#I don't want to die alone

[mobpd]

probably going to attempt to take my life tomorrow

[plotbunnyfarm]

I think I'm good at taking rejection until it actually happens and then I spend the next month in The Sads instead of putting myself back out to meet new people

[gabriel-rorke]

I wanna blow my brains all over a wall, I'm such a failure. I cant ever do something good that sticks, everyone eventually fucking leaves me and forgets me completely and I don't know what to do anymore. I do what I love and it's not working. I just want to make other people happy but I can't when there's no one around to make happy anymore. I miss when I used to have friends/ moots or wtv. it's embarrassing to say but Tumblr and tik tok are my only socialization. why do I get jealous so easily. I just want to be known I want to be good at something for once. I want to rot. I dont want to die alone but I dont know how long I can stay in the cycle for any longer. Its fucking horrible, I just want to be good at something and let that be my personality. I cant fucking count how many people who js left and stopped talking to me, its fucking shitty and I hope you realize that.

[insanefemme]

Meeting new people stresses me the fuck out

Maybe it wasn't a good idea to start interviewing for jobs and also starts going on tinder dates

I'm lining up 3 dates for january and urgh it's gonna stress me out so much but I need to start going on dates 😭

[knifearo]

being aromantic is like. hey btw you're going to live a life that is the culmination of most of society's worst nightmares. sorry lol ✌️ but then you turn around and take a really good hard look at it and it turns out that living in that nightmare is fucking awesome and you get to wake up every day and take that fear that other people have and laugh and hold it close until it's a great joy for you instead. and being happy is a radical act that you define instead of someone else. and you're sexy as fuck that's just a fact of life i don't make the rules on that one

[slightlybasicbiscuit]

Grandma : Don’t get distracted! Finish nursing school!

Grandma : have you met anyone interesting? It’s a good thing you don’t have a boyfriend you might not finish school. Do you think God is calling you to be single? I know a woman from church she was called to be single, she’s 35.

Aunt M works at a middle school with a someone eligible and tells Mom and Grandma.

Grandma is like go for it, but don’t until you are graduated and pass the NCLEX in June. It’s March. My aunt isn’t in school in June.

[akqrus]

Me defending Marinette from the ppl who say ''OOH but it's HER fault that Gabriel Agreste was a SHITTY father and killed himself instead of owning up to his mistakes, so she chose to let Adrien live carefree instead of living the rest of his life known as a villain's son!!'':

[copypastus]

Nothing gave me more whiplash IN MY LIFE than going from acowar to acofas.

Remember when Feyre closed the chapter on her relationship with Tamlin and wished him well? Coz the Inner Circle sure keeps forgetting.

[team7-headquarter]

Never getting over the panel of Sakura kneeling on Sasuke and Naruto's blood. Something about how many tears she has cried for them, how she worked so hard in case she needed to save their lives one day, how perfectly she fits into the space left where their arms used to be...

Also Naruto and Sasuke looking at her as she cries and heals them? The gentle glow of her own chakra made to mend what is broken? Naruto and Sasuke saying thank you and I'm sorry to her???

That moment is so gentle compared to the war they just fought, it might kill me.

[copperbadge]

For some reason or other, I occasionally appear nonexistent to certain entities -- either because of a slightly unorthodox address, a weird aspect of my name, or an uncertainty surrounding my phone number. Or for no reason I can fathom!

The list currently:

US Post Office: Actually we're cool now. It did not believe I existed until 2022, but saw the light and was converted, and accepts me into its life.

Chicago Public Library: Persistently skeptical I exist, but suspiciously accepts my claim if I can show my voter registration card (they literally would not take my PASSPORT but took my voter registration card as proof of my existence). Due to this suspicion, requires me to make any payments in exact change.

Illinois State Lottery: Has not believed in me for years, but still sends me email ads, like a girlfriend who broke up with me but drunk texts for a hookup without remembering we live in different time zones.

NEW ADDITION:

Tinder: refused to even consider my existence and banned me while I was trying to register. Whatever Illinois State Lottery told you about me was a lie, I swear!

[strathspey]

so, so, so much.

i miss you

[sideprince]

I resent getting dragged into the discourse but it's wild to me that there are people out there who read the HP books and laud Harry for being brave and having a big heart and redeeming the wizarding world with his unusually great ability to love, yet can't comprehend how he could learn to appreciate Snape's sacrifice.

I'm very specifically thinking of the fact that Harry watches Snape die. Snape, who is lying on the floor, gripping Harry's robes, and whose eyes Harry is looking into and seeing the life leave. I don't understand how people can humanize some fictional characters and treat them as if they were real and completely dehumanize another. Not even for Snape's sake, but for Harry's sake, do these people not understand what it is to watch someone die? What's the expectation, that the Capacity For Love Posterchild protagonist steps out of character and doesn't care about the guy he watches bleed out and die suffering because you, as a reader, don't like him?

Which is it? Does Harry have a huge capacity to love or not? Pick a lane. Either you value this character trait in Harry or you don't. But you have to take or leave everything it comes with, otherwise you're a hypocrite. Or maybe illiterate.

I just don't GET it.

[mikansei]

i'm thinking about the guards outside aventurine's room in the reverie. stuck working a boring security job on THE planet of festivities, stationed outside a room in boring reality where someone's literally just sleeping all day. absolutely jackshit to do.

but there's no way aventurine would trust just any old grunt to guard him when he's that vulnerable; they had to have been hand-picked, personally vetted over years of working for him. it's no small feat to become someone aventurine trusts not to stab him in the back, even with the built-in insurance that if you shank your boss, he can't sign your paychecks anymore.

so they were familiar enough with him to know how he works, i.e., pulling off insane stunts and doing it solo. i have to think they're the kind of people who would've wanted to join him - not because they're sore about not getting to see the dream, but because they want to guard him IN the dream. you have a whole team of us, boss! put us to work!

and he keeps insisting no, he has to do it alone. it's too risky.

what could notorious gambler aventurine possibly find "too risky?" it's not that he thinks they'll slow him down or get in his way; it's not that he just prefers working alone or hates relying on others. that's what other people, in other departments, might think.

but these guys know: he does these missions solo because he doesn't want to risk their lives - that's the unacceptable risk to him.

(they also know not to ever say so aloud, because said notorious gambler has a reputation to maintain, and "worries about his employees' wellbeing" does not fit the image.)

[astro-b-o-y-d]

Me? Taking a sentence from what is essentially a joke Valentine and thinking too hard about it in terms of Bill characterization? ...Nuh-uh.

[thequeenofsastiel]

Armand doing anything in s3 other than guarding Louis from the vampires who will attack him would be EXTREMELY out of character and I will die on that hill.

[trashmouthsworld]

OH. OH GOD-