type of music: classical, but most recently added is krnb

how many pillows do you sleep with? one

what position do you sleep in? straight ?? it's good for posture

what don’t you like when you’re sleeping: noise. loud music, or talking too much. u want to talk, go do it somewhere i am not sleeping

what do you have for breakfast: fruits / fruit juice, milk ( with toast, optional ) on school days. when i'm home, i usually have a bowl of fruits with coffee ( odd choice, i know, but it really gets me through next 5-6 hours that are very crucial )

have you ever tried archery? except in amusement parks, no

favourite fruit: guavas, grapes, kiwis, bananas

are you a good liar? very, very good liar

what’s your personality type? intj, i like being smart fr

innie or outie? former

left handed or right handed? ambidextrous hehe i can write + draw with both hands ( love me for that )

favourite food: we have these dishes called pav bhaji & idli sambhar, honestly heaven

favourite foreign food: pasta ( creme cheese one especially )

am i clean or messy? both, more on the clean side

most used phrase: innit, "just like me fr," at the most random times, "help me" as a way to express delight "sweetheart," to call my friends help does that count?

how long does it take for you to get ready: 20 minutes, at most. i don't use makeup except eyeliner & gloss but even if i opt for anything more like blush or eyeshadow, it takes 30, at most

do you talk to yourself? it's a coping mechanism

do you sing to yourself? all the time

are you a good singer? i think? i mean, i passed 2 rounds of sm global auditions so that says something

biggest fear? yk deep water? where you aren't able to see anything except pure darkness? the eerie feeling it carries? that. it's not a phobia, but it's to the point that i get scared even by looking at it in pictures so i avoid those

are you a gossip? we all are, to an extent

do you like long or short hair? medium to long

favourite school subject: science, biology specifically ( zoology, in that ) and that's why im pursuing med lolol, also i love english, engineering graphics and math minus commercial mathematics and trig

extrovert or introvert: introvert but i talk quite a lot when i'm with family or with close friends ( the classic, yk )

what makes you nervous: doing something for the first time, going to a place i've never been, MAKING SPECIMEN SLIDES i swear i've spent my highschool years making microscope slides but it never fails to make me nervous like what !! if !! there's !! an !! air bubble !! v good at it but i still have tendencies to mess up

who was your first real crush? this guy from tenth grade, we went to a competition together from school and got lost in the city so ig that's where my feelings originated from

how many piercings? 2

how many tattoos? none

how fast can you run? idk bro but it's pretty decent

what colour is your hair? black

what colour are your eyes? black

what makes you angry: when i can't do something that i know i can do ( like when i mess up a painting, or some questions ) people who think they're entitled to everything, people who talk shit behind others ( i mean we all do that, but like, i dislike ppl who use others and then talk behind their back ) people who avoid responsibilities, PEOPLE WHO ARE CRUEL WITH ANIMALS i swear if u dont treat animals nicely you will have a miserable life

do you like your name? definitely

do you want a boy or a girl as a child? can't pick

what are your strengths? i am very, very calculative so i make decisions i do not regret ( slay ) my determination is through the roof, i've been told that i'm eloquent & clear with agenda which is such a plus point for me, i have experience with tons of things ( science, math, art & painting, music, dance, basketball, volleyball, swimming, cricket, badminton, chess, baking, finance, coding & computer science, writing, tutoring, public speaking, basically everything that my parents ever made me learn plus it's v fun tbh ) i can adapt quickly, i am amazing memorizing skills, quick learner

what are your weaknesses? i know i sound like im bragging in prev question, but i have so many weaknesses to cover my strengths up . major one being finding it hard to concentrate and staying motivated, getting things done on time, my laziness god i am so lazy. it's super hard for me to build a habit and ever harder to get rid of one, i can't cook for the life in me and i have so much trouble trying to mix up with new people

what is the colour of your bedspread? teal

colour of your room: one wall is pink while rest 3 are off white

[satocidal]

I forgot about the bengali 💀 but yes, I've heard of it

And omo, it's like

My country is heavily christian but probably not in the ways you would expect

Like, ppl don't care much about the bible and all that besides holidays, being anti lgbt and being offended if you don't practice a religion 💀

It's more of an effect of not being let to practice religion during the communist days ngl (Revolution was in 89 and was bloody af)

But we got cool traditions for Christmas such as "colind" (going from house to house and singing to get money and sweets), we have the goat (which is basically made out of paper and there's a whole scene around it with a doctor and a rroma person and all that. Boys used to make a competition out of who has the nicest, most colorful goat). We got the bears (which are many times actual bears costumes. As in, made of their fur. They use drums and roll in the snow). After new year we go sing again but spread grains of rice for luck. We have to wear red and new things on new years (even money in our clothes) to attract luck. My parents used to gently tap my forehead at the first thunder of the year with a metallic spoon for a "clear, smart mind". On 1st march we have mărțișor, which means giving tiny things with red and white strings. We have the easter and we make eggs red and have a competition of cracking eggs one against another and washing our faces in the morning with money and a red egg. We have a special dessert given at funerals (colivă). And the weddings? Weddings are so fun. We crack glasses for luck. We dance. Cars honk in the whole city and people have fun. We have traditional dances and music and a costume. At my sister's wedding, my brother (as per tradition) was at the front door, negotiating with her husband, who had to bribe him in order to pass 🤣. We "steal" the bride and the husband has to negotiate to get her back.

I love the traditions in my country, tbh. They're loud and colorful.

Not all christians have the same traditions from what I gathered.

There's also the "devil's eye" which is basically someone looking at you and having intense feelings of either hatred, jealousy or admiration. It can be undone with an old tale singing you have to "catch" by hearing it from someone else or it can be lessened by wearing red.

Vampires are based on one of our old leaders, for example. Our vampires are scarier tho (strigoi).

The legends we have. Oh my god. They're quite scary and so cool.

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Wait I FORGOT TO ANSWER THIs😭I’m so sorry baby

Ok ok ok we have similarities sweets💀 but like y’all so cool fr (had me in the second para itself lol)

So we don’t have any similar festivals but the weddings? So we do this thing where the bride’s sisters and cousins and all steal the shoes of the groom and he has to negotiate em back and it’s just. Weddings are just a way to make money for bride’s cousins (I’m the literal best negotiator when it comes to getting money🫶)

And we have that devil’s eye thing too—I don’t believe much into it but yes

[zo1nkss]

Hi! What are your headcanons for Wilhelm from young Royals and Eleanor from the good place? Bye!

Sorry this took so long, I have this weird thing about answering asks "in order" but then it ends up taking me six years to answer them, anyway I'm trying to kick that weird personal rule so hopefully it sticks.

Wille HCs

Absolutely adores The Sound of Music

He doesn't have the same technical or curated talent as Simon, but he's a decent enough singer. However; he only ever sings to properly belt out the chorus to really emotional breakup songs and he doesn't know how to belt correctly so it just sounds really forced and throaty rather than powerful and guttural and Simon knows he's probably hurting his voice but he can't bring himself to tell him to stop because Fuck that's so cute???

Autistic Wille truthers, find me, love me, speak to me plz I know you're out there and I need more autistic Wille ppl in my life

I guarantee that if you handed Wille any puzzle that is solvable by hand, he could do it. He'd figure it out somehow. My man thinks, and he thinks Hard. And he thinks best when he's using his hands if you've noticed, so I think in another life he could be one of those champion Rubix cube or cup stacking competitors.

He had a cup song phase and he's very ashamed to admit it

He's secretly obsessed with the Pitch Perfect series, why do you think the first thing he did at Hillerska was fall for a coir boy?

As a fellow Repressed Queer I believe he has the potential to do a complete aesthetic make-over, but I also would really love to just....see him stay the way he is. I love little gay dramas where the main character is just Gay and they don't really do much about it. (I'm a loud gay but I feel media neglects the subtle gays far too much)

He also watches Stranger Things but is honestly a little scared of the fandom

(actually, he just doesn't really like fandoms, there are so many people with so many opinions and he just wants to watch his silly little shows)

Eleanor HCs

Pre Death, she liked the feeling of living like a bachelor so she lifted the toilet seat after she used it so it looked like a cis guy who didn't care about anyone else lived there

During at least one of Michael's Bad Place attempts, he had to have told her that her soul mate was a drag queen and she had to have accepted it so completely that it genuinely devastated her when she realized it was fake. My reasoning is it would be so easy to torture her simply by making her drag queen soul mate generally unavailable at all times. It would truly be hell, and THATS how she figures out it's the bad place in that attempt. I don't think she would even need Chidi if I'm being honest. She's just so gay, she would be so madly in love with the concept of dating a drag queen, and being robbed of that would be like an instant tell that she's not where they said she should be.

That was so many words for "Eleanor loves drag queens" wow.

Anyway she's an extremely competitive beer pong player and she's also extremely bad at it. But drunk Eleanor thinks she's good at literally everything, so it doesn't really stop her.

She doesn't actually like shrimp, she only stole all that from the cokctail bar because it she was drunk and sad.

[alycosworld]

I posted 139 times in 2022

That's 38 more posts than 2021!

79 posts created (57%)

60 posts reblogged (43%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@cipheress-to-k-pop

@teeeentitaaans

@rubinocore

@markired

@incorrectbatfam

I tagged 109 of my posts in 2022

Only 22% of my posts had no tags

#aly.rants - 69 posts

#dc's legends of tomorrow - 29 posts

#legends of tomorrow - 28 posts

#john constantine - 12 posts

#matt ryan - 11 posts

#sara lance - 7 posts

#in space with markiplier - 7 posts

#markiplier - 7 posts

#ava sharpe - 6 posts

#the clone dilemma - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 110 characters

#watch it pick back up again for a fleeting moment and then i'll leave you all stranded with absolutely nothing

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

bethic twinstinct doesn't feel like an episode. it feels like i had a very shameful and strange dream and now im awake and do not know how to go about my day without thinking about it or letting it affect me.

151 notes - Posted September 19, 2022

#4

MANDO 🥺🥺 HES SO CUTE

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157 notes - Posted March 3, 2022

#3

i saw yr post abt the request thing so im gonna request^^

how abt venti with a s/o that i introverted and hates alcohol??? im not a big fan of alcohol and drunk ppl really scare me lol so id like to see how that would work out! i also have a social battery and when i do run out of that social battery and get really irritable and frustrated so how would he deal with that? take yr time and get rest <3

🧸/💮 anon~

(did u know iphone added new heart emojis0.0)

Venti with an Introverted S/O

A/N: in the process of momentarily reviving the blog as I said earlier, so here's the first post to mark that.

also, if you understand/like the phoenix wright reference then ily &lt;3

thank you for reading and I hope you enjoy!

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okay so, he's not gonna stop drinking for you. dude's an alcoholic, through and through.

and, he doesn't want to leave you alone because he loves you and he likes having you with him.

but...he realises that you don't like the atmosphere of the rowdier bars he frequents, or even the nice bars late into the night.

people shouting and making unnecessary comments, loud, horribly-sung music, all the drunkards crowding together and closing in around you.

it's terrifying and Venti's used to it, but you aren't and he understands.

you can stand him being drunk alone, because he's just dumb, funny and flirty - which, honestly, isn't much different from regular Venti.

so, what exactly does he do to help you out?

solution one: drink at home, sing his own songs, and recreate the atmosphere of a bar with just you. He doesn't care much for the patrons either - they're fun to be with, but he much prefers you.

solution two: take you two a calmer bar like Angel's Share (usually while Diluc's around so he can keep everyone in check) and defend you like Phoenix Wright.

as for your social battery, Venti just knows when you're running low. No matter what he had planned, no matter who else wants to see either of you, as soon as you get a little bit irritated, he's ushering you home.

he can't cook anything fancy, but he lives off bar food and he'll pick up something or haphazardly make something for you. Sure, it isn't elegant or well presented, but it fills you up, calms you down, helps you relax and tastes pretty damn good.

he'll cuddle with you, sing you an impromptu tune, tell you a good story, or just let you sleep while he takes care of everything else. If you need to get away from people, Venti will know and he'll handle it perfectly.

he'll stop whatever he's doing and immediately remove you from a social situation with some vague excuse:

"Well, I-- oh! Look at the time! Y'know, I think my darling lover and I should get going right about now, huh? Buh-bye, now!"

and he'll let you do whatever you want straight after, whether it be flee the scene like a villain or collapse on the street from tiredness.

"Oh? Have you had enough for today, my love? I agree, let's get you home and I'll take care of the rest."

"Don't worry about them, dove. All that's important is that we get out of here. No matter the situation, I'll handle it. You just rest. I love you."

161 notes - Posted April 14, 2022

#2

guys mark confirmed that yancy, as lore, has magical tattoos that change according to the universes changing around him. omg. y'all.

189 notes - Posted May 11, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Sweetheart

John Constantine X Reader

NEW A/N: so! It's finally here, the finished version of "TITLE" that I accidentally posted all that time ago (and decided to leave up for the memories). I've left in all the old stuff, no changes to the original text, I just added to it so it's a complete story. I've even left in the old A/N for nostalgia ykwim. aNYWAYS, HAVE FUN!

OLD A/N: 100 followers is coming up but I have nothing for y'all so take the product of my latest obsession: john mf constantine - resident demonologist, exorcist, master of the dark arts, accomplished warlock and outrageously attractive brit. I love him, you love him, so let's give our soulless boy a round of applause! thanks for reading, please enjoy &lt;3

warnings: a lil spicy, slight choking??, talk of sex, inexperienced reader, reader is called pretty, love, sweetheart (idk if these are considered gendered words but I dont think they are??), gender-neutral reader

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(takes place in s4, Séance and Sensibility with the old Zari (Tomaz))

Kamadeva, now locked in the brig of the Waverider, poured some of the glittery ashes of his vial into his hand, blowing them through the air vents and to reach all the other rooms and Legends aboard in the night.

...

"Now, what are you doing, dreaming about me, love?" John asked. His trench coat had been removed and his sleeves had been rolled up to his elbows as he sat on the edge of your bed.

"The fugitive must've done something. It's fine, y'know, can't two friends hang out in a dream?" You chuckled nervously, sitting on a beanbag on the ground, crossing your legs and trying to act perfectly normal, although you knew that Kamadeva's magic wasn't for friends and John had special abilities when it came to dreams - he knew you were dreaming then and when you woke up, he'd know you'd been dreaming about him.

"Friends...that's not how I'd describe you and me. The way you act around me...it's not typical for friends, is it, sweetheart?" John asked with an undeniably attractive grin on his face.

"Don't call me that." You said, unable to stop heat from rising to your cheeks as John tilted his head to the side.

"And why not? I do it all the time. Or is it suddenly becoming less...friendly?" John asked before you felt your body stand up and walk to him. You definitely wanted to be near to him but, unaware of how much John would know about this dream when you woke up, you had to try and resist having fun. You came to stand just in front of him but he pulled you closer still, holding you by the waist as he guided you to straddle his lap.

"John..." You started, feeling your heart race as John leaned in towards you, pressing a kiss from your jaw to your neck to your collarbone and then pulling away to look at your flushed face as you gasped and breathed heavily, chest heaving up and down for John to marvel at.

"Pretty..." He mumbled with a dazed smile on his face.

"What?" You asked, not believing his words despite the whole situation being a fantasy.

"I said, pretty. Prettiest "friend" I've ever had the pleasure of knowing." John said, making you smile and look away from him. John seemed to realise the effect of his words and how you partially didn't believe them.

"I mean it, love," John said, snaking a hand behind your head to cradle the back of your neck, but when he watched you shudder and flinch slightly as his hand touched the skin, he grinned wickedly.

"Oh?" He asked, testing his theory of sensitivity by ghosting his fingers along your neck again and watching as you fell apart.

"John, I--" You managed meekly, but he only chuckled deeply before coiling one hand around your neck and tightening his grip ever so slightly as the other palm rested on your thigh.

"And how do you enjoy that, love?" He asked, watching your breath hitch but noticing your blatant satisfaction. John squeezed a little harder before letting go completely and smiling charmingly at you before leaning in and pulling your head down gently so your lips could meet his.

...

Unfortunately, just before the kiss you had dreamed about would occur so vividly in your mind, you woke up, panting heavily and in desperate need of a cool down.

You walked into the kitchen where the girls were, in just your pajamas, hair a mess and heart racing.

"The fugitive get to you too?" Sara asked, a smile on her face as Charlie beamed brightly.

"Yeah." You nodded as Sara handed you a glass of cold water.

"Well, personally, I really enjoyed my night. Blowing David Bowie's mind." Charlie grinned as Sara chuckled and Zari rolled her eyes with a smile.

"Who'd you get a leg over, Z? Wait, lemme guess, Nate? No, Kamadeva?" Zari stayed silent but raised her eyebrows making you and Sara look at her incredulously.

"Both?" You and she asked.

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[dojae-huh]

I saw it on Reddit that ppl are complaining abt the lack of promotions of this comeback, and I realize SM really has a bad reputation among western audience... honestly I seriously enjoyed this comeback and I do think the promos okay. We got the movement dance my and b side mvs, and tons of Jaedo moments! I guess people are just worried at the "senior" status of 127? reddit.com/r/NCT/s/Gr5IXfIE7F

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First of all, thank you for speaking up.

In any type of society or a big group there exist a problem of a small loud minority gaslighting the silent majority. An individual from the silent mass thinks he is alone in his opposing view because he doesn't see his own opinion and thoughts echoed in the discussion in media or in comments on boards. So he keeps silent in fear of being ostracized.

When it comes to fans, writing about what they don't like or find lacking releases steam. Writing something positive? Not as attractive. A content person is a lazy person. There is no motivational "fighting spirit". Even I complain about songs but seldom write about what I like. It is just in human nature - take good things for granted and demand more and more.

Fans do leave positive comments, but usually under YT videos (I saw many an opinion that this comeback is the best there, heh). Either to thank the team behind the content or in hopes idols will read their words of support. Reddit, twitter? - a platform for small talk and offhand comments. Not to forget, other fans happily retwit and spread (and remember) negative twits and seldom retwit and discuss positive ones. People remember bad things much better than the good ones.

"I feel like unless you follow NCT, you wouldn’t even know they were having a comeback." - It goes for every group unless a fan pays close attention to music shows and k-pop music releases. I can't say when EXO had comeback last time. Let alone Cravity or even Seventeen (I know they had a song recently thanks to MokChu and SM fans accusing Hybe of copying aespa teasers only).

127 was promoted on Melon, Spotify, K-pop On, etc - streaming platforms and new k-pop songs playlists. M2, Killpo - choreo channels. Grammy site and other sites releases articles. It's these places that actually inform k-pop fans at large about new songs and comebacks. Fans still can't realise that the ways promotion brings results has changed and clings to some "badges of participation" that a group should collect every time.

Why ifans care about radio-appearences, a dying media, when noone even will translate a radio episode for them, for example? A tiktok with Seventeen will give more exposure than appearence on some YT show with a non k-pop MC.

Killer Voice is a different cause. It would be good if 127 were to go there again. Their first Killer Voice is still makes rounds.

Lastly. The comeback is still ongoing. There can be some programme appearences with a delay, who knows. Jungwoo has a variety show he is on. He can mention about the comeback there.

The OP on reddit wrote about own experiense - I found 127 through a YT programme with Tae and JN. OK. There is a ton of programmes on YT from past comebacks. Noone watches old episodes or what?

But anyway. As I said before, it is time to come to terms that 127 is a senior group by k-pop standarts. At the very beginning promotions are on a big scale because noone knows the freshly-debuted group. Meanwhile nowadays fans of Zerobaseone or Boynextdoor get to know about NCT through their biases fanboying over Doyoung and Jaehyun, or their biases making covers to their songs. The same way we get to know Taeyeon or Kyuhyun. Right now SM has several new groups (Riize and NCT Dream) and will debut new acts soon (SMgg and Naevis).

Riize is the most popular right now in SK. If they promote their seniors, the job is done, heh. Same goes for Stray Kids and Seventeen, who are friends with 127 neos.

[castle-dominion]

s7 3xk audio

michael mosley rob bowman andrew marlowe nathan fillion

He has done s3, 5, 6, & 7 episodes, in fact s7 had two.

Go as deep as possible as fast as possible without lingering anywhere.

How far will a person go for someone they love?

Mosler has done it before too! & he brings it up again lol. "Even your charming innocence is creepy"

It's great for caste to throw ppl around & get thrown around.

"unless it's michael molsley, we don't care about him"

Joques Goudreau lol

People come up to him on the street & say he's creepy XD "I've found something I'm good at"

Cars pulling up does not feel like a metaphor for me but ok.

It SHOULD feel like what castle is going through. Willingness to go to the other side this patience & impatience, the darkness, also frustration.

The two month thing

3xk made this VERY personal

How do you expose a character who is not present? 3xk's manipulation.

NF: always exciting to kill off a powerful, popular character.

"he really was mike boudreau" "when the zombie apocalypse comes Tyson will be the first to rise"

the cars have gotten better on set apparently

Do they not call it a toque anywhere else...?

RB: my credit right over castle's butt

RB: what was it like to handle this (fight) scene? MM: There's a bruise

Hm, this moment was not? scripted?

How much mike & how much 3xk?

It's all backwards

Gates & Castle <3 she is resetting him, use your head.

Tracking shot of fillion & everyone following along... wow this IS bowman magic...

Everyone: right HERE!

One shot there going in & finding his girls.

colour correction

They never solve the homicide of who THIS girl is

Getting caught watching

Ah the blood was digitally added in! It is not beckett but he killed someone else half to torture him (the other half just for fun)

The slow quiet is greattttt.

we cannot see anything except from her eyes

relatively irrelevant XD

Build it & recontextualize.

Yay welcome back gen kill reunion ig!

Writing this scene was fun but seeing it come together is better

rob duncan <3

I like how they can all laugh at this Ah less lighting bc we are not seeing as much of the castle we know anymore

Yay Roe & Daryn "we only did what you would have done" "if he's listening" "how likely is it that these guys watch the commentaries?"

Yeah they shoot all the stuff "here" first & "there" all at once, so it WOULD be hard, at least for me

RB: I used to speak three paragraphs to nathan & he'd sum it up with "so faster?"

topanga canyon

the anxiety is not just camera work but also the audio "the director was anxious so the camera was anxious"

the no-dialogue scenes, such a Thing you know?

Villainy really can be overplayed but you can avoid twirling the moustache & petting the cat.

it LOOKS like bubble wrap so I am not shocked

THIS IS ALL TAKE ONE? you did it all one take, two cameras?

This room is so weird tho bc how did they get that light through the bottom of the door?

Watching it a second time "she's not here" he said out loud

WAIT PAUL SCOTT LET HIMSELF GET SHOT WITH A TAZER?

Yeah of COURSE she is not going to literally remove her face lol

I love a good monologue. Honest for this non-sane character w/o cliche

He always thinks he is in control bad guy mea culpa lol reason & thinking

Yeah it was a little bit... too much. Tilting the scene to castle

This is the journey gates sent castle on

"I'm dead I might as well tell him what I think of him" or power to him lol

Ew ew ew all the way in I hate it

No no this draining life force thing was gooood except dang what if he DID manage to shoot castle? I think that it could have been something interesting for sure. like the fic I read with the burning building

Esposito & Ryan!

the music IS GOOD but I don't much like it you don't see who killed whom castle bought her the time to rescue herself, they needed each other

that is not a lot of time, like 6 months working full-time. that is a hell of a long time I take it back

Everyone is group hugging & it is intimate & touching but then apparently huertas kept ruining it.

"oh yeah I shot you then too"

Too bad we didn't have more moke mosley commentary.

Rly fun! "letting me play in your sandbox" oh it was his first audio commentary! Good for him!

[alonestuckinthestars]

Work party: thoughts and feelings in bullet points

Had my first project wrap-up party at work ever yesterday. Had to have a road trip to another city 3 hours away and back within a day as we were joining up with the other company campus at that city.

It was.... something. Essentially was a mix of how I've always felt on high school field trips and work parties.

The good:

I got to have a proper fun conversation with the person I was sitting with in the morning. (on the other hand, that emptied my social battery within the first 2 hours of the whole day trip.)

The karting activity based on Mario Kart was proper fun.

On the way back I put in my loop earplugs because people were yelling in the bus talking to eachother; went from absolutely regretting where I was sitting and hating my life to being able to listen and participate in conversations a little bit, even though I was excited to get home.

I feel like my coworkers were good about boundaries. The person I sat with in the morning for the bus, after talking for 2 hours we mutually agreed to just be silent and listen to our own music. In the evening it was a different person and I said I wouldn't be talking much, which she said wasn't a problem, idk if she was actually fine with it but I mean everyone around was talking accross the seats so she could engage in conversation, and if she asked me stuff or turned to me ab things they were saying I still responded lol.

Continuing on boundaries many spotted the earplugs I was wearing on the bus and asked about them but when I explained they filtered sound they were fine with it and were like "Oh that's cool! I understand" So like, I think I'll wear them more from now on, cause holy shit they helped me focus on what ppl were saying.

The meh/the bad:

Particularly peeved about no one wearing masks, rendering wearing a mask yourself useless. In the bus we must have been 30-40 people? And at the company building + the activity site we must have been between 70 to a hundred. So that many people, in very enclosed spaces all day. If I catch covid for a second time within 2 months due to this, I'm just straight up ditching the christmas work party, which I'm already on the fence about going.

Had to wear helmets and stuff provided on site of the activities. Which must have been worn by many many many other people before.... yuck. And the bathrooms there were gross.

So, so many people. So many people in so little space. Horrendous. And so so so loud. I really should've worn earplugs then too, or at least at the company building because the place we went to for activities, i could have potentially lost them doing said activities.

Honestly I'm not big on doing big activities like that with anyone else but friends or family. It's not my kind of thing.

I did spend like an hour or two-ish just wandering around the place while everyone was busy trying literally every activity on-site... while I only did 2 total in the 3-4 hours we had.

I just suck at big group conversations, my mouth is mostly sealed shut because I have nothing to say and I essentially become a background NPC that adds to the circle of people talking, without contributing anything substantial. (I really don't feel like I'm actually making connections or deepening said connections in these events because of this. But I still show up because that gives social points if people see your face at these things I guess)

I was so hoping the bus trips would be mostly quiet, but it was the absolute opposite and it was impossible to listen to music with my normal ass wired apple earbuds quite frankly.

Can they please stop getting fancy buffet style foods with limited choice........... i waaaaas able to eat but it stresses me out not knowing if I'll be able to eat cause I'm a picky eater. And also, that stuff doesn't actually quench people's hunger. We stopped on the way back and a bunch of people got mcdonald's bc they were STILL hungry.

Not really significant but we have a literal law in place that requires smokers to be smoking 9 metres away from a building entrance. When I got out of the building to wait for the travel bus a whole ass group of ppl were smoking straight by the door. Please don't do that.

Notes to future self:

I certainly can't expect a bus trip with coworkers to be somewhat quiet, even if we're adults no longer in elementary or high school.

Maybe avoid emptying your social battery within the first two hours on the trip somewhere, when you're not even there yet.

Wear your earplugs, it's fine, and you'll enjoy yourself more and hear people better.

You're allowed to go outside of the enclosed space where the event is held if you want. No one noticed you were wandering not really doing anything, so, they wouldn't have noticed if you went outside for a walk anyways.

Actually you really need to let go of the idea that you have to be there, physically and mentally present at all times at all costs. That's people pleasing. Live for yourself.

Adding a last thing that apparently it's normal for people to change places in the travel bus every time we got back on it, and I was the one who stayed at the same place every time. Like i dont know, why would i change places. That's the seat I picked, that's the seat I'll be on all day :/

So yeah, to me it was a chaotic day and not much enjoyment in it for me I guess, even the summer work party was somewhat more fun. But overall work events like this are more like chores I spend days prior ruminating over and over and over and then the event I show up but there's not much fun in it for me to begin with. I'm already tired of going to these and I'm only a year and a half into my full time working career (not counting my grocery store job as a student, they didn't even hold events like these.)

But then everyone is always excited for them and I have to pretend like I am too. Like don't get me wrong it's cool I love working for a place that wants people to connect and goes the extra mile for these parties with cool activities it's just oh my god. Not my personal idea of fun or connecting with people.

Help :')

[msookyspooky]

I’m feeling so poorly but I did have the thought of being stuck babysitting and roping Stu and Billy into helping you (before all the murder stuff obvi)

Maybe some hcs? Maybe just sit with it? Idk 🤷🏻‍♀️ up to you babe.

(Also is babe okay with you because if it makes you uncomfy I will never use it again I’ve just gotten used to saying it platonically.)

You guys can call me anything, I truly don't care. I call other ppl petnames. If it makes anyone uncomfortable let me know but I honestly mean it in an endearing way.

Hope you don't mind bulletin point style hc instead of a prompts.

I hope you feel better soon angel 🖤🖤🖤

Babysitting with Billy and Stu

"What the hell- I didn't sign up for babysitting duty! You promised a horror movie marathon, YN. Not Barney and Friends." Billy hissed out as you told him the news AFTER him and Stu came over.

- You begged them to stay because you would be bored out of your mind babysitting 3 kids on a Saturday night by yourself. (You might have to owe them cause they're assholes like that.)

- Stu shrugs as Billy drags himself inside. Both of them dreading dealing with kids on the weekend. You lay down ground rules and they both are already rolling their eyes.

- Stu warms up to the kids first. Asking them things and being casual with them. "Cool shirt. Scooby Doo's awesome, man." Be prepared for them to LOVE Stu. He's as immature and energetic as they are just add in being a popular teenager with...Erratic behavior.

- Stu does voice impersonations and built a couch cusion fort with them. He keeps chucking marshmallows at Billy's head while hiding in the fort and you have to remind Billy he can't hit Stu in front of the kids.

- Billy is sitting in the corner ignoring them and Stu but like moths to a flame they're eventually pestering him. He's side eyeing you as one keeps asking him intrusive questions. (He might have gave them a counter burn if they made a remark about him..."Why's your hair like that?" Billy: "Why's your face like that?")

- Within an hour Stu has one hanging on his arm laughing while chasing another one through the house. Billy and you watch as he pretty much entertains the kids for the most part.

- Eventually, they go back to Billy and keep begging him to play with them like you and Stu are. Billy refuses BUT will agree to tell them a scary story if it means they'll leave him alone.

- Stu smirks at that as they turn off the lights and Billy gets a flashlight; an evil grin on his face. You tried telling them no but it was 3 demanding whining children and 2 enthusiastic friends against you.

- Stu does the sound effects and adds in tiny details here and there. They're so casual and GOOD at story telling that even you're engrossed in it.

"Don't you remember? She went out to get her jacket from the car while everyone else was inside." Stu gave, the flashlight and candles the only thing illuminating your faces in the room.

You couldn't help asking. "Why would she do that? That's stupid! There were murders-"

Billy interrupted you. "Hush, YN; Don't ruin it...So...She went out to the car. It was a dark and cloudy night, not a single star out. No moon. No lights. And everybody else was inside the well lit house...Safe...Having a good time with the music turned up just a little too loud and everyone just a little too tipsy...The wind bellowed outside-"

Stu made the noise of the wind whistling as you and the kids huddled up close to them on the floor in front of the couch Billy and Stu sat on.

Stu added after he was done with the wind. "She couldn't hear anything but the wind...However...There was one noise that caught her attention-" He made a sound effect of metal against metal.

Billy continued, leaning forward with the flashlight under his chin. "She told herself it was her imagination. Just a tree branch scrapping the nearby shed...But soon it got louder."

Stu got louder everytime.

"And louder....And Louder!...It got to the point she couldn't say it was her imagination anymore...Little did she know, the noise was coming from the outside of the car."

The kids eyes were wide as they got closer to him and even you listened intently.

"She shut the door, not even getting the jacket in the backseat. Too scared that the noise was getting louder and closer. Like a knife grazing the side of her car door....She turned around to run back to the house....And then-"

Everyone was silent. One of the kids asked. "...Then what?"

Billy stared at the kid, not even blinking. "And then...She saw them..."

"Who?!"

"....The killer..."

Stu gripped Billy's knee. "....What was that?"

Billy blinked at him. "...What?"

Stu whipped his head to the kitchen. "I swear I just heard something..."

You scoffed at them. "Very funny-"

"SHH!...I'm gonna go check it out. You stay here. Billy, stay here with YN and the rugrats."

The kids yelled at him not to go as he got up. Billy shut the flashlight off and put on a concerned face.

A few moments of silence passed and the kids whimpered as you went to get up. "Okay, guys. That's enough."

Billy stood up with you. "Hey, stay here...Stu should be back...It's probably nothing."

You rolled your eyes despite the anxiety building up. The kids clutched your legs as a banging crashing happened in the kitchen. You held your breath as you heard Stu yell out in pain.

You went to go around Billy but paused when you heard the crashing stop. Everyone froze...Billy shined the light.

"Stu? Stu, what the hells going on?...Stu?"

The flashlights light shined in the kitchen doorway.

Suddenly, Billy jumped at you with a yell as his light shined on Stu running into the living room with red blood on his face. Yelling and flailing his arms like a lunatic. You practically jumped up onto Billy as the kids piled ontop of eachother, screaming their heads off.

You felt Billy's shoulders shaking with laughter as Stu turned the lights on just to see he had ketchup on the side of his face.

- You smacked Billy's shoulder as he laughed at you, mocking the look on your face. The kids angrily yelled at Stu as he practically collapsed on the ground laughing and they attacked him with throw pillows. They both laughed about it the rest of the night every time they looked at you.

- Stu agreed to teach them how to make some type of quick junk food concoction in the kitchen.

- You realized one child was missing as well as Billy and panicked. You ended up hearing them near your room as you crept to hear Billy talking. You looked to see him crouched down talking to someone under the bed.

"Oh come on, it was just a story!.... Kid, come on...Do you actually think YN would let a killer get you?"

You heard them whimpering and sniffling under your bed as Billy sighed to himself.

"Kid...Come on, quite crying."

They cried louder and he groaned to himself. He didn't realize you were watching as he plucked your stuffie from the top of your bed. You held your mouth to not make even a peep as he talked to them in a comical goofy voice through the toy.

"Don't be scared!" Billy smiled and kept using the voice. "All killers and monsters are terrified of me."

They peaked out at the stuffed toy in his hand. "You want to be friends? I'll protect you from monsters but you have to come out first...And no more crying."

They eagerly nodded and crawled out as Billy handed it to them. He looked at them, talking in his normal voice again. "I'm sure YN won't mind him protecting you till your parents get here...You want to know what YN's secret is to keeping monsters from getting them?"

The kid listened as he whispered. "Me, Stu and that stuffed animal you have in your hand. As long as we're here; we're the scariest thing in the house. Got it?"

They nodded and smiled at him. You covered your mouth to prevent the noise you wanted to make at the soft smile he gave the kid. You quickly as you could made your way back to the kitchen trying not to get caught spying.

- Stu definitely allowed the kids to use a curse word and taught them a bad joke they don't get but he thinks is hilarious

- Billy let the oldest ones watch a scary movie when they begged him even though they're not allowed.

- Once the kids leave, they shrug and act like it was a chore but...They ellude that it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world if they HAD to come back and help babysit next Saturday IF they had nothing else better to do.

[hoe4rairai]

Headcanon :

Raian Drunk... Part 1 ♤

Photo credit @himbo-in-limbo ...

Hummm so it really all depends on the main reason why he got drunk in the first place ...

I will talk about him Angry Drunk

( warning ⚠️ rough scenes )

He doesn't go out to drink, simply because he knows he will be killing ppl left right and center, he will be also vulnerable and that would make things worse. When Raian feels vulnerable he gets really aggressive and hostile and would do unexplainable things to cover up his vulnerability.

He will be in a dark closed place /room far away from people. Just him and his booze and probably loud heavy metal music. But he will turn the music off with either a kick that will break the player or he will throw it against the wall.

He will not talk not even to himself but he will keep repeating that scenario that made him mad over and over again in his head till he probably decides finally A pay back time.

He will smell like booze and he will drink from the bottle . He has not manners when it comes to drinking .

Raian holds himself surprisingly well while drunk, he hardly speak but his eyes shoot daggers on anything, and everything that they look at, laser shooting eyes that will clean cut anything he looks at.

If he is already intimidating being Sober, will x10 when he is drunk.

His aura becomes extreemly dark, unpredictable and unreadable not even to Ohma who prefers not to stand his way when Raian is drunk.

Raian rarely gets drunk but if he did you his S/O better leave him and go hid.

If God forbid he got drunk because you made him mad, this might be the end of you.

Now, Raian doesn't really let anyone get under his skin in any way, his ego and pride against the concept that someone out there means something to him to actually make him care.

UNTIL YOU SHOWED UP.

Let's say you did something that made him get so mad and got drunk

The house door will be banged open

If you were in bed he will grab you either by your hair or your PJ from the chest area.

He will literally pull you close with one arm to look straight into his devil eyes .

His breathing is hot and rigid, he is literally blowing hot steam over your face like a mad bull about to snap.

Your feet is not touching the ground and silence between you too is deadly. All you can hear is his hard rough breathing.

He pulled & lifted you up with one hand too close to aligne both faces together, his head is touching yours and he started to laugh like a maniac in the scariest way ever.

All that, and you still don't know if you should say your last prayer !

Yes he loves you but that Raian when he reaches to that level he isn't Raian any more and no one absolutely no one will be able to help you not even Ohma .

You closed your eyes, your heart is racing, your eyes starting tearing up and you body started to shake uncontrollably.

He suddenly stops laughing, looking at you dead straight into your eyes Nose touching, forehead touching. Death stares and he spits out poison saying : ( Now now, helpless bitch ... ) he smirked while still spitting out his poison:( making me mad, testing my patience you piece of shit )

You cried, now you know what you had done. You can't take it back and you know its all done for you.

He roughly threw you back on the bed, the fall was so rough it paralysed you .

He didn't give you a chance, he torm your silky short nighty and then he flipped you on your stomach.

If you think you will be okay after this incident then you are mistaken.

Raian is angry and drunk, the scariest part though, HE KNOWS EXACTLY WHAT HE IS DOING

RAIAN DOESN'T GET WASTED WHEN HE IS DRUNK. On the contrary he gets sharper, more alerted and extremely vicious and brutal that's why he rarely gets drunk. He is not a sensible man so to speak but He knows the damage that he can cause if he gets ANGRY DRUNK.

You are on your stomach, your entire naked body is fully exposed to him.

He is still clothed and not attempting to touch yet, instead he threw himself at you .

Holding you tight, still breathing hard but you can feel his strong chest breathing movements on your back.

His voice is low but deadly like a hissing snake.

He turned your face to the side to look at you while he's still on top of you. He's very heavy and you can't breathe.

He rubbed his head roughly on the turned side of your face while whispering : SEE WHAT YOU DID TO RAIAN ...

Your heart skipped a beat and you said sorry genuinely with your little voice while shocked in tears .

He repeats again with more breathy but stern voice : SEE WHAT YOU DID TO RAIAN... and punched the bed next to your head, it startled you .

You cry but he hates it when you cry so he pulled your hair and whispered in your ears : ( I WILL FUCKING HURT YOU NOW ) ...

He turned you around, grabbed your neck with one hand and grabbed both your hands in another hand, pinning you down into the mattress with his iron clad thighs. His literally has his entire weight on your pelvis and you started to loose focus and vision.

He was laughing and surprising his eyes had tears ..

Is he attempting to kill you ?! Or maybe get you to faint ??! either way you don't want to black out because you don't know what he will be doing to you.

Raian is an assassin but he will never hurt any woman physically ( u know what I mean and I don't like to use the Spesific word because I am not comfortable with it )

Any way ....

He suddenly stopped when he saw ur eyes turning up.

Silence ...

Unmoving body underneath him

He calls your name in a steady but shocked tone ..

You don't respond back.. he calls again and again while still on top of you.

Then he moved away stood at the edge of the bed staring at you .

Shit shit .. Did I kill her ..Shit no NOT HER NOT HER...

You suddenly coughed. He was a mess , you were a mess he tried to come close but you pulled yourself away from his reach and started crying loudly.

He stood there staring at you , the mess he made out of you.

He was angry, mad and somehow worried that he damaged any of your organs internally .

After few hours in silence and sobbing you stood up heading to the bathroom. He was not in the bedroom.

You came out, heading to the living room , dark and cold and a huge shadow sitting on the floor back against the wall facing a window panel that reflected the moon light on half of his face.

You made your way slowly to him and his eyes was following your body moving towards him.

You crouched down facing him and hesitantly you touched his soft hair lightly

To your surprise he held your hand firmly but he kissed it gently.

You started to sob again , he is in this mess because of you.

You should had listened when he told you that colleague of urs is up for no good and you straight up ignored him, until he was on a mission and saw you at a restaurant with her while being introduced to the Asshole he was about to kill the same night.

He withdrew that night because your life would be at risk had he haunted that man down, they are clusters and you were in the lion den . A bait .

You hugged him by his neck, sobbing, shaking apologising but he still sat there not making any move to comfort you.

You moved away looking at his face trying to figure out what he's thinking but it's impossible.

He got up without any word.

Took you by the arm walked to the bathroom.

Turned on the shower, pushed both of you inside still clothed .

You both stood under the cold shower for how it felt like eternity. He wasn't budging due the cold water but you were shivering and couldn't take the coldness so you pushed your body towards him and basically glued urself into his chest and torso. He didn't move nor did he push you away.

He was basically standing under the cold shower head down arms streathed to the opposite wall tiles firmly, legs apart and still clothed.

You felt his head leaning towards the crock of your neck , where he rested it and pushed you with his body to the shower wall behind you.

He started kissing your neck slowly at first, then moved his head and pulled your face to kiss you. His mouth was warm, you were eager for his touch as if you wanted to feel insured and secure again, and the only way in this situation was by his love and body.

You returned his kisses with eagerness but he stopped with a swift fast move and looked into ur eyes, you can tell Anger returned again but he spoke softly though : ( I could had lost you ) ....

You remembered what happened just moments ago on bed and asked him in a small regrettable voice : ( would you had killed me )

He sighed roughly, air from his nose blowing on your face. He didn't say a word but his actions afterwards said it all.

He took off the silk robe ur were wearing with one swift move and your hand found its way to where it belongs naturally, under his shirt. He rose his arms so you can pull it off of him ..

Finally his body warmth connecting with yours.

Finally you are back to where you naturally belong.

He pulled you closer, holding the back of your neck as if he was telling you with no words spoken how much you mean to him.

Later that night Raian made you see the moon and the stars, he himself was not the usual silent lover, you heard him moan few times and he didn't shy away. He never allowed you to take control while having sex but that night he made you on top of him taking control while he was looking at you with unexplained looks.

His eyes spoke 1000 words and they were all about his feelings right that moment.

When you needed his support to get off he held you firmly while u r on top of him pounding into him and was just looking admiring your beauty and body.

He wasn't the one who ever stops till he gets enough but that night he didn't care.

After the heated session of love making you slept, ur head on his bare chest . His arm were behind his head looking at the sealing and thinking : ( I ALOMST KILLED HER )

One more look at you and he disappeared.

You woke up the next moring and he was not there.

Raian understood being with you might end up bad. He had to retrieve ..

You are broken and you would only wish for him to come back.

You Think he will ever be back

[baby-im-a-hallucinationnn]

Me: "Oh, I've got all these ideas, I'll write about these."

Jojo's Bizzare Adventure addiction:

Anywho, time to talk about JoJo OCs under the cut that'll happen eventually:

BTW starting at part 3 they all get 1 power cause Goldsboro blood or smth I just wanted to

Part 1: The Sun and the Mask (Don't know how I feel about this title)

Basic background to other parts cause I want a developed character backgrounds cause I swear I wasn't high when I wrote out these characters but it looks like I was

OC: Rebecca "Becca" Goldsboro

Lemme put it this way; if it wasn't 1890 and she knew diddly-squat about the LGBT other than "SIN!" She would be Trans-masc. Jonathan is the only one nice to her too.

Part 2: Roses and Bubbles (I'm working on the title plz leave suggestions cause it sux rn)

Cesear Zeppeli x OC

OC: Rose "Rosy" Goldsboro

Yeah, she just kinda vibin and occasionally saying sus stuff.

Part 3: Lightning (Title also sucks! I'm coming up with them as I write this :D)

Jotaro Kujo x OC

OC: Kasumi "Misty" Goldsboro

Crackhead energy. 1000% crackhead energy. And with a fast af electricity stand called Blue Lightning. Also in a band, cause... why not. Weird power is that she can like see dead ppl in her sleep but like... important to plot ppl. Like her grandfather, Cesear.

Part 4: Angel with the devil's eyes (This one kind of works ig???)

Josuke x OC

OC: Usagi Goldsboro

Crackhead energy 2: Electric Boogaloo. Also will murder anyone who talks shit about her friends on site, but you would never fuckin guess it cause she's got that petite Kawaii girl energy. Her stand is called Pink Thunder and it yells really loud. Her dad works out of country (Italy, hint hint nudge nudge). Weird power is that sometimes she'll just sit down to draw cause she's an artist and she'll draw past events (Bonus: Jotaro saw her just randomly doodling Kakyoin right after he died and that was... and experience.)

Part 5: Red-eyed hacker

Giorno x OC

OC: Georgia Silverthorne

Chaotic Gremlin + Crackhead energy 3: Syrup Village Arc. U totally thought she wasn't a Goldsboro, didn't you? Yes, but actually no. Her mom is Usagi's. She's just raised mostly by her mom who's incredibly abusive and she doesn't know who her dad is. Also it's "Red-eyed" bc everyone else so far and continuing on has bright ass Green eyes and hers are red. Normal eye color is boring. Her stand is called Techno Glitch and it's like normal stand, but it has to be programed by hand from a floating computer cause it sounded cool in my head so I said "yeah that." Weird power is that she sorta sleepwalks into the other 2 living Goldsboro's heads, like Usagi'll be dreaming and the 2 knew each other for a long time cause they have the same mom and stuff and Georgia will go "Ayo, what u dreaming about?" And Usagi will jump like 6 feet in the air.

If you can't tell by the length of that wall of text, she's my favorite

Also I'm skipping part 6 cause Jolyne is literally Kasumi's daughter, we don't need to sweet home Alabama this stuff

Part 7: Oh, to be young again

Johnny Joestar x OC

OC: Lucie "Lucky Lu" Goldsboro

Has that "popular yet still a good person" energy rarely found in my generation, or at least just in my school. Her stand is called Boomerang, and I'll let you figure out what it is. Only thing is that it's a person holding them, not an actual boomerang. Also 110% horse girl energy, but not in a cringy way Her weird power is that she has an insane amount of luck, hence her nickname.

Part 8: Rock n roll all night

Gappy x OC

OC: Rin Kaneko

Crackhead energy 4: Tsuzumi Mansion Arc, mixed with small but noticeable amounts of Undertaker from Black Butler and Hu Tao from Genshin. She just woke up next to Gappy, no memory of the last 2 months, and went "Ima just follow around this dude and help him remember his shit first." Her stand is called Ragged Glory and it's a guitar, but it doesn't just play music if you pull the strings, nonono, it also generates a random effect from a defined list because I only have so many sides on a die, and it's great. Her weird power is that she is well aware of the TimeLine reset in the end of part 6 (The one that left me crying cause all my Husbandos are gone now) and the memories and experiences of our past characters live in her and just surface at random.

I might make one for JoJo lands, depends on how I feel about it, dunno