#I feel like ive liked the same shit since i was 9

[rainy-day-revelry]

I both love and hate realizing that my fixations and headcannons for one fandom are just carry overs from the previous ten fandoms I’ve been in. My tastes have not evolved, I’ve just been trying them in different fonts. Gosh dangit.

[writingoddess1125]

HI I LOVE UR EVERYTHING AND PAPA BUGGY WAS SO CUTE AND IF YOU CAN DO ONE WHERE HE HAS BABY FEVER PLEASE 🙏🙏 I'M ON MY KNEES 🙏🙏 (I love ur work it's so cute and sad, funny)

Lucky Winner to get Part 2!!

Fever pt. 2

Buggy x Femreader + Buggy Twins

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"YOURE PREGNANT!!"

Buggy shouted in total joy, Jumping around the room as his body looked almost like an accordion at his odd movements- you sitting there in total shock.

You'd expected that the twins would be your first and last, not that you would accidently get pregnant again especially by the same idiot who had done it by accident the first time.

Your hands went over your face as the reality of 9 months of this set in- For Fuck sakes... You could t help but giggle and hug Buggy there in the doctors office, Both happy and in total shock by this all.

After this things moved all too quickly it seemed. Of course you two told the boys who had been both excited and apprehensive- Like most kids worried the new baby would replace them or take the father they just gained from them, which had to be explained wasn't the case and you and Buggy created a gameplan to help the biys adjust. Then came the crew, who decided to have a 3 day celebration and get absolutely shit faced- Buggy included.

Why you were indeed happy, incredibly happy infant you knew what was about to come. HORRIBLE PREGNANCY SYMPTOMS! WONDERFUL-

Your first trimester was filled with morning sickness, Poor Buggy being as kind as possible as he helped clean you up and find foods that wouldn't make you puke your guts out. The twins even doing their part to find nice teas and things that smelled nice for you to also not throw up.

During this time Buggy bought so much stuff- Most likely boosting the economy of the village single handedly as he had the nursery built in the cabin and on the ship, You and the boys having a fun few weeks decorating both areas.

By your second trimester the hormones kicked in horribly, that and cramps. However that's when something magical happened as well-

Buggy and you were laying on the bed, both of you quite exhausted. Buggy was tired from dealing with the twins all day while you were tired from the baby and fatigue that was hitting you like a fleet. Since the start of your second trimester when your baby bump had become far more noticable Buggy always has his hand somewhere on your stomach rubbing the growing bump.

"I need to find a better way of tiring them out..." Buggy grumbled, You nodding in agreement leaned against the man and truthfully you both without single damns. Buggy in some pink boxers while you leaned against his naked chest in a large shirt rolled up over your stomach and underwear.

"They are still worried- Maybe take them out sailing or something? I'm sure they would enjoy tha- Oof!" You yelp as a sudden jolt hit you, clearly aimed right under Buggys palm which make both of you jump in surprise.

"What the hell was that?" He questioned as he pulled his palm away from you quickly and looked at your stomach. You shifting and rubbing the exposed skin smiling at him.

"They kicked, ive been feeling 'em move but not kick yet. Here I'm sure they will give you another little kick" You say calmly. Buggy sitting infront of you quickly and placing his palms back on your skin, You shifting his palms to the perfect spot before another jolt ran through you and Buggy giggled like a child at this.

"Thats so weird feeling!"

His eyes sparkled at this as he sat infront of you rubbing your stomach and feeling his child move under his palm and occasionally kick. It was a truly precious moment for the both of you.

As for the final trimester... Pregnancy was never too kind to anyone- Especially you. It wasn't with the twins and it sure wasn't now-

Leaned against the counter you glared hard at Buggy- 60 damn days you're ass! Try 8 fucking months trapped in this God forsaken cabin with your mentally unstable partner, two 12 year old boys and your bladder being utterly destroyed by little feet.

Oh and of course- THE GOD DAMN CREW THAY DECIDED THAT THEY WANTED TO STAY WITH THEIR FEARLESS CAPTIAN TILL THE 'VACATION' WAS OVER!

"Why are you staring at me like that?" Buggy questioned feeling the heat of your glare on his skin.

"I-..." You wanted to start Biting his head off but truthfully he had done nothing, you figured you were just emotional to the max at this point and the cramping didn't help.

"...I'm in pain-" You admit with a sigh, Buggy setting down his drink and walking to you calmly as he looked you over like he could spot your pain.

"Your stomach looks different" He said calmly, You shooting him a warning look.

"No shit it looks-" Buggy shook his head to stop you, "No its lower I mean, I think it's best we call the doctor" He said calmly, A shot of embrassment going through you at this point. Buggy truly had been giving it his all and learned from the doctor. With a chick trip from the Doctor and Midwife they confirmed you were in labor and got you set up to give birth in the cabin, The twins being taken to the Big Top with Cabaji while they waited for their siblings arrival.

"How are you feeling?" Buggy asked, Gently rubbing your back as you smiled.

"Not to bad actually- I'm glad you're here with me.." You say softly as another contraction shot through you.

At first it was fine- You'd been through this before. So it should be shorter and less painful this time around- Yeah No. You went from fine to screaming in pain very very quickly. Buggy sitting next to you trying to comfort you and get you through it- However the last thing you wanted was him there..

Which landed Buggy outside the house awkwardly, his crew also seated on different patches of grass as they flinched at every cry and scream that echoed out from the house and into the silent garden outside. You had kicked out Buggy 20 minutes ago, clearly just in too much pain to handle him at the moment and the doctor recommending him to try to return in 30 minutes. Which he did.

Truthfully he handled it like a champ once back in, holding your hand despite feeling like you were crushing it into dust and wiping the sweat and tears from your eyes. After a seven exhausting painful hours a shrill cry cut through the air as you slacked onto the bed. The doctor happily placing a little girl on your chest, now tears of joy running down your cheeks.

The doctors starting to clean her up as you admired her, looking to Buggy who was also crying.

You held the little girl in your arms, seeing her pink little face she had your facial features and (Y/H/C) hair like you but a bright rounded cherry nose/cheeks and ocean blue eyes. She was the most beautiful thing you'd ever seen. You saw Buggy stare in only awe as he felt tears hit his cheeks and he smiled.

"Shes.. shes.."

Your hand reached forward, Buggy thinking it was to caress his cheek or something gentle but instead you grabbed his neck in a iron grip- He squeaking in surprise as you pull him close.

"Buggy- This is the last... do you understand? Cause if the words 'I want another child' come from your lips ever again I am going to cut your dick off and throw it into the deepest part of the ocean. Do. You. Understand. Me" You said in the softest and kindest voice Buggy had ever heard, fear going through his system as he could tell you were dead serious.. maybe it was the lack of oxygen going to his brain or still the euphoria of the moment but he swore he saw literal hell flame in yours eyes.

"Clear- Crystal Clear" He wheezed, you releasing him so he could scoop up his daughter. He genuinely looked giddy at this point as he cuddled her close to his chest, you saw the anxiety just below the surface of his face as he stared at his daughter more her nose-

"Shes beautiful" You say softly staring at her from Buggy's arms.

"I won't let her go through what I did- I want her to feel special and perfect" He admitted, your eyes softening at his vulnerability as he kissed his daughters cheek.

"Im sure they will kn- Oof!- Fuck" You hissed in pain and flinched. The doctor peaked under the blanket quickly and called over the midwife who did a quick check. You wincing in pain as Buggy stared at you panicking and holding the now fussing newborn.

"(Y/N)?!" He said softly as another groan of pain left you. The midwife and doctor conversing quickly before beginning to prepare once again.

"It seems you're still in labor- Looks like another baby" He said proudly, Your eyes widening as you look at Buggy like you were prepared to kill him. The clowns face as white as snow making his face paint look dark at the realization of 2 sets of twins kicked in.

"Holy shit-"

"GOD FUCKING DAMN IT!!" You yelled as Buggy kept his daughter and rushed out quickly to show off his daughter and avoid your wrath of damning you to another set of twins.

Eventually he would return with your guys daughter and sat through another broken hand created by your labor. That night another little girl was brought in this world, the little girls being 8 hours apart and identical to her sister.

It was later decided after you had properly been cleaned up and not ready to murder Buggy their names. Buggy coming up with the names Ali and Ari respectively for his daughters.

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@alastorhazbin @yuriwk

[doitforbangchan]

I really hope abanb comments can still be made because Ive been thinking about this since chapter ONE. Since they are a-lot of pack members ( 9 but still ) what happens if a heat or a rut overlaps - do betas even have ruts, if not then I’m only talking about alphas. But like what if two ruts overlapped, because of how possessive they are during ruts, what do you imagine would happen? Also if omega goes into heat and another goes into rut, doesn’t main alpha chan normally take care of omegas heat?

(Btw I’m actually obsessed with the way you write❤️❤️)

Hi bestie thank you for reading! ofc we can still chat about abanb i love questions!

and loooorrrddyyyy this is a good question

ok ok so the betas don't go into ruts (thankfully) or the possibility of over lapping heats would sky rocket! As for the other 3 alphas.. it would be a shit show if they went into a rut together. Chan would be so unbelievably possessive of baby and for his and the safety of the other alphas he has to leave the house for a few days until his rut is over, and he would take omega with him.

in a scenario where chan couldn't leave with her soon enough while in rut the same time as another boy it could go one of two ways: With changbin it would most likely be him begging and pleading with chan to not take her from him, he is not above groveling.

But with Jeongin it could only end in harsh words and devasting blows. Innie knows he's not the head alpha, but when he's feeling that needy and desperate he would do anything to keep hold of his omega- his muddled brain telling him to fight for her. The betas and Changbin would have to forcibly tear the two rutting alphas away from the other lest one ends up with his throat ripped out. it is best they get away from each other as quickly as possible.

Knowing that baby - the love of their lives- can't come help them when they are in rut drives the two younger alphas insane. or more like feral. They are screaming, tearing a part the house, and just being downright mean to every one. It isn't until their own ruts have ended and chan has returned with baby they feel ok again, though the next few days are spent giving the head alpha snarky looks and petty words.

I touched a little on duel ruts here also if you were interested :)

now if its omega who goes into heat at the same time as an alpha goes into a rut its best case scenario. It was difficult for Chan to keep up with her during her heat as it is, but being on rut would make it incredibly easier to keep stamina. same goes for Binnie and Innie- it would be a godsend for them to rut at the same time. And channie doesn't get jealous, he knows the boys and baby would need it so he steps aside and let's them do what they gotta do.

thats not to say that as soon as the rut is over he isn't snatching up his omega and hogging her for a few days after 🤭

Thank you for asking 💜

[sucker4sixx]

Raising hell

Pt.9

Plot: the end of things.. maybe

Warnings: fat shaming, aggression, punishment, smut

You wake up hungover and feeling low, everything nikki said the day before still on your mind as you watch him getting changed at the bottom of the bed, you watch the back of his head till he turns round, when his eyes focus of your face he smiles and crawls in beside you “morning angel” he cuddles you close, kissing your neck gently “nikki.. stop, we arent together” you squirm. He pulls away and smiles “not yet.. im going to speak to the guys today and tell them that i really do like you” he sits up, feeling sure about this decision “no.. dont, its for the best if we arent anyway” nikki laughs nervously “dont be silly darlin, ive told them to come to the room-“ “why?! So you can call me fat to my face?!” You snap, jumping up “no baby, listen.. i had to say that so they didnt catch on-“ “oh shut up, i dont give a shit.. look, we should go back to hating eachother.. its what we do best.” You brush your hair quickly, nikki sitting speechless on the bed as he watches you leave.

You pack your stuff and head to the airport, sitting silently in the cab that your whole band sat in, mel watching you like a disappointment mother. After the wait in the airport you get on the plane and thank god.. nikkis a few seats across from you but tommy sits beside you, smiling in amusement when he sees you “fatty! Hey!” He laughs “tommy..” you give a small, un-genuine smile. During the flight tommy eats half the planes stock and runs around like a child, shouting over to nikki who sits next to mel. When tommy goes to the bathroom mel sits beside you and scans your face “just spoke to nikki” she says, her expression unreadable “yeah?” You ask nervously and she nods.

“Youve ended things then?” You glance over to nikki who looks over at you both, looking more tired than usual “yup.. for the best” mel pats your shoulder “good girl, i knew youd grow to hate him again”

When you get to the hotel rooms nikkis not in the one beside yours but across, walking the same way and its silent, you miss having fun with him but after everything he done you couldnt bring yourself to look at him. That night the bands go out but all you want is to avoid nikki so you stay inside, having a bottle of wine to yourself but it doesnt give you the buzz you wanted, it makes you want to be held by nikki again so you spend the night crying in your room, missing his warm, soft body.

You wake up in the morning, disappointed you didnt get woken up to him knocking your door and begging for forgiveness, pushing past it all you get up and get dressed, going out for a walk. Although you get stopped every 5 minutes for an autograph you continue to walk, being away from it all really clearing your head before the show. You walk to the arena since it wasnt far, getting there before everyone else to do your makeup and get your stage gear on, wanting a few drinks.

When mötley crüe arrive with whitesnake (who were also touring with you both) they walk by you “hey fatty” vince smiles, winking “fuck off barbie” you spit back and they just continue walking. You wait at the side of the stage to watch whitesnake and get shoved out the way, nikki pushing you aggressively to get by. “What the fuck what that for!” He turns round “couldnt get by you” he narrows his eyes and keeps walking. Mel spots you shaking with rage after it just happened “hey, whats up?” You turn round, only seeing red “we need to fuck their set up” she laughs and moves in closer “easy there tiger, we dont want a law suit or whatever.. they can do that you know?” You shake your head “i dont care.. ive got the perfect plan”

Your on before the crüe but this time you dont pull nikki on the stage, after you wait unpatiently for your rival band to start, hiding behind the curtain that bunches at the corners of the backstage. Three songs in and your plan begins, you have scissors and find the cord for nikkis bass, counting to five you cut it and sprint to your dressing room, hearing the bass cut out if the live set.

You soon hear nikkis voice booming in the hall way, youve never heard him this mad so you pull out a magazine to act natural and hide the scissors. Not long untill nikkis bursting into your dressing room “you little bitch!” He screams “w-what? What are you talking about?” nikki stalks towards you and towers above you “dont act stupid! Why the fuck are you trying to sabotage me!?” He grabs you and pins you against the wall “im not! But im sure if i was it would be perfectly reasonable!” His grip on your shoulders tighten “you know, i never liked you but im just starting to realise how much of alittle cunt you really are!” You swing for him but miss, his eyes filling with rage as he grasps your fist, pinning your hands above your head. His manager runs around, frantically looking for him.

“I never liked you nikki! I never did!” You shout as he corners you completely, his face inches from yours “you sure liked me when i was 7inches deep in your cu-“

“Nikki! Get back on stage!” Doc shouts from beside you both, nikki throwing you across the dressing room and storming back onto stage to continue. Doc death stares you as he leaves your room and you leave the arena earlier than everyone else, before nikki can finish his set.

*BANG BANG*

You hear on your hotel door, you open it in your pj shorts and a crop top, expecting it to be mel but its nikki, looking like a bull who just seen red. He pushes by you and slams the door “ive fucking had it with you!” He shouts and pushes you back “get out of my room!” Nikki laughs angrily “no, no i wont!” He walks around and starts trashing the hotel room, smashing the vases and the tv into the ground. Nikkis ego is huge so when he’s humiliated publicly it sets him off badly. “Nikki stop! Your fucking crazy” “you embarrassed me.. infront of thousands of people tonight!” He stops for two seconds, stalking towards you. “Telling me like i.. give a fuck!” You push him backwards and he grabs you, shoving you onto the bed.

“Fucking stop it!” You struggle as sits down and pins you in place over his lap, he pulls down your shorts and smacks your ass hard as you cry out “bad girl!” He punishes you, youd be lying if you said it didnt turn you on but the force of his slaps made you cry. “Stupid brat.. stupid, stupid toy” he plunges two fingers into you, fingering you fast as you gasp and claw the bed, moaning. “N-nikki.. stop!” You kick your legs around, trying to squirm out of his grasp even though it felt so good. “Stop struggling. Take your punishment.” You give in and moan into the sheets, his two, large fingers slamming inside you.

“Good girl.. take it. You feel my fingers inside that tight little cunt?” You moan and nod “what about when i do this?” He holds his fingers still and flicks both of them against your g spot, making you jump and gasp “f-fuck!” “Language!” He shouts back, smacking your ass again, you whimper into the sheets.

When you cum he discards you on the sheets and stands up “i hope you learned your lesson” you reach up to him, wanting after care “nope.. bad girls dont deserve aftercare” he watches you for a few seconds before leaving your room.

@thebsttrashpanda

[moonlit-dreamers]

Can you rate all TSAMS Sun ships?

im gonna be careful with this one so im gonna try and avoid the ships that might be/are "incestuous" since i quite enjoy having friends and staying out of drama. once more ill probably forget some character so i apologize </3 (last post i fucking forgot dark sun im so sorry augh). also leaving out poly ships bc, again, this would go on Forever. AND ALSO same as before, the lower the rating the less i ship it and it isnt about me "disliking" it but rather not personally enjoying it

sun/eclipse - 10/10 - there is soooo much flexibility with this ship istg. probably why i always come back to it lol. it can be toxic, abusive, fluffy, enemies to lovers, fix-it, etc. *slaps suneclipse* you can fit so many dynamics in this bad boy

sun/solar - 10/10 - its on equal footing with sun/eclipse especially bc its the first ship i had in this fandom (tho i was very shy </3) cuz its just. ITS SO GOOD! its wonderful hurt/comfort and helping each other heal from the past they had with different versions of the other while also acknowledging that they arent the same and thats what makes them Better

sun/dark sun - 9/10 - do i just like selfcest? yes. yes i do. i think dark sun should let sun go apeshit and they take over the world while holding hands and kissing send post

sun/sunbeam - 8/10 - something something learning from an alternate/older version of yourself. i feel like sun would be able to guide sunbeam through a lot of things bc he understands sunbeam in a way others cant. or maybe i just like selfcest-

sun/moonshine - 7/10 - honestly i dont really Have any ideas for this ship but. i like them. i think itd be cute

sun/ruin - 7/10 - i think they could fix each other /j ghfskgjdfhg in all seriousness itd be fun. again, no ideas, but i like it

sun/solarflare - 6/10 - it most certainly has potential. lil guy with lots of energy x big emotionless robot learning about the world.

sun/foxy - 4/10 - i used to be a HUGE kidscove shipper but then i got bored after i started being more active with dca/dca ships in this fandom. i still think its fun and cute, i just dont like it anymore *shrug*

sun/bloodmoon - 4/10 - i can kinda see it? idk. maybe with v1 bloodmoon but v2? eh? idk man i just watch ppl clump rocks together on the playground and i sit there like "i have no fucking clue what theyre doing but theyre having fun with their rocks" and thats pretty much how i feel about this ship ghjfdghdk

sun/killcode - 3/10 - head empty so i got no comment </3 but i Do see the appeal of big monster x lil guy.

sun/monty - 3/10 - meh. not that interested in it. tho in general i dont really enjoy ships as much if they arent dca/dca rghsrgrgkj but yeah with this its an eh for me

sun/puppet - 2/10 - out of genuine curiosity- does anyone ship this? idk if ive seen it before so i feel like this is some ultra-rarepair shit. shout out to you if you ship this

i feel like im forgetting some ppl but thats okay cuz i can edit them in later when i remember who it is while im trying to sleep <3

[pwnyta]

Judging Fifis twinks from Twisted Wonderland!

Riddle Rosehearts (goofy ass name) I dont completely hate it? But I feel like theres a lot more you could do with the Queen of Hearts. The boots are pretty sick but they look like theyre too big for him.

BEST OUTFIT- The cool wizard drip. Says nothing of the character he represents but its cunty.

Overall- 6/10

Ace! Not the best Ace ive seen TBH and those shoes are ugly as hell.... but I like his plucky attitude.

Best outfit- Weird little matador? outfit. I also found out the cool wizard outfit from Riddle is a standard outfit they all? get.... so...

Overall- 5/10

Deuce (naturally)... did Riddle steal all the good shoes... what is happening? IDK man hes like... that standard anime dude with short black hair.

Best outfit- Goofy ass white rabbit outfit. Its horrible but I like seeing serious characters go through silly shit with a straight face.

Overall- 7/10 (hard carried by the bunny outfit.)

Cater? What the hell kinda name is that... ugly shoes again... but I kinda like his overall design better. Im disappointed their main outfits are all the same. i guess it makes sense since theyre the Card knights (im guessing) so theyre all uniform in a sense... BUT IT GIVES ME NOTHING TO WORK WITH.

Best outfit- I guess the weird band outfit... LMAO I wish the boots had a trim or something but its fine.

Overall- 5/10

Honestly at this point I can say he looks the most interesting of the card set. LMAO... I judge that his hat isnt fitting his head normal but w/e at this point.

Best outfit- BY FAR THE BEST OUTFIT IVE SEEN SO FAR. His hat still looks too small for his head but I see the vision Trey. CONGRATS. Fifi maybe you were right.

Overall- 8/10!

Leona is a breath of fresh air after those damn card guys! His outfit is still kinda goofy hes like hes serving in the attitude department and his jewelry looks nice...

Best outfit- Hes actually got a great selection! I chose the Nightmare suit cuz the stitched coat, the eyepatch, the tux fit.. CUNTY.

Overall- Honestly? 10/10. Well done Fifi.

??? JACK??? Who the fuck is HE supposed to be??? I mean i guess hes fine???

Best outfit- This gay little sailor outfit with or without the gay little coat. I woulda chose the pirate drip but its the same as Scars and Scar wore it better.

Overall- ???? WHO THE FUCK ARE YOU???

Im guessing this is one of the Hyenas... Im gonna believe it to be Ed that way I can be forgiving of him lookin like a little gooby. Hes actually pretty cute but obligatory (if youre from Africa why are you white).

Best outfit- Hes got some good drip... but the JP fit is 10/10.

Overall- 9/10. I like him hes cute.

Oh I know a fan favorite when I see it.... and with good reason dripped the fuck out from the jump. All in purple and black! SERVING.

Best outfit- I guess its not much of an outfit but it looks sick!

Overall- 9.5/10 Im not letting him beat Scar tho.

Gasp... HIS POOPSIES. I prefers Jade refinement over Floyds goofy shit... but I mean theyre basically the same. At least theyre cool about it.

Best outfits- I hate to give it to the classy JP drip but... here we are. I also like his...'apple boa?' fit and his like... camping gear? With the yellow hat. Floyds outfits arent as good. So I just chose the white tux. I guess Jade is the favorite twin.

Overall- 8.5 and 7 /10 respectively.

Kalim.... Im gonna be honest with you... he reminds me visually of one of my OWN characters so hes kinda my favorite now. But TBF his drip is out of this world anyways so good for him. IDK who hes supposed to be im assuming Iago.

Best outfit- I kinda like him all... Im choosing the big sweater because thats something Lee would wear LMAO But I like the white and gold, I like the wolf outfit, the crop top lion outfit, etc.

Overall- 10/10 (Better than Scar.)

Jamil... Youre not fooling me. I know Pike Queen Lucy when i see her... Im guessing Jafar due to snake aesthetics (or Pike Queen Lucy for the same reason) Terrific!

Best outfit- Honestly I dont so much like the tight pants with it but its still really pretty. Lotta great paterns! Hes got a good wardrobe!

Overall- 9/10. Jafar is serving AS PER USUAL.

...Elsa? Gotta say babes its gonna be hard to follow the Aladdin duo... they were cunty all the way through. And blue/red is a rough start my mans.

Worst outift- LMAO I actually didnt like ANY of his outfits and i found out hes the EVIL QUEEN FROM SNOW WHITE!? THEY MADE THE EVIL QUEEN THE CUNTRESS HERSELF THIS LAME?!

DISHONOR ON YOU!!!!

But this Lion King outfit on him so horrendous. LMAO

Overall- 0/10....

The way I audibly sighed and went 'what you YOU want' Ive been disheartened by the Evil Queen... IDK who this even is... The Mirror perhaps?

Best outfit- At least hes got a couple cute outfits. This one is the cutest.

Overall- 6.5/10 (I cant unsee the buff thing...)

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END OF pt 1

[dylansyummyv0dk4]

I kinda feel bad abt u? I'm not sure about the age gap since it's almost bad but at the same time it isn't so i THINK it's okay.(don't attack me for this)

But no offense but you are a LITTLE corny, everyone is corny too but wtv.. anyways. how long have you been in the TCC?.. Kinda curious.

1. all respect and serious question. How am i corny? Is it for defending my partner lol? Is it the gacha? cause they use it not me. And with my actual art I am new to animations and I'm still figuring my way around stuff. Please explain how I'm corny. If it's my mental illness that's very much real and not me being corny so if you could explain that be great :)

2. 11 months isn't bad at all. I think ppl are assuming I was born in in the start the months? I was born in December which makes the gap not bad + I am never sexual or ask for explicit photos or sext them or any of that. Ive asked them to not be sexual with me either. They're also just saying bs cause my partner uses gacha. They're still learning about tcc but get called bs for supporting what I like LOL. Also I do wanna say I know laws. I know what's morally correct and incorrect as I've been a victim with a lot bad people hense why I know me and their relationship is okay cause 1 I'm a victim 2 I've done research for years.

it's consensual + 11 months gap + me and them don't want to be sexual. (IM NOT ATTACK U JUST EXPLAINING FOR ANYONE ELSE :D)

3. Well community? On and off when I was 14 kinda in it. Then came back when 17 but then left again now I'm back. But for loving true crime and not being on tumblr or other stuff much ive been into crime since I was 8 or 9. My brothers loved zombies movie or anything with gore and would talk about crime. I also used it to cope with shit going on in my life [not venting lol]. So I've always loved true crime, psychology and shit since I was very little. My first case I learned was gypsy but I got more into dahmer then gypsy. Then I learned about the slenderman killers. And it went on from there. :)

I appreciate 1 you're not anon 2 you were respectful and kind about everything. cause this drama started I think either when I posted how I didn't support that one guy for rape jokes. Or ever since they saw my partner use gacha.

Also I agree we all have our corny moments LOL.

[yanderomantic]

Hey!! 1, 2, 3, 9 & 13 for the ask game? 👀

what got you into proshipping? -- politics. i started educating myself on marxism, dialectical materialism, i realized that pushing towards censorship is a conservative view, that in practice its the most disenfranchised members of society that get censored--people of color, trans women, queers of any flavor. in a world where the definition of pedophilia is getting expanded to include open trans women in florida, im not comfortable equating the exploration of dark fiction with child abuse. theres real world political impacts to this pedojacketing shit that harms the oppressed before the privileged, and im not taking part in it. also--we should normalize discussion of dark topics, in order for victims to feel safe processing their traumas--theres a lot of traumatized people stuck in anti circles who are too afraid of admitting the complicated truths of their trauma because the mere discussion of dark topics is such a deep taboo. theres a lot of social and political benefits to destigmatizing discussion. also i became staunchly pro-kink for about all the same reasons as i mentioned before, and in my mind kink & dark self shipping is basically in the same boat--imaginative play with dark themes & power dynamics.

what got you into selfshipping? -- friends! i mean, i always enjoyed daydreaming about my favorite characters, but i didnt realize there was a community to partake in until my pals got me into it. thank you lav ^_^

who is one of your your first/oldest f/os? -- good question! i mean, theres the characters ive adored since childhood that i spent my time daydreaming about, maybe even making ocs for--flippy from happy tree friends was probably the first character i properly self shipped with before realizing what self shipping even was cuz i was like, 9... but i had made ocs id project onto. the first few characters i decided to call my f/os--when i was first introduced to the self shipping community--will graham & herobrine, though i dont really self ship with herobrine & not sure if i ever truly did, i just liked him ^_^

9. who is a f/o you want more content of? -- not too sure! i have a couple that dont have a lot of content, but im not too pressed about it--mr robot, from mr robot, is a character i really really really like but the fandom doesnt explore him in the ways id like for it to. hilbert from w359 could definitely use some more content that appeals to me, im a little picky about my interpretations of podcast characters though.

(and i got your other ask specifying you meant 14! i assume you meant 14 over 13, so i'll answer 14 instead (: )

14. do you prefer romantic, platonic, or familial f/os? -- my familial f/o's have always meant the most to me & have brought me the most comfort. crowley from supernatural most of all. supernatural as a source has been deeply important to me in many ways. and then theres lucas baker from re7, who hits the sweet spot between romantic & familial both! which is a very very awesome spot for an f/o to be. i need more incestuous f/os in my life i think itd fix me whats kinda funny about platonic f/o's, if i like them enough they either start branching into romantic territory or familial territory eventually. like a few other spn characters, like kevin who i started crushing on, and um. jack. who. um. Well we're kind of incestuous. thematically. It was unavoidable. jack kline parallels me too much and his (biological) dad is grooming me so. It happens. we started having some kind of codependent sibling incest even before i accepted that im proship. it was unpreventable. Love you jack kline forever

(and yknow what just cuz i love talking ill answer 13 too)

13. do you create self inserts to be more like you, or an idealised version of yourself? -- it depends on how im feeling/who im feeling like when i get into the source/make my s/i! or, depends on the source and how it makes me feel. of course my spn self insert is pretty idealized, yet true to myself and my emotional complexes--fallen angel turned demon, but is still pretty bad at being a demon. and my re7 self insert is pretty true to my teenage self while being very much inspired by who i am today at 23. kind of an homage to the teenage self i couldve been if i was less lost in my identity. the self inserts i made for media i got into 2020-2022 are pretty different from the self inserts i make in 2024, because im just a different person. each self insert is kind of a snapshot of a person i once was/used to be/used to want to be. ive got a couple self inserts that are more idealized than others, like an au version of my spn self insert that gains her angel status back--very confident, reclaiming her femininity, revenge against abusers--a type of person i once looked up to, but i dont really idolize her the same way i once needed to. im always ever growing & so are my self inserts--ive got trans men, cis women, butch dykes-- all self inserts are versions of me ive been or can be

[jesskasb]

Ok but which drv3 fic are you reading. And is it good so far

it's "amalgamate" by doctorhaifisch !! and it is good so far yeah! really elaborate answer under the cut, i went on about this for longer than i shouldve. sorry. ill take any opportunity to ramble about v3. :']

based on the hits and the amount of fanart ive seen of it, it seems everyone and their mother has read it... however ive been purposely living under a 2 bedroom rock for like 4 years so ive only gotten around to it now after seeing an artist i follow say it made them reconsider a few things about ouma and it made them like kaito and realize how intelligent he is and how fascinating his role in chapter 5 was— and i was like wow, that must be a based fucking fic! it took me years to see kaito more than just a loud guy with a savior complex, and now that im a huge fan of him, i wanted to see what kind of fic could open someone's eyes to his awesomeness.

i check it out *really* skeptically, mainly cause i dont trust most people's depiction of ouma. they either make him genuinely not give a shit about things and just be a terrible person for no reason, or they make him too emo in a way he simply isnt. the main reason i even gave it a shot despite never having read a v3 fic in the 6 yrs ive been a fan, is that it said that the tags say the whole fic could be interpreted platonically (#AROWIN) (god knows im not against oumota but i prefer them as friends by a really substantial amount) and the amount of research the author seemed to have poured into strike 9 poison and its real world pesticide counterpart. the art they attached to chapter 1 was really good, too, so that made me curious.

now im in chapter 10/20 and i can say with confidence ive been having a great time. its plenty obvious the author has a lot of love for all of the characters, and even though i thought i could gain no new opinions since i already love ouma and kaito's potential dynamic and everything to do with chapter 5, i ended up being very pleasantly suprised by himiko's depiction here! i cant say im too big of a fan of her, not due to any actual fault in her character but rather kodaka's failings to do anything actually interesting with her. in chapter 9, this author used her untapped potential in a really heartwarming way that i loved. similarly, i have enjoyed seeing their portrayal of kaito and ouma, and it seems there's going to be an arc for ouma to begin seeing his classmates not only as people whose lives are worth saving as much as any other, but to see them as friends and letting them become close with him. ive always been a firm believer that in a non-kg setting ouma could become super close friends with a small handful of people, but this fic is making me reconsider that— maybe its more! another thing im really enjoying are all the fascinating possibilities that the author is exploring for a world in which ouma lives to see chapter 6 and the consequences of his actions. him being there while people investigate his room? most amusing. its all stuff that happens in chapter 5 and 6 until a certain point— just enough to get these two chumps to live, and then... well, i guess ill see how chapter 6 turns out, but as of right now ive been super intrigued and entretained.

i do also have a couple of complaints, but theyre mostly pet peeves and no deal breakers so far: there have been a loooot of pop culture referenced but they all feel in line with stuff kodaka would write so whatever, the author uses italics way more than id like... in the chapters up until 9 there were constant descriptions of kaito seeing ouma as a Kid, and while that in an of itself is true (he is a 17 yr old) the context began feeling a little infantalizing and like kaito himself wasnt 17 as well. theres noticeably less of this in chapter 9 and what ive read of 10, or when theres references to them being kids it includes everyone and theres even a moment where kaito tells ouma theyre the same damn age lol. theres also been a bunch of moments that are clearly very indulgent of ship dynamics and inclinations im not too fond of (particularly between ouma and shuichi) but like i said, nothings been too much of a dealbreaker since the positives far outweigh the negatives!

im currently on a trip where i dont have signal most of the time so i got the epub of the fic to read on the downtime. im def gonna keep reading it, and im excited to see where its going despite some of the cheesy lines such as

(honestly i cant even complain. i dont care its a reference to the title of the game. he Would say that....)

i mean, really, it's such a good depiction of ouma. all his masks, his paranoia, his insecurities, his determination to stop the killing game, the way hes been helping the group while simultaneously remaining isolated, and the way his lies are an extension of his genius but also a constant tool to test his peers. i feel like i dont get to see all of these elements of him expanded upon so extensively like this fic does, and that alone makes me really respect what the author is doing! the word count may be scary but i think youd get something from the fic even if you only read like 5-6 chapters. so yeah in conclusion id recommend it if you give a shit about v3 and are interested in chapter 5 fix it fics LOL

[echoingbirdsofprey]

Take Me Back To Eden

9 - Things We Buried Low Coming To The Surface Now

Pairing: ii x OFC Violetta Kastor

Rating: Explicit (MDNI!)

Warnings: Smut! Lots of oral!

A/N; Just a teeny reminder, names were changed out of respect/anonymity so even though we know who the Vesselettes are, I still used different names. I also used different names for the crew and anyone else related to the band for those same reasons so if you need any clarification other than what's written please just ask!

This one we delve a little more into IV and Violetta's side of the relationship. There's a funky dynamic that I'm kind of experimenting with so bare with me here.

Violetta was sprawled across the bed, eyes closed, when Cal came back to the room with Jesse and one of the Vesselettes, Abigail, or Abby as most of the crew called her. Violetta was in severe pain from it being a not so wonderful time of the month. It was a particularly bad one so she was trying to take the time to rest. Abby sat on the bed next to her and put a hand on her shoulder. Violetta opened her eyes to find the taller, red haired girl staring at her.

"Hi." She said softly, rubbing her shoulder gently. "How are you feeling?"

"Like shit. First day is always the worst." Violetta said and Abby shook her head, agreeing and then Jesse sat on the other side, against the pillows and scrolled on his phone. Abby rubbed Violetta's shoulder again, then stepped off the bed and made her way to the small balcony just off the back of the room. She left the door open so she could hear the conversation in the room.

"Hey, when we do the US tour, did you hear were gonna have busses? Like big ass tour buses?" Jesse said, and Abby gave an excited squeak from outside.

"Where are we doing rehearsals?" Violetta asked as she felt weight to her left. She felt a hand on her thigh and she opened one eye. She knew it was Cal but she still opened one eye to check. His hair was a bit of a mess and he had bags under his eyes. This caught her attention and she sat up. This caught Jesse's attention but he answered her.

"Nashville? Is that a place?" Jesse said and he watched as Violetta's hand reached up to Cal's cheek. She laughed softly and said 'yes' to Jesse, before her eyes showed concern for the man next to her. He squeezed her thigh very lightly and she wanted to ask what was wrong but she suspected it had something to do with their chat the other day. He'd been somewhat distant since then and Violetta knew that was her fault. She'd pushed for an answer to a big question and he hadn't given one. He'd just danced around it and asked for more time, which to be fair, Violetta said she would be patient. She could be patient and mad at the same time though.

"That's close to home for me. If there's enough of a break, maybe I can go home a little early and visit. I know my friend, Leilani, has been asking me a ton of questions. I'd rather just answer them in person." She said and Cal made a face like he was annoyed. She ignored it but did keep it in the back of her mind. 

"Oh, I so wanna meet some of your friends. They've gotta be fun little shits." Jesse said as he watched Abby come back from the balcony. He kept an eye on Cal and Violetta though, knowing there was some tension there. He glanced back at his texts from her last night.

Vi: do you know where Cal is?

Jesse: he's with Roman, they're working on something

Vi: ohh okay

Jesse: where are you?

Vi: in the room by myself

Jesse: do you want to be not by yourself?

Vi: I'd prefer not to

Jesse: want me to come hang out?

Vi: I guess...since that's still allowed

Jesse: what?

Vi: nevermind

Jesse: no tell me plz

Vi: I asked him what we were

Jesse: a couple

Vi: not in so many words

Jesse: you know why tho, hes just scared to commit fully

Vi: I know and now I feel bad for being a jerk about it but he's mad at me I know he is

Jesse: so just make it up to him

Vi: I don't even fucking know how

Jesse: you can fuck him 

Vi: I can't at the moment

Jesse: why?

Vi: lady time

Jesse: oooooooh

Jesse: well that's not your fault that's nature

Vi: yeah I know

Jesse: just cuddle...kiss him, make out with him, give him a blow job

Vi: Jesse

Jesse: Oh stop you know you want to anyway...if you won't I will he's sad 

Vi: JESSE 🤣

Jesse: ahaha hey seriously though im coming to hang out with you, Steve is being annoying as fuck rn lol

Vi: okay 👌 

Jesse smiled wide as he reread everything, and then thought back on last night. Jesse was in a predicament because he liked Violetta a little too much. He loved Cal. He had a deep, deep love for his friend that he would not want a girl to come between them again, but Violetta was so much different than Natasha or any girl he'd known and that scared him a little. It scared him knowing that he could stop fucking around and settle for just her. Especially where that was his friend's girl. But...Cal said they were open to sharing every once in a while. Instead of capsizing the whole ship, he figured he'd settle for being included at all. Not totally hearing Abby when she asked him if he wanted to go get food, he nodded and stood, quickly putting his phone in his pocket.

"You guys coming too?" He asked and Cal stood, his fingers lingering for a few seconds on Violetta's side before his hand fell away. She stood and felt a little nauseous but figured it would be good to eat something. Cal held his hand out and Violetta took it, following slowly behind everyone. 

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The Previous Night...

Jesse did show up to Violetta's room. His brain was on over drive, over tired, and over stimulated. His body was not however. When he stepped through the door, it was as though an electric current had filled the room and ran through him. He saw Violetta laying back on the pillows, relaxed as could be. Jesse tried to sneak up on her but she opened one eye before he could make his way all the way to her. He smirked and jumped on the bed next to her, nearly bouncing her off of it with the force of his body landing on the mattress. She laughed so hard she started to cough and he was immediately concerned.

"You okay?" He asked, grabbed her arms to steady her. She coughed a couple more times and then laughed again.

"I'm fine. That was just fucking hilarious." She said, smiling at him. He took the opportunity, moving in and kissing her gently on the lips. She flinched for a second but then let herself enjoy the kiss. When they parted her emerald eyes locked on his iced over blue crystals and her brows furrowed. "Jesse..."

"Shh, Princess. I want to show you something..." He said softly, climbing over her and caging her in with his body. Her cheeks went bright red and a fire spread through her lower half. "I wanna show you what you do with him when he's mad...when he doesn't want to talk...when he needs to be brought out of his shell." 

He pulled her shirt up slightly, the pads of his fingers rough on her smooth skin. She gasped at how warm his hands were. He pressed careful kisses to her stomach, tracing her tattoos his his lips, ghosting over the skin. His fingers traveled up, tracing every rib, evey dimple in her skin until they reached her breasts, where his touch became even lighter. 

"Jesse...shit..." She sighed, as he climbed up her body, pulling the shirt with him so that he had more access to bare skin. "Stop teasing me."

"I'm not, Princess. I'm lovin' on you. There's a fuckin' difference." He said, his voice so soft and slow it made tears well in her eyes.

"You said you don't want a relationship. You said you don't want love. You lied, Jesse. You love him too, don't you?" She asked, locking eyes with him again. His softened and he pressed his lips to hers as his hands continued caressing her skin, making goosebumps appear with how light his touch was.

"I have loved him for a while, yeah. And I told you before...you make me wanna stop sleeping around, Vi. You make me wanna be a good boy for once." His lips brushed the skin just below her ear, then traveled down to her collarbone. She gasped at how lightly he was going about everything. More gentle than any other time but somehow even more needy. Violetta was hanging by a thread trying to figure out if that was an admission of love on Jesse' part toward her. She had other concerns though.

"Jesse...I feel like I'm cheating right now..." She said, gazing into the ice blue crystals that looked up at her.

"He told me he let me fuck you because he wants someone else to be available to you should his shit get to be too much. And I promised him I'd keep being there for him and now for you." He explained and she took a deep breath as he massaged her breasts without removing her bra.

"So, did you come here tonight because he's upset?" She asked. He nodded.

"That's a little bit of the reason, yes, but I also know you're upset and I'll do anything to try to comfort the two of you." He climbed and rolled slightly to the side of her, pushing one of her legs up with his. She could feel him through his sweatpants. She'd only had panties on when he came in and hadn't had enough time to put anything else on.

"What about you, Jesse? Do you ever get any comfort?" She took his face in her hands and held him steady there, emerald eyes searching the icy blues for truth.

"Yeah. In a different way." He said softly, smiling at her. He narrowed his eyes for a moment.

"How?" She asked, and he pressed his hips closer into hers. 

"I'm comforted knowing you and Cal are happy. I'm comforted knowing Steve is happy, knowing Roman is happy. I'm happiest when everyone else is happy." He explained and he began a slow rhythm, grinding himself against her. They could still get off with their clothes on.

"You really are like a golden retriever." She said with a smile.

'Golden retriever fuck boy." He said, pushing his hips a little harder at her and covering her mouth with his before she spoke again.

"A very good boy." She nearly moaned and it made him chuckle darkly.

"Oh, tell me more, babes." He said, as he was hitting just the right spot to help her reach her climax. It would take a while but if he could keep at it, she could come and not need to undress. It was a very high school thing to do but if it helped in getting a release, it was good enough.

"You're cute as shit." She said, gasping when he changed his angle and really went to grinding hard on her clit. The friction of the fabric felt nice to both of them and it was a good enough barrier that he could last longer without worrying about making a mess either. Violetta didn't have to feel grossed out by period sex and it didn't have to be a big deal. Why she hadn't thought of this ever before she didn't know. Every once in a while, Jesse would stop to reach his hand down and use the palm of his hand or two fingers to give himself a break. He would also go to massaging her hips, or her sides, or nip, lick, and suck as her skin. He would only kiss her neck because that wasn't his to mark up and he thought how after this week, there would be a reminder there for everyone to see whose neck it was. That was also why Cal had been so standoffish with her. He'd told Jesse that he was having an exact replica of his necklace made for Violetta and Rikki, who made them, was hand delivering it in a few days so that he could see her reaction. Jesse couldn't wait for that. He was so excited. But Cal trying to keep it from Violetta was absolutely killing him inside.

Violetta was close to her peak when Jesse reached his unexpectedly but he tried to play it off as though he didn't. He kept going, hoping he would stay hard just long enough for her to finish and he did. The sounds that he drew from Violetta had him wanting nothing more to actually be inside her, but he couldn't. Well, he could with a condom, but that seemed like a hard no for her. Maybe as she got more comfortable with him and Cal, she might allow that, but for now, this was a good alternative. He helped her clean herself up, cleaned himself up and then he pulled her onto the bed, onto his chest so that they could cuddle.

"Have you ever told him you love him?" She asked softly, rolling to face Jesse. He nodded and pressed a light kiss to the tip of her nose.

"When are you going to tell him?" He asked and she shook her head.

"I don't want to scare him." She said and Jesse pulled her closer.

"I think he feels the same about you though. It's really like you two were meant for each other." He whispered as he began to fall asleep. Violetta stayed awake for a while longer, staring up at the ceiling contemplating what to do. When she finally drifted off, it didn't take longer for her dreams to be consumed by the drummer.

Some time later, after they'd drifted off, Cal would find them when he came back, asleep in each other's arms, and he joined the pile quietly, without disturbing either of them.

¤ ¤ ¤

A Few Mornings Later...

When Violetta awoke, similar to the few mornings before, Jesse had left, but Cal was still snuggled up to her, as close as he could possibly get. She rolled to face him, as she'd been butt to cock with him, nearly all night. She reached up and ran a finger over his one cheekbone, which looked like it was bruised or something at some point. She looked at him with tired eyes and gently rubbed over one of his chest tattoos. He did not stir. She didn't know what time he'd ended up coming back to the room, but nevertheless, she was going to get him awake so she could try out what Jesse told her to do. 

She decided the best way would be to just start kissing him, so she did, first his cheek, then his lips, then when he unconsciously rolled onto his back, she trailed kisses down his naked, tattoo covered chest. As she made her way down his torso, he nearly purred from the feeling of her lips traveling south, and he was still half in a dream state, thinking what a blissful way to wake up. He opened one eye, half way, and gazed at her. She'd made her way three quarters of the way down his torso and was currently at his hip bones. She gently raked her teeth over each bone, sending a shiver through his entire body. He was mostly awake now. He propped himself up on his elbows, glancing down with eyes half lidded in exhaustion but also lust.

" Sweetheart, what are you doing ?" He rasped quietly, trying to rub the sleep from his eyes. He smirked as she continued down to his thighs and he twitched as she nipped cautiously at his skin. Her hands wrapped around the back of his thighs and squeezed his ass cheeks which made him jump slightly. He sat up and one of his hands reached for her hair. She continued down the inside of his thighs, only going about half way down before going back up, pressing her lips in softly for each kiss. She was slow and methodical and he massaged her scalp while his eyes narrowed, a smirk still across his lips. She traveled back up to his belly button, skipping over the most important parts of him. The parts he really wanted her to touch and give some attention. She pulled one of her hands from under his ass and intertwined her fingers with his, her other hand wrapping around his hip. His wishes were fulfilled shortly after, as a naughty grin formed on her lips. She tilted her head slightly before pressing the softest kiss to the tip of his cock. 

" Fuckin' hell." He sighed and let his head fall back and she licked him from tip to base, then opened her mouth to swallow him whole. He went to reach for her face with his other hand but he was reminded that she held it steady with her own hand. He squeezed hers tighter as she worked, bobbing up and down slowly, glancing up at him every so often to make sure he was still interested. And, of course, he was. He was going out of his fucking mind, eyes rolling back, arms feeling weak. She let him go for a moment with a pop and the hand that was in her hair trailed down her cheek and tilted her chin up. He took a hold of her jaw, for a moment, very gently, his thumb rubbing over the bone a few times before he let his fingers fall to her neck, where he felt her pulse. It was racing, as was his. He ran his thumb back up the front of her throat before his fingers ghosted across her cheek again.

" Callan..." She whispered, catching his attention. He blinked a few times, trying to steady his breath. He knew he was dangling so close to the edge of his pleasure, and it would be so short lived, but he couldn't keep any sort of composure with Violetta. And she said his name. His full name. Not his nickname. His eyes were searching hers when she spoke again, almost moaning the words to him. " You taste so good ." 

Cal's entire being stopped, like a computer that had died. Cal.exe had crashed. His mouth dropped open as she took him again. His brows knitted in the middle, head falling back against the pillows as he wiggled his hips, trying so very hard to control his own body but it was betraying him. Luckily, she still had a hold of him and kept his thrusts to a minimum. His hand had made its way into her hair again, carefully taking a fistful. He squeezed her other hand hard before his voice came out broken and raspy.

"Vi, I'm gonna...cum...you don't...have to... fuck..." the last word came out as a groan, as his balls drew up tight and his cock throbbed in her mouth, pumping his load down her throat, which she graciously swallowed. She ran her fingers up and down his side as she took everything. All of it. He felt her swallow hard, felt her fingers clamp down on his, and his breath came out in short bursts, overloaded from how fucking intimate all of this was. He didn't realize he was panting until he'd blinked a few times, trying to put his brain back in his head. It had gone somewhere while his body transcended time and space from the pleasure. Violetta just continued to surprise him. He glanced down at her as she licked him clean. His brows raised and he was utterly speechless. He felt like a limp noodle too. He didn't want to move so he was ecstatic when she'd finished, wiping her mouth on the sheets. She then proceeded to crawl up his body, slowly, leaving a trail of kisses and nips behind. When she reached his neck, she just let her lips glide over his skin, which was still tingling from his orgasm. He turned his head, catching her lips with his as she leaned up. His smile reached all the way up to his eyes, one of the biggest and most tired smile she'd seen from him so far. Their fingers were still interlocked and they fell back asleep for a little while like that.

[shigayokagayama]

maybe a weird question, but do you have any recommendations for non-mob psycho media? I’ve been in search of something that hits similarly/is as well made and I trust your judgement o wise one. I’m not super picky, so recs of any kind would be appreciated :)

im like the worst person to take media recommendations from because you have to tie me down to watch something new and then i get obsessed with it forever, in terms of things ive seen recently that hit the same tumblr is NOT lying dungeon meshi is really good and if you start watching now you're gonna be watching at the part where it starts getting crazy

other stuff ive been into (gets progressively less mob psycho and generally more depressing like the further down we go bc i tend to get into really, really sad shit):

-i <3 deltarune but everyone has already played that. deltarune good. if you havent played deltarune play deltarune. genuinely like it more than undertale. also if the last chapter of deltarune is just the confession arc i called it and deserve a million dollars

-same w spiderverse. listen usually i dont care about superhero stuff but god these movies are good and i really hope they stick the landing.

-everything everywhere all at once continues to be one of my favorite movies ever

-rainworld (video game, very difficult but skurry's playthroughs do a good job summarizing the plot and general vibe of each route if you wanna watch those. i watched my friend play survivor ages ago and ive been playing through survivor with a friend on multiplayer and decided to watch some playthroughs to get a feel for the map and GOD DAMN the story of this game. rivulet route almost made me cry.) fair warning this is animal death the video game.

-severance (live action tv show, general plot is some sort of dystopian future where they invent a surgery where you can seperate your work self from your normal self so you clock into work and then black out until your shift is over. except your work self is just stuck at work forever. only 9 episodes but very, VERY good)

-i actually really enjoyed the scott pilgrim comics and the anime i wish anyone ever could be normal about them. id definitely suggest comics (if you can handle the 2000s humor) then anime. also basically everyone knows this but fair warning that starting out the main character is in his early 20s dating a 17 year old, it is explicitly treated as a shitty thing by the narrative and theres nothing explicit and its made very clear that he has 0 feelings for her whatsoever and is just using her as an ego boost but if youre sensitive to that stuff i might skip this one

-lots of webcomics about animals. i read so many webcomics about animals its like. my main media intake. this is part of the reason that i dont understand complaints about the art style my favorite webcomic looks like this

its called doe of deadwood and ill think about it until the day i die. others im currently reading (since this one wrapped a while ago) are "what lurks beneath" (cat cult on an island) "waves always crash" (cat cult on the beach) "i didnt know" (cat cult in a barn), toufati sawa (hyena trying to avenge her clan) and africa (leopard trying to survive the harshening world with her cubs) warning for animal death with all of these and general abuse warning for all those cat cult ones bc. cults.

-i like warrior cats. do not read warrior cats. its not very good and youll get stuck here forever.

-pathologic but the actual game and not just people describing the game please watch someone play the actual game summaries skip so much of the meat of the story and the characters. or play the game if you can bear learning to strategically quicksave. fair warning there is a lot of racism depicted against indigenous people in these games and while the framing of it generally aires on the side of "racism bad" there are a lot of kinda shitty tropes that come with it.

-listen bojack horseman is one of my shows it is the polar opposite of mob psycho in like every way and i would never in a million years recommend it if you want something that hits like mob psycho but if we're asking for just things i enjoy this is one of them. heavy cw for drug usage and abuse with this one. might want to give "does the dog die" a look for this one bc people are not joking about how heavy this show is

-same with hospice. hospice is a concept album about a hospice worker and a patient and has had more of an influence on me than any other piece of media ever bc i found it at the exact perfect time in my life for it to be relevant to my circumstances and now its like part of my identity. heavy cw for abuse also

-speaking of concept albums hey have you listened to tyler the creator he has several. WOLF especially i really like because the plot is actually like. kinda intricate. he also says the f slur a lot in WOLF but hes bisexual so diversity win?

-succession good. tw for like. everything though. probably "does the dog die" this one.

-hey have you ever watched david lynch's 1972 film "eraserhead"

[zaptap]

a year ago i said itd be nice if i could get on hrt by the time i turned 30 but i guess that didnt happen lol

i dug around a bit and found a trans therapist in my area (not just one who specializes in helping trans people, she's a trans woman herself)

finally got the courage to use the contact form on her site, then was too nervous to check my email for a week... but that didn't matter actually because i didnt even hear back, and i still haven't. it's been... 18 days? maybe i should send something again

there's also a planned parenthood near me that's on the informed consent hrt map, so i could also go for that, but i feel like i should have someone to talk to who's actually supportive since it's somewhat unlikely my conservative family will be (though that's probably still the worst case scenario. i dont think i'd get kicked out of the house or anything extreme like that. they dont misgender or deadname the trans friend i grew up with anymore, so there's a chance theyd be supportive, but also i overhear the kinds of shit the conservative talk show hosts they listen to say...)

anyway. if youre reading this thinking i live in oregon since that's what it says in my bio--i had to move to idaho with my family a couple years ago so that's where i am. havent really said anything about it because i hate it here and dont like to think about being here. i dont have any friends here and it sucks. ive at least started to do discord calls with my irl friend from back home who's also stuck living with her parents (the trans friend i mentioned earlier) so that helps a little bit. but generally i dont know what to do with myself. go to work a few days a week (same retail chain i worked at in oregon, i just transferred over when i moved). go home. play splatoon. sleep. that's about it. id like to move back to oregon (or perhaps washington) but like... idk how to do that and my mom doesnt seem to want to help me. so i'm stuck i guess

red state or not, im sick of waiting to transition. ive waited like 2/3 of my life in one way or another at this point, ever since i first started wishing i was a girl when i was like 9. im tired of it

[shartingan]

apologies if this is kinda out of left field but what is your current opinion on ao3? me personally i do like to read and write fic on it due to the tagging system and other aspects but the amount of whack shit makes me uncomfortable and I do wish you could report harmful content easily (I think you can now but it's a bit of a process)

sorry this took so long to answer! i had to finish graduating college 😔 i tend not to think about ao3 too much or too in depth, and i don't really get involved in the discourse on this site about it. please take everything i say with a grain of salt because im uninformed and not really looking to involve myself more in this discourse! but i will gladly answer this ask with the information i do have because i think youre starting an interesting conversation and i like to talk ( •̀ .̫ •́ )✧! feel free to hmu i dms, anon.

under read more because i started to ramble a bit. tldr please stop donating to ao3 and donate to one of these vetted palestinian fundraisers instead, especially for eid

personally i agree with all that youve said about ao3 in your ask already. i wont get on a soapbox and moralize about fanfiction and stuff like that because, again, i really dont care, but also i think it is really neat to have these spaces where people can safely interact with IPs in a transformative way and share their works with others without the threat of legal action. that's not ao3s doing, but it does provide a hub for people to publish without ever running into the treat of legal action. and, like you said, the tagging system makes it really easy to sort through fics and find what you like vs. dislike.

my main problems with ao3 come from its mismanagement, and the fact that it really has no competitors. ive been on ao3 since 2015, and i think the only significant change i can remember in the 9 years ive used it was the fact that they added the ability to filter out tags along with filtering in some. that's literally it. there could definitely have been some significant behind the scenes additions im unaware of, but from a users point of view, there has only been 1 update in 9 years that has majorly impacted the way i use the site. that seems like extreme mismanagement to me, especially since ao3 manages to meet and then significantly past all of their donation goals that they run pretty frequently. it seems like ao3 is making a lot of money which isn't being put into improving the site in any significant way. ao3 has been a site since 2008, its making a lot of money, and has a huge base of donors and volunteers, but it's still in beta? that seems like major mismanagement to me. again, this is just me speaking as a layperson not involved in the site itself.

also, it's pretty much become the only site that you can read fanfic on. there are sparse communities on tumblr, ff.net, and wattpad, but they're definitely a lot smaller and spread out. ao3 is the biggest and most centralized place for posting and reading fanfiction on the internet, meaning it virtually has no competition, and there's no alternatives that offer the same scale or quality. despite all that, it has almost no internal user moderation, and ao3 has actively been resistant to implementing those kinds of changes. that has resulted primarily in users of color getting targeted and attacked by racists. harassment is easy on ao3, and people can easily abuse the tagging system to do whatever they like. there's not even a perma-block tag feature, which is the first thing i would've implemented with the filter out feature. like you said, anon, if they're even implementing these changes, they're implementing them slowly, and behind a convoluted multi-step process. there's still little to no internal moderation or blocking system, which is just incredibly irresponsible.

ao3 almost has a monopoly on fanfiction on the internet, which means that it can kind of just do whatever, and no matter the gripes it knows people will keep coming back if they want fanfic because there's no alternative. and people keep chucking money at it because, again, its a hub for people to post and read fanfic without ever running into the threat of legal action because the website provides a safe, transformative works shield for authors. it's just insane how mismanaged the site is, but people keep giving it money despite that, so there's no real incentive for OTW to change anything or put in any effort. HOW IS IT STILL IN BETA. ITS BEEN 16 YEARS AND THEY'VE MADE MILLIONS OF DOLLARS. MINECRAFT CLASSIC WAS LAUNCHED IN 2009 AND THEY MOVED THROUGH BETA TO ALPHA TO A FULL LAUNCH AND THEN HUNDREDS OF UPDATES IN THE SAME TIME FRAME AND WITH A SMALLER TEAM AND FUNDS, INITIALLY😭😭😭 that's just insane to me, there's definitely something weird behind the scenes, how can they be this bad at site management, it's gotta be deliberate or something.

anyway, please stop donating to ao3 and donate to one of these vetted palestinian fundraisers instead, especially for eid

[renarots]

🏎️💨 THE FORMULA 1 TAG GAME! 🏎️💨:

tagged by @solaireverie

thanks pookie <3

1. Who or what got you into F1?

i grew up in a pretty big nascar family, my family would put it on the tv instead of watching the kids and natural progression i fell in love with motorsports. i do think a combination of seeing the tooned cartoon and me being fascinated by the engineering in the cars dragged me fully into f1.

2. Who was the very first F1 driver you supported? Do you support them now? Have your opinions on them differed or stayed the same since then?

for me it was fernando alonso and jenson button. although jenson is retired i still watch him in his other series like nascar. i still support fernando as well although i feel like it passed the torch on to lando when he was the reserve for mclaren and then later took the seat at mclaren. if you cant tell im a huge mclaren girl.

3. Who’s your current favourite F1 driver?

lando norris and yuki tsunoda, cant pick one but yeah theyre my ultimate pookies 🫶

4. Is there a driver pairing or pairings you support? What made you attracted to that pairing in the first place?

my biggest driver pairing right now is lando and oscar, i think their pairing is what lando needed and what oscar needed and theyve already shown they push eachother so i cant wait for this season. my ultimate that i think about is fernando and mark tho, theyre my roman empire. from them always misisng eachother as teammates and then the infamous abu dhabi 2010. i could go on an essay about them (as a treat i also love nando and jenson)

5. Do your parents, siblings or relatives have a favourite driver?

no but i did get my friends and their cats into it. one of them is a ferrari fan and the other is a mclaren girl more leaning towards op81 but im gonna make her an ln4 girl soon. her cats are both mclaren cats but one only loves lando, she legit gets disinterested when someone else is on screen. one time she literally followed landos car off screen and my friend didnt even know that was lando so she was surprised her cat caught on to him.

6. Do you have any favourite races? Are there any that stand out to you the most?

i know i mentioned it before but abu dhabi 2010 is definitely one i watch a lot. 2020 austrian gp as well, even tho lando got the podium cause of disqualification it still holds a special place in my heart. Runner ups are silverstone 2023 and Abu Dhabi 2023 where pookies lead the race for a period of time.

7. Do you have a favourite circuit? Can be from the past or from the current calendar.

singapore is lovely, silverstone because of this year with lando leading the gp just really put it up there, and i think interlagos always has me excited, even if mclaren has a bad track record with it (please get your shit together for quali guys)

8. Have you ever been to an F1 race in real life? Feel free to tell us your experience going to one if you like.

ive never been to one theyre too expensive in america to go to one but i have been to a couple nascar races and those were so lovely. im hoping to take my friends and i to the suzuka gp next year tho (its so much cheaper please f1 sort your shitty pricing please)

9. Have you ever met an F1 driver in real life?

no and id rather melt into the floor than meet one

10. Do you have a favourite F1 car? If so, what is it?

i think the rb19 (rocky) has to be my fave rn if you asked me a year ago i would say otherwise but from an engineering standpoint rocky is the most beautiful piece of machinery ive laid my eyes on (excluding my beautiful b&m rollercoasters of course (my first love fr))

11. Do you have a favourite one win wonder?

not really tbh

12. Do you have any favourite quotes from the F1 world? This can either be inspirational or hilarious.

"i nearly said i wouldnt want to be married to him but obviously i- im happily married to a lady but" -mark webber (🫵🏳️‍🌈❓)

"who is the blind guy in the alpha tauri?" -fernando alonso (even tho it was against yuki it was so funny from this years radios)

"soy lago" -lando norris (i miss carlando guys)

"fernando is faster than you" -rob smedley

realised thats a lot of fernando related quotes but oh well 🤷‍♀️

🏷️ <3

@dumbf1sketches @formulafics @disneyprincemuke @lovewithmary @piasstrisblog @bekaillustrates @honeyhobbs and anyone who would like to participate

[thinkingaboutfilm11]

GRACE F1 LORE

Thanks for tagging me @wisteria-wisteria <3

1. Who or what got you into F1?

Basic bitch answer but my dad. He was a big fan, and his dad was a fan. I was plonked infront of the TV to watch it as a kid, and grew up never missing a race. That was until Sky Sports braught it off chanel 4, and now my family can't afford to watch it anymore. I have to pirate it now coz I AINT PAYING 50 A MONTH go fuck yourself Sky Sports.

2.Who was the very first F1 driver you supported? Do you support them now? Have your opinions on them differed or stayed the same since then?

Probably Lewis? Or Jenson? I was (still am) a Mclaren fan as a kid, and my dad always cheered on English drivers, so I just copied him. I still love them both now, my opinions havn't changed on them at all!

3.Who’s your current favourite F1 driver?

Current grid? Probably Max, Fernando or Oscar. They are all so so talented, it's just a pivalidge to watch them drive. I think they're all really funny in their own ways too.

My favourite driver ever? Senna, obviously. Or Prost.... Can't ever pick.

4.Is there a driver pairing or pairings you support? What made you attracted to that pairing in the first place?

I support all and any pairings. F1 RPF in all forms is delicious thankyou. My faves are: Prost X Senna, Carlos X Lando, Max X Charles, Peroni X Villeneuve, George X alex, Mika X Michael, and Nigel X Elio.

The only ship I don't really vibe with is Pierre X Charles? Like idk I just don't feel it. But I'll still read it so lol

5. Do your parents, siblings or relatives have a favourite team and/or favourite driver(s)?

My dad supports Mclaren same as me. My sister isn't really into it? She finds charles hot and will watch edits of him but shes never watched a race or really gives a shit about the actual driving. Shes here for the thirst traps and Ferrari merchandise and I respect that so much.

6. Do you have any favourite races? Are there any that stand out to you the most?

Dallas, Texas 1984. What a fucking shit show. Absolute comedy sketch. Everything about that dumb race is so funny to me.

7. Do you have a favourite circuit? Can be from the past or from the current calendar.

Hungaroing! It was the first F1 race I ever attended, and the joy I get out of watching it and screaming 'IVE BEEN THERE IVE BEEN THERE' never leaves. The first race in person was special, so hungaoring is special now too.

8. Have you ever been to an F1 race in real life? Feel free to tell us your experience going to one if you like

Yes. And I don't know why but I was so shocked at how friendly everyone was. I think I was expecting it to be like football, but everyone got along so well no matter the teams ect. I always get general admission now, because its so much fun to sit and make new friends with other F1 freaks!!! Everyone shares food, alcohol, blankets, brollies ect- its alwaus such a good atmosphere at everywhere I've been.

9. Have you ever met an F1 driver in real life?

Yes. Seb and Jenson. In the same day. I nearly exploded, but actually managed to come off very normal and composed.

10. Do you have a favourite F1 car? If so, what is it?

McLaren MP4/4 1988.

LOOK AT IT

The details, the colours, the absoulte perfection of the livery, and of course the V8 underneath that gave way to MCAREN DOMINATION. Shes perfect.

11. Do you have a favourite one win wonder?

Gerhard Berger or charles.

12. Do you have any favourite quotes from the F1 world? This can either be inspirational or hilarious.

Anything that comes out of Alain Prost's mouth. That man should be a fucking poet. Also- "I'm cuming on your camera mate" hahah

I tag @astirian , @bluesourkiwi , @kimizilla , @whobuilthemoon , @penseesauvageand @eliorosb3rg. Or whoever wants to do itttt love u all

[grimxark]

Ok. Part 3 earthspark was so incredibly disappointing. I feel so sad about it because it’s such a promising show.

I kind of ranted abt this to my friend for like an hour as soon as we finished watching but here’s some of my criticism which I may add on to. Or not

Warning for Earthspark s1 p3 spoilers and overall negativity. So sorry!

1. The writing of this part was sooo terrible. So many plotholes so much drama and so much cringe dialogue. I want to give it slack for being a children’s show but! There’s so much here that’s just senseless. I can excuse cringe dialogue but some of it is back to back to back. Like holy shit

2. Hate what they did to Karen. She was this malevolent evil that was being hinted and teased since part 1 and she amounted to literally nothing. She had no motives other than being racist, none that we know of. Maybe her parents died idfc but there are no real motives that she ever makes outright known. And she was being hinted to being this final boss type. Her death had no impact. It felt like a “oh look this is a child’s show turned dark”. Her death promised everything and it delivered nothing.

3. The last 3? Episodes where Twitch take charge feel apocalyptic and it was nice. Twitch and her older sister curse. The last one standing. The one bearing the weight of the family, having all that responsibility because wether you want it or not she is the older sister of the group. She watches everyone she loves simply disappear. She goes through so much trouble and so many plans and then thrash dies protecting her (which doesn’t make sense?? ill go onto this later). So, after she goes through all that trouble, the humans wake up and fix everything in the blink of an eye. and it undoes all this effort and character thrown into Twitch because she isnt the one who finds a way to fix it. it makes the last 3 episodes totally meaningless.

4. how would Thrash's body protect her from the blast. they were closest, and none of the others were protected the same way despite being in close proximity. why did the terrans even get affected by the blast? theyre not energon based. its like, the main plot of the show.

5. mandroid coming in and being like "interesting! for you ive been gone for a day, but under my calculations ive been gone… a year." was funny as hell. why a year?? why not one hundred. or at least fifty. as a lone human he would NOT have been able to convince the sharkticons in a year. and against the quintessons? and all those bodily changes? its so funny how stupidly underwhelming that time is.

6. Robbie's death was stupid. he does a green lantern oath and power up then still loses against megatron (bc its megatron) and then dies and gets revived. theres no shock, you know hell come back. i hoped everyone going "somethings wrong" meant we were going to get a "he died and came back wrong" ordeal but i guess i was expecting too much. also wasnt he dying in one episode. he said "its getting worse" and then he was fine

7. this entire part feels sooo odd to me with the inconsistencies, i wonder if the writers strike has anything to do with it. it almost feels so random. like on the same episode where robbie dies— why were they like "is that the real megatron?" while being scared as if they dont know megatron as a good guy. why would you be scared its the real megatron.

8. final fight felt so rushed. this whole part felt rushed. i wonder if there were budget cuts or if they used their whole budget on the first half of the season.

9. ill say it. maybe you don’t agree with me but. So much of it feels like fanservice. The starscream episode… why would Hashtag be the one to relate to Screamer? Mind control isn’t quite the same as constant abuse. And the entire episode relied a lot on watchers knowing what that relationship was like. In knowing what Starscream and Megatron are like. If you don’t know anything, it just feels odd. Even as a g1 inspired show, where Starscream and Megatron are awful to each other in damn near equal measures. It was a nice episode, I really enjoyed it, but there should’ve been more build up to that.

10. So many of the deleted scenes provide an extra feeling that was missing from the show. I’m really sad at how much potential this show has and how the entirety of parts 1 and 2 were amazing and built up so much and part 3 was just a huge let down with so many inconsistencies and questions left unanswered right after being brought up.

11.