#I can say the name without fear of doxxing myself

[spyglassrealms]

if nobody got me I know my local pizza place got me. dear Milanos employees, you guys are real ones. mfrs deliver as reliably as the dang postal service

[mara-xx217]

AN IMPORTANT REMINDER

Okay so this is now becoming a serious issue. If you are going to follow this blog, you MUST put your age in your bio.

You MUST be over the age of 18 (eighteen) to follow this blog. If you try to follow my blog and you either state you are not 18 or do not disclose your age, you WILL be blocked.

No discussion, no exception. 

If you are unsure as of why this is happening, why it has come up, or what the reasoning behind this is, I will go into it below the cut.

If you know anything about what I write, then you know that I write a lot of erotica/horror. I do not want minors to interact with me or any content for this reason. This is MY space where I can express myself however I wish or please to do so.

Minors being in this (my) space is unwelcome. They make me feel unsafe. It IS unsafe- for me, for them, and for my followers who are over the age of 18.

I REFUSE to alter what I do and how I write. This is not an "E for Everyone" environment. This is 18 and up space where we can discuss sex, violence, and all manner of uncomfortable topics without fear of judgement or the need to censor themselves because of the possibility that there are minors lurking around.

Having a 14 (FOURTEEN) year old try to follow me today was the last straw. I'm genuinely angry and I'm sick and tired of worrying about (and actually CATCHING) literal children trying to FOLLOW me for my 18 AND UP content.

Starting from this point on, I'm going to be even more proactive in combing through my followers and blocking anyone that

Does not have an age in their bio

Does have an age in their bio and claims to be under the age of 18

I don't care what the reasoning may be. No age = Blocked. Period.

No "It's none of your business".

No "I turn 18 in a few days".

No "It shouldn't matter what my age is".

No age? Blocked.

It isn't DOXXING to disclose this information. I don't care about who you are- your name, D.O.B., where you're from- I don't care I just want to know if you are of the right age to view my content. If you can't do that then get off my page and block me.

I don't want to hear the argument "Kids will find it anyway! What's the point in blocking them?" They may get into things they shouldn't, but that doesn't mean that *I* will contribute knowingly and willingly to that notion. That kind of thinking is dangerous and frankly it creeps me out.

I don't want kids looking at my shit.

No age = Blocked

Please put your ages in your bios.

All I ask is for you to spread this because I'm fucking sick and tired of seeing underage blogs following me and seeing people that claim to be adults (no age in bio) say that there is nothing wrong with having minors on 18+ Only Blogs.

It's fucking gross. Stop it. Seriously.

In conclusion:

NO AGE = BLOCKED

UNDERAGE = BLOCKED

Okay? Okay.

Please share this. I don't want to worry about fucking children invading adult spaces all the fucking time. It's getting tiresome fast.

@prettycutebunny, @infinitewhore, @kennbb, @slutwithadegree, @dead-bxxxtch-walking, @space-arsonist, @pink-soft-shadow, @sinlessdesire, @hoemine

[mirceakitsune]

My thoughts on the election

Considering this is such an important event and ties to personal things, I wanted to share my thoughts on the election like many others have. This isn't going to be some angry rant like in the past, I'm long over making those, just an analysis and my perspective: I'm hoping people understand this, especially on Furaffinity where anything that touches a worldly subject is a risk for me to post even in good faith, I was nervous about writing this but am partly doing it to give a chance to the idea that there's still some ability to communicate and say what's on our minds. I'm not enjoying the pain many around me are going through, some are people I care for who are in a lot of fear and there's not much I can do. I also need to make it clear that no, I don't like nor support Trump, even if I no longer share the horror everyone else has over him: I'm not even from the US, if I was I'd have never voted for either of those two parties and any candidates they produce, if I did vote I'd be voting libertarian every time even if they're perpetually third place. From the start I decided I wouldn't care about the outcome of this election. Since Trump's win was announced last night, I've been watching almost everyone I know fall in a deep depression… something I did too when he first won in 2016, long before a lot of things changed for me.

What I don't understand is how today in 2024 so much hope was put into this one election, a hope people still had. How many thought that if the right person wins, there was still a positive direction for this world to take. That a fight for all that is good was lost just now because this one man won, a fight that still existed and could be won if only this one dude hadn't made it in office. Many don't seem to realize humanity at its core is broken by design and beyond repair right now; Trump, Kamala… I fail to see how these silly figures make any difference when everyone hates everyone else anyway, any ability to communicate and get along has long vanished, and we can all see the system was doomed to fail very soon and very abruptly. If anything it may affect the speed at which it's all happening ever so slightly.

Let me to ask you something: Is Trump the reason why this year I was left without my only income and job I could have, because I refused to DOX myself to Patreon and have my art associated with my name / photo / address / family by complete strangers? Is Trump the reason why I don't feel like creating art any more because I can't safely post what I enjoy doing on this internet even for free? Is Trump the reason why I'm constantly nervous I may be banned from services I still rely on and at least able to watch what others create, over something I don't imagine would offend and may have even said a decade ago and long forgotten? Is Trump the reason why the Xonotic team with whom I spent 15 years working turned on me out of nowhere while we were in the middle of working on code? Is Trump the reason why an artist I follow had to flee France after being arrested for making drawings deemed immoral by the state? Is Trump the reason why if anyone who isn't a commercial animation studio posts an animation containing anthro or dragon characters in some art styles on Youtube, the video is instantly restricted or deleted with their entire channel? Is Trump the reason why I walk on eggshells around the few people I still interact with, because if I say one thing the wrong way I'll be perceived as some maniac and they turn on me next? Is Trump responsible for the world doing its best to ruin my life or the little I ever had of one?

All those things and more happened even without him. Off the top of my head I can't even think of a conservative or Trump supporter that caused me this grief over the years, though I'm sure many would gladly join in given the chance. It was at the hands of those with whom I once thought I had a common goal, who stabbed me (and themselves) in the back just when I believed that maybe I could have a place in this world to some degree and give humanity a chance, who use words like tolerance and acceptance and inclusion almost religiously yet their polar opposites are all I ever got from them. Why then should I worry about Trump and am expected to see him as the root of all evil?! Sure, I don't expect the situation to improve with him of all people, I don't expect anything to improve again with anyone… but it's beyond me how this made anything worse than it would be regardless.

Like I said I'm not happy with what's happening and won't feed off of anyone's suffering, but I definitely feel I'm right to say one thing: The desperation everyone feels over Trump winning is a thing many caused to others whether they realize it or not. They're experiencing what it's like to have the majority of those around you and a world you believed in slap you in the face, tell you that what you need and feel doesn't matter to them, that you need to suck it up and deal with it because others have "real issues" unlike you, that you come second place to what they decided is important. This lesson is one I do think the world at large needed to face. Which isn't to say it will learn from it, oh I strongly doubt that… but many are at least seeing what it's like to be on the receiving end, and it's definitely not pretty.

[chuuyasheaven]

~“♥︎𝐖𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞, 𝐡𝐮𝐧. 𝐏𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 !♥︎’’~

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲; Some of Dazai reacting to you calling out someone else’s name drabble !

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬/𝐏𝐥𝐨𝐭; Overstimulation; Edging; Spanking; creampie (i think); Mentions of “darlin(g)’’, “angel’’, “hun(ny)’’ , “love(ly)’’, “Slut/Whore’’; idk more..

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐞𝐫/𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠; Dazai x Reader

𝐅𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐚𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭; First, i thought of it during math class lol. Maybe there will happen more and i didn’t type it in warnings...otherwise,,enjoy!

(I made this myself ! Did i eat?? *not like Dazai will in this fic hehe*)

𖢻 ~ Dazai Osamu ~ 𖢻

[ Dazai won’t like it. He’ll make sure you won’t do it again. ]

You were totally worn out. After something that felt like hours of Dazai edging you, you were ready to cry.

“Hey belladonna, do you think you could take one more?’’ he asked you. Looking up to him with glossy eyes, he felt his cock harden. Just as you tried saying “no’’ he started pumping three fingers into your pussy without any hesistation. There ! Finally,, the tears !

Dazai loves seeing you cry of pleasure, it weirdly turns him on. But since you managed so many rounds anyway, he might fuck you right after this. Coming closer to your release, Dazai said; “You can cum this time.’’ you knew now it’s time. Climaxing you screamed and you quote;

“Oh my ! Yes, Chuuya !!’’ arching your back.

Dazai stopped moving his fingers completely. Which you didn’t notice at first. Looking up while coming down from your high, you saw how dark his face went. Like my skin LMAO.

Getting kinda scared thinking you screwed up a bit by calling out his enemy’s name, you decided to apologize.

“D-dazai..i’m sorry i-’’ “Shut the fuck up.’’ he hissed, pissed. You really did go kind of far. When you try again, you felt your eyes get teary suddenly; “I-i’m really sorry..i didn’t m-mean *hic*..mean to, Dazai ! I swear..-’’ “Get on your fucking fours. I won’t repeat, bitch.’’ he interupted you again. Quickly doing so in fear of pissing him of more, you saw his face kinda lighten.

*smack*! ~

You felt the harsh smack against your ass, moaning in pain you try to look back but he-

*smack*! ~ -he did it again. He hit your ass again. This sharp like pain made your upper body fall into the sheets. Hearing sigh in a tone of dissapointment, you tried getting up again. Still shaking a little, he- *smack*~! -ed your ass the third time. Failing to hold yourself longer, letting your upper body fall into the sheets again. As Dazai wanted to smack you again, he heard your little sobs.

“Are you seriously crying now? Kind of patethic, my love. Thinking you could call out his name without a punishment? Truly patethic,,even funny in your state.’’ he said.

You didn’t look up to face him because you felt lowkey embarrassed to you. Dazai started laughing, confused you do look back while wiping away your tears.

“Oh my, let me get this clear. You call out Chuuya’s name out like a total whore and then can’t handle the punishment you should’ve thought of?? Hilarious, bella, really. But just incase so this will never happen again, i’ll fuck my name into your brain, got it? And be glad i didn’t just leave you here. Enough talking now.’’ Dazai stated, but you on the other hand? Oh no. He was already edging you for almost forever and the spanking made you even weaker..

But guess what???

He doesn’t fucking care.

He will fuck you until your passing out if it’s needed.

Dazai will fuck you stupid to hear his name out of your mouth before passing out from overstimulation.

“N-no..please..D-dazai! ’M sorry..! But i-i can’t handle another round please..!’’ you cried from exhaustion.

But guess what??

He doesn’t care because he won’t let you get away like that.

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I’m also black so don’t dox me plz xx 💋

[shimenchus]

...I haven't seen a single toku blog receive any ask about a thea someone? And I follow quite a lot. So unless you're hanging out in some really weird circle of it... (after all, due to various reasons, toku tumblr is more like a bunch of bubbles instead of one monolith.)

What I HAVE seen are a lot of them still reblogging satoryuga's gifsets with positive tags, even to this day. From what I understand, most of them are pretty sure that she isn't a terf, and are against the re-uploader. However, they're not sure who is behind it. And judging by how this re-uploader has the means to doxx extremely personal info of random Tumblr users and create loads of sockpuppets, anything is possible. (For all we know, that person could be the re-uploader, or it could be some distraction to hide the real re-uploader's identity.)

This is also why--out of the fans I've spoken to--they've been trying to deal with the situation quietly (reporting hate comments, leaving supportive DMs to satoryuga, etc). We've already seen from the re-uploader's 2nd blog post (where they @ 'd a few people that were against the re-uploader for different reasons) that they're willing to threaten others too. If anything, I think the more accurate thing to do is ask why they would @ those users in particular (since by @ -ing them, they're turning those bloggers into targets). Clearly the re-uploader sees those people as either threats or easy targets to have beef with.

i'm not hanging out in any weird circles i promise you, everyone i follow in the fandom are just other girls who like sentai. yesterday i saw quite a few people getting told to "block and dni" with thea-nymo which is the real account of the reuploader if you didn't know that, there were even people outside of the fandom getting asks which makes no sense because people who don't know what sentai is definitely wouldn't know who satoryuga is lol

i get the fear around the doxxing, i don't think anybody should be forced to do anything they're uncomfortable with and if there's people in the fandom who aren't liking or making shady posts about satoryuga and have privately reached out to her because that's what they're comfortable with then that's great, more power to them.

i mean, i never in my life got so many grown adults telling me to get graphically and violently raped and murdered until i called them out on harassing satoryuga, i know most people would not have the stomach for that kind of stuff so i fully understand the ones who don't want to openly say anything.

but the ones who are leaning into the "i'm not looking at any evidence because someone told me satoryuga = bad = she should get raped and murdered because i can't think for myself" crowd can find a tall tree to get caught up in.

and most of the people that got @ by the reuploader weren't people who against him, it was people he was against lol considering neckspike got @ and that loser was the first person starting the "this is a hoax none of this is real it's a psychop" stuff against satoryuga.

i think stacaesar and diamondsketches are the only people who got @ that the reuploader was purposely trying to draw attention to, to get the cult to attack them too, because much like satoryuga, neither of them did anything wrong.

neckspike and whatever that artist's name was (they blocked me after calling me a crackhead so i don't remember lmao) are super anti-satoryuga and couldn't make a single argument against her/against the people supporting her without resorting to racism and misogyny, so if anybody sent those two even 1 threat... well, babygirl that's on them lol

thanks for the nice message though, i wasn't expecting someone else from the fandom to see it and give a response like this that wasn't another rape threat/"slit your wrists terf" type message.

[mawratmarie]

I don't know how to say this any other way without making people laugh at me or get upset but the dsmp fandom is a cult. /srs

I was in the dsmp fandom for 1 1/2 years, and it fits most if not all the characteristics I could find of cult communities.

Behavioral Control:

- myself and others were manipulated into watching every piece of content the creators put out. Not because we enjoyed it but because if we didn't we would be shunned by the people who did view the content. This affected sleeping, eating, work and school habits.

- fans were/are exploited financially through merch, donations and subscriptions

- especially during periods of controversy, groups of different fans would shun or even attack fans of other creators (especially if they criticized dsmp creators)

Information control:

- speaking of controversy, the content creators warped their fans perception of themselves and most refuse to fully take accountability when they wrong someone (see the google doc, you know the one)

- spread propaganda via fanart, fanfiction, streams, videos, and trending twitter tags which downplays genuinely important topics going on around the world.

- creators distort the views of their critics, such as the speedrun cheating controversy, or fans dismissing offensive clips as being "taken out of context"

Thought control:

- when a fan misspeaks or says something generally negative, this can result in dog piling, doxxing, death threats, and cyberbullying, which deters fans from speaking their mind in the future

- overuse terms like "accountability" or "cancelling" which leads to misinterpretation of the terms which can turn into buzzwords that blend together (this also applies to AAVE which gets overused incorrectly by both creators and fans)

- creators manipulate fans into making their entire identity about the creators (adopting a creators name, speech patterns and mannerisms, tastes, etc.)

Emotional control:

- fans will send eachother death threats, gore, harrassment and other methods to instill fear in eachother

- creators and fans refuse to take responsibility for harrassment or cruelty, and claim that it's the victims fault for experiencing emotions.

- creators use their platform to act and appear genuine to their audience, creating parasocial relationships to get their viewers to be sympathetic in the event there is controversy

I realize in hindsight that the reason I (and a lot of others) were indoctrinated was because of the covid-19 lockdowns and the nostalgia for 2013 minecraft youtube.

I was genuinely traumatized by my experience being in the fandom, having seen and experienced things that I don't wish apon my worst enemies. It has taken me so long to realize because I have been so afraid to speak out about it. I really hope people will take this post seriously since I genuinely believe this fandom classifies as a cult, and I relate too closely to ex-cult members experiences to sit and be quiet.

[informationsorter]

Information Sorter Directory

Welcome. This blog will contain links to official mental health resources, and to non-professional mental health resources. Anything which does not have a source linked to it, is my own personal experience/opinion. It is of utmost importance that you work with a mental health professional on these matters. - Important Information about this tumblr blog. - Who does this blog follow?

- Links and resources.  - What is the one best resource I can offer you?

- Answers to FAQS.  - Myths surrounding DID/OSDD. - Definitions - How to keep yourself safe from fear mongering and misinformation.

For a full list of posts, please click “Keep Reading”.

- More on misinformation. - A Quick Look at Cognitive Biases.

- What is doxxing, and how to avoid it.

- What does endogenic mean?

- How do I know if I have DID/OSDD? - What are DID, OSDD1a, and OSDD1b? - What's the difference between DID and OSDD? - Can DID/OSDD be caused by outside influences? - Diagnostic Criteria of DID. - What is the treatment for DID/OSDD? - How is DID/OSDD therapy different from trauma therapy? - What are comorbid disorders? - What are Non-Epileptic Seizures, and how do they relate to trauma survivors? - Integration VS Fusion - a definition. - End goals of therapy. - Functional Multiplicity as an end goal. - Final Fusion. - A system’s experience with final fusion.  - Is there a core/original? - Amnesia - a quick rundown. - Overt-Covert DID/OSDD.

-  About Polyfragmentation.

- Why does everyone just say "See a therapist"? - How can I find a therapist? - Online therapy. - What to expect in therapy and how to act. - Five types of therapy. - What if I can’t find a therapist? - What can I do without a therapist? - My therapist is forcing me towards fusion.

- Let's talk about self diagnosing. - Anti-diagnosis fear mongering.

- How do I explain DID/OSDD to a little alter? - I have a distressed little/young alter. - Should I name my alters? - How much Separation is too much separation? - Does the ISST-D believe your alters are real? - Solving internal disputes within your system.

- What is art therapy? - What is Cognitive Behavioural Therapy? - What is 3 stage work/ 3 phase therapy? - Meditation and mindfulness. - Grounding/Anchoring. - Learning & practicing life skills. - Relearning who you are. - Self care. - What is Inner-Child work? - Alters with different disorders? - About dissociation (not DID/OSDD specific). - Why do some kids develop DID, while their siblings don't? - Is DID/OSDD Hereditary?

- What is ableism? - Is DID/OSDD a neurodivergence?

Emotionally driven posts: - Am I being selfish by concentrating on myself? - I’m too scared to try new things. - I feel like it was my fault. Personal advice with little/no evidence or citations: - How can my therapist help me tell if I'm faking it or not? - How do I deal with severe swings in mood/personality? - How do you live someone else's life right after self-realization? - The spider bag. AKA How I fight fears with logic. - What is the difference between the DSM-5 and the ISST-D treatment guidelines?, or: Neurodivergence and seeking treatment.

Reblogs: - A personal account about their negative experiences with Radical Inclusion.

- A personal account about temporarily identifying as endogenic.

************************************************************* - What is the one best resource I can offer you?

[cyclone-rachel]

After the incident with Jonathan (and incident was the kindest word that could be used to describe what happened) Jordan didn’t want to see anyone.

No- it was more than that. He couldn’t be around anyone. There was too much of a risk- his head hurt all the time now, his eyes burned, his hands shook. Who could say, if the next punch he happened to throw would end up causing someone to break even more than what happened to Jonathan’s arm, or if when he looked at someone the wrong way, they wouldn’t burst into flames? Whenever he got up to walk anywhere, he had no idea if it would turn into him running at super-speed, as far away from everyone he knew as he wished he could go sometimes, or if he would just take off and his feet would never find ground again.

And yet, people still wanted to talk to him.

After he and his dad left the Fortress of Solitude, Jordan went back to his room, wearing a pair of noise-cancelling headphones. They were supposed to help- along with the lead-lined glasses that Dad promised to make for him, that would cancel out his X-ray vision and heat vision.

(He didn’t want to wear the glasses, and knew he couldn’t for football, but at the same time, he couldn’t imagine not wearing them, and maybe hurting more people.)

Still, though, he heard the knock on his door.

“Go away.” He shouted, as he started up some video game or another.

“Jordan.” The person outside his door said. “May I please come in?”

It wasn’t a voice he’d ever heard before, and whoever it was didn’t sound like they were going to kill him. So he slowly took his headphones off, still carrying them in one hand as he got up and opened the door to find a still-unfamiliar man on the other side.

“I apologize, for the interruption.” He said.

“You weren’t interrupting anything.” Jordan answered, sitting down on his bed. “What’s going on? Are you gonna lecture me? Because my parents already did that, and I’ve had enough of it for one day.”

“No.”

“What?”

“No, I will not lecture you. In fact… I hope that I can help you, Jordan Kent. But for now, I just wish to talk.”

“Would be helpful if you told me what your name is.”

“Ah, yes. That was insensitive of me.”

He pressed some kind of invisible button on his forehead, and in place of his human appearance was a blond man with the same hairstyle, but green skin and a purple and gray super-suit, with three white circles on his chest that made a very familiar symbol.

“Brainiac?” Jordan asked, scooting backwards on the bed, away from him. “What the hell?”

The Brainiac sighed.

“Not the one you are thinking of.” He said. “I am Brainiac 5. Half-computer, half organic lifeform, all Coluan- and not to brag, but a recently uninhibited twelfth-level intellect. My name is Querl Dox, but my friends- past and present- just call me Brainy.”

“Brainy.” Jordan repeated. “Sure.”

“I work with Kara Zor-El- you may know her as your Aunt Kara, although she is technically your second cousin. Or, you may call her…”

“Supergirl?”

Querl nodded.

“Indeed.”

“What… why are you here?”

“You will have to be more specific. Does “here” mean Smallville, or this planet, or this century? There are different answers for each.”

“This century?”

“Yes, I am from the thirty-first- though it is unsafe for me to return, so I am here. Though in the case that that wasn’t the question you were asking and you just wanted elaboration on that one point… there is a long story as to how I came to Earth. And as for Smallville… well, there are versions of myself who once recruited your father, long ago. They trained him, helped him to accept and use his powers to best serve and protect humanity, uphold truth, justice, and the American way- as the phrase goes. I am not here for that exact purpose today, for you, but… I thought you could use another perspective.”

“So you came here out of the goodness of your heart or something, and not because Mom or Dad told you to?”

“If you want to think so, yes.” Querl said. “But I was informed of what has happened recently. Will that be more believable to you?”

Jordan shrugged, and Querl looked at the space beside him on the bed.

“May I sit down with you?”

After Jordan rolled his eyes, he nodded, and once Querl was sitting, he gave him the whole story.

“I… when I was younger than you are, I too hurt a family member I cared for deeply.” Querl said, turning to look at him once he’d finished. “My father- my one hope that I could become someone other than my ancestors. And yet… I still lost control of my emotions. I saw him as the enemy, depriving me of what was my right to have. My first bottled planet, given to me by my mother- I understand now that it is barbaric, but I thought the practice was beautiful. Inside of the bottle, the snow would never melt, time itself would stop- it cannot truly do so, but the point is that it would be preserved. That perfect moment, a reminder that once, just for a little while, I forgot who I was and where I came from. We were just a normal family, and I was playing in the snow, and it was good. I could not let my father take that away from me. So when he tried, I…”

He ran a hand over his forehead.

“It took a long time for me to accept that I did not deserve what he did to me in retaliation.” He said. “I hope, Jordan, that your path will be smoother than mine.”

“What he did…” Jordan murmured. “You said you were recently uninhibited. Did he… inhibit you, or something?”

Querl gave him a sad smile.

“I wish I could tell you otherwise. But yes, he did- and I let myself remain inhibited for over twenty years, because I was so afraid of what I could be without them. Because my own father ingrained such a fear of my potential, my ancestors, into me, that he did not trust me to overcome them, and as a result, caused me to not trust myself.”

“But you trust yourself now.”

“Yes. But as I said, it was not an easy thing to accomplish. However, you are still young, and your parents have no interest in inhibiting you.”

“What if I don’t want powers at all?” Jordan asked. “My brother’s the one who should have them. Especially after I- what I did.”

“I have heard that before.” Querl said. “In another circumstance.”

“And what happened with that?”

“It is a work in progress. But she is still learning, as are you- as all of us are.”

“Even you?”

Querl nodded.

“And Supergirl, and your father, and your mother, and Jonathan. Learning is, in some ways, the point of continuing to live- and just as I learned that I was more than my family, that I could use their power for good, you have so much to discover about your powers, and your own family and history.”

“And then I won’t hate myself?”

“I am not sure about that. It’s up for you to decide.”

Jordan scowled.

“Apologies. But… if you have other questions…”

Querl reached for a pocket in his suit, and withdrew a gold and black ring.

“This was in the Fortress of Solitude- it was your father’s. However, though it is now from a different timeline, it is still connected to every other Legion ring in this century. Namely, the one belonging to Supergirl, and my own. So if you wish to talk to either of us-“

“You’re always around, I get it.” Jordan said. “My dad has something like this.”

“Yes, the Signal Watch. I am aware of such technology.” Querl answered. “It is the same principle.”

“Right. I guess you have to get going now.”

“I do.” He said, and gently placed a hand on Jordan’s shoulder. “Farewell, Jordan Kent. And good luck.”

“Bye, um… Brainiac 5. Thanks.”

“You are very welcome.”

And, as it turned out as he started up a game, he found that he was- thankful, that is. And he already missed Brainiac 5’s presence, hoping that he’d see him again soon.

[ramune-raven-art]

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dislikes

normal things people hate, homophobes, racists, yadda yadda you all suck dni.

being alone/bored

people using my designs/art without credit

random dm's! please tell me why you wanna talk to me in your intro message, please don't just message "hi :)" and try to make friends. ((friends who I already know obv are good to message me hi :)))

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info on me:

I'm Ramune raven! I like to draw dragons and make dragon aus. I am not kidding if you look through my blog you'll find my FNAF dragon au. I am a feral dragon harnessing beast of which even god fears himself.

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I'm ok with:

420, weed friendly. smoke it myself.

18+ depending on context ((no Homestuck or most fandoms I'm in. they're 13 >:(//

horror

arguments depending on context

dms

roleplays

I'm ok with people using my species and designs with direct credit ((reblog, @, or link. nothing else I'm ok with))

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not ok with:

NSFW involving almost all fandoms I'm in due to characters age.

dsmp for the most part. on ponytown I get harassed by dsmp Stan's as urahara from bleach, plus my only other experience with them is stories of them vandalizing important memorials, doxxing people, and even worse, I get most dsmp fans aren't like this, but all I've met are. I'd prefer if you are a dsmp fan you don't discuss anything dream with me. that's about it, I'm fine with you guys otherwise

real excessive gore/really bad body horror. thinks like Akira, repo the genetic opera, and happy farms are good for me, real excessive gore isn't traumatic for me, it's just gross.

uncanny horror, I'm ok with it if I'm the one scaring myself.

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current fandoms im in/has been in

soul eater

homestuck

camp camp

fnaf

pokemon

horror in general

bleach anime

indie music ig??? late night drive home, foster the people, ext

goth music

rock

music in general

uhhh

family guy

south park

a lot of musicals, Les mis, repo, rocky horror, little shop, grease hairspray sweeney ext ext

lol I'll list more later

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tags and their meanings on my blog!

#reblog: what it says!

#not art: not my art, doesn't mean the post itself isn't art, just not my art

#ramune raven art: my art tag! all my current art is posted under this tag

#raven talks: just talking posts that aren't art centric, sometimes my writings will be considered raven talks!

#draw later: expect fanart soon!

#art inspo: I look up to your art!

#inactivity notice: I don't have any posts lined up in que/am in art block or overall busy!

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that's about it!

thanks for reading this long ass post, and I hope y'all enjoy your stay in my blog!

[thefabelmans2022]

@servingcunt tagged me in this cute lil ask game, tysm bestie this was so fun!!!!!

why did you choose your url?

inspired by my idol, katerina stratford from the seminal classic film 10 Things I Hate About You

any side-blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them

i have @incorrectamericanvandalquotes which is an incorrect american vandal quotes blog which i have not updated in a very long time, and i have one that i made for an assignment last year that just has a few reblogs and a piece of writing about wuthering heights so if you're at all interested in reading my ramblings about wuthering heights and the idea of the tumblr feral woman and female emotional repression lmk and i'll tell you the url bc honestly i think it was pretty good.

how long have you been on tumblr?

since like march or april 2013, so like a month or two before my 14th birthday. i've had the same blog the whole time. please don't look at it.

do you have a queue tag?

i literally JUST figured out how to queue stuff AJSHABDHS, so no. i do queue stuff sometimes but only bc sometimes i don't want people to know i'm online but i still wanna reblog stuff

why did you start your blog in the first place?

i'd been lurking for like. years. so i just finally decided to actually make an account because using tumblr on a browser without an account (which is what i was doing) is nightmarish.

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

i'm obsessed with wanda maximoff duh. also i had picked my header and i wanted something red/pink to match it and i found this one and she's wearing red and has the most amazing energy that i wanted people to feel when they saw my posts.

why did you choose your header?

i'm obsessed with ivy by taylor swift. best song of all time i fear

what’s your post with the most notes?

oh god it's probably this awful fucking reblog bait i made when i was like 17 testing if there was a correlation between hogwarts house and whether someone is a boogara or a shaniac. it's terrible bc 1. that was pretty cringe of me ngl 2. it very clearly says 'in the tags' but people still reblog it and don't put their answers in the tags they only put it in the reblog they reply or they just reblog it and leave the tags blank and i'm like bestie the instructions were very clear.

how many people do you follow?

too many. 1237 to be more specific.

have you ever made a shitpost?

darling, with me every post is a shitpost

how often do you use tumblr?

i would say too much but can you really spend too much in your own home? like i'm always here but of course i am i live here.

did you have a fight/argument with a blog once? who won?

yes ♥️ they did not admit defeat but they stopped arguing in the reblogs and switched to the replies so i think it's clear who won (me)

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this post’?

don't tell me what to do.

do you like tag games?

i ADORE them!! i love being thought of and i love talking about myself ♥️

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous? 

i think all of my mutuals are cool and intimidating and if i actually answered this question it would be incredibly embarassing for me but let's just say yes i do consider some of them tumblr famous and i love that for them im so proud ♥️ also am obviously obsessed with emily referring to herself as "Kafkaesque" bc it's so true. all those urls is the TRUE metamorphosis.

do you have a crush on a mutual?

i'm in love with all of you let's kiss 😘

last song i listened to

i hoped beyond hope that it wouldn't be a taylor swift song but alas i checked spotify and it's king of my heart by taylor swift. i truly do listen to music that isn't taylor swift but you would never know that from looking at my tumblr.

my phone bg and lockscreen

i'll just put a screenshot. my lockscreen is the same as my bg, it's a picture of my wife 💖 also blocked out my location not doxxing myself today ♥️

tagging

@quinnmorgendorffer @gobbluthlesbian @gobbluthbisexual @bethecowgirl @grasslandgirl @distortedfractals @bettymp3 @dilfmaverick and anyone else who wants to do it <3

[sternenteile]

wrapping things up with some closure  on the ty/cho situation. this is the last time i will be bringing it up. if you’re wondering what i’m talking about, you can see the receipts and the files here. massive content and trigger warnings here include, and are surely not limited to, gaslighting, abuse, sexual harassment, ableism, antisemitism, racism, and most damning of all, literal and actual rape. i’m telling you, it’s bad. take my word for it when i say to avoid ty/cho at all costs. this is not some meager drama; this is a legitimately dangerous individual. what’s worse is there are even more details i know now (not included in the callouts) that i cannot divulge, as they do not involve me, as if this scum of the earth could be any worse. just know that this is a very terrible person and to not read the receipts if you don’t think you can handle the contents. in such a case, please just take my word for it instead and block him, avoid him, all that jazz. he is an actual rapist. avoid.

that being said, the theme i’ve noticed with all of this tomfoolery of his and actual crimes and traumatization of people is the domineering of an entire group of rpcs using intimidation tactics, including over those he’s hurt the worst, in the most reprehensible, objectively inexcusable ways ever.

the rpcs tycho played prominent roles in are beyond just pokemon and sonic. the way i met him was through the smash brothers rpc (which, unlike the general smash fan base, is a darling and kind community). smash is rather all-encompassing for video games even outside of nintendo, and he is plenty aware enough of the fandoms within that umbrella. mario, zelda, fire emblem, pokemon, sonic, metroid, castlevania... you name it, he knows it, and he will therefore have association with it that makes him a danger to these communities as is. his influence cannot be understated. he was a huge influence for a lot of people and groups.

the way he weaponized anything he could get his slimy hands on left so many people fearful and in silence. the worst i’d gotten were some jitters about how... out there and volatile he could be, but i’d otherwise not been suspicious of anything too egregious, especially nothing like what has come forth. i really didn’t get the brunt of it. however, the subtleties were there, and they had unfortunately lulled me into a sense of security that he, in all of his flaws, was a fine person and an admirable man. of course, we all know now how horribly wrong that is... but it goes to show that his charismatic nature had been used expertly to harm many people for his own selfish gain.

he left entire communities and groups of people mum on the situation. no one, no one was able to speak up in fear of retribution, not to mention the fact that his smooth way of manipulating people made it seem like he was on this untouchable pedestal. it was quite the opposite, and we all know that now. the only reason he was on a pedestal was because he brute-forced everyone else away from his level, threatening the worst if anyone so much as dared to find stable ground with him. in reality, though, his pedestal was a farce, a pillar filled with cracks that was destined to fall. it didn’t just crumble, though, no. it collapsed and was promptly blown to smithereens. once that one hunk of rubble came loose from that pedestal, his world came crashing the fuck down. it was an inevitability, and i’m sure he knew it was.

why would i make a statement that bold? simple: when i caught wind privately of what had gone on, i’d blocked him on all fronts. it hadn’t been more than perhaps a couple of hours before i realized that i’d still had him on my twitter, too, but he’d blocked me already before i got to do so myself. it often takes some time to realize a mass-blocking has happened, at least from what i can imagine (as i’ve not been mass-blocked like, ever before in this rpc i think?), but ty/cho was on it fast. it was almost as if he was watching and waiting for the shoe to drop. it was like he knew. it happened so quickly that it gave me whiplash. he was waiting for this.

another fun little detail i found was that he, as he had done to many other people who treated him with nothing but kindness, shit-talk me behind my back. let me tell you that the smash fan base is a terrible place where you can be harassed just for liking your comfort character, thinking they would be a good fit to the roster, even if your behavior is innocent and without harm or annoyance to other smash fans. those who have been here long enough will know that i’ve undergone a lot of bullshit because of my love for geno, and so have other geno fans who have done nothing but innocent speculation. one person i know personally had even gotten his and his elderly parents doxxed with death threats launched his way. i’ve seen people state that they want to, ah... let’s just say knock the wind out of geno’s fans and cover them in flammable material. let’s just put it that lightly. it’s very bad.

ty/cho knew this. i’d vented to him about it once. i praised him for being a competitive smash player that wasn’t as vile as any of the trash in that community (an as an addendum, there are some good comp smash players! the bad ones are just very prominent and very loud!). i praised him for accepting people of their comfort characters, emotional support through way of a character i connected with, not to mention the cases for many other folk, as well.

turns out, he used that information to shit-talk me behind my back, whining and complaining about me daring to like a character that ‘nobody cares about’ as if i was some fucking smegma gremlin on the face of the earth. you know, ty/cho? he did that, yeah? the guy who played nack the fucking weasel? the guy who knew i was sensitive about this shit because of what the smash fan base put me through? the guy who obsessed over and loved his own comfort character, too, and should have understood what that felt like?

needless to say, i’m pretty reviled about that. i entrusted him with this information, and he knew how much it hurt me... so he weaponized it. he specifically picked out what pained me and utilized it for harm when i trusted him. my case is a whole lot of NOTHING compared to everyone else’s, to be sure, but the core concept is chilling. he will find out what hurts you the most and attack you unprovoked with that knowledge. thank god it was just about my fucking comfort character and nothing worse, because others were unfortunately not as lucky. i got out totally unscathed by comparison.

the way he used puppet strings and played people like fiddles to keep his image pristine was beyond fucked up. he tarnished the trust of so many people. he made entire communities drop and leave because they were terrified of ty/cho ruining their lives even further. they felt unwelcome around excellent people who had done no wrong to them because of ty/cho, when said excellent people more than likely felt the same and feared them because of ty/cho. it poisoned the entire well for these communities and made everything go so quiet. the sonic rpc and smash rpc, in my experience, suffered the most. a lot of my sonic mutuals and sonic mutuals of friends either left or went awfully silent. the once-hopping smash rpc became practically like a ghost town. all. because. of. ty/cho.

he is a danger to both individuals and to entire communities alike. he doesn’t care about what we as people think, though, so how about i pull the nasty, petty card and hit him where it hurts? considering all that he did, i think it’s more than justified. ♡

ty/cho, you objectively will never live a fulfilling life where you make an impact on the world. you will never do anything medically if you can’t find it in yourself to empathize and care. you will never do anything for the people you supposedly ‘care for’ if you throw them under a bus at any and every opportunity. you will never do anything for racial justice if you use the movement and Black lives to abuse others, lie (nice to know that protest i feared for your life over turned out to have never happened in your area to begin with, LOL, i want my lost sleeping hours back) and better your own image. your image will never be a pristine, perfect image. you are not a god among men and never will be. you are not hot shit. you will not leave a positive legacy on the world. rapists don’t do that, you son of a bitch. go to hell where you belong and burn for eternity, where deviants like you become fucking rump roast. enjoy your unfulfilling life that will never amount to anything for yourself. :)

[kinetic-elaboration]

May 11: Mr. Robot 4x09

I watched another ep of Mr. Robot tonight. I’m really enjoying this season! I think it’s the strongest since S1 and I really appreciate the thoughtful, deliberate pacing, both of each individual episode and of the series as a whole. I know I’ve said this before, but it’s really pared down both its cast and its plot so it can really focus on giving the remaining characters good send offs/finishing all the loose ends without hurry.

This ep, like most of the others this season, felt like a little mini-movie in and of itself. I liked how even in S2, the show wasn’t afraid to stay with one character/story line for long scenes, even though, because I found the story lines that season very uneven, that meant long passages of brilliance were offset with long passages that felt like a bit of a slog. But this season has even fewer story lines, and most of them are fairly intimately connected to each other, so it can take that storytelling strategy and ramp it up. Some of the episodes, like today’s and the last couple, are really only one story line; they’re very contained and have their own unique feel and texture.

Today’s ep was very satisfying. I love seeing Price and whiterose go at it, and, as with all of the other characters who’ve been offed this year, I felt like Price got a great send off. I don’t want to say he’s “redeemed” in the traditional sense, but like... he also might be my favorite villain redemption? Because I’ve long thought of him as one of my favorite villains, but I was really on his side today. I don’t know that it’s because he’s started helping Elliot, but... I don’t know, whatever good he’s done doesn’t undo the bad, especially since it was basically for the petty reason of “I’d rather see you lose than win myself,” but... how to explain? It was very IC of him. If he were to redeem himself in any way, or realistically become a sort of Elliot ally, it would be for precisely that reason. So it wasn’t a jarring development or one that undid or ignored his prior characterization. But the main reason I liked him today was just because he was entertaining. Price off the leash. Price with no more fucks to give. He’s already lost, so they can’t do anything to him now. I think that whiterose thought he still had Price’s own life to hold over Price but like... if that’s all you have left, if you’ve pulled all the other strings with someone, you’re not in a good position. I honestly thought Price was going to commit suicide, so I was surprised when whiterose shot him. My mom suggested perhaps he did, as in he knew that would happen, but idk if I agree. That wasn’t the vibe I got. I do agree he was just talking to buy time for Elliot, or mostly talking for that reason, but I also kind of thought he legitimately believed he’d be able to walk away from this. He is very used to being the most powerful one in the room. I also really felt the unthinking rage in whiterose when he took out his gun and pulled the trigger. I felt bad for Price, but what an appropriate way to go... bleeding out on the red carpet of a fancy staircase.

Darlene was the real MVP of this episode. I loved her single handedly bringing back fsociety. I loved seeing the Alderson siblings Win. I loved that the plan ultimately expanded to not just taking money but naming names--there’s something very satisfying about the idea that shining light on nefarious doings will be enough to end the nefariousness, even though that isn’t true, and the show didn’t entirely play into that idea. The people coming to gawk were a bonus but they weren’t necessary to the plan--only the fear of them was, and the ultimate goal was still to take the group’s money, not its fame. As whiterose said, he can survive a doxxing. Fame, infamy, secrecy, light: these are only tools that can help or hurt the powerful in making money, which is all they care about. Important tools, but they’re still not the heart of the game. So I’m trying to say that I felt the episode kind of had its cake and ate it too: the spectacle of bringing to light the evil doers feels good to see, but it didn’t replace the original plan; there was no sense that all that’s really needed is “transparency.”

I’m not even going to go into any thoughts on the personalities today... I can’t even. I need to watch the show like 4 more times lol. I do think Mr. Robot is the first personality. I think he’s the “handler” of the Hacker, who was either brought forward or perhaps created for the purpose of the Ecorp hack (can’t remember my theory on how all that worked tbh), because he has particular skills that are useful for that, but now Mr. Robot has lost his handle on him. The Hacker doesn’t know he’s a personality and now he’s trying to take over the body. Darlene told the real Elliot about Vera--which is very interesting because imo we haven’t seen the real Elliot since S1--and everyone but Mr. Robot really wants to reign the Hacker in, but Mr. Robot is trying to give him some more time. That’s about all I got, though. I can’t remember/not sure if I have a good theory as to how old the Hacker is or why he was created. And I think my only theory as to “why Ecorp?” is that Angela had a lot of debt.

A few other small things:

I love that NBC had an fsociety drama lol. Of course they would.

I definitely saw a Tr/mp character in the Deus Group meeting.

That last scene was amazing. I love when they do that thing where the soundtrack of noises goes over the credits.

I only have 4 more episodes left total, 2 that I haven’t seen. It feels weird that this whole season has been about this hack and now it’s done--but then I think about the final season of the 3% and how the final mission was resolved with several episodes left to go, and how great a decision that was, so I’m feeling confident about it.

What’s left to resolve:

--Elliot’s various personalities, including the question, who is the mystery person they were talking about in the first scene? (I already know the answer to this and I also know it’s revealed in the last two episodes.)

--What happens to the stolen money?

--What is whiterose’s project? (I’m assuming this is the second to last thing to be resolved as I remember it being somewhat of an open question even within the finale.)

--Dom and Dom/Darlene. I assume this will be at least part of the focus of the next ep, based on the summary.

[stockholmgf]

Sorry if this is overboard, there's too many good ones lol.

3: 3 Fears

5: 4 turns on

10: How tall am I

25: Ever done a prank call?

55: What is something I disliked about today?

61: What was the last lie I told?

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

129: Peed outside?

142: One of my scars, how did I get it?

no apologies necessary lol, literally thank u so much for writing all the questions in that makes life much easier

3: the wizard of oz movie and anything to do with it, heights/flying, crabs 🦀

5: this is such a broad question it’s hard to pinpoint specific things but i’ll try to: confidence without arrogance, that type of dominance where they just seem to know exactly what to say or do to push all the right buttons idk how to explain it, good hands/arms (cannot stress that one enough), if u can genuinely manhandle me then u have my heart immediately. there are plenty more but there’s 4

10: 5’6”

25: a few of course, always something stupid when i was with friends and never anything very entertaining

55: i was supposed to be a lot more productive today than i was, not proud of my procrastination :/

61: “yes i’m almost done with the essay 😁”

68: not particularly but it doesn’t bother me a lot

70: dislocated my kneecap a couple years ago, that was not fun

76: i would put my own last name but i don’t want to dox myself

85: i guess if we’re talking IRL i would really not like to admit to anyone that i’m still a virgin (but of course i’ll tell the internet cause anonymity and all). that just seems really awkward and i feel like there’s a lot of implications to it

129: probably lol when i was like a small child, but not recently

142: i would like to answer all of these truthfully so i’ll admit that the only scars i have currently are some very old self harm scars

[vulcan-highblood]

I don't know if I've asked this yet, but if you could plan out a Brainy backstory episode for Supergirl, how would you do it (what would lead into the flashbacks), what would you want to see in those flashbacks, and (if you have an answer) who would you want to see as young Brainy? (besides Jesse himself)

Ok well first of all I am so bad at actors, I'm a super auditory person so I have no idea who should play young brainy, I'll leave it up to the casting director.

Now that we've settled that, ooooof im.... Brainy backstory is such a delicious topic! One option would be someone rejecting him for being Coluan, triggering Tragic Backstory Part 1: The Child Who Was A Genius But Also Everyone Hated Him Because He Was The Wrong Kind Of Genius

I've always seen Brainy's rejection stemming not only from his family background but his own idiosyncrasies, and the insistence of others to lay those idiosyncrasies at the feet of his Brainiac heritage rather than consider it a personality or character trait

Imagine every part of who you are is immediately written of as "well you're a Brainiac I'm not sure what I was expecting". You're constantly being held to ridiculously high standards, but if you meet them it's treated like the bare minimum, and people all fear or hate you because of your family tree. Being hated for a shared ancestry with Brainiac 1 is old hat, but I get the feeling it doesn't get any easier.

That's part of my theory about why brainy was in a "dark place", too. If all the expectations are so high but you never get any positive reinforcement, it's very hard to see the point in continuing to do what's expected. I don't think Brainy was evil, but I could definitely see him in a sort of Chaotic Neutral "i do what I want Because people hate me anyway so why bother appeasing them"

I feel like you'd start with a minor breakdown - like, Brainy is confronted for being a "collector" (because yeah timeline wise they're probably not wrong) by some random alien and him having a rough time answering that because he Was (as a child), and his inability to deny the accusation might feed into some other aliens sort of verbally assaulting him. He runs off and is comforted by [Dealer's choice, I'd probably choose Kara but I'm chill with Dreamer or even Alex filling the role] who pries a bit like "people who know you know you're not like that, though"

Brainy meets their gaze with a tired resignation, "Do they?"

Cue flashback - kids his age, calling him collector, mocking his inhibitors, yelling "run away, the Brainiac is going to go crazy and bottle you!!" Etc.

Cut back to Brainy, who says something like "maybe so, but for a very long time, people who thought they knew me held a very similar opinion to those [aliens] in there."

Cue flashback two - Querl is older and even more isolated. We see his father, watching him, not the way a father watches a son, but the way one watches a feral dog - curious, vaguely sympathetic, and above all else, wary. Querl glances up to his father, a smile blooming across his features, until he catches sight of the look on his father's face, and the smile drains away.

"My own father likely would have agreed with them," he says in a softer tone.

"I'm sure he wouldn't," his comforter insists, but Brainy shakes his head.

"If he hadn't, then he wouldn't have sent me away"

Flashback 3 - querl, packing his bags, his father watching without expression, arms crossed over his chest. Querl, boarding a ship, the broad hand of RJ Brande resting on his shoulder, guiding him aboard as he describes the quality of research resources available at the Time Institute. Querl dates a glance back over his shoulder. His father is already walking away, his back to the transport ship. Querl's shoulders hunch inwards as he turns forward once more.

"He sent you away? To where?"

"A place called the Time Institute, though there were abundant research projects unrelated to temporal phenomena of which to avail myself. There were not, however, many research labs that welcomed someone as young, and... Obviously troubled."

Flashback: "Can't say I've ever met a Coluan before, your kind don't go offworld very much. What did you do, bottle a planet?"

Querl flinches, though his reaction is significantly less dramatic than his reactions when he was younger. "I'm not interested in shrinking technology," he says awkwardly, "I was interested in temporal anomalies."

"Right, whatever, just stay out of the way."

Another flashback. Querl is older, his face less expressive, his eyes colder. He's working alone when someone approaches.

"Hey Brainiac, what are you working on now? A way to bottle-"

"My name is Querl,” he interrupts tersely, not bothering to lift his gaze. "do me the honor of addressing me as such"

A few more 'advanced bullying tactics' like "oh sorry, I didn't see your name on the lab requisition, Brainiac' "It's Querl Dox, I signed up last week-" "What are you gonna use the lab for anyway? There's no planets for you to collect in there"

"Hey Brainiac, are you collecting labs now? You have projects going on half the floor, why don't you bottle a few and leave room for the rest of us?"

"Hey Brainiac, what's your problem, don't feel like eating with the rest of us or are you too busy collecting planets to take a break"

"Hey Brainiac,"

"Hey Brainiac"

"Hey Brain-"

"MY NAME IS QUERL!! Sprock!"

Cut back to present day. "I was not... Popular among the research residents. I became increasingly isolated, and felt as though there was no one who knew me, or would even care to know me. So I... I stopped caring, too."

Flashback: Querl, alone in a lab. Querl, shoulder-checking people as he walks down a hallway, nose buried in an omnicom. Querl, eating alone in his lab. Querl, running between experiments that would benefit from an extra set of hands. Querl, sleeping alone in his lab. Querl, typing furiously at a keyboard, scowling and muttering at the formulas. Querl, an explosion ripping through the building, him barely blinking from behind a forcefield while anguished cries sound from behind him.

Querl, seated alone in a chair, RJ Brande staring across his broad desk at him.

"You know the protocol for potentially destructive experiments, Querl," the man says in a calm, disappointed tone. "Why didn't you follow it?"

Querl, staring at his lap, mumbles, "I didn't think anyone would notice"

From this point on, the bitterness becomes more pronounced.

Honestly I could go on to the point where he is actually put in holding for willful endagerment of sentient colleagues, but I think we can guess the story from there. Mon-El. The Legion. Bitterness slowly softens. Friendships blossom. Querl takes the very name used to abuse him, and finds strength in it. He becomes a hero.

[ithinkthingsaboutstuff]

do you think Brainy hates himself? (or has in the past)

ah, the big question. (i was wondering when we would get here)

I think there is a lot of things to be said about Brainy and how he views himself. This question as always perplexed me, as it holds weight on either end.

does he hate himself?

I think it at first he doesn’t know he hates himself (take him getting angry at his father taking away his bottle for example) 

Like when did the moment hit him that he was a bad person, (i.e what he got arrested for, the bottle planet tantrum, and so on)

what made him think ‘oh no those things were so very wrong of me’

or was it slower then that did his time with the Legion and slowly becoming friends with them make him realise his mistakes 

or was it seeing his mothers down fall? (i.e his fathers reactions to her actions, she might have been arrested and so on)

now i bring all of these up because it sets an important question.

does he hate who he was or does he hate who/what he is? 

(i.e part of the brainiac family)

now this can boil down to interpretation, (as all this do)

so lets look at the ‘evidence’ 

3x10 (the old faithful)

when he enters in that scene he stands up straight and gives Kara his big introduction and he opens with

“I am Brainiac 5, half computer half organic life form all clouan and not to brag but a 12th level intellect, my name is Querl Dox but the Legionaries just call me Brainy.’    

now notice the first thing he tells her is that he is a Brainiac, you know the thing her and Clark are known for smacking around in the future. 

and i personally think this is him starting with the least important things about him and ending with the most.

so basically

‘Hi, I’m a Brainiac, but don’t worry i am some what organic/ more ‘human’ then them, I am smart (coluan)  no like really smart (12 level intellect), but my ‘human name’ is Querl, but my friends call me Brainy, which is what i want you to call me.’

that progression shows that he can and does identify with the less then nice side of himself he just does not give it to much attention or level of importance when compared with the legion.

so in this moment i don’t think he hates himself. or at all when he is with the legion because they have build an environment where the fact he is a Brainaic/ all the bad things he has done are not important to them BUT they also knew about them from the start, so Brainy known’s for sure they care about him and the person he has become/ was becoming.

but

looking back at the ‘emotional kin ship’ part the way Kara talks about her cat can be linked but to brainy experience with the legion.

Kara “i used to go out every night and feed him, i did want to touch him, i was so strong i was afraid i would hurt him, so i practised being gentle then one day i pet him and he purred and everything was ok. I felt like an alien on earth for so long but he made me feel like a human.”

but for brainy it was basically 

Brainy ‘spent time and worked with the legion, i did want to get emotional close to them, i was so dangerous and cold to people i didn’t not want the legion around me, but I tried being nicer and kinder, and more vulnerable, and I did let the legion in and they become my friends and my family, I felt like a dangerous and unlovable person but the legion showed me other wise.’

so in so many words Brainy did hate himself but i think it was more ‘after the fact’ after all he told Nia in s4 that when he was arrested he was ‘forced to be a hero’ or at least he would not have chosen that for himself on his own.

so to get to the point (if i do indeed have one) is that the legion helped Brainy with a big part of his self worth. HOWEVER when he is removed form that environment and support network what is he left with

‘I failed them’

‘I did this, without talking to any of them (other then Imra) but she gets to go home.’

‘I have sacrificed my people (AI’s) for the safety of my friends does that make me like the other brianiac’s’

Brainy even says himself in s4 to Nia

“i have had to give up my entire existence, and have i mentioned everyone of my family is evil, and mon el was always a bit dismissive...”

(i know people like to dunk on Mon el here but really look at it)

now look at the lead on here, like i said the legion basically made him a new independent person way from the brainaic’s but still knew everything about him.

so what he is basically saying is.

‘I have lost what i have made of myself because i don’t known who i am with out the legion because who i was before them was a nightmare, and by the way my family history say this is because i am basically built to be a horrible person, and even the people who helped be be better don’t know about all my inner term old about this, and i am panicking that i may turn into everything i hated about my family’ 

but i do think the hate for himself was buried deep inside for a long time. Things like 

‘I was broken and my father had to fix me’ (inhibitors)

and i dare say his father never saw him the same way after all of that, so there was that idea of

‘I am “fixed” now but my father still thinks I am broken, have i always been broken? so I must always be broken, right?’

and other people fear brainiac’s so he might have thought he ‘proved them all right’

so in summary the answer is basically (to me anyway)

I don’t think it is hate that drives his self doubt and loathing but rather fear.

fear of becoming like them

fear of going back to who he was

fear that very thing he has ever done to better himself has been in vain

fear that when be does make mistakes (in the 21st centenary, i.e working with lex) he is not going to be forgiven or team will think his is like the rest of his family.

but i do think that fear has some bite to it, and he must get angry at the fact he feels this way, and that he can’t deal with it in a productive way. 

so i think Hating parts himself has only ever been a side effect of his real issues of the fear and loneliness he has, because of his family and his life choices have given him.  

[princess--catherine]

Maybe y’all will hate me for this, I’m all for women’s rights and the Me Too movement but has it maybe taken a turn it shouldn’t have? I can already feel the hatred

Just in the past couple weeks I’ve seen at least 3 “predators/rapists exposed”, and after looking into it I saw no predatory behavior to expose that was given. And people are losing their shit over this “cancelation?” The evidence for this one? “Had a minor backstage”...you think that didn’t and doesn’t currently happen with idk, every Disney star EVER and boy band on the radio? I’m sure a portion of Billie Eilish fans who’s parents buy backstage passes are REAL young, is she cancelled too? Since when does having a minor in your presence = any type of sexual behavior? This allegation causally mentions “backstage minor” and quickly moves to “predator” with no cohesion there. Since when does an adult simply being around a minor automatically make you guilty of doing sick shit? The “evidence” shown was pretty pathetic: cropped and blocked out texts with no name as to who it’s from, no name but said star predator, no time stamp or date, no pics, no voice memos, no emails, no proof of any kind that there was any truth to the claims, no detail, no real allegation actually even made from what I saw. Unless the “so and so did this” part was in invisible ink. I could literally google the date of a ‘insert famous person here’ concert or general tour dates, and do the same with a texting app or with someone else’s phone. This is an Accusation on someone of a serious sex crime on the sole basis maybe 5 texts, some of which are hidden, and ALL of which are anonymous, detail no criminal activity, are never worth ending or attempting to make sure someone’s career over.

Another one I saw was an explanation that another social media person made a somewhat crude comment/gusture towards a woman he knew but wasn’t super familiar with. One time, no actual touching. He was later told by a friend “not cool, other lady friend did not like”, he did as he should have and apologized, and it didn’t happen again- admittedly on both sides. The two girls told him everything was cool and okay, no harm no foul, don’t worry about it. It didn’t happen again and the friendship continued. Days later, “evidence” comes out from one of them citing him as a sexual predator for this situation. This incident. Yeah, it’s not cool to get in peoples space or compliment them in certain ways if your friendship is not on that level and it hasn’t been established. That I agree with, that it simply wasn’t very polite, but a) no one was actually touched physically in anyway and b) the “crude” comment from my understanding was about an outfit fitting her well or being firm fitting. Yeah, that might make ya feel a lil icky, but there was no sexual suggestion or threat. There’s a huge difference between unwanted attention and sexual harassment. Someone else later gets involved but says she’s “not comfortable/willing to discuss” but still insists he’s a predator but doesn’t show a single shred of any involvement or information. If I was these people being falsely accused, getting death treats and doxxed, and ultimately, “cancelled”/therefore loss of income possibly long term , with basically no evidence or someone saying shit like “yes, that’s a predator. Nobody gets to know why I’m saying that though. I don’t want to relive it, my bad. You horrible people need to stop supporting this sex offender!” I’d be sueing the shit out of someone and everyone for slander. Like this is unreal to me. It really blows my mind.

Before you message me hateful shit, hear me out. I’m not saying these guys are stand up, amazing, perfectly well behaved dudes. I’m not saying they’ve never done anything predatory or wrong before in their lives or careers. Lord knows narcissistic and higher than thou types run entertainment. I’m sure they all got their attitude and behavioral problems. I’m just saying the info I just read and described is almost nothing being real generous, no rational person sees that and labels someone a sex offender. You’re accusing someone of a very serious crime, in a lot of cases a fat ole felony, being a RSO list sometimes for a lifetime. Bill Cosby? Deserve it. Weinstien? Deserve it. Epstein? Deserved to be under the jail. I understand there’s not always physical evidence, or maybe there’s not enough to build a case/a case is unwanted by victim. Some say they want people to know and be warned. If that’s what you truly want, you truly truly are trying to protect others, go in 150%. Everything you got. But when this person publicly and openly calling someone out by name for being a “rapist/sexual predator”, absolutely dragging them thru the mud, and the reasoning, the justification for this is that he was dating other women? nah sis. That’s not how this works, getting played, while scummy, is NOT RAPE/SEXUAL ASSAULT/etc. (*this is excluding things that don’t apply to this particular story like recanting consent or knowingly passing on an STI) So sure, he’s a probably a POS, clearly unloyal, he’s maybe learned the art of sweet talkin his way into this one way monogamous relationship, and I frankly wouldnt feel bad if one of those girls who got played popped 3 of his tires, bought a fuck ton of spiders and sneak them into his bedroom or something. But not jail or prison. What he did (unless other info comes out) isn’t something to be uplifted or encouraged, it’s poor, unfair behavior. But what he did is not CRIMINAL. It’s just shitty and inconsiderate. And I know y’all are reading this thinkin “fuck this bitch”, making assumptions before you read a fraction of what I’m saying.

So let me explain a situation I was accidentally involved in a few years ago with someone who was “famous” around those parts and had lots of fans and groupies. Let’s call him “Lee”. Long story short, a friend and I were with him and different other people basically from like 8-9 pm to around 4 am. He was alone (out of my sight) only 3 times: once to use the bathroom at my friends before leaving, once in the men’s bathroom at a club, and for maybe 5 minutes when I had to change at my friends place before going back over. They lived in the same complex and stuff so it was basically throwing on some sweats and taking an elevator down. We hangout, drink, smoke, talk. Lowkey, chill.

I wake up the next day, someone texted me this link about “Lee” raping a girl. I’m thinking “holy shit, that’s scary and insane, we were just with him last night drinking and shit.” Keep reading...it says it was the night before. Same date we were with him. And the time the assault supposedly took place was when we had come back to his place, where other people were already there, we were sitting there forever talking/whatever, this girl who pointed the finger was not even in the room and left before we did. She poked her head in once and asked where Lee’s roommate was. He told her cookout, it’s late so it’ll be a minute. Asked her if she wanted to hang out with us. She declined. So I figured maybe this info was wrong somehow and at the time I wasn’t making the connection between that girl and this story. I was like, no way a girl would lie about that of all things and especially knowing it’d likely get picked up by the local media, or at least local gossip. Her life here would be over. My friend and I decided to go talk to the police even though I avoid the damn police at all costs. The first thing I asked this officer was: “are you POSITIVE this is the date, place, and time, and are you POSITIVE “Lee” is who she is accusing?” And I asked that mostly because I was not about to defend or vouch for someone about a situation I wasn’t present for. Also, I wasn’t the biggest fan of “Lee”, so I sure as shit I wasn’t getting myself involved and going to bat for him without knowing it’s right. The Officer was very adamant that all that info was correct, victim was very sure. I explained to him everything I explained above, but I’m sure in better detail and included texts, pics, videos all with times, plus receipts showing how this isn’t adding up. He wasn’t alone the entire night and early morning. Officer ask me if she (the victim) was visiting a roommate of Lee’s, if they were sleeping together during her visit, I told him the truth which was that I didn’t really know for sure but it was a possibility. He told me somebody else had claimed she was no longer welcome for unknown reasons and believed this to be be related. I explain to the officer that I won’t speak on her time with the roommate because I saw her only long enough for her to ask a question and respond to another. Before she peeped out the door, I had no clue anyone was in there. I said I think she told me her name but I’m awful with names even sober so. He started getting kinda hostile and cutting me short. I repeated exactly what I told him the first time: I’m only speaking on what I witnessed and what I know to be true. So, if you and she are correctly reciting the time, place, person being accused, this accusation is untrue. He first makes a bitchy threat like “you know these girls who lie for these athlete boys can really get in trouble? They all end up broke after the NFL anyway if they even make it. Lying for a friend is illegal, that’s breaking the law and will get YOU in jail.” I lost all my fear of speaking to a police officer at this point because they KNOW this man did not just call me a liar to my face despite my 1:2 of the evidence already fucking up this accusation. I told him that I honestly wasn’t a fan either professionally or personally of “Lee” and I would lie for no one regardless of friendship or status about this, I’d turn in my own flesh and bloood brother and sing like a bird if I caught him doing any sex offender shit. So again, I told this slow man with 2 braincelle this was the reason I asked about how sure he was and he believed the victim was, on the time, place, person, etc. Officer says something along the lines of “well, something happened to this girl and this boy’s gonna be hurtin for it. Someone’s getting charged here.” Which I dunno bout y’all, maybe I’m reading it wrong. But What I gathered from that is: “I’ve decided to be judge and jury in this situation and moreorless declare this young man guilty despite evidence in front of my own eyeballs that shows that there is a good chance the accused is innocent.

I have no idea why this happened. But after we spoke to that dickhead cop it was dropped relatively quickly. I don’t remember now if she pulled the charges herself or the state denied to prosecute. And even still, this followed him. The internet is forever. When his great grandkids google his college career, that will show up. Please keep in mind this was a black athlete, playing ball for a big college in the south, with a white girl accuser, all the cops I saw at that station were white in the short time I was there and at least the one I spoke to had his mind made up. He was loud and clear about that. He said basically the same to my friend who was interviewed separately, that he was determined to convict him, he was “the one”. This city I’m speaking of has been sued for police brutality against BPOC and I’ve heard my friends/classmates getting called the N word (hard ER) in the broad, open day light. So yeah add that info in with the rest and come to your own conclusion.

Before anyone comes for my throat again: idk exactly what DID happen but I know what DID NOT. Which to be clear, is pretty specifically: this rape with this person, did not happen here and at this time. So I’m not saying something didn’t happen but under different circumstances. I know trauma can mess with memories and if something did happen under different circumstances, I am so sorry that happened to her, I wouldn’t wish sexual assault on my worst enemy. I’m also not saying she necessarily had ill intentions or knew it would proceed and go viral as it did. The point is I just don’t know, no clue. Not throwing any blame or shade her way, all blame and shade on that cop though. ACABs, no excuse for his ass.

Anyway, y’all don’t gotta believe this since it’s been a few years and I highly doubt that stuff is anywhere in my phone like 4 iPhones and two laptops later. No reason to front, I don’t gain anything by lying but a guilty conscience. But this scenario that I btw, very much did not wish to be a part of, showed me another side of things. Can we agree to yes of course, trust and support women but also trust evidence and testimony? While, yes, stats show few women lie about this, can we at the same time understand questioning and thoroughly investigating such a heinous crime? Can we also recognize the system is literally built to “serve & protect” some by severely and systematically oppressing others? There are people, too many damn people, who have lost absolutely everything, served major time in big boy maximum security 23-1s, and have been put to death, based on biases and little to no evidence.

Next time you see an accusation, regardless of what it is, please do a little research. Make your own conclusion. Put yourself in their shoes, would you want to be “convicted” (either legally or through SM bullshit) on a snip it of convo with almost no information/context? Called a rapist cause you led someone on? No. You wouldn’t. Actually for any crime for that matter. You would reasonably ask and expect for it to be fair, two sided, and with as much evidence or info as possible. So let’s treat musicians, athletes, influencers, celebs the same way. Let’s not condemn before gathering as much information as possible. If not, I am so afraid we will drive an innocent person to suicide. We would all feel so guilty if someone was driven to suicide over false or misleading statements. Let’s avoid this, please.