#I don't wanna live a day without you; I just wanna be the one that makes you happy / NikoZai

[clown-demon]

"You know I feel the same about you too, Love. I love what you gift me. Big, small, anything, I adore it." He looked to his little plushie pile of stuffed animals Dazai had gifted him. They were set up on the top of the bed frame or next to his head as he slept.

"I was never really given gifts before... Even as a child I didn't get much but... it means so much when you gift me things, I adore all of them so much.." He curled up a little and made a happy chirp.

He was always glad that he could make Nikolai feel better. He didn't like it when his lover was upset...

He continued petting him. "It doesn't need to be a big grand gift. I just love how thoughtful you are and how excited and bashful you get over giving me things. It's super cute~"

[night-clown-demon]

@kitxkatrp asked:

Dazai--in her female form--is eating ice cream naked on the couch while they're home alone. She goes to take a bite--and it drops right between her breasts.

"...Woops~"

Nikolai passed by, only to stop in his tracks and back up. He noticed she dropped ice cream on her chest.. Oh, the temptation... but he was trying to be a good boy....

"Dove, enjoying the ice cream~?" he asked as he wandered over to her.

[fionnaskyborn]

wish i could stop losing stuff irretrievably. some hardware error emptied out my recycle bin a couple days earlier. just to shit on a day i'd spent being genuinely happy about the art i create. i guess. i'm tired of compromises, sick of lying that "it wasn't that important anyway", and throwing up at "oh well, can't be helped".

and yet. and yet. despite every pain, both major and minor, the love is there. the love is still there. guess i've just somehow miraculously hit that point (or gone past it a long time ago) where every grievance beyond a certain amount hurts an unspeakable amount more than it should. and it stacks. probably went overboard a while back. don't know when.

still, i adore my project. still got someone in whose arms i feel safe. hope i'll get out someday. hope i'll get a win.

[keeps-ache]

ggghhg i hate vehiclessssssss ghghghhghhhhh [dies dies dies forever]

[archerstreet]

my sister called me and kept asking excitedly that what's happening in my life and

[supercantaloupe]

gonna strangle one of my roommates

[erasedcitizen2]

going with the extremely unpopular opinion here on this thread that having a hobby take up more than one room of a house/apartment is not the same as expressing your taste or personality. "man caves" or as I prefer to see it "hobby rooms" are actually a pretty reasonable compromise. I'm extremely grateful that I have a partner that I can discuss interior design with when it comes to our living space and that both of us are ok with our mutual hobby of gaming being in the... y'know... gaming room... instead of hanging gaming related posters everywhere or having shelves of collectibles in the living room. If you are not both onboard with having the kind of home where a shelf full of collectibles in the living room is an interior design choice you both are into... then it's a HUGE sacrifice for one of the people involved to dedicate the entire living room to displaying these collectibles. Because that IS going to be the center piece of the entire room if you do that. Especially if you live in an apartment with limited space.

I’ve seen this new trend of girls posting videos like “I hate my boyfriend for bringing all of his stupid boy things into our apartment when we moved in together 🙄” and then pictures of his hot wheels collection or a Halloween skeleton or an extremely cool pirate flag. Give him to me you do not deserve him.

[six-improbable-things]

Not having my adhd medication for 2+ days sucks ass, bc it's the only thing keeping me awake sometimes, so I get out of classes and just fall asleep for about an hour, wake up again and check tumblr and discord, am too tired and executively dysfunctional to start anything engaging, so I fall asleep again... rinse and repeat for a few hours. I got lucky tonight that my dad texted me saying he was starting to watch an episode of Black Sails and I was both hungry and had promised to keep pace with him so we can watch the end of season 2 together when I'm home for spring break, so I did that and ate some goldfish crackers.

[clown-demon]

@kitxkatrp

It was one of those rare days that Nikolai was the first to wake up. He did get a full nights rest, but he was BUZZING with excitement! He was staring at his sleeping husband, a big goofy grin on his face and big eyes as he admired his form. He could not wait for him to wake up... Today was Dazai's birthday, and he had gone all out for it. He wanted it to be PERFECT.

[clown-demon]

Nikolai had hardly gotten any sleep. He was way too excited for today. It was the day of their wedding. And the Earth was smiling upon them because it was a beautiful day. It was warm out and sunny.. Perfect for their day.

He got up and saw everything Dazai had bought him. His cheeks dusted pink. He placed the tickets in a safe place. He was quick to freshen up and get dressed. Then darted downstairs to make breakfast. It'd be weird not to get ready with Dazai for the day, but.. he still had kids to take care of.

@kitxkatrp

[clown-demon]

Nikolai watched as his lover fell asleep in his arms. He waited for the breathing to become soft and the man's body to become completely relaxed. He tilted his head down to press a soft kiss to the crown of Dazai's hair before closing his eyes.

Soon, he drifted off into a light slumber. His arms curled around Dazai to keep him close in his sleep.

"Hm...I'm glad...I love you too..." He was always so happy that he had a positive influence on Nikolai's life and happiness...before he met Nikolai, he hadn't thought he had been able to do more than harm to people. He even kept telling himself that helping Atsushi didn't count.

But...

He tucked his head under Nikolai's chin and mumbled quietly before falling asleep.

[clown-demon]

@kitxkatrp asked:

Dazai decides to wake Nikolai up on their Saturday off by giving him sweet kisses.

Nikolai had a very long day yesterday, and he was exhausted and just worn out. So he slept like a rock.

When he was kissed, he stirred a bit, and muttered something in his sleep. It seemed a sweet kiss wasn't enough to wake him.

[clown-demon]

🫂  to  give  my  muse  a  comforting  hug. (Dazai to Nikolai)

Nikolai immediately hugged his lover back, burying himself into the other man, refusing to let go.. He just got back from his second job, but he was suffering from severe separation anxiety today... he refused to let go of the hug..

[clown-demon]

He'd woken up with tears in his eyes.

What a horrible, messed up dream that was. He could still see Nikolai's blood, his tears, hear his screams...

He was shaking. But he felt Nikolai behind him, kissing him, and tried to take a deep breath.

"Nikolai?" His voice broke.

Hearing Dazai was awake, Nikolai assumed his lover had a nightmare. He kicked his leg over the other's hip to keep him closer. Nuzzling his nose into the man's brown hair. Pressing a soft kiss to his crown.

"It's okay, Dove. It was just a dream. I'm here, it's going to be okay," he cooed gently. "Come on baby, roll over so you can cuddle right up to me. You can nuzzle your face into my chest and I'll kiss your face silly after," he spoke softly.

@kitxkatrp

[clown-demon]

@kitxkatrp

What an incredible gift, that I may spend the rest of my life learning more about you.

[clown-demon]

Dazai smooches the huffy Nikolai

Nikolai was huffy cuz some woman was staring at Dazai, he didn't like it.. the way she was looking at him with adoring eyes.. He used his body to shield his lover from her eyes and nuzzled his to his lover and smooched him back.