#I cant belive

[the-waystar-two]

OH MY GOD YOU GUYS WHAT AHAJISOSJSHDUEUEUUEJDJE

[aterfish]

i love ways the word 'halfa' can be interpreted

[dumbjackass]

A Long Post

i think I'm "detransitioning" I don't really care what to call it. I just haven't told my partner which is making me anxious. "what if he doesn't love me after? blah blah blah" he probably will still love me but who knows. I just don't want facial hair or for my hairline to recede any farther but all the other shit I'm extremely anxious about losing. I love my high sex drive and energy and muscles and ways of processing emotions. I hate that you can't pick and choose. I want my cake and to eat it too. fight me.

I do oddly crave my curves back. I love my top surgery but I also kinda want boobs again and I'd be fine with implants. My natural chest really upset me though. like I don't care if I'm flat or have boobs just not the ones I had. Although I do worry about curves/femininity triggering trauma. I don't want to feel "owned" and I feel ugly and wrong for admitting that's how femininity feels on me. I know where it comes from I just don't know what to do with it.

Ya know what's also weird? I'm in therapy right, and I fucking hate it. I always end up hating it. I have no idea how to develop a relationship with this stranger that gets paid to listen to me talk. It feels like a lot of people also put this idea of therapy on a pedestal, like if you go you can slowly get "fixed". Most therapists aren't that good though, and I know this through my own personal experience and through hearing about all the awful things others have gone through with it. I also know people who brag about being in it and how they're improving themselves and they fucking suck. They engage in selfish toxic behavior and therapy should not be absolving them of that. ..but yeah therapist are only people and I should talk about this with mine because she doesn't know.

I know I could also go on a lower dose and keep my testosterone at a certain level but how would anyone know what a good level is? I love it but my instincts are telling me to go off of it.

I know a lot of why I transitioned is trauma based and I'm at peace with that NOW. I don't feel ugly being boxy and hairy but I did when I'd try to deny ever being uncomfortable with it if that makes sense?. Like I'd want to rip my skin off and then k*** m*****. But alas I am doing better despite it all. The more you try to reject a feeling the more your body will try to find a way to get it out. But just accepting that I have a feeling about something is making a world of a difference.

I'm not mad about this, or becoming a terf, or right wing lol. I just went through something and am going to continue to. I think what I find frustrating though is there doesn't seem to be a lot of room for discussion because everything is so loaded and folks on both sides think they're so fucking right. No one seems to be compassionate or patient with each other.

I know people who have detransitioned feel wronged by the medical industry -and I wont speak for those who are minors because it is a subject I am not well educated on, I'm only talking about adults right now- I guess my thing is I never trusted it in the first place so I don't feel let down. I don't think the answer is gate keeping. I think if you're an adult you should have the freedom to make your own decisions but we don't have good or accessible treatment for trauma and that's a common thing with detransitioners. there are so many people just raw dog what they went through whether they're in treatment or not I think a lot of folks aren't really processing things. (I mean duh but you know)

Like I think for myself I just couldn't be in the body I was born in/experienced life in so I changed it. And then that body didn't feel like home either but I hated the other one so then it felt like I had no physical body to feel good or safe in and I have no body to properly house my soul. And getting someone to the point of feeling safe in their body when there is evidence and experience to support the feeling of lack of safety is obviously a really hard and complex thing to do.

Im not trying to be blase so much as I'm just trying to surmise what I'm trying to say here with: I think people would heal more if we knew how to talk to know another with out getting defensive or idk what word more specifically gets at what I'm trying to say? Ill figure it out lol...

Anyway I still think trans people are people and deserve rights and humanity (why the fuck is that controversial?) but I think making this an us-verse-them kind of deal would just be wholly unhelpful.

Also I should put this on a platform people actually use lmao.

[eyeheartboobiez]

happy father’s day to the amazing father of all eighteen of our children🥹 it was a hard birth, but anything for you kento🫶🏿

[lunar-eclipseee]

does it ever drive you crazy just how fast the night changes

[wonnzda]

ARE YOU KIDDIN ME

[frightshack]

fiddle diddle diddle

[spkyart]

Don't make me wild like you

[leclerc-s]

the epic highs (charles leclerc winning monaco) and lows (pato o’ward getting overtaken in the final lap and losing p1) of motorsports

[p00sy-d3stro7er]

Its been a while since i posted these so! Here you go!

[hellomayu]

— just this once

[nibbelraz]

I am endlessly entertained by the prospect of MBJ just having literally no clue how human physiology works, and thus believing everything he hears (which, paired with SQH's propensity for saying dumb shit without thinking, is a recipe for disaster)

like:

SQH: ugh if I read any more expense reports my eyeballs will fall out of my head

MBJ: *frantically gathering as many expense reports as he can carry before shoving them into the fire*

SQH: *literally watching all his work burn up in flames* i-

MBJ: please hold in your eyeballs

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SQH, offhandedly: lmao wei qingwei ate so many bao buns at the festival that I honestly think he's going to turn into one

MBJ, absolutely horrified, actually gives his condolences to the (very confused) human man because this affliction which will soon take his humanity is a fate worse than death. Also he starts hiding SQH's melon seeds

_____

SQH: ugh I'm so stressed out i'm gonna EXPLODE

MBJ: NO-

Yes YES OH man Shang Qinghua definitely has no filter when complaining about stuff, Poor Mobei he's learning so many awful things about humans and how MUCH DANGER THEYRE IN (how much danger his favorite human is in)

He tries to learn more about what can happen to his poor human so he's spying on Shen Qingqiu and Shang Qinghuas meetings only to hear them BOTH dramatically explain how tired they are, Shen Qingqiu with some peak lord duties juggled with Binghe and Shang Qinghua with just the amount of paper work and how they both won't make it if things don't slow down soon which prompts Mobei to immediately tell Luo Binghe that his consort is going to DIE if he doesn't get rest immediately this second

I can see this getting SO out of hand so fast, He'd bury Shang Qinghua in blankets and hold him tight so absolutely nothing can bother him and he'd be safe

[domsaysstuff]

I think the dynamic of Steve being so fucking stupidly gone on Eddie Munson and Eddie not noticing because he's trying to not think abt Steve like that "because Steve is straight and his friend and he can't go there (he goes there, he crushes so hard but he will deny)" is so underappreciated

Like so many fics paint Steve as this himbo and he is! He is our lovable himbo! But just

Let him look at the rat feral man that Eddie Munson is and be like "i want this man's dick in me ASAP" and being so obvious abt it

Confident in his sexuality and determined to get what he wants Steve Harrington just flirting with Eddie and, sure, being a cringe fail loser abt it, but like HE'S SO OBVIOUS

Everybody knows he wants that dick EXCEPT Eddie

Steve is in misery, in hell, by this point he thinks that either Eddie isn't into him or just is letting him down

And Eddie thinks he is the one in misery because Steve is just always there™ and trying to be his friend and is so hot™ and jOkIngLy flirting with him and he wants to kiss him so bad but "stevie is straight and totally not into him guys :(("

Robin is just laughing at them "this world is so lucky you two can't have biological children together, because let me tell you, these kids would be so dumb"

[justwantswafflefries]

Not the finished product, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY TADC!!!! Thank you to all the wonderful VAs and Gooseworx for bringing this WONDERFUL show to life 💕🎉

[willthezombieboy]

Sometimes I forget that Will is the confirmed gay character, not Mike

Like WTF is this?????

[syrupbitee]

I LOVE THEM I LOVE THWM I LOVE THEM I LOVE THEM