#I do still want to read the ones on my list it's just. THEY'RE ON HOLD. in the meantime this is fun
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accardi-x · 2 days ago
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Can I request an emotional scene with Ena from Dream bbq? Non-yandere, if you can.
Need a little sadness to read.
ENA: Cater me in Vows
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Might have mentions of angst, emotional scenes, use of First person inner monologue ( from time to time), Etc.
If you're uncomfortable with anything listed above, then I advise not to read further. If you wish to continue know that you've been warned.
You don't breathe like you used to. It used to be the humes the rain carries, a small drizzle. Steady, on point even in a rush hour. Now you breathe like the cracks the mellow sun cries.
Now, I'm bestowed with the aftermath. A fragile child, alone and scared, That doesn't know what they're doing. Hiding in the closet waiting for the fumes to pass and your father to wake up. But, doesn't know how to stop it.
We'll walk past memory lane, and I can see your eyes staring for a moment too long at one. Sockets filled with ocean waves stuck in a thunderstorm. And I don't know how to get you out. I'll hear the mockingjays sing your coos till dawn and again.
I'll grab your hand, our hearts beating as one. the forest is quiet, anticipating. The birds may stop, the ground still, the waves nearing. It's perfect, isn't it? I'll ask you to breathe with me. Even if the air won't enter and the bedding crumbles, let me take your hand.
You kept turning the fluorescents into an unattainable compromise. The carousel drags you away from me, can't I hold you? I'll breathe if you'll let me, cry if you'll let me, see if you'll let me. So why am I so scared?
Every time I look at you, I feel happy. I treasure the moments of vulnerability and I'll keep it close to my heart. Yet, your eyes aren't here. There someone in the past stuck in melancholy. I want to help, I do, I just don't know how.
I'll dress in flowers, so nostalgia can focus on something else. You'll lit up like a broken lightbulb, but the electricity gave out ages ago. So I'll sit next to you.
"Does it hurt?" You said one evening, a roar terrified to be heard. Yet you didn't want an answer. Bleached eyes stared at the vinyl with resentment, but the warmth radiated cultivated droplets of anger. You'll stare in my direction, as if you were trying to pinpoint God.
You fell upon me, a porcelain doll broken on the floor. Your lips spoke melancholy, again and again with anger of a wounded soldier. You entered the confession of the church, your burns, regrets. You spoke what the cigarette burned.
Even after the clock was tired, I wouldn't let time be harsh on you. And you showed me the child inside the closet, letting me kiss the tears that stained their cheeks.
I'll forever vow to be when time catches up. Next to the scared child, but instead of being alone, I'll be with them.
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• Hasn't been checked for grammar, nor has it been proofread.
• I'll also like to mention that English isn't my first language so I apologize if there is any error in my writing.
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emandemms · 18 hours ago
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recently, i read the iliad for the first time and i made a "no one told me the iliad was a comedy??" list while reading it, so here's the list in its entirety!!!
- diomedes in all of book five.
- athena telling diomedes he shouldn't fight any of the gods that may show up on the battlefield, except for aphrodite, because what's she gonna do, fight back?
- athena then lecturing diomedes for NOT fighting ares, and diomedes proceeding to tell her "dude, you literally told me not to fight him, what do you want from me?"
- achilles and his pure hatred for agamemnon. someone give this man a shirt that says "number one agamemnon hater".
- achilles and agamemnon arguing the entire time they're in the vicinity of each other. every time they talked, it was like two kids coming up with every insult under the sun without outwardly cursing each other out.
- agamemnon essentially calling achilles a whiny bitch. kind of iconic.
- a popular favorite but: odysseus going around and beating the men who wanted to leave with a fancy ceremonial stick. it just never gets old.
- odysseus being that one guy who never shuts up about his kid while beating the living shit out of thersites. he very proudly calls himself the "father of telemachus" while verbally and physically abusing this man.
- odysseus once again referring to himself as the "loving father of telemachus" when agamemnon is trying to piss him off so he'll join the battle. i'm pretty sure this is a fairly common thing for odysseus to do, and you got to love him for it.
- another popular favorite: agamemnon mourning his very-much-so-still-alive younger brother after menelaus gets shot by an arrow in the thigh. menelaus quickly realizes he's fine and asks his brother to stop lamenting his "death" because if he keeps it up, he's gonna spook the rest of the men and that's just not what they need right now.
- and then agamemnon immediately being like "oh, word? okay, but you need a doctor- SOMEONE GET THE DOCTOR!"
- athena grabbing achilles' hair during the argument between achilles and agamemnon in book one when achilles is deadass about to just kill agamemnon because he's mad as hell. she then proceeds to tell achilles to call agamemnon names instead and books it.
- helen being the bad bitch she is whenever she's on the page, despite her circumstances. not only does she flat out tell paris she wishes he had been killed, but she basically tells aphrodite to bed paris herself, which is ballsy as fuck and i have nothing but respect for her.
- speaking of paris: hector absolutely TEARING into paris after he flees from fighting menelaus one-on-one. he really just says that paris is only good for looking pretty he wishes paris had never been born which, honestly, good for him.
- priam asking helen to point out the various greek leaders and immediately calling agamemnon handsome. idk why but it made me chuckle just a bit.
- priam also comparing odysseus to a ram, which is such a wonderful visual and i think about it a lot.
- antenor, one of priam's advisors, recognizing odysseus when helen points him out and immediately going: "oh, that motherfucker, i remember him. he looks like an idiot, but man, does he know how to use his words to win over a crowd."
- nestor essentially saying "back in my day-" every time he opens his damn mouth. i love him and he never shuts up once he gets going.
- diomedes telling glaucus he's "not one to fight the heavenly gods" immediately after fighting not one, but TWO of said heavenly gods.
- athena and hera wanting to throw hands with zeus in book 8.
- athena and hera ALSO being petty as all hell and actively ignoring zeus after he told them to stand down. deserved, if you ask me.
- diomedes calling odysseus a coward when asking for odysseus to help him save hector.
- "stubborn odysseus" then ignores him, and runs back to the ships. honestly, don't know what diomedes was expecting, calling the guy a bunch of names.
- hector and greater ajax throwing ROCKS at each other in the middle of battle.
- diomedes scolding agamemnon for suggesting that the greeks retreat. the guy had it coming, and diomedes read him like a book and it was beautiful.
- odysseus not calling achilles by name after he and greater ajax came back from an attempt to persuade achilles to forgive agamemnon. he really just told agamemnon and the rest of the greek lords: "this guy is an asshole, y'all, he's still all worked up about it. ain't no way we getting him off his ass to fight."
- the entirety of book 10 feels like a fever dream and i'm kind of obsessed, regardless of what historians/classicists have to say about it. like wdym diomedes and odysseus go out on a little night time stroll while the greek camp is under siege, kill a bunch of men, and come back with some fancy ass horses and weapons??
- nestor kicking poor diomedes awake when diomedes was sleeping on the ground in front of his tent. like, damn old man, you could at least try to see if he'd wake up if you called his name or some shit.
- this is also funny as fuck when you consider that literally a few hours ago, diomedes busted his ass to save nestor's life. this is why we don't help people, kids.
- odysseus telling diomedes that there was no need for diomedes to praise him because "everyone knows i'm hot shit dude, let's just go and get this over with."
- diomedes calling paris a "sleazy flirt" after paris shot him in the foot with an arrow. he calls him a LOT of names, but he basically just calls paris a cowardly, weak-ass slut, which is spot on if i'm being totally honest.
- odysseus immediately trying to mentally hype himself up after diomedes left him alone on the battlefield. he really just stood there like "oh fuck, i can't run because i'm not a spineless coward but i'm all alone out here what the fuck am i gonna do!!!??" gotta feel a little bad for the guy.
- diomedes' and hector's beef. they HATE each other and it honestly cracks me up. diomedes is constantly ragging on hector for being babied by apollo and hector basically keeps saying diomedes is a rabid animal that's out of control.
- hector telling his horses they're lucky because andromache gives them the good wine first, before he gets any. he really said "my wife loves me but i guess she loves you guys more, how the FUCK did you get so lucky???"
- idomeneus and meriones running into each other in the greek camp while everyone else is fighting. fully imagined them just standing there and pointing at each other like: "yo, dude, what are you doing here?"
- meriones, instead of going to his own tent, decides to take a spear from idomeneus and basically tells idomeneus "dude, my tent is so far, please don't make me go all the way out there and just let me borrow one of yours."
- idomeneus being totally chill with it, so long as they hurry the fuck up and no one sees them away from the battlefield because then people will think they're cowardly losers.
- patroclus.
- no further notes on this one, just patroclus. what a guy.
- agamemnon trying to convince the rest of the greeks to retreat in the middle of battle. AGAIN.
- and agamemnon keeps on doing this, throughout several books at this point, and it's actually kind of impressive. i guess he really just wants to leave troy because he's sick and tired of NOT winning all the time.
- odysseus having absolutely none of this and immediately putting agamemnon on blast. odysseus literally curses him and calls agamemnon pathetic and dishonorable. preach it, king.
- and agamemnon actually listens to odysseus and immediately goes "shit, you right, my bad."
- posideon and zeus beefing in book 15.
- specifically posideon basically saying that if zeus doesn't let the greeks win, he's never going to forgive zeus. peak sibling behavior.
- meriones and aeneas shit-talking each other in the middle of a very intense, very important battle.
- this is immediately followed by patroclus telling meriones to "stop yapping and throw hands".
- in retrospect, patroclus probably regrets saying that, given that throwing hands is what got his ass killed.
- patroclus throwing a massive rock at some trojan, effectively killing the poor guy, then proceeding to mock the way the trojan fell as he died. absolutely FOUL behavior and it made me giggle just a little bit.
- i should probably mention that this "poor guy" was cebriones, hector's current charioteer and half-brother. hector's proceeding crash out was completely understandable, when you think about it.
- odysseus reminding achilles of the importance of breakfast. eat your breakfast people!!!
- odysseus also telling achilles to "shut the hell up because i'm older and therefore wiser and i know what i'm talking about so zip it and let me speak".
- aeneas telling achilles to stop yapping on the battlefield when it was actually HIM who was in the middle of a good old homeric "this is my dad and this was his dad and his dad did this" speech.
- achilles damn near about to crash out when apollo kept protecting hector. this man tried to kill hector FOUR TIMES and apollo just yanked hector out of the way each time. achilles was like "oh, so apollo favors you? yeah, well, if any of the gods like me, next time i see you, i'm gonna FUCK YOU UP!!!"
- achilles beefing with a river.
- like dude, stop KILLING people in the water, you're clogging the river and that's just not cool. respect the environment, asshole.
- book 21 is really just "angry man yells at river before being swept away by the waters of divine fury".
- athena decking ares and aphrodite. she was really sick and tired of them at this point.
- posideon essentially calling apollo a little shit when apollo kept siding with the trojans.
- apollo sending achilles on a wild goose chase while disguised as a trojan. it's giving tom and jerry, i can't even lie.
- achilles beefing with apollo. just in general.
- this can also be extended to: apollo beefing with achilles. and we all know how that ends!!!
- hector being bamboozled by his own idea of trying to beg for mercy and understanding from achilles. he really was like "why the fuck am i trying to problem solve this, the guy wants me dead. ain't no way he's gonna listen to anything i say".
- a popular favorite that i think deserves a quick mention: hector and achilles running around troy three fucking times. tom and jerry part two????? except this is an alternate universe where tom catches jerry and it's not pretty.
- nestor giving antilochus advice on how to win the chariot race even though antilochus knows what he's doing.
- this is extra funny when antilochus turns around and cheats to get ahead of menelaus. an asshole move, but so incredibly real and i can't even say i blame him.
- apollo knocking diomedes' whip out of his hand during the race. out of spite.
- it's actually because diomedes had taken aeneas' horses in book 5 and diomedes was using them in the race, but still. petty and spiteful and i love it.
- athena immediately rushing to grab the whip to return it to diomedes. athena is playing favorites again and she's not even trying to hide it.
- lesser ajax and idomeneus bickering during the chariot race. SPECIFICALLY idomeneus telling lesser ajax "young man, you're real good at arguing and bitching, but man, where the fuck are your brains at?"
- the ONE TIME achilles is mentioned smiling is when antilochus is throwing a fit about not receiving his due prize and i think that's beautiful.
- achilles really saw his friend complaining and said "that's my bro how can i NOT give him exactly what he wants?"
- menelaus tearing into antilochus and shaming him for cheating during the race in front of everyone.
- mans really told antilochus to swear on posideon that he didn't cheat so of course antilochus is like "shit shit i can't make that oath because i did cheat and i am NOT getting on the shit list of any god".
- so antilochus is like "okay menelaus, my bad old man, i'm just so young and spry that i can't help myself sometimes".
- and then he just gives menelaus the mare that was the second place prize to avoid making an untrue oath while STILL managing to insist he won fair and square.
- smart guy.
- menelaus also being like "okay, i forgive you because you are usually pretty well behaved so let's just chalk this up to like, temporary insanity or something".
- AND THEN menelaus gives the mare BACK to antilochus.
- menelaus is a softie at heart and antilochus knew it and absolutely took advantage of it and WON. bro played the long game and it was so worth it. this whole sequence was so entertaining to me, can you tell?
- nestor, the absolute icon that he is, once again going off on one of his rants. everyone say "i heart nestor".
- the footrace between lesser ajax, odysseus, and antilochus.
- namely odysseus praying to athena to help him win the race, which she does, of course. she gives odysseus a little boost and she TRIPS lesser ajax, which causes him to fall face first into a pile of cow shit.
- it gets in his mouth and nose y'all, it's nasty as fuck.
- i also think it's funny that odysseus is the oldest of the three of them, and even without athena's help at the end he was right behind lesser ajax the entire time.
- of course i have to mention lesser ajax whining about the fact that athena dotes on odysseus like a mother.
- and odysseus not saying anything to argue because he knew lesser ajax wasn't really wrong about that.
- antilochus also saying that the gods have a habit of favoring old men.
- old man odysseus for the win!!!!!
- it also cracks me up at how obvious it is that achilles favors antilochus y'all, it's HILARIOUS.
- antilochus goes after the race and starts talking about how "odysseus is an old man, but boy, he's almost as fast as achilles!" and achilles is over here like "yeah, he totally is, you're so right. here, have some more gold for being my number one hype man".
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1dcommunityficrecs · 2 days ago
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Rec List: Songfics!
Welcome to the first list of the Based On Bonanza! We have nine nifty fics full of love, creativity, and music -- please dive in! In addition to reblogging the fic posts for these, I also have a CRAPTON of fic posts from various past songfic events that I'll also be reblogging alongside these, because there are so many good ones and I truly cannot ever have enough.
As always -- like, comment, kudos, reblog, bookmark, share, and all that jazz.
Just Tell Me the Song and I'll Sing It by myownspark/@myownsparknow (39919, Not Rated, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)
Louis is an architecture student who can only think about the future. Harry is a baseball player who can only think about right now. Both are lonely for different reasons. Boybands bring them together.
Reccer says: This fic is so beautifully written and really weaves the songs used into having such meaning for the story. Truly one of my favorite fics I've ever read.
write this down by Sunflouwerhabit /@sunflouwerhabit (233196, General, Louis Tomlinson/Harry Styles) – fic post
“He can’t hear Harry say he’s proud of him when he doesn’t know if he’ll ever see him again after this week. 'I miss you,' Harry murmurs, his breaths warm and equally shaky. 'All the time.' Louis kisses him harder." ~~~ Harry leaves his hometown to find himself. Every road he takes has a single, fated destination. Inspired by Taylor swift’s tis the damn season.
Reccer says: This is the first fic that broke my heart, repeatedly, every chapter. That said, it’s impeccable in its heartbreak.
Halloween by SomeDovesFly/@somedovesfly (59444, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson ) – fic post
Follow Harry and Louis through 6 Halloweens in a sex, drugs, and rock and roll AU in a time before cellphones or internet. Inspired by Halloween by Noah Kahan
Reccer says: This fic really digs in to both the fun and the darkness that is halloween…and growing up and apart.
to wake up by your side is all I wanna do by beardyboyzx/@beardyboyzx (1000, General, Niall Horan/Zayn Malik) – fic post
a series of moments of realization, where Niall looks at Zayn and thinks -- oh.
Reccer says: soft, sweet, simple. I love the little moments sometimes, quiet and unremarkable and yet so full of meaning and love
Carry These Feelings by LadyLondonderry /@londonfoginacup (3000, General, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post
Harry he has a bad habit of using Faerie magic to keep his soulmate youthful
Reccer says: I love how much worldbuilding is captured in such a small little story, and the unexpected way in which the song and the lyrics were used
i still wanna dance with you by justanothershadeofblue/@justanothershadeofblue (7000, Teen, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post Warnings: Homophobia from several characters, including one incident of physical abuse
Harry has always been unapologetically himself, even when the entire world seems to be trying to change him. Louis wants to be more like him, wants to be brave, wants to love who he is as much as he loves who Harry is.
Reccer says: All the characters feel so whole and human -- they're all flawed, but also have good features, and seeing how those balance (or not) to different people. You can see the way love and acceptance and fear shape the characters in different ways. Louis is braver than he thinks.
Might've Took The Long Way by LiveLaughLoveLarry/@loveislarryislove (21000, Mature, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson)
Louis and Harry were high school sweethearts, but they broke up after they went away to university. Two years later, when Harry comes back for summer break, Louis is forced to admit that he hasn't moved on. And despite all his doubts and fears that they just can't hack it long term, Harry is pretty fucking sure they can.
Reccer says: I love the conversations Louis has, with Zayn and with Gemma, basically beating a sense of self-worth and belief that good things can happen back into him
sunshine, baby! by staybeautiful/@harruandlou (106500, Explicit, Harry Styles/Louis Tomlinson) – fic post
Louis is in his first year of law school, Harry is a junior on the swim team dreaming of the Olympics, and they both agree that they don't have time for anything more than friends with benefits... right?
Reccer says: Adorable instant attraction, great descriptions, fun Easter eggs
Like a Sour Diesel, She Burns by larry-hiatus /@emilarry (9620, Explicit, Harry Styles/Zayn Malik) – fic post
Zayn and Harry have a complicated past, but Zayn still goes to see him at the strip club where Harry works.
Reccer says: Colorful descriptions, teasing banter, emotional pining, forbidden love
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babykittenteach · 3 days ago
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I like this addition, and actually, PCCP is useful for once here because I'm not particularly concerned with offending him. Please skip this additional chatter if you're not in the mood for it, lol
To expound on the Context point and the level of seriousness, well before worse problems came up, I a number of times in private had convos with people about why I simply couldn't read PCCP's stuff, and I said something along the lines of, "It reads like infantilization kink* without being presented or tagged as kink."
Kink and jokes are both areas that require some nuance in evaluation. Like, I'm typing here with the username I have and anyone who's seen me around knows I'm more likely to be joking and/or kinking in my fannish output than I am to be wholly serious. Mutual understanding between creators and audiences about the intended context of the text --kink, joke, analysis, criticism, etc. etc.-- can make or break something.
If you see me draw Ed sitting in a kitten Adopt Me basket, you can probably guess there's some intentional level of absurd involved and it's not to be taken as serious analysis of the character. If I did what PCCP did and wrote wholly sincere meta and fic about Ed being helpless at day to day tasks and needing Stede to manage him**, it's going to creep up on you that some genuine opinion about Ed's ability and agency is at play here.
And kink and jokes are not always going to land for everyone, which is why you want to be upfront and self-aware about what you're doing and what who you're interacting with is doing. And use the mute and block functions various places because not everything's for everyone, etc. Then take that a step further, while kink and jokes do have more leeway than Serious Discussion, they still exist in the world and can reinforce stereotypes if it's the only way you talk about things. To stick with the helplessness humor I first used above, there's a viral screenshot that went around of a girl texting her dad the excuse of "Sorry, I'm just a girl" and his response "I don't know what the means but it sounds like it minimizes you as a person." Something being just a joke doesn't mean it's harmless if the humor relies on a harmful stereotype being true, so you go through a process like: Is this meant to be taken seriously or is it a joke, is it a kink, is it satire, is this intentionally presented as such? Am I reading it as intended? And then, if it is humor or titillation or absurdity, does it still rely upon and therefore imply something about the author's worldview? Is there another way to take it in good faith/have I potentially missed something?
Extreme Tangent, holy shit, please skip this if you don't find this kind of blathering interesting: Gonna get up on one of my more personal soapboxes here, but while the specific questions vary case to case from what I said there and what jellybeanium listed, the general idea of interrogating anything by looking at author, intent, context, etc. is something your school system should have made you practice until it became second nature both for fiction and non-fiction, and if your school system failed you, which many did, it's never too late to choose to learn, whether you want to do it in fandom or not.*** We can go on forever about the lists of facts schools do or don't teach, but the primary things imo they should teach are the processes for figuring things out-- the critical thinking needed for media literacy, the scientific process, and yeah, sorry to the internet, some math. They're tools you can pick apart most things with, which anyone can use but especially, man, for the fellow neurodivergents out there, you can figure out a lot about what's going on around you even if it's not as easy as for other people. The asterisks from above: *Infantilization Kink, like most kinks, is not inherently evil and harmful when just treated with intent and awareness and kept in its proper setting. PCCP was a dick who at best didn't know how to separate his kink from his meta which he then tried to enshrine with fake authority. **Having disabilities and quirks and flaws that mean you need help is not bad either, but there is a world of difference between having the agency to determine what you need from other people and ask for it on your terms, and a benevolent savior who comes in and handles those evaluations and choices for you that you have been deemed incapable of making for yourself. ***I do actually think it's okay to say fuck it, fandom is my escapism, I don't want to think about things too hard here. We're all just trying to get through our days, bud. Please get through your day, but if someone's like "hey, this thing is harmful," and you keep doing it without evaluation whether it might be or not****, or some form of mitigation like tagging or venue choice (making or finding space where you and people you're at odds with don't having to step on each other's toes while doing escapism), you've made it harder for them to get through their day, which doesn't seem necessary. ****And yes sometimes reasonable people can disagree about things, and sometimes people are acting in bad faith because every part of the internet has some jerks, sometimes there's people who really dislike something but either aren't self-aware enough to pinpoint why or think that they won't be respected if they stick to expressing personal opinions instead of couching things as social ills, sometimes people's contexts or mental abilities differ to the point where things come across very different to them, etc etc etc. Figuring out whether something is a genuine concern expressed in good faith with proper context or not is a thing you just gotta do if you're going to engage with someone.
And still, nothing here is about someone specific (except that one dude), and good faith disagreements are possible. I'm just sitting in a barrel blathering.
Not in response to any one specific take, but how much of the grey area for people in the back and forth about the ethics of babygirling is due in part to the conflation of cuteness and incompetence? The girls and the gays and especially the bottoms can't math can't drive need jars opened etc etc etc type humor that I would say is rampant on tumblr and tiktok, because it is, if that didn't obfuscate that it's an old trope across like all of society.
Because there's a lot of other sources of cuteness, most of which aren't demeaning --personally I'm a fan, one will note, of dresses and plushies and sparkly eyes, etc.-- but there's a lot of internet culture built up around treating helplessness as charming. And perhaps on this specific part of the internet, there's a somewhat high rate of neurodivergent people who are invested in various inabilities being treated as lovable.
Stick that in a blender with race and you can have at the exact same time both the legacy of black and brown people not being allowed the affection of being seen as cute/pretty and the legacy of black and brown people being seen as incapable. Add in a general lack of specificity, and while we're at it, some people who just don't seem to like certain tropes because it's just not their thing holding grudges and some other people defensive because it is their thing, and honestly, any time I stick my eyeballs back on tumblr it doesn't seem like anything like actual synthesis is happening.
Idk, but this late night post is not actually in defense of or accusatory towards any Thing Someone Did so much as general meta musing about how people talk about things.
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#photo diary#image 1 & 2 - of course these are just cloud images. But a cool pattern of them :0#3 - another word count of game writing... aargh... Still debating about like allowing other people into the game discord or how early#in the process one should do that.. but social things are just so difficult for me lol.. I shall always suffer for my lack of networking an#self promotion skills. 4 - I was forced to get a new phone a few months ago because my beloved phone of like 10 years finally#broke too much. and I always like to go through the emojis and make a little memo with all my favorites. yaay little pictures of things.#5 - I FINALLY finished all the dictionary entries for the game (which has a little dictionary feature in the player's journal to note#any specific terms and keep track of them (like what 'jhevona' or 'avirre'thel' means. or to remember that the world is called Nanyevimi#and the country they're in is Asen. etc. etc.)). There are 75 defined terms so far and it took me a while to do so out of curiosity I put#all the text into a wordcounter thing and lol.. 8000 words isnt that much I guess but the 30 minute reading time is funny to me. 30 minutes#for my little tiny dictionary panel in my quaint little casual visual novel which is not even lore heavy at all. hee hee (though that's mor#like a minute here and there since obv people are not unlocking every term all at once. you complete the dictionary as you talk to people#and hear them mention new concepts over time.).. ANYWAY..#6 - a very soft and beautiful stuffed animal that I did not buy but wanted to at least document their charm.#7 - stimky boye waiting in front of his favorite straw meowring screaming for someone to play with him (he likes to chase the#straw around). 8 - matcha bubble tea my beloved. 9 & 10 & 11 - some cool flowers I saw. also featuring one of my favorites (columbines!)#Anyhow.. as mentioned in the other photo diary post.. I have just been packing and writing mostly.. The evil summer is coming of course#which me and my health issues always dread. Good news though is I finally got my passport in the mail! >:3 huzzah. Now I just need to find#some fellow aromantic asexual living outside the US willing to take one for the team and fake a marriage with me so I can get the#hell out of the country UwU (<joking) (...mostly... as in - definitely NOT my main goal. but if a viable opportunity presented itself I#would of course give it consideration lol). I know that's already highly regulated but I wonder if it's something that will become even mor#locked down as people hunt for any opportunity to flee. People are out here searching for any loophole. Frantically researching their#entire family tree seeing if there's any chance for a citizenship by descent in whatever place will take them. etc. etc. lol#So I wonder if such marriages are a thing that will come up more often. hmm.. ANYWAY..#I have almost all of my stuff packed even though I don't move until another 1-2 months. But that's the point is to have it all sorted early#in the last remaining scraps of ''cooler'' weather so that then I can just relax up until then. I'm going to try doing another scrapbook#/sketchbook this summer as a Mood Boosting effort. Just to find little things to help with the situational political existential dread and#climate woes. So on days it's too hot to function I can just glue little things to pages and doodle lol.. hopefully.. slowly getting things#off my to do list.. I reaaaaaally want to get back to playing games as it's so fun and realxing to me but..rghgh.. 500 other things..
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zivaninja · 5 months ago
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Blue Bloods finale things/spoilers under the cut that I wanted to yell about:
• Jamko parents!!! Parents!! Oh how far they've come 😭
• I'm going to miss Eddie Janko so damn much, that's my girl.
•Jack and Erin getting married!! They finally got their happy ending. And the looks on their faces at dinner as they decided to keep it to themselves was just so 💜😭
• Danny's face when Henry tells him to find his person to come home to. He already knows.
• Danny Reagan! Asking Maria Baez! On a date! And her saying yes! He doesn't need to go look for his person because she's right there besides him. And the look on her face when she agreed!!
#blue bloods#jamko#jerin#daez#eddie janko#i'm going to miss so many of these characters so fucking much#crying over jamko on tumblr gone midnight I suddenly feel like i'm 18 again when I literally just turned 25 yday#I expected jamko parents and we knew that jack and erin were back together but getting 3/3 for my ships? blessed#jerin getting married again feels so right. their chemistry is unmatched#(the way jack looks at her. I get it.)#and then danny asking baez on a date took me out#the implication that he thought about what henry said for a few days and all his thinking led him back to maria because she's his girl.#and he just knew he had to take that leap.#(It's fine i'm going insane over here)#i am a bit miffed that we won't actually see anything beyond him asking her out and it was slightly open ended#but considering that we knew that danny didn't want to act on his feelings bc he didn't want to risk the pain of losing her/her getting hur#the fact that he asked her out was hugely significant#the fact that he specifically said it was because he had been thinking about what henry said to him is making me lose it#they obviously hang out outside work anyway but this is Different. you could tell by how almost nervous danny was 😭 but#she was right there with him. as she always is. they're partners in every sense.#and baez knows it too!!! the look on her face!! danny will tell her one day what it was that henry said and she'll Know.#god I am going to be thinking about them for the forseeable#3/3 on my ships and a good ending on a series finale is so rare for me#anyway i've been watching this show weekly since like 2014/15 and had watched it before that with my dad#so it's so strange that it's ending. it's one of the first shows that i've watched week in and out for donkeys years that is ending and it'#gonna be odd to not have that show in my watching list anymore#shut up g#(good god sorry about the tags I had to get that all out)#if anyone actually read any of that and still wants to come yell about these things please do :)
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viktorapologist · 12 hours ago
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I am so late to the party but that's not going to stop me from giving y'all my reactions to the latest chapter of byss.
In light of recent jayvik events, if you too agree that Viktor fell first but Jayce fell harder, please read this fic I’m begging you.
It physically pains me to read that Viktor and Jayce have a rift between them. Barely acknowledging each other? Ugh???? I'm so sad. Right from the beginning of the chapter, you can feel that Jayce wants things to go back to normal. He just doesn't know how to fix it yet.
I feel so much empathy for Jayce, how the curiosity about Viktor's secret crush is eating him alive. And the rejection from Viktor hit him square in the chest. All he heard was "I don't want you" even though that's not what Viktor meant. Oh sweet sweet Jayce. You poor thing. Jayce has been so comfortable with their level of intimacy while being totally oblivious to what it means for the two of them. It's interesting to see him finally facing some negative consequences for walking through life unaware of his own feelings for Viktor. He deserves this pain, honestly.
And maybe he'll learn something because of it??
"Jayce's heart plummeted to his feet like an anvil thrown in the river Pilt." God, what a beautiful description. I feel it in my bones.
The way Jayce is so perceptive too? Like he can see that Viktor isn't really angry with him, that it's more like he's afraid of something and Jayce can't tell what it is yet. The puzzle pieces are fitting into place, slowly but surely. THEY KNOW EACH OTHER. Damn it, even when they're having a conflict, they know each other.
It’s satisfying to see the way that Jayce’s priorities have realigned to favor Viktor’s health over everything else. We see him do that in canon when he finds out Viktor is ill, but it’s much too late at that point. The rift had already grown too wide between them. But in this timeskip period, there’s still a chance for Jayce to salvage their bond. The small ways that Jayce and Viktor’s actions echo their characterization from the show is what makes this fic so believable. It’s so immersive.
Okay when Jayce goes into Heimerdinger’s office and worries about entering without permission, I rolled my eyes. He’s so silly. Maybe he’s a little afraid to go to jail again, for trespassing this time? Breaking and entering is no fun if Viktor’s not there too, I guess.
When he writes the note to Heimerdinger and notes that the page is already signed with his own name; Jayce has never been as oblivious as he is in that moment. After thinking about the list of names too! The torture of knowing he’s so close to the truth, yet so far from it. Damn you, Jayce.
Ooooooo when Jayce overhears Viktor discussing things with Heimerdinger, I was locked in. I love a good eavesdropping scene. The tension! The drama! Learning secrets! When a trope is done right, it works so well. Lowkey one of my favorite things about this fic so far is that when a storytelling trope is included, it never feels forced. It always serves a purpose within the narrative and doesn’t feel like it was purely there for the reader to giggle at. Although don’t get me wrong, I’m kicking my feet and smiling at all of emotional reveals.
Heimerdinger tries and fails to convince Viktor to leave Piltover, in an effort to stop the progression of his hanahaki. Honestly thrilled to get more details about Viktor’s feelings on the matter.
“Leaving him isn’t an option.” Oh Viktor. I’m crumpling onto the floor in a puddle. The devotion is too strong. He thinks Jayce is worth dying for.
Overhearing this is what makes Jayce finally shift out of denial and into acceptance that Viktor isn’t dealing with a passing crush. Viktor is truly in love. And this acceptance of that fact leads Jayce to FINALLY realize why he’s been acting the fool lately.
Jealousy.
For some reason (we all know why), Jayce is jealous of the man Viktor loves. Hmmm, how could that be? Maybe because you find Viktor extremely attractive both physically and emotionally, huh Jayce? It’s a big step for him to finally give a name to this thing he’s been feeling for multiple chapters. Proud of him!!!!! Still mad at him for shutting down his thoughts about Viktor being handsome but hey, he’ll get there eventually.
Classic moment having an animal ruin the eavesdropping. I laughed at that. Especially Jayce saying “go away” aaaaaa it’s like a rom-com, I’m obsessed.
Oh my god and when Jayce goes into the office, the way they share a moment as Viktor leaves???? Ugh it’s giving Pride and Prejudice hand touch. The eye contact, the tension, but also the softness?
Mad at Heimerdinger for not giving them a free pass on Progress Day when Viktor is literally dying, but uhhhh points for realism there. Capitalism waits for no one. Don’t mind me over here, crying softly.
And in true Jayce fashion, he stubbornly argues that Heimerdinger failed to convince Viktor to leave Piltover because he didn’t try hard enough. Jayce is convinced that he could do it. And go with Viktor. Of course. (Which is obviously a PROBLEM) Adorable how Jayce immediately starts rattling off a plan that includes himself. As if there’s never a world where Jayce and Viktor aren’t attached at the hip. They’re so in love, I can’t handle it.
Okay is Heimerdinger going to meddle and help Jayce figure out his feelings? The way he was staring him down…the gears were turning.
“Keep him busy,” Heimerdinger says. UM WHAT? Okay sign Viktor’s death certificate right now. He’s dead. So dead. Jayce is going to distract him with happy memories they’ve shared and unintentionally put Viktor right into the coffin. Oh no no no.
Jayce finally gets a chance to apologize, and oh boy is he just the sweetest man there ever was? He’s so honest and open. He really values Viktor’s friendship more than anything. Viktor melts back into their casual banter and I regain all of the years of life I lost at the cliffhanger from the last chapter. Thank god they’re not mad at each other anymore.
When Jayce shared his vision for them escaping out of Piltover together, I can’t even articulate how happy it made me. He’s so in love and doesn’t even know it. The genuine surprise Viktor was probably feeling to hear that. Like he never considered Jayce would run away with him. But Jayce thinks it’s obvious, and they’d have a library and a pet and a garden. Oh fuck me up. I’m going to cry.
Oh oh oh is the little transport robot thing going to be canon in this fic? I don’t know much about it but it seemed like a hint.
And uh, yeah they are obnoxiously flirting at the end. No one can tell me otherwise. Get a room, you two! When they tease each other, it’s my favorite thing. I love it so much.
(Something tells me Jayce’s excellent idea is going to backfire…)
Before Your Sun Sets | Chapter 5 is out! 🌸
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crystalkitty1220 · 11 months ago
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Man I wonder where the leader of the fear realm could've gone, it's alMOST LIKE NEVIN HAS AN
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#had to re-edit the image real quick because the original edit was from a post I made about Drew years ago#and while the Drew thing is becoming less and less likely. Nevin havinv one has basically been canon since#someone mentioned Greg's (was it Britney's) aura being familiar in s2ch1. ive been putting together a list of every line#that points to Nevin's aura throughout the whole thing (most from s2ch1 but then s2ch10 came out and it was really canon at that point)#but clearly i'm running out of time to say ''i fucking called it'' before it's explicitly stated and i dont want to be in another situation#where somebody else will beat me to a theory and me posting anything about it will seem like copying them. sorry about that btw i had#thought i had already mentioned theorizing that nevin was possessed by a demon in that old theory i made but i had forgotten that one was#super old and was about sigma. so no copying there i just got extremely paranoid there was a mention of a cult and i was like ''nuh uh#that's way too specific and out there of a detail to end up in both our theories'' and i forgot the rest of my super old post was outdated#as hell. and echos had gone ''yeah they're so similar!'' and i took their word for it but now i'm realizing they were probably just trying#to be supportive. so yeah no copying there i was just beaten to the punch of saying something. but i will NOT back down from the aura shit#because i have been calling that shit FROM THE START or at least since i started reading ibvs back when ch20 came out.#also not backing down from saying chris was the worse friend because these past few chapters are the first time isaac has done anything tha#could knowingly upset chris meanwhile chris has. let edward drag isaac to the lair after isaac said edward would beat him up. chose not to#believe edward was holding the secrets over their heads because 'it was something isaac had said' and then immediately distrusted edward in#the next chapter because a random person he didn't know said to steal a book (might i mention how that entire scene proves chris' lack of#development and refusal to take responsibility because it perfectly alludes to when chris had brought those fireworks into his old school#and makes me wonder if charlie has actually gotten him in trouble with his past schools or if he's still just not taking responsibility#and if him following nevin to the woods to test out their powers is an extension of ''if something bad happens its not my fault''#like seriously this man would bring a mysterious suitcase onto a plane if he's told to). uh what was i talking about agai#anyway on a related note my mental state has only gotten worse since i left tumblr and the habit of thinking about chris instead of sleepin#or doing schoolwork has not stopped. so i was still failing for a while and might graduate now but am still staying away from tumblr.#so yeah this was a little update and im not going to linger this time im just going to leave tumblr again right after hitting post#addendum because i just can't let things go. and was thinking about chris again. i don't think his lack of development is because of bad#writing (anymore. i used to.). instead i'm certain his character arc is going to continue into him following someone (nevin probably) into#doing something really bad. and then he'll finally get actual consequences and go 'oh shit i fucked up real bad this time'#if you think that theory is reaching too far into the future you should hear mine about isaac dying at the end lmao
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microwavetoaster-selfships · 3 months ago
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All the stock images of the 10th Doctor are. Silly. Like geniune white-backdrop, doing some random pose or expression stock images. Like not "this is the picture png stock image that gets slapped on his wiki and other places" but like the if you Google "stock images of people" it's just that. Except him.
#carry me through these trying times.#sorry i. Am trying not to talk about it a ton but i wanted to mention it at least here and on discord once but.#Im having a bit of a MomentTM. Particularly what im praying(knock on wood) is a hypocondriact one.#It probably wont effect here as much and most my discord but. If i seem a little extra inactive then that is why.#Dont worry I'll make an update post when I am rejoicing in “I was right!! I was just massively overthinking it all and nothing is wrong!!!”#Again. knocking on wood. Only fates I want to jinx are the ones where I say i wont catch feelings for a character and then i do.#anywho. on a lighter note.#I teasered this a little bit in my last post I was wondering if anyone would notice I put Doctor Who in that pile of fixations.#Though I think someone. cough. Mightve had an extra pre-teaser to it due to. me suddenly mentioning it while in a mutual server. cough.#but I think someone else in the server is a double so im just going to. this blog is going to be getting my blunt force of it.#truthfully I normally leave servers that have doubles but considering theyve never talked about them then.#As long as that continues. Im. Will be fine. SOULY JUDT BECAUSE hes new to me and they never spoke of him.#If this was an F/O i already had then even if they never mentioned them I'd still probably go.#this is why i. get a bit bummed whenever someone doesnt list their F/Os. especially because for some reason-#-I've been on a streak of getting into increasingly more and more popular fandoms.#Im beginning to think im just using this as a coping mechanism at this point by overwhelming myself-#-with huge amounts of new big strong feelings that clog and clutter my mind.#wow Kane. selfshipping? to cope? what a new and unique idea /j/j/j/sarcasm#these tags were supposed to end after the first couple of sentences. hello everyone.#If you read all this here's 25$ to go spend on something nice. Get whatever you'd like.#i wouldnt put it past me to fall for different iterations of the Doctor as well but that is purposely exactly why I am-#-skipping ones and doing only this particular iteration one. Thank you wiki page that listed out what episodes are what doctors.#I mean they're all technically the same one. but also not. but also I dont entirely know what im talking about.#okay OKAY clamming up now. Good morning everyone. sending you all peace and tranquility
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llycaons · 8 months ago
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further thoughts on atogai
the knife attack was sick. I love kadou
I complained earlier he doesn't have any hobbies, but he really is a very well-educated and intelligent young man with an apparently sincere interest in the economy, public works, wines...he's got stuff going on
kadou at one point calls evemer 'tricksy' which had me screaming...gollum moment
why is evemer so obsessed with being trusted? what's HIS baggage? he doesn't really seem to have anything going on in his backstory.
he really is quite like lwj. not expressive, strict with himself, rule-abiding to the point of rigidity, solitary, only opens up to his mom...but like, what great hurt is HE hiding? lwj was in mourning since he was 6 years old, and it informed his behavior towards wwx later in the story. evemer might have more internal depth, but he doesn't appear to have much in the way of backstory and I kind of doubt his character is going to develop very much beyond 'coming to realize kadou is The Guy He Wants To Serve' and then falling in love etc.
it's nice to see him talk back more to kadou...honesty is important
EOZENA MVP 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
siranos is being extremely fucking suspicious. screwing up the investigation in so many small ways and nobody even thinks to suspect him?? it's so obvious I hope it's a red herring
also I think eozena's gonna die. she just said something about getting old. I don't think she'll make 76 :/
kadou getting all twisted up about his position and his relationships presents the opportunity for some drama down the road. like omg him and evemer are so in love...but they cant! they musn't! their POSITIONS....
all temporary until he gets promoted, ofc. or...demoted. this doesn't seem like that kind of unpredictable story but who knows
I'm enjoying their semi-friendship tho. it's nice to see them joking around and communicating and stuff
I think tadek is going to die :(
it's pretty neat how deftly the author is juggling this complex relationship dynamic and how completely they're avoiding boiling the interactions down the mere jealously or desire or Love. kadou cares for tadek and respects him and doesn't want to hurt him and he also really likes evemer in a genuinely serious way and tadek really cares abt kadou and is loyal to him and IS a little jealous of evemer bc he feels like he's been pushed aside and he kind of has, and evemer thinks low of tadek but his opinion is improving...but tadek isn't an antagonist or a bitter ex and he's still likeable and important and kind and loyal...it's interesting
and he's also not in love w kadou. like he loves him and he is deeply loyal and affectionate but I don't think he's IN love
ohh now they're having it out...nodding nodding
oh lmao 'As indulgent and satisfying as your favorite fanfiction.' I wonder if the author is offended bc they write fanfic but this is THEIR original stuff...I think it's better in a lot of ways than most fanfic but I wouldn't say it's as satisfying as my FAVORITE fanfic
their only chance is if they deliver that sex scene like they didn't in unstrictly ballroom COME ON MX. ROWLAND!!!
oh my god NO now they have to kiss to pretend like they weren't spying? god I hate this trope it's so stupid and its unbearably embarassing 😭😭😭 my estimation of this book just dropped like. not insignificantly
not even joking I don't think it's problematic or anything it's just annoying and I had to stop reading to anxiously make this post bc I do NOT wanna read this. ugh here GOES I GUESS
okay can it be behind us now 💀
I was worried this would play into orientalist tropes but besides some titles and names of food and instruments, this setting doesn't seem to have much of a connection to the real-life SWANA region. names, religion, the social and cultural system, geography...all looks original to the book. I'm a bit disappointed (I liked the passion and research that infused SFC's city of brass series), but at least there's not much of stereotypes to worry about. and COB handled many things...very clumsily. this isn't a book abt geopolitics and I'm glad
I DO find it a little annoying when royals are like 'oh woe is me I must marry for something besides love' but the narrative recognizes that this is just the assumption for the rest of the kingdom and not the reality necessarily. like kadou has his every need seen to, is unimaginably wealthy, is extremely well-educated and well-cared for, and has a retinue of personal guards to see to his every comfort. he does have those attacks but when he genuinely starts complaining about his position I'm like. dude come on
to his credit he usually doesn't tho! that would be unbearable. the narrative doesn't talk much abt the other people in the city or kingdom except the guards have an insane schedule but they ARE the future government and they get paid like crazy so it's kind of like doctors doing insane hours right. not that 72z-hr weeks are GOOD. damn
evemer hasn't seen his mama in like...weeks. I want to meet her!!!!!
help so the sister is inviting a hot french guy down to try to set him up w kadou and kadou thinks it's for HER so he's like 'I better stay out of her way so she can fuck him :) wow I love my sister I can't wait to have a niece. go get it girl'
if she's trying to make a political alliance she should at least tell him...
oh this could be awkward. I kind of hope frenchie is a nightmare. for the drama
honestly it seems like a glaring oversight that evemer didn't report that conversation to eozema. of course kadou dismissed it but it was clearly pertinent!!!
I can see the echos of some of wx in this but like...idk it doesn't feel as earned as wx did. they've known each other for less than two months. 'evemer was safety' it's been like 6 weeks my guys. wwx knew lwj for years. you can't even hope to compete with THAT dynamic but it's kind of cute to try
well well well. I have to stop reading to make dinner and breakfast and lunch for tomorrow. such is life as an adult. but the convos are interesting
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starrygazingpie · 2 days ago
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ok here's my list of anime that's "actually good" (limited by like what i have actually seen and also my personal taste) (and also what i remember at this moment) if you want good shoujo: school based interpersonal dramas- -ouran high school host club -fruits basket (flawed yes but still. there's something about it) -ore monogatari! -revue starlight -yuri is my job (more geared towards people like me who grew up shoveling a bunch of class s yuri in my face) (and in that case this is A Treat For Me) -monthly girls nozaki-kun (absolute comedy classic) -kimi ni todoke more fantasy-based -akatsuki no yona -twelve kingdoms shonen staples for me: -fullmetal alchemist brotherhood (suffers from assuming you've watched '03 but '03 makes some Questionable Plot / Characterization Decisions) (the manga is the best version but i still enjoy brotherhood) -d. gray-man -eureka seven (i can't vouch for anything other than that first series. also caveat that i haven't seen it in 15 years) -mob psycho 100 sports anime: -haikyuu -free! i don't even know how to begin to describe this one but it is a beautiful and wild and gay and silly ride and i love it so much. -samurai flamenco nature-based meditations on humanity with an episodic bend to them: -natsume yuujinchou -mushishi seinen/josei (older adult) : -dungeon meshi -gundam witch from mercury -yuri on ice -apothecary diaries -puella magi madoka magica -samurai champloo -cowboy bebop -trigun 98 (suffers from 90s shonen misogyny at some points but has so much charm despite that) - trigun stampede (honestly the manga is a bit of a required reading for this one) -black lagoon (if you want a really edgy and dark one) (also caveat that i haven't seen this since i was 14 but like. the terrible women still have A Hold on me)
-darker than black (s1 only. Do not watch s2) you might wanna look at content warnings for these (bc they're very explicitly about cycles of abuse): -revolutionary girl utena -the woman called fujiko mine manga recs: -chainsaw man (the anime isn't horrible but it's just not as good as the manga) (another one you might want to look at content warnings for) -houseki no kuni (i like the anime. it's an interesting adaptation but it doesn't hit the same highs as the manga) (beloved horror masterpiece of my heart) -pandora hearts (anime ends wayyy too early) (shonen + existential horror) -witch hat atelier (anime is not out yet) gay manga recs corner bc this is my hole it was made for me etc: -i hear the sunspot -anything by nagata kabi -after hours -anything by kamatani yuhki
Saw an “actually good anime” list that had rising of the shield hero and I’m like half tempted to black out with rage and make a better list bc are you fr right now
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isekyaaa · 2 years ago
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Going through my favorite webtoons, my recommendations are (in no particular order):
The Tyrant's Sister
The Villainess Flips the Script!
Mother's Contract Marriage
I'll Save This Damned Family
Marriage of Convenience
Saving My Sweetheart
Bring the Love
Seducing the Monster Duke
Little Miss Sidekick
My Father, the Possessive Demi-God
Honorable Mentions:
I've Reincarnated Into a Handmaiden!
A Talented Maid
Your Ultimate Love Rival
The Fantasies of a Stepmother
A Wicked Tale of Cinderella's Stepmom
Villains Are Destined to Die
For Better or For Worse
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tateytots · 19 days ago
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i love my friends soooo much they are all being cradled so gently in my heart
#bayann and i went to see sinners last week and lexi is helping me plot gift ideas for my fiance#and emma and i are going to call tonight and just GAB#and allie and marie both said they literally WOULDN'T let me fail my classes because i'm going back to school to finish my degree#and lexi and her husband will just naturally invite hunter and i to things#like we're just a natural part of their thought process#and we are going to go the zoo together because hunter has never been to one and lexi has a family pass for her kids#and she just said we should have a shared birthday party together since they're so close together#and bayann's mom wants me to come over and learn how to cook her salmon#and i put feelers out with lexi and bayann and marie for if they can realistically make it to my wedding in arkansas#because it's like two yrs warning#and lexi immediately was like ''oh yeah i already told [husband] that we're going to arkansas'' which made me EMO#and even bayann said maybe and shes literally never traveled without her family??????? i'll cry#and hunter and i were talking about who our absolute 'these people NEED to be in my wedding party' people are#im stuck on maid of honor a bit which is a gift and a curse but i think i know who it will end up being#and THAT got me emotional#we talked about our must haves for our invite list so we could get our numbers narrowed down for guestlist#and i remembered how lucky i am#like yes i have less friends than i used to have but i still have them#growing up doesn't have to mean growing lonely if you know the right people#and i'm still finding my footing but i don't have to do it all on my own no matter what my brain tells me#and that's a gift!!!!!! they're all a gift to me!!!!!!#anyway im in the throes of pmdd rn so i'm swangin around emotionally#my effexor can only do so much for me#my one hope is that no one actually reads my long ass tags. this is my journal :)#tate.txt
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whumptober · 9 months ago
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WHUMPTOBER 2024: PROMPTS LIST
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Welcome to Whumptober 2024 — Seventh Time's a Charm!
Please make sure to read the Event Info and FAQ below carefully, as most of your questions will be answered there already. For everything else, you are welcome to come to our ask box or ask questions in our Discord server here.
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Best of luck and happy whumping,
Mods Vanne, Yenn, Kitty and Surro
(Text versions of the prompts, as well as event information, rules and FAQ are posted below the cut!)
Whumptober 2024 Prompt List
No. 1: RACE AGAINST THE CLOCK
Search Party | Panic Attack | "If only we could hold on.” (Icysami x Renegaderr, Strangers.)
No. 2: TRUST ISSUES
Amusement Park | Role Reversal | “You got away with the crime while the knife's in my back.” (Charlotte Sands, Rollercoaster)
No. 3: SET UP FOR FAILURE
Fingerprints | Wrongfully Arrested | "I warned you."
No. 4: HALLUCINATIONS
Hypnosis | Sensory Deprivation | “You're still alive in my head.” (Billy Lockett, More)
No. 5: SUNBURN
Healing Salve | Heatstroke | "If my pain will stretch that far." (Lottery Winners, Burning House)
No. 6: NOT REALISING THEY'RE INJURED
Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms | Healed Wrong | "It's not my blood."
No. 7: ONLY FOR EMERGENCIES
Unconventional Weapon | Magic with a Cost | "It's us or them."
No. 8: SLEEP DEPRIVATION
Isolation Chamber | Forced to Stay Awake | "Leave the lights on." (Coldplay, Midnight)
No. 9: OBSESSION
Broken Window | Bruises | “Frame me up on the wall, just to keep me out of trouble.” (Fall Out Boy, Irresistible)
No. 10: BLOW TO THE HEAD
Slurred Words | Passing Out from Pain | "I can't think straight."
No. 11: SEEING DOUBLE
Convenience Store | Loneliness | “Leave no trace behind, like you don't even exist.” (Taylor Swift, Illicit Affairs)
No. 12: STARVATION
Underground Caverns | Cannibalism | "Just a little more."
No. 13: TEAM AS A FAMILY
Familial Curse | Multiple Whumpees | "Death will do us part." (Set It Off, Partner's In Crime)
No. 14: LEFT FOR DEAD
Hunting Gear | Blackmail | “Because I want you to know what it feels like to be haunted” (tiLLie, kooL aiD mAn)
No. 15: CHILDHOOD TRAUMA
Painful Hug | Moment of Clarity | "I did good, right?"
No. 16: NECROSIS
Swamp | Wound Cleaning | "No, I can't feel anything."
No. 17: NOWHERE ELSE TO GO
Ruined Map | Shipwrecked | "We had a good run."
No. 18: REVENGE
Unreliable Narrator | Loss of Identity | “I see what's mine and take it.” (Panic! at the Disco, Emperor's New Clothes)
No. 19: BLOOD TRAIL
Abandoned Cabin | One Way Out | "Is there anybody alive out there?" (Bruce Springsteen, Radio Nowhere)
No. 20: EMOTIONAL ANGST
Shoulder to Cry On | Giving Permission to Die | "It's not your fault."
No. 21: BODY HORROR
Body Horror | Tattoo Gun | Spirit Possession | “Let the bedsheet soak up the tears.” (Apparat feat. Soap & Skin, Goodbye)
No. 22: BLEEDING THROUGH BANDAGES
Tourniquet | Reopening Wounds | "Oh that's not good."
No. 23: FORCED CHOICE
Public Display | Broken Pedestal | "I'm doing this for you."
No. 24: RADIATION POISONING
Collapsed Building | Equipment Failure | “I never knew daylight could be so violent.” (Florence + The Machine, No Light, No Light)
No. 25: SURGERY
Stitches | Being Monitored | "It's for your own good."
No. 26: NIGHTMARES
Breakfast Table | Parting Words of Regret | “I'm haunted by the lies that I have loved, the actions I have hated.” (Poe, Haunted)
No. 27: VOICELESS
Laboratory | Muzzled | “I have no mouth and I must scream.”
No. 28: DENIAL
CCTV | Exposure | "They caught me red handed."
No. 29: FATIGUE
Labyrinth | Burnout | "Who said you could rest?"
No. 30: RECOVERY
Hospital Bed | Holding Back Tears | "What have I done?"
No. 31: ASKING FOR HELP
Therapy | Making Amends | "I'm alive, I'm just not well." (Elliot Lee, Alive, Not Well.)
Alternatives List:
Body Swap
Communication Barrier
Finding Old Messages
Forgotten
Friendly Fire
Motion Sickness
No-Holds-Barred Beatdown
Regret
Secrets Revealed
Shivering
Survivor's Guilt
Time Loop
Used As Bait
Venom
Vermin
Event Info & Rules
WHUMPTOBER is a month-long, prompt-based creation challenge (think: Inktober, but whumpier). There are 31 official themes this year - one for each day of the month - which can be used, skipped, or combined in any way you’d like. They are meant to serve as inspiration without being taken literally (e.g. you don’t have to include the exact wording of prompts into your work). Feel free to run rampant on interpretation. For example, if the prompt is “flame", you could create something with reference to a candle/campfire, your character could have suffered a burn, or the flame could be a reference to an ‘old flame’ - an old relationship. It’s truly down to you!
In total, there are 4 prompts for each day. These are optional suggestions and can be used in conjunction with the theme, or as options/alternatives.  We want to give everyone as much creative freedom as possible, as well as increase event accessibility for folks with triggers and squicks. There is also a list of 15 alternative prompts that can be subbed in for any day, again to give participants as much creative freedom as possible.
Creators can PRODUCE work in any media they choose, including but not limited to: writing, visual artwork, photo/video/audio edits, paper crafts and elaborate recommendation lists (not just a list of links). Creators can PARTICIPATE as much or as little as they want (i.e. you don’t have to do ALL the prompts if you don’t want to) and prompts can be used in any order. They are also free to use even after the event ends.
When uploading Whumptober content to your blog, be sure to tag it with:
#whumptober2024 …..(the event tag)
#no.1, #no.2, #no.3, …..(theme number)
#bruises, #stabbing, …..(the theme or specific prompt you chose)
#altprompt …..(if you use an altprompt, tag the post with the number of the prompt you replace)
#fandom or #OC, …..(ironman, original content, oc, etc.)
#medium …..(gifs, fic, podcast, art, etc.)
#teeth, #etc …..(trigger warnings & any additional tags. Keep in mind not to add “tw” in front but only use the word/trigger itself)
#nsfwhump …..(only for nsfw content)
#your own tags go here
PLEASE BE DILIGENT WITH YOUR TAGGING. Only properly tagged posts are considered for archiving on the official @whumptober-archive blog. They must be tagged in the order above. An elaborate post about our tagging system can be found [here]
Unfortunately, due to the sheer number of participants in recent years, we cannot guarantee your work will be archived. A random selection of properly tagged posts from all genres will be reblogged each day.
Whumpers who produce content for 31 total theme days are considered event completionists and will be tagged in a masterpost at the end of the month. A form will be published at the beginning of November asking you to tell us if you completed. This is based on trust and we will not check this.
Frequently Asked Questions
Please read this before you send an ask!
TIMELINE
July: Trope voting form released. Late August: Prompt list is released for at least four weeks of preparation time. Tropes cannot be posted earlier than August 25th because of Moderator obligations in real life. (But, you know, go ahead and start writing/drawing, and add the themes in later, if you want!) September: Do as much or as little on your works as you want. You can prepare everything in advance or let September go by with vibes and start working in October. It’s up to you. October 1st: Challenge begins! A storm of whump breaks upon us all! During this time, some posts will be reblogged to the whumptober archive blog. We open the yearly AO3 collection for posting (optional). November 1st: The challenge is officially over! Completionist form opens for those who want to be included in the hall-of-fame. Early November: We release completionist and participant badges, solicit feedback, and post a hall-of-fame list of completionists by the 10th.
PARTICIPATION AND COMPLETION
Q: What counts as participation? Create or continue at least one work inspired by one of this year’s prompts. Q: What counts as completion? Creating work(s) inspired by at least one prompt from each day (or alts), for a total of 31 unique prompts. Q: Do I need to create 31 works? No. You can, if you want. Or you can create one work that you add to every day with a new prompt. Or several works that combine prompts. You can also update an existing work by adding new material with the current prompts. Q: Do I need to post my works somewhere to be a completionist or a participant? No. Q: How do you know I actually completed the challenge? We’ll take your word for it! Q: Do I have to finish my work(s) to be a completionist? No, you can post WIPs. And you’re not obligated to finish them in October, but if you want it to count towards being a completionist, you must have completed 31 prompts by the end of the month. So for example, if you’re writing a long fic and you fit 31 different prompts into the writing you did in October, it’s okay if that fic isn’t finished by the time October ends, you’ll still be a completionist. Q: Is co-writing/illustrating allowed? Yes, absolutely, and it would count towards being a completionist for both/all of you. Q: Is there a min/max limit on word count for written works? No. Q: Is there a min/max limit of quality for art? No. Q: Do I have to do something each day to be a completionist? No. You can skip days whenever you want, and as long as 31 daily prompts (or alts) are in your works done in October, you can be a completionist. For example, if you wrote a 1000-word ficlet that covers prompts in days 2, 3, and 17, you can check all three days off your list even though it’s only one work. Q: Is this challenge just for fics? No! Artworks, GIFsets, headcannons, rec lists, poetry, moodboards, or any other creative work is encouraged. Q: Can I combine Whumptober with other creation challenges? Absolutely, as long as the other challenges allow it too.
PROMPTS
Q: How do the prompts work? There are FOUR prompts per day: a theme and three ideas. You can use one, two, three, or all four prompts for each day. If you don’t like any of the daily prompts, you can substitute one of the ALT prompts instead. Q: How strictly/literally should we interpret the prompts? As literally or as figuratively as you want. For example, if the theme is WATER, that could mean drowning, waterboarding, raining, swimming, take place underwater, be lost at sea, construct a metaphor about a character’s mood that changes like a flowing river, crying, or whatever else you can think of that fits that theme. Q: Can I combine prompts? Is there a limit on how many? No limit and combine as many as you’d like. If you create a work that checks off multiple prompts, that work will count for a fill of multiple prompts. You need to address 31 different prompts to be an official completionist, but you don’t have to produce 31 separate works.
WORKS
Q: What’s whump? Hurting a character, whether that’s physically, emotionally, intellectually, psychologically, or any other way you can think of. Comfort afterwards is optional. Angst is emotional whump, so it counts. Q: How do I know if it’s whumpy enough? If your character is just mildly inconvenienced, it probably needs more whump. However, no participant has to prove whumpiness to the mods. Whatever you write is up to you. Q: What kind of characters can I create for? Anything. Generic “whumpee,” OC, PC, NPC, major characters, minor characters, or whatever you want. There are no limits. Q: Does it have to take place in a specific fandom? No, you can create works for your own worlds or for fandoms or for both. You can also create more generic or pan-fandom works. You can do cross-overs or use OCs, whatever you want. Q: Can I create AI-created works? We will not reblog or promote any works we know to be generative AI-created. Q: Is there anything we’re not allowed to write? As long as it contains whump and is based on our prompts, it’s fine. Please courtesy tag your works if you post them so people who follow the #whumptober2024 tag can filter according to their preferences. Q: What about sex, minor characters, and potentially disturbing content? You can create whatever works are legal in your country and post them accordingly. Please courtesy tag anything you think might be objectionable if you post to Tumblr so people who follow the #whumptober2024 tag can filter according to their preferences.
POSTING
Q: Where can I post my work? Post where and how you want. You don’t even have to (cross)post it to Tumblr. Just keep in mind if it’s not on Tumblr we will not be able to add it to the blog archive. There is an AO3 archive for Whumptober 2024, as well as the parent collection for works completed outside of the event. Q: Can I start posting early? You can, but this is an October event and wouldn’t it be more fun with everyone doing it at the same time? We won’t be reblogging any work predating October 1st. Q: Can I post late? Yes. For the sake of our hardworking Post Fairies, only a day’s themes will be reblogged to @whumptober-archive each day of October. But you can post whenever. Some of us are still working on and posting Whumptober fics from years ago. Q: Do I have to use your tags? Only on Tumblr and only if you want us to reblog your work on @whumptober-archive. Q: How do I have my works reblogged to the archive? Properly tagged posts will be reblogged to @whumptober-archive. If you want the official archive blog to reblog you, post on Tumblr and tag correctly (see this FAQ link for more info on tagging). Please note not all posts will be reblogged each day. Q: Can we @ you? For questions and comments, of course. We’ll be getting a flood of notifications, so if you really want us to see something send an ask. Q: Can I cross post on other blogs? Yes, multiple platforms and blogs are perfectly acceptable, as long as they allow cross-posting (to us). You can also post different works to different accounts under different names, without posting them everywhere at once. If you post some works under your main and others under an alt blog, that’s fine for completionist purposes. Q: Can I upload/repost my Whumptober content to other social media platforms? Of course! We’ve created an AO3 Collection to archive any fics posted there, which can be found here. The blog is the official archive, so please respect the personal boundaries of any whumpers in your social circle (don’t out anyone as a participant who would prefer not to be outed).
Most importantly, have fun, create, and enjoy all the whump posted this October!
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steddiehyperfixation · 3 months ago
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silly little thing for my @steddiebingo prompt: nerds | 758 words | T |
"Hey, maybe he can help," Robin says, sweeping a hand towards Dustin who's just walked into Family Video for his regularly scheduled afterschool bug Steve and Robin time, interrupting their conversation.
"Oh come on." Steve shakes his head. "The kid doesn't want to hear about my trash heap of a love life."
"Oh, no, I absolutely want to hear about that." Dustin perks up at the opportunity to learn about Steve's trivial suffering.
"We're trying to figure out why Steve goes on a million dates but can't seem to find someone he actually likes," Robin fills Dustin in. "Tell him, Steve."
Steve groans, dragging his hands over his face before splaying them out sarcastically, as that's the only thing he can really do in protest right now. Dustin's looking at him expectantly, and Steve has no choice but to tell the kid all about Linda and Heidi and Brenda and Lucy and whoever else he's been out with recently, doing his best to answer any subsequent questions as PG as possible.
"Well of course you haven't found the one yet, you keep trying to date a bunch of normal, basic, girly girls. That's not your type," Dustin informs him once Steve's done talking.
Steve raises his eyebrows. "Oh, it isn't?"
"You can't really be that stupid, can you?"
"No, please, Henderson, enlighten me on what you think my type is."
"You're into nerds," he says like it's completely obvious.
Steve scoffs. "I am not into nerds. You know, just because I hang around you little weirdos all the time does not actually mean I want to hang around even more weirdos in all the other aspects of my life too."
"Seriously, Steve, think about it," Dustin argues. "Think of all the girls you've actually been really genuinely into in your life. They've all been nerds! Nancy-"
"- is not a nerd."
"She's a straight-A student and a journalism super geek. She's a nerd."
Steve rolls his eyes and sighs grudgingly. "Alright, fine, but-"
"And you were into Robin-"
Robin wrinkles her nose. "Ugh, don't remind me."
"-who you can't deny is definitely a nerd," Dustin continues.
"You know what, actually, he does have a point," Robin says.
Steve looks at her in betrayal. "Don't encourage him!"
"That girl you told me about that you liked in middle school who was super into Star Trek, and the other one who wanted to write a fantasy novel one day- oh and the elementary school crush who was always reading a new book every day..." Robin lists, ticking each one off on her fingers.
"I told you all that in confidence!"
"They were all nerds!"
"Exactly." Dustin grins, vindicated and insufferably smug. "Ergo, you, Steve Harrington, need to find yourself a nerd."
"I am not into nerds!" Steve protests hopelessly.
"What more proof do you need?" Dustin says. "You're into nerds."
"Totally into nerds," Robin concurs.
Steve huffs and throws up his hands. "Fine! I'll admit I'm into nerds if it will make you two shut up about it!"
Eddie happens to wander into the previously empty store at that exact moment, catching the tail end of the conversation as he approaches the counter. "What's all this about nerds?"
Steve freezes, glances Eddie over and stares at him strangely for a few long seconds. "Holy shit," he mutters.
His gaze cuts to Robin, whose eyes go wide when she meets his look. "Holy shit," she agrees.
"Oh my god."
"Oh my god."
"Dude."
"Dude!"
Eddie blinks at them. "Are you two having some sort of joint stroke or something?" He looks at Dustin as if the kid might have a better clue of what's going on. "Can you understand them?"
Dustin shrugs, equally mystified. "Don't look at me, man. They're weird."
The incomprehensible parroting conversation is still going on.
"Okay," Steve's saying, taking a deep breath in through his nose and exhaling determinedly.
"Okay?"
"Okay."
"Okay." Robin grins and shoves at his shoulder.
Steve finally turns back around and leans on the counter in front of Eddie with a classically charming smile. "So, Eddie, are you free on Saturday?"
Eddie smiles back despite his confusion. "Yeah-"
"Oh my god!" Dustin bursts out suddenly.
"Oh my god," Robin agrees with a knowing smirk.
Eddie glances at Dustin. "Oh no, not you too."
Steve exhales a long-suffering sigh and pushes himself off the counter, marching around to grab Eddie by the hand and drag him away from Dustin and Robin. "So. Saturday?"
"He's into nerds," Dustin whispers, wide-eyed.
Robin nods sagely. "He's into nerds."
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autumnrory · 1 year ago
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FINALLY starting to feel a little better about christmas though i only have two things on me and one thing ordered BUT i got a list of books from my mom so i can order those when i order the cookbook for my sister in law and my mom also mentioned something my sister wants that i could get, gonna do most of the kids' shopping on friday, still need ideas for my nephew and godson though, plus i have general ideas for my dad and brother lol you guys are getting gift cards and a little something else bc you are too difficult for me to shop for ANYWAY like i am going to make progress in the coming days so it's fine
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