#I constantly forget stuff
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
All day long I have been oscillating wildly between two feelings: one, feeling like I'm actually pretty okay without a boyfriend/partner for now and even the rest of my life, I'm pretty chill living alone, I'm independent, I'm enjoying myself, not super depressed...and two, feeling desperately alone, that I wish someone could wake up next to me and dote on me, remind me to do the things I need to do and just be there for me in case I needed them to be, without being asked and is it that crazy to want that?
I can do both of those independently. I have in fact experienced them independently. But can my brain just PICK ONE?
#I will say part of this comes from the fact that living alone when you have adhd fucking sucks#I have to depend on myself to remember to do things#and without the structure of a job it is FUCKING AGONIZING#I constantly forget stuff#just zone out#then feel terrible for zoning out#I haven't been writing as much lately because I just feel like no one is interested#I do things for myself and for my own enjoyment#until I can't#and it sucks because I DO like being independent!#I'm not even sure I want to get married#but being alone is so crippling when all you have is your own highly dysfunctional brain#someone send help
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
Will I integrate TotK into Linked Universe?
In truth, I just don’t know. It's gonna have to reach some high expectations to get me to overhaul stuff. It all depends on what transpires in this new adventure of Wild's. Who knows, I may just say “Forget it! TotK is better for Wild in LU!” it wouldn’t be the first time I changed my mind.
Is wolf link still available to assist? The answer will tell me a lot about Twilight.
How much does Wild's past as a Knight influence his post-calamity lifestyle? On behalf of the Hero of Warriors I would really like to know for…reasons…
What is Fi's fate? She looks in rough shape.
And I really would like to know where Wild stands with Zelda. Even Just simple scenes can say a lot.
If the theory that he is his own self-fulfilling prophecy, and he ends up as the hero from 10,000 years before his own birth, that would be great for LU. If not, that’s OK. But boy would that work in my favor.
Farewell all! I'll be in Hyrule for some time, hopefully you will too.
#linkeduniverse#creator content#tears of the kingdom#I constantly have to research and reference Zelda stuff and...#Boy has it been rough avoiding spoiler#going off the grid once i hit post!#hi tumblr i didnt forget you this time!
5K notes
·
View notes
Text
So does he, Gallagher.
#honkai star rail#hsr blade#gallagher#i based this off of how many times i used funny soda man to help be a healer with his poppin soda pop in SU#and then blade constantly just being blade as usual#its normally him saying unnecessary to my actual healer but#i kept forgetting gallagher heals and i kept healing when i didnt even need to so TECHNICALLY yeah it was unnecessary#but the amount of times blade was the recipient......#i cant use like most of my newer units in story bc i cant ascend or i run out of leveling mats so i just#get them and toss them into simulated universe for funsies cause i can match their levels better#so thats where i tossed gallagher and he is genuinely fun to play as ? like i love his punches and kicks to start the battle#funny soda man is funny (to me) and im really behind in plot still#but last time i tried to play it on my laptop and got a kickass cutscene my laptop lagged and i couldnt even see it RIP to me#so now that its like ... me trying to play it on desktop ?#i mostly get on desktop for comms and if i do much else i feel like im slacking off even if i would take a break anyway#one day i can play more story plot stuff and actually meet the funny guys#also in case you know me for Not Having Boys in HSR i need to point out#i did pull Gallagher however same 10 pull got a 4 star girl copy for someone i never use and she is at e4 now cool#and i didnt even think of the irony as i started this i just like drawing blade and i wanted to draw gallagher#so when i already had the dialogue planned and am drawing i was like OH WAIT haha im funnier than i thought#(no i am not but we can pretend)
777 notes
·
View notes
Text
I think the only way to get him to behave is to manhandle him... literally.
#jjk gojo#g/t#i constantly forget that i have a tumblr#mostly bc i rarely make stuff that i can post here fdsfdsf#gojo x reader#gojo satoru
222 notes
·
View notes
Photo
some hahas deep buried in my files
#i constantly forget about the part of drawing in which u have to like. post it or smthing#cuphead#the cuphead show#king dice#devil cuphead#ludwig cuphead#chef saltbaker#my stuff
3K notes
·
View notes
Text
Some Bettys!!! I kept on not finishing! But finally did finish today! After remembering they existed and being unable to work on anything else instead of them lol
(Also! In case it’s hard to read, the 3rd pic says: “It’d be fun if she physically couldn’t sleep after becoming magic woman” cuz I’m… evil ghg- I’m that bastard who likes drawing my fav characters suffering…! this isn’t new! This is a known fact about me! Also it /would/ be fun ghgh-)
#adventure time#fionna and cake#betty grof#first drew these around the same time I drew those simons in my style#and then just… kept forgetting to finish it ghgh#but it’s done now!!!! because… they just needed digital coloring and stuff#and I can’t draw in my sketchbook rn cuz I’m visiting family.. and there’s a 4 year old and 7 year old all up in my business cONSTANTLY#I can get a lil bit of drawing done when there at school but. it’s still difficult lol#so. circumstances of life has forced me to finally finish these Betty’s lol#hopefully.. there will be more art. soon.. hopefully. ghgh#hopefully at least more then there were last month lol. aka none ghgh#anyway yeah!!! enjoy the Betty’s!!!!
361 notes
·
View notes
Text
Really fucked up that two ppl can care about each other and make their best efforts to communicate and still end up hurting each other so badly they cannot stand to be in the same room.
#my stuff#i feel soooo bad talking to my therapist about the same topics over multiple weeks#like i feel like they're sooo sick of it like damn can this bitch get Over It alreadyyyy#hi yes actually can we talk about the near catastrophic sense of betrayal and loss that has haunted my soul for over a month?#can we talk about how I overcompensate for other's possible feelings and emotions to desperately mask my terror at feeling out of control#can we talk about how even when I know ppl acted with logical reasons necessary for their situation it still hurt me?#and that this pain fills me up with so much anger and frustration that I'm powerless to put anywhere that won't hurt someone#so it just cooks me inside and makes me grind my teeth constantly for weeks#im so angry i did not deserve to be treated like this it's not fair and I have no capacity to fix it or control when it feels better#i just have to survive and wait until i forget about it and hope they don't decide to reach out and fuck it all up#cause i can see that happening#i'll finally be free of thinking about them and generally going about my day unbothered and they'll ask to get coffee or something#and I have no idea what I should do in that scenario. because I don't think we can be friends.#and you have not treated me with the compassion and warmth I treated you#i would want to say mean things. hurtful things. I would want to bite back for once.#and that's not me. that's not who I want to be.#i don't wanna see you. go away. don't talk to me if you're not going to make the pain go away.
77 notes
·
View notes
Text
I need some new Nevermoor content and news soon because all I ever want to do is talk about it but I feel like I’ve run out of theories in my brain….. Need the snippet and UK cover by the end of the year!! Manifesting 🕯️🕯️🕯️
#nevermoor#is anyone else in the same boat abt constantly thinking abt nevermoor but not having anything to post about#all there’s been lately is stuff in french and german abt the graphic novels#so nothing to post about on nevermoorsource either :(#<- I should just finish the interview transcript and merch list but I’m lazyyyy#I keep forgetting to properly scan the hollowpox cards when I have time 😭#anyways. at some point I will post my ideas for what I think is likely to happen in silverborn and my personal hopes…..#so long as I don’t forget lol#unrelated to all this but I can’t believe it’s almost 2025 and I can’t edit tags on mobile. boooooo. 👎
35 notes
·
View notes
Text
this chapter of jjk changed my brain chemistry
#kenjaku#jjk spoilers#not kidding this is one of my favorite chapters and thinking about it animated makes me soooooooi shdjdjdjdjfjs$:&:&;#I NEED more of this. the vibes the atmosphere the eeriness#kenjaku feeling enough towards yuuji to thank his old friend#I need more kenjaku in the story rn#I still don’t even really know what they meant here#with the space between dream and reality. but I love how abstract it is#fingers crossed there’s good stuff in the future manga with kenjaku#I constantly forget how most fans don’t even like kenjaku. been seeing a lot of general dislike lately after the trailer w them dropped#I will gladly live in my own niche world though#id in alt
160 notes
·
View notes
Text
i've always adhered to the idea that termina isn't a real place but rather a representation of link himself. and it makes me unwell if i think about it too much. to be quite honest with you
#mm#talkin#definitely not an uncommon theory but it makes me soooooooooo crazy i need to go lie in a landfill for a bit#the main conflicts all relate to things link has had to deal with in oot. things that likely affect him deeply#you control time and yet you're constantly running out of it......everyone forgets you and your actions continuously#you change shape repeatedly against your will. your body is always foreign to you like it was after pulling the sword#you can't save everyone despite being the only person with the ability to do so - if only if only if only#even skull kid's struggle with being lonely and forgotten parallels link's after being sent back in time#it makes me SICK!! SICK I TELL YOU!!!#don't even get me started on the mortality stuff#the whole game is like. fear and uncertainty contrasted with silliness and hope#and i'm sitting here like hmmmm. i think i shall interpret this as a metaphor for link himself#his personality memories and fears taking physical shape perhaps#delightful game!! makes me feel normal
52 notes
·
View notes
Text
Hello tumblr, I am appearing from the void yet again to share a couple of my ““new”” characters Alden and Robin! One of my friends got into Alagadda stuff in SCP and dragged me a bit into it so I made these two! Alden (the first lad) is a bit of a socially awkward loner, mostly keeping to himself in a library he runs on the outskirts of town. He doesn’t really have as much interest in the pleasures of Alagadda so he mostly stays away from others, with a few exceptions (a major one being @pokeblog123’s Mina, who he’s got a crush on). Robin, on the other hand, is a very extroverted and bold person. She’s basically this kid that gets trapped in Alagadda by accidentally-ing her way there after running away from home (I know there’s not supposed to be children in Alagadda but she got stuck there not born there and I think it’s kinda funny for there to be this random child stuck in this place especially since no one knows what to do with her cause they are just not accustomed to children existing at all so I shall do what I want even if it makes no sense. I’m not doing cursed stuff with the child being there though don’t worry, it’s literally just found family shit she’s not a part of most of the messed up stuff in Alagadda so don’t be weird about it) and ends up in Alden’s library where she sort of gets adopted as a younger sibling to him. I love these two though and I’ve done a fair bit with them so it’s high time I put them up here!
Here’s a bunch of bonus art too that I’ve done (mostly of Alden, gotta draw Robin more, plus cameo from Mina in the last bit lol)
#my art#scp#alagadda#Alden oc#Robin oc#Mina oc#yippee! finally showing some more of my blorbos!#these two have been around for months I just forget to post here constantly 😅#but now I’m bringing them here so I can do silly stuff with them :)
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
sorry my post is just to complain but guys i literally hate adobe after effects. i can not explain to you the mental torture and how LOW it has brought my mental health because I *need* to use it for my post production class because it's "industry standard". ADOBE After Effects has made me write off the entire film and video production industry as a turn off and I never want to do it ever again.
The amount of times this has crashed on me where I lost everything? 5+ hours of work? 8+ hours of work? It's my fault for not saving sometimes but I also have auto-save on. it didn't save anything so im just left with nothing.
You want a trip to burn out town really quick? Use adobe after effects in an academic setting where you have no choice but to use this program.
I have never in my life TOUCHED a program SO TERRIBLE that it made me never want to do anything about that form of art/media EVER AGAIN
#I'm ALSO going in and out of the hospital these past few weeks so im just bawling and crying and crying over losing this project just now#because it was due 3 days ago#and i cant finish it becvause i loste verything#im sorry to everyone reading this i just feel like an insane person#like if i tried to explain this to someone theyd just tell me to stop crying and to get over it#anyway cannot recommend adobe after effects any fucking less#never join advertising/film industry i guess?#im so miserable right now. AE is a constant crasher#i also got a new computer with 18RAM instead of 8RAM and it still did this#does anyone understand why i cant stop talking about this#it makes no logical sense that our industry relies on adobe THIS fucking much that a program that is KNOWN to crash often#is an industry standard i hate it here#its been 3 months of this#im in so much fucking physical pain thats why im going to the hospital and then i come home to this constantly#guys im so tired i hate Adobe with a passion i hate it so much#mod stuff#from kris p#may delete later but i have bad memory so ill forget and just never do that#when i say its fun im lying to you for masking/show. im lying
19 notes
·
View notes
Text
assorted NMS oc doodles backlog that i guess i forgot to post? i'm really bad at putting stuff in tags, like this comparatively more serious lore compilation post thing. haha. this trio is stupid.
slightly more serious teluya backstory WIP comic under the cut because it's less goofy
#nms#no man's sky#all of my NMS stuff is compiled in my own personal tag ig ->#no mimi's sky#i said dvoran-e is only canon when it's funny but unfortunately i think it's constantly funny which means it's constantly canon so uhh#i dont post enough about them here on tumblr. i post about them a lot elsewhere but i keep forgetting to post about them here.#all you need to know are these three goobers:#1) teluya. the blue one. has the anxious tendencies of a small prey animal. almost too kind and gentle to exist. naive.#2) dvorak. the red one. trying really hard to not be a bastard after [unfathomably long amount of time] of being a bastard ad infinitum.#massive nerd. very little social grace. easily flattered/sheepish. regrets being a bastard very much. atoning soul. permadeath OC.#3) anomalous-entity. the yellow one. called an-e for short. is a bastard (funny). creative mode chara.#extremely overprotective of teluya for obvious reasons. them and dvorak are formerly antagonistic and now are...#well. i dont know. they're something.
21 notes
·
View notes
Text
I've been wanting to make my own list of fic recs for this side of the fandom. this is just a short little quick recollection. i love so many fics and writers - this micro-fandom is really talented. but these are my personal favorites:
i've never done this before, can you help me out? - I actually almost find it difficult to talk about this one? It's just so good. THE (infamous?) orgy fic, first off. And it's one of the sweetest, most romantic fics ever? So engaging. The characterizations, the sex scenes, the emotions, the depiction of that culture. Really good. But, there were some parts about Will's character that just, in admission of full vulnerability, really sat with me and felt familiar and it was almost too much! Even if my life is nothing like the lifestyle depicted here hahaha. Like. I got it. I understood him, in some ways. I only read this one sporadically as it updated, looking forward to sometime in the future sitting down to re-read it from beginning to end. This fic was also the push that made me decide to switch over to this side of the fandom and make a real account. Made me want to try writing again after half-assing it and neglecting my interest in fic writing❤️
time is a perception, love will cure depression - This one is actually Steve/Will and honestly - here for it. So hot. Will is VERY relatable here. It just feels authentic for a kid like Will coming into his own, understanding and acknowledging his desires. And the way Steve treats him with such care??? Oh, this fic is honestly everything to me. And it really captures the formative experience of lusting after some older guy in hot swimwear which is so niche to me but damn, this is it. I was so excited to find this little gem.
in the midnight hour - I have re-read this one about half a dozen times and honestly, I'll admit this specific fic inspired so much of how I tend to characterize Will and Mike just because they are PERFECT as to how I also view them. So many little moments just blew my mind. I have such a thing for trusting, loving, and intoxicated sex scenes in fiction and irl and this one is perfect perfect prefect for that kind of specific trope? It can be so caring and hot in the right context and this was just so good. Please read it for the first time or read it again! This was the other fic that made me want to try writing seriously again. Not only was it a really sexy story - it's just a lot of fun. Love that.
any semblance of touch - I'm weak for a good 'Mike and Will get high and it leads to them shotgunning and making out and grinding together' fic and I feel like I've read a few like this, but this one is A++ and sticks in my brain.
asking too much - I was hooked from the line "Not to be too graphic, but all I want is a nice, good-looking man who can fuck me hard" and I was obsessed the entire read. WILL you are so valid, babydoll. Love this fic a lot.
privacy - Another really interesting fic focusing on experimentation and all that lovely stuff. Mike is ridiculous in this and I'm obsessed with him and his gay little journey here as Will just absolutely loses his mind.
sexual healing - What can I say, always love a really well done 'classic porn set-up' fic, let's be honest hahaha. Masseuse/client??? All you needed to say. Fantastic.
my baby lives in shades of blue - Anything that depicts Mike and Will as super codependent and obsessed with each other is gold in my eyes. This one delivers. All the best things here. Slutty halloween costumes? Byler getting supremely handsy with each other? Clingy boyfriends? Accidental admission of kinks through dirty talk mid-fuck? Love it all.
There's a lot of other really good ones as well! These just stick in my mind. Love this fandom, everyone is so talented ❤️❤️❤️
#spicy byler#I need to go through the entire tag and browse again I constantly forget to bookmark stuff#and I recently deleted my other account and forgot to save all my bookmarks somewhere to reference siiiiiigh#oh well!! at least the research will be fun!!#there was another fic I really liked but it seems to have been deleted 😞#fic rec
24 notes
·
View notes
Text
Hell yea fired up Sami Zayn!! (Monday Night RAW 23/10/2023)
#sami zayn#wwe#wweedit#wrestlingedit#wrestling#wwe raw#sami zayn you're a star to me ily#stuff i made#people constantly forget that he's still one of the best in the game and is just not allowed to show it most of the time 😭#LOVE to see him so refreshed he deserves only good things#sadly until wargames he'll just be an afterthought#this match was very good tho perhaps a good sign
74 notes
·
View notes
Text
i’ve said this before but tumblr should really have 2 filtering options, 1 that gives u a warning like the current one does and another that just hides the posts from u completely
#last time this was about being constantly reminded about certain political situations when i just wanted to come on here to destress n stuff#but rn im just really annoyed that i may or may not have given myself major arcane spoilers bcz its impossible to not click spoiler warning#please pray for me to forget this 😔#ryan shut the fuck up
8 notes
·
View notes