colorlessrose
Drained Of Color And Feeling
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colorlessrose · 11 days ago
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I feel like I'm going genuinely actually insane
I can feel my heartbeat too much and it's making me angry
I'm so alone i can feel a hole in my chest and it fucking hurts
I'm scared
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colorlessrose · 14 days ago
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I don't have the physical ability to do manual labor.
I don't have the emotional capacity to do retail or customer service anymore.
What the fuck am I supposed to do to make money
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colorlessrose · 27 days ago
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unfortunately im better as a concept and ruin everything eventually
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colorlessrose · 28 days ago
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this is not living this is just surviving and i’m tired of working to be alive
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colorlessrose · 1 month ago
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I know there's no god
Or if there is, it's a cruel unjust one
To give me abandonment trauma
And then let everyone in my life leave me
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colorlessrose · 1 month ago
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I'm a burden!! I'm annoying!! I will not be missed!!
Even my partner wants me to shut up!! Not even my partner wants to fuck me!! She's the only fucking person who actually puts any effort into any kind of relationship with me and even she is fed up with my bullshit!!!!
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colorlessrose · 1 month ago
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if they wanna talk to you, they will. if they wanna be with you, they will. if they wanna make things work, they will. don’t let things be one sided. it’s not healthy, and it’s not fair to you.
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colorlessrose · 1 month ago
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I love getting stitches and then cutting them off and cutting even deeper! Soooo here are some pics for you💕
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colorlessrose · 1 month ago
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"abandonment issues" "trust issues" - at this point i’m the issue
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colorlessrose · 1 month ago
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colorlessrose · 1 month ago
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I'm starting a new job tomorrow and I'm really nervous because I don't completely know what to expect
I have an overwhelming urge to just hide in a closet until it goes away but I can't do that because then I'd be ✨unemployed✨
And we can't get through another winter with me fucking unemployed, we're on the verge of broke as it is
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colorlessrose · 2 months ago
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Sometimes not having my boobs anymore makes me even more dysphoric
Like before at least my curves were balanced and I had a somewhat attractive female body
Now I'm still fat and I don't even have the boobs to make up for it
Do I want a female body? No. But at least my body was appealing to someone. Now I'm just fat
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colorlessrose · 2 months ago
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colorlessrose · 2 months ago
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My car won't start and I'm a burden to my partner and no one gives a shit about me
If I didn't feel so guilty about leaving all my shit for my partner to deal with I'd just go jump off a cliff right now
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colorlessrose · 2 months ago
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colorlessrose · 2 months ago
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I've always been the odd one out.
I got lucky in middle school and got along with a group of other misfits that tolerated me, and then kept with them when most of us went to the same high school.
When I moved high schools, I had no one. No one from back home kept in touch, and no one at the new school gave a shit about the weird new kid.
When I went to college, I had no one but my classmates in the same major as me, and my one roommate. None of them stayed in touch after we graduated.
When I became an adult, the only friends I've ever had were the friends of whoever I was dating.
At this point it's pretty obvious the problem is me.
No one wants me around. No one wants me in their life. No one cares enough to keep in touch.
Loneliness hurts, but at least it's familiar.
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colorlessrose · 2 months ago
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Alcohol is a coping mechanism that has become very normalized in our society. I understand it can be yucky to see people do it but keep in mind many people keep in mind they are human too and many people do it to escape from their struggles.
Literally how desperate do people have to be, to have the need to get so drunk to lose control over themselves… this is so embarrassing and disgusting🙃😂🤡
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