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indiiglow · 2 years

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Guess who didn't have to go to work today!!

#indi's night talk #I kept throwing up all day...#hopefully I'm gonna get sick leave tomorrow cause holy fuck I feel like shit everything hurts #I think it's stomach flu?? haven't had it in a long time

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theroseyhues · 4 months

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And thats a wrap folks!! Happy day 30 and 31 of hermit-a-day-may to all who celebrate!

This has been a great month full of so much cool art. A huge thank you to Luna for organizing this event for the second year in a row. You do so much to make sure this happens and it is SO appreciated.

So, same time next year?

#fanart #my art #hermitblr #hermitaday #hermitcraft #also a big thanks to my lovely moots ghost and tissy for keeping me company while I worked on this XD you two are absolutely lovely #mcyt #oh and happy gay month everyone!! Cant wait to see all the multi-million dollar corporations throw up rainbows for a month :DD #no really tho happy pride <3 #hermitcraft art #hermitcraft fanart #hermitcraft season 10 #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans #smallishbeans art #hermitcraft joel #hermitcraft rendog #rendog #hermitcraft ren #super happy with the fact I managed to do all of the main prompts this month (plus tfc)#A lot more consistent than last year even if I sometimes posted every other day :)#right! take care everyone and thank you for an incredible month <3 #no matter how crazy life irl and online has been for me recently having the daily prompt has kept me keeping track of the days so thank you

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hrokkall · 2 months

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How fancy! I'm sure this is someone's beloved purposed organism.

Thank you to those responsible.

#Hrokkall sketch #Slugcat #I like to think this one is like a very pampered oyster. Initially created only to make and regurgitate pearls for memory storage but #-became absolutely BELOVED by its iterator. So they kept it very well fed both for message storage and as a companion; bestowing the mark #Now demands wet food several times a day in addition to the grit it eats to help it generate pearls in its gizzard.#Probably has an Iterator name too. Like Sparkles in the Sea or Thousand Adornments or Giver of Kindred Gifts #Which are all really REALLY pretentious names for a cat designed specifically to throw up. Average pet owner behavior #Would not last a single day outside. God bless.

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spoofyleaf · 5 months

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Sometimes I remember that my whole house was so obsessed with the show Merlin, that we named the first tree we planted in the yard Merlin.

When it was given to us 11 years ago it was hardly a scraggly stick, and now it looks like a giant bush

Artist rendition

#this is the first year it has like!! actual bark!!!#only the middle/ main trunk #I’m so emotional over this tree you guys don’t even know #he won’t stop growing branches on the bottom #so he just looks like a huge bush when leafed out #then another tree we planted the same year looks like a Maple Tree TM #I love all the trees in my yard #every day when it’s warm enough I tell them all they’re doing a great jobs #and one who burnt during a really hot summer didn’t grow for YEARS #but we didn’t give up on it #no sir #we cut off the burnt limb #we kept telling it that it was doing great #and last year!!! it finally started growing new twigs!!#it grew more than like 5 leaves!!!#and this year so far there’s already a LOT of growth!!!!!!#and one tree I got from a childhood best friend like 5 years ago has absolutely taken off #like holy hell #the tree was a sapling from the tree from her backyard #it was my favourite tree growing up #it’s were we were kids together #guys no you don’t get it #we slowly fell out of friendship and then years later she texted me #‘hey you know that one tree you used to love? do you want a sapling from jt otherwise my mom is throwing it in compost.’#‘she thinks you don’t care about this tree anymore but I know you do’#*sobs*#Spoofy tambles

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prerodinu · 2 months

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Cleaning is like starting fresh and rearranging my life and ya know, I am loving it.

#◜ ╱ ooc. ⟩⟩ without a pack. ◞#new desk is gonna be put up here soon//#then I might be on//#anyway purge day is going well for the things in my room//#throwing a lot of my hoard of shit away//#like I’ve kept weird shit I don’t need//#now it’s all going away and I’m feeling so much better//

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scarecrowgolem · 7 months

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There is a very specific sort of antisemitism that is seemingly common in mental health facilities and its fucking terrifying

#the last 2 times ive been in a mental hospital it was always the most visibly jewish person who got targeted by nurses #and i happened to be the most visibly jewish person in a psychward the last time #its like. the 1st time there were more jewish people in there and the one of us who got it the worst was an older woman with bipolar disord #and like. many of us who noticed how terrible she was getting treated had to tell staff off multiple times #like wtf stop u r literally just poking her with a stick at this point trying to get her to have a meltdown so u have an excuse #to lock her away #it was so fucked #and the rest of us jews in there were like... slightly more stable enough to ignore the taunting from staff #like they'd find the smallest shit to get on our asses about or tell us we're being delusional abt things out of nowhere #like they tried to get a rise out of us specifically so they could frame us as crazy and neurotic when we get frustrated #and the last time i had the mosfortune of being the 1 of 2 jews who was visible and very unstable #i was made sick by nurses on purpose and then gaslit when i was up all night vomiting #i had to be given an injection and sedated the next day just so i would stop projectile vomiting all over my room #i had multiple seizures and they told.me i was throwing myself on the floor #they did things to make me break on purpose #and they did it to others to but #it was different w how they did it to me?#and when they didn't let me go to the main eating area bc i kept fainting/seizing they ordered me shit with pork when i have kosher diet #it was fucked and i know this is a problem #its a problem in outpatient too #i ended up homeless for like a year bc an antisemitic counselor fucked me over #vent

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lucalicatteart · 2 years

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Poll adventure (paventure? lol) Day 3: read the small story tidbit below the poll for more details, OR just vote based on initial impression

(✦ see past poll results + further information HERE (link) ✦)

The winning option of yesterday's poll was that the adventurer should throw a coin into the mysterious well ….

"After nearly ten minutes rummaging through the disorganization at the bottom of his backpack, he finally approaches the well once again, meager coin pouch in hand. He meticulously balances a little golden coin on the tip of his thumb, positioning it just so for an elegant coin flip… With a flick of his hand, the coin wobbles off, anticlimactically dropping into the darkness.. He pouts, leaning in to listen for a plonk as the coin hits the water but… nothing…. silence.. A few minutes pass and he shrugs, moving to pick up his bag and just continue his journey elsewhere, when suddenly a faint noise echoes from the well.. an almost cartoonish plopping sound, like wet feet slapping against stone..? The pitter patter grows closer and closer…then stops abruptly. The adventurer cautiously slinks over to the well, only to find.. a creature of some sort, clinging to the walls, staring up at him blankly. - What should he do next?"

#paventure posting #polls #choose your own adventure #(I saw a few people tag these as that and I guess it makes sense. hmm)#DAY 3!!! vote to choose this little man's fate #Sad that people did not want to go into the well.. :( Maybe we can still go in depending on how things go with #The Creachure. I mean I know I could just make whatever happen anyway since I'm the one doing it but. It has to feel natural lol #it would be obviously just me doing what I want if I was like 'oh uh we went to throw the coin in the well but he tripped and #fell and then somehow didnt die and whoops he's in the well anyway!!'' lol #I care more about things being realistic and natural than following whatever ideas seem interesting. If it was voted for him to explode #into a million pieces sadly I would simply have to explode him. audience says #let me know if the formatting of this is weird?? also? I wasn't sure where to put the slightly longer bit of text #so I kept it under a reas more just to the post looks neater. I thought it'd seem weird with a bunch of text blocks sandwiching the poll #and too much going on. But I also feel like it's organizationally weird if all the details are at the end? eh..#bt then at least it's optional. not everyone will want to read more. And it's not like.. amazing text lol #I'm slapping them out off of the top of my head with minimal editing because I have to get it done and I know if I make it too complicated #or become concerned with like things being Perfectly Revised then I will absolutely not be able to do it once a day #Same with the obvious sketchy ms paint art lol. But so like. I dont feel as bad about kind of having the text be options #*optional since it's not like 'omg this is so good u have to read this' it's like.. eh.. passable amount of detail ghbj #ANYWAY. and 'paventure' (poll + adventure) is just temporary so I have a way to tag this on the blog/keep up with the posts #in a organized way. I think 'padventure' is more obvious but that's already the name of other things and I didnt want the tags to be #confusing or like.. post in some random tag that people already use for something else #but the only thing I found when googling 'paventure' is like. .some venture capital business from PA. and who cares about that lol #explanation probably not needed but I think it sounds a bit silly so I'm justifying myself to myself lol #ANYWAY. lov his silly hat. I want to draw him more. I want to name him. I COULD DO A POLL TO CHOOSE A NAME #but that wouldn't fit in with any of the days lol. maybe if I make it a week actually doing it or something at the end of the week #I could do a bonus poll or something. ??? idk.. ANYWAY.. new day!

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commandermahariel · 15 days

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siiiiiiigh

#i am in fact a grown adult who is still incapable of talking about their feelings and thoughts to people so I'll just rant here #my relationship with my mother is. so weird. it's not always bad but it always ends up bad for one reason or another #she can be perfectly civil and i'll still be irritated. other times i do try to tolerate it and engage and she ends up saying something #upsetting to me either way.#i don't want to keep being rude to her i don't want to get mad and annoyed all the time but i just can't stop. it's always like this #and i hate myself for it and i hate her and i hate everything about it #today i was leaving for work and she was like. i'll take the trash out of your room and i told her not to do it. she kept insisting and i #had to raise my voice at her to maybe get the point across to get her not to touch anything #and yes my room is a fucking mess and it is something to be embarrassed of. i just feel so fucking tired all time time and i keep tellin #myself that i will clean it this time for sure and then i don't. most of the time it's my mother taking care of it without my permission #and i am grateful for it bc nobody likes living in a mess... but i also fucking hate it because it makes me feel even more worthless #i just can't get rid of the feeling of shame. no matter what i do.#and back to the mother thing. i told her that if she touches anything i will go to her room and throw out anything that isn't nailed down #even though objectively i have no reason to oppose her helping me #but i also fucking hate it #maybe being rude is the only way to get it across. but also i get irritated about anything so easily #i feel shittier and shittier every day. had there been an easy and painless way of killing myself i would have done it already #and despite how much i want to blame this on a disorder or lack of access to medication. there is no magic pill that would fix me is there #i'm just a shitty person who cannot get it together despite everything being handed to me #i'm literally bad at anything and everything. i'm not even a good blogger lmao #people have it much worse in life and still do better. me? i'm useless. there's no helping it. i should have died from covid or something #nobody will save me. nobody cares enough. besides one person whom i push away because i can't stand her and i don't even know why 👍#if i stop messaging people first most of them would forget about me #i am alone. a lonely person in a messy room desperately trying to be entertaining so someone will pay a little bit of attention to me.#not to mention the geopolitics #i won't even go there. i hate the possibility that people might see it mentioned and give me shit for it #one more thing that is apparently my fault. directly or indirectly #all i want is to leave this country. spend the day with someone who cares for me like an actual friend. and then shoot myself so i don't #have to go back #sealene.txt

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talesofwhimsy · 19 days

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WHY?, “Sin Imperial" // Car Sear Headrest, “I Can Play the Piano”

#Whywithaquestionmark #Car Seat Headrest #trigger warning for eating disorders I'm sorry I don't know the best way to tag them I never had to before #I was having a conversation earlier about how I have a very specific relationship with fasting #in that for me specifically I feel like it’s just slow-burn starvation #because it gave me an eating disorder #this idea that if I just stop eating then I'll lose weight and if I lose weight I'll be better #that eating was a moral failure on my part because if I just held out a little longer then I'd be beautiful #so when I'd eventually break fast because it had been days and my vision was fading #I'd make myself throw up afterwards because I had failed #that morphed into all the different little toxic relationships I have with food #I still consider myself a monster for eating #I still lie about how much or how often I eat #and after I stopped forcing myself to throw up after every meal all the consequences hit #my hair started falling out my teeth started falling out all the weight I lost came back #and there was this voice in the back of my head that said that if I had kept going none of that would have happened #and that's kind of true because either those delayed consequences wouldn't have hit #Or I would have actually succeeded in starving myself to death #anyway I relapsed after dinner tonight and purged again and the why? song came on shuffle on the drive home #and I thought it was a little ironic haha #and I ate some more when I got home and I'm really struggling with this one right now haha #because I told myself I wouldn't have anything else to eat tonight but I did and now I feel like I have to pay for it #I think people forgot I was bulimic a few years ago or I just thought I told them and didn't #because it seemed like news at the dinner table lmao #I don't talk about it a lot because it's really upsetting to people I care about #But I haven't made myself throw up in a long time so this is kind of scary I think #Or maybe I shouldn't be scared and instead I should just force of will this #back myself into a lose-lose situation where I either hate myself for eating or hate myself for starving/purging #that's the only way my brain knows how to function I guess #whoever wins we lose haha whatever

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definitelynotnia · 11 months

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got a piece of glass stuck in my foot and my mother chose that moment to start yelling about how stupid and lazy i am like :) we're not taking customer feedback right now ma'am :) there is literally my blood on my hands can u please maybe wait :) and do this at another time :)