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Rather than responding with anger and harassment towards people asking for male or non-binary MCs in otome games, we should respond with information like this. The whole "I want games like otome games but with MCs and LIs of varied genders" conundrum is exactly what the "amare" label was created for, so let's spread the word and help educate people on the difference!
No dev should feel obligated to add a male MC to a game clearly marketed as "otome". That label has a distinct meaning and is used to help the game's target audience find it and know it's for them.
That said... I've definitely played plenty of games where I thought to myself, "Gee, I wish I could play this as a female character." Didn't mean I didn't like the game or had something against it. Quite the opposite! And I don't think there's anything wrong with expressing that desire as long as there's no demand or expectation attached. This kind of feedback can help developers better understand their actual audience - which may differ drastically from their intended audience - and could influence decisions regarding how to approach future projects.
We've definitely seen the above happen with popular game franchises like Harvest Moon (Story of Seasons) and Pokémon. Both started out with exclusively male protagonists, but have slowly become more inclusive over time as they realized how much these games appealed to players outside of their original intended audience.
But, you know, there also has to be enough of a ROI (return on investment) to make it worth it. The more advanced you make the character customization, the more money, time, and resources you'll need to make it happen. The extra cost just won't be worth it for every game, especially indie games. It might seem simple on the surface, but a properly integrated character customization system will change everything about a game. Some examples:
Character design
is the player limited to a selection of presets? or can they create their own character "from scratch"?
if the player can create their own character, how do you decide which hair, hair color, skin color, eye color, eye shapes, nose shapes, ear shapes, face shapes, body shapes, mouth shapes, expressions, shirts, pants, shoes, underwear, earrings, hats, glasses, tattoos, scars, etc. options to include? how will you make them look cohesive no matter what combination the player chooses?
will the MC be animated? if so, how will you make sure all the different pieces in all the different possible combinations fit and don't clip into each other?
if a character is meant to be romanceable, what makes them attractive? are they too old/too young for the MC or otherwise problematic? do they have enough depth as a character to create a compelling romance?
Gameplay design
how does the player's appearance or gender factor into the game?
do characters react differently to different genders or races?
how would that play into the story's themes?
should characters be able to change their appearance? if so, how and under what conditions?
should characters be able to change their gender? if so, what problems will that cause from a system limitation standpoint?
if some romance options are locked down by gender, what happens if you change your gender?
is there pregnancy? if so, how does that affect battle, farming, etc.?
UX design
is the MC shown in-game?
does the MC's portrait/sprite/model reflect the player's choices? what about cutscenes or CGs?
look and feel for new screens for initial character customization and possibly another once the game is in-progress, etc.
System architecture (if you do this wrong, your code will be a mess and your game will run like crap)
how will you keep track of the player's pronouns and other customization options?
how will you make sure your 1000+ assets representing all the possible options for your customized character will be optimized and loaded efficiently without the player having to download a 1TB game?
do you need to keep track of different pronouns, pet names, etc. across different languages?
how do you make sure the correct MC portrait/sprite/model is displayed?
if there are interactions specific to gender, race, etc., how do you keep these organized and determine which one to use?
(see also all the other things under Game Design that have programming implications)
it's interesting how every month or so (usually on twitter) there will be male-centric discourse on otomes, typically "why won't more otomes let me play as a man" or "why do I have to date men in otomes", in much more volume than there was years ago. I can only imagine that these sentiments typically stem from general anime fans trying to get into otomes with the misconception that dating sim = otome and vice versa.
for those unaware, not every dating sim is an otome and not every otome is a dating sim (though quite a few are). otome, as we define it in English-speaking fandoms, is a game with a female protagonist and male love interests. the kind of MC (faceless; customizable look & gender; fully fleshed out background), the length of the game, and the amount & gender of the love interests have varied over the years, but the constant is that otome has the choice to play as a female MC with at least some male LIs. most otomes are a type of visual novel, while dating sims are a subset of the visual novel medium focused on stat raising. dating sims can be any kind of romance orientation and not all romance visual novels are dating sims.
so because there's this misconception some have of what an otome actually is, we get repeating discourse every few weeks/months where someone comes to the ice cream shop asking for chicken tenders. that's not what we serve here. a lot of times these people mean well- they just want a certain kind of game but don't know the right terminology for it. sometimes they don't mean well and the conversations devolve into misogyny, but we're not here to discuss that aspect of it.
as more people become aware of visual novels and dating sims as a whole, these are the kind of growing pains the audience is going to face sadly. aside from telling people to Google terminology, I will leave you with this- if you see someone or you're interested in playing otome-like games that aren't just female MCs or male LIs, mess around with tags on itchio and you'll find a plethora of indie romance visual novels.
gay visual novels - boys love visual novels - yuri visual novels - dating sims - lgbt visual novels - romance visual novels
#visual novels#otome#amare#amare game#VN genres and culture#Sorry this turned into a tangent about the complexity of adding character customization in game design...#I don't want to delete it though
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I'm really genuinely so confused as to why I keep getting asks from people telling me that they hope Tommy dumps or even kills Lucy and ends up with Lizzie instead. I've gotten multiple variations at this point of "Lucy deserves to be raped/killed/otherwise hurt because how dare she get in the way of Tommy and Lizzie's happiness." I've just been deleting and ignoring them, but it's gotten to the point where there've been so many that I legitimately do not understand what is happening or what I did to cause this kind of reaction.
Like, I get it. A lot of you love Lizzie and ship her with Tommy. I have never had any problem with that. But if that's the type of story you're after, GO READ SOME FUCKING LIZZIE X TOMMY FICS AND LEAVE ME ALONE.
This series has never been marked as a Lizzie x Tommy story. I'm so confused as to why so many seem to expect that relationship to be the endgame of the series, and not the one that the series is actually tagged with and written around. I'm really starting to question my own writing abilities at this point. Has my depiction of Tommy and Lucy's relationship actually been that off-putting? Is Lucy really that unlikable that everyone hopes she ends up alone and miserable for the rest of her life, or even fucking dead?
I just don't understand. Someone please explain it to me.
#might delete this later idk i'm just tired and frustrated and ranting right now because what the fuck#as a side note i don't EVER want to hear anything about lizzie fans being nicer/better than grace ones ever again#i've gotten hate and harassment from both at this point and i can say that each camp is truly AWFUL in their own right#though at least grace fans have never openly told me that they hope my oc gets violently raped and murdered#so they've got that going for them for now i guess#i always figured lucy wasn't really all that well liked and that this storyline would be controversial#but damn i never could have expected this kind of reaction#and no before some of you get all bent out of shape i'm obviously not talking about all lizzie and grace fans#you know the type of fans i'm talking about#lily babbles
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quick and loose (24 hours and counting) thing i tried to finish before move-in i'm calling it here i was defeated 😔 let's see if i can finish it before classes actually start (no) featurnig partial view of my krita setup (default) god be with ye all i need to be doing last minute packing in five-odd hours and then i will not sleep for four entire months god be with y'all
#ian beale#mira ramachandran#wip#art wip#look guys if i finish this it'll usurp what i think is the what a creep animation as my longest finished ian project#if things go to plan my other project will dwarf this#has already dwarfed it at least threefold i think#my courseload last semester was so light that i had like twenty hours free each week to do rb art#and do other responsibilities and have a social life i think i only turned down social activities once for it#i'm expecting to get obliterated this semester though so if i don't finish this#and i don't want to flunk out and i'm not wrong#and if i actually have self control#like 50/50 may not have art for a while. but maybe not look guys i'm so good at not getting sleep#man idk how to write dialogue is been a hot minute#will i delete this wip later maybe idk i'm frazzled and tired i really shouldn't be on this rn#anyways it was a great summer with all of you!!!!#had a great time pushing myself creatively and artistically#very inspired#thank you all
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#not a vent just a journal entry (feel free to scroll past; there is no snz here and this is also not that interesting)#realizing now that i never thought of myself as#someone whose absence would register to others in any other way than just neutral/detached recognition?#phrasing this really badly and i am truly going to delete this later bc it is embarrassing LOL#i think when i was young and posting all this fic into questionable places (the f*rum) i was like#(@ an unfinished work of mine) no way anyone could be bothered by these cliffhangers 👍 they can just imagine the ending#even though i would frequently be bothered by other people's cliffhangers. that exact same principle just wouldn't apply to me in my head#and when i did not respond to people i was like.. i'm sure i wasn't really an important part of their lives so they won't mind it#if i stepped away?#i never really entertained the concept of people missing me or looking forward to my responses 😭 i never thought of myself as someone worth#missing... so when i disappeared it was always with little to no sense of guilt. i think even now i struggle with#seeing myself as someone that inhabits like a tangible enough space in other people's lives that my absence would be felt#(and i don't mean that in a morbid way. and i do recognize that it's quite hypocritical)#on the flipside of things i frequently miss people and look forward to their responses. and sometimes i wonder like#do they all know? do they all know that i miss them because they somehow understand this aspect of human nature better than i do?#or are they in the dark like i am? are these things assumed or are they only known when they are said... 😭#i am a little bit of a coward so i am not saying anything (also because can you even say this kind of thing to someone??#i would probably die of embarrassment) but#how strange it is to have someone suddenly inhabit a space in your life that is substantial enough that#when they're gone you feel that space open up and you miss them#the few times in my life people have conveyed that sentiment to me i remember feeling puzzled that my presence could have that kind of#weight to them. i think my problem is that i purposefully do not read between the lines if the conclusion is something favorable towards me#because i don't want to bank on something good that might or might not be true 😭 anyways this is way too long already. if you read this#then good morning or goodnight
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There's nothing I wouldn't do cause love is crazy, I'm crazy too...
I Would - Lower Than Atlantis
#guardian#shen wei#zhao yunlan#twabbbiih's edit#zhen hun#weilan#don't zoom in on that last one#the quality is not great#Unfortunately it's one of my favourite scenes though so i constantly want to use it but i always realise too late that the text colour#Ive picked does not work well there and so i improvise because I'm stubborn#He swims with sharks because he tries to sneak around dixing in a disguise get it?#I think I'm so clever when I'm tired (i am not)#I say this after having deleted the original tags on here where i was being unhinged and thinking I was onto something#*hurls this into the void*
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Mmmhhh
#The biggest betrayal of my life has happened that is:#A friend insisted on me to read something and then when I finally started reading it lost interest in it.#And now I have no one to talk about it because if I'm interpreting things right they don't want to talk about it anymore 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#Hashtag betrayed hashtag heartbroken#Anyways............ I have Questions about the jj/k plot can anyone help me out#Or is everyone as clueless about what's going on all the time as the author is#My plan was to catch up by the time the manga ended but I'm not even sure when it does end?#I read it somewhere it was on the 30th but I suppose the raws are out already#I'm at chapter 237 right now I should be done between tonight and tomorrow of I speed through#random rambles#delete later#Thinking of it it makes me a little shy to admit I've been reading it‚ I've read so many bad things in the past about it#I've been enjoying it so far tho#Edit: The “I have questions can anyone help me out” part is serious btw.#Though I suppose I should stop asking for help via little tags little people read ahah#Edit 2: J/UJUTSU KAISEN. I'M READING THAT.
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Do you take commissions? If so, do you have a commission sheet? I’m sorry if this is an annoying ask I just really love your work lol
not annoying at all! i really really appreciate this a lot, thank you!
i have done commissions in the past on other platforms, but for now i am not taking them here. i'm not saying that i never will, because sometimes life is.. you know. Like That™️. but for now i'm steering clear of it to try and keep my passion up! 👍
#i also frankly think- and i don't say this to be rude- but i think that most folks in fandom would think my work is overpriced#because i charge somewhat more professional rates. still not a living wage. still not what you could get as a non-freelancer#(deleted a lot of rambling about prices here but if anyone does want to hear it i can go into it sometime)#kirby characters are generally far more simplistic so it would be a whole different pricing bracket#but i think expectations in fandom seem different to an original content community where people are doing this for a living#the one person i've commissioned in fandom i was so shocked at the rate i paid like... 500% what they asked me.#(that is not hyperbole. i 'tipped' 400% and it still felt like the bare minimum. you *must* tip undercharging artists.)#anyway. i have a lot of thoughts about monetising my art but at the moment this is still a no. i'm sorry!#i do really genuinely appreciate it though! if i ever open them i'll be sure to post here about it!#i'd also like to do art trades a little more regularly in the future (not rn) ; so there's that too? but we'll see. again i'll post about i#starflungs personal tag
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just a quick ask to tell u it makes me super happy seeing the detail u go into when pointing out stuff u like about other people's art of ur ocs :3 it's so rare to see but it's so so motivating!! <3
Thank you! I don't take any interest for my art for granted, and if someone goes through the trouble of drawing my characters for me, I feel like trying to write a proper response is the least I can do. For a visually oriented person, receiving gift/fan art is a huge deal, it means someone considered my goobers worth their time and effort, they've probably been thinking about them more than a little and found them inspiring in a way or another, and I find that terribly flattering. It's extremely fun and interesting to see other people's takes on them. And I've drawn stuff for people as well, I know how nice and rewarding it feels to receive a response that is longer than a word or two. Positive comments like that can linger in people's minds for a long time, at least for me they do.
#this comes with a big serious disadvantage though#it often takes me a long time to write that response#my social batteries are extremely small and a lot of the time by the time I go online I feel too worn out to engage with people properly#I'm autistic anxious and severely depressed my spoons are in short supply at the best of times#I've always had really hard time putting my thoughts into words in a way that I find satisfactory#so I keep putting off reblogging gift art#because most of the time my brain is too smushed to formulate that meaningful comment I want to give#maybe that sounds dumb and fake#but this is something I've struggled with for years and I feel extremely guilty for keeping people waiting like that#often weeks sometimes months even#and potentially making them feel underappreciated and unnoticed#I'm also genuinely very scatterbrained and unorganized and I miss and forget things I'm supposed to do all the time#not to mention that I tend to have trouble keeping track of my mentions and dms and asks I'm only one person#so if you've ever drawn something for me and I didn't/haven't responded yet#please know it's not personal it's entirely my fault I'm kind of a mess#and chances are I'm still very much attempting to get back to you#feel free to remind me if you feel like I might have not noticed your post I really don't mind at all it often helps me a lot#and please if you can don't delete the post even if it seems like I didn't see it#because again sometimes it takes me a long time to respond#thank you to everyone who has stayed endlessly patient with me though I appreciate it#sorry this spiraled into a list of apologies and excuses this is actually something that bothers me a lot#because it's largely a mental health thing but easily comes off as ungratefulness#I'm trying to work on that#answered#anonymous
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y'all i've been upset about nanowrimo's shenanigans since last year, when kids weren't safe, and now there's this AI shitshow, and i want to cry about it again, because nano has been SO IMPORTANT to me since 2008--it helped me hack my writing process and make a bunch of cool shit, and i've written so many stories i love using it as a jumping off point. but. we gotta protect kids, and we gotta get the fuck out of here with AI bullshit.
so. the decision i have come to is that i will still be participating in nano. but now it stands for "now a's [that's me] novel writing month." i'm still going to write a book in november, and i'm still going to shoot for the 1,667 words/day (even though my finished projects wind up way longer than that, invariably), because i've structured my creative life around this routine, but i won't be using their site any more.
i will also not be tagging my november project posts as nanowrimo, but i WILL still be tagging them as "nano[YEAR]" (because that's been my tagging system for untitled projects for uh. years.). and it's now a's novel writing month :)
#text#personal#nanowrimo#nano2024#as soon as i can get my feelings together i'm going to go delete my account :(#i want to save my data from it though so i have to figure out How To Do That#that's like. that's my writing history. for over a decade.#well. one month's worth anyway.#i love the graphs i love the word counter i love the Record#i love that it did it for me so i didn't have to make it special for myself#a friend already did a little excel graph that accomplishes most of the same stuff so i'll use something like that#i've been counting offline for years anyway#i just. ouch.#literally the project i'm revising now was a nano seven years ago#so many of them have been#protect kids like DON'T SET THEM UP TO BE GROOMED HOLY FUCK#not protect kids like coddle and restrict access#protect kids like don't put people in positions of power who can't be trusted with it (like make sure the space is FOR TEENS)#anyway i'm tired and upset and i need to figure out what to do about this haunted house book#i wanted to get words out here before i continued to post about my writing projects just so i have sometime to point to about it#“hi here's my stance kthxbye”#admin
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#i've never made gifs before i just wanted some oz gifs that i haven't seen so#i couldn't get an hq version of the deleted scene and now i'm realizing maybe this is why i don't already have gifs from that#the first two look ok i think though#i just want to kubrick stare at him on my phone#the batman#the batman 2022#oz cobblepot#the penguin#oswald cobblepot
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My thoughts on the Aventurine drama
I've been inactive for a while, I was (still am) busy in real life but coming back online to post and seeing discourse about a newly crowned favorite character is disheartening. Even more so, that people are harassing other writers over a drama I feel is overblown.
I have thoughts regarding it but I'm unsure if my opinion would be appreciated. But if you'd like to peacefully talk it out with me, I'd be happy to lend an ear. I'd like to hear both sides, as meager as my opinion may be.
Oh boy, here we go.
Aventurine is a character, a fictional being born to entertain the players. He is not real. He can not be offended by what you create of him. There is no point getting upset on the behalf of a character and prioritizing fiction over a person who does actually exist.
If we do want to condemn slavery fics, why not also cancel slave reader fics? Or ones that include things such as dead dove (including yanderes in general) fics because those topics are equally terrible to condone and write about from that point of view. Or how about other characters that have similar topics in their lore. Should those also be canceled too?
*There are also folks who make problematic pieces to help cope with their own trauma. Does that mean they should be canceled too? (On that note: making a piece that holds problematic content does not always mean the person condones it in real life. Fiction is fiction for a reason.)
In the end, I think everyone can have their own opinions, but I would like to say that your opinions do not justify terrible actions. Just because you disagree with something does not justify you bullying someone into deleting one of their works, whether it is art or writing or anything else, I do not think that is justifiable. Harassing someone or calling people to harass them is not right either.
*If you did disagree with it, why not message the author about it instead of making accusatory posts? Even when done with good intentions, all it does is cause harm when it's practically inviting people to go harass someone over a fanfiction. A very mild fanfiction at that.
If you disagree with a piece, cool. That's your opinion. Just don't interact with it then. Block that creator or that tag or whatever it is that led you there. Or if you're curious, ask that creator.
Also, to reiterate, in my opinion, fiction is still just fiction. Especially when it's a fanfiction about a fictional character. Yes, his canon lore exists, but people can use that basis in fanfiction, something that will inherently warp canon because we are not the original writers and can not capture him in the exact way he was created. In case that doesn't make sense: Fanfiction does not have to comply with the original lore. Also since some of you seem to be forgetting: fiction does not mirror real life.
If you are truly that concerned over sensitive topics like that, directing that energy towards projects that involve such topics in real life would be much better than attacking people on the internet.
#Ink stained letters#I'll probably delete this#If I remember#Sometimes I forget I post stuff#aventurine x reader#The slavery fiction drama#That I have#Let's say thoughts on#Will maybe start posting stuff again#Harassing people is not it though#Isn't that a saying#Two wrongs don't make a right#What an unfortunate time to return to#Killed my will to post things#I'll still post something today or tomorrow to make up for being gone#And for this post#Also people getting mad for a character is really strange#In my opinion#The characters aren't real?#They can't get offended?#Why are we hurting real people over a character that isn't real#This is my take on the drama#Can everyone stop harassing other people over fiction#I don't find any sense in it#This is my opinion#hsr aventurine#Also from my experience#Call out posts are generally just harmful#Especially when you don't make it a secret of who you're talking about#Let people write what they want
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Homesick Valentine's Day Outfits
All of these screenshots came directly from Freaky's instagram! Please please please go support her art on her actual account if you do have an Instagram.
#Homesick webtoon#fambles#i don't really use Instagram I just have a burner account I never ended up deleting#Buuuuut it's super useful to get updates from artists I like and Webtoons I follow so I just pop in every so often#I don't like the whole selfies aspect though (no offense if you follow instas a lot!!! Just not for me) so I only check in on a few account#And then close it—I don't really want to start using that website too much just for the sake of mental health
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i'm now looking at my list of least favorite french words to pronounce and going "too many r's" for about 40% of them and "skill issue" for most of the rest. some of these are actually very fun to pronounce i just couldn't wrap my tongue around them a year or so ago, but now i can i guess??? so that's very exciting. makes me hope that someday i'll be able to pronounce the rest of them. this is a bit pie in the sky because i really don't see myself ever getting there with procureur du roi but you never know. and luckily the french abolished the monarchy so it's not like i'll ever have to use that phrase in modern conversation.
anyway here are the words i actually love pronouncing now: décaféiné diététicien filleul pneumonie
i now feel normal/neutral about these words that used to be hard for me: automne, condamner douloureux électricité, énergie inférieur, supérieur, etc. itinéraire lourdeur salmonellose sclérose subodorer succincte
words that are definitely within the realm of my current capability but i haven't practiced them enough: bugle hiérarchisation méditerranéen phtisie
words that are still the bane of my existence but i live in hope: [yʁ] plus at least one other r or [y] sound: chirurgie, fourrure, marbrure, moirure, nourriture, ordures, peinturlurer, procureur du roi, prurit, purpurin, sculpture, serrurerie, structure, sulfureux, tournure all words beginning with ur-, hur-, or sur- other difficult sequence of r's and vowels: construire and other -truire verbs; lueur and sueur; utérus too many r's: marbre, martre, meurtre, opprobre, proroger, réfrigérateur, rétrograde, rorqual difficult sequence of vowels and/or semivowels: coopérant, extraordinaire, hémorroïdal, kyrie eleison, météorologique, micro-ordinateur, micro-organisme, mouillure, quatuor, vanillier not pronounced the way i would expect from the spelling: indemne, penta-, punk just hard for some reason: humour
#girl you didn't like filleul????? get well soon damn#the french love writing about linden trees (tilleuls) so i've now had tons of practice with that sequence of sounds and love it#all the words that are hard for some reason other than r sounds is just a skill issue. and it makes sense because a lot of them are#not common words so when would i even be practicing them?#the words that are hard because of r sounds is also a skill issue but that's one that i don't know i will be able to fix through practice#i think i have maybe plateaued with my r sounds lol. but you never know!#bugle is a funky word. i want to love it. someday i will.#you'd think i would have méditerranéen down by now since it is a pretty common word. but it still trips me up. i'll get there#sur- words are bad because i just end up whistling the s?? i think i'm pronouncing the [y] too forward in the mouth#i just looked at my ladefoged and he's like 'rounding lowers the second formant so [y] sounds like it's between [i] and [u]'#but i think i'm trying too hard to get it really close to [i] and maybe overcompensating for the formant drop#and actually pronouncing [y] MORE forward in the mouth than [i]? that's my guess#french#fun with pronunciation#my posts#i deleted a couple words from the list if i couldn't remember why they were hard. filtre? what's so bad about filtre...#yeah folklore is a little weird in french but it's not like putting an l before a k is phonotactically illegal it's just unusual#and not at all difficult for an anglophone ultimately#lubrifiant? idk why i would have felt strongly enough about lubrifiant to go back in my drafts several pages to add it to the post#the rest of these though i can explain. électricité and énergie were hard because my mouth just automatically wanted to pronounce#the second vowel as é as well#automne and condamner were hard because you don't nasalize the vowel before the m AND you don't pronounce the m#these are now so normal to me that i can't get myself to remember the pronunciation of indemne (in which the m IS pronounced)
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State of transsexualism in this country is fucking miserable, I really cannot forgive myself for backing out all those years ago. We wouldn't be in this situation, would we.
#I didn't sleep but it seems to be silencing my mood a little which is nice.#Else I would've started hyperventilating.#I can't remember the reason I still have a female legal name and I don't even want to try and look currently.#I just can't do this currently.#I've decided to pursue that even though I don't even know if I care or not I feel no excitement.#Head in hands. Head in hands.#I can't put myself through the fucking humiliation of appointments with a therapist or whatever they were again.#Not now and not in the estimated five years or whatever the fuck.#I don't know what to do.#delete later.
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never felt more defensive than when applying for a UK visa... 'we need to make sure you won't stay' I DON'T WANT TO STAY 'we have to make sure you return home' I HAVE A NICER LIFE THAN YOU'D IMAGINE. I DON'T NEED TO STAY IN YOUR STUPID COUNTRY. I'M SEEING MY FAMILY 'do you have an onward journey' YES I DO AND I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING THEM. I LEAD A CHARMED LIFE. don't want to stay in your country. Mate. The hubris. Fuck off.
#I don't know why it makes me so fighty#generally speaking immigration stuff makes me so tetchy no matter where#probs because the whole concept of immigration was basically built around 'keep those dirty asians out of our blessed country' shit#and it still makes me nervous#this isn't unique to the UK though; I have the same defences go up every time I pass TSA checks too#so no offence to my UK friends I'm sure your country is lovely n all but I have never wanted that to be less true than in#the minutes when you walk through customs#to delete#PS not a 'charmed life' but you know what being defensive is like...
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Last Twilight; Mee's legacy continues
I know that we're all mad at how episode 11 went. Believe me, I am too. I'm not going to be talking about the issues in the episode, several others have already done so, and far more eloquently than I could. Because despite the episode's failings, there are still some things about this episode that I think deserve to be talked about.
I've loved keeping up with Mee's story as the show has progressed (written about it here and here). I thought that Mee's story ended in episode 9, but it continues to be present in the narrative. The most obvious clue to this is, obviously, Porjai's daughter, whom they named Mee. In addition to that, episode 11 focuses on highlighting the fact that Day 's blindness is not something that can be cured, just as Mee could never return to her life before she was cursed. Just as Mee had hoped that the last twilight would allow her to return to her normal life, Day hoped, even fully believed that the surgery would allow him to become "normal" again (the medical inaccuracies of the process aside). In the end, neither can return to a sense of "normalcy", as Mee turns to stone and Day's surgery fails. Both stories are haunted by a sense of grief, helplessness, and hope that is given and taken away. But the end of Mee's story isn't written as tragic, it's written as joyful. The exact same ending could have been written as tragic and solemn, but it wasn't. In the end, Mee was able to revel in the fact that she would never turn invisible again, despite turning to stone. And that's what I'm hoping that Day's final arc will resemble. Because we know that Day is still insecure about his blindness, and about people's pity for him. His buying that cane was a massive step in the right direction, because it showed that he was willing to "announce to everyone that he's blind", to be less afraid. But, as the breakup showed us, he's still insecure about his blindness. If the theory is right, episode 12 should show us Day accepting his blindness, and maybe even celebrate it as a part of him, as Mee does.
Mee's story has run parallel to Day's since they began to read it. Mee's story is over now, but Day's isn't. We see that Mee continues to have a presence in Day's life, be it metaphorically, through her story predicting his, or literally, through Porjai's daughter. Besides fixing a lot of the damage that was done in episode 11, if there's one thing I'd like from episode 12, it's one final call back to Mee's story.
#accidently deleted this whoops#thank god i had it on my clipboard#i'd actually love it if Mee (porjai's daughter) plays a role in Day resolving one of his conflicts#really hammer the metaphor in you know?#i think mee's story has been one of my favourite parts of last twilight#i think i made that abundantly clear by how much i wrote about it#on a different note though#i know how much everyone disliked the ending#but i don't think it should stop us from seeing what the ep did do well#or...at least tried to do well#gonna try to write about the Mhon soon#i wanted to write about her ages ago#but i got Busy#last twilight#last twilight the series#last twilight meta#last twilight mee#last twilight day#mhokday
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