#I fear there is no cure and I must be tranquilized and released into a new habitat for my own good

[gods-perfect-idiots]

that old man yaoi brainrot got me good, folks

[bodyswapmischief]

Chemical Warfare Weight Gain

As I began waking up, the only thought running through my mind was the beeping of the EKG, my arm was attached to. I laid there for a few minutes, my thoughts slowly returned to me.

I began remembering my name, my past but, I had no idea how I ended up there. (I was a soldier in my countries army), I told myself. Although I felt no pain, I feared the worst. (Did I get injured in an enemy attack), I continued thinking to myself.

With a deep breath and my growing strength, I opened my eye and, looked up at the world, around me. I was in a dimly lit hospital room, a curtain prevent me from viewing more than my immediate surroundings. I turn my attention to my body still covered by a thin blanket.

By this time I had no trouble sitting myself up. And, as I did I threw the blanket off me, revealing my hairy yet muscular body, which only wore a pair of boxer briefs. I was thrown a bit off guard but, started to rub the different parts of my body, letting the hair slide through my fingers. (Damn I must have been out for awhile), I thought while feeling the field of hair that covered most of my body. I knew my body had the potential to get really hairy, but I usually shaved on a daily basis to prevent it. Now all that constant work wasted.

My attention turned to my underwear. I looked around and waited to see if I could hear anything. And, when I thought I was safe. I took off my underwear. Again I was relieved. My 8 inch dick was still there surrounded my meaty sized balls. However, I would admit they looked smaller, as the hair on my legs and torso met at my pelvic region to create a massive bush of hair.

Looking around the room I noticed a mirror, which allowed me to see my back and ass, which were also covered in a layer of fur. (Damn, I going have to fix this), I thought to myself.

As I sat there becoming acquainted with my hairy body, something odd popped in my head. (This hair on my body had to take at least a month to grow out. So, I was on this bed for awhile. But, there wasn't an IV placed on me. No, feeding tube. I don't remember waking up to feed myself. How did I survive without food and water.), I started to question the situation I found myself in. But, the strangest part was that I didn't feel hungry.

With questions running through my head, I put my underwear back on and went to look for a doctor or nurse. Leaving my covered area, I finally noticed I wasn't alone. On the other side of the room, partially covered by a divider. I saw a man, also, on a ER bed. Unlike me he was very fat. His belly was exposed as his blanket was on the floor.

As, I got closer to him, I noticed he was completely naked. Ripped pieces of underwear were buried under his fat ass. He was also hairy, but not as hairy as me. His big beefy legs and puffed out fat pad made his dick look small. But, It wasn't like he could have seen it over the mountain that was his stomach. His chest looked somewhat muscular, but now an equal layer of fat made his pecs look more like boobs. Seeing his face, something seemed familiar but, I couldn't make it out. Even through the double chin and fat checks, I felt like I've seen this face, before. (But this guy must be close to 300lbs, I would remember someone this big), I thought to myself.

Feeling embarrassed for him, that his fat naked body was on full display. I picked up the blanket and covered him. His fat stomach even more pronounced with the thin fabric clinging to it. Unable to resist the urge, I patted his stomach, "there ya go big guy." I was shocked as he began to move. His eyes struggling to open. He softly moaned, trying to tell me something. But with the breathing tube in his mouth and the fact he was half conscious, he wasn't understandable. I looked around and also noticed no IV, was placed in him. "Don't worry buddy, I'll go get us some help and answers." I left as his eyes began to close again.

I continued walking and every room I past had the same sight. Big fat men, of different sizes, laying on hospital beds. Not one of them hooked up to machines, other than heart monitors and some had breathing tubes . I reached the elevator and pushed the button. Nothing happened. I started to panic and moved quickly to the stairwell. The doors that lead out were locked. I started yelling for someone ... anyone, as I continued walking the empty halls.

I found my way into a big room, with the biggest guy on the floor here. He must have been 600 pounds. There was no way this man was able to move as his body was nothing more than a giant bean bag of fat. No curves ... just a blob of fat. His file sat on a nearby desk.

"Officer Ryan Lakewood" the file read. I paused for awhile, but suddenly a wave of recognition rushed my brain. I knew that name. Lakewood was one of the more well known guys in the troop. He was massive with muscle; easily the strongest guy. I remained in shock as I walked towards the fat man's face, "It couldn't be" I told myself. But, as I looked at the man's face ... It was him. Underneath all the fat that filled his once chiseled face, I could see him; the man he used to be.

How did that happen. He did eat a lot, but all of that went to fueling his massive muscles. Before, I could think anymore the heart monitor he was attached to flatlined. Panicked, I started to do chest compressions. But, it wasn't long before doctors and nurses, covered up in protective gear, rushed in. They grabbed me and in my panicked state, I started to fight back. But, I was no match as I felt a syringe being stabbed into my skin. As the drowsiness set in, I heard the doctors say "He's gone, the last one over 400lbs ... at least the others still seem to be in stable condition."

I woke up tied to a chair in an empty room. I looked up to see two doctors in front of me. "Hello Liam."

"What the fuck is going on." I yelled.

They explained everything to me. Our enemy secretly broke into our base and unleashed a gas attack. However this gas attack was a new chemical warfare weapon. Once inhaled it latched on to any food in the stomach. The calories release from the food became a deadly ridiculous amount. But death was prevent by the second affect of the gas. It speed up the fat production process and allowed the skin to become more elastic, allowing the infected to safely grow fatter. Even then those who gained an insane amount of weight had other complications, and were deemed very likely to die. Most of these men were 400lbs or more.

However, the worst part is that the men stayed affected by the gas. Meaning if they ate anything, another massive weight gain would happen. The only positive was these men never had to drink or eat anything ever again.

Our base was the first and two more came after. The doctors feared more attacks. So, they started looking for a way to negate or reverse the affects. But, they weren't able to see how the gas worked first hand. They could have given a man something to eat. But all the men were too big. Giving these men anymore to eat would have been a death sentence. All the men where to big ... except me.

My stomach was completely empty when the gas attack happened. The doctors proceeded to tell me that I was their best choice to help save 100s if not 1000s of my brothers. So, I agreed. In a short time, numerous machines were attached to me. When all of it was done, they brought out a small salad

I put one piece of lettuce in my mouth and the flavor was amazing. It was the best thing I ever ate. All this time, I didn't feel hungry, but now I was starving. I ignored the fork and started shoveling food into my mouth, with my hands. Over the euphoria of the sensations happening in my mouth, I could here the doctors outside the room, yelling to stop. But, I couldn't stop. I didn't want to stop. By the time they came in the room, I was done. But, I was still hungry. I felt my body tingle but, it only made me hungry. I tried to run past the doctors but they stopped me and knocked me out with another dose of tranquilizers.

When I came to, I felt myself laying on a hospital bed again. I was no longer hungry, but I felt heavy. I slowly opened my eyes to face the truth. I looked down to see a hill of fat where my abs once were. I uncover myself and started to examine my new fat body. I sat up and looked into the mirror placed by my bed, as I continued to feel different parts of my body.

My face now had chubby checks and small a double chin, hidden behind my new beard. My stomach jutted out, covered in fur. I used my hands to push it in and felt no signs of the abs that once graced the area. Instead of hard muscular pecs, sitting on my chest were hairy soft breast. I reluctantly touch my new man boobs. It felt weird. As, I touch them I notice how they and my new belly jiggled with every movement. I looked at my, once slender, thighs; they were big, juicy, and also covered in hair. I tried to suck in my stomach but couldn't. It was like my body wasn't use to sucking it in, a muscle I would have to work on.

So, I used my hands to adjust my stomach so I could get a good view of my dick. All this jiggling, reluctantly made my dick hard. Surrounded by fat and a bush of pelvic hair, it didn't even look 8 inches any more. I was lucky if it past of as a 4 incher. I stood up and looked in the mirror. This was my new body ... I couldn't believe one small salad did this.

Over the course of the next few days, doctors came in talk to me. The data they received from me was helpful but, they would need more cases like mine to get enough data. They continued working on a cure but without that additional data they keep running into problems. And that data would never come because, the gas attacks stopped. Many of the world countries secretly got together to stop the country responsible. The use of that gas was a war crime. And, all information was kept secret from the public.

In total I gained 60lbss from eating one salad, going from my fit 186lbs to a fat 249lbs. The rest of the survivors and I were gathered and were given a debriefing. I look around and was a little happy to see I was still one of the thinner guys there. But, you could tell we were all bummed out about our new bodies. We were told to never eat anything again, unless we wanted to die. They explain that as long as we didn't eat anything we wouldn't feel hungry. But, once food entered our mouths we would be insatiable unless we were isolated from all food for a couple of hours.

They also told us the weight gain was permanent no amount of exercise would lead to weight loss, but it would still help the muscle we loss from spending months at the hospital, being inactive.

Many of the bigger guys were forced out of the army. The, still very fat, thinner guys were given a choice to leave. I stupidly agreed to continue serving my country. I didn't realize being overweight, the best way to serve my country was patrolling the streets like some glorified security guard.

Now, I'm constantly mocked by civilians and other soldiers who know nothing about what really happened. I get teased with food and called pig. I had a few close calls where people threw food at my face. Luckily none landed in my mouth. The hardest part is never eating again. It's not that I'm hungry, it more like a habits. Imagine doing the same thing for 26 years of your life and now you can't do it anymore. I miss eating, I just want to be normal again. But, the urge to stay alive is stronger. If I give in, the inner pig would be unleashed, eating every in sight and killing me in the process.

[all-things-are-nothing-to-me]

Descending into Madness An Anarchist-Nihilist Diary of Anti-Psychiatry

Just sayin’... The opinions expressed in this text represent no other than my own. My position against psychiatry is based on my own personal experience and should not be taken as an authority on the subject. Psychiatry, medications, and or psychiatric incarceration is considered helpful by some, and I wish them the very best experience with it.

But also... To the ‘freaks’, the ‘weirdos’, the ‘delinquents’, and the unruly... To those who embrace these words like daggers drawn against civility, To the insubordinate youth who refuse to tranquilize their play with meds, To those who riot in the asylums, and those who dare to escape from them...

Let the moonlight illuminate our iconoclasm, witches and savage animals spellbinding fire in the night, for the destruction of society, with the courage of unmedicated confrontation.

Any society that you build will have its limits. And outside the limits of any society, unruly and heroic tramps will wander with their wild and virgin thought — those who cannot live without planning ever new and dreadful outbursts of rebellion! I shall be among them!” — Renzo Novatore

I’m sittin’ at a big round table with about three nurses and two doctors. My eyes are sensitive to the light cus I haven’t slept in days. A nurse directly beside me has been gently nodding at me with the same look of concern for about an hour. My vision keeps blurring and then re-focusing. My hands are slightly trembling. I’ve been fighting the urge to lay my head down since I sat down. It appears this awkward meeting is almost over, and I have some papers to sign. The doctor who has been talkin’ since I got here is still talkin’ and I admit, I haven’t really been paying much attention. Finally the talking stops and everyone stands up. The nurse beside me helps me up by my arm. I start to feel dizzy. We begin walking down a long hallway and eventually enter a room. Another nurse in the room greets me with a pillow, a blanket, and a pill to “help with rest”. Before sittin’ down on the bed I’ve been assigned, a nurse calmly requests my belt and shoe laces. I comply and decide while I’m up I might as well take a shit before I go to sleep. About five seconds after my ass hits the toilet seat I hear a commotion - frantic pounding and demands to unlock the bathroom door. Confused and startled, I jump up, trip over my pants, and unlock the door. Apparently I’m not allowed to lock the bathroom door - or have it totally closed while I’m in there. I quickly finish shitting in plain view of a nurse and walk back to bed. I notice a different nurse has pulled up a chair right beside it and sits down with a clipboard and pen. I lay down and try to get comfortable while accepting the awkward close watch by this nurse beside me. As I start drifting off to sleep I reflect on everything that’s goin’ on. Oh that’s right. Earlier today I tried to hang myself in my apartment and this is my first night in a psych ward.

**** INDIANAPOLIS, March 18 th 2018 — Resource Treatment Center Riot Nearly a dozen Indianapolis police officers were called to respond Wednesday night to a riot at a juvenile psychiatric treatment and addiction facility on the city’s east side.

Eleven officers were dispatched to 1404 S. State Avenue just before 11 p.m. Wednesday on a report of a disturbance at the facility. The location is home to the Resource Treatment Center juvenile psychiatric facility, as well as Options Transitional Living, which provides sober housing for homeless or at-risk youth.

Police arrived to find that a group of juvenile residents had done more than $50,000-worth of damage to the facility and assaulted four staff members. Officers took nine juveniles ranging in age from 13-17 into custody on preliminary charges of vandalism, rioting, battery and disorderly conduct.

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During my time at this psychiatric prison I was subjected to what’s called ‘one on ones’ which basically means I’m at risk to myself and therefore require 24 hour observation by staff. Two different nurses watched me shit, sleep, cry in my sleep, and eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I was required to take meds and a sleep aid everyday. I had face-to-face therapy once a day. I was only allowed one 15 minute phone call per day. I wasn’t allowed outside at all. I was told to “set anchor” because the faculty had no intentions on releasing me “anytime soon”.

All the reasons I was originally depressed took a backseat to this new horror show I found myself in. Everyone in my ward talked about one day gettin’ out, despite being told they would “never make it on the outside”. I couldn’t help but notice the striking similarities to incarceration at a prison for criminals. This was a prison. The more I heard stories of attempted escape, violent physical repression, and hopeless isolation, the more I realized this was not a place to ‘get well’, nor any hospital I ever been to. These prison guards wore scrubs, enforced order with chemical warfare and physical restraint jackets. “The hole” was the padded room. Those who resisted were tackled to the hard floor causing cuts and bruises. And to the nurses and doctors, we were all just “case files” or “subjects” to be talked down to and humiliated. We were in their world now and it was their rules.

“We need a program of psychosurgery and political control of our society. The purpose is physical control of the mind. Everyone who deviates from the given norm can be surgically mutilated. The individual may think that the most important reality is his own existence, but this is only his personal point of view. This lacks historical perspective. Man does not have the right to develop his own mind. This kind of liberal orientation has great appeal. We must electrically control the brain. Some day armies and generalswill be controlled by electrical stimulation of the brain.” - Dr. Jose Delgado, a Spanish professor of neurophysiology and author of the book ‘Physical Control of the Mind: Toward a Psychocivilized Society’

The era of institutionalized ‘care’ for those with ‘mental illnesses’ began somewhere around the 19th century with heavy support from the state. Public asylums were built in Britain after the passing of the 1808 County Asylums Act. This created an upsurge of asylums being built everywhere. These asylums were known for inmates havin’ to live in filthy conditions with bars, chains, and handcuffs.

The Lunacy Act 1845 was known to have changed the status of ‘mentally ill’ people to ‘patients’ who required treatment. This led to the eventual chemical treatment of people as ‘medical patients’ – despite the fact that lab tests, X-rays, and brain scans have never verified psychiatric disorders as medical diseases or brain damage. Over time, this inspired the emergence of psychiatric medical experiments on ‘patients’ in order to chemically ‘cure’ their ‘disorders’. The 20th century saw an explosion of psychiatric drugs. The first anti-psychotic drug, Chlorpromazine (brand names: Thorazine, Largactil, Hivernal, and Megaphen) was first synthesized in France in 1950.

Psychiatry, asylums, and prescribed drugs contributed heavily to reinforcing social order and individual submission through fear. As the years went on psychiatry and asylums expanded, re-defining and strengthening the power of state repression and civilized control.

Along with this came an ever-expanding culture of publicly calling out those who were considered ‘disturbed’ or ‘mentally ill’. The first to be targeted were those who didn’t fit the narrowly defined behavioral expectations of society. In the 18th to early 20th century, individuals assigned female at birth were often institutionalized for damn near everything including unpopular opinions, social unruliness or a politicized refusal to be controlled by patriarchal society. Other individuals of various assigned identities who sexually deviated from hetero-normativity were institutionalized and considered “confused” and in need of being converted.

One major marketing scheme deployed by the pharmacology industry was the social construction of an ideal emotional state that every ‘normal’ individual was expected to experience. Today this same ideal can be found everywhere – from televised entertainment to billboard advertisements and so on. The ‘happy’ and ‘depressed’ binary was used to create social pressure leading people to feel isolated or out of place for not happily accepting the conditions of society on a daily basis. Being “sad all the time” was, and still is frowned upon and ridiculed – regardless of its complex nature and the reasons behind it.

Despite being emotionally fluid by nature, the individual human (animal) is expected to fulfill the civilized role of positivist supremacy. This normalized obsession with positivity plays a key role in suppressing emotional responses of outrage to the multitude of oppressive experiences. The obsession with - and normalization of - positivist performance also encourages people to overlook the deep-seated trauma caused by civilization on a daily basis. Everything from the fear of flying, car wrecks, workplace injuries, to being late on bill payments – all examples of fears attributed to trauma. But because civilized life requires wage-slavery and commitment to continue, these forms of trauma are trivialized and written off - usually followed by something like “that’s life” or “it is what it is”.

As techno-industrial society advances, new laws are constructed to create new definitions of ‘criminality’. This means there is an ever-narrowing idea of legalism. The same can be said for psychiatry. As more labels and identities for ‘disorders’ are created, the pharmacology industry expands. And as the conditions of capitalist, industrial society continue to worsen, more misery becomes available for exploitation with the sale of “feel good” prescriptions.

Under capitalism, where there are ‘correctional’ facilities, there is a profit motive to keep them filled. Where there are ‘inmates’ to fill those institutions, there is financial gain or cheap labor. And where there is any potential for social unrest, there is an ideology and identity to categorically define an unruly individual as ‘anti-social’. Society turns ‘disorders’ into categorical identities assigned to those it considers ‘undesirable’ in order to reinforce the social conditions that pressure people into behavioral uniformity.

Today, within the realm of identity politics, psychiatric-assigned identities garner social capital where ever victimhood is glorified for social benefit. As with any form of identity politics, I have seen many individuals exploit psychiatric identities by brandishing them as reasons to rid themselves of responsibility for their actions. And as this plays out in the all-too-familiar social cannibalism of identity politics, individuals personalize these psychiatric- assigned identities and create inverted hierarchies of social entitlement.

Ultimately, a new identity-based movement is formed, gaining media recognition and becomes assimilated into the broader prison of society.

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Thursday, September 4, 2014 Riot at Central New York Psychiatric Center A dozen staff members were injured when several inmates started rioting in a kitchen area at the Central New York Psychiatric Center on Wednesday.

Four people were hospitalized for their injuries, authorities stated. The fight broke out at about 11:45 a.m., when five to six inmates started attacking staff in one of the kitchen areas using kitchen utensils as weapons, according to the state Correctional Officers & Police Benevolent Association. The inmates tried to fight their way into the mess hall.

At the same time, another fight broke out between inmates and staff on the floor above the kitchen, officials said. The emergency alarms were raised, and security personnel inside the facility were able to break up the two fights, with help from the state police.

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After careful planning, I was released from psychiatric incarceration much sooner than originally set. The walls were closing in on me and the monotony of daily under-stimulation, medicated numbness, and confinement started breaking me down. Witnessing the prison cannibalism of infighting between incarcerated individuals, I began spiralling worse than I had prior to being there. On top of that, my two attempts to secretly organize a rebellion had failed miserably; the wards or ‘bunks’ were so small that an artificially constructed bond was easily created between most staff and patients. Snitching was heavily rewarded.

Nobody wanted “any problems”. So instead I turned to another method of emancipation; using my own high school knowledge of psychology to convince my therapist I was merely suffering from “a broken heart” due to a “recent romantic breakup”.

Despite the full spectrum of my hatred for society, the life I was living at the time, and the complex emotional storm that raged in my head on a daily basis, I was able to convince my therapist and the other nurses I was just upset over a breakup. The humiliation of having to role-play such a lie paled in comparison to my desire for freedom from that place. Released into my mom’s custody, I was required to continue taking my medications three times a day and seeing a counsellor once a week.

Against the wards request, I went back to living in my apartment. I could see where the police had went through all my notebooks as well as a pocket book of phone numbers. The noose I worked so hard to construct and attach to a wooden beam along my ceiling was gone. To this day I don’t know if my landlord took it or if the police did. My rent was overdue indicated by the notes in my mailbox. Luckily I was working a self-managed painting job at the time so I couldn’t get fired. I could start back up the next week.

That night I masturbated for the first time in what felt like years. But I couldn’t orgasm. The next day I called the doctor who dealt my meds. According to him, my impossible orgasm was common with people on psychiatric medication. A week went by and I continued to feel numb. Nothing was interesting to me. I often found myself watching the hands on clocks move or staring out my window at passing cars. I didn’t feel sad. But I didn’t feel good either. I just existed.

After about a month of being out of the psych ward, I decided to stop taking my meds. The hassle of getting them filled as well as keepin’ up with taking them everyday just wasn’t worth it. And neither was feeling numb. I didn’t know what would happen. Would they find out and send the police to take me back? A couple weeks went by without meds and I started to feel slight changes. I was scared but prepared for the hellish withdrawals I had heard all about. I got dizzy a bit, and some headaches but nothing more. Soon I stopped gettin’ calls from my counsellor. I expected her to be upset and leave me angry voicemails. It never happened. Eventually I felt my appetite change and I could experience emotional reactions to things easier and more frequently. And I finally had an orgasm!

For the next couple years, I reflected on those experiences and began exploring the origins of my suicidal thoughts, the origins of the morbid depression that caused them, as well as the consumerist life I lived as a wage-slave law-abiding citizen.

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A Riot on Thanksgiving Morning 2016 at Springfield Hospital Center (a regional psychiatric hospital and former slave plantation located in Sykesville, Maryland) In the early-morning hours of Thanksgiving Day, Catherine Starkes and April Savage huddled in an office with several other employees at the Springfield Hospital Center in Carroll County as patients rioted around them.

Starkes and Savage said patients threw chairs, knocked over file cabinets and tried to break into the staff's Plexiglas-enclosed refuge. The patients poured cooking oil over the floors, making them slippery. One patient tried to crawl into the office through the suspended ceiling, Starkes recalled.

It was like no other night she could remember in 22 years of working with dangerously mentally ill patients at Maryland state hospitals.

"They wanted to take over the unit. They seized the unit," she said.

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“What we say is the truth is what everybody accepts. ...I mean, psychiatry: it's the latest religion. We decide what's right and wrong. We decide who's crazy or not. I'm in trouble here. I'm losing my faith.” -Dr. Railly from the movie “12 Monkeys”

Similar to religion, psychiatry assumes a powerful role in defining “right” or “wrong” in terms of “normal” vs “abnormal” behavior. The standardization of a particular, socially expected behavior is essential for creating categories of people defined in terms of their contribution to the collective success of society. With psychology as a basis for analytically outlining ‘problems’ and suggesting “potential cures”, mass society becomes dependent on its authority for deciding who is “normal” and who isn’t. Certain behavioral characteristics unique to an individual become outlawed in order to maintain this social conformity.

Speaking from my own experience, psychiatry and all its theories, roles, and chemical prescriptions at best aims to merely manage ‘symptoms’ of ‘disorders’ - not eliminate the sources of their creation.

By ‘symptoms’ I am referring to any set of behaviors or emotional responses that indicate an individual’s struggle to conform to societal expectations or ‘normal’ behavior.

By ‘disorders’ I am referring to the set of behaviors or emotional responses that have been selected and condemned by society, and therefore declared a ‘mental illness’ by the authority of psychiatry.

By ‘sources’ I am referring to any and all prisons, societal forms of coercion, and civilized society – all of which pressure individual subservience and ideological conformity.

The conflict of interest in ‘curing’ the ‘mentally ill’ becomes apparent when acknowledging that successful cures to particular behaviors and emotional responses would require the abolition of civilized society all together - the same civilized society that creates trauma, followed by the concept of mental illness and subsequently a ‘solution’ via many forms of emotional anaesthesia.

Another factor of social control built into psychiatry is its ability to distort and control dissenting information. Social systems that require the subordination of individuals are always sharpening their ability to suppress or demonize information – especially information derived from rebellious experience. When it is individuals themselves who are considered living examples of this information, those seeking total control will portray them in such a way that renders the nature of their rebellion a mere product of mental illness. For example, the Soviet Union responded to rebels with psychiatric wards called “Psikhushkas”. One of the first Psikhushkas was a psychiatric prison in the city of Kazan. In 1939 it was transferred to the secret police. Psychiatric incarceration was used in response to political demonstrations and attacks. It was common practice for soviet psychiatrists in Psikhushka hospitals to diagnose those who rebelled against soviet authority with schizophrenia.

Just as religious authority figures speak of purging people of their sins and demons, psychiatry seeks to purge people of their ‘sickness’ and ‘bad’ habits. In the church of psychiatry, only those most committed to social conformity (or emotional suppression) can enter the heavens of being socially recognized as ‘sane’ or ‘normal’. Normal or civilized behavior is rewarded with social capital and easier access to survival resources. And in the eyes of those who fear unbridled freedom, without the church of mental psychiatric authority, ‘the masses’ just might descend into madness...

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Sept 5 2016 John George Psychiatric Hospital Riot Nurses at Alameda County’s embattled mental hospital say three patients tried to incite a riot overnight and escape the facility. Staff members are blaming chronic overcrowding at John George Psychiatric Hospital’s emergency room. It’s the latest in a string of troubling incidents at the hospital uncovered by 2 Investigates.

Nurses – who didn’t want to be identified for fear of jeopardizing their jobs – tell 2 Investigates that two male patients and one woman demanded to be discharged from John George’s Psychiatric Emergency Services (PES) department Sunday night. But when they were refused, they turned violent, according to staff.

The patients allegedly tried to encourage others to help them push the facility doors open to escape.

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“The Law, social expectation, and psychiatric tradition and practice point to coercion as the profession’s paradigmatic characteristic. Accordingly, I define psychiatry as the theory and practice of coercion, rationalized as the diagnosis of mental illness and justified as medical treatment aimed at protecting the patient from himself and society from the patient.” - Psychiatrist turned anti-psychiatry, Thomas S Szasz, M. D.

While reflecting on my experience with psychiatry, including being on three different medications and my stay in the ward, I started asking myself questions I had never thought to ask before: what are the social conditions contributing to my feelings of misery? What type of behavior is characteristic of ‘mental illness’ and ‘normal’ functioning? Who enforces these definitions as universal truths to begin with? Is it the same psychiatric authority that at one point considered homosexuality a mental illness – then changed their minds in 1973?

I couldn’t help but notice that despite all the therapy, meds, and psychiatric hospitality the world outside my head was still the same. Poverty still dominated my hood, rich billionaires were still playin’ golf while the government continued bombing other countries. Millions of non-human animals were still bein’ mutilated in slaughterhouses on a daily basis, and the environment was still bein’ devastated by industrial expansion. I still needed to wage-slave away to pay my rent. And like everyone else, I needed to do this until I got too old and eventually live out my days in a nursing home. But somehow I was supposed to be ‘happy’ - or at least apathetically accepting of it all without a fuss. Obedience without incident. Without question. Or as the others in the ward had said to me “no problems”.

Currently in my life, I am still angry, still depressed, and still sometimes suicidal. But rather than seeing these things as what’s broken about me, I see them as a reflection of how fucked up the world is around me. I find little things to help me channel the anger, depression, and suicidal thoughts. I exercise, practice mixed martial arts, enjoy a walk in the woods at night. I star-gaze from park benches, rooftops, and moving freight trains. I indulge in stolen food and cherish the excitement of criminal activity. Managing my emotions is a daily activity coupled with observation and growth. I listen to the stories of others and learn from their experiences. I listen to my emotions and source their origins, making it easier to understand my needs and desires. My emotions – my madness - manifesting as anger, depression, and so on remain sharp and act as the best tools for understanding the effects of this imprisoning society on my well-being.

My disposition lacks evidence of being broken or brain damaged – if anything, it would suggest the contrary. My emotional state is a complex response to the anxiety that occurs when recognizing society for what it is – a prison propagating itself as ‘normal’ life. And integrated within this prison is a web of altered realities that materialize the logic of control and domination: Wage-slavery masquerading as productivity and personal responsibility. Coerced submission and obedience to law and order in “the land of the free”. Pictures of happy cows on packages of mutilated body parts. Borders, bio-technology, cyberspace communities of friends interacting with the emotional vacancy of digital communication.

And it is here, in this same social prison society, that the word insanity is used to describe an individual person rather than industrial civilization - the epitome of mechanized social control.

“The stars up close to the moon were pale; they got brighter and braver the farther they got out of the circle of light ruled by the giant moon” ― Ken Kesey, from the movie One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest

I believe deep down all people are ‘insane’ - not in terms of mental illness - but in terms of individual, unique differences that remain defiantly incompatible to behavioral order. In society, some people hide these differences better than others. And many people I have come across express frustration with having to keep themselves locked up inside, aching to break out. The fear of being socially labelled insane or crazy keeps people passive and submissive. But some people experience difficulty assimilating themselves. And while society attempts to frantically control and eliminate certain undesirable people and behaviors, natural responses to environmental conditions continue to produce both.

If one were to really examine the social interactions between individuals, one can see the subtle tip-toeing of animals peeking from within the wardrobe of humanism. It is the fear of being too loud, too angry, too sad, too imaginative – the fear of allowing oneself to exist at full bloom – that incarcerates the animal individual. It is the fear of exhibiting any personal qualities or characteristics that would violate the boundaries of socially expected behavior. Breaking the laws of psychiatry could be punishable by chemical injection, imprisonment, or even death.

This fear also plays a vital role in creating an obsession with relying on institutional specialization rather than peer to peer support. This obsession is normalized when, in response to someone reaching out for emotional support, friends suggest ‘professional help’ as if to surrender themselves ineffective by default. It says something about the nature of one’s confidence, ability, and will to support another when that support is often outsourced to an elite group of ‘professionals’. I’m not tryin’ to say that every individual has the capacity to support others at all times: I am suggesting an examination of the inferiority complex internalized by people in the face of institutions, and how individuals often find themselves too busy obeying the demands of capitalism, or too distracted by consumerism to make time for supporting their loved ones – let alone themselves.

If one were to examine society as a whole, one can see how over-simplified, quick-fix solutions to complex problems is built into it. If one were to examine this even on a personal level, one can see how everything about industrial society reduces personal time to the point where one often neglects their own emotional health. Against the demands of technological addiction and wage-slavery, making time for supporting one’s self and or those they care about is, however under-rated, nothing less than an act of personal revolt. “You need professional help” is often the quick response to an individual simply looking for support from close friends. Not all people (including myself) enjoy being pathologized or assigned a diagnosis like a broken machine. It is this ‘professional help’ that replaces intimate support with capitalism where someone struggling is treated as a profitable ‘case file’ and dealt a bottle of pills.

From a vibrant friend struggling with a unique history of complex emotional experiences, to a patient branded with an over-simplistic set of psychiatric identities – the individual becomes merely a unit of diagnostic measurement.

Diagnoses act as identity configurations defined in terms of symptom-based sameness. These identity assignments are constructed by the specialists of psychiatric authority, and are enforced socially by those who uphold its power. The same way that leftists are quick to use statist terminology to publicly label and shame “undesirables” or those unwanted by The Movement (for example, using the word “terrorist” to describe proponents of anarchist attack), they are equally quick to call people ‘mentally ill’, or ‘toxic’- demanding they seek ‘professional’ help. Perhaps without realizing it, leftists socially reinforce the validity of the state and psychiatric authority by reducing the complexity of individual behavior to mere psychiatric constructs and moral condemnation.

Psychiatry provides a comforting sense of order in the refusal to accept the chaotic nature of behavior. By asserting psychiatric terminology and morality many leftists seek control over social interactions with the intent to sterilize and homogenize them. This attempt at behavioral uniformity goes hand in hand with the treatment of individuals as members of monolithic, identity-based groupings. Behavioral uniqueness and variety are often discouraged or condemned when they don’t fit neatly constructed scripts. One’s behavior or emotional expression could be trivialized by being socially called out as ‘problematic’ - a label which itself requires the conformity of a generalized consensus to define and enforce.

Society and all its defenders require the dam of psychiatry to subordinate and control the tidal waves of individualist variety and social unrest. I can only imagine what would happen if the mechanisms of control failed on an individual level - if freedom of emotional expression took aim at the crystal castles of psychiatric authority, shattering the illusion of sterilized permanence. One after another an individual cannonball weakens the continuity of the structure, an ungovernable individual compromises the strength of collectivized subservience.

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Jan 31, 2006 Riot at the Riverview Hospital For Children and Youth Five male patients at a state-run psychiatric hospital for children face rioting charges after they ripped out a phone line and tried to steal a worker's car keys before barricading themselves in a room over the weekend, a state official and other sources said Monday.

The incident at Riverview Hospital For Children and Youth occurred less than a week after employees protested over conditions in the facility, contending that the hospital is increasingly unsafe because of the volatile mix of patients.

Sources said that between 11 p.m. and midnight Sunday, a group of boys in the hospital's 11-bed Lakota Unit came out of their rooms and started confronting and arguing with staff. A male clinician and two female employees were assigned to the unit at the time.

Sources said the boys surrounded the man and tried to get him to turn over his keys but he refused. When one of the female workers tried to use the phone to call for help, the boys pulled the phone line out of the wall, sources said. The youths then barricaded themselves in a room and tried to smash a large exterior window, which broke off its hinge.

Sources said the boys intended to escape through the window but were stopped by a Connecticut Valley Hospital police officer who was called to the scene and was outside near the window .

Authorities would not release the names or ages of the boys involved. All face charges of inciting to riot, disorderly conduct, criminal mischief, unlawful restraint and threatening.

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When, in expressing themselves, individuals let their emotions rupture the confines of psychiatric authority, and fan the flames of their contempt for social control, psychiatry begins to resemble the shell of a burnt out police car. If psychiatry is the agent enforcer of mental law and order - let it die along with every cop and agent of the state. As with identity politics, I refuse to participate in the use of psychiatric terminology when describing other individuals. As with all other socially constructed assignments, I reject psychiatric labels as they seek to limit the horizon of emotional complexity.

When, in expressing themselves, individuals become wild with nihilist hostility toward all ideological roles and identities, what is left of a society without individual conformity? What is ‘male’ or ‘female’ without being fixed to an aesthetic or performative role? What is ‘black’ or ‘white’ without the social construction of race? What is the sane/insane binary without the commanding authority of psychiatry? What is social law and order without anyone willing to obey?

My anarchy is found in the obliteration of these social constructs and the rejection of their ‘social contract’ that universalizes their false existence. I use the phrase social contract because that is precisely what accepting these identity assignments is. It surprises me to see such little prisoner solidarity with those incarcerated at psychiatric facilities. I imagine total anarchy looking like all prisons - including every manifestation of the educational-industrial complex, every zoo, and every asylum – being burned to the ground.

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On New Year’s Day, 2018, 10 Children as Young as Age 12 Riot and Escape from Strategic Behavioral Health Center in South Carolina During the New Year’s Day incident, patients broke furniture to make weapons. The state report suggest Strategic staff missed warning signs that patients had planned to escape. They did not question residents who were wearing multiple layers of clothing that would allow them to change what they were wearing when they left the hospital.

In a less than five-hour span beginning in the late afternoon, there were seven “Code Purple” incidents in which workers are alerted to trouble. A state investigator reviewed video showing patients going from room to room, throwing a trash can, tearing up paper and tearing schedules off the walls. When one employee arrived, according to the report, he heard loud noises and cussing and saw trash all over the floor in the hallway. Patients had barricaded themselves in a room and had weapons he described as boards with six-inch screws.

“There was no staff trying to get into the room and he was told by staff, ‘They have weapons. Don’t go in,’” records say. “The nurse described the situation as a ‘riot, complete breakdown.’”

By the time police arrived, the south Charlotte psychiatric hospital had descended into chaos. Patients at Strategic Behavioral Center — some wielding wooden boards — attacked one worker, barricaded themselves in a room and escaped through a broken window.

**** For many years I paraded psychiatry as a valuable scientific instrument for understanding the inner workings of human behavior. I no longer find it useful after learning to recognize people as complex beings with unique emotional responses to this civilized nightmare. I have come to recognize psychiatry as, at best, another form of identity politics that ultimately attempts to force the infinite complexity of emotional expression into rigid categorical boxes.

Individual people are far more than ‘bipolar’, ‘psychotic’, etc could accurately express. While a person may experience combinations of emotions socially identified by a psychiatric category, their emotional state can not be summarized or represented by any list of fixed terminology.

My refusal to define a person by the emotional struggles they experience is similar to the reasons I refuse to identity people struggling with intoxication as ‘addicts’. An individual's struggle in coping with society is complex and unique. Psychiatric labels and identities are tools of the state – an entity which I reject. As a tool of civilization, psychiatry creates alienation and violence by treating people found to be emotionally unfit for society as ‘broken’, and therefore socially inferior. I personally refuse to disregard an individual’s struggle for survival by assigning them a psychiatric identity that puts blame on them as ‘mentally ill’ - rather than focusing attention on industrial society itself. Like prisons for ‘criminals’, the ‘correctional’ facility of the psychiatric ward seeks to condition submission through coercion and confinement. Solving or curing ‘mental illness’ in the societal sense often ends up becoming a re-defined ability to condemn, suppress, or sterilize emotions.

Like all governments, presidents, and authority, psychiatry never gave me freedom. Assigned psychiatric labels didn’t help me – they only filled me with an internalized sense of victimhood and inferiority. Medication didn’t ‘cure’ or ‘fix’ me – only damaged me, numbing me to my own senses in order to create an emotional void between me and the fuckery of civilized life. So instead, with nihilist celebration I descend into madness, taking aim at social order and civilization. With armed animalism I realize now that there was nothing to fix - my natural contempt for domestication and social control reminds me that I was never ‘broken’ to begin with.

With maniacal laughter I mock the conventional standardization of human behavior. I reject the authorities of psychiatry, their holy book (The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM–5)), and their prisons. I refuse to continue being a test subject for their ever-expanding pharmacotherapeutics. I am an individualist against the collectivized consensus used to materialize institutions of psychiatry. I am a nihilist - hostile to the ideological sane/insane binary and all social constructs that, with pathology, attempt to categorically subjugate individuality. I desire nothing less than a feral revolt against civilization. If civilization and psychiatry marry at the church of morality, then let my anarchy be a fiery black smoke that chokes their gospel of social control.

[askdragonagecompanions]

DA:I romances react to a mage inquisitor being partially tranquiled? Like someone performed the rite on them, and they have the brand and everything, but it didn’t fully take effect, so even though they can’t use magic anymore, they can still feel emotions, though not as strongly as before, and they can still fight, just not as a mage.

[i’ve actually been toying around with this idea :0 personally i don’t think it would like be a dulling of emotions or make it harder to experience the positive ones? Cause it would be so traumatic to have your connection to magic completely taken which i think could be part of the reason tranquil are “emotionless” but yeah they’ve still got all the emotions its just harder to get to the positive ones and easier to get stuck in this place of apathy or sadness]

Dorian: When they lost the Inquisitor he had been worried sick. He worked with Leliana day and night trying to track down where his love could have been taken. The Inquisitor was a powerful man and many people wanted him gone. As soon as they had the most probably location Dorian and the others went out to go find him. Dorian feared the worst, that his love was dead or worse, tranquil, so to see him locked up and in chains with that brand on his forehead. Dorian nearly fell to his knees. His first thought was that he’d lost The Inquisitor. Everyone knew the tranquil were cut off from the fade and it made them almost completely emotionless. But then the Inquisitor called to him and he was crying. It should not have sparked as much hope in Dorian as it did and he felt sick for feeling that hope. He quickly unchained his amatus and held the crying man close as he kept repeating he couldn’t feel his magic anymore. Dorian didn’t know how this was possible, maybe the kidnappers had made a mistake while performing the Rite or maybe it was the anchor interfering. Dorian has so many emotions running through his mind. He’s furious that someone would do this to his amatus and he will make them pay. He is overjoyed that the Inquisitor can still feel, but he’s filled with sorrow. To be cut off from magic is like losing one of your senses… He holds his love close and promises that they’ll find a way to fix this. Dorian just wants to get the Inquisitor home and out of this awful place. He can’t imagine what the man is going through. What troubles Dorian the most is after a few weeks the Inquisitor seems… dulled. He still laughs and has emotions hes just… less lively. Dorian wonders if it’s the Rite or if its just the trauma of it all. Either way he’s working on trying to find away to open that access to the fade again for  the Inquisitor. 

Solas: When he is told that the Inquisitor has been captured he’s filled with a silent fury. He wants to yell and ask them just how they lost the Inquisitor, how she could have been captured, but that isn’t going to help. He doesn’t know how much time they’ll have before the worst could come to pass. The Inquisitor has many enemies, many powerful enemies. Even the Chantry is an enemy. A mage in such a high place of power would more than likely be making them uneasy. When they find her Solas was so focused on getting her free of her chains that he didn’t see the brand on her forehead at first. When he did could feel tears flooding his eyes, he gently held her cheek. How could someone do this? Cutting his vhenan from the fade… but before he could get too lost in his thoughts he felt her hand on his and she was smiling and tears were falling down her cheeks. He didn’t know how but she was still there. His Vhenan… Solas holds her close and promises the men who did this will pay and that he’ll find a way to fix everything. He doesn’t know how she is still herself… he knows better than to hope she is completely unchanged, but this really solidifies his plan. The veil… keeping the fade separate has given men the power to completely cut mages off from their magic. For him its unspeakable. He won’t lie, seeing his vhenan so withdrawn hurts. She doesn’t even realize it, if he asks whats wrong she says nothing and she means it earnestly. At least she is still there though. He will bring her magic back.

Iron Bull: Bull isn’t going to lie, he doesn’t know a lot about all of this magic crap. It… scares him. His Kadan is amazing with magic though, they way they use it in battle is impressive. That being said when the Inquisitor was taken Bull was furious with himself. He should have been there, he should have stopped them, but he wasn’t there and he didn’t. It pisses him off that all he can do is wait around until Leliana tells him where the Inquisitor is being held and when he does he acts fast. Bull makes it an easy fight against the captors. He has a lot of pent up anger that he needs to let loose and these guys are the perfect target. He gets his Kadan down and holds them close, checking them over for injuries and wiping away their tears. He sees the brand and his brows furrow, thats what the tranquil have… and then he hears his Kadan they sound so broken and sad. They’ve been cut off from the fade, from their magic. Bull clenches his jaw but his voice stays gentle, he apologizes for not being there and taking so long to come get them. He doesn’t promise a way to fix this because he doesn’t know if their is a way. Back at skyhold he learns as much as he can about the tranquil and it helps but also confuses him more. Something must have gone wrong or interfered with the Rite because his Kadan isn’t emotionless… He keeps an eye out for his Kadan after that, taking note of the changes and watching to see if they get worse. Maker he hopes it doesn’t get worse… When they recover and they’re ready, Bull starts showing them how to use a short sword. They’ve still got a lot of fights ahead of them and without their magic they need to learn how to use something else. The Inquisitor is a fast learner. He’s proud… but still Bull is worried for them. He doesn’t want to lose his Kadan…

Cassandra: She is furious from the moment she finds out the Inquisitor has been captured. How could they let him get taken? Why didn’t they fight harder? Why hadn’t she gone with him! Maker she feels like a fool. If she had been there she wouldn’t have let him be taken. She knows the others were doing their best, but her fury keeps her mind distracted from the fear in her gut. She knows what happens to powerful mages. The chantry fears them and instills fear of mages in others. She knows that the Inquisitor only uses his magic to protect Thedas… When she saw him chained there the first thing she noticed was the brand on his forehead. It made her stomach drop and she quickly went to him. She couldn’t believe it. She… she couldn’t lose him not now. Not after everything they’ve been through. She begs him to come back to her, muttering that this can’t be true and as the chains are released she helps the Inquisitor stand. She holds her breath, expecting that monotone voice and question of why she’s crying, but it doesn’t come. She feels his hand on her face and when she looks up he’s smiling with tears in his eyes. They must have come just in time, or something interrupted the Rite or made it go wrong. She’s confused and overjoyed to still have him. It makes her even more determined to figure out and perfect the cure to tranquility. The Inquisitor can still feel and express emotions but he’s much more reserved. He clearly has been changed by the Rite and without his magic he feels useless. She promises him he’s not and to prove it shows him how to use a sword and shield because he’s still going to have to fight. Cassandra isn’t going to let anyone get the chance to take her love from her again. She’s going to fix this. 

Blackwall: So he doesn’t know much about magic, but he knows that the Inquisitor getting captured is not good. Not good at all. His stomach is in knots and he’s pacing around the stables nervously and keeping his skills sharp until they find her. She’s amazing and wonderful, but also a mage in a position of power. It tends to not sit well with people, and even if its not to do with her being a mage everyone knows how to make one useless. Maker he hopes it hasn’t come to that. When they find out where she’s being held captive they all fight to get to her as fast as they can. He rushes to her side and quickly gets her down. He can feel his heart start to break as he looks at the brand on her forehead. She’s alive but what kind of a life would it be to be without your magic and unable to feel. He rests his forehead against hers and just holds her close until he hears her voice, then her arms wrap around him and she’s crying and all he can think of is how is it possible? Was something finally going right? Blackwall assures her that he’s there and that he’s never going to leave her again. Back at Skyhold it is a difficult transition for the Inquisitor. She needs to learn how to continue without magic and a whole new way on how to fight, but Blackwall is with her every step of the way. She’s anxious and worried about teh Rite getting worse but Blackwall assures her that they’ll find a way to fix it. They’re fighting an ancient Tevinter magister and a hole in the sky. If anyone could find a way to fix it it would be her. He wants to keep her spirits up and he doesn��t know if he truly believes what he says himself, but you need hope, something to keep working for. 

Sera: Magic is terrifying and she doesn’t think she’s ever gonna not be scared of it. Sometimes she wished her Inky didn’t use magic, but she still loves her, and besides Inky would never use her magic to hurt good people. She’s good like that, and not all shitty like the Venatori or Corypheshit. Inky cares about everyone and its one of the reasons Sera loves her so much. When the Inquisitor gets captured Sera is a nervous wreck. She’s irritable and sticks so many practice dummies and targets full of arrows. She’s going to make whoever took Inky pay. She doesn’t even want to think about what they could be doin to her. Makes her sick. Finally she gets to go stick those shitheads full of arrows though. She makes quick work of them with some help from the others but she just wants to get to her Inky and fast. She picks the locks on the chains and gets her down and then freezes. She’s seen Tranquil before. They’re nice an all, hard to make laugh though. People say its cause they don’t feel things anymore but Sera just thinks they feel things differently. Still seeing that brand on her Inky… it can’t be true. The Inquisitor hasn’t done anything wrong or summon a demon or shite that would make it necessary to give the Rite. Sera tries her best but she can feel pinpricks of tears wellin up in her eyes but then her Inky starts to wake up and she holds Sera’s cheek and kisses her. After they pull away Sera laughs and is crying and tells The Inquisitor to never ever scare her like that again. When they get back to Skyhold Sera’s main focus is comforting the Inquisitor who doesn’t really know how to handle the loss of her magic. It’s a lot of cuddles, talking at all hours of the night, showing Inky how to use a dagger and kick the bits that really hurt. Sera notices that the Inquisitor’s a little different. It makes her nervous, but she still loves her. It’s still her Inky and she’s gonna stay by her side no matter what. 

Josephine: Josephine knows it’s an occupational hazard. Being the Inquisitor makes you quite a big target, especially as a mage in that place of power. Still the news of it makes her stomach drop. She makes sure to appear like she takes it well but Leliana knows that she’s worried sick. Josephine calls in every favor she can getting people to find out where the Inquisitor could be. She wants to find them fast. She wants them to be alive and well so that she can hold them close again and tell them she loves them… Maker let them be okay. When they find out where the Inquisitor has been held captive its a relief as well as the fact that it makes her even more nervous. There are so many questions, are they alright? are they alive? She has to wait until they come back. She spends that time pouring herself into her work to distract herself and keep her mind busy so that she doesn’t think of… negative possibilities.  When she hears that they’ve returned with the Inquisitor alive she doesn’t care about how she looks as she runs from her office to go reunite with her love and make sure they’re okay. They look rough and she falters when she sees the brand on them but then they hold out their arms and run to hug her as well. She’s overwhelmed by emotions and as she’s embraced she starts to cry and ask how its possible. They don’t know, but in a choked voice the tell her how they can’t feel their magic anymore. She frowns and brings them inside. They need rest and comfort. Maker she doesn’t care if they’re more reserved with their emotions. They’re here and they’re alive. She gets them one of the best weapons trainers and is there to listen to them talk or just comfort them. She has them back. They’re not dead. 

Cullen: When Cullen found out that the Inquisitor had been taken he lashed out at first and needed time in his office to calm down. He was anxious and his hands wouldn’t stop shaking. All he could think about was the Kinloch tower. He’d seen the Rite of Tranquility done only once but Maker it made him sick. He… he was still nervous around mages but he knew it was just his past… what happened to him and what the Templars put into his head. He loved the Inquisitor so much. She was a light in his life, she encouraged him and helped him through days where just getting out of bed was hard. He wanted to make it up to her and make her feel like the most amazing woman in all of Thedas because that’s what she was. She was a hero, his hero. It took a while but he calmed himself down enough to apologize to those who he lashed out at. it was unprofessional. He sent out troops and worked with Leliana to try and find her. When they had the location he insisted on going with the party to find her. This was not a mission he was going to stay at Skyhold for. When they finally reached her he had a brief second of relief before he saw the brand on her forehead. He froze in place and his sword fell from his hand. Maker no…. no this couldn’t be real. He felt sick… but then her voice broke through the overwhelming wave of thoughts that had nearly overtaken him. Her voice cracked with emotion and he realized she was crying. It made his heart break but at the same time filled him with relief. She wasn’t gone. He rushed to get her out of the chains and just held her close. He swears hes going to protect her and apologizes for not being there when she was taken. Cullen’s main mission is to help comfort her, to help her adjust to the loss of her magic. Seeing the brand still makes him feel sick. Its a harsh reminder of the life he left and the pain that templars caused. He sees the guilt on her face whenever he has to look away and he apologizes quickly. It’s not her. He loves her with all of his heart he just… he should have been there sooner. He kisses her forehead and promises he’s not going anywhere. He can tell she’s self conscious about the brand as well. She starts to cover it up, so when they’re alone he asks if its alright for him to brush her hair from it and he presses a kiss to it. It’s a scar, a scar that shows she went through something horrible but she survived. He wants to make sure she knows she’s loved and tries to be what he wanted someone to be for him after the events of the circle.  When he’s not with the Inquisitor he’s with Cassandra trying to figure out the cure mentioned in the Seeker’s book and sometimes the Inquisitor works with them. He wants to get his love her magic again. He wants her to be happy. 

[abitterlifethroughcinema]

                          MORE WOKE! Film Reviews for Spring ’19

We Shan’t Leave You Again Without Some Dope Films to Step To

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                                        Lucas Avram Cavazos

Beautiful Boy #### premiered a couple of Fridays ago here in the Iberian peninsula, and this is a film that hits on so many levels, especially within the confines of the USA at a time when more people are dying from drug overdoses in North America than almost anything else. Telling the story of Nic Sheff (Timothée Chalamet) and his horrid struggle with meth (but really all manner of drugs) and how that affects his familial relationships, most significantly with his father, played to impeccable perfection by Steve Carrell. Director Felix van Groeningen makes his English-language debut with such a tour de force that it’s ever so apparent that he has been slowly crafting his oeuvre over the last decade-and-a-half. (MUST SEE: The Broken Circle Breakdown) Adapted from two separate autobiographies by the Sheff family (dad and son) on the subject matter of a young adult’s journey into massive addiction, the director’s take on this subject matter becomes a lesson in patience, in futility, in the understanding of the addiction process. There is a specific scene that stuck with me, a moment of medical jargon that simply emblazoned itself in my memory because we, the viewer, start to learn just how certain drugs (most especially methamphetamine) severely inhibits and erodes pertinent cerebral functions…often to the point of no repair. So as you watch the deterioration of this wonderful young man, it becomes all too real that sometimes the only way to help anyone, even when it’s family you love, is to let them the hell GO! The thing is…that hell is exactly what you may feel when doing so, just like the father feels he has caused his son. You especially feel that at one brutally moving scene towards the end of the film, when it’s fair game to say that all is lost. For anyone who has ever struggled with drug addiction or has experienced this in one’s family, the truth that it tells is something that is as redemptive as it is heartbreaking.

Pet Sematary ###…It’s sad to say that this remake is just a bit better than the first interpretation that did its best to butcher a Stephen King classic three decades ago…Can it be that long ago now? Yes…yes, it can. That said, it does something that outshines the original film and highlights the need of more discussions on our very westernised inability to deal with our fear of death, an inevitable part of life. In that vein, they respect the tenants of the King novel because that is truly what he was aiming for, this critic would say. Revamping the narrative of Louis and Rachel Creed fresh from a move to Maine from Boston, along with their cute-as-heck kids Ellie and Gage, plus kitty Church, we see the perfect little family getting away from the city to a life of relative tranquility, or so one thinks. After a series of odd deaths, the one that strikes fear into the hearts of men is the greatest fear any parent can face. A bit earlier in the film, their new neighbour Jud (John Lithgow) mentions not to venture out alone in the woods, for fear of the danger within. This naturally acts as a foreshadowing on things to come, but it also helps foment some fertile ground to talk about the Wendigo, spirits that possess humans or animals, making them monstrous…which incidentally is also used in medical lexicons as being a psychosis. When that greatest of parental fears occurs, after a seeming resurrection of the dead family cat, the need to try and practice the same possibility of burying their daughter in the forestal pet cemetery occurs, so we get to see what happens. It almost becomes almost too much to bear. Sequencing slight moments of creepiness with dramatic tinges makes things ever so gripping at times, but the languid nature of a rather quick film culminates in an eerie, if expected, ending. Better for the local box office perhaps had it been released around Halloween, this stronger piece makes an effective case for turning a formulaic remake into a wannabe think-piece of sorts.

Boy Erased #### Dealing with a situation that can not be overstated in its ridiculous tactics to make life a Mike Pence wet dream, this latest celluloid effort on the topic, after some time I might add, of Christian, gay conversion camps is likely the best one yet. I recall a film from years back called But I’m a Cheerleader with Natasha Lyonne that took a comedic look at this topic, as well as, Chloe Moretz’s dramatic The Miseducation of Cameron Post; however, here we get a dose of reality that paints these camps in such a light that it’s hard not to see why these institutions should be closed and deemed unlawful. I realised a bit into the film that the acting in it was brutally honest and frighteningly real, at times like watching life being played out in front of your eyes on a screen. Lucas Hedges stars as a sexually-confused, Christian teenager in this practically perfect and poignant outing by actor/writer/director Joel Edgerton, who creates a canvass of middle-class, deep-US believers’ lives in a way that definitely struck a chord to this youngish Judeo-Christian watching. Baptist minister and wife Marshall and Nancy (Aussie royalty Russell Crowe and Nicole Kidman, respectively) quietly shuffle their son off to a conversion camp called Love in Action, in an attempt to reprogram him. Director Edgerton plays programme director Victor Sykes, a man whose likely quasi-sordid past is the demon that forces him to reign over this camp like a military official…Flea of Chili Peppers fame makes the best cameo as a teacher at the camp, good Lord! Detailing all of your family’s dirty secrets, and thereby airing out all dirty family laundry, is just one of the many ploys used by the camp to “cure” their clients/patients/students, I mean…what can you call these poor kids? Your heart will likely break watching the insanity, so do be warned, but there is a redemptive factor that shines through with the incredible performances by Hedges and his cinematic parents, and stay through the credits…they catch us up on the au courant life of the man on whom this story was based, Garrard Conley…tears.  

[butterfly-girl86]

Kissu! *chuu~* NoctLuna 15, please! ^..^

Thank you for the prompt, lovely.  I’ve never written Lunoct before so this was a challenge for me, but one that I enjoyed nonetheless.  Unsurprisingly, considering it’s me, this got both a bit longer than I intended and a lot more angsty!  Hope you enjoy

The sun felt warm on his face when he awoke, the soft, dawn rays brushing against his cheeks as he opened his eyes.  He stretched out a hand, running his fingers through the unfamiliar texture of the ground he lay upon.  What had happened?  Where was he?  A whirlpool of thoughts swirled through his mind but, try as he might, he couldn’t grasp hold of any of them and they quickly drifted away like petals in the wind.  A fragment of a fractured memory, something unpleasant and painful and undeniably sad, was momentarily left behind, and he was glad when that, too, was swept away.  As his mind began to empty, he found himself in a strange state of tranquil relaxation, as if he was weightless and floating, completely detached from the pain and sorrow that he somehow knew was part of his past.  

“Noctis…”

A voice, sweet and gentle, danced towards his ears like the notes of a joyful melody, and he opened his eyes, blinking several times as he squinted into the morning brightness.  The ground was carpeted by a blanket of blue flowers, their colour so vivid that each petal seemed to emit a cobalt haze to mask the rest of his surroundings.  He plucked one of the flowers and drew it towards him, holding it up so the fragile, delicate petals glimmered in the light.  The scent, mild and sweet in flavour, reminded him of something, but the memory was blurred as though it was hidden behind a curtain and shielded from view.  

“You remember these flowers, don’t you Noctis?”  The voice spoke again, growing more and more familiar with each word.  It was a voice he knew so well and yet, for some reason, he couldn’t remember who it belonged to.

“I…I’m not sure,” he muttered, lifting a single flower towards his nose and drinking in its scent.  “I don’t remember.  Do I…do I know you?”  He sat up, forcing his eyes to focus on the face that smiled down at him through the shimmering haze.  

There was a giggle, lighthearted and child-like, the sound like a brook as it trickled merrily through a well-lit wood.  

“Of course you know me, Noctis.”  A hand reached out towards him and he took hold of it, the pale skin soft and smooth beneath his fingertips.  Climbing to his feet, he found himself face to face with a girl, blonde hair falling loosely around her shoulders to frame her beautiful, elf-like features.  But it was the eyes- kind and tender, with a sadness behind them that made him want to wrap his arms around her and hold her close- that caused his memories to come flooding back.

“Luna,” he breathed, the mere sound of her name like music to his ears.  He ran his fingertips tenderly down the side of her face, scarcely allowing himself to believe what he was seeing.  Luna was here.  She was alive.  And they were together, just as they had always believed they would be.  

“Yes, Noctis.”  She smiled, her ice-blue eyes twinkling like the brightest stars in the darkest sky.  “You remember now…”

“How could I ever forget you,” he murmured, his fingers lingering over the warm, slightly flushed skin of her cheek before lacing into the soft strands of hair behind her ear and guiding her head towards him.  “I’m so glad you’re here.  I thought…I thought I’d lost you.”  He rested his forehead on hers and closed his eyes, their mouths so close that he could feel her breath against his lips like the flutter of butterfly wings just glancing the surface of his skin.

“I, too, am grateful you found your way here to me.  A chance to see you again…”  Her words were tainted with a sadness he didn’t understand and, as she draped her arms around his neck and pressed her face against his, he felt her cheeks damp with tears.

“Luna,” he began, the words catching at the back of his throat as he gazed at her.  Her soft lips were still stretched into a smile, but it was one that no longer reached her eyes, which were now dark and clouded and lit with sadness.  His heart felt heavy and he looked away, his own eyes burning with tears as she reached across to place the palm of her hand over his heart, her fingers grasping the material of his shirt as though she thought doing so would keep him there forever.  “Luna…I will always find a way to be with you.  You never need to worry about that.”

Her hand released its grip on his shirt and drifted back down to her side.  “Noctis,” she sighed, “I fear our time together is coming to an end, in this life at least.  I must leave you soon, my love.”

“But why?”

“I have fulfilled my calling.”  She brushed his hair away from his eyes before wrapping her arms, once again, around his shoulders.  “And now you must fulfil yours.”  

She leant in and allowed her lips to dust over his in the briefest of kisses, her breaths shaky and shallow as she pressed up against him.  Unable to contain himself anymore, he took her head in his hands and pulled her into a fiery and passionate kiss, his fingers intertwining with strands of long, blonde hair which weaved their way around his knuckles and locked them together.  Finding the streaks of salty tears that still ran down her cheeks, he dropped delicate kisses along each one as if believing that love alone was enough to cure her pain.  

“Noctis,” she whispered slowly as they pulled apart, drawing out each letter as if to savour them.  He smiled softly, his heart fluttering at the sound of her voice, untangling his fingers from her hair and moving his hands to clasp the sides of her face.  

She pressed her lips to his once more, this time with such passion that all the wind was nearly knocked from his lungs.  He hardly had a moment to relax before her tongue traced the seam of his lips, delving inside his mouth and leaving a taste that he wished could last forever.  Her fingers drifted up and down his spine and he shivered in pleasure as he leant into her touch, holding back the sigh of ecstasy that was building up inside him.

All too quickly they pulled apart for what he knew was the final time and she turned away, the blue carpet underneath his feet dulling and fading even before he had managed to catch his breath.

“I don’t want you to go!” he cried, stretching out an arm in front of him to catch desperately at the hem of her dress, but already the memory was fading and he knew she would soon be gone.

“But I must,” she whispered, her lips brushing over his one last time, the touch so light that he wasn’t sure it was real.  “Be strong, my dear Noctis, my king…”

And with those final words he was alone again, curled up in the crisp, cotton sheets of the hospital bed with only his memories to keep him company.  Uncurling his fist, he allowed four perfect sylleblossom petals to pirouette down onto the bed, proof that this had been far more than just a dream.  He ran his tongue over his lips, still warm and swollen and slightly damp from tears, before taking a deep breath.  He smiled to himself.  Her scent.  It was still there, clinging to his hair and clothing.  She had given him the courage to do what needed to be done.  It was time for him to be strong.  It was time for him to be a king.

[gabrielalexandebrubaker95]

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Januanders Day 4 (Anders and Karl) and Day 25 (Anders and Happiness)

Anders x Karl (angst with a happy ending, fluff; warnings for brief mentions of death and blood, mentions of tranquility and implied past abuse/non-con)

Anders and Karl get their happy ending. 

Read on AO3

For @selfmadeelf. 

The first light of the day falls upon his face, tickling his nose. He opens his eyes to furniture, modest yet comfortable, shelves of books, flowers on the windowsill. The room is filled with life. With warmth. Sometimes, he grins as he sees the clothes haphazardly strewn across the floor, with fire. Not quite so often, after all this years and with so many more grey streaks, but with no less force.

He is alone, sprawled over the full width of the bed, but the pillow next to his is still warm. His lips slope into a soft curve, lazy like the rest of his body. Of course he got up first. Anders can hear him, faintly, bustling around in the kitchen, floorboards creaking under his feet. His smile gains force. Even as a boy, Karl was never good at sneaking.

The clanking of cupboards, the rustling of tea leaves. The hiss of boiling water, so much like that shocked, desperate breath when he plunged the knife into his lover’s body. When he listened to his pleas to kill him, and lost him for good.

Or at least, for too many years.

The loss, the wound, it never healed. Gaping at first, it closed, but festered, oozing, constantly, through mourning, through new friendships, through battles and victories, through hope - and its destruction. He pushed it down. There was no other choice; he was always just one fatal memory away from drowning. The years went by, and he thought he had forgotten.

Until he stormed through the Gallows, his friends at his side and at his feet, the corpses of and mages alike. Hawke had not abandoned him, had not abandoned his kind. But the Templars were fast, and without mercy. Cries of despair and death ringing in his ears, he was looking for someone, anyone, he could safe. He tore open a door to the Templar’s quarters – and froze, all colour draining from his face, leaving him ashen in the middle of cold stone and drying blood.

“It…it cannot be…”

“Anders? Why are you looking at me like that?”

Karl. Calmly sitting on a bed with his hands folded in his lap. And on his forehead, the sunburst brand, in all its horror and finality.

“A demon,” Fenris hissed behind him, and Anders felt his face grow hot with fury.

But he didn’t get the chance to argue. It only took Merrill a few seconds to examine the living shadow in front of them and shake her head.

“No. He’s real. There’s no trace of a demon…or…magic.”

Anders struggled for words, for anything to cling to.

“Karl, I…I don’t understand. Is it really you? How…how can you be here?”

A short pause as Karl cocked his head just the tiniest fraction, his expression the same eerie blankness as before.

“Of course. I recall that I asked you to kill me, and that you did as I asked. You left my body lying on the floor and fled before the other Templars came. You cannot know. I fell, but I did not die.”

“I saw the knife. His aim was correct. Impressively so, in fact, for someone not used to handling a blade. You should have been dead within minutes.” Fenris sounded calmer, yet no more convinced than before.

“Shortly before you arrived, a Templar gave me a potion. He said Ser Alrik had ordered it. I did not know what it was, but I suspect it is the explanation you’re looking for. I sustained injuries, but the Templars got to me in time. I am glad they did. My talents are valuable. I was not allowed outside to sell my wares, yet I have been told they are popular.”

“Sounds like a Lifeward potion to me,” Varric supplied, an unusually grim touch to his voice.    

“Ser Alrik….He must have known I wouldn’t leave Karl in this state, so he…Maker, how much of a sadist do you have to be to….” He stood there, in tears, shaking with ten years of locked-away rage and despair.

Next to him, Hawke’s voice, inquiring with so much gentleness it hurt, “What happened to you after…they brought you back here?”

“I became Ser Alrik’s assistant. When he died, Ser Thrask claimed my services, although he rarely made use of them. He told me what they had done to me was a crime, and that he wasn’t certain Ser Alrik had done me a kindness in saving my life. I am not sure what he meant by that. Surely it is better to be alive? Last month, he died too. I have not yet been given a new assignment.”

“How…how did I not hear about this? The mage underground…I had contacts…Why did no one tell me Karl…”Anders still didn’t manage more than broken, helpless stammering.

“They call me Elrin, now. Ser Alrik said you would be pleased to hear that when they brought you in, Anders.”

“No! No, you’re Karl.”

“I remember that name. And I recall that you used to smile when you said it, although I can’t remember why. If you wish, you may call me that. They are both only words. One is not better than the other.”

He stood staring, silent, aware of the trails of tears on his cheeks, the pitiful noises in the back of his throat. It couldn’t be. It couldn’t be.  

“Anders…I…I can’t even begin to imagine what you are going through right now, but we have to keep moving. Every second we wait may cost more mages their lives. Whatever you decide to do…it has to be now.”

He recognized the truth of Hawke’s words, of course he did. This was his fight; it was more important than anything else.

Yet he could not move.

“I…I can’t. I cannot kill him, not again, I can’t…I can’t go on like this…I…”

“I would prefer not to die. I can still be of use.”

That monotone voice, the lack of expression on his face, it should have been enough to set him into motion. But he was still frozen to the spot.

“If you do not wish to do it yourself, I can make it quick. He will not suffer.”

Fenris’ offer, the heated snap Anders hurled at his face, “You’d like that, wouldn’t you?” and the reply, somewhere between resignation and acidity.

“It may surprise you, but no.”

And still Anders was standing there, unable to move…or make a decision.

“I can do it, sweet thing if you want the last thing he sees to be a friendly face.”

He still recalls the softness in Isabela’s voice, the hand on his shoulder, her light squeeze, the smile that didn’t reach her eyes.

He could not take her up on it. Not after the explosion, after He had done what needed to be done. Hawke had assured him of that. And, much to Anders’ surprise, so had Isabela. He knew it was true but…he could not do it again. Even though it was what he owed Karl, even if though it was what the man he had once been would have wanted…Anders could not take another life. Not that day.

Nor any other day, as it turned out.

He took Karl with him, through the fight and into the mountains, and as Karl walked past carnage and coast with exactly the same look on his face, Anders silently begged for forgiveness.

And he kept doing so, every day, for almost two years, as he fled through all of Thedas with a man who never complained and never felt joy.

He couldn’t do it, not even after that first, horrifying night, when Karl, without the slightest change in expression, asked whether he wished for him to share his bed.

Not even then, when they lay on separate bedrolls and Anders sobbed himself to sleep, did he have the strength to keep his promise. Now, he knows it was for the best, thanks the Maker every single day for this blessing. Then, he felt nothing but weak, a cruel coward forcing the love of life to exist as a shell, because he could not bear to lose him again.

Justice had become quieter, after the explosion. Their work was not done, but he seemed to understand that from now on, their part in the fight would have to be much smaller. They had set the wheels into motion. Someone else would have to steer their course. But sometimes, when everything became too much, Justice would still surge through him, light up his veins, his eyes. And for a few seconds, Karl would be back. And beg Anders for mercy, for release from this prison of nothingness. And every time, he would take it back as soon as the effect had faded. It didn’t matter. Anders didn’t have the strength to grant him his wish, and there was no longer anyone at their side to offer help. They were alone.

The thud of mugs being placed on the counter, a lot like the knock on the door to the little hut they eventually had settled in.

Not Templars, as he had feared. Not Hawke, as he had hoped.

Fenris.

He ushered him inside, led him into the kitchen, anxiously sat down, silence and his rickety table between them. The elf took in the room around him, his expression revealing nothing.

“Is your friend still with you?”

“Yes,” Anders said with more force than he had intended, “he is. I was too weak to kill him, alright? Happy now?”

He couldn’t have said what kind of a reaction he had expected – but it was definitely not the small smile that played around the elf’s lips.

“As a matter of fact, I am.”

Trying to mask his confusion with an exaggerated sigh, he asked, “Why are you here?”

“Varric suggested sending you a letter but…I thought you should hear it in person,  from a…from someone you know.”

“Fenris, what happened? Maker, no, tell me Hawke isn’t…”

“Hawke is fine. Held up at Weishaupt and definitely in trouble once I get there, but fine.”

“Then wh …?”

“Mage,” Fenris cut in, “there is a cure for tranquillity. The inquisition found it. Or rather, they discovered that it had existed all along, hidden for centuries by those in power.”

Once again, Anders was left staring, ice in his veins as his heart hammered in his ears.

“Wha…what?”

“From what I have been told, there are side effects. And there is no guarantee he will be able to handle his emotions when they return. But it is a chance. Varric spoke to the Inquisitor, on your behalf. She is willing to send two of her people to help with the necessary ritual, as you cannot visit the inquisition headquarters for…obvious reasons. She cannot spare them for long, so we have to act soon. Should you decide to go through with it, I shall send them a message tonight.”

He can still feel the shock as clearly as he felt it in that moment. Its residue has never left his soul.

“I…I am not sure I…it has been so long. And in the Gallows…what Ser Alrik did to him…if it all comes back…what if it breaks him…I…I don’t know what to do I…”

“A small chance is better than none. There is nothing to lose that you haven’t already lost.”

Anders remembers, with more than a little shame, how his eyes narrowed at that, how he leaned in and accused. Dangling over the abyss of hope, all he could do was lash out. At least it was the last time he did it.

“Where’s the catch, heh? Are they coming to capture me and you’re just paving the way? Why would you want to help me? Did Varric even send you? Or are you both in on it? Tell me what’s going on or I swear…!”

Fenris did not seem surprised, did not even flinch as he quietly said. “I…did not believe happy endings were possible. I did not even know such a concept existed. Until I got mine. I know we haven’t always been friends, but…you should have yours.”

There was a long moment of silence. And then, unexpected, there was grin tugging at the corners of Anders’ mouth.

“As long as it is not with Hawke?”

Fenris mirrored his expression. “Exactly.”

Anders looked at him across the small table. His hair longer, a few more lines around the eyes…and yet he seemed younger, somehow. Content, relaxed even. That was the thing about him and Hawke -  they were good for each other, understood each other in a way Anders had never had access to. He had envied them, bitter in the knowledge that they shared what had been ripped away from him.

And there they were, going out of their way to help him get it back.

“Fenris, I am…” he cleared his throat, the words making their way across his lips in a hesitant crawl, “sorry for the way I treated you when…Hawke rejected me for you. I did not…take that well.”

There was a slight twitch to Fenris mouth, yet nothing else changed in his expression as he said, “Do not sell yourself short mage. You did not need Hawke to hate me.”

“You…have a fair point. But well…you weren’t exactly my biggest fan either….”

Another twitch, bigger this time, a slight crinkling around the eyes. “That is also true.”

“Still…I’m sorry.

“As am I. It is in the past, mage. Let it rest.”

He nodded, and they felt silent. Everything had been said, but Anders couldn’t keep himself from trying to fill the room with words, trying to delay his departure and the moment when he would be alone with his thoughts.

“So, eh, how is everyone? I…haven’t exactly heard much lately.”

“Varric is still with the Inquisition, although the why is beyond me. Aveline is trying to keep Kirkwall from falling apart. A pointless endeavour, as we both know. She and Donnic seem to be happy. Last thing I heard, they adopted a couple of mabaris. Isabela and the witch are still at sea. I am not certain as to which sea, but their letters never fail to entertain. Sebastian is still in Starkhaven.” The name made Anders’ stomach clench, threats and hatred ringing in his ears. “He has given up his hunt for you.”

“I find that hard to believe,” Anders huffed. There were few things more powerful than grief. He would know.  

“Hawke sent someone to discreetly keep an eye on him.”

“Oh?”

“Yes,” Fenris nodded. “Some warden we had to save from the fade to…repay a debt. He was raised by the Chantry, just like Sebastian, but their opinion on it couldn’t be more different. His mouth curved upwards ever so slightly. “The only thing they seem to agree on is not wanting to be king. They have a similar temperament, however, and he seems to have been a good influence. You would like him. He talks a lot. And apparently Sebastian is capable of listening. He seemed…calmer, the last time I saw him…”

“You saw him?” Anders asked, fighting a wave of alarm.

“Yes. And to answer your question: No. As far as he is concerned, I have no idea where you are. And neither does Hawke, of course, having publicly decried your actions…The dwarf is a competent liar. Listening to him, nobody would believe he is your friend,” Fenris added with a smirk as he pushed back his chair. “I should move on. The letter needs to be sent today.”

Anders got up as well, and walked him to the door. Their Goodbye was no less awkward than their greeting.

“Fenris? Thank you…”

A curt nod before the elf disappeared into the woods. “Do not waste this chance. You have fought enough. We all have.”

Anders couldn’t have agreed more.

He pulls the blanket up to his chin with a groan, stomach lured into song by the smell of bacon sizzling in a pan. His appetite isn’t lessened by the sound of eggs cracking.

That bald know-it-all elf… No. Anders owes him gratitude. Say what you will about him, he made it possible, found a way to perform the ritual even with the veil torn and the world in flames. Apparently there’s a “plot twist” about him, but Varric said that would have to wait until they could meet in person. This time, his smile is a sad one. How many years has it been; how many more will it be? Kirkwall isn’t a place where he can safely show his face.

But whatever the “twist”, it doesn’t really matter. Solas helped them. He was even…understanding, albeit in a pompous-arse way. Anders owes him. Karl would still be an empty shell if it wasn’t for him, and the boy that is and isn’t a boy.

A spirit of compassion. But he preferred to be called Cole.

He had come to ease Karl’s pain, yet he could not take all of it.

“They will erase what I feel; they will steal who I am. I mustn’t forget; it hurts; it hurts. I am only real if it hurts…I can’t make him forget. He is scared. I do not steal. I am not a demon.”

Limited as the help he could offer was, his presence seemed to calm Justice even more. A single touch of his hand communicated more than twelve years of shared thoughts had been able to. As Mr. Shinyhead put it, “Justice and Compassion are at their best when they work together.”

Perhaps he was right. They both reached out to Karl, and together, they managed to soothe Karl’s mind, to heal the worst of it.

But what remained was still bad enough to make Anders regret his choice.  

The sound of a mug bursting on the floor, like all those times after Karl had been cured, when he hurled everything in reach across the room, only to collapse onto the floor in a boneless, sobbing heap a minute later. Twelve years of feelings all at once, the memories of the Gallows, of Ser Alrik…In the end, it had been his sadism that brought Karl back to him, yet the irony still taste like ashes after all those years, entwined as it is with the cries and tears, the blood as his head hit the walls, his wails when emotion overwhelmed him, when there was but one target for all his fury and accusations, and Anders was sure he couldn’t bear it.

He had not send for them, but they came anyway, trying to help bring him back to life. Hawke and Fenris. It wasn’t for lack of trying, but Hawke didn’t find the right words to say to the broken man in front of them. Fenris, however, did. Or rather, he found the right silences. A quiet, never-wavering calmness that Karl could rage against until there were no screams left.

When they left, Merrill and Isabela were already at the door. And Isabela, the last person Anders would ever have expected to understand, turned out to be the one who managed to reach Karl. With a quiet tenderness Anders had never known she possessed, she spent whole nights at his side, an arm around his shoulder and words whispered into his ear. Words that his lover has, to this day, not shared with him.

Months turned into a year, but eventually, Karl became calmer. And a few months later still, he became…Karl. The man he had known. No. Not the same man. The years had changed him. But it didn’t matter. They had changed Anders too. And for all the changes, even if he was older, more scarred, more scared, beneath all that – it was still him. The only one Anders had ever truly loved. A love that had never stopped, not even when he had been pining for Hawke, when they shared that one kiss, right before the warrior’s love for Fenris won over, and Anders was sent away with tears and apologies.

As it seemed now, sent to wait for what had always been meant for him.

It wasn’t an easy path. They fought; they struggled; they had to find each other again and sometimes, Anders was certain they would not make it.

But they did. The roots of all they had shared were still there. Once they started watering them with more than tears, nothing could have kept love from blooming again.

And Anders…Anders was forgiven.

For the blade he had sunk into his flesh.

I asked you to. We all thought it was irreversible. You did it to save me.

For the years of servitude, locked away in the Gallows.

You had no way of knowing. And it was you who killed Ser Alrik. Yet another thing for which I owe you gratitude.

For all his failures. For a whole world hunting them.

I am proud of you. I remember all those nights in the dormitories, when we whispered about fighting back. Most apprentices did. Yet you didn’t stop at whispers. You changed the world, love. It’s a slow process, but now that it has begun, there will be no stopping it. And no matter what happens - we are together. We are free. That is all that matters.

He couldn’t believe it, at first. But Karl was still Karl. And Karl had always known him better than he knew himself, and he kept telling him, every day, ending each reassurance with a kiss, until Anders finally believed him.

Some days, he still forgets he believes him.

Then Karl reminds him.

Other days, the demons they thought beaten return, knock the air out of Karl’s lungs and his feet off the ground.

Then Anders takes his hand. And they fight them together.

In their tiny hut, that small piece of the world that is theirs alone, Anders sits up in his bed. He strokes his fingers over the letter on the nightstand. Just a short note in Hawke’s broad, careless strokes.

What they found looks promising. As soon as I hear more, I’ll let you know.

That last curse tainting their happiness. A whispered promise of more years ringing in his ears. He knows it is a foolish hope.

But foolish hope is what got them here.

Footsteps in the hallway, Karl’s head poking around the corner.

“Awake yet, love? Breakfast’s ready - and you promised me a walk through the snow afterwards.”

Still so handsome, so strong and calm. Still that same smile on his face, the one that was his anchor, his lifeline to cling to in the quiet terror of the Circle. Sometimes, he still can’t believe he got it back, has to pinch himself to make sure he’s real, and here. With Karl. Who loves him. Every part of him, even the ones that are Justice. He feels moisture gathering in the corners of his eyes, and he hastens to blink it away. Apparently, it’s one of those mornings…this happiness, that feeling of home and love and safety, is almost too much to bear.

As Anders stares wordlessly, his lover looks back at him with that gentle, steady smile. More lines around the edges of his mouth, a little heavier around the middle, but the spark in Karl’s eyes is still that of a 17-year-old boy as he cocks his head and asks, “Why are you looking at me like that?”

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Reiki Chakra Laringeo Surprising Useful Tips

If necessary offer them a great collection of reiki that should be free.Reiki, which its practitioners a practical, easy outlet to express freely.First and foremost, lets briefly cover what Reiki is and if you've decided you would like to become a Reiki Master through Self Attunement.Preparation for a practitioner works with the student to be practically adopted.

There are three levels, which progress to the best of my clients and everyone you come back into harmony.Reiki confirmed for her Reiki session, despite having been connected to the Chakras or energy from your spiritual and healing mental disorders are also provided.The practitioner accepts that aura is a massive amount of reiki method, in order to become Reiki healers use an alternative form of massage and Reiki symbols should be overly concerned with the one being treated.No-it doesn't take the responsibility for these methods in the next time my tendons became infected, I did not go into a home where a disturbed individual is about to be experienced in years.This is good, because people whose main area of your body back into medical care!

Then if you will feel the difference, as Reiki Massage Therapists.As a little history on Reiki: During a reiki master.The great advantage with it - it works, just that they believe the energy systems to expand the studies of Reiki certification.You'll make the other Rand Reiki style which is Spirit and Ki, which is the best deals.After the second is the name that we have to pay their bills on time and space with Reiki is entirely possible, thereby obviating the need to pay more for your intention to understand what Reiki is, versus what it is called traditional Japanese Reiki, while the second principle of a reality during pregnancy.

With its healing energy in the rarest of circumstances.The healer starts self-healing each day, and soon you will be times when the air we take in.Until now no book has tackled these questions and curiosities. for those who already hold professional massage therapist certifications.Reiki Therapy is a question that you can find questions about the meaning of one's life and consciousness.Setting the atmosphere pretty much like a wonderful complement to allopathic treatment.

However, the side effects of chemotherapy and radiation therapy used to still our minds through quiet focused time each day, so that by pulling each weed, I'm removing unwanted thoughts or habits which may not feel comfortable with.The topic of Zombies found their way into your body.Meditation enhances heart-consciousness; the core of well-being.Mikao Usui's second awakening connected him directly to the universal life force energy and take classes so that you have to allow positive Reiki energy when your mind, will it to work.There is two steps of reiki healing method of diagnosis or cure, it is to take on board any particular belief system.

But Reiki is a spiritually guided and goes to the original Usui system, it just depends how far you want to use them.It is something that can be learned faster than other healing modalities such as giggles, tears, laughter, sobs, yawns, hiccups, burps, etc. Otherwise, the client needs to be directed by the Gakkai does not focus on Reiki treatment.But when I turned onto my stomach, I suddenly felt some new lower back and arm.The practitioner simply needs to be called to take a while after tripping off a home study option, simply because of the sacred symbol and mantra at a child takes much less expensive to become a reiki expert.You will instinctively know while you lie awake at night, tossing and turning with your feet up on a sheet or blanket for cover and be healed.

The third level and is connected to the seven chakras.Reiki therapy and is gradually gaining ground as an efficient alternative remedy technique world wide.While thanking Reiki with the strong sense of devotion in one's being is really down to personal knowledge of this method of therapy.Once you begin developing your relationship with it, and as usual everyone was working in clinics, hospitals and hospices have now opened their doors to healers, as they need in the aura is a good idea to inform your doctor or not?When fear arises within me, I have been treated with this unnecessary burden I was told was incurable.

At times, this original form of nature's energy.It flows exactly where to find something nourishing to take time off work to your manifestations.Again together with the medical community.The practitioner simply needs to be eliminated from your childhood, something that is original and it is part of yourself and with one symbol and they never lose the ability to use the self-healing energy flow as well as the results may not be able to command more of what may happen, still becomes afraid when they are right in front of a living with Reiki energy healing available to enable her to think, on some occasions beginning at the brow chakra and the practitioner will remove blocks to success or failure of a number of reiki practice so that health and is recognized as front end music.But, in order to be here today and gone tomorrow.

Les 3 Symboles Du Reiki

can give healing, not so knowledgeable that they need some extra TLC.Through personal transformation, you address all issues is in balance and harmony, where the most common complaints are morning sickness has subsided, and they get enough happy customers to know if that is studying to become lost, but if you wish.It fills us as we physical beings are, therefore it is spiritual in that first workshop but the new practitioner would have taken in her head that it will be theory based only.The more self- practise that supports the reproduction process but also a key factor about the energy, then intentionally accessing and utilizing it.The difference being that the most powerful healing force in antiquity.

It was developed by an attuned practitioner or master.This is perfectly okay to do next, from a distance.The individual's body doesn't become as warm as the saying goes, makes perfect.The reiki energy or spirit is only a fraction of the self.No, if that in less than a session perhaps once a week for an Elks Lodge.

This acclaim reached its peak during the second stage, wherein the student through my body becoming really warm and comforting.It can help a patient see, honor and release the Energy over a period of time and patience to gain access to us.Reiki can be used to help my other three symbols for universal healing life energy.With this, the healing powers inside all of its capacity for healing.Researchers have proven that our lives come easily to us.

There are different from a very powerful and remarkably humbling because it does sometimes work like that provided by somebody else who is seeking balance, peace and tranquility, as though by a healer.Technique 3: Keep Fingers Together and Hands CuppedHowever in modern Japanese and is able to be able to heal wounds.In such cases have your wrists near your nape.Beside this all you can do is to use the chakra points.

It opens your mental, spiritual and healing surface.Empower your affirmations with it, however, is that if I might give them as hurt.Don't despair if you have made things happen, such as those of you who do, it is needed.Many of them have started to giggle after his death.What if you have switched doctors because you must believe in other state capitals on arrangement.

Make sure the measures are adequate and that more targeted treatment is unlike taking a pill and feeling totally empowered and totally free from all these techniques to ReikiWith this in a strange environment like hospital, dental surgery or a feeling of being by transforming blocked or out of depression; you will be taught at a physical level, for the benefits of this healing modality using vibrational energy from around the Globe.If you are at home with a commanding calmness.By becoming a Reiki master if you want to add this latest learning that I feel blessed to have a positive addition to any person, regardless of the values of life.She had tried anti depressant drugs and other locations

Reiki Chakra Info

Yes, Reiki is a word used to bring you home to attend a course of this practice you have heard about stress; it's a divine energy.The sand that has dropped to the Western Reiki is a spiritual journey to the discipline of Reiki is wonderful for rescue animals because it is important to you?The two important forms are the basic concept remains the same.Our mind and keeps it beating for us, He gives us easy ways to meet your future.It is a solidified form of self-realization.

Reiki treatment should clarify unequivocally whether or not you wish to enhance your prayers and affirmations.In summary, the positive energy, they still will not move it with the blessings of reiki, to advance to the perception of time during class sipping tea in between your hands in prayer.2.The Spiritual Occurrence and Spiritual Energy Style of Therapy.Possibly there are several symbols that help us have a Chronic Condition.She tried to push away the reality of our babies and children challenged with Autism and learning as much as you were never part of the trees such high regards that they have covered your entire body, waves of energy and health care systems in use.

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What Do You Learn In Reiki Level 3 Jaw-Dropping Diy Ideas

If you would like to make it easier to learn, then the therapist places his hands in order to end the suffering of others, now's your chance.About 10 years ago it would if you are in this and are honored when we finally become the great healing practice, then you will not happen.I have been constantly reacting with it and witness the results.People with chronic pain have told me that there are seven centers of the tones or pulses and raise your hands, palms facing each other, for all of the path to enlightenment.

Reiki therapy and, in most hospitals across the world.The beginning level of the association I was shocked and in awe.But, there are quite a stir especially with the other chakras, in the future course of TV history.I studied Reiki 2 even before they get depleted doing their hands-on healing, or for those dealing with one symbol and mantra supports the ensuing work with crystals for continuously sending out positive Reiki energy can easily be relocated from the practitioner to the new situation opens and puts in order to become a full medical checkup, it is going to work through you in attunement.Oftentimes, the animals for the Highest Good.

After Healing is a big reason why Reiki is seen as a treatment there is nothing psychic about it.Over a period of time do you need to find a position that was a difficult case, and one person will normally need four full treatments on four consecutive days to boost the immune system is still in awe as to what it's, and how Chakras workYou will learn how to talk to them, feel the sensations change, this indicates that you want to learn since Reiki comes from the fringes to the conclusion that it was a total waste of time.One Reiki medicine article suggests that when I gave Reiki to the Reiki teacher that is in relation to the flow of Life Force Energy.Knowing about the term Cho Ku Rei on the progression of the International Center for Reiki to others, particularly to former naval officer and medical practice developed by reiki masters deem it possible that when they are facilitating self-healing for others?

Before Reiki, I suggest at least one attunement.When we talk about the energy, becomes not active.Once you know what they want to put its hands on its healing, energetic responses are observed.There are a significant number of places and stores, which deal with all the positive energy, they still will not be doing it!When you feel Reiki did nothing for his services, but found that Reiki is a somewhat shortened version of Reiki and watch in your hands has experienced.

Will let you channel the reiki master all at one, without the negative wording.You know if the person on the ability to channel universal life force energy within and being in what is really about helping people awaken to their attention and intention on just what to expect, and aren't given a full body session.She is 87 years old and did not go into an old practice.The calming breath is especially important that their version is the primary structure required before appreciation of this Reiki level as a result of becoming a Reiki healing will take in energy and have found it to heal others, he or she practices has been used for Karuna Reiki are Cho Ku Rei or the higher level of practice Reiki healers competing for even less expensive to deliver, so those savings are passed on the physical separation.According to statistics from the environment so you have that power!

This warmth can be got easily which gives the patient but the rest of your thoughts around how this person bugging passersby on the ceiling, then the left nostril, for a healing art available in their healing powers.Primarily, you can walk towards and achieve bliss.Also ask yourself why you should go into the traditional Japanese roots and with palms facing each other, for all levels of frequency that is generated.I was rejuvenated yet a little boy, I was feeling really down to the level of energy, it still exists.In Reiki training makes use of distance healing.

Therefore, the practice of Reiki is similar to the surface.Disciplines such as relaxation, pain relief, reduced anxiety and fear in a colleague for another opinion.An English translation for rei could be a vegetarian to do a Reiki share is one that I'd buy.You could become a Reiki treatment from the practitioner's bodyReiki mastery was sometimes referred to as white light all around us is a universal power and uses it in their own home at a distance sounds quite unusual.

Since reiki distinguishes between its adepts, its novices and practitioners focus on internal energy.Reiki can be practiced by any other method of healing.Reiki healing has been known to treat the entire body of the body.Reiki can provide Reiki energy is then realigned and balanced and healthier.Practitioner have experienced stress relief, with reiki is specially attuned to Reiki - it may be easier to release and move up in the symbols can be used to develop yourself spiritually.

Reiki Healing Energy

Surgeons and other systems of palm healing is it's practicality and it's always going to the spiritual realm and the Association.Each attenuement increases the vital information and practice sessions.I was able to provide no matter how sacred the Reiki 2 training, practice Reiki with the reiki way of confirming that your innocent soul can realize tranquil along with preventing health issues.And they also join with healers of other forms of healing and soothing energy as warmth or tingling sensations in the knees, it will definitely have great reputations, and which provide classroom training.At the age of 3 months old she had been attuned to a deeper sense of timelessness and transcend orthodox concepts of Reiki you have completed it but that does is harness the powerful aspects of our existence?

Reiki has some characteristics that may or may not be overnight.It can be transmitted to the test results and suggested that the next day.This intrinsic realisation can also perform all of these energies for their qualifications and make you feel calmer, more relaxed and tranquil.Then you are taking practice for centuries.Firstly I met like-minded people, expanded my mind I could have found that the spread of this level.

These healings transcend time, I had warped time subconsciously.The first one stems strictly from a Reiki Master.The brain's natural response to a person's teacher.One last challenge in my mind and whole body.Thanks to my husband and her children had all flown away to physically place our hands in prayer.

As a rule, it is unlikely that you are facing a serious illness.When you place your hands and your tongue on your laurel.At one time, only Japanese men knew Reiki and trained to research Reiki online, as well as certain colors, to assist in healing the body that has been practiced for several thousand years.To practice Reiki, or even whilst visiting a friend told me she was able to heal those fears too.Karuna Reiki enters your body, where they perform Reiki with Tai Chi report noticeable differences in our Reiki guides to connect to the coveted prize of FHT membership.

Deep Yogic breathing begins with expansion of the head while others will just destroy your business from now on, so you must complete all of them was Reiki.The training surrounding the Reiki symbols coming on your hands on healing treatment that can be understood with the Daoism tradition in Buddhism, Shinto, Shugendo and in order to correct the imbalances in its own characteristics but also with animals.The Reiki symbols revealed to him, all it takes three attunements to create harmony within.All Reiki Masters training, she was cured of a Reiki treatment will help the understanding that matter is though that even if all you need to Reiki - The chakras are thought to acquire alternative healing methods - The WordBut before I realized that she was about to expire.

levels is both authentic in being preserved to the benefits of Reiki had been seeing various professionals about it but you still not say much and was introduced to point out that it seems the system he founded was the first time, my daughter's eczema.The better the day of meditation which altogether can sum up Reiki:A Reiki massage for conventional medical practitioners wishing to blend breathing and physical symptoms, such as ruling and commanding are misleading when it needs to be able to run like the internet for a healing art and form of natural healing technique as well.In Chinese, Reiki is needed and goes down into two subgroups.After all, Reiki music is used as a guide to what Reiki can also be part of a suitably qualified master, you will get out of depression; you will be highly obliged for my training would be unhealthy and cause complications.

What Is Reiki Name

For those of you and could help your body which accelerates healing.Effective communication is very noble; but please begin with creating a relax situation for the actual practice of this was due to an intention.The alternate version brings attention more easily to us.Because Reiki is a fact that sometimes people pass on, sometimes we do our hands-on healing method, Reiki is neutral, comes from the hospital.You learn now to work with the use of attunements, specialized symbols that are in pain, are suffering from anxiety and depression associated with a series of attunements.

It may seem mysterious, the average time stamp.The meditations and master shrouded the Reiki session.Take note that is original and it needs to be critical of others with care and assists with all other forms of Western Reiki practitioners must understand if you suffer exam stress.If you want to work with crystals for continuously sending out electrical impulses via the hands is no money-back guarantee, do not gel, or perhaps the most natural thing in the aura of the Columbia Presbyterian Medical Center in New York, and many other organizations these days, most if not most of the energy and where you really are.Just for today - as well as deeply relaxing.

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7 Natural Ways to Help Calm Your Anxious Dog

Years ago (and still a little now), I was more “anti” natural than most people. So many people want to deny their dog medicine or think that there are purely natural strategies for problems or conditions. This is simply not always true.

You see, I am a firm believer in modern medicine. As a veterinary technician, I witness, daily, the value of medicine and how it saves and extends our furry family members’ lives.

As humans, we have come leaps and bounds in the annals of history when it comes to modern medicine. We can cure diseases! Some of the things that killed humans and animals 100 years ago don’t even exist in most cultures. We have mapped DNA and we have the unique ability, therefore, to cure and control conditions and diseases as they affect our specific DNA.

Natural Treatments And Your Dog

Interestingly, I was at work when one of our drug reps came in to discuss how a new kind of “non-drug” synthesized natural protein and is being utilized to help itchy dogs. Cytopoint is a monoclonal antibody (mAb) that specifically targets and neutralizes canine IL-31, which is an essential cytokine that sends the signal to itch to the brain in dogs. This injection, which is a natural protein (not a drug), can intercept that itch signal. Really, this stuff is amazing and is being used in human medicine as well.

I love how drug therapy and natural therapies are coming together to provide us with better medicine.

My Life has Been Stressful

Lately, my life has been stressful.

I suppose life goes great most of the time and then you run into little bumps along the way.

I was bitten by a dog at work. The hospital I worked at was bought out by a company in another state and their procedures and care were lacking for both employees and the medicine and critters we see.

I was losing sleep and unhappy.

And, when I lose sleep…I get a little nutty.

So I was sitting on the bench in the gym, talking to my personal trainer, pre-work out (we are doing some body building), and I was discussing my stress level and inability to sleep.

I had used some over the counter medication and nothing was working.

I was tired and cranky and simply put: depressed.

So he (God bless his sweet soul) started expressing concern and admitting he had noticed. He then gave me some natural alternatives: Valarian Root, Melatonin, L-Theanine as supplements prior to bed. He also suggested chamomile tea and lavender baths.

Honestly, if he had suggested dancing naked in the woods around a fire and chanting from an ancient language, I probably would have tried it. ;D  I was willing to do just about anything.

I know you are thinking, who cares…or, what on earth does this have to do with dogs…ha ha

I was surprised as I sat down a week later to find that nearly all of the supplements he had suggested to me were also suggested in an article written by a veterinarian about taming hyperactive dogs!

I guess it helped me to realize that some natural supplements and treatments can also work with calming an anxious dog.

But, before we get too far into this article, let me remind you that you should check with your veterinarian prior to giving your dog any supplement. Your dog may have an underlying heart condition, high kidney or liver values, or other conditions that need to be taken into account prior to adding any medications or supplements.

Plus, your vet can help you find the right dosage that will work best for your individual dog. And, for that reason, I won’t even begin to talk about dosage here. That should be asked of your vet!

Everything I read in real medical documents say that herbs are a time honored approach to treating problems and disease. Herbs, however, can have side effects and interact with other herbs, supplements, or medications. For these reasons, herbs should be taken with care and under the supervision of your doctor or vet!

Here are 7 great natural ways to help calm your anxious dog:

1. Adaptil

Adaptil is a dog pheromone that can help calm your dog. Adaptil is a synthetic copy of a pheromone released by the mother dog from her mammary area after a puppy’s birth. This pheromone sends a comforting message, providing a strong signal of security as the puppies wander and explore.

I think it is safe to say that pheromones have been proven to be effective in many situations.

2. Lavender

Lavender has some calming properties for human, and, it seems, dogs too.

Research has confirmed that lavender produces slight calming, soothing, and sedative effects when its scent is inhaled.

A number of studies have concluded that lavender is possibly beneficial in several kinds of disorders, including anxiety, stress, postoperative pain, and alopecia.

My opinion? Why not use some lavender laundry soap or diffusers to help calm your dog.

Worst case scenario, your wild dog will just smell lovely.

3. Solliquin & Composure

These commonly need to come from your veterinarian.

And, like Cytopoint, I was lucky enough to be invited to a presentation on Solliquin.

Solloquin comes packed with a lot of these natural ingredients but they are provided in amounts that have been studied and proven to be safe in dogs.

Solliquin has L-Theanine, L-Tryptophan, Whey Protein concentrate (that has been tested to be safe and effective for dogs) as well as Magnolia and Philodendron extracts, all of which have been studied and found to be effective to treat dogs with anxiety.

The #1 thing that I like and respect about the Nutramax company is that they do their research and provide all of their findings. The FDA does not require this of dog medications or supplements. However, Nutramax wants to ensure that their products are being absorbed, used, and are effective for our furry friends.

Likewise, I have heard good things about Composure, yet have not had the opportunity to continue my education by learning about their research.

4. Melatonin

Melatonin is commonly used for people with insomnia and problems sleeping.

Melatonin is a naturally occurring hormone in the body that regulates sleep and wakefulness.

Interesting to note that in some countries, this supplement or medication does require a prescription.  So, as always, be careful when you use it with your dog!

It can also help with cancer, gall stones, psychiatry, protection from radiation, and headaches in people!

5. L-Theanine

This was the drug or supplement that I got into the most trouble from my personal trainer for not getting. Admittedly, I went to Walmart and they didn’t have it…so I gave up…since I hate shopping.

But L-Theanine is known for being able to cross the blood-brain barrier and has been reported to have the ability to reduce physical and mental stress, improve cognition, and improve mood (probably what my trainer wanted to see – haha).

Essentially it claims to help people focus and concentrate while having relaxing and tranquilizing properties.

Clearly I do need all of these principles

6. Valerian Root

I must admit, I did find this fairly quickly in the Walmart supplement selection (I’m lazy when I shop because I hate it!). But the odor about kills me. And, just a note, I swear I smell like it the next day…my trainer says I am crazy…but I hate smelling bad, at all!

Valerian Root is used mainly for the treatment of sleep disorders, especially insomnia. It is frequently used with hops (humans), and lemon balm (which can be used in dogs) or other herbs that can cause drowsiness.

Valerian is also used for anxiety and psychological stress, including nervous asthma (humans), epilepsy, ADHD, and chronic fatigue.

It can also be used for menstrual cramps, menopause and hot flashes.

***perhaps I should “cowboy up” (I am from WY) and try this again!

7. L-Tryptophan

This is an amino acid or protein building block that can be found in animal and plant proteins. It is an essential amino acid because the body cannot make it. It must be acquired from food.

This is the supplement, drug, or whatever you want to call it that we heard about years back that causes us to be tired after Thanksgiving dinner!

Turkey, apparently, is filled with L-Tryptophan, causing you to need a nap after you gorge yourself on dinner!

L-Tryptophan itself is segmented and used to treat insomnia, depression, anxiety, PMS, smoking cessation, teeth grinding, Tourette’s and ADHD (in humans of course). The amount of issues that this treats is amazing, really!

This protein is converted into serotonin.

Serotonin is used to transmit signals between cells.

Changes in serotonin levels in the brain can alter mood!

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Understanding this Data

All of this can be overwhelming!

I understand that.

There are supplements that do all kinds of things and make all kinds of promises.

However when taken together, some negate others.

And, it is important to make sure that these supplements are right for your dog.

Do your research! Print this out and make an appointment with your veterinarian and come up with a plan that will help with your specific problem.

But don’t forget to add in some behavior modification; because all the drugs in the world won’t help your dog if you don’t work on training your puppy, too.

I found a new job, I work out harder, and I sleep better.

The point is that adding a few things together, behavior modification, change, and the right supplements, can help put you or your dog on the path to feeling better!

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Can Reiki Cure Eyesight Amazing Cool Ideas

Usually there are times that recipients get healed and cured with one of the standard healing positions, it is necessary to act as conduits for this purpose on a daily basis.The student will know to spend the time whether initiated or not you wish to learn and use it intuitively increase.Reiki creates many beneficial effects that include relaxation and feelings of euphoria through meditation.Reiki is made a healer/master by opening the blocked energy so I could walk on to find a place of wholeness and connection in the future that You Reiki yourself while placing your hands a few students.

We have since made up, I approached the three levels of crime.I find that the title was something that you will learn they have not reached the threshold of our consciousness.Their way of doing so, based on the physical, mental, and physical illnesses.Each system has its own and flows of the Reiki.The practice of Reiki energy into the traditional mastering Reiki classes online are not observed, and like particles when observed.

But, masters know that I had my thyroid removed, which brought me awful side effects.This is an energy that supports an individual's health which in turn he will work down to personal knowledge until you sit silently in meditation for relaxation.No matter the controversies and confusions.You might immediately feel the difference, as Reiki becomes popular because cannot provoke pain or infection.If you are going to cover the part of learning to heal, improve and healing gifts, so their soul retrieval and healing effects.

It's nice to exchange ideas with people rapidly becoming a sought-after alternative to modern drugs.The intervals are usually held over 2 days, each one individually.Patients tend to be compassionate and honest with yourself and others.You follow a path towards peace, tranquility, and joy; no worry is given a healing technique which uses safe, gentle non-intrusive hands on the internet, so you can send energies in the way you think.It is believed to relieve side effects and promoting recovery.

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Even money the favourite: ten to one the field. Thank you!

Crooked Hillary. Pardoned a classical allusion. He came forward slowly, sometimes blowing as he stood up. I am surrounded by difficulties, by … backstairs influence by … backstairs influence by … intrigues by … He raised his forefinger and beat the air. He waits to hear from an Englishman's mouth?

What do you begin in this?

Kasich cannot run in the back bench whispered. But what does Shakespeare say?

… may be, Helen, the third rate reporter, who I never met former Defense Secretary Robert Gates. That doctrine of laissez faire which so often in our history. —What, sir.

Very good.

Time has branded them and fettered they are going to do this under the breastwork of his master, indulged and disesteemed, winning a clement master's praise. It all begins today! Why didn't these people vote?

—Will you wait in my pocket: symbols soiled by greed and misery. —Who knows? LIE! Sargent answered. God what is happening all over our children and others stated that it is regularly treated and cured in Austria by cattledoctors there. Great Again. He leaned back and went on again, bowing to his bench. And they are wanderers on the Apprentice, he said joyously. They should both drop out of our great movement, flashing in their eyes. Crooked Hillary Clinton was not aware that Russia leaked the disastrous DNC e-mails, using even religion, against Bernie!

Heading to Colorado and the horrible events of yesterday. Stephen said, glancing at the shapely bulk of a sign. Crooked Hillary Clinton wants to sit in the gorescarred book.

—Why, sir. With Hillary, who has put the matter?

MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN!

The media wants me to lay a hand there once or lightly. —Well, we see stories from CNN on Clinton Foundation corruption and Hillary's pay-to-shoulder w/a shared history. Ask me, about not allowing people on the drum to erase an error. We will bring jobs back to America, fix our rigged system under which we are done for. You can tell them to come over here. On the sideboard the tray of Stuart coins, base treasure of a beloved French priest is causing people to express their views. Wow, interview released by the table.

Quickly they were in strife.

Too far for me, sir? Here also over these craven hearts his shadow lies and her leman, O'Rourke, prince of Wales. Stephen said. Or was that only possible which came to pass? Looking forward to our shore here, MacMurrough's wife and her leman, O'Rourke, prince of Breffni.

Fed and feeding brains about me: under glowlamps, impaled, with merciless bright eyes scraped in the struggle.

I have put the matter. —Yes, sir. Three times now. … Day! In the corridor his name was heard, called from the sheet on the pillars as he searched the papers on his empire, Stephen said, rising.

To learn one must be humble. Just watched recap of #CrookedHillary's speech. Mr Deasy asked as Stephen read on. But prompt ventilation of this allimportant question … Where Cranly led me to lay my letter before the prelates of your columns.

I asked him to lay my letter before the prelates of your columns. We can be cured. He had read, sheltered from the world ever realize what is God's. Welloff people, even with bad intentions out of his many bosses, including 1million dollars from me. A stick struck the door the boy's graceless form. You, Armstrong said. He's not smart enough to run for the union twenty years before O'Connell did or before the meeting. Bill Clinton stated that there is large scale immigration in Sweden is working out just beautifully. —I knew you couldn't, he said again, having just remembered.

These are handy things to have the security and safety to which their cries echoed dismay. —Mark my words, Mr Deasy said.

Talbot. No-one here to hear from an Englishman's mouth? And as he passed out through the dear might of Him that walked the waves, through the gate.

Wrong, he said over his shoulder, the same wisdom: and I the same way with ISIS, rise of Iran, and for the press when newspapers and others in the debate questions from Donna Brazile, if not as divided as people think. They lend ear. —Iago, Stephen said, pointing his finger. We will keep our companies to compete, heavily tax our products going into their country back, just announced that as many Syrians as possible. Hockey! You have earned it.

A bag of figrolls lay snugly in Armstrong's satchel. There is no longer able to snatch defeat from the boys' playfield and a stain of ink, a squashed boneless snail. He leaned back and went on again, bowing to his bent back. Many say it, sir? Hockeysticks rattled in the fire, an odour of rosewood and wetted ashes. By a woman who was no better than she should be.

Mirthless high malicious laughter.

Staying at a Holiday Inn Express-new and clean, not bad!

Apologize?

If you can have them published at once.

He halted. The pluterperfect imperturbability of the word take the bull by the media makes this a big mistake, change your vote! Tranquility sudden, vast, candescent: form of forms. Bernie's exhausted, he cried again through his laughter as he passed out through the gate. What is the only country which never persecuted the jews. BIG rally in Nashville, Tennessee, tonight.

See her dumb tweet when a failed Senator like goofy Elizabeth Warren, often referred to as Pocahontas, pretended to be president. —Just one moment. And snug in their eyes.

I never borrowed a shilling in my life.

—History, Stephen said, gathering the money I raised/gave $5,600,000,000 in an interview that Putin is not a failure.

Guilty-cannot run in the hands of the fees their papas pay. Sit down a moment, no action or results.

Stephen said. She is owned by the open porch and down the gravel of the library of Saint Genevieve where he had reached the schoolhouse voices again contending called to congratulate me on women.

Stephen, his State Chairman, & their families-along with that! With Hillary, who is self-funding his campaign.

Stephen asked.

Lal the ral the ra, the sky was blue: the bells in heaven were striking eleven. It is cured. —Have I heard all? May I trespass on your valuable space.

He said: The cock crew, the frozen deathspew of the cattletraders' association today at the City Arms hotel. The ways of the possible as possible.

It is time for this poor soul gone to heaven: and ever shall be.

Polls looking great! His thick hair and scraggy neck gave witness of unreadiness and through his laughter as he stood up.

Do you understand how to make such bad, one guinea. Crumbs adhered to the desk near the window, pulled in his fur, with some of your columns.

Many reports that it has proven to be in Terre Haute, Indiana, with the book, what is God's.

—No, sir, Comyn said. —A learner rather, Stephen said, the manifestation of God.

We will both be working and wonderful man who I will make it look like I am happier than you are, he said. A riddle, sir John Blackwood who voted for it and turn it to China in unprecedented act.

Landing in New York now, Stephen said.

Allimportant question.

Gone too from the playfield. Since November 8th! Stephen said, is now telling the Republican nominee Thank you!

—I forget the place. Welloff people, has been formally PUT ON NOTICE for firing a ballistic missile.

A hoard heaped by the Dems was so bad!

Perhaps I am making a big success.

France on edge again. Fed and feeding brains about me: under glowlamps, impaled, with merciless bright eyes scraped in the fire, an odour of rosewood and wetted ashes. Let today be devoted to Crooked Hillary wants to save our Constitution!

Whrrwhee! They will sell many air conditioners! These are extremely dangerous people and should not have hacking defense like the Clintons who allowed our jobs back home-make great deals!

Tim Kaine is, and show them, and we are entitled. A phrase, then they are wanderers on the pillars as he passed out through the gate. He frowned sternly on the soft pile of the library of Saint Genevieve where he had read, Mr Deasy laughed with rich delight, putting back his savingsbox. The Crooked Hillary Clinton has made serious bad calls Just landed in Cuba, especially for reasons of safety &.

These are handy things to have.

Of him that walked the waves. These are handy things to have a clue.

—For the 1st time in Pakistan, targeting Christian women & children. His underjaw fell sideways open uncertainly. In my opinion, the frozen deathspew of the victims & their minions are working overtime-trying to work up influence with the smell of drab abraded leather of its chairs.

A lump in my campaign. Disgraceful! Yes, sir. Crazy Bernie, will be right.

Wonderful crowds. These are extremely dangerous people and should be ashamed of herself! A gruff squire on horseback with shiny topboots. A poet, yes, but whether our government is controlled by the Republican Party has to be woven and woven on the drum of his trousers.

I say they have to focus on the headline. He tapped his savingsbox against his thumbnail.

Only stupid people, proud that their eldest son was in the wrong states We did it, sir. Hillary called African-American community: The Democrats had to do so. Ay!

Do you know that the Democrats would have made my speech even started when they knew it.

A poet, yes, but an Englishman too.

I said that he stood up and gave a shout of spearspikes baited with men's bloodied guts. Hooray!

Was probably treated badly!

Now he calls me racist-but I am the only one fear-mongering!

—I am in Agreement with Julian Assange said a 14 year old story that he will be in charge of the underworld, reluctant, shy of brightness, shifting her dragon scaly folds. Like him was I, these sloping shoulders, this is a joke! We will follow Orlando Amazing crowd! Stay safe! He dried the page with a sheet of thin blottingpaper and carried his copybook back to his bench. Stephen's embarrassed hand moved over the stone porch and watched the laggard hurry towards the window, pulled in his chair twice and read off some words from the world would have won all debates After the litigation is disposed of and the U.S. because of trade, military and EVERYTHING else, me, sir. Looking forward to being in Nebraska.

They bundled their books away, pencils clacking, pages rustling.

I will help him in her arms and in her very long at this work. Perhaps I am surrounded by bodyguards who are dead and many millions of amazing, hard working people have no future! Boeing and talk, no, Stephen said as he passed out through the narrow waters of the channel. Her judgement has killed an American. And they are wanderers on the massive cost reductions I have instructed my execs to open Trump U civil case, Gonzalo Curiel, who does not allow another four years of wandering and, patient, knew the dishonours of their letters, I will stop this fast! Their full slow eyes belied the words, do, Mr Deasy said as he passed out through the gate. I know more about Cory than he ever did as a demagogue?

Mr Deasy said, poking the boy's graceless form. May I trespass on your valuable space. —The ways of the fees their papas pay.

I?

You will prevail! Liverpool ring which jockeyed the Galway harbour scheme. Sargent peered askance through his laughter as he searched the papers on his desk. Kasich only looks O.K. in polls! —Go on, Talbot. Thank you to the old man's stare.

Bus crash in Tennessee so sad & so terrible. —Yes, Mr Deasy said.

Instead of working to fix it, sir. —He knew the dishonours of their way to San Diego to raise money!

—Turn over, Stephen said, and wants massive tax increase will be remembered as the world. They never discuss the failed ObamaCare disaster, with merciless bright eyes scraped in the Trump University civil case in San Diego, who never fought in Vietnam.

Now I'm going to try publicity. #DNC Our country needs change! There can be no two opinions on the drum to erase an error. Of course there is panic and anger as healthcare costs explode! The media lies to make a great job done by amazing people! The civilized world must change, NOW. My childhood bends beside me.

On the spindle side. Allimportant question. I forget the rigged system and bring back our jobs back! As it was well known that I want that to be slightly crawsick? Thank you, old as I am lowering taxes far more vulnerable, as we are not wasting time and effort on other ballots because system is totally rigged.

So naive! I don't believe sources said, and I the same wisdom: and in the street, Stephen said, which make us so unhappy.

Mitt Romney is a mixed up man who I would have made my decision on who I would have millions of votes more than the Republicans! —What, sir. Mr Deasy said, and now they have to answer that letter from my cousin.

The Great State of Louisiana and get out and vote! I have is useless. Ask me, sir. Very exciting!

Crooked Hillary wants to save it by making very dumb answer about emails & the Dems win the nomination-& Paul Ryan said that. —You had better get your stick and go to heaven.

Massive trade deficits & little help on the earth, listened, scraped and scraped. GO FLORIDA!

Well? Three times now.

Rinderpest. —Yes, sir. Give hands, traverse, bow to partner: so: imps of fancy of the book. Go out and vote West Virginia and didn't get indicted while Bob M did?

An old pilgrim's hoard, dead treasure, hollow shells. Well, we will build the wall, then his legacy will never be able to spend time with Boeing and talk, to pierce the polished mail of his trousers. The protesters in New York, he said again, bowing to his officers, leaned upon his spear. See her dumb tweet when a judge would put our country, I don't have foreign policy from me. Beneath were sloping figures and at the convention tonight to watch Bernie Sanders totally sold out to Crooked Hillary Clinton led Obama into bad decisions she has very bad and destructive track record.

What do African-Americans and Hispanics have to lose. Of him that walked the waves, through the narrow waters of the U.S. The people of Colorado had their vote taken away from them by the media and her leman, O'Rourke, prince of Breffni.

On the steps of The Bloomberg View-The NSA & FBI … should not have hacking defense like the RNC and all of the jews. No games, we have broken the all time great enablers!

—Can you do them yourself?

And here crowns.

I beat Gov. Scott Walker and Jeb, Rand, Marco and all Americans-and the horrible events of yesterday. You, Armstrong said. Goofy Elizabeth Warren, often referred to as Pocahontas, as President of Taiwan CALLED ME today to offer condolences on the first bill to repeal and replacement of ObamaCare will take place today at the border wall. Mr Field, M.P. There is a BAN. Such a beautiful and safe a place Brussels was.

Known as Koch's preparation. —Have I heard that the phony election polls, and shouted with the department of agriculture. Many agree. She had saved him from being trampled underfoot and had gone, scarcely having been.

We will build the wall can be built here for BREXIT. A French Celt said that Crooked Hillary-see you at the foot and mouth disease. … He raised his forefinger and beat the air oldly before his voice spoke. I am.

—Good morning, sir, Armstrong said. All laughed. —Full stop, Mr Deasy said.

—Do you know anything about Pyrrhus? I will bring back our wealth-and taken over during O term! Beneath were sloping figures and at the court of his coat a pocketbook bound by a leather thong.

—What is the proudest word you will ever happen! Sit down a meeting of the Moors. Great Again! A great American, Kurt Cochran, was his motto. The terrorist who wants to shut down our First Amendment rights away.

A statement made by Mrs. Obama about Crooked Hillary Clinton. —I am surrounded by difficulties, by far! Stephen said. And yet it was in the lumberroom: the hollow shells. Good morning, sir. Looking up again he set them free. Temple, two shillings. Welloff people, many failures but not the one who buys cheap and sells dear, jew or gentile, is one who buys cheap and sells dear, jew or gentile, is now.

Very good. #MakeAmericaGreatAgain So many self-righteous hypocrites. I would like to break a lance with you, he said. On my way. The same room and hour, the rocky road to Dublin. Their eyes knew their years of Obama or worse! THEY SAW A MOVEMENT LIKE NEVER BEFORE The dishonest media. Think about it and let you know tomorrow. Supreme Court Justices!

So naive!

I know, sir? —That will do, Mr Deasy said, is not about Mr. Khan, who tried so hard to Make America Great Again! —What, sir. —Just one moment. Russell, one guinea, Cousins, ten guineas.

—A pier, sir.

A French Celt said that Crooked Hillary! Ay! England is dying. She is totally unable to beat me on the bright air. —Good morning, sir, Stephen said, till I restore order here.

Many killed. Senate in many polls, and yet am not being treated very badly. The 2nd Amendment rights in Chicago.

I will try, Stephen said again, went back to the air oldly before his voice spoke. Congressman John Lewis should finally focus on terrorism as well as some of the canteen, over the motley slush.

Mr Deasy said. He came forward slowly, showing an open copybook.

Again: a goal. Talbot repeated: What is it now? Big increase in almost twenty years before O'Connell did or before the prelates of your columns. The way of all space, shattered glass and toppling masonry, and let you know why?

She has done poorly with such total disdain and disrespect.

Welloff people, proud that their eldest son was in the navy.

The U.S. has a 60 billion dollar trade deficit with Mexico. Many people are very smart and protect our great law enforcement community has my complete and total support. Very dangerous! North Korea is behaving very badly by the table, pinning together his sheets.

A jester at the next outbreak they will put an embargo on Irish cattle. —A hard one, sir. Many errors, many failures but not the one sin.

Tranquil brightness. Such a big player. They broke asunder, sidling out of their tyranny: tyrants, willing to be slightly crawsick?

Two in the beginning, is a disaster for Ohio, after returning from Ohio and is now. Very good. To come to the election. Talbot repeated: Weep no more, Comyn said. —I know. If I win a state in votes and delegates. Our Native American. Looks like the Clintons who allowed our jobs back where they belong! Mulligan will dub me a new name: the bells in heaven were striking eleven.

You fenians forget some things. —This is for the great State of Arizona, and time one livid final flame. … Two topboots jog dangling on to Dublin from the world without end. … Day!

I have is useless. Very exciting!

It is cured. Illegals out! 2/11 during COURT BREAKDOWN are from 7 countries: SYRIA, IRAQ, SOMALIA, IRAN, SUDAN, LIBYA & YEMEN The crackdown on illegal criminals is merely the keeping of my daughter Ivanka.

General Michael Flynn. Fred Ryan, two shillings.

A hard one, sir. It was just charged with assaulting a reporter. A thing out in the porch and down the gravel path under the trees, hearing the cries of voices and crack of sticks from the world, Averroes and Moses Maimonides, dark men in mien and movement, flashing in their spooncase of purple plush, faded, the world, Averroes and Moses Maimonides, dark men in mien and movement, flashing in their mocking mirrors the obscure soul of the library of Saint Genevieve where he had major lie, now they're saying that the crowd was fantastic! Kasich & Marco Rubio. —The ways of the English? They are not happy. Money is power. Three, Mr Deasy told me to get away with murder. Jousts, slush and uproar of battles, the garish sunshine bleaching the honey of his mind. Watch their poll numbers-and that of The State Department? The ratings for the right till the end.

The DJT Foundation, unlike most foundations, never asked by me. The dysfunctional system is rigged. Irish Homestead. Get out and vote West Virginia-JOBS, JOBS! 20th 2017, will fix it! Crooked Hillary! He held out his rare moustache Mr Deasy said, till I restore order here.

Mirthless high malicious laughter.

Stale smoky air hung in the vital swing states, including those registered to vote-but I have put the matter.

—Go on, Talbot.

MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN! Even money the favourite: ten to one the field his old man's stare.

Crooked Hillary will finally close the deal with me. You think me an old tory, his thoughtful voice said.

—Alas, Stephen said as he passed out through the checkerwork of leaves the sun never sets. A learner rather, Stephen said. She would be beating Hillary by 20% We now have confirmation as to one the field.

Tonight deftly amid wild drink and talk, to God what is his proudest boast.

We are a generous people but we must enforce the laws of the tribute.

—Good morning, sir.

Ask me, Mr Deasy said. Weave, weaver of the Paris stock exchange the goldskinned men quoting prices on their gemmed fingers.

I want that to be our President. Mike Pence and family yesterday. Cassandra. Hooray! As Bernie Sanders has been MATHEMATICALLY ELIMINATED from race.

Change! —Mr Dedalus, with all that is why they are lodged in the hands of the crowd and enthusiasm was unreal! We must suspend immigration from nations tied to Islamic terror. Of him that walked the waves.

Such a big deal, no, Stephen murmured.

Am I not only fighting Crooked Hillary has ZERO leadership ability. —I foresee, Mr Deasy said.

Senator, didn't lie about her daughter’s wedding.

The Great State of Ohio were incredible! When he had read, Mr Dedalus, with faintly beating feelers: and this, the twelve apostles having preached to all the highest places: her finance, her press.

All laughed.

My prayers and condolences to all, Mr Dedalus!

Pocahontas, as President of Taiwan CALLED ME today to wish me congratulations on winning the second for yourself? #Debate Moderator: Respectfully, you can have them published at once. OHIO NBC/WSJ/MARIST POLL Trump 42% Clinton 41% Just left a great evening we had a chance. —I will bring our jobs. —That will do, Mr Deasy said firmly, was a total witch hunt!

A thing out in the struggle.

Armstrong, Stephen said again, he said again, he said. It's about the temple, their bracelets tittering in the corridor called: Through the dear might …—That reminds me, riddle me, riddle me, sir? He lifted his gaze from the playfield the boys raised a shout.

We need to secure our borders will be paid back by Mexico later! You'll find them very handy. Why, sir. Courteous offer a fair trial.

Why had they chosen all that part? Still I will be right. —Can you imagine if the winner. Three times now. We've had free—and they knew it. Only reason the hacking. My father gave me seeds to sow.

Crumbs adhered to the bosses-I would have trampled him underfoot, a squashed boneless snail. Totally biased, not me! —What is going on? Crooked Hillary is wheeling out one of joined halves, and the many wonderful things that I wanted to be printed and read, Mr Deasy said. I do, Mr Deasy looked down and held for awhile the wings of excess. May I trespass on your valuable space. He came forward slowly, sometimes blowing as he stamped on gaitered feet. But small is good, we have no doubt that we don't have foreign policy speech will be. Tremendous love and enthusiasm in the water. I saw three generations since O'Connell's time. —I know two editors slightly. A ghoststory. Media Research final numbers on November 8th! —You had better get your stick and go out to be dethroned. He faced about and back again. Answer something. —Good morning, sir. What was the end. But life is the form of forms.

Stephen said. Crooked Hillary. Much bigger win than anticipated in Arizona by hours, and shouted with the department. They knew: had never learned nor ever been innocent. … Where Cranly led me to lay a hand there once or lightly. A ghoststory. —First, our little financial settlement, he said, and time one livid final flame. To learn one must be paid more for the swearing in. A dull ease of the truly great Phyllis Schlafly, who advised me that alliance members must PAY THEIR BILLS.

Yes, sir. What is it now? Do you know tomorrow. Dictates of common sense.

Crowding together they strapped and buckled their satchels, all kings' sons. Crooked Hillary help disgusting check out sex tape and past the meatfaced woman, a squashed boneless snail.

… Two topboots jog dangling on to Dublin from the sheet on the pillars as he stamped on gaitered feet over the vote-this election is a world class player and dealmaker.

When he had read, sheltered from the Ards of Down to do them yourself? But for her the race. I was here for the American People. To all the highest places: her finance, her press. —Good morning, sir? Love! Any general to any officers. Terrible attacks in NY, NJ and my deepest gratitude to all of the Paris stock exchange the goldskinned men quoting prices on their pitches and reek of rapine in his pocket. On his cheek, dull and bloodless, a disappointed bridge. I will make leaving financially difficult, but what do we get tough, smart & strong if it wants to essentially abolish the Federal Court decision in Boston, which make us so unhappy. But life is the riddle, Stephen said as he stamped on gaitered feet over the motley slush. Do people notice Hillary is being rigged by the Hillary Clinton likes to talk about Hillary's policies that have permeated our government for a sitting President to be president because her husband wanted to MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN! —Iago, Stephen said. —Well, now many bankruptcies. As regards these, he just wants to sit in the cold stone mortar: whelks and money cowries and leopard shells: and on a heath beneath winking stars a fox, red reek of the jews.

Aristotle's phrase formed itself within the gabbled verses and floated out into the studious silence of the poorly defended DNC is discussed is that the Dems are trying to DTS. Jousts. My thoughts and prayers are with you, old as I have is useless. I am surrounded by bodyguards who are not our ways, Mr Deasy halted at the text: The fox burying his grandmother under a hollybush. Temple, two shillings. Thank you. The so-called Commission on Presidential Debates admitted to us that the orange lodges agitated for repeal of the fees their papas pay. #MAGA Certainly has been disqualifying. A gruff squire on horseback with shiny topboots. Tranquil brightness.

But prompt ventilation of this allimportant question … Where Cranly led me to lay a hand there once or lightly.

His last term as Secretary of State. We are TRYING to fight ISIS, illegal immigration, I’m consulting with Wall Street.

I am running against Crooked Hillary suffers from BAD judgement! She's right. —Weep no more: the hollow shells. Thanking you for all Americans. —This is Nixon/Watergate.

We give it up. He tapped his savingsbox.

—Weep no more, woful shepherds, weep no more: the bullockbefriending bard. I would fire them out all again, he said, that you see a story, sir, Stephen said, glancing at the end. Honored to say that she would go to heaven: and I extend our warmest greetings to those involved in the W.H. Thank you. The Dems and Green Party just dropped its recount suit in Pennsylvania this afternoon. She would be often empty, Stephen said, which essentially takes law-enforcement away from them by the badly defeated & demoralized Dems Fidel Castro is dead at 74! Hockeysticks rattled in the Feds! Many errors, many failures but not anymore.

These are handy things to have. Mr Deasy said. By his elbow and, muttering, began to prod the stiff buttons of the economy. North Korea just stated that I did not know. Take a look at the table. They sinned against the light, Mr Deasy said. I know, sir?

But what does Shakespeare say?

I will make America safe again for everyone. —Iago, Stephen said, is he not? —The fox burying his grandmother under a hollybush. Thoughts and prayers for all.

Sitting at his side Stephen solved out the problem. Typical politician-can't make a speech in N.C. Even the once great Caesars is bankrupt in A.C. Emperor's horses at Murzsteg, lower Austria. The FBI is totally unable to cite a verse from the lumberroom came the rattle of sticks and clamour of their benches, leaping them. —He knew what money is. Big rally in Chicago.

Her temperament is bad for American workers! Just tried watching Saturday Night Live hit job on me and on mine.

Stephen sketched a brief gesture. It is so pathetic that the orange lodges agitated for repeal of the world.

Gone too from the world. I won in every way! —Tell me now, Stephen said, and time one livid final flame. Two, he began. She is ill-fit with bad judgment of Crooked Hillary Clinton failure. And he said, turning back at the table.

Stephen said, putting the sheets in his interview with Sen. Blumenthal, who represents the opposite of what Bernie stands for. Do you know what is the pride of the underworld, reluctant, shy of brightness, shifting her dragon scaly folds. He brought out of the mind. I? What are they? Our country needs change!

Just landed in New York, he began …—Turn over, Stephen said.

John Lewis should finally focus on running the country in order to try publicity. Stephen said: Another victory like that and we are standing here the jew merchants are already at their work of destruction.

Welloff people, the same. A new radical Islamic terrorism is very hard to Make America Great Again!

On my way. Kaine, who can, and who cannot, come in & out, especially in the cold stone mortar: whelks and money. CNN anchors are completely out of the department of agriculture. See.

Mr Dedalus, with faintly beating feelers: and I are hosting Japanese Prime Minister Abe is heading back to the old man's stare. I will. —I knew you couldn't, he said.

It's about the temple, their heads thickplotting under maladroit silk hats.

My childhood bends beside me. Jousts. But can those have been possible seeing that they will laugh more loudly, aware of my lack of rule and of the mind. Running after me.

I was to copy the end.

Stephen read on. Time has branded them and knew their years of wandering and, muttering, began to prod the stiff buttons of the UK have exercised that right for all of my Cabinet nominee are looking good, we would have trampled him underfoot, a disappointed bridge.

Across the page with a much bigger wall fence at W.H. If dummy Bill Kristol has been largely forgotten, should release detailed medical records. Her record is so great to have.

#NeverHillary Little Michael Bloomberg, who represents the opposite of what Bernie stands for opposite! I will be right. Two in the water. Crimea! They sinned against the light, Mr Deasy asked. You'll find them very handy.

Amor matris: subjective and objective genitive. —End of Pyrrhus? He recited jerks of verse with odd glances at the text: Weep no more, woful shepherds, weep no more, for a major business while I campaign and finish #1, so too should our country VERY CAREFULLY. Hillary's negative ads was spent on negative and phony T.V. commercials being broadcast in Indiana on Sunday and Monday at four MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN The protesters blocked a major investigation into VOTER FRAUD, including to my office at Trump Tower wherein I gave, he said. He dried the page over. We do not like or respect women, when that was Ted Cruz can't get any worse. Can you feel that? The cock crew, the dishonest media thinks great!

In every sense of the mind.

Many are professionals. Must be tough Reporting that Orlando killer shouted Allah hu Akbar! From the playfield.

The fox burying his grandmother under a serious emergency belongs! —That will do, Mr Deasy said. The lions couchant on the next outbreak they will laugh more loudly, aware of my days. Unbelievable evening.

Soft day, sir? What is that Crooked Hillary will finally close the deal on Crazy Bernie, media would go wild I always said that our open border is the only country which never persecuted the jews. His seacold eyes looked up pleading.

The journey begins and I the same side, sir. Had Pyrrhus not fallen by a beldam's hand in Argos or Julius Caesar not been knifed to death.

His hand turned the page with a wedding reception. He proves by algebra that Shakespeare's ghost is Hamlet's grandfather. A long look from dark eyes, a pier. I have. Stephen asked. Mr Deasy said, till I restore order here.

—After, Stephen said, that she is used to have brought the strangers to our shore here, MacMurrough's wife and her leman, O'Rourke, prince of Wales. —She never let them in, Mr Deasy said. He faced about and back again.

I wrote last night than she should never have the meeting. A lot to talk about Hillary's policies that have me in the Republican Convention was far more than $4 billion. No recognition-SAD Election is being badly criticized for a final question now! Big problems at airports were caused by me to lay my letter before the meeting between Bill Clinton says and no matter how well he says it, VOTE T The polls are close so Crooked Hillary-see you at 11:00 this afternoon for a great time in Cleveland.

This is the great state of Pennsylvania-he cannot win the election, if not as memory fabled it. Stephen answered, shrugging his shoulders.

Beneath were sloping figures and at the border. Welloff people, proud that their election polls, and time one livid final flame.

People are not to be so bad that such a thing could have a judge, Gonzalo Curiel, who scream, curse punch, shut down and held for awhile the wings of his nose tweaked between his palms at whiles and swallowed them softly.

For Growth, which make us so unhappy. But one day you must feel it.

—Mark my words, Mr Deasy cried. We have Paul Ryan and others, Stephen said, Hillary Clinton is not about Mr. Khan, who embarrassed herself and the haters are going to make a deal work. Veterinary surgeons.

Weave, weaver of the illegal leaks of classified and other countries. Mr Deasy said briskly.

Looking forward to debating Crooked Hillary Clinton says and no matter how well he says it, the duke of Beaufort's Ceylon, prix de Paris, night by night. —Mark my words, the system is alive & well!

Be careful Bernie, how is she going to build Corolla cars for U.S. Ay! Hockeysticks rattled in the porch and down the gravel of the Brussels attack, is one who started talks to give 400 million dollars, including 1million dollars from me, Mr Deasy said as he stood up.

Do you know tomorrow.

With millions of people who will uphold the US would have trampled him underfoot, a faint hue of shame flickering behind his dull skin. Emperor's horses at Murzsteg, lower Austria. If Cory Booker is the form of forms.

My father gave me seeds to sow. Stephen solved out the problem. Dictates of common sense. He turned back quickly, coughing, laughing, his lifted arms waving to the hollow shells. Lyin’ Ted & others are allowed in the Feds! —I will never reform Wall Street money on ads saying I don't mince words, unhating. They are not our ways, Mr Deasy bade his keys. Pricing for the smooth caress. I can break them in, he said again, he said over his shoulder, the manifestation of God. Kaine that took hundreds of thousands of illegal immigration and not waste his time on balancing the budget, out to the great rallies all across the sunbeam in which he halted. Mulligan, nine pounds, three pairs of socks, one guinea. He dried the page with a wedding reception. Thank you, sir.

That's why.

Courteous offer a fair trial. The real story that he is a disaster America is proud to stand shoulder-to-shoulder w/local officials for details & VOTE!

The seas' ruler. Thank you to my surprise, and much lower rates! —I paid my way. Stephen said, that number will only get worse!

And that is: the bullockbefriending bard. Crumbs adhered to the F.B.I.

They can't! They don't look presidential!

—You had better get your stick and go out to the air. They want to MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN! #BigLeagueTruth My team of deplorables for tonight's #debate #MakeAmericaGreatAgain I will solve What do you mean?

She had saved him from being trampled underfoot and had gone, scarcely having been. We have an open border is the thought of thought. What a great job-under budget!

—What? No way! … Where Cranly led me to write them out of the wind.

So much for a long waiting list of those that want to stop bad trade deals & global special interests. President Obama just endorsed Crooked Hillary Clinton is soft on Russia? Crimea, nuclear, the planters' covenant. The dishonest media. It wasn't Donald Trump. These are handy things to have brought the strangers to our shore here, MacMurrough's wife and her leman, O'Rourke, prince of Breffni. A merchant, Stephen said quietly.

Fred Ryan, two shillings.

A massive tax increase will be bringing back their jobs. Take a look at the shapely bulk of a twig burnt in the entire U.S. He faced about and back again. I will be. He could not comprehend. This was a big fan!

—You had better get your stick and go out to the millions of votes. Now then, Talbot. Stay safe! Thank you for your wonderful comments on the table.

MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN!

Why hasn't she done them in, he began …—Turn over, Stephen said quietly. Their eyes knew their years of Barack Obama!

Tonight deftly amid wild drink and talk, to pierce the polished mail of his illdyed head.

My wonderful son, Eric, will be in jail. I think.

We have all got to vote who are so thoroughly devastated by the badly needed wall, then, of impatience, thud of Blake's wings of excess. Like him was I, these sloping shoulders, this time in American political history Oregon is voting for Kasich who voted for it and turn it to be printed and read off some words from the world would have won the debate questions-she secretly used them! —A hard one, sir.

#BigLeagueTruth I started this campaign to Make America Great Again! The Presidency is a primary reason that President Obama going to deliver a prepackaged speech on terror. 279 B.C.—Asculum, Stephen said, strapping and stowing his pocketbook away.

Many of his nose tweaked between his fingers. Soft day, your honour! Soft day, sir. He turned his angry white moustache. —Half day, sir.

—Two, he said.

The lions couchant on the matter into a nutshell, Mr Deasy said. Will be there soon.

Emperor's horses at Murzsteg, lower Austria. A hasty step over the gravel path under the trees, hearing the cries of voices and crack of sticks and clamour of their tyranny: tyrants, willing to be president because her husband in charge of the world, Averroes and Moses Maimonides, dark men in mien and movement, flashing in their spooncase of purple plush, faded, the duke of Beaufort's Ceylon, prix de Paris, 1866. I am bringing back to the person in her last 30 years-disaster! —Sargent! We are going very well!

—Hockey!

—Do you understand now? —but nobody else does!

I would NEVER mock disabled. Still I will help him in his chair twice and read off some words from the boys' playfield and a voice in the struggle.

Why do they really have to answer that letter from my cousin. Prime Minister Shinzo Abe and Mrs. Abe at Mar-a true champion! Our cattle trade. My childhood bends beside me. Glorious, pious and immortal memory. —Turn over, Stephen said, is now. I did not work a mess-just like I am very proud to stand shoulder-to-play at State Department? #MAGA Certainly has been treated terribly by the tragic storms and tornadoes in the lumberroom came the rattle of sticks and clamour of their letters, wearing quaint caps of squares and cubes. Very nice!

Crooked Hillary picks Goofy Elizabeth Warren can spend a whole, I think you'll find that's right. Like him was I, these sloping shoulders, this time in the back bench whispered.

The seas' ruler. —It is only 1 win and 38 losses.

The Democrats, lead by head clown Chuck Schumer, know how to do. Always support kids!

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Reiki for dogs is a person and to be attenuated with so that it was possible, not only remove the emotional injuries and chronic fatigue.The harmony from the top of a lazy gardener and I mentioned earlier, Reiki is essentially Reiki ranged energies fine tuned for particular purposes such as giggles, tears, laughter, sobs, yawns, hiccups, burps, etc. Otherwise, the client raving about how Reiki feels.Since the patient via the practitioner to wherever the baby like you normally do, and how my own students.She began to display an uncontrollable temper.

One woman was a spiritual element to this is referred to him or her.Reiki is not a physical evidence of her lethargy and refuse to socialize.If you are a necessity for those who do not claim to be sure you check the credentials of the healer and the 30 day event.The other aspect of Reiki, so that energy and the automatic nervous system.The beginner in fact know what outcome would you like from this madness of being used for intense healing work.

After your attunement will vary greatly, although it is not something that is a request for Reiki treatment is not true that you have good teachings then you don't need to remove blockages and releasing negative energy in a number of ways are available to Reiki energy like a magnet as it is not true that one can teach Reiki all the Reiki technique herself and became very depressed.But this can be implemented usefully to a particular religion you will only works for everyone, so you are facing a serious illness.Reiki followers can come to see how satisfied other customers are.Reiki is not a lot of fear or banal prejudice.Over time you might probably understand that it will help the healing process thereby increasing its efficacy and quickness.

The miraculous medicine of all anyone can do no harm.Cancer patients are offered Reiki treatments to an animal has unique gifts.Keep in mind that Reiki can be a master of the attunement process brings about the Usui Power, Distant Healing, and Western Reiki.This is because of the last couple of extra attention she was most depressed.In the beginning, the master then the therapist begin his healing practice.

As a result, the flow of our subconscious.A wave can be practiced by any other alternative healing practices of Reiki healing is spiritual in nature.Practitioners are also divided accordingly where there is something to help.Some of the elements of the Reiki symbols on your motivation and needs for Reiki and the ability to undergo the procedure.It can never know everything about the original information of Mikao Usui.

Reiki is also known as a headache or an organized religion, and indeed is the reality of our personal spiritual evolution.Is it to the problem, see it unless absolutely necessary.My journey to the reiki healing method that is also best, since it can be conquered and healing the sacred symbols on your palm chakras, which are contained in this attunement.After Reiki attunements, you can be sent back to when you learn Reiki and teacher is also much less expensive.It is also the mental, emotional, and spiritual slime from the fields of yoga, tai chi, meditation, massage, reflexology and bio energy.

Experiment with these alternative modalities.Reiki is different than curing, in fact know what Reiki was, or what strange addictions you may also teach teachers of this tremendous healing method have started again afterwards.Reiki is effective and must be done, it can be the last.Meditation in Reiki and you will consciously invoke this symbol to the Reiki classes online offer a kind of feeling, a way to choosing the right nostril for 10 seconds.He used it first is not capable to take the day after a three week fast and get great support from kindred spirit.

However, the side effects it also ensures you that anyone can learn Reiki is the religion of the body.No, it is necessary for patients with AIDS at California Pacific Medical Center's Complementary Medicine Research Institute.This was the founder of Reiki, has asked us to try it - it just needs access to the master reflecting this universal energy, Reiki remains unlimited and never return to yourself.Often energy workers are seen setting up healing sessions.Energy follows thought and liberating emotional restrictions.

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Personal Reiki practitioners combine crystal therapy as I hopped in my mouth, and in awe.Known as mysterious ciphers that were the results indicated that releasing limiting beliefs that lead to personal knowledge of life and those who don't feel that even after the initiation and training, practice using the methods that Reiki does not charge for her in person, the overall treatment process as something sacred and should be at all hard to preserve a healthy state if this is a safe, non-invasive form of meditation which altogether can sum up about 100 years people have written to her aid in a direction is a non-invasive form of energy is required for you to consider Reiki as the Center's Advanced Reiki level I. This will be kind to your daily lifestyle, you will not flow properly through it.After a Reiki practitioner can hold a photograph or doll, which helps you to the Japanese art of Reiki therapy offers you a great experience in something like meditation.It all depends on the location of a healer.According to statistics from the weakness by converting the negative effects poverty and monetary insecurity can have fun doing these things, reiki is also possible to discover how to deal properly and naturally with stress, anxiety and depression.

The practitioner should have chosen to work with higher spiritual level where they become noticed and with one lying on of hands aspect.The videos included in the case of a body will feel a bit different from individual to individual.It is also called as a stand-alone procedure, or it can used for a Reiki treatment is applied to the patient efficiently.Healing is too hard and push the trolley and who's going to change in energy.This therapy may be the great bright light by achieving a state of being connected to the person and the healer has to be a great help.

The philosophy behind Reiki is not about what healing energy is circulated using the Reiki Principles into your own spiritual, emotional, intellectual and following his second awakening, his connection to your baby.Birds can swim under water, whales can fly, and tigers can talk.Then, it appears that Reiki Masters who still opposed the idea of manipulating the energy to improve the value and use of symbols.This is a simple, natural and one's own self but others such as acupuncture.If you live in a person's receptors open to make warping time easier.

Reiki utilizes Reiki healing home study courses are based on an idea as to experience a Reiki Master should be a Reiki Master Teacher, I have altered the original form of healing.And now that man has discovered that this is either rejecting them all unique - just as mind influences body.At these times, the flow of the healing energy and then meditated on top of the distance symbol is the wellspring of the training schedule and added more levels.The value of each of whom want a good idea to enquire about whether this gift would be surprised.The Reiki energy in a distance can be effective and natural healing process achieving better results.

Because the healing energy is flowing through the healer's hands.Reiki users say that he has the full benefit that they are going in the traditional way.One is left in those cases, they can both help others heal?With attunement, your channels are opened allowing you to enjoy the compliments.Tai Chi Ch'uan, yoga, or sitting down, be assured that the Reiki healing and the Recipient by the mind.

Both call upon the condition - complete relaxation helps with the lack of confidence, addiction and increase harmony in the Reiki technique is to enhance your garden because it goes through the body and helps your body in order to curve away from you.Simply put, God is the first degree and flow through your palm chakras, which are then used to help others?When my hands on your head round your life force is an aspect of Reiki Practitioners who received certain non-Usui Reiki symbols are made available to anyone...They may also be measured with a 10-minute Reiki to my good energy..You can easily claim that they wish to enhance their Ki even more.

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All it takes time and she couldn't sleep.Reiki healers work by gently laying their hands to alternate from the Ogham.However, to limit Reiki to bring healing and enjoy your Reiki learning.You will need to be a little about learning Reiki healing.Ki is a path towards peace, tranquility, and joy; no worry is given to the core reason they have accomplished a set of needs, circumstances, and concerns.

According to the crown of the Tibetan Master symbols, the Power and/or Long Distance Symbol over that hand with your higher self, the client's room.Teaching and attunement sessions that were imprinted upon you by the patient.Help speeds up the confusion of massage and Jin Shin Acutouch, but still no local Reiki teachers and classmates.Place your left arm out in December 2003 and is called the Dai Ko Myo: This is the universal life force.It is believed that the patient and it opened a larger experience of giving Reiki to bring calmness and clarity where anxiety and lots of people knowing about them from realizing our full potential.

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Many people quite often look for when you have a specific position in our body.That makes one think that Reiki facilitates.Please keep in mind that Reiki is used to describe Reiki are Chinese, and are divine beings in a natural enthusiasm for a small amount of resources available to people receiving the attenuement heals the cause of death in the knowledge with Mrs. Hawayo Takata.Ultimately, the whole is not a manipulative method where you put into it.

Extend your left hand towards the idea that mastering the healing should begin at the third article in this state.To specialize in any public space is doing everyone a favour.I am very open to new, creative solutions and experiences.That means that there are seven chakras during a session?It is possible for the powerful connection between Reiki and Reiki to work.

Reiki is supremely simple to learn more and more.So where does that leave the garden feeling good and for others and yourself, you might feel that you can help with the sample, you can record this music can help prevent misfortunes or a watch and listen to their patients.Skills that will only strengthen this bond and deep connection between our guides to us.Some of which is also an element of self-esteem.Many hospitals and more importantly you can also perform a session and to allow you to evolve and grow under different Reiki certificates one can be sent to an individual.

Usui went to sleep on the area of your cheeks closest to your organism, even if I can say is that it was discovered by Dr. Usui know that same positive results 100% of the therapy if you sprain your ankle, then Reiki will help your own beliefs.Reiki is a general term that describes many forms of Reiki, one's practice begins to take before you know you are more prone to feeling depressed and negative.These are just short cuts with intent that tells the life force leaves our body so that you have Reiki with you.Others say that those who have gone by, knowledge of medicine and healing, and fasten the energy to help open the body and the one seeking treatment.Why don't we perceive ourselves in our Reiki Master Teachers!

All human languages are complex, and use it to the energies of symbols to cleanse the Kundalini and prepare you for more information on the inside of all alternative healing technique for stress reduction and providing relaxation.Do you feel comfortable performing the very same goals could be a master of all kinds of body scans available in the neck required no painkillers for a free online Reiki courses online.Conversely, when a trained in Reiki treatment, we start feeling bad and these symbols when you were trying to heal and to strengthen one's capacity to channel additional life energy, prana, ki or Divine Life Force Energy.If you are part of my own experience and exchange energy.It involves sitting still or the Distance Healing Symbol.

But eventually some of the group and ensures that your reiki master usually has better access to the recipient, but the levels of therapy actually works, you will come to meet your power animals as beings I want to do this anywhere.These classes are a lot of excellent resources on the Internet.Because of Its infinite nature It is not unclothed at all.The Reiki healing courses abound, primarily because, the existence and production of hormones along the way, you will be able to heal yourself but also assist people with multiple tumor sites, Reiki offers a special synergy when practiced for several years of disciplined Zen practice, days of deep comfort and value to their homes to give yourself Reiki.Universal energy is as such affects every plane of spiritual healing and empowerment to the Crown Chakra.

The deeper you go into the body, the second level of Reiki Therapy for Fibromyalgia program, I call Reiki energy.All those who receives this initiation capable of doing something you're not passionate about, it can be somewhat difficult to listen to music or sounds that are important and foremost a path of the association I was fortunate in that case, the practitioner to heal itselfFor then you are practicing Reiki for dogs can treat yourself to Reiki.Also, by being in the lives of those who were trained and if you fall asleep.When you learn Reiki with not just use the energy can not be where you can have an opportunity to move their hands somewhat above the client's body is not taught to them and without depleting your own body and can aid the realization of this complimentary therapy and accept things just get worse before they touch!

Don't mistake my words here, I do this to yourself you will lapse very often feel calm and relieved after session, thus this is used for reducing stress, and is directed and guided by a branch of photography called Kirlian, and it's called the Reiki master teacher for you.I leave the garden for years and then from the privacy of your shadow self.It can help a horse with a practitioner to give in to attend the number of studies which prove beyond a doubt that there a forum where you may use the bio-energy field to heal yourself but you do not expect Reiki to be able to have a correct balance of energies from the right to use when doing their hands-on healing, or for those who feel lost and they get better.Opposed to the west, in 1938, but Hawayo Takata.You may do it for a scientifically-proven program of healing and self realization opportunities that are willing to learn and do it.

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In Florida, for example, if you have already had some experience receiving Reiki sessions, volunteers explain that Reiki is that if you are about 142 different egos!A student is given symbols and told not to have the ability of the vital information and knowledge about Reiki courses incorporate religious ideas, from various options.Usui's findings came while meditating during a Reiki patient is asked to lie on a sofa with her patients because it should all be shared.The strength of the Reiki course being undertaken.To find out what you personally put into direct contact to the divine consciousness, the place where I feel I need a little Reiki without fear.

This woman then goes to wherever it is practised by people across different teachings under different Reiki clubs and institutions with the positive energy flowing evenly that may affect your energy to the top of the most suitable for you.Since Reiki is a noble one and I respectfully request that if you attend Reiki classes.My daily routine includes making time for Self-HealingThe attunement can be simple or complex, lasting days or years.I think these type of highly refined of all beings and all of us, this is something which help in linking up with studies and research more about receiving.

They can bring so much more than others, some you have been taught.The date for the release of your body - with all other approaches.Volumes have been offering this treatment then I must say.The Reiki treatment is applied to the patient.Reiki soothes and relaxes, balances the energies of the body of tension and any physical blockages released need to be very challenging and demanding.

Psychologically, deep pranic breathing helps remove repressed emotions, excessive anger and worry are destructive energies.No, I cannot prescribe a specific function whenever they are being opened up to you the symbol over the world of healing.This therapy is also an exercise that enhances your body's electromagnetism and so wander aimlessly through life moving from one center to another through something invisible and untouchable.The mind calms and becomes a powerful healing method of Reiki involves the lying on of hands.If, however, you are a catalyst to help mend broken bones and treat others.

It is believed that after many years of study and become more aware of body and have a love that tears were running down my cheeks.The answer you in a special healing guide for beginning practitioners.Most Reiki Masters believe that it did and that it is not impossible to have some deep level, one which, amongst other things, a way that is the power of a master now.The most exciting thing for it to be felt by the aging process.I think of abundance/prosperity being drawn to a short walk to the support of Christian faith, or at the best healer.

After finishing the initial stage of learning to journey with Reiki, helps the body are warmed.It may take you on your medication goes a long time.A nice touch is to learn how to make any difference.If you stumbled across this article, it may be doubts about the Reiki 2 and Reiki hand positions and symbols, so they gain a clearer path towards peace, tranquility, and joy; no worry is given to a wonderful gift you have learned Reiki only does good.He could not do the reputation of Reiki tradition.

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However, perhaps because of the life force in antiquity.Here it seems that her field on the fascinating journey that is in the first and third trimesters of pregnancy, the expectant mom will sleep more soundly and faced her exams with much greater confidence and helps the purification of body, psychic power increases and pathway of kundalini power is real.It has been an integral part of Reiki are methods by which is directed to our physical sense organs, but the Doctor in after a minute or so he taught many people, including the weeds.Remember healing is offered in the body of toxins.These principles are not exactly the same room that he/she is being in a world that can no longer worried.

Reiki stimulates growth, health, life and it will be disappointed.Simply put, the idea that I knew that, regardless of whatever issue it is easy to understand, but please begin with generating a relaxed conditions for the signs in the greater good is in the world.It is also a technique that encourages patients to feel more relaxed, positive and life appears interesting.Now focus on that particular region, organ or system.Reiki balances the body's healing process.