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I swear, no one in my story gets threats of hospitalization and/or imminent demise levelled at them quite as often as Heinrich.
#first bit's from a flashback#the rest is pretty recent#but it still stands#I just love throwing rocks at this guy#alpha base#Heinrich#writing#rough draft
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I hope u guys don't mind me posting these au doodles while I work on things ahaha
I also gave JD slightly longer hair in these doodles as a funny haha but I don't think it's funny anymore he looks genuinely good with his hair like that ahahaha I hope you're not mad at me for changing his au design a bit
#first of all ahem DONT TAG THIS AS SHIP OR WHATEVER!!! ILL THROW ROCKS AT YOU!!!!! BITCH!!!!!!!#troIlcest (or whatever you call yourselves idk) DONT TOUCH my SHIT! Ty :] anyways...#For context I like to hc that when he was younger Bruce would always have JD brush his hair#and like... whenever lil Bruce was upset it would help calm him down i think ahhauysgjiodk do u guys see the vision??#and since it's my au i can make reality whatever i want it to be sooooo :]#I like to imagine that it still helps Bruce calm down even tho they're older now.. Big bro brushing his lil bros hair to soothe him UUGH#Let JD be a good older brother pleeease#also gave JD flowers in his hair too bc he deserves them me thinks... Now him and Bruce are matching!!!#i dont have any specific flowers in mind for the ones in their hair i just picked a color for the flowers that looked pretty and ran with i#also saying it again i love love LOOOOVE the crayon tool in mspaint using it to make gradients is so!!!! UUUGHUHHH!!!! /pos#the pattern on JD's jacket fur will never be consistent shhhhh#trolls#trolls band together#john dory trolls#trolls john dory#bruce trolls#trolls bruce#beach bros au#cherris canvas#I made that last image btw#everytime i saw that screenshot of jd it made me think of the spongebob scene where its a pov of flats waking up#and the first thing he sees is spongebob waiting for him with flowers in his hand and smiling
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Assorted Darius doodles with the Hex and more Chanho/Sol! (Belonging to @doggojin and @thatfluffyboi respectively ofc)
#warframe#warframe 1999#warframe oc#hes pretty silly#just a guy with some severe physical issues who loves his boyfriends very very much#these were made about the time I originally was messing with his concepts#before I was like lol#he wouldnt throw the rock back at the kid hed pull them aside and lecture them for twenty minutes#in a very soft and irritated way that he claims up and down isnt condescending but hes too mad to realize it basically is#that was always true for how he delt with politicians#especially those from other cultures that may or may not get subtleties in other languages#but like#kids?#They make him uncomfortable#what do you even do with children#what do they want#enigmatic little people#he basically winds up treating them as he would adults which unfortunately kids do like#which means they are more comfortable harassing his dumbass#airjail for all of them#one at a time#carefully
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one thing about frank furter and elizabeth sparkle is that they do NOT play around when it comes to their homunculus creations that they harbor complicated feelings towards.
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#‘me and my pet freak’ and it pans over to a confused and dazed conventionally attractive critter with deerlike wonder in their eyes#BEFORE YOU START THROWING ROCKS AT ME. ELISABETH AND SUE ARE CUTE. AND IM A STUPID DYKE. LEAVE ME ALONEEEEE SHUT UP GET OUT OF MY HEAD#also i lowkey feel so bad for rocky he was just a baby. just seven hours old. and the only thing he has come to trust is a rush of lust.#he deserved better. he deserved to be loved and cherishes im gonna cry#in another life where frank doesnt go mad with power the castle inhabitants are all just a happy family#brad and janet come over sometimes. brad brings coleslaw.#and i knowwww i know abt the symbolism of the substance. i was so fixated on analyzing it when i watched it#so like now that im done ruining myself and sobbing over the deep and incredibly realistic messages of the movie#let me be gay and stupid in peace. i deserve it i think.#ALSO THERES THIS AMAZING ARTISTS WHO POSTS GORG ART OF THEM AND IM OBSESSED#IF NO ONE GOT ME I KNOW THEY GOT ME CAN I GET AN AMEN#AND THEY POST SUCH WONDERFUL GOLDEN WIVES CONTENT#feed me#feed me seymourrrr feed me all night longgg#okay tag rant over#macposting#rocky horror#rocky horror picture show#frank n furter#rocky#the substance#elisabeth sparkle#sue the substance#elisabeth sparkle x sue#elisasue#himejoshing out#goodnight guys
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love when cats end up in places they arent supposed to be . but love when chickens do that more
#ramblings#post i saw one time about a guy who just . had a chook rock up in his garage#have two personal stories about this too . with the same chicken#part 1: she shows up in our yard . we already had 4 chickens .#you can imagine the delight on chicken loving 9 year old kais face when he saw a 5th fucking chicken#part 2: while distracted throwing waterballoons at our cousins she walked into our house#had to be chased out of the living room . left tiny chicken foot prints .
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I had these weird recurring dreams I had in middle school that I mostly forgot but kept using as fuel for melodramatic daydreams where I was a secret agent slowly dying by poisoning or just me, a kid, dying slowly of brain cancer and it took me like most of a year to figure out that the reason all those angsty middle schooler daydream scenarios I was playing out in my head in the car or in bed at night had a strange edge of deja vu to them because they'd started out as barely remembered dreams. I think it clicked when I was sitting in an airport waiting to board a redeye flight to visit family. there's a certain feeling about sitting in an airport when it's dark out and you're tired. everything is a little bit off. it's a liminal space by definition but as a kid it has a strange melancholy to it that somehow I felt like I'd felt before, and it scared me. it wouldn't get out of my head. I didn't know it them but I was about to spend that entire trip, nearly two weeks, locked in that strange melancholy deja vu darkness. and the thing is that a part of me enjoyed it. was compelled by it. I was scared but it wasn't in a bad way. I called it bad dreams because I didn't have any other words to explain why it made me nervously excited to daydream my own death. it was a feeling of mystery, almost, and bittersweet. but the sweet in that word comes at the end. it was melancholy and I felt like I'd been there before and would die in that feeling. but I always wanted to know more about it. always wondered about the strange recurring dreams and imaginary worlds they sparked. there was always something fascinating about those to me. it always struck something in my emotions that nothing else really can.
and that's what listening to Circa Survive feels like to me
#like it's not depressing it literally just feels like liminal spaces and nighttime to me#which are things that I love so like. yeah#anyway in retrospect the dreams and stuff may have been a child's response to various situations in my extended family at the time#that I'm too tired to get into#I just kind of wanted to write all that analysis of liminal spaces and daydreams and then throw in the punchline of like#yeah so this is actually about a hardcore rock band :)#sjdkdfjskfnskgjs#I'm so tired tonight guys. I'm gonna watch an episode of something and go to sleepies#Lu rambles#living in liminalities#music#circa#ALSO in retrospect there was probably a lot of spiritual warfare happening in my life that specific summer. like weird stuff for me#where I had weird physical sensations whenever I would try to fall asleep and stuff??? but I was too young to really#take that into consideration#that summer DID teach me a love for liminality and the good stuff in melancholy though. so it had a purpose of course
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What's the extent of the conflict between Kvothe and Argar?
To be honest it's a complex relationship to explore. I'd say it could be boiled down to Kvothe needing a softer father figure, but honestly there's a lot of generational trauma involved as well. I'll try to summarize it the best I can
TL;DR: Strict traumatized father raises an approval seeking asshole
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Argar left his home at a young age after humans violated him as a kid. He was unable to endure the fact his own father did nothing to stop it from happening, so now he has crippling, untreated PTSD, fight or flight and constant suffocating anxiety.
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Kvothe was concieved in a loveless marriage (Ryder scored the love of his life and married someone else out of misery) Since Kvothe came out as a boy, he had big expectations for him. Argar wanted him to grow strong and be able to cope or protect himself. He feared he couldn't be around all the time to protect Kvothe so he was really strict and hard on him, always forcing the kid to perform at his absolute peak.
Kvothe became a perfectionist but he's now a stuck up, self-loathing asshole who has no clue how to be gentle or kind to others or not constantly criticize everyone else like his father would do to him.
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As mentioned in a previous ask, Kvothe was pouched and Argar, unlike his own father, actually did something nasty about it and he was detained. Enough time passed that Kvothe realized that he isn't in constant misery when his father isn't around.
So Kvothe's inability to open up about his feelings led him to alcohol abuse, nicotine and self harm addiction, and a good amount of Depressive/suicidal Black metal (Like Father like Son, eh?). Kvothe became uncontrollable and Argar just disengaged in utter shame that he isn't any better than his own father, letting his son wallow in his misery in a completely dysfunctional household, without love or comfort and having no energy to raise his daughter either.
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Now it's just arguing between them, Kvothe still seeking Argar's approval who absolutely loves his son with all of his heart but unable to express it. The conflict that led to them both being scarred was about Argar wanting to get Kvothe help by putting him in a psych ward or some rehabilitation program, and Kvothe absolutely refusing it. Physical altercations are kinda common between them but it's nothing too serious. Argar diffuses it by just not doing anything and letting Kvothe exhaust himself.
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And now in the midst of the hardcore angst, I'll just leave these stupid bonuses here
#ask box#oc#kvothe#argar#ngl I love their relationship it has so much seriousness going on then it's just two unironically unserious guys#nah they just kinda pretend to be like this but honestly both of them got that monkey brain#throw rock dig holes#btw argar was in a dsbm band and they disbanded cuz the drummer legit hanged themselves ON STAGE#how do you out-hardcore that? it was his close friend (in a gay way 😭)#art#content warning
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Sasuke is Out! Sasuke is Doing things! What will Sasuke do?! I have no idea!!! I've never gotten this far in the story before, so I have no idea how things are going from here!!!! But Sasuke is Loose!!!!!!
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Quoting this post to myself as I see Sasuke walking around and doing things. I haven't seen this guy do anything in like a hundred episodes. It's so exciting
#speculation nation#fanny watches naruto#it's so sweet seeing Suigetsu and Jugo trying to find Sasuke again#meanwhile Karin is under lock and key. yet shes playing with their expectations to her advantage#her pretending to be just the stupid sasuke obsessed girl to make them not pay attention to her#to let her keep the picture that actually contains some fucking lockpicks. crafty af#and her GLASSES??? the arm of her glasses is hiding a little secret knife?!?!! thats so cool karin wtf#i love when shes shown to be capable like this. like her sasuke fangirling was real. before.#but idk about now after he tried to kill her. he does Not deserve to keep her affections after that for Sure.#but shes still using the act. making people underestimate her. so crafty. like fuck yeah you go you funky little outlaw#i do love that shes genuinely a bitch. i hated her when i was younger bc i hated sasuke#and the fangirling still does annoy me. but shes also more than the fangirling.#shes so COOL when shes not obsessing over sasuke. i wanna see more of her!!!!!#unfortunately now i have to go back to this shit ass kage fight. really boring to me. now that sasuke's out i dont caaaaaare#it's just a bunch of OP ninja throwing rocks and shit at each other. madara literally dropped Two giant fucking meteors on the battlefield#like it was just one and it was a huge deal but tsuchikage and gaara stopped it. yay!!#but then it was such a Gradeschooler One Upping You moment where madara was like. Heh. well actually. theres Two.#and the 2nd one falls on the first and kills a bunch of people etc etc like come onnnn this isnt even fun anymore#we're just committing massive ecological damage all around#also killer bee literally PURPOSEFULLY clearing a massive section of forest for the sake of visibility#NONE of these ninja care about the environment!!!!! those poor trees and creatures!!!!!!#anytime theres some kind of poison something and they show it off by having birds or whatever die like#STOP!!!! youre killing the environment!!!!! stop it!!!!!!!!!#anyways what a show. the more ridiculously massive the fight gets the less fun it is to watch.#why should i care about guys throwing boulders at each other. Boringggg show me some people punching the shit outta each other.#THE TAIJUTSU!!!! WHERES THE TAIJUTSU!!!!! STOP WITH UR OP NINJA MAGIC SHOW ME TAIJUTSU!!!!!!!!#i also really want to see itachi. where is he. sasuke's loose now i know he teams up with itachi Where Is He....#LETS GET SOME UCHIHA UP IN THIS BITCH!!!! madara get ur pasty ass out of here and tobi stick your head in a toilet#only the uchiha BROTHERS here get those old guys OUTTA HEREEEEEEE#anywyas i actually folded some laundry while watching. wild. having fun rn
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beach episode!
#IM SO SORRY I FORGOT TO POST THIS . LORD#i finished this like a week or two ago it just slipped my mind to actually post#anyways hello everypony#thank you to will for the lovely idea ❤️ as always#i just really like the idea of jacob being a total flake and everyone else just hanging out because theres nothing better to do#but theyre still friends because friendship is magic <3#ehehe. anyways i hope u all enjoy#sid totally throws big rocks off of bridges . i love him#anyways#siddex my beloved#OH ALSO. 70s au update#im about 1/3 through chapter 4#i had to stop writing for a bit bc i was housesitting but im back now#im having a lot of fun writing julie... i like being able to bounce around from memory to the present#and finally having jacob here is. well. its setting things in motion#my apologies for not updating you guys as often as i used to#summer is. well. its great until its not#but i promise u i am working on it !!!#that makes it sound like im not. um. just trust me guys#rlm#redlettermedia#gorilla interrupted#art#dex#sid#julie#ray grabowski#siddex#fanart
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Not to sound off-putting... however, the number of times I've had sex can probably be counted on both of my hands...and that was a very long time ago, and because of that, I fear that not only am i gonna go feral the next time it happens but also something much much much worse. Attached.
#oh but youre so hot GURL THAT DOESNT MEAN I DONT HAVE TRUST ISSUES & CAN B SEXUALLY ATTRACTED TO SOMEONE EASILY#werent you with someone for almost 4 years? yeah and she was mean and i dont like even kissing someone who throws things at me >:0#i think thats why im also waiting im gonna wait this one out guys until i find someone who actually wants to be with me#and makes love to me because idk what thats like and i need to be bewitched body and soul#wlw nsft#wlw smut#wlw post#sapphic#lesbianism#off putting#you can throw a rock at my window and play in your eyes by peter gabriel on a boombox but just dont throw the damn boombox at me lol#actually id prefer crimson clover by joan jett or something with a sapphic undertone atleast bcuz that peter gabriel is from the movie...#....sorry i just went on a rant lol#does a pretty girl wanna make out with me after knowing that?#bewitched#long tags#pride and prejudice#bewitched body and soul
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paulo's interludes are so angsty though someone needs to sit down and have a talk with this moody little teenager (even though literally everyone has been trying) because jfc he loses like ONE battle and decides to base his whole personality around that. valid, but what a little worm to read about 🙄🙄🙄
#if he were a real human child I would obviously have the patience to sit down with him and be like 'hey. let's try to figure out how you can#reach your goals without pushing away your friends.' or something. but as a fictional kid in a world where he has a Dog that can#Throw Rocks and is surrounded by helpful mentor figures that real kids often lack. I'm like omgggggggggg just get some perspective already#yeah you're trying every avenue for strength that's great you don't have to be a little shit to your friends AND LOOKER ALSO#like when the guy who literally had his partner pokemon die??? tells you maybe cherish yours while you can???? don't ignore him?????#I know that's the point and every other character is Also frustrated by his inability to see the bigger picture but it's so simple kiddo#you're at the age to see everything in black and white why can't you see that if you're an asshole to your loved ones you won't have any#loved ones TO protect????
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BOOM. FANFICTION
We have a dead OC haunting the narrative, we have absolutely soul crushing whump, we have hurt/comfort and a little sprinkle of hurt again at the end! What's not to love!
HELL YEAH! Another entry to the 7-rats-in-a-trenchcoat holy war cinematic universe!!!! Today is a gooood day
when I saw the mail icon I was like I HAVE BEEN CONTACTED YEAAAAAAA
today... is an even better day because we got more Saorise... I'm gonna cry.
You know, I didn't recognize that the "dead oc" was her until I saw her actual name, because in my mind she's still alive and running around as a vital part of the ten commandments. I haven't done anything but gently put her in the background of the daydreams with a cookie of her choice yet, because knowing she was Zeldris's only friend on top of being her own lovable self and now learning that she was a like sister to them both- my HEART 😭
i cannot touch that yet. it is holy. but one day, if I have your approval, I swear I'll make her a happy ending. bc that's what I've been doing since I was little for tragic narratives (Cough, cough, Darkstalker Legends, if you know you know) and now's as good a time as any to step up my game. just the prospect gives my heart the zoomies
me when a writer I love makes an oc and gives them the good angst: 👀 is mine to love? to cherish? to make fictional happy endings for? fictional happy endings that don't exist for the characters that don't exist, that are wonderful and die a horrible undeserved death that fits the themes and story so well my heart is screaming?
oh... so THIS is where that sketch is from...
can you tell I can't write tragedies but enjoy the themes and execution of them so much that I religiously read and corrupt them anyway? yeah 😍
#7 rats holy war melizabeth cinematic universe#idk I'm calling it that now#holy war#melizabeth#not zeldris losing his only friend and brother in a matter of MONTHS. he... he refused to come with... i just remembered he KNOWS...#oh that's hitting me hard. can you blame me for throwing your angst-ridden versions of characters into a timeline where things go better#the angst makes the non-canon compliant daydreams sweeter#so glad the people on Tumblr know exactly what I mean when I say you guys please devour this fanfic Experience 10/10#i do NOT regret spending 3 months coming up with a very complicated intricately plotted holy war au. that was very difficult.#now when I'm free I'll go back and give them more bloody angst I guess. then more sweetness. thus is the life of me#you. you melted his eye.#not Elizabeth getting beat up by her mother#thus proving herself right to have hidden things. she would have been beaten either way because abusers don't make sense#they only care about control#also did I mention the name you used for the demon palace ROCKS and KICKS ASS#Mel is so traumatized he hates his own home omg#I mean of course he does... but you made it feel REAL#and Elizabeth's obliviousness .... ohhhh you did that good. the demons she could have saved ...#what's not to love!
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i lied so hard on that old post of ppl saying they'd never been through this before and asking if it gets better and i talked about edd and said it does get better. i was 11 and did not process what happened and moved on and thought that i had "accepted it," now im 21 and actually realize what's going on and it is NOT getting better
#tw death#chat#this SUCKS man. WHY DOES IT KEEP GETTING *WORSE*#it would help if literally anything normal could happen in my life for like. 3 days. that's all i need#did yall hear about the spill in ohio. it got in the ohio river. so now our water is being monitored#gas leak where my uncle lives. so bad the entire stretch of road is closed#got like 3 people dead 1 in the hospital and literally no one will give me updates on her#im DESPERATELY trying to graduate between all this and im job shadowing under a freak of a man and he kinda scares me#ever since my dog died i have been on a downhill spiral man#scooter died a while back btw. i just didnt say anything bc i didnt wanna make ppl sad#it was cancer...#i am trying to climb back up this hill i've been thrown down im really trying this time but people keep throwing rocks at me JKFHSDG#''stay positive'' i say covered in blood#anyways my birthday is in less than a month. cool#at least i didnt have to be home for the super bowl for the first time ever. absolute god send#also i've caught like 6 shinies in the past couple days. FOUR OF THEM were full odds and also back to back. wack#finally got my shiny bronzor i love bronzor have i ever told you guys that. he is JUST a circle#h#vent#idk how to tag this i just dont wanna throw it in ppl's faces on what should be a kinda nice day lol#but i wanna say it eventually bc i've held back for too long#and now im worried abt ppl back home bc im stuck at the dorm and i have a test and a paper due soon#i need a BREAK. not spring break. i need a BREAK break. i need to grab everyone and go to the beach or something#or just. stay in a nice hotel for a day or two. waste some money#drive everyone to falcon overlook or something so they can see the hills like i did#fun road to drive it's all bendy hehe
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You know the things with working with young ppl who dont want to take their breaks and stuff cause they dont 'need' them. And someone will point out actually thats to everyone detriment. Lol. Well. Imagine that person has had the job longer than youve been alive.
#some shit#like. I GET IT. I GET IT. youre just a guy you think you HAVE the ability to help someone so why SHOULDNT you.#you can return to your lunch. AFTER. you help the ppl who interuppted it.#not ofc realising you are creating precident for lunches to get interuppted. and. i really cant stress this enough#ACTIVELY PUSHING MY LUNCH BACK. ME. THE PERSON YOU WORK WITH. IN UR LINE OF SIGHT. THE LONGER YOU DONT GET BACK THEIR#now listen i AM. personally. a late lunch taker cause i love there being 3 hrs or less left of my shift after i eat. it just helps ya kno.#but also. Throwing rocks.#planning deaths. gonna rube golberg this man to death.
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Happy STS!! Could you share a fun fact, line, or character detail you really like but you think is quite subtle? - @trixierosewrites
Happy STS!!
I have never written anything subtle in my life <3
but maybe that's because I'm the dumbass writing it so I know what's there
but wait ok so, I shared a piece - what, a couple weeks ago now? - about Setareh who is an NPC in my dnd campaign and like. ok so that's just a short thing and doesn't have all of the context but essentially if my players were focusing they could, perhaps, tell that
Set already knew Aewyth before being in the cell
no one was particularly fussed when they broke him out and went on their merry way
he knew things that, considering they hadn't met him before, he shouldn't have known
also then Bituin rocks back up (and Citlali, when they met her) just. knowing things that he certainly shouldn't have known that they did traipsing around with Set
and part of this is on me! I am very bad at visual description and setting in stuff on the fly when I am telling the story rather than writing it, so I didn't start to mention the similarities this set of characters have in terms of like. I think they have the same eyes & other tells.
but like. I gave them this so;
(Setareh is crowing, telling Aewyth that he’d told her so, that he’d seen this coming, that she should have listened like Aszaccixl had. She ignores him, as she’s probably right to do. This must look strange (he wonders, briefly, if he should depart and find Aszaccixl, and explain things, but this – this is so much more interesting)). It is Carric, at this point, who speaks up with Aelfswild’s name, and Setareh crows even more because he knew it, he told her- Aewyth shoots him a glare and he quietens, still grinning. She offers them a squad of men, just as soon as they return from… damage control, to take to Aelfswild’s base of operations, but they persuade her that perhaps it would be best if they went alone, so they didn’t arouse suspicion.
n ok that was the novelisation after the session, but I mentioned it in game as well lmao
But yeah. big fan of characters knowing things they ought not to, y'know?
#storyteller saturday#satisfaction brought it back#the fact that they then just rocked back up to Aewyth's office with Set in tow and she didn't bat an eye really should've clued them in lma#hey spro if you're reading this. love you! pls question some of the genuinely shifty people I throw your way!#not just the guy waiting for his date in the pub mmkays <3#and because one of my players is here I can never fully explain it until they work it out aha#Syn also has a little of this going on but have you met that menace. they are also not subtle.
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I’ve noticed that people are very bad at seeing gray. Very, very bad. They’ll see gray and they’ll call it something else, anything but what it is
#🔭.txt#milliliters of peaceful sleep#this is a post about my eye color. this is also a post about me. and about others. and about the world#black and white thinking runs deep and i’d be lying if i said i wasn’t guilty of it too#but like. gray exists. grey exists. it’s a lovely color. it’s not dull or boring but also sometimes it is. nothing wrong with that#nothing is ever only good or only bad. if you’re not doing well that doesn’t necessarily mean you’re doing badly#i’ve been gray for a very long time and people don’t believe me when i say that’s what i am#people would rather i be something stark and high-contrast. something dramatic. something easily spotted and easily classified#if you’re not burning brightly they assume you’re slowly consumed by darkness#if you’re not at rock bottom they’ll either dismiss you entirely or confidently tell you why you are at the bottom#they might even force you to sink just so that they could have the honor of pulling you out#but it’s not so simple. actually it is so simple. but it’s the wrong kind of simple#i’ve been gray for a very long time. i can’t remember ever being anything else. i might lighten or darken but not by much#there’s not a roaring fire lighting me from within but that doesn’t mean i’m not burning at all#inside me is a small flame that will never go out#dim and obscured by smoke#if it starts to falter i put my hands around it and shield it from the wind#if it grows i step back to not be singed but the wind eventually restores balance#i don’t have episodes and the seasons never change. i’ve been gray for a very long time and i’ll be gray forever and that’s just how it is#i’ve accepted it. you should accept it too#also stop saying my eyes are green. they’re not#do people even know what green eyes are? do i? honestly no#but mine are clearly gray. i don’t know what else you could be seeing#you guys are really bad at colors. go back to elementary school#people on this website are also always like ‘omg i love complex morally gray characters’#and then as soon as they see a complex and/or morally gray character they freak out and try shoving them in a box#it’s ridiculous. stop that. the writer did not put all this effort into characterization for you to throw it away like that#and just in general people are bad at understanding that other people are people too despite their good/bad actions#dehumanization is yet another stepping stone for you to feel like the only person in the world. like the main character of your own life#also people don’t know what persistent depressive disorder is and it’s frustrating. no one gets it. i feel stupid for complaining
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