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rubyleaf · 1 year ago

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Went through my blog again for the funsies and discovered an old, old tag game from 2016. And boy, am I shaking my head at it. Not only is 17-year-old me hilariously and stubbornly convinced she's straight, she's also very self-deprecating and generally not in a good place.

So I thought: why not answer these questions again, over seven years later, just to see how things have changed?

So here goes. The update.

MOST RECENT:

Drink: Water! I have a glass next to me right now and I'm staying nice and hydrated :) Phone call: Mom, earlier this afternoon, to make sure I'm still healthy and haven't died from acute Moved Out And Living Unsupervised Disease. Shockingly, I'm alive and well. Text: Dad, joking about the Berlin lioness boar thing. I still refuse to believe it was a boar BTW. I don't know what it was, but those pictures do NOT look like a boar.

Song you listened to: Saosin – "You're Not Alone" Time you cried: You know, I genuinely don't remember. Might've been weeks ago. I barely cry anymore these days, except from laughter or the occasional tearing up over a heartwarming scene in a show.

Dated someone twice: No, and unless the circumstances were very special, I wouldn't. If the ship has sailed, it has sailed for a reason. Been cheated on: Single, thriving, in my lane, cannot be cheated on if I don't have a partner. Peace and love on Planet Earth. Lost someone special: Lost touch with many friends over the years. Staying in touch is still hard. But honestly, some of them turned out to not be that special after all in the first place and a lot have stayed too, so really, it's fine. Been depressed: Nah. Been drunk and thrown up: Still don't like alcohol, still don't drink ✌️ Your three favourite colours: Purple! And pink, and the third one…maybe red!

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU:

Made a new friend: So many. So so many. Fallen out of love: Yep! Laughed until you cried: Just this week alone! Met someone who changed you: I think so! Found out who your true friends are: Yes. And to the people who turned out not to be—thanks for making it easier to watch you leave right now. Found out someone’s talking about you: In the "bringing up my existence" way? Yes. Badly? No—someone probably did, but not my problem.

EXTRAS

How many people from your fb list do you know irl: What Facebook? Do you have any pets: Not at the moment. Hard to keep any in a dorm room. I'd like to maybe get a small dog someday though! Do you want to change your name: Not anymore. When I was little I used to hate my name because everyone kept misspelling or mispronouncing it, but now I like it even if people still get it wrong all the time. Sometimes it still feels weird and othering, in an irrational sort of way, but I can't imagine myself being called anything else. What did you do for your last birthday: Had drinks with some people from my orientation group in one guy's dorm apartment. Casually came out as bi over a game of Never Have I Ever. Wound up at a party even though I had an 8:30 AM class the next morning. Zero regrets. What were you doing last night at midnight? Sitting on my bed and hitting play on the brand-new Meet Me @ the Altar song that dropped last night!!! Name something you can’t wait for: MM@TA EU tour in October! I've been obsessed with them for two years and finally they come here to play some shows and the first time I saw the announcement I legit busted a lip in my excitement. Unfortunately not a hyperbole.

Last time you saw your mum: Last time I visited home—early May I think? What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Better executive functions so I struggle less with getting stuff done, especially uni stuff and household chores. Currently trying to do something about that, actually! If I'm really lucky I might get an ADHD diagnosis in the foreseeable future and maybe meds…? What are you listening to rn: Fall Out Boy – "We Didn't Start the Fire" Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Often. It's quite a common name where I live! What’s getting on your nerves rn: One word: THESIS. Which I for some reason struggle to do anything about. Blood type: Still unknown! Nickname: Several shorter forms of my civilian name. On here, Ruby. Zodiac Sign: Aquarius Pronouns: she/her Favourite tv show: At the moment: ATLA (and Legend of Korra), Ted Lasso, Good Omens. Probably more I'm forgetting. High school: Graduated in 2016! College: In my Masters! I have an undergraduate degree in law now :D Long or short hair: Long, down to my hips. I used to have short hair as a kid, but I’ve always wanted long hair. Height: 159 cm or 5′2.5′’. Do you have a crush on someone: I try to tell myself that no, I'm just very fond of the person. Platonically. What do you like about yourself: I'm creative and adaptable! I'm good at winging it when the situation requires it, and I usually get things figured out one way or another. I'm a hype woman for my friends, and I like the way I can find joy and excitement in all corners of life. Also, not to toot my own horn but I'm really proud of my style right now! Right or left handed: Right-handed. First surgery: None. Piercing: None. First best friend: Probably Rebecca, in first grade. It’s a shame I moved away, I wonder what she’s doing now. First sport you joined: Ballet, when I was five or six. Kept doing it until early fifth grade, then changed to horseback riding. First vacation: Probably to my grandparents’ vacation home somewhere at the North Sea. Don’t remember a thing though, I was one or something.

RIGHT NOW:

Eating: Nothing. Drinking: Water, still! I’m about to: Hopefully write a bit more for the mystery project 👀 Listening to: Meet Me @ the Altar – "Give It Up"

WANT:

Kids: Yes, eventually. I'd like a stable partner first (although if push comes to shove I wouldn't mind raising my kids solo), and most importantly I'd like to be my own person for a couple of years and not be bound by duty to everyone else. Travel, explore the world and myself, get all that out of my system so I can truly go into motherhood with no regrets. Get married: Yes, if I find the right person to do it with. Career: Study law and work for the EU or an NGO.

WHICH IS BETTER:

Lips or eyes: Eyes. I don't pay much attention to lips outside of someone having a cute smile! Hugs or kisses: Kisses are nice, but I still prefer hugs! Taller or shorter: IDGAF. I still love my tall lanky noodle men, but I'm not picky. With women, even less so. Girl is taller than me? Awesome, great for being held. Shorter than me? CUTE. Older or younger: Around my age, rest doesn't matter. I'm at an age where anything between 20-30 is fair game, but any younger or older and it gets creepy. Romantic or spontaneous: A mixture of both. Nice stomach or nice arms: If the person is nice, their body will be nice too. It's an automatic process. I don't make the rules. Sensitive or loud: A combination of both! Troublemaker or hesitant: Secret third thing where they're chaotic but also too shy to really make a move.

HAVE YOU EVER

Kissed a stranger: Does "someone I talked to all evening but didn't know before that and didn't meet again afterwards" count? Drank liquor: Tried a bit, same as everybody. Found it nasty. Didn't try again. Lost glasses/contacts: Don't have any to lose. (Given the way I've been treating my eyes: yet?) Had sex on the first date: I'm asexual and I refuse. Broke someone’s heart: Yes, and let's leave it at that. Turned someone down: I'm a woman existing in public. Having to turn down random men is a recurring part of my experience. Cried when someone died: Not really—I seem to shut down and go blank more than anything else. I used to feel guilty about it, but now I've learned that everyone processes grief and loss differently and it doesn't mean I care less. Fallen for a friend: Yes, repeatedly, it has yet to end well, and it will probably happen again.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

Yourself: Mostly yes. There are some things I need help with before I can unlock my full potential, but one thing I've learned is that I always manage in the end. And once I get proper help, I have no doubt I'll be just fine. Miracles: I don't like to rely on them, but I do believe that unlikely good things can and do happen. Love at first sight: Not for myself, I need to get to know a person before I fall for them. I do believe in attraction at first sight though. Heaven: It's a nice thought, but whether or not it exists doesn't matter to me. Our task in life is the same regardless: try to be kind and treat others well and hopefully leave the world a slightly better place. Santa Claus: No, and never really have. My parents never claimed he was real; my Christmas presents always came from the family that visited on Christmas Eve. Kissing on a first date: Did it once, it was okay. I think it's one of those "take it or leave it" things—if the chemistry is right, sure, go for it, but it's definitely not for everyone in every situation.

#warning: VERY long post behind the cut #but also: healing! improvement! look at her; she's okay now!#(mostly—getting there)#personal #I'm just sayin'

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dogaquarium · 1 month ago

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MY THOUGHTS FOLLOWING REVISITATION OF THE LISA SERIES!!!!! 🥳🥳

Starting off specifying that I'm going to be largely speaking about joyful here rather than painful or first. I have minimal thoughts on first (it was just Kind Of Okay) and too many thoughts on painful to include in this post at least (however, I did recently post a tier list of all my favorite painful party members if you're curious). I also am not taking the time to eloquently word anything since this is just my diary blog where I throw ideas at the wall and see what sticks. So dumping whatever here. Please know that while I have been a fan of painful for years, spare for the first 20 minutes or so of joyful I was going in completely blind

SPOILERS BELOW!!!!!!! Including painful spoilers since joyful is a direct sequel

While I did have a good time with joyful, I can definitely agree with most that painful is probably the best game in the series. One reason being that it's longer so you have more time for development, yes, but regardless of that I feel like overall the characters were treated with more care. And I have a sneaking suspicion that a lot of it has to do with the phenomenon of morally questionable girl characters always getting WAY criticism than morally questionable or even straight up evil guy characters. BOTH lisa and buddy get an insane amount of hate from fans and the creator alike (big surprise that the creator has dogshit takes with his track record /s) and it ultimately resulted in some of the character development and writing falling flat. LIKE. YOURE KIDDING!!!! There's so many people in this game that are undeniably and explicitly worse than those two, grow up. I only wish the same care that went into writing brad and his complexities went into buddy as well. That being said I still I remain the #1 buddy fan on earth. I forgive her and I think she's allowed to get even worse honestly. You go girl kill more people wooooo!!!!!!

^ I saw a post with this image earlier and yeah that basically sums my point up

One thing I was really excited about was rando!!!! He's always intrigued me since I was initially introduced to him in painful and seeing that brother-sister duo played up in joyful made my heart so happy. I'll have to draw him and buddy together eventually. As previously mentioned though, the writing of joyful was a little more sloppy than painful and as a result I do find myself wishing we could have seen more of the pair. If I wasn't already attached to him and buddy, I doubt all the drama between them would've had as much impact! Since they weren't elaborated on further! Not saying you have to kill rando's mystery factor or diminish buddy's abrasive and distant personality, but damn a little more of Something would've been helpful. And. Hey :^) ! Speaking of killing in the context of rando. WHAT THE FUCK. I HAD NO IDEA BUDDY KILLED HIM?!?!?!?! Indirectly I suppose, considering he was already super fucked up and she was acting aggressively out of impulse (hence her dropping him or punching him out of frustration rather than using her sword), but I still had no clue!!!! I knew he ended up dead somehow, it just hurt so much worse seeing how it actually played out. The siblings are fighting.......!!!!!

But moving on....

^ Genuinely do not get me fucking started on this scene at the end. Don't even let me say a single word. I cannot begin to describe my devastation. But I will say this: buddy's feelings on brad are no secret throughout joyful. She holds many conflicting feelings on him that she wrestles with constantly, but her hatred of him was no secret. And that is exactly why this moment in her confrontation with buzzo killed me. She still believes what he did to be noble; even if he was too late in trying to change, he still tried SO hard, both for her and himself, until the bitter end. She still respects and loves him, despite the accusations she throws at him. His dying words of if he did the right thing or not must haunt her..

On the topic of her confrontation with buzzo, I'm really glad he was developed so much in joyful. Villains that are evil Just Because are so boring to me, so to establish some actual lore rather than painful's vague hints at something greater was such a relief. He's much more of a compelling character to me now!! I looooved the history established between him and lisa ESPECIALLY in that after credits exchange the two have in one of the endings... but just because a characyer has become more compelling doesnt mean theyre not annoying as hell anymore. Of course circling back to the very first thing I said in this thought dump: all his character development has made a lot of people sympathize with buzzo a LOT (he is lame and stupid and FUCKING CRAZY LIKE HELLO HAVE YOU GUYS FORGOTTEN ABOUT THE WHOLE "USING LIVING PEOPLE AS EXPERIMENTS" THING AND CHILD ABUSE AND STALKING SOMEONE JUST TO TORTURE THEM ETC ETC ETC THE LIST GOES ON?!?!?!) in addition to villainizing lisa and making her out to be some horrible evil monster which is. So shitty. I think you missed the point guys. People can have nuance. She was also a horrifically abused child and not a full grown adult like buzzo became. Shut up

On an unrelated note: being that I'm deeply attached to the relationship brad and terry foster throughout painful, terry's lack of appearance in joyful hurts terribly. Granted, there are traces of him throughout the world (such as his hint posters put up everywhere, references to him in words/other character designs, AND THE FUCKING FAKE VILLAGE HE CREATED WHICH DID WAY TOO MUCH DAMAGE TO MY PSYCHE IT HURT SO BAD) but if anything that just made it Worse!!!!! Because I know in my heart how well he would've clicked with buddy

Oh!!!!! One thing I wanted to mention!!! Technically two. I was SHOCKED that big lincoln didn't play as much of a role as I initially thought he would!!! I always saw so much fan art of him looking super badass and scary and important. And while he IS important in the context of Olathe's history, story-wise he REALLY is not all that important or impactful at all. Did people really just go "this wolf guy is hot so let's draw him a bunch"???? If so I can't fully fault them because yeah he is. But I was soooo hoping for more. The second thing in the same vein of this sentiment was the fact that I had no idea beltboy wasn't a character in joyful!!!!! I kept expecting to see him!!!!! Bc I had seen SOOOOOOOOO much art of him and buddy or him and various other canon characters. YOU MEAN TO TELL ME HES FROM A FAN GAME?!?!?! Is he just that beloved??? Maybe I'll check it out some time I GUESS....

Before moving on totally from the topic of big lincoln, let me address one more thing. I'm of the belief that half-men/beast men/whatever the hell you want to call them do very much so exist in the world!!! In cases such as Lincoln or Carp or- hell- even Bo, they're intended to be humans with masks/helmets... but you're telling me that in a world where joy mutants and fishmen exist there's no possibility for werewolfs and shit? IDC!!!!!!!!!! ALL THREE OF THEM ARE NONHUMAN TO ME (though idk what Bo could even be..... some kinda undefined creature that's all I got)

Misc notes:

I REALLY like the fact that in some of the endings where we seen an adult buddy she has a baby boy. Admittedly I do Not think she would ever in any shape or form be fit to be a mom. Or have any desire to. Aroace buddy truther 4ever anyways. But even ignoring my own beliefs on her character I think it's beautifully ironic that as the only woman left on earth- as someone heralded as the world's "future" or "savior" constantly- has a baby boy, and humans are basically guaranteed to die out after that point. What a wonderful final touch to the story honestly, it wraps it up in such a pretty bow and mirrors the rest of the story beautifully

Seeing the green ranger/tooley was really cool :^) there's a lot of room in joyful to imagine "what if" scenarios (e.g. what if rando didn't abandon buddy) and tooley is definitely one of those cases!!! His personality is so vastly different than most folks buddy ran into; what if she had met him sooner, or what if she had allowed him to join her party like she considered momentarily?

That's pretty much it. I have a lot more feelings but that covers all the main bases and ideas nagging at my mind. Feel free to ask me about anything further if you're curious, be it on topics I covered or omitted. Or entirely unrelated to joyful/about the other two games instead!

#diary

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araisbored · 9 months ago

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This is The Eras Tour post.

I'm so used to not getting what I wanted and now this feels like a fever dream. (Or maybe it really was.)

I don't know how to even start this shit. I guess maybe I’ll start with the fact that I have extremely long nails and that made this whole situation uncomfortable and irritable. Yes, I am running down with 4 hrs of sleep so being irritable seems in line. The next couple of words are words that I can’t phantom to say.

I went to The Eras Tour. Yes, that tour. The Taylor concert. Yes, the girl Taylor I always babble about. The Taylor that I adored since I was….. 11?12 or maybe even younger… Yes. Ms. Taylor Swift.

It’s no shame and secret that I was a big fan of Taylor Swift. Everybody who knows me knows that I loved Taylor. Like the type of love that I am willing to go to a Federal prison. The things I would commit for her. There are a lot of times that I attempt to attend her past concerts, and all of those times.. I obviously failed. And there are many. And it’s very sad and soul wrenching that it always starts with me being hopeful and ending with me in tears. I’m pretty sure there was a point in my funny life that I completely lost my hope and accepted that I won’t be able to see her. Funny thing when constant let downs get into you.

But lo and behold. Yesterday I saw the ever beautiful Ms. Swift. Yesterday was the first day of the Tokyo leg of the most anticipated concert of Taylor: The Eras Tour. I can’t really say anything much because I was in the middle of an epiphany due to lack of sleep and PCD. So I can’t really make up words. It’s a whole struggle writing this blog post. But I figured it’s always good to start something even though you can’t finish it within the day. I just wanna get it out right away and as fresh as it is from my memory.

The concert was phenomenal. I watched her here in Japan. So the whole experience was very organized and people are calmer compared to the fans from the previous shows. So the whole concert was pleasant. It was the best. I cannot really say anything to Taylor’s production. One of the best productions. The props, the music, the lights, the visual effects and the story telling. It was the best. Of course, Taylor’s songs were undoubtedly the biggest factor why we all went to the concert. But hey can you believe how much more she put out. And she did that for almost 3 hours. The longest concert I’ve ever been to and there’s no down time. You can’t even sit down during the visuals because even those things are beautiful. You would want to see them. You are also gonna stand for the next 3 hours with her. And with that being said I really really wanna commend Taylor for that. Because the sheer stamina you need to have to be able to pull that must’ve been insane. She was right when she said that she loves what she does. Because you won’t be able to do that if you don’t. Pure love and passion and it reflects on whatever she does. That’s why I don’t understand when people say that she’s so cringey and fake. It was the complete opposite of what I’m seeing. She’s the most genuine for me. When she has a short ment where she talks to the fans, I could feel her genuine love for us. How grateful and happy she was to see the crowd. Anyways, back to the concert. It was so good. The best. The only complaints I have are more on the venue and the whole Tokyo Dome infrastructure. I’ve seen a lot of screens in other stadiums but there is only one on the stage. I just hope they add more along the areas. Also there is no confetti. And the seats are so small. It’s not spacious, especially for a concert where you should jump and dance. But again it is more of a comment on the venue, and we can’t do anything about it. If I will comment on the concert itself, I think my only complaint would be the setlist. I don’t know why and how she chooses her setlist but she should've done a fan voting for this. Like the hunger games and let the swifties start WWIII with that. But then again, maybe I just didn’t like the songs in it. Hahahaha

If you’re planning to go or just thinking if you should… You should. 100%. It is worth every penny.

And if you’re looking for tips on what to do, bring or just the 411 on the Eras tour. Sure, take your pens and notes ‘coz I have a few of those.

If you’re in a costume I just hope it was comfortable and manageable. This is a concert where you dance and sing and jump. So if you’re a person who can’t jump in heels don't even think of wearing one. If you can, then GO. I did wear a pair of platform boots and my feet didn't hurt with all the standing and walking and running and jumping and dancing and sprinting I did. Have a good outfit and the best shoes.

Bring a big BAG. Unless it is stated that you can’t. Make use of the allowed space(for your bag) because you would want one. I did bring a classic Chanel bag and it sucks. I wish I brought a tote bag with me so I can put all the unnecessary things I won't use. Plus you need to put your merch and your friendship bracelets. You really need to have a big bag. Or an extra bag if you’re allowed to.

This is more of a general tip, but don’t put LONG press-on nails. I did and it almost ruined my day. I can’t text properly, get something out from my bag and it is hard for me to film because of those stupid nails.

Water. Drink water. Finish your water before you enter the stadium because they don’t allow outside drinks.

This is gonna be contradicting but don’t drink too much water. Just enough to make you hydrated the whole 3 hours. Again, it was 3 hours long. Peeing is very risky. You might miss your favorite song.

Hope for a good seatmate buddy. I did have and it was the best experience. We are all jumping and exchanging bracelets. And taking pictures and videos.

Just sing your heart out. Dance till your knees give out. Instead of filming the whole concert. It would be blurry anyways. Plus there are other people who have better footage. Take a few for the grams but the rest I suggest you don’t. Just be in the moment. That’s what I did and it was so magical. I still feel like I'm on cloud 9.

This is a dream come true for me. Things haven’t sunk into me yet. Everything was still so blurry and unbelievable for me. I think the next step for me was to jump from the brink of depression. With this too much high and happiness, I can’t wait for my serotonin, dopamine, endorphins, oxytocin, and all the hormones responsible for happiness to die down. I know it would be a terrible week after this. I’ll be insufferably annoying because you bet that I will be grumpy and sad. If you wanna see my photos from the tour you have to be following me on Instagram. If you want to, my handle is @arasawano. I'll spare you one:

Anyway, another goal was checked from my bucket list. Woohooo!

#TheErasTour #the eras tour tokyo #day 1 #personal #taylor swift

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butididntpourthewhiskeys · 1 year ago

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sarah, i’ve always loved your writing, i have lost count of how many times i have read your stories, so i was obviously really excited when i saw that you had posted a new one.

just for context, i am from rio and i went to all 3 shows this past weekend. and the second i saw ana’s name i had to stop reading.

she shouldn’t be a theme you are using as inspiration for your stories. her family is GRIEVING. they lost their daughter. she had left her home to experience a life long dream and went back DEAD. fans had to help the family pay for the costs bc they couldn’t afford to bring her home. how can you use this as an inspiration to fanaticise about a celebrity couple? the fact that the people on this blog have literally only talked about travis when all of this happened is horrifying enough. A FAN LOST HER LIFE. it could’ve been me. it could’ve been anyone else in that stadium. i just can’t believe you used this on a fucking fanfiction. taylor would be disgusted to see this.

i get that a lot of europeans and americans don’t care about latino lives, but using ana’s passing as an inspiration was just so low. she WAS a person. with feelings, dreams, goals, a family and friends. now she is gone. and you are using her as a character in your fanfiction while her parents go to bed crying because they’ve lost their daughter.

my heart hurts to see this because i genuinely love your writing and now i keep thinking that maybe if i was the unlucky one on that night i would’ve been the theme of your new story about taylor swift and travis kelce while my friends and family suffer with my passing - just trying to give u some insight of how this looks from the outside, this isn’t about me.

if this had happened to an uk fan at a wembley show, would you have written a fanfiction about it? i bet the answer is no.

brazilian fans have been through hell and back, just trying to make the most of our shows despite all the TERRIBLE things that have happened, this past weekend while you are out here writing this shit. the dehumanisation towards us is just so insane to witness.

truly a disgusting move. i felt sick when i realised what you did. i don’t intend to be mean, but i’m utterly disappointed and hope that you’ll consider deleting that story because it’s insanely disrespectful.

and if you don’t then i guess that you don’t care enough and that’s even worse.

Hey anon, I’ve been sitting on this ask for a bit now and I contemplated whether or not I should post this but I am posting it because I see you and I see your opinion in this and I want to say that I partly agree but that you should try and see this from another perspective: whenever I write (whether that’s fiction or not) it’s because I digest my feelings and try and work through them or put them into context to ultimately move forward. I’m not gonna lie. Last weekend, I was horribly troubled by what happened in Brazil. The thought of a young girl going to a concert and not making it out alive has been traumatizing for this entire fandom. Now, imagine how Taylor must feel if I, a stranger, a girl in pure privilege who doesn’t have to worry about what went down in Brazil last week feels this way. I have contemplated whether I should change her name in my story or represent this inner conflict of Taylor’s in a different way. At the end, I felt like Ana DESERVED to be spoken about. She deserves to be acknowledged, by us, by Taylor, by this big hole in our hearts that she’s left. I understand where you’re coming from anon, but I want you to know that there’s a difference between turning a tragedy into something to get attention for when you’ve got nothing to do with it or to create something that can help everyone process their feelings and emphasize how hard this especially must have been on Taylor.

The only thing I disagree with fully from your ask is the assumption that I don’t care about her because she’s from LatAm? Do you hear yourself? I will not and cannot let this sit on me so I’m not even getting into it. I know you’re horrified but please find someone else to put your anger and frustration onto. Not someone who’s spent her weekend grieving.

#come off anon and let’s have a real conversation #not a threat but a serious offer

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tellmethisisnottumblisnextfuckup · 3 years ago

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hello gaby... probably you have already been asked this question but in your other blog (R.I.P). How did you become a Larrie? how did you know about them?

Hi, it's a funny story actually haha. It's a real learning curve.

So, disclaimer, I'm from a very homophobic country (Hungary), where when I grew up I only saw mom-dad families therefore of course all of my core values came from my upbringing. Even today the vast majority of people who call themselves open are only good w gayness if they don't "flaunt it". I know it's horrible. But that is also fascinating in how the true love of 2 boys/men can change the view of someone who was by definition predominantly homophobic (this was me yes). So, I'd say, this country is not like USA where you can see bars, and trans people proudly dressing up on the street, which would normalize the experience, here in my country this is happening behind closed doors or in the very few gay clubs we have. And here no one even thinks of other sexuals, or other sexualities, so it's straight or gay. Genders? Male or female. No other box to tick or no "not wishes to share" boxes.

Alright enough of the disclaimer, here is the story:

I also was one of those bitches who teased Adam's niece for her love for 1D. (I know I know - as I said: learning curve)

It's important to note that I have this natural tendency to alienate myself from things that are popular, and I'm stubbornly not loving something just because it's popular. Things can grow on me of course (like in this story), but 1D was everywhere, they were pushed down on my throat, if you opened the basin 1D would come out instead of tap water, they were in my favorite movie's premiere, and I was like no, go away, that's MY movie, you're not even actors.. just no!

I took one look at Louis to deduct ok he's gay - it was not hard to deduct - and I know it's superficial, but again, I am from a homophobic country.

Then one fateful night at the end of March 2014 I happened to be in Holland for a business trip and in the hotel room alone I had some time to kill. So for the lack of a dvd player or good TV programs (everything was in Dutch!) I grabbed the laptop and I went on YouTube to find some videos, and I cannot say why, but I was like, let's check 1D's TXF performances out. At that point I never even heard them live, only via mainstream radio. So I checked the videos one by one and they were GOOD, they could SING, and that was surprising to me...

And as I went through the videos, I got a rec (not FIMQ) but a rec which had such a clickbait title, that even my previously stubborn, but now very curious self chose to watch.

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It was this video, I can't believe it's still out there. So long story short, it took me 2 seconds to get convinced they really are in love. The video was kind enough to explain the then-valid situation that the fandom SUPPORTS them, and it's only the management/industry which is not letting them come out.

And this really started a huge turmoil in my head because on one hand I was taught something, it was ingrained in me that a family is mom and dad and a couple is a girl and a boy, but what I saw, it was so genuine, it was heartbreaking, and who the fuck decided that what they feel is wrong? So I started digging like a moron, and by moron I mean that I went to bed at 3 AM and my taxi was supposed to pick me up at 5 AM so I slept TWO hours, because I was sooo buried in my laptop, with so many tabs open, and so many question marks. As I said, it was very clear from the video they're genuine. The only question I had ok but are they still together, we wrote 2014, and the video was made in 2013 May, so it was already a year old when I watched it. Again, it didn't take long to find they were still very much real and they were about to start the WWA tour. So I jumped to tumblr, created a blog, learned the ins and outs of this hellsite, followed those whose posts were informative, and built my old blog.

I am now a very well known liberal in our family, I even went against the political views in my family, and my mom simply had to understand. I also told to Adam that when Lizi reaches a point of needing a talk, he'll support me in enlightening her of the world she's not seeing because it's still not normalized in this country, and we're trying to do a good job - she still says it's strange (m/m or f/f) - I tell her it's not something she sees but it's super normal and if she ever feels something is not okay with the mold this society wants to put her into, then it's okay, we're here, we're supporting her, she can count on us.

Back to the niece: I told her wow this Larry is a real thing do you know this? And she's like yeah they're friends, and btw Louis has a gf. I'm not sure if she mentioned Harry, but I specifically remember hearing Eleanor as a reason. And I'm like no honey they're a couple and her reaction made it pretty clear we're not on the same page. So I gave her time. WWA kicked off and me being me, I sent her some gifs, some vids, some links that come on, even the fool can see it's NOT platonic. I sent her tattoos, and you know what's funny, the more I kept digging, the more proof I found, which was undeniable like the tats, but it was not even the main thing that got me believe in them. And I think one of those complimentary tats was fresh as hell before WWA (I need to look at the tattoo timeline). I checked the timeline so in 2014 Jan H got the anchor and in March L already had the arrow...) And also Strong-Happily!!! Soon I got to know the real Louis Tomlinson and the real Harry Styles, and I became very invested that they make it, that they win, because they deserve it!

Back to Adam's niece: I gave her a bit of time to consume the content and the fact that those 2 are undeniably together and that E is a beard. I think a few months later she came around, we were at a family event, (covid what) and I just chatted w her and SHE brought Larry up, until then I strictly avoided it, and she's like I realized E is a beard and th boys are together. And my mom nature immediately kicking off: so are you supporting them? You know it's not right that just because they fell in love it isn't okay/normal/accepted. And she said yes I support them. I was sooo happy! We couldn't SHUT up after that, we were reminded several times that lunch is readyyyy, but we were like 2 whispering schoolgirls haha.

So, summa summarum, they changed me, they changed my whole attitude, they changed what had been ingrained in me by showing it's genuine, it's not this negative picture the government portray gay relationships, and my change affected my husband of course, and will affect our 2 daughters. I also told my mom that she should be open, because if I happen to be non-straight I expect her to love me just like she does today and I know she secretly changed her views too. At least being a bit more open. Everything is still so hidden here, you don't see people coming out, you don't see these examples that could set more examples and start an avalanche of co's, at least definitely not in the public world, so it's still a long way to go, but good news, the younger generation is so much more accepting and has a lot more liberal views than our grandparents and ancestors.

This became long as hell but it was good to go back to memory lane a bit.

And 2 gifs I specifically remember that were ok no way in hell this is platonic:

Thanks for reading it and thanks for asking nonny! :)

#my story #I'M not putting it under a read more because everything i put under a read more in TMTINL I lost #and i will never be able to recover #so pls swallow this long post pill #and understand my reasons #personal

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libbee · 2 years ago

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Hello! Firstly, I wanted to thank you for taking the time to write about the self-improvement an 8th house native can make, especially the Jungian analytical psychology recommendation. It has helped plenty. Do you have any suggestions an 8th house native can do to recharge or maybe help through these intense rebirths? Recently, I’ve had so many transformations; I’m grateful for them genuinely, but sometimes it feels overwhelming realizing how much I’ve changed and the overall feeling ig. Again, thank you for taking the time out of your day to write great blogs, have a nice day.

Hi! I'm glad to know that you've also experienced the intense rebirth transformations of 8th house. Things like these cannot be proven scientifically or factually. I even read an article once calling people who "intuit, believe in healing, rebirth" as mentally ill because of fantasy prone personality + childhood trauma. Ironically all this is again the subject matter of 8th house itself. Essentially, things that are beyond your control. Where you feel powerless, helpless and fated. That's 8th house for you.

I am myself going through rebirth and I dont feel like this is my last transformation either. Some of the things that have helped me are:

Synchronicities. I am not talking about 111, 222, 333 types. I am talking about significant matters. For eg, 2 days back I went to market thinking "I have to buy a small dustbin and pack of 6 bottles" and a few minutes later I saw a small dustbin and pack of 6 bottles put on display! Just these two items. Similarly, I was guided and validated by these synchronicities that I was on the right path.

Letting go of media. I personally left TV music movies songs. Why? Because i couldn't tolerate the imagination, intensity and fantasy in my head. My emotional life was already very chaotic. I didnt want to let highly charged sound and image go to my system anymore. Plus, almost everything fed to you by media is very narcissistic in nature.

Learning to control emotions. 8th house and Scorpio sign both have nexus with emotional intensity, trauma, craziness, complexity. But do not repress those emotions either. You can channel them through any hobby or simply observe the emotion in your body.

Socializing. I committed mistake of isolating myself during transformations. But socializing is very important to project your unconscious upon others so that you can learn more about yourself and build yourself up. You never know if you're on the path of self actualization, you might attract similar people into your life.

Learning by sharing. This is one of the astrological remedies I believe in. Service. Teaching others. Helping others. I started this blog to read astro observations and eventually started sharing my own experiences with others. By sharing my experiences and knowledge, I started finding loopholes in myself. I tried analyzing these loopholes. I call these loopholes the abyss of my personality. The more I scratch it, the more it delivers.

Thank you for taking the time to read whatever I write.

#astrology observations #astrology #astro observations #astro community #shadow self #astroblr #occult #8th house #astrology and mental illness

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jimines · 3 years ago

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Whats actually happened between you and taemaknae? I read about it on the tea blog and still confused

This is an insanely long story so I'm going to put it below the cut so for anyone interested in this absolute shit show, continue on.

Essentially, I posted these headers about a month ago:

It was a set of like 8 colours and it was the first time I had ever posted any headers or anything. The issue nic had with these, was the ripped paper bottom. Because apparently you can trademark that. I had asked a (now ex) “friend” of mine if she knew where I could find the ripped paper effect because I had seen the effect on the header of her network blog and I had been trying to find a similar thing for months and google images never gave me anything good. She ended up referring me to google images anyways and after like an hour of dedicated searching, I found this ripped paper effect and used it. This ex “friend” went on to tell another friend of mine that I had "asked where nicole gets her resources for her headers" and then screenshotted my dm as "proof", which still confuses me because I never mentioned nicole there lmao. I've seen the screenshot.

Tell me where I said nicole. It was literally just a question born from seeing the header they had on their network lmao. I feel it’s important to mention I didn’t know this person ran said network at that time, which is why i said “these people”.

This other friend then came to me and just said my headers "may be seen as similar to nic's” and said she noticed it on her own and never mentioned my other “friend” approaching her. I was confused because other than that ripped paper effect that I know many people on tumblr use, I saw no similarities. Nic's headers are usually more complex and more than just a coloured background with a little effect in it. I just wanted to make some simple headers for fun because I was bored. But, regardless, I messaged nic about it to make sure she didn't feel the same way. I told her a friend of mine was worried nic might think my headers are similar to her's and I assured her that if she found them similar I would take them down, no questions asked. Nic told me she was surprised this friend brought it up and told me that it was entirely up to me if I found the headers similar. She never once told me she felt they were the same, never mentioned anything about them, she insisted it was up to me to do as I pleased. So, since I genuinely found no similarities, I left them up.

About a week went by and things between nic and I were fine, or so I thought, based off the fact that she was interacting with my posts, sending me cute asks and replying to a lot of my comments and stuff being kind and whatnot. Then, I decided to post a small list of my creations and the series I had running at the time.

After that, all of a sudden I got an influx of rude hate anons:

To anyone I mentioned the anons to, they agreed with me, you cannot trademark circular icons. This anon also accused me saying “just the fact that you had an anxiety attack about it proves you copied them” Like no sweetie, it’s called three strangers walked into my house and I got anxious.

Despite me not seeing the issue, I messaged nic, assuming she wouldn't care about the icons (it wasn't like I was taking her exact work and copying and pasting them as my own) and that made her very upset. When she responded to me, she was incredibly heated and gave off the vibe she was waiting for me to message her about it.

She said things like "this has actually been bothering me for a while", "i expected you to be able to read between the lines and delete the headers", "i don't know who that anon was but clearly they recognize my style". For starters, she never told me that she was annoyed with me, she was being very kind to me publicly. And I have no idea how I was meant to “read between the lines” of what she said especially considering how kind she was to me the following days. I also never accused her of knowing this anon, she just insisted it wasn't her and she didn't know them right off the bat. She also insinuated that I copied my gifs from others as well, which ticked me off because I made my 100+ layer psd myself thank you very much. But I kept my cool, and I told her I had no idea she felt the way she did, and I told her I would delete the headers (which i did as the conversation was going on), and that I would stop posting my icons and bringing attention to them because no one ever paid it any mind before that point. And I asked her “please tell me straight up the next time you have an issue with me because I am generally pretty dumb with social cues”, I have my adhd to thank for that. And instead of replying, she just blocked me. And conveniently, the hate anons stopped dead right after we blocked each other and I haven't received any since.

Also, these are the kinds of icons I posted:

Looks pretty generic and idk, universal, right?

Then, as I've recently found out today, she was in an "anti-loverjimin" groupchat with at least 2 other bloggers.

Which explains why this all went and fell into place. I know who the two other bloggers are because of what happened two days later but I won't name them just yet, but these two people had been "friends" with me for several months. So, a day or two after nic blocked me, all of a sudden some good friends of mine were blocking me and not talking to me when I asked what was going on. I found out soon after it was because nicole and those two now ex “friends” of mine had taken old dms I sent them and were showing them to people. And I will go into detail about them but I won't name the people they are about for privacy reasons.

Before I move on, to clarify some lies nic has been spreading about me, I never once shit talked nicole to my friends. One of these ex friends also said I was trying to get people on my side. I would have reacted to this all very very differently if that were the case. I would be dragging everyone through the fucking dirt but I don't get off on drama or micromanaging what my mutuals do. My issues are with these people, if you're still friends with them that's your decision i could not care less. So, back to it, the only thing I said about nic was that she and I had a stupid small fight over icons and that she was spreading lies about me, based off of what nic said to jordan.

That exact message, or slight variations of it, was sent to anyone I interacted with because I didn't know if nic was going to stop at jordan or try and get to everyone I fucking knew lmao. Some of the people I messaged this to told ME nic had done this kind of thing before, that she has sent hate anons, launched hate campaigns, cancelled people, etc. Over stupid shit like icons lmao.

Here are some responses I received after I mentioned nicole:

And nic or one of her friends also took it upon themselves to send anons to that tea blog to blow shit up and named everyone and made it an even bigger mess when they saw no one was actively trying to fight me after the dms got out.

I also love that in this following ask, they named my two “friends” that were behind the whole dm drama and backstabbed me, as well as two other people I never badmouthed, that story was twisted. But we’ll get into those details shortly.

And she also told people I clout chased big blogs and only cared about notes. At one point, yes, I did care a lot about my statistics. However, never once did I think clout chasing was worth my fucking time or energy, Nic is the biggest clout chaser on this damn site and there are receipts of that, ask jordan lmao. And I couldn’t give two shits about my statistics anymore lmao, much less anxiety that way. Do I still crave validation sometimes? Sure. But it's not a driving force of my tumblr experience like it used to be.

But, moving on to the dms, the first one was sent when I first came back to tumblr full-time and didn't understand why people self reblogged things, I found the pretence of self reblogging annoying and greedy and I complained about it and it was a comment fuelled by two bloggers that i would see sr a lot on my dash. But I never thought THEY were annoying, as these people are saying I did, it was self reblogging I found annoying and as you can see I have come to understand why people sr and I do it myself too. I didn't even know these two bloggers at this time either. That dm was cropped to hide the fact that this "friend" agreed with me and hid the date as well so it seemed recent, and was sent to one of the bloggers I mentioned as an example, someone I had since become good friends with.

I didn’t befriend one of the people I mentioned there until mid to late June. That friendship is now over thanks to this drama and all the lies. The second friend of mine they went after was never spoken about in dms, they went and turned her against me through lies and manipulation so that friendship has ended too. And while those two were doing that, nic went off to try and turn jordan against me.

There was a particular user on here that I did say some nasty things about but we weren't friends, as many people have been made to believe. I was particularly mad at this person in those dms and was hurtful, I admit, and I have since apologized and owned up to all of it to these people. I did call them fake and/or two-faced.

And what in the gassing me up bullshit was their response though lmao. I also sent this following dm before I even talked about the issue with this person. They urged me to continue and to name drop the person, and I stupidly thought they were trustworthy.

My reasoning for what I said wasn't unwarranted though, I don't make a habit of going around shit-talking people, unless they do something to me first. I vent when I am upset and this person had sent me a passive aggressive ask and then denied sending it when I asked and I thought that was just very fake, especially since she was so kind to me in dms before the ask came in. But all of these dms were cropped too to hide timestamps and responses, and in most cases, like those screenshots prove, these "friends" either gassed me up or egged me on to continue ranting or to name the people i was mad at and they had agreed with me on several, several occasions. Turns out they were trying to get dirt on me to use in their cancel campaign. But the point is, nic has made me out to be this horrible person that befriends "big blogs" (an overrated statement) and then shit talks them behind their back without remorse. Yet it was one person I said rude things about and I, again, owned up to it all and apologized to them the first day. I would've done it sooner had I a) remembered feeling the way I did all those months ago or remembered the dms themselves or b) felt that way still after meeting them. But neither is the case.

I find it really amusing though that these people wanted things to be kept quiet and didn’t want anyone they spoke to to talk to me about it because I was going to “out them on my blog” and “make a big scene”, then they three went and made it a big fucking scene and ruined my friendships. I’m familiar with this pattern of manipulation as it has happened to me in real life before and it’s the most childish bullshit to witness.

Before this callout day for nic, I had never once been directly rude to or about her, same goes for those ex “friends” that betrayed my trust and friendship. The fact that they plotted against me in a group chat while still actively talking to me and being all buddy buddy is just disgusting. Both of them were talking to me that day at the same time they were sharing the dms and shit-talking me to my friends. But yeah, that's my side, the untwisted side, of the whole story. I tried to be mature and talk to nic and when I didn't do what she wanted me to do, she blocked me and launched the hate campaign with dms and the power of photoshop. I’ve been hesitant to make any of this public because it was meant to be a silent ordeal but I’ve grown tired of her constantly publicizing everything without consequence while I remain silent like I promised.

#anon #replied💌#tw:negativity #drama #long post #read at your own risk aha #its a shit show #idc if you rb it #pinning temporarily for the next day(sih)#ish*#edited with screenshots and whatnot that i forgot i had on my phone lmao

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dangan-imagine-plus · 4 years ago

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Hello! Could you please do something for Fuyuhiko, Gundham, Kokichi and Shuichi? Getting protective/defensive over a shy and timid fem reader. Thank you!

warnings: Swearing and mentions of being hit on by people unconsenually.

First imagine on this blog! Hope you like it! Sorry it took so long, accidentally got distracted 😅. I’m also sorry but for not doing Shuichi but I couldn’t imagine him being that assertive, however you can send it back in with only Shuichi and maybe one of the other mods will do it. -Mod Ouma 💜

Fuyuhiko Kuzuruya

You and Fuyuhiko are an interesting match-up: a quiet shy girl and a loud angry yakuza, needless to say people were surprised by your relationship, but you two were happy so no one really made any comments, especially because this is Fuyuhiko we’re talking about.

Fuyuhiko honestly tries to keep you away from everything that could frighten you or hurt you in any way. Enlisting Peko when he couldn’t be around or when both of them were busy, getting his most trusted bodyguard to look after you. He loves you more than he could ever admit to your face but he shows that in protection and his own special way.

Today you guys went to a new amusement park that showed up for an event, -you had to beg Fuyuhiko to go- and you saw a stuffed animal that you just HAD to have. So as the strong boyfriend he was, he decided he would win it for you.

This particular day Fuyuhiko didn’t employ bodyguards to look over you because, “I’m the ultimate yakuza damnit and I’ll be damned if I can’t protect you myself.” Just one problem, some creepy man had noticed you and started commenting on your looks when Fuyuhiko was busy.

The vendor had handed your boyfriend the plush and he turned around, the sight that greeted him, filling him with anger. You being almost cornered by this guy, looking obviously highly uncomfortable but too timid to reject most of his advances.

What really pushed him over the edge is the man's hand on your arm, while he said a sexual pickup line.

“OI! DIPSHIT! Get Your Fucking Hand OFF OF HER!!!” This boy is pissed. The man just bent down and retorted “Didn’t you ever learn to respect your elders little boy?”

Fuyuhiko while fuming, kicked the man in one of his kneecaps then as the man fell to the ground he grabbed your arm putting you behind him (despite your height). He got out his phone and made a call, almost instantaneously Peko arrived and you two walked out of the festival.

“Fucking hell, The Fucking Audacity Of Some Dickheads!!!” Needs you to calm him down, hold his arm, too angry for an actual hug.

Gundham Tanaka

Gundham isn’t afraid to challenge someone or speak up, so whenever you need it he’s there. Additionally with his mindset, Gundham genuinely believes that you two are royalty to the dark world and he will do anything to protect his queen, whether that includes speaking for you, help build confidence or keeping you as safe and protected as a royal should be without overwhelming you too much.

You personally weren’t an ultimate but that doesn’t mean Tanaka would treat you any differently, he actually found it quite nice, usually his class would be in all types of trouble, so being able to be with someone who is naturally calm and doesn’t cause much a ruckus is perfect for him, and he loves to relax with you, especially after a long day.

Gundham once warmed up, likes talking about his problems and what happened that day. That means you always have an interesting story which always interests you, but listening to these stories makes you want to experience them. Asking Gundham to accompany him to school one day was easy but the convincing was a little harder as he knew that you might get hurt or have something happen to you so naturally he was apprehensive.

“My dark queen, the mortal class I reside in is not one that fits the requirements for your godly presence. It will be worse than the 4th layer of hell, I shall not taint your beauty with mortal ignorance.”

However after enough reassurance he eventually let you come with him, of course checking with hope’s peak first. As you know though, Hope's peak will do anything to further the students talents so if you help him do that, then they will let you there any day.

When you first got there, all the girls gawked over you and asked how Gundham got someone so level headed and pretty, a little jealousy from Sonia, but she seemed to get over it pretty quickly. Gundham had to pull you away from the crowd before you got too overwhelmed however and the problem started with the perverts.

“Bonjour sweet cupcake, would you like to take a dip in my fros-” Teruteru gets punched in the face as he tries to flirt with you by Hiyoko. “You’re hotter than a malfunctioning engine.” Soda pipes in before Gundham pulls you away from them both towards the door.

“If you mere mortals cannot respect my lady then we shall vacate the filthy premises.” He stops, lets go of your hand and gets real close to the two boys “If I shall witness thee talk about the queen of darkness again, my twelve zodiac generals will teach you fowl perverts a great lesson about respect.”

Kokichi Ouma

A shy and timid S/O, oh you mean a perfect teasing buddy. Seriously he will do lots for the sole purpose of making you flustered, however he’s the only one allowed to do so. If anyone (namely Miu) tries to do anything like that ooh boy will it be a messy situation. Lots of insults and bad (like mentally hurting) pranks thrown their way.

However if you are in a relationship with this man, especially if he trusts you, he will protect you, lie for you, talk for you and really do anything for you. Lets be honest here, no one really expected you two to be together, with all the flirting with Saihara most if not all just assumed he was gay. That paired with your personality really shocked everyone, it just didn't seem very likely.

He tried to keep your relationship private because of multiple factors whether that be safety from the danger of the organization, because he most likely has enemies. Personal image, not that that matters more than you, but as the ultimate supreme leader he can’t be seen as weak or soft. Kokichi also didn’t want to be put in a position where he had to choose you or something else, so be patient, a relationship with Kokichi isn’t going to be easy. That’s why he loves you even more, because you still stay with him despite all this.

(Sorry got off track there)

Nonetheless it got out and people knew now. Kokichi likes PDA, mostly for showing everyone who you “belong” to, since they know of your relationship. God forbid someone flirt with you, Kokichi gets really mad at the person and though he doesn't show it too much, he will insult and mess with the person so much mentally, it’s not fun at all.

This showed especially one day when you were at lunch waiting for Kokichi in both of your free periods, a DICE rival they pranked one too many times. He came up to you sitting down and pretty obviously bad mouthing Kokichi, trying to convince you, he could give you so much more than Kokichi ever could, and that he’d never hide you.

Kokichi however had just walked into earshot of the dude, catching every word and getting extremely upset, part of him wondering if that was true, could he really give you more than the supreme leader. Besides what he was wondering, he also saw you, extremely uncomfortable looking like a bunny being hunted by a predator. Trying to inch your way away from him, choosing to stay silent, but the boy just wouldn’t give up, moving closer and upping the ‘dump him, date me’ talk.

Kokichi calmly walked over, grabbed your hand and pulled you towards him, landing you in his chest, looking at the male with an unexplainable expression. Looking back to you he said “Crackerjack, you know, talking to shit eating toilets isn’t sanitary.” he turned to the man, face darkened, grin widened and the iconic finger over his mouth. “I hope you choke on the shit you talk, fucking hoe.”

#danganronpa #danganronpa imagines #danganronpa x reader #kokichi x reader #kokichi ouma #ndrv3 #sdr2 #gundham x reader #GUNDHAM TANAKA #Fuyuhiko Kuzuryuu #fuyuhiko x reader #x reader

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queenangst · 4 years ago

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How about a oneshot with touch starved midoriya? Maybe neglectful inko? Like the first positive touch he can remember is all might when he was 15, or aizawa or smth

for my 30 min fic challenge / read more: ‘30 min fics’ tag

a hand in the unfamiliar [read on AO3]

The apartment was quiet when Izuku got up, silencing his alarm with a quick tap on his phone. He sat on the edge of his bed for a moment, looking around his room. Early morning light was only just peering in, the sky still blue-grey. He knew it would brighten and change, but by that time Izuku would be long gone.

Mom never got up this early. He peered at the time. 5:43 AM.

He crept out of bed, keeping his slippers off so they wouldn’t make any sound, and then quickly got ready. Izuku hopped from the bathroom, toothbrush still in his mouth, when he heard his phone vibrate.

All Might 5:45 AM Hope you’re ready for training!

Everything in Izuku was suddenly and wonderfully awake. He’d set the alarms, circled the dates on the calendar, but… this was it. They’d already started training two weeks ago.

He still couldn’t believe he saw All Might almost every day.

Yet—Izuku felt like he’d never get used to this floating feeling. Every step down the hall, though cautious, also felt like he was hovering just a little off the floor. He grabbed an energy bar and the water bottle he’d filled last night, looking around the apartment and listening for the lack of sound that meant Mom was still sleeping.

He hadn’t told her about training yet.

Izuku wasn’t quite sure why. He began the jog down to the beach, the cool morning air greeting him. It was just nice to have a secret—though Izuku had kept plenty from her—that was really, genuinely, just for him. A little something that Izuku could keep in his heart and use as a shield for when the bullies or Kacchan got a little too mean, or when the teachers looked over their desks with those gazes that said you’ll never amount to anything.

But—All Might.

All Might was already waiting for him by the time Izuku came over the first slope of sand, grinning.

“Midoriya, my boy,” he said. He smiled. “You look happy.”

“Just excited to work hard!” Izuku cheered. He bowed. “Good morning, All Might.”

All Might chuckled. “Then good morning to you.”

The greeting sent warmth spreading through Izuku. Over the last two weeks he’d kept waiting for the other shoe to drop. Actually, a part of him still was.

One day Izuku would show up and the thick morning clouds would close in, and at the top of the slope All Might would stand, arms folded. In those nightmares All Might didn’t look like a hero, just a dark shadowy figure even though his silhouette was still recognizable.

He would say, I made the wrong choice. You can’t be a hero.

So far it hadn’t happened. Every day when Izuku woke up, he hoped it wouldn’t.

“Where do you want to start first?” All Might asked.

Izuku bit his lip and surveyed the beach. His eyes landed on a small section of trash close to them, cluttered with objects of varying sizes.

“Here,” Izuku said, and All Might followed him.

They fell into a familiar rhythm as Izuku began his work. Usually first he worked on the smaller items, sort of like his warm-up, and lugged microwaves and broken fans, bits of litter and broken things up to All Might’s truck. All Might watched carefully.

It made Izuku nervous sometimes, how closely he watched. That was the point of being a mentor, Izuku supposed, and no way was Izuku ever going to tell All Might that it made Izuku a bit uncomfortable. The back of his neck prickled.

Still waiting. Still waiting for All Might to tell Izuku that he wasn’t good enough. Turn around and go back to your shitty excuse of an existence, worthless Deku. That sounded more like something Kacchan might say.

His foot caught on an exposed metal frame of sorts, and Izuku went flying. There was a loud clatter as he dropped the chair he’d been carrying, and Izuku landed in the sand, pain shooting up his arm despite the forgiving surface.

“Midoriya!”

Izuku sat up and spat sand out of his mouth, groaning. Usually training was hard enough that he always showered before heading to school anyway, but this was just gross, and he’d have to put up with being covered in sand for the rest of the session.

All Might crouched next to him. “Are you alright?”

Izuku looked up into a concerned face, and the words died in his throat. He tried to say yes, just a simple little word, but he couldn’t.

“...Midoriya?”

Izuku wiped at his face, though it only made more sand stick. He looked down at his hand, hissing.

The pressure eased.

“I’m-I’m okay, All Might,” he choked out.

When was the last time someone looked at Izuku like that? Not pitying the way strangers did when it got out that Izuku was Quirkless, not concerned in the way that people often thought Izuku couldn’t handle himself just because he couldn’t create explosions from his sweat or pull objects toward himself. Not the kind of help that was condescending, or to make themselves feel better.

All Might just looked like he cared.

“Your arm, is it alright?”

Izuku realized he was holding it. He turned his right arm around, testing, and felt only a bit of pain now that the initial impact was over.

“Um…”

“Here,” All Might said. He leaned in, hair swinging forward in Izuku’s face, and Izuku realized they were close. Before Izuku could react, All Might gently took Izuku’s arm, massive hand cradling his. “Let me see.”

“It’s—” Izuku squeaked.

All Might, muscle form or not, could probably snap Izuku’s arm like it was nothing more than a pencil. He bet the man could eat bullets for breakfast, even. But All Might’s touch was light, gentle, as he turned Izuku’s arm over.

“Might bruise,” All Might said.

“So-sorry,” Izuku said.

All Might startled. Their eyes met before Izuku dropped his gaze.

“Why are you sorry?” He dropped Izuku’s hand but then reached for Izuku’s shoulder, almost covering it. “I’m glad you’re alright. It was just an accident.”

Izuku chewed on the inside of his cheek so he didn’t answer right away.

Just an accident. Those words could mean many different things.

“I- I messed up.”

All Might chuckled. “You tripped, my boy. Nothing to be worried about. You know, I walk into doors all the time. It’s quite embarrassing.”

Izuku stopped being able to think, or to listen to what All Might was saying, because he was suddenly and overwhelmingly aware that All Might’s hand hadn't left his shoulder yet. It was a casual touch, but it felt so nice that Izuku wondered how long they could stay there. If they could.

At the same time, Izuku thought if they stayed there any longer, he might explode. His childhood hero, Izuku’s hero, was here in front of him.

“Ye-yeah,” he mumbled. “Thanks. Um-I-I think I should get back to work.”

All Might smiled and stood up, towering over Izuku. Then he held out a hand, and Izuku stared, dazed.

“Come on, then, you prince of nonsense,” All Might said. “What are you looking at me like that for?”

At home Izuku tended to skirt around Mom when she was too close—not because he was scared she would hurt him, because she would never—but because he was scared if she came too close she would see all his secrets. At school, no one ever touched him kindly—shoving, pushing, punching.

Kindness was a rarity. Kindness was what Izuku had to make himself because no one ever offered it to him.

All Might was offering.

Izuku took it, felt All Might’s firm and steady grasp on his hand as he was pulled to his feet. They held there for a moment, and then All Might ruffled Izuku’s hair.

“Let’s get back to work, then, huh?”

“Yeah,” Izuku said. He bent down and scooped up the stuff he’d dropped. “All… All Might? I’m glad we met.”

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ddarker-dreams · 4 years ago

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Do you have any blog recommendations bc my dash is super dry. It doesn’t have to be yandere just anything in particular ah

i’ve been wanting to do blog recommendations for a while now so this is the perfect opportunity !! here are some of my favorite blogs and what i love about them. i’ll keep adding to this as more come to mind...

@ramwrites [yandere content, hxh]

has lots of god tier hunter x hunter content! ram is actually the blog that i read the most and made me want to make a yandere blog of my own,, i can’t recommend their stuff enough! they have lots of interesting ideas for dark content. honestly even if you haven’t watch or read hunter x hunter it’s worth checking their stuff out just bc of how they pull you into a story so well. this is my favorite work of rams!!

@honeytea8 [18+, jjba]

shay does a variety of jjba headcanons and scenarios!! i especially love the aesthetic for her blog. she posts a lot of content relating to jjba part 5 so if you follow me for that, you’ll love her blog! honestly just has some of the cutest headcanons ever... i can’t count how many time’s i’ve read this headcanon post of hers. SO CUTE ... !!!!!!

@costellos [jjba]

HUGE inspiration to me, toya is a big sweetheart and a phenomenal writer! every time i see she’s updated her blog i’m running over there at the speed of light. i don’t know if this makes sense but the way she describes characters interacting with the reader feels so genuine?? and real?? idk i just love it. always makes me smile. reading toya’s work is like drinking hot chocolate or something it’s just so heartwarming. whenever i’m feeling down i read her stuff! i recommend this, it gives a lot of interesting insight into the bucci gang !!

@jojosprostate [18+, jjba, yandere]

CALLI IS THE GOD OF SMUT!! if you’re ever feeling thirsty you gotta head over there. she never fails to amaze me honestly. i always check to see what her new stuff is multiple times a day bc it’s That good . she writes for a variety of the jjba cast, giving some of the less popular characters lots of god tier content!! my favorite work of hers is definitely sweet citrus [smut], i’ve probably read it around ten times no exaggeration. calli does the lord’s work.

@greenbeanb0i [18+, jjba]

JUNO INSPIRES ME SO MUUUUCH !!! they’re so knowledgeable about a variety of subjects and it shows in their work. juno puts an unbelievable amount of effort into their worldbuilding and characters, honestly business before pleasure feels better than published novels i’ve read before. if you like giorno i literally CANNOT recommend BBP enough. they also do analysis on characters and different works, i end up reading it even if i’m not familiar with the media it’s based on just because i find juno’s perspective on things so absorbing.

@dear-yandere [multifandom, yandere]

i think we all know how amazing vanya is, but on the off chance you haven’t stumbled across her works, please check her out!!!!!!!!! everything vanya writes is like poetry, i can’t even begin to describe how much i love her writing style. there have been so many times i read her descriptions and i just go HOW ?? can anyone think of anything this clever and amazing ?? but like this happens to me multiple times when i’m reading her stories. vanya’s work is like the finest of Wine (i haven’t actually had wine before but i’m assuming it’s rich or something...) this is my favorite work of vanya’s, it literally blew my mind . i never thought i’d feel anything like sympathy for yandere DIO but vanya managed to make me feel that way. her work always invokes so many emotions -- anxiety, hollowness, a lack of power -- the perfect combination for yandere works. you’ll find yourself rereading the lines of her stories multiple times and going WOOOAHH i promise .

@jotaros-massive-tiddies [18+, jjba, some yandere]

ro honestly is a godsend to anyone that loves jjba and is thirsty as Fuck. honestly most people that are into jjba are thirsty so this is the blog for YOU . stumbling across ro on ao3 was like the equivalent of finding gold i s2g. i binge read their stuff and still find myself returning to their stories!! they’ve written for almost all of the jjba characters too, so chances are you’re gonna be partying over the content for any less popular characters you might like.

@bigwriterenergy [jjba, some yandere]

GOOSE IS SOMEONE ELSE WHO IS MY LORD AND SAVIOR ,, she singlehandedly inspired me to share my scarlet ribbons work. her reverse harem bucci gang headcanon post was a cultural reset unlike Any other. its a national holiday as far as i’m concerned. goose is someone else who describes the relationships between characters so well, that it feels real. i especially LOOOVE how she writes jotaro. it’s hard to pick just a single one of my favorite works from goose but,, i’d definitely say it’s the reverse harem one i mentioned earlier.

@j0succ [18+, jjba, some yandere]

nat has an expansive library of jjba content!! anyone who loves la squadra, it’d especially be in your best interest to check out their work. they also do confessions on their blog and it’s really fun to see. as a part 5 fan i’ve spent hours reading through their blog, their characterization is perfect!! my favorite work of theirs is their yandere giorno piece <33

@kazooli [18+, some yandere, bnha]

the Lord of shigaraki thirst, or just thirst in general honestly. honestly has opened my third eye. ever since i’ve seen their characterization of shigaraki being an absolute degenerate i Cannot picture him any other way. kaz is someone else where it’s difficult to just pick one favorite because all of their works are great,, but i especially love this shigaraki [smut] piece. it feels like it encompasses all of the things that make shigaraki a degen and it’s just,, chefs kiss

@risottos-peach [18+, jjba]

this blog is SO FUN !! there are a lot of interesting confessions and i love seeing it pop up on my dash. tumblr flagged her for no reason recently bc it’s a dumb website so please go give her a lot of love, her content is a joy to see <33 my favorite piece would be this godsend of a gold experience requiem fanfic [smut], it’s such a big brain usage of the stand.

@zellywrites [jjba]

ZELLY HAS A SUPER COZY AND CUTE BLOG ,,, her headcanons are so precious i love her writing a lot. soft and sweet vibes. i believe her writing is some of the first i saw for jjba on tumblr, it served as an inspiration for me to try writing jjba myself!! i love this headcanon post of hers the most, it’s so cute that i went :’))) !! when i read it.

#i'm sure i forgot some ppl so i shall continue to add #so many talented writers it's CRAZY ...#recommendations #Anonymous

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dahniwitchoflight · 4 years ago

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man, a lot been happening on the internet lately, talking about content creators and parasocial relationships being a big topic recently

I almost don’t wanna post anything about it, cuz I’m not sure how to avoid any sort of stirring of the pot, but there’s an angle to this situation that I think a lot of people are confused about, and that’s “where does the fault lie when a person gets hurt in a parasocial relationship?”

And people I guess are thinking this is some sort of case of power dynamic’s, but I think thinking of it in these terms is incorrect to be perfectly honest

does a content creator seem to have a lot of sway over someone who’s fallen into a parasocial relationship with them? sure it can seem that way

but is that the content creator’s fault? No, as bad as that sounds to the tumblr crowd

this is NOT the power dynamic between an abusive father and their child, or a skeezy boss and their secretary, or any other real abusive power dynamic where the victim faces some sort of real consequence for not being compliant with the abuser’s wishes

this is the dynamic between a casino and someone with a gambling addiction.

can you argue that the gambling addiction/parasocial relationship wouldn’t exist without the casino/creator existing? sure you can

can you argue that it’s within the interests of the casino/content creator to get customers and fans? absolutely

but can you also say that the problem in the situation here is inherent to the person with the actual addiction problem here? someone who gets too invested in the scenario through their own desires and or addiction problems? That many people can go to a casino or be a fan of a person in a perfectly reasonable healthy amount and never get hurt or encounter any issues? Yeah

Even if you dislike the casino/creator and have hard feelings for putting you into a situation where you believed you were gonna win it all, even though the odds of that happening were never in your favor, and rightfully feel you’ve been victimized by them, the casino/creator existing and doing there thing I really don’t believe is the thing at fault here

I think there’s something to the idea that people who are vulnerable to addictions like gambling and thinking that theyll win the jackpot of millions against impossible odds is not too dissimilar from a singular fan of some content creator thinking, this is it, I’m the one theyll fall in love with over everyone else, against all the odds itll be me

and also whatever prevents them from realizing that the consequences of losing would apply to them as well, other people in the casino might lose all their savings, but it wont happen to me. Other people might get lost in the fantasy and then end up being dumped, but it wont be me

I think the brain juice would see these as very similar situations, and this addiction angle I think explains a lot for how people get into parasocial relationships in the first place and why they feel like it’s so hard to get out

but people are still free to believe that casino’s/content creators are morally corrupt institutions, just from their nature of the fact that their livelihood depends on people and fans crowding to their type of entertainment

At the end of the day, they cannot control what their fans are going to do, they can’t read the minds of anyone who chooses to come to their establishment, they can’t know at a glance or through conversation who’s going to get addicted and who isn’t, they can only see warnings signs after the fact and then damage control, it’s just a messy reality of life that it happens

There are best practices to prevent these types of things sure but those don’t catch every case and inevitably there are going to be people who fall through the cracks anyway

the correct approach here is to mitigate the addiction problem. that’s the real thing at fault here, not any one person

so to answer the question, where does the fault lie when someone gets hurt in a parasocial relationship?

you might be a victim yes, but not a victim of the casino, as much as it can feel like that, your a victim of an unfortunate affliction

people can be dismissive and yell all they want about alcoholics being drunks, or gamblers having no spine and should just be able to not go to a casino, or people who are overinvested fans should just be able to stop back and not care about a creator so much, but I understand that it’s not that easy

but it still doesn’t make it the fault of whatever you got addicted to, It doesn’t make it anyone’s fault, and the casino/creator has less power over an addicted individual than you think, short of banning them entirely, there isn’t much they can do from their end to mitigate an individual’s behavior, I think that is something some people need to hear, I hope people don’t think I’m callous or believe that people weren’t genuinely hurt by the events that happened to them or something

but the fix to this problem doesn’t lie on the casino’s/creator’s end, it lies in mitigating the addictive disorder in the individual’s in particular’s end

this is purely speaking from someone who runs a blog and has thoughts for a fandom that once upon a time a lot of people seem really invested in, (not so much nowadays lol)

I cannot control anyone of you, I don’t know any one of you, no matter how much I might try or get close or how close any person out there gets to me, I still can’t predict when I might encounter someone who seems overly starstruck, and in no way do I have the ability to navigate those kinds of relationships properly. I simply do not have that sort of therapeutic training and I think it’s a little bit unreasonable for people to expect that from me, despite how charismatic or not I seem like

I just have indeed had instances where another person got really overinvested in “Dahni Witch of Light” and wanted to be in my inner circle of socialness and friends and might have been hurt when I declined that, but at the same time, I can’t do anything about that (thankfully I’m not any sort of real popular LOL and it’s only really happened like once or twice, that I know of, since they made their feelings clear to me in private, but that’s still one or two people that might have gotten hurt)

So what does this all have to do with stuff?

I’ve read all the anecdotes about both Dan Avidan and Vinny Vinesauce, read all the docs, see all these people’s point of view, and yeah it sucks that they got hurt by the circumstances, but all that stuff meant to paint these people in a bad light? did more to me to paint them in a really good light

I saw nothing but people making sure they had the comfort and consent of everything they were involved in, doing best practices when it comes to relationships, talking about their feelings, about their expectations and also doing what they can to protect themselves and their privacy

again the worst things I saw about either of them, is danny building up the fantasy of being with a rockstar a bit too much, egging on any potential parasocial relationship issues that might have already existed, and vinny giving someone HPV (which, is debunked in of itself because that’s not how HPV works in men, even outside of vinny that’s just not how it works.)

the rest of all the stuff I saw esp in the vinny doc, was people not even accusing vinny of saying or doing anything wrong either, but miles and miles of “I assumed he was thinking x” or ”I assumed he was feeling y” and no attempts to communicate with him about any issues they had with him, because they felt awkward doing so, and instead let it fester inside them until they got hurt by it

this is not sexual assault, their mild discomfort about stuff never even happened over sexual topics, just bland things like him over-venting to them sometimes or having lowkey mental issues like being paranoid a little, this is not even being intentionally hurt by someone, this is being bad at communicating with your partner and letting yourself endure a relationship you weren’t actually happy with, because you didn’t want to get dumped by the person you were invested in

and if you feel like you can’t honestly communicate with your partner, not because of anything they did to you, but because of your own internal conflict over how famous he is, and feeling like you’re forced to endure things you aren’t vibing with in a personal relationship

(mind you, I mean the things they said they endured in the doc which was, they didn’t like when vinny would get ranty about his friends or previous sexual encounters he had that went bad or they got weirded out because they thought he was too paranoid about stuff when they were together....which... okay so like tell him you don’t want to hear about that stuff? communicate your problems to your partner? end of story? you never even attempted that, you never even gave examples of things you thought he would do to you other than dump you if you spoke up...... which, I’m sorry, but that’s not some sort of consequence a victim faces from their abuser.... so you can’t even say he would have had a bad reaction, especially when you give examples of him doing exactly the opposite, apologizing for things that made other people uncomfortable WHEN theyve actually communicated to him that they were uncomfortable with it)

-Those are signs that you are too overinvested and too parasocially invested with a person to have an honest relationship with them

like, heck these things aren’t even unique to partnerships, you should be able to communicate when anyone around you is making you uncomfortable, even friends, but if you can’t and the only reason you can’t is because of a parasocial investment in that person, that’s not healthy on your end

Danny sure seems to have been a little bit at fault for building up the fantasy of catching feelings for a famous dude when he intended one night stands, is that the best way to have navigated the situation? No probably not, but to a person who doesn’t have a parasocial relationship with him, this behavior would just be disappointing when the fantasy fizzled out, it’s not inherently harmful

after that point, if after the fact a person who had any sort of interaction with them felt hurt by the experience, there honestly is not much more a content creator could have done to mitigate that, in fact Vinesauce I think seems at least more aware of the parasocial thing and tried more strongly to vet the people he was with to not be those kind of people, but again people aren’t mind readers and nothing will ever be foolproof like that, and I guess some people even took him trying to vet that kind of behavior as hurtful in and of itself, (they took him venting about previous parasocial relationships he had and how paranoid and upsetting they were to him, and took it as some sort of threat against them personally, like they were trying to mindgame what exactly he was telling them, assuming he was saying something else that he wasn’t, which, is assumptions that live entirely in their own minds) but I’m just sitting here like, what else could they have done?

I get that people who had sexual relationships with these people could come away feeling really awful about it, feeling manipulated or duped in some way, but what else could have been done to prevent that from happening other than the people in question just, never interacting with anyone? Which is not a realistic solution, and doesn’t fix the problem of the victim in question moving on and getting starstruck by someone else and having it happen it all over again

If these people want to make friends, want to make relationships with anyone, want to have casual sex, want to have any sort of human connection, there unfortunately gonna have to sort the people they encounter into two different groups, people who have parasocial relationships with them and people who don’t, (and this is NOT people are fans of them and people who are not, you can be a fan and not get caught into the parasocial thing) and it is impossible to get this correct in every single individual social experience that theyre gonna have with every single individual human being, regardless if it’s a sexual relationship or not

in conclusion, I really do hope the people who were hurt by all this can truly heal and move on eventually from this, in no way am I trying to lessen their experiences, but I really don’t think other people deserved to be hung from the gallows over this, it’s no one person’s fault, neither the fan’s or the content creator’s, it’s just a messy interpersonal situation

I believe the correct thing to do is spread awareness about the warnings signs that you might be falling into a parasocial relationship, more effort needs to be put into what this looks like, what it feels like, how to avoid it, how to mitigate it, and how to regulate the very real feelings of love and affection someone might have for a person they see all the time in media but don’t have a real connection with, with the understanding of yeah, if you really can’t enter a casino without losing your life savings, a very real conversation needs to be had if you should even be entering these casino’s/watching their content at all

#my main conflict over this post is is this actually helpful at all or is this just hurting stirring things up more #I don't believe my position is an unreasonable one to have #and i do believe there is something to be gained from reading it #but i don't want to hurt anyone either

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lost-art-of-world-domination · 3 years ago

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When and how did you get into these books? Also, so nice to see such a positive voice in the fandom!

Ooh this is a fun one.

Don’t want to reveal my age, but I first discovered this series in the gap between the releases of Mortal Coil and Death Bringer. I was fairly young, and my brother had been given the first one as a gift. As anyone who knows me can attest, I love Skeletons, so I was immediately enamoured by the cover. After he was done I immediately binged the book, and fell in love. Then my brother and I purchased the next 4, at the time believing it was only a 5 book series. They were the paperback versions, and the reverse of each showed the 5 books that currently made up the series, so I naturally assumed that was the entire collection.

Anyway, my brother began reading Playing with Fire, but I couldn’t wait to consume more of this world, so I read Faceless Ones and, still waiting for my brother, read about half of Dark Days before finally being able to take Playing with Fire. I then reread Dark Days from the beginning. This is probably why Playing with Fire has always ranked lower in my mind, because a lot of the twists were ruined on first read. (I will add, however, that I truly appreciated it when rereading the entire series and not worrying about spoilers).

When I say I could not put these books down, I mean it. I even garnered a bit of a reputation in my school because I was always carrying at least one of the books with me for the entire time Phase One was coming out. I had never had a book series so completely absorb me before, and haven’t since, although I am a massive reader in general. Anyway, I read and adored Mortal Coil, but then thought that was it. So much left unresolved! I was chomping at the bit for another, but resigned myself to the unsatisfying but still enjoyable ending.

Then, on an unrelated visit to a bookshop, I saw a poster advertising Death Bringer’s release date. Words cannot capture my excitement. It was my first hardback Skukduggery, and remains my second-favourite in the entire series. The story was just phenomenal and a huge part was just the sheer joy of discovering that no, it was not over. It was just such a brilliant book and I still recall the excitement when getting it. Probably finished it in about a day. After that it was a yearly wait for my favourite series, and I loved every one. Kingdom of the Wicked, while still amazing, didn’t reach the heights of Death Bringer, but Last Stand is Dead Men blew me away completely. That is my favourite one. Just so many reasons why really. End of the World, Maleficent Seven, and Armageddon Outta Here are all near and dear to my heart too. Dying of the Light was a genuinely emotional book for me, not just because of the story, but also that it really was the end. I grew up with these books, and I was about the age Stephanie was in the first one when I finished Dying of the Light. I have had several people mention how much of these books they see in me, from the humour to the dialogue, and it just makes me so happy.

Discovering Resurrection was like reuniting with an old friend. I’d accepted that they were gone and had moved on, despite my fondness for them never fading. I discovered Resurrection on the shelves completely by chance, while shopping for something else. No poster or waiting this time (although it was in the same book shop where I learned about Death Bringer, funnily enough). I immediately bought it and had it finished by the end of the day. Resurrection still had a lot of everything I loved about the series, but it also matured. It really was like seeing someone you’ve spent years apart from. We were both different people, but the connection was still there.

Also because I had no prior knowledge I thought resurrection was a one-off, so all the open plot threads really confused me until I discovered Phase Two and began counting down to book 11. This means that the upcoming end of Phase Two will mark the fourth time the Skulduggery Pleasant series has ended for me. It’s fine though because, as a comic book fan, I am no stranger to frequent deaths and returns.

I think one of the reasons I’ve not been as harsh on Phase Two as some others is that I really respect Phase Two’s desire to be different, and I think everything new that has been added shows that the series is still growing, maintaining that sense that it’s growing alongside me, maturing as I do. I have enjoyed the Phase Two books more with each release, and think each of them can stand proudly with Phase One, especially the last three.

I realise I’ve rambled and gone beyond the original question of how I discovered the books, but that’s what this series does to me! I can talk about it for ages and I still love it so much, even while recognising how it has changed. I don’t follow Landy’s personal goings-on, so I can’t speak to him as a person, although again I know others in the fandom have their issues. Despite that, I think he is a phenomenal writer and that is why I have tried so hard to be positive in this fandom. I’m generally a rather optimistic person, so to discover a fandom for my favourite book series and find it all so sour and unhappy did not sit right with me. By no means am I trying to disrespect other SP blogs, and you’re entitled to your opinions, as well as the right to disagree with mine. But personally, I love each and every Skulduggery Book, and it means a lot that people appreciate my opinions on them.

Loving all these asks! Sorry this one is so long, I kind of went on a tangent. Thanks to everyone who’s responded to my positivity with their own , and I really appreciate the chance to discuss the Skeleton Detective! Would love to hear everyone else’s thoughts. Whether you agree or not, the more alive this fandom is, the better! Again, thanks for the ask :).

#skulduggery pleasant #valkyrie cain #asks #positivity #phase one #phase two #long post #this really got out of hand #keep the asks coming!#playing with fire #mortal coil #death bringer #kingdom of the wicked #last stand of dead men #the dying of the light #resurrection #comic books #dead or alive #skulduggery

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weabooweedwitch · 2 years ago

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You didn't say “i wish I lived in a country with free college and healthcare”. You said "I wish it wasn't so expensive to immigrate to a Nordic or Slavic country." You were glorifying a specific region, not a style of government. Otherwise nations like Canada, Australia or NZ would have been on your list. But you didn't say them, because you idolise nations that have "successful" (lol, barely) socialised systems that are only successful due to their homogeneity. PS. You're not old, you're 24.

Uh like I genuinely don't know what you're talking about honestly, and quite frankly you're jumping to some pretty large fucking conclusions? I constantly hear countries like Switzerland and Norway and Finland praised for things like paid sick leave, affordable housing, gender equality, free healthcare, and free college. Those are the countries I hear most often mentioned as having those qualities? I believe they're also all highly ranked on the world happiness scale? And you know what? I'll be honest enough to admit that I'm not personally involved enough or educated enough in the politics of those countries to know whatever recent political whatever they've been getting into. I'm literally just thinking of hypothetical scenarios where it would be easier for me to survive purely on the financial and workability scale. Currently I feel like I could work myself to death here in America and I'm already fucking physically disabled. Like its a legitimate terrified thought I constantly have. Constantly. It is genuinely destroying my mental health to think about how I live in a country where making an honest wage is next to impossible, where everyone has to have roommates, where if I work too many hours I don't get free healthcare but i HAVE to work all these hours to afford anything but it's also KILLING ME

But, i mean,, I guess I could always get into a more thorough explanation that I literally don't owe anyone if that would somehow relieve all this misdirected personal aggrievement?

Since Canada is close to the US I hear enough whispers of their own politics that I feel like it would be hard to live there. I've oersonally heard from friends that live there that there are high taxes and prices on utilities like electricity and hot water, and all the stories about how many indigenous first nations people "disappear" are uh pretty unappealing to me? Also haven't uh a lot of the recent Canadian prime ministers sort of been uhhhh pretty shit though

Australia is a country I've, and again I cannot stress enough that this entire idea was hypothetical, considered moving to, but I sunburn extremely easily, I hear the immigration process is particularly rough, and again another situation where there's a native population being constantly persecuted. I'm not saying I want to move to a bubble or that there's a country out there that's some magical fantasy land where hate doesn't exist but I'd like to live somewhere where like, at least there's not CONSTANT horrible stuff happening to people?

New Zealand was actually pretty high up on my list especially after how the prime minister handled the Christchurch massacre but, I just was seeing a lot of people online claim that they were from NZ and that it has an especially tough immigration program?

But I guess like what bothers me in the end is that, I was just shooting the shit on some hypothetical scenario and giving some vague details and it had to somehow become so personal? For no reason? Like literally, 5 minutes after the fact, I realized the person giving me shit literally just, saw my comment on a different political post, went to my blog until they found one of my posts, and then suddenly saunters out with this fake activist "oh you must secretly mean that in a racist way hur hur" ok bro whatever helps you feel more cool to your internet buddies

But also most importantly I was. Just making a quick post during my lunch break at my shitty retail job. Sorry I didn't like, write out an essay. Sorry I didn't like, take a moment to research a list of every single country that fits the criteria I'm looking for. Sorry I didn't post links and sources for my vent post about my country going down the tubes that I typed up in 3 minutes on a cell phone. Sorry I genuinely don't even give a fuck about this anymore

#god the performative wokeness cringe #anyways back to smoking weed and worrying about things that actually matter #also small gripe but im 25 turning 26 this year but thats on me. i apparently forgot to change my bio when my bday came last

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With Lady Nagant and her backstory, I am once again hopeful that slowly but surely where heroes went wrong will be acknowledged by the main hero cast, and when it's not coming out of villains' mouths people will start actually agreeing with it. It's scary how realistic BNHA world is in that sense. It's so easy to ignore accountability when people with good intentions cause harm, just because a character genuinely wishes to be better, it does not mean their way going about is the right way to do it, and it does not mean they should not suffer consequences for it.

With Hawks, he is a character I like a lot, but in a way that I agree with everything his antis say. His character and his choices makes sense to me, and I understand how he saw himself in Jin, someone who desperately wants to help others, and how he wanted to help him. But the way he sees the world, Hawks cannot understand that Jin had already found people who have accepted him for who he is, how he was happy helping them, how he was not in need of saving from the League, he was not unlucky to have met them.

For Hawks, when he was recruited by HPSC, he was given a chance at a better life and he makes the same offer to Jin, because he thinks he is a good person, and a good person deserves a chance at a "better life," which from Hawks' perspective would be Jin getting rehabilitated into this very society that rejected him and becoming a productive member.

Him wanting to help Endeavor who he sees as someone trying to fix his past is in character too, heroes right now are all eager to just stop the villains so that the things can go back to how they were, and Hawks with other heroes is just focused on putting an end to this as quickly as possible. My hopes for him would be him coming to terms with his own victimhood, not only beeing freed from HPSC's shackles in the literal sense just because there aren't people giving him orders anymore, but at least questioning whether what they were doing was the right thing. Everything about his character tells me he's set up for a tragedy, but Horikoshi saying he would be a light of hope in his interview from a while back makes me think he'll survive it and start to do actually better this time.

I'm sorry for the long rambling about, I don't expect you to reply to it, I really understand why people don't like his character especially when there's so many people defending his actions that were clearly in the wrong, but I personally like him so I couldn't help myself from typing this one out.

It's fine!! I really really do enjoy peoples' commentary so please don't apologize!

I don't dislike Hawks at all! However yes, everything you said is true. It makes him hard to like--for me personally. I was already waaay into the villains when his introduction came around so nothing was really going to pull my attention off of them. If not for them I may have gotten more into his character.

I've seen a lot of very good Hawks-loving blogs predict his redemptive death--even with the Horikoshi interview. I've seen them say they think he will die heroically by "saving someone he shouldn't", meaning a villain obviously. Which I can definitely see happening. However, Horikoshi has not given me any reason to believe that he is actually going to deal the heroes any real damage....I mean, they've lost two characters that were somewhat important (and not even really)--Midnight and Nighteye. And not to be an asshole, but their deaths had no real impact on the story. So I'm skeptical that any heroes will die. It's the same reason Idk that All Might will die in the end--even though he has an incredible number of death flags as well.

But we will see! I really just want all of the villains to survive and get their happy endings. So we'll just hold out hope for all of our favorite characters' happy endings!

#bnha #bnha asks #bnha spoilers #bnha 314 #boku no hero academia #anonymous #mha #my hero academia

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