#I didn't have the healthiest food though so maybe that's why

[insanefemme]

I donated blood today

AND I AM EXHAUSTED

I've never felt like this after donating before

I came home, ate, and just wanted to lay down. I forced myself to go for a walk and then I slept for 2 hours and I'm still tired AF

[fugos-lil-fork]

Do you have any headcanons for the Bucci Gang with a s/o that constantly has nightmares? :")

Naaah, cuz I can definitely relate to that. I have somniphobia bc of the nightmares I get actually 💀 Word of advice!; Try to pay attention to what you eat right before you go to sleep! I know it sounds silly, but certain foods you eat are known to trigger nightmares. However, those foods vary from person to person, obviously, not everyone had the same trigger(s)! But, anyways! I gotchu! Ty very much for ur request! (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

~➗🍓🍊🐞⏳🔫🤐~

Bucci Gang with S/O who has constant nightmares!

Abbacchio;

He completely understands how you feel

He's definitely struggled with nightmares ever since... Well, you know...

He tries his best to really just be there for you, y'know?

When you wake up after a nightmare he's always there to comfort you

He holds you tight

Reminds you that whatever you dreamed about wasn't real

That he's there for you and always will be there for you

He's not really sure how to help you with your nightmares

Hell, he doesn't really believe he is helping you despite how many times you reassure him that he does in fact help you out

He, himself, had never really handled his nightmares problem

He just kinda got used to sucking them up and pretending like they didn't take a toll on him

But, obviously, he doesn't want you to do the same

So, every time you wake up he always make sure to ask you about your dreams

Even if it seemed like nothing was wrong that whole night

He wants to make extra sure that you, for once, got a comfortable sweet dream

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Bruno;

He worries a lot about your constant nightmares

No person can deal with such a thing without it taking a toll on them

Of course, he's always there for you when you wake up from one

Hugging you, reminding you that it was just a dream

Whispering sweet nothings into you

Placing soft, comforting kisses on your head and forehead as he gently holds you

But he knows those are just quick fixes to something that's so obviously constantly troubling you

So, he'll begin to find daily solutions to your nightmares

Maybe setting a bedtime routine

And switching it up to see what helps you sleep better at night

He'll even do it with you! You're both in this together!

He makes it very clear that you'll never have to deal with this alone ever again

And no matter how long it'll takes, he'll help you find a way to help you sleep better

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Mista;

He's so ready to help you out

This man is so laid back and relax

He genuinely thinks he could "train you" to relax and let go of your nightmares-

As silly as how his goal sounds when worded like that

He does give genuine suggestions that could help with relaxing before going to bed

Recommending that you do some light stretches

Maybe some meditation?

Hell, why not try the old classic trick of warm milk?

However, even if that doesn't work

The man is always there to comfort you as well if you do end up waking up due to a nightmare

He holds you so protectively

And reassure your that he's right there with you

That he'll always protect you no matter from what or from who

He even offers to try to do something else instead of going back to sleep

Simply to help you calm down more and so you don't have to force yourself to go back to sleep

He definitely wouldn't mind to go on a 3 am run to get some snacks from a nearby store if it'll help you clear out your head for a bit-

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Narancia;

P a n i c

At first, he isn't really sure how to help

He definitely still deals with nightmares as well from his time on the streets and his mother's passing

Though, he's definitely gotten good at basically shaking them off throughout the day and forgetting about them

He's hesitant about it

Obviously, he wants to help but he doesn't really think he could be much of help

After all, he realizes his way of dealing with nightmares isn't the healthiest and therefore is something he definitely doesn't want for you

But he's just so clueless as to how to help

Eventually though, it kind of just comes natural to him

Sure, he might not know how to help in the big picture

But whenever you do have a nightmare, he's always there by your side

He tries his best to give you physical affection and comforting reassurance that's he's never going to leave you much less let something or someone hurt you

He does his best to make you smile again and helping you feel better by telling jokes or silly stories as well!

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Fugo;

Oh, how much he could relate

Fugo's nightmares seem never ending as well

So, once he realized you dealt with the same problem as him, he was completely heartbroken for you

He knows very well how painful it is to deal with constant nightmares

And so, he makes it his mission to do everything within his power to help you

This boy dives in deep for you

Literally analyzing you, to your comfort, trying to get to the root of the problem

Reading and researching endlessly for answers

If he realizes it's something he can't entirely handle on his own, he'll even try to contact doctors, therapists, specialists, literally anyone that could give an solution to your problems

But aside from all of that, of course he's always physically there for you right after you wake up from a nightmare

The poor boy even stays up to make sure you don't show signs that you are having a nightmare

And if you do, he makes sure to wake you up before it gets any worse

He hugs you, trying to be gentle but can't help but give some squeezes of reassurance here and there

Reminding you that it's all going to be okay and you're going to get the help you need with his help

Definitely reminds you that you're not alone and never will be

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Giorno;

He doesn't really understand at first

He's definitely had nightmares before but had become so used to them that he couldn't become upset at then anymore

He'd literally shove them away to the back of his head and would never acknowledge how bad they actually were

However, he could clearly see how negatively this was affecting you

And of course his instinct was to try to understand and help you

He tries to read a bit into how to lessen nightmares and get a better sleep

He's so attentive

Always paying close attention on whether your nightmares get better or worse based on what he suggests you try in order to get a better sleep

He even tried to grow lavenders in your bedroom to help you relax and get better rest

And he always listens

Whenever you have a nightmare, he's always hearing you out as to what happened in your nightmare

Constantly debunking the fictitious dream

And reassuring you of the reality

He was here for you

Always will

And he swears that he'll never let anything or anyone hurt you

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

Trish;

Ah, she feels for you as well

After what happened with Diavolo, she started developing constant nightmares

So, she constantly reminds you that she completely understands what you're going through

And that you're most definitely not alone

She tries to help you both by planning calming/comforting activities before going to bed

Such as a homemade spa of some sort

Or even just cuddling and watching some comforting movies you both love

Hoping that maybe you'll go to sleep with those happy feelings and your dreams will contain them

However, if that doesn't work, she tightly hugs you

Sometimes even cries with you

She knows how horrible it feels

She'll place soft kisses all over your face though

She really wants you to never forget that you're both in this together

And you'll pull through it, together

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡

[casspurrjoybell-20]

FOOLS Fall - Chapter 29 - Part 1

BOOK TWO: The 'Fools Fall in Love' Trilogy

*Warning Adult Content*

Samuel Moretti

"Sweetheart," my mother knocks gently on my door before poking her head around.

"I think you should go to school today," she suggested as she entered my room and sat down on the edge of my bed.

I was under my covers, my eyes crusty from how much I've cried the past four days.

"I'm not going," I muttered, pulling the blanket further up which was difficult considering the body that was perched on top of it.

My mom rubbed my leg from above my comfy covering.

"Baby, you can't put your life on hold because you're sad and fighting with Noah."

I glared at her.

"I'm heartbroken and we didn't just fight, we broke up," I said bitterly and more sharply than my mother deserved.

"I know but Noah will come around, he's just upset you kept important information from him."

I wanted to scoff because my mom actually took Noah's side but I didn't tell her everything and if she knew about Noah going to the bar and flirting with someone else, maybe she'd take my side.

I started tearing up again.

"I know. I kept a monumental secret from him and screwed up, trust me, I'm aware but I didn't do it on purpose."

"Then just apologize," I rolled my eyes, like I haven't apologized.

My mother was useless sometimes.

"Why haven't you reached out to him?"

I sighed

"If I'm gonna go to school, then you have to leave my room so I can change," I said matter-of-factly.

I didn't want to discuss any of this with her.

My mother patted my leg again and stood up.

"Call him," she told me, then.

"I'm driving you in twenty, so be ready."

I didn't call Noah and I wasn't going to.

Even though I had made a mistake, Noah had let another man dance on him.

Noah should text or call me to make things right between us, not the other way around but Noah hadn't contacted me in four days and I was itching to go to his apartment and argue with him again until we're making up and then making out, maybe that wasn't the healthiest thought but I didn't care.

I stayed put though, I wasn't going to be the one to break and go to him.

No, he will come to me but he didn't.

All week I heard nothing from him and I decided I'd go to the apartment Sunday and grab my things.

********

Until then, I was glumly staring at my phone Friday evening while I was hanging out with Carter.

Carter forced his way through my front door when I told him I wanted to be alone but he wasn't having it.

"No," Carter said as he snatch my phone out of my hands.

"Stop checking your cell-phone. If Noah was a man, he'd come here and beg on his knees for you, not text you an apology. So if he does try to get you back through texting of a phone call, you can tell him to shove it."

Carter took a seat next to me after placing my phone face down on the side table.

"Listen, I've known Noah for a long time, he does stupid things when he's mad but when he settles down and puts his head back on straight, he makes up for it. Now, I'm not saying you should forgive him and Noah needs to learn better ways to cope with his anger than getting drunk, that was shitty but believe it or not, Noah's been doing way better with controlling his mood swings."

I let myself absorb Carter's words.

I have seen multiple times when Noah would hold back and take deep breaths to calm himself down instead of lashing out on me.

Hell, we haven't argued like that since about ten months ago when we first broke up.

I listen intently as Carter continued.

"You should've seen him with Kaitlyn, she pissed him off every day and he did nothing to hold back his angry words. You changed that, Sam. Noah's changed for the better since he's been with you but he's not perfect but I know he loves you a lot, so he'll come to you, begging on his knee and everything. Now, can you make some food? I'm starving."

Noah might not have begged on his knees for me but he came back, just not until after I screwed everything up for us worse than he ever did.

[dopaminergicaddictions]

I saw Katie on okcupid... I have strange feelings about it.

1) I don't have feelings for her and I want her to be happy but it was awkward and hurt for a different reason.

2) i reached out so many times asking for friendship and she ignores me 99% of the time. When I really need a friend. She's a good person and one of the only people who treated me kindly that I dated.

I'm hurt that she won't respond to me regularly and talk to me. I don't expect a relationship...

Bc:

1) she hates my family

2) she doesn't want to come over my house

3) she barely even looked or talked to my mother... I don't expect my partner to be best friends with her but- I mean I do expect them to talk to her and treat her like she's a person.

My feelings are sadness... sadness that she won't talk to me much. Sadness that she won't be my friend. Sadness that I lose everyone I care about.

I messaged her explaining I just wanted to be her friend. I explained I saw her on okcupid and idc that she's trying to find someone and I just want her to be happy.

I just said I wanted to know her and be close and she means a lot to me.

We'll see if she responds to that..

Either way the dating world is disappointing. I don't want Katie back cause she will never be comfortable in my house or around my family. I just want to stop being so isolated.

The last 2 days I've been surrounded by people and I hallucinated 10% of the time.. but when I'm in my room once I go to be alone it's constant.... so I'm trying hard to put myself out there but it's hard.

I joined a voice hearers support group that I'm going to keep attending on zoom twice a week.. the non binary leader 100% gave me a look at the end of the session.. I was the last one there before we disconnected.. and the look was like, "I think you're hot af". I mean I'm open minded but I still love elise

I truly don't want anyone but her and when I eventually do they are going to be special... I mean I got to put myself out there dating wise . I got to put myself out there friendwise

I'd join a IOP but it scarfices my individualized attention I get with therapy. I'm desperate to be around people.

I'm so isolated. I may join a bunch of support groups but idk bc most meet once a week.... I'm hoping I can get a friend to talk to on the phone everyday.... and maybe play Xbox live with John and Fire...

Dialogue helps so much. Being social makes such a huge difference..

I feel undatable though... and I mean that. I get why elise didn't want me, I mean for one she's married.. but look at me. I'm a mess...

I don't think I can find a friend who will talk to me everyday.

My dad was trying to tell me to get hospitalized. Cause my environment isn't safe and one that will help me heal... he isn't wrong but losing the ability to chose my meds. Chose my food/calorie count which I've been a stickler about minus the last 2 days which I've been beating myself up over ... and losing the ability to chose what I do everyday will be depressing and will actually make me less healthy.

Although I somehow have to find people to talk to. I need to be social. Idk how.

I wish I could talk to elise.

I don't want anyone else but unfortunately when it comes to people no one spends a lot of time with their friends. I still won't smoke pot cause I don't want to worsen my symptoms... I'm not going to until at least 2 months after it stops...

I'm really lonely. I need someone to talk to everyday. I wish it was Elise. I wish Katie would hang out with me once every 2 weeks. I wish I had things to do surrounded by people.

I got to find queer groups. I got to do something. I hallucinate so infrequently around people it's almost normal and it's depressing that I'm stuck here.

Hospitalization will worsen my mental health ... I need the right to chose what I do... but staying here isn't the healthiest. I need to enrich my environment. I need people.

Where do you find them?? Most groups only meet once a month thankfully the voice hearers groups meets multiple times a week 5 out of 7 days. . But the times varies and only 2 days a week work with my schedule....

Idk what to do. I want to win this battle. I want to try to see if Elise will show up for me in 2 years.... I want to believe I mean something to her..

But in this environment.. idk how to survive much longer. I'm trying but I'm feeling hopeless cause idk how to fill my time with social activities.

I also can't shake the feeling that Elise is my soulmate. I mean I'm probably 99% wrong. It makes dating hard cause I truly don't want anyone but her. Yet I have to look anyways cause I need companionship.

[solarpunkani]

"But Ani, why do you think solarpunks should make worm bins?"

A lot of reasons! If you're wanting to start a garden, or if you already have a garden, a worm bin can be a great addition to get you compost (albeit not as large an amount of compost as a traditional compost pile but I digress). They're somewhat small, so they can be tucked into a corner of the garden or even in your house under the sink or in the garage. (I keep my bin outside but I digress). Even if you personally don't garden, if you have a friend who gardens, you could possibly trade worm castings for something else? Bartering and all. Yknow.

They're pretty low maintenance, in my experience--though I'll make clear, this is coming from a person who lives in Florida and keeps their bin outside, so when it comes to my experience your mileage may vary. I keep my bin in the shade by a tree, started off with about a pound of worms. Making it wasn't super complicated--mine is a big storage bin with holes drilled into the bottom and lid, with a layer or two of weedblock on the bottom. Filled it with torn up paper and dirt, released the worms, tossed in some food, and we were off to the races. Asides from adding that weed block layer and stacking it on top of like. 2 bricks. I haven't had to do any maintenance at all.

"But Ani don't you need a lot of food scraps to feed the worms" well that depends on what you consider a lot. But I'll say this. My home currently consists of me, my mom, and my dad (and my dog but she's not contributing food scraps to the worm bin). When I made the bin in 2020, my parents didn't think we'd make enough scraps to feed the worms. Now, in 2023, my dad worries we are feeding the worms too much. I suggested making a second bin to him, and he said 'huh. Maybe.' Whereas convincing him to let me make the first bin took months. You would be surprised at what all can go in a worm bin--especially if you aren't super picky about weeds and plant cuttings going in. In my experience, the only thing my worms don't like are grass clippings. Almost anything that isn't meat or already cooked can be worm bin food. Cleaning the fridge and found a vegetable you forgot existed for 3 months? Worm bin. Your neighbors left their Jack-O-Lanterns on the side of the road on November 1st for the trash pickup? Worm bin. Family came over to cook for Thanksgiving and you've got corn husks, potato peels, cabbage scraps, egg shells, and all kind of stuff headed for the trash? Grab a ziploc bag and give it to the worms later. Like to snack on fruits? Rinds, cores, peels--worm bin time. Bread went bad? Worm bin time. Clearing up the garden to start a new season? Worm bin. If you really wanted, or had the dedication and size, you could even get a few neighbors contributing to the worm bin (note: I don't have any neighbors contributing to my worm bin, but the kids next door do like to come to the backyard and look inside).

I'm not gonna pretend to be the healthiest eater on the planet--I'm more than willing to admit that I'm picky as hell. Even so, lately I've been finding myself trying to eat more fruits and veggies for the sake of feeding the worms the scraps. Potential health benefits of worm bin.

"Ani you mentioned making a second worm bin?" Yup! And the process would be easy! Just make a second bin, take a scoopful or two of worms from the first bin and add them into the second. Give them some food, and bam! Worms multiply fairly quickly, and will continue to eagerly reproduce according to how much food they're getting--large, consistent feedings means more worms, but even a handful can munch through a nice amount!

Now, you gotta keep in mind that earthworms are invasive in some areas--I know some parts of the US don't have native earthworms, so the ones that are brought over can do serious damage to forests there. If you're in those areas, either be extremely cautious with your worm bin or don't keep one.

Buuut I would like to encourage the Solarpunks to at least consider a worm bin. Let the wriggly guys into your heart.

PS: you don't gotta touch the worms with your hands at any point in the process. At most, I've held them with gloved hands, but usually I'm using either a hand shovel or a big shovel to dig into the bin.

PPS: if you keep your bin outside sometimes things will get inside. I've gotten small frogs, baby lizards, and occasionally roaches (which was mostly when I was putting pizza boxes in the bin, when I stopped doing that I stopped getting any/as many roaches in the bin). IDK about indoors though that's not my ballpark.

Dear Solarpunks

Consider making a worm bin.

Strong message to follow.

[applejarjar]

So Houdini looked terrible last night but I guess she was just faking a respiratory illness cause despite sneezing, gagging, and having a runny nose at 3 am this morning, the vet couldn't find anything wrong with her

[forbidding-souda]

Hey Mod Souda! How are you? Can you please do Mikan, Sonia, Kirumi, and Ibuki with an S/O who has a healing factor like wolverine but they still worry about them?

Mikan Tsumiki, Sonia Nevermind, Kirumi Toujou, and Ibuki Mioda with a S/O who can heal like Wolverine

my favorite artist posted an instrumental probably snippet of a song thing and it really just boosted my mood enough to force me to write. very exciting. new music from him coming soon? i hope. the last album came out when i was in high school.

-Mod Souda

Mikan Tsumiki

❤ Her fingers will wrap around your wound, her eyebrows knitted in worry as she watches it close on its own.

❤ "Is-Is-Is there any pain?"

❤ "None at all." You respond softly, moving your muscle to show her that it is completely gone.

❤ Still, she wraps bandages around the area ("playing it safe").

❤ Her brain tries to find an explanation. Something scientific. Something that can go beyond supernatural tendencies.

❤ She even walks in the cold morning, a jacket around her shoulders (one of yours), heading to a hospital off her shift to ask her coworkers if they have ever seen anything like it.

❤ She talks about you a lot to other people. You are like a crazy anomaly.

❤ Whenever you get hurt, there's always the thought that pops into your head: should I hide it from her? You know the wound will eventually just go away. Is it worth keeping her sane?

❤ But there's also the fact that she finds pride and happiness in bandaging you up. It makes her feel useless. Shouldn't you give her that?

❤ When she asks why you heal so fast, you simply respond with a don't worry about it - which promptly embarrasses her enough to get her to stop talking.

❤ It has never crossed her mind to be scared of you and your abilities, though. She just accepted you for what you are, not overthinking it, not wanting to put you in danger.

❤ If you're something beyond human then that just makes her even more special: you choosing her to be with.

.

Sonia Nevermind

❤ She heals surprisingly fast. But this is because she lives her best, healthiest lifestyle, getting tons of sleep and eating healthy foods. So when you told her that you heal fast, she didn't think anything of it.

❤ But when Saionji had pushed you down onto concrete, making you scrap your elbow horribly, Sonia came rushing to your rescue. Her cheeks were red with anger but she didn't lash out on anyone. Her soft hands lifted you up, to which she examined the wound, eyeing it as it slowly patched itself.

❤ It was magical.

❤ Her mouth was agape and she ran her hand over the area, feeling your new skin.

❤ She thinks about Tanaka and his alleged healing spells. Maybe you're like that - dark magic and occult-like? A magick user?

❤ She doesn't ask about it. But the longer the two of you spend together, the more she realizes that this might be something a little strange for a human.

❤ What if you weren't a human? The idea makes her flustered. Are you a vampire? Some sexy monster like that - oh, how she loves them.

❤ Whenever you get hurt and bleed, she will always gasp and go to your rescue. In the midst of the moment, she forgets what you are, and the fact that you aren't actually in danger.

❤ For when other people are around, she is going to pretend to patch you up.

.

Kirumi Toujou

❤ When you first got hurt around her, she immediantly went to the first aid kit.

❤ "No, no, no," you tried to explain, "I don't need it - really."

❤ "I am making it my job to take care of you."

❤ You stand up, putting your hand over hers, standing close to her. "No, seriously, I don't need it."

❤ Throughout the many times she has seen you heal yourself, she has never commented on it. She just nods and puts the first aid kit away, going to busy herself with whatever chore she was doing before.

❤ It makes you a bit insecure. Has she even noticed? Or is she purposely ignoring it - the things she doesn't understand?

❤ Now, you notice that when you get hurt, she's stopping going for the first aid kit. She will glance your way until you give her a thumbs up. And then she will nod.

.

Ibuki Mioda

❤ Her gasps are loud and they are filled with worry.

❤ When you hurt your arm, she will kiss all around it (forgetting bandaids even exist - is this sanitary) and hold your hand. You let her do this, of course, and you wait it out until the moment your arm heals itself.

❤ It feels like an eternity before it does, too.

❤ When she notices the wound isn't there she assumes she just made up the fact that you were injured.

❤ She doubts her own reality like - every time until you explain it to her.

❤ "Like a superhero!" She exclaims, covering her mouth with her hands.

❤ That's better than a monster, certainly.

❤ You agree with her, letting her bask in her admiration before kissing her cheek and telling her to keep it a secret.

❤ "Ibuki is amaaazzing at keeping secrets - so don't even worry about it, babycakes!"

❤ When other people see your get injured, she just smiles, knowing that the two of you are in on a secret and absolutely loving that fact.

❤ She hates seeing you in pain, however. So she will hold your hand and cover you with kisses until the wound and all its neurons leave.

[autismnation]

eddie munson hcs

he has adhd and autism

he wears eyeliner

he's transgender/ftm (his pronouns are he/they/vamp/it) and gay (mlm)

he paints his nails black

he has like a whole colony of stray cats that hang around his trailer because he keeps feeding them. he's named every single one and he sometimes lets them inside when his uncle's not there (wayne has zero idea this is happening). he also once saw a raccoon and tried to bring it into his cat colony but it hissed at him so he got scared and abandoned that idea

His uncle collects mugs so he gives one to him every birthday and that's why there's so many mugs hung up in his trailer

Eddie's fave type of stimming is oral stimming and he chews on literally anything, usually his fingers or lips, Steve's hand or his shirt. Steve bought him a bunch of chewellery. He also chews on his hair a lot and thats why he had it buzzed when he was younger

He struggled with severe depression and anxiety when he was younger because of the bullying and because didn't have much of a support system (only his uncle). He still struggles with it in present day but because he has more of a support system with his friends, it's a bit better

When he was at rock bottom, he used stealing as a coping mechanism (it made him believe he had control of his life when he successfully stole something) and he developed kleptomania. Somehow he never got caught by the police. His uncle found out though and helped him create better coping mechanisms

He's sooo clumsy it's actually a bit crazy. Like he trips over thin air. He's stupid though (affectionate) and doesn't care for any of his injuries so his friends always carry bandaids for him.

He also age regresses. Steve is his caregiver. Robin age regresses too so they hang out a lot

He hates the doctors because...obviously. Like why would he want this random person poking and prodding him with cold hands and when he goes it's like ??? What's gonna happen? ITS SCARY. Also what if he goes and they're like "oh you gotta have surgery" or something? It's terrifying. (I'm 100% projecting btw /lh)

I'm 100% projecting here too but he is terrified of getting blood taken because when he was a kid he got blood taken but  the doctor didn't do it properly and he got a massive bruise for weeks ://

He has really weird sleeping habits. Like he can sleep anywhere in any position like it's actually really bad though because his body always hurts because of it. He also murmurs and talks a lot in his sleep (nonsensical stuff) and often forgets to change into sleeping clothes. He does that thing where you put your laundry on your bed so you put it away but it just doesn't work cuz he just sleeps on the pile

He used to wet the bed as a kid for quite a while, like until he was 15 or something, but it started again after the Vecna stuff.

He also struggles with realising when he's hungry. He can only tell when he's starving. Like when you're so hungry you have no energy to get food to eat. Because of this, he struggles on non-school days because he doesn't have a set time to eat so he snacks a lot on weekends

He struggles with knowing when he has a full bladder too. Like he doesn't pee himself but he doesn't ever think "hey maybe I feel really uncomfortable bc I need to pee". Idk how to explain it. I'm projecting so if you know what I mean you know.

He struggles with the texture of a  lot of foods so he mostly eats peanut butter sandwiches or chicken nuggets. Yeah, he doesn't have the healthiest diet ever....

His first tattoo was a really shitty stick n poke. He covered it up with his bat tattoo

He also wants a Corroded Coffin tattoo but he wants it to be perfect so he's still deciding on the design

He can't understand when other people use sarcasm yet loves using sarcasm himself

Loves wearing rings bc fashion but as soon as he's on his own he takes them off bc of sensory issues

He flaps his hands and kicks his legs to stim. He also scrunches his face up. The first time he did it, Steve was worried bc it looked like he was in pain but nah, Eddie was living his best life

He got nicknamed freak bc autistic + adhd + trans + gay but also because he had a meltdown in class because of overstimulation (lights were too bright and everyone was talking too loud)

Eddie and Robin stim by smacking each other's hands (credit to corrodedcoffinkid & autisticmunson)

He's a really loud crier. He yells when he cries

he's a theatre kid. i think he likes naturalism the most bc he's a very good actor but he usually gets pushed into comedic relief roles (bc ppl want to laugh at him ://). but he’s also really good with physical theatre elements because he’s so creative that he comes up with ideas instantly. sadly he usually gets roles with little to no lines. he doesn't mind all that much because less time rehearsing means more time to spend on d&d and with his friends etc.

I think he would be EXCELLENT in a sad scene because of the aforementioned depression and the one time he actually gets a big role everyone is just fckin blown away by how great he is.

100% is the type to rehearse a really sad scene and then afterward crack the stupidest joke ever with tears still streaming down his face

he has a bridge piercing, septum piercing and snake bites. he also has his ears pierced but rarely wears then. he's thought about stretching his ears but decided against it bc he 100% knows he'll be impatient and rush it and rip his earlobes off LMAO

[izzysarchivedblogs]

SHOULD HE BE CONSIDERING THAT ⸻ MARRIAGE ⸻WAS ON THE TABLE?

⸻ or should be?

Considering, he got married to Bobbi Morse after nine days, and half the reason he had agreed was that hi hearing had been blown out and hadn't come back. NOT THAT HE EVER HAD GREAT HEARING. He's been deaf since he was a little boy, things over the years had just made it worst, made him lose more until he wished he could hear music like he did he was twenty.

So the fact that he and Peter had mad it two years, in arguably one of his better (possibly best, and at the very least, healthiest) relationship and he's crazy about the guy. They've managed to make it work, find a rhythm with their lives and what's the future to hold for them? Clint could see himself going on INDEFINITELY with how their lives were.

Should he give a call to Bobbi and ask her to coffee, ask her what he should do because marriage was kind of this whole thing? Plenty of (admittedly younger) couples got engaged at two years as a reasonable time frame. SHOULD HE PUT HIS OWN HUNGS UPS DOWN AND CONSIDER IT SERIOUSLY ⸺ TAKE A LEAP OF FAITH WITH PETER PARKER?

Peter's crouched, like the gremlin that he was. One of the typical Spider On A Perch poses, that even Clint knew if he sat like that without stretching in the morning, for long periods of time his old man thighs would start to burn. SHOW-OFF. (it would take a while for it to burn for him but that's besides the point). HE'S TO, AND HE'S GOING TO, CUP THAT STUPID PRETTY PETER FACE.

He's getting distracted, and he turns to do exactly as he thought about and cup his jaw, kiss him. Whine to him later that the mayor's office will be sending a complaint later, (sorry helen and luke, you try having spiderman as your boyfriend ⸻ actually didn't peter say, though he's not sure if it was a joke, that luke cag had a man crush on spiderman apparently?) for Clint ditching paperwork he's already avoided for a few days now. SORRY DUTY CALLED FOR SOME ARROW SLINGING.

LIPS PRESS TO PETER'S, A SMILE AND A LOOK INT HIS EYE ⸻ "Liiiiisten, a catch like you? Can ya blame a guy for wanting to make double sure before he gives up the lease to his apartment next month?" ⸻ GODDAMN DORK.

❝ Yeah, sure, Peter. ❞ He says, not fully certain of what he was agreeing to getting a little distracted by HIM. Could his lips convince Peter to make dinner tonight, because he really should ⸻

WAIT A MINUTE. That needed some interruption, carefully considered thought. LEASE ⸻ WAIT A DAMN MINUTE. What lease whose lease? HIS, which coming from Peter means, Peter. Peter's lease. GIVE UP ⸻ LEASE ⸻ NEXT MONTH. Was his lease really coming up, he thought that Peter liked his place pretty well. It was nice place, no loft bedroom and it's not in Brooklyn where arguably the better food places were; or at least the places with good grease. WHY WOULD HE ⸻ OH

⸻ ❝ Oh. . . oh. . . OH! Uh, you mean that ⸻ like you, in Bed-Stuy, all the time. ❞ MOVE IN IS WHAT HE MEANT. Like Clint hadn't thought about it, because really it's so much of a mess now going between place to place. Double double the groceries, and sometimes they were messy and forgetting stuff at the other's. ❝ There's an apartment identical to this one, on the top floor, still vacant. I figure either the neighbor next door to apartment H ❞ ⸻ he knows Peter will cringe at how Clint still label apartment ⸺ ❝ might be convinced to move up a floor, but come on, I think the better bet is I convince one of the neighbors up a level, to move down to here, and we move H up, cause like who wouldn't want less stairs for getting groceries up. . . Knock a wall down, somewhere. Room for Mayday. ❞

The reaction, if not obvious, is that he's all for Peter moving in with him and has even been thinking about A BIGGER PLACE. Namely an apartment with at least two, maybe three, bedrooms, so Mayday would have her own.

@oceansfirst I'm just gonna come in here and [ Cont. ]

OH HOW HE LOVED HIM...

Peter squatted in his weird little position as he looked at the older man he was so DESPERATELY in love with. Things were going good, SO GOOD?? like Peter actually felt like he could breathe?? and like things weren't just going to EXPLODE in his face and that was really nice.

He wasn't ALWAYS a complete idiot, he knew that they were dating. Hell they just had an anniversary not that long ago.. but the two of them were NOTORIOUSLY BAD when it came to talking about their feelings in any real way, and that INCLUDED saying the labels like boyfriends out loud to one another or to other people while in ear shot of one another.

But it had been TWO YEARS, and it was safe to say that they could do it right? Say it out loud? Maybe it was a little silly that Peter wanted the extra confirmation. So he had come up with the silly little idea of ring pops. It was WILDLY on the nose and almost kind of subtle all at the same time.

"Liiiiisten, a catch like you? Can ya blame a guy for wanting to make double sure before he gives up the lease to his apartment next month? " That's how normal people ask to move in right? It was a GAMBLE and he knew it.. but there was just SOMETHING about Clint that made him want to just DIVE OFF head first into BIG decisions.

[kaaytea]

Yaku Morisuke x reader

Summary: Yaku insisted that he didn't need your help, but the sound of glass breaking over the phone said otherwise.

Warnings: none

A/n: Yaku canonically has 2 little brothers now🥰 this is basically a gift for bug anon and @hikari-writes​ anyways enjoy mwah!!💖

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"Hi baby!" You happily chirped into the phone, "I'm excited for our date! It's been a while since we've gone on one."

There was a pause on the other end, you could hear shuffling and a few muffled giggles.

"Stop it you two! I'm sorry (y/n) but we're gonna have to postpone our date, my Aunt fell ill so my parents asked me to watch Yuji and Shiori While they go look after her. I'm really sorry I know how excited you were"

You let out a small laugh and shifted your phone to your other ear as you went to pick up your bag, "It's ok Mori, we can just reschedule for next weekend. How about I come over anyway? It sounds like you'll need the help."

"Ah you don't have to do that, I can usually handle them and I don't want you to-"

Yaku was cut off by the sound of a glass breaking followed by two voices

"ooooo Oniisan is gonna kill yooooou"

"No! He's gonna kill you because I didn't do it!"

Mori let out a tired sigh, "On second thought some help would be greatly appreciated."

"I'll be over in ten minutes, sit tight sweetie!"

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The Yaku family home wasn't too far from yours, being only a little over an eight-minute walk away. You'd been there plenty of times throughout the years after befriending Morisuke in junior high; your younger self would probably explode if they knew you'd end up dating that cute boy with pretty eyes and wavy, toffee hair who walked home the same way you did. The Yaku's basically became your second home at this point so helping Mori watch his little brothers wasn't that rare of an event.

You hopped up the steps to the humble house and knocked on the door, which swang open a few seconds after revealing a flustered Yaku Morisuke.

"Thank you for helping (y/n), I’m sorry.. this isn't exactly what I had in mind for us today," he said as you walked in, pressing a kiss to your cheek in the process.

"I don't mind helping you out Mori, sure it's not the same as a dinner date but we always have fun when watching the boys," you offered him a smile, which he returned, and followed him into the main room where you were immediately tackled by his brothers.

"(Y/n)-chan!" Yuji jumped up from his seat, abandoning the gaming controller he was holding leaving Shiori to win the game they were currently playing, and bounced over to you to hug your waist. Shiori followed closely behind his older brother and latched on to your waist as well.

"Hey you two!" You wrapped an arm around both boys and hugged them back, both of them looked up at you with big smiles.

They were looking more and more like Morisuke each time you saw them -which was understandable seeing as they're all brothers.

Yuji, the older of the two, shared the same toffee hair as his elder brother but Shiori's, while similar, was a few shades darker than Mori's. All three of them had the same chocolate-colored eyes and delicate freckles dusted on their cheeks though.

"Alright get off them, this might surprise you two but they need to do this thing called breathing," Yaku said from where he was leaning against the couch.

Both boys pulled away, Shiori lingering a little longer, and then dragged you over to the couch to play videogames with you.

Videogames were the most popular form of entertainment whenever you came to watch them. Yuji was scary good at games and almost always won when the four of you played; he could honestly rival Kenma's abilities.

Because there were only three controllers Shiori always sat on your lap so the both of you could take turns, but you had a sneaking suspicion it was because he was a little more attached to you and liked to be near you.

"Are you sure you don't want to play (y/n)-chan?" Shiori looked up at you from his spot on your lap with an innocent look.

"I'm sure Shi, I'm having much more fun watching you play," you leaned closer to him and whispered," Plus, I can help you beat your brothers this way."

He grinned at you and looked forward again to the tv. It seemed as though today's game of choice was Smash Bros Ultimate.

The three brothers started the game with Yuji instantly knocking Mori off the map resulting in him to yell out in frustration. Yaku could be very petty when he wanted so he spent most of the game targeting Yuji, leaving Shiori to sit safely on the sidelines. The game was coming to a close with Mori and Yuji both having one life left. Mori took a wild chance and ended up hitting Yuji off the map making the younger boy cry out in shock. That's when you guided Shiori over to Mori's character and won the match.

"No fair! (y/n)-chan helped you Shiori!" Yuji whined.

"I have no idea what you mean Yuji," you gave him a smile as he pouted at you; he took gaming very seriously.

"Ok ok, stop attacking (y/n) and Shi, why don't we go outside for a bit? The both of you have been in here playing games all day," Yaku got up and turned off the gaming console and tv then turned back to look at the two boys.

"Oooook," they both said before racing to the door. They pushed at each other in attempts to sabotage the other causing you to laugh at their antics. You were so engrossed in the younger boys race that you didn't notice Yaku standing in front of you until he flicked your head.

"You totally helped him win, didn't you" Mori stated with a playful glare.

You got up and pressed a kiss to his nose, "Maybe I did maybe I didn't. Why? Do you want me to help you win next time?" Mori blushed at your response then teasingly hit your shoulder.

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You and Yaku sat on the wooden porch together watching the younger boys kick around a soccer ball. Mori's arm was around your waist, his thumb occasionally rubbing soft circles into your hip.

"Niisan?" Shiori had diverged from Yuji and now stood in front of Mori and you, nervously fiddling with the hem of his shirt.

"What's up bud?"

"Can...can you teach me how to play volleyball?"

Mori honestly looked like he could cry when the words 'teach me to play volleyball' left his little brother’s mouth. He'd been hoping that at least one of his brothers would become interested in the sport and it seemed quiet Shiori would be the one.

Mori stood up with a grin on his face, "Sure Shi! Come on, we'll teach you how to receive first."

You smiled watching Shiori run after Morisuke; Yuji and Shiori really looked up to him, it's like they think he hung the stars in the sky himself.

"Yuji!" You called out. The boy looked up from where he was kicking around the soccer ball, "Wanna come help me make dinner?"

"Yeah!"

Yuji happily trailed after you to the kitchen, hopping around from foot to foot as he blabbered on about a Tv show.

You honestly didn't know where he got all his energy from, everyone else in his family was significantly less hyper; though, his cheery attitude was one of your favorite things about him.

"Alright Yuji, what should we make?"

He stopped his bouncing and brought a hand to his chin, his face scrunching up as he pondered his options.

"Ramen!"

You gave him a nod and searched through the cabinets for the noodle packets you were, oh so familiar with. You pulled out enough for four people, placing them on the counter. You then moved to the refrigerator -just eating the packaged noodles wouldn't be the healthiest, so you decided to put your own spin on it. After a quick once over of the fridge you pulled out some carrots, spinach, and a few eggs.

"Ok Kiddo, I'm giving you a really important job. I want you to wash the carrots and spinach, think you can do that for me?"

"Yep!" Yuji gathered the vegetables in his arms and brought them over to the sink to start his job. Once you were sure he was safe, you started looking around for a pot and cutting board. You'd been to this house so many times but if there was one room you weren't familiar with it was the kitchen. Yaku's mother always insisted that she had everything handled and for you to go enjoy your time with Morisuke.

"(y/n)-chan I'm done!" Yuji called over his shoulder. He had perfect timing as you had just found a pot big enough to cook the noodles in.

You walked over to the sink, pot in hand, and gave Yuji a pat on the head -he was absolutely beaming at your approval.

"looks good, I'm gonna start cutting the carrots, fill this pot a little over halfway and then we can start making the noodles," Yuji nodded up at you and started filled the pot while you started cutting the veggies.

You were fully concentrated on your task, you didn't even hear the backdoor open.

"Careful!" You looked over your shoulder to find Mori taking the filled pot from Yuji, the latter had a slight pout spread over his face.

Yaku placed the pot on the stove top and turned back to the younger boy, "Don't do that next time, alright? You could have gotten hurt...it's ok to ask for help when you need it."

Yuji nodded pitifully, he's eyes down casted on the floor in a mix of shame and embarrassment. Mori huffed and ruffled Yuji's hair making him perk up a bit, "I think (y/n) and I've get it handled from here buddy. Go play with Shi, we'll call you both when the foods done."

"Ok!" All previous sadness had left Yuji as he instantly reverted back to his happy self, he bounced out of the kitchen and in the direction of he and Shiori's shared room.

"Thank you for helping Yuji!" You called out. His head popped out from the side of the doorway with a large smile on his face.

"you're welcome (y/n)-chan!"

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After dinner and a few more rounds of Smash, Mori and you had tucked both boys into bed for the night.

You stretched your arms high into the air with a hum, "I should probably start walking home."

You felt Yaku latch onto your back, his chin resting on your shoulder and his strong arms pulling you into his chest.

"Nope you're staying here, I don't want you walking home this late."

You chuckled at him and leaned into his hold, he's always looking out for you.

"Ok...that means we're gonna go cuddle in your room, right?"

"Duh"

Being curled up with Mori was one of the best things on earth. Everything about the action was soft and warm; the embodiment of comfort.

"I love your brothers but they really are a handful."

"Try living with them," Yaku responded dryly.

You slapped his shoulder lightly causing him to chuckle at you.

You sighed, enjoying the feeling of Mori tracing random shapes on your back, and nuzzled further into his chest.

"How did Volleyball with Shiori go?"

"It was fun. He's not that bad of a receiver, though I think he'd make a better setter than a libero."

You hummed and placed a kiss on his jaw, "He does have the aspects of a good setter in him, liberos need to be a bit aggressive and crazy to throw themselves around and receive."

"Wow thanks babe," he deadpanned causing you to giggle at him.

"I loooove you~"

"Yeah, whatever you say," Yaku rolled his eyes then tickled your sides changing your giggles to full-on laughter. You shifted and twitch in feeble attempts to escape Yaku's grasp.

"OK OK IM SORRY, Y-YOU MADE YOUR POINT!!"

He stopped his attack and watched you with a soft look as you calmed down. That's when a sliver of light cut through the room like a knife making both You and Mori look towards the door.

"Oniisan...we heard a scary noise outside," Yuji stood in the doorway with Shiori behind him clinging to the back of his shirt.

Mori sat up, he may complain that his baby brothers were annoying but he still loved them with all his heart and couldn't stand to see them upset.

"Do you guys wanna stay with us tonight? (Y/n)-chan and I will make sure nothing scary comes to snatch you away"

Both boys nodded and rushed over to Yaku's bed; their brother was like a beacon of light and the bed a safe house, the childlike fear of standing in the dark room unprotected lapped at their minds.

You all had to squeeze to fit onto the bed but eventually, everyone got situated and relaxed. Both kids laid between you and Mori; Shiori was clinging to your waist with his face pressed into your stomach and Yuji was facing Mori hugging his arm.

Both Yuji and Shiori fell asleep instantly once in the comfort of You and Yaku.

You ran a hand through Shiori's wavy hair, you looked up to find Yaku watching you; he looked starstruck, an almost loopy smile on his face and a warm glow in his eyes. He reached over Yuji and Shiori and grabbed onto your free hand, his thumb ran up and down the back of it prompting you to close your eyes and start to drift off.

Everything was warm and cozy, nothing but the distant chirps of crickets and the soft breathing of the two sleeping boys filled your senses; the feeling of safety and protection evident in the air.

This single moment in time was better than any date Yaku could take you on.

[free-boundsoul]

Vampires have pointy ears in unempowered lore? Wow, that’s hilarious. I wonder what possible reason a vampire would need to develop pointy ears. Like… evolutionarily speaking, just why? The fangs, that’s obvious. The heightened senses help them find a viable food source. The trancing, same thing. But pointy ears? That’s too much, Freelancer. I’d love to have a conversation with the person who thought that one up.

Yeah. Would… Would you want one? Because it’s just a bunch of commercialized bullshit that the fox is even a character. You could totally tell the franchise purposefully made her so adorably cute just to exploit the potential profit. She didn’t really add much to the story at all. And of course, everyone lined up to buy anything and everything with that fox’s little face on it. Typical of the materialistic, instant gratification-addicted society we live in. And… I can get you one, if you want.

Maybe I should get a cat�� My building accepts pets. I guess I was worried I wouldn’t have to time to look after a cat right now. It’s not fair to the cat if I never spend time with him because I’m always studying. Maybe when I finish my degree, I’ll adopt one. So, tell me Freelancer, what should I look for in a cat? I want to be prepared when I do go to the shelter. Let’s see… I’ll need food. What’s the healthiest kind of food for cats? A litter box, and plenty of litter… A bed, toys, one of those scratcher tree things… Shit, I need to make a list.

The massage helped so much. I really might have to take you up on that offer because… wow.

Aww, that sounds like a nice place to grow up, except for not having any friends. That must’ve been hard. Wow, quite the wildlife experience. Hmm, are you sure those were real wolf packs and not shifter packs? How long did it take for the skunk smell to go away? That must’ve been terrible! You’re such a klutz, Freelancer. It’s a miracle you probably haven’t fallen more. I’ve seen you trip on air before. As you can see from my parents’ humble abode, I grew up in a city. Sounds like we had really different childhoods.

Hehe, is it really torture? And I was just going to call it Found Family. I'm not that creative. So, if you can think of anything better, I'm all ears. Oh wow, Hux is going all out too. I think some of those are button mashes. I think our next game night will be eventful!

If I think of anything, I’m going to keep my mouth shut like I should’ve. Look at this, look at this! Do you know how much data all of those gifs are going to use up? That’s putting it mildly. Whose turn is it to pick our next game?

That’s really considerate of you, Freelancer. Thank you. Here, I’ll start chopping.

I like playing with fire, Damie, I thought that was pretty obvious.

So confident, aren’t you? Well, I think you’ll find playing around with a few sparks can lead to quite the fireshow. It doesn't take much for a few flames to get out of control before long.

-DamieN

I think it's from the whole bat myth, y'know? They have pointy ears. I don't really get it either, haha.

....I might have a weakness for cute plush animals. Hux got me this giant unicorn that's super soft, and its a pretty nice back support. And you never know, she could secretly be the key to a grand finale! This cute form could just be a dormant form and her true form is a giant fox and she'll save the day. But um...I'd really like a plush of her. I can pay you for it!

Well, it's hard to tell you what to look for in a cat. I think when you see the right one, you'll know that's the ones that's meant for you. Hehe, leave it to you to make a detailed list. I give Eren wet food and dry, and some people make their own food. You might want a water fountain, Eren was really picky and he didn't really like drinking water from a bowl. He'll lay in the sink and drink from the faucet though.

I think they were real wolf packs, if they were shifters would they have sensed I was a Freelancer and came to say hi? It took a few days and a lot of baths. I don't know if the smell faded or if we just got noseblind to it. At least I haven't fallen on you yet. Haha, yeah, we did. You've only lived in the city before?

Haha, if you need extra data, I'll pay for it. It is my fault after all. I think it's your turn isn't it? Gavin had the last choice and picked that card game that ended up getting ridiculous.

Thank you! I'll start the rice and get the chicken ready!

Well, I can pretend, haha. And I thought you said you never get out of control? But if we're going to have a bonfire, I can bring s'mores?

[lareinenoir]

∆Milk and Honey∆

Tom Hiddleston x Black! Reader

Pt 2/?

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"Pam, you have no idea how sweet he was. Like...I didn't know he'd offer to drive me."

"Aw, I'm jealous. So jealous, Y/N! I can't even get Rick to open a door for me." You could hear her rolling her eyes. "Don't get me wrong, Rick is a sweetie when he wants to be but driving you back to the hotel is absolutely wonderful."

"So...uh...did he call?" You ask after you both laugh over the phone again.

"Patrick? Yeah he did. He wanted to know where you were. He sounded worried."

"Tell him to stay in Dubai and do whatever he has to do."

"Oh come on, Y/N. You can't still be mad at him?"

"I am. I really am. He said he'd be home to make up for missing my birthday. He never showed up."

"Hes tryin', girl."

"Yeah, tryin'. Cute little bracelets won't make up for that. Thats what I get for marryin' a city boy."

"You can take boy out of the city but not the city out of the boy."

"Shoulda listened to my Gran. She said I could do better then Patrick Reginald St. John."

"He's a hard workin' man. He just wants the very-"

"I don't care. I just want him to be there for me. Seriously, I can't remember when the last time I had sex. Like good, body aching, heart stopping sex."

"Just do what I do, watch porn."

"Hell no. Why would I want to watch people have sex when I ain't havin' sex. Its torture of the highest order."

"Just tryna help."

"Sorry, I'm just a bit frustrated. Lets stop talking about this and talk about clothes. I have no idea what I'm gonna wear tomorrow."

"Whats the occasion?"

"Tom invited me to his house. And before you get your bonnet in a knot, its just to meet the rest of the team. Thats it."

"Have I mentioned how jealous I am." Pam asked giggling. "Did you ask what attire he was lookin' for?"

"I did and he said to come as you are." You answer "Imma face time you. I only brought so many clothes."

"Alright." Pam hung up and you quickly face timed her and showed her your closet. "Oh sweet pea...I mean where is the rest of it?"

"Oh come on, Pam. Please help." You beg and give her a pouty face.

"Sweet pea, I think your gonna run outta clothes. You packed for only a couple weeks. But there is hope. If he said come as you are then...maybe you could get away with a nice blouse and a jeans. Add some pointed shoes and call it casual."

"Pamela Francine Ruth, you are absolutely the best friend in the world!" You sigh making a kissy face at the camera.

"So I've been told. Don't forget about us little people in Mayfield when you're all famous. I gotta go and start making dinner. Tell me all about it tomorrow after the party, m'kay?"

"Yeah. Bye." You say and she blew a kiss and hung up.

*******

The next day, she woke to a text from Tom.

°Tom Hiddleston°

Tom: Good morning! I don't know how good hotel food is but would you like to go out for breakfast? I'll come pick you up.

You: Breakfast? Sounds great. I've been dying to try a traditional English breakfast. All I know is grits and eggs with toast

Tom: Maybe we can switch breakfast. I've never had grits

You: You have no idea what you're missing.

Tom: I was hoping that you and I could talk a little more. Maybe actors and actresses you have in mind.

You: Fantastic!

You: I will be down in five minutes.

"I'm spending the day with him! So...do I wear the same outfit?"

Not wanting to stress, you put on the outfit Pam helped pick out and start getting ready. When you walked out side, Tom was near the car smiled when he sae you.

"Y/N, you look lovely this morning." He tells you, taking your hand and kissing it lightly

"Thank you. You look great as well." You say back, trying not to show how heated your cheeks were getting. He led you to passenger side and opened the door.

A couple minutes later, you were outside a somewhat private restaurant. He had on sunglasses as you walked in.

The hostess sat you down in the back and he finally took them off. "Is this spot ok?"

"Its fine." You nod as he pulled out your seat.

The two of you ordered and the topic of comfort foods. "What's yours, Y/N."

"I have to say burgers with grilled pineapple. Its so good. My friend Pam makes the best burgers and I always grill the pineapples sprinkling a little cinnamon on it." You answered and Tom was laughing a bit. "I know, it ain't the most healthiest food choice."

"Oh no." He shakes his head "I'm not judging. I honestly don't think I have a comfort food. I eat whatever looks good and for my diet."

"Right. I forgot. You are an actor and actors have to keep their bodies looking sexy." You giggled taking a sip of your sweet tea watching him bit his lip and blush. "Speaking of actors, who did you have in mind?"

"Y/N that's a choice I think you should make. Its your script-"

"Tom, you're directing and producing. I don't know Hollywood like you do." You say

He pauses and then nods his head. "Fine. We'll do it together. You tell me who you have in mind and I'll suggest a few things that will help guide your final decision."

You nodded your head, agreeing as the food came out. Tom thanked the waiter and you looked at the food. "Wow, it looks great!"

"Tell me how it is after you try it." He chuckled

Tom really liked hearing about Mayfeild. He was laughing and smiling at your stories. He was actually listening and paying attention to what you were saying.

"Don't get me wrong, Mayfield is great but I could go without the Baker's. Donna and Gerald have nine kids and all of them get on my nerves! The little one, shes about five and let me tell you, shes the devil incarnate. Daisy is a feisty little thing, but at the same time I don't blame her. She's the only girl in the Baker family. That's assuming Donna doesn't pop out another one- I'm sorry." You say picking up a fork and looking down. "I was rambling won't I? You probably have something you wanna-"

"No no no." He shakes his head reaching across the table taking a hold of your hand. Instantly the fork drops and you hold your breath as Tom gives you a very kind grin. "I ramble too. I like hearing you talk. Please keep going."

Tom's hand slips and you grin back, shyly trying to hold it together. Your chest felt a bit heavy and your eyes began to water. You were about to cry.

"Y/N?"

"Excuse me." You scramble to get up and kept your head down not really caring who you were running into.

You were glad the bathroom was empty. Trying to not cry out loud, your hand goes over your mouth and you sob in the bathroom stall. You didn't know why- no- you knew why. Deep down you knew why you were sobbing. You just didn't know why at that moment.

"Y/N? Y/N?"

Tom followed you to the bathroom. The womans bathroom and you definitely knew it was him because of his shoes you saw under the stall.

"Are you alright in there? I'm so sorry if I said anything to upset you. It wasn't my intention to hurt you-"

"Tom please stop." You say, trying to sound like you were fine. Failing miserably, you cover your mouth again to keep from crying out loud again. "It wasn't you, I promise it won't you. I just-"

"Let me in? Please." He asks

You didn't want him to see you cry but here he was in the stall. Taking in a breath you inhaled Tom's scent as he held you in his arms. Warm and that feeling of someone holding you made your body quiver. You hadn't been held in a mans arms in long time.

You didn't want him to let go of you.

"Do you wish to talk about-"

"No. Thank you though. I...I really needed that."

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Story time rant!!!

So we all know im not the healthiest person there is, but hey I'm not the unhealthiest. My dad on the other hand basically is asking for a death wish I mean he doesn't eat like he should and drinks and smokes constantly which is deteriorating his health rapidly. So ya girl here mentioned how she hates how the longer I stare at my foot the smaller it's seems and that it was like looking at a child's foot. My dad was like "I could understand if you were standing up and your stomach was in the way but you have you leg propped up" and laughed at that. I snapped real fast like "at least my stomach is almost flat with abs, while you're over here with a keg belly looking like you 4 months pregnant." My blood boiled like okay they, being everyone I live with at my apt, so far 2 younger brothers and dad, call me 300+ fat 24/7, more now that I've dropped 30+lbs. Like the other day I was mindng my own business and my dad pops up in my room and was like "I'd be terrified if you slept on the top bunk of your bunk bed" and I'm like wtf get out but in that awkward chuckle kind of way. You know like the Simpsons im in danger chuckle meme because Biss over here triggering a girl and I did like a 1.5 hrs workout right after...

Anyways back to story. So he said if an apocalypse ever happens he'd be ready and he was like "while you and your little friend here is dying from not eating for one day I'll be set to not eat for 2-3 days". I just gave that look you know the look that says this biss.

Anyways my mind was like listen here peasant boi you don't know me, I eat less that 600cals most days even though my limit is 1000. I purposely find it fun to see how long I can go without food. I can go week+ no food boi and you over here thinking I can't do a day. I workout while not eating for long time because self hate be like "bet you 5lbs you can't" and I be like "bet your ass I can" even when I feel like trash. I can do an apocalypse as long as there's flipping water, cause ya girl here is that messed up already. You can't survive in my world I'm a goddess compared to you. You would die in my world due to the lack of alcohol and food, could you survive off cigarettes bro cause I can.

It was then I noticed that I messed up. Like why am I even glorifying myself over here. Like why do this to me because you guys want to trigger me. So for the first time in like idk how long guy I honestly, I didn't count calories as I ate. I ate until I was full, I ate slowly, I even had sweets, and drank plenty of the clear liquid that helps keep us alive. It was weird thinking maybe I'm not that bad after all that I'm faking it but im not because normal minds towards food don't think this way. They don't hate themselves for eating a cookie now and then or hell even thinking of yeeting themselves off a highway bridge for taking a sip of a non diet drink. I realized I'm sick but so is everyone else in their own way. That we all fight our own battles but some are harder than others depending on your point of view.

That aside and back to the story I chose to ignore my dad's comments and eat peacefully for the first time in a while and I didn't hate myself at all. Like Biss ate a cookie and she enjoyed it. So it's the next morning and I don't know what to do. Like do I see if I can eat normal...do I restrict with only cucumbers...do I just not exist? Like what do I do besides see what the trusty old scale says.

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Simply Elliott - Chapter 1

*Warning - Adult Content*

Elliott Wheeler

There was something missing.

Have you ever felt a constant uneasiness in your gut?

An ache in your heart?

And you can't think of a single reason why?

So you self-diagnose yourself and call it anxiety.

Now you're taking pills daily to help with your 'illness' and 'still' that uneasiness doesn't go away?

That was me for as long as I can remember.

I thought the unsettling feeling was something that could be fixed through meds, and yeah maybe the anxiety pills helped some but that wasn't it.

So, to compensate for not knowing what the fuck was wrong with me, I indulged in the one true comfort in life, food.

I ate junk food and a second and a third helping until my thirteen year old body was a grand total of 220 pounds 'that's 99.79 kilograms to those over the pond folk'.

I didn't think anything of my longing gaze at every boy in my class, dismissing my prolonged jealousy for thinking 'I'm a girl, that's why I'm admiring all these male bodies.'

And I was only watching gay porn because males turn me on, might as well watch two, right?

It wasn't just that I was infatuated with the male species, I was living vicariously through them.

I started dressing more on the 'masculine' side 'though gender roles are a social construct, wear whatever the hell you want to wear, kids'.

I studied their mannerism 'the good ones'.

And I felt a little better, more myself but not quite.

Then puberty hit and my chest grew bigger and I wanted to die but the best thing happened my first year of high school.

I met a junior called Annie.

She was beautiful and perfect and she paid attention to me.

Which not many kids did because most people are shallow and God forbid I be overweight but not Annie, she was the least shallow person I knew and we were inseparable.

Annie was transgender.

She knew she was meant to be a girl since forever and her dad was fully supportive.

By fifteen, she started the transition, taking hormones, got boobs, etcetera.

She showed me other transgender social media influencers and taught me a lot about the process.

Told me it was the best decision of her life because before, there was always something missing and that's when I knew I was meant to be a boy.

It all made sense.

I hated looking in the mirror, I've never felt right in my own skin.

I wanted to curb stomp everyone who told me I wasn't being 'ladylike' or gave me a judgmental look when I cut my hair short.

My longing looks at the boys in my class wasn't because I had a crush or because I found them attractive, it was because I was jealous of their bodies and their pronouns that fit them.

Knowing I was meant to be a boy and while building up the courage to tell me parents, I started working on myself.

I thought if I even go through with the transformation, I was going to be the best and healthiest version of myself.

I stopped eating recklessly and exercised more and by the summer before my sophomore year, I dropped my weight and that was when I told my parents about my new realization.

Well, more like blurted it out while having a mental breakdown.

"Ellie?"

We were sitting around the dinner table, eating baked macaroni and cheese, when my mother broke off her own conversation with my dad as she realized I hadn't spoken all night.

I was a bit depressed at that time 'body dysphoria can do that to you'.

"Ellie, why aren't you eating?"

I shrugged, still only poking at my pasta.

I've grown to hate my name.

"What's up, kiddo?" my dad asked and I felt that uneasiness expanding and it was all too much.

Too many thoughts of hating myself and wishing I was someone else.

So I broke, I began sobbing.

"I'm sorry."

I didn't know why I apologized but I felt like I had to.

My parents gave birth to a girl.

A girl they loved and called Ellie but that wasn't me.

How do I tell my parents that the child they love and watched grow is someone I absolutely hated?

"Oh sweetheart, what's going on?" my mother asked while my father asked.

"Why are you apologizing?" both in the same concerned tone.

Fuck, I hated disappointing my parents.

That's what would happen, right?

They'd be disappointed that I needed to change in order for me to like myself.

I shook me head because I couldn't tell them.

"Ellie, talk to us," my mom begged and I choked out a harder sob when hearing that name.

I scooted my chair back, I needed room to breath.

"I hate that name," I cried, my shaggy brown hair falling into my eyes as my hands covered my face.

I couldn't look at them as I spoke.

"Oh. Okay, well..." my mom sounded confused and when she didn't finish her sentence, I risked a glance at them.

They were looking at each other, uncertain and worried.

Then as if they both came to a mutual agreement in their head, my dad turned to me and said...

"What would you rather be called?"

I have thought about a new name for a couple mouths prior and decided it was best to go with something similar, so it would be an easy adjustment for people.

"Elliott," I said through tears and sniffles.

Ellie and Elliott might be almost the same but those name's had completely different meanings to me.

"Elliott," my mom started as if to memorize it.

I nodded.

I wasn't sobbing anymore, only silent tears.

My dad began...

"If that will make you feel better then..."

"I hate being a girl," and I sobbed again, messy and loud.

"I... I don't feel like myself. My body isn't me, I'm supposed to be a boy, I'm sorry."

"Oh, sweetheart," my mom rushed to my side and hugged me.

That was how I told my parents.

I've never been more grateful that I was given the best parents in the world because I know not everyone is as fortunate as me when it comes to support.

Not only did they support me and didn't call it a 'phase' they paid for my chest surgery and hormones.

Surgery and the new meds started towards the end of my sophomore year.

By junior year, everyone was calling me Elliott.

Now as a senior, my parents are saving up for my 'bottom surgery' which they said will be my graduation gift.

Unfortunately, what comes along with waiting is an immense amount of body dysmorphia.

It also didn't help when a certain boy entered my life and loved my body just the way it was while I absolutely hated it.

Talk about confusing.

Who was this boy you may ask?

Carter Matthews.

And I wished I had never met him.

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Men's Health: What Foods Improve Male Health?

1.Red Meat - Make Sure It’s Lean

Should men eat differently? As a man, staying healthy means eating mostly what's good for anyone—more fruits, vegetables, whole grains, lean meats, and low-fat dairy products. But there are some subtle differences between healthy diets for men and healthy diets for women, even though we share 98.5% of our DNA.

In the following slides, learn some foods you can form a healthy diet around as a man. You will find out why certain foods play special health roles in a man's diet for prostate problems, staying lean, and putting on muscle. There are even some in the list that may help your bedroom performance.

Red Meat

If you closed your eyes and imagined a meal made for a man, there's a good chance you'd dream up an imaginary steak. Men eat a lot more protein than women on average. And for the most part, all that additional protein is healthy. If you want to watch your weight, protein may be a better choice than carbs because your body spends more calories burning protein. It also helps build and retain muscle mass. The key is to have lean red meat in small portions and not eat it daily.

But not all protein is equally healthy. The healthiest proteins are low in fat, and some cuts of red meat fit this bill, including lean cuts of beef and pork. What's more, the amino acid leucine is found in red meat. That's important because this is the amino acid responsible for building and maintaining muscle mass.

However, there's reason to exercise caution when it comes to red meat. In some men, an abnormal gene can cause the high iron content of red meat to leave deposits in your vital organs. On the other hand, women need additional iron to make up for what's lost during their periods.

2.Tasty Cherries

Cherries are delicious, no doubt. They're healthy too. Cherry pigment contain anthocyanins, and these chemicals are anti-inflammatory. Both sweet and tart cherries contain these special pigments, though you'll find more of them in the tart variety.

Cherries can be powerful against gout, too, which affects more men than women. One major study showed if you've suffered from a gout flare-up in the past, chances of future flare-ups are reduced by half by eating 10 cherries a day.

3.Dark Chocolate

Wait—I thought this was a health article. It is! Dark chocolate in reasonable amounts is associated with a few positive health outcomes. Though the science is still being weighed, some signs suggest dark chocolate could help reduce your blood pressure, increase circulation, and keep bad cholesterol down.

Of course, that doesn't mean you should toss your health foods and head straight for the candy aisle. Chocolate candy is still candy, and it should be enjoyed in moderation if you want to stay healthy. How much chocolate consumption is considered moderate? Aim for no more than one ounce a day.

4.Zinc and Shellfish

Crazy about crab? Do you love clams, oysters, and shrimp? Shellfish are low-fat, low-calorie, high-protein foods that are good for anyone's diet. Men, however, may experience additional benefits thanks to zinc.

Zinc is found abundantly in shellfish. The highest zinc offering of all comes from oysters, which pack 445% of your recommended daily value of zinc into just three ounces. Zinc is required to produce sperm, and it seems to drive up testosterone levels as well. It also helps your prostate, where zinc is found in greater amounts than anywhere else in the body except bone. If you become zinc-deficient, your chances of an inflamed or enlarged prostate increase, as well as your risk of developing prostate cancer.

5.Creamy Avocados

Men, take note: avocados were named after you. Or rather, a certain part of you. The word comes from the Aztec word for testicle, “ahuakatl.” Maybe that's why this creamy green fruit has developed a reputation as an aphrodisiac. Whether or not it deserves that reputation, avocados do have several valuable health benefits.

Just like nuts and olive oil, avocados are high in fat. But don't worry—it's the good kind. Avocados help raise good cholesterol (HDL) while lowering bad cholesterol (LDL). They do this with omega 3 fat, the source of ¾ of their calories. They also have plenty of antioxidants, which help reduce cell damage, especially in the dark green part of the flesh nearest the rind. Use some caution, though, and don't overconsume avocados—they're fairly high-calorie.

6.Fish With Omega-3

Want to stop the no. 1 killer of men in the United States? Eat more fatty fish, like salmon, halibut, and sardines. These fish come loaded with omega-3 fatty acids, which are known to lower your risks of heart disease.

There are other ways to get omega-3 fats into your diet. But for men, fish is the safest bet. That's because plant-based sources, such as those found in canola and flaxseed oils, have been linked in some studies with elevated risks of prostate cancer. If you stick with fish, you need not worry. However, you should be careful not to consume too much tuna, marlin or sailfish, for example, as they can contain high levels of mercury.

7.Health Benefits of Ginger

Do your muscles ache after a workout? Maybe your back is sore when you wake up in the morning. If painful, tired muscles are causing problems for you, you may want to consider ginger.

Ginger is anti-inflammatory, just like ibuprofen. It reduces swelling and even has some painkilling effect. In one study of patients with arthritic knees, concentrated ginger extract was shown to reduce their stiffness and pain by 40% over a placebo.

Adding ginger to your meals, though, may not be enough. The amount of concentrated ginger used in the above study was 255mg, twice a day. That's equivalent to about 9 gallons of raw ginger. To get that much, your best bet is to find capsules of concentrated ginger.

While ginger seems to be good for sore muscles, its benefits don't stop there. Ginger is also known to relieve nausea. So, the next time you feel ill, consider making a tea by pouring 1-2 tsp fresh, grated ginger into a pot of boiling water. It is even being studied as a potential weapon against prostate cancer.

8.Yogurt and Milk

Just like meat, yogurt and milk whey contains leucine. That's the amino acid that helps you build muscle. Dairy products don't have as much leucine as meat, though.

Also, be careful not to consume too much dairy. Guys need less of the stuff than women, for whom dairy helps prevent osteoporosis. In fact, consuming too much calcium may actually be harmful for men. Men who got more than 2,000 mg of calcium per day stood a greater risk of advanced prostate cancer according to one study. That's quite a bit of calcium though—you'll find 305 mg in a cup of milk, and daily amounts of calcium up to 1,200 mg didn't show any additional risks for men. If you love dairy and want to avoid getting too much calcium, vitamin D may offset these risks.

9.Bananas and Potassium

Ever have a Charlie horse? These painful muscle spasms can erupt seemingly out of nowhere. But getting enough potassium into your diet could prevent them. Enter the banana. Bananas are jam-packed with potassium, which is also good for your bones. And if you've been diagnosed with prehypertension or high blood pressure, potassium could be as important as reducing your sodium to get your blood pressure numbers down.

10.Rich Tomato Sauce

Do you like lycopene? If you're a fan of tomato sauce, you're getting plenty of it. Tomatoes are naturally loaded with lycopene, which may help prevent certain types of cancer. Although the research is inconsistent, some studies have found that frequent tomato sauce eaters have a lower risk of prostate cancer. One meta-study examined 26 other studies with more than 500,000 participants. That study found that the more lycopene a participant ate, the lower his risk was of developing prostate cancer.

Beyond cancer, lycopene may have other benefits. It's an antioxidant that has been associated with a smaller risk of heart disease, too. Heart disease is the leading cause of death in the U.S., killing more than half a million Americans each year. It's possible that lycopene helps reduce thickness in the arteries. However, further research is needed on this topic.

11.Tofu and Soybeans

If you want more high-quality protein in your diet, consider foods made from the soybean, including tofu and edamame. It may also help ward off prostate cancer (one study only found this in men who ate tofu). Because of its unsaturated fats, soybeans are also considered a good way to avoid heart disease.

As healthful as soybeans are for men, it's worth taking some time to knock down some of the myths that have been spread about this food staple. Soybeans have phytoestrogens, plant chemicals similar to weak estrogen hormones. While men produce estrogen, women produce more. Some have worried that soybeans could cause male hormone-related reproduction problems as a result. However, studies have shown that men who eat a lot of soy are no less fertile than other men. Studies have also shown that soy seems not to increase any risk of erectile dysfunction.

12.Varieties of Veggies

Vegetables are versatile, tasty, and some of the healthiest things you can eat. But relying on one or two of the same type of vegetable will deprive you of some of these foods' best benefits. That's why nutritionists recommend a mix of vegetables in your diet.

The reason why mixed is best is that vegetables contain phytochemicals. Phytochemicals are thought to promote cellular health and may be useful at lowering your risk of cancer, too. But different colors of vegetables contain different phytochemicals. So eat a wide variety of vegetables of different colors for optimal health.