#I just let out a little “tee hee” whenever i see that

[kyros-tha-soldier]

how i look when someone randomly pulls up to my blog and starts liking my posts one by one

[tamamatango]

Unplanned character analysis I should’ve saved for 6/23 but I need instant gratification whenever I have a thought or I explode

Sup nerds, thanks for reading my master’s thesis completely overanalyzing what literal scraps we have in relation to the new anime. Unfortunately no updates yet on that front but I’m starting to go a little Cuckoo For Cocoa Puffs in anticipation so fingers crossed they drop something soonish. I have a couple of longer form posts in my back pocket that may or may not happen in a nearish timeframe, we’ll see what I get around to.

I was going to not do any more posts until one of those materializes but I’m detouring from that for a bit because I had an epiphany about Saburo now that I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about this series again. Those if you who know me and/or were around for when I was most active here know he is my favorite character behind Kururu and that’s still true. So here’s like. A reading of him that I think completely changes the way you will look at this character. If you don’t see him like this already.

Saburo(/Mutsumi since this goes equally for the manga side) is not actually cool. Like this kid is totally cringe and a weirdo right. Literally thinks of the most unnecessarily extra solutions to things, wardrobe that gets increasingly bizarre over time, writes poetry that is usually either obnoxiously cheesy or just doesn’t make any sense. Spends his free time doing stuff like talking to cats and collecting shitty kids’ meal toys. His drawings aren’t even that good most of the time. Unironically Momoka has more swag than Saburo does (granted Momoka has more swag than most characters but that’s besides the point). Yes he is a super genius and athletically gifted and conventionally attractive to other people his age, and (for manga Mutsumi only) it’s later implied he was modified by the N326 in some way. But here’s the thing—a lot of his peers either think he’s a smarmy ass show-off little shit (manga) or just completely inaccessible to the average person so why bother (anime).

The reason why he’s such a celebrity is because the only people who think he is really cool are children and preteen girls (and secretly Giroro but the whole reason that’s a funny joke is because Saburo is totally not appealing to adults at all let alone hardened super serious soldiers). But this is a very profitable and exploitable audience so he is really successful. He is the equivalent of a Disney Channel teen star. He’s like what Justin Bieber was in 2010 or whenever. In the manga Mutsumi gladly eats up this attention, but the anime pretty heavily implies especially toward the (until this year tee hee) end of the series that Saburo kinda dislikes being under the celebrity microscope and having producers who want to milk their child star as much as possible; he just wants to create and entertain and express himself freely which is why he does everything anonymously.

I think the anime tried a little too hard to make him unironically cool and my guess is that this is for a couple reasons. One, he has Akira Ishida’s voice coming out of him which yes was obviously chosen primarily because lol Kaworu but also his voice is just inherently associated with “we want you to think this character is a mysterious ikemen” most of the time. Two, compared to the manga there’s a lot more fillery stuff revolving around Natsumi idolizing him and because so much of the show is from Natsumi’s perspective, that’s the perspective the viewers (who were also intended to be children then, though I think now that it’s a 20 year old series they’re going more for the nostalgic adult audience) get as well. Don’t get me wrong though the VERY few serious moments he had were fantastic, 229 best episode movie 3 best movie etc etc.

You could also argue Kururu thinks Saburo is “cool” but I think he respects him more in the way that he’s kinda like him but younger so they understand each other intrinsically and that makes Saburo more reliable in fulfilling Kururu’s specific needs than most other characters. Saburo’s a lot kinder ostensibly but unlike the rest of the cast, who recoils at Kururu’s mannerisms and psychological torment of everyone, Saburo usually just thinks it’s funny. Kururu is much of a freak as he is but is very particular about his image and actively micromanages almost every aspect of his personality to get people to see him a certain way and avoid showing too many of his vulnerabilities (it’s all but confirmed in the anime that his entire cadence and vocal tics are an elaborate act and his normal voice is totally different). We don’t see it much on screen but it seems he can kinda relax a bit around Saburo who himself is totally out there but in a more genuine and unabashed way, like even in the anime where the radio persona is a secret it’s not like he acts that much differently on the air than he does in his personal life. Besides maybe the early manga Kururu is not really a romantic and probably thinks Saburo’s sappy wappy poetry is cringe too, but he likes Saburo enough that he supports him being himself no matter what bullshit that entails (besides getting himself killed of course). Sorry had to shoehorn best partners talk for a bit longtime Kirb readers know how it is.

So there is actually a specific thing that made me decide let’s do a fucking character analysis for the first time in like 5 years or something, and that’s that I was browsing through raws of the one 4koma book I don’t physically own (shoutout to @kagender for those scans along with some other cool stuff like Keroro Land issues, storyboards and ref sheets!), and it was these strips:

This is a 4koma series in which Meru and Maru from Movie 2 hang around with the main cast for funny shenanigans. Not super relevant because these two strips don’t have them pictured but anyways. They’re having a beach day and Natsumi runs into Saburo who is there to “surf” but actually there are no real waves and he is just pretending. Because he’s copying the 1978 film Big Wednesday (it is Sunday in the comic). In other words teenager larps because he saw it in an old movie once. I know this is not really a pertinent example because the Keroro Land 4komas are all very silly and non-canon (a lot of the artists are actually former doujin artists) but look. This is peak, okay. This is my ideal Saburo outside of serious scenarios. I’ve seen the vision.

I swore I was gonna make this a short post but it’s not I guess. Can’t resist turning these into goddamn essays. So to wrap it up: Saburo is some dorky kid who thinks he’s way more of a hotshot than he really is and totally owns it with no shame. This is adorable. I will defend him with my life. I need Anikero The New to agree with me here. In like 85% of cases I prefer the anime’s takes on everything but Yoshizaki cooked with the ideas behind this guy so listen to word of god. Give us more Silly Saburo. The TikTok teenagers of today deserve this representation.

[sweetchuckaboo]

Hello :3 i have come with yet another info dump about my OL2 OC, Mei Mei! This time in step 2! I don't have a drawing of her in step 2 YET but i'll make one soon enough, i'm still learning and i try to take it slow to not tire myself too much, but i still love to share stuff about my oc, because this is such a beautiful fandom and i love to be part of it 💕 with that said, i'll get into it.

But first, i made a playlist for Teen Meiling in spotify, if you want to, you can check it out whenever you please.

— As you can see in the image, Mei still goes by a more femenine leaning, she is sure and proud of being a girl, but she tries to keep her mind open to make sure to support all her friends during their own journey to discover themselves.

— She goes by Mei instead of Mei Mei, she thinks that only one 'Mei' makes her look more mature.

— Mei started learning chinese and german to surprise Tammy and Qiu, she likes to explore and learn about different cultures and languages, and what's better to start than with her best friends cultures? It also helps that she decided to explore her own roots, since she has chinese heritage.

— She sometimes asks Qiu's parents for cute nicknames in chinese and sneaks them into conversations just to see Qiu's reaction, even if sometimes even they get confused with the meaning.

— Just reciently, Mei discovered that she likes people regardless of their gender

— Mei changed her berets for bows! And now uses her hair pulled up or braided instead of just let down.

— She is still not a fan of noise, when she listens to music she makes sure to set it in a low volume so she can be comfortable, because despite everything she loves music a lot.

— She got into baking and cooking, so Opal taught her how to use the stove and the oven safely, now Tammy and Qiu are always the firsts to taste whatever Mei tries a new recipe

— Lately, her heart starts beating faster whenever she's near Tammy, tee hee :3

— She noticed that her two best friends have drifted off from each other, and though she still likes to hang out with both of them at once, she gives each of them their own space and doesn't force them to be together when they don't want to be.

— She likes going on silent walks with Tammy, but the forest still scare her, so she uses two of her fingers to hold onto Tamarack's clothes when she allows it.

— Mei never says it outloud, but she's content with the way her friends have changed into more reserved and calmed people, she still misses their enthusiasm, but now she feels like she can keep up with them.

— Mei is still over the moon for Qiu, but she's worried that they might not feel the same for her, same case with Tammy, so she decided to keep her feelings in control and not let them be too obvious.

— She's still a little shy, but she feels more secure about herself and has opened up a little bit thanks to Tammy and Qiu.

— Mei enjoys making little braids in Qiu's hair when they allow her to, she can play with their hair for hours non-stop.

— When she's alone, she writes love poems and letters for Qiu and Tamarack, but they always end up stuffed in a shoe box in her closet, not even close to be read by the person they're meant to.

— She spents a lot of time daydreaming, she likes to stay in home more than being out there, loneliness is a feeling she have long forgotten.

— Her relationship with Opal has turn a little complicated, she still loves her mom with her whole heart, but she doesn't see Opal as someone she can go to unless there's no other choice, Qiu and Tammy are the only people she trusts completely to keep her secrets and worries.

— Mei now gets along better with Baxter and Ren, and feels silly for having resented them as a kid, though she still gets a little jealous when Qiu hangs out more with them.

— When Mei needs quick advice, she pays granny a visit to have a little talk, she feels her as her own Omi 💕

— Mei still doesn't like school not even a little bit, but she does her best to pay attention and learn a lot so she can help Autumn later because she knows they can get distracted easily during class.

— Mei enjoys singing a lot, and has a little bit of talent with it, so sometimes she starts humming without even realizing it until someone points it out.

— Mei has a new bike, but she prefers walking, she only uses her bike when she needs to be somewhere as soon as possible.

— She likes playing minecraft, and sometimes asks Qiu to sit with her to watch fnaf gameplays because she gets scared easily (this is historically accurate i just googled it ☝🤓) she also turns down the volume of those videos.

— She still wishes she could be a cloud.

Idk if i'm missing something, i feel like i do but this is all i have for now xP thanks for reading 💕

[yomiurinikei]

Hey!! You can totally decline (I got no idea if your ask box is open)

But can you write some random Utsuro hc?

I love my man way to much

siiiiiighs. i tried to make this longer i really did </3…. simply wasn’t in the stars! the world doesn’t want me to be crazy abt utsuro. oh my fuckass neighbor is being weird again. gdi ANYWAYS !!

anyways!! my inbox is always open, i’m really bad at getting ask memes done admittedly, but hc requests ALWAYS get finished (even if my memory loss become an issue and i forget that someone requested hcs. tee hee. totally not what happened here)

anyways!! order up here it is i hope u enjoy!!! 🫶

~*~

•spends a lot of time inside (always finds people looking for a housesitter, wins a raffle to go travel to a event w/ hotel charges includes, etc) and swears up and down that he hates being outside

•but then when he actually steps foot outdoors he likes it a lot

•there’s nothing to really do, so while he gets bored p quick, he isn’t really actively engaging with his divine luck, past the weather being nice and things like that, he gets to just chill, and let the hours go by

•used to play puzzle games, bc he figured even if he knew the solution on instinct, he at least had to pass the time by moving pieces and the like

•then he tried 2048 and noticed he always got the tiles he needed, and that without thinking, he always made the best move to combine pieces,

•and started paying more attention, and realized that even if he was actively engaged in smthn else, his hands would just move on their own to play

•aaaand he promptly got fed up with it all and hasn’t played anything like that since

•gives like. really really bad advice. just absolutely horrible advice 

•example: he has -3 street smarts and will ONE HUNDRED PERCENT give u horrible advice that will get u mugged. 

•he has never had any reason to fear for his life or safety (his well being and mental health is shot to hell but-) and it is very apparent in the way he will just. completely casually walk across a highway to save time when going somewhere

•for a guy who could probably solve the millenium prize problems immediately if he knew they existed, he is. not very smart

•speaking of. i 100% believe he has all those great internationally known puzzles/treasure hunts/etc solved. he just chooses not to share

•has some degree of enhanced/higher senses (has vision over 20/20, does well keeping track of distinct sounds in noisy places) but this contributes to his misery

•he can pick out every little thing he’s tasting, and it keeps flavors from blending together well, picks out the wrong scent notes in perfumes-

•OH simultaneously touch starved and touch averse. 

•he’s generally finicky about textures/what touches him (you see how my train of thought arrived at this station), and also generally doesn’t feel comfortable around others

•so like… while he’s not really conscious of it, his subconscious is screaming for contact with another person, but whenever akane (who ELSE is trying to have physical contact w this guy) is like… 🥹? and tries to get a hug from him he just. activates the self destruction protocols.

•like. just stiffens up and just waits for it to be over.

•bc his thought process isn’t “i wish this was a better hug” but rather “i wish this was OVER !!” he doesn’t have a positive experience w it because his luck doesn’t kick in and make him feel okay/make the hug not be evil

•actually let’s talk about blesseds more. i imagine he didn’t bless many youngin’s because they were consistently very obnoxious @ him.

•like. i 100% believe that all the CoU tried to cling to/follow him if at all possible. from day One they were trying to find him (looking for any potential good caregiver) while adults were less active/persistent in their hunts

•so he kinda just went. 😐 and tried to stay away from kids when he was giving people fortune

•controversial i suppose but he has resting confused face. boy just always looks lost looks out of it looks ?

•”but whenever we see him in the games he’s going 😑” LISTEN. whenever we see utsuro in game he’s being exposed to the horrors. 

•i don’t say this to woobify him, he literally always is like noooo actually i did nothing wrong i am entirely passive and neutral and have no impact on everything ever. your actions are YOUR fault and not a result of me being insane to you. and it’s so hilarious to me to see. 

•but i do think it’s important to recognize there’s a Reason hes so like. no actually i’m devoid of agency… and that there’s trauma in that head !!!

•so yeah i think whenever we see him in game he’s yk. experiencing things. i think if u just saw him on the bus or whatever he’d look like he has no clue what’s going on ever. just a very very clueless resting face

[sickeningly-sweet-letters]

gonna be self indulgent a little, tee-hee

i wanna bring back floriography!! someone learn flower language with me! even if i didn’t include much- oops sorry-

wow this has been in my drafts for a good while haha, i hope its alright and not too cringe. just a little cringe? lol

🌻 yandere florist x gn reader!

- a yandere florist who was as beautiful and elegant as the flowers filling their family’s little shop, they’ve been working there for a while now but.. they feel like they’ve made more bouquets than actually receiving them.. things were rather quiet and calm but they’ve always wanted something.. someone more..

- they thought you were just another customer but.. they felt so.. attracted to you.. they’ve never actually realized what its like to have butterflies in their stomach until you asked for help choosing flowers.. you looked so adorable being surrounded by the rest of the flowers..

- they couldn’t help how they spent longer than necessary explaining all the meanings about the flowers you chose, they didn’t want you to leave just yet! you were like a rare butterfly.. so rare that they almost wanted to keep you in a little enclosure!

- they ended up just giving you a spare flower along with the ones you bought, it came with their number tied around it.. they really hoped it wasn’t too cheesy.. they just didn’t want to let you fly away from them! they wouldn’t allow it. everybody knew everyone in this town, so it wouldn’t be too hard to learn more about you.. but thats just in case you don’t send them a message soon! they aren’t very patient though..

- the two of you were getting along so well! isn’t this just like the movies? you’re always so cute whenever you meet up! they knew all the kinds of cafes that were perfect for this meet-cute romance! so don’t mind it when people seem to subtly avoid you, they’ll make sure their little butterfly is safe! they want you to rely on them! can’t you see how hard-working they are? they always want you to visit their shop visit them!

- its not like you have much of a choice, your friends never seem to answer and its too boring to stay at home.. but this is a good thing for you two! you’re getting closer as you listen to talk about the things they like and wow! they seem to know all the things you like! aren’t they just an ideal partner for you? i’m sure your parents would love them once they properly meet for the first time, of course

- they always seem to be around you, not literally haha, but they always respond quickly, they seem to show up whenever you’re feeling down, even your parents seem to invite them over a lot.. you didn’t even realize how much they were in your life until now! and thats not even half of it, little butterfly.. they spent any free time studying you and making sure nobody hurts you

- they finally ask you out, and of course you say yes! look at the adorable bouquet they got you! this really was a great love story from the beginning! so don’t mind when they start encouraging you to just work- no. to just move in with them to help run their shop! come on.. your parents know how reliable and good they are! they’d protect you and keep you safe.. even if it meant getting white roses painted red

- not that you’d ever find out, just continue to be adorable and oblivious as you always have! and don’t down dig too deep in their garden either, haha~ but look! they made a little area just for the two of you! isn’t that just so romantic? you could have cute little tea parties! isn’t that better than actually leaving their home, little butterfly?

you’re finally with them.. you can’t leave now. they’ll only resort to drastic if you ever try to leave your little enclosure, butterfly… just turn a blind eye to the details and everything will be okay! lets keep living our meet-cute romance together, forever!

[the-fat-raccoon]

top five scents top five animales

top 5 scents!!

I chose to interpret this as scents I like to wear as perfumes candles bodywashes etc because choosing my top 5 scents ever is far too much of a world changing decision to make. So here's a look into what I most commonly smell like I guess

Vanilla/Cotton Candy

A toss up because I usually wear these hand in hand. A sweet treat. A delicious scent combo for the ages. I smell like a carnal carnival carnie and everybody wants to be my girlfriend when I smell like this. This is real. This is real life. You couldn't handle this scent combo.

Cherry/Blackberry

Another toss up! I like cherry scents because they also sometimes just smell like candy red. and also because my color pallete irl is black and red so it's on theme to smell like these. But I have a perfume that smells like both black cherries and blackberries that I got for the holidays and it smells so delightful.

Lemon

Lemon scent is like a gender to me its like a long lost childhood friend it's like a soldier in the trenches with me with which I shared an intimate night it's a narrative motif to me you would not understand my relationship with lemon scent if you tried. God made the fruit of knowledge and apple because he knew the tart and sweet olfactory sensation that is a lemon would be far too tempting no snake required and he had to give us a fighting chance.

Doritos Cool Ranch

A manly scent for men. Best paired with far too much axe body spray and a set of 50 pound dumbbells. This is for MEN ONLY. No boys allowed.

Rain

It smells good tee hee. I love a candle that smells like right after it rains. I don't carry an umbrella so there have been occasions where I've become a sopping wet pathetic rain smelling creechjre.

Top 5 animals!!!

Raccoon

Love these little guys so much. LITERALLY ME!!(REAL!!!!!!)

Garden Snail

Oughhh. the Thing. 🐌 <- full of love and so so big. If I could I would show this creature the whole world because I know it is the only being capable of fully appreciating all the wonders of life. a snails can have a kissies as a treat.

Mothman (somewhere between. animal and man)

I know him personally

Sharks

These creatures used to scare me but I know now they are actually very kind and friendly and smooth friends. I'll only ever see them in person at aquariums tho, scared of the ocean.

Fireflies

When I was really young we used to get these every summer and I loved to catch them. I don't know if it's because I've moved since then or climate change or what, but I don't see them much anymore and it makes me sad. I miss evenings in June through August filled with hundreds of tiny little living lanterns in the sky. I miss my happy glowy flying friends :< whenever I see them now I make an effort to go out and run around and let them land in my hand and stuff. Sometimes I'll catch a few but now that I'm older I know better and I release them a few songs after. Fireflies if you're reading this I love you and miss you. :<

[paarksunghoon]

HAIII it is ur fav person ever (Joking. unless...) sorry i didnt send an ask today morning (or night for u idk) i was busy trying to lock in, failed at it, took a nap, went to uni, came back n then finally locked in (face sitting w nerd chan sometimes my brain amazes me) BUT ANYWAYS! how are u my baby i hope u r doing well n that ur road trip went good!!! if u want i can share my chan playlist w u bcs it has cute love songs on it or give u some skz recs if u haven't fully checked out their discography cus tee bee eich idk how much of skz u actually know...

anyways u asked for a separate deep honey ask so i am delivering teehee but basically everything abt deep honey is my favourite duh!!! i loved the way hoon basically immediately took y/n into his arms the minute he saw her like no questions asked nothing or how he held her like a lil baby when they were in heeseung's room n brushed her tears away n gave her kisses :( the line of how he says he'd come running to her in a heartbeat n how u described him loving her like she's the only woman he's ever loved in his life was so so sooooo sweet i need a love like that so bad bcs he is just the most precious boy ever 🥹🥹 n then hee jay n jake all ordering her fav food n comforting her n jaeyun calling y/nhoon cuties ohhhh mannnn n OMG WAIT LISTEN... imagine an extension of deep honey universe where jake gets his own girl or smth... he meets her at a bookstore n tries reading her fav books in order to strike up conversation w her but he gets the details wrong n stumbles over his words n she just giggles at him n he asks for her number n GRRRRRRR MY JAEYUNIE

anyways if u have any more thoughts on deep honey u would like 2 share w the class i will be happy to listen to u 😇😇 as always much love from #1 paarksunghoon stan aka me n i hope u have the bestest day to come today n tmr n every other day for the rest of ur life i love u

— ur fav dh (altho im off priv but u can keep tagging me as this n i will keep signing off as this lolz)

hi!! send at your leisure. my inbox welcomes you whenever you want to stop by.

life is pretty difficult these days for a multitude of reasons. road trip was good, I’m happy to be reconnecting with a lot of friends I haven’t seen in a while. tomorrow I’m seeing a friend I met at my last enha concert because we both went alone and ended up talking + exchanging socials. suuuper excited

I like skz! they aren’t in my ults list but I appreciate their music and admire their production skills. han and I would so be best friends.

I love that you love deep honey. everything I write has a little bit of myself in there so it makes me happy to know this resonated with you. I felt quite soft when I wrote it. forever wishing I could hug sunghoon on the good and bad days. I also have a separate little jake wip in the works that originally wasn’t in the deep honey universe buuuut I might twist it a little and make my own literary universe.

I’d love to imagine deep honey sunghoon really loves to hold hands in public as opposed to full on PDA. he and his gf are really into movies + dinner (after watching) and he’s probably on the more reserved side, so he’ll let her talk and talk until he gets motivated to share his opinions. jay probably has to tell them to shut up if they all watch movies in his apartment bc they get so energetic 😭

eventually, yn probably gets really comfortable with sunghoon’s friends too (they did see and hear her sob her eyes out). hoon’s the type to always tell them random facts about her so they know things about her and she’s like ?? how do u know that ?? for example they know her top 3 cocktail orders so if she’s running late they get her one she likes. they probably know types of restaurants she likes so if no one knows where to go, they’ll pick something sunghoon mentioned. 1000% they know how she takes her coffee (vanilla latte with oat milk, half sweet) so if they go out when she’s not there, they always bring one back for her 😆

jakeyn = power best friends; yn will listen to him talk about this really cute girl who he accidentally spilled coffee on and needs advice on how to talk to her (from said wip); jake will playfully get mad @ her for “stealing” sunghoon; very sibling type of relationship

jayyn = chaotic duo; cracking really bad jokes that everyone tolerates; probably the first to be level headed when planning things (everyone leaves it up to them to plan hang outs because they have an #itinerary); in charge of shopping/ordering food because they always know how much to get without going overboard

heeyn = calm duo; heeseung brings out the more quiet side of yn and they could sit in the same room for hours, not say a word but do their own thing, and count that as quality bonding time; will text in depth about philosophical and life shit; they go to each other for advice a lot (yn will go to him first if hoon isn’t available and heeseung will send her 6 minute audio messages)

not unusual for yn to hang out with them without sunghoon because in my head, male/female friendships can 100% be platonic. sunghoon isn’t threatened but will still be all kissy kissy with her in front of them

sunghoon when he sees yn and his friends get close: back off that’s my gf

heeseung, jay, jake: ew she’s like my sister

sunghoon: wdym you guys don’t find her hot

heeseung, jay, jake: ???

[slovo-theshattered-onion]

This Post is Mostly About Dazai

i personally don't see dazai with ADHD unless he also has autism. mostly i see him with autism tbh-

but you asked why, and for me, it's a bit hard to explain.

first things first, an important note is that everyone presents their neurodivergency differently, and ultimately, because we have little to no access to dazai's feelings and thought patterns, we couldn't really diagnose him easily (also i'm not a fucking doctor fuck if i know any diagnosis ever)

which in turn means he could just be really high masking. with his intellect, that really wouldn't shock me.

anyway you asked why !! so here we go !! second things second, let's go through some (mildly hopped up on drugs) evidence !!

fucker has evident thought pattern and communication differences from the people around him, to the point he doesn't really seem to consider himself human- as seen in his insistence he can't be killed and literally every interaction he ever had with anyone where he might as well be throwing pocket sand at them every five minutes (a common more internal sign of autism is feeling like an alien of some sort, and social 'deficiencies' (the community prefers differences) are literally a whole Thing)

fucker certainly has strong convictions, and adheres to them to the best of his ability firmly and single-mindedly- as seen when he literally turns his entire life upside down when the death of one single man challenges and ultimately overturns his belief system ('rigid' thinking is a symptom- however most autistic people agree it's less 'rigid' and more,, idk the right word so i'm gonna use 'firm'- basically yes i have firm beliefs and i follow them but if presented with contradicting evidence i will Reexamine. this is why so many autistic people are leftist, trans, etc, btw)

fucker hates pain, which could be read as a sort of analogy for sensory issues (this one is admittedly weak but i couldn't think of any examples of dazai having outright sensory issues so we're rolling with it)

fucker could be argued to vocal stim with how much he hums and sings, and the way he over-exaggerates his emotions when portraying them could also be a stim-ish behaviour (altho admittedly it goes more with the idea he's masking)

just fucking look at him tbh. high quality autism specimen

ofc, whenever i write him i increase these signs tenfold and add more sensory issues and general neurodivergent vibes just for the funsies of it, but i really think i only have to fudge around what's already there in his characterisation rather than make shit up (except for when i make the bandages be partly a sensory issues thing. that's just me being a little overzealous)

chuuya meanwhile,,, i mean you said yourself you kinda saw the ADHD in him, so honestly do i even need to say anything? this man is absolutely delightful, i love him. i honestly kinda think he's got the 'tism too but that's honestly just because i'm insane and the vibes are present but i couldn't explain it nearly as well as i could dazai. either way i love him so much !! look at him and his collection of fancy wines <3

but yeah. everyone presents their brain chemistry differently, so in any case, someone out there could probably make a compelling case using points i didn't think of or points that may be directly contradictory to mine. ultimately, i'm just a silly guy on the internet and my opinion is just my opinion, not the gospel. plus i'm not asagiri so i know jack all about the true inner workings of these guys. i'm just mentally ill and obsessed, tee hee <3

hope this helps !!

okay can someone explain why neurodivergent SKK, esp. ADHD SKK, are such a popular thing /gen

like, are all of us projecting? or is there some solid ground beneath it all? did someone post about it and all of us just went with it? how does it work for y'all? /gen

I can see Chuuya, but Dazai is just questions upon questions. IMO he's too highly functioning to have ADHD. maybe me not getting it is me projecting bc I cannot imagine myself being able to put up with so much stuff like he does. he's plans are always too complicated for me

I mostly just terrorize bsd kids with mental illnesses but some of this is. to say, curious

I thought of ADHD Atsushi (Kyoka is neurotypical and really tries to put up with him) and autistic Akutagawa and Rampo and maybe Poe (so Rampoes are in their little corner in ADA office rambling about stuff being totally on the same wave) but not these two dumb rocks

adhd chuuya does sound nice though. I'll think about it. prepare to be terrified. I might not make his life worse with gender issues but neurodivergence is going to be a murder.

[purple-plum-petals]

Tee hee, I had this thought, and thought it was adorable. How would Sun and Moon react to one of the kiddies from the daycare tried to set them up with their single parent?

—⊱ So… You’re Single? ⊰ || Sun/Moon X Parent!Reader

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“Why hello there, little friend! Oh? You have something to tell me, hmm? … Oh, your ___ is looking for a partner? Well, I wish them luck! I’ve heard that finding a partner can be difficult sometimes.… W-What do you mean you want me to be your other parent??”

      ☀️: Sun would become quite flustered from the whole situation, but would do his best not to show it in front of the kids. He would instead change the subject by suggesting everyone play a game of tag and hope that the subject is dropped! He’s flattered that your kid approves of him, though, but wishes the child wouldn’t have blurted out how you’re “single and ready to mingle” in front of everyone while asking if Sun was currently seeing anyone himself.  

     ☀️: He’s seen you around – you’re a very doting parent, always making sure to arrive right on time while greeting your kid with a hug and a smile. So, especially after your kid makes the comment to Sun that you’re not with anyone at the moment, he unintentionally starts paying more attention to you when you arrive.

     ☀️: While watching you from afar, Sun kind of develops a… little crush on you. Yes, just a little one – nothing too intense (lies). It doesn’t help that your kid drags you over to him every day when you pick them up, forcing you two to talk (since who wants to stand there in awkward silence?) while they slink away to spend more time with their friends.

     ☀️: Sun can’t believe that you seem to actually enjoy talking to him – most adults usually loathe him whenever they have to be near him, let alone speak to him. He uses this time to start getting to know you, though, and his little crush ends up becoming, well... a big one. It doesn’t help that you also take an interest in him and what he’s passionate about, so that’s pretty much the final nail in the metaphorical coffin for poor Sunny – he’s now officially down bad.

     ☀️: He wouldn’t ever make the first move, though – it’s inappropriate to start hitting on one of the children’s parents (plus he’s scared of being rejected lmao), so he’ll just… wait and see if you make the first move. However, if you’ve shown signs that you’re also interested in him, he has an easier time gaining enough courage to confess to you.

     ☀️: Your kid is ecstatic that their plan to get you and Sun together worked – now they’ll have two cool parents! Sun would definitely play the “good cop” to your “bad one” though, thus making you wonder if this was the kid’s plan all along….

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“Hmm? Come now, little one, it’s naptime – you know the rules. Oh? You need to tell me something first? Alright, but as soon as you tell me, it’s straight to bed…. Now, why did you need to tell me this? … Okay, it’s time to sleep now.”

     🌙: Moon immediately shuts the kid down at the suggestion of dating you let alone marrying you. It’s nothing personal, honest… he just isn’t in the mood to have the other kids start singing “Moon and Mx. ___ sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G~” – he doesn’t think his circuitry could take it. Your kid doesn’t take his dismissal of you lightly and continues to remind Moon nearly every day how you’re still single; the kid just won’t let it go.

     🌙: You would usually come to pick your kid up a little bit before naptime is over, so you usually see Moon more often than not. You two were cordial towards each other, Moon always seeming a bit distant, but you loved how gently he treated your child. After learning about your… dating life via your kid of all people, Moon somehow becomes even more distant. It’s nothing that you or your child did, but rather Moon being self-conscious at the fact your kid wanted him to date you.

     🌙: He doesn’t develop crushes as quickly or easily as his twin – his crush comes about when you question him before waking your child up to leave if he was feeling alright, telling him how you enjoyed the conversations you two would have before he started acting differently towards you.

     🌙: Oh no! Genuine concern for his wellbeing? Well, now his feelings are starting to be a bit more difficult to keep under wraps…. How cruel could you be? Now Moon felt bad for making you worry about him so, after that moment, he tries to return to the way he would act before your kid pretty much asked if he’d be willing to be the child’s other parent.

     🌙: Moon is even more bashful than Sun is when he realizes his feeling for you and, even if you show an interest in him romantically, he just can’t bring himself to confess – it’s pretty much all on you since Moon is somehow even more terrified of rejection than Sun is. When you do though, he feels as though all his circuitry is going haywire and the usual cool metal of his body warmer under your touch.

     🌙: Unlike with Sun, Moon is definitely going to take more of a “bad cop” approach when parenting your kid. Nope – no more video games, it’s bedtime… poor kid doesn’t even stand a chance of bargaining with Moon for just another ten minutes.

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[lunaticsandidiots]

little red box [pt.3 of Fennel Fields Forever]

part 1 | part 2 

read on ao3

synopsis: You've always been pretty good at keeping your cards close to your chest. Now your poker face? That's another story.

pairing: adrian chase/gender neutral reader

word count: 4.6k (it just keeps getting longer. lord have mercy on yall for chapter 4)

warnings: explicit language, implied sexual content, canon-typical violence, fluff, mutual pining, slow burn, idiots to lovers

a/n: TEE HEE IT'S CHAPTER 3! honest to god, it was really tough trying to decide whether to relent and give yall the sauce now, or set everything up just a little more and make the finale just that tiny bit more delectable. you'll just have to read on to see what i decided on! and thank yall again for all the love on fennel fields, this fic has truly become my baby and i know i'm gonna feel empty as hell when it's finished lmao.

“And that’s the ’office’” Leota sighed as she sat down at her desk, clapping her hands against her thighs in conclusion, “You can sit with me till you get the hang of things.”

“Thank you.” you uttered with a polite smile, assuming the seat at the desk next to her after she pushed it towards you. Leota was definitely the most welcoming towards you, Economos following closely behind, and you were very grateful for their generous guidance as you tried to get caught up with the chaos you’d found yourself in the midst of.

Adrian watched from his desk on the other side of the office, hiding behind his Count Crowley comic book. At first, he was really reading it, he was very invested in a tense standoff between the main protagonist and a werewolf. But the second he sensed your presence, he assumed the position he always did when you were near - hide and stare. Adrian never found the right words to describe how he felt, he just liked the way that being around you made him feel, and knew he wanted to keep feeling that way whenever possible.

It soon began to dawn on you that you didn’t feel too dissimilar, though your reaction to the addictive feeling was vastly different from Adrian’s, in that you wanted absolutely nothing to do with it. You hated that you felt giddy when he was in the room. You loathed that you felt sick and tired and empty when he left. You’d felt this way a few times before. Enough times to know that this feeling only served as a harbinger of doom.

“You seem nervous, what’s up?” Leota asked, snapping you out of your internal pity-party. You quickly scrambled to fabricate a believable cover-up story for your sombre demeanour.

“I just don’t know if I’m cut out for this,” you deceived, though your answer wasn’t entirely false. You could see Adrian eavesdropping from the other side of the room, his glasses perched over the top of his comic, and you tried to bury yourself a little deeper in your chair as you felt your skin grow warm.

“You’re seriously overestimating what I can do. I just got real lucky with those guys in the alley last night, that’s all.”

“Murn wouldn’t have asked you to join us if he didn’t think you could handle it. He might be a little intimidating, but he’s got a knack for seeing people’s potential and helping them realise it.” Leota reassured you, curling her lips inwards as she smiled.

“You shouldn’t be nervous, you fuckin’ obliterated those dudes last night!” Chris interrupted yet again, seemingly appearing out of nowhere. You jumped in fright and turned to face him.

“Jesus christ,” you exhaled, holding your hand over your racing heart, “You sure do make a habit of sneaking up on people, huh?”

Chris just laughed in response, shaking his head as he continued his ‘pep talk’.

“You know, if you’re nervous, why don’t we go shoot some rounds? Nothing lets out the tension quite like gratuitous violence”

Adrian’s head immediately perked up at the mention of violence. He slammed down his comic in excitement, grabbing the attention of everyone else and turning their heads towards him.

“Did someone say gratuitous violence?”

You sighed a faint chuckle. You were beyond overwhelmed with your current situation for a ridiculous number of reasons, and your usual forms of stress relief were to take yourself to the boxing ring, or take it out on your lounge room wall. So ’fuck it’, you thought, pushing yourself back up to stand. Everyone’s heads spun back around at the squeak of your chair.

“I’ll go get my knives.”

 Chris drove the van further and further away from the heart of the city, humming along nonchalantly to the music playing through the tinny speakers as you and Adrian sat silently in the back. The moment the street lights were replaced with nothing but trees was the moment you started to feel antsy. Where the hell were they taking you?

Adrian watched you longingly from the other side of the van as you wiped your sweaty hands against your jeans, wishing he had the ability to know what to say to you. Your head lifted from it’s lull as you heard the asphalt transition to dirt beneath the tires, your brow creasing in concern. Seriously, where the fuck were they taking you?

In an attempt to quell your nerves, you did the only thing you knew how to do in these situations - crack jokes.

“Y’know,” your voice cracked as you broke the silence with a nervous chuckle, “If I didn’t know you any better, I’d think you were taking me some place quiet to kill me.”

Adrian’s face immediately broke out into a smile, so thankful and so relieved to have an opening to talk to you. So thankful in fact, that he jumped to speak before he had a chance to think.

“Well why else would we take you to the middle of the woods?” he laughed darkly, his head wobbling back and forth with the movement of the van on the harsh road. Adrian grew panicked at the sight of your brow furrowing further and your lips parting slightly in concern, and he rushed to clarify himself as calmly as he could.

“I-I’m joking. It was a joke” he laughed nervously. Relief flooded his system as he watched you roll your eyes, your face softening into an exasperated smile.

“Someone’s been working on their poker face,” you commended, “For the first time ever, you really had me fooled for a second”. You shook your head and laughed as you saw his posture straighten in pride, you couldn’t help but admire how he looked in his costume. He looked different. More confident.

Eventually, the van pulled up at a clearing in the woods, and you jumped out after Adrian to be faced with a slew of targets, cans, bottles and… was that a blender?... Various household items displaced on tree stumps and pedestals, the forest floor littered with broken glass and debris. It was a makeshift shooting range. They were taking you to a shooting range.

You felt more at home there than in the office by a country mile, assumptively setting your knives up on a barrel situated near a target not too dissimilar from the one you had at home.

Chris locked the van and headed towards the two of you. He chuckled as he spotted Adrian standing a few feet away, shamelessly gawking at you as you laid out your weapons, and quickly jogged over to him to pry further.

“Down that bad, huh?” he scoffed, prompting Adrian to turn his head in shock.

“Wh-What? Down bad? Me? Wh-Pfffft-huh” Adrian snorted, instantly giving himself away. Chris ‘comfortingly’ clapped his large hand over Adrian’s shoulder.

“There’s no shame in love, Adrian…” Chris confided. Adrian let out a groan of discomfort as he straightened his gaze to watch you once more. With a small throwing knife in your hand, you elegantly flicked your wrist as you let it go, and the three of you watched as it wedged itself securely in the dead-centre of the bullseye.

“Fuuuuuuuuuuuuck” Adrian drawled, feeling his oesophagus tighten in arousal at your prowess. Chris watched on, just as impressed, and clapped his hand down on Adrian’s shoulder once more to reinforce his point.

“You gotta lock that shit down, man, ASAP”

“How?” Adrian asked, his eyes refusing to look away from you as you set yourself up with another knife.

“Fuckin’, talking to them would be a good start! Instead of just creeping around like a creepy… Creep?” Chris advised sternly, “Look, because I’m such a nice guy, I’ll even be your wingman if you need it.”

Adrian opened his mouth to ask Chris what to say, before you piped up from your spot by the barrel, loading a small handgun.

“If I’m gonna be out in the field, someone better each me how to fire one of these fuckin’ things properly!” you shouted, just loud enough for them to hear you properly.

Adrian went to speak once again, this time getting interrupted by Chris, who hastily pushed him in your direction.

“Go, man! Go!”

Adrian walked in the direction of the push until he found himself next to the barrel, transfixed by your close proximity. ‘Say something, Adrian,’ he chastised himself, ‘Say something! Now!’

“What about all those?” he muttered, pointing at your knives splayed out on the top of the barrel.

“They’re good for a lot of things, but I don’t wanna be caught with my head up my ass bringing a knife to a gunfight,” you explained, “Now show me how to hold it properly so I look like I know what I’m doing.”

Adrian couldn’t do anything but chuckle. Over the past 24 hours, he’d felt so uneasy whenever he watched you, perturbed by your uncharacteristic placidness, and he felt beyond relieved to see your sharp wit slowly return to it’s normal, blighting state.

Wordlessly preparing his own gun, he stood beside you as he guided you through each step of the process of holding and firing a pistol securely. As you followed along, your subconscious was enjoying the marvel of it all. Never had you seen him quite so relaxed or confident.

Watching Adrian in his element for the first time was a double edged sword. On the plus side, you finally got to meet a new side of him. You liked the goofy, clumsy, stammering bus-boy Adrian plenty, but it was so refreshing to see him feeling so bold and self-assured. On the down side, it was vehemently fueling that little nagging flame in the back of your mind, the one that made your stomach flip and your knees wobble in his presence, making it harder and harder to ignore.

You aimed your pistol and fired again, gnarling as you watched it clip the very edge of the target. You just couldn’t seem to land a clean shot. Adrian watched closely as you fired the gun and could immediately identify what was throwing you off.

“It’s the recoil,” he explained, “you’re curling your thumbs so when you shoot, the recoil’s shifting your aim too much.”

“Wh-” you huffed, looking down at your grip to try and figure out what the hell he meant, to no avail, “Literally what are you talking about?”

Without thinking, Adrian walked over to you to demonstrate what he meant, all too familiar with the exact frustration you were experiencing. He stood behind you in a wide stance, reaching his arms around either side of you to grab your thumbs. He straightened them out, then placed one over the other so your grip now wrapped around the back of the gun more securely.

“So now when the gun recoils, it’s gonna shift way less in your hands so you can shoot way straighter” he explained close to your ear, finally turning to look at you. That was when he noticed just how close you were.

On the other side of the interaction, you too had turned to face him, and felt your lungs expel every last molecule of oxygen as you noticed how close he was to you. You felt incredibly sheepish. Internally, you weren’t even kicking yourself anymore. You’d already beat the shit out of them and locked them in a chokehold, waiting for the imaginary referee to confirm you were out for the count. But you just couldn’t pull away.

If you could keep feeling like this, you’d never need to roll another joint again. Up close, you could finally appreciate just how beautiful he was. You could see the whispers of the dimples hiding in his cheeks, you could see the sun-bleached tips of his eyelashes as they framed his green eyes like a portrait in the Louvre. You desperately fought off the urge to look at his lips. You’d already given yourself away enough with your longing gaze, and you knew if you looked at them now, you’d never be able to stop thinking about them until you did something about it.

Adrian ogled you with a stupefied expression, desperately trying and hopelessly failing to process the way you were looking at him. Reading in between the lines was not his forte, but your doe-eyed expression and your wandering eyes and the fact that you’d yet to shake off his embrace like you normally would had to mean something, right?

“Awwwh!” Chris barged in, again, “It’s just like that horny pottery scene in ghost! But instead of clay it’s a pistol… and neither of you are dead… wait, does that mean I’m Whoopi Goldberg?”

Chris’ interruption knocked the sense back into you, quickly ripping your hands out of Adrian’s grip and harshly shrugging his body off yours. ‘Why the fuck did I let myself do that?’ you chastised inwardly, gritting your teeth to try and push through your sudden and overwhelming embarrassment. You could hear Adrian inhale, presumably to say something. Maybe to make a joke of it all, maybe to try and get you back in his arms. By this point however, you were far too mortified to want to find out.

Assuming the grip he had just taught you, you raised your gun, taking a short second to breathe deeply, and unloaded the rest of the clip into the target.

You quickly strode over to the barrel and collected your knives, stalked up to the other two, silently shoved the gun into Adrian’s chest, and then made a hasty bee line for the van, not bothering for a second to turn around and see how you did.

Chris stared at the target in astonishment. There were a few stray bullet holes scattered around the outer rings, but you’d shot through the bullseye almost completely, leaving a big, gaping hole through the centre.

“Holy shit!” Chris laughed, thoroughly impressed with your skill. He felt a warm pressure push against his body and looked down to see Adrian shoving the gun into his chest, before stomping off in the direction of the van as well. Chris grabbed the firearm before it could drop to the ground and followed the two of you, completely unaware he’d spoiled the moment.

 You curled even further inwards over the next few days, hoping and praying that if you just avoided looking at Adrian for long enough, the spell you were under would finally let up and you could get back to being your normal, derisive self again. To your dismay, even his presence in the room and the sound of his nasally voice still made your head spin. It was torture, and what’s worse is that you had no idea how to stop it.

Meanwhile, Adrian was completely bewildered at why you’d flipped on him like that. All the books he read and all the movies he watched and all of his friends… well… Chris, had all told him that you get closer to the love interest, you have the defining, lovestruck staring-contest moment, then you kiss, and then it’s happily ever after. But you just shoved a gun in his chest and walked off. He’d never read about that part, or seen it in a movie, and he would definitely remember if Chris had told him about it.

Finally, the time came for you to go out in the field and put everything you’d been practicing into place. Murn briefed everyone in the office that morning, though you’d only caught about half of what he was saying over the thundering of your heart. Adrenaline was coursing through your veins - both at the prospect of real life, head on danger, and the fact that you may have to interact with Adrian with no way out and no excuse to run further away from your feelings.

“Okay. So we have zero idea of what the fuck is actually in there,” Harcourt announced, the rest of you circling around her to listen as she stood against the side of the van, “It could be totally barren, it could be swarming with butterflies. All we know is that the box is somewhere inside. Hopefully”

You’d caught just enough of what Murn said that morning to know what box she was referring to. According to his sources, there was a small, red lock box hidden inside the building you’d parked in front of, containing evidence. Evidence of what, you weren’t quite sure, your ears started rumbling well before Murn divulged those details.

“Hopefully?” Chris squawked at Harcourt, his arms folded over his chest. You felt yourself growing anxious at her words. What if the building was filled with more of those alleyway goons? You were lucky to take on 3, let alone hundreds. Harcourt ignored Chris’ comment completely, and turned to face Economos who was tapping away at his tablet doing god knows what.

“Economos, you’re on tech in the van,” she turned to Leyota, “Adebayo and Smith, you’ll take the front with me,” she turned to you, “and you two will take the back.”

Harcourt quickly turned on her heel and made her way to the front of the entrance as you were left to realise exactly what she’d just said. ‘You two’. You and Adrian. Together. Alone. You shot a panicked glance in Harcourt's direction, your face quickly dropping into one of pure shock as she turned back around to throw you an oddly kind, knowing wink before rounding the corner. She knew.

You had no time to ruminate on the discovery, however, your thoughts being rudely interrupted by the obnoxious revving of a chainsaw. Your gaze followed the sound until you found it’s source - Vigilante. He jumped out of the van, mask on with chainsaw in hand. You could hear a muffled ‘Eh?’ as he motioned towards the ridiculous ‘weapon’ in his hand, and once again, all you could do in your frenzied state was deflect.

“If you bring that thing, I’m just gonna keep ignoring you.” you sniped, turning tail and walking towards the back entrance. Vigilante wasted no time in setting down the chainsaw and running after you. This was the most you’d said to him in days, so by that point, he’d do anything he had to in order to keep you talking.

Once inside, the two of you found yourselves walking down the long corridor of a warehouse-like building with brick walls and impossibly high ceilings, lined with dozens of mobile shelves. The energy was awkward, to say the least. You were cripplingly aware of the volume of your breathing, and just how loudly your footsteps echoed on the concrete flooring. Breathing and footsteps, however, were the only things to focus on besides the elephant in the room, and you weren’t about to start acknowledging that any time soon.

Vigilante, however, wanted to address it as soon as he possibly could.

“So you were ignoring me.” he pried, vexingly twisting his body back and forth with his hands clasped behind his back.

“I never said that.” you denied, craning your neck to peer between each shelf, partially to keep watch, but mostly to avoid his red-tinted gaze.

“I may be dumb, but I’m not an idiot,” he declared,

“Plus Harcourt gaslights me all the time so I've gotten really good at picking up on it now.”

“I wasn’t ignoring you,” you sighed, finally starting to crack under the weight of your guilt. The sound of his voice was the nail in the coffin, and your avoidant resolve began to give in,

“I was just being… Cautious…”

“Cautious of what? Of me?” Vigilante queried, comically holding his hand to his chest, “You can’t be scared of me, you’ve seen me in that stupid bus boy hat!”

You bit your lip to stifle a genuine, amused chuckle. It didn’t take you long to realise that your nerves had significantly settled, and that all it took to calm them was to talk to him again. Your forbearing sense of dread was soon to chastise you for this however, and you quickly returned to a quiet state of abstention.

“Hey,” Vigilante jested, poking you in the arm with a gloved finger, “Hey cautious of what?”, he pried, “Cautious of whaaaaaat?”, his finger continuing it’s assault on your arm, “Cautious of whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?”

You span around, finally having enough of his prodding, and gave him the answer he was so desperately seeking

“Look, when I get close to people, really bad shit starts to happen. I’m already violently outside of my comfort zone, and I don’t really wanna find out what happens if I keep pushing my luck, okay?” you spat, turning back around as you continued to trail the corridor. Vigilante followed a few steps behind you this time, his brow was heavily creased in conflict behind his red visor as he weighed up whether he should continue the conversation or drop it.

Though it felt like the most pressing matter in the room at the time, both of your priorities were quickly rearranged as you spotted movement up ahead. You had no time to think however, as Vigilante instinctively pulled you out of sight into a narrow gap between two shelves. His left arm firmly wrapped itself around your torso to pull you in, as the right flew up to cover your mouth with the same, gloved hand that was jovially testing your limits only moments before.

Both of you watched the hallway in fear, eyes wide and alert and trained on the thin strip of visibility that your location offered. You could feel Vigilante’s body pressed up against your own as it shook. You were so full of adrenaline that all shame went out the window as you thanked the universe for the comfort that his body heat provided. If this were under any other circumstance, you’d drop dead before you admitted it, but in that moment, you were frazzled enough to internally divulge that you’d happily have him keep you there like that, in his arms, pressed up against him forever.

Every square inch of Vigilante’s brain that wasn’t focussed on scanning for danger, was honed in on just how close you were. He was sure you could feel his heart hammering away in his chest, even through his thick neoprene suit and chest-plate. He swallowed thickly and with difficulty, as thoughts of all kind raced around his head at a neck-breaking pace, and he shamefully had to start thinking about the most boring, bleak, uninteresting things he could in order to avoid another situation.

You exclaimed a loud, mollified sigh against his hand as the ‘threat’ finally caught up to the two of you. A roomba. It was a fucking roomba. Your body had been thrown into true fight or flight mode, you’d never feared for your life so intensely before, and all thanks was due to a god damned motherfucking robot vacuum.

Vigilante slowly removed his hand from your mouth and reluctantly let go of you, though he smirked under his mask as you noticed you were in no hurry to push him away or free yourself from his grip like you did only days ago.

“Well you’re certainly not in a rush to leave, then, huh?” he teased. You could hear his smarmy expression from under the mask and turned on your spot to face him. The position you found yourselves in wasn’t too different from the other day either, and you found yourself stumbling over your words, feeling exposed and abashed.

“Wh- I’m- Y- Shut up, what are you- Shut up!”

“Ya know, If I didn’t know you any better, it’d seem like you almost…” Vigilante trailed off, using your own words to taunt you. You gasped as you felt his arm quickly snake around you, jerking you towards him so your bodies were pressed flush against each other. You could see his eyes squinting at you from behind his visor as you listened on, astounded.

“Almost liked it.”

You were stunned. Shocked. Flabbergasted. You’d never known he had the capability to be so smooth. Part of you felt so childlike and ignorant, so stupid to let yourself get caught off guard like this. But the other part, the now louder part, the part that was making your mouth dry and your chest tighten and your thighs quake and your whole body burn so deliciously, just couldn’t help but take a bite.

“Y’know,” you posed, your hands creeping up to rest your fingers on the edge of his cowl, “You sure are a whole lot more confident in that get up, huh?”

“It’s the power of the mask, baby” Vigilante disported. You were so close to him, you could see him shoot you a sly wink under the red visor and you swore your heart stopped right then and there. Your self control was long forgotten, shoved deep down in the abyss that you once locked your desire in. You leered at him flagrantly, allowing your eyes to glance down at where his mouth was hiding behind the nylon barrier.

The chest plates of Vigilante’s suit were heaving up and down with desire as his lean arm held you so tightly it threatened to start shaking. His head continued to slowly gravitate closer and closer towards yours, he didn’t stop for a second to think about the logistics of kissing in a mask. All he knew, and all he cared about, was that he needed to kiss you, and that he needed to do it now.

For a moment, you thought that the rapture had started, that the brimstone lid of hell had cracked open and the Nephilim had started to wail and lament and scream. And from those fiery depths rose… Harcourt?

“We found the box. Rendezvous at the van.”

There were no fallen angels, or second comings of christ, or divine interventions to account for the earth shattering disquietude. Economos had just forgotten to adjust the volume on the comms. That was the ungodly screech that sent you crashing back down to earth.

You felt like you’d just awoken from a coma, or finally jolted awake from one of those falling dreams, right before you hit the ground. One of your hands curled up into a fist, clutching Vigilante’s squeaky, itchy suit within it. Your head dipped as you swallowed, trying to figure out what the fuck to do now your body had been completely depleted of adrenaline.

Your head was throbbing, your knees ached, your mouth was somehow still bone dry as your throat was congested with saliva. You couldn’t think anymore. All you had left were your instincts. Your desire, which moments ago was unashamedly on display, was slowly slinking back into that abyss, your abnegation resuming its dutiful guard.

Your feet silently carried you out from between the shelves, back down the corridor and all the way to the lonely passenger seat of the van, selfishly utilising Economos as a human shield to hide from your shame.

Adrian pulled his mask off as he watched you leave. By the time he opened his mouth to speak, you were long out of earshot. Comically, his arm hooked the air in front of him, just how he had grabbed you, and even more comically, he chastely kissed the air where your lips once were. He sighed as his arms dropped to his sides and he shook his head, defeatedly muttering a simple, disappointed,

”Fuck.”

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[mikaaki]

Ah sorry, I'm quiet new to this app and I dont know if you're taking requests, if you aren't, feel free to decline.

You see, my birthday is close, specifically on May 5th. And I was wondering if you can write about Master Diluc celebrating his S/O's birthday together. Uh- he's just so handsome and I love him very much tee hee.

And if it's not too much of a bother, could you also publish it on May 5th? But of course, whatever date is fine, whenever you're comfortable with. Just around May.

I like you're writing so I specifically chose you, btw :) and I've been nervous to ask this for an hour now ahaha.

Have a wonderful day <3 and early thanks!

prompt : diluc celebrating his lover’s birthday <3

characters : diluc ragnvindr

notes : happy birthday , darling ! i’m glad you enjoy my writing <3 i hope today was wonderful for you ! also please don’t feel nervous to send in asks :(( <3

diluc is rather closed off when it comes to giving affections publicly. surprisingly , your birthday seems to be one of few exceptions to that ‘rule’

he is a bit more touchy than usual , giving soft pecks all over your face , occurring several times through the day. he enjoys the way your face flushes from the unfamiliar pda

he definitely spoils you on your birthday

while he doesn’t like his own birthday , he’ll never miss a chance to make his partner feel like they’re the most important person in the world

he’ll get a small gathering to celebrate your birthday. people that are close to you , whether he’s a particular fan or not. he doesn’t get how you’re so close to kaeya , but he goes along with it for you

he makes sure any inconvenience is taken care of ahead of time :(( he’s literally so worried about you being stressed he ends up stressing himself out

he even takes the day off of work??? where is diluc and what have you done with him >:(

he knows that he isn’t always there because of work but really wants to show how much he truly loves you

even if he thinks it’s embarrassing or silly , he’ll do whatever you want that day. he can sacrifice a little bit of his reputation for you <3

OMG DANCING BY THE FOUNTAIN IN THE MONDSTADT SHOPPING CENTER

he probably asked ( bribed with dandelion wine ) venti to play music ‘coincidentally’

will make sure everyone stays on their best behavior on your birthday. he can’t let his partner have a hard birthday :(

will wind down from the day by taking you on a walk around dawn winery

he wants to hear all about what you thought of your special day ( even though he was there the entire time but shhh )

he has the biggest smile on his face the entire time

even though he spent so much time planning your birthday for you , his favorite part definitely has to be the little moments you two have alone together. he loves the intimacy of it all <33

cuddles you to sleep :(( will play with your hair until you fall asleep , passing out as soon as you’re asleep. his love needs their needs taken care of

he’s such a loving partner. definitely remembers little tiny details and / or comments you’ve made within the past year to make his plans

an off handed comments about a specific piece of jewelry? lol guess what’s in that present wrapped oh so beautifully

he’s just so <333

[rotshop]

okay but. imagine Sheriff!Reader. basically Auditor makes a contract with the Reader instead of Sheriff.

rubbing my hands 2gether . you know what ive written too many fucked up readers i think i can write ONE pathetic meow meow reader <333 just went w/ audi for this but uhhh tee hee . if u want anyone else ... lmk

[ ONE brief mention of reader dying and being brought back at the end but otherwise no warnings needed ]

-you weren't the most famous in nevada, not by a long-shot, but your name was still one people could mention in passing conversation. you'd managed to amass a following of your own, getting a good few people under you that would support you. they weren't a whole lot, but the sentiment was enough that you felt pretty confident in your place.

-however, even that confidence you'd had so instilled in you wavered the moment the shadowy figure had walked into your office. you'd really just expected a slow-day, not even thinking too hard about the shakiness of one of your employees who'd come to let you know about you visitor in the first place.

-it was a simple enough offer, supplies in return for Hank's head. It was all too predictable, yet you couldn't say no. The help the AAHW could offer you and your group as a whole was nothing to sneer at, it'd be all too nice to have a few more hands on deck and some more supplies to keep you all afloat.

-you just had to hope you wouldn't come to regret it as you reached to shake their hand.

-Initially, she wasn't quite sure of what to make of you. On one hand, you definitely had some talent. You were good at getting people together and you were good at keeping morale up- something he was less than stellar at. Yet, there's always a risk of you backing out or being in over your head. Hank was no easy target, she knew this, you knew this, and you both knew he could tear you and your branch to shreds in the blink of an eye.

-Admittedly, she ends up fostering some respect for your willingness to try. It's not much, but many grunts in the same position would fold under the threat of near-assured death. You at least had the guts to give some kind of effort, something she highly appreciated. This only grows more with how you organize your group. Sure, it's nothing he would do, but he's never really made kind with any of his units. Your approach was far more hands-on than his ever was.

-He doesn't exactly have the time to supervise you, but he places some trust in that you can keep from falling apart. That said, he'll definitely send an agent of his to go check up on things in your branch every now and then. She finds herself impressed with the fact you've continued your efforts and have really dug your heels in, coming up with plan upon plan to try and limit casualties while maximising efficiency.

-Eventually, she starts making some time to go check on you herself, wanting to see just how you've managed to handle everything. It's certainly no easy feat to smoothly go from leader of a few to leader of many in a relatively small time-span. At first, she's really just viewing things in a purely analytical way, wanting to see just how you tick.

-It can almost be jarring to look over your shoulder and see her doing the same to you, focused entirely on something you'd been telling one of your men about. People slowly start to get used to it, expecting his presence following yours and ignoring him entirely. He offers his own little input here and there ("No, you shouldn't send them there. They'll know it's a trap and go somewhere else instead.") but for the most part he's just kind of . watching .

-At first, it was a little intimidating, but it grows on you once you realize it's really just his curiosity. You'll take the time to try and explain some of your reasoning to him while he just kinda . nods and listens. its the first time anyone's ever really seen him interact with someone so casually.

-He's getting attached before he even notices it, cringing a bit whenever he gets some accident report back detailing how some facility you'd been working on was raided and cleared out. He's not the best at emotional support, never really seeing or receiving it from any of his peers, but he'll hang around you and try to offer ways to avoid that. She distinctly remembers reading one and it just not leaving her mind. Not for any real reason, even, just stuck in there. She distinctly remembers her nails stopped tapping her desk when the thought of you being in one of those facilities came to mind.

-It's something he's entirely new to. Most Employers are relatively solitary, preferring to keep to themselves unless it was entirely beneficial to be around one another. Yet, you've managed to make him wanna stick around you. It's ALMOST funny. If not for the way she crosses her arms and zones out while standing around you. More than a few times now you've had to try and politely get her attention back while she just kinda . stares off into space .

-Eventually this boils into physical gestures, something as small as just putting a hand on your shoulder or more noticable like leaning over the back of your chair with her arms around your neck (more than a few times she's almost nicked you with her claws in her panic to straighten up whenever someone walks into your office to talk to you). If you ask her about it it just kinda stops at 'Do you want me to stop?' If you ask for her reasoning directly she just kind of. stares at you. looks away. looks back at you. and then changes the topic.

-EVENTUALLY . she will finally just kind of . suddenly grab you by the shoulders and ask you out in some weird way. 'Can i court you' babygirl what <3 . just be patient w/ her she has no fucking clue what she's doing. he tries to learn tho . for u

-If he wasn't around you before, he sure as hell is now. Obviously, you still both work on your own things and you have some time to yourself, but there's plenty of moments where you'll be in one of your offices together. He prefers if you stay at the same facility with him because he feels like he has much more of a chance to keep you safe if anything should happen .

-IF . you do get fucking GOT she most definitely finds a way to get you back. At that point you're absolutely stuck to her side for a bit. He's just paranoid if you're out of sight for too long he'll find out you're actually still in purgatory or that something else will go wrong. going off that one white hank interp of sheriff bc i liek it he's definitely the type to trace along the stitches and occasionally press a careful kiss to them. It makes him a little bit sad but he likes feeling them in sort of a grounding way . safe 2 say you won't get any taunting about them or anything else . your partner can turn into a Fucking Dragon. what are they gonna do then. fight????? yeah. sure. right. they'd rather keep their skin.

[w0nnielov3]

OUT OF MY LEAGUE

#paring!!: cs!heeseung x cs!reader || older reader (by two years) || fem reader || childhood friends to lovers (?) || angst if you blink ,, but mainly fluff- || slow burn || wc: 2.3k

#warning!!: grammer mistakes ,, errr like one curse word ,, not proofread sorry :(

more than just a dream …

heeseung never saw himself in a situation like the one he’s in right now, panting and sweating while holding onto your arm. He was scared to let go, scared that if he did he would never see a moment with you again. “don’t go…” he spoke up, although the words came out broken you could make them out perfectly.

———

“Heeseung WAKE UP!”

jumping up from his bed heeseung looked up to be met with one of the pretties eyes he has ever seen that so happen to belong to his best friend. a small smile appeared on his face as he looked around “another dream?” He thought to himself before he heaved a breathe. Running his fingers through his hair he got up before he turned towards you with a questioning expression “why aren’t you at campus?” He watched as you shrugged before you sat on his bed.

“I realized you hadn’t arrive at our usual spot so I drove over to see if you were up or not“ you paused as you threw yourself backwards so you’d be laying down. “when I arrived your mom gave me a wet towel and told me how you keep waking up sweating and wanted me to ask what’s wrong.” Your eyes searched for his as he avoided your stare “it’s nothing- I-I’m gonna go get ready” he stuttered out before rushing out.

You smiled as you watched him leave “cutie” you mumbled too yourself as you sat up once again. You looked around heeseungs room, you’ve been in there quite a lot growing up. yet there was always something new heeseung would add to his room that would catch your attention whenever you’d be in his room. Your eyes averted towards a frame not that far from his desk, you jumped off heeseungs bed and walked towards it.

Slowly taking hold of the frame you let your eyes register the picture in front of you, it was from the time you and heeseung had went to Australia with your friend Jake two years ago …you guys looked so happy. Heeseung had his arm around you as you leaned your head on his shoulder, “what happy times” you mumbled. Hearing the door open you set the picture down carefully.

You turned around to see heeseung in black ripped jeans and a white tee. making your way towards heeseung you halted once in front of him “ready to go hee?” You asked as you smiled up at him, heeseung on the other hand could melt under your stare. He felt heat slowly creep up his neck which made him quickly turn away as he nodded at your question. You both make your way down the stairs making sure to say goodbye to heeseungs mom and older brother.

Getting into your car heeseung watched as you started the engine before driving away. he admire your side profile as you kept your eyes on the road, he took note of every detail how your cheek naturally always have that cute red tone to it that he loved teasing you about, your tiny little freckles that are barely noticeable. a smile danced on his face as he kept admiring you not noticing when you turned towards him, you locked eyes with heeseung as he still stared at you.

“If you keep staring at me like that might as we’ll propose” you joked before turning back towards the road. Heeseung trance faded away once he realized what you said, he could practically hear his heart skip a beat as his face started to slowly heat up. He averted his gaze towards his phone as he pretended to watch something interesting “you’re more than just a dream …” heeseung thought to himself as he glanced out the window watching as the decelis campus got bigger and bigger as they kept moving.

———

heeseung waited on the curb as he watched you park your car, he thought you looked pretty when you drive but who was he to ever admit that …I mean would he ever admit his feelings? He’s had a crush on you since the first day he met you.

You had just moved next door and heeseungs mom decided she wanted to befriend your parent and no surprise it went well. Heeseung was a shy kid so he was petrified to even meet his neighbors, but all his terror faded away when his eyes laid on you. He thought you were very pretty …but what did he know? The seven year old girl made her way towards heeseung and heeseung was more than happy to befriend her. Ever since you two have been attached to the hip basically.

as heeseung was still spacing off he didn’t realize when you walked passed him, you stopped in your track when you realized he wasn’t following you “hee?” You voiced out before walking back towards him. You tugged on the sleeve of his hoodie to get his attention which always works when heeseung spaced off. Snapping out of whatever he was in heeseung eyes found yours “y-yeah?” Clearly fluster to be caught dazing off again.

“Come on we’ll be late for our physics class …again” you mumbled the last part as you pulled on heeseung sleeve to drag him along, heeseung let himself get dragged as he stared at your hand that was holdly on tight on his sleeve, he felt his heart do a little jump at such a small gesture that you didn’t even know could effect him this much …god he was love struck.

Out of all 4 classes heeseung took he can proudly say that physics is his favorite, and it’s not because he’s actually good at it …but because that’s the class he shares with you. In fact heeseung normally needs help from jake since heeseungs too busy staring at you, thought heeseung has to deal with the punishment of being teased by jake for being so in love.

Entering your physics class you quickly made your way towards your seat, still having a hold of heeseung sleeve. You waved at jake as you sat down, heeseung taking a seat next to you. Heeseung glanced at your hand that was still holding onto him, he hopped you didn’t noticed as he didn’t want you to ever let go.

———

heeseung was making his way down the corridor with jake by his side, jake was in the middle of telling heeseung about some assignment he had in one of his classes. heeseung was partly listening as he was deep in thought, "and dude when i tell you that's she's a bitc- heeseung ..." jake took a pause once he realized the older wasn't listening.

grabbing heeseung by the shoulders jake paused both their movement which caused heeseung to snap out of his trance "dude are you okay? this is like the fourth time this week you space out" heeseung let out a sigh at jakes words before his shoulder slump a little "don't you think y/n is out of my league?" he whispered loud enough to were jake could hear.

jake let out a small laugh at his friend's question as he patted his shoulders in reassurance, "this is the second time you have asked me that ...do you really think she out of your league?" he asked back as he let go of the olders shoulders, letting them fall to his sides. he watched as his hyung heaved as sigh before nodding, jake smiled sadly before he looked around the empty halls.

"okay before you saying anything just listen" jake started as he dragged heeseung towards one of the near by benches. Jake pushed heeseung down by his shoulders before sitting down next to him, "i do think y/n is out of your league but only because you guys are into different thing." he took a short paused as he looked at heeseung for his reaction, who surprising just stared forwards.

jake patted heeseung shoulder once again "but when has that ever stopped you? out of your league or not you need to get your girl before anyone else does." jake finally finished with a small smile dancing at his face as he was pleased with himself. heeseung on the other hand was fighting back a smile from appearing on his face at the words "your girl" he has always imagined you being his girl but he never thought anyone else would call you that.

———

heeseung was determined to make you his, so he ran around setting up his room up as well as making a tent on his balcony to star gaze, he got you a basket full of all your favorite snaps as well as some of your favorite movies. after he finished setting everything up he took one look around before a small sigh left his mouth, he heard a small knock on his door before it opened "hee?" he saw your head pop up from behind the door with a innocent smile on your face as you stepped in.

you scanned the area closely as you shut the door to heeseungs room, on his bed was the big brown teddy bear with a hear in the middle that you got heeseung for his fifteenth birthday, you normally use it to cuddle whenever you came over to hang out with heeseung. your eyes landed on the pillow fort Infront of heeseungs bed, you would be lying if you said heeseung doesnt make killer forts.

what really caught your attention was the tent outside on heesueng balcony "are we gonna star gaze?" heeseung watched as you walked towards the sliding doors, your eyes practically shining as you scanned the balcony "yeah i thought you might want to, and the sky is clear today." he comments as he follows behind you like a lost puppy.

you nodded in approval before walking back inside, you heading straight for heeseungs bed as you jumped onto the big brown teddy "oh how much i missed you ethan" you spoke to the teddy bear before you wrapped your arms around it, shortly after heeseung followed you as he sat on his bed next to your laying body. he took a moment to fully take you in, you were in one of his oversized shirts that you had stolen from him, as well as shorts.

heeseung could feel the heat rise up his neck as he saw the way his shirt was basically a dress for you ...and just the fact your in his clothing. you lifted you head up from basically suffocating yourself with the teddy before looking towards heeseung "hee i kind of want to star gaze right now." you spoke up in a slight mumble since your mouth was kind of covered by the fur of the teddy bear. heeseung let out a small laugh as he got up while holding onto your hand to pull you up.

he dragged you outside towards the tent on the balcony and sat you down on the lovesac that was sitting there, he sat next to you and before you both laid down on the lovesac. you both admire the view above before heeseung turned towards you, he admire all your features carefully and watched as you looked at the stars in awe. "your so beautiful.." heeseung felt his heart stop as his comment slip out.

you on the other hand were taken aback by his comment as you looked away from the stars and stared into heeseungs dull eyes, you searched them for a seconds to figure out if he was joking or not ...but he was sincere. you smiled as his small panicked state before you lift your hand up towards his face "you really think that hee?" you asked quietly as you rubbed your thumb on his cheek which calmed heeseung down.

the younger boy just nodded too scared that he might let out another love struck comment. "are you saying that because you just think that or because of something else?'" you hopped it was because he felt something for you and not just because he just wanted to compliment you. You’d never exactly admit your feelings for heeseung due to the two year age gap, your friends always told you that going for younger boys wasn’t it which lead you to trying to forget your feelings for the boy…yet you could never find yourself to do that.

after a little heeseung met eyes with you and decided it’s finally time to tell you “I’velikedyouforalongtime” he blurted out, you looked at him confused before raising and eyebrow “what?” Heeseung sigh in defeat “I’ve like- no love you okay? And I never really knew how to tell you because you’re way too out of my league for me to want to make a move.” He spoke fast but it was slow enough that you understood every word

Biting back a smile you wrapping your arms around heeseung neck “wow and here I thought you’d never blink an eye at me, I like you too hee” you admitted as you snuggled into the taller boy. Heeseung felt his heart start to race as his arms snaked around your waist, he pulled you closer as ge tighten his hold around you. “Does that mean you’ll let me be your boyfriend?” He whispered next to your ear, you felt a shiver run down your spine as you pulled away a little to look at his face.

“Yeah id love that” you smiled up at heeseung, you admired his feature closely “can I kiss you?” Your breathe was basically taken out of your lungs at the question. you watched as heeseungs eyes shifted here and there from your mouth to your eyes. You just nodded before grabbing him by his collar and smashing your lips together. You felt heeseung grab one of your hands and interlock your fingers with his while he used his other hand to pull you closer.

you pulled away with a small as you watched heeseung still in a daze from the kiss, kissing his nose you cuddled up to him. “Out of my league yet You we’re just the right kind …you’re more than just a dream.” Heeseung thought to himself as he kissed your forehead.

© w0nnielov3

[ruvviks]

im holding you at gunpoint. hearts section for cassidy right now or perish

HEHEHHEHEEH. HEHEHEHHEEE. >:] tee hee >:] got lost in the sauce with the answers so sorry about that

💓 BEATING HEART - what gets their heart racing?

if you would ask this to him directly he would tell you "nothing" because he genuinely has no idea <3 and then he turns around and his heart nearly beats out of his chest because he heard his crush laugh or someone he's comfortable with sits down very close to him or someone he cares about says his name and smiles at him. it doesn't even have to be romantic for him to nearly lose his sanity about it tbh though if he's in Love then it will. definitely be. so much worse SGHFDJHGD he's going through a lot rn

💘 HEART W/ ARROW - what traits do they look for in a relationship? do they believe in love at first sight?

cassidy is mostly looking for stability and trust. he needs to feel comfortable around someone and not intimidated by them, and he needs to know they keep him around because of who he is and not just to use him and then ditch him the moment he's no longer of use to them

the "stability" one is a bit tricky because of him being an assassin and all that. like. there's gonna be a LOT of unpredictable shit happening all the time always but that's EXACTLY why he needs his relationship to have as little of that as possible. no surprises no shocking events just. straightforwardness. good communication. a constant in his life so to say. he likes that :]

he doesn't really believe in love at first sight because he really needs to trust someone first before he can fully love them. he might be 👁👁 when meeting someone he Might be interested in but it still means very little to him at that point. basically going through a mental checklist before he can put the label Love on it all

💗 GROWING HEART - if they have a crush, is it noticeable? what changes when they're in love?

when cassidy has a crush he generally has no facking clue what to do with it <3 SGHFJDGHDJ he's very much convinced he's unlovable and would rather die than make a first move, so instead he just suffers in silence and hopes the other person will do something at some point aha xoxo

i think it would definitely be noticeable though because he IS doing things that could be considered Flirting. that are Usually considered Flirting. but he's a master at talking himself out of it. justifying it to himself first ("surely buying flowers for them occasionally is a Normal Friend thing to do") and then the person in question ("these are for you :] to liven up your desk a little :]") and he manages to say it in such a way everyone directly involved is smiling and nodding. everyone outside his 5ft area effect radius is onto him tho

❤️ RED HEART - their love language(s)?

physical touch and acts of service and both make me facking insane actually let me elaborate

generally speaking, physical touch quite literally hurts cassidy :) his nervous system is pretty fucked since an incident in his childhood and even the lightest touch on his skin can be painful as hell to the point he tends to avoid it. yet at the same time :) he wants a hug so bad :) luckily for him the more he starts to trust someone the easier it gets to get used to their touch and also whenever HE initiates it himself it's a lot easier as well, because he can prepare himself for it; anything unexpected can still hurt so he would need to See the other person and it generally helps if they move slow or even ask permission to touch him, and then it's fine <3 once again. trust. very important. i'm gonna throw up

as for acts of service, cassidy ties his worth as a person directly to how useful he can make himself. he feels like as soon as he's not doing anything he's essentially worthless which in the past has resulted into him doing the absolute most at all times in hopes that people would like him. backfired immensely because it gave people (his superiors at militech, maxtac and kang tao mostly) insanely high expectations of him and the moment he wasn't meeting those anymore they got upset, which obviously didn't help cassidy's case and sent him further down into that spiral

nowadays he's no longer like that. most of the time at least. he sometimes still feels like he has to Provide something but now it's no longer to make people like him, but it's because he CARES about others. which is also making me insane because for the longest time he refused to care about people because it hurt him so much many many times. and now he's doing so many things for people because he loves them and he knows he doesn't have to do it but he still does because. well. why wouldn't he?

on top of that some other love languages: cooking and remembering things. he likes to cook food for the people he cares about or just bring them their favorite snacks and that immediately ties in to the second one, he memorizes a lot of things about the people he cares about so he can. get them their favorite snack from the store. or leave them a card on their birthday. stuff like that :]

💙 BLUE HEART - do they miss their s/o easily? how do they act when their s/o isn't around?

cassidy misses his partner VERY easily but also doesn't let it get to him especially when he's got a job to do. he'll regularly find himself looking for them but other than that he mostly manages to make it through their time apart without feeling too :(( about it all. it helps that he has a very logical approach to things so he can very easily tell himself "if i continue working now it'll be over soon and then i'll see them again" or something like that and it'll make his brain shut up for a few more hours at least <3

when his partner isn't around he's a lot more like how he used to be before meeting them which is basically the equivalent of the standing man emoji LMFAO he's a lot more reserved and professional again (unless he's with friends. well. even then still to a degree but much less than when he's out alone in public or something) but as soon as his partner is back he's just :D !! <3 the entire time <3 i love him

💚 GREEN HEART - what things make your oc feel comforted? hugs, kisses, food?

it really depends on the situation. sometimes cassidy needs attention and sometimes he just needs to be left alone :( he still finds comfort in solitude and really needs his alone time on occasion in order not to go completely insane, but in other cases he just needs to be held while he tries to take a nap or something like that. he loves it when his partner plays with his hair <3

💖 SPARKLING HEART - are they a subtle or a showy lover?

cassidy isn't scared of PDA because he is blissfully unaware of other people looking at him and his partner <3 SGHFJDGDFJGD he really doesn't give a fuck about what other people think, if he wants a kissie in the metro then he's stealing a kissie in the metro and everyone is just gonna have to deal with that <3

💌 LOVE LETTER - do they like love letters? what kind of messages do they leave for their partner?

cassidy would NOT know how to write a love letter but sometimes the texts he sends his partner come very close to it. sends many many many blue hearts because blue is his favorite color. occasionally needs to let his partner know just how much he loves them and gets a bit lost in the sauce with it. he could be a poet. he probably doesn't know what poetry is

he also writes his partner a LOT of reminders, not in an "i don't think you can remember this by yourself" way but an "i need you to know that i care about you and i know you probably already remembered yourself but i also remembered it for you in case you needed the reminder and also i love you so much" way. he needs his partner to know that too he's very serious about it

he also writes down one thing he loves about his partner every day :] does this in his own little notebook but. well. that could be a love letter. who knows what he'll do with it

💔 BROKEN HEART - what could their partner do that would absolutely break their heart?

ditch him or act disinterested around him <3 or make him do things he doesn't want to do <33 or force him out of his comfort zone while trying to justify their behavior by making him feel guilty for having a comfort zone in the first place <333 the usual

another thing that would make him a bit :(( is hearing his partner tear themself down for whatever reason about Anything. appearance wise. skill wise. you name it. as soon as they go "i suck so facking bad at this" he goes NO!!!!!!! ;-; and then he won't shut up about how amazing they are until maybe one day they'll also believe it themself

oc asks!

[makeste]

BnHA Chapter 290: It’s Touya Time

Previously on BnHA: Iida and Hadou showed up like a couple of Pennsylvanias and Georgias to bail Shouto out at the last minute. Ochako and Toga had an exceptionally strange fight which consisted of Toga being all “guess what Ochako, I used your quirk to murder someone, how do you feel about that”, and Ochako being all “I do not like that”, to which Toga was all “:(”. There was some doll-stealing and some bookcase-yeeting, and then Toga left in tears because Ochako was all adamant that murder has consequences. Anyway so I have absolutely no idea what Toga is thinking now, but I guess we’ll have some time to stew on it, because we ended the chapter by cutting back to the Iida+Hadou+Shouto VS Afomura battle, which was interrupted by Gigantomachia and the LoV showing up like a bunch of Floridas to ruin everyone’s nice day.

Today on BnHA: Horikoshi hands the mic over to Dabi and is all “take it away, kid.” Over in Room 315 of Musutafu General, Rei is all “may I please watch some TV” and the hospital staff is all “sure”, and so she tunes in just in time to catch Todoroki Touya’s Peabody Award-winning documentary “Number One Hero, Number One Fraud: The Todoroki Enji Story”, which is being broadcast nationwide courtesy of Skeptic and his magic laptop. Meanwhile in Jakku, Dabi is all “I’M TOUYA, BITCHES”, and Shouto and Enji are all, “(゜◇゜ )”, and Dabi is all, “anyway so just to sum it all up, because of how much of a jerk Endeavor was, I am now Evil.” Everyone continues to be all “(ﾟoﾟ)” except for Dabi, who is all “└(˘▾˘┌ )≡ ( ┐˘▾˘)┘≡┗( ˘▾˘)┛≡┏( ˘▾˘)┓≡┗( ˘▾˘)┛” for pretty much the rest of the chapter. Idk. Just let the man have his fun, guys. He’s waited a long time for this.

y’all I have a confession to make. I am technically not spoiled for this chapter thanks to my robustly paranoid system of spoiler-tag-filtering, which is extensive enough that it pretty much will catch whenever someone so much as breathes something even remotely new-chapter-related. that being said, I like to think that I am capable of making basic logical inferences! and so the fact that for the past 36 hours, my dashboard has pretty much nonstop consisted almost entirely of this...

...has led me to conclude that MAYBE, POSSIBLY, PROBABLY, BUT ALSO DEFINITELY, a certain someone is finally going to reveal his ~secret identity~ woop woop. lmao

anyway so everyone, please remember to act surprised though, as we would not want Dabi’s feelings to be hurt at all. he has been planning this moment for the last decade or so and I wouldn’t want him to feel like all of that effort was for naught. so just play along, okay. OH MY, IF IT ISN’T THE LEAGUE OF VILLAINS’ MYSTERIOUS DABI. WHATEVER COULD HIS ARRIVAL POSSIBLY BE HERALDING, I JUST DON’T KNOW

“Dabi’s Dance” lmao. I’m sticking with Touya Time myself. ngl I had this recap title planned out for at least the past year or so. just waiting for that day to finally come

anyway so some people in some building somewhere are all “TURN OFF THE TV IN ROOM 315” and idk. I’m guessing the LoV is hacking the airwaves to livestream the reveal, as predicted

-- oh shit. UHHHHHHHH

did she always have this TV or did she get it just recently?? jfc of all the times for the hospital staff to finally loosen up

um... so that’s... (・＿・；)

well but I mean, she was gonna find out one way or the other at some point though. like you can’t really just keep her locked up and isolated from all news of the outside world forever and ever and ever. granted, this isn’t exactly the ideal way for her to learn this particular bit of information, but it’s not really ideal for anybody else either! EXCEPT DABI, THAT IS. have yourself a day you funky little terrorist

oh shit what is this?? it’s not live???

over in Jakku, a red-faced, sputtering Dabi makes a frantic grab for Skeptic’s laptop. “WAIT, NO, JESUS, NOT THAT TAPE!”

lol. but seriously Dabi are you even wearing a shirt. like I’m not one to slutshame anyone bro, but it’s just, exactly what type of mood were you looking to set here??

anyway so we really are cutting back to Jakku now, and Gigantomachia is all, “MASTERS”! which, I wonder if he really did use the plural? that’s right Machia, both of them in one place now! that sure is convenient for you huh

lol what is this with all this AFO monologuing. you’re really gonna make me read through this when I’m sitting here all sleep-deprived from election week. JUST GET TO THE TOUYAS. WE WERE PROMISED TOUYAS!!

sigh

“tee hee it’s fucking hilarious how goddamn powerful I am now lol”

alas, in spite of myself I do have two serious takeaways from this. one is that AFO is still controlling most of Tomura’s body behind the scenes, which both does and doesn’t bode well for Tomura (like, at least he’s not dying, but the long-term implications of this for his free will and such certainly are not Good). and two is that this confirms that Ujiko did give Tomura at least one powerful mutant quirk, which explains why he was still so deadly and indestructible even when Aizawa was using Erasure on him (since Erasure doesn’t work on mutant quirks, just emitter and transformation ones)

MEANWHILE ON TODAY’S EPISODE OF “TODOROKI SHOUTO’S TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, NO GOOD, VERY BAD LIFE”

I like how he doesn’t actually say that he can’t take on Gigantomachia. just that he can’t take on him and Afomura at the same time. that’s confidence, baby. that right there is why you always draft Todoroki Shouto in the first round for your fantasy team

HADOU!!!!

OOOH, TOMURA’S ALL “MAN, THIS GIRL’S WAVE POWERS AND THIS KID’S ICE POWERS ARE A SUPER-STRONG COMBO DAGNABBIT.” YESSS I LIKE THAT, TELL ME MORE ABOUT HOW COOL AND POWERFUL THEY ARE

HOT DAMN LOOK AT THAT

um but not to take away from this exceptionally cool moment or anything, but why is Endeavor dying and shouting “RUN” down there in the corner um

oh

excuse me. not to take away from How Bad This All Is, but!!

just a little, smol, IidaBaku for everyone. Iida, who apparently doesn’t know a damn thing about first aid and is all, “hmm that’s a pretty bad-looking puncture wound he has in his left shoulder there, I think I’ll just let his arm dangle freely like that and I won’t bother taking off his heavy gauntlets either. I mean. he’ll be fine, probably.” smh. at least Shouto probably cauterized the wounds

EXCUSE ME WHAT

TIME FOR MORE OF THAT GOOD OLD FASHIONED SHOUNEN RIDICULOUSNESS I GUESS LMAO. KACCHAN YOU HAVE A HOLE IN YOUR TORSO. THERE IS A HOLE IN YOUR TORSO, AND YOU LOST LIKE FOUR GALLONS OF BLOOD, BUT SURE. “PUT ME DOWN” HE SAYS. FIRST OF ALL, PUTTING ASIDE THE FACT THAT YOU ABSOLUTELY SHOULD NOT BE CONSCIOUS, THE FUCK ARE YOU EVEN GOING TO DO, LIE DOWN AT THEM?? LISTEN, YOU SWEET IDIOT. TAKE HEED, BELOVED DUMBASS!!

ah well. I guess he gets to watch the Touya Show now too then lol

LMAOOOO now Machia’s lifting Tomura carefully in his palm like a broken action figure and Spinner is all “THE FUCK, YOU LOOK LIKE DEATH WARMED OVER”

“oh hey there Spinner. well let’s see, I woke up from my three-month coma and destroyed a city, had my body incinerated, and am currently being possessed by a diabolically evil potato. but please, tell me more about everything you've been through”

AW YISS AND THE FOCUS NOW SHIFTS TO THE TODOROKIS. EVERYTHING IS PROCEEDING EXACTLY AS WE HAVE FORESEEN

Endeavor my dude. it’s as if you want to die here. also holy shit, that bit about his lungs definitely does not bode well for him either

MOTHERFUCKER

GO AHEAD AND SIGN YOUR OWN DEATH CERTIFICATE, WHY DON’T YOU!! FLAGS UPON FLAGS. JESUS CHRIST

meanwhile Dabi’s just waving at ‘em

lmaoooo please oh please Caleb please keep this ‘EYYYYYYY’, it’s fucking perfect kdlshk;hg

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH

(ETA: so as you will see very shortly, I completely missed this detail in my first read-through because I was so anxious to get to the reveal page, but THIS MOTHERFUCKER LITERALLY DOUSED HIMSELF WITH INSTANT HAIR DYE REMOVER THAT HE’S JUST BEEN CARRYING AROUND IN A LITTLE HIP POUCH APPRENTLY SINCE THE BEGINNING OF TIME. MOTHERFUCKER. I HAVE NO WORDS.)

IS THIS THE TIME. IS THIS THE MOMENT?! HERE IT COMES SLKFHS BRACE YERSELVES LADS

EYYYYYYYYYYYY

OKAY EVERYONE JUST LIKE WE PRACTICED!! SURPRISED FACES ON THREE! ONE... TWO... (•̪ o •̪) !! okay how was that

LMAO ENDEAVOR

at least Shouto looks properly stunned. Enji just looks like endeavor.exe just straight up stopped working

meanwhile Deku’s out here trying to do the math on this latest surprise family reveal! first Tomura is related to Nana, and now this. what’s next. who are you related to, Spinner. he rips off his boots to reveal engine legs and declares himself Iida’s long-lost uncle

oh shit Touya

it’s as if a million fanworks suddenly cried out in terror and were suddenly jossed. who knew that all this time he was secretly sporting a crop top scar

also, THIRTY?! holy shit son you been busy

la la la two-page spread of Touya casually driving the dagger into Endeavor’s hero career and rocking the foundations of hero society as we know it la la la

la la la!!!

OH IS THAT THE END OF THE STORY THEN

almost got confused for a sec. there’s two monologues happening at once here. Endeavor doesn’t even know that his dirty laundry is being aired out nation-wide as we speak ffffff

btw while I appreciate the close-ups of Enji and Shouto here for sure, ngl I would also really love to see everyone else’s reactions right now. SHOW ME BAKUGOU AND THE LOV YOU COWARDS

is his hair actually turning white all of a sudden?? your hair dye just reacts on command??

(ETA: in all seriousness though, the hell kind of hair dye was he using? all he has to do is pour a bottle of that stuff and not even lather it in and it’s just gone just like that?? what the fuck would have have done if it ever rained lmao.

and this motherfucker just goes and leaves the dye remover in afterwards, too. I have never dyed my hair in my life and even I can tell you that’s probably not a good idea, Dabi.)

is this it. is this the legendary Dabi Dance in action. lmfao

oh hey what the fuck

so you figured you’d just murder your innocent younger brother to get revenge on dad, huh. well that’s nice

is that really all there is to the origin story though?? feels like we’re still missing a huge chunk of it. what was it that finally sent him over the edge? or was the trauma of being created as Endeavor’s perfect little hero tool and then being subsequently rejected by him enough on its own? because I’m still kind of confused on the part where he goes from “abused and discarded by his father” to “killed thirty people and was plotting the murder of his own brother” to tell you the truth

(ETA: lmao the initial fandom reaction to this did not disappoint. listen guys. people can be traumatized and shaped by awful circumstances that are completely out of their control, and grow up to be people they wouldn’t have grown up to be if things had been better, and all of that absolutely sucks, but. it doesn’t mean they get a get-out-of-jail-free card for all of their future actions, either! the tragedy of this situation is that terrible things happened to Touya, and he then went on to do terrible things himself. the tragedy of it is that this is exactly how the cycle of abuse keeps repeating itself on and on and on. maybe one of the people Dabi killed had a child who will now grow up traumatized themselves, and potentially go on to pay it forward themselves when they grow up. the tragedy is that the eye-for-an-eye justice that Touya is seeking out won’t actually make anything better in the end. the tragedy is that we understand why Touya is so angry, but that anger has basically warped him into the gleefully sadistic dancing figure we see in this chapter who has stopped caring about anyone else’s pain or suffering and just wants his own revenge.

anyway. basically what I’m trying to say is that it’s possible for the concepts of “Todoroki Touya was an innocent child and a victim of abuse” and “Dabi is a grown-ass motherfucking adult who killed thirty people and PROBABLY NEEDS TO BE HELD ACCOUNTABLE FOR THAT” to coexist lol. like, y’all wanted your moral grey, well HERE YOU GO lmao, eat up.)

lol but LOOK AT THAT BOY DANCE HIS LITTLE HEART OUT though

Todoroki Touya confirmed not a fan of the Endeavor redemption arc huh. well we all saw this coming lols

anyways here’s a sexy Touya for y’all

you really are the most theatrical bitch I s2g lmao

also for real though, what is happening with his hair? anime team in shambles here. they’re probably just gonna double down and keep it red. too bad though cuz this is a surprisingly good look on him

SO MANY CLOSE-UPS OF THE TODOROKI FACES

friendly reminder that Dabi without a doubt REHEARSED this speech like a thousand fucking times. LET US FALL TOGETHER!! COME DANCE WITH YOUR SON IN HELL. apparently if you fake your own death in middle school you will never mentally age past that point and will remain a permanent chuuni

OH LMAO THAT’S THE END

we really just gonna end on “DANCE WITH YOUR SON IN HELL”, huh. very well then. you know what song to play, Horikoshi. one, two... YOU ARE MY DAD. YOU’RE MY DAD!! BOOGIE WOOGIE WOOGIE

[mtc-4life]

｡ﾟ･ Jyuto meeting an orphan little girl who sells cookies ･ ｡ﾟ

✩ Genre: fluff ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡)

From the same request: Samatoki / Jyuto / Rio

☆ Author's notes: Part 2 from that anon request! It's already linked in the original post. Enjoy!

It started by the end of summer.

Every Wednesday, in the corner of the street in front of Jyuto’s apartment, stood a little girl in a pink dress, carrying a delicate picnic basket with the cookies she sold.

Whenever Jyuto went out to work in that specific day of the week, right in the early hours of morning, he would always glance at that corner just to see the girl already there, smiling as customers talked to her and ate cookies. There was something very special about seeing her in the middle of a busy week.

Autumn eventually came.

On the first Wednesday of the season, Jyuto made sure to get things done more quickly and left job earlier. It had been a while since he has thought about buying one of her cookies.

Maybe the girl would not be there since she usually arrived so early. But Jyuto was way too curious to not even try to find her.

As soon as he arrived home, he got out of the car and turned to that corner.

And there she was, cheerfully chatting with an old lady.

Jyuto slightly waved at the girl’s direction and noticing his approach, she stopped talking to the woman next to her and waved back:

- Hello!

- Good Evening! I would like to buy a cookie from you. – Jyuto replied as he grabbed his wallet.

- You came in the right time; the cookies are almost sold out. – said the woman.

- Chocolate chip or peanut butter, sir? – asked the child.

- Hm… Why not both? – he said handing over the cash.

- Thank you!!!

He thanked her back and took a bite from the chocolate chip cookie.

- It’s really good!

The delicious flavor, combined with the subtle vanilla scent, were as sweet as the smile she gave him at the compliment.

- Tee-hee. Glad you like it. I make cookies with my friends every Tuesday.

- What is your name?

- I’m Ella.

- Ella, you and your friends are some talented cooks. I should come here more often!

- Oh my! Seems like we have a new client, dear – said the woman next to her.

He didn’t pay much attention to it before, but the woman was dressed as a nun.

The observation crossed Jyuto’s mind. It was possible that the nun was taking care of Ella.

- Is the money destined to charity?

- Yes. I’m the nun responsible for that orphanage. – she pointed to the building not so far from them – I take care of Ella and the other orphans. One of the ways of raising money to our institution is by selling cookies. I bake them with the kids and Ella sells them here.

The old lady gazed right into the girl’s direction. Her lovely pink dress was swaying as the autumn wind carried the tree leaves. Ella was trying to catch one of them, lively jumping as soon as her brown eyes spotted a leaf.

The nun continued:

- You see, most of our kids are shy, but Ella gets along pretty well with the costumers. If I tried to sell the cookies myself, I wouldn’t sell as nearly as many, so I simply supervision her just to make sure nothing bad happens.

Jyuto raised his brows in surprise. Ella was certainly an amusing child.

But Ella was not listening. Instead, probably a bit tired from her attempt to catch the leaves, the little girl had all her attention to the sky.

Suddenly, she loudly spoke:

- It’s dark!

- Yes, the sun is setting. We should be going, Ella. – said the nun.

- No! I still want to talk with…

Ella stared Jyuto with a confused look.

- I’m sorry, I forgot to introduce myself – he continued, showing his police badge – Sergeant Jyuto Iruma at you service, ladies.

- So cool!!! – Ella shouted in excitement.

Jyuto couldn’t help but laugh. Usually people felt a little scared when he told them what he does for a living. That was the first time someone showed such enthusiasm for his job.

- I can take you both to the orphanage. How about riding in the police car, Ella? – he said with his usual smirk.

- Can I turn on the sirens???

- Of course you can.

- Yay!!! Let’s go! – she jumped; completely forgetting about her tiredness, and immediately ran towards his car.

- Ella, wait! Mr. Iruma, can you really take us back to the orphanage? We don’t want to bother you.

- It’s not a bother at all! Besides, look at how happy she is.

- I suppose we can accept the favor then. Thank you! – the nun said smiling.

- My pleasure! – he replied, smiling back.

Inside the car, Jyuto taught Ella how to turn on the sirens as the little girl attentively watched. Her innocent laugh was contagious enough to make even the composed nun want to try it too.

Jyuto never imagined his car could be so fun.

- Faster, faster! – Ella cheerfully shouted while he drove the car.

Among all the problems Jyuto was in charge to solve, that encounter was a good reminder of the sweet things life has to offer, he thought.

Sweet like chocolate chip cookies.

Sweet like a children smiling.

Sweet like Ella.