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I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain
Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it
i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)
really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!
undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.
i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.
people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.
peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.
it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."
so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.
people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.
autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.
#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before#and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.”#and that made sense to me i think.#but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing.#and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much.#and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed#and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology.#i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now.#and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be??#i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe.#will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore??#maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know.#i don't know what it'll mean for me.#but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way#i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think#i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed.#because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people.#peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing.#there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing.#it's a product of all of his things.#just like me! just like everyone.#so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways.#a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be.#i don't think it's something that can be simplified.#sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags.#i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual.#sci speaks
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I hate to OC post in the main tag but WOY is held up by like four people and maybe I wanna be a part of that. This is my character.
PREDICTABLY she is the same species as Wander but I don't like the Star Nomad stuff. That was a story told by a young girl with a penchant for fanfiction in-universe. She does not have insider knowledge of who and what Wander is.
The term I've went for (Subject to change!) is Prrmin. She and Wander are Prrmani.
Please excuse the very weird Wander, I haven't drawn him nearly as much as I ought to.
I don't really know how to summarize her: she came into the galaxy, immediately sussed that Wander had been there and was probably still around, but walking between galaxies is exhausting when all you have is a helmet and magic boots that let you walk in space through autotelekinesis.
She doesn't want to be his friend. She's sick of being confused for him in every galaxy he's been in. She's embarrassed about the whole "being a draft dodger of the war that wiped out their entire species when he was a little kid" thing.
I tried to make her look like Wander but have a different weight to her, with big boots, a stockier body, and no giant hat. He's described as "buoyant", she should be "grounded". She believes in stuff like "earning her keep" but also "putting on your own oxygen mask first"
and this doesn't mean she's more "realistic" than Wander either- more like... more scared. Like, take Wander, minus the hat, minus Sylvia, times the weight of the knowledge that the only reason you're a do-gooder is that you're incapable of taking a life even to save your home. She's not THAT angsty in practice, I'm just saying.
#I don't WANT to tag my oc in the main tag!#uh ok just take the plunge#wander over yonder#you might be reading this and noticing that I never named her. That's intentional.#She also has a thing about her name like Wander#for different reasons#you can call her what you want#I'll know who you're talking about from context#but i guess she needs a tag#original character#OC: Prrmin girl#good art#<- yes this tag counts for my own art too
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you just made the scientific discovery of the century & you want to tell everyone & your kids are first on that list but you can't find them. you manage to get a hold of your daughter & she says everything is fine but her voice gets tight when you try to mention your work & she sucks in a breath & says she won't keep you from it any longer than she already has & doesn't say bye as she hangs up the phone. you have a sinking feeling in your gut & you really want to get back to what you were doing but. something's wrong. where are your kids. why was your daughter not surprised when you told her. why was she so quick to hang up on you. your husband has the same type of mind & that's probably why neither of you can ignore this odd turn of events & so you decide to track them down. the research can wait. after all, the spook got away somehow afterwards. it's not like you have anything to go through but data & recordings.
#i don't usually write like this#i just had to type out the thing that's been in my mindddd cuz fanfics take way too long to write#& PMVs take to long to drawww oouughhh#i think i'm getting sick cuz i'm up until dawn & i'm tired constantly but in a weird way like in a migraine kinda way#sure i'll tag this i guess#danny phantom#obsessed with the idea of Maddie & Jack vivisecting Phantom without knowing he's Danny#& there being a whole slowburn reveal & then they're horrified because their entire worldview just got changed in the worst way possible#i find a lot of current fics that use vivisection always make the reveal happen beforehand for some reason#when the original ye olde vivfics from 10+ years ago like PoT happened pre-reveal & that's why Maddie &/or Jack did it At All#because they didn't know it was their son. they didn't know Phantom was their boy#it's just odd to me that the Phandom has shifted towards Maddie & Jack being actively abusive instead of passively abusive/neglectful#like do not get me wrong. they aren't great parents. they're actually really bad parents#but they do genuinely love their kids & would change for them. because their abuse/neglect is passive. it's subconscious#people always view abuse as hitting your kids purposefully because you like it & shit like that & most of the time it's not#& because of that misunderstanding we have a lot of out of character Maddie & Jack in fics#they wouldn't hurt their son. so you have to make them not know or not believe it's him#let them show a little emotion about it too man c'mon
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suggesting something,,
#akoya gero#my art#.........i meant for him to be talking to kinchan and originally had him say 'president'#but then i thought i'll leave it ambiguous.........#..........#im suffering with embarrassment from whatever the hell i was on about last weekend#the tags about the game made me remember an old ....thing i wanted and i couldnt stop thinking about it#like actually i really wanted it but i can't.... i can't just say it in public to no one and just leave it out there#i want someone to know what it is and be nice to me about it but i don't want to be made fun of ;;;;;;;;#my feelings manifested into an akoya ........#he.. wants to do ...something with kinchan i guess... orz#please dont guess it's anything i haven't drawn before... but its probably safe to guess its something ive drawn before ....... ;;#OWWWWW A JAPANESE PERSON SAID SOMETHING CUTE ABOUT THIS AND IM EMBARRASSED;;;;;#they were like '?!! what's wrong? why is he crying?!!'#HES CRYING CUZ HES EMBARRASSED. IM EMBARRASSEd..... im sorry .....#i want to say it but i dont want to if i dont know if anyone will be nice to me ;;;;;;;;;#i.. i cant explain to the nice japanese person bc im too embarrassed .....#it's ooc and doesn't make sense in canon .......#but.. i was happy they asked why he was crying... thank you.... ;___;#........i responded to it after all#but i can't explain more than that he wants to ask for somehting but he's too embarrassed so he's crying
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✨️THE CHAYNEMATIC GALA 2024✨️
the voting results are in!
and i've gotta say. a Girls With White Teeth Sweep was not something i expected. anyways, here are the winners for each element, and we're on the the final round of voting for the gala's best dressed!
full series: water | air | earth | fire
#chaynematic gala 2024#artists on tumblr#art by chay#the winner will... idk. be on the cover of the magazine i'll make to compile all these drawings. bc ofc i'm that extra.#i'm ngl... i was expecting people to vote for the ocs they're most familiar with#like i was fully expecting FinnPetra to win the earth poll but i guess this is the bog bodies site lmao#shannon winning fire surprised me the most bc tt's not my most original design of the series. she does look amazing tho so good for her#and i besides tagging her in a few memes i have NEVER talked about Regan here. fully expected Azami to win air.#my own votes (bc yes i did vote too jkdgjkgd) were Nicole's peacock dress for air#MC for water#Euna's sun knight look for fire (although i was really hesitating between her and Paige's dragon dress)#and i didn't vote for earth bc i really couldn't decide kgfjkdfg
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Saw a post the other day asking how P03 is able to see; my best guess is something like this.
I actually inspected P03′s 3D model for this which I don’t usually do (and then I proceeded to draw it off-model anyway. Whoops) but even outside of its hypothetical camera-vision, there’s a few other things of note:
P03 seems to have a lot of large vents (or at least things that look like some sort of ventilation/cooling). Two major ones on the chest, three on the top of the head (with potentially another on the side of its head), and one on the underside of its base (though that one might be for the hologram projection it uses to float). My best guess is that it’s because his factory is built right by the water where there would be a TON of moisture in the air. For that reason, some of them have got to be exhausts to make sure all of the air circulating in his torso is dry. That or he just overheats extremely easily I guess, but I’m leaning towards the humidity explanation (or it could be a combination of the two).
Its “eyes” are somewhere on the front of its face; whether it sees through a camera or just through the eyes on the screen via video game magic is up for debate, but it turns to face the player when they stand up so its vision probably isn’t on the sides of its head or something.
Similarly, P03 has some sort of sensitivity to touch (he reacts to Leshy’s hands gripping his monitor before Leshy says anything). I don’t think any “touch sensors” would be externally visible though.
Presumably (based on the ending to Act 3) P03′s head isn’t just a monitor, there’s vital systems in there as well (otherwise tearing its head off wouldn’t do anything to disrupt its upload/its ability to function). My best guess is that his power supply is in his chest so it would be the equivalent of just... unplugging your computer while it’s trying to preform updates.
The wire it uses to connect to the modules to update cards in Act 3 seems to come from either its neck or its torso, but in act 2 it’s very visibly on the side of the head. Granted the act 2 sprites are all pretty different from the Scrybes’ 3D models so that’s not an outlier.
The range of motion in P03′s arm seems pretty similar to a human arm; he has a ball-and-socket joint on the shoulder and a hinge joint on his elbow plus separate segments for the “wrist” and “hand”. The only thing it probably can’t do is twist its forearm.
I don’t have any idea what either of the cranks do. The head crank moves when it changes its expression so it might have something to do with its display, but the arm crank is only shown doing anything on the G0lly Uberbot hologram. My best guess is that P03 used to have a lot more built-in functions but ended up removing them in order to operate faster so a lot of the buttons and switches on it are just vestigial leftovers. (The idea of the arm crank being able to function as a hand-crank motor in a pinch is really funny though. Spin it a few times when P03 is out of power and you can generate just enough battery for it to tell you to fuck off then go back into sleep mode again).
I have no idea how the levitation works either. It’s cool and that’s why it works. No need to get more complicated than that.
#P03#Hrokkall Sketch#Leshy is there too I guess but I'm not tagging him#I will talk about him for a second though#Unrelated to P03 but I headcanon Leshy had claws at one point (and still could grow them back)#He just chewed them off out of stress at some point between KMod and the main game#I have no idea who OP of the other post was that one's on me (and tumblr's search function is kind of shit so I can't find it </3)#Also I'll be honest I know nothing I'm saying is new: this is moreso reference for me#Sorry to anyone looking in the P03 maintag; this is just tagged with it for blog organization </3#I might elaborate on some of this tomorrow (and make a more on-model drawing) I just wanted to get my thoughts down#EDIT: Feel free to add on! Please share your thoughts in my inbox if you have them I love reading them#EDIT 2: Added alt text + fixed some confusing wording#EDIT 3: Original post was by exlann
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looking at you politely before he eats you
i might add details (gold and white individual feathers, some blood specks 🤭) later but for now here he is
my musings on chimera fingon (and siren maglor :3) in the tags of the original post and the reblog (spoilers ahead)
#laure watches dunmeshi#fingon#dungeon meshi#i wanted to make him look more like mithrun's chimera (very humanlike from the waist up + likely has a human personality) but he turned out#a bit unhinged. more like faligon tbh#WELL it offers a whole new backstory for chimera fingon hehe#i prefer when it's maedhros who comes back wrong (literally what happened in canon and i like it) but fingon can have it too. as a treat#my art#dungeon lord maedhros au#<- ish? i guess i strayed from the initial idea but still that's where it originated i'll keep the tag#can you tell i intended it to be a silly little 5 min drawing and then got too serious about the feathers and didn't redraw the silly fingo#silmarillion
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27/02/24
Time: 4hrs 31mins
An old OC i'm bringing back, related rambling below the cut!
So there's an old OC that was very near and dear to me which I got rid of over teen internet drama in... 2016? I was really scared of ever drawing this guy again despite not being guilty of anything for years but now that I'm older and graced with the wisdom associated with being 21 instead of 14, I've realised that it was all really stupid and you know what? I'm bringing this guy back.
In some ways that event may have been a good thing, because in trying to fill the hole Freefall (I know, ironic name) left behind I got 5 new OCs out of it, 3 of which are top favourites of mine that live rent free in my head.
It's a pretty rough drawing, there's a lot of things I screwed up but can't be bothered to fix lol. I wasn't really planning to do much with it, but I ended up doing some basic shading for funsies
#I'll come back to describe this later#my art#art#digital art#procreate#airplane#plane#dragon#Wyvern#mech#mecha?#idk#robot#original character#apparently this qualifies as an aeromorph so i guess i'll add that tag too#aeromorph
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everything's coming up roses
#my art lol#vocaloid#flower vocaloid#v3 flower#blood tw#decapitation#tw decapitated head#yeah fukase's here but i'm not tagging him for. reasons. thats enough maintags i think immm nervous. feel like i'll get nerfed#womp womp random ass emo shit w/ no explanation once again... based off a doodle i did while bored at work#and it looked good enough to turn into a full thing so ye. also experimenting in the ibispaint that i like never use 😭😭#drew this the day before gakupo's bday lol i guess i can only draw one (1) purple loid good atm 😔😔 and her v3 isnt even that purple#it was gonna be v4 originally but v3's design worked better for composition purposes. sorry v4 i swear i love you too#but i think i will forever be a little bit based towards v3 since that's how i first knew flower. sorry 🥴#lowkey an indirect sequel/prequel to that other drawing i did a long ass time ago if you wanna think about it like that lmaoo?? but not rly#i feel like i could've put more in this but idk i also didn't wanna overfill it w/ stuff. also man i can never draw heads to scale bruh#always terrified i draw them either too big or too small. and that's even when attached properly to a neck
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superheroes have to start somewhere
#fwizz's art#art#artists on tumblr#digital art#my art#oc#fc#original character#fan character#I guess I'll tag the fandom too#bnha#d&d party didn't meet for the third week in a row so I banged this out in 2 hours on vc#why do I keep drawing beansprout in various adolescent stages? idk#she probably spent a lot of time trying to make specific plants grow... her apartment is full of pots
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Local owlbear, what she gonna explodee✨
#neopets#neoart#vandagyre#not technically an oc but it is an original design i guess lol#Same with the ogrin I'm starting to open my eyes to these fellas#i used to hate them but i think its just the neo designs lol#Also this technically was a practice to see if I ended up making one of my real OCs into one#but i just settled into a classic eyrie#and i wanted to finish this sketch cause i really liked the pose lmfaoo#I don't.... think I'll be using this for anything??? just wanted to draw an alquemist vanda for my scrungly soul#anyways it takes me stupidly long to finish drawings maybe i should stick to some doodles here and there#vin doods#forgot the tag woops#also stole the green colors from mneo as well cause they're easier on my eyes and the drawing LMFAOO#i want to thank all the likes and reblogs once again though!! it's so heartwarming whenever I open this site i see some notifs :D#i am working on my characters lore but oh god please take the keyboard away from me i write so fuckin much HHHH#ok too much rambling you can stop reading my thoughts now haha
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tried to do a little tracing piece of the fallen angel by alexandre cabanel with grantaire because.... idk apparently tracing helps your art?? anyways, yeah 👍
#idk if i'm satisfied with it but. here. have it.#i referenced kyle adams specifically. and uh. yeah that's all i can say#the hair came out a bit too dark and... well i won't say bad things rn but. it's certainly a thing i traced. for practice#am i allowed to post this?? probably right. the original was public domain & it was just for practice#it's fine. anyways#i guess i'll tag this. -_-#les mis#grantaire#anyways. i have other things i really gotta do so... bye
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a large amount of time I've been spending on -untitled undefined scope original fiction project- since the last time I posted about it has been trying to develop the protagonist concept I came up with last summer or whatever into like, a character that would feel real and era appropriate.
it's fun research to do. naturally a lot of the details I assigned to her are things that I already think are cool, so it's been a lot of fun trying to trace her traits back through the relatively recent past, getting reminded of how much things have changed, or where the gaps in my intuition are, and then doing a flurry of reading to get a sense for exactly how someone like her and the people around her could have happened and what her life was probably like leading up to her present day. hopefully this results in some good good verisimilitude.
#I wrote a short story from her perspective over the holidays and then didn't know how to continue it#and then I got distracted by real life stuff for a few months#I forget if I posted about that#and then I've been picking through archive dot org for the last few weeks looking at this stuff#the last big rabbit hole was trying to get a better feel for era appropriate ts/tv subculture#the current one I'm looking at is how she would've gotten into language learning and how that would've worked#nettle has been prodding me about the setting thing lately so I've been thinking about that more too#probably the biggest hurdle by far is figuring out how I want to play that#and how I want the thing to be divided up#since the original coc scenario I'm developing this out of is centered on a flight from LA to honolulu#and the airport dungeon was definitely meant to be a hook for a larger campaign#some amount of it is going to cover protag lady's failed life in LA and some of it is going to be worse things happening in hawaii#but it's like. how much do I want to balance it one way or the other#and realistically how much does the aesthetics of 20th century air travel add to the story#besides me personally thinking it's compelling ofc#a lot of what I find compelling about hawaii is that it's an east/west cultural crossroads and realistically that's also true of socal#and I can wax poetic about socal as much as I want without worrying all that much about mishandling something#and there's also a lot of socal specific history along similar parallels to pull from that I'm more familiar with#I guess it comes down to whether curiosity re: 'doing it right' is enough of a motivator to do the increased amount of research#which I guess it has so far with the above character details. so hopefully that will continue#but it also feels like using machine translation a bit yknow. it's hard to know how effectively I'll be able to sanity check#although depending on where this goes I might be able to get other people involved to sensitivity read down the line#with most of the creative things I do I just have a tendency to always rely really heavily on figuring things out myself#I also want protag lady to have a Cool Car and idk how to get that from point a to point b narratively#this is like an entire second or third post's worth of tags but I don't feel like unfucking this so whatever. suffer. I guess.
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An explainer
Any version of either of these characters would either ignore me or pop me like a grape if I attempted to speak to them. It's fine.
#remibloggue#trigun#trigun stampede#i did not particularly want to put this in the tag but i'm sure somebody has filtered it by now. i must respect them#but I guess you can reblog it if you really want. if you share my very important knives and or legato feelings#also even if i do not care about him they did give 98 knives like 2-3 anime original scenes i think are really thematically good#the apple tree 'i wonder if i'll be eaten too' or whatever. the spider and butterfly fight with vash. i will appropriate these constantly
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Hello octopathers I spent all of last night and this morning impulse crafting a Debuffer/BP Support Thief OC with imposter syndrome
#originally was gonna call them aeolos but then i decided to pick up on the octopath theme of all the Thieves having “Th” names#also in my research for skills i accidentally discovered/spoiled myself on Throne's EX skill and WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN SHE CAN DISGUISE#thought i was being cheeky and unique with my little latent power idea but guess square enix had long beat me too it oh well#octopath traveler oc#octopath traveler 2#idk whether to tag it 2 or just the regular octopath but i'll go with 2 since i'm mainly using the new mechanics#thibault tag
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that moment when your wip is actually looking cool and good and you're loving drawing it and just LOOKING at it is enough to make you want to start jumping up and down and screaming
#i love my art now and that's such a foreign feeling#but god i'm so excited for this piece to be done!!!#i just need to work out the physics on the hair a little more and then i can lineart#and i'm not gonna render just flat colours (too lazy)#but AHH#it's a drawing of kon el kent btw <333#dude i showed one of my friends a panel from reign of the supermen during maths#AND SHE HATED KONS SUIT#SAID IT WAS UGLY#SAID HE SHOULDNT WEAR THE LEATHER JACKET#THAT THE BELTS WERE DUMB#I NEARLY CRIED#LEAVE HIM ALONEEEEEEEEE#she also said it looked like bart was naked 💔💔💔#i'll never get over it#she's dead to me /lh#dc#i guess because i rambled in the tags#might post a wip once i'm done the sketch#original post
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