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sergle · 11 months ago

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FOREWARNING FOR GROSS-OUT SKIN CLOSEUP SHIT DON'T YELL AT ME FOR SHOWING YOU has anyone else gotten this really weird phenomenon on youtube. I swear every algorithm on every website is actively and purposely worse now. Where you'll be scrolling through vids after searching for something (I was looking at crochet stuff) and SANDWICHED IN THE MIDDLE OF ACTUAL SEARCH RESULTS... YOU KNOW. LIKE THINGS RELEVANT TO THE KEYWORDS I TYPED

are a couple of completely out of left field SHOCK VALUE VIDS. like to intentionally be alarming. drama vids and things you're enticed to click on bc they're upsetting, and deep deep closeups on zits. what the fuck is going on. Sandwiched between videos about GRANNY SQUARES. crack? is it crack we're smoking????

#are you telling me I can search for crochet patterns and be fed videos of pimple popping and news about anorexic influencers?#THESE ARE NOT ADS!!!! they're just IN THERE. I have ublock I've got all that stuff. these are just completely irrelevant videos #in the search results after I typed like. granny square patterns. or something really basic like that #NASTY shit #and I know it's not the algorithm clocking me bc I can tell when they do that. but I hate hate hate pimple popping videos #so that's not gonna be it.#when mr. algorithm gets me I can smell it. because guess what. nail polish. it's always nail polish.#and I don't watch upsetting shit abt the starvation girl or anything either. and I don't follow drama clickbait channels #WHAT IS THIS. WHERE AM I.#why did they make me look at this!!!!#sergle.txt #you're not allowed to yell at me btw I gave you a warning. which was more than I got. we're in this together now.#i'm not sure what to tag this as bc if i tag it as body horror then ppl will bark at me bc zits are natural. is it natural to get #a camera this close to big irritated holes and boils on your face. lesions. cysts. is that natural. are we friends #do i need to be close enough to smell you. put my eyes directly into the holes in your face

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cloud-somersault · 19 days ago

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when people make posts about what they want to see more of in fics, i'm kinda like 🧍‍♀️ ....what is the expectation, like what does that do....

other than other people agreeing and being like "YEAH i'd love to see that too!" like what else does it do......

#i make posts like this sometimes but the thing is #i'm talking to myself bc i make my own food and i don't count on anyone else to do that for me #like if i say “I WANT MORE ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIP SHADOWPEE” then i'm talking to ME bc i'm a writer and can do that #but when ppl make these posts....who are they talking to?? their followers who happen to be fic authors??#is the hope that some writer will see the post and be like “omg I'LL DO THAT” because...i don't think many writers would do that???#couple reasons why they wouldn't. No. 1 is that you could write something for someone #with everything they want #and they could STILL dislike it #this has happened to me multiple times. and now i just write for specific people i know well enough #for their birthday or whatever but to random people on the internet?#i ain't doing that. so i'm just wondering what those posts do in the long run #well they could ALSO be talking to themselves but when it's a person I KNOW isn't a fic writer i'm just like #HUH??? what does this achieve...#maybe it could lead to friendship based on tastes #but then why wouldn't you make a post like “I LOVE THIS TROPE” and then other people would still agree with you

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chrisbangs · 11 months ago

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hello... (and bye ig 👋)

#👋😭 hi...#i haven't come on in about a month and i didn't realize a month passed by like that... i've kinda stopped using any apps on my phone #i barely even talk to my friends anymore lol 😭#i just saw my follower count this morning and realized i hit 13k and i was like 🥸 huh...#uhhhhhhh 😭 idk i wanted to say thank you i guess 🫂#i'm done with stayblr and tumblr in general 😭 this much has been obvious for a while now... i tried to fit myself back in during 5star but #i think i realized i've outgrown the vibes here and in online spaces in general... i don't really enjoy it anymore 😭 which is weird cause #i've used tumblr since i was in middle school so 🫡 end of an era some would say...#i think it sucks because i don't have the same feelings about this place or skz or anything in my life right now... i tried to ignore it bu #it's so obvious now that the entirety of december passed without me really talking to a single person / without me using social media /#without me really doing much except for like homework and assignments lmao #i think genuinely i've stopped enjoying everything i used to like and i don't know why 😭 it hit me the other day bc i don't even enjoy #pc collecting anymore which is CRAZY considering how much time and money i've put into that hobby so 👋🥸 who knows what goes on #i haven't consumed any skz content since rockstar dropped 😭 and that also feels weird to me... idk... i would say maybe i'm going through a #depressive episode but i don't really feel how i do then... i think i'm just tired like i always am and that's just how i am now .. i think #i'm just not really interested in things anymore? weird but .. yeah idk😭 if i knew what was wrong i would Fix It sndjdndkd mostly i'm just #sad because i haven't been talking to friends... i keep ignoring everyone and not replying to any texts from anyone because ????#i tell myself i will do it later but i know i won't ... idk i genuinely don't know why i'm struggling to talk to ppl anymore 😭 i've become #even more of a reclusive hermit than i already was 💀 and the worst part is i feel normal abt it #i don't feel /bad/ i just feel guilty that i'm not replying to ppl bc i don't want to hurt ppls feelings... on my end i feel Normal abt it #like i ??? is it weird that i'm so detached from everything that not even a month ago made me so happy..? that's weird right 😭 like idgi #i don't feel (as) depressed (as i usually do) but clearly ?? smth is wrong ?? like ik i'm not a clingy sentimental person but ? it kinda #makes me sad wondering if i really don't care abt ppl anymore ... but i think 😭 it's also the object permanence issues that come with adhd #not seeing or talking to the ppl i love . not doing my hobbies or seeing the groups i care abt . makes it easy to not care or forget what #they make me feel etc etc ... i get it... but idk 😭 if that's what this is . well wow it sucks ASS.. cause i feel guilty for not feeling #anything at all ... 😭 idk how to explain that HENSKDNISJS anywayyyy 💀#i came on cause i wanted to say thank you for 13k followers 😭‼️ and that i probably will not be online anymore unless i really want to say #this was a really long winded way to say i feel bad but i'm done with stayblr fr 👋🥸 i tried so hard for the last 2 years to make it feel #like home again but it stopped ages ago so 🥹 that's ok.. i still cherish my memories here 🫂 anyway thanku and sjsjsksksks bye i guess 😭#who knows maybe i'll enjoy it one day again and come back :') never know what the future holds 🫡

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didderd · 1 year ago

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plz. i'v blocked like 80% of th ppl who'v followed me lately

most of them being minors or suspected minors

i have 18+ everywhere that i can short of every single post, but minors refuse to read even the title before following

i'm not mad, just disappointed (/hj lmao i am kinda annoyed)

#mby i shouldn't 've put it under a read more on th pinned. mby it should be in the biggest lettering at the top of it lmao #(also plz have some indication of age in ur bio. 'adult' or minor' is fine)#the adults i'v block r ppl who just had. upsetting opinions #/some/ of them don't rly have a way of knowing they'r not welcome here #but th fkn proshippers do lmao #if ur still here. congrats. i could not find anything upsetting on ur blog #but if ur a minor plz get out lmao #didderd talks #mild vent #(?)#why can't just cool nice adults follow me :'>

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theo4eve · 7 months ago

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Holy fuck

My social anxiety-

Please why do i have to have this??

@zehina @writingforstraykids and fucking everyone here

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kirkwallsquad · 6 months ago

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i've wondered this before and ik i've made a post like this before but im genuinely curious if people just dont see my personal posts or if they scroll past without reading or read and choose not to engage

#and this is judgement free like! i would never require anyone to interact w any posts of mine #i just can't help but think that the ppl who follow me and especially my friends like... you guys know that i'm doing bad right?#you guys know i need help right? so why don't i get any lol #max.txt

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zazikels · 3 months ago

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LEAVE DAVRIN ALONE

#tbd #fandom wank #anti da fandom #i am so tired #he even named his griffon a Dalish word like if he hated his culture so much why that then?#wanting adventure doesn't mean he hates his own culture i hate you all so much #also why are you all so ugly when the poc characters don't conform to whatever stereotypes you think they should all follow #there is like zero evidence of davrin 'hating his culture'#full offence but can ppl with usamerican brainrot just stfu #it's genuinely so irritating and i'm tired of keeping quiet about the frankly racist way y'all treat poc chars.#you're judging him before you even know him.#he's allowed to leave his fucking clan he doesn't have to be married to it and it doesn't mean he hates his clan if he wants #to go out there and have some adventure fuck off #like instead of asking bioware to 'be normal' before you played the fucking game #how about you be normal and stop pigeonholing Dalish characters #again there's literally zero evidence #that he hates his clan or has internalised racism or whatever #also i'm not white so don't @ me.

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catboy-cabin · 2 months ago

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so. i did a thing.

a heavy head that won’t stop turning

Summary:

A soft groan pulls him back to the present. With his vision enhanced thanks to Sleep, he can see II's movements clearly as he stirs. He can see the moment II's crystal blue eyes open and find him lurking in the darkness.

"Vess..?" His voice, rough and deepened from slumber, is already enough to put Vessel's mind half at ease. "Something wrong?"

That is the question, is it not?

or: vessel can't sleep. ii helps ease his anxiety.

#sleep token fanfiction #sleep token #vessel #ii sleep token #why am i so nervous about this alkfjdlksfjslk #actually i know why #ppl following me from my previous fandoms don't look at me #cabin's catboy cabin

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daz4i · 10 months ago

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it always stings a little to see someone blocked you for seemingly no reason but it hurts more when it's someone who was your mutual. rip

#saw a follow button next to a familiar url. was wondering when and why i unfollowed them. blank blog. rip #worst one that happened to me was someone i went an extra mile to be nice to when they were in a server i ran #and ppl fought me over letting them stay. and then. 2 weeks later they had me blocked. i still don't know why #is it silly to get sad over this? yes very much so. does it keep happening anyway? yes :( rsd keeps kicking my ass

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loumauve · 2 months ago

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the goddamn toast water post just made me utter "history is fucking real" in the most solemn and serious tone of voice, out loud, to myself, in the goddamn bathtub

#life is ridiculous and I'm its biggest clown #in my defense it's not even 9 am and I woke up at 6 for some reason (the reason prob being that I start work at 6 atm)#so I chose (violence) reading Stray Gods fic in bed for a few hours followed by the need to just vibe in the bathtub #I've only just had my coffee and a slice of cold pizza leftover from yesterday and it's such a uni-days thing to do #I've kinda missed it. tho I wasn't drinking coffee back then (how the fuck did I survive mornings without it??)#anyway. feeling very soft and tender abt my past self today. I miss her even if she was just as much of a mess. in different ways #the kind of mess who would openly flirt with some strange dude she didn't really know over the phone #the kind of mess who moved across the country just for a chance at trying with sb she liked who really never wanted to date her #the kind of mess who's always fallen for her best friends and who'll likely never stop #the kind of mess who feel so damn hard for a woman 15 yrs older than her just bc she was kind and sweet and a mess herself #the kind of mess who moved in with a friend she was solidly in love with for a bit who had her boyfriend over most nights #just.. it's not all about those feelings but they're decidedly a big part of why I've ever done anything #and I will prob always miss the friend who'd lie on the train platform with me just giggling into the night as ppl walked past #her head on my stomach and me just feeling so high it felt like I'd never stop floating (just for a while though)#I guess what I'm trying to get at here is that Mi miss just letting my feelings take me places even at the risk of losing it all #I'm so much more hesitant and guarded now. and sure part of it is being medicated for my bipolar. it's good that I don't call strangers #and almost invited them over. or that I no longer walk barefoot through the city at night by myself (usually)#but I do miss just idk. intimacy I guess. and how easily it used to come to me to just try and be open abt wanting it I guess #oh well. best be getting out of the bathtub. it's not a good place to be with these thoughts. and it's too early for this anyway #a day in the life of..

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pigeon-ponders · 1 year ago

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one day when the horrors cease i will make chicken gnocci soup and feel at home

#pigeon talks #just waiting for this semester to end college is kicking my ass if y'all couldn't tell LOL #4.0 GPA top 10 hs graduate to this six months later......who would've thought. not me!#i should've taken a gap year but i didn't want to disappoint my parents and lose information #what a lie #that “losing information” over time thing being a reason why i was told not to take a gap year and also the “don't take 8 am classes”#and blah blah blah #all those mainstream advide to freshies i regret following #i would take a 6AM CLASS if it meant getting out of my 6PM CLASS #man....lesson learned never letting ppl tell me what to do again #i have to listen to myself bc i know what works for me and what doesn't #sry for the rant i'm just yearning for better times #ah........

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izzy-b-hands · 3 months ago

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I keep forgetting I can't seem to get the current version of xkit to work on my new laptop and going to do stuff that it let me do fjldksafjdlsaj

#text post #im p sure the mutual marker thing was a feature w/them bc i'm missing them on everyone that #as far as I know I was still a mutual with #then again I did drop like. fifteen followers over the last week #but that usually happens whenever I start actually posting my personal thoughts on my personal blog lmao #have also gotten a few messages both politely and not so politely asking me to essentially shut the fuck up re: my personal posts #idk what to tell y'all on that bc like. i have a lot of folks I follow n' enjoy who post just as much /even more than me re: personal stuff #I think im just particularly irritating even when I'm trying really hard not to be and try to edit my posts down/keep them under readmores #but im trying to be better #not trying hard enough tho apparently and this tag essay probably won't help but. idk.#i think we're all allowed to be as irritating/post as much personal stuff as we want on our blogs #but i also think im still operating uselessly on how tumblr was a few years ago. ppl don't like that anymore it seems #and that's okay but I gotta work on catching up to that and do better #anyway. it's possible i did lose most of my mutuals and tbh it's not a big deal it's just a lot of ppl at once like. damn.#makes me wonder what the last straw was just out of curiosity #bc if that's really what happened then im down to like. maybe three or four mutuals left and it hasn't been that low since I first started #on here back in like. tail end of hs beginning of college #I also keep missing the quick reblog feature which was my fave but. someday I will figure out why xkit isn't working for me #and i will fix it. at a time when im not sick and feeling cruddy lol

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rolandkaros · 4 months ago

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that post is gonna haunt me until the end of my fucking days

#if i had known it would break free from the delicate tennisblr sphere i would have added much more #instead it was a 'haha clickity clack POST' kind of situation #the situation is actually like three times funnier than the original post suggests but alas the subtext will forever be lost #because i was assuming that post would get exactly three (3) notes 😭#and now i want to talk about woso and add even more lore #but i know that part of the reason why the post was funny to begin with is bc. as the post says. most ppl who follow me don't follow woso #so dronegate came as quite a shock #when to me i was like 'lol look at these idiots what kinda shithousery are they gonna pull next'#because believe it or not this is just another day in woso

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https-reverie · 5 months ago

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ok maybe this is why I don't think much abt self-shipping when I'm in a bad state of mind

#[ ★ nervo vents ]#to no one's surprise I'm venting a bit #need to stop venting on main anyways #but yeah even then I start to think that fictional characters would hate me #not want to even be friends with me #like ???#I'm such an obnoxious person sometimes #like I'm loud and it's one of the reasons why irl I'm so disliked/hated by ppl #so what makes me think a character like Blade would like me??#and do I rlly think I even have a chance with anyone fictional or not?#they're all wayyy out of my league #and I also still think it's embarrassing for myself to indulge like this #I can't word exactly why rn #but idk #like I do try to respect ppl and their boundaries and whatnot #but even I don't know the tone/volume of my voice and when I'm told I'm being loud and “ppl are looking at me” and to “be quieter”#I just kinda shut up and follow behind like my family or friends or smth and look down at the ground #ig trying to hide from the eyes of others??#Idk I hate being the center of attention #damn this got deep real fast #uhhh #basically I'm saying that even if I tried not even a fictional character would like me #alright negative yap session over #gonna have my earbuds charge and try to type up a short late night fic for myself

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benetnvsch · 1 year ago

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I love it when im looking at my own post on my own Tumblr and it shows me the 'more like this' collection of posts and it shows posts from blogs I've blocked like?? Yes girl that’s exactly what I wonna see :D man this site is insufferable lol

#ig this is kinda like a vent but not really im just being petty :p #man I fucking hate this webbed site #would y'all hate me if I left Tumblr and moved to twitter fr this time LMAO #this also happens to posts by people I've blocked reblogged by others like?? Tumblr STOP I do not want to see that askdjhadkj-#I don't really need to know when my mutuals are doing that come on now ://#also the blacklisting feature?? why do u need to give me the option to see posts just just let me mute things for good <//3 #in some strange way I think twitter functions work better than Tumblr lol #at least my notifications are real there and half my followers aren't bots </3 blocks actually fucking work #so much easier to tell what people believe in/stand for too akjdhjd-#someone liked a tweet of mine and right in their bio they had like all the twt factions they're in and Saw Some Alarming ones and nope righ #to the blocklist- I don't have that type of security on Tumblr ppl actually keep parts of their lives private here wtf /lh /hj #the issue with twitter though is that im afraid to be annoying there cuz I mostly just post art and interact with like the 5 mutuals Im -#not afraid of #also tags on Tumblr my beloved <33 #also no one on twitter knows im a Furry Artist Primarily and atp im too scared to let it be known </3 #im just a silly wolf girl who accidentally grew a following release me from this hell /lh #Maybaps it’s time for me to take a Tumblrer break now that the season is bungover

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confetti-critter · 8 months ago

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The night is young and I am free to do whatever my heart desires but unfortunately I have once again found myself trapped in the Time Prison and so I

#the good old 'I don't feel like doing anything including doing nothing and I want to go to bed but I know I'm not tired'#WEH.#I'm enjoying typing but I don't want to commit to practicing typing for real so I'm just making excuses to type more #I was looking at custom ESC keycaps because I was thinking about that whole community of ppl obsessed with keyboards and like I get it I #like the clicky clacking and keyboards can look so pretty but some of those key caps man wtf.#why would you want 3D transparent donald duck ESC key from temu what is wrong with you #saw a set of key caps that were little kittys with little kitty ears n I was like fuuuuuuuuuck #49.00 USD probably 100000 CAD+shipping goto helllll #I was thinking about what if I had like confetti keycaps and a custom kittycake esc key or like an actual little cake and matching desk mat #or even just a new cute mousepad cuz mine is old as fuck and I spilled vegetable cream stew on it once #and then I was thinking like sighhh and wouldn't it be cool to have arcade carpet on the stairs leading down to my basement hovel and #rainbow lights along the ceiling corners and what if I painting my bedroom like I wanted to do and sighhhhh #I haven't been wasting my money buying shit like that but I'm thinking about it again.#but the same thing stopping me from doing anything at all is stopping me from wasting my money which like that's good I guess???????#gosh I really like typing why did I stop doing daily typing practice #oh yea The Thing Stopping Me From Doing Anything At All #meow meowm meow meow meow #ok I really gotta tear myself away from my computer and brush my teethses and try going to bed #I already played minecraft earlier it's fine I didn't do NOTHING tonight it just feels like I did #and tomorrow is another day #and next week is a short work week thank fucking christ almighty #literally cuz its easter sunday and he was in that tomb but he escaped or whatever he did #thanks jeezy boy #you maybe shoulda milked it for like half a week at least #moved the big ass boulder like have an inch at a time #*pause for laughter*#that s from my new stand up comedy routine do uiuop like it djfskll;askjdgflksjdflksajdflksjdf the dsjalkjfolidasfgjoiweljsdalkjflskdjflak #meowww #I am the only one I know on here who 'talks' this fucking much about absolutely nothing #I do all this and my poor followers can click read more and spend time reading alllllll this garbage

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