#I cannot even blame anyone cuz this is my fault

[thegirlwholivesin-delusion]

Oh god give me strength

[4townie]

Road to 4☆TOWN

part 31 | part 32 | part 33

“I’ve been waiting for my baby to bring a girl home for years now.” Fabiola said excitedly. “So how long have you and my sweet boy known each other?”

“We met in New York while he was still on tour.” Janelle nodded. “I was there visiting family and we just happened to stay in the same hotel.”

“I’m pretty sure it was fate that brought us together.” Robaire looked at her with hearts in his eyes.

“It was actually great timing when I met him, too.” Janelle admitted. “I’d just gotten out of a really toxic relationship. My ex wasn’t very good to me, but Robaire came and swept me off my feet. He makes me feel like the only girl in the world.”

David narrowed his eyes. “And that’s how you like to be treated?”

“Well she—”

“I just find his devotion and commitment to me attractive.” Janelle cut Robaire off. “It’s not like I asked him to be this sweet, he just is. Cuz he likes it.”

David stared at her. “Interesting. I never pegged my son to be such a pushover.” His eyes shifted to his son.

“Papi!” Robaire scolded him. “I’m not a pushover, I just wanna make her feel special. Mummy, help me out here.”

Fabiola laughed awkwardly. “Would anyone like more tassot?”

Robaire groaned.

“Um, pardon me,” Janelle stood up to kill the tension, “I need to use the powder room.”

“Oh of course, dear. It’s right down the hall and to the left.” Fabiola guided her.

“Thank you.” Janelle nodded before walking off.

As soon as she was gone, Robaire glared at his parents. “What was that about?”

“Don’t take that tone of voice with us, Robaire.” David said firmly. “She’s no good for you. I cannot allow my son to be dating such a woman.”

“Here we go again.” Robaire sighed. “You find fault in everything I do. When will I be good enough?”

“You are good enough, dear.” Fabiola caressed his face. “That’s why we think you deserve better.”

“But what’s wrong with Janelle?” Robaire crossed his arms. “Is it because she’s not Haitian? Or because she doesn’t get intimidated whenever you glare at her in Creole?”

“Yes because that makes her too bold.” David admitted. “You’re letting her walk all over you. She speaks over you like she owns you. I will not have you in a relationship like that.”

“Ugh, Papi, please—”

“Your father is right, Robaire.” Fabiola cut him off. “You haven’t called me or Christine in weeks and you haven’t spent time with your nieces in ages. What kind of woman thinks she’s more important than your family?”

“She never said she was more important than you.” Robaire shook his head. “I’ve just been…caught up in the heat of the moment. I’ll try to call more often. Don’t blame her for something that’s my fault.”

“Even when she’s not in the room, you’re bowing down.” David scowled. “I thought I raised a man, not this weak little boy that’s being seduced by a vixen.”

Robaire frowned. “If that’s really how you feel, I should just take her and leave.” He picked up his jacket and started down the hall.

“Go ahead and run away from your family. Prove us right.” David called to him.

Robaire stopped in his tracks. “You know, I brought her here as a courtesy to you guys.” He turned back to them. “The press already knows about us. She wanted to leak her name, but I asked her to hold off so she could meet you first. I didn’t want you finding out about my girlfriend through the news.” He sighed. “Now I just wish we never even came.”

“No, Robaire—”

“Let him go, Fabiola.” David stopped her. “Blind men cannot be reasoned with.”

Janelle came out of the bathroom just as Robaire was about to knock.

“Janelle—”

“I heard the argument.” She said softly. “Do you wanna go back to my place?” Robaire nodded and she took his hand. “That’s okay. We can forget this ever happened. We’ll be back to normal in the morning.” She led him towards the door. “Goodnight, Mr. and Mrs. Jean-Baptiste. Thank you for the delicious dinner.”

David and Fabiola just glared as she took their son away.

[mrs-monaghan]

Idc if jk is really hybe’s fave or whatever. Maybe he is cuz he’s the most marketable in the western industry (i think, idk). But what i cant stand is pjm akgaes faulting HIM for that. That’s not his fault. And jm getting 9 days of promo is on hybe, not jk or yg or any bts member.

If anything, jk’s doing better promoting jm than hybe ever did!!!! I mean just look at his latest live. And it’s been months since face!!!!

I cannot blame JK one bit. I'm still streaming FACE. I can't get over it. Set Me Free is a fucking bop and Face Off makes me grab my beer. Aint nobody getting over Jimin. Not us, his fans, not JK his man, not his haters who are more obsessed with him than all of us combined! Aint nobody getting over THE Park Jimin. I mean have u seen him?

Once you Jim-in you can't Jim-out. It is what it is. I mean JK knows this better than us. (he's probably Jiming in as we speak. 🤭🤭 Shazy behave yourself!) but still...

And yeah anyone who gets mad at JK for any good things coming his way is an asshole. First of all, that man is legit. Even if he gets all the backing in the world its not like he won't step up. His songs will be good enough. He will put in the work. He is a worthy investment. He deserves it. (Yes so does Jimin but that's the topic 4 another day) I am happy for JK and will continue to do so. I can be bitter that Jimin wasn't allowed the same privilege as Suga and JK but I will not be holding that against them. Most especially JK. The man who would change things if he could.

[mspeevee]

Would it help more to ask you questions so you can vent, or would you prefer comfort? If so, would you prefer reassurance or advice?

I know it's a lot, and I don't want to condenscend. But I do promise that you aren't doing anything wrong by feeling this way. Take as much time as you need <3

i just wish i felt like i was important to my friends enough that i was worth the time i put into them back

i wasn't gonna vent but then i exploded anyways.

the gist is that multiple times now i've felt like i do all this effort, messaging first, making art (i don't do it expecting anything back), sharing my life with people only to receive like, appreciation but not reciprocation. and then i watch them do all of that for other people and i can't help but feel like it's my fault. like i am just so replaceable.

and then when i am hurting so bad i understand they don't know what to say me, hell they prolly have my vent and complaining tags blocked i'm sure, but i feel left to rot and seethe until i fucking hate them. and then i feel bad about it, cuz i don't want to, but i'm so tired of feeling this way every few months. it makes me wish i were dead because i don't see any point in going on if no one genuinely cares if i'm in pain or not. not even a simple "hey im sorry you're going through this but i care". i get ignored. and i feel like it reflects my worth to them.

and rn i can't blame myself for feeling so angry about it too when i feel like i'm bleeding out with their backs turned to me. and maybe that's dramatic but i'm not exactly rational right now anyways so.

and later on i prolly won't blame them or anything, i know this is all because my mental health is bad and my brain tortures me using them against me, but when it happens so often and i feel like i'm finally getting better only for something random to set me off into wanting to stop existing again i'm like, well what's the fucking point??

would they even cry about me for that long? would me leaving leave any impact longer than a week? a month? would they regret not taking every chance i gave them to engage with me? did i deserve their time at all anyways? am i selfish for interpreting continual silence as dismissal?

this applies to literally everything but i cannot blame myself for not knowing how people think when they don't tell me. i can't know if anyone likes my art if they don't like it or reblog it or tell me. i can't know that you told your friends you really enjoyed a post on my blog if that's the only people you told.

and obviously that extends to me, too, how can they know i'm slowly resenting them if i dont say something? but isn't that so cruel of me to mention? isn't it so mean of me to make them feel bad for doing harmless things that just so happen to be used as ammo against me because of my own problems by my own brain? should i just stop making friends? where do i give up here? where do i work on it?

honestly i'd love advice, idk how to cope like this. everything online just says therapy but that's not an option for me. im trying so hard to practice mindfulness and challenging the thoughts but they seem so right and like there's so much "proof". "oh you did all this for your friend but they never did it back but look now they're doing it with this new friend! and it's not the first time either, how many times will you assume you mean as much to them as they do to you."

i wish i wasnt struggling alone. even tho i know i'd just think they're lying if they ever reached out to me at least i would remember they tried when i started to come out of this ditch. but no one wants to try with me anymore, and it's my fault.

[hecksupremechips]

giving u a lil friend smooch and permission to talk about whatever crosses your mind MWAH

Whale ain’t that sweet 🥺

Time to talk very long in an incoherent way cuz im out of meds and sleep deprived and having issues rn so its. Not gonna be. Words gonna go silly

I’m never not thinking about shinji this is known this is truth I think shinji and ryuki have this shared problem of being my favorite characters ever but the game theyre in sucks and is Bad so bad lol but shhhh I don’t wanna talk about that part rn I’ll get really bitchy. I’m very insecure that when I write the shinji and akihiko relationship during the 2 years separation that I’m making aki look like a fucking asshole on accident liek I’m worried my biases are skewing things cuz like okay. Main conflict is aki wants shinji to come back to sees and feels like he’s blaming himself too much for the incident with kens mom to the point of not doing ANYTHING like just wallowing in self pity. And shinji doesn’t wanna come back cuz guilt + trauma has ruined everything about sees and he doesn’t have a clue how to control his persona so he doesn’t wanna risk another casualty and he’s sick of being asked to come back to that shit and starts destroying himself yayyy. And its a very real conflict like it hurts cuz neither of them are WRONG but they’re horrible at communicating and they have so much bullshit to carry that they should t have to carry on their own but they don’t have anyone to rely on, especially not shinji. But sometimes I think like in both the canon and in fics akis perspective is shown waaay more and he’s made out to be like. Correct? Like I’m supposed to think shinji is being unreasonable or something or that he’s an asshole and it’s like. No??? I think he’s actually very reasonable like he really shouldn’t have to come back to sees it’s not the end of the world like yes, he shouldn’t be isolating himself it’s not good for him but that’s not like. A moral failing he’s literally just traumatized and suicidal and like. Of course he’s isolating! Of course he’s being secretive and hurting himself and feels at fault like he isn’t a regular persona user his persona is literally actively dangerous which would obviously translate to him as “im dangerous” and hes also literally been told all his life he’s a failure he’s literally the loner with “behavior issues” and no family no money treated as a burden by all the adults and being in sees was his one chance to be a part of something where he finally wasn’t a failure and then. He failed at that too. And he loves his friends but like, their lives aren’t the same. Mitsuru has always been rich and beautiful and smart and akihiko came from the same place but he got adopted by a nice rich family and is a star athlete and smart and well behaved and then theres shinji the drop out freak and I think that’s also what leads him to connect with strega and get the suppressants is just like. The feeling of being misunderstood by the people who SHOULD understand but they just like. Literally cannot because of their different roles in society. It’s painful! It isn’t something he wants to address but it’s undeniably there! And it’s painful for aki just like. The realization that he alone cannot move shinji he alone cannot make him happy again and theres parts of him he’ll literally never understand it’s horrible cuz they’ve always understood each other and been able to pick each other up but the world is getting too complicated and they’re both so damaged and can’t do it alone anymore and punching shadows just. Won’t fix it. They need so much love and support and therapy and cookies many cookies and shinji lives in my pocket

Okay now that I’ve gotten the bulk of that ramble out of the way let’s get cute okay. I really wanna write halloween fics rn even though it’s July like it’s actually a need and of course it’s about my favorite tsundere family trio so basically basically basically October is a horrible month for them but they and the rest of sees decide to get really into Halloween just to have something good to look forward to and I like to imagine shinji in an attempt to find a will to live gets like REALLY into sewing like hes always been able to sew just like basic stuff like he always mended clothes and made miki a stuffed animal out of old socks (it was really ugly she loved it) and he could stitch up wounds but he never really got too skilled at it. And then one day he notices koromarus costume is a little wonky and this spirals into I MUST MAKE A NEW COSTUME FOR KORO and before he knows what’s happening koro is dressed like a clown fish and a month has passed and he hasn’t tried to hurt himself once so FUCK this is now something he’s become deeply invested in. So he decides he’s gonna make Halloween costumes for Ken and (sigh) himself cuz yeah. There’s obviously gonna be a halloween party costumes are required. Ken I think would like trick or treating but also he’s like IM NOT A BABY I DONT DO THAT and I think aki and shinji would respect that but also they kinda really wanna take him trick or treating cuz a) it’s fun and they need fun memories and Ken needs to have childhood fun before he’s too old b) they didn’t really get to have much halloween fun as kids and c) candy free candy. Still undecided if they’ll go or not BUT they will at least have the party to go to and they’re all like oh noooooo (secretly very excited). So back to sewing shinji tries to engage with kens interests and with great great effort he promises Ken that they’ll dress up as his favorite characters and Ken sooo wants to act cool but he’s over the moon and the idea of shinji dressing up with him is just. Sobs I’m actually gonna cry JUST THINKING ABOUT IT STOP. So shinji gets some shitty ass discount fabrics and is gonna hand sew them but he’s starting kinda late and his hands are a lot weaker now so he’s forced to use 🙊 the sewing machine. And he is very bad. With the sewing machine but he cannot destroy it with his ax because it was a gift and he doesn’t have time to struggle with this and he wants to call fuuka for assistance but he’s a little shit who hates asking for help and also it’d ruin the surprise if she knew his costume plans obviously. So basically enter aki who walks in on this and he’s like hey did you know you can read the instruction manual for help and shinji is like FUCK YOU OF COURSE I KNOW THIS and aki is like then hwhyyy are you nOT DOING IT and so they have to take a night to figure it out (date night goals) and it’s literally so difficult cuz the instructions are total gibberish to shinji but at least he knows how sewing works while aki is the opposite he can read the manual but doesn’t know shit about threads or fabric so they have to work together it’s atrocious it’s like diffusing a bomb and then other conflicts come up aki is like. Am I getting a costume too and shinji is like lol no and aki is like but I wanna be part of this joint costume thing it sounds cute and shinji is like ….did….did you think you weren’t gonna be part of this???? And aki is like YOU NEVER DISCUSSED IT WITH ME???? So poor aki just thought he was excluded from the big costume moment cuz shinji forgot to explicitly tell him that it was a thing they’d both do cuz he just thought it was obvious and this changes EVERYTHING SHINJI so they discuss their costumes and shinji is like okay cool but I’m still not making your costume for you that’s something you gotta figure out for yourself lol and then they get the machine working and shinji makes a third costume and it’s sweet but also he does get scolded for overworking himself but it’s fiiiiine it’s literally fiiiine and Ken is happy even though the costumes are really wonky cuz he thinks he looks JUST LIKE his

Blorbo and also he honestly didn’t think shinji and aki would actually go through with dressing up with him cuz he’s just so used to empty promises and not getting good things BUT THEY FOLLOWED THROUGH and they look really dorky and stupid but they match with him and they did it for him and they look like a family and oh god im crying again hold on. And they get a lot of candy obviously and side note akihiko would be that bitch who gives raisins to everyone because it’s the only candy he likes and he genuinely thinks kids would want it because ITS LITERALLY NATURES CANDY and their apartment gets egged

[the-firebird69]

You surely cannot support these backstabbers at all any of them in any way and we mean the morlock more specifically Trump's never ever live up to it notorious for being bastards about things and oh our son tons of money in a huge pricks about it saying that they won this and they won that and they just sit there and say it even though they're surrounded and cordoned off and they just sit there and saying the stupid s*** over and over if he gets any money from us he's gone and stuff a sense is perfect we're going to have to use that it's getting too dangerous and we want to eliminate them we're going to need to preempt it so find any of these Mac morlock all of the races actually of them but line them up appropriately and we are and you see it getting lined up but you're right about something they all need it donut dying stuff they're going to die and they were all in the conspiracy to put rose hair down and he doesn't care about it that's why I would say it we're going to start doing it cuz these people are very obscene.

--couple things are happening today and today is the 27th right now John remillard and his friend Jim Carrey are going to the movie dumb and dumber. And in that movie you'll see this fat mafia guy. That fat guy oh yeah I can't seem to swallow properly is John Gallagher and he's been messing with her son swallowing for a long time I think it's funny because he's had the problem already and people are calling him in a huge f**** by doing that and helping him do that but he decided to do it so he's doing and we are going to make sure and he is a aching wound to that guy is on his way out anyways and Elliot says it all the time to be gone too and he does he's a trumpster and stuff but his attitude is horrendous and his demeanor gross so he's going to lose his body to Trump his boss eventually Tommy f puts him back in and he suffers for the crimes that Trump committed and has to fight the demons so does Trump he was found out and together they're fighting them and John Gallagher is going through Trump's people pretty fast and he's not bad at it he does it for quite a while and impossible board he does it across the board and that means of all the trumpsters anyone who's basically working for him in his vicinity and they start to nail them and they blame other people and it's costly and he's going down screaming and yelling things about us and our son and finally stopped he says it's kind of my fault and nobody cared so they go after him and he is suffering from hits pretty good ones and he starts to squeal on people and telling them and rat and he turns into a big puddle of mud like most people do here and he gets eaten alive it doesn't take long and he shouldn't have been attacking our son it's kind of late to do it by Ellie as Jenna and they're absurd that group is full of absurd people they're constantly attacking our son they're huge hypocrites and big liars and people believe them and our son knows how it happened and he couldn't stop John and it's probably his name too and the proper Mac proper Gallagher the watermelon guy and he gets it he says it's not your fault and our senses I know it's not my fault and there's a lot of horrible people around town or very sick and the max are pushing around and they just flying around in the wind it says that too but our son is saying it is true

We have more to announce but this is huge

Thor Freya

Olympus

A lot of people picking up their stuff and they knew he was going to do his laundry and they're a bunch of assholes I really can't stand this stupid f****** job but it's really motivational and it's proven to be valuable and I don't know what the hell we have here this is a very small girl and she is wrestling with her laundry bin she's driving a truck that's very big it's huge

Mac daddy

[ringmyheart]

Can I request Vin Jin boyfriend headcanons and some fluff? (You don't have to force yourself)

(This and the other vin jin rq were merged!)

Honestly the way I see it, it doesn’t matter if you’re a very calm person or outgoing person. No matter what this relationship is gonna end up being considerably chaotic

He ropes you into everything he does. Doesn’t matter if u r a design student or an architecture student or if ur on the opposite side of the school from him, u r practically in his class. Dating him is like signing a contract sealing away ur own life bc he makes it a point to be ALWAYS w u

In class he doesn’t gaf if the teacher has ur seat on the other end of class, he is somehow finding a way to sit next to u against ur will or not. And when the teacher moves u two away from eachother INTENTIONALLY bc of this, he is threatening whoever happened to sit next to u to trade seats w him. He will go as far as to dress up as them to make it look like they’re them to be next to u and he’s so dramatic ab it.... being away from u felt like u were star crossed lovers whom the world was fiercely against

And if UR against this cuz ur tired of getting in trouble in class, or if you reject any of his advances, he’s gonna be really, really, really offended. He will at first sputter and be kinda shy and embarrassed about it, before he goes “fine! Have fun on your own without me, the greatest thing in your fucking life!”

He move seats back and will glare at you periodically every five minutes to pavlov dog you so that every five minutes every day, even when he’s not there, you feel the burning stare of vin jin

If you’re his s/o, he’ll buy you a matching pair of sunglasses so ur the freshest looking couple around Seoul (they’re hideous and thick but he thinks u look fly)

The glasses don’t have nearly as many layers as his does for himself so u can see, and u wonder how he managed to make them just as bulky and if he did it on purpose to sabotage u. Like “did u make my glasses purposefully ugly so no one else will want me?”

U have to dodge a punch after saying anything like that ab his fashion decisions LMAOAO

He’s rlly proud of u two matching. With the glasses and anything in general. He’ll make you wear a jacket matching his, or the same shoes and he will stop people in the hall and be like “wait. Notice anything cool ab us today?? Cooler than normal??”

And when they don’t respond he boasts “that’s right!! Me and my other half r matching. Look at us and weep, losers.” He thinks u two look so good....... if ur enthusiastic ab wearing matching things too he is elated u have to pray that tomorrow he won’t show up w another “if lost return to Vin Jin” “I’m Vin Jin” pair of jackets or anything of the like bc it happens SO OFTEN

And on the topic of sharing when it’s cold he likes to share jackets and blankets w u. Ur desks r moved by eachother by vin jin himself and u two share one blanket over u and shiver bc he just likes it, sharing w u plus he’s slightly warmer. And yes if you guys had indivizual blankets you would be warmer, but u guys have to struggle together he doesn’t care what anyone says (yes even ur protests ur sharing that one blanket wether he has to wrap it around u himself and tear up the one u brought on ur own or what”

He is so blind in love that he cannot tell when u guys suck at stuff. Like if ur in the wrong he doesnt care ur RIGHT and he’s taking that to the grave. He can belittle u and call u out but if someone else says ur in the wrong it’s on sight

Will die protecting ur name even when ur the one who was genuinely wrong

He forces u to make a beat for him to rap to. He loves rapping and wants to enjoy it w u, so ur forcefed YouTube videos of how to beatbox so u can be his bgm and eventually u probably just start to enjoy it to

And u always start a beat and he starts busting out rhymes and it’s SO BAD. It doesn’t matter if ur good at beatboxing if vin Jin is on the track w u it’s gonna sound terrible he brings the quality down immensely but u two just cannot tell

Like after a two session ur like “omg... that was so good. We should go pro?” “Fuck yea we should we’re better than those posers” “we could rlly make it in the industry fr” no u absolutely could not

During the school festival, u sang with him and it was SO bad. Half the crowd is gonna have 2 be hospitalized but u two had FUN up on the stage

Like I said, he has absolute faith in u. All u do is right. If ur driving a car for the first time, he is going to be ur little hype man doesn’t matter if u suck. U hit a curb and he went “YES babe!! Ur killing it cant wait till u hit the road bby�� Ur not allowed to touch a car for the next two years now bc he kept cheering u on when u we’re doing CLEARLY wrong things

On a plane u r looking for the bathroom like pensively and u see a handle and look back and r like “is this it???” And vin jin thinking u r all righteous will go “yea babe go for it” and u open it and u depressurizate the cabin immediately

Now both on like 5 no fly lists

He loves to do things with u, like I mentioned earlier, and things he wouldn’t do alone he’ll do w u. Like drawing alone?? Boring. Drawing w Y/N??!!! Who knows what could happen..... so much fun could ensue. Maybe he will draw u cutely. Maybe he will draw u so ugly u will be forced to engage in a fight.

He likes to play just dance w u and compete for the “greats/all star!” Little titles above, and it becomes like a Friday night ritual for u two to turn just dance on and just go at it. But sometimes he’ll get too intense and suddenly he’s actually fighting for the chance to beat u. Will trip u so u lose on purpose

He makes u listen to him sing and rap to u. And u try to leave and he hugs tightly and is like LISTEN IFS FOR U, DONT BE UNGRATEFUL and now u have to listen

He makes u a mixtape of songs he made himself and they are all considerably worse than “remember the times we had”. It’s uploaded on SoundCloud and all the comments r hate and u listen to it a lot bc u know he loves u sm he made u a mixtape ya ur gonna play that but everyone else hates it w a passion

Like the comments r like:

Daniel: well.... it’s definitely a song 😅 I’m glad you love (y/n) so much!

Duke: he’s not making it out the hood 😐

Zach: never let this man in a studio AGAIN

Mary: this should’ve stayed in the CD

(Y/N): love it! 😍

Zoe: kill your producer 💀

Mira: ...

He’s overprotective too

If someone looks at u for more than a second he’ll go “what?? U think she is hot, huh? I’ll kick ur ass fucking perv.... cmon babe let’s go”

Will throw his arm around u and streer u the opposite way of any potentially good looking ppl to keep ur eyes on him

Oh Daniel is coming?? What a coincidence u and vin Jin suddenly have to turn the corner to the other way of ur classroom for some reason

Eli is near?!!! Oh no u just got milk spilt in ur eye!! Oh no now he has to wipe ur eyes and u two have to leave the cafeteria whatever will he do

It’s not that he doesn’t have faith in u, he doesn’t have faith in other men. Like he thinks they r all competition, and doesn’t doubt ur loyalty rather doubts how good he can b for u

WILL beat someone up for u. If someone smokes while ur around suddenly his fists r swinging at them cuz even if u smoke or vape urself no one else can get that stuff in ur lungs but YOU or HIM!!

If ur crossing the street and a car almost hits u, it’s the cars fault and he’s kicking the license plate and cursing it out for almost touching u “stupid fucking piece of metal”

Is the type of boyfriend to call u when he knows ur in an Uber and be like “babe u got ur gun w u right?? Oh don’t forget ur BOMB and ur MACHETE!! Yeah just left the house I killed some ppl nbd haha anyways HRU what’s ur Uber driver like” so the driver of ur car won’t even think ab kidnapping u. He has got ur back even when u do not want it

He doesn’t want u to see his eyes, so he’ll tell you to look away so he can take his glasses off and look at u in full color in all ur glory but he never tells u WHY he’s telling u to look away u think it’s a weird thing of his, or he’s insecure ab his face which is partially true but really he’s taking his glasses off and just looking at u. Adoringly.....

He hates PDA. He loves PDA. Do u see his dilemma

Like he loves PDA but doesn’t want anyone seeing him vulnerable even u.... so he’ll hold ur hand and be like “EWWW WHAT R U DOING GET YR HAND OFF MINE”

If u take the lead THATS best bc he can blame it on u and it’s ur fault he HAS to lock fingers w u cuz u did it to him first and he has an excuse to touch u and v like u started this im just sending u ur own energy back 😤

The type to be just like blind, overwhelmed in love. Always thinks ab u, always wants to be w u, worries ab u a lot and frets over u without showing it.... he hates it and loves it to death. Despises it but wouldn’t give it up for anything in the world

Eats lunch w u in the cafeteria and if u sit w someone else u r the ultimate traitor and he will trash talk u to hide his hurt to Mary the entire lunchtime. Kinda possessive.... wants u to also only think about him

WOULDNT EVER fight u for real. Play fights occur VERY often, like pillow fights, tripping ur foot when u say a joke insulting him, grabbing ur collar but he would sooner die than lay a finger on u

Verbal fights happen a lot and if he ever like LOSES it he may lash out and almost hit u and follow thru. I don’t think he’d be able to catch himself that quickly, and if he ever did he’d regret it for the rest of his life. Literally until the day dies he will take it to his grave

He may not sputter out apologieswill just look at u incredulously and then at his hands because what had he done? What did he just do? To you???????? (Y/n))))?????? His (y/n)??? Light of his life?

Will apologize probably over text or through a note or call, and if u don’t respond he is consumed by regret and tries to find u instantly like runs back to ur place

If u forgive him he feels bad still, because does he deserve it? And he might just isolate himself for a bit bc he can’t face u and if it left a scar he is dead inside. It kills him, literally

I could go on w this but I’ll probably save it for another separate pair of hcs later 😭

If u guys ever break up he will fight for u again and won’t stop till ur back together like flowers in ur locker every day, chocolate give during lunch, etc. He wont ever give up hope that he can win u over again and be w u again. He would keep trying, when he wakes up his first thought is ur name in a cold panic bc he can’t rest easy till ur his again and he will try and show off and poorly serenade u and trash his price and be corny and cheesy to get u back

Will set up a performance w the school to let him rap w a mic during lunch for u and he’s saying bars like “(read in bad rapping voice w inconsistent beat) (y/n), love of my life, uh, without you I’d die, uh. Please won’t you take me back? Yuh, without you ima have a heart attack. (Wha!). (Y/n), love of my life, yeah, without you I’m in strife, yup! Please be mine again, (babe), I can never rest till then.”

If the embarrassment doesn’t make u take him back so he’ll pls stop, and when he stands up on the lunch tables to do a little performance doesn’t do it either, then the odd sincerity of his voice and pain in his look (even tho while rapping he sticks out his lower lip in a weird pout) definitely, hopefully will

U make everything worth it !! Truly the light of his life

I hope these were what u wanted, I just had fun w them and wrote stuff that came off the top of my head when I thought of VJ!! ❤️

[razberryyum]

TGCF donghua Episode 11 Thoughts (SPOILERS for episode and novel!)

Ok I didn't think they were actually going to kiss, BUT for a heart-stopping second I thought they were gonna get close enough before cutting away. Just to tease us, if for no other reason. I actually held my breath. It was still a big tease nonetheless but I am still grateful for the scene because my God was it beautifully done. The focus on Dianxia's lips as he says Hua Cheng's name, the way his breath catches as HC leans closer, the world fading away around them, HC's ponytail gently falling forward just so, the way they just focus on his lips just as if from Dianxia's POV....all of it just screams romance. Once again, that was all the work of the donghua's team. In the book, this moment occurs when they're actually back at Puqi Shrine, and Xie Lian's actually in the middle of cleaning a table when he very nonchalantly addresses Hua Cheng by his name. It was cute because Dianxia did it so casually but hardly THIS romantic. So, really, hats off to the donghua team!

Actually other than that last scene, of course I am grateful to the donghua team for many other moments in this episode. To start, whenever they show San Lang protecting Dianxia.

We know Xie Lian can definitely take care of himself, but I appreciate that Hua Cheng's instinct is always to protect him anyway. I actually thought that's why he gave himself the name," Hua Cheng". The words translate to "Flower City", and in the olden days, a city had walls protecting the people in it, so I figured that Hua Cheng chose this name to represent how he will always protect Xie Lian, that his protection is all encompassing. Lol, I can't wait to find out how wrong I am.

Even though Hua Cheng's fight with Pei Su was mostly off screen and limited to quick flashes of swords clashing, what they did show of Hua Cheng in his "real" form was DELICIOUS.

I am grateful to the donghua team for Hua Cheng's adorable reaction to Dianxia being cheeky. Too precious!

Our General Hua looking like a god in armor...and the way he made bis appearance in that scene too, like a savior coming to rescue mankind...or in this case, Banyue.

This scene actually made me tear up. I don't remember thinking Pei Su was that attached to Banyue when reading the book, but that might've been my fault for not paying close enough attention when HuaLian weren't directly involved. I was actually wondering how they were going to conclude the Banyue arc in just one episode since it felt like they would have to pack a lot into just 20 mins or so, but I think they did a really good job of wrapping it up. Didn't feel rushed or that anything important was missing.

I love both of them already, but I want to especially commend the donghua team's character design for The Wind Master. I don't want to spoil anything for those who haven't read the book, but trust me when I say THAT is a brilliant bit of character design. They will have to change two things about her next season but it's like she's mostly there already. 😂 I also love her voice and voice performance (by VA Qiu Qiu), so perfect for the character. I seriously cannot wait to see more of her next season, especially after hearing that news about the VA. 😁

I guffawed. This was a bit of brilliance too. Man, I just love the donghua team! They really did such a GREAT JOB bringing TGCF to life. I mean, is there really anyone who hates this adaptation?? I guess if you weren't into Xie Lian and Hua Cheng's relationship, the case of the week parts might be a bit underwhelming, but what I appreciate about them is that they inevitably link back to Dianxia and his past, or introduce us to new characters which then opens up the world. They always have a purpose, leading to bigger things. As a first season I think it was pretty strong, what they changed from the source material were usually positive alterations. I mean, I'm reading the book now because of this show, after putting it off for so long, so I'm definitely converted.

I do have to say though that the season did end on a rather odd note since it felt like there should have been just a few more beats before the end credits. It was a little abrupt imho, but it still is miles better than poor SVSSS's season finale, which ended on a freaking scene transition.

Of course there's still that special HuaLian episode on February 16th, so I guess technicallyyyyy this first season hasn't quite ended yet. The special looks to be picking up right where this episode leaves off: with Dianxia having a conversation with Hua Cheng back at Puqi Shrine about his role as Ghost King and other related topics. I'm not sure why it's airing a month and a half later, or why on February 16th instead of Valentine's Day, but I'm not gonna look a gift horse in the mouth. I'm just grateful we have more TGCF and HuaLian to look forward to. Second season is already in production, and apparently the theme song for it will drop tomorrow! A live action has been announced which they're still casting, and honestly some of those casting choices scare me so depending on who they end up deciding on, I might just gonna stay away from that completely and stick with the donghua and book.

Novel Reading Progress...about to finish Book 2... SPOILERS

MXTX-laoshi is a total sadist giving us THAT kind of sex pollen scene when nothing could be done cuz Hua Cheng's still a little bean sprout...I love Dianxia, love him more now knowing he was a pretty flawed human being, that he's absolutely not perfect...his heart is warm but his actions are sometimes quite cold...I blame his privileged upbringing and his youth and inexperience for some of his rash decisions...he means well but of course the road to hell is pathed with good intentions...wish he would stop forgetting about little Hua Cheng though, poor baby...the more I read about the human face disease the more I don't want to...just, overall, I feel this heavy weight on my heart now because I know things are going to go from worse to utter calamitous shit soon. I am SCARED, preparing my heart for breakage.

To read the TGCF novel: https://tgcfmxtx.carrd.co/

[gffa]

Hello there! I was recently in a discussion with someone who thinks the Jedi were kinda bad and I was saying I mean I don’t think so, but ok. They tried to convince me with Barriss and how what she said was correct and I’m kind of confused because I kinda feel she’s right but she also isn’t. Uh, could you help explain it, cuz I’m a little lost?

Hi!  Barriss is something of a complicated topic, because I don’t think her story should be divorced from that it’s a really bad look to write the character with a whole lot of Muslim parallels as a bomber and thus it’s hard to take the story seriously on a meta level, because I’m too busy going, “Guys, what the fuck, that’s real bad over there.” and whether she has a point or not often gets overshadowed by that. And it’s hard to set that aside (and I’m unsure if one should even try) where I think the intention of Barriss’ story is meant to make us think about the Jedi’s role in the Republic and in the GAR, but I’m not sure it’s meant to provide concrete answers. What Barriss says:  “I have come to realize what many in the Republic have come to realize… that the Jedi are responsible for this war! That we've so lost our way that we've become villains in this conflict! That we are the ones who should be put on trial! All of us! And my attack on the temple was an attack on what the Jedi have become: An army fighting for the dark side, fallen from the light that we once held so dear. This Republic is failing! It’s only a matter of time.” There are elements of truth here, the Republic is failing, that the people have lost faith in the Jedi and they are now seen as villains, that the war was a tool used by the dark side to gain control over the galaxy. The problem is that she also has fallen herself, that she’s willing to murder innocent people in that bombing, willing to let other people take the fall for her, and that cannot come without being part of the dark side.  And the dark side lies.  The dark side is not an accurate narrator. The problem with Barriss’ words is that we’re not given any better options for the Jedi and it blames a group of people for their own lack of feasible choices.  Is their involvement in the war part of what leads to their own destruction?  Yes, of course it is.  Does that make it suddenly their own fault that Palpatine literally drafted them into the war (according to supplementary books + GL word of god commentary)?  Does it make the point of how, if they hadn’t joined the war, it would be people like Tarkin running the show, and that Tarkin’s introduction into the show was literally meant to show that? Barriss’ accusations have grains of truth in them, but they ignore that there’s never been any offer of an alternate path for them that has ever held any water, especially given what we see of how the Senate treats people who say “no” to them--they get blacklisted and are unable to help anyone anymore and things get worse.  It happens with Padme in the supplementary novels after her actions in TPM, it happens to Mandalore in TCW’s main storyline, etc.  The Jedi are in a position where, if they say no, there’s a very likely chance that they’ll be put in an even shittier position and there won’t be anyone to lead the war in a more gentle direction, if possible. That’s the problem that Barriss is leaving out--does the Jedi’s involvement in the war lead to bad things?  Yes!  But their non-involvement would have been worse.  And to say that they were responsible for this war, when Sheev Palpatine is RIGHT THERE or when Obi-Wan himself points out, “If the people of the galaxy stood up for what was right, this war would have been over long ago.”, is tunnel-visioned at best.  The Jedi didn’t start the war, nor are they the ones keeping it going, that’s all Palpatine right there.  The Jedi stepping away doesn’t mean Palpatine or Dooku will stop fighting, that the clones will suddenly stop fighting, that the droid army will suddenly stop fighting. Barriss’ words treat the Jedi as if they have obvious better options, they treat the Jedi as if they’re the only player in this game, when they’re not.  Did the Jedi make mistakes?  Of course, as well as there’s an impossible to answer question of, “When would have been the right time for them to walk away from everything?”  And what does that even look like?  Do they go rogue vigilantes in a galaxy that already fears them/doesn’t understand them?  Do they just sit on their asses on the sidelines?  Is there any galaxy in which Palpatine would have let several thousand one-man-walking-army nuclear weapons just sit by and not specifically target them?  Knowing that they would have the power to stop him, if he didn’t back them into a corner and tie their hands?  He’s not going to just leave them alone.  They don’t have the numbers to fight the war themselves, that was made clear over and over and over, so, they can’t become a third faction (in the Republic GAR vs Separatists), they can’t sit it out, do they join the Separatists?  Do they just fuck off into the depths of the Unknown Region?  Like, what’s the play here?  Especially when the Separatists are out there poisoning entire planets, enslaving entire peoples, murdering and torturing their way across the galaxy, and the Jedi are just supposed to go, “Well, fighting in this war was making us feel sad and have to deal with darkness, so you guys are on your own now.”? You can say, “The Jedi made mistakes, being part of the war.” and that’s not wrong, but the problem with judging the Jedi for it is that it often ignores that there were other players on the board with far more political power, that they were not given as much power as we want to think they were, and there weren’t really better options for them personally that wouldn’t have fucked over a lot of people who needed help.  Like, should the Jedi have stayed out of the fight when Ryloth’s people were being used as human shields?  Should they have stayed out of the fight when the people of Kiros were taken to be slaves?  Should they have stayed out of the fight when Mon Calamari was being occupied and its people enslaved as well?  That’s the question that never seems to get answered in Barriss’ accusations. And if you have to bomb a bunch of innocent people, without apparently having ever actually stood up and talked to anyone about this first, maybe you’re lost in the dark side and not seeing things all that clearly. (Which is still setting aside that using Barriss for this story was fucking awful.) The Jedi aren’t perfect, I think it’s fair to question their role in the war and the path they took, but ultimately I have yet to find any workable solutions that wouldn’t have left people to get fucked over by the war, that’s where I’ve landed on the subject and I think what the actual worldbuilding of the movies + TV shows actually evidences.  As Yoda says, when asked if he’s sure about their actions and whether they’re on the right path: “Hmm, the right path, no. The only path, yes.” That’s it, that’s the summation for the Jedi’s involvement in the war for me.  The right path, no.  The only path, yes.

[91percentpynch]

false god - kevaaron au pt 5

long time no see because i was in a writing block and that sucks but i‘m back and ready to break our hearts <33 thanks to argyro for helping me figuring out what happens here

i listened to false god by taylor swift cuz the angst??? love it!!! anygays this is from kevin‘s pov, i hope it makes sense and i hope you like it <33 stay safe, drink some water and always remember only racists, trump supporters, transphobes and homophobes skip meals!!

to check out the other parts click here

Aaron wasn‘t gone for too long when Kevin‘s phone rang

He didn‘t have the energy to pick it up, just to stare it down as if some kind of magic or his sheer will power would make it stop, let him be alone with his thoughts

But obviously that didn‘t work, it never did

The phone kept ringing, slowly driving the striker mad, slowly taking his sanity.

It would be the fifth or sixth missed call that would make him get up to answer the phone

„KEVIN HI NICKY HERE, LISTEN I TRIED TO CALL YOU FOR THE PAST HALF HOUR OR SO BUT AARON‘S IN THE HOSPITAL AND I CAN‘T GET THERE UNTIL LIKE TOMORROW AND ANDREW DOESN‘T ANSWER HIS PHONE EITHER AND HE WOULD TAKE LIKE HOURS TO GET THERE AS WELL CAN YOU PLEASE GO TO HIM SO HE DOESN‘T HAVE TO BE ALONE I DON‘T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED PLEASE, KEVIN I NEVER ASKED FOR ANYTHING FROM YOU PLEASE JUST GO AND MAKE SURE MY SON IS OKAY“

„Nicky? Hi to you too. You do realize he isn‘t my responsibility and that he broke up with me and that I don‘t really have to go there. I don‘t own him shit. He made my life miserable. He probably deserves whatever happened to him“ was what Kevin wanted to answer, was probably what he was supposed to say. But deep down he knew it was not true, that Aaron never ruined his life. Made it better, made it it bareable. Made it worth living, not just existing. Made it more than Exy and Vodka.

After a few moments of silence that felt like an enterinity Kevin settled for a simple: „Which hospital?“

„OH DIO MIO GRACIAS, MUCHAS GRACIAS. ESTÁ EN EL CHICAGO HOSPITAL“, Nicky replied in Spanish. Something the Latino only did when he was either very emotional, very drunk, very angry or all at once.

Kevin didn‘t have it in him to tell Nicky that he still did not speak Spanish, he understood the hospital and that was enough. For now.

„I‘m on my way, call you later and Nicky? He‘s going to be fine. It‘s not your fault. You‘re a great mother to them, the best I‘ve ever had the pleasure to meet. Now calm down, go to Erik and take a nap. You don‘t have to come, he‘s with us. We got this. Do you want to talk to Jeremy while I go to check up on Aaron?“

„Sí“, was all Nicky had to say. Voice thick with tears.

„JER CAN YOU TALK TO NICKY AARON‘S IN THE HOSPITAL I‘M GOING THERE“, Kevin shouted into the flat.

„Absoloutly“, Jeremy replied and took the phone from Kevin.

„Mi corazón, escúchame“, was the last thing Kevin heard as it hit him. Aaron was in the hospital. Right after Kevin refused to listen to him, right after Kevin refused to let him explain himself. It was Kevin‘s fault. If Aaron died, he would have killed him. He was basically a murderer. His breathing came out uneven, his lungs didn‘t get enough air. He knew that he needed to breathe, but breathing was hard and he was weak.

Jean noticed Kevin having a panic attack when he came to check up on him. „Day, listen to me. Breathe. In... And out... In.... And out... In... And out“

Kevin‘s breathing got better, slowly but steadily.

„It‘s my fault“, the striker whispered.

„It‘s not, Kevin. It is not your fault. If you don‘t want to go there, you don‘t have to. He is not your responsibility“

„Hypothetically if Jeremy was to break up with you and you‘re hurt and sad and blame him for your misery when it‘s more the lack of him that makes you feel that way and his sister or brother or mother or whoever would call you and hysterically asked you to go look after him cause his family is stuck on another continent and the only other person who could call refuses to take the phone cause they‘re too busy doing their boyfriend, would you not go cause he is not your responsibility anymore? Because Aaron is my Jeremy. Just like Jer saved your life and made you see that live is indeed worth living, Aaron showed me the same“

„I don‘t think I would surive Jeremy leaving me, you‘ve always been stronger than me. Should I give you a ride?“, Jean whispered.

„It‘s not a thing of strenght Jean, it‘s an addiction. It used to be alcohol that made me forget, made me feel light and free and carefree. I drank and drank until I couldn‘t live without it anymore. And then I met Aaron, I tasted him, I smelled him and he chose me. Me? What did I have to offer him? A boy broken and raised by Exy. All I can offer is Exy. Nothing more. Until he made me see that it was wrong, that I am more than that. And he might have broken my heart and yes I might still love him even though he will never feel the same but I cannot not go there. I have to. I have to be there for them, the way he was always there for me“

„Get your things, we‘re going to the hospital“, Jean replied, unable to put his emotions into words.

So Jean and Kevin left for the hospital while Jeremy tried to calm Nicky down with softly whispered Spanish words.

As they arrived at the hospital Kevin stormed in there.

„Aaron Minyard“, was all he was able to say. Too many memories were connected with hospitals. Too many memories he would much rather just forget.

„Name?“, the nurse said in a bored tone.

Kevin just put a finger on his cheek.

„Kevin Day? I can‘t let you to him, only family and spouses“

„What if I sign something, we take a nice selfie and you tell me where he is. You see I‘m basically family. I‘m the closest and the others can‘t be here until at least tomorrow evening and we don‘t want the poor guy to be all alone and confused, do we?“, Kevin said with his press smile and shining eyes. He knew the charme he had on females. It was just not useful for him as he never really was into that. He never was into anyone but Aaron, to be fair.

„I could lose my job for that“, the nurse replied, her eyes wandering from his eyes to his lips and up again.

„I‘m sure I can offer you something that will you let me to go see him“, Kevin replied with a wink, being disgusted by himself that he even thought about all the possiblities this woman could ask him to do with her.

„Room 21, second floor, station E. You clearly care about him, if anyone asks it wasn‘t me“, she smiled at him. „Besides I always liked Moreau more, I‘m sure we can think of something to do while you are with the boy“

„Sorry“, Kevin whispered to Jean as he ran down the aisle trying to figure out where Aaron was.

The hostpital was a mess of busy nurses and angry doctors, but nothing could stop a determinded Kevin Day. No one. Not even Andrew Minyard.

After what felt like forever he made it to the room, kicked the door open and walked with three long strides to Aaron.

„You fucking idiot, what have you done?“, he whisper-shouted, holding back tears while taking in Aaron‘s sorry state.

„I don‘t need your fucking pity“, Aaron replied, exhausted.

„Did you tell them you can‘t have morphine? Because you might relapse, i mean you already did but we don‘t want it to get worse. And this is not pity, this is Nicky yelling at me in Spanish cause you‘re in the hospital and he‘s in Germany and I‘m the closest to you and he does not want his son to be alone“

„Andrew didn‘t care to come, did he?“, Aaron whispered into his pillow.

„Andrew does care about you he‘s just shit at showing it, that fucking asshole“, Kevin replied softly. „C‘mon what have you done Minyard?“

„Car accident, not that it‘s any of your fucking business“

„How are you?“

„Fucking great, I should let a truck drive into me more often. Very freeing. Very calming“, Aaron said sarcastically, avoiding Kevin‘s eyes.

„A truck. Drove into you?“, shock made Kevin‘s Irish accent stronger.

„Not that you would care“, Aaron‘s voice was barely more than a whisper as he turned around, back to Kevin.

„Aaron first of all I can see you naked ass and not that I wouldn‘t mind the view and I‘ve seen it often enough but the nurses don‘t have to see that too. And secondly of course I care. I always did. Always will“

Blushing Aaron turned back towards Kevin.

„Why wouldn‘t you listen to me if you care so much? You‘re exactly like like Andrew, you guys only ever care when I‘m about to die or do something that doesn‘t sit right with you. Never about me as a person. The conecept about me maybe, but me? Me as a person? No one cares about that“

„You are Aaron Minyard. Born on the 4th of November, 8:31:45 am. You grew up in California in the house next to Nicky. Nicky and you were always close and you didn‘t have many friends because of your mom. Your mom might have abused her and I might hate her for that but you still love her and I get that because on some fucked up level I still care about Riko. You are allergic to cats, peanuts and house dust. You have a freckle right on your right hip, under your navel, from under your left eye over to the nose to the corner of your right eye. You like it when you are hold when you can‘t sleep but you hate showing affection in public. You were 13 when you started exy, because it gave you an escape, but you had to stop because the bruises from your mother‘s beating got to obvious. So you started getting into medicine. You borrowed every single book on medicine you could find and read it at night, always hidden from your mom. You had to have straight As or the beatings would be worse. Your mom did go out to have ice cream with you when it was especially bad. That‘s why you hate ice cream so much, especially vanillia because it was her favourite. Your secret hobby is skating. You feel free when you do it. You want to live at the coast, but not close to Cali, never back to Cali. You want Andrew to notice you and you hate how easily he let Neil in because obviously deserve it more and I get that. You tried drugs to escape, to see what was the appeal. Your uncle never helped you but he brainwashed you into believing he did. You grew up very religous and in an extraordinary homophobic household, you watched your cousin and only friend getting shipped away because he was different, not right, so you confinced yourself you were different. Heterosexual. When in reality you knew since you were 15 that you preferred guys. You liked girls as well. At least you thought but it‘s so much more complicated. Actually it isn‘t. You‘re asexual, you do however like the feeling of sex. You think the process is disgusting, but you still like the feeling. It has to be the right person though. It doesn‘t matter wether it‘s a boy or a girl or something else entierly, all that matters are the feelings the person makes you feel. It took you years to accept that you are not wrong, that you wouldn‘t have to go away like Nicky. You apologized to Nicky. You thought you had to be against their relationships, because that‘s what they made you believe. Old habits die hard. But you got over it and I am very proud of you. You sleep with a teddybear or with another person that cuddles you because the thought of being alone scares the living crap out of you. Your favourite flowers are sunflowers because yellow is a happy color. You hate sweets, you prefer salty snacks. You prefer coffee black, like your sould. You use sarcasm and humor as your coping mechanism. You stole my history books because you love history as well. You also love art but you don‘t think you are good enought to become an artist. You would love to work at Jean‘s studio but you are afraid to ask. You and Jean used to be friends but you cut him off and isolated yourself because your anxities and insecurities took over you again. Sometimes you have depressive episodes, in these you crave drugs more than normally. You want to stop it, you really do but somehow your brain tries to tell you you need it. You would love to have five dogs. An Irish Red Setter, an Irish Wolfhound, a poodle a big one though, a labrador and a golden retriever. You also want to adopt at least two kids. You don‘t want any child to go through what you had to go through or Andrew. So don‘t you dare tell me I never cared for you. Because I do. I listen when you tell me things. I remember every single time you came to me, black out drunk, crying and telling me you‘re worthless. Because every single time I wanted to tell you you aren‘t. You are a wonderful human being and I don‘t understand why I wasn‘t enough for you to stay but I will not let you tell me I never cared about you. Because that‘s some fucking bullshit“

Kevin didn‘t even notice the tears running down his cheeks. It‘s been a while since he was that emotional, since he let his walls down and dared to show emotions.

„You really did listen“, was all Aaron had to say.

„Why wasn‘t I enough for you?“, Kevin replied, voice thick of tears, Irish accent strong.

[secret-engima]

Heyheyhey two things; Seer!Cloud Strife, who wakes Vincent up like, when he's six/five because of what he /saw./ or sky!Cloud that happens to awaken Vincent from his sleep 'cuz sky attraction. (Sephs mum was a sky?? Vincent was 'flame courting' her??) (I JUST WANT PROTECTIVE VINCENT, OKAY? I LOVE HIM.)

Oooooo hmmm tricky. Gonna focus on Seer!Cloud because that’s real interesting-.

Real quick on Sky!Cloud tho: that would be such a chaotic combo. Sky!Cloud in all his feral glory and wild instincts (because Flames are forgotten, secret things in most “civilized” places but Nibelheim is not what one would really call “civilized” in that way so Flames are still a thing) senses a powerful Flame in the mansion and is curious. And he doesn’t want to court the kids his age who have flickers of fire, because they are too weak still and he will smother them on accident (like he nearly did with Tifa, but it’s not her fault, her Flame is young and not Blessed like Cloud’s with Destiny, so it does not roar like a bonfire yet even though it will in time). So he gathers himself and marches to the mansion to find this big Flame, and Vincent is yanked out of sleep when his own Cloud Flames howl at the feel of a young, powerful Sky fighting and fearing the mansion’s monsters above his head. Vincent is moving before he is aware of it, rushing up the stairs on pure, feral instinct that he has tried to hard to bury since losing Lucrecia at the cusp of finalizing their bond, and he-

Arrives. Snatches up the child in one arm while the other fires his gun and obliterates any monster nearby. The child latches on, scared and desperate and longing-

There is a click and a jolt and Vincent keens in a heady mix of guilt-relief-shock-pain at the sudden snap bond. Because he promised he would only love one Sky and she turned her back on him, yet now there is another, younger Sky would understands his soul and bonds with it instantly, before they even know each other’s names, and it HURTS but it is also a RELIEF.

And that is how bby Sky Cloud got the most monstrously protective Turk Cloud Vincent ever. XD

Canon goes yeet. There’s no way Vincent is letting Cloud anywhere near Shinra unprepared, and no WAY he’s letting Cloud get pumped full of drugs in this “Soldier” program led by Hojo. Vincent’s just: welp time to kill the mad scientist that hurt me. And then he finds Sephiroth and he’s like !!!!!!! because he can feel Lucrecia’s Flame signature in Sephiroth’s and Cloud blinks a few times and then is like: oh. Friend? Son of Friend? Okay. My Mist now.

Everything gets more chaotic from there with Cloud casually picking up Soldier and Turk Flames left and right without anyone able to stop him because his Cloud is Vincent and his Mist is SEPHIROTH.

...

Cloud is a not a strong baby when he is born. He is not a healthy one. He is small and fragile and Nibelheim is not kind.

But Cloud’s mother remembers the Old Things and she is desperate and stubborn. So when other mothers would have just accepted the doctor’s grim declaration that Cloud would likely not last to his third month of life, Claudia wrapped him up in every warm layer she could and sets off up the mountain.

She finds the mako spring up there and kneels before it and begs. Begs any who would listen to please, save her child, lend him strength.

The Lifestream hears the cries of a mother, the thready life of a soul that could-be-has-been-one-was their champion in a hundred-thousand other timelines and takes pity. Light reaches up and curls around the whimpering child and a hundred-thousand voices sing softly of healing and Blessing. But such things are not free, and since Claudia is not the one to receive the healing, she is not the one who pays the price (and it is not fair, to make a child pay for the plea of the parent, but the Lifestream is not fair, it just Is, and this is how it has always claimed its dues). Cloud takes a breath and wails, strong and loud in a way he has never been before and Claudia weeps with relief.

She weeps again, later, when she realizes her son’s eyes do not track her movement. When she realizes that he is blind.

(He is not really blind, they learn later, he just sees too much. His gaze is always locked on the future, and every time he opens his eyes he sees a thousand pathways to what-might-be-what-could-be-what-needs-be. He sees people and places, tragedies and joys, laughter and tears and fates not yet woven into place. With all that to look at, is it any wonder he cannot process the present that is right in front of him? It is already a wonder he does not go mad in his first years of life).

Claudia learns to hide Cloud’s eyes and help with his blindness, and Cloud learns to not open his eyes even while awake if he does not want to lose himself. But even with his eyes shut, things whisper behind his eyelids. Not the far future and all its possibilities, but just the near future, the split second decisions that his mind can see minutes ahead of time and choose between. It makes him light on his feet and strange in his words and deeds. The townspeople think he’s Off and they do not like their children playing with him (though some, like Tifa, play with him anyway).

Cloud warns Tifa not to go up the mountain after her mother dies, but she does not listen. He follows her up and tears slide past his closed eyelids as he runs. He is just in time to banish the paths that end in Tifa sprawled out at the base of the high mountainside with a shattered neck. He grabs her hand and brings her back home, but the townsfolk do not like him. They blame him. They tell him to stay away. And Cloud opens his eyes for just a moment when the voices get too close and sees a rush of near-far-unlikely-likely and he cannot tell which it is when he sees paths that lead to the townsfolk hurting him and so he runs away. He slams his eyes shut because he cannot flee if he is too far in the future to remember how to run, but even so the Lifestream curls and twists around him and for a moment, one unlikely path rises to the surface and Cloud SEES.

A friend.

A father.

He turns and instead of running home, he runs for the old Shinra mansion.

He almost dies to the monsters, but his instincts are sharp even with his eyes shut, and though he has never SEEN the world like regular people do, he knows where he is going as he runs down the stairs and flings himself down into the room of coffins with half a dozen monsters on his heels. He crashes against the side of one and screams, “Vincent, help!” and in his voice the Lifestream echoes and yanks and demands just like it does those rare times he opens his mouth and frightens his mother with the disjointed prophecies of Future that spill out.

Chaos roars in Vincent’s head, driving him up and out of his coffin to protect the Little Seer and when Vincent next blinks, he’s standing for the first time in years, there are monsters dead at his feet, and a child sobbing in terror against his leg.

Vincent is confused.

He looks down at the child sobbing past closed eyes and ... doesn’t know what to do. If it were an adult he wouldn’t care, but this is a little KID. Who somehow knew his name. Vincent crouches and forces his rusty voice to ask, “Who are you? What are you doing down here?”

“I came to f-find you,” sobs the child.

“How did you know I was here?”

The child sniffles, clinging to the fabric of Vincent’s cloak and opens his mouth.

The Lifestream’s prophecy spills out “Mourner in Red with no son of his own. Sleeper in Guilt while the world falls to ruin will always awaken and follow when the Cloud calls covers his coffin.” The boy’s mouth snaps shut a moment later with a strangled sound, like he’s choking on more words, and Vincent is an Alarm.

No child says things like that normally. No child SOUNDS like that. Like he is both normal yet not, like when he speaks the world is whispering alongside and giving it an echo of thunder. Chaos stirs in his head, but instead of trying to take over, it just laughs, dark and old and bloody, “So a new seer has been chosen,” it sneers, “I thought Minerva would cease that practice after the death of the last ones.”

Last ones? Vincent thinks uneasily at the more talkative of the monsters in his head.

“People are fickle creatures. Every seer that has lived is either scorned and disbelieved, or revered and isolated. They are either shams or gods in the eyes of other mortals, and their wisdom is both rejected and clung to. With a connection as strong as his that it takes his normal sight, he will either be forced to speak of the futures people desire and then be killed when a different future comes to pass, or he will be shunned and locked away by ‘wiser’ minds who deem him mad.”

Vincent can feel his insides turn cold. And it shouldn’t matter. He is too broken to help in such things and yet-.

The child knew him.

The child knew his name, trusted whatever he saw in the futures unwritten that he came to Vincent for help.

Just long enough to get him home, Vincent promises himself as he awkwardly picks up the child and carries him out of the mansion and into the town. Then I will return.

Except the boy’s mother finds him and she cries in relief and somehow her tears of thanks lead to dragging him home because the boy refuses to let go of him and the woman (Claudia) is very kind and the boy is clingy and the food is warm and-.

And somehow. Despite all his intentions. Vincent stays.

[chattegeorgiana]

Hello! I have really read a lot on your blogs and I love it. I was wondering, what other couple besides NS seems more logical and with development for Sakura or Naruto. For Sakura, which character in the Naruto series would be her perfect match? Same for Naruto

Heyaa, welcome to my Tumblr! Glad you enjoyed my writings. ^_^

Aah, this is a tricky question to be honest, because given the development we have in canon, I don’t see Naruto or Sakura with anyone else. They spend too much intimate time with each other for me to see them with anyone else.

That’s why for canonverse, sadly I cannot see them paired with any other character.

Fanonverse though? Well, the canon pairings could’ve worked well if given the appropriate development. They both have some sort of standing ground. I’ve always said it, if Kishi would’ve given them the appropriate time and plot to develop, trust me, NO ONE would have any problem with them being canon. On the contrary, I think they’d be virtually accepted  by everyone. Because they had a bit of standing ground, it just that after part 2 it was just dropped and never touched upon since the story showed us something else and was busy to build on something else.

I’ve always said it - for SS he could’ve so much built on the revenge plot since Sakura did tell Sasuke that his revenge won’t bring him happiness nor peace. Was she right? OH BOY SHE WAS! He could have so much built on that and have the two of them clash onto those ideals and have it resolved at the end of it.

With NH Kishi could’ve so much built on the being ostracized and considered fails of their supposed role. Naruto in terms of village, Hinata in terms of her clan.

That’s such a solid ground to build on for both of them, and it would’ve been so nice to see it. Instead what did we get? Something purely stupid for both pairings. SS doesn’t even get properly explained more than Sakura turned into an obsessed woman who chased after Sasuke until she got pregnant while Hinata got Naruto as a prize because genjutsu.

Really? What’s with the BS? I cannot understand how people accept these half baked excuses of relationships just because they got what they wanted.

I mean, in SS’s cases if it were viceversa Sasuke would be considered a creep for doing that to Sakura, but if it’s this way it’s excused and ‘tru lub’.

While the same goes for NH, oh wow, he finally noticed her and accepted her feelings. What another display of ‘tru lub’. 

But what about their personalities? Do they work, do they match? In gaiden Kishi shows us that Sasuke is still keeping Sakura void of the affection she so much craves, while Naruto also runs away from Hinata and is reminded of Team 7 whenever some remotely family thing happens.

And people are content with that? Oh wow, what a difference of views we have.

And you know, I can’t even blame individually the characters? Cuz Sasuke never wanted to be in a relationship until he has walked his so called path of redemption, it was just that Sakura forced herself on him. While Naruto thought that must be love because the whole cast in the movie treat him like he was an idiot for not loving the great princess Hinata. But Hinata’s way of being never sparked his spirit like the mere sight of Sakura did. So can you blame them?

That’s talking individually, because if we take it by relationships, well, they also have their fair share of guilt. Boy, one way or another you did it, so take your own damn part of accountability with it.

Sasuke, after all, forced or not, he did sleep with Sakura and had a kid. Be a goddamn father or else you could’ve just rejected the damn girl like you did for the entirety of the series. And the child has no goddamn fault that you two are stupid and cannot manage your adult selves.

Same for Naruto. You entered a marriage. Had kids. Get accountable. Don’t run away and hide into your Hokage status when you know there are other ways to do your job.

OR BOTH OF YOU JUST GODDAMN DIVORCE! As simple as that.

But no, we need drama.

Anyway, I think I ranted enough for now. But yeah, this is kinda my take on it. Hope I could clear up your question. :)

[anyu-blue]

~

I know a big part of it is the sleep deprivation.. again.. but I'm hella depressed.

Like overall I'm.. content? I guess? I have job. = Good. I have place to live. = Good. I have my game(s) I can play anytime I have time/want. = Good. I have appointments to try and get feeling better and keep trying and keep trying when I don't. = Good. I have Kizzy and will probably have him for at least 3 more years, if not longer. = Good. I have contingency plans in place for paying for my surgeries. = Good.

I've got a lot of good right now. And it's not that I'm ungrateful. I am EXTREMELY grateful. Considering my issues I've done extremely well. Even if some of it was on accident.

It's just.. well.. I'm tired, of course. Not sleeping well or much for days on end sucks. Especially because I could have, but people are going to keep living their lives and accidentally waking/keeping me up because they just don't think about my situation 24/7. Or even know it. Or consider it. Because life's too short for that according to, like everyone but me.

I'm sick of course. I've definitely tried the 'I'm doing great/not sick!!' mindset.. and it doesn't work.. cuz stuff HURTS. I don't have the energy to keep pretending either... And I don't think there was really a time I wasn't sick. Not in my whole life.. and It feels impossible to have any hope I'll ever not be physically sick... No matter what or how hard I try. Especially because I'm aging as all people do. Especially being forced to constantly check what I eat because if I don't I can hurt myself/make myself even more sick. Or starve, which hurts me too but is better than the alternatives. Especially being I have to rely on a healthcare system that looks down on what I can afford. Especially because what I can afford is so little. Especially because of our healthcare system being so politically charged people like me with the needs I have (even just replacing bones!!! Hello?! Our STUPID society forgets teeth are BONES and NECESSARY ones at that- but the instant you say teeth people literally don't give two shits, think you're just vain, and 100% brush you off. Even doctors.. and I have cried so hard over this stupid stuff and tried to rally and I'm STILL trying to save my own god damn life. I hate saying that's what I'm doing because I have some of that stupidity in me of thinking vanity... But I'm literally trying to save my forsaken life and be a LOT less miserable, and I feel so hopeless because only the little people who get it actually seem to want to help/be able to push aside that vanity thought and it hurts so badly to ask them to squeeze for me-- thank you if you're reading this and you've reblogged/shared my post. And I cannot thank you enough, and feel I owe you so much if you've donated... Every tiny bit helps. You and I are little people in the sense we don't exactly have $10,000+ to just throw around an have no worries about lol)

I'm.. also lonely? I guess? .. it's probably the best way to describe it. I don't like people all over me. Or really messaging constantly because moods change and People have lives.. but I miss... I want... Stress free interactions. Getting to spend time and go and do things. Not being alone all the time or missing out on everything. Time is meaningless pretty much right now in the sense I've missed all the holidays. 100%. No time spent celebrating or using the time or even seeing people. Im so much a damn adult and yet I still feel like crying whenever my siblings/cousins talk about last halloween because they had so much fun... They spent the day together in matching costumes by themselves at a park. And that's it... I was delirious from sleep deprivation when I saw them for the 5 minutes I did.. and stress because of my ex being the bastard he is to me. And work. So I couldn't join them. And it doesn't bother them in the least. It's such a happy memory for them and I am struggling to let go of the envy. They have so many days they spend together too.. remotely mostly, but they have so much fun. They wake me up alot with their calls.. and get pissed when I'm like hey guys I'm sorry but could you tone it down? I honestly stopped asking lately because they get so pissed and have even been like 'It wasn't me at all!!' even when I can quote what they said back to them and try to find anything and anyone else to blame... My little sister especially is CONSISTENTLY Telling me she has no idea what she even just said so I know it's bullshit it's not her.... And it just hurts. I try so hard. I drug myself to fall asleep almost every single workday now and I hate it. It's not good for you I feel. Says non habit forming but I just. Uck. And I have familiar, soft sound on. And I've shut my cat out. And I've consistently changed my bedding and cleaned and worn masks/covered my eyes, and done everything I can think of to try and make sure I'm going to sleep as long as possible. I don't go to bed and wake up early in the evenings to cook or spend time with them anymore because I'm trying to give myself more sleep. I don't stay up to see my sisters during the day anymore. Because I'm trying to give myself more sleep. I turn everything off (besides what I hope will help with the noise) at noon and try to lay down as soon after noon as I can every day. Anything blue gets covered or turned off. Everything has red light filters too to get rid of the blue.. but I can't seem to get more than a few jagged hours any given day unless it happens to be their early days where they take naps or I end up so exhausted I'm passed out at night when I should be awake so my shifts aren't so hard... So all that adds up to my being alone and lonely as my own damn fault. Because obviously I stopped making the efforts... The thing that hurts most about that is I was the only one making ANY effort at all to include myself in people's lives (still rings true for everyone in my own city at least- family, friends, the works).. and when I HAD to stop and told them why and asked if they'd be willing to meet me sometimes when it was hard for them (even like once a month fully planned out if need be, or spontaneous because I'm NOT picky)... I got yesses. I did. But. Do you think it ever once happened besides the very day we talked about it?

No.

I can and have gone through every single message and note I have (my memory isn't what it was after I got as sick as I did last fall so I try to keep track of everything instead of relying on my memory anymore)... The only person who even slightly tried was only doing so because he wanted every gd opportunity to beg me to sleep with him (pretty much- he wasn't subtle).. and I had to cut him out because he's not a good person in his own right, sadly. Which left me entirely alone in many ways. Which leaves me entirely alone unless I reach out first and sacrifice sleep.

The continuance of this unfortunately has contributed to my depression.. and the fact no one wants to be around cuz I'm a bummer. And the sleep issues have caused irritability I try so hard to control, but at certain stages I just lose my filters and don't want to say stuff or ramble but I also don't want to miss the opportunity with the person (usually one of my sisters) so stuff gets awkward and they don't like being around THAT. And I don't blame them. But I'd do?

Ugh... I know night shift is my fault... And is a major part of the problem... But I work it to avoid People who don't care about me and mine. To keep myself safe. To keep myself from having panic attacks. I'm doing a lot better with them... But I was breaking down so often at or about work it was getting out of hand... With night shift I'm not overwhelmed like that and I don't have to worry do much about my poor mind losing its sharpness as much. I can take my time more or less. And I get paid enough to survive. ....

I'm just depressed and I know it's on me but I wish I had more help than I do..

Wishing is also the problem. Instead of being happy with what I have.

Blargh...

[gothita]

Do you do requests for the BG characters for Obey me? If so, can I get some Simeon, Solomon, Diavolo, and Barbatos headcanons of how they would comfort their lover after a nightmare that makes them feel guilty? (ie they blame their parents death on themselves). If you can't do anyone of them, that's fine! But please do at least Simeon cuz he's my babey

Most certainly I can write the background characters! I’m going to do just Simeon and Solomon for this one because I’m tired and don’t have energy to do Diavolo and Barbatos but if I have time tomorrow I will add those two as well^^

SIMEON:

When your tossing and turning wakes him up, he gently caresses you until you wake up as well. He asks what’s wrong, if you had a nightmare, and has a look of concern on his face. When you admit you had a nightmare, he inquires about what happened in it.

You confess it to him and he immediately goes into a mode that can only really be described as “I need to help you and I will do anything I can to do that because I love you so much”. He tries to tell you its not your fault and give you reassurance but he can tell you might need more than words right now.

He speaks softly to you as he holds you close. His voice is angelic at the best of times, but even moreso now. While petting you from the top of your head down to your back you listen to his soothing voice.

“I promise its not your fault, my love. You did nothing wrong. Nightmares can haunt people but they are merely ghosts and cannot hurt you. Sweet Y/N… I am here for you.” 

You calm down a bit at Simeon’s sweet voice. When you are less shaken up, he pulls away a bit smiles at you while caressing his hand on your cheek in slow, soothing movements. You feel safe with him.

SOLOMON:

He’s sleeping soundly and you debate whether or not to wake him after your startling nightmare that brings back negative feelings.

You decide to wake him, and he sits up in bed to listen to you talk. At first he’s sleepily playful, asking if you missed him so much that you needed to wake him so suddenly, but when you explain what happened he switches to concern and hears out everything you have to say.

He encourages you to be as open and honest as possible as you talk to him about it. He doesn’t mind listening to any dark, negative thoughts you have. He just wants to hear your genuine, honest truth so that he knows the full situation.

He offers to make you some tea with magic cast in it to help you relax. 

“I’m glad you woke me up and trusted me with all this - don’t hesitate to let me know any time you feel unwell, Y/N. You need to know that you didn’t cause this. I’ll help you realize that. I’ll help you through anything. Are you scared? Shh… shhh. Let it out…”

Solomon wants to work through this with you in a way that helps you get to the bottom of why you feel this guilt so that you can get rid of it once and for all. He hands you his warm, relaxing tea and offers to stay awake with you for the rest of the night if you need.

[shirorozutriea]

Rant of a Shipper

I am writing this with fear within me. This post/rant is something everyone may or may not agree in many ways and I accept that. We have our way to see things in life.

The thing I wanna talk about is Frozen ships in the Frozen fandom. We all have different preference of what we should ship in the fandom. I'm probably not aware of other ships so pardon me for that. And I am well aware of the fact that some people hate others ship. In fact, if I mention my ships, yes with s. I'm pretty sure, some might have a violent reaction to it. And I accept that because that's what you think is "normal". I get it.

For example, the ultimate(according to what I've seen so far) the Elsanna ship. Oh yes, I hear the others saying a looot. Okay, I get it. Argument: Your point being it's incest, it's frown upon by the lot and it's against the law. Okay, we get it. But it's fiction.

"No. You can't fill the children's eyes with such hideous thing. Take it away."

Okay, okay. Then take them away from them then. I don't have anything to say. If you think it's bad, then it is. But I'm stressing this out.. It's fiction. Also, you can't fault them for shipping these two. Plus, some people don't ship them in an incest way, they use non-incest tags.

Next in the list, Jelsa. Oh yes, Jack Frost and Elsa of Arendelle now Northuldra. I saw some Anti-Jelsa and okay I get ya, you hate this ship. Argument: its impossible. Jack is a teen and Elsa is an adult. Just because they have ice powers you have to ship them. Again it's fiction. Crossover fiction. You can't fault shippers to actually like them. Besides, it's kinda awesome to see two ice mages just boom boom magic.

Next in line, Helsa. *cue anti-helsa* Calm down geez, wait. Argument: Hans is a villain. He's an irredeemable monster. You hate him. Yeah sure. You hate the guy, please keep it in. There are people who think that Hans must be redeemed. That's okay, that's cool. But please, do not get all angsty because he's a villain. I'm pretty sure there are villains who are redeemed before. And the argument that you cannot pair the villain to a main character. Hey Hey, again... FICTION. Let people be imaginative as they can be. If they thinks it's awesome, then we should not be mad if they ship those two. You also can't fault them for shipping this two. Villain and main is a dynamic y'all. The same goes for Hanna shippers.

And of course the normal ones. Kristanna. They are awesome ship. They are canon. But I'm pretty sure there are people who don't like this two. And I just wanna say let us respect everyone's thoughts.

Also the new edition, Elsamaren. Gaaaay. I knooow. Some people, especially homophobes are against this. But bish please, this two are awesome too y'know.

Seriously I can't find arguments in here to this two. But let me tell you something. I've been telling this for the whole rant. It is fiction. F I C T I O N.

You cannot blame anyone for shipping what they ship. Because it's just them thinking that it is awesome alongside everyone who thinks so too. You cannot see their worth just because they ship something out of the norm. You can't blame them for shipping Elsanna, Hanna, Helsa or Jelsa. Or even the normal ship Kristanna and our gay ship Elsamaren. You can't say that a person agrees with incest because they ship incest, that's not it. You can't say that a person has no taste, because they ship Helsa or Hanna. You can't say that a person is impossible because they ship Jelsa. It is fiction. And that's what makes this whole thing wonderful. With the help of fiction, people can share ideas of their own because they are comfortable with what they are doing. They freely act because they are not trampling anyone.

A ship of fiction is just a ship of fiction. So long as they don't harm anyone physically, mentally or behaviorally. You don't have the right to say that what they are doing is bad or wrong. And also their ship does not define their character.

Me personally on this take, cuz I'm trying my best to sound neutral, clearly I don't sound like it. I'm an Elsanna shipper, proud to be, but I don't support incest. I am an Elsamaren shipper and I'm proud of it and I'm gay yo. I'm also a Kristanna shipper, not because it's canon but because:

Kristoff: I'm here. What do you need?

And:

Kristoff: It's okay. My love is not fragile.

My gosh this two are wholesome, I love them. Also I found Jelsa cute, but I don't really support them as much, but they are cute. And Helsa, psh it's fiiine. I like it they look cool, but like Jelsa I don't really support them that much, but they are cute.

To those who writes or draws for these ships, keep it up. You guys are awesome and wholesome.

And with that my rant has come to an end. Thank you for reading. *bows*

[benreillyscarletspider]

Candy Coated Fury lyric starters

Everyone Else is an Asshole

“I tried to be nice, I tried to live my life, but everyone else is an asshole.”

“Everybody else thinks of no one but themselves.”

“Every friendly chat is a knife in the back or a sneaky attack waiting to happen.”

“They called it assault, but it really wasn’t my fault.”

Punisher

“Calling you a stalker is a little harsh, but that’s almost what you are.”

“You’re unbearable; you are terrible!”

“No one even likes you, can’t you get that through your skull?”

“You’re pushy, and I’ve been pushed around too much.”

“It’s amazing how annoying you are.”

“Calling you a stalker is a little harsh, but that’s exactly what you are.”

She’s Not the End of the World

“Punch me in the face.”

“She’s not the end of the world.”

“Slit my throat if you’re really my friend.”

“What if I drink myself ‘til I die?”

“I guess it’s something in her eyes, like Armageddon coming with the red sunrise.”

“She’s got an apocalyptic kiss.”

Don’t Let Me Down Gently

“Don’t let me down gently if you have to let me down at all.”

“I don’t know your face that well.”

“I’m talkin’ to myself again and you’re talkin’ to the wall.”

“It would be great to die together on the first day of the year.”

“I don’t think of you"

“Do you think of me?”

“How can I explain the pleasure and the pain?”

I Know You Too Well to Like You Anymore

“I know you too well to like you anymore.”

“There’s a nightmare where my dream girl was.”

“My Prince Charming is a bore.”

“In the beginning, we always were grinning; we didn’t even know what we were smiling for.”

“Now I feel sick when I’m around you.”

“I’m stuck with someone I can’t stand.”

“I can’t stand you even more.”

“You’ve got me on such a tight leash that I’m starting to strangle myself.”

“I know that I’ll never be what you want me to be.”

“Your kiss is like razor blades.”

“I don’t like you, but I love you.”

“Please stay. No one makes me more miserable, so please don’t go away.”

“I’ll never be able to forget you.”

“I wish that I had never met you.”

“How did this all get so ugly?”

“You’re always coiled back, ready to attack: your lips curled over your vampire fangs.”

“They say be careful what you wish for, it just might come your way.”

“Of all my worst mistakes, this one is here to stay.”

“You’re a son of a bitch, you know that?”

“You make me fuckin’ sick.”

“I’m so sick of your shit.”

“I wish you’d go to Hell, but I love you.”

Hiding in my Headphones

“I’m hidin’ in my headphones.”

“Gonna drown this whole world out.”

“Get out of my way, cuz I don’t care what you have to say.”

“I don’t mean to be rude.”

“It’s too early to have an attitude.”

“This finger’s for you.”

“People in the city look so intense.”

“I can see them talking but they make no sense.”

“You don’t know who you’re dealin’ with.”

I Dare You to Break my Heart

“I feel it comin’ on.”

“I know there’s something wrong.”

“I don’t even know you yet, but I know what you wanna do to me.”

“Could this be the start of another long, long, hateful love affair?”

“I just cannot allow anyone else inside my head.”

“I have cried as much as I can cry.”

“I have bled as much as I can bleed.”

“No one can hurt me anymore.”

“I dare you to break my heart.”

“C’mon and give it your best shot, baby.”

“It’s gonna take more than you got.”

“I’ve been workin’ all this time just getting it hard for you.”

“I dare you.”

“I think you’re great.”

“Maybe we should date.”

“We could go out drinkin’, have ourselves a beer, and stay out late.”

“I’ve got a heart of stone covered by brick and bone.”

“Don’t try to tame me now.”

“You’ll never slow me down.”

“The harder that you try, the harder you fail.”

“The river that you cry is where I’m gonna set sail.”

“When all is said and done, and we have had our fun, you won’t have your chains on.”

“Did you think someone like you could make someone like me love you anyway?”

“The most important thing that I have ever learned is: if you’re not doin’ the hurtin’, you’re the one who’s gettin’ hurt.”

“Go ahead and try to break my heart.”

Your Girlfriend Sucks

“Are you really gonna let that girl come between you and me?”

“She’s a hater, a manipulator, a crazy psycho life invader.”

“Nobody likes your girlfriend.”

“She’s a beast from Hell, man.”

“This vampire has her fangs in you.”

“It won’t be long until your soul is sucked out.”

“She doesn’t like us, obviously.”

“Your girlfriend sucks.”

Famous Last Words

“Nothin’ on the radio again.”

“I don’t know why I even try.”

“I’m not gonna make it.”

“I don’t think I can take it.”

“I’m gonna quit while I’m ahead.”

“I swore I’d never make the same mistakes, but now I’m makin’ different ones.”

“I can seem to ever get things right.”

“It just feels like I’m goin’ ‘round in circles.”

“It’s too late. It’s too late.”

Lost Cause

“Last time you checked, I was a nervous wreck.”

“Not even here in spirit, but all the memories still haunt me.”

“I think about the good times we could’ve had.”

“I wanna get angry, but it’s just to sad.”

“We’re a lost cause.”

“You’re giving up on me?”

“Do you really think I’m not worth all the trouble that I’ve been causin’?”

“Do you really think it’s a lost cause?”

“You and me.”

“We’re no longer on the same page; we’re not even in the same book.”

“Is it too late to be worth the wait?”

“Have we run out of time?”

“It’s not my fault, but I’ll take the blame.”

“I wanna go back and change everything.”

“If it was all different, would you feel the same?”

“If this is how it ends, well, then that’s a shame.”

“I drove you crazy and you drove me insane.”

“We found a new meaning of hurt and pain.”

“We have beat this love to death.”

“We’re both murderers, I guess.”

I Love/You Suck

“I knew when I met you that you were crazed.”

“I’d never forget you.”

“I’ve seen them come and I’ve seen them go as fast.”

“I wanna let you go.”

“I gotta let you go.”

“Why can’t I just get over you?”

“You hurt me so bad.”

“I try so hard but I can’t give it up.”

“I love you so much but I think you suck.”

“I gotta say, I never thought things would be such a mess.”

“Things always change, but this time they changed too much, I guess.”

“I know the truth, even though I lied to myself so well.”

“This was such a good, good thing, but you took it and you made it Hell.”

“I know you don’t care for me.”

“I know you’re not there for me.”

“You drive me insane.”

“I know I gotta get over you.”

“I try and I try but it’s just no use.”

“Now what am I supposed to do?”

“I think you suck.”

P.S. I Hate You

“You’re evil and vicious and cruel and cold.”

“P.S. I hate you.”

“I’m finally leavin’ you today.”

“If you think I’ll ever come back...”

“I’ve got just one more thing to say.”

“You beat me up mentally.”

“You killed my dreams, metaphorically.”

“You broke my spirit quite literally.”

“Well, it’s all your fault, so remember that.”

“You stole my heart, but now I’m takin’ it back.”

“The joke is on you, baby.”

“You’re just a psycho-crazy.”

“And now you’re on your own.”

“You always wanted to control me.”

“I’m so tired of bein’ your prisoner.”

“I’m finally makin’ my escape.”

“Dear evil bitch I wasted my life with...”

“I’m on my way to start a new life.”

“I’ve got just one last thing to say...”

The Promise

“If you need a friend, don’t look to a stranger.”

“You know, in the end, I’ll always be there.”

“I’m sorry, but I was just thinkin’ of the right words to say.”

“If you wait around awhile, I’ll make you fall for me.”

“I promise.”

“I promise you.”

“These words just come out with no grudge to bear.”

“If I had to walk the world, I’d make you fall for me.”