#I could never choose to love another animatic

[hopestarstudios]

Hope you enjoy my little spin on Welcome Home!!

[seraphimhalo]

Ok that's it---I'm a sucker for them now

[arolesbianism]

Thinking abt the random card au again. Why must it go so crazy hard I miss it sm

[haza1ll]

animation for THE NEON VOIDD BABYYYY

this post is for @sugarpasteltmnt

‼️‼️MEGA YAPPING AHEAD PLEASE BEWARE‼️‼️

this might end up being really long and rambly and sappy but maybe not who knows.( it was) (and also featuring numerous spelling errors i am way too tired to fix and i am not re reading what i just wrote) SO. yknow how when chap idek..25(?) came out and i was all like “yeah so i made this animation for TNV and ill drop it when the fic ends��� in your ask box? so. I FINISHED IT RAHHH. technically it has been finished since i sent that ask but ohhh my goodness did it need polishing. i haven’t animated in 4 years before that and omg it felt so good getting back into it but IDFK SOMETHING IS STILL NOT UP TO MY STANDARDS. i feel like i could have done so much more with it and i deffo wanted to but as soon as i told myself “oh yeah this is basically done” art block literally sucker punched me in the gut out of NOWHERE. I COULD NOT PICK UP MY I PAD. I COULD NOT DRAW. I WOULD STARE AT THE WIP ANIMATION AND BE UPSET BC I DDINT WANNA WORK ON IT AHH. that goes with saying. i kept having this thought in the back of my head “you need to finish it. you have a wip sitting. finish it. go do it. what are you doing are you STARTING ANOTHER PROJECT??? anddd yeah i got super distracted with other stuff and other projects and then i started spending my free time rewatching 2012 turtles and omg this summer has been a mess. i have all the free time in the world and i choose to be the least productive as possible with it even though i have a job that lets me literally sit on my phone and do whatever i want if no one is there. (i’ve brought my switch to work numerous times ☠️) what i was trying to get at is the fact that TNV has inspired a lot of the old me to come back and i lowk missed her. i really missed the point in all those words up there but im here now so whatever. BUT. TNV made me make a tumblr account, i got back in to animation AND digital art in general, got back into longfics that are ongoing, AND it also helped kickstart ideas for writing. i’ve got so many stories now!! you are such an inspirational person pastels i just- every time i read a new chapter of yours it made me wanna go get up and do something. i wanted to create something. because at the end of each chapter, i would think- “woah. a person out there just wrote this. they just sat down one day and committed. i wanna do that” so i did that. just huge thank you and shoutout to you pastel. like damn. idk no words from me here. just a bunch of platonic hugs and kisses and thankyouthankyouthsnkuou for this lovely heart wrenching but also sweet story. i love this fandom (tmnt) so SO much and i think it’s so awesome how interactive you are with your own personal NV fans. crazy how we’re all here because of a bunch of turtles. 

STUFF ABOUT THE ANIMATION:

okay i really like to talk and if you let me, i will run my mouth. this is the internet so im gonna do just that. so more words for you to read 😁. AHEM. so like i stated before in the genuinely scary mess of words up there, i haven’t touched animation in a while, like, 4 years a while. yes i’ve done digital art here and there along the years, i haven’t been doing it nearly as much as i need to to use some programs to their full potential. layers are still confusing, and don’t even get me started on multiply and all that jazz. shading never comes out right on digital for me, i gotta work that one out. so, for this animation, i decided to go with a very rough style. nothing needed to be perfect, i just wanted to live my little life of trying to experiment with a bunch of different things all at once in one short animatic. I wanted to do that little ball bounce thing all animation artists start with (i kinda included that with the key). i also wanted to have a go at lip sync (no hate it was my first time) and also timing the animation with the music. i wanted to see how smoothly i could move a figure in and out of and out of the screen as well, which honestly, i think that part might be my favorite. i think i did a good job, and thats what matters. the animation itself lost a bunch of quality on importing it- no clue how it happened but now the ending is grainy af. ignore that pls lol- but it was sitting in my flipaclip for god, i dont even know, 3 months now? i kept going back and forth on if i wanted to share it or not, so im throwing it to the wolves and i guess whatrver happrns happens and im good with that. yay. im actually rrwlly tired now sooo *leaves this absolute pile of words with a video attached at your feet and stumbles away quickly*

also i’ve genuinely never posted anything so i’m learning how to use tumblr too ☠️

[gimme-tea-bitch]

I wonder if we're going to get a Raven Redemption.

One of the things I keep thinking about with both the V9 Animatic and RWBY Beyond, specifically Jr. Detectives is that Raven is there in both.

Raven who has always tried to survive. Who has always abandoned her family to protect herself. Who did so to Yang because Yang called her out on it and she still couldn't overcome her fear.

So it's interesting to me that she shows up twice in Vacuo. Once seemingly talking with Vacuo's headmaster, Winter, and Qrow. And the other time when Team RWBY returns to remnant. And her response is so fast there!

Did she feel them fall? Was Raven sitting there with her tribe, hating herself for yet again leaving her family to die because she's too scared. Thinking about how she sentenced Yang to die by Salem's hands. And then she does. Did Raven sit there hating herself and feel the moment that Yang died? Was that the final straw that finally broke Raven? How many times did she try and open a portal to someone who was no longer there?

Who did she go to first? Tai? Qrow? How could she face either of them after knowing that she sentenced Yang to die? And how Ruby died with her?

What was she doing when she felt them come back? How fast did she scramble for her sword, hoping against what she knows to be real that this is real. That this isn't some cosmic joke.

I'm really curious to see what was left of Raven Branwen after RWBY fell. It seems like their deaths didn't just spur the world, but finally got her to act. To fight for others.

I hope we get to see what she does in between these moments. The grief and loathing, blaming herself for not being braver, feeling responsible for yet another person she loves dying. For all of Qrow's self blaming of his semblance hurting the people he loves, Raven blaming herself for getting Summer killed, for getting Ruby killed, for getting Yang killed.

I really do hope we get to see her finally choose to be better. And I hope we get to see her face Yang again, still so afraid, but finally, FINALLY, choosing others over herself. And maybe it's too late, maybe it's not enough, but facing probably the one person who's forgiveness she could never expect to earn.

[lazycrow12]

Alright, before I start I would like to preface this. I have not read the Odyssey. I don't plan to read the Odyssey. This post will be based on someone who has no connection to the Odyssey. I will say that I have heard somethings about it from people posting about it so I know about what Book!Calypso did to book!Oddeysus and I'm not talking about them. I'm talking about the epic version so please keep that in mind when reading please and thank you. Now, onto the post

My Thoughts On Calypso And How She's Being Treated By The Fandom

TW: Mentions of 🍇, I'll warn you when it appears

Firstly, I love Calypso. I love her story and how tragic it is and how she handles it and how it has affected her. Her voice actor Barbara Wangui has an absolutely lovely voice. I love how light and airy it is while still conveying emotions and I love the way she makes Calypso sound in the songs. I also love Calypso herself, GiGi's design is very pretty and the animatics they did show her emotions very well. Love the frame in Love In Paradise where Calypso ask about Penelope and Odysseus saying she's his wife and Calypso just surprise Pikachu face before crying and moving on. Love it, hilarious. However her character is really compelling. She's someone that never had anyone and was left to her punishment of solitude and when she finally has another person around she has to watch as he chooses to leave and she's left all alone again. She spends the time trying to show Oddeysus the place and how it has all they could want or need and show him that he can stay here forever with her. We as the audience know that Oddeysus is a wife guy and wants to get home to her and his son but Calypso doesn't know that and probably doesn't fully get that someone would want to leave this perfect paradise and return to their original home. She spends the next 7 years trying to get him to stay and convince him this place is good, that she's good to stay with but we see how that affects him to the point he's willing to end himself if he can't go home. Then when he's given the opportunity he doesn't hesitate to leave to go home and leave Calypso on this island. I'm sure everyone can already see things from Oddeysus point of view but I'd like to frame it all in Calypso's to see where she's coming from and why she acts this way.

From Calypso's POV she's been stuck in this island alone for 100 years, no friends, no family, no visitors. No one can come or go, this island stays unknown. That includes her, she can't leave the island, if she wanted to I feel she would've at this point but she's been casted away so this is more than likely a punishment for her. She spends her life in this place, talking to herself and the critters on the island, accepting a long time ago that this will be her life forever when all of a sudden she sees it. A person. A real person for the first time in a century. Sure he's beaten, bruised, scared and barely breathing but he's alive and he's here. In Calypso's eyes this must be an answer to her prayers. Sure he's not receptive to her affection but that's fine, he's been through a lot so it's gonna take time to feel comfortable again. Sure he sits on the beach upset but that's fine, she more than likely did the same in her early days here. Sure he wants to go home but this is his home now, he can't leave the island (she's tried) but he'll learn to love it just like she had learn to. Sure he tried to jump off a cliff but who hasn't? She's sure she can help, she's sure her love will be enough for him. The years go by and nothing seems to work but she's not one to just give up like that. She'll get him to see that he loves it here, the island is perfect and with the 2 of them they won't be lonely. Then a god comes and takes him away. She goes to say goodbye to him and ends up letting out all her emotions and feelings out, of not understanding why nothing worked, of why the moments she believed they had weren't enough, of why he can't just love her like she loves him. And he's gone. And she's alone again. Heartbroken and alone.

Calypso has been on this island all her life, alone and isolated. Told from a young age just how much she wasn't wanted and left to spend the rest of eternity on her own. No one to talk to, help her, guide her, teach her anything she should know, the only people who can come and go are the gods and it seems they don't care to visit her. The one person that managed to get here, her paradise, doesn't choose to stay. Her trying her best unintentionally caused her to over step his boundaries and not listen when he spoke and hurt him. She didn't mean to hurt him but she did and because she never had anyone to teach or guid her she doesn't understand that and understand that thoes can drive a person away. It's sad and painful and I love her and I want her to get free and learn to respect boundaries and hear when people talk because she truly does not deserve the hell she's been put in. So it makes me all the more upset that the fandom has decided she's just an evil character and deserves what she's got happening to her

This next part is gonna be ranty but it is a rant so oh well

And TW: I'm gonna talk about the 🍇 ist stuff people are pushing onto her because I'm aware that the book version is different from the Epic version but some of y'all seem to think it's the same thing in Epic and I have issues for that and I will be using the actual word so I'm sorry in advance for anyone that upset.

The way the fandom treats Calypso is honestly disgusting. I've seen people talk about her book counter part and then attribute that one's actions to the Epic version. I've seen people take the singe line of "Soon Into Bed We'll Climb And Spend Our Time" as a way to say it implies that she rapes Oddeysus when it's never expanded upon or brought up again in the songs. I've seen people call her a pick me, selfish, manipulative, self centered, a bitch all for the crime of wanting to love Oddeysus and for him to love her back and not possessing the proper social skills and words to do get that she can't have that. I've seen people straight up say she's just a rapist because of her book counter part. I've seen so many post that are just about Calypso and so many comments talking shit about her, saying they could never make them like her, blaming her for her situation. So many people are so okay with just saying she's bad and no one wants to look at things from her POV. About what living the life she had does to a person, how it affects them, how it stunts their growth as a person, how it causes them to lack certain social skills you and I have, how once you finally meet people again you get clingy because holy shit people are here! You can say that you'd act differently but I guarantee you that if you spent your entire life from young age and into the 100s never interacting with individuals and isolated on an island just for some ramdo wash up on the shores of the beach still alive you'd fucking cling to to him to and do your best to get him to stay because that loneliness will absolutely be devastating again. Remind you, Calypso can't leave. She said it herself "No one can come or go, my island stays unknown", if no one can leave once there that means she's stuck there too. She can get Oddeysus off the island but that would leave her alone again. Alone after finally having someone not herself and not an animal. Who knows when the next washed up sailor will be if at all and the gods clearly don't care enough to go see her. If they care at all. Even in I'm Not Sorry For Loving You she expresses how upset she is. Angry, tired, restless and sad because she doesn't get what she did wrong and we can see things from her perspective but it's like the actions of her book self she can't escape them. And I know, I know that book Calypso is a rapist she literally has this man's kids but y'all are using the one line from Love In Paradise to claim she did the same here. But that one line is never expanded upon or brought up again. Jorge already warned us that there will be implications of rape in a song and we know which one, Hold Em Down, the one with Antinous. In the demon there are specific lyrics there that are "Hold her down while the gate is open. Hold her down while I get a taste. Hold her down while we share her spoils I will not let anything go to waste"

These are actually lyrics for the demon that we are warned about being implications of sexual assault. We were warned and these were intentional. It doesn't stop at the one line, it keeps going and it's brought up. One line out of a song that has a time skip does not equal rape and I would like it if those who have read the book and know of book!Calypso's behavior stop pushing it into Epic!Calypso. I would also like it if everyone stopped viewing her behavior on a surface level of what it appears when there's a mountain of reasons for it. I'm not saying Oddeysus has to know or care, the man's been through a lot and just wants to go home, but the US as the audience can benefit from looking past it all and seeing the reason why. Not just immediately jumping to a manipulative, gaslighty, selfish, entitled bitch just because her actions aren't favorable. I feel like people are either projecting or just don't look past Oddeysus POV to really care to see things from Calypso's

I also feel like there's another reason as reason people don't care to look at things from Calypso's POV and, y'all gonna be mad but I don't care, it's racism and misogyny. I know the knee jerk reaction is "I'm not racist/misogynist", "no one is being racist/misogynist", "you're reading to much into stuff ans seeing things where it isn't", hush please. You can still be either or both and not be aware of it and as a black female presenting person this is unfortunately something I notice. It's not surprising when people jump down the throat of female characters for one reason or another because they did something people don't like. Whether it be them being in the way of a gay ship, them being overly friendly and bubbly and people calling her fake bitch, blaming her for the actions of the male character, getting mad because she's a complex female character that doesn't fit perfectly into one box, I've seen it all before. Y'all did it with Demencia from Villainous until there was a female character to ship her with, y'all did it with Grace I from Infinity Train when Simon went off the deep end and got his ass killed, y'all did it with Mimzy when ahe showed up and stopped Hell's Greatest Dad from just being 2 old guys arguing, y'all are doing it with Calypso because she's not perfectly good and is flawed and is an optical to Oddeysus despite not being a bad person. Every time a female character is shown to be anything that isn't bland and unintrusive y'all hate on her. And when she is bland and unintrusive y'all still hate on her because now she isn't interesting. God forbid it's a black woman or black girl character y'all will loose your minds. My best example for black girl character is April O'Neil. Literally any depiction that doesn't show her as white but especially in the Mutant Mayhem version. There was no shortage of people calling her ugly because she was black and fat and saying she wasn't the true April O'Neil when the original April O'Neil was a biracial woman but because this one is black when there's been depictions of her that have made her white suddenly she's ugly and awful and all these racist slurs. With Black female voice actor it's worse. When MLP was getting it's new reboot after Gen 5 and rumors started going around that Apple Jack could be voiced by a black lady there was no shortage of people claiming that she was ruining a character and that she'd make Apple Jack sound ghetto as if she'd be doing a stereotypical black voice and, ya know, not voice acting which was literally her job. Y'all did the same when that anime with the tanned girl(idk the name I don't watch anime) came out in dubbed and was shown that voice actor for the main character was a black lady and the same shit that happened with Apple Jack happened here. Y'all aren't doing the same song and dance here but it sure is telling that Calypso, who is voiced by a black women, is getting shit and having her book counter part's actions shoved to her while everyone else gets a pass. Especially the other, fair skinned, voice actresses. Y'all may not know it or want to admit it but the way y'all treat Calypso is high key racist and misogynist.

Look, if you don't like Calypso, that's fine, I don't care. Hate all the characters you want, no one is gonna like em all. But for fuck sake I would just like to go down the Calypso tags and not see just a wall of hate for her to the point it's like mining for diamonds to find even one positive post about her. I hope I get to see more positive post and more people showing her love instead of all this hate. If we wanna hate someone, hate Zeus him and Poseidon caused all the problems here. Thank you and have a good whatever time of day it is for you.

[starry-bi-sky]

if i had the tools or the knowledge to make a Cult of the Lamb animatic, I would make one to "We Become We" from Journey to Bethlehem, but instead of being Narilamb it would be through the ages with Lamb and their follower spouses. The followers would be Joseph's voice, and the Lamb would be Mary's.

The song would go through at least four spouses, and each new spouse the wedding ceremony steadily grows grander as it signifies the passing of time, the expansion of the cult and the lamb's influence, as well as how many bishops have been defeated until by the fourth spouse, Narinder is already apart of the cult. As well as Lamb steadily growing more demure and reserved with each new spouse, until eventually the love is completely one-sided.

The first spouse would be before Leshy was even defeated, where the lamb is still getting the cult started and still trying to defeat the mini bosses. The ceremony is humble and they're both essentially wearing slightly nicer versions of their clothes. The only lights they have are the stars, the fireflies, and a fire. We would stay with this couple until the lines; "hopefully not ending in estrangement"

By the next line; "it's a step of faith" it would change to the next spouse. There's a bigger audience, the cult is bigger, their clothes nicer. The lamb has defeated two bishops by now, they look a little less in love. More demure. The ages has weighed down on them like water erodes a canyon.

We move to the next couple at "can mine become yours?" the lamb is actively trying to defeat Shamura now. The cult is near it's completion. The wedding ceremony grounds are ceramic and decorated, with lights stringing from pole to pole. The Lamb looks radiant and nearly outshine their spouse. The spouse looks less in love and more in complete overwhelming devotion, they don't even notice that the Lamb is not as engaged as them -- oh they look pleased, content. But not in love, but it's not like anyone by then knows what it looks like when the Lamb is in love.

We meet the last spouse by the very end when the dance and song ends. "I could never choose to love another." / "Maybe one day I could learn to love you, too". The Lamb is disengaged, just going through the motions. Demure and modest, the picture perfect radiance of a god among mortals. Their crown is a veil. They're looking into their spouse's eyes, but not really seeing.

Anyways that's what I would do if i had the tools to make an animatic.

[isa-ghost]

Oouuu h h .. u wanna talk about your hcs for early years Phil… ooh …(expanding from The Beginning if you want ! What you think the continuation could be, anything before, etc :) )

Oh god oh fuck I have so many thoughts and not enough braincells to put them into words, uhhh

Phil headcanons masterlist

His start, as we know it, is just a humble tinkerer and explorer with big dreams and even bigger ambitions.

I mean we been knew but HE IS A FUCKING GENIUS AND JUST DOWNPLAYS HIMSELF TO HELL AND BACK. He is SO SMART, sketching and studying and calculating things. He's SO PERCEPTIVE and GREAT at adapting, much like the birds he admires so deeply!! He NEEDS his brain busy. He can CRAFT, and a lot goes into that!!

Actually, his downplaying, lack of self-confidence, and inability to see his true skills and worth might come from all his failures trying to fly. He fucked up so many times, nearly killing himself a few and falling harder and harder each new time he failed. Every one of those failures just reinforced the thinking. And he had no one there to beat the doubt out of him and keep him going. Loneliness is a good way to get too deep into your own head.

His skills were and perhaps still are mostly (subjectively) smaller scale things such as the wings. It's once he found the builds of the deities that things kicked up a few notches. The structures were already built to the scale he thinks he can't pull off himself, all he had to do was restore, repair, and improve them. This is what eventually got him on Rose's radar. Even so, even doing little things on those monumental builds helped boost the size of which he can create things. His love slowly changed from tinkering to architecture.

A part of him fears (or perhaps knows deep down) that he is doomed to always eventually lose his wings.

But luckily, Kristin made them very resilient when she gave them to him. Based off what we know from observation, (and biology of birds maybe?) they heal and repair themselves over time.

And when they're severely damaged, he has Rose. After all, she chooses to be a sort of guardian for him similarly to Kristin. When he needs it, she can restore them each time he returns to Hardcore, the same way he restored her creations. It's how she shows her gratitude. All he needs to do is be in the right world. She can't do it across realms.

If there's anything to remember from the animatic, it's that Phil never quits. It takes A LOT to make him do so, and even then there's a chance that some period of time from the moment he decides to throw in the towel, he'll get back to it with fresh eyes and renewed determination. He's stubborn in more ways than one.

To this day, he wonders why crows seemed so heavily present around him in the first place. Of course he loves them, they fascinate him with their looks and symbolism and intelligence and adaptability. But... why did they one day just become so present? He's ""too fuckin dumb"" to think of why, so he doesn't bother. He just enjoys them.

Which brings me to another point. Oh my god is this man allergic to willingly sitting down and confronting huge potentially life-changing shit, especially stressful and negative big shit. Look what he did with the possession. He pretends he does not see it until it's too late, which backfires often.

His interest, if you can call it that, in [not super high stakes] combat developed once he met Techno. As he honed those skills, he applied his agility and the knowledge he had of movement from all his flying to it. He is a Very flexible, graceful fighter.

In general, he's very attuned to his body, both because of what he's had to learn in order to fly, as well as being careful in Hardcore. His self-control is fantastic.

In one of the first few headcanon sets I made, I said Phil fears lacking control of himself. That not only goes for autonomy, but physical control of himself too. It originates from all his falling and being grounded against his will. It's another reason that Ender King not only possessing him, but taking away his wings in the end is such a brutal blow to him.

Kind of a given, but between being an explorer, and once he picked up that interest in crows and desperation to fly and stay airborne, he spent way more time outside than in. We crows see it present day, he really only goes in to sleep and to store things.

Kristin gave him boons, so to speak, such as his wings, when they initially met. She's also the reason he can understand the crows and actually speak to them. He built Brian because Brian makes it even easier for us to communicate with him, but generally speaking, he can still understand us even without Brian's aid.

[barrenclan]

ok so for the next music post, two things:

1. i was thinking of “moon song” by phoebe bridgers for unrelated reasons & the very last lyric of the song jumped out at me for rainhaze. the rest of the song isn’t very fitting for him but the last two lines are so fucking perfect:

when you saw the dead little bird, you started crying

but you know the killer doesn’t understand

2. so this next song is actually by a friend of mine! she’s a local musician & the other night i got to see her perform at my favorite bar for the last time before she moves to another state. this is my favorite song off of her debut album that came out last year (which she did perform at the show; i had chills the whole time), & i started thinking about it after the latest issue (& after going back & rereading the whole story just for funsies) & lowkey wanting to make an animatic about defiance with it:

https://youtu.be/I882BJu2bTo?si=W94BMnB6SjMM2sSK

Honestly, I could kind of see the rest of the lyrics of "Moon Song" for Rainhaze too, of him talking about his one-sided relationship to Ranger. Though I still don't really see his feeling as romantic rather than just trusting.

And, it's so sweet to recommend a song your friend made! I really like it. If you ever made an animatic, I'd be thrilled to see it.

Oh, yeah, I like the line "heartbreak was never so loud" for representing the weight of Slugpelt's revelation.

Everything, waiting, shaking as it drops I tried for you and I, for too hard, for too long Gave it all and everything for more time, but I lost

… Ooh, I'm breaking down Whispers would deafen me now You don't make a sound Heartbreak was never so loud

Defiance is always great for screamy, angry song about bones and blood and stuff.

I think it could fit for Rainhaze's early days and induction in Defiance, coping with this new environment.

Look at this poor boy All dressed up in white Now how can he smile With a face of all eyes?

These creatures are vampires They're killing by the night They're falling from the dead trees To silhouette your life

It doesn't seem like anyone has! I like the lines about him traveling past reason, because he did move past any real ideology into just fear and desperation.

I will travel far beyond the path of reason Take me back to Eden, take me back to Eden

I guess it goes to show, does it not? That we've no idea what we've got until we lose it And no amount of love will keep it around If we don't choose it And I don't know what's got its teeth in me But I'm about to bite back in anger No amount of self-sought fury Will bring back the glory of innocence <- shit yeah dude that's him

I like all songs that talk about the Devil as a smooth-talking, friendly charismatic guy because they all remind me of Deepdark.

Turn on the television Don't gotta think for nothing I pay the cable bill monthly, so they can do it for me

They say the Devil looks like you I hear the Devil's an American They say, they say he's a real smooth talker Real put together

I LOVE this song! Super good with him.

You're no good, you're no good You could kill me and you should I'm an idiot for thinking This was anything but blood

On the wall, on the couch On the corner of my mouth You must like being the victim You've done nothing to get out Of this pattern of pain Washed away by the rain You'll forgive me if I promise And do nothing but the same <- like this is just the first verse

Oh I think I have been suggested this one before! I still like it.

Gritty underground rock bands are great for this comic.

No rest for the sinner Hypnos refused me my sleep This was the last night of my life With wine, I pondered on my deeds

Ring brother, ring for me Ring the bells of hope and faith Ring for my damnation I am at the gallow's end

[arthuluart]

Hiii - wanted to say first thing first I love your art style, it's so dynamic and fun and those color palettes? Stunning ^^

And second thing second, just some food for thought if you ever want to get angsty about Jerry and Dean, coffee by Chappell Roan sounds like it was written about their break up specifically and I can't stop thinking abt it dndnden

*Cue me losing my mind*

Hiii- they say flattery gets you everywhere and turns out with me, it gets you animatics- jkjk but I do appreciate the kind comments ^^

I’ll put up the animatic separately and take the opportunity to leave the preamble here to keep the video post neat bc until someone tells me to shut up and just post art- I’m gonna ramble… So here’s the commentary you didn’t ask for along with my favourite panels:

First off- You turned me into a big time Chappell Roan listener which is great bc I need music recs to fix my listening habits before Spotify wrapped drops. My roundup last year was shameful… Red Wine Supernova is my new dish washing song.

Even tho it’s not the song’s vibe I kept the content as silly as I could for my own sanity. I don’t love getting too deep into the serious/sad side of M+L for a few reasons but I do find it all very interesting. Point being this song was too good to pass up doing something a bit bigger for.

Ngl tho- this did have me pulling out hair at multiple points. I never colour animatics, rarely even tone them- but you mentioned colour palettes and I was determined to deliver so pardon the messy colouring but (that was the tradeoff) I did not have it in me to stay in the lines. I’m choosing to be kind to myself and opt to call it an artistic choice and not midway burnout. And nothing was gonna get me to open after effects/premiere not even the janky ass golf ball OML this only makes sense if u watch the video.

There are parts of this I’m SO happy with and others I hate. I think it’s really obvious which sections I started losing steam on but overall I lowkey like the end product. Nothing I make will ever be good/perfect- this was one hell of a practice in accepting that lmao- but I can still be ok with the work problems and all yknow? I very nearly shelved this completely bc I got so worked up about the maybe 5 panels I dislike out of 106 total. Counting them was eye opening to ask myself: you’re gonna let that small a ratio stop you from sharing this after putting in days and days of effort? The insecurity goes deep and TBH getting asks has been a nice way of working through it since I post the art I make for answers no matter what only bc I KNOW someone out there wants to see it. It might not sound it but it’s actually quite positive.

Also, although I feel I’ve done my fair share of reading, I’m no expert. So if anything is really off point- sorry my bad (I won’t fix it tho bc I cannot physically stand to look at this another second lol)

I tried to stick to real things found in articles/books/photos/interviews etc bc outside of obviously fictional AUs I’m not super into making stuff up about them (and who needs to I mean the legit stuff is already insane enough) Sure I framed the events in specific ways to suit the song and some aspects are fictionalized (mainly bc the referenced written accounts lacked detail to draw 100% faithfully from anyhow) but otherwise I got my sources cited.

ANYWAYS… sorry for hijacking this answer I need to learn to chill out. Irl I’m a pretty reserved talker so you can tell I’m in a comfy place when I let loose and blather on endlessly lmao brevity is not a skill I possess.

You were probably expecting illustrations or smth but I hope what I came up with is still somewhat alright AND please don’t let my complaining fool you, I genuinely loved making this.

One FINAL Relevant Note: the line “nowhere else is safe every place leads back to your place” is gut wrenching. You’re so right about this song perfectly describing the break up. They always came back to each other and there’s something so devastating about that kind of haunting human connection.

OkAY I’m done promise- I thought I’d implode if I didn’t get all that out

[s3thwrit3sstuff]

Y’know, if y/n was actually a jjk character I could totally see people making animatics or edits of him to first burn and burn, or even that one traitor x burn remix

Also! Have you seen that new trend on TikTok where it goes” I could never choose to love another /Maybe one day I could learn to love you… too”. I’m gnawing at my enclosure

-music anon 🎶🎶

Ooh, your brain waves are syncing up with mine 👀

I always fantasize about that! Like, if YN was an actual JJK character, what sorta edits would people make and what songs would they use~

First Burn and Burn is diabolical but so fitting...the Traitor X Burn mashup would actually kill me if people edited that 😭 musical!Eliza Schlyur (dawg, I forgot how to spell her maiden name-)...you deserved so much better...

And yes!!!

The wedding fics title is actually from that song/trend~ 👀

[artinandwritin]

They silly

[tr4l3]

I really like your toxic knuxouge.l!

This is my favourite ship, so it hurts, when I see how they unintentionally (or intentionally) hurt each other, but it's nice to see the diffrent point of view in their relationship.

For example this short:

https://www.tumblr.com/tr4l3/748557054792351744/divorce-xd?source=share

We know that Rouge only married Knuckles, because of Master Emerald and nothing more.

(Maybe?) But she still hopes for better future "Maybe one day I could learn to love you too" or at least to tolerate each other.

[Of course it didn't work]

But I also like the Knuckles part.

The Knuckles wants to rebuild the echidna clan. So he needs to get married and have children. (Echidnas especially) And besides guarding the master emerald that's his piority, since he's so committed to this.

"I could never choose to love another"

Because literally Knuckles didn't have much of a choice/options. Since he couldn't leave the island to meet anyone and only Rouge was interested to be with him. (For obvious reasons)

Beside that I hope they divorce and find true happiness in the end.. somewhere? Somehow?

And that their children won't suffer so much.. Or at least go to therapy...

I'm so glad there's people who like my version of Knuxouge🙏🏽, I love how you understood well how they are in my AU💕

I'll soon make other animatic about them, I still need to fix some things about them in my Future AU.

I haven't done much yet because of college and other personal things, sorry!

[shizunitis]

@miaoqing hath taggeth me and thus. i answer

why did you choose your url?

so people would mistake me for @shizunstits

any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them.

@mark--er for anything unrelated to shizun/fandom, and a secret third one for. well. that’s my business.

how long have you been on tumblr?

since 2012, approximately? 2011, maybe?

do you have a queue tag?

i can’t figure out how to make it automatic…

why did you start your blog in the first place?

good question!

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

self-portrait

why did you choose your header?

shizun deserves support, love, respect, and to be handled with gentleness and care. he has old man hips.

what's your post with the most notes?

i’m not sure how i could check that, but it’s either one of my au’s from when i was young and excited, or the loyal ghost story? i’m sorry, i really don’t know 😞

how many mutuals do you have?

enough to make me sit and think about how much i love the world every now and then. every one of them, i respect and cherish dearly

how many followers do you have?

enough to intimidate me 😞 i’m used to yapping to myself, so this is. uh. overwhelming? but the warm and good kind. it’s fitting that it happened because of shizun… he truly is a treasure…

how many people do you follow?

226

have you ever made a shitpost?

what i do is speak my mind, not shitpost. i bless and curse people with my joy and sorrow. my funny shizun thoughts. write that down. but yeah, i suppose most of my posts are either shitposts or sad/melancholy/yearning shizun musings

how often do you use tumblr each day?

once. like my thinking of shizun, it never ends, so.

did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

no. but i got very close, once. i respect what danmei-confessions is trying to do but. GOD. god leave my boy and my shizun alone. please

how do you feel about 'you need to reblog this' posts?

useless, condescending, annoying, does nothing, reeks of self-righteousness. shame does not work the way some people think it does

do you like tag games?

sometimes. i love seeing others’, i’m very lazy.

do you like ask games?

i do! a lot!

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

odd question, mefears

do you have a crush on a mutual?

yes. i giggle every time they interact with my posts. it’s very embarrassing

what is the last song you listened to?

stars by tai verdes, it’s almost depressions season

what are you currently watching?

jerma vods, if that counts? i’ve been meaning to re-watch, you guessed it, the svsss donghua

sweet/savoury/spicy?

any and all flavours are good <3 depends on my mood.

what is your current relationship status?

courting two characters that are married to each other and one of them has two alternate universe counterparts that i’m also attempting to woo. it’s complicated.

what is your current obsession?

…guess? you’ll never get it, i promise.

what are nine albums/songs you've been listening to lately?

steve lacy’s dark red, hozier’s unreal unearth, some of taylor swift’s songs, syml’s the bird and the boy, radiohead’s amnesiac, epic: the musical, conan gray’s lonely dancers (but the album as well) and unlike pluto’s we’re screwed (PEAK. BINGQIU. also the orv animatic with this song? OUGH)

tagging anyone who would like to join in <3 (i’m insecure but mostly i want everyone to have fun so i can watch like a benevolent guardian)

[agiftfrombelow]

Journey from Bethlehem’s “I could never choose to love another” keeps popping up on timeline on Tiktok, so guess whi’s making an animatic for her Lamb—

Will it be my Lamb with a follower?? Narinder?? We shall see.

[thevoidisscreamingbackatyou]

cause i think you're so good(and i'm nothing like you)

another angsty movie fic for y'all, coming right up o7

inspired by this animatic

tws: self-hatred, sewerslidal tendencies, death, the apocalypse, movie-typical violence

if y'all want me to add an alt text lmk <3 sorry i used a lot of italics and strikethroughs here

If I could even begin to be, half of what you think of me

Leo stared in disbelief, words spilling out of his mouth as his thoughts stopped, "Wha-How-Why-" He snapped his mouth shut, the words why me going unsaid. His brothers shared his shock at him, of all people, being made the leader, which cemented his belief that this was wrong. This was completely wrong, Raph was the leader, why would anybody ever think that Leo could be the leader?

Stupid, idiot, impulsive Leo? Leader? Preposterous(not that anybody would think he knew that word).

I could do about anything~I could ever learn how to love

Leo tried at first, he really did, but he just couldn't. He saw the looks his brothers gave him, he could tell they didn't know how to feel about it. He could tell Donnie didn't trust him, that Mikey was scared he'd hurt himself, that Raph felt out-of-place and he was terrified. For once, he was actually in the spotlight, and he hated it.

He hated being vulnerable.

Because that's what happened when you were seen, right?

When I see the way you act, wondering when I'm coming back

Leo balanced on top of the wire with the pizza boxes on his head, laughing with Mikey as he tried to spite his twin. He pretended he wasn't trying to distract himself from how he always felt like he was on a tripwire, how if he took one more wrong step-

But apparently that was that wrong step, and Raph started yelling at him. Again. He huddled against the warmth of his mind as that stupid, stubborn, ego-filled persona of his surged forward to keep up the mask, to keep pretending like everything's under control. He had heard that first line of Raph's, of surprise, and he almost came out again- but it was a ruse, and suddenly everything came crashing down again, and it was too much. It was all too much.

He pretended not to see the hurt look on Donnie's face when he told him lied to him, pursued his own agenda of getting free, that he had never read the book of bad guy codes his twin had made, instead choosing to flip over and subsequently do the dumbest thing he'd ever done in his entire life.

He lost the key.

I could do about anything~I could ever learn how to love like you

He always thought he knew how people ticked, but how oh so wrong he was. He was such an idiot, to not heed Casey's warnings, to not to listen to his dad, to not listen to Raph. And now his big brother was gone lost.

He never did figure out how Raph had so much love. He never knew how anybody could love him, the idiot, the screwup-

And now Raph was paying the price for his mistakes. They were all paying the price.

He needed to learn how to love them more than he loved himself. He didn't realize he already did.

I always thought I might be bad, now I'm sure that it's true

The apocalypse was his fault. In another universe, his brothers died because of his stupid mistake. In his universe, millions died because of his mistake.

Their deaths were on his shoulders, and Atlas finally passed him the weight of the world.

Is this what Raph felt? This absolute, crushing responsibility? he wondered, not for the first time.

He could finally express it though. He could finally tell Raph he understood, not that he deserved the relief.

Cause I think you're so good, and I'm nothing like you

He opened his arms to welcome death as he smiled brokenly at his brother, ready to be paid in kind with the pain he'd accidentally, he'd never meant to do anything wrong dished out.

He always knew he wasn't as good as his brothers, and he couldn't- he couldn't believe it when Raph came back, he couldn't believe Raph had come back for him, of all people. He ignored the selfish disappointment he felt, to have escaped death once again.

Look at you go, I just adore you

As he watched Casey do so well, he had a sudden realization, a flash of absolute certainty that he had adored this kid, that he'd give up the world for him eventually. He found that adoration and he twisted it, used it to come up with a plan, used it to fuel the fire in his chest.

He had to honor that adoration, that love that he'd never allowed himself to feel so truly and so strongly, scared of getting too attached to those he had to heal.

He honored it through his own selfish desires and actions, sacrificing himself to keep the Kraang away.

I wish that I knew

He floated through space, finally content.

What

He sighed, even as a small voice in his head screamed at him that he was just a kid, he didn't deserve to die, he had his whole life ahead of him don't die don't die DON'T DIE-

Makes

He clenched his mouth shut as the Kraang screamed profanities at him, clenched his mouth shut as he silently sobbed.

You

He used all of his strength to keep the photo with him, to keep all that was left of his family with him in his final moments.

Think

He stared uncomprehendingly at the orange portal that appeared in front of his eyes, his arm stretching forward without his permission, begging him to be with his brothers, his family, his heart once more.

I'm

He sobbed silently in relief as Donnie and Raph and Mikey saved him from the confines of what could only be described as "hell". He didn't deserve to be saved, but he was still so, so relieved.

So

He clutched his brothers close to him, closer than the photo could ever bring him, as a ghost of a smile drifted across his face. He complained, trying to get them to laugh again, to smile again, and he was rewarded with teary laughs and more hugs.

Special.

He was home.