#I haaaate when people make money off her

[butididntpourthewhiskeys]

https://x.com/_willcompton/status/1806424859246841922?t=KWhNBi8cDFjcu_aTkLChRg&s=19

the end couple seconds ijbol

What did he say in the end?

[lovemesomesurveys]

If money was no object, would you change your wardrobe? No, it would just add to it even more.

How do you/did you get to school? While in college I either got a ride or had to take the bus. I haaaated taking the bus.

Have you ever been in trouble for something you honestly didn’t do? Yes.

Is the idea of having a secret admirer creepy or romantic? It could go either way. If they were obsessive, stalkerish, or inappropriate, then yeah we’d have a problem.

What was the last song you sung out loud? Walking on a Dream by Empire of the Sun

Have you ever had to have a pet put down? Once. :( He was quite old and his quality of life wasn’t healthy at that point. 

Were you excited to learn to drive, or scared? I still haven’t learned.

What was the last book you read? I just finished one called The Girl Who Vanished by A.J. Rivers

Did you enjoy it, or were you glad to be finished? I really enjoyed it. It was the 2nd book in a series and now I’m starting the 3rd.

Do you ever wonder what other people are thinking when they stare at you? I’d really rather not know.

Have you ever gone out of your way to get someone’s attention? I’ve done some stupid, petty things to try and get a certain guy’s attention or things like posting certain quotes or lyrics. 

When was the last time you felt incredibly tired? I always feel that way, physically and emotionally. Just drained.

What candy cane flavor is your favorite? Just the good ol’ peppermint kind.

In your opinion, who doesn’t deserve to be famous? There are some bad people given a platform and attention they shouldn’t have.

Do you get angry when fast food restaurants mess up your order? It’s very frustrating. We try to check before leaving, but sometimes we forget. 

Have you ever had a ridiculous hair cut? Yes. More ridiculous hairstyles; though, when I was younger.

What was your favorite elective class in high school? Piano.

Did you ever wish you could be homeschooled? Sometimes I felt that way. Was it hard for you to get up this morning? I haven’t gone to bed, yet, but I know it will be. It always is. And lately I haven’t been able to get up before 1PM. I try, but it just doesn’t happen.

Have you ever had a dream so realistic you could’ve sworn it happened? Yeppp. Those are trippy. The worst are the ones where I wake up crying. Like full on sobbing. I had one of those a couple days ago.

When was the last time you colored with crayons or colored pencils? A couple of days ago with colored pencils.

Can you remember the first survey you filled out? No, that was like 15 years ago. :O Damn, I wish I could see that now.

Do you have any mental disorders? Yes.

Do you feel comfortable talking about these disorders, if you have them? Yeah, I’ve talked about my major depression and anxiety.

Where did you go on your last field trip? While attending community college I was in the psych club (I was actually one of the board members) and we took a lot of field trips. We visited a few universities and then would do something else nearby for fun. We went to a couple beaches and toured a few museums. It was always a full day trip. We also visited a mental hospital, a women’s prison, and NASA research center.

Are you able to agree to disagree? Or do you have to have the last word? I’m one who tends to just agree to disagree.

Do you think you make a good first impression? I don’t know.

Do other people’s first impressions stick with you? >> It depends on what my first impression was. If it was like “oh my god this person really comes off like a bigot”, yeah, that’s going to stick until explicitly proven otherwise. If it was like “oh hmm this person seems to be in a bad mood” then like, whatever. Moods change. Sometimes you just catch people on a bad day and that doesn’t mean they hate you forever. <<<

Are you friends who you thought they were when you first met? I don’t have any friends.

How have you changed in the past year? I haven’t in the way that I want and need to.

How about in the past five years? A LOT has changed in that amount of time. And not in a good way. Things really went to shit.

What do you do when you feel like giving up on something? >> Sometimes I just give up on it. Other times I take a break. Other times I have a meltdown. Other times I push through. <<<

Have you ever had to give up on someone? Yes.

Would you rather break up with someone, or them break up with you? Neither are great.

Is there a cover song you like better than the original version? Not better, but there are some I like.

Do you think it’s okay to like a cover more than an original? lol there’s no law against it. 

What band do you wish was still making music? I miss Linkin Park. Especially with Chester. :(

Do you still watch any cartoons? Yeah, Rugrats, Hey Arnold, and Doug.

Are you just too lazy to recycle? We recycle cans and plastic bottles.

Think of the last person you talked to–do you love him/her? Yes.

Do you fit your zodiac sign? I’m soooo opposite of how a Leo is described.

What is one of your weak points? I am a weak point.

What is one of your strong points? Uhhh.

Are you calm in emergency situations? No.

When was the last time you cursed at someone? I don’t recall.

Are you afraid of losing someone you love? That is something that I think about. My mind likes to wander to dark places like that. :/

Who are you most attached to? My mom.

What do you depend on other people for? I’m very dependent on my parents and brother. Especially my mom. They provide for me, take care of me, and do a lot for me.

Are you good at reading other people’s body language? I think so.

Do you like facial hair? How about chest hair? I don’t mind a little facial hair. I’d be okay with a little bit of chest hair, but not a lot. Definitely no Nev from Catfish level chest hair haha.

If you have a favorite number, how did you choose it? I’ve liked the number 8 since I was a kid. I believe it stems from The Schoolhouse Rock. I loved the song they made for the number 8. I watched that part all the time. I also had a computer game with that on there.

What goes through your mind when someone breaks up with you? A lot of things. Hurt, sadness, confusion, anger... I replay everything in my head. Think about what happened. Get mad at them, but also blame myself.

What goes through your mind when someone asks you out? Depends on who did the asking. When it was someone I was interested in, I got all nervous and giddy. The butterfly feeling in my stomach and all that.

Do you match your shoes with your outfit? I always wear my black Adidas regardless.

Do you style your hair daily? No.

Who was the last person to compliment your appearance? What’d they say? My doctor complimented my hair when I saw her last week. Is there any movie you just can’t stand to watch? Yeah.

What do you think of pornography? Not my thing.

What hair products do you use regularly? Shampoo, dry shampoo, detangler. 

Does it bother you when people use extremely bad grammar? It depends. Do you have a hard time talking about sex with the opposite gender? Yes.

Do you feel more comfortable with a male or female doctor/nurse? Female.

Have you ever had major surgery? Yes, a few.

Could you go a month without speaking? Nooo.

Is there any food you don’t like that a lot of others do? Seafood. It seems like everyone loves sushi and I’m like GAG.

Have you ever followed a trend? If so, what was it? Well, yeah. More so when I was a teenager, but a few others since then.

Have you ever started a trend, even a small one? I’m no trendsetter.

What was the last thing you bragged about? I have nothing to brag about. Not a cute a look anyway.

[ruined-shaper]

Spirit of (X)! (since I'll probably end up RPing a dawngate character anyhow. :3c)

Poppy, Shaper of Fortitude

4 months after the Dawngate opened

“Ah, nuts. Where am I now?”

“Hey, Excuse me-… Uh, hi,would you happen to- Watch it, buddy, I’m walkin’ down here- SPIRITS, why is everyone so fu- AH, tall, DON’T TREAD ON ME, WOAH!”

Dodging a heavy cart, Poppy crashes into a stall, knocking down a bucket of various fruits.

“Nrgh… uhhhhgh. Sorry….”

The woman running the stand looked down, shaking her head and assisting in setting the produce back.

“It’s fine… city’s not kind to you, is it?” She asked, only just loud enough to hear over the crowd’s noise.

“Not really, no… when I can, I try to stick to the road. Travelling’s more fun than the destination when you’re doing what I’m doing.” She remarked. Standing to brush herself off, she took off her satchel, removing a single piece of paper and presenting it to the shopkeep.

“…What’s this? I’m not…” She shrugged and turned the page round to face Poppy again.

“Oh, right- reading isn’t a big thing in the west. Sorry- It’s asking if you’ve seen a hero for hire.”

“…You mean a mercenary? Sure. We got plenty of those here in-”

Poppy shook her head and waved her hands. “Nono, like… a hero, y’know? Not some shmuck killing guys for money or fame, saving the people, holding potlucks and beating bad guys!”

“-You came to Maridia to find one of those?” The woman snickered and handed the paper back, waving her hand to the masses in front of her.

“Only people you’ll find here are self-contained inventors, rude engineers, and sub-par night workers.” She exclaimed. The woman seemed particularly sour on the last statement.

Sighing and replacing the page in her pack, Poppy stood again, readying herself to take to the street again. The crowd seemed to be waning a bit, and the noise was dying down. Perhaps this meant the rush was quelling.

“Back down, bastard.”

-Or, that there was a commotion in the making. Curious, Poppy shoved her way past the forest of puffy pants and uncomfortably hairy calves to the center of attention: a man and woman in fine clothing standing over the frame of an elderly man and a young girl.

“You owe us, Ben.” The man spat down, his words thick with malice.

“Yeah, you owe us! You bought up that tasty loaf of bread, and never thought to repay our kindness!”

The elderly man, Ben, attempted to stand. Halfway into his rise, a solid boot would catch his gut, throwing him away. Groaning in agony, now winded, he attempted to speak through the pain.

“I… I’ll get the money… please, just-” He managed, cut off by another blow to his body. Yelping, the girl behind Ben jumped down and attempted to tend his wounds.

Poppy, quietly, removed her pack and reached in. Calmly, she would grab a set of simple leather gloves. She wouldn’t want to lose her grip on this one.

“You made a mistake, and we’re gonna get our compensation.”

“Yeah, our compensation! I think your girl here will make a lovely third~”

“Sure, why not, doll?”

“What?! No! Please-”

It was around this point that Poppy tuned out. There was a bit of dirt on the inside of her glove that was bugging her. It was sharp, probably had a rock in it. It was very mildly uncomfortable. Beginning to remove it, she noted more screaming in the ring. No major bruises, the elder man’d be fine. All the other guy was doing was pulling her hair at this point. She was essentially just being loud.

“Help, PLEASE-”

Alright, she got the dirt out. That was a significant improvement. Now she could focus. Now, calculating the open area, lack of wind… the guy was probably only 240, 250 pounds? Easy enough.

Moving in now, in the middle of their presumably maniacal laugh, she tapped his leg, feeling up for a good grip. Guy had legs like a tree trunk, but not, like, a healthy tree. Good thing she wore gloves.

“…Uh… What… What’re you… runt, fuck’re you doin’?!” The barbaric man asked, visibly confused. The girl’s screaming stopped, the grounded man staring blankly at the midget who approached their assailant.

“Taking your spotlight. Good way to talk to people. You have no idea how hard I’ve had it today.” Poppy replied, finally having a good, solid grasp at his heel with one hand.

“…What?”

“Nothing. Brace your head.”

“…What?”

*Huck*

“whaAAAT-”

*Crash*

With a single hand, Poppy had effortlessly hurled the assailant like a pillow into the far wall, creating a sizeable hole and stunning the marketgoers. All eyes on her, and all mouths agape, she held up the paper.

“….Anyone know a hero?”

Blessed with a natural calm, ignorance of social nuance, and absurd strength, Poppy is bruiser with no time for scum, villainy, or short jokes in her quest to find a true-blue hero. Though the reason for her journey remains a mystery, her unwitting bravery and boundless cluelessness manifesting as bottomless courage, expect big things from the Shaper of Fortitude.

Allies: Kahgen (Not a hero and he knows that. But… a good guy, somehow.)

Friends: None (I don’t… talk to people, often. Can’t say I have any…)

Enemies: None (Not talking to people is a win-lose. Not all downsides. Guess villains would count, if I knew any.)

//Another blessing to write, though it might’ve seemed like it ended bluntty; that was the objective. I wanted Poppy to keep the part of her character that doesn’t realize herself, but I amped it up a bit for this. Lacking heroes is a big thing in the world of Dawngate; with most sides having a good reason with poor methods.

Thanks to @keeper-n0t-hero for the prompt! Hope to see the fruits of your research soon!

[pilferingapples]

Episode 5a: Green Finch and Cosette Bird

Not gonna try to Chronology this bc despite my best efforts I have NO idea what time span this is all supposed to be covering, like if it’s weeks or months or, as it appears to be, all happening in one Really Busy Week 

Before I get into it: As always , major props for the Props people, and the set design team on this show. Whatever my other issues about the series, I’ve loved the look of the places, and there’s some real nice touches in every scene. They make rewatching it all worth it just for the visuals. 

...More mixed feelings under the cut, but I did enjoy some things besides the setting!:

HELLO HELLFONT MY OLD FRIEND , what can I say,  it’s becoming a familiar (type)face , any friend in a storm

-I really enjoy this opening-- setting up that the people in Paris really ARE at about ready to riot and everyone really is angry, it’s not just Those Kids in A Bar Somewhere. It feels very A Few Pages of History, (4.1 , for those wondering!) and I’m glad it’s being given some time. 

-I am ALSO Highly Entertained that all this deep rooted and widespread social unrest is juxtaposed with flyers of THAT DASTARDLY VALJEAN. I’m sure to this Javert they’re exactly the same thing-- and I mean I am SURE because Javert tells us so directly: 

Rivet or Rivette or whatever: Uh boss we have intel on an attempt at overthrowing the government and I mean Parisians actually do that not infrequently of late so IDK  but I think we have bigger issues than your Nemeship 

Javert, Verbatim:  THERE IS NO. LARGER. ISSUE. MAN, Mark My Words, Where Ever You Find Unrest, HE Will Be At The Very Heart Of It 

THIS IS THE BEST THING THIS JAVERT HAS EVER SAID but it’s just gonna get better and I am SO here for Hilariously Overinvested In One Rando Thief Javert, he’s got basically nothing to do with Javerts Past and I do not CARE, this is hilarious

- Cutting over to Valjean and Cosette, with Cosette nursing his really oozy arm wound! I am NOT satisfied with Valjean’s “well I had to go back to the Thenardiers for  Reasons” line at ALL, especially not when Cosette was so clearly retraumatized.  I would accept a Scheme on his end, a moral argument, ANYTHING, but she’s just like “so this is awful” and he’s all “but Cosette, REASONS” . Also not satisfied with Cosette denouncing people as Evil! or Valjean signing off on it! I understand why she’s saying it from a Watsonian perspective but the show has chosen to set this up, to have the characters most associated  with redemption and recovery ready to directly condemn. This Cosette is infinitely more judgemental, and I can see why, because holy smokes this Valjean. And this is a fairly brief moment in the show but it’s just off for what this story and these characters represent.

- Meanwhile, in Some Cafe I Guess, Enjolras has some terrible lines about the upcoming revolution that make it seem like this has been a pickup game planned since all of last week and I have horrible foreshadowing of Fandom Arguments to Come. 

Also: this is not the fandom I think we are if we can’t just Nominate some Remaining Amis out of this mess of extras! I’ll go first; I nominate the bearded guy in the corner during Enjolras’ speech about Lamarque (at ~~4:43) for Bahorel, and the dark-haired guy in front of him for Joly.

-I love how grim the women’s prison is; also, Mme T trying to be as good a mother as she knows how to be even here.  (Also I know they probably should NOT be in the same prison together, but this is one of those condensations that I Get)

- I’m sure a lot of people are gonna hate it, but I actually really appreciate that this Marius is rather cold and unpleasant to Eponine post-Gorbeau, when she’s taking him to see Cosette. That is  canon!  He’s quite rude and even physically rough with her when he sees her again!  It’s an important aspect of his character; he gets caught up with his current Only Thing In The World and treats other people around him badly, it’s a running thing! Heck, this Marius is still  kinder to Eponine post-Gorbeau than his book counterpart.  I feel awful for Eponine, of course, but then I absolutely should. This is a Good Bit.  

-Thenardier escapes from prison by pretending to have Died of Dysentery--er, cholera! If they’re not gonna have Gav and the whole Escape By Night scene, this is actually a pretty clever, quick way to get Thenardier out, and build in the info about the cholera epidemic. I can never be exactly glad to lose Gavroche Scenes, but this was a pretty good way to abridge that! 

- Valjean’s arm  is better! So it’s been Some Vague Time! So he’s leaving for Mysterious Valjean Purposes (money), with a blithe “Cosette stay here, it’s safe but also don’t leave the house until I get back, also you can’t come with me because it’s dangerous, but don’t worry it’s TOTALLY safe.” If this Valjean were more the warm, loving character he should be, this might just seem awkward and badly phrased; with all that’s happened between them already and all that comes next, this just seems manipulative and cruel.

-Vajlean goes out into the streets and sees ...a drawing that doesn’t really look like him! On a wanted poster! So he tears it down. Javert’s Valjeany Sense Activates and his eyes open in his office when Valjean tears down the poster Who Knows Where. This delights me. DELIGHTS. This Javert is a hilarious parody of all Javerts and I officially love it.

-I also like Thenardier and...Montparnasse?-- and someone else..?why is this scene so dark --  in the sewers, and the cut from that to Cosette. Nice way to stress the actual real danger that Valjean’s left her in, also: good Cat Scare before Marius happens. (yeah and also Thenardier seems to be Leader of the Patron Minette, which is never my Fave Choice for an adaptation to make, but it makes sense, especially as breakneck as things are moving 

-Toussaint’s Cheerful Doomy Dooms of Doom while Valjean leaves her and Cosette to do his Secret Valjean Thing; since Enjolras has banned romantics from the barricade, guess we gotta take our cheerful death talk where we can! (also, totally canon!)

-okay, you know what, I really like Cosette’s scenes in the garden. This Cosette is doing a great job of selling me on her Extremely Young-ness. She seems young enough and unworldly enough that a Magic Boyfriend sneaking in without her noticing is Cool and Exciting and Magical instead of super unnerving.  She’s adorable. And there is really excellent framing here with the flowers and the lighting and all. It does  feel like a fairy tale, which, it really should; this is Cosette’s fairy tale romance and I’m happy for her.

...Unfortunately this Valjean is rather too much the part of the Ogre Parent and I wish Marius would just take her away.  Uhg. (also I haaaate this bgm. HAAAATE. I am not talking about it much and I know it’s probably just me but it is so obtrusive to me!) 

- Gavroche shows up, robbin’ all the randos and giving bread to a couple of genuinely unrelated street kids! I...am having such mixed feelings! I love this actor; this actor has Gavroche absolutely DOWN and I am accepting him into my heart entirely but...like...why is  this  part of the story  here,  why is there so much emphasis on him being a thief, why does he just leave the momes instead of trying to take them in, why is this show trying to make it visually clear that these aren’t his brothers? this is just..it’s the thing that keeps happening where there are a bunch of changes for no apparent reason and they don’t add up to anything new but they also aren’t the Original Thing and I can’t figure out what the point of those alterations really are (though this scene, with the extra thieving and reduced generosity, grand-total steals some of Gavroche’s heroism).  The actor is amazing but GIVE HIM HIS FULL BIT. 

- back to Definitely Some Cafe (it’s really well done, I just have no idea what cafe it is ? It’s full of workers, maybe this is supposed to be the Corinth?)  and a brief, foolish moment on my part of hoping there’ll be more discussion of why the rebellion is happening is Destroyed and turned to  “you rich students can go back to your families in the country but--”  THIS IS THE GHOST OF MY ASKBOX FUTURE AND I HATE IT , OH SPIRITS;  WHAT MAY I DO TO TURN THIS NIGHTMARE ASIDE

-...why isn’t this worker just...Feuilly...why are none of the workers Feuilly...

-P.sure my Joly HC is here 

either that or he’s BBC’s Merlin which might explain some things

- Awkwardness of Lost Historical Context aside, this Enjolras is growing on me (like a scruffy beard!) . He’s intense and physically affectionate and I like that in an Enjolras; I just think it’s weird that he’s hanging out with what are apparently random students who haven’t committed to the revolution frigging yet , but you know! Whatever!  

- ...I am currently kind of on the fence about this but...if they’re not gonna give the whole arc with Grantaire As Symbol of the Apathetic Bourgeois being Converted the time it needs, I ...think?  ..what they’re doing here might be a serviceable substitute?  He’s very obviously Not Got The Revolution Fever and is Doing It For His Friends, and he’s obviously super uncomfortable about it.  I like this take on that so far better than some versions I’ve seen. 

ATM, gotta say, the Amis Scene is bugging me the least. If it weren’t for the absolutely bizarre nonsense last week, I would be Pretty Okay with the Amis stuff?? WEIRD BUT TRUE.  Or maybe just a sign of how some adaptations have totally destroyed my expectations here to the point where “Enjolras isn’t actually Dracula” is Okay With Me. ANYWAY I’LL TAKE IT, A MOMENT OF LIKABLE CHARACTERIZATION. 

-The Revolutionary conversation segues with a cut to the Royalist Salon and Gillenormand, who  is NOT likeable and I’m not sure why we get this scene Here In Particular?  A contrast to the revolutionaries, I guess? But this Gillenormand continues to be very very  accurate. 

- At The House In The Garden, Valjean is back! Cosette comes to hug him! He apparently WAS worried that she wouldn’t be safe so what was with the reassurances earlier like she was being a stupid child! And most important

WHY DOES VALJEAN HAVE A BACK LACING WAISTCOAT  WHY DID HE WEAR THAT ON HIS TRIP AWAY  WHO LACED HIM UP WHILE HE WAS GONE  AAAAAAAAH 

okay I’m okay

- wait NO I’m NOT because now it’s time for the Patron Minette to come in and not-rob this place and the show completely destroys Eponine’s moment as the guardian of Marius and Cosette’s happiness!  Instead of her getting to intimidate a bunch of grown armed men into retreat, she’s attacked, threatened, and ultimately rendered  passive, her moment of heroism rendered null when no one comes to her scream, and her role in saving the Valjean house and all in the garden replaced by an actual dog.  I am really pretty furious about this! But the Character Destruction Of Eponine deserves its own post so Moving On FOR NOW...

- ...also are you telling me THIS hyper paranoid, aggressive JVJ doesn’t notice or react to screams and barking dogs 

- holy moly even kneeling Marius is almost as tall as Cosette, that’s not relevant to anything but it’s entertaining to me; it’s also Very Cute to have him comforting her by making himself smaller than her, when they’re both freaking out about her imminent maybe-move. 

- Valjean having a conversation with Eponine instead of just getting her note to move is not inherently The Worst! But the way he treats her just reinforces how cold and uncaring he is. There’s no compassion in him for a poor abused girl who could almost have been his daughter, no concern for how she might be faring, not even an awkward “hey be careful”.  Is it understandable? Yeah, sure. A lot of selfish focus is Understandable and human. But it’s not admirable, it’s not kind, it’s not the actions or attitude of a man who’s learned kindness towards the world through love, or who tries to put others first to the point that it would kill him. It makes sense, for some characters-- but it’s just not Valjean. 

-NICOLETTE IS THE HERO THIS ADAPTATION NEEDS and she’s SO happy to announce that Marius is back to talk to his awful awful Grandpa!

- The whole scene with Marius asking Gillenormand  for permission to marry is very satisfyingly awful and I have no complaints. It’s a bit abbreviated, and I wonder if people who don’t know the era will totally get that this is a question of needing adult legal approval?  but it’s not shortened beyond the amount that Adaptational Space might suggest. I’d take this little scene as a good illustration of the Gillenormand/Marius dynamic for anyone. Also: is that the Yellow Prisoner-Crafted Wallpaper???  BBC Set Design People, you’re the BEST

- I know I’ve already given kudos to the props and set people but I LOVE this little bachelor apartment that Marius and Courfeyrac are sharing, this is so great?? I’ve seen sketches from the era that look so much like this!  Give me a  moment to squeak happily about this place-- the low roof! The clothesline! The clutter! I love it! (@ about 30:00) 

- I HATE EVERYTHING ENJOLRAS  SAYS HERE THOUGH, even if I intend to meme out No Romantic Daydreamers to the FULLEST 

-Cutting back to Valjean and Cosette’s house, I also hate that Cosette defense-flinches when she wakes up! It’s been eight years! That should not still be her auto-reflex if she’s come to feel safe and loved!  My heart! 

Valjean tells her they have to move today. Valjean does NOT tell her where they’re going. Valjean gives her an hour to pack--and Cosette has to run out and ask Toussaint what the address will be and has to LIE TO TOUSSAINT about why she needs it. Valjean, there are secrets you might feel a need to keep from your daughter. WHERE SHE LIVES should not be one of them. “I’m taking you to an address no one knows and also you can’t have it ahead of time” is what kidnappers do! Watching Cosette write her note and move (terrible bgm and all) is breaking my heart--she is so alone in this house--no one is on her side, no one is there to listen to her, no one is really considering her feelings or giving her any explanations, she’s being moved around like a pet. The abuse is less florid than with the Thenardiers, but it’s still there, and I want to cry. 

The scene goes from soldiers marching outside the window of the new apartment to the funeral. Aaaand that seems like a good place to break this giant review in two. 

Randoming Fandoming:

-I’m pretty sure that at around 6:14 a woman and kid in modern clothes just wander in the background behind Marius! This is not a Complaint, these things happen to any production, but it’s fun to have spotted? 

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #177

“i get pretty just to fuck my face up.”

What’s your favorite flavor of ice pop? Strawberry or watermelon. Do you like animal print? What’s your favorite print? Not particularly, but I suppose jaguar. What do you think of foot tattoos? Surprisingly, not a big fan. It's gotta be cute, well-placed, and small. Did your senior class in high school have a class trip? Where did you go? Maybe? I don't remember. What do you normally order at Dunkin Donuts? Chocolate frosted. What do you drink with dinner? It varies. Can be soda, water, milk... Peanuts or sunflower seeds? I don't like either. What is your favorite grocery store to shop at, and how often do you shop for groceries? Sam's Club totally has the best deals, but I don't make the shopping calls here. Who is your favorite character from the last movie you watched? Uhhh the super paranoid lady whose actress is a legend. Where did you have your first kiss? What about your last kiss? His bed; airport. What is the last thing you spoke to your father about? Phone bill. Who do you feel you have the most in common with? Sara. Who in your life causes you the most stress or negative feelings? Myself. Have you ever apologized to someone, but didn’t mean it? I'm sure at some point. What is the one thing that you can’t resist? Reese's, I sometimes cannooooot tell myself no to a Mtn. Dew Voltage, wanting to pet an animal even if it's dangerous, and uhhh I'm sure there's more. Have you ever done another person's homework for money? No. If you could play any piece of music on an instrument, what would it be? Teach me the ending piece from WKM on the piano so I could ruin myself further than just listening to it already does. Have you ever treated someone like they were nothing? I don't believe so. If you could ask 5 questions and get an exact answer, what would you ask? Oh yikes, deep one. Um... 1.) what is the cure for cancer, 2.) cure for Alzheimer's/dementia, 3.) cure for HIV/AIDS, 4.) how can/is it even possible to obtain world peace, and 5.) will I be stable in the future are what come to mind first. Does it frighten you when animals get into fights? I GET VERY SCARED FOR THE ANIMALS. When you were little did you touch just about everything in the store? YUP YUP YUP. Do you ever leave your drinks out in the open at a party? N/A, but I absolutely would not. Ever suffered from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder? Yes. Who is someone you’ll always hate? No one I personally know. How many people do you trust 100 percent? Just one. I would include Mom, but I know she lies about Dad. Do you think you could survive a month of solitary confinement? NO, I really think I'd lose it and kill myself. Do you often start books, yet never finish them? I don't read, but I'd do that if I didn't like it. When was the last time you felt abandoned by someone? Idr. Does the sight of blood gross you out? No. Have you ever gone through a red light? No. Do you fail to stop for stop signs, sometimes? No. What is your favorite eye color in the opposite sex? Blue. When you are sad, do you cheer yourself up, or look to others? It depends, but I usually begin with the former. During which year of your life were you the most unhappy? 2016 can been damned by God themselves. Have you ever seen a bluejay in person? Yes. Have you ever eaten grass/leaves? Probably as a kid. Do you typically like green-colored candies? Yeah! Apple flavor is the bomb.com. Who is the most energetic and happy person you know of? Ryder, my nephew. Who makes you smile the most often? Sara Jane. :') How do you express your happiness? I'm louder, more talkative, goofier. When was the last time you did a good deed? Uhhh idk. It's a tiny thing, but I suppose you could count me getting my old man bub with arthritis up on the bed when he wanted up. What songs make you happy? Lots... Do you like to sing? Sometimes, but I'm not good at it. Where is somewhere that holds fond memories for you? Ummm the little pond behind the community college where we took our first prom photos. That whole day was just extremely magical, and passing it is a severe PTSD trigger so if for whatever reason we're driving past there, Mom goes around it. I did pass it a few months back when I was taking pictures of flowers around the college and I was okay, probably because I didn't even glance at it. What do you think of the gothic stereotype? # A E S T H E T I C Have you ever encountered a black widow? Yup. What scares you, more than anything else? Ending up alone/losing all those I love. Has an animal ever peed on you? Lol yeah...  Pet rodents have multiple times when getting them accustomed to being held, a puppy probably has, and Venus (my snake) did once after I held her for like an hour, aha. Couldn't be mad at that angel, she was obviously so comfy. What would make a cool substitute color for the sun? Pink. Is purple a good color for a car? Sure. Do you prefer green or purple/red grapes? Purple; crisper. What is something you like that is sour? Warheads. What was the spiciest thing you’ve ever eaten? Some hot wings at BWW with one of the hottest sauces. When was the last time you had a real deep chat? Idk, I'm sure something with Sara. Who did you last see on webcam? I've no idea. Have you ever discovered something gross in your food at McDonalds? No. What’s your favorite flavor of Ramen? I only like the spicy chicken Yakisoba ones. Have you ever spent the night in jail? No. Name a really popular television show you never got into: Ha, a lot. Game of Thrones, for one, but I'd be willing to give it a second chance via more episodes and a different attitude and actually kinda want to. Sara, add that to our list. Do you listen to any unsigned bands/singers? Who? No, I don't believe so. I need to start listening to my old friend's band, though, because I really want to support them; they work so hard and are very serious about taking their band somewhere. Nova Mortis if you're interested and like heavy metal. What do you find really interesting? THE PARANORMAL, for one. Genetics, psychology, fossils, abandoned buildings and shacks, natural selection and evolution, outer space, differences in languages and cultures, and so much more. Who is your favorite video game character? Spyro! What kind of pictures do you post on Facebook/Instagram/Snapchat most frequently? I like never post pictures, but selfies on FB, then I have two photography Instagrams. Do you remember the first person you felt sexually attracted to? Seriously, Jason. Have you ever been on vacation with a significant other? No. Is there anything on your bucket list that you’re hoping to cross off soon? A lot of things, but. Probably won't be soon as many include travel. Of all of your friends’ significant others, who do you get along with best? And least? Sam's wife Kieley is an absolute doll; least, idk. What would your life be like if you had married your first love? HAHAHAHAHA I REEEEEAAAAALLY DON'T WANT TO PICTURE THAT KNOWING NOW HE DIDN'T/DOESN'T BELIEVE IN ME AND CAN'T COMMUNICATE FOR SHIT. What is the most difficult or time-consuming thing you’ve ever cooked? Would you make it again? N/A Have you ever had a platonic friend that everyone insisted you should be in a relationship with? Girt, hardcore. Eventually did, but we know how that went. Is there anything about a person’s sexual past that might stop you from wanting to date them? Yup: if they've assaulted someone, prostitution is involved, casual flings/one-night stands have happened, being/have been a porn star, cheated before. If someone asked your closest friends/family members what career path might suit you best, what do you think they would say? Like, everyone will answer that question with "vet." Have you ever considered “unplugging”/taking a significant period of time away from technology? lol nope I doubt I'd last a day with no technology. Do you use a photo editor? Lightroom, Photoshop, sometimes PhotoScape. Is your dad overweight? Quite the opposite. Ever been honked at? Yeah. Which do you prefer, doctor or dentist? Dentist; I'm never nervous for them. Name two things you put whipped cream on? I haaaate whipped cream. Texture thing. Favorite thing you’ve ever painted? Two meerkats grooming, done on a huge thing of burlap. What’s your favorite type of sushi? Never tried, never will. Have you ever had an ulcer? No. What’s the name of the most recent baby a friend has had? Scarlett. Have you ever taken medication to help you fall asleep faster? Yup. I had a long insomnia streak where I physically couldn't sleep without Melatonin. What is your current favorite song? I'm hooked on "The Bottom is a Rock" by Mother Mother rn. If you had to move to another country, where would you move? Canada. Do you have a balcony? No. Are you jealous of anyone, even mildly? If so, who? Yeah, my sisters, as well as some real successful friends. Have you ever done a craft you saw in a magazine? No. Have you ever made a recipe you found in a magazine? No. Who is a singer that has given you chills? Celine Dion, Loreena McKennitt, Sebastian Bach, David Draiman, and Amy Lee off the top of my head. What act would you perform in a talent show? I wouldn't, I got nothin'. What area are you the most gifted in, do you think? Um... writing, I guess? Which style of wedding dress is your favorite? BALLGOWN BITCH Do you enjoy editing videos? Ye! Do you enjoy editing photos? Yup. Who do you think is the most attractive actor? I see u Jason Momoa. Have you ever been caught doing something REAL embarrassing by your parents? I don't believe so. Do you believe in reincarnation? No. Do you have any of your neighbors as friends on Facebook? No. When was the last time you thought about sex, or sexual things? Ummm within the past few days probably, at least briefly? Are there any flowers planted outside your house? We have a tall bush that sprouts big, pink flowers, if that counts. Does anyone in your family smoke? Dad. What was the very first election you voted in? I haven't yet. Do you have a drone? No. Are you the type that’s too ashamed to ask for or use directions? No, rather too shy. Were you tired when you woke up this morning? YEAH. I slept like shit and had to get up early for a VR assessment. You overhear two people gossiping about you; what do you do? I feel like I'd say something sarcastic to them. Or be more mature about it and ask why. Or cry. Are you proud of who you are? Eh, only in certain areas... Is your vision good? I can barely read the line below the big "E." So no lmao. Are you a legal adult? Yeah but idk how. Has anyone ever called you a flirt? No. What was the last compliment your received? The assessment lady at VR loved my hair. Do you know any sign language? No. Who was the last person to give you a gift? Sara, on our anniversary. Do you trust the media? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA BITCH NO. If you could kill off one species of animal, which would it be? Can gnats like????? not???????? Idk if they have a single useful function????????? What kind of cookies are your favorite? Chocolate chip. Who’d you last say I love you to? My mom. What’s the most overpaid job in your opinion? I'm not educated on this enough to give you an informed answer. What’s the last thing you wrote down? Working out a math problem during the assessment. When’s the last time you didn’t sleep in your own bed? Over a month ago. When’s the last time you heard a gunshot? Idk. Who’d you get mad at last? Myself. What’s the last thing that annoyed you? Bentley wouldn't listen. When’s the last time you gave someone advice? I think yesterday? Do you think you’re lucky, unlucky, or neither? Neither. Who did you last disappoint? Myself. Do you enjoy learning? Of course!!!! I mean there're subjects I have no interest in and don't enjoy, but learning as a whole is great. People say you learn something new every day, so what did you learn today? Well it was nothing big, but that I could return Miku before she got hurt since Mitsu didn't appreciate a new "buddy." Yes or no: eyebrow piercings? They can look super badass or awful depending on your face and eyebrow thickness imo. When I say The Beatles, what is the first song that comes to mind? "Yellow Submarine" even tho I hate that song???? In your opinion, what is the very worst type of weather? Hot and humid, especially with no breeze. Just no. You can only listen to 1 band for the rest of your life, who do you pick? DON'T MAKE ME. What is something that you had to learn the hard way? DON'T. THINK. A RELATIONSHIP. IS WITHOUT A SINGLE CHANCE. OF. SOMEONE. LEAVING. EVEN. IN THE MOST "SECURE" ONES. When was the last time you felt like your heart was actually breaking? Ahhhh I'm not sure. Either something with Mom or Sara. Who was the last person you cried in front of? Mom. If your ex called you right now, would you answer? I don't have his number, so I wouldn't answer. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? Sara. Do you want your tongue pierced? It is. 10/10 recommend for cute factor, but 0/10 for the healing process and pain asjfawiwo. Mine's through the very tip of my tongue and because that area is so sensitive, it was so painful that I became immediately nauseous. Pain didn't entirely vanish for almost two weeks. BUT I have zero regrets, so worth it. Is there something that happened in your past you hate talking about? Yeah. What’s one thing in your life that you wish you could change? Financial position. Have you ever been in a perfect relationship? Ha, don't ever believe those exist. Do you still talk to the person who broke your heart the most? Nope. Have you ever done something sexual that you regret? Ummm I don't believe so. Well, I don't know if I'd take back going all the way or whatever the fuck that was, maybe I would. idk Ever had a person who was obsessed with you so much that it scared you? No. Can you drive, and if you can, do you like it? I'm capable, but I don't enjoy it at all. Have you ever said anything to the last person you kissed that you regret? Yeah, being in a shit mood and/or being impulsive with my words. Do you like french fries? Who the FUCK sayin no to this. Have you ever ate so much you puked? No. Do you care about what others think of your physical appearance? To some degree/in certain aspects. Would you rather eat cookies or brownies? Probs brownies. Have you ever played a drinking game? Which ones? No. Are you good with managing your finances? I don't. Not in that position yet. What is the closest pizza place to your house? Domino's. Do you have any silly nicknames or pet names? Hmmmm no. Are you any good at drawing? Some things. Is there anything unusual about your house? No. Can you maintain a text conversation or do you run out of things to say? I think I'm good at keeping *text* convos going, surprisingly. Do you find it hard to talk to strangers, even people who work in stores? YEAH!!!!!!! Have you ever tasted goat’s milk? No. Did you ever take classes for a musical instrument when you were younger? Yup. Band member all through middle school, stopped after my junior year of HS. Do you snore when you sleep? No, but I talk a loooot. Who is the first person who broke your heart? Dad. Do you know anyone who has fought in a war? Jason's dad was in the Navy. What religion are you? Theist, which basically just entails me believing there's a god/goddess/some sorta beginning deity, but hell if I know anything about them. I make my own guesses. Who is the last person you gave a ride to, and where did you take them? I don't have a license or my own car. What is the last thing you untruthfully denied? Hm. I'm not sure. Have you ever ridden on a real train? No. Name ONE good memory about your last ex? He's absolutely hilarious and I miss hanging out more! Would you consider yourself dishonest? Not gonna bullshit and claim I never am, but in general, no. Do you tend to let people break through your walls easily? HAHA YEAH RIGHT. What are you superstitious about? Nothing. What is the coolest thing you can do? Oh boy, hell if I know. I know from experience people are often surprised how even skittish animals/pets seem to be drawn to me; does that count? Is there anyone you want to hook up with that you haven’t? Not my thing.

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If I were to die in the next 5-10mins what would I do?

I'm not talking about suicide. Pls no. Truthfully I could never take my own life. I'm talking about like getting shot and bleeding out or getting hit by a car. Something that is beyond my control basically.

In those last moments though, what would I do? Haha well you see I'd like to think I'd text my friends and tell them I love them and that I'm sorry for being a shitty person? Sounds like a plan amirite?

I however hate, and I mean haaaate being a burden/looking for attention. So after careful consideration and much much muuuuuuch thought. I've come to the conclusion that my best course of action would be to just die alone.

You see, I wouldn't want to call someone and for them to feel upset? I guess??? I wouldn't want to call someone and have them frantically running around trying to figure out what to do. Of course I would love to have someone by my side, to help settle my nerves, but if not. I'd want my last moments to be calm and as unburdened as possible. As much as I am scared of dying by myself, I think it's the right thing to do?

I think those are like 5 people I could potentially call. However I know my dad's probably the only one who wouldn't break down over the phone, so the other 4 don't count. (I'm giving myself too much credit)

By calling them though, I'm running the risk of them being like scarred forever bc of me. I wouldn't want that to be someones last memory of me. That would literally hurt someone. Again maybe I'm giving myself too much credit here, but whatever, it's my story not yours.

Could you imagine that? Getting a call at an odd hour. Maybe it's 2:28am and your phone rings, you roll over in bed to look at your phone and it's a number you don't recognize/someone you haven't talked to in a while. So you pick up and go "Hello???" Then you hear them. A slight whisper, just barely able to speak but trying to tell you how much you meant to them yada yada yada. Boooring.

Okay, now that's sad, but imagine they don't pick up. Imagine them looking at their phone and going "whatever" so they go back to bed. You're just lying there, unable to speak, the agony of dying alone is crushing your soul into pieces. Then you die, knowing that your last few moments on Earth were shared by no one.

Now it's the next day, whoever you called is just getting up, it's practically 2 o'clock in the afternoon now and they go to check their phone. They look at the number/person that called them and try to call back, but they get no answer. So they go onto social media before starting their day, and then they see it. A couple people posted on your Facebook page.

"another angel in heaven 👼"

"R.I.P miss you bro"

"gone too soon 😔"

Posts like this keep coming in. They're confused to what's going on. It's takes them a while, but eventually they piece it together. They put their phone down and just sit there. They don't cry, they just sit there on the edge of their bed. Motionless for a couple minutes. Before they ultimately pick up their phone again and continue the cycle.

What upsets me about FB is that sure, I have a lot of friends on there, but how many of them do I actually hang out with/see? But all if not most of them are posting on my page. Trying to remember the good times and stuff like that.

I call bullshit.

I know, for a fact that there are maybe, 4 people? (aside from my relatives) That would actually have an arguable reason to be sad. Anyone else is just lying to themselves. Not one of them was gonna message me and ask me to coffee or for lunch if I was still there.

I'd like to imagine that in heaven (if I end up there lmao) the first thing you do is have a huuuuge feast at your favorite restaurant. (Dying is hard work) With anyone you want, regardless of whether or not they're dead. I mean it's heaven right? So you all catch up and talk about your new life and about all the good and all the dumb things you did in life. It's a fun time.

I guess the part that really ticks me off, is that at the end of the day, when you're up in heaven. The amount of people that you actually mean something too, could potentially all be sat down at a table in your favorite restaurant.

To me that's the craziest and scariest thought I could ever have.

You see when I was a kid I would run home from kindergarten and tell me dad all about my 69282627 friends and how we were all going to live in a giant tree house, with water balloon cannons, and a pizza room! There would be a basketball court a movie theater and we'd play video games all day. Machine gun turrets EVERYWHERE! (Don't make fun of me I was like 6 or whatever)

After listening to me drone on and on maybe a million-bazillion-kajillian times my dad sat me down and tried to explain the importance of friends. I was like "duuuuuh I have 7282628 best friends and we'd all DIE for each other." (Bc you know, when you're 6 you need all your friends to be RIDE OR DIE ones) he got up and gathered a hand full of change from his area and brought it over to me. (I think you see where I'm going with this) he gave me 5 pennies and I thought to myself "Wow, that's a lot of money" (I didn't think this bc I was 6, I thought that bc I was dumb. Just to be clear) We continued and he gave me another 5 cents so now I had ten. I could barely fit all the pennies in my tiny hands and my dad started to talk. He said something about me having a lot of pennies and I said "well duh dad, you gave them to me" he went on to explain the importance of good friends. Yada yada yada, you know the saying "I'd rather have 4 quarters than 100 pennies" and being six I was like "Naaaaah 100 is way more than 4!"

So I ran off and probably went off to eat some glue or something. As I got older I'm not gonna lie, I forgot pretty much everything my dad told me. Eventually I came to the conclusion though, ALL BY MYSELF, that it's about quality over quantity. (Unless we're talking about booze though. Than it's just whatever gets me drunko the fastest)

So yes, I guess I succeeded! Quality over quantity! Woot woot! I'm still pissed though

What I guess I'm actually pissed off about is that I never got the chance, rather I never tried to become closer with people that I wanted to. Mostly out of fear. Out of being rejected? I guess I'm not necessarily pissed that people would comment sad shit on my wall (again, maybe too much credit) but what I'm upset about is that I was never close enough to them. I just don't feel like I deserve it. I wish I had the courage to tell people how I feel and how hard I want them to think I'm cool and that I desperately want to be their friend, buuuut I don't.

So I guess what I'm trying to say is, live your life. I know it sounds cliche, but at the end of the day. When you're dying. You're going by yourself. So live! Please for the love of God, just live. Tell that guy who brings you bread that he's kinda weird, but other than that, he's p cool. Tell that girl who beats you up that her left hook could use a little work. Just be you and try to surround yourself with so many people that when you go to heaven God has to get someone to bring in more tables! I don't care, just do what makes you happy.

You never know how much time you have left.

(TL:DR)

#yolo

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OH FUCK U GUYS SHOULD I BUY ALL THE KINDGOM HEARTS IN A ONCENESS???

Holy jesus i knew they did hd ps4 ports of the playstation games but they ALSO added all the final mix content that engkishspeaking fans never got during my childhood? And they ALSO remade chain of memories entireky in 3d with Very Animated Ice Dad?? And they ALSO remade BBS despite it not needing it nearly as much as the old games and thet ALSO remade friggin dream drop distance which came out on a goddamn current gen console?? Like they seriously just made a non portable version?? Now all the spinoffs are on the same console at last?? Why did you not just do this in the first place?? I mean the psp and 3ds games were basically ps2 equivelant graphics and disc space anyway...

Oh and fuckin ALLLLSOOOOO

Also the final mixes of all of those! Also a movie version of the plot of khux! And also Coded and Days, which is a really big shame cos Coded is indeed sparse enough on content to deserve it but Days was my FAVOURITE GAME and it sucks its the only one that didnt get remade! I mean its in the same spinoff category as bbs and com, its not a cheapo mess like coded. Nothing else in the series deserves to be shoved in the Coded bin, even khux at least has better plot even if the backtracking and lootbox shit makes it harder to get to it...

Anyway ALSO a random new sidestory with Aqua going thru like one dungeon or somethin?? I dunno?? Its like a glorified tech demo for kh3, its just 'hey fuckin look what we can do visually on a proper ps4 game' and wow how have i never fuckin heard of this it looks so pretty!! I mean i dont know if its even more than 5 hours or somethin but.. Pretty!! And apparantly you get unlockable costumes for her or somethin? I hope they keep that feature in kh3! Itd rock if it wasnt just the main character too, and we could dress up riku and kairi and goofy and donald and roxas and axel and every the friends :3 new secret to how they defeat xehanort: slap a bow on his damn head

ALSO ALSO

All of this is available in one big bundle pack for £90 which ALSO contains literally kh3. THIS IS HOW THEYRE HANDLING PREORDERS?? THATS SUCH A GOOD WAY TO HANDLE PREORDERS!! Get a discounted price on this new game but while youre waiting for it you get to enjoy an (also discounted) giant fuckin 300 hours memory lane compilation of every damn thing from the last 15 years in one beautiful updated package. Holy fuck its like they made this for ME SPECIFICALLY!this is the perfect way to get people back into the franchise who dropped off in The Great KH3 Wait cos they couldnt afford all the damn million portables needed to gather that Dank Lore. God fuckin hell it cost more than the price of this bundle just to play any one of those games individually on some stupid retro machine i bought exclusively for that one damn game. THAT PSP STILL ROTS IN MY KITCHEN CUPBOARD YO

So

So so so so so

Guys

Please give me permission to buy this

Or like please convince me not to waste my money if you think i'd waste my money??

I really just DONT KNOW! ive been out of the fandom for so long and my last experience was really hatting BBS and feeling horribly out of place as everyone else raved about it being the best thing ever. And i know NOTHING about what kh3 is gonna be or whether its even possible for me to get back into the fandom and like.. Care about it at all again. I just got fuckin fatigued with it and my teenage years were like me clinging on to the edge of a cliff by my fingernails begging everyone to believe me that Its Still Good, Honestly, Its Worth It while square enix is up there all LONG LIVE THE KING and they push me off. Into a stampede of PSPs. Somehow.

And then aaargh i know i literally only came back to the fandom because organization xiii fuckin eternally holds my heart in their lil grabby hands. It was indeed a good nostalgic moment remembering how i loved them! And getting a new appreciation for Vexen and being blown away by how much he should have been my favourite but i just never got to play COM as a kid and then when i played it as an adult all the way after bbs i ended up quitting before even getting to meet half the org cos this one stupid 'defeat 99 shadows jn 99 seconds' mission kicked my ass. I'M JUST NOT GOOD AT ACTION RPGS OKAY!

Aaaagh thats another Big Worry, yknow? Like asa kid i was Bad, as an adult i'm Barely Better , and as a both i never enjoyed beat em up thingies of any kind at all. And on top of that i was never big into disney, i never saw them as any sort of 'childhood magic' but just some naff cliche shit retelling public domain fairy tales in the safest way possible with a bunch of obnoxious celebrity cameos. Also lion king and snow white terrified me as a kid. Also i associated robin hood with my dead grandma. Also as a kid i couldnt appreciate good artistic ability or voiceacting, i was all about the story, yknow? And most of kh's adaptations are really rushed and barebones versions of an already shoddy story, without any of the visual splendor. ALSO i never saw any of the darker or more emotionally focused stuff like Hunchback and Beauty and the Beast until way after i quit playing kingdom hearts, oddly enough. Wtf beauty and thebeast is actually real good and looks so far beyond its time!! Wtf hunchback has my goddamn evil dad in it!! Why did i miss the only good didneys!! Why did snow white traumatize me and those didnt!!

ANYWAY the point im getting at is that im not inherantly predisposed to like.. Any of kingdom hearts's appeal at all. I didnt know half the disneys and i didnt have any hype for the others. None of my fave final fantasy games made it into it until the sequel and then never again after that. CMON I CANT JUST DEAL WITH ONE VIVI CAMEO Y'ALL! And i haaaate the genre and its an uphill struggle to play a game like that with my stupid inelegant sausage hands. So i just came for the story and then everything after the first game has been conspiring to ruin it for me, sheesh! I felt so much for that short concise self contained first episode and then i fall more and more out of love as they establish this status quo of everything being retconnable so dont bother get attatched to it. Blablabla the entire worldbuilding is different now and everyone was secretly someone else and please memorize a bunch of shit from fifty fuckin spinoffs and also time travel and cloning suddenly exist and ALSO Grandpa Onlyblackmanintheworld is generic motiveless evil and everything was him even of it looked like it was actually a sympathetic villain. *insert dio meme face*

So yeah now im just.. In it for the characters?? And the cute art style and monsters and lovely animations and big fanfic oc potentials stuff. But man even tho i had Big Feel for those things i was able to completely drop it all and forget about the series for years, that was just HOW BAD the kh3 drought was. Steven universe hiatus eat your heart out...

So ffff i dont even KNOW if i'll be able to get feels'd for these characters again or if they actually hold up to modern bunni standards of huggable. And i know all the ones i want to hug the most got like zero sympathy and all died horribly and were also retroactively revealed to be clone oldmanvirus somethingy and aaaaaagh. But also something something people say they all came back and got cured?? And this is why?? I am here?? Again?? And buying?? The thing??

Like man fuck i am already building it up so much in my head aaaa what if i dont actually love axel as much as i used to love axel and i dont love Grumply Science as much as i always love That Character Archetype seriously MAN how was he like THE ONLY ONE I DIDNT GET TO SEE AS A KID

Aaauuuuaggh gahhh like maybe this will reignite my passion for the series or maybe i'll just be all critical and dumb and waste all my moneys

Guys... What do??

[goron-king-darunia]

Tagged (by vague gesture of “if you wanna do it, TAG!”) by @biophilie like, 2 years ago, so I’m finally doing it. Rules: Choose any three fandoms and answer the questions, then tag 10 people you want to know better.

My Three Fandoms: Legend of Zelda, Tales of Symphonia DotNW, and One Piece since those 3 have taken up big chunks of my attention over the years. Would do Darkwood since it’s a current interest but since there are so few characters, it would make the meme here harder so... Darkwood will have to wait.

The first character you loved: LoZ: I was a slut for Link as a kid, TBF I liked most protagonists, but I liked Link a LOT. DotNW: I actually liked Ratatosk a lot at first because he was cool and mysterious and tough! My first impulse was really liking Richter’s design but the first character I loved/really liked based on gameplay and actual characterization was Ratatosk. One Piece: I really liked Red Haired Shanks and was sad when he didn’t really show up again for a LONG time.

The character you never expected to love so much: Loz: There’s a few so I’m gonna cheat a bit. In OoT and MM, Ruto and Skull Kid were just kind of characters that existed but I didn’t like much. Didn’t actively dislike them but didn’t really bother taking an interest in them. But I like them a lot more now, especially with how they’re characterized in “non-canon” material like the Manga and Hyrule Warriors. The only other character I can recall from the game series that I was surprised that I liked was Peatrice from Skyward Sword. At first it was just like “Oh, yeah, she’s just the girl who stores your items, whatever. She’s neat I guess.” But then she started changing. She got more cheerful when Link came around more and showed an interest in him and when she asked if he liked her I just couldn’t say no! And then she just became so obnoxiously bubbly and happy about it and I LOVED THAT SO MUCH. Unironically I ship Peatrice and SS Link because, like, Link and Zelda are great friends but they don’t interact much since Link has to try to save her and Zelda has goddess things to worry about. Peatrice is just always there and unlike Zelda who already has a good rapport with Link at the start of the game, you get to SEE Peatrice warming up to him and I am SO soft for that! SO SOFT! Actually, one more also from SS. Groose. He’s an obnoxious, selfish, gloating bastard man, but by the end of the game with all the changes he went through, he totally grew on me as a cool dude. Especially with how he and Impa got along.  DotNW: Slight cheat here too since the character didn’t debut in the game but... Colette. I honestly didn’t like her that much in Symphonia. I just kind of viewed her as an object that motivated Lloyd for a while and the impetus for everything happening in the game and it wasn’t until the end of Symphonia that I really started thinking of her as more than just a ditz that Lloyd happens to like. I’m not really sure when it happened but I started really appreciating her after DotNW, and not really because of anything she did. I guess I just eventually noticed a lot of her finer points and all the ways she contributed and how her kindness is actually super refreshing and hopeful and how soft that is considering what she’d gone through. See also my next point on Nami because hooo boy I was kind of a shitlord kid and needed to get through some things... One Piece: Nami. I HAAAATED her when I was young. Partially because of internalized sexism (probably shit I learned from sexist media, my dad, and just the lack of trust I had for any girl that wasn’t my friend because of massive bullying as a kid, but I digress.) and partially because one of the biggest parts of Nami’s arc early on was her utter betrayal of the crew. Like, we find out WHY later, and obviously I TOTALLY get where she was coming from now and all but as a kid that was just UNCALLED FOR. I also HEAVILY viewed her as the “no fun allowed” type that was actively impeding my new fave, Luffy, from having all the fun he could want because that shit costs money and the money is HERS. As a broke Millenial, I now 10000000% get where Nami is coming from and her financial responsibility is honestly hella impressive because she absolutely DOES NOT withhold the treasure from the rest of the crew, she fucking BUDGETS it. In general, I tended to dislike a lot of leading females for being catty or killjoys or a lot of other things when honestly, they were just being completely normal humans. Glad I grew out of that shit because while Nami still isn’t my fave, she’s fucking amazing.

The character you relate to the most: Loz: It’s changed over the years. I relate to Ruto a lot more now because yo, I would also just fuck off into the gut of my people’s patron Deity if my dad was being a pain and trying to marry me off (okay, so this is Manga exclusive, sue me) and 10/10 would give a precious family heirloom to a cute boy that rescued me. But more than that, IDK, she’s just... a lil’ spoiled but in a cute way, a lil’ tomboyish, but overall, for a Princess, she’s just kind of doing her thing, she’s responsible when it matters. But for OoT, y’all KNOW Darunia is my patronus because DAYUM. Chunky but strong (I’m a wuss but shut up), Grumpy butt but cares about his people, actually totes a fun dude when he’s not stressed about a food crisis, says “fuck you” directly to a fucking evil asshole despite the consequences, treats a fucking 11 year old kid like a full human being (I do not agree with leveraging a kid to fucking fight a dragon but... Link could handle it so...) names his own kid after Link because why the fuck not, befriends anyone that does him a favor and treats them like family. Dude’s just got chill old man vibes and I dig that shit. 10/10 relate to just being a fat dude that is grumpy but also wants to befriend everyone. HOWEVER, I think my top tier relatable character is Midna from Twilight Princess because that bitch is just me. Cursed to be a hot bitch trapped in a cute chunky body (I am working on myself. XD) 10/10 spoiled and bitchy as fuck, cheeky lil’ asshole who’s actually very sweet, think’s Link is dumb but also cute, cares about her world but ALSO cares about Link’s world, a lil’ selfish but also HELLA selfless because she cared more about Link and Zelda than her own life and cared more about her people than her own safety because she just fucking WENT TO FIX THAT SHIT when Zant started causing trouble, even though she didn’t have to. She’s everything I am or aspire to be. 10/10 one of the best Zelda characters. DotNW: Hard to say. I identify a lot with aspects of Richter, Aster, and Emil. I don’t have a lot of self confidence and am a bit of a shy bean, lil’ grumpy, but also a complete goober and an idealist, 10/10 would walk into hell for someone I love without thinking twice and would make deals with demons to try to save someone I care about because I am a dumbass. I love the DotNW boys because the DotNW boys are me. One Piece: Chopper. I just really fucking vibe with the whole “nobody likes me EXCEPT HOLY SHIT SOME PEOPLE SOMEHOW LIKE ME, WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO DESERVE THAT?” thing he has going on, as well as the whole glutton for praise but telling people to shut up when they praise me thing he has. I for real wanted to be a doctor when I was younger BECAUSE of Chopper. I’m just a weird little bean that doesn’t fit in anywhere very well while also being a slut for praise and wanting to take care of others and help them because other people have cared for me. Low key also vibe with Usopp because dude absolutely gels with kids, is a huge fucking wuss but deals with it anyway, will literally fight someone over petty shit and then come back and fight side by side with his bud’s again.

The character you’d slap: LoZ: Mmmmm. Hard to say. Like, obvs the villains but IDK who else I’d really want to slap? Does it count if I want to slap Anjuu/the Cucco Lady but, like... gentle and on the butt and in a sexy way? IDK, man. I’d feel bad but maybe Slap Mido? He looks like a kid so I’d feel REALLY bad for it, but aren’t Kokiri literally just kids forever? Asshole could be 100 years old, man... Either way he’s kinda a brat. 10/10 would slap early-game Groose from Skyward Sword also, but I’d feel bad about it because he ends up being a decen guy later. Also would slap Ghirahim for being both sexy and evil. DotNW: Alice for deciding that “never being weak again” means treating everyone else like garbage, even though I 1000% get where she’s coming from. Richter for being a fucking dumbass and not asking for help and deciding that demons were a good option and manipulating a child older dude with a magic core was a great idea even though I would do the exact same thing in his shoes. Ratatosk for being a murderous prick and starting the whole thing even though I absolutely understand where he’s coming from and I would also probably accidentally smite someone if I was a fucking spirit and in a shit mood because the only thing I really cared about was fucking ripped away from me. Honestly, mostly just me slapping people that remind me of me for doing exactly what I would do. Sensible me slapping actual me because actual me is a fucking dumbass emotional bitch with violent tendencies. One Piece: The fucking villains, obviously, Dr. Hililuck/Hiriluck for being a fucking bastard in the manga, holy shit was he an asshole! And also FUCKING SANJI. Jesus fuck, I am not over the pervy shit he does, what a creep.

Three favourite characters (in order of preference): LoZ: This is gonna be REAL hard because I love a lot of characters so... Midna, Link, and Darunia? It’s hard man. I love a lot of characters SO MUCH and it’s really hard to pick faves! DotNW: Richter, Emil, Aster. Emil and Aster share the same level of favoritism, but Richter is my number one. One Piece: Chopper, Zoro, Luffy. I used to like Luffy way more than I do now, but he’s still a fucking dork and I still like him tons.

A character you liked at first but don’t anymore: LoZ: I can’t really think of any, but I guess the character I waffle on a bit is Malon. Sometimes she’s like “Heck yeah! FAVE!” and sometimes I’m like “Eh, she exists...” IDK, I really like most of the characters. DotNW: I used to like Zelos a lot, but not anymore. Yeah this is kinda cheating since he ALSO didn’t debut in DotNW, but he’s in it so... TBF I like him in DotNW BETTER than in the first Symphonia, but not as much as I used to like him overall. One Piece: Fucking Sanji. I used to like him before the creepy factor set in. What really hit home for me was the Thriller Bark arc where he outright says he wanted the power of invisibility to creep on girls. Fucking nasty. The womanizing thing was just a quirk before that. I don’t think I’m ever gonna be over it. So gross and creepy now knowing he actively thought about creeping on girls using a special power. I know guys say this is a common thing and just how dudes are but no. That’s fucking sick. It’s one thing to say “yeah, I want to oggle women because tiddies are sexy” or whatever. It’s another thing to say “I WANT TO SPY ON WOMEN WITHOUT THEM KNOWING SO I CAN SEE TIDDY.” and it’s a third thing to say that IN A WORLD WHERE IT IS PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE TO BE INVISIBLE that you WOULD USE THAT POWER TO STARE AT WOMEN WITHOUT THEM KNOWING.

Three otps: LoZ: Link and basically everyone, but let’s narrow that. Link and Zelda is a classic, Link and Ruto is a guilty pleasure, Link and Peatrice is the underdog ship that I dig a lot. DotNW: Every combo of Richter, Emil, and Aster, enough said. One Piece: Luffy and food because he’s Ace, just let him fucking eat. Zoro and whoever he ends up liking. Tashigi maybe. Chopper and Milky.

Tagging: Anyone that wants to do it~

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What are you're drunk Stark/stark SOs headcanons, I only have one (for Sansa) that she's a total flirt when she's drunk and goes FULL alayne stone

So I’ve already done the Starks here, but how bout I give you drunk Stark SO headcanons: 

Theon: The sloppiest drunk ever. Oddly confident when it comes to flirting but a general Mess otherwise. He 1000% admitted that he liked Robb while drunk. 

He hugged Robb and then did the robot for 10 minutes on the dance floor, asked the DJ to play classical music, and then grabbed the mic and yelled “I LOVE ROBB STARK!!!!!” he then giggled and shushed the mic and said, “shhhhh don’t tell him”. Robb grinned like a sucker, and when Theon woke up the next day with the worst hangover, he found a little post-it on his pillow that said “Robb likes Theon…shhh don’t tell Theon. ~ Robb” Theon was a little mortified but his happiness overpowered it. 

Drink of choice: Theon is a Guinness guy. He’ll chug two bottles and immediately get tipsy he’s such a mess of a human being I love him. 

Ygritte: Even more intrusive than she usually is lmao. She’s never been great with the “personal bubble” thing, but when she’s drunk she’ll practically sit on people’s laps. They’ll remind her and she’ll go “oh sorry” and literally roll off. 

Ygritte at 2 AM: “Heyyyyyyyyy Jon Snowwwww - stop screaming it’s just me - anyway, you want to party with me and Tormund?” 

Drink of choice: Tequila, usually, a Sazerac, and on more than one occassion, half a bottle of vodka. 

Margaery: She only ever really gets tipsy, and she’s delightfully extra-into Sansa when that happens. Will usually pull Sansa in really close while they dance and there will 100% be making out whilst dancing. 

Once she hits “drunk” status, Margaery gets very rambly and wordy (Sansa lowkey thinks this is why Marg doesn’t get drunk). Margaery’s snapchat story will usually be filled with her ranting about something or introducing her snapchat followers to new people at the pub or club. 

“HELLO - HELL - am i recording - HELLO EVERYONE I WOULD LIKE TO INTRODUCE YOU TO MY NEW FRIEND PODRICK WHAT A SWEETHEART” 

Drink of choice: Used to be wine but she hasn’t really enjoyed it much after meeting Cersei. Now she enjoys a nice Cosmopolitan. 

Gendry: A Good and Happy drunk. Will usually be screaming and “woo”-ing with the crowd and offering to buy drinks for the whole bar. He and Robb can’t drink together because they will offer to buy drinks and they will not have money and they will get chased by a group of angry drunk guys. 

Gendry also just wants to cuddle all the time. Will often envelope Arya and bring her into a huge bear hug yelling how much he loves her. 

Arya, her voice half muffled by Gendry’s chest: “I hate you” “I LUV YOU TOO ARYAAAAAAAAAAAA”

Drink of choice: Will either drink the shittiest beer and claim it’s good or have really exquisite mixed drinks and drink it out a crazy straw. There is no in between. 

Jojen: Jojen’s been drunk exactly once. Nobody knew he was drunk because he still spoke about his visions. Jojen doesn’t really like drinking and he haaaates partying so he prefers to stay home. Bran dragging him to a party consists of Jojen passive aggressively sulking in the corner until an hour later when Bran is tipsy and wants to leave. 

A Poor Poor Soul: “Heyyyy, Jojen right, want a drink man?” 

Jojen, bitterly: “I saw you, darkness shrouded you, your heart was slowing and -”

Person: “Ooooohkay no drink got it.” 

Drink of choice: None if he can help it. He does, however, make hangover cures. They’re disgusting (Bran thinks that’s intentional for whoever wakes Jojen up in their drunken stupor) but they work so everyone sucks it up and drinks it. 

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Let’s have a true or false one for a change, yay. Your bedroom is usually untidy. I dunno what about untidiness makes it become ‘unusual,’ but my room is always generally clean because my mom is a clean freak and she likes seeing all the rooms in her house spotless. You know how to cook. Hell no. But I definitely should start learning how to. You cook at home more often than you eat out. You love to exercise and stay fit. Back when I had weight training as a PE elective, it was so so fun to have regular exercise even though I was so uncomfortably sweaty and almost faint from all the routines we had to do, because I legitimately felt the improvement it was doing to my body. I’ve never been able to keep up the training since the class ended though, so I find that a bit sad. Your house has a basement. No we don’t. They’re generally not a thing here, along with attics.

You don’t like rollercoasters. Fuck any amusement park ride. I can’t ride any of them because my motion sickness won’t allow me to haha. You don’t have a Facebook account. I do, but there are many times I wish I just didn’t. You did laundry today. It’s a chore that’s usually never designated to us; my parents prefer to do it. You have a crush on somebody. Yuh, my girlfriend. You’re a smoker. I do smoke but I’ve never bought my own pack/lighter. I only leech off of Gab’s packs, and she’s more than willing to give me some of her sticks because she doesn’t want to finish up the pack herself and end up dependent on them. So... I’m kinda doing her a service by asking for some of her sticks... HAHAHAHAHA nah that was a joke ok but yeah, that’s the case with us. Your parents are still together. Yeah, they’ve been together for the last 27 years. But honestly, the older I get the more I see how incompatible they are, or at least how big of a bitch my mom is in the relationship, and how my dad doesn’t deserve it at all. Hypothetically, if they did announce that they were going to break it off: 1) I wouldn’t even be surprised, and 2) I wouldn’t even hesitate to pick which parent to stay with. You’re sitting on a chair or couch right now. I’m sitting on a chair at our rooftop, but it’s really more of a bench.

You know somebody who is adopted. Yes, a handful. You have half-siblings. You have more important things to be doing right now. I have more important things to be working on in general, but not right now, it’s 11 in the evening lmao. I wanna be answering surveys now. You have worked in retail. I’ve never officially worked, period. You have been fired from a job. You live with friends. Nope, never experienced this. I’ve always traveled to and from home when it comes to school, so I’ve never known what it’s like to live in a dorm/condo and virtually be independent. That’s something I’ll always be a little jealous about. You own a game console. My family owns several game consoles; I don’t have my own given that I’m not a big gamer and have never felt the need to ask for my own Switch or PS4. You’ve eaten carbs today. Is white rice considered a carb? I’ve had much of those today. You’re expecting a visitor soon. In this climate of coronavirus? We’re not expecting visitors until the next month and probably even long after that, lol. You are a college student. Yessir I am, for the last nearly four years. I was going to be graduating this June but that’s gonna be pushed back now, which really sucks. You are scared of dogs. I’m generally not scared of them and am willing to make friends with all dogs. The only negative feeling I hold is annoyance, and that’s directed towards only chihuahuas. I cannot fucking stand them. You have your tongue pierced. No piercings other than earlobes. You have never been drunk. ...Is what I said before I was 18. You would consider yourself to be average height. I guess? I’m definitely a bit shorter than the average person, all other countries considered hahaha. But I’m still average height for a Filipino. It’s the taller ones that we consider to be strange cases. You have ridden on the back of a motorcycle. My parents don’t allow me to take motorcycle taxis, which is really the only opportunity we have for riding motorcycles. You have plans for next weekend. I don’t have plans til the third week of April man. You know a little bit of French. Your parents know how to text message. Yeah, of course. It’s their main means of communicating with us. Plus they were around for the rise of cellphones (they were in their late 20s then), so they had time to get into the trend and learn the basics. You have an iPhone. Apple’s always been my preferred brand for my gadgets, so yep. You are bisexual. For a long time I thought I was, until I realized I was not. You don’t own a pair of pajamas. They are way too warm to be worn in this country, so whenever I say PJs on surveys I really mean my usual tank top/shorts combo hahaha. You get your eyebrows waxed. Waxing generally terrifies me because I haaaate the idea of peeling anything off of any part of my body. I just rely on good ol’ shaving. You have dated someone much older than you. You are hungry right now. My stomach’s not being dramatic but I can go for a full meal right now.   You have never been swimming in the ocean. I honestly do not know. I may have already unknowingly swum in the Pacific, but I literally don’t know.  You like to indulge in retail therapy. Meh, not really. I only shop when I feel like I’ve exhausted my wardrobe and already need new additions. You know someone who has been to rehab. You never had good grades in school. I’m not THAT lousy of a student lol. I had bad grades in chemistry and some of the higher math subjects, but my performance in them was always made up for with my good grades in all the other classes. You’re a lazy person. I can be lazy about tasks I never asked to do, but I’ll always end up doing them because I don’t like disappointing myself/other people.

You are married. You have at least one tattoo. You like to go for walks and jogs. Ugh nonononono. I hate walking/jogging. I prefer to do other forms of exercise. You have never been overseas. You’re terrible at saving money. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahaha I have to start learning how to be financially responsible pls You’re kind of gluttonous. I can be, and I think it’s caused by the fact that 1) I had to share everything with four other kids in my childhood home, and 2) my mom was always a bit thrifty during my childhood and would often refuse to buy me stuff I ask for, unless my dad said yes – and his yeses were always so hard to get because he works overseas and it would take a whole couple of days before we got feedback from him. These reasons, really, were what made me unafraid to be a little selfish. You don’t like coffee. Love it. Thrive on it. Run on it. You don’t know who your biological father is. You love your job. No job.