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colorlessrose · 9 months ago

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"I know you have good intentions, BUT..."

"I'm sure you meant well, BUT..."

"I understand you're just trying to help, BUT..."

BUT WHAT. Apparently having a "good heart" or wanting to be helpful doesn't mean shit anymore.

#leave me the fuck alone I'm neurodivergent #I'm so fucking tired of not being enough #I don't want to try anymore

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running-in-the-dark · 1 year ago

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I'm just so tired

#and. I only saw my partner for an hour today.#I get up late so that part isn't his fault... but he had *all day* on his own and still decided he wanted to go back to playing video games #after we watched one episode of leverage together #we bought a board game like... almost a month ago now. and every weekend I say hey it'd be nice if we maybe tried out that game (that he #said was interesting too!)#but nope it just doesn't happen. he sits at his computer all weekend and every weekday evening.#I'm just tired man. I'm so tired #I don't want to try anymore #it shouldn't feel this hard #personal #(haha straight people can't communicate with their partners wow straight women are so stupid blah blah blah. I'm gonna punch someone)#(not straight not a woman and fucking hell how is it the other partner's fault if one of them just won't fucking LISTEN. or TALK actually.#like fuck off with that shit man)

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spaceoutdreamer · 2 years ago

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#story time #why though #I don't want to try anymore #I don't want to exist anymore #I only have like one friend left #And Guizmo #I can't do this anymore bros #Did NOT sign up for this

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tyler-blogs · 5 months ago

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Can I just go MORE THAN ONE FUCKING WEEK WITHOUT A GODDAMN CRISIS?

October - Broken Arm, Upper Respiratory Infection that Will Not Go Away, Student Death #1

November - Grandma Sick, Student Death #2, Sucking at my Job

December - Car Breaks Down, Grandma Dies, Broken Arm Complications (Stopped Healing), Stressful Christmas, Other Grandma is Sick

January (so far, it's only been 2 days!) - Student Death #3!

Oh and we are getting SNOWMAGGEDON this fucking weekend so there is that.

#I fucking give up #life is exhausting #I don't want to try anymore #personal #thank god I have therapy appt soon

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big-moon-little-moon · 6 months ago

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so called TPK enjoyers once they realize their graph paper wife is a part of the P that's supposed to get TK-ed

bonus:

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 3 months ago

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Maybe we never had a chance.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #a-yuan #Ultimately...despite how hard we try to reach people - sometimes it just is not possible.#Sometimes all you can do is wish that things could have been different. You pen a note with all the things you want to say -#and then you let it go. The words stay unsent and unspoken. You just watch the rift between you grow until you're too far away to try again #It is a sad end! It is two people who want to be closer but do not have the right capacity to do anything but shut doors.#Worse yet; it's two people who feel it is not their place to try and impose anything more.#It takes so long to heal from endings like that. You never get enough closure when there is still a faint hope of 'another day'.#It's a false amicability. It's closing a door and telling yourself that at least the windows are unlocked.#WWX will keep up his friendliness as a way to hold LWJ at a distance. LWJ can only try to help so many times.#Speaking of tragedies of trying to help; Let's talk about the addiction metaphors in this episode.#WWX tells LWJ in fairly straightforward terms that he does not *want* do be doing ghost cultivation.#What he wants is to protect people - by any means necessary. If he had another option he would take it.#The path WWX 'chose' is one that is deeply mired in external shame and taboo. He jokes about it but it clearly doesn't feel great.#And I put 'chose' in quotes because just like many who find them selves in bad situations - the choice is an illusion.#He's adamant that this is 'his' choice. That he is in control.#Better to be villainized that endure the terrifying reality that you lack any ability to have choice anymore.#If he had the choice - truly had the choice - he would not be doing this.#You can't help those who don't want to be helped. So of course all LWJ can do is watch from the side. Offer a hand when he can.#This life was a tragedy and the countdown to it all blowing up started a long time ago...

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vincentvangoghs · 16 days ago

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When Tommy saved Bobby for the second time—this time eight years in the past—it flashed me back to last summer, when Tim Minear posted a BuckTommy video to his facebook.

In that video, a fan effectively highlighted the concept of 'Invisible String Theory' and how it related to BuckTommy as a pairing, while also pointing out how this made Tommy Kinard stand out as not just a unique and effective love interest for Buck, but also an influential character for the direction of the show in general.

So, having a new flashback where Tommy is the one to save Bobby in the past, when it could have just as easily been anyone else who saved him, adds even more contextual layers to the concept. Because had Tommy not intervened at this moment, Bobby likely would have fallen into the inferno and died, leading to the alteration or complete erasure of just about everything we have witnessed in the show since 1x01--never mind just Buck no longer meeting Tommy. It makes me consider that the concept of ‘Invisible String Theory’ may have actually resonated with Minear in a truly influential way once it was brought to his attention, via that video or elsewhere, and that he didn’t just post that video for mere fandom points. Because with this latest development, we have veered away from ‘accidental Invisible String Theory’, to what appears to now be intentional. With this latest development, the writing continues to integrate Tommy into the show’s past and present, while further establishing a strong foundation for his place in the show’s future. It's yet another solid piece of evidence pointing to true longevity for the BuckTommy pairing.

Hen has her Karen, Maddie has her Chimney, Athena had her Bobby, and Buck will have his Tommy.

#911 abc #bucktommy #yet another reason why i do not understand the skepticism surrounding a reconciliation. it's very clear minear loves tommy as a character #and wants him with buck. they're obviously going to work through their troubles and become a stable long term couple.#i mean... it's not even just a blueprint anymore. there is brick and wood and glass forming a very solid foundation here.#personally? unless oliver and/or lou decide to leave the show - i see them moving in and getting engaged in season nine.#and a wedding in season ten.#too optimistic? as a thirty-four-year-old viewer who has been down the film and television road for decades - i don't think so.#i think the set up is overwhelmingly there and tim minear isn't even trying to hide it at this point.#any major skepticism and negativity is a you problem.#that’s not to say things can’t go wrong - like an actor choosing to step away or minear being replaced with a showrunner who wants to #take buck in a different direction. but the intent to reconcile the pair is CLEARLY there - as it currently stands - with STRONG signs of #longevity rooted within the intent.#tommy kinard #911 spoilers

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iizuumi · 10 months ago

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Side effects of wearing your sentient Kaiju suit too often ,,,,

#hoshina soshiro #kn8 #kaiju no. 8 #my art #kaiju no 10 #hoshi10 #FINALLY I GOT TO DRAW BODYMERGE HOSHI10 #this is my favourite form of existence for them my brain is spinninnggggg #it's so sexy to me to imagine hoshina trying to take off the suit and he just can't get it off without peeling his own skin off shcjsnfjs #10 so pleased with this situation #hoshina panic but also he cant tell anyone becazse then they'd definitely take 10 away from him #and we don't want that #brain spinning so hsrd i hope he curls up in his room and hides while the suit slowly merges ro his body #until one of his boyfriends finds him ofc hhhhh #rushing him to medical but they can't change him back to human anymore #can you see I've been thinking about this ancjsixbsia #I'll see myself out

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cherryysocks · 7 months ago

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i'm me again... feels like it's been years...

#my art #flashing gif #flash warning #tw flashing #gif #i saw the tv glow #isttvg #digital art #made with toonsquid #oc art #just wanted to make a short clip for this audio but then inspo from a certain movie took hold..#don't know who exactly i feel like anymore but im trying harder to love every version of myself

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running-in-the-dark · 2 years ago

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it's just. really really hard to find the motivation to keep going, you know? when everything just keeps getting worse. when nothing feels permanent.

#like #idk I just #I just want to live in a tiny little house. like a cottage or something #except we don't have anything like that here #there's so few houses for rent and all of them are huge and very expensive #I don't want to try anymore

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thekittyokat · 1 year ago

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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again #the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys #saw #well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand #know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows #your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn #thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down #something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness #the transformation of a man into a monster #and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption #sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this #do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore #it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating #fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn #i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him #until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else #well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God #where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium #anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus #maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man #i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed #if only he hadn't been weaponized first #god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already #but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there #rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts #ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly #cat chat

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ramibow · 10 months ago

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It always makes me so sad thinking about how much Mammon gets dunked on in cannon (to an almost obnoxious degree) so I'm choosing to ignore that in favor of these two being besties.

#obey me #om asmodeus #om mammon #obey me game #obey me shall we date #my art #i wanted to draw more stuff but i got tired :(#i've been trying to get back into obey me but i'm tired of the cannon stuff #we don't want her anymore

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pink-n-greennneerg-n-knip · 15 days ago

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