#I know im lucky in a lot of ways
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This one powdered detergent smells so fucking good but my building said “only liquid in the machines” and if I use it hand washing my stuff is sometimes stiff afterwards. It smells so fucking good though 😫 and lasts way longer than the liquid stuff 😔 but they have cameras outside the laundry room (and I know they use them because sometimes they will put a note by your door if you forget a rule) so I can’t get away with using it in the machines. The shirt I put on today was washed a few months ago when I was still using it and it smells so good 🫠 I am sad
#emma posts#is it a bit unnerving to have cameras in the hallways? yes#but there aren’t any in the actual apartments and with the money i have it was either this place#a place without full sized kitchen appliances#and a place that was cheap but was known for its bedbug problems#so I picked the nicest one I could get. obviously#out of the options I had im picking the best I can get for myself#and this place is actually fairly nice#they get money from the state and county for housing poor and disabled people so that’s who they want#im really lucky that there was a place like that here#so im not risking eviction if I can help it#it’s a weird kind of stress to be living somewhere you won’t stress over living in but will stress over loosing#it’s like ‘wow. I found somewhere actually kinda nice that will take me. i can’t loose it oh my god’#and the property owners seem a bit more out of touch than the building managers but it’s this. no oven. or bedbugs#so it’s obvious which im hoping works out for quite awhile#renting always feels impermanent though#im actually lucky that if I don’t have a place I can live with my family#but I can’t keep all my stuff if I do and i don’t want to buy/find new furniture again#I know im lucky in a lot of ways#but that can run out and I know it#I can’t drive so I need to live in town but towns are always more expensive#unless you include the price of running a farm or something#that gets into harder to quantify territory#like. equipment and parts and fuel and seeds and fertilizer etc#expensive. BUT you are spending it on a thing that is how you get money#so you just hope that things don’t become more expensive than you get#or that you don’t have shitty harvests#and it’s not like it’s easy to sell a house out there#I’ll stop getting into family farm stuff#our dad tried to encourage us to leave it actually 😅
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Hi! Whose your fav in twisted wonderland? Or if you dont have any what characters to you use the most?
(Pssst by the way can you drop your friend code 🥺🥺🥺)
Most of the characters are likable assholes so I don't really have a fav lol If judging solely on design, Ortho's and Leona's outfits are usually great
Dorm Riddle was my first card and I have no regrets, he hits like a truck and is still my most used card
My Player Name is Quess!
#twst#twisted wonderland#riddle rosehearts#leona kingscholar#azul ashengrotto#despite drawing him a lot malleus is not my fav lol hes very funny and fun to draw tho#dorm riddle and rollo are the only cards i pulled for dupes#usually the units the game hands out at the beginning fall off quick in gachas but riddle is the queen#before leona i wouldve said halloween silver cause i got lucky and got 2 of him in the same pull plus double fire plus healing#but i just have more leona cards that are versatile and his dorm is also amazing#azul is such a guy i want to put him into situations bless the author for drawing him like that in the manga iykyk#but yeah he's 100% there for riddle#tbh i dont know why i rolled for rollo this hard but i did and he truly has the powers of god and anime on his side#im noticing i have way too many fire units lol#i just realized i placed leona in the number 2 spot lmao F#lil' doots
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but what if she was a superhero-ish guy. what then. what would you do then
#fun fact! this was gonna be a magical girl squiddo#but then i got really caught up in the whole “dirty scruffy vigilante with lots of explosives who annoys all the fancy hero people”#aesthetic. but i also have some stuff#like the bows and the wing cloak that read as magical girl#and im gonna use pastel colors and cheerful colors to make it seem like she WAS initially#a really traditional happy-go-lucky magical girl who over time had to do things her own way instead of just flashy magical blasts#and so she started making bombs and became more of an underground hero of the people who don’t have a voice#but she still has that bright optimistic magical girl outlook where she knows that the *magic of Friendship* actually has power#and she’s not optimistic in spite of a darker setting#she’s optimistic *because* of it. she’s a magical girl of the alleys and the dirty towns and the messy fights#in short she’s a magical girl who’s more hands-on#more optimistic in a realistic way#like a person who might dress up as a magical girl to save the day but doesn’t have magical powers but saves the day anyway#and she HAS magical powers#mind you#but they’re chaotic and messy and she can’t control them for the sort of picture-perfect showiness of most superhero’s powers#so she learns to use them to AID her fighting#not the sole weapon she uses#and as a result she’d be much stronger than most if her powers were blocked#because she knows how to fight on her own merits too#tl;dr squiddo is a magical girl who will beat you up with no hesitation and also has bombs. lots of bombs.#squiddo#daily squiddo#the real squiddo#mcyt#uhhh#superhero au#magical girl au#????
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From 'Dream of a woman' By Cacey Plett.
This sums up exactly how I feel about most transition timelines. As much as they reflect people's experiences, they are also a narrative. And the narratives that get shared the most tell a lot about what our values are. The timelines that get the most attention are the ones where people go from sad, loser, nothing boys into beautiful women.
But if you go to /r/transitiontimelines or a similar place, and sort by controversial or look at what has the least likes, its people who made timelines when they still don't 'pass' yet. Even if they're happy as can be, that's not what people are looking for.
I think it says a lot about what people expect from trans women, that they only want to see us be beautiful. In some cases, that they want to believe they can be beautiful. So there is no value in trans life if you're not beautiful.
#i dont know if this is exactly what the narrative was trying to convey here but it is something i felt while reading it#and i hope thats meaningful to others when shared#i know he's kind of a chucklefuck but i so think 'the queer art of failure' by J. Halberstam has a lot to say about the impetus to he happy#and its conditions#a lot of the time i feel like i have to perform positivity as a trans woman because its whats expected both from women#and from people lucky enough to transition#while at the same time social conditions are worsening and even personally#there arent solutions to much of my dysphoria#regardless of all that you're expected to just be happy even though the conditions for that don't exist#i think being honest about those things#that negativity#can bring its own happiness#and i think thats also valuable#i guess what im trying to say is that i think ugly trannies can be happy and should be valued#i think sad trannies are wonderful and ought to be cherished#and i think people shouldnt have to pretend to be happy in the same way a woman shouldn't have to pretend to be a man#maybe that doesnt make full sense and i need to think harder to communicate my feelings#but thats the vibe rn#anyways#i really like this book and yall should check it out#dream of a woman#cacey plett#trans women#transgender#trans#transmisogyny#transition timeline#i dont mean this post to denigrate timelines btw#just the way that we give certain ones attention and the teleology of transition that follows#books
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im gonna say something corny but... the profound effect that living in a women-only house had on me was and is insane. it was (almost) completely by chance that only women ended up living there, but i think moving in with my housemates was possibly the best decision i've ever made. i genuinely wish i could describe that kind of love and community, but i don't have the vocabulary. all that i know is that it's such a privilege to have gotten to live in that house and to love those women and to get to keep loving them. they're my most precious friends and i owe that feeling of safety and community to them. there was just something very special about that house. i was very lucky, i think. i don't think people get to love like this every day.
#im having a lot of big feelings tonight#and i miss my friends#and my house and the way it felt to live there#and come home to them#i want to grip the world in my hand and tell them how lucky i am#and i KNOW this is corny#but y'all... i hit the fucking jackpot with them i really did#and i WISH i had the words to articulate it#if i ever write one beautiful thing.. please let it be about them#vent
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Sometimes i remember a comics moment i randomly came across somewhere, where Sam Wilson mentiones a musical and Steve Rodgers says he doesn't like musicals, to whitch Sam goes "Guess that means you really are straight" and even tho i don't care about Cap America or the Avengers, the moment stuck in me for that quote by Sam. And like....Sci, any ideas if straight men actually don't like musicals or is that bullshit?
actually i think i know more gay men who hate musicals than i know straight men who hate musicals. i've had a drag queen stop me point blank when i was about to sing a barbra streisand song, and i know so many gays who pointedly hate abba. so based on my experience i think the inverse is true. most of the straight men i know are kind of impartial about musicals, but gay men? hate.
my theory is that a lot of gay men don't want to fall into stereotypes, maybe. but thaaaaat's just a theory! a gay theory.
#sci speaks#i'm trying to understand the gays. they are a mystery to me.#i've seen a lot more toxic masculinity coming from gay men than i have from straight men.#i think it makes sense. they have less women in their lives. so they reckon with a lot more masculinity. more dick measuring.#also gay men have some of THE most unhealthy romantic relationships i've ever seen in my life.#this isn't a blanket statement on everyone but just from what i've seen. it's such a strange pattern i've observed.#lesbians? healthy. straights? usually healthy. gay men? universally a tire fire that makes me say “if you hate each other so much ??”#“why are you together??????????”#i have never met a cis gay mlm couple in real life that was healthy. every single one of them made my eyes widen in horror.#i want them to be healthy. please treat each other better.#the number of bitchy bitchy fights i've seen between mlm couples in public that make me so terrified#but i know mlm relationships in general are usually less... affectionate than wlw relationships. even and especially friendships.#just an observation.#i hate to say that there is a definite difference between amab vs afab experiences when it comes to relationship dynamics but.#of course there is. there is. as much as i want to say gender and sex do not matter. it really does.#it makes a difference. it does.#which is kind of why i'm glad i was born in the body i was. when people say “trans means you feel you were born in the wrong body”#im like.. i don't think that's true. i don't think that's true for me.#i wouldn't be me if i wasn't born the way i was. and i want to be me. but i'm a boy. i'm a boy but in the body that i have.#my body is still a boy's body. because i live in here.#sorry this went off on a tangent.#but yeah i know my brain would be different if i was amab. and i don't want all those other issues.#i think the only reason i'm so peaceful and serene is because i'm afab. and afabulous.#i see cis guys and im like.. yeah i don't want what you got.#once again! lucky to be me! i'm lucky. im lucky i have a vargooba. thank fuck for that!#couldve been so much worse off. could've been born with a dick and would be fighting for my life right now.
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#feeling so silly lawwlll walking in circles#i thnk im feeling a special type of way ..#i know i keep going on ab the samw bs and how crazy gf YEAAH UEAH WE GET IT#but i thnk in doing so im like revisiting parts of myself and writing more and i think im jst being sentimental#sooo sentimental .. so saccharine ..#everyone has been rly nice ab my art LIKE SOOOOO NICE RECENTLY#and imean people always have like im very lucky and grateful 2 be able to feel like i can share my hobby .. ^__^#but i thjnk like . to take smth that is so representational of my like . art goals and wants from a young age#ouuyyyyuuuuuyyfff T__T ooiujjjjjj#I DONT KNWWW i dont know . i dont know what im saying but i feel like i just need 2 talk abd be like hey this is so reaffirming .needs 2#i think like . bc my life turned out soo different than i imagined ive been dealing w like . a lot of hopelessness and feeling soo stuck and#stagnant and idk bad things and in a way i think like . coming back 2 something years later and being able to see progress in such a physica#physical way and to feel like more at ease and more like myself than i ever have is rly crazy and making me think long and hard abt stuff#and its all of these like . reflections im dealing w that r then padded by like some of the nicest comments and tags itslike#head in my hands /pos . grief but like ij a way happy grief#INFEEL SOOO RIDICULOUS its ridiculous it rly is IHAHAHAHAHAHA#i think its bc im turning 25 soon and thats the age i told myself id never live past iykwim which ks like crazy to drop on tmblrdotcom#but there r so many emotions tied 2 that and i think this is just one of the things^ stupid fanart ^ that makes me rly happy idk#do you know what i mean . like i feel so goofy saying it but its genuinely the connection i rly appreciate and means a lot 2 me#i feel like my ‘thank yous/i appreciate it/ means a lot’ grow tired but its soo fr every time i swear#kicking rocks or watever . i wish i cld extend my gratitude but anyways . thanks 4 reading this far if u have#ughg man and i think of the friends ive made thru this blog specifically nd my eyes r burning#sorp.. guys i love u all thank u.
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happy thanksgiving! so so grateful to have met so many cool people through this lil bloggie :') thank you all for caring about me and listening to what i have to say even when i am getting a little freaky with it :') we are celebrating non-traditionally in my mind you all can come over and i'll make nasi lamak and we can cuddle pile after!
#thinkmin!#i have no great delusions about who i am or what this blog means to people so i will say this:#if u are here thank you for being here! i appreciate you from the bottom of my heart#and to my beloved moots and friends that i've made along the way thank you all for being my beloved moots and friends#i have struggled a lot in the past couple of years with finding community and making friends irl#so i truly and genuinely feel so lucky and so grateful that i have found so many amazing people online#and whether we've only interacted once over anon or we've been dm-ing every day since 2020 please know#that i cherish your presence in my life! and i am grateful that you chose to spend your time with me!#anyways i can't be getting sappy im gonna talk about sucking dick and cock now
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Maybe I'm Suffering from Success but the gatcha portion of Limbus feels really easy?? I've not played many gatcha games but it usually takes a long time in those to save up for pulls- however LC practically gives em out for free!! Not only that but I get new characters so so easily here it's pretty much at least two '00' characters per 10 extraction
So anyways I have so many new identities that I do not have the resources to build and I have no clue which ones are any good
#i think its says a lot that im still new to the game (only 4 '000' identities)#but i keep getting new identities with no clue how to build teams!! is limbus usually this generous with pulls or am i just lucky?#so yeah anyways are w corp teams any good i have a lot of them now#limbus company#limbus#pjmoon#project moon#oh also if any Good Gamers know a faster and easier way to get thread and exp that would be great lmao
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waded through the wreckage of a house 👍 shits fucked!
#it was a house my parents own and rent out and they sent me to help the tennant#cus shes an old lady and uh. her house has a tree on it.#so that was fun and exciting.#that house is.... totaled.#like SHIT dude.#but now im home again 👍#not that there's a lot to DO at home. so many downed trees and power lines#they're talking about some areas here not getting pretty for up to 3 weeks#im lucky enough i love in the middle of a big city so I'll probably be the one of the first to get power back#either me or the sister closest to me will get it first out of my siblings for sure#since we both live here#the others live in outer cities and towns so they'll probably get theirs back after us#and the sister i don't like has apparently been radio silent since 4am#which isnt. good.#but ill let my parents handle contacting her#I've done my good deed for the day and i went driving with tte crazies already#no stop lights btw!!! every stoplight is out!!!#and most everyone apparently has never fucking seen one cus these people have no clue how to fucking drive#when a stoplight is out!!!#(it's treated like a 4 way stop sign btw. as in right of way goes to whoever got there first OR the person to the left)#(not that any of yhese assholes know that. jesus fuck)#shh ac#hurricane helene
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Just wanted to plant an idea if you wanted a bit of fuel: Mahiru asking Yuno to come to her cell before everything goes down.
Edit: I forgot the ask didn't say it but this is part of Kyanako's incredible Order Of Attack AU!
Didn't mean for this to become a mini Mappi study but here we are ✨ Thank you for the request! I fully intended to write them hanging out, but it's more right before they hang out lol. Went a bit on-the-nose with foreshadowing, but isn't that the fun part? It has become Emotional Over Mahiru Hour...
I kept things vague, but TW for mentioning her boyfriend's state of potential self-harm
Mahiru tried not to act superstitious, she really did. As much as she loved the idea of little luck charms, or avoided easy signs of misfortune, it was easier to keep quiet about such ridiculous things.
Maybe catching a bride’s bouquet meant no guarantees; maybe there was no real harm in stepping underneath ladders, maybe a coin tossed into a fountain had no real magic to its wish. However, the one thing she knew for sure held power was a lucky presence. Being in the right place at the right time could alter everything. And today was the right time for something. There was this waiting in the air. The prison had been holding its breath. Mahiru knew it was time to release it all.
“You must be so lonely, why don’t you let big sis Mahiru keep you company?” She beamed at Amane.
She often recalled the good fortune that she and a certain young man had crossed paths on the university terrace. She used to laugh with him about the wonderful coincidence of bumping into each other outside of the bakery, then the convenience store.
Though she’d never spoken about it to him, she was also grateful for many occasions where she walked in on him at the precise moment to talk him out of something reckless. She always told him that they’d do everything together. He didn’t need to be alone anymore.
“I wish to be alone. I need peace of mind to think.” Amane turned away from the cell door.
It was a good thing, too. Mahiru’s smile wasn’t as convincing as she said, “o-oh. Of course.”
She made her way around the panopticon, hearing Fuuta pace his cell in anticipation. He must have felt it too, this holding of breath.
Or perhaps not. He turned down her offer for a bit of company, including a few more colorful words than Amane had. Mahiru just apologized for bothering him and headed back to her cell. She wasn’t sure where Mikoto was at this hour, but she didn’t feel like smiling through a third rejection.
She shook her head back and forth. She wished the motion could rattle the voices inside, she wished she could shake them all away. With her arms secured in place she could no longer cover her ears. She used to hum to keep them at bay, but lately they’d been too loud to stifle. They just kept on talking.
Their words told her the two were right. Nobody needed her company. No – nobody wanted it. Being together hadn’t helped her boyfriend. In fact, being together had been the very thing that got him killed. No wonder Amane and Fuuta wanted to avoid her.
So then, this was for the best. She would rather deal with the brief sting of refusal than stumble in one day to find them hurt… or worse. As much as she tried to avoid the superstition of it all, the voices reminded her that her very presence could mean life or death.
“Mappi, are you alright?” Mahiru hadn’t realized a tear had slipped down her cheek until she hurried to swipe it away in front of Yuno.
“Hah, I’m fine! Just fine.” It was impossible to fool her, Mahiru had learned, but that never stopped her from trying.
At least she always spoke tactfully. “Rough morning?”
Mahiru shifted her arms in her uniform, making a small sound of agreement.
“Can I do anything to help? What if I stay with you for a bit? I can do your hair, and…”
The voices were right. Amane and Fuuta knew it, too. Presences did hold power, and Mahiru’s was cursed.
But she would sound foolish admitting such a fear to Yuno. She'd heard plenty from the voices about how stupid and airheaded she was, there was no use in getting the same lecture from someone as grounded as her.
Mahiru managed a weak protest, unable to explain her real reasoning. Yuno was insistent. She didn’t give much of a choice. Could she feel the strangeness of the prison, as well?
At last, Mahiru allowed her shoulders to sag. Yuno was lucky. And kind. Having her nearby would do her good. Amane and Fuuta would be alright. Mahiru had tried spending more time with them after verdicts were announced. Now, she made a mental note to pull back. If her love couldn’t save anyone, at least she could spare them from her curse. They would be safe.
“Yes. Please stay. The truth is... I don't want to be alone.”
#milgram#mahiru shiina#yuno kashiki#amane and fuuta mentioned#i dont know how well this all fits in with your vision of the au but i had a ton of fun with this lmao sorry 😂#oh hey if anyone knows any japanese superstitions like those in the beginning lmk#i was trying to research them but i kept getting lucky symbols/words - not necessarily actions like that#anyway thank you so much for this!! it was a really interesting moment to capture >:0#drabbles that take me way too long to combine my three brain cells but im really pleased with the end result#i had a lot of Mahiru Thoughts but it took a bit of fiddling to make them fit together#the superstitiousness - the focus on one's presence - the parallels with his bf - what she's dealing with from the voices#im glad it came together semi-smoothly in the end asdfsd#i didnt mean for mahiru t break the fourth wall or anything --#i always saw her as a master at picking up on social changes/cues so she can tell when things are most tense/kotoko is fully prepared#but she doesnt consciously know it -- she just knows that things feel Off#not only do the attacks confirm mahirus fear that shes cursed - but yunos involvement confirms her belief that shes extra lucky#i wonder if shed still end up spending all her time with yuno now that she thought she was such a protective person...#i couldnt articulate it right since the end was wrapping up so nicely - but mahiru starts to wonder if most people are fine being left alon#and *shes* the odd one out for craving company#then she feels isolated because by getting what she wants shes dooming someone else#i mean... if everyone you try to get close to starts getting hurt... wouldnt you worry about the same...?#AHAHAHAHA hope you enjoyed 🙃#*posts this then retreats back into the void for a bit*#drabbles
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The bottom dysphoria is real and permanent
#im too fat for any doctor to consider operating on#if I'm lucky#VERY lucky#I could try and get and orchiectomy#but#seeing as how I have 10$ to my name#and weigh around 400lbs#fat chance#pun intended and said with a depressing laugh#ugh#I just hate it so much#it makes me bitter in ways I know better than to be#bitter at skinnier better off women who get to have the procedures#but they're not my enemy and I shouldn't think like that#it just sucks#it sucks a lot#I hate that pants don't sit right#and hurt to wear sometimes#its hard enough finding clothes that fit#let alone dont garrote my fucking nuts#it fucking sucks
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#as a child i thought i would die the way they did sometimes#im lucky that i survived and that ot never got truly bad like this because i know theyd have never called an ambulance for me neither#i was a lot younger at the time but it hurts so much that i know a lot of what this nex must have went through#my circumstances were so different and i really dont want to like. make this about myself.#but sometimes i want to believe in a heaven because i know there wont be justice in earth. these kids will get to live on as normal#but the person they killed wont.#nothing ever comes of these things#bullies are abusers and murderers it's always serious and adults never do anything because so many teachers would participate if they could#so many people in the school system need to be taken out the back and shot it's unbelievable
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i know periods of loneliness come and go and i know that it’s Okay!!!! or whatever but also i’m really sick of it lmfao and it feels like it’s lasting Too Long this time and i really want a change but also every time this has changed i’ve just ended up feeling lonely in different ways . does anybody know what to do about this
#like it’s not about being ‘friendless’ tho ofc that’s been a factor at times#it’s that even when this isn’t a factor i still feel like it’s useless and that i’m just as lonely as i was when i was alone#like DAMN maybe i’m the problem fr and i’ve found the few people in my life that will ever love me#and that’s all i get.#okay DEEP BREATH. IM ONLY TWENTY. IM ONLY TWENTYYYYYYY#but u know what. when you’ve felt this way for almost half your life . through periods of friendlessness and periods of being surrounded#by friends. it’s real hard to believe that it will ever go away fully.#like what if it doesn’t matter and it’s just me. and i’m not the kind of person that gets to feel any way but this . but whatever i think#it’s actually chill#*through gritted teeth* i’m only twenty.#and i never mean to sound ungrateful for the people i do have bc i really feel lucky in a lot of ways . but 1) they’re all far away#and 2) it’s really easy for that to feel like that’s not enough when i’m seemingly surrounded by people who are just so natural at#connecting with people . when i had to fight and claw my way towards every meaningful thing that’s ever happened to me#and i’m sure that’s not fair but i mean….. you can only feel on the outside of everything for so long before you start to believe that it’s#your fault and that it’s where you belong . but no i’m chill#i’m CHILL.
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I wish I could go back and tell younger me that I would in fact find that place one day full of people that I adore deeply and who I know love me in return. Who make me feel wanted and cared for and appreciated in a way I never thought would be possible. And none of it required hiding, or forcing myself to be a person I’m not. And I still have that space even though I’m aroace.
For the first time ever, I see a future where I’m not alone. And I wish I could go back and tell my younger self it would happen. It’s possible to not be constantly lonely.
#ravenpuff rambles#I’ve been lucky enough in my life to make amazing friends several times#several of whom are still in my life now#but it’s only been recently that I’ve felt like I truly found my place#I don’t know how to explain it#I guess up until now I have always gone into friendships expecting them to end and holding back just a little bit#and this is the first time I don’t feel like I have to run because I don’t feel like these people are going to leave me#maybe it’s just because one of them is also aroace and we’ve talked a lot about those similar feelings of being left behind#never had someone quite get that before#and maybe it’s just I feel more willing to open my heart#admittedly this group of ours went through some shit together and that’s how the friendships really started forming#and so maybe that helps#but it’s like#Have you ever met someone who is so much like you in so many ways that its like the joke of ‘#‘can I copy your homework?’ ‘yeah just be sure to change it so no one knows’#It’s a weird thing of feeling so completely and totally seen by somebody sometimes without having to say a word#anyways#I’m really happy with this little place I found and I wish I could tell younger me#and also tell xem that no it doesn’t look like a fanfic dream#no im not their person but yeah they’re kind of mine but that’s okay#its nothing and everything like I always thought of#and for the first time in my life I don’t feel a crush sense of loneliness#yes I wish I could see them in person#but I can be okay with everything I do get
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listen.... i love matthew and sasha as much as the next person, but sometimes i really do miss them
#the way this is just the tip of the iceberg too#don't even get me started on the fucking instagram posts they used to make about eachother#i know a lot of newer panther fans only became fans post-matthew-trade so they don't fully get the lore#but like !! they were in love i tell you!!! in love!!!#in my head if i was talented enough id love to write a fic where matthew and sasha are both trying to either navigate ..#...long distance relationships or dealing with the fall out/break ups caused by the trade#and maybe they resent each other a little bit but then they actually end up growing close together and help heal eachother and grow togethe#but it would be like a long haul slow burn teammates to friends to lovers sorta angsty type beat#but anyways#sorry but posting the 1619 fic has been making me think of them lmfao#jonathan huberdeau#sasha barkov#aleksander barkov#florida panthers#long post#never not thinking about 'im so lucky i get to be around him#'he makes me feel right'#HE MAKES ME FEEL RIGHT??#WHAT THE FUCK
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