#I feel like I need to put a disclaimer on things bc ppl just come across them w no context. but im too lazy to do such a thing

[fisherrprince]

>sees miqo tail pov post>it claims duskwight elezen have tails >me, duskwight main eggman voice "WHAT ARE YOU TWO FUCKING TALKING ABOUT" ( jk I just thought of that bc of the header lol. But really what does that does that point of the post refer to? it is an inside joke? just curious : o )

I have given you a tail. Congratulations! You have no choice in this matter

[nezoriy]

List of "normal" things that always baffled me as a person on the aro/ace spectrum:

Disclaimer: A lot of this is based on the feelings and perception of my teenage self when I started to feel people around me were weird but didn't have the language or concept yet to understand what was wrong. So, give me a break if it sounds edgy sometimes. I don’t have the energy to sugarcoat every statement so it doesn’t offend anyone. If you're part of the mainstream and feel attacked by a random dude on the internet questioning things you find "normal," maybe ask yourself why you’re upset instead of coming for me.

1. "Love at first sight."

Even as a kid, this felt like a scam. I get friendship, and I can imagine love developing out of it. But for that, you need to know the person. You can't know someone instantly. So how on earth is this supposed to work? (The answer is, most ppl can feel sexual attraction instantaneously and it gets sold as love for the kids.)

2. Finding someone "attractive" = you’d like to fuck them.

I honestly was like 20something when I realized that actually yes, when ppl talk about someone, even celebs, being "attractive," they do mean they’d like to have sex with them and not just compliment them on their looks.

Like, I can honestly say that many of my friends, Cate Blanchett, and Hugh Jackman are "attractive." But to me, that’s like talking about a painting. Like, sure, Singer Sargent's Madame X is "attractive," but no one's trying to, uh, get it on with the painting… right?

3. The whole concept of dating (to find a romantic partner.)

So, you’re telling me people meet up specifically to see if they might develop feelings for each other when they don't have those feelings yet? 

Like, what even makes you say yes to a date if you don't know a person at all? (The answer is: once again, sexual attraction, obviously.) 

On the other hand, if you’re already friends with someone and just wanna see where it goes, why bring the flowers and fancy dinners into the equation?

4. Why people (especially women) would even risk sex back when it could have had major consequences for them

The list includes (but isn’t limited to):

Women before reliable contraception in societies where an unplanned pregnancy could be socially catastrophic;

Brothel visitors once STDs were known;

(Here’s the tricky one bc I myself kinda feel guilty for not being empathetic enough) gay people, especially men, in times and places where they could literally be imprisoned or executed for having sex

I need to be very clear here, this isn’t about moral superiority as I'm not feeling any, it’s about survival. Like, if sex could legit mess up your life, why not just… not do it? 

Yeah it's basically rip to “fallen” women but I’m different.

5. The culture of one-night stands, cruising, club hookups, etc.

This is still a bit uncomfortable in my head because this is a very prominent part of gay culture specifically, and I’ve always felt incredibly disconnected from it. But I can't edit it out.

Okay, so someone’s hot. I can maybe get that there’s a spark. But if you don’t know them… what if they open their mouth mid-action and reveal they voted for trump? Instant deal-breaker, my genitals are shriveling in terror.

6. The need to have a partner / actively searching for one.

I give it to you, if you vibe with someone, getting into a relationship may make sense. But actually, putting in effort to find one? For what? There’s so much other cool stuff in life!

7. "I haven’t had sex in five minutes/a month/half a year 😱😭" / jokes about dry spells.

Do you actually keep track of the timelines? So what if you haven’t? I get it, orgasm is great and all, but your hand still works, right? Why do you need another person for that? 

8. Imagining yourself in place of a person/character in sex scenes.

This mostly applies to fanfics but also “regular” porn. Even if the scene is hot, I don’t picture myself as any of the characters involved. Even if I'm aroused, I like it precisely for the characters in a specific scenario, I would only be a third wheel there. 

9. Sexual fantasies with yourself as a participant.

I really don't want to imagine myself in any sexual scenarios, neither with fictional characters nor with real people, even if I might have a crush on them. 

10. Cheating in relationships/marriage.

I’m not even talking about the moral aspect of breaking trust/violating the negotiated agreements; it’s the fact that someone "just couldn’t help themselves," “accidentally” had sex. Like, you’re willing to break an agreement, feel all the guilt, and go all secret agent-level to hide the thing because you… what, couldn’t keep it in your pants?

11. Extreme jealousy over sex.

Alongside the last point, I don’t really get why people make such a big deal about someone sleeping with someone else. Sure, it’s not cool to break agreements, and it’s a valid reason to re-evaluate the relationship. But just because they hooked up with someone else? Why is it such a dramatic deal?

(Spoiler alert: I’ve grown up to be poly now, who’s surprised xD)

12. The sexualization of women in media, ads, and the outrage from cishet guys about female characters wearing realistic armor instead of metal bikinis in their games now.

What do you mean, people actually like this and it works on them? Do people actually appreciate having half-naked women in their media? Seriously?

13. The priority of romantic relationships over friendships and every other kind of relationship.

From "got a partner, disappeared for two months from their friend group" to the whole idea that romance is inherently more "serious" or "important" than friendship. Why? Who made that a rule?

Okay, that’s it off the top of my head. Might add something later. 

[legally-allowed-to-slime]

i disagree on the "it was a good kill and Gem is bothered by it/pretends she's not" bc it really wasn't,,, and Gem can be right in calling it pathetic and also not expecting it/knowing how to escape and also be not that bothered by it bc she does try to like, let (red life) people kill her the entire session, she's 'not a sweat' as she calls it

Mumbo literally lost a life bc he was going after Gem in the car (he pours lava where she was specifically), then tried to lava her twice, Grain had to tell him to keep going after her with a sword (also Skizz tries to lava her before that too lmao) and she still escaped it to the point Mumbo logs out bc hes embarrassed (in a light hearted way ofc) just to log back in, join in on Martyn helping them (Gem does just accept him digging a hole under her, doesn't move at all, she only tries to escape the lava) just for Ren to steal the kill like the little yellow life shit he is and then Mumbo tries to lava her again lmao. it is pathetic, let's not kid ourselves here, Looney Tunes type crap, especially with the speed. It's a good kill on Ren side ig??? idk

like. idk, people try too hard to make it seem like she's bothered or not, maybe the answer is simply that she accepts dying, but she also wanted the killer to actually try to get her (like Grian does, he clearly hates the cheap kills,,, unless it comes from his teammates lmao)

feel like ppl try too hard to make her look like Scott (and I don't think even Scott is that bothered, he just switches to survival mode for once lol), when both her and Joel are fine with ppl trying to murder them and succeeding, they show it multiple times this session

i don't think this makes her "untouchable" or boring either, bc I don't think any life series member takes death as seriously as fanon makes it seem sometimes (might be the dsmp brain wiring lmao, but to me it does matter how a person reacts to their death and what they do afterwards, and she goes back there and just. Tries to congratulate Mumbo until she realizes Ren did it. She doesn't hide, doesn't get annoyed or anything, so I don't see why would I take it as her lying to herself or the viewers. Taking her at face value is smarter here, bc she doesn't hide her feelings, she's open about being annoyed at Pearl/Imp, she's open about disliking ppl and how she feels about stuff). they know they're in a death game, know what to expect so it's whatever as long as theyre still green and have lives to waste

i know it's all in good fun and role-play, but I just wanted to give my opinion from somebody who's not that into this side of the fandom (this is also messy as fuck and i probably repeated myself a bunch but im too lazy to fix this, whateeverr)

i’d like to preface this with a disclaimer: gem is one of my favourites. i would never speak so derogatorily about a character if i did not obsessively watch all their povs and consume so much fanfic about them that i’m sick. put simply, c!gem is morally grey, and i’m entirely comfortable with it. moving on

i feel like we need to face the fact that every lifer is an unreliable narrator. yes, some to a greater extent than others, like how dl!pearl or sl!lizzie are clearly unreliable. but all of them, bar none, say and go through things that affect their worldview. an unfortunate phenomenon known popularly as “the human experience”. especially in the life series, when the ccs are deliberately roleplaying, it would be naive to take any of them at face value, especially when evidence says otherwise.

so yes, gem is definitely bothered. she talks about how she’s a target, even puts a target on her skin, and keeps on talking about how incompetent everyone is (even when they’re not trying to kill her). i don’t think this is unreasonable of her at all, i’m just pointing out an incongruence in her words and her behaviour. again, there’s nothing wrong with being bothered, but what’s really interesting is that she constantly says things like “oh, finally!” or “that was so bad” or just laughs. to me, i interpret it as her purposely trying to keep up the image that she isn’t bothered, that she is confident or that wow, look, the other players are so bad she’s getting frustrated that she can’t die. a “regular” lifer would probably just exclaim oh no if there was a failed attempt on their lives, but gem is much more deliberate with her words. i’m not calling her calculating, but maybe i am.

(i have noted before that gem is impressively good at faking real emotion, so that definitely plays a factor in my interpretation. it’s very easy to dismiss it as genuine exasperation, but based off her other words you can slightly discern that it’s a facade. obviously gem is gunning for a win this season, and if she’s gunning for a win, why would she try or want to die?)

as for the kill. directly before this, yes, it was a cartoon chase scene, but gem was in full survival mode and was darting around, constantly eating. it would be foolish to pretend that she wasn’t trying to stay alive.

you argue that she allowed martyn to dig the hole under her. i went back to check, and due to the sped up game, it took martyn a little over 2 seconds to dig the 2x2x3 hole. 2 things can be true: gem is good at the game, and the hole caught gem off guard. furthermore, gem was looking at grian and not at martyn when the hole was dug. so she’s in the hole, and she has less than one second to react before the lava is placed. gem pulls out her water bucket very quickly, and places it down the same second. too late. she’s caught by the lava, she yells, she takes out her shovel to dig, she digs one block and then dies. so how long does the kill take?

eight seconds. from the first block being broken to gem dying to the lava, it takes eight seconds. that is the opposite of pathetic. that is a well-executed kill and even with gem’s condescending “good job!” it doesn’t take away from the fact that it was well done. note that gem reacted very quickly, so it wasn’t gem “allowing” herself to be killed. she tried pretty hard to not die, but the lava was just faster. in no way did she accept dying when even in her own video it’s clear that she fought to the end.

gem is definitely not fine with people murdering her. the other attempts, yes they were bad, but gem also tries to dodge them. i feel like she legitimately forgot about tango’s trap and stood on it by accident, but changed her story when tango failed anyway, because she doesn’t even say anything to tango (like a cheeky “tango i’m standing here”) prior to the actual attempt. i wouldn’t go so far as to call her a sweat, but to go to the other extreme that she allowed people to kill her is also straight up inaccurate, even if gem acts like she did.

so, we’ve established that it’s a good kill. how does gem react? she tells the audience “oh it’s pathetic”, goes up to mumbo and tells him “mumbo i’m so proud of you”. that is textbook condescending. she’s trying to act amused, as if mumbo’s a toddler that’s just done a cool trick. (never mind that it was ren, it’s the intention behind her words) if she got outwardly annoyed, that would make it obvious that she was actually threatened by the kill, or that she was actually bothered. this faux nonchalance is what i’m trying to point out here. i don’t think she’s inwardly annoyed either. i just think she’s lying to herself.

as for that last bit, i don’t think i ever said this made gem boring. to me this makes her incredibly interesting and an incredibly complex character to dissect. i’m saying those who just believe whatever she says and believe that whatever she says is what she actually believes are making out her character to be more boring than it is.

[angel---eater]

im so curious what u mean by the vriskafication of jegbert? /genq

ive been watching the hs fandom from afar since the epilogues were dropped.

this is a rlly good question- i have a lot of thoughts and feelings abt june and how the fandom has taken to her her and is now portraying her in popular fanon. im so sorry this has gotten so long. im also sorry if i say smth you or anyone reading this disagrees with, but in my experience this is kind of inevitable when it comes to the topic of june egbert, trans characters who havent come out in canon yet, and trans headcanons as a whole. this shits personal to all of us and we all have different perspectives on transness, and oftentimes how we view transness in fiction is very much coloured by our own gendered experience.

it boils down to: can we please fucking let trans girls live. we are so fuckin weird about transfem folks and trans girls/women, even in fiction. sometimes especially in fiction, actually. especially on this gd website. if i have to see one more person defending june (and tgirl roxy) as a concept, and through that, defending real life transfems existences by talking about girldick or being a sweet docile sugary femme babygirlie kittycat, i will turn everyone into a fucking goldfish and flush you all one by one down my toilet. this, again, also extends to how a lot of the fandom handles trans headcanons in general, regardless of gender. all of what im about to say is from watching the homestuck fandom and fanon grow and change over 10+ years, basically since the beginning on this site specifically

some disclaimers for my trans resume i guess: i am intersex. i am plural. we as a system identify systemwide as transfemasuline or transneutral in an attempt to both honor and not speak over each other in terms of gender expression and individuality, while also trying to condense our existence for singlets to understand better, faster. we dont have time to explain all our shit all the time lol. we have transfems and transmascs in our system and everyone getting a fair, even chance at their preferred presentation is how we roll. we have lived a transfemasculine life. you cant put us in a single blue or pink corner, it wont work we are immune to that bullshit.

the vriskafication of june egbert is basically me trying to short-hand describe the way that ive seen some fans portray june post-transition by turning her into a mean girl[tm] type of person. there's also the roxyfication of june egbert, where other people make her a ditzy bimbo who can do no wrong because 'shes a girl now' and thats apparently how ppl still think girls should behave?? jegbert's canon personality traits need not apply anymore, apparently, bc that was icky boy behaviour. ghostbusters who? she likes shopping now. fanon june is sometimes eerily similar or exactly like vriska (fanon, woobified vriska, mind you, bc we still cant get a grasp on vriska as a fandom either) while also dressing very high femme and only high femme. because she has to perform someone elses femininity (spoiler: our own concept of what girls 'should look like' to be considered girls) instead of her dads masculinity now. shes either mean like vriska, or dumbed down like fanon roxy, who again has been watered down into a ditzy dumb girly girl who has done nothing wrong ever, bc shes 'just a girl', and bc people get Uncomfy when fictional tgirls do bad things. and oh boy has canon roxy done some bad things

as a counterpoint to my aesthetic based grievances, which are entirely personal- you can portray june egbert however you want. i personally invision her as very butch, but i could be totally wrong! im not even trying to make guesses here! this is my personal make-believe! she is not a real person and has never actually appeared as herself in canon. we dont know what junathan would/will be like during and post-transition. we dont know what an egg crack event will do to them. but some of the ways ive seen june portrayed feels........ off, personality wise. very off. and thats what i care about. it feels like malgendering in way too many cases, with the ditzy girliepop/catty girlbully thing. its straying too close to the tgirl brand of madonna/whore that tfems have to face in real life constantly. this is especially bad for tgirl roxy but i'll get to how fanon vs canon roxy is handled later

i use the word 'vriskafication' bc like vriska, june egbert (meaning tgirl jegbert, previously known as john in fandom and currently as john in canon, just to hammer it home that june and john are the same person, because some fans do seem to forget that john is living life believing shes a boy and a man right now and i dont think that should be erased) is still a pretty polarizing concept. fans either love her and disregard jegbert as ever having been john, or they disregard her as a concept in favour of how john is right now in canon. or theyre just straight up transmisogynistic about it bc they want their yaoi or their het ships. and BOY are some of the fandom not shy about that. which actually leads me into my next disclaimer:

im not including tboy/tmasc john headcanons in the above statement. i do not care about fighting over trans headcanons. i think that shit is just disrespectful and pointless and juvenial. you are fighting for nothing. june/john will not thank you for fighting for their trans rights bc they are not real and have no rights. june is not canon (yet) because she has not had that realization yet, and we dont know if/when she will. and genderbend aus have been a thing since the dawn of fandom anyway. more than one type of headcanon can exist at the same time. we are playing pretend. headcanons will never be proper representation. we are fans, not corporate entities or big directors or production teams churning out content for mass audiences. john has been considered a cis boy for FAR longer than june has been a popular concept, and you dont know how long someone has had or how close to someones heart their trans headcanon is, regardless of what flavour of trans headcanon it is. its rude. some of yall are so fucking mean for no reason other than 'you cant sit with us. on wednesdays we wear pink' rules. very intentional reference there

and i mean okay, roxy. big pink elephant in the room. no one respects or even acknowledges the fact that roxy in the Meat timeline is transmasc and currently only uses he/him, and when they do they're bullied fuckin relentlessly and ostracised from fandom spaces. ive seen entire hate campagns specifically for badmouthing transmasc roxy fans to try to get them to stop posting tmasc roxy stuff, or to see it as transmisogynistic violence akin to shooting a real trans girl live on tv. i have seen these comparisons be made on this site. ive seen others get actually violently transphobic about it back in 2019-2022, and even now. ive talked to fans who were mass dogpiled and harrassed off tumblr for liking meat!roxy's direction, or even just not publicly condemning him while having a neutral stance. i myself have been instablocked from servers and off of ppls blogs for thinking tmasc roxy is cool and a good plot point for his overall personal arc, especially in juxtaposition with roxy's pregnancy in candy, and how that affected her rship with her body and her gender. ive been called horrible things for even considering roxy to be anything but DMAB. that chapter in candy where we get a glimpse inside roxy's head about gender was beautifuly written with a lot of tact for trans people who can be or have been pregnant and enjoyed it, something that is INSANELY RARE. UNHEARD OF, EVEN, IN MEDIA. so this really isnt about trans rights or representation from my perspective. its just gendered bullying and a whole lotta white knighting from people who are majoratively not even fucking transfem.

the same notes of trans coding for roxy that fans deem only as transfem could be seen as coding for transmasculinity too. yes, including the XY thing. does anyone remember what foreshadowing is. and all of this even depends, hinges, on whether hussie intentionally wrote ANY of the human kids as trans initially or had it planned from the very beginning, which i really really really dont think she did!!! in 2009??? yeah fucking right!!!! the entire thing about roxy and jane pressuring dirk and jake into relationships is about cis girls feeling posessive of and entitled to queer boy's bodies and attention, because its something they cant have, and cis girls are seen as a group of people physically incapable of harm, which is misogyny that directly effects cis girls/womens victims. its a direct mirroring to cis boys doing the same to queer girls. and as much as i love all flavour of trans reads for the alpha kids in fandom, i dont think i wouldve appreciated it in canon. i wouldve hated it, actually. it waters down the message and makes everything far too messy and open to bad faith interpretation. we need more trans characters doing bad things in media, but the era the alpha kids section of HS1 was being published was NOT the time. an inarguably canon tgirl character preying on an inarguably queer tboy in 2011-2012? there would have been blood in the streets. i VASTLY prefer fanon interpretations when it comes to the alpha kids being trans. i trust fans way more, but i obviously still have reservations about that which is why im here writing all this

to further back this up- hussie has also openly discussed having her eyes opened to queer issues BY queer fans WHILE HS1 was still being updated!!! THATS why you can see a gradual influx of genuine queerness in homestuck as you read it!!! the vagueness of the trans coding we percieve in the text is why tboy john is still so popular!!! WAY more trans experiences, especially in childhood, are more similar than The Current Discourse bad actors will try to have you believe. please dont believe them, they're not right in the head and the ppl trying to convince you that someone has it The Absolute Worst are lying to you. we all have it bad, thats how oppressive systems work. its just in different patterns for indiviuduals. a middle class trans persons oppression can and often will look VASTLY different to a poor trans persons oppression bc different axis of oppression are at work. it depends on the type of person our oppressors label us as, they dgaf if anyone identifies as TME or TMA. thats a little beside the point but its absolutely contributed to how fans treat fictional trans characters, especially in the last few years

i hate hate hate the ideology in this fandom that one trans interpretation or headcanon is more valuable, or hits harder, or is more idk narratively transcendient or powerful than The Other, so The Other is deemed boring/bland/sauceless/whatever and deserves all the hate and takedowns and dismantling and nitpicking it gets. the fans of this Other Trans Headcanon deserve their hate and calls to kill themselves because theyre just Wrong About It. but thats not true. none of that is true. you just dont vibe with other flavours of fanmade trans narrative. and thats completely fine actually. its literally like preferring carrot cake to raspberry pie. it is on that level outside of transphobic biases, and i sincerely believe that a lot of fans start out on that level, but dip into transphobic biases because of the constant fucking weird moral panic about trans girls, and by extension, young trans people as a whole. which is not fine. whats also not fine is attacking fans of trans characters over said trans characters gender, canon or interpreted!!!

to tie this tf up bc i dont want this to go on for any longer than it has, im so so SO SO SO tired of fanon june and roxy being trans girls first and foremost over their actual characterization. and im even MORE tired of the word 'girl' being taken in fiction to mean dumb, sweet, (white)feminine, wouldnt hurt a fly, so so cuddlysoft, girlboss it up girlfriend, you cant sit with us, im such a cool bitch, im cooler than you dumb gross boy because im a girl, what personality i dont have one i dont need one because im a girl.

so much of fandom has forgotten that roxy is fucking mean and WILL ignore whatever doesnt fit her whims/wants and will plow through her closest friends and loved ones regardless of the situation at hand because of what she wants. she canonically admitted to harrassing dirk on the daily because she wanted him, because she was lonely and couldnt see past her own hurt to see that she was also hurting her friend. and oh my god, mom lalonde, worlds first abscent mother who swears up and down that she loves you really, rosie posie, its just that mommy's real hungover again and also very busy. that is BRILLIANT characterization for a female character, and its been forgotten behind the big pink bedazzled neon ITS A GIRL sign. and the same has been happening with june!!! and it sucks!!!! us transfems are just people we are JUST people. i dont want trans girl characters only point of characterization to be trans and girls!!!! i dont want talking heads and perfect cardboard cutouts in lipstick!!!! when june happens i want her to be exactly the same as when she was john because thats who i became enamoured with in HS1 and thats who i watched grow up in the epilogues and THATS who i want to see finally find their place in paradox space as herself. i want her personality intact, and i dont want to see her forget or turn her back on her childhood and teen and young adult years. i dont want june to be fanon vriskafied

[lord-squiggletits]

Something about being an IDW OP fan is that even in positive works about him I feel like his problematic aspects are brought up way too often even in an appreciative way.

Ignore the haters of IDW OP/other characters I'm using as an example bc I'm talking about how fans talk about their own faves.

Like with Prowl fans, they know he's problematic but they pretty much just go "yeah he's an asshole what about it" or just don't acknowledge it at all and write/draw what they want to see. Some might allude to ACAB stuff but they don't do a disclaimer on every post about him with "btw I know cops are bastards and war crimes are evil I just think he's neat"

Pharma stans make content about him, whether apologism or just fun haha chainsaw doctor, without having to constantly be like "medical malpractice is bad and all but" or "He kills people and that's definitely important to talk about but" they just write about Pharma being a tragic/evil character and that's that

Megatron fans definitely are willing to talk about him being problematic, but again that element of self consciousness isn't there and ppl write headcanons and fics and stuff without Megatron having to turn around in the narration and go "oh I'm evil I'm so awful no one should be like me" as a sign to the audience that the author doesn't condone Megatron's actions and thinks colonialism is bad

I'm sure I could come up with other examples but like it's just weird to me that even among ppl who like IDW Optimus (and I'm not immune to this either), there's like this self-effacing attitude where ppl can't just say "I like him" or "It was cool when he did this" without almost ALWAYS preceding it with some sort of "He is a cop but" or "He's kind of a jerk but" or "I would hate him IRL but" as if there's some sort of Transformers fandom panopticon saying that you're not allowed to talk positively about IDW OP without first mentioning all of his flaws/problematic aspects. People sort of speak about him as if he's enjoyable or well written DESPITE being problematic, or that enjoying him has to be justified bc him being problematic automatically makes him repulsive. As opposed to merely talking about IDW OP as he is, and the problematic parts of him are thinks you can talk about or not talk about just depending on your mood and what angle you want to approach. No, every post or conversation has to always allude to how "IDW OP is an asshole, but he also has positive traits" or "I know he's problematic, but hear me out."

Hell even tho I'm seeing a little more fic about IDW OP or OPs with more IDW elements, it still feels as if most writers put him in situations where he goes "yeah I'm sorry I'm problematic and did bad things" as if he has to confess his sins publicly before being allowed to be a person. Or that the author feels the need to write him as such to reassure the audience "No actually I know ACAB just because I like IDW OP doesn't mean I'm not progressive look here I'm writing a story about everyone calling him an asshole for being a cop and OP kisses Megatron's ass because revolutionaries are actually right and it's only state propaganda that maligns them as violent and capable of wrong."

Idk I just think that among people who enjoy problematic characters, there are still a lot of fans who are either immature or self-conscious in their enjoyment of problematic characters. Where they DO have that enjoyment but they feel the need to make public disclaimers constantly or write their stories in a moralizing way to demonstrate how well they know that character is problematic. To contrast, I think true "problematic character" enjoyment comes when people can just LIKE A CHARACTER and it's a morally neutral act where they don't feel the need to make demonstrations about how transgressive it is and how their taste in fictional characters definitely doesn't reflect their real life morality.

It's just saddening bc even tho these days, there are lots of people who like IDW OP and there's fewer people being assholes about him, it still feels as if content about him is self-conscious of the fact and won't let him exist as a character/funny guy in your brain/vessel of themes and plot and instead it's some sort of Hays Code-esque thing where every time he appears on screen at least one person has to call him a cop bastard so the audience knows the fanfiction isn't copaganda.

But what if instead IDW OP fans and fan content had the same energy as other problematic character fanbases like Prowl or Megatron and we could just go "yeah here's a story about my favorite guy" without making a whole disclaimer about it

[camouflagedlove]

i think casual players (like my friends) hate Emma and she doesn't deserve it. she didn't owe feelings or a relationship to Jacob. should she have continued to flirt with him after? no but I do believe that's part of her facade and insecurities, she wants people to like her and that's how jacob liked her. I want ppl to understand she wasn't a bad person. the dare she was given was either kiss her ex (which we know he would've tried to use as evidence they should get back together) or kiss her friends crush: either way I feel she'd have gotten heat. I feel her choice was hard but made sense. she made the kiss a Little Much to get Jacob to get it but in reality it was just a game and she didn't do it to hurt Abi.

I also think of her in a deep and autistic way

i feel like she is afraid of people not liking her, and puts on a performance (canon) so if ppl do dislike her it doesn't feel as personal. her 'flirting' with jacob during the game was, to me, a defense. she's uncomfortable with the energy so she needs him to like her therefore act how he likes (which is flirty). Jacob put her in a situation where she was somehow rude for not returning his feelings the same or having the same wishes so she performed for him. is that the best thing to do? no, but can you blame her? trapped at camp with her fresh ex who keeps hounding her and moping. I can see her being like "well I just have to be nice✨️ to him so he let's the night be comfortable"

disclaimer: I don't dislike Jacob nor think He's a Bad character but I do think it's important to recognize yeah he has the right to be upset, to have feelings but it's also unfair of him to keep going after her after she made her position clear. he's ignoring her no. like he can be sad but he needs to recognize how he comes off trying to 'convince' her. and the fact that he was willing to literally trap her at camp just to 'convince' her is weird and to me makes me understand Emma's stance more.

anyways I'm an emma defender idc that she kinda caused drama with the truth or dare kiss, she was put in an unfair position and she didn't Make the dare. should she have made the comment about Nick being a good kisser? maybe not but I feel like she meant it like "ooh abi he's good /teasing" and not "nah nah a boo boo I just kissed your crush" abi had every right to get upset but I do feel intentions are important and Emma's intentions weren't to hurt Abi they were to avoid kissing Jacob (which feels obvious to me bc when he started gloating she seemed to make her decision)

that all being said a lot of this is interpretation based if you disagree with anything that's fine but be nice about it cause I don't mind discussion but I dont like arguing

[bunnwich]

coming in bc i heard the jingling of court jester bells - god forbid people use the block button and curate their experiences. oh no, it's such hard work hitting it, they simply *must* complain to the individual of their distaste. :( /sarcasm don't listen to them bestie. you're out here livin' your best life and creating content of your fave and that's beyond respectable and inspiring <3 lowkey envy your creative brain when it comes to that slut stinky cat man and all the love and effort you pour into your yumeship /aff keep it up, ilu and i'm cheering for you. \o/ and now i return to my cryptid cave and drown in ffxiv

Lu... 🥺

Yeahhh, and I mean I'm fine with ppl not liking me, I'm not the end all be all of anything. This experience and past ones just have frustrated me bc the solution to these ppl's gripes seems to always be just...block me. I do not do well with indirectness honestly. Did this person really think they were laying a ground breaking revolution on me and my personality? FGHJGHJ Like I was gonna go "You right, I do have an ego, sorry." Like homie, I do not know you and you don't know me??? DFGHJ Thank you though, I feel tbh ppl are so weird toward creators nowadays when they are the ones putting their stuff out there only for unhinged ppl to lurk, contribute nothing, and then be mad. It makes no sense to me. I'm beyond honored to know you guys like what I do bc there are times I still feel a little silly posting, but hearing from you guys makes me feel better and keep doing my thing with peace of mind, yk? As silly as it all is... I DO try to put as much authenticity and care into what I do with Leona in this fandom bc I know that other ppl enjoy the character same as me. I try my best to treat the canon respectfully and add disclaimers w/e needed. I make jokes but my word/HCs are not gospel!! (Unless you want them to be??/jk) But fr I don't wanna claim or ruin anything for anyone. I'm just projecting and playing with my dolls as same as anyone else on here and am just happy to share my thoughts and that we can all brainrot together. ILY TOO!!!

ANYWAYSSSSSSS✨✨✨✨✨THE SUNSET SAVANNA EVENT IS FINALLY COMING OUT AND I'VE GOT SO MANY IDEAS.

[trickscourse]

I dont understand how you and Calloutrebuttal unironically call ppl transphobic for not using slur pronouns for you. I get you're saying they shouldn't talk about you but like... cmon now be real. And referring to a blog as an it isn't misgendering the mods. 'look at this blog. It posted x' that isnt misgendering like callout blog claims. You have so many other points to make but you can't 'both sides are wrong' about this thing here bc the callout blog is deadnaming, misgendering and just generally being a creep a lot more. You've said you're getting better at taking accountability but I don't think you are. You don't need half a dozen defence blogs. No one does. Accept you hurt people, firmly tell these blogs to stop and move on . As long as they exist, you won't be able to.

Apart or me really wants to put "sorry for reading all that or good for you meme but that's not taking accountability. Most of my life lessons and interactions don't need to be broadcast online, if they were my growth would be artificial.

First thing; I have hurt people, I never said I didn't. I never said I was innocent and the actions I actually did in the past aren't things that should be glossed over or forgotten. I have a disclaimer on most of my socials and offer people who feel victimized to come to me so I don't break anymore boundaries.

I never said the nig/ger pronouns were serious, it started off as a joke where I said something on here along the lines of "if you're going to assume a black transfem is sexually or physically violence and lie about me to begin with, just call me a fucking slur or leave me alone and remove me from your mind or vocabulary." at this point I am so desperate that if Sunny can't go full mask off antiblack and call me a slur, its proof that she literally cannot let me go and stop lying to save her life.

The pronouns people stalking me can use are nig/ger or to literally never mention me again. That shouldn't be hard to shut the fuck up about someone who's been begging to be left alone for years now.

When it comes to my smear campaign and others, there are two sides and they're both wrong. Sunny has deadnamed me intentionally, my anons have done the same with her. @seouls-sins has posted my previous legal name on here I /just/ got changed to get away from this. There is no lesser of two evils, and when I say 'hold both sides accountable' that means both sides being ableist and transphobic.

At the end of the day, there aren't a hundred defense blogs that I or my friends run. There's maybe three that are associated with rebuttal. Any number after 4 isn't associated with the original group and is most likely Jack or one of their cronies.

I haven't spoken to the rebuttal/defense mods in a few hours because I'm stuck in a flare up that prevented me from seeing my friends and bordering on needing to go to the ER.

[captainlexapro]

Journey towards blue eventually playing hockey update #1:

Went to my first day of learn to skate. Disclaimer: I’m not a true beginner - i’ve been ice skating a handful of times over the years and i’ve recently been trying to learn quad roller skating. And i’m a pretty athletic individual, so learning physical movements is often not quite as hard for me compared to other ppl. I also went to public skate at the rink a few days ago to be on the ice and see how much of roller translated (I’d say a fair amount). I took a video to record my progress and wow my ankles were caving in so bad 💀 I did wipe out once but upon reflection the rental skates i had being waayyy too big for me probably contributed to that. But also i’m learning and hadn’t been on the ice in at least 3-4 years.

Get a smaller rental skate size. It feels better. Think about how i want to get my own hockey skates. I forget to put on my gloves before going on the ice.

The vibe for LTS was… strange. To me, at least. This session was advertised as adults only. and it’s listed as the first session. I get there and there are kids everywhere and i have no idea where i’m supposed to be. Is anyone going to explain wtf is going on?? Why does it feel like this is definitely NOT the first session for ANYONE ELSE??? Did i miss a day?? 😵‍💫😵‍💫 why do so many ppl have their own figure skates and the little accessories? this is not good for me worrying about sticking out like a sore thumb. why are there children everywhere and a thousand other people also on the ice? i thought we’d have a small group of adults on the rink 🙃

Get directed to the adult group. I can tell right away i’m more comfortable on skates than two of the others. One person has clearly been figure skating for at least a little while.

We do simple movements. Learned what a swizzle is. Can’t go backwards without intense concentration. Also our leader is probably a 15 year old (who did well enough as a ‘teacher’!). But there is no like set progression to follow…like it’s just ‘hey let’s do this now’. ‘Okay now this’. ‘Now let’s do that other thing again.’ Can’t help thinking this would be disastrous if i’d never stepped on ice before. Entry level who?!? Technique who?!? We do learn to stop which is helpful since i didn’t know how.

A different leader comes over to have me and the obviously-can-figure-skate person to “test out” of level 1. I can barely go backwards and REALLY can’t go backwards on one foot. I am now directed to level 3 (🫨😧 ok but i saw the level 3 people at the beginning and i definitely can’t do a lot of that!!!!!!!!!! Help!!!!!)

Now my leader is an older eastern european man (and i do not have the thick skin to withstand his potential disappointment 😓). They are doing veryyyy slow spins similar to what i did when i messed around a few days ago. I did one and leader man says wow and asks me if i’ve skated before!!! Yay!!! I have impressed skating coach!! But now i have set the bar too high and will inevitably disappoint him 🫠

I can’t really hear him when he’s describing movements bc of how many ppl are here. so i’m watching his skates intently 😦 and hoping for the best. Still not really focusing on technique and jumping from one move to another…what is happening. Where is the learning part of learn to skate?

Class is over. I leave. I don’t know if i should get hockey skates yet. Or if i do, i am scared to wear them to LTS bc i don’t think skating coach man would want me to be wearing them since we did movements that are only possible with a toe pick. And i feel like he’s maybe anti-hockey. Or at least very strongly team figure skating.

So overall this was not horrible but also not great. I wanted some actual structure but i’m grateful i’m not a complete newbie (though that is a failing on the LTS program if i observed that). It felt chaotic and i’m worried it’s gonna be like that every week. Depending on how it goes i’m afraid i will have not needed to do this and been better off on my own. We’ll see.

[golbrocklovely]

this whole post will be about colby and the tarot reading i did on him. i figured i would separate the readings into snc, sam, and then colby just bc i have so much to say.

so if you wanna know what colby's gonna be going thru and his love life… read on.

disclaimer: i understand there are ppl/fans that do tarot readings and personally don't believe that you can do a reading on someone that didn't a) agree to one or b) isn't there with you. and while i understand that, i just need everyone to know that this is just for fun. i go into with all the positivity, and this is really just for me in the end. i never claim to be right, i'm not pretending that this is the truth. this is just for entertainment purposes only. if you don't like it, feel free to not read. please take whatever i say in this post with a grain of salt.

(the other readings will linked at the bottom)

please go read snc's reading first to get an understanding of the cards/deck i used.

i asked about colby and how he's doing rn. what's very interesting to me is that a lot of the cards i got for him were major arcana cards. so what i interpret that as - colby's about to go on a big journey himself. a lot of change is coming his way, in a major way. however, i don't see anything bad happening to him in case you're nervous. i more see it as colby might actually start putting his foot down when it comes to certain aspects of his life that he's let slide for a long time.

also hilariously this will relate to the first card, but i got so many cards for colby. sam i had to really pry to some degree to get anything to pop out. colby was like an open book.

the first card: shadow. major arcana, related to the moon. one of the things this card notes is that right now your psychic sensitivities might be too open bc they are so strong, so you might want to dial it back a bit. and that really lines up with colby. this card talks about emotionally feeling a lot, and how a lot in your life has changed. this is the time to explore the dark sides of yourself, the things you've ignored for a while. but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. it's not all bad. things are changing, but there is hope on the horizon.

second card: foundation and achievements. got this card in snc's reading. peace is finally gonna come in colby's life after all of the hectic shit he's gone thru. good things are coming his way, and this is the time to celebrate that.

third card: authority. this is a major arcana card, related to the emperor card. this came up in sam's reading. i feel like this card, especially the way it's described in the booklet, is a representation of sam. sam is the logical one, according to colby himself. and i think colby relies on sam a lot when things aren't going well for him. so i think this will be a time where colby might rely on sam or ask him for help on something. i think they both lean on each other when things get rough and i think this is just a sign of that. i think this might also be when both of them are going thru something that they need to solve together. i'm not sure what that could be, but i don't see it being super major.

fourth card: balance. major arcana, related to justice. this card is interesting to me. this is a call to colby to change things up. that there is something in his life that is throwing his life off balance. he needs to remove something from his current life to make things even again. i'm not entirely sure what that could be, but the booklet gives an idea of cutting ppl out or changing career paths. it could be that colby needs to cut certain characters out of his life to have peace, it could be he needs to changes some habits he has. regardless, something needs to change or his life will continue to feel uneven.

fifth card: power. major arcana, similar to strength. this card is letting colby know that while he's going thru a lot, he has the strength - both inner and externally - to get thru anything that is in his way. it might not feel like it at times, but don't doubt your abilities. you can make it thru, you just gotta keep pushing.

sixth card: truth. major arcana, related to judgement. it's interesting that this card is similar to balance. colby needs to make a change. this is the call to do that immediately. to pause and look back on the past and really see what needs to get gone. but it also calls for haste and to not do anything too crazy. this is about a spiritual awakening, that truth will finally come to light. so while balance was telling him "hey, something here is off." this card is saying "here is what was off."

seventh card: sacrifice. major arcana, related to the hanged man. this card represents changes coming to colby's life. again, this one is about cutting things out. this is more about reflection tho. basically looking around and reflecting on what you have removed, or maybe what still needs to be let go.

eigth card: fulfillment of wishes. this card appeared earlier in sam's reading. this is a great card to have, especially after everything that came before. basically, this card signifies that all of the sacrifice and changes colby had to make are now steering him in the right direction and good things are coming his way. all the things he wants will be coming towards him bc he made the changes that were necessary.

ninth card: financial and material changes. this card also appeared in sam's reading. again, i don't see it as a major loss for snc or colby specifically. it kinda just feels like maybe a bad business dealing or a project falling thru that they invested in. not entirely sure. but there will be a loss of some form dealing with money.

final card: universe. major arcana, similar to the world. great card to get. it's basically saying that universe is on colby's side. good things will continue to happen to him as long as he continues to keep going and tapping into all of his abilities.

overall for colby, when i was reading thru these cards i got this feeling that while obviously major things are going to be happening in his life, i feel like colby is going to go thru some big emotional changes. granted, i don't know for certain so take what i say lightly. but something colby mentioned during a livestream is that he very casually explained to fans that he doesn't really know if he allowed himself to feel and truly realize his cancer diagnosis (something i mentioned in snc's reading). and i think that is completely insane, but not for colby. while colby has talked about being emotional, but also being emotionally held back, i think the major overarching issue is that he doesn't allow himself to let it all out. he keeps a lot of things bottled for one reason or another. as someone that used to do things like that (and still does from time to time), all that holding in does is eat you alive. you think in your head it would be easier to keep it to yourself, but in reality it's making things worse for you. and while his cancer diagnosis definitely made him pause his life for a bit, maybe take into account the things he wasn't doing right, i don't think he allowed himself to really process what he actually went thru.

and i think this journey he's about to go on is going to do that. i think he might, surprisingly, allow himself to feel bad. the first card in the booklet, which i forgot to mention, talks about letting the tears flow. and so i think colby's gonna have an epiphany and realize "holy shit i could have died" or "omg i went thru something traumatic" and that's gonna hit him like a train. and i think that will start the journey he needs to go on allowing himself to open up and be vulnerable with those around him or those he wants to be that way with. i think for too long he has forced his heart closed bc he doesn't want to get hurt, but in the end all that did was make him feel worse. and he coped with it bc it was what it was. but now, he has time to reflect and realize that isn't what he wants. i think this is also a call to him to maybe…. crazy concept…. take a break. i said this earlier this year when i did their reading, but besides the fact as a fan i know they need a break - the cards also say it. colby especially. that man has been thru a lot, and i think he will slowly realize "you know what, maybe i actually want a real vacation and not just a work one" or "maybe i don't want to work so often that by the time i'm 30 i want to retire forever". so i think this whole reading is showing colby realizing things need to change and him finally taking the stepping stones to do that.

and of course, i had to ask about his love life. surprise to no one, he ain't getting a gf lol BUT he does seem to be heading in the right direction.

first card: moving on. when it comes to colby's love life, i've always had my ideas, my theories. and when i've brought up his ex and how he's not over her, i know a lot of you have argued "how does he still have feelings for her/hung up on her" and the thing is, my argument has always been his feelings for her are gone. that's for sure. but the impact she made on his life and his heart have never left. there is a reason why he's tweeted out "can't get close to anyone" and "starting to feel the way i never thought i could again". while emotionally he has no connection to her, mentally he still does. my bet is that he never got closure from whatever transpired between them. and it's taken him a long time to accept that he never will. but this card shows that he's FINALLY gonna let things go. and not just say that, but truly mean it. and this tied in with his journey in the other reading is probably the reason why he can finally take these steps. what's interesting is that this card isn't only about mentally moving on, but physically too. like physically moving yourself from where you are to somewhere else. like across a body of water…. fascinating.

snc may or may not have mentioned in passing that they wanted to move to london for a bit just to get out of the US and do some editing there. change of scenery. could this be colby getting with some english girlies… who's to say.

second card: solar plexus chakra. again, always strange when i do get cards like this since they come up so irregularly. but this is calling to colby's solar plex aka where his feelings are stored. something isn't completely right with them. they're gonna be off balance. how i interpreted this is that, it's possible that colby will finally allow himself to move on to dating. he will finally stop looking at the girls he with and think "she could be just like me ex and hurt me" which is why he never gets a deep connection. and clearly, his heart wants one. but i think this card is also him being like "i might be back in the dating world, but i ain't about to put all my feelings out there" which i get and is fine. but clearly he wants to make a connection. which hopefully he will allow himself to do.

final card: triumph. major arcana similar to the chariot. this card is basically saying the things that colby wants he can get as long as he finds a balance. as long as he understands deeply what he wants, he can move forward and get it. now, obviously i don't know what colby wants in his love life. hell, he may not even want one right now. which if that's the case, he will certainly get it. but if he does want a gf, as long as he understands what that entails for him and his life, he can get it.

do i see colby getting a gf any time soon? not really. colby still has a lot he needs to work on in terms of himself and his inner demons. but i think he's headed in the right direction to start to date again, and finally move on from his past heartaches. he's heading in the right direction to get what he wants, and if that means a gf - he can do it. but he also has to allow himself to heal, stop doubting others, and open himself up to new experiences. baby steps are needed rn, but all good things come in time.

<< snc's reading || sam's reading >>

[jackiebrackettt]

you have an x men au ? 👁 what’s it abt ?

FUCK tumblr reloaded</3 anyway there’s not really any plot so far except for the pd guys it’s mostly just I wanted to see how their powers would work as mutations. it’s a “crossover” in the sense they’re all in the same universe but they’re all doing diff things to fit with their campaigns a bit more

putting under the cut bc it is kinda long o(-( just gonna focus on pd bc it has the most plot/info but feel free to ask about the others!

disclaimer that this is based on the movie universes but I’m really only taking the basics

william wisp has a mutation known about from birth where he can “ghost shape” things. basically he can manipulate energy from the spirit world. as he grows up and experiments a little, he realises he can also use that energy to turn intangible/invisible. everyone jokes about him having ghost powers

there is an unknown “revival” aspect to this mutation which he doesn’t figure out until he dies. basically he gets a second chance at life etc etc but he needs energy of sorts to sustain himself now. also he can go into his “wisp form”. basically he’s like. entirely made up by the energy he used to manipulate but shoved into a human body. it’s like dying “completed” his mutation. I think he has a similar deal to rogue where he recharges based on touch but can also eat souls. he can sap people’s energy etc etc. if they’re a mutant, he can temporarily gain their mutation. if he takes their soul it’s permanent (that smoke samurai ghost) his decaying rate is at the same speed as in canon

his parents are human who were a little worried about the whole thing but trying their best? after William dies and comes back they send him to Xavier’s school

Dakota was a human who got mutant genes injected into him via experimental surgery. it’s based on Wolverine’s so he has some kind of regenerative ability but because the doctor tried to isolate it from other aspects of Wolverine’s mutation (claw hands) it’s a lot weaker + he ended up with super strength (I imagine that was somewhat the doctor trying to combine Logan’s mutation with another to make it work better? who fucking knows). his powers are exactly like in canon but it’s not bc of a “super heart” it’s in his dna. his bones still have issues and his body is still set to decay later on bc no one’s ever managed to successfully give the mutant gene to humans. the doctor is also put in jail and all his research is seized and destroyed bc the government doesn’t want ppl like magneto to catch on and replicate it

this does make Dakota a Prime Target for kidnapping and experimentation o(-( so he has to keep the fact he wasn’t originally a mutant a secret. he also bonds with Vyncent and William for that reason but won’t tell them why at first. the name change is the same in canon but it also happens legally - so people can differentiate Dakota Damascus the Human and Dakota Cole the Mutant legally making it a bit harder to find out what happened

he does go and train with that guy still but xavier’s school hears about him from the government (they are complaining and threatening mutants bc of it) and ask him to come with them (before magneto can find him)

Vyncent is an alien still his situation is the same but he’s classified as a mutant by society etc etc esp bc they can See him physically changing. he’s classified as having some kind of morphing ability

xavier’s school gets him outta jail and basically take him in with his consent. which is where he meets the others. he feels really left out bc he knows he doesn’t actually have a mutation like everyone else and ends up connecting with william bc william is personally outcasting himself bc he’s scared of his newer abilities

Ashe: Idk how much to canonise “the spirit world” in x-men universe but let’s just say yeah. Ashe is a mutant with a dormant gene. it allows him to make portals to the spirit world and summon spirits out to help. when it first happens she can only do the first bit though and can’t control the spirits and yeah her mum dies. mark does Not send her to xavier’s school bc he kinda hates charles for how much he bends to the government’s wishes. he’s part of magneto’s whole deal but doesn’t want Ashe to be a part of that. anddd he knows how badly it’ll go if Ashe gets clocked as a mutant in society so he gets Ashe to stay in the house forever and ever

Other bits:

-ALSO bc Dakota has accelerated healing he offers for William to take his energy and recharge a little once it starts becoming obvious that he Actually Needs That. william doesn’t accept until he’s actually desperate/dakota forces him to

-I think william Vyncent and Dakota are part of the “x-men in training” crew and tide specifically is the person training them. they go on their first mission as normal which is where they capture wavelength. The school gets attacked by the government(/magneto’s gang? I can’t remember atm if they ever attack the school) in an attempt to retrieve wavelength which is what sends the pd gang to his house where they meet Ashe. tide isn’t taken to the spirit world or anything but he is badly injured

-edit: something I forgot

[bunnyboy-juice]

Hey I've been mutuals with you and your butch for a long time, but I'm bigender man + woman, is it okay if I continue following, or would you prefer I softblock? My gender makes seeing "men dni" and "woman dni" blogs really confusing because I never know if its supposed to apply to me, so I figured I would just ask ❤️

this is going to be kind of long answer - this is loaded and i want to give some perspective so I'm putting it under a read more so it doesnt clog up anyone's feed. also recommend reading the tags cause i ended up putting some footnotes in there lmao

so first things first: even tho my butch and i are married i dont speak for her. we hold very similar thoughts and views (bc i would not be with her otherwise) but ultimately I speak for me only. if you want to ask her something, ask her directly please. this isnt @ u anon, this is a general disclaimer bc its actually a very big pet peeve of mine that ppl expect me to talk for her since we are together. we are whole ass individuals and yes we are building a life together but that doesnt mean we have the same brain or the same exact reasoning for things.

as for the "men DNI" part: this, along with all other DNIs of mine, is a boundary that i choose if and when to enforce. my boundaries for followers are all pretty much public somehow. my personal reasoning for using "men dni" in my bio, like many other kinky nsfw dyke blogs on this website, is that i want to discourage as many men as possible from trying to interact with me here in the quickest way possible bc this is my silly little space where i can explore my sexual fantasies and those do not include men and i largely do not feel comfortable with men following me or interacting with these parts of myself (key word here being largely, this will come up later). this is similar to my "[specific kinks] DNI" - these are boundaries that are my responsibility to enforce as i deem fit.

that being said i do check for age/gender/etc in each blog that i notice trying to following me and, in that moment, handle it according to my needs. and sometimes that means that i decide to reject my own boundaries and allow certain ppl into my little space and sometimes enter theirs as well. i take an approach to social media where i tend to watch who interacts with me bc this is my space and, just like I'm not letting anyone into my home, im not just gonna let anyone follow me. i do risk assessments in every part of my life and that includes my online experience.

i also am aware gender is complicated. i mean i am literally an intersex transmasc femme who takes T on and off, uses "masculine" language often, etc. i get its way more complicated than "man/woman" so thats why if you look at my pinned (which has a short list of things ppl will be blocked for separate from my DNIs) you'll see that gender identity does not come up there aside from the pls dni of MLM bc ive had some gay guys interact and i prefer it not happen but also sometimes it happens 🤷🏽

basically the shortest answer is: if u are bigender and not just following me but we've been mutuals for a long time chances are i checked ur blog and felt comfortable with having an online relationship of some kind with you. if you are uncomfortable following me because I have that in my bio i literally do not care if you soft block me or even full block me. take care of yourself how you need to. breaking mutualship literally has no effect on my day to day life unless we have become genuine friends outside of this space - but i am assuming we haven't considering this question is (1) even being asked and (2) being asked on anon

[sugarcanehoes]

DAN BEING A BOOBS GUY VS ME BEING A PRE OP TRANSMASC WE'RE MEANT TO BE. PROBABLY. dude i want to hear all about the kinks you think he has... so easy to dom him i bet. hed laugh so nervously and get super super awkward if you started flirting with him... type of guy to moan if you playfully hit him... type of guy to start whimpering if you pushed your knee into his crotch... i NEED to fuck the shit out of this man im so glad there are like-minded people out there LMAO

- 🦠

great minds think alike 🦠 anon 🤝🤝🤝 you and me are the bearers of the truth 1!!

ngl when i first read this ask i thought you were asking about dan’s natal chart and i got all excited and wrote This Whole Thing ™ and now i reread your ask and i feel dumb LOL but i’m gonna put this here anyways with a TL;DR at the end so you can skip the astrology shit if you want :) 

mandatory disclaimer that i’m not a professional, this is just for fun, idk what i’m doing, yadda yadda 

so! usually when we don’t know someone’s birth time we just use noon to have an estimated chart, but since i like to do asteroid readings, i tried to guess his rising sign so we would have a more ~accurate~ estimative. from what i’ve read i believe he’s a sag rising bc of his easygoing, child-like, laughs at everything personality - also very tall boi with very long legs - but since i can’t know for sure i won’t be going into too much detail about it. it’s more a way to narrow down his birth time so we can be nosy lol

he has venus in leo in the 9th house. venus in leo ppl like to be the center of attention even if they’re shy so this can translate into dan liking to be the main focus of his partner’s attention during sex, also explains his raging praise kink since he wants to be worshiped and praised for doing a good job. i couldn’t find much about the 9th house but it gives off a reckless vibe so maybe he’d be into public sex ??? something like teasing him under the table while out on a date or calling him a good boy in front of his friends just to see him getting flustered lol also has to do with thighs so he might be into you sitting on his lap and/or grabbing his thighs during sex. i also read that 9th house has a ~foreigner~ thing to it so that also explains why dan is such a weeb (he 101% has jerked off to anime multiple times. he probably prefers watching hentai rather than porn)

mars in libra in the 10th house made me GIGGLE. every time i sniff out a sub they always have either libra mars or cancer mars. it’s funny bc 10th house is usually seen in a dom’s chart but mars in libra has never failed me. libra mars is all about the funny unsuspecting harmless guy that makes you laugh so much that before you know it you’re naked in his bed lol truly giving off “i’m innocent uwu” vibes to charm you. apparently 10th house also has smth to do with public sex (!) and the thrill of getting caught so dan is somewhere out there jerking off at con bathrooms silently hoping one of his friends knocks on the stall to check if he’s still alive. 10th house is all about control so for me this means he likes to be controlled i don’t take criticism !! and also orgasm control. and also maybe authority figures. 

he doesn’t have any signs in his 8th house but his chart is like precisely divided in half at his 8th house placement so he has both cancer and leo energy in his 8th house, which is the house of sex (among other stuff that we don’t care !!). 8th house in cancer also makes me giggle. tell me this man doesn’t have a mommy kink i DARE YOU. also where the boob guy thing comes in, possibly even a breeding kink, so so SO whiny and desperate it makes him look pathetic. one thing about dan is that he is Possessive, type of guy to get jealous so quickly, one (1) person looks at you in public and suddenly his mood soils and he wants to go home. again leo placements just further confirming his praise kink!!! me and you anon? we’re never wrong. 

also something something big dick something something it probably looks good something something pornstar dick something

NOW LISTEN. PLUTO IN SCORPIO 12TH HOUSE. ooooh this man is FREAKY freaky. type of dude to have a sex dungeon at home. type of dude to have a full side of his wardrobe dedicated to sex toys. type of dude to look at someone and be able to guess their kinks just by looking at them. type of dude to learn astrology just to pry into other ppl’s sex lives- oh hold on. i’m just saying he probably has a proship nsfw side acc LMAO he’s one of us fr !! pluto is the planet of sex, desires, secrets, everything that is forbidden etc and scorpio is knowingly The Sexy Sign of the zodiac so imagine my face when i saw this. literally giggling and kicking my feet. a man who likes sex so much that sometimes it might even be a little overwhelming. btw feet? 12th house thing, so i wouldn’t be surprised if he’s into that. 12th house and scorpio are also water based placements so think shower sex, sea sex, might be dedicated to make you squirt… perhaps also a piss kink that he’s ashamed of, since pluto is the secretive part of oneself… taking notes rn

idk much about aspects but he has pluto in sextile aspect with his chiron in virgo (which is about our deepest struggles and how we can heal from them), sextile is a positive aspect, and considering he has pluto in 12th house (house of the unconscious, fears, dreams, and anything relating to the psychic mind), maybe he finds refuge in sex in a way. maybe sex is (or could be) his way of letting go of fears and shame and trauma. maybe the only way he can truly feel free is by embracing his freakiness!!! [chants] one of us one of us one of us

lilith in gemini!!! quite literally speak to the mic. loves dirty talk, moans like a bitch in heat, yknow the drill. gemini also runs the hands and i read someone say “lilith in gemini might have a kink for sucking their partner’s fingers” and my heart LEGIT SKIPPED A BEAT. you know this man is on his back with 3 of your fingers in his mouth whining and looking up at you with big eyes just waiting for you to say he looks good like that. mhhmhFgNFFMHMGF i’m going INSANE i need him in ways that are concerning for society.

asteroids are my favorite part! starting off strong with eros in aries. eros is the asteroid of… well, eroticism lol typically ppl associate eros in aries with a dominant but for dan i think it’s more a case of “is so much of a sub that he would dom if his partner told him to” lmao again possessiveness and public stuff coming in, and also a very bratty attitude, type of guy that pouts when he gets jealous. aries also rules the head so pull his hair! grab him by the chin! make him look into your eyes as he sucks you off! sit on his face! there’s also a thing with casual hookups so that’s why i said he’d fuck on a 1st date asbhdgjhb (and now knowing he has pluto in scorpio this kinda ties it all together). 

ASTEROID LUST IN CANCER MADE ME SCREAAAAAAAAAMMM this asteroid’s name is self-explanatory i guess hashdj also where i got the boobs guy impression, since cancer rules the chest. just furthers the mommy kink, breeding kink narrative. read somewhere that it can also relate to mirror sex and 69 so. there’s that on that. again, very submissive, wants to be taken care of, will curl up in your lap and say please, mommy while touching your chest !

ALSO. HIS EROS IS IN 4TH HOUSE. 4TH HOUSE IS THE HOUSE OF CHEST, PARENTAL FIGURES, AND DOMESTICITY. HIS LUST IS IN THE 8TH HOUSE WHICH IS THE HOUSE OF SEX, GENITALS, SECRETS AND FEARS. HELLO??? DOES ANYONE HEAR ME???? [jay’s voice] sicko.

i pried into other asteroids as well but this is already SO FUCKING LONG OMG so i’ll leave that to another time LOL if you’ve gotten this far i applaud you and i hope you had fun reading all of it!! <3

TL;DR: praise kink, mommy kink, breeding kink, boobs guy, shower sex, public sex, jealous & possessive, can be a brat, is the freakiest among freaks, probably has an anime sex doll.

[svvordsmachine]

hi hope this doesn't sound accusatory bc i totally believe u when u say this and i think i may kind of be in the same boat myself rn (living in california) but can u explain a little more what u mean by it "costing money to work" it's something that i struggle to put into words to explain to ppl that it's a thing

nah youre good! [thumbs up] yeah i dont know a great way to explain this either other then "california (+everything tbh) is expensive and even with a higher state min-wage its still unrealistic" my bad but ill try. also sorta disclaimer i guess? very california-centric pov

i think the point when it feels like, or it actually is, more expensive to work is either one of getting paid enough, not enough hours, or both. (though ive mostly seen and experienced it with low hours/okay pay) because state minimum wage can be 15/hr but when average rent in sac is 2k, gas runs around 5/gal, and a single can of pepsi is 3$ (THREE DOLLARS!!!! im personally mad about that one) 15 is like nothing unless youre doing 50+ a week.

that is not considering: having kids + paying for childcare, working in a different city you live in, other forms of transit (when my car shit itself it was like around 80 a day to get to work), literally any other bills, anything that comes unexpected, so on and so on. if you live half an hour away from work its obvs more expensive then ten minutes or less. also not considering work making you need to get things like new clothes/shoes/etc.

it can be hard to explain cause when saying "yeah im only making 17/hr and struggling" that can sound more like, i dont know, a personal problem? and not something closer to a "im making 17/hr and working 3 hour days so its costing me a ton to get there"

though i guess it could just boil down to: things are expensive and where or what your work is, how sporadic the schedule is can make it so work is costing you. which is a hard thing to articulate because yeah im technically getting paid to be here. but not really.

hope literally any of this made sense!

[spikeinthepunch]

i was blabbing on my priv twit about SU and i still have more thoughts but i am putting it under a cut so you must choose to read it, and it you do dont be stupid about it <3 if you follow me and want to bring up old ass SU discourse you should leave. i am looking back and appreciating this show

i have noticed some ppl watch SU who havent before watch it now, and its nice seeing a number of folk be like "why were people discoursing about this?? its just a good kids show" which is totally 100% true, tho i hope ppl watching it are also aware of like.... how important that show was/is-- not even just for its LGBT rep but its story IS serious/has a lot of depth and does teach some very unexplored themes, and lessons.

people were overly serious and heated about the show in a way that was like "i expect these things because it already did [serious thing]! why arent they doing this!" but you cant deny the show dove into some serious territory and wildly out there themes that kids shows werent doing at all. the show was plot focused and it took all kinds of twists and turns- no one should be mistaken about that, its just that adult fans were stupid about it.

and alongside newer watchers talking about the show i still see a lot of it followed with "...but i know its flawed!" which like. yes, also true. but i think something i notice with that is that it feels like anyone going to watch the show has to put up a defense of like "i know i said the show is good BUT i need to say its flawed or else people will get mad and assume i think its perfect". and lets be real. what show is gonna be perfect? none really, but we dont say that for like... every other show we go to talk about. why do you have to put a disclaimer when talking about SU?? as if it almost feel required when talking in spaces where ppl may have Opinions about it, bc the fandom was often so toxic. its definitely because SU fandom still left that impression of constant discourse, and not recognizing its flaws meant (to them) that you endorsed all kinds of things that could be "bad" about it.... i really dont think its worth saying at all nowadays if we want to detach from the fandom 'that was'.

anyone who watches can gladly come to their own conclusion about that, but in the end i think many now wont have such a big impression about whether or not its flawed because it is a kids show, you know? wasnt that the point of revisiting it today? being softer on it than the rabid 2016 tumblr fans? i think many do feel that way, not affected by the fandom, but in the end i just find it important to not feel the need to validate those who would assume the worst out of something you never stated.

i mostly voice this because again, it kinda sucks seeing a lot of talk just be about new watchers surprised the fandom was so toxic because the show its just a nice kid show. cartoons as media isnt often (or at all) regarded in long history and its a shame because i think more and more people forget SU paved the way for so much, for so many shows and cartoons especially. and i think its really worth talking about SU without feeling the need to mention its "flawed" because even then i think the fandom really heightened/exaggerated those flaws.

its well written and it most definitely threw in lessons and feelings and explorations of things id never seen before that even as a not-child age was very important to see. honestly dont know what i would be like if i hadnt seen that show, and i wasnt a child and i took it seriously, and you should to some extent! you wouldnt be the same as those adults who got into discourse. its normal to have cared about that show.

basically i hope people dont forget those important as time goes on, and i think it is important to also seperate the 'stupid adult fan' from the expression and closeness to any peice of media on can have even if its a cartoon. its been a hot topic more and more to talk about adults enjoying kids shows- some more harsh and strict than others. i know its expected people will remember a shitty fandom but SU isnt even a bad show either. id hardly say its mediocre even for the ppl who dont care for it, bc it could still erase/take away focus from how it affected LGBT shows going forward and that alone is very important! idk where to end this now but i just had feelings. i detached from the fandom like in the middle of the show (or at least just stopped looking directly in spaces like tumblr) and i kind of missed any opinions ppl started forming but all i see now is a lot of recognition for the fandom being bad but not a lot of deeper discussion of what the show did in the end. there is so much to say about the show from a meta context and the development it had as well.

[dongfangxunfeng]

gonna put it under a readmore ppl who don't rlly know what's happening don't worry abt it too much it's honestly just to get it out to my friends on here

some notes 1. I have been sitting on this for a yr already bc i have just been (a) felt embarrassed honestly that i let this happen (b) guilty bc i felt i was doing smth so wrong (c) overall just felt like i shouldn't talk abt it

2. this is just to talk to my friends here tbh i just. cannot pretend its over when it still affects me a lot.... just want yall to know bc you're my friends yk 😭

anyway. i still feel like I shouldn't be airing this but it's been a year fuck it. the relationship was terrible and of course while there was good aspects to it it was not worth the pain the only way I can rlly do this is bulleted list of just shit bc anything more would require digging into screenshots and i really don't want to do that. also my memory is spotty so yknow. disclaimer etc emotional truth not necessarily verbatim and def not super chronological

it started out fine as it usually does. a month into i said something about how we were at different levels of attraction bc he was telling me how he wanted to wake up next to me. i don't remember exactly what but it was like too much too fast. then he fully shut down and i was like comforting him for days about how yes i still loved him. emotional hell

another point of contention was him visiting me. like it was just so strong how he wanted to. i ended up telling him a couple months in that i wanted to but wasn't comfortable with this talk. you'll see this later too but it was like. hed say shit like 'oh I'd talk abt this but it makes you uncomfortable' re:visiting afterwards. so i was still trying to not talk abt it while having it brought up.

ok honestly the reason why i haven't rlly talked abt it bc of this key bullet point that u need to understand to understand the dynamic but for obvious reasons it's hard to talk about. we were sexting for a while and then i told him no, i do not want to do this. unequivocally. what proceeded to happen was exactly like the visiting thing, where he would bring it up and then go 'i don't want to make you uncomfortable'. like for months he was like yeah I only feel like im loved when we sext and he kept going on about how he was sexually frustrated and how it's not my fault. but he would keep bringing it up. and anything I said was apparently not emotionally helpful. so what the fuck did I do. end up sexting him out of obligation. god and he had the audacity to ask me after we broke up but were still talking (we'll get into THIS PART later) whether or not he ever did anything unconsensual BC he couldn't live with it if he did or smth. im like . excuse me.

anyway so after all of that I was like. getting more involved w my irl friends and tasks and work and school and also I didn't want anything to DO with him bc it would end up coming back to sex was how I felt. and so when I broke up with him he was like 'youve been so cold and awful to me for the past month. why the fuck did you do that.' and proceeded to guilt me over breaking up with him. and literally kept me on the other end by yelling at me over voice call BC he said shit like the least you owe me is a call.

I'll talk abt this post break up time in a next post lol bc it truly is fucking insane. like a 4 month affair that ends in me blocking him.

also there's a lot of shit that will make me look bad and you know what. fuck it I'll own it. yes I did that shit. hopefully you'll see why but if not. that's fine .

u know what i think i finally need to talk abt what happened btwn zero and i because it was genuinely. so bad