#I get misgendered pretty often lol
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I cant speak for anyone else obviously, but being a fat butch in fandom feels like this way too often
PLEASE stop calling female characters (or often feminine men) butch just because they have ONE trait thats not as feminine as the rest of their design.
#Im gonna delete this but god i had to get this off my chest#ive seen a bunch of people call feminine male characters butch and i just#have to put my head in my hands cus it often feels like they do it bc#they want to see “butches” but male characters tend to be the closest to that#but they hardly do it with masculine male characters and usually just hc the feminine ones as butch hmmmmmmm i wonder why#I have no probelm with headcanoning male characters as butch#i do it too and male characters can be butch and still be men too#it just feels like that one tweet of “the butchest a character can be before gettign scared”#i want to say though i do appreciate butches who present in ways that dont align perfectly with the popular ideas of masculine#but damn i want to see more butches like me where it takes someone a minute to be like “is that a man?” if you know what I mean#I get misgendered pretty often lol
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With Warless Weekend over, it's time I address Plaidos openly accusing me of secretly being a man! Oh, yeah, she's doing that now. I'm tagging this because I'm annoyed at Very Popular Tumblr Transfeminist misgendering a trans woman because her politics are too transmasc-friendly.
Isn't it great how she cuts this off, implying I think segregation by sex is not a big deal, rather than it being ridiculous she's made Michfest specifically her 9/11? I try so often to word everything I say in a way that can't be snipped like this but I clearly fucked up here.
Let's breakdown the reasoning given in her reply to a reblog concurring that I'm probably a sockpuppet:
Plaidos is assuming as TRFs always do that her clique is fully representative of transfems on Tumblr so if she never sees me positively interacting with them I must specifically be avoiding them. The reality is that I simply don't inspect the genitals of everyone I interact with.
Not only do I often argue with self-identified TMEs, probably even more than trans women, but Plaidos is literally responding to a self-identified TME who's talking about me having argued with them, so framing this as me going after trans women is ridiculous. I can literally pull up screenshots that I'm pretty sure predate me coming back to Tumblr where I talk about how it seems from what I observed on the outside was that the rabidly transandrophobic crowd was mostly non-trans women bloodletting for one or two idols, which is a notion I was unfortunately and despairingly disillusioned of upon getting into the trenches myself.
Also, "dishonorable"? Is she a fucking Klingon?
Annnnnd there's the implication I am in fact a trans man. She's certainly saying I'm not a trans woman and that's also misgendering because I've said repeatedly that my gender rests firmly on being Not A Cis Woman. But why simply "implicate" I'm a man?
Hilarious. Doubly so since I just recently found out that person runs my favorite Y2K blog, which I'm sure will get used as 'proof' at some point.
Do I seriously need to post fucking gock lol? Are we literally down to genital inspections at this point?
My blog has a pre-discourse history where I mostly reblogged images and argued about a Dungeons & Dragons show!* I'm literally a published author! What about all the very specific kinks? Being a scholar of Imperial Japan? The very specific opinions I have on very specific media? My specific fandoms?
What an elaborate character I've constructed to come up with a multiple system where the system members even have surnames and are the distinct sources of specific parts of my personality and interests, including one who's Christian and one who's attempting to learn Hinduism but has only ever briefly mentioned it about twice.
I think TRFs have never moved past the point in development where people don't exist when you stop looking at them.
*much of which was about how much I hated the transmasc player's cis lesbian PC; make of that what you will
I don't block people very often, but I do in fact do that! Thicced-Witch has openly talked about me repeatedly having her blocked and unblocking her when it did no good. I also have prettykittenpaw and fite-club blocked because they got into the annoying habit of coming on to every one of my posts, and my tolerance for prettyeelwithagun ran out when she stuck by Thicced-Witch's misgendering of people for the purposes of "satire."
God, this is all so, so stupid. Transfeminism, everyone.
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🩷🩵🤍 5 Days Until my Surgery 🤍🩵🩷
(Picture taken September 1, 2022)
I'm very very excited for my surgery (it's my second gender affirming surgery but this one is more significant to me since it'll be top and bottom surgery) and I'm obviously counting the days until it and I thought some people might be interested in my trans journey 🏳️⚧️ So see part 6 below the cut.
Part 1 here
Me and my partner got back together and got a place together and we still live in this apartment together 🥰 I also worked at worked at a local amusement park over the summer that had some fun but mostly was horrible due to angry customers that kept misgendering me and kids making fun of me 🙃 But also I'll say I had one of my most euphoric moment when this little girl pointed to her winged eyeliner and said "you're just like me!" Bc I also had winged eyeliner at the time 🥰
(Picture taken June 6th, 2022)
Also, if the last Era was the peak of my egirl era on twitter than this was the fall of my egirl era 📉
I remember reaching 10k followers and thinking "ok I have enough of a following to try to make money off this." It's what a lot of egirls on there did and as I stated above, I hated my job. I thought briefly about streaming and YouTube but I don't really have the personality for streaming and was too self-conscious of my voice to do YouTube. And there were a lot of sex workers on twitter that I knew, followed, and admired. And there was quite the market for trans sexual content. Also I wanted to basically be paid to look pretty all day 🤷♀️ So, I made a OnlyFans account and started promoting it.
(Picture taken May 9th, 2022)
And I quickly got shadow banned for it 😂 And frankly, I wasn't really meant for sex work. I'm not really a sexual person. I do enjoy sexual acts but doing them for money killed my drive for it. I made a few hundred dollars but I didn't make enough content for it to keep it up.
Also, the shadow banned revealed how unhealthy my relationship with Twitter was. My self worth would be highly dependent on how well my posts did that day (I was still posting pictures daily). And I was hypercritical of my picture quality and my physical features. And developed a bad habit of comparing myself to girls I considered prettier than me. And with the constant misgendering from work, I was at a big low 🥲
(Picture taken September 17th, 2022)
I remember this was when there was first talk about Elon buying Twitter and I was looking for an alternative and well... ended up here.
(Picture taken June 2nd, 2022)
I remember the idea between this pic was clothes and accessories that weren't explicitly queer but gave queer vibes.
Also talking about queerness, I also participated in a Drag Show! I played a mushroom fairy!
(Picture taken August 13th, 2022)
It was organized by this local queer nonprofit that did a lot in the community and was already a big part of my life but would become a bigger part of my life.
Also this was when I was done with the curly girl method. And I like how my hair looks like this and it's easier 🤷♀️
(Picture taken September 4th, 2022)
Also love how often I get used out of this mushroom beret 😁🍄😁 (which is why I have 2 pics with it on this post lol)
Also an update on my love life at this time. I at one point had 4 partners very briefly and was part of a polycule over over 22 people. I remember one of my metamours made a chart showing all the relationships and it was complicated 😅 Also it was mostly online. Like 2 of my partners were long distance relationships.
(Picture taken Oct 2nd, 2022)
Around my 23rd birthday, I decided to do what was best for my mental health and quit twitter. But I had two last pictures because I got them from some followers who bought me things from my Amazon wishlist I made for my birthday.
(Picture taken October 29, 2022)
This one would be useful for the next era. And you can see a small part of my large collection of plushies (which I have a project in mind for 👀)
(Picture taken on November 8th, 2022)
And this was the last picture I posted on Twitter before quitting at 36k followers. I had already stopped posting on it for awhile so you can imagine my surprise when I got a big pink teddy bear 😱 And for all the work I put into that account, I consider this a pretty good prize 🧸💕
I consider Tumblr my last attempt with having a healthy relationship with social media. If this account goes away, I'll probably be done with Social Media 🤷♀️ I think I'm getting better at breaking those bad habits I developed on Twitter while still trying to enjoy the art of dressing up and taking selfies. But, I don't know if I'll ever have the drive for it like I did during my twitter days.
With my summer job ending and twitter as a way to make a living out of the window you may be concerned with how I recovered but I got really lucky and I'll go into detail on that tomorrow 😁
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About Me (pls read!)
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Callyx is an online name, it’s not my actual name. If we start dming and become friends I’ll eventually tell you what my real name is tho <3
Also hey yall im okay with dms but if ur gonna dm me please do it with the intention of getting to know me/ being friends and not just using me as a tool to get urself off pls and thank u
I’m 18 (MDNI and age in bio pls!)
I’m a gay trans guy (he him exclusively)
This is an mlm specific blog
I post horny stuff here, mainly dom stuff since I’m not typically in a sub mood very often (it does happen sometimes lol)
Single (if anyone’s interested ;)
Starting T soon hopefully!
I talk a lot of smack for someone that’s still a mega virgin
This is a faceless account!!! Sorry but I really don’t want my face attached to my horny ramblings 😅
My interests
Reading and literature
Drawing and Painting
Writing
Tattoos
Video games (BoTW, CoDMW, Skyrim, stardew valley, no man’s sky, Omori, Hades, Witcher)
Anime (specifically MHA and dungeon meshi)
Cartoons and animation
Space
Twenty One Pilots, Chappell Roan, Olivia Rodrigo, My Chemical Romance
Sanrio
Crystals (shiny pretty rock way not healing energy way)
Hiking and being in nature
Queer history
My kinks (when I’m feeling sub + dom)
Puppy play ♡ Praise ♡ Bondage ♡ Overstim ♡ Edging ♡ Leashes and collars ♡ Muzzlessss ♡ TOYSSS ✩ Dumbification ✩ Objectification ✩ impact play ��� Gags ✩ edging ✩ overstim ✩ breeding ✩ somno ✩ WEED INTOX ✩ degradation ♡ chastity ♡ medical ♡ cockwarming
This gets updated as I think of more thing/ change my preferences <3
Things I like to be called
Dom: owner ♡ daddy ♡ sir
Sub: pup/puppy ♡ baby ♡ good/pretty/baby boy
Things I call my anatomy
Cunt ♡ pussy ♡ cock ♡ dick ♡ tdick
Please don’t refer to my chest at all please and thank you (this will change when I am finally graced by god and get top surgery)
My hard-nos (you can interact but I do not want to engage with these)
Detrans and misgendering
Feeding/ weight gain
Scat/ageplay/raceplay/etc.
feel free to ask if I’m comfortable with something!
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Lj meeting trans masc/gn reader at a haunted house?
Sorry i don’t do asks very often
-meow
LOL ok this was fun from the first moment I read the req!!!
you heard about an abandoned house near where you lived, only a few miles down an abandoned railroad would lead you there
so you, a natural curious and paranormal enthusiast, went to check it out
you found a pretty old house, a few hundreds of years old, and checked out any room you safely could
you took some cool pictures, gathered some small trinkets/toys…
until you found his box. though you didn’t know it was his at first, ofc.
and you opened it and instead of being afraid you were… enthralled by the large being that stood before you.
bro was confused 💀 legit stood there like 🧍while you stared with awe or probably asked him what he was if you are brave enough.
he was confused by two things
why aren’t you scared and why do you look like a man though he feels your body is not… yk… male. (I hc he has this weirdly sharp sense of smell… yk magical clown stuff ok?)
he’s pretty blunt when he asks “why do you look like that if you’re a lady..?” and you have to give him a whole lesson on how gender works now.
it’s ok, it only takes you a few hours to get your point through
now, if you keep his box and start spending all your time with him, you’ll have a permanent plushie lemme tell you
he’s so huggable, like honestly
so if you feel dysphoric he could just hug you tight until you don’t feel your chest anymore if that’s what’s making you uncomfortable
or he’ll call you 'handsome young man' out of nowhere just to see you blush and smirk shyly
overall super sweet because that’s just who he is, will never ever misgender you once he understands the whole transgender thing
sorry if this is too short heh, but I hope you enjoy!! remember reqs are OPEN and here's my req sheet!
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Hehe matchup time! Can I get a yandere mtmte matchup?
Decepticon matchup please. Any gender for the matchup, I don’t have a preference!
They/them pronouns. I’m also autistic but I understand if that’s too difficult to write
Likes: SPACE(I love the stars and all the different planets), art(anything from poems to sculpting to painting), archery 🏹, nature walks
Dislikes: the dark(stupid but yknow lol-), bullies and close-minded people, liars, thunderstorms and the cold
I’m known as an approachable and kind person by most. I’m pretty easy going and not one to plan ahead. I try to think positively most of the time and act as a mediator in most conflicts.
If I’m not trying to see both points of views then I’m pretty much set one side. It doesn’t happen much but if I think the persons a jerk then I will attack- lmao-
I try not to be bothered most of the time, often keeping most of my issues to myself. It’s pretty common that I bottle all of my problems until I have HUGE breakdowns. But like whatever.
I’ve had someone describe me as a golden retriever before. And tell me that I have a saviour complex so do what you will with that information.
Thank you 🙏 take ur time!
Ima be real, I'm gonna take MTMTE off of my list because I pretty much forgot all about it lol. Sorry I did my best lol
Yandere Deathsaurus X Reader
You adored space, so when you got the opportunity to go to space on an exploration mission you took it. You were so happy it was a solo mission, as socialization is sometimes difficult. Being able to relax and be yourself without the pressure of having to appeal to someone else’s standards was a dream.
Unfortunately, a huge meteor shower caused your ship to crash land into a habitable planet. Thankfully you’re pretty capable at surviving- you quickly make a shelter, find food, and anything else you’d need to survive.
What you didn’t account for, however, was a crew of decepticons to be on the planet. When you came across a decepticon, you tried to talk your way out of it. After all of that, the decepticon still took you to his “boss”- Deathsaurus.
Deathsaurus was at first uninterested in someone who seemed insignificant. Soon enough, he was enthralled by your odd mannerisms.The way you looked around, avoiding eye contact, to the way you gently flapped your hands when nervous.
Of course, because of his mild interest, he decided to make let you join his crew. He trusted his crew not to harm you under his orders, and he even gave you a personal room. Yes, it was an old closet, but it’s the perfect size for a tiny being such as yourself.
As much as you wanted to, there wasn’t really a good way to contact your exploration company. Anytime you thought of a good way to get a message out or even escape while on another planet, you’d get caught.
Eventually Deathsaurus’ patience wore thin, and he had no choice but to lock you in your room. It wasn’t until the lights went out that he learned your fear.
You banged on your door, begging to be let out. Your cries were loud and Deathsaurus immediately opened the door and scooped you up. “What’s wrong, are you injured?”
The way you clung to his huge hand was adorable to him. You trembled with fear and cried. “Dark” Was the one word you could mutter. From that day, he made sure you always had back up lights.
Soon enough you got used to the crew, even making quite a few friends. It was your unofficial job to break up fights and settle arguments. Since it was a big crew, it felt like a full time job.
He always found it amusing how such a tiny being could argue with a being fifty times their size without worry. If there was one thing he admired about you, it was how you always stood up for others.
Since you got along well with the crew, Deathsaurus began to fall for you. You being a human didn’t bother him much- your soul was what mattered to him. He’d often carry you around on his shoulders, and grows angry if anyone misgenders you- even if it doesn’t matter that much to you. Anything about you, he will defend to the ends of the universe. Anything you want, you’ll have- you love space? You’ll see all of it. If he could, he’d catch a star and give it to you.
Since you’re an artist, you’ll have nothing but the best supplies. It doesn’t matter how much, he has plenty of money to spend on your hobbies. Any art you make will be pinned up for everyone to see- how could he not when you made it?
Anything you want-clothes, precious gems, books, a whole planet? It’s all yours. It doesn’t matter if it’s “unobtainable”, he’ll find a way.
Just…don’t try and run. He hates it when you do. He can be very forgiving, but if you push him too far he knows your fears. You don’t want to be locked in your room again, do you? He’d hate to have to turn out the lights again.
One day, he took you to a lovely planet that had a pretty star system. He had you on his thigh, letting you eat from a basket you’d brought. Deathsaurus dropped a necklace into your lap. You gently picked it up, looking at it. It was the solar system you were currently in, carefully crafted into a necklace.
“Do you like it? I picked it out just for you, little star.”
He’s been so kind to you so far…how can you say no? After all, you’ve always been a people pleaser.
#deathsaurus#yandere deathsaurus#yandere#yandere transformers#transformers#mtmte#yandere mtmte#oops i've been gone a while tee hee#tw: fear of the dark
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Any general headcanons for doe; romantic or just regular guy stuff :]
You guys really wanna know MORE!? AHH I have had no one to talk about my beloved Doe with AH! Sorry sorry! I'm done gushing! Genuinely just happy to talk about them.
TW: YANDERE RELATED TOPICS
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John Doe absolutely goes by he/they pronouns. No ya'll can't take this from me.
Even in their female form which is often referred to as "Jane Doe", I feel like that would just piss them off. I think just bc he changes his presentation doesn't mean you get to misgender them. I think despite presentation changes he'd still be himself and still go by John Doe.
So Regular Guys are pretty much pests in the Uncanny Valley. John Doe's eyes are kinda of explained in House Hunted 2 that he has to physically split his eye in half so he blends in. Personally, I think that's got to be uncomfortable all the time, so at home he does go from two eyes to one eye since he feels comfortable about it.
Many would think he's controlling which I think he can be occasionally, but not on purpose. Due to some of the things he has been through all alone, I think he views himself being controlling as protecting you, and while yeah he's a whole yandere I think he's more than willing to hear you out on making him comfortable while also accommodating your- freewill lol.
He hisses at people.
He stares at you when you sleep. There is no way ya'll convince me otherwise.
He doesn't require sleep but understands that you prefer to snuggle in bed with him at night.
He hates any of your plushies. He thinks if you hug them, you like them more than him- but he won't throw them away. He likes how soft they are.
He stutters a lot when trying to explain his feelings to you. He isn't used to people viewing him as a person over a pest.
Despite being a yandere, he is oddly good at communication if you teach him what it is and how to understand boundaries. He's going to slip up and you gotta understand that when going into the relationship.
He just orders takeout a lot. I have a weird headcanon that Regular Guys can make things from thin air so when he orders food he hands them money he just conjures. ((This man accidentally inflates the economy one eldritch magic dollar at a time.))
When he gets all hyper-realistic, he doesn't acknowledge it as "scary" to him he's sort of blind to it happening. While yes he is physically doing it, he doesn't see it so he just- kinda thinks you're being mean to him if you freak out. I think he's a visual learner so cues such as covering your eyes help him understand you're just uncomfortable, but don't love him any less.
He lets you pet his hair and despite the curls it never knots or tangles. Like it never knots up.
He isn't good with animals. Except crows love him. He likes crows.
He does try to clutter your home- and uh that's gonna require you explaining to him that humans need clean spaces to live.
Did I mention he's jealous? However, he can be really subtle about it. He just glares or waits till you turn to go hyper-realistic on someone.
He has an existential crisis in one breath, but in the next will ask you to pass the popcorn. (he is unwell)
For my FNAF bitches, he would listen to your info dump about the FNAF lore any day of the week. Any kind of hyperfixation or special interest of yours he will listen to you talk about it. He can keep up with however you talk and will never ask you to speed up slow down or stop talking. He just likes you.
He can help with chores, water CANNOT be involved.
In his Lil' Doe form (I HAVE DIBS ON THE NICKNAME >XP), he takes dust baths, but because he isn't human he doesn't have to take traditional showers. He can't too or his form does break down so please take care of him.
Despite him hating you taking showers, he learns to accept it due to the fact you explain it is a health thing. He realizes a human being is much more complex than a Regular Guy physically and requires more care than a dust bath.
He makes sure you eat. If you don't eat he becomes paranoid you will die.
Has he killed people for you? Yep.
Kinda running out of thoughts!
#character x reader#john doe#john doe visual novel#john doe x reader#john doe x you#tw yandere#johndoeshrine#obsessive yandere
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hi, im kim!
minors obviously DO NOT INTERACT!!!!!! you’ll get blocked immediately.
im super into; breeding, cockwarming, edging, (light) cnc, humiliation, body + pussy worship, size difference, (light) degradation, praise, free use, guided+mutual masturbation, somno, exhibitionism/public stuff, intox (weed), overstim, annnnd ye i’ll probably add more to this :)
NOT into; anal, misgendering/detrans, ageplay, raceplay, vom, or anything unhygienic, weaponplay, deepthroating, etc. i’ll probably think of more to add here but chances are if its along these lines, i won’t enjoy it !
check out my OF :) ITS FREE‼️ i’m gonna be posting videos, photos, and eventually livestreaming and i cant wait!! I’ll be posting pretty often and interacting more from there as well
I’m horny and i like attention. come see me play with my boycunt :3
some stuff about me:
im 24, 6ft, fuzzy, post op top surgery, ftm, stoner, bottom leaning switch. (mouthful lol) and I AM A MAN! HE/HIM ONLY!
I love metal, reptiles, monsters, dressing up/costumes, cartoons, art.. and you hi i love you :3
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(Please note that when I something "is feminine" or "is masculine" I mean that it's traditionally assumed to be so not that it actually is. Really nothing is masculine or feminine and anything can be and is fender neutral. Also note that I have lived in the south of the us my entire life so my ideas of what people view as masculine and feminine is probably a bit skewed. Pls don't yell at me lol)
Quite often I end up pretty upset when I'm looking at androgyny stuff because I just NEVER feel androgynous enough at least not in the way I want to.
Androgyny for me means presenting myself in a combination of traditionally feminine and masculine ways, but so many things or so considered feminine that I never feel like I can be masculine enough.
Like so many people think that men actually caring about what they wear or wearing anything more stylized than like, a button up and maybe a vest is feminine. It's feminine just to like stylizing your clothes in a way that makes you feel good. Men are seen as being gender nonconforming just by wearing a long seleeved shirt under a short sleeved or wearing their belt and pants at their waist instead of hips. Just by adding shape to an outfit you're inherently more feminine.
When I first came out my only experience around androgynous people was vague masculinity. But masculinity meant wearing boxy t-shirts and straight leg jeans at the hips and neutral shoes and clothes. Not earrings, no interesting belts, no long hair. Which,for me, isn't anything that really makes me feel good about myself.
And hair. There is some gorgeous gorgeous long hair styles out there but it always feels too feminine to me. I love the long wolf cuts and layered hairstyles but any salon doesn't like to cut it as choppy as a I want and any barbershop doesn't personalize it. So as much I would love long hair that I can put up or leave down and match my face in a way that I just look like me, I just always hate how it turns out.
And I do like short hair, I recently got a mullet and I really enjoy it. But a part of me still wishes I could enjoy my long hair.
And I do dress the way I want and it makes me feel good about myself. I stylize my clothes and wear layers and jewelry and do makeup sometimes. But sometimes when I leave my own house all of it just feels so feminine that it's suffocating. Like the weight of no one seeing me as just Erin Sky is sitting on my chest and choking me every time I take a step. There are very few people that I feel I can wear whatever and look however I want and they will just see me as me.
And maybe it's just because I see myself in a hyper critical light. Because I know people that are just so unbelievably genderless and they are still insecure.
Maybe this is a flaw in my own thinking but I believe everyone is only thinking of me and seeing me as what I'm born as. Even I when I look at people my brain almost always categorizes them as male or female which I hate. How can I want people to see me as genderless if I assign gender to everyone I see? If I can hardly see people as genderless myself even though I fully believe they are?
But I also wonder if I only assume people do that because I do. Maybe no one categorizes people the way I do and everyone does just see me as Erin Sky. Or whatever name they know me as. But then they tell me things like "if you were born x" or "that look is so masculine/feminine" (in a complimentary way) or misgenders me constantly.
And that's another thing omg. People always always misgender me. People know I don't use any pronouns, but if they're not using gendered pronouns they use they/them for me when they know that's not what I use. I will say that I don't use any pronouns, do not use they/them for me, and they always will. Assuming they're not saying she or he.
And I just get so sick of correcting people. They never notice on their own at least they don't say anything or correct themselves. Even people who have said they will use no pronouns for me don't. I don't think, out loud, I've ever heard someone talk about me in a way to not use pronouns. Whether it's referring to me by the character I'm acting and using their pronouns or talking about me and using whatever pronouns they've assigned to me.
I don't know I just get really upset about androgyny because I feel like it's impossible for me to gain.
#gender expression#gender#transgender#genderqueer#nonbinary#agender#genderless#genderfluid#queer#queerness#androgynous#androgyny
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got a text from my coworker apologizing that she accidentally outed me to another coworker and i am not sure how to respond because on the one hand theres not really a safety issue and if there is fallout im pretty sure its handlable and the most likely outcome is literally nothing happens. like one of our other coworkers is openly nonbinary so this is not a stealth-necessary work environment and i have often considered coming out to coworkers with the main reason i havent being because i dont want to put the effort in to talk to everyone LOL. and the coworker who outed me is a pretty good friend and i know it was an accident and she feels bad so like i dont really want her to beat herself up about it or for it to reflect badly on our relationship
but on the other hand im not sure how to convey that without saying something like "no worries" or "you're fine" or otherwise minimizing what she did, which i dont want to do because despite there not being a safety issue it is kind of upsetting and nerve wracking. like i just dont have control over a situation where i previously did have control & there isnt a way to put that back the way it was. and i don't know exactly what our other coworker has been told either, or how he reacted, or anything really, so i just sort of have to wait until sunday to see if he says anything or treats me differently (the latter of which i think is extremely likely; not that he'll be directly bigoted, but ive talked to this coworker about trans stuff before and the conversations have been... ill informed and very exhausting. usually i just try to end them as fast as possible because i dont get paid enough to have a difficult conversation with someone who knows nothing but thinks they are an expert, especially when i am the only one of us with any personal experience).
she already feels bad and i dont want to make her feel worse (she's my friend!), but i also don't like being put in the position where i have to comfort her about the thing that she did to me. i know this isn't what she intended like i firmly believe this is a good faith apology, i just dont know how to respond to it in a way that doesn't involve saying it's okay. and i don't want to say it's okay because it really is not okay.
(the other thing also, which just has to do with the general atmosphere of transphobia and not my coworkers apology, is i find that i am usually expected to say everythings fine when something transphobic happens to me, lest i be painted as the evil and unreasonable transgendered who isnt willing to let people make mistakes and rules my tyrannical pronoun kingdom with an iron fist. or whatever. i dont think my coworker would react this way, but years and years of people misgendering/outing/saying transphobic things and then crying to me as though they're the victim and reacting extremely negatively if i did not dry their tears and reassure them that They're A Good Person, Really... it weighs on you. there's an unspoken expectation that you will be endlessly tolerant and forgiving, and an accompanying resentment or anger if you don't fulfill that expectation. even when people aren't getting angry at you, you still flinch from the times people were, and you still try to temper your reaction based on the possibility they will react badly. difficult to have honest and genuine conversations in that environment!)
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CHARACTER SHEET ⋆.˚
FULL NAME. daniel 'danny' west NICKNAME. danny / chatterbox PRONOUNS. he/him SIZE. 5'5 AGE. twenty five ZODIAC. leo SPOKEN LANGUAGES. english, a lil spanish
𝐏𝐇𝐘𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒 ―
HAIR. fluffy and curly, shortish- curls around his ears and the back of his neck. bleached blonde with visible brown roots because he doesn't get it professionally done EYES. expressive and large, framed with long dark lashes. a soft baby blue that shimmers when he talks about things he's excited about SKIN TONE. pale, with a pink undertone- his nose and cheeks turn red easily when flustered, cold, sick, or intoxicated BODY TYPE. slender, medium-sized VOICE. loud, prone to cracking- has a faint southern accent that becomes stronger when he's tired or intoxicated DOMINANT HAND. can use both hands, the right more so than the left POSTURE. has pretty bad posture and is always slouching SCARS. pink scars under his pecs from top surgery, and faint scars on his inner left arm, faded and not noticeable unless you're really looking BIRTHMARKS. birthmark that looks like mickey mouse on his neck, slight discoloration, often mistaken for a hickey MOST NOTABLE FEATURES. fluffy hair, baby face, and young features that often have him mistaken for someone younger
𝐂𝐇𝐈𝐋𝐃𝐇𝐎𝐎𝐃 ―
PLACE OF BIRTH. in a hospital HOMETOWN. lookout mountain, georgia SIBLINGS. two half-siblings; mandy and kyle. PARENTS. charlotte berkman + walter west
𝐀𝐃𝐔𝐋𝐓 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 ―
OCCUPATION. works at a comic book store, and does standup comedy in bars and clubs CURRENT RESIDENCE. california CLOSE FRIENDS. his best friend + favorite person (fp) Is vicky jones, a sassy yet patient girl who studies photography FINANCIAL STATUS. doesn't make a whole lot, but makes sure to spoil his cat. lives in an apartment, furnished with quirky decor DRIVER'S LICENSE. yes, has an orange volkswagen convertible beetle CRIMINAL RECORD. none, yet VICES. avoidance, sweets, weed, binge watching tv shows, self deprecation
𝐒𝐄𝐗 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 ―
SEXUAL ORIENTATION. bisexual with a preference for men. has a very high sex drive PREFERRED SEXUAL ROLE. a bottom, but can be both dominant and submissive- a versatile bottom, I guess TURN OFFS. there's not a lot that turns him off lol other than, like, misgendering him or using feminine terms TURN ON'S. praise, degradation (yes both), manhandling, kissing, touching in general LOVE LANGUAGE. physical touch + words of affirmation RELATIONSHIP TENDENCIES. danny is a hopeless romantic who desperately wants to be loved, but at the same time thinks no one will be able to love him. his borderline personality disorder skews how he perceives love. he is devoted to his partner, often giving them cute things or showering them with praises and flirtations. he's had a few toxic exes, as he tends to draw in horrible people who use him... he's never had a good relationship. he can be clingy and touchy.
𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐋𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐄𝐎𝐔𝐒 ―
CHARACTER'S THEME TUNE. most likely talk too much by coin, or man or muppet from that one muppets movie HOBBIES TO PASS THE TIME. writing new material, playing roblox or Minecraft, watching horror movies or old comedies, and reading comics LEFT OR RIGHT BRAINED. left SELF-CONFIDENCE LEVEL. danny has a low self esteem because of his mother. he's very insecure and often gets jealous because of how little he likes himself. he can appear cocky and arrogant, but it's simply a farce... prone to self deprecating jokes
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My SecurityWaiter/DreamTheory gender+sexuality head canons because they’re giving me brainrot and queer identities is one of my SpIns 🫶🫶🫶
+some like general love life sorta stuff ig lol
Mike:
-AroAce (spectrum) and gay (or at LEAST achillean/mlm in some way that man is a BOY KISSER)
-Ness is one of if not the only person he’s liked/been attracted to
-he always just assumed he was straight cause yk it’s the “default” and prior to Ness he was never attracted to guys/masc people (at least not that he realized), but after catching feelings for Ness and talking to Ness abt gender and sexuality and all that, he realized he wasn’t really ever attracted to women either, then Ness explained the whole AroAce thing to him and he was like “oh damn yeah ig so huh”
-was literally so confused when he first started liking Ness because 1: he found them VERY annoying at first and 2: again he’s never really fallen for anybody before this so he was like ???
-he never really comes out to anyone he just kinda does whatever and is either generally private/quiet abt it or just doesn’t say anything until someone asks
-trans man :)) maybe like a few years on T, binds and packs because let’s be real that man is not affording any sort of surgery, HRT alone idk how he’s managing. I imagine he probably came out/started transitioning in his late teens-early twenties and is pretty stealth (he’s in his mid-late twenties, so is Ness in my mind, just for the general record lol)
-kinda insecure abt his gender and sexuality. It’s a mix of internalized stuff, dysphoria, generally always having felt awkward when it comes to that stuff, etc. Ness is the only person he’s really talked openly abt it with
-Abby would’ve been fairly young when he came out, and their parents were already out of the picture, so she’s never really known any different, plus he doesn’t talk about it much so frankly she may not even know he’s trans. If/when she finds/found out, she’s probably very curious about it and then became a HUGE ally. Also definitely questioned some stuff (briefly and privately but I headcanon she may have come out as non-binary when she’s older)
-is one of those trans guys who’s like a bit paranoid abt misgendering just cause he’s so insecure abt it. He hasn’t been misgendered in YEARS but every now and then he’ll overhear people talking about literally anyone with she/her pronouns and he gets a little anxious abt it
-tries so hard not to be anywhere close to naked around anyone because he hasn’t gotten any surgeries. Wears a shirt to the pool (if he even goes in the first place), wears layers in the summer, anything sexual’s never been a problem cause he’s chronically bitchless, but you get the idea
-definitely binds an unhealthy amount (someone please stop him)
-uses masculine looking/smelling 2n1/3n1 cause it’s the “man soap” (yeah he’s one of those trans mascs /lh, Ness definitely helps him get into more of a proper hygiene routine)
-has never slept anywhere that’s not home or let anyone sleep over because he has to take his binder off to sleep (dysphoria attacks often ensue)
-first few times he’s not binded or has been any amount of naked around Ness, he was understandably nervous and uncomfortable, but after a while he gets so perfectly reassured by Ness that his body is perfect the way it is and he’s a man PERIOD that my brother in Christ SOBS in their arms :33 (I feel like I sound so cringe but guys I’m literally transmasc let me have this)
-k I dunno what else to say about him but I love him dearly, moving on
Ness:
-Non-Binary and queer, uses all pronouns (I mainly use they/he for them but they use all pronouns)
-fairly open abt his queerness, especially compared to Mike (don’t tell me that it’s unrealistic for the era or anything like that I completely ignore the concept of time in all of my headcanons ever)
-teaches Mike a lot of stuff abt sexuality and gender since Mike never really looked much into it past realizing he was trans. Definitely helps him unpack some things 💔💔💔
-literally just a silly little malewife femalehubby themboss
-really doesn’t care much abt labels for themself specifically, but he’s one of those “I need to know and understand EVERYTHING” autistics so he learns abt that sort of stuff for other people
-has dated a handful of people before, all across the gender spectrum, so they’re pretty comfortable in their love life and such
-is good at flirting but like in an autistic theater kid kinda way (gay and silly)
-loves to experiment with presentation and style in all sorts of ways. Has definitely done drag at least once
-they’re too silly for binaries idek what else to say abt it that’s kinda just the overall consensus
-was very supportive when Mike came out to them as trans (obviously) it doesn’t matter what they said, Mike would feel awkward no matter what, but they were glad Mike trusted them with that sort of thing and Mike was relieved that literally just SOMEONE knew (specifically someone he trusts and cares abt)
-would wear so many pins related to all sorts of things but yes that includes pride flags and pronouns bro LOVES pins their silliness cannot be contained
Ok that’s all I feel cringe but from what I can tell that’s what tumblrs for so yeah. I will definitely yap more abt them in the future
#securitywaiter#dreamtheory#headcanon#headcanons#fnaf#fnaf movie#mike schmidt#ness the waiter#ness x mike#mike x ness#queer#trans#neurodivergent#audhd
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about me .ᐟ ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁⋆。𖦹°⭒˚。⋆
read before following .ᐟ ★.˚𖦹。⋆
hello !! you can call me myung (mi-ung) ! i'm 19, i use it/its , im a trans male + some xenos ! im a bottom leaning switch and 90% of posts will be bottom themed. this is a nblm/mlm centric account!!!!!
this is my silly little blog to get all of my horny brainrot out :] check below the cut for dni, kinks, and my plans for this account !
! as well as a surprise at the bottom wink wink ;]
ty for stopping by !
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‧₊˚.𖥔 dni ⋆˙ᝰ.ᐟ
hard kinks , r4peplay / cnc , women , fem-aligned , minors , ageless or empty page , chasers , fujoshi , ed blogs , people interested in flirting with me / sexting / relationship
all of these are insta-block on interaction (like, follow, reblog etc.) .ᐟ
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‧₊˚.𖥔 kinks ⋆˙ᝰ.ᐟ
"yes .ᐟ" ★.˚𖦹。⋆
praise/degradation , dacryphilia , somno , overstimulation , desperation , begging , light bondage , creampies , breeding (no preg) , biting , petplay (some aspects not all) , marking , orgasm control/denial , royalty , vampirism , cockwarming , possession , soft objectification (i am literally a doll lol) , free use (in specific contexts) , manhandling/wrestling
( may add more later .ᐟ )
"no .ᐟ" ★.˚𖦹。⋆
any hard or violent kinks , non-con , dub-con , drugging , omorashi/piss cnc , rapeplay , detrans , misgendering , torture , scat , gore , impact (receiving) , inflation , incest , vomit , hypno , gangbang/threesome/polyamory , primal , anything dead dove/taboo , any usage of "daddy" regardless of ddlb/g involvement.
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‧₊˚.𖥔 terms ⋆˙ᝰ.ᐟ
terms/ names i enjoy and am likely to use in my posts .ᐟ
- your highness
- (my) prince
- pretty boy
- good boy
- cuntboy
- slut
- (stupid/pretty) mutt
- (stupid/pretty) dog
- (sex) doll
- (sex) toy
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‧₊˚.𖥔 asks ⋆˙ᝰ.ᐟ
my rules for asks are fairly simple and i love answering questions .ᐟ
yes .ᐟ ★.˚𖦹。⋆
ask questions about my blog or me , request specific writings or share ideas , ask my opinion or input on certain kinks or scenes (i enjoy learning about new things so pls share your favorites!) , ask for longer writings or for me to expand on a previous post
hmm.. ★.˚𖦹。⋆
ask to promote your blog (i gotta check it out first but usually yes!!!) .
no .ᐟ ★.˚𖦹。⋆
ask for me to post photos of myself publicly or share privately , ask for onlyfans or other social medias , sending r4pe threats or any threats of physical or sexual abuse . not cool dude.
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i highly doubt anyone has scrolled this far but hello!!!! hi!!!! thank you for checking my blog out!!! it means a lot to me!! so here's a super secret code word you can send in my asks for a free mini fic of your choosing !! just send " pocketwatch " and include a prompt or suggestion and i'll do what i can!!
my posts are light hearted nsfw writings both short and long form (when i get the time lol). i won't post any violent kinks or scenarios so you're safe with me here !! my posts are very in-the-moment and occasionally sappy and romantic because i don't see alot of that stuff!!! so i've taken matters into my own hands !! i don't take things to seriously here so i may often re/post stupid things or cute photos as well since this is my only account currently! (my last FOUR. accounts have been deleted so i refuse to leave this one sigh) (i may eventually start a sideblog for aesthetics or fandom things though!!!!! but we'll see!!)
i really do hope you enjoy reading ! i always love feedback on what you think or any ideas you'd want me to ramble about (i do love talking lol) my ask box is always open and i'd be grateful if you left any fun concepts , silly messages , or just a "hey i like your posts!" i do have some limits on what i will write but if you're unsure then don't be afraid to message me or drop it in anyways and ill always reply !! im very friendly don't be scared i don't bite (my posts say otherwise but i promise i wont bite you guys).
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#ftm nsft#trans nsft#ftm bottom#ftm mlm#ftm sub#mlm nsft#mlnb nsft#nsft dollboy#t4t nsft#queer nsft#nsft concept#t4t ns/fw#queer ns/fw#ns/fw blog#mlm ns/fw#ns/fw content#trans ns/ft#ftm ns/fw#ftm t4t#am i doing the intro post right#someone tell me im doing a good job or ill die
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i’m so tired of searching for fics and just people in general that don’t see or treat jimin completely different than the rest of the members. idk how to explain it? but nothing he does, none of the others don’t. and yet he gets treated like this absolute baby girl feminine princess. an almost 30 year old man. it just feels like everyone else in bts smut land is respected as a man even the most babiest babies like jk and jin. and the babies with duality like hobi and tae. but jimin? no he’s not a man from busan who gets angry easily, always talks his shit and always flirts with fans. isn’t extremely and has always been sexually expressive and a tease. from filter to serendipity to like crazy to that video of him in paris with those girls at a party like ugh. i feel like i’m the only one that sees jimin like how we see every other man who we respect and don’t demasculinze and misgender based on stereotypes. i just want soft dom, cute boyfie jimin fics, without it being all about switch stuff and sub jimin stuff. a man can be sweet and pretty and still be a man, and act as such in and out of a relationship 😭 this was a random rant but searching jimins name on reddit and twitter got me so mad at seeing him being projected onto and emasculated and dehumanized because of he’s a sweetheart. anyways i’m candy anon. much like jimin, sweet and soft but also sometimes hard and sour. all yummy. (also jimins busan satori is the hottest thing on earth, when he gets mad or upset, which is a lot lol. his native accent coming out? >>>)
no i kinda know what you mean!! i think people feel like ‘femininity’ (within whatever capacity we’re talking about) and dominance are exclusive events and can’t coincide?
i think we’ve mentioned it recently on this blog how open we think jimin is about sex as whole 🚶♀️i agree!! he’s very sexually expressive, especially through his solo songs and projects where he’s able to express himself as an individual 🕺
as a writer— and as mentioned like months ago, when i started writing requests (which was meant to be a joke but became way out of hand), barely any one ever requests jimin. i think i got one request out of 30+?🚶♀️ and i don’t know if it’s just my page.. or if it’s because it’s kinda obvious that i find it hard to write any of the members as subs or as a switch (simply because i don’t have a dominant bone in my body and even though i don’t necessarily see myself as the ‘reader’ in my fics, it’s hard to write the “other” character as a sub) and therefore no one was interested because they saw jimin as a switch or more subby
i think for people it’s easy to demascluinize jimin simply because he’s come to terms with himself and has been open that yeah, he isn’t what you’d call a “classic male” or doesn’t present as a “typical man” but i think that some people can’t comprehend that just because someone shows more feminine traits or qualities, or has been open about not forcing a stupid, outdated agenda onto himself. doesn’t mean he’s any less of a man 🧍♀️
soft dom jimin ☹️ going back to what i was saying a couple of days ago. he’s definitely the type of guy to do a lot of research to make sure he knows a lot and that what you’re doing is gonna be a safe experience for the both of you and just :( he’d definitely be a pleasure dom too. and would definitely be open about sex as a topic, probably doesn’t shy away from much
it’s okay!! i quite enjoy having these kinds of conversations with people but it’s not often i get to have them 💞
i really do see what you mean though. a lot of the twitter aus i’ve read, either it be member x member or jimin x reader he’s always basically portrayed the same in most if not all fics.
if i ever stumble across any fun dom jimin fics i’ll reblog them for you 🙏 and obviously try and write some good stuff as well whenever inspiration or motivation hits 💪
candy anon 🫂🫂🫂 that’s so cute 😭
jimin using satoori >>>>> 🕺
anyways! if you wanna go deeper into this topic at any time or literally anything else i’d love to just chat about stuff. it’s always interesting to see other peoples’ opinions on things like this
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You seem like a really non-biased and heartfelt person running this blog. I appreciate your honesty with every reply, it’s very commendable.
My time in the terra server has been confusing to say the least. I thoroughly enjoy it, and yet at least once a day something that strikes as off putting will happen. I am not one to vent, nor post on blogs like this, but, with the trial mods out there’s something on my mind that I just can no longer hold within. I am beyond, overly uncomfortable with Xiao being a trial mod.
This make strike weirdly, but I don’t seem them as a face, nor representative of how Terras should be. They are cold, unemotional, biased, and overall picky. They ignore you when they feel like it (and, apologies if I am misgendering, I do not know their pronouns at the time), and only talk to their friends; the staff, or anyone with “good art”.
It sucks? Because, I wanted to be their friend and they ultimately shoved me away. Maybe I am a little petty, but I just do not find their presence as a trial mod welcoming. It honestly makes me feel a little, no, very afraid to talk.
So, I’d like to know your opinion? On Xiao? What should I do? Can I even do anything??
i really appreciate the kind words anon, i try my best to give my genuine viewpoints, as i think a lot of owners of blogs like these can be too disconnected from their topic and it feels out of touch imo
on to the topic at hamd
i dont interact much in the server on a personal level anymore after the whole blowout with architechals, but what i will say is that i am never really too fond of the picks for staff
i wanna use bear and pokii as an example, since during that situation in the callout thread, they were incredibly heinous toward former mod milo (who i actually really liked, they were super down to earth and friendly), and that combined with the behavior exhibited by bear toward ponyzilla, like how can you clearly copy a design you offered on in the past and act like theres no similarity whatsoever
anyways
i dont know much about xiao (besides the fact i have them blocked lol, i guess they annoyed me at some point) but if your character assessment is true to your experience then i think thats pretty on par with how terra staff is in general. cliquey, disconnected, and cold unless youre someone they want to be associated with for clout.
for you specifically anon, id say keep talking how you want to, xiao seems like a person who really isnt the best to be friends with in your case, and if you find yourself being cut off or talked over or pushed aside by them in the public chat, i would politely but sternly point it out. people really love to ignore stuff like that in terras because you arent one of the elite staff members who everyone wants to talk to, but you deserve respect as well.
so in short, maybe stop trying to be friends with xiao and focus more on the friendships youre already cultivating, and dont be afraid to stick up for yourself if you feel yourself being pushed away from public spaces. terras has a lot of mob mentality and often will let things slide in fear of rocking the boat. if you feel yourself being unwelcomed by a member of staff, stand your ground and collect screenshots. if you get brushed aside, it just helps you build more of a case in the event that it becomes too overwhelming to even be in the same spaces as them
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hi dante you don't know me at all but i just wanted to say i Really love your gender presentation and it's an inspiration to me tbh. i've been on T for over 2 years and i still don't always """pass""" not because i don't have a good grade in testosterone or w/e (??? like what was that anon implying lol) just because i love to have longer hair and wear makeup and etc. i relate very strongly to the idea of like. i'm trans but not in the sense that i ever wanted to or want to look like a cis man; for me it's more like expressing femininity from a masculine place but that's a whole other discussion lol. but it is super disheartening to like... not be able to present as a man in the way that makes you personally feel euphoric without getting misgendered even by other queer folks. it's shit that it's all "everyone should be able to express gender however they want" but often when a trans person doesn't """look like""" (or """try hard enough""" to """look like""") the gender they want to be seen as it's all well you just look like your agab how do you not "pass" how do you expect anyone to know. like. fucking Ask? Stop Assuming? The Entire Point Of The Conversations We're Having Around Gender? anyway. sorry this is long, i just wanted to let you know you're not alone here and also honestly i think you're handsome as fuck and i'd love to express my gender half as gorgeously as you do someday. i hope people leave you the fuck alone <3
this is such a sweet message & i get you 100%!!!!! its so exhausting having to decide between "passing" & looking how you wanna look cus cis people cannot comprehend the fact that gnc trans ppl exist apparently! like i feel the best + most like myself when im wearing a gay ass outfit & maybe some eyeshadow. i like it! it makes me feel pretty! & i love feeling pretty! im still very much a guy yknow? anyway yeah. thank you so much friend. we see each other
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