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worthless-misery · 5 months

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Dear diary...

I wish I could feel okay with my body. Even just a little bit.

It really feels like a prison...

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krazycat6167 · 1 year

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So @somerandomdudelmao made a version of their sona in a dystopia (inspired by @tapakah0 doing the same to theirs) and the person in this ask named the robot C.A.S.5 and I thought, ‘well then there’s at least four other C.A.S. units out and about in the world’ leading to this being the end result! It was a lot of fun to come up with the different customizations each C.A.S. unit has.

also, the design for C.A.S.4 (Cash) was partially inspired by @mobiitez post.

Doodles:

#somerandomdudelmao #tapakah0 #my art #Dystopia au #Mob’s character design session #cass fanart tag #i think #I’m probably not going to make more C.A.S. bots but just know C.A.S.7 or Cast is bird based (not sure which bird yet) and blue for my sis #small detail but on Cass there’s broken wires on the back of their head so I decided that they used to connect to the body #Cash hates Castle while Castle is indifferent unless Cash tries to steal from her #Case is vibing with the farm life and making up little tunes #Cazz is a cross between the crazy old cat lady and a backwoods cryptid - they will stare at you from the shadowed depths of the scrap yard #while making commentary to the parts they keep for themselves and of those parts Benji is the favorite #Battery packs for C.A.S. units attach to the things that stick out their backs for the wires - except Cazz who made some internal modificat #No one knows exactly how since the mods are a chaotic hodgepodge of patchwork but they somehow work #Had a lot of fun watching others make stuff for the impromptu dystopia au the vibes of the world were awesome #Technically fanart #so yeah #enjoy!

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ankabaiam · 6 months

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Excluding Tommy Kinard tag and Tommy/Buck tag while reading Buddie fanfictions is self care.

I don't want to read about breaking Tommy's heart. He's too precious for this world.

#I love him and I'll protect him with my own body #while I ship Buddie I still hate the idea of Tommy having his heart broken #or being villanized #I just need him to be happy okay?#tommy kinard #evan ‘buck’ buckley #kinkley #bucktommy #911 on abc #911 abc

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bushwookie2 · 1 month

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Congratulations!

You left him alone and broken….

The one guy that ever truly cared about you….

You abandoned him…

The one person who never judged you even after you opened up to him about everything…

The one guy that even in the end, treated you like his whole world…probably still would too..

But it’s okay, because you’re happy now…

His view point of love might be shattered now, But it’s okay…

Really congrats!!

Because….there is no way he is loving someone else the way he loved you…there will never be the amount of trust and care put into someone else unconditionally…No One Else will feel the love and care he gave to you….

But it’s okay because you found what you were looking for in the process….

#male pain #broken #hurtquotes #destroyed #my heart is shattered #i hate my body #late night thoughts #lost in the waves #poems on tumblr #healing

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angelnumber27 · 4 months

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It’s so embarrassing and heartbreaking being in so much pain over losing someone while knowing they don’t give a fuck if you live or die. Your favorite person becoming a stranger is a special kind of hell.

#I fucking hate having bpd #while I’m at it I don’t understand the fuckin audacity some people have to say they love you and do horrible things to you #I feel so stupid #I feel so stupid for believing all the lies #but I was so in love and put him on such a pedestal that I just allowed it all.#thinking about someone constantly and grieving over them and knowing they’re perfectly fine and to them you don’t exist #I’m still in such a state of grief and I don’t understand why time hasn’t healed #it honestly feels like it’s gotten worse w time #I just torture myself but I can’t help it my brain wants me dead #it’s so painful I feel so fucking stupid #being abandoned with no closure by someone who’s your entire world #for someone they were unfaithful to you with multiple times (I don’t even know how many and dony want to know) immediately #like that was the plan all along #he took our cat hundreds of miles away and I don’t even know if he still has her or if she’s still alive and I miss her every day #I never loved someone like that and it feels like the heartbreak is actually physically killing me #i spent 1/5 of my entire life with him #I was my prettiest and had the best body at the time and I wasted it on someone who didn’t appreciate me #not wasted. it wasn’t wasted. we had some incredible times together #I’ll never be that beautiful again #and now idk what do so bc i can’t decide which is worse: being alone and isolating or loving deeply and ending up horribly hurt all over #it’s all just so upsetting.#and I feel so stupid for allowing it all #he knows more about me than anyone and he made me feel like he loved me so much sometimes and then did horrid things and it’s so fucked up #nobody read this I’m so embarrassed and horribly broken #it traumatized me so much there was so much abuse and pain idk if I’ll ever recover #I deserved it but it still hurts my heart #I was so mentally ill and sick I know it had to have been miserable to be around me #there are so many things only he understands and knows about me and I need to talk about them I j wanna b able to b there 4 each other #but that girl is so beyond insecure and controlling so. if I want to talk to who fuckin gets me I’m just fucked #why lead someone on like that for years knowing you’re going to abandon them the second it’s convenient

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bunnihearted · 10 days

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can i please fucking have a best friend before i kill myself i cannot stand this loneliness anymore it isnt even funny like im actually in so much pain bc of loneliness i feel like i cant breathe and like im gonna die everything hurts so bad i cant take it i try to pretend im ok and during a little while it works but then it all comes crashing down again i literally cannot be alone anymore i will die

#but with how fundamentally flawed and broken and fucked up and unlovable i am #i already know i will always be alone #i have known that deep in my bones since i was a child and everyone started shunning me #but oh my fucking god this hurts so bad i also know i wont be able to keep enduring this year after year after year #i am so fucking unlovable and unlikable and i only bother and burden everyone i come in contact with #i literally SHOULD kill myself so the world can be free of me #but im selfish and i keep clinging on (but mostly out of fear)#i just wish i had a gun so i could blow my brains out correctly and know i'd die so fucking fast #i just cant do it any other way #anyway my entire fucking body hurts because i am so lonely i will die #and i am losing my mind bc yeah i will sit here now and be distracted while typing this #but then i will just go back to my lonely room and like #god i wanna scream why am i alive? as if anyone values my life haha what a fucking joke i am #whateverrrr i'll go cut myself #but i dont even have anyone to show that to bc everyone hates me!!!!! 😁👍#just fucking do me a favor and kill me i cant take this anymore 🙂

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a1m05t-en0ugh · 2 months

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my GOD. i just need a break from my life. i literally cannot do this anymore. pls just give me a break. but, like, forever. pls, there is nothing else’s i want

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urproblematicfav-arsonk · 4 months

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Ayyyyee foot fetish people!!!!! Is this....is this what you wanted?? This is what y'all meant when you said you wanted to see Angel's feet right?? you wanted chronic pain and metaphors for addiction right????

#me: *walks on one broken toe* im dying and must project #anyway #i hate the 'uwu angel needs to learn to love himself/his feet' stuff #especially mixed with husk #guys we're in hell. they're bodies are supposed to be punishments #angel is meant to hate his body #me and my rairpairs amirite #just uhhh gonna be me and 14 other fics lmao #im also working on a sad valangel companion piece #val is mean but i do love him dearly #might've also accidentally started a whole au cinematic universe whoops #this actively takes place during twilight + Angel's pointe shoes and relationship with trav will show up in the next chap of deathpower lmao #i watched a lot of tiktoks and youtube videos about ballet awhile back and that stuff is horrifying #hazbin hotel #angel dust #fanfic wip #my writing

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maraariana01 · 1 year

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@kate-bot

he'd try his best either way!

it's ok, he just hasn't found the right recipe yet!

hc: yes i do believe they would be able to cook decently. they just don't know exactly what ingredients are considered uh. edible. for normal people. lol

#are the tags still broken? whatever. im not waiting 30 years for them to be fixed #i hate tumblr.#anyway if you see my art Please for the love of god rb it this site is so broken...........#pizza tower #fake peppino #body horror tw #springle's art

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tapipolouzer · 1 year

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trying something different with ink as an attempt to get over art block. he probably drank too much paint or smthng

#tw bright colors #tw eyestrain #i hate this but i need to show yall im not dead LMAO #ink sans #ink!sans #undertale multiverse #utmv #looz be arting #i literally doodled this in what feels like less than an hour that's why this is sucky #i.want.to.cry!!!/joke i miss my drawing tablet and my sister's laptop and my pen when it wasn't broken a heem heem a whimper #i see this GORGEOOSE art in my fyp AND SEE PREETTY comics AND AMAZNG full bodies and i go:i me i wanna i mee i wahh i wann go do that 2 ;((#aorry im in a mood like a creative mood but i cant put creative in an art/ drawing ;(( am i really a drawer if i draw but dont draw at all #i like to see people just opening a box n seeing me crying n being pathetic when they click to see more of th tags which i think no 1 does #thankfully 🫶💞💖💖‼️‼️💥💥💥

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worthless-misery · 29 days

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Dear diary...

I hate myself so much more than I could ever put into words.

Everything about me feels so fucking disgusting all the time. I don't see this ever changing. No matter what...

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airanke · 1 year

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Every day I sit here or lie in bed thinking about how much purity culture destroyed me.

#and then my parents have the audacity???#to try and tell me that 'sex was created by God tho!!!'#yes and God was used to ruin my perception of sex #I can only read about it or draw it to explore my interests #I have absolutely zero interest in it being done to me physically #which is both purity culture and personal perception of my body #which does not change no matter what I do to try and love myself #anyway this was brought on because I'm listening to ppl talk about Girl Defined #Horrible channel btw please don't watch any of their videos #What they preach is misinformation at best and culty at worst #and this particular video is talking about how a GUY #WHO BECAME A SEX THERAPIST????#thought his wife was broken cuz she hated being intimate w/ him #and he would be like 'oh well srry ur broken we're gonna fuck anyway tho cuz //I// need it'#??????????????????????????????????????????#AND THEN I GUESS THEY DISCOVERED IT WASN'T HER #I'M NOT THROUGH IT YET THIS IS A BAD RIDE #BUT I CANNOT SEEM TO GET OFF #anyway back to drawing #fyi I don't have a problem w/ God I have a problem w/ Christians #There is a difference and you will respect that thank u

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coffee-and-oatmeal · 2 years

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It's so wrong that I'm still alive. I want this to end.

#tw depressing stuff #su1c1dal #su1cide #depressing shit #sad #tw depressing thoughts #tw depression #i want to diiieeee #broken #sorry for being depressing #sorry for this #i hate my body #kill my thoughts

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hot-cherri · 28 days

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nevaehdavis5675 · 9 months

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Vent

( Tw in the tags)

I am worthless and ugly everytime when I see people in Relationships I get so jealous I feel used and broken so many people that I dated either were toxic or manipulated me or never loved me or used me for sex I feel so alone I know that I'm going to die alone ik this I'm tired of being single I want to Kms I want to cut myself until I stop bleeding I hate being in this world I want to end me I don't really feel like existing I feel broken and used up I wish I had someone that would actually love me I give up people say like oh I'm sure you'll find the right person like no I won't why would anyone want a worthless bitch who isn't good enough for anyone I want to be skinny asf I want to give up and fucking die this is all my mothers fault I didn't ask to be put in this world she doesn't care about me she only cares about herself I wish that I never existed throw me a rope so I can hang myself I'm useless to anyone anyway

#tw sui vent #tw s3lf harm #vent post #tw childhood trauma #tw depressing stuff #i hate my life #i hate my body #i wish i was pretty #i wanna lose weight #I hate you mom #I don't really feel like existing #i don't exist #Worthless #Broken child #sad thoughts #lonlyness #single :(

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floral-hex · 2 months

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so tired of feeling sick all of the time. I’m in the middle of moving, this time to an upstairs apartment, and just carrying one box up the stairs kills me 😰

#and it’s soooo hot out #moving boxes in 90° heat sucks butts #I seriously feel like I’m going to puke and pass out from just minimal labor #saaaaad #I hate this dang body #I mean.. I blame myself for getting this week. but still.. damn I couldn’t have done a few push ups this year?#all the meds and stuff prob/def?/maybe don’t help #I overheat too easily #I’m actually so glad I didn’t unpack most of my stuff after last year’s move #and I’m staying in the same apartment complex. just a slightly nicer apt. slightly.#but this current one is just… kinda shitty. things break and never get fixed. loud neighbors. etc #new apt is in a smaller newer building. same number of rooms. just… not as broken.#met the new neighbor. he’s younger than me w/ a fiancé and he’s super nice. lots of tattoos. cool cool.#been going through and throwing away and donating a lot of stuff #like… really neat stuff that I just can’t keep anymore or clothes that don’t fit #bummer but I hope someone hits up goodwill and is like ‘oh sweet. a Morrissey shirt.’#that would make me feel good #I offered my younger brother some cool band shirts like AFI and stuff but he was like ‘I don’t know who that is’#RUDE!#I just don’t see myself fitting into a large shirt anytime soon. maybe in a year but not anytime soon enough.#anyway… oh yeah! I feel like shit all the time #just bad body disorder #im workin on it! jeez!#anyway… I just take my handful of pills and hope for the best 🫤#ok gotta go I love you #you can ignore this #text

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