#I am not thriving

[battledroidwrites]

live reaction to acolyte ep5 (yord’s death) 😀✌️

oh god i feel sick what was that

[clonerightsagenda]

Forgot that since it's August we have officially entered Halloween pregaming season until I stepped into Party City to buy some stuff for a work thing and was confronted by an army of skeletons

[esperantoauthor]

My mental health is hanging by a thread and that thread is episodes of Taskmaster.

[julesnichols]

Other Snowpiercer highlights include Wilford claiming that the arm freezing death ports were meant as an idle threat and being like What The Actual Fuck about Melanie using them as the rulebook said to. This is why allistics need to be more clear when they write shit like that to tell their autistic second in commands that it is Not meant literally

[placeinthemiddleofnowhere]

Guess who was informed literally right now that they have a job interview (with a task to complete) tomorrow 🙃 recruiters are insane

[thecrackedamethyst]

Have you guys heard of pathological demand avoidance (PDA)? I have. Now.

It’s a “profile of autism” (I don’t know what that means) where any kind of “demand” that’s placed on you--from other people, your environment, society, your own god damn body--causes you anxiety and you enter fight/flight mode. Like for everything. So you avoid everything demanded of you so you don’t feel constantly anxious.

and OH MY GOD Let me tell you when I say that this diagnosis (?) fits me like a glove? Like, to a T??? Like. *screams*. I check all the boxes. 

It explains everything in my entire life. Why I can’t open my mail. Why I just let veggies rot in my fridge. Why I can’ draw my cards. Why every time I decide on a Project I can’t work on it. Why I can’t answer emails. Why I get uncontrollably pissed when someone tells me “you need to do this right now”. Why I can’t get out of bed in the morning. Why I can’t go to bed at night. Why I hate baking! Why my house is falling apart around me and I am doing absolutely nothing to fix it. Why I just won’t go to the bathroom even though I need to.

Like ADHD wasn’t quite right, and classic autism wasn’t quite right, and nothing was quite right...and this easily removes like, I dunno, 4 other things I’ve diagnosed myself with???

Anyways. It’s super interesting to examine and it’s fascinating to look back at my life and suddenly understand why I struggle with what I do, and what actually is a struggle not just me being...lazy and stubborn, I guess? I now feel both exalted and filled with despair. 

[i-want-to-be-spaghettified]

i have officially hit a new low

(crying into a bowl of flavourless instant noodles while watching math videos that still don’t make sense the night before my exam)

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

I’m doing so bad today

[apeirotilio]

Tempted to revisit the translated Chrestomanci books just to feel something

[virtue-and-beneviolence]

Hi

[styrofauxm]

Gets an ipad to take notes and do homework digitally so that I never lose anything

Realize 2.5 years later that yes I don't lose important things anymore but fucking hell I use electronics too much

To do my homework I need to look at screens more so I avoid my homework. By looking at the smaller, handheld screen instead

[bunches-of-lilacs]

thriving haha

[pokimoko]

I can't keep being fundamentally changed as a person by animated movies, it's just not sustainable.

[funeral-pyree]

only good part of having crippling chronic pain on the daily is it gives me an alarming amount of time to play my silly little video games and listen to music

[responsiblelemon]

Today is day 5 of wisdom teeth extraction recovery and I went in to have my dry socket filled with medicated gauze. I think it's the most painful thing I've ever been through. Worse than getting my IUD. Also I got my period today. Anyway I'll be lying in bed watching Doctor Who for the rest of the day hiding from everything 😭

[shushmal]

okay but a like post-series fic i want that's like: steve harrington being the only man left in hawkins fighting monsters

and not like a 'everyone died, last man standing' way but just. they beat it back, the story ends, nice little tie-up and neatly concluded, eleven loses her powers because their world is completely cut from the other. and life goes on. eddie (yes, eddie lives au don't fight me) goes off with his band, robin-nancy-jargyle off to separate cities for college. the kids go to high school, graduate high school, and scatter across the country. joyce and hop buy a beach house far-far-far away from goddamn hawkins indiana.

steve though. steve stays. he does it too without comment, takes all their calls telling him all these amazing things. the years pass. the calls are fewer and far between. he's mostly in contact with only dustin and robin. except robin's out of country doing some crazy temp job in some remote country, she never catches him at home right now so just leaves him messages. and it takes a couple of weeks for dustin to realize he hasn't gotten steve on the phone.

frantically he calls around "have you heard from steve???" except the most people talk to steve anymore is like phone calls during holidays and holy shit what could have happened??

and what if it's back?

cue everyone who can in that moment, rushing back. eddie hopping on a flight from fucking london direct to indianapolis somehow, heart in his throat. he manages to meet hopper in the airport and they pick up max and dustin at the bus station.

they get to hawkins that is even more different that what they left. a smaller town, a town that shuts down completely when the sun sets. it's creepy and deserted.

except for the fucking upside down monsters of course.

and they're in their stupid little rental in front of this demogorgon and they're screaming but then the thing just goes splat on the concrete and steve fucking harrington is blinking owlishly at them.

"Oh, hey guys!" he calls jogging up to the driver's side window. "Wow, what brought you back down this way? You should have told me, I would have told you about the curfew!"

turns out steve just forgot to pay his phone bill that month, didn't even realize he was missing calls and he's been fighting monsters the entire time because actually they WEREN'T cut off from the upside down at all and he's just been casually fighting monsters for the remaining hawkins residence—the whole town knows now and steve's the guy you call when you have a monster problem

sidebar: WAYNE still lives in hawkins, and he and steve are best friends, eddie munson you are gonna LOSE YOUR MIND