#I don't know how else to explain that fandoms are formed around the EXISTING thing!

[katyspersonal]

One of the coolest things my friend Kris said, "A good headcanon differs from the canon knowingly, not out of wilfull ignorance".

Like, there is a big difference between being corrected (not always for an indisputable reason, but the intention matters) and being creatively policed! When someone shares a headcanon and you know the canon bit that contradicts it, just say it! Either they could reconsider their idea with the new information or say "yeah cool but I prefer to write my own thing, not to be 100% accurate to the canon" which are both valid. Because, the latter one knowingly differs from the canon!

But like, apparently in the eyes of some people, being informed on what was missed equals baiting hostility, policing creativity or whatnot? Like, yet again, if someone gets straight up angry and vindictive at being reminded that they are in the fandom, for something with pre-existing information, then it loops back to the question of why they are in a fandom and not doing their own original project to begin with! I can't find any other reasoning for admitting you do not want to even know canon and only here to take basic surface bits to make your own thing besides the fact that pre-existing fanbase just will engage more willingly even with canon divergent portrayals, stories and just AUs!

But like... you can't be in a fandom while expecting to never have any discussion with other fans about this story and characters! Being told that you are wrong and being told that you are wrong for BEING wrong are two whole different things, and mentality of fans not being allowed to say anything besides agreement, when it is about pre-existing media, is straight up lame and not what fandoms are about. Not everyone who points what is missing a petty redditor that hates headcanons; most of the "well actualies" come from the place of love for both canon and headcanons! This is the case of "before you break the rules you need to know them", but people that tell what rules are are anything but wrong, hostile or immature. People that say "you come into my house and maliciously ruin my fun" when they hear about those rules, however?

Again: a good headcanon differs from the canon knowingly, not out of wilfull ignorance.

[ouiouimochi]

Winter Realization

pairing/s: noé archiviste x reader

wc: 1k

warning/s: no beta we die like •••••••, wonky phone format, characters may be ooc, not exactly canon compliant

note: is this fandom still alive? hi.

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On the 2nd day of simpmas, my true love gave to me

“Vanitas, what on earth is love?”

Noé voiced out the thought that had been plaguing his entire being for quite a while… ever since your confession.

“Noé, I love you!” and gentle laughter rang in his ears as he stood there, stunned.

Vanitas’ laughter snapped him out of his daydream as both of them continued to dance together.

“I don't know,” The ravenette spoke seriously, “I believe you'd have to find out for yourself.”

“I see…”

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Yet again, Noé had forgotten about Murr due to a sudden chase after a suspicious person which he ended up losing in the end… He didn't even know where to start in looking for his cat, if he were to be honest.

“Now, what're you doing out here, Murr?”

Be it the luckiest coincidence in the world or if the gods have finally given him slack this time around, an ever so familiar voice spoke of his cat’s name— accompanied by a giggle that would make any man’s senses flutter.

The tall vampire whips around to find you, kneeled on the cold pavement in front of Murr as you patted his fluffy white fur, his even fluffier tail swishing around in content. You were one of the very few the cat grew fond of as he let you carry him onto your lap and even cuddle him.

You didn't even mind the fact that the wind was crisp as winter had fallen over Paris— patches of snow having piled up from the snowfall last night. You just continued coddling the usually grumpy cat as if everything else didn't exist.

“Did Noé forget about you again?” You asked the cat gently as Murr responds with a meow of agreement. He then huffs in anger and you laughed lightly in response.

It then starting lightly snowing, immediately catching your attention as you looked upwards, eyes glittering in fondness and awe.

And at that moment, Noé’s world slowed.

He stares on, mesmerized by how carefree and candid you looked— your eyes having never lost its glimmer. He reflects on how kind you were… The patience you exhibit especially when he forgets Murr… and other things. He then realized that you were always there to cover for his clumsiness too and it just wasn't regarding his cat. His gaze softens fondly.

The snowy haired male snaps out of it when you sneezed, and a few quick strides were all it took to reach your position. Having noticed you had company, your attention turned to the male— your expression getting brighter when you recognized Noé. You smiled up at him in greeting while Murr hissed at him.

His amethyst eyes scanned your form and noticed you weren't properly dressed for the weather, making him grow concerned.

“Why would you be out dressed lightly in this weather?”

You sheepishly laughed, explaining how you saw Murr out and about alone through your house window, immediately going to fetch him since it was cold… It didn't even cross your mind to get a coat or sweater.

You two shared the similarities of being kind to a fault, huh?

You sneezed again causing Noé to start taking off his trench coat for you to wear. You were thinking of declining but he beat you to it as he already put it around your shoulders. His amethyst orbs stared into your own, waiting for you to properly wear the article of clothing.

You sigh and resigned to your fate, gently placing Murr down back into your lap as you slipped your arms through the sleeves… Your face warmed up at how nice it felt to be in Noé’s clothes that had his scent all over it.

The sleeves went past your fingertips, and the coat was just way too big for you. You laughed giddily like a kid with floppy sweater sleeves as you picked Murr back into your arms.

“Thanks, Noé.”

His name that slipped through your lips felt pleasant just like the hand that you rested on top of his as he offered to help you stand. The affection and joy in your eyes causing his ears to feel a little bit warmer.

You smiled at him, allowing yourself to be pulled back up on your feet with Murr tucked into your free arm..

“Noé?” You tilted your head in curiosity as to what he seems absentminded for.

The tall vampire shook his head and told you it wasn't anything to be concerned about.

“Hmmm…” Deciding to trust what he said, you then held his hand more firmly, never having let go of it even after you got up, and started pulling him into the direction of your house.

He follows you wordlessly, pondering as to why he's suddenly feeling all these weird symptoms— why he'd noticed that his heart seemed to be beating a little bit more faster, his face and ears warming up, him feeling tingling sensations left behind by your touch, and having these distracting thoughts… And it occurs to him

that he might've ended up figuring out what he asked Vanitas about after all.

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Bonus

“Murr, please forgive me already!” The grouchy cat hisses at his owner, swiping his claws in front of him to deter Noé from getting even any closer. The cat jumped into your arms as you laughed.

“Guess he still hasn't forgiven you, huh?”

“Murr, we overstayed our welcome here already.”

Noé stared down the white Persian intensely, before he unexpectedly lunged in order to hopefully seize the cat.

But unfortunately, the cat leaped away in time… and the vampire ended up launching both of you to the couch behind you. Your widened eyes met his similarly shocked ones, evidently not expecting the turn of events( even though he was the one who lunged without a thought).

You burst into laughter, finding the circumstance genuinely amusing— especially with how Noé seemed so stunned in the process of his actions. He gaped at you, here you were again causing a fluttering in his chest.

You wiped a few tears away from your eyes,

“Did you thi—” but you get cut off by a pair of lips on your own

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note/s: im in a niche or dead fandom curse ain't I? it's been so long since I watched vanitas no carte so I do apologize if noe was very out of character i completely forgot how he talks help this man was the reason I made a Tumblr acc btw

taglist: @justwinginglife , @minasfwoopyponytail , @ryescapades , + anyone else who wants to to be tagged!

[thiefking]

i need to draw/speak more of my narutos. "my narutos" meaning specifically the versions of every character that exist in my head, of course. i wanna draw hinata and gaara (besties of all time) especially. because other than the fact that they have the most fully realized design changes in my head, they are perhaps the defining aspect of My narutos, as opposed to everyone else's. their friendship to me is like "ok i'm going out...! (wearing some extremely Please Don't Look At Me outfit)" "not dressed like that you're not." "better? (she is now gothed the fuck out with an invader zim handbag)" "yas bitch slay." this is how they work. to me

i want to draw Literally Exactly That what i just described there as a meme but i do also kind of want to write or draw sometjing more substantial because i am The Hinata And Gaara Understander. as individual characters and as a pair of besties. amd i need to explain to others why it makes perfect sense because i just Know that i am one of extremely few to look at these two, of all characters, and deduce that the character arc hinata SHOULD have had is one that would be so obvious to gaara & something he would encourage. or maybe the only one, but the fandom is/was so big that it feels statistically unlikely... if we're talking CURRENT fandom i may actually be uniquely insane about this. i don't know for sure i haven't really interacted with the fandom i've been fucking around in my own skull this whole time that's how i even arrived at "hinagaara bffs" in the first place

but like... listen. hinata's thing is basically (in an inconsistent, half-baked, and never fully realized form): "i can change to improve myself and finally meet everyone else's standards and prove them wrong...!" as she is trying to emulate naruto. ... "prove them wrong", but she is not subverting anything if she meets an expectation that was explicitly set. hinata is not naruto. naruto's expectations were that he is worthless and nothing and not worth having any expectations for in the first place, and basically all of konoha thought this way. if naruto accomplishes basically anything at all he proves someone wrong, even if just a little. hinata had expectations set on her, specifically by her family, that she is not meeting. even though what hinata WANTS to do is prove them wrong, what she is fundamentally DOING is trying to please them by doing exactly what they want her to do. yes, when they think she won't even meet their lowest expectation and she does meet it, she is TECHNICALLY proving them wrong... but she isn't really achieving meaningful personal growth by doing this, is she? all she has done is meet their standards and essentially fall into their evil ghoul trap and accept EVEN MORE PRESSURE as a "reward" because now that she finally met this one single goal, they can move the goalpost. she will only ever be the failure who occasionally surprises them, she will always be lagging behind the others, and every single time she fails she gets sent back to square 1 in their eyes. meeting all their expectations or even surpassing them entirely is always going to feel hollow and fragile, because in the back of her mind, if she slips even once she has to do it all over again. she deserves better than constant paranoia

gaara (and pretty specifically gaara) can rightfully point out the problem with hinata's current mindset because hinata's hardships are way closer to GAARA'S than naruto's, to be honest. it's not lacking a family; it's having a family that doesn't feel like a family, and that family isolating one child and encouraging the others to treat them like shit so that one child never has anyone on their own level when they're at home and they are constantly forced to be aware they lack some ambiguous something that seemingly everyone else has that would make them "worthy" of being loved by their own family

hold on let me put yhe rest under a readmore this post is long as fuck

the hyuugas treat hinata like shit and call her weak, and because her parents gladly and openly call her weak and because she's supposed to be heiress to the clan, her sister and neji (the only family who were close enough in age and rank to not intimidate) were made to hate her, think she is weak, be jealous of and resent her for being heiress despite her weakness, and treat her like shit like the other hyuugas do, thus completely isolating her within her family. and rasa treated gaara like shit and had given up on him LONG before he snapped (let's be fucking real here if gaara had to learn that "love" makes emotional pain feel better at age SIX... and not to mention the entire yashamaru """plan""" was utterly and blatantly fucking NONSENSE on all levels like nice going rasa you just turned your kid almost irreversibly insane... seemingly on purpose...? i can only assume it was on purpose and you just wanted to be a spiteful bitch to the kid who killed your wife because literally what else did you think was going to happen with that but that's a rant for another time.), he tacitly encouraged temari and kankuro to not even bother with gaara and to be afraid of him like everyone else is because RASA was also OBVIOUSLY SCARED and not only that he was constantly literally trying to murder gaara so temari and kankuro also had reason to believe from a very young age that associating with him might make rasa treat THEM like that too, essentially forced gaara to straight up kill his uncle who was the ONLY family member he had who talks to him like he isn't a monster (and inexplicably decided that he should also tell gaara outright that he is not and was never loved by anyone), etc etc etc; gaara was also isolated within his own family and made to be the odd one out, over and over again. naruto knows what it's like not having a family at all, but he never experienced having family— non-metaphorical, blood relation, "entire reason you were born" family— who hates you. naruto knows how it feels to be neglected and feared by an entire village, that's how he relates to gaara. hinata was hated by her own family, the people she depended on for life itself, but she was never hated by the village at large, even if she perceives herself to be. naruto can empathize with this and put himself in her shoes, but like... gaara KNOWS, firsthand, what hinata is experiencing. that is why gaara is fairly uniquely capable of pointing out the problem Very Directly because he would see it way faster than anyone else

naruto could see it too, and he could say all the same things, but he wouldn't do it how gaara would. and i think hinata needs to hear someone speak to her, bluntly and authoritatively, and say "you deserve better than this." because normally whenever she hears someone (her own family) speak to her bluntly in an authoritative tone they're telling her she's weak and pathetic and subpar and needs to improve, and every time she is spoken to like that she believes them and marks that weakness off as something to fix. hearing incredibly matter-of-fact validation and encouragement spoken the exact same way primes her to believe that encouragement, and now her compulsive need to please people who speak to her that way is going to force her, even fleetingly, to take it seriously. especially because gaara would tell her something she is doing wrong, which will feel familiar, but he actually has HER best interests in mind. there is no benefit or advantage for him if she succeeds. he is unaffiliated, not even from konoha, he gains nothing from it. gaara doesn't tell her to try harder nor to give up and accept mediocrity. gaara tells her it's okay to give up and try something else, and sometimes it's the people around you who are the ones who need to change, not you.

gaara looks at "i will change myself to prove myself to others", and he says instead: "you need to stop caring what other people think about you and stop morphing yourself to their perception. just because YOU aren't doing that in a 'if you all want to call me a monster then fine, i'll be a monster' kind of way, like i did, that doesn't mean that isn't still an unhealthy way to think. you should figure out who YOU are and live as who YOU are, unapologetically, until they get the point that they can either accept you as you are and realize they were wrong, or they can fuck off. this is a situation where it is Not Your Fucking Problem that other people are disappointed with you especially because of how hard you've already been working to try and meet their arbitrary standards. this isn't about talent or hard work. this is about whether you even Want to be doing what everyone else wants you to do. and it is difficult and terrifying and lonely to be the only person who knows who you really are. it is hard work to figure it out and it is hard work to convince others, and at times it will feel hopeless. so i won't let you be the alone. i won't let you have to try and fail all alone, like i did. i will be your first victory, i will give you listening ears, i will be your silent dressing room mirror while you try on different hats before you figure out which one fits, i will be here and i will not judge you or decide on your behalf who you are, and i will be your family if no one else will. literally. if they cast you out you can come home to me. temari and kankuro have already accepted me as i am, i'm sure they'll accept you as you are too"

and then with time and gentle coaxing hinata decides to stop trying to be what her family wanted her to be and starts being a goth weirdgirl and pursues her interests in mycology and psychology and entomology and starts fucking THRIVING

i could go on forever. i should stop now or i never will. some of the parallels between them or the reasons that gaara would specifically want to support her in the specific ways i envision came about entirely from headcanon (coughs. even more headcanon than... the rest of this... coughs) and i FORGET that it's headcanon. for example "gaara created his good reputation in sunagakure through brute force good deeds. like people were so scared of him that they wouldn't let him CASUALLY prove that he was trying to be better, so he basically had to scare them even more just to prove that he was no longer scary. things like using his sand to hold people in place... so that he can physically put money into their hands and say 'this is yours and you will take it and use it to pay rent and buy your child that toy he wants. i do not want anytjing in return and i will be leaving you alone now.' because otherwise people would run away before he even gets the chance to be nice. literally just has to hold them still and pointedly do something nice for them and then let them go without hurting them while they tremble in misplaced terror like he;s a wildlife vet wrangling an injured seagull". this is part of why he would say "be unapologetically you and they can accept that and realize they were wrong about you to begin with, or they can fuck off". NONE OF THAT is explicitly canon... but there is so much & it makes perfect sense to me. aauuugaghh hinata my hinata my hinagaara besties my hinata. i could go on and on and on and on. goddammit I WILL GIVE HER THE CHARACTER ARC SHE NEEDS & DESERVES... GIVE HER TO ME KISHIMOTO.... WHAT IF THE FACT THAT HINATA HAS 3 PERSONALITY TRAITS IN CANON ACTUALLY MEANT SOMETHING AND WASN'T JUST BECAUSE YOU, MASASHI KISHIMOTO, SELF-ADMITTEDLY DO NOT KNOW HOW TO WRITE WOMEN? WOULDN'T THAT BE SO MUCH LESS EMBARRASSING FOR YOU? I CAN MAKE IT REAL! I CAN MAKE IT MEANINGFUL!!!! I CAN MAKE IT ABOUT REPRESSION!!!! I CAN MAKE IT ABOUT WORKING HARD TO BE WHO YOU WANT TO BE, AND SAYING "SCREW YOU" TO PEOPLE WHO TRY AND DECIDE WHO YOU ARE ON YOUR BEHALF, AND THE REJECTION OF THE STATUS QUO, AND EMBRACING THE THINGS THAT MAKE YOU DIFFERENT AND MAKING USE WHAT UNIQUE STRENGTHS YOU HAVE INSTEAD OF TRYING TO MATCH WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS DOING, AND HOW HUMAN LIVES ARE INHERENTLY VALUABLE EVEN IF EVERYONE AROUND YOU SAYS YOURS IS WORTH NOTHING!!! JUST LIKE WHAT NARUTO WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ABOUT IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!! I CAN EVEN SPICE IT UP A BIT AND USE MY MAGICAL WOMAN-UNDERSTANDING POWERS TO MAKE IT ABOUT HOW WOMEN ARE ACTUALLY JUST REGULAR PEOPLE WHO ARE AS VARIED AS MEN AND HOW THE SOCIETAL CONCEPTS OF WOMANHOOD AND PROPER WOMANLY BEHAVIOUR ARE RESTRICTIVE AND OPPRESSIVE, AND THE MANY WAYS THAT SOCIETY WILL FORCE TOTAL CONFORMITY AND PUNISH EVERYONE WHO STEPS OUTSIDE OF THAT FRAME (AND EVEN THOSE WHO REMAIN WITHIN)!!! I CAN MAKE IT ABOUT COMPULSORY HETEROSEXUALITY!!!! I KNOW YOU'RE AFRAID OF GIRLS MR KISHIMOTO WILL IT MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER IF I ALSO MAKE IT ABOUT NEJI WATCHING HINATA COMPLETELY REJECT HER CAGE AND DISCOVER HERSELF AND HOW HE FEELS ABOUT IT AND MAYBE JUST COVER YOUR EARS WHEN I START TALKING ABOUT EGGS!!!!!! MR KISHIMOTOOOOOO PLEEEEEEEASE

[beautifulpersonpeach]

Hello BPP,

I've been a BTS addict for more than a year now, and I'm trying to find the reason why me (a happily married and a mother of a wonderful teenage boy) became so obsessed with a boy group. Before my encounter with these young korean lads, I only bought albums from 5 artists: Enya (all of her albums, I 💖 her since 1995), Michael Jackson (some), Backstreet boys (sue me those were my teenage years), ABBA & QUEEN greatest hits. That's not much isn'it? But since 2023, I try to buy at least one BTS album every 6 months, and that in itself is HUGE for me. Why do I do that ? What do they do, more than others, to make me want to spend money on them?

I've never been interested in fan voting before and now, I try to vote everytime I can. Even I find myself insane, but I can't help it. I want to support them all the way... 🤯

At first my husband thought my obsession was temporary, but after a year, despite of making fun of me, he's trying to find BTS albums or else for me (what a sweetheart 🥰). He supports me but doesn't understand it either.

So a simple question : what make BTS so addictive?

Their stage presence, charisma, uniqueness, talent ?

For a few weeks I tried to come up with a clear answer but I can't formulate it... daeng...

According to you, what distinguesh them from others groups or artists ?

Bisous et heureuse de vous lire!

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You have no idea how happy it made me to read you love Enya as well. That woman is a timeless treasure. And yeah she's one of the few artists aside from BTS whose music I've invested time and money into collecting.

Part of what you're asking is: what makes us spend money, time, resources, emotional labour, and more, on seven men halfway (maybe?) across the ocean from us?

"Even I find myself insane, but I can't help it. I want to support them all the way..."

Maybe we are insane. What's so wrong with that? Maybe we're kinda nuts to be so taken by these seven guys. So what?

Or maybe we're just suckers for good marketing. I know I am. Of course, other things matter as well but good marketing is something that BTS has down pat. It's kinda easy for them too because the guys are as authentic as they come around these parts. They're solid. There's no other group that could withstand the kind of scrutiny they're under without bucking. Not one. And incidentally BTS' musical talent is peerless.

So, yeah, the marketing. :)

Or maybe it's the fandom... That's the thing about fandoms - the reason fandoms exist is not for the idol, but for other fans. 90% of what people do here is discuss what other fans are doing. Not the music, not the performance, not even the idol themselves, but other fans doing fuck all. I'm not saying this to indict you. My point is that there is constant covert persuasion within the fandom to act like the rest of the group a.k.a. ARMYs. I keep saying fandom is a pressure cooker environment, and one way that shows up is covertly forming behaviours in people within the shared space/group, and if you haven't experienced being in big fandoms before it will be overwhelming. If you constantly see people who express their love for BTS by buying albums routinely, then it's easy to see how you might want to try it for yourself.

Because you do love BTS. At the end of the day, that's what it comes down to. I don't care to try to explain why. At least not for me. It might be their "stage presence, charisma, uniqueness, talent" as you said, or maybe they're just worth the love by being themselves and giving us the music and experiences they have so far.

I still get fever dreams remembering Agust D on tour last year, you know. I still remember what it felt like to hear his music live and see him perform. He was a beast. Buying his music sounds like a no brainer lol. And he's just one of seven similarly talented men together in one group. Their music is worthy of every award it ever gets. And their performances...

(There isn't a single group active today that has surpassed this video)

I've said before I followed BTS for years before calling myself an ARMY. Sometimes when I think about it, I'd been buying their albums regularly since 2015 - three years before I started calling myself a fan of BTS. Their music was just so good I couldn't ignore it. And this is when for most groups I'm so picky with buying albums.

I have to commend you for critically assessing (sort of) your desire to spend on BTS though. If we're indeed insane as we said above, it's better to be self-aware of the fact. So again, kudos for attempting to dissect what's really happening here. But, not to be preachy, I think it's important to also just let yourself enjoy things. If spending on BTS is coming ahead of meeting your basic needs and responsibilities, then listen to your gut and pull back. Go cold turkey if you need to and spend on nothing at all. But if that's not your experience, (and I don't think it is), then just let yourself enjoy loving them. In that case, it's enough to know BTS are phenomenal artists and good people who make us happy, and some of us have the desire, means and time to support them, and that's okay.

Isn't it enough that you enjoy BTS for whatever reason and want to sustain this thing you enjoy by investing into it? So long as you're prudent and resourceful? Or maybe... not? Nobody else's opinion matters anyway. It's your money and your time and you know best how to use it.

[ashadowofburnedoutstardust]

Hello again anon 🐯

I have what some would consider a "Narrative brain", at least that's what my smart friend the microbial ecologist lecturer/researcher calls it

It is a mild explanation for how I'm able to perceive the marketing narrative hints on things

Yes, that also means I have both a flair for the melo/dramatic but also a penchant for writing inverted metaphor for those clever enough to have picked up on the tricks they use

That's the thing about books/writing, they may be used by some as an escape using the readers desire to escape into something else; but its just as cathartic for the writer and as with most art tou can always find their real voice within it if you know them well enough

I'm doing it even now 😉 although with slightly less drama, this voice is probably the closest to my actual personality

I chose to explain that now as an example of curated social media personalities, you can be whoever you want to be online but it doesn't necessarily represent your true self to the outside world

I know of many Tumblrs accounts who are also fonts and IG pages, not everyone feels comfortable being themselves openly on all platforms but I have no problem just being myself no matter where I am, although my personalities are slightly different on each platform altered to suit the "Theme du jour" on each of them: IG - photoshop, LSA - much sass to be had, Twitter - troll, Tumblr - lots of fucking words, gifs, and the occasional reblog

The psychic thing is a bit less explainable even to me 🤷‍♀️ but I cope with it the best I can, my life has always been.....well, Weird

You're absolutely right, I take absolutely no crap from anyone, ever. Exceptions are only made for a drunk Taurus even I'm not stupid enough to fuck with that

Governments? yeah fuck them. Police? Yeah most of them too Basically anyone in a position of power that chooses to abuse it can simply fuck right off and you can be damn sure I'll call them out on it

But a drunk Taurus? Yeah, I'm noping out on that shit

I don't think I have ever in any lifetime taken crap from anyone

As for your other questions:

I've always maintained that I thought he was probably dating around and that the PR situation we've been submitted to was purely a contract connected to the SMA with the original intention of setting up a fauxmance with any one of the original IG contenders and everything we've seen is completely fake, as are all of the people involved

I have loved many different kinds of people in my life anon, I don't think anyone truly cares what a person does or where they're from only that they love them. So does this rumoured other person have pure intentions? I think that they too are nothing but a rumour or wishful thinking

Christopher has never hidden his relationships, if he had someone he truly cared about he wouldn't care how it looked standing next to them.......because he'd love them. Despite his claim to acting talents there are some feelings no-one can hide

This fandom is for the majority women, and given that thanks to a shitty patriarchy running the world into the ground one of our most important survival tactics is reading body language

Good luck convincing thousands of females that they are seeing something that simply doesn't exist

Did Chris find the one before this shitshow started? If you want my tarot based opinion, if I recall my readings well enough his unwillingness to do the work kept pushing back them meeting. It was something that came up in many many readings over time and the more this mess continued the more it would delay them meeting and the worse it would make it for the "work wife"

At least that was the jist of it......but look where we are now. Some people just don't know when to cut their losses. This is what happens when you don't put the work into something that needs it and consider your approach on how to correct a situation effectively.........thanks Megs, you suck

It is likely there is some form of Karma involved, I've seen a fair few astrologers read through his chart and predict some sort of Karmic debt? I think it was having to happen

Here's the thing about cosmic knowledge

When you take that information and abuse it for the purposes of what has been done it will come back on you. Magic in almost all of its forms is about intentions, and you can't force the divine it will take its own sweet time to teach you not to do that again so these people that have abused that have attracted the worst imaginable kind of energy that could take a lifetime to even attempt to shed

It's why I keep warning Christopher about the lesson he needed to learn........sometimes the universe will send a messenger....hence I'm here by diversion through my dreams

I do not believe in coincidences, if I was sent here to help thwart this abuse against the divine using both my spiritual gifts as well as some of my other talents then I have to have faith that it was for a reason; I don't have to fully understand that reason but I have to have faith that its in the plan somewhere

🤍🪽✨

[sammysdewysensitiveeyes]

8, 22, 24 !!

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

Since Morph has become Tumblr-popular (and I am SO happy about that), I have seen a lot of people who interpret Morph's "can copy other mutants' physical abilities" in X-Men 97 to mean "Morph could potentially copy any mutant's power," and that's really not how it works. I'm not gonna ruin people's fun when they are playing around with the idea in fanfic, but Morph is a shapeshifter, not a power mimic. Actual power mimics in the comics, like Synch, Mimic, Hope and Rogue can use other mutants' powers, Morph can't. Technically Morph isn't really copying other mutant powers, they are using shapeshifting to give themselves certain abilities like flight or strength, and transforming into other mutants so that animators can throw in cameos. They don't HAVE to turn into Angel to give themselves wings, they could just shapeshift wings. In fact, that's usually what AoA/Exiles Morph does in the comics, even when "turning into" other people as a gag he keeps his base form. My headcanon is that Morph finds it easier to use other mutants as a template for physical characteristics like wings or claws. I'd also love to see an arc where Morph learns to shapeshift multiple characteristics of other mutants (like Wolverine's claws, Colossus metal skin, Angel's wings) without fully turning into anyone, and it's both greater mastery of their powers and also Morph learning more confidence and self-acceptance.

I think X-Men 97 really muddied the waters by directly stating that Morph can "copy physical characteristics" without explaining what that means. Turning into Quicksilver for superspeed was especially stretching it, and although I love making Morph more powerful, I was like "Bullshit," at that scene. The show really should have tossed in an "explainer" somewhere, like maybe newcomer Sunspot asks Morph how their powers work, and Morph explains. That could have also gotten into why Morph appears more powerful in 97, and their changed appearance, another thing I wish the show had addressed.

22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores*

The existence of Shinobi Shaw, canonically the abused son of a supervillain, strongly implied to be bi, a rich and handsome "bad boy" who could easily be sympathetic, he would absolutely do numbers on Tumblr if a comic or show would just bring him to people's attention.

*Everyone else does not include you, obviously.

Also - Stevie Hunter - Kitty Pryde/the New Mutants' dance instructor, one of the few human allies of the X-Men that hasn't been killed or turned against them. Kind, strong, brave as hell, I want her back in comics, but I also don't, for fear that she would get killed off.

Also that time that Madelyne Pryor was given healing powers by Loki and called herself Anodyne and wanted to help people, but that's been far overshadowed by Goblin Queen Maddie.

Oh, and apparently in one of the X-Men novels written by Claremont, Frenzy is secretly a fan of Pyro's books.

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

Oooooh boy, I have several. I'll leave aside the useful conservative bullshit that springs up whenever a character happens to be gay, trans, a PoC, etc., we've all been through the usual nonsense of "I have nothing against characters being gay, I'm just going to pick apart and find fault with every gay character in comics." That's old hat.

But for X-Men:

Arguments about Jean/Logan, Jean/Scott, Emma/Scott just seem to bring out the worst in everyone. Personally, I hate Jean/Logan, and I'm meh on Emma/Scott, but arguments always devolve into a character bashing, especially Emma vs. Jean. Why pit two queens against each other? They are both great.

Certain X-Fans have obviously not read any Marvel comics outside the X-Men, and love to bash on groups that have been set up against the X-Men in any event, like Avengers or Inhumans (and we all know that big events crossovers like AvX or IvX are generally pretty stupid forced conflict). I know writers have "called out" the Avengers for not doing more to help mutants, but what exactly do fans want? Do you want the Avengers to come flying in and solve every problem the X-Men face? Then there would be complaints about the Avengers dominating X-Men books. We all know why the Avengers can't save mutants whenever there's yet another massacre, it's because the X-Men's whole thing is "feared and hated," and it would ruin stories if the Avengers fixed everything. It's the awkwardness of these characters existing in a shared universe, I just accept that the Avengers are usually busy with their own stories in their own books. And while I can understand the frustration of X-Fans during the Inhumans push, as a fan of both groups I have limited sympathy for people still wanting to dance on the Inhumans' graves years afterwards. God forbid the X-Men not be the center of Marvel publishing for a brief time, or that the Inhumans actually get a few books of their own.

"Child soldiers." This is another one that writers have tried to address in-book, but to me it's about as silly as treating Sailor Moon, the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles or the Power Rangers as "child soldiers." Is Zordon a manipulative child abuser because he specifically asked for "teenagers with attitude"? Or do we accept this as a power-fantasy for kids, just like the 60's X-Men comics generally were? If anything, Xavier has a greater excuse for recruiting teens than other super-heroes, mutants usually gain their powers at puberty and that puts them in immediate danger. And fandom only ever seems to drag Xavier for the X-Men being "child soldiers," even though Cable was actively turning the New Mutants into a paramilitary group in the 90's. Meanwhile, Xavier actually seemed to grow and change from the 60's, since he actively tried to keep Kitty Pryde and the New Mutants out of danger instead of sending them into the field. The X-Men have always recruited and endangered teens, even when Xavier is retired or dead.

Related to the above, the "Professor Xavier is a jerk," thing. And I don't even like Xavier much, but he gets dragged more and held to higher standards than characters who were actual villains and mass murderers. Xavier has done some incredibly shitty things, but fandom seems to love cherry-picking all his worst moments, or even just panels where he appears to be a jerk, completely devoid of context. Some common arguments are just wrong, like people claiming that Xavier "abandoned the New Mutants to go bang Lilandra," which is just blatantly NOT what happened in the comics. If you want a story about Xavier abandoning his students and leaving them in the hands of a former terrorist, the whole Changeling story is much more fucked up, Xavier actively chose to not only have Changeling stand in for him, he gave Changeling some of his telepathic powers. And they didn't even have the long-standing friendship of Xavier and Magneto, so there's no reason for trust there. If we're going to drag Xavier for his many sins, let's at least drag him for what he's actually done.

[castlebyersafterdark]

I think to understand why madwheeler is getting negative reactions lately, you have to know the whole extent of it. I've been in byler fandom for more than 2 years now and I read a lot (and when I say a lot, I really mean A LOT) of byler fics. And I didn't mind madwheeler in the very beginning but with time, people' obsession with it got so ridiculous that I couldn't help but grow to dislike it. It's not a hate ask, I'm just trying to explain my perspective.

You mentioned Dustin and Will not having a lot of screentime but still being friends. Well, nobody hypes up Will and Dustin's friendship that much. Nobody claims that Dustin and Will are the bestest best friends of all time. Nobody claims that Dustin and Will are soulmates. Nobody claims that Dustin and Will are essentially the same person but in different font. Nobody writes what essentially is a byerson fic but then tags it as a byler fic, even though there is close to none byler interactions in the fic. And that's what's been happening with madwheeler in recent years. People invented madwheeler bestfriendism in hopes of exploring an under-explored dynamic— which is good! fanfiction literally exists for this exact purpose— but at this point it's so overhyped that Mike's friendships with Lucas, and Dustin, and even Will became under-explored in the fandom. That's why people bring up the fact that Max and Mike don't interact much in canon. Of course, they interact! But they don't interact enough for this fanon version of madwheeler to exist.

And I feel like a lot of people confuse madwheeler with byler, because they literally write madwheeler friendship with romantic undertones: they understand each other better than anyone else, they don't shy away from skinship, they have intimate moments, and oh yeah, Max is so protective of Mike that she defends him from horrible mean Will. There are also times when people write madwheeler having a thing for each other, or them fooling around, or Mike being incredibly attracted to Max, and they don't tag madwheeler in any shape or form (or tag it only after the fact, if it's a multi-chap fic), and they disguise it as a byler fic, so it becomes an unpleasant surprise for people who open the fic for the byler. Sometimes I wish that these people just fully embraced their love for romantic/sexual madwheeler and just left byler out of this, because it's obvious that byler doesn't interest them as much.

And you also have to take into account that a lot of bylers can't even openly talk about their dislike for madwheeler, which is absolutely crazy to me because bylers talk shit about mileven all the time. So what's so different about this straight/"platonic" ship?

Thank you for the perspective!

It's interesting seeing how different people have had experiences in the fandom, and how we all get different mileage in the same fandom, same website. I kind of see what is implied here with characterization in fanfic. I don't think I've seen as much as was mentioned, but I do know what you're talking about. I'm notoriously very picky about fanfic, though early on I read everything I could get my hands on as I was swayed into being intrigued about the fandom.

Ohhhh, I really detest the "essentially the same person but in different font" thing, I have seen that. I get it. Because with Max and Mike... they're not? At all? I think they have similarities and parallels, but very different people. Different stories and arcs. But - within the same friend group. They do know each other deeply in canon, they've been through it, they're friends - this is a catch all statement for everyone in the core 4 plus Max. I cannot cosign insinuations that any of them outside of Mike and Will being "soulmates" because. Weird. No.

Tagging things one way but writing another - yeah, that's annoying with anything. Just write what you want and label appropriately so it can be avoided. Bad characterization is harder to avoid. I get that. It's hard because we all have such varied tastes but we also have our own agendas. If we were a lot more honest about that upfront, we can find our kind of people and avoid those we don't click with. Just be honest! Maybe that's unhelpful for this topic. When I'm engaging with works that aren't strictly Mike/Will romance and spice - I like stories about the Party being friends and engaging stuff about that so yeah, I look for fic to fill in the gaps we don't get from the show. I look for certain dynamics and back out of stuff that doesn't jive. Sucks when you discover that too deep into the story, and harder when the characters exist and you go searching with a preconceived expectation, unlike picking up an original book and partway through disliking it and ending up wasting your time. But - reading does always come with risks, no matter the medium!

I think I actually respect those who just embrace what they're into, even when it's not my thing. I'm not devastated about it. Can I imagine Mike Wheeler with a woman intimately? Not at fucking all hahahahaha that boy is gay as hell. But if someone likes Mike and Max and wants them to get it on - go ahead. Just write that. It's fic. It's not saving or destroying the world. But tag it. And don't go around making demands of canon that aren't there when people disagree with that wild divergence from the reality of the show. A more peaceful fandom if we do these things.

[sapphire-weapon]

I don't know how to say this kindly, but each and every Aeon take I see is from somebody with utterly zero literacy skills. It's shocking. Their opinions and analysis can only be explained by either A) they're 13 or B) they don't consume anything at all outside of cheesy videogames. It's the same shit with a whole lot of Leon stans too.

Note: I'm really not trying to be a bitch, but for the love of god, do not take your analysis opinions from TIKTOK. Do not do that. Form your own perception from canon material first. Then take every online review with a grain of salt and compare it to what you've found and what significant people within the making of said material have to say. God, I genuinely don't want to be mean, I just don't know how else to say it.

You said it before and I somewhat agree, anyone who cares about Ada as a character doesn't ship Aeon. I'm gonna add on to that by saying anybody with any level of capability to understand who she is, her arc, personality and holds a minor interest in any future appearances, does not ship it. OG Ada was... nothing. Just a couple of easy tropes tied up into a vessel. No arc. No known motivation. The fact they've decided to take her on again and WRITE HER for arguably the first time (lol) should be celebrated.

I'm gonna tack on a boiling hot take here, but both OG and Remake are so incompatible that it's impossible for Ada to exist with any worthy script while skipping around and fluttering her eyelashes at him. It's nonsensical. Leon is also completely robbed of any meaningful cathartic arc while just... ignoring her crimes because she shared one trauma with him and has nice legs. No we won't elaborate. That's what OG gave us.

Why are these people so LOUD in fandom spaces? I can name three shows this year that ended and pulled the worst takes imaginable, that I still have a hard time believing came from grown adults who watched them.

they're all people who get a superiority complex about being "right" -- so if they ship the canon ship, that makes them Objectively Right and no one really has any room to tell them that they're wrong. it really has nothing to do with the ship itself and everything to do with being on the "winning" team. it's mass tribalism and a desire to lord status over others. in an alternate universe where cleon won out as endgame, all those people would be cleon stans. i promise.

but there's one thing that you can use that objectively proves that OG and remake are two different timelines. i've never seen an aeon person (or anyone) refute this in a way that matters; pretty much every time i pull this out, whoever i'm talking to has to take the L.

operation javier.

krauser, much more than ada, is proof that OG and remake are incompatible as stories. unless someone really wants to try to say that OG krauser trained OG leon, in which case you go "bitch when" and point out the fact that krauser and leon did not know each other in OG until operation javier, and krauser faked his death immediately after.

[america-is-my-muse]

America's Family Explained [Countryhumans]

Fitting that I start off what I hope will be a little series with headcanons about my favorite countryhuman. As biased as I may be, I also just know the most about US history, so it seemed like the place to start. I've tried to combine actual history with sensical storytelling, because the most by-the-book interpretation doesn't always line up with what makes sense for a character backstory and I've taken some liberties in those cases. I will also be explaining the reason behind my headcanons in case people want to know how I got from A to B, not just dropping them and running

Also, disclaimer that this is MY PERSONAL headcanon/AU. You are free to agree with it or not, but don't leave hate telling me why I'm wrong, just move on because there's no established cannon in this fandom and we can all do whatever we want provided it's not wildly offensive.

Part I: Birthday

Establishing America's birthday seems like a silly thing to do, both because most people are going to immediately assume it's July 4th, 1776 and because it seems such a trivial thing to headcanon unless you're specifically setting out to write a fic celebrating his birthday.

Establishing his birthday, however, is actually really important to everything else I'm going to talk about. First of all, 1776 can't be America's birth year because that would mean that a) he just popped into existence fully formed b) he would miss all of the influential American Revolution events that took place before that and c) it doesn't make sense with the allegory of teenage America rebelling against his overbearing father Britain that I like so much. Instead, I picked the year 1607, because it is the year Jamestown, the first permanent British colony in the Americas, was established. Technically, his birthday should be May 13th, but I like having it on July 4th better, so his birthday is July 4th, 1607.

Part II: Parents

America's parents are Kingdom of France and Britain (The modern UK). This is a debated topic within the fandom from what I've seen, because the common idea that America's parents are France and Britain just doesn't really make historical sense, and frankly I agree.

As for France, modern France is technically the fifth Republic, which didn't come into existence until 1981, but even if you wanted to group all the iterations of French democracy together into a single personification (I don't, but theoretically), that still puts her 18th birthday in 1791 (countries turn 18 when they become independent), meaning it's really unlikely she would have been around and of any reasonable age to bear children in 1607 without any good reason to, therefor I have made Kingdom of France (her grandmother) the mother of America and his full siblings.

The reason this doesn't apply to Britain is because I'm considering the 1535 union of England and Whales as the beginning of British rule rather than the 1707 union of England and Scotland, which is when the name Great Britain formally began to be used. This means he is around to father America in 1607.

Obviously, France and Britain were at odds during this period, but they had entered into an arranged marriage when they were younger and were obligated to have children out of it, thus America and his sibs exist without breaking the universe and having this version of France and Britain actually like each other.

Obviously, there are a couple other candidates for America's parents that I could have used. Technically, Spain makes a lot of sense, but the Spanish Empire is male and married to Kingdom of Portugal in my AU, and Britain as the father is non-negotiable to me, so this isn't an option. I know some people headcanon Native America as his mother, but I feel like combining the entire scope of native culture/language/etc. into a single personification doesn't really make much sense and Kingdom of France works better story/wise (though for what it's worth the different Native American tribes/nations/confederations do have personifications).

Part III: Family

America has a lot of half-siblings between all the British and French colonies, so I'll only be focusing on his full siblings. Canada and Australia are the other two full sovereign nations in this group, Canada for obvious reasons, and Australia because Dutch Empire (the other European candidate for his parent) is also male in my AU, so they needed a mom and Kingdom of France makes the most sense due to being Britain's wife, even though there's no real French colonial history there. I don't have an aboriginal tribe as their mom for the same reason I don't have Native America as America's mom. New Zealand was also raised alongside the four of them, though her mom is actually Maori.

Besides that, America also has two twins--Confederate and Virginia (who was born Jamestown Colony)-- and the other 12 original colonies + the states they would eventually split into are his younger siblings.

The states are obviously America's children, but they're a mix of biological and adopted, and a couple more are at least partial siblings (Louisiana and Washington, for example) by blood, but they all view him as a father figure so I'm going to avoid the minutia in this post.

Ending thoughts

I think I'm going to work my way through the British/French family next for this little headcanon series, but I'll probably keep going until I stop having fun or don't have anything else to say. I'll eventually probably talk about character arcs & histories, but I'm trying to ease into this and not promise too much because I have a bad track record for putting a lot of pressure on myself over a fandom project and then quitting it entirely.

With that being said, feel free to drop and ask if you want to know my HCs about a specific country or some more elaboration on something I mentioned here. I have a pretty developed AU in my head/in google docs so there's a good chance I'll have something to say. No promises if you ask about something I don't really know anything about. I'm absolutely in favor of talking about niche subjects and less popular countries within this fandom, but that does mean I would have to do the research, and I can't promise to have the time or energy for that.

[fizzingwizard]

a mini non-rant about something that squicks me. dark stuff. you have been warned

at this point I basically can't stand slave fics in any shape or form. Whether X-rated content is involved or not. I don't think I could handle it even if it was all consensual. But I DEFINITELY hate hate hate any fic where one character is degraded, humiliated, and psychologically tortured. Especially if at any point there's some kind of sympathy or ~love~ for the "master."

I think I might actually have written about this before but it's because I'm honestly kinda stunned by how much I hate this theme. I didn't used to. In high school I even went through a phase of finding these stories exciting. Can't explain why. Just being a teen I guess. Most people have squicks and of course the only thing to do is scroll past and don't click what you don't like. But specifically when it comes to slavery, it seems I've reached a point where I can't even look at it.

Recently I was reading something where a character got captured. It was in a fandom where that sort of thing happens in canon on the regular (in a non-sexual way of course, and this story was also non-sexual). I was doing fine until the captor managed to break the captive's spirit and started using words like "master" and "pet." Then I was gagging. I had to stop reading. Don't care what happens next. The implication is that the captive will get away and vengeance will be reaped but I'm not even going to stick around for it.

Obviously this is a squick for me personally and I'm not throwing stones at the person who wrote the fic or anyone who finds this kind of story exciting. I totally understand that stories are a way people try to safely navigate the dark side of the world. It's just that my own visceral reaction surprises even me. I wasn't always this sensitive. But I feel like I project way too hard onto the captive. I know a bunch of real world enslavement stories and things that really happened to people can stick in a way fiction doesn't always. The real world is way more horrible than anything fiction can come up with. I think my brain has just completely erased the line between real and fiction for this particular theme so that if I read a fictional version it triggers the same emotions I felt reading about the real case.

There are arguably even more terrible scenarios that happen in fanfiction that don't bother me to the same degree this does, so it really is a personal thing. But interesting, I only react this way when it's specifically fanfiction - I don't get like this when I read published works. Even accounts from real world survivors. Those stories are incredibly moving as well as horrifying, but I'm always glad I read them and prefer them not sanitized. Because when someone puts someone else through such absolute trauma, I think other people shouldn't get to live in a world where everything is hearts and roses. We should know and we should care.

I think the reason it only bothers me with fanfiction is because fanfiction glamorizes or even eroticizes the psychological torture going on in a way that reflects the mentality of what the real world abductor would be feeling. While sympathizing and focusing on the captive's experience, there's a horror-movie style creativity and indulgence in humiliating and degrading that very same captive. When tends to make me feel humiliated and degraded since I'm projecting too hard. I don't want to be that close to such an evil person - and if I do, I want it to be in a clinical sense, a character study sense - not "this is for shits and giggles" or "this is for steamy hot dark sexy stuff."

In college I read a number of books where the main voice was a character doing something deplorable - a murderer or attracted to kids or whatever. Stuff that no one with any decency would approve of. Those books always caused some kerfluffle in class because some students don't like that they exist at all and others find them intriguing. Regardless of how you feel about them, one thing those books do not have going on is a titillation factor. If the character is aroused in a deplorable way, since they're the POV, there's not judgment for it - but there also isn't an attempt to arouse the reader like there is in fanfics. The fanfic writer is aroused either by sex or horror/whump and they're expecting their readers will be too. It's a completely different ball game than the majority of published lit.

Of course that's because it's got way more in common with straight up porn. :P

You might think "ok, this person just doesn't like whump" but you know what it's weird, I've read some absolutely shocking whump fics that did not bother me at all! I like horror. I like to be scared and wigged out. I don't like it to involve sex, that's one caveat. I definitely am not in the mood to read this kind of thing often, but if I find a summary that interests me I'm not so fragile that I can't at least peak inside.

But the slave fanfic thing. That's one that I just have hit a wall with.

[cherryblossomshadow]

What baffles me is how people will wholly jump on the assumption that queer identity is always and only political, ignoring that it has practical protective value for people whose identities aren't easily crammed into 1-2 letters of the acronym.

I meet the criteria for a few different identities under the LGBTQIA+ umbrella, and using the singular word Queer for myself is not JUST personal preference it's also to protect my privacy. I don't know how often this happens to people with less ambiguous presentation, but often the fixed labels other people find comforting are nightmares for me, because people can & will take "LGBTQ" as an invitation to interrogate me about my exact place in the acronym. For full context I also say this as someone who can self-disclose as trans and get asked "Oh, which direction?" but I don't think my experience is as much of a minority as passing discourse would lead us to believe.

Now, I don't think the labels themselves create this -- people feeling entitled to invade our privacy is a cultural issue and any causal relationships are multi-directional -- but I do adopt Queer as a response to that sense of entitlement. It's the full-stop that asserts to people NO I will not elaborate for your comfort, I will not contort my experience into an easily explainable lie. Having to disgorge intimate details of my life to avoid people's [often dangerous] confusion about "what" I am...that ain't liberating, nor empowering. It's a demeaning power relationship that I'm routinely forced into.

People hear "Queer as in Fuck You," and seem to just assume we're saying "Fuck You" just to be snarky, like there's nothing to legitimately say "Fuck You" about. But the above? That continual expectation to disclose just to get a basic level of safety and acceptance? *Warrants* a "Fuck You." (comment courtesy of @pulpchamber)

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I wasn't going to opine, but this discussion makes me think of a YouTube video about fandom. Yes, seriously. There's a part of the video where they say:

The longer you stay in a fandom space, the more risk you incur of becoming possessive of the property in question. The fandom stops feeling like a community of houses and more like a single room in your house for you and your friends to relax in, where you know the source material better than anyone else. Understand that in order to maintain its power as a place of refuge, nothing threatening can enter this safe space. And as defined by the previous point, any different readings of a source text can be perceived as a threat, because they supposedly undermine your experience of the story you love and care about so much. The people who share your interpretations are right, and that makes them hip. And the people who don't are wrong, and that makes them crazy and stupid. And you have to put those crazy stupid people in their place, because if more people buy into their interpretation than yours, it makes you wrong and YOU'RE the stupid and crazy one. When you've built your safe space around one ship or headcanon, and other fans ship something else, it doesn't feel like they're partying in the house down the lane with the door closed and the curtains drawn. It feels like just by existing they've barged into your house and hung up shipping banners all over the place, because there can only be one right interpretation, and there can only be one canon ship, and the safe space only has one room. And so, housecleaning takes the form of harassment and smear campaigns. A sort of "get out of my house" battle cry. It's a protection of the self and one's self-care routine. "Nothing I don't like can be in my safe space," be that thing a piece of analysis, a ship, or porn. But castle law should not apply to fandom spaces. We're a community, not a single house

And some of the arguments about "one true definition" for certain labels sometimes feel like they follow a similar logic. Getting in the weeds about using "queer" as an umbrella term. Over using "gay" as an umbrella term. Bisexual versus pansexual. And so on

I don't assume that I know what a word means to someone. Maybe [insert word] was an important part of their journey to them, even though it may have certain associations they wish it didn't. Maybe they just like the vibe of a certain word or literally the color palette 😂It's not my business.

if i say "the queer community", i am referring to the community of self identified queers. if you're not a self identified queer, then i wasn't talking about you!

"i don't like to be called queer because it hurt me!" cool, fine, whatever. the word gay hurt me, i get it. but see, i didn't actually call you queer, i was talking about, and this might be difficult to follow; people who like being queer! that's why i said "queer community", to refer to the broad community of queers.

"but i'm gay/lesbian/bi/ace/whatever and i don't like it being used as an umbrella term!" okay, cool. if someone forces you under an umbrella you don't like that sure does suck! i hate being forced under the "LBGT+" umbrella myself. i absolutely loathed "trans*", i get it, trust me. i would like to draw your attention to the fact that i just said "queer community", which explicit in text and implicit in meaning, refers to a community of people... bare with me here.... people who are queer. if you do not consider yourself queer.... then it wasn't about you. it was about me and my community.

"but i know what group you're talking about and it applies to me too!" okay but you see that, you see that you're putting yourself under the umbrella there right? and then complaining about it, right? it's not my fault you decided it was about you? you're always going "it's okay for you to use, but" and then attack us when we do use it for ourselves, by shoving yourself under an imagined umbrella of your construction, hurting us in the shove, and then screaming like you were forced in here.

"but it's a--" listen.

listen to me.

you might think i'm being obstinant and maybe i am a little! but i'm trying to illuminate a point here. you've constructed an idea in your head of "us" as a monolith, a singular group that you want covered by a singular umbrella with a singular term; and you've decided that this "us" group - including you - is who i'm talking about right now, and then you've gotten shitty at me for using a word you don't like for an idea you projected over my words.

but here's the secret: there is no singular group like that. there is no monolith. there is no singular cohesive "us". there's just people, individuals with infinite experiences and selves and sexualities and genders and loves and all these beautiful things, and sometimes when we're similar enough we band together into groups and pick labels; gay, trans, queer, rainbow, whatever. these are just names, names for imagined groups, imagined groups with fake made up boundaries! people will argue there are definitions, gay means this, lesbian means that; but people will always disagree, so the names expand and the groups get broader. msm, wlw, bi, pan, genderqueer, rainbow quiltbag alphabet soup!

and you can expand and contact and refine and broaden but you will never cover everyone. at some point, you have to just accept letting people self define, and decide if they want to be in the group. if you have a "gay" group, the socially straight msm will get shitty at being called gay and it's not the fault of either the gays or the word "gay" that they're not included! people will expand and stretch and redefine and shrink, all these groups and labels will ebb and flow as different people have different needs and want to include - and exclude!- different people for their communities.

but some of "us", many generations ago, got sick and tired of constantly redefining labels and groups and decided to pick a nice word for ourselves and welcome anyone who liked it to use it, and that's queer. maybe it was already a slur that we reclaimed, maybe it was already our word before it became a slur, maybe it was just common slang for someone a little unusual and oddball and we liked that! historians both academic and communal disagree! it doesn't even matter, it's our word; "our" being anyone who likes it. if you like "queer" and want to be queer and respect the existing queers, you're welcome. and generation after generation, we pass it on for anyone to use, to say: it's okay not to box yourself in, it's okay not to define yourself down to the molecule, it's okay to be free, to come and go, to love and be whatever. it's our sanctuary. you are queer if you want to be queer. that is the gift that was given to me by the queers that came before me, i will gift it in turn to anyone that wants to carry it forwards. not everyone has to be queer, but we chose to be.

and you motherfuckers.

you motherfuckers keep smashing through the windows of our sanctuary, declaring it to be your umbrella, scream about slurs like we've never been hurt in our lives, and then hurl violence and vitriol at us because you personally hate being inside our sanctuary and want the entire structure destroyed and rebuilt for you.

fuck you.

i suffered through years of torment and abuse being called gay and having it spat at me with hate, being berated in church for questioning love, being screamed at and beaten by family and classmates and having them spit - literally - the word gay at me. i suffered through it, i survived it, i flourished to spite it and was embraced by queers who taught me love for myself and gave me safe sanctuary in this beautiful, ambiguous word, and you don't get to take that away from me.

if i say "us queers" and you come at me about how it hurts you and start yelling about umbrellas and slurs: 1) i wasn't fucking talking about you, 2) you're not part of my community and don't get to tell me what i call it, and 3) you are the fucking problem here, you are the one doing the hurting right now.

when you come into my community of queers and tell me that our sanctuary is "a slur", you are indistinguishable to me from the people spitting "gay" as they beat me.

if you're gay as in happy, you're free to be that and i won't stop you or tell you your whole core is a slur. you pick whatever umbrella you want to imagine for yourself, and i'll probably chose not to stand under it.

because i am queer. as in fuck. you.

and you will have to kill me to stop me being queer

[familyagrestefanblog]

I don't know how much I wanna speculate with the trailers of "Kuro Neko" and "Penalteam" here on Tumblr before they air and tbh I really wished we could just go into these blind at this point.

People are all really desperate in seeing the least amout of problems in the few seconds we get of these episodes completely out of context and try to convince everyone that the obviously problematic things don't matter and "how dare anyone not excuse everything as okay" when the narrative has been pretty straight forward with the Ladynoir conflict all season. This was never treated as a secret by the show and the Ladynoir conflict and the fallout has been built up, structured and forshadowed in the way it'll escalate pretty openly by the narrative so I just really wished people would stop making all of that out to be irrelevant or straight up non-existent. This is not going to get us anywhere in the long game as a Fandom because the show is not going to suddenly stop with the story it has always been very open with for years now just because Fandom cannot handle the thought that every character in the show has acted wrong because of their own limited perspective and lives situation that always get deliberately interwoven in each episode to make certain aspects worse and worse.

Every character will have to own up to their shit to resolve this entire mess in season 5. Nobody is guiltless and the overarching narrative has never pretended otherwise.

I'm especially bothered by people just straight up denying any kind of solid reason for a continuing conflict because "Ephemeral" has done so much to make it clear that shit is about to go down now. Seriously, all of this couldn't be make ANY clearer but it seems hardly anyone is willing to actually accept the flaws of our characters and where the overall situation is very obviously heading.

There is this one, little meta detail in "Ephemeral" I just absolutely fell in love with because it tells us just how important the next 4 episodes are:

"Ephemeral" was episode 100 and as many people have pointed out already that number has been mentioned quite alot in it. But how many have picked up on the fact that 1:05 is an episode number too? And you know which episode? Episode 5x01!

Everything that happenes til 5x01 is crucially important in how this story will end. Whatever is brought up, dealt with, escalates and develops in this time frame will make the difference between happy ending and absolute DOOM. And yes, the relationship between our two main characters is part of that too. That shouldn't be a surprise.

In "Ephemeral" Marinette has done the 5 minutes time frame while partnering up with two different people: Luka and Chat Noir.

The first time lead to Marinette and Adrien revealing and being happy, in love and their relationship problems get automatically solved without them having to actually work on themselves. Well, until these circumstances directly lead to ShadowMoth WINNING and starting to grand his wish that would have destroyed the universe as it is right now for him to form it into something else, which was only undone by Sass throwing time into chaos with his powers. I hope I don't have to explain that the narrative is saying that this isn't GOOD, no matter how happy they were.

So afterwards Ladybug does the time frame partner up with Chat Noir, since he is her actual comic counterpart but this 5 minutes time frame ends in a situation that very clearly shows that this time around the Ladynoir dynamic will go the complete other direction

Marinette/Ladybug and Adrien/Chat Noir were happy and saved their escalating relationship in the time-line that directly lead to everyone ultimate doom. Now the new 1:00 - 1:05 ends with a very clear indicator that for this story to have a happy ending their relationship will have to suffer all the consequences of the secret identities without getting the luxury of getting spared being held accountable or unfairly treated with a reveal. This goes for EVERYBODY. NOBODY is getting spared from this. The situation they are in is inherently jinxed and unfair, everybody will have to suffer unfair accountability, fight and forgive things they normally shouldn't have to but now in their absolutely awful situation that is LITERALLY layed out against them in it's core they will simply have to. Their fight is bigger than every single one of these characters and the narrative is very straightforward with what's happening now.

Can we please just accept and get over this please? The show has never portrayed a different overarching narrative all the way from season 1 to now the end of season 4, Miraculous just unfortunately has to be written in a way that each episode can still stand on its own which is definitely doing the narrative a huge disservice. And let's not even mention airing the episode so ridiculously out of order. Still it doesn't change the fact that the Ladynoir fallout story has been there for years now and don't say it wasn't I've been watching the show like this ever since 2017. It was just a question of HOW this is being executed by the narrative and honestly in my opinion the show is doing an absolutely phenomenal job at this (they go WAY HARDER than I actually thought they would dare to go) but this well executed story is met with such an almost irrational denial by the Fandom that its souring so much of the experience. Every time I go through the Miraculous tags and read other posts I have the feeling everyone is legit trying to gaslight everyone else at this point that the mere thought of anybody in the show having done something wrong is a crime and aren't people ashamed bringing up points of very obviously set up conflict?

I don't know how to wrap this post up, but I just wanted to voice my ongoing frustration with the Fandoms denial of the absolutely plain obvious story narrative that has always been there in the show because I just know that every upcoming episode, everything that happenes in it will not be properly treated narratively wise the way they should. The most crucial aspects and developments will be excused or dismissed as not important/irrelevant, completely justified or called OOC/ Bad writing. And at this point that's just frustrating to witness.

[tie--up--loose--ends]

To that person I had so high opinion of before all that:

Thank you for dumping me last January, silently after all I offered was support.

I never felt so bad for doing something for someone else.

Now I can't even finish your fic.

And your fic WAS MY ONLY FAVOURITE FAN FIC about that character. The ONLY one.

BUT WHY WOULD YOU CARE....AS EVERYONE ELSE IS ALWAYS AROUND YOU COMMENTING SHOWING YOU LOVE.....why would you care that I won't read.

Yeah why would you?

Or why would everyone else

"Thank you" so much.

I wish I have never told you how much I like your fic.

At least I will finish it and now I can't because it became a trigger. Only see how that link got deleted in the blink of an eye, and me not even being asked what's going on.

I was in the middle of severe depression and was having non stop panic and anxiety attacks meanwhile deleting my blogs and my whole fic.

But no one cared to ask what's going on.

And dumping me for what?

Because Little Miss Anastasia Steele COMPLAINED WITH HER BIG MOUTH because that person can NOT use my DELETED GIFS for their fic.

And they complain why? Because they got this?

Excuse me but there is nothing to complain about.

Why haven't she read my fic instead of ONLY using my gifs for every piece of fiction about that character she was writing?

Hmm?

But she is a "wh**re "for your fic.- that's a quote. She said "I'll be a w***re for your fic...." And she gets recommendations.

Of course.

But so good that at least someone has "friends".

Not me though.

News for you both-

This was MY WORK and I DELETED it and didn't wanted it USED.

I don't need to explain why and you don;t need to be mad about it.

First - Because it was my work. And I don't want my DELETED WORK USED after no one would show a basic for of mutual respect towards the hard work that goes into it.

Second- because NO ONE READ my fic after I begged for 1 comment for half a year, and everyone was playing deaf.

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WHILE YOU BOTH AND EVERYONE WERE RECOMENDING EACH OTHERS. And that one friend of yours won't shut up how good you are.

Then Little Miss Steele person had 400 notes per chapter.

So they deserve recommending?

Why? So they can become MORE POPULAR?

While OTHERS STAY UNSEEN?

God knows why that person is popular at all.

But my invisible fic with 10 likes didn't deserve recommendation?

Despite the fact that it was good.

At least so people who would like it to know that it exists....

But no....

No recommendation for me by no one.

Why?

Because I'm not popular?

I don't think so.

So thanks for showing where your loyalties are......

And everyone else keeping quiet because they COULDN'T CARE LESS.

I should have never involved myself with you.

I got PTSD as side effect of all that happened the "betrayal" included.

That mean I needed to have counseling for half a year after that nice experience.

While people write prequels....and what not.

Probably it's good to go from "ONLY 20 NOTES and a writer block" to FANDOM FAN-FICTION SUPERSTAR .

didn't HAPPEN TO ME. I had 10 f* likes so I deleted all I posted and enjoyed a year long DEPRESSION.

So - I wasted 4 months of my life for a person that dropped me with no second thought because I asked ANOTHER PERSON my things not to be used....

Wooow.

Also FOR TEH RECORD- I DON'T DO HATE/ OFFENSE.

I always follow the common courtesy rules!

However I have NO control over what someone would perceive as "offense".

So thanks for dumping me. For nothing.

And thank you for doing it silently. Deleting my name from your tag list and that link to my fan blog I did for your fic.

You think that's not enough and means nothing?

Do you know how many people did whatever for me or my fic?

NONE.

So yeah....To each their own. 4 months form my time no on e will give me back. But now that you are a big name.....and you have it all why would you care for those who are not.

I bet it's better in the populars club having friendly talks with other writers.....about writing.

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I wish I knew I don't mean anything, before I believed I was friend of yours.

I was some number it seems. And one that meant nothing to you it seems.

Because the friends get their fic read and commented and recomended...as that one fic about We could be heroes.....

And for the record- I didn't need anything.

But sure a kind word would feel good.....like "You wirte too...Coool. Welcome new author. "

Well I got nothining of it.

I was dumped. Because I'm not popular.

And little Miss Steele has 2000 followers....so ...I'm sure their support means more.... lol

Anyways.

Rude.

[chaosandstardust]

the thing that really sucks about Yashahime is that it probably destroyed any hope we have for a reboot or a continuation that I'd actually be interested in. It really sucks. because i love inuyasha, it was my favorite show as a kid, and it's such a comfort for me. i love the characters, i love the world. i know that it's extremely out of date, but i still love it. and yashahime is going to hang over everything from now on for an eternity.

I told myself I wouldn't answer anymore Yashahime asks but I've seen this idea floating around a lot so:

I highly doubt that yashahime has destroyed any potential for a reboot/remake/more Inuyasha. one thing I've learned in my time in fandom is that as long as there is a sizable enough fanbase, there is a chance for more, in some form or another. look at the Star Wars fandom: they've been burned how many times now, and yet they're still coming back for more. As long as Inuyasha's fandom is active, the people in charge of Inuyasha's IP will come up with ways to get money from them. 

You’re right that it’s going to hang over the Inuyasha fandom now. The question writers are going to have to grapple with going forward is whether or not they see Yashahime as canon. The Star Wars prequels are known for being bad, but they're still generally accepted as "canon" among both the fandom and the writers. Yashahime is extremely divisive for a lot of very valid reasons, and a lot of people outright do not accept it as canon. But in the future, the people holding the Inuyasha IP may feel they have to take Yashahime into consideration when making new works, the same way that anything that Star Wars gets is going to consider the existence of the prequels.

But I highly doubt that Yashahime is going to be the last we see of Inuyasha. The brand is way too popular for it to just sit there. Yashahime trended several times over the course of it’s run, the producers no doubt took note of that. That’s not nothing. 

I know what you're going through anon. I don't support Harry Potter anymore, at least not financially, thanks to JK Rowling's...ahem...behaviour (transphobia). But it was a huge part of my childhood growing up, and seeing it get dragged through the mud in the pursuit of cash has been...an experience. I wish that we could've just left it alone, but Warner Brothers & Rowling were not about to do that with their cash cow. We’re in a time where IPs are going to be milked to death as long as there are people around to pay for them, because we’re not allowed to let things die gracefully anymore. This is just the world we live in now, and I hate it. I miss endings. I miss the beauty of a good ending. I miss not having every single piece of lore explained to me because a company needed to make another movie to explain it. I miss films that didn’t depend on me having to watch 15 more beforehand. 

So, yeah, I doubt that Yashahime has buried Inuyasha. The fact that they’re still selling merch and making a manga is a testament to that. Give it 5-10 years, maybe 15, but probably way less. They’ll come out with something else. 

[glorioustidalwavedefendor]

Jotuns don't have the freeze burn touch on constantly. It's been shown in the first movie (Thor got headbutted but didn't burn, Vollstag was burned deliberately). They do it deliberately, consciously, just like with fostering ice and creating ice weapons. This was how Loki discovered he was Jotun, because that one warrior grabbed him and then tried to burn him. But his sleeve and armour disintegrated instead.

This!

I was about to say

Wen Laufey sits on Odin, the fur blanked does not ice over and brake so it is very deliberate

Also

Jotunheim is very cold, to have these ice colums exist you need subzero temperatures year round

So … let‘s say the place where they land is around -10°C cold

→ cold enough for the icy landscape but not so cold that the asgardians drop dead on arrival

That means, if thermodynamics works the same on Jotunheim as it works on earth, that the Jotun need to be -10°C or colder to not freeze

If Loki is in an earth like setting, there is no need for him to be that cold

I think the Jotuns do have cooler body temps, but it's not freezer burn cold by default. Even in that clip from the Avengers, his temp isn't super cold, it's just a bit colder than his surroundings.

This

You can see in the picture that he is the same temperature as the background.

So probably around 20°C

Cold to the touch of a 37°C human, but not cold enough to burn

And that is wen he has no reason to make himself palpable (literally) since he is in enemy territory

Because:

#I mean if Loki was super cold all the time it probably would have been noticed way earlier that he was a frost giant

This!

Thor is constantly touching him, he would have noticed

I don’t care if it’s an au, Loki cannot turn the form off and on as he wishes! If he could’ve… I’m sure he would’ve found out a lot sooner. In order to be so deceptive, his mind has to be in tune with everything about his body. His expressions, body language, etc… He’s very intelligent. Which not only the fandom forgets, but also Marvel.

→ In order to be so deceptive, his mind has to be in tune with everything about his body

But that doesn‘t mean that his mind tells him all it‘s up to

People that get, for example, a ADHD diagnose late in life, might at first get a lot worse, because they now can‘t explain away things anymore, they can‘t lie to themselves, they can‘t force themselves to function like they are supposed to at the detriment of their health, because now they know

Or take systems

A lot of Systems don‘t know that they are systems until they know

After all, the whole reasons alters exist is to hide trauma, so the whole System can survive

So it‘s in the systems best interest to hide the truth from who ever is at the wheel.

Odin might even have put a sort of SEP field around the „button“ that allowed Loki to change his shape, so he didn‘t really notice it was there until he KNEW it was there …

That is actually a fantasy trope, doors that only exist for people that know where it is, or who have a key in their pocket or who hav eth right to open them etc …

For other people the door just does not exist …

So, you can definitely handwave it away as:

The ice touch is a deliberate choice

In an earth like setting Loki would be warmer then on Jotunheim.

All that being said.

I completely agree with this:

Also I’ve ranted before about how fanfic authors have him dropping his glamour way too often and too easily anyway. It actually annoys me how cavalier people are with it when we know Loki has a lot of self loathing to work through over his birth form. Like, headcanon what you like but I personally find “Loki turns blue to snarl at and terrorise Y/N only she practically throws her vagina at him” unrealistic tbh.

And no disrespect to monster fuckers, you do you.

And no disrespect to people who just want to tell Loki, via a character (oc or canon) that he is loved regardless, without having to slog through a novels worth of writing, you do you to

But I personally like it best wen it is used as a mark of trust in a relationship (platonic or romantic).

Because I feel, used like that. it is very Loki.

It is basically his version of asking, “would you still love me if I was a worm?”

It also is him calling the shots and being in control. He has learned the had way that secrets don‘t stay secret and tend to come out at the worst moment possible. So as long as his true nature is a secret there is the possibility of it coming out at he worst moment wen he isn‘t prepared, wen he is vulnerable, wen he doesn‘t expect it.

So he chooses wen and where.

It‘s basically your cat showing you it‘s soft belly, trusting you will not touch.

It also might mark the fact that he is now so emotionally tied to this relationship that this is his last chance to get out with most of his heart intact. A sort of now or never moment.

If he is rejected now, he will survive, if he is rejected any later his heart will brake irrevocably.

So yeah.

Done well, this is my favorite Loki trope.

Done wrong I loath it with the passion of a thousand suns.

For me, it needs to be earned.

It can‘t just happen

Oh I also dislike it wen it happens because he is injured, I want it to be his decision …

Wait I don’t know if anyone’s talked about this before, but in Jotun Loki fics, people always have the reader touch him while he’s in that form which sort of… never made sense to me.

Considering the fact that he’d be reverted to his Jotun form, wouldn’t anyone who touched him began to freeze? Hence why (perhaps one of the reasons) Loki in Thor 1 was so apprehensive about grabbing Odin’s hand, with the hand the Jotun grabbed him by and reverted him with in Jotunheim?

I… don’t think you’d be able to touch him. And he wouldn’t just be cold to the touch. Loki is ALREADY quite cold to the touch canonically (right bottom corner shown in the picture above), so in his Jotun form… he’d be freezing.

Anyone please correct me if I’m wrong, though. Was just wondering because I always had the sort of idea that if you touched Loki while he was reverted to his Jotun form, that it would be dangerous. Just like touching any other Jotun.

Which is one of the reasons he was probably afraid to grab Odin’s hand. Not only at the thought of himself being a “monster” and untouchable in that sense, but also literally being untouchable because it wasn’t necessarily safe and he was hyper conscious of it, even if he had already been reverted back.

I get people excuse things for the sake of Fanfic, but I actually don’t think I’ve seen people talk about this before. So I don’t know if it’s just them excusing it, or a fandom-wide misconception.

May reword this later. Probably sounds a bit stupid and might be straight up incorrect in some areas because I just woke up.

[jojo-chan09]

I honestly think that Johnny Joestar doesn't get much love from the fandom but I myself love him to bits, so here is a little fan fic about this pretty loverboy <3

Tw: mention of self harm

Reader is gn <3

You sat on the sofa, your mind spinning and you couldn't control it, you had just relapsed and hated yourself for it, "Why did I do it..?" Was the only question in your mind, as now you looked at the cuts on your body, some of them still bleeding.

You took a deep breath as you grabbed your phone and texted to the only person you wanted to help you in that situation, Johnny Joestar. He was your one and only, the one you loved endless, the one that always loved and helped you whitout judging you at all and always comforted you, no one ever treated you or made you feel like Johnny, the love he gave you had no equals and that was why you loved it and craved it so much, his love was the only thing that could heal the cuts in your heart, and that was why you were texting him.

You stood there, waiting for him to answer, luckily he didn't take long, immediately asking you what you did, but you only told him to come at your place and that you'll explain him there.

Not even 20 minutes later you heard a knock on your door, so you opened it and saw Johnny, holding on his lap your favourite snacks and drink "I thought these could help, but now, what have you done this time?" The gesture made you smile as you closed the door behind him and guided him to your living room. As you both sat on the sofa, you took a deep breath and started talking, "I self harmed, again.." His eyes were wide open as he looked at you, "I swear whoever made you do it won't make it to tomorrow" you smiled a bit, he had always been protective of you, anyone who hurt you had a good word with Johnny, and it made you feel protected and reminded you that he cared.

He asked "So, what brought you to that?" You took a hold of his hand as you slowly explained him the motivation, while you spoke his eyes never got off of you and his hand started to old yours. After telling him, you felt relieved, opening up to someone made you feel better, and you felt even more better because it was Johnny who you opened up to. He looked at you, and stroked your face with his hand "You know right that you're strong? You fell this time and it happens, the important isn't the fall, it's how you react to it." His words made you smile, maybe you could really do better, as you relaxed in his touch, he put one of the snack bags on your lap and said "Now, you know we can't change the past, but the future is in our hands, why don't we make it better?" You smiled again, his gesture and words giving you a sense of hope, "Sure, Johnny" you said, as he turned on the TV and put on your favourite TV show.

As you watched the show while eating, you felt something in the bag of your snack, so you brought your gaze on it and saw a little note, you took it out and started reading it "Dear Y/N, I know I could have told you in a better way, but I've loved you ever since I met you, you always brought light in my dark life and made me feel like I was enough for you, I love you so much and nothing I could ever do would be enough to repay you for how much you did for me, thank you for exciting, Y/N" tears started forming in the corners of your eyes as you turned around to poke Johnny's arm, who was still watching the show, "Are you alright, Y/N?" He asked, as he turned around he noticed the note in your hand and blushed, you smiled and brought your face close to his, slowly, both your faces got closer, and your connected in one.

The kiss was sweet and delicate, and while you kissed your hands held eachother, and you felt like nothing other than Johnny existed, you were safe with him, and nothing else counted.